[ID: A black and white comic, each page has a title and three panels. 1. "I'm glad I exist", showing a person crying holding an umbrella, a simplified crowd of people, and a neighborhood street corner close up on the street sign that says "ladybug".
2. "Wonders", A closeup of a persons hands, fidgeting. Then the person from a sideview, saying something but their speech bubble is a thought bubble. Then the persons hands again, holding their wrists out. There's cuts down them where black drips out and falls through their fingers.
3. "Curiosity", A notebook page labeled "Suicide note - draft #???", someone's feet as they're standing on their toes, they're wearing hospital socks with grips on the bottom and a band aid on their leg. The last is the person looking in a mirror, laying a dress over themself in comparison. The reflection shows the shape of them in a scribble.
4. "Cold", the person on the other side of a wire fence, reaching up to grab it, but their hand clips through. Then a shot of their hand outside in the snow, holding a lollipop like a cigarette. Then of the persons feet on the other side of the panel, they have scratches low on their heels and a band aid over one, they're standing barefoot in the snow.
5. Where the title usually is, there's a drawing of a small tomato plant. In the panels it says; "What - was i - supposed-"
6. "-to do?". They're shown drawn very small in the corner, looking dejected. The very last panel shows them face down in a cereal bowl on a table. There's nothing in the title space. end ID]
And in my mind, there is a brief image of blunt fingers pressing into sweat slicked skin, of lips swallowing breaths before they hit the ceiling. Images of limbs tangled in sweet languid ropes and necks bent skyward in surrender.