This is me trying is for the girls with middle child syndrome, the one who always got misunderstood, the blacksheep of the family, the one who act a lot mature than their age, the one with family issues, the one who cannot breathe without escaping through poetry, books, songs and movies, the dead poets society lovers, who wants to achieve a lot things but don't know how, who act cold, distant and always walk around with 'Idgaf' attitude because they think that if people knew that their action and words are affecting them so badly they would lose some kind of inner war, the found family lovers. For the girls who find peace in solitude, who still have an active account on tumblr or any fanpage which isn't doing great but where they can be themselves or post anything, who believes that being understood is a privilege they never had, the one who always assume the worst in every situation.
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i feel like no one talks about how harmful being forced to abuse or traumatize someone is.
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I don't think I'll ever again be as poetic as when I wrote this on the back of picture of myself when I was a kid.
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ugh when you grow up you realize all the messed up shit that happened to you as a kid
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i miss you in weird way. the things we talked about at 12pm. our sleepovers. your dog, and constant conversations about cute boys.
hopefully you realize what you did broke me. i haven't even told my new therapist about you, i'm so embarrassed about what i let happen to me. they were so many signs i thought were weird but i chose to ignore cause you were my only friend at the time.
i cant talk to my family or friends about what happened, they wouldn't fully understand. they don't know the full story. at this point, i don't know the full story.
i've wiped the memory from my mind so much, all i remember was dissociating so i wouldnt truly feel what was happening to me.
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That awkward moment when you’re like “ahhh that was grooming” ????
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sometimes i don’t understand im traumatized. this is how it’s always been, this is normal.
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