#FUCKING HEARTBROKEN

[dysnomic-absolution]

i’m years i’m hours i’m minutes away from now. i don’t remember yesterday but i do remember the sand under my feet. that grainy landscape, wet from the tide pulling its lips back to reveal those sodden gums. i remember jellyfish washed ashore—just a couple, these bright, dead wonders. i remember driftwood, and seaweed that’s sharp to the touch. i remember a roiling sea of emotions in my head, trying desperately to interpret my mother’s silent rage. my father’s explosiveness. i remember cursing at him for the first time. that anger, bigger than a child of twelve. bigger than the sadness. so unfathomable, burning me away. i remember little cones and turrets and the blunt, scalloped edges of a shell the exact shade of aged bone. i remember the ocean, that salt burning in my nose and my mouth and the water in my lungs, little body so sure. certain. i think i lost her there, in the waves. i think the current kept her, because she isn’t here anymore. i remember unconscious joy, singleminded determination to go further out. always further. i remember that golden gleam as i dove for that ring. thinking i had found a spark in that well-traveled reef. coming up into open air to shout, “I FOUND SOMETHING! DAD!”

what are the odds that your father loses his wedding ring in the open ocean, and you find it again?

i remember the opulence of a strawberry smoothie, more than once. caked in mud, and buried in the sand by my uncle. then running, all of us, into the waves. i remember holding his hand, and almost being ripped away by the strength of the water. delighting in it. reveling in my own fear.

i remember being cocooned in a wave, and taking a breath. i remember an impossibility. oxygen entering, wreathed in salt water, where there is no air for my human lungs.

god do i remember the sea. i remember the ocean. years away, countries away. i remember the small island where i bought a book i thought i would never see again. i remember everything except the house where we stayed. i remember the cats, the wind, the car as if i were driving it myself.

always years, hours, minutes away.

never here.

always there.

somewhere else.

#did #grief #vent poem #writeblr #actually did #grief poetry #personal vent #txt.🦷 #oceancore #oceanposting #i miss the sea #i need to be in water #fucking heartbroken #let me back there #the water

[qangelbluebird]

…it was my birthday today

#I’m fucking DEVASTATED #LIKE ACTUALLY. REALLY. #FUCKING HEARTBROKEN #HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME FUCKING THANK YOU UNIVERSE I GUESS. #IM SHAKING. MY PARTNER DREW ME A PICTURE OF HER FOR MY BIRTHDAY AND THE THIS HAPPENED??? #absolutely no hate to Jaiden I hope she’s living her best life but JESUS CHRIST #Begging the universe to make her decide to come back later. girlie please. GIRLIE PLEASE #I’m devastated.

[sacred-sacrilege]

I’m making this post because I sincerely feel like it’s my duty to protect this community, so I need to warn you all about the content creator @specialgrades.

He is a male writer blog in the community, and as much as it breaks my heart to say this:

He uses discord light mode.

Please stay safe when interacting with him and his blog.

#fucking heartbroken #felixposting

[arr-jim-lad]

not me buying my absolute dream pants, the coolest pants i've ever seen, only to realize the seller listed the size in US type when it was actually in EU, thus making the pants 10 sizes too small for me :')

#fucking heartbroken #disappointment is the no.1 worst feeling #i was looking forward to these pants all week #jamble ramble

[redvelvetpdf]

Soo... that episode huh

...right. yeah that episode so true

#nyx answers🌒 #FUCKING HEARTBROKEN #ajax <33

[tellherium]

I might have lost you, but you’re worse off for losing me. I lost someone who gave me nothing but pain. You lost someone who gave you everything they had. You’d still swipe on my profile, I’m still your type. But I’d skip right past you, every single time.

#j break #fucking heartbroken #draft

[lovexfroggie]

I don't know where else to talk about this, so I'll put this here. My grandparents mobile home has been put up for sale by the newest owners. Both my grandparents have been dead for over ten years, so knowing their old home is for sale is...heartbreaking. So I looked at the listing, and seeing the state their house is in? I'm sick to my stomach and I can't stop crying. Floors are ripped up, there's black mold on the walls, there's ceilings missing with mold on it. There's even a ceiling fan with the blades bending down. How the fuck? I practically grew up in that house since I was literally ALWAYS over there.

Only three rooms weren't in this condition. The living room, master bedroom, and the master bathroom.

I've gone as far as to set up a tour with the real estate agent to look tomorrow, but I doubt I'll get that tour. I really hope I do, because I just...This isn't ok. This isn't...it's not ok. If I could buy the house back and fix it up, I would. I feel like a horrible grandchild right now. I feel like I let my grandparents down.

#I feel so fucking helpless right now #fucking heartbroken

[roastedinmarch]

cannot Believe i missed a kevin stream

#fucking heartbroken #i hate timezones #cmk

[aquariusdeanw]

If jujutsu kaisen was a 2000s anime we would have had 35+ episodes of filler during the hidden inventory arc of just shoko, gojo, geto, nanami and haibara doing random missions and ngl I kinda feel robbed

#LIKE JUST RANDOM MISSIONS AND THEM FUCKING AROUND #we could’ve got so much content of the 2006 class im heartbroken #not to exclude utahime but I think she was in kyoto even then no? #she can stay in the fillers tho unlike mei mei she’s not welcome #nanami kento #stsg #suguru geto #gojo satoru #jjk #shoko ieiri #yu haibara #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu haibara #hidden inventory arc #jjk season 2 #jujutsu kaisen utahime

[myoonmii]

Someone on twt said you can see how red Merlin’s eyes are and that he’s probably been crying all night.

And I’m thinking how he obviously never left Arthur’s side after the magic reveal, so he probably would’ve been a few feet away and Arthur definitely would’ve heard him sobbing quietly through the night but he felt too betrayed to even look at him, let alone comfort him.

#devastating piece of information I didn’t need today #fell to my actual knees in the kitchen floor at these stills #merlin #merthur #bbc merlin #he looks so heartbroken #they both do #this is just such a fucked up situation at this point #Im holding onto dear sanity at the sight of them #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon

[hyper-fixated-princess]

I can’t stop crying. Not just cause I’m sad, but because I’m also FUCKING. PISSED.

Netflix can’t keep doing shit like this. Playing with fans like that, giving them a show to love and support and then snatch it away like it’s no more than a number on the sales chart of the year.

They shouldn’t even be allowed to start filming book adaptations of this magnitude without some sort of certainty for the fans. Without an actual plan to bring ALL the books to life. They pretend like they care about their audience with this 'Geeked Week' and 'TUDUM' bullshit and then they will go and cancel a bunch of shows like it’s nothing. Without explanation and with zero care for the millions of fans who will be emotionally affected by this.

And I’m sorry, but what the fuck are the other 4 shows that got cancelled with SaB???!?!! I had NEVER heard of them, EVER. One of them is an animated show that has Elvis Preasley as a secret agent, like, GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK. It is truly insulting that they even put SaB and the SoC spinoff in that same category. It feels like they’re laughing to our faces.

And to make it even worse, they give shows like 'Elite' SEVEN FUCKING SEASONS!! SEVEN!!!! A series about teenagers that just fuck each other and that everyone thinks it’s SHIT. And they also make movies like 'The Archies', a 'Riverdale' spin-off (aka the show EVERYONE was glad it finally ended).

But “oh no! God forbid we renew shows that have relatable, lovable characters, loyal fanbases and good storytelling. Now that would be awful.” So they go off and cancel 'Shadow and Bone', and the 'Six of Crows' spinoff, and 'Anne With an E', '1899', 'I Am Not Okay With This', 'Sense8', 'Glow', 'Julie and the Phantoms', 'Daredevil' and the list goes ON AND ON.

Fuck you Netflix. FUCK. YOU.

#im heartbroken #fuck you netflix #shadow and bone #six of crows #shadow and bone netflix #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #netflix shadow and bone #netflix #six of crows spin off #six of crows spoilers #shadow and bone spoilers #leigh bardugo #grishaverse #darkling #alina starkov #kaz x inej #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #matthias helvar #nina zenik

[missycolorful]

I hope quackity knows that there are MANY ways that he and in turn the admins can receive income for this server. More merch, patreon, so many options are available. Fans would gladly help support qsmp by any means. They just need to use these options that are readily available to them, and I urge him and the admins to do so.

#qsmp #i didn't mean to stay up this late but i saw the notice and basically woke the fuck up #man he sounded heartbroken #i know quackity will never be on tumblr but if any admins somehow see this (bangs pots & pans) SET UP A PATREON YOU'LL MAKE SO MUCH BANK!!!

[sadgrillsonly]

In an alternate universe I hope I am loved.

unconditionally,

irrevocably,

eternally,

and endlessly.

#heartbrokcnn #heartbroken #i hate you #heartbeat #hurtful #i love you #love me #i hate it so much #someone you loved #you broke my fucking heart #i miss you #comeback #sad poetry #sad quotes #sad aesthetic #sad thoughts

[paranoidgemsbok]

The wildlife rehab center that fundamentally changed my life, where I volunteered for years and years, whose resident animals helped me become who I am, caught fire at 8 AM today, December 5th.  Every rehabilitation animal in the facility was lost, as well as the educational animals I knew for years and worked hands-on with.  This is devastating in ways I can’t even articulate, and I cannot imagine the pain the current volunteers and directors are going through.  

I just wanted to ask yall to reblog this to spread the donation link around so they can rebuild, because it’s not like a need for this work is gonna go away. 

https://redcreekwildlifecenter.com/

https://www.facebook.com/redcreekwildlife/

https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/1485885

Thank you

#this is fucking gutting. i cant even write down how raw and heartbroken i am about this

[endorph1n]

If I were important to you, you would have looked for solutions and not a way out.

#heartbreak #heartbroken #borderline things #dead inside #bpd problems #love poem #sad poem #sadgirl #love quotes #quotes #english #love #you broke my fucking heart #sad thoughts #depressing shit #borderline personality disorder #you broke my heart #bpd #blog post #new post #artists on tumblr #actually bpd #actually borderline #anixiety #sad boy #feelings #heartstopper #endorphins #lonelly

[ivypond11]

it's been a week and i still haven't recovered </3 so i did a little sketch with this scene between normal and scary because it fucked me up and i need more moments of them comforting and caring for each other

#dndads #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies season 2 #dndads s2 spoilers #dndads spoilers #scary marlowe #normal oak swallows garcia #these two make me so fucking ill #i love their relationship and i missed them having moments so much and i was so heartbroken when normal comforted scary about terry jr #it sucks! when your best friend looses her dad and she has to face all this feelings she was trying to protect herself from #and you can't do anything to help hee besides being there and hugging her #if normal could he would take her pain away in a heartbeat #which is an idea i am thinking. about normal messing with the modify memory spell to protect scary from being sad #anyways they are my babies and i love them so much and they are the siblings ever <3