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ramonag-if · 1 year

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Hey there! Loved the new chapter(as usual) - got me feeling all kinds of emotions that I will not be recovering from anytime soon. 😭 I just wanted to write something cause I really love your writing and story and I’ve been following this WIP since it was posted(sorry if it’s long, I just really love these kinds of things).

While I’m not really angry with our mom, I don’t think my MC is gonna want to have anything to do with her cause seriously??? You leave your child with their emotionally closed off father who never expected to care for a child and was a part of a group that killed many of your people simply for their heritage? I understand you were trying to escape and now you’re a super important person leading a rebellion but you couldn’t even check in to see if your ex and child were still alive by like sending a spy disguised as a merchant or something? Having to be asked about Ahlf by her was painful(in like the best ways but I was also kind of offended for him). It doesn’t help that my MC has also been feeling like she won’t be accepted by the Ishari people because she wasn’t raised there and whatnot so seeing that her mom just had a whole other family with a daughter who *is* Ishari. Part of me wasn’t surprised we had a half-sibling but that didn’t stop the disappointment, feeling of betrayal and even some resentment - like wow you are a fantastic writer, thank you so much for blessing us with your art. 🥰

I have to ask though, what would our dad think about Salyra having this whole other family after everything that’s happened? While I’m not entirely sure how the two feel about each other, I can imagine he’d be upset for the MC. Like how they were just left to be taken care by him when he couldn’t be that parent they needed and how her absence and unknown status clearly affected them - not to mention the fact that Salyra thought they’d be safer in a small village of a country that was rather open about their problems with Ishari. She’s right that we don’t know what happened and how it went down but I mean did she ever really expect to see us again? Was she trying or did she just decide that there was no point?(spoilers most likely so ignore that I’m just really invested). I can’t help but wonder what our recently discovered family would think? I felt my MC’s fear when hearing about our half sibling that they would honesty prefer Rana to MC because now they would have a ‘real’ Ishari daughter of Salyra to bond with. Also, my first thought to Rana maybe developing a little crush on Irus was, “Nah, you already took my mom, you ain’t taking my Prince.” I know she’s like 10, and my MC is planning on being a good older sister but we gotta draw the line at Irus. He’s my MC’s emotional support Prince. 😅

Regardless, it isn’t looking all that great for Salyra and my MC will be keeping her at arms length unless she needs to gain favor in order to get the alliance or more help in some way(Literally would do anything for Irus, completely in love with him). I am so looking for to the drama though, you write it so well. 👀

Thank you so much for playing and I'm so happy you enjoyed the update 💖😊 And thank you so much for your continued support, it really means so much to me!

It is really a complicated thing with Salyra and you are more than free to feel upset/betrayed/hurt by the way she's gone about protecting the MC. I do enjoy complicated family dynamics, it's something that I've always tended to write about in my stories since I feel like it's not always showcased as much as romantic angst. Thank you for enjoying the angst, I do have a blast writing it 😆

You will get a chance to learn about Ahlf's feelings about Salyra - there's a lot that happened that the MC was unaware about between their parents and you'll also get to see the Vinian family react to Salyra in Part 3 😬😅

Don't worry, the Vinian family already love the MC and will accept the NC regardless of their heritage. Zikar's mother is from Vinia, so they're already quite open to other cultures.

Irus is never going to abandon the MC 😆 So rest assured, Rana's childhood crush will eventually fade away.

Salyra will help the MC regardless of their relationship because she sees it as her way if trying to make up for her absence, so feel free to be as upset and rude as you want 😋

#crown of exile #answered asks #chapter 5 spoilers #salyra #princeirus #rana

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chidoroki · 9 months

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182 Days of TPN - Day 123

Chapter 123: "An Important Choice"

Yesterday I mentioned that if I was reading the manga around the time the previous ch was released that I would be so eager for Ray's answer, but I would've never imagined him to be so blunt and admitting his uncertainty like this. It's hilarious to me now of course but I wonder if I would've been let down initially if I had patiently waited a whole week just to hear him be like "eh, I dunno."

I'm always so harsh on Norman's plan and how it'll result it wiping out all the demons when I forget that the promise Emma has in mind will essentially have the same effect.. oops. With all the children raised in farms crossing over to the human world with no more traveling between worlds, the demons would've just degenerated on their own. Although, would that really knock them out? Surely they can eat other things aside from humans to stay alive right? They would just revert back to a more wild state of mind. I dunno. No need to wonder about it too hard with evil blood ex machina.

Ray throws me through a total loop with his honesty, like yeah he's typically the one who has no issue telling the truth to others, but it's done in such comedic and unexpected ways during this chapter that I can't help but love him more because of it.

Thank you anime for being faithful with the above mentioned panels.

Poor Emma is completely caught off guard by his answers too. She was expecting Ray to give her some clarity as usual and yet he's giving us a whole lot of nothing. In his defense though, it is quite the troublesome problem to find a reasonable solution to that would please Emma's standards. Both sub & dub are fun in this little bit too, especially with Ray's "nopes." (I'm adding the scene here again, for funsies.)

To this day I still believe Emma listened to his advice a bit too well here and that's how she was able to keep her emotions and the consequences of the reward so well hidden whenever it was brought up after the new promise was made and when it was time to cross over to the human world.

I'm fairy certain I brought this up last chapter (I dunno, it's been a long day when I'm actually writing this out and I'm lazy to check myself), but I still love the dark shadows that Ray has during half of this conversation. It's kinda ironic because it's not like he's trying to lead Emma to make some grave mistake or persuade her into choosing something she's not 100% okay with; he's genuinely trying to help her make the right choice, so despite shadows typically being used to show ill intent, evil or make us suspicious about something or someone, it couldn't be farther from the truth here and I kinda like it.

Naturally I love that he even admits to knowing her so well, and yet despite Emma's no-violence-please-only-happiness wish requiring more brain power to figure out they could even accomplish both sides coexisting, he still wants to help find a solution for her to ease the burden in her heart and mind. And I love that about him. I love many things about Ray. Is it obvious yet?

His has own opinion but respects hers so much more and that fills me with many soft feelings. Also, YES! The head pat! Still kinda sad the anime left it out but I still love their version of this scene very much.

Bro the fire and determination came back into her eyes instantly.

At this point of the anime train-wreck, I'll take any moment that resembles the manga, even with simple actions like this.

Anime missed this small, surprised Emma though and that's a bummer for me personally. She's cute.

I know Emma's ideals and doubts made her hesitate in voicing her refusal of Norman's plan the day before, but I also wanna believe another part of it wasn't because it was concerning Norman, but because her entire family was in the room at the time and they all seemed to be thrilled with the idea, so she opted to stay quiet to not ruin the mood. And I gotta say, I prefer that second panel of Ray in manga as well. He just looks real good there.

Anime gets a win for the way Ray looks at her here though. I have a love-dislike relationship with the adaption if you couldn't already tell. It's amusing to witness.

Ray's had one too many parents lie to him, so thankfully the demon parents are spared from being added to that list.

Oh honey, do I have some great news for you!

The way Emma gets so excited over him considering her plan is so precious! And Ray better play the lotto when he gets to the human world because that one in a billion chance eventually becomes a reality.

And yet regardless of the incredibly low chances and all the dangers that may come along with going against the annihilation, he still chooses to put his trust into Emma for her and their demon parents. He's amazing. He deserves many head pats.

With all the RE focus during this chapter, I often forget these three show up towards the very end. My bad.

Such a proper introduction. What lovely adult raised them so wonderfully, hm? And yes I appreciate that the anime remembered to include Barbara's little slip up and Vincent correcting her as well.

Let the interrogation begin! Ray has already resigned to his fate. Another detail I tend to forget is Cislo's piercings. I wonder why that's so uncommon with the kids. Probably because they've been living att the farms for the majority of their lives, but I definitely feel like a handful of them would at least enjoy having earrings now that their sorta kinda free. (I fully support the idea of the fullscore trio getting a matching set.)

Favorite panel/moment:

With how much I rambled on, you can imagine just how much I enjoy this entire chapter. I could literally pick out almost any panel and declare it my favorite, but OF COURSE these lines of Ray's live rent free in my head. Even the light banter at the end to close out the balcony scene is adorable. He just has so much trust, faith and respect for Emma that I honestly will never get over it. Everyone deserves someone who supports you in life to such a great extent!!

The biggest change of this scene is obviously the location but I can never be mad about that when I absolutely LOVE how it allowed us to get this beautiful sunrise!

"Here we have our girl lost within her own mind and feeling completely alone due to her ideals, then BAM! Ray listens to her concerns, lends his assistance by thinking through a different course of action that would ease her wavering heart and restores some of her usual optimistic attitude. My boy literally helps our girl out of the dark and shined light on her mood/plan and that’s absolute perfection." - me freaking out during s2ep6.

It was such a genius addition and I will always get super emotional whenever I watch this scene back, like how perfectly poetic could you possibly get??

#the promised neverland #tpn manga #182daysoftpn #chidoroki used chatter

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mintacle · 2 years

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Of course there are other characters, such as Mia Dearden or Helena Bertinelli who have similar story beats as Jason, but first of all they aren't the same story and the nuances matter to fans of any one of the characters and more importantly, Jason is kind of an exception in the rules of victims. I'm about to explain why that matters.

First of all, in the interest of honesty, I have to admit some fans are probably influenced and led by subconscious sexism in the form of caring more deeply about men than women to prefer Jason. Sure. But he's really not the exception here; see the fandoms focus on the 'batbros' or general preference of male characters. This is a whole different battle. One I'm all for, but it's important to state that the problem isn't Jason or the fans of one specific other character, but a general mentality we find both in the larger dc fandom and in the regular Population too.

With that disclaimer out of the way, let's talk about Jason as a male victim.

Victim stories are largely surpressed or expressed in euphemistic manners anyway. It's not a nice topic and it's a visceral pain, so it's easy to see why most media, when they do show the victim's side at all, choose still keep a careful distance. (And most victims in media get no voice at all actually, it's just the grief of their loved ones that matter, the wickedness of their abuser/murderer, and the detective who cracks their case. If this interests you more, you should totally check out the "Bad Women: the ripper retold" podcast by pushkin industries.)

One way of making victims feel more easily digestable is to label them as partially guilty. The victims of the ripper for example were actually homeless women living in poverty. And yes, some such women did use prostitution to earn a meager amount, but this was occasional and it is known that this does not apply to most of the ripper victims. Jason's story also changed to make him more digestable, more dismissable. "He was always too angry, too headstrong." The original Robin Jason was excitable and yes, in some occasions unaware of the immediate danger, but he was a child. He got angry on occasion, but not to a higher extent than Dick or subsequent robins would.

The next thing that happens to victims in media is who they are. Victims are white. Victims are girls. Victims are weak.

There is more sympathy for a victim who isn't such a generic cookie-cutter personality that you can stick in one story just as well as in the other. And mostly that's fine, because again, it's not really about them. It's about those who are left. (See: fridging)

But Jason didn't follow the archetype and his story didn't follow the pattern. He was not fridged, but completely meaningless, nothing changed because of his death.

if he wasn't male, then he wouldn't have gotten a plaque reading "a good soldier". Can you imagine a girl's memory being honored in such a way? No, because women still can't be soldiers and no, because we feel an obligation to be sentimental. But men aren't granted that emotional commitment by others. if he wasn't male, then he wouldn't have died the way he did.

The fact that we have a victim story told so honestly and opening the problem of who is allowed to be a victim, ergo, who gets our sympathy AND that the victim is not weak matters. Do you think real life victims want to see themselves only as poor, helpless souls or sinners who got their due? No.

It's nice to see a male victim, because I personally identify more with that and it's nice to see I don't have to be a girl to be a victim. It's nice to see a strong victim, because I want to be that too. It's nice to see a victim who commands such attention. I don't think Jason actually raises his voice and screams, I think he leaves us, the readers, and the character, Bruce, Dick, etc., No choice but to listen, even if he were to whisper it.

"It happened to me. It happened to me, not you."

So yeah, just, this is the thing about Jason.

#jason todd #ramblings #kind of wayy too long post tbh #if you read this #then Im assuming you have a crush on me #bc thats really the only reason I can imatine for someone to put themselves throigh such a long textpost #i talked about the women from the ripper case way more than intended #but their stories are SO important to understanding how we glorify abusers and abuse #red hood #dc #batman #writing this instead of studying...

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bl00dblight · 2 years

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For Dei, please! 💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with? 🍩 DONUT - favourite sweet treat? 🍁 MAPLE LEAF - what is their favourite season? why? ⚙️ GEAR - what are your ocs thoughts on science & art? which do they give more importance to? how much value do they place on each? ❤️ RED HEART - their love language(s)?

Thank you SO much for these, I hope you enjoy!!

💥 COLLISON: Dei has a lot of trouble dealing with sadness, in all honesty. He wants so badly to try to remain positive and make others happy, but when met with something that makes him troubled or sad he can't help but spiral into it. He has a hard time pulling himself from grim emotions, even when he tries to help others overcome their own woes.

🍩 DONUT: Even if he doesn't really need to eat after becoming Tarnished (he still can, of course, it's just not a necessity/not of importance to him), before revival he loved sweeter things like berries of various sorts! I don't know if he's too into completely sugary baked foods, but I'm sure he also wouldn't mind a slice of cake on special occasions (whatever those may be).

🍁 MAPLE LEAF: Unsure if seasons actually shift at all in the Lands Between, but Dei LOVES the look of the Altus Plateau. He likes the cooler atmosphere (but certainly not too cold) with the warmer colors on the tree leaves. So, TLDR; autumn would certainly be his favorite!

⚙ GEAR: What is science to a magic user? Dei doesn't dabble much in that area since oddities within the Lands Between occur due to magic or some greater driving force (in relation to faith, for example), so he's content with merely learning why things happen and moving onwards. He's curious and loves to learn, but also is easily quelled when an explanation is received. HOWEVER, he is a huge sucker for arts! He loves writing, even secretly dabbling in poems time-to-time, and enjoys watching others paint or sew. He can't paint well himself, and finds sewing difficult, but watching others create such stunning things satiates his adoration for arts enough.

❤ RED HEART: Love language. Oh boy. Dei never had much experience with affection in his life, and in turn has a hard time judging how to show such a thing. He learns preference in physical shows (of all sorts) and quality time over speaking eventually simply because he struggles with putting into words just how much he love he feels. He's naturally charismatic, yet in the face of genuine affection he freezes up. He wants it to be known just how much he cares by spending as much time with his beloved as possible. If comfortable enough, Dei can certainly express affirmation in mushy and sugary sentences, but even then he finds forms of physical affection easier for himself to get across without feeling silly. He is very touchy and will stay cuddled up for hours at a time if possible.

#elden ring #tarnished oc #rubedo ramblings #dei

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minahoeshi · 3 years

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you were loved the most of all.

Ushijima Wakatoshi x reader | break-up angst

summary: You should've known that when Ushijima Wakatoshi found it easy to fall in love with you, it might be even easier for him to fall out of it. But who expects the worst when it comes to loving someone as seemingly perfect as him, anyway?

Chapter 1 of 2

Chapter 2 of 2

He said it was easy to fall in love with you. He said he didn’t know when exactly, at which place, nor for what reason. Simply one day, Ushijima Wakatoshi found himself looking at you with the epiphany that maybe there’s something more meant to happen between you and him. There you stood before him that day, the person he could promise love to. (And there he stood before you that moment, the boy whose promises you found yourself believing in no matter what.)

So maybe that’s why it was even easier for him to fall out of love. When he told you he was no longer in love with you, it didn’t matter to you to ask when exactly, at which place, or for what reason. Even the universe itself is meant to fizzle out one day along with the death of the stars. Just one more person drifting away from you like a lone planet with no real orbit shouldn’t leave you broken. You are used to this. You won’t fall apart.

But you break anyway.

It was snowing outside when he decided to tell you to end things now before it hurts both of you even further. Not that the snow has anything to do with the coldness creeping up your chest threatening to spill out of you in endless sobs. You were glad, though. That at the very least, he remained honest with his feelings. He never left you guessing. Every time, he never forgets to tell you what’s on his mind. His honesty is something he thought was necessary.

“I understand, don’t worry. Thank you for telling me right away. I know you’re also considering me–” you tell him and choke up. There are tears running down your face but you’re not worried about that. Wakatoshi never let you mask your emotions around him. For the longest time, he reminded you to feel free to be completely bare with him. All the good and the bad, he said. Don’t be afraid to show them to me. I will always understand.

He steps closer and puts you between his arms. You feel his chin on top of your head as you lean your face into his chest. You’re sobbing now. “I’ll be fine, Toshi. We’ll be fine.”

He kisses the top of your head and lets you stay in his arms for minutes. “I loved you then, and I love you still. It’s just that they’re no longer the same kind. I will stay if you ask me to, okay? Anything you want.”

This only makes you cry harder. He’s always been too good. And even in breaking your heart, he’s too good. You want him to hold on. You want to ask him to stay with you for years and years. Even with a different kind of love, you’ll let him be as long he’s close by. But someone like him who has dreams beyond yourself shouldn’t ever be with someone like you who still lacks certainty toward anything.

“Just for tonight,” you ask, still crying. “Can I stay?”

“of course,” he replies. Anytime you want. Anything you want. It has always been this way.

Because humans are creatures of routines and familiarity, you spend that night the way you usually do when you’re at his place. You cook dinner with him and eat on the dining table, sharing stories and laughter. You keep adding food to his plate and he smiles as you giggle at everything you find funny.

It’s okay, it’s okay. You’ll be okay. You’ll be fine.

You clean the kitchen and stay in the living room. He leans on the couch as you lay down with your head on his lap. You keep talking and laughing. He goes along, sometimes adding things to make you laugh even more, sometimes simply agreeing, sometimes asking questions. You keep it loud and light, afraid of the silence. Inside you, it’s so heavy, your heart might just fall off. This will be the last, you tell yourself. You want to be happy for now. While he’s still here.

"Do me a favor, okay?" You tell him as you're nearing slumber. "Let me leave first tomorrow. Maybe stay in bed, maybe pretend you're asleep. But tomorrow, don't get out of the room until I've left the house." Your voice shakes, feeling yourself wanting to sob.

"I don't want to wake up to another empty bed but I don't want to see your face when I wake up too," you curl into him even further. "I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I still don't really know what to do. And I know you wake up pretty early and you know, do stuff, but just for tomorrow, please?"

Wakatoshi didn't really understand why. He originally planned on cooking breakfast for you and taking you to the train station. He would watch you board the train and he'd make sure to smile at you as he waves. You always waved back. That's how it works. Even after fights, and even after especially bad nights, you'd still do the same. Watching you leave with a smile was how you both knew you'd still be fine the days after. That nothing much can affect your relationship. For years, this has been the routine.

But tomorrow, he knows he has to give way. He knows what he said hurt you. It would be wrong of him to do what he wants simply because he's used to.

Tomorrow's the last, he realises. And then if you want, he'd never see you again.

You wake up pretty early. The sky is a calm shade of blue, the world outside still waking up. You check the time on your phone and find it's 6 AM. Last night, you slept with your back on him. The sight before you is the other end of his bedroom and you notice just how much of yourself you've managed to leave around his place. Pieces of just one other person in his life, scattered in places around his world pretending that’s just where they belong. You didn't mind leaving things behind back then. You never really thought of the day that you might’ve to take back all of them. Just how does one pick up parts of themselves when they thought they’ve finally found a place for them to stay?

But as you stand up, you conclude that when things end, traces shouldn’t be left behind. He didn’t decide to break up only to be reminded of you even after you’re no longer close to him. So you go and pick every little thing that's yours. Even your jacket and sweaters and a few pairs pyjamas in his closet. You'll just take his things from your place too and hand it to Tendou's shop. Coming back here won’t do you any good. Him coming to your place instead wouldn’t either.

Collecting all your things, even the ones you can't use anymore, you leave the bedroom and enter the living room. You don't have many belongings here aside from some DVDs and books. You only take the books and leave the rest for him. You've always preferred reading anyway.

Setting your bag and things aside on the sofa, you go ahead and wash yourself in the bathroom and bring your toothbrush and some other products with you when you're done. You then head to the kitchen to cook him something light to eat for breakfast . You knew you didn't have to. He knows how to cook. It has always been him cooking breakfast for you. When you could, you’d rather stay in bed until the very moment you must start preparing to go to uni or work. But you did anyway. He's probably in his bed, awake. He has never been a heavy sleeper. With all the moving you did around his room, he was bound to wake up if he wasn't already.

You make him a simple omelette and write a small message on top of it with ketchup. "Good luck with practice today!"

You've already cleaned everything you used, preferring to wash and set utensils as soon as you're done with them. That way, when you're sitting down to eat, there won't be any cluster around to distract you.

You put the ketchup down and decide that should be enough. You'll stop here. You should go now.

Ushijima is sitting on his bed. He's been awake since 5 AM when he usually goes on his run. It isn't the first time he chose to stay with you instead of going out, but he can't help but feel heavy this time. He stayed in for you. But as the minutes pass by, it seems that he simply cannot find the courage to sit up and face you.

He wants to sink into his bed.

There's knock on the door followed by sentences uttered softly. "Toshi, I'm going now. There's breakfast on the table. Make sure to eat before you go."

There goes the heavy feeling again. Maybe if this keeps up, he might just actually sink and never get back up.

You've done that a few times. Leaving while he's still in the room. You don't even open the door. You simply knock and tell him you're about to go, always reminding him to eat before he goes too.

But this will be the last, he thinks. If you leave now, will he never see you again?

a/n

chapter 2 will be up soon not rly sure when tho. (it's up now the link is at the top)

also, im not entirely sure but i think i didnt use any pronouns or gendered nouns for this except "girl" in the 1st paragraph which i erased just now? if i'm right, then i hope everyone reading this get to feel as though theyre rly the person in the story. unless ofc u dont want that bc this isnt the happiest ushitoshi x reader fic u can find🥲. but thanks for reading!!!! m so sorry for typos nd other errors as well. i kinda cant read my own writings bc sometimes doing so makes me wanna smack myself in the head and never write again nd i hate that so now im leaving my mistakes to the gods nd hope they love me enough or smth. but yes thank u sm again for reading!!!!

#ushijima x reader #ushijima scenarios #ushijima angst #ushijima fanfic #ushijima reader insert #ushijima x y/n #ushijima wakatoshi

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eleanorbloom · 3 years

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Skeptical (w/ Tobias Carrick)

Book: OH: TY. Characters: Eleanor Bloom (MC), Tobias Carrick, Aurora Emery, and Bryce Lahela (briefly). Summary: Eleanor confronts Tobias about Aurora. Rewrite of Book 3, Ch. 9.

Word Count: 2.1k Rate/Warnings: Teen, few curse words.

A/N: Hello! I'm bringing something different than usual. PB has been doing like Tobias never used Aurora, like he never hurt my friend (and LI too) and personally, I can't stand it. So here's my take about it. I wrote it with Eleanor instead of Rosalía because in Rosalía's universe Aurora never tranfers to Mass Kenmore.

Hope you like it!

Taglist: @romereadingshop @starrystarrytrouble @penda-bear @queenelianar @julia-highstorms @mercury84choices @openheartfanfics @choicesficwriterscreations I'm using my Aurora x Rosalía taglist because I thought you might be interested in reading this. Feel free to ignore it if only want to read romance lol

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Eleanor furrowed her lips as she was listening to Tobias telling his side of the story with Ethan.

When Tobias joined the Diagnostic Team, she was very dubious about everything that involved him. She didn't know him enough but the few things she knew about weren't good.

His blatant competitive attitude, the feud with Ethan, the fact that he was hired by Leland without consulting Ethan. All those signs telling her she shouldn’t trust Tobias.

But once she got to know him better, her image of him started to change. He wasn't the insufferable he was the first day, he was actually charismatic and rather funny. Easy going once she knew him past his competitive attitude, and she had learned a lot with him even if Tobias wasn't the type of Doctor she would normally admire. His values were totally opposed to hers, as she learned with Francis' case.

But still, something was stopping her from actually trusting him.

She did believe he was sorry for the stupid, childish attitude he had with Ethan, and seemed to be acting according to that, trying to make up for his mistakes.

He deserved a second chance.

But her skepticism had nothing to do with the Diagnostics Team or Ethan.

It was about Aurora.

“What is it? You don't believe me?” Tobias asked when Eleanor hadn't said a word since he finished his story. Trying to hide his concern, he gave her a mischievous smirk.

Eleanor didn’t know what to say.

It was hard to believe he wasn’t the same person who sabotaged his own friend when last year he used a person to get what he wanted. He hired Aurora to entice Harper to work in Mass Kenmore.

He hurt her friend, even unknowingly. And Eleanor couldn’t forget that or just get past that.

“Why do you say that?” Eleanor asked, trying to conceal her skepticism, but there was no use. She had always been too transparent with her emotions, and this time wouldn't be the exception.

“Well, you don’t look too convinced with what I told you.”

He was right. She wasn’t.

Eleanor sighed. Should she tell him? It wasn't her problem to tell, it was Aurora's, and knowing her, she would never confront Tobias about it. She barely had confronted her Aunt because they were family, but in no way she would face the umpteenth person that used her to get to Harper Emery.

“Come on, we're among friends here. I confided in you really top secret stuff, Elle.”

Eleanor grimaced at the sound of that name on his lips.

"I prefer Ellie if you don't mind. The only person that calls me Elle is my partner."

Tobias' hazel eyes widened in surprise for a brief second, “Sure, sure, my bad. Ellie it is.”

Eleanor nodded.

“So? Come on, be honest. I won’t get mad at you because you can’t believe I wanna mend up things with Ethan.”

“It’s not that. This is not about Ethan.”

“Then what is this about?”

Eleanor pondered her words. What was the best way to approach this?

“I believe you regret what you did to Ethan, but it's hard to tell you have changed since that.”

His brows knitted in curiosity, but for a brief second, embarrassment flashed features, “Okay, that's fair. Can I ask what makes you believe that?”

Eleanor wasn't particularly a confrontational person. Only when a person pressed her buttons she would actually confront that said person. And Tobias hadn't pressed any buttons, but the chance that they would have this kind of conversation in the future was extremely low. And she really needed to tell him that, in order to have a more amicable relationship with him.

“The fact that you used a person to get what you want.”

Tobias frowned, “Eleanor, what are you talking about?”

He was incredulous. And oblivious. Apparently, he had no idea where she was going with that accusation.

“You used Aurora to get Harper to work in Mass Kenmore,” Eleanor said, and Tobias' face disfigured instantly, “You didn't hire Aurora because she was a good doctor, but because she was Harper Emery's niece.”

“How did you know?”

“When you went to pick up some stuff after the Solomon Kenmore partnership, Aurora and I heard the discussion you had with Harper.”

Tobias winced in earnest regret.

"You seem like a decent person now that I know you, but even if your mistake with Ethan was years ago, what you did with Aurora is as much condemnable as what you did to him, and this happened just last year."

As Tobias remained silent, she continued.

“That's why I can't believe you. I just… can't stand people who use other people. And it's worse if you used my friend.”

“You're right,” it was the only thing he could say.

“Do you have any idea what is like living under the shadow of Harper Emery?” Now that she had opened her mouth, she couldn't stop. “Aurora has struggled her whole life with that, and transfer to Mass Kenmore was the opportunity to escape that. She deserves the spotlight, that people value her for her work, for her brilliance, and not for her family name. But it turned out, it wasn't because you believed she was good. You actually didn't give a fuck about her as long as you get what you wanted.”

Tobias gave her a pained look, “Aurora is a brilliant doctor, an outstanding resident. It didn't take her long to become the best resident in Mass Ken, and I know she'll achieve great things after finishing her residency.”

“But you found out that after. You only saw her as your mean to get Harper. And that's wrong. I'm sorry, but I can't act like this never happened. You used my friend, you made her doubt about her worth. I can't forget that.”

“You're right, Eleanor. But she should've never found out...”

“That's not the point! Or it is, actually. You did it knowing it was wrong. It doesn't matter if she finds out or not. You used a person and that was wrong. And if you're really trying to grow up from that 'blatant competitive' attitude, the first thing you should stop doing is using people.”

Tobias averted her eyes for a few moments, processing her words, concealing the shame.

He never thought their conversation would turn out like this.

“Well, what can I say? You're right in feeling that way about me, Eleanor, so I won't try to change your mind when it's clear that the wrong is on me. ”

“I've been very tempted to like you, but I can't like the person who hurt my friend. Hypocrisy doesn't work for me.”

Tobias shook his head, amazed, “You're something else, Eleanor. I wish I was lucky enough to have a friend like you, firm in your values and loyal.”

"You were lucky enough to have it, Tobias, but you betrayed him. Ethan is a loyal friend, and true to his values to a fault. And probably you know that better than me."

Tobias gave her a sad smile. Eleanor could swear there was melancholy in his eyes.

“Thank you for your honesty, Eleanor. I really appreciate that. I'm gonna learn a lot with you.”

Eleanor blushed, incredulous. He was being sincere or he was just schmoozing?

Only time would tell.

The cafeteria was quiet at that time of the night. Perfect place to study. Bryce had been interrogating Eleanor for the past thirty minutes in his interest to help her study for the boards, making knowledge questions as well as practical cases he had found on the web.

"Okay, we have this 2-year-old boy, his mother found him unconscious…" He started reading on Eleanor's tablet, but suddenly stopped as he saw Aurora approaching their table, "Hey Aurora! Coming to join the midnight study session?"

“No, thanks, Bryce,” Aurora replied, giving him a tiny smile, “Would you mind…? I need to speak to Eleanor. ”

Bryce looked from Eleanor to Aurora for a second and then nodded, “Oh, sure! She's all yours. Well, to speak to her she's all yours, we all know she's mine.”

“Oh my god, Goldie, just go!” Eleanor giggled, tilting her head as Bryce was leaning to kiss her.

“Text me if you need anything, okay?”

“I will, thank you, love.”

Once Bryce was out of sight, Eleanor turned to face Aurora, who was sitting across her with a serious expression on her face, “You wanted to talk?”

“Yes.”

Aurora sighed, and after several seconds of silence, she finally spoke, “Tobias talked to me yesterday.”

Oh fuck.

Eleanor never thought Tobias would speak to Aurora about what happened in Grace's apartment, several days ago now.

“Okay…”

“He apologized for what happened with Aunt Harper. For hiring me knowing I was her niece. He was also sorry I had found out.”

Eleanor nodded, feeling a pang of fear inside her.

“At first, I was so mad at you, Eleanor. So mad. Because you had no right to tell Tobias how I felt. That I knew the truth. It was something deeply personal.”

“I know, I know, and I'm… ”

“Let me finish, Eleanor.”

Eleanor, completely pale, shut her mouth and made a gesture with her hand as if she was fastening her mouth like a zipper.

“I was mad because I would never recognize in front of him how bad it hurt me his… scheme. That's why I never confronted in the first place.”

Aurora looked down at her hands, as if she was focusing on reliving those feelings.

Eleanor was rigid and terrified. She had betrayed her trust and who knew how much time it would take her to be forgiven for that, considering the story they had.

"But after a while I realized … I never knew how much I needed an apology until it happened."

Eleanor looked at Aurora, agape.

"Tobias told me he would've never realized how wrong was that if you hadn't told him. And when he thought about the pain he might have caused, he regretted doing it. He was sorry he made me believe I was just Harper Emery's niece when I'm much more than that."

Eleanor shook her head, regret washing over her features.

“Aurora I'm truly sorry for what I did. I knew at that moment it wasn't my business to tell him what had happened, but I couldn't act like everything was fine with him. He needed to face what was wrong, but it wasn't my call, it was yours.”

“Yeah, but I would've never taken it, and you knew it. I would've never done it because I thought the only thing I needed was to get over it, and forgive myself for stupidly falling for his lie.”

Aurora bit her lip before giving Eleanor a humorless smile, “But it turns out I shouldn't be blaming myself for something I didn't do. He was the one who used me, it was his fault, not mine. So when he apologized, I realized that. And that would've happened if you hadn't intervened.”

“Aurora…”

“I've spent my whole life blaming myself for trusting people who used me, but I've never been the problem. They are. People have never cared. Never cared to sincerely befriend me and never cared to apologize when they used me. So when Tobias apologized… it felt so good, because it let me stop blaming myself for that. It's not my fault.”

“Of course not, Aurora. It's their fault. It's their fault not being able to see the amazing person you are, the brilliant doctor you are, and all the incredible things you can do and give. So fuck them. ”

Aurora chuckled, "Fuck them. Except for Tobias. He looked really sorry for what he did so maybe there's a chance for him in the end."

“Yeah. He's not that bad. But I couldn't let myself like him when he had been an ass with you. ”

“Thank you for calling him out, and for defending me. Though I beg you to please don't this again. At least talk to me before going in the whole protective mode, okay?”

Eleanor took Aurora's hands in hers, and gave her the first genuine smile of the night, bright and wide, “I promise.”

“Good, now let's call Bryce to resume your study session with a little friendly competition.”

“Oh? Competing against Aurora Emery again? You're on!”

_____

Thank you so much for reading!!!

#playchoices #aurora emery #tobias carrick #open heart #open heart choices #oph3 #oph fic #oph fanfic #open heart fanfic #open heart fic

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ghost-party · 3 years

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Hi Rebecca! I hope I'm doing this right :D Can I please request a matchup for a male AOT character? I'm not a minor, my MBTI type is INFJ and my star sign is cancer. my love languages are physical touch and acts of service🥰 I'm 5'0 tall, I've got dark brown hair and eyes and I'm kind of curvy around the hips. I often wear dresses (especially in the summer) in white or pastel colours 🥰

I would describe myself as kind, introverted and joyful

My hobbies are writing, reading and I recently started with Yoga as well :D My partner should be honest and understanding, because I tend to be moody sometimes. I'm also looking for someone who's by my side and supports me in every possible life situation 💕

My fave date ideas: mini golfing, a picnic at the lake, going to an amusement park, and picking strawberries together :D

Hi, Nati! 😀💖 Thanks for requesting! I know you love Erwin, but this match jumped out when I was looking at your MBTI and zodiac compatibilities, and I couldn’t stop thinking how cute you two would be together. I hope you enjoy!

I’ve matched you with…

You and Armin are both INFJs. INFJs are excellent communicators and very intuitive. They naturally seek out deeper connections with others, and when it comes to the people they love, they will do anything in their power to help them. They enjoy contemplating big ideas and engaging in thoughtful conversation.

An INFJ-INFJ pairing can work well because of their strong similarities. Both excellent communicators, a couple with this shared personality type can easily discuss their relationship. They likely share the same values, and because of their strong intuition, it might feel as if they have an even deeper connection, anticipating one another’s desires and needs. There’s potential for disagreement if both partners have different ideals and can’t accept that. But with strong, open communication, this pairing can work well long-term.

Cancer is extremely compatible with Scorpio. Together, they can share a deep, harmonious bond fostered by mutual understanding. Each has a great deal of creativity and passion to bring to the relationship, and each has an inherent respect for the other’s pursuits. These signs are emotional and very caring, and their connection is generally one that comes easily and can be very long-lasting.

HEADCANONS

• Armin has the same love languages as you, and few things make him happier than coming home after a hard day and giving you the biggest, longest hug. (If you try to pull away too soon, he’ll shake his head, bury his face in your neck, and murmur, “Not yet.”) He’ll hold your hand whenever you two are grocery shopping or out with friends. It’s comforting for him, to know you’re right there. Because you two are on the same wavelength most of the time, you rarely have to ask or remind him to do things around the house. And he enjoys doing things for you, big or small, like bringing home flowers, cooking breakfast, or giving you a neck and back massage.

• He loves everything about you and could honestly wax poetic about your beauty. (Get some wine in him, and he definitely will.) But dresses are one of his biggest weaknesses. He thinks you look good in everything you wear, but something about a sundress — the way it hugs your curves, the soft, pastel colors against your skin, how the skirt moves when you walk — makes his brain short circuit. If he could fill your whole closet with them, he would. Take him shopping with you and his poor heart might just stop. And whenever you’re getting ready to go somewhere and walk out in one, you inevitably end up arriving a little later than expected.

• Armin greatly admires your kind and thoughtful nature. As someone who looks out for his friends and deeply cares about their well-being, he’s glad to have found a partner who feels the same way. Like you, he’s on the more introverted side. But he can be extroverted when the situation calls for it. He makes friends easily and is a very talented public speaker. This just means that downtime is especially important so that he can recharge. If you’re the same way, he completely understands and is always content with giving you whatever space you need. He’s also someone who seeks out joy in life and is generally more of an optimist, always thinking the best of people until they give him reason to think otherwise.

• He’s an avid reader, as well, and you’ll likely have relaxed, quiet afternoon spent with your noses in your respective books. If the weather is nice, he might suggest taking a blanket to the backyard and lying down together to read in the warm sunshine. (Does this usually end with one or both of you dozing off, curled up against the other? Yes.) He encourages your writing and is eager to read whatever you’re willing to share. He’s curious by nature, so be prepared for lots of questions. He’s always excited to hear your ideas and thoughts, so never feel as if you need to hold back. It won’t be too difficult to convince him to try yoga, but he’ll always say you’re the more flexible and graceful one.

• Armin is communicative and knows that honesty is the key to any good relationship. He’s also understanding when it comes to bad days or feeling moody. Whether you want some alone time or for him to distract you from whatever is going on, he’s eager to do what he can to help you feel better. If the two of you get into an argument, he’s likely to take some time to think things over and cool off before having a discussion. Even if you say something in the heat of the moment that you later regret, he knows it never comes from a truly bad place. You love each other, even on the hard days, and he’ll always be there for you.

• He likes the idea of mini-golfing, and with practice, his skills definitely improve. But when he first starts out, it’s a little fun to watch his expression go from excited to confused when the ball he was sure was headed for the hole gets bounced away by the windmill. He’s content to make it a date or a group outing, whichever you prefer. And if the place has ice cream, he’ll buy you both a treat when you’re done. Strawberry picking is another activity he enjoys. He can be a little meticulous, wanting to choose only the best-looking ones. But he’ll brainstorm out loud the different things you both can do with them, like make jam or bake a pie.

#ghost-party’s matchups #attack on titan #aot #matchups

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acertainsomeone · 3 years

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Finding us- EdSer one shot

If he had any doubts before, this incident cleared them altogether. Eda Yildiz had not only taken over his holding and life but his dog as well. He couldn't come to terms with the fact that his best friend, his dog, whom he had brought up since he was a baby, had turned his back on him. Ever since he proposed to Selin, Eda had asked Seyfi bey to get Sirius back to Bolat place. Not that she didn't love him anymore, she found it appropriate that the dog was returned to his rightful owner. She didn't wish anymore for Serkan to treat her worse, if fate planned, his memories will come back otherwise she was not going to desperately beg him to choose her over Selin. It wasn't about pride. Her love was much more than self-respect. She realized that Serkan was scared of her because she managed to strike chords of his heart that were nonexistent for him. If she pushed him further, if she hovered over his head, he would be irked and god forbid if something serious happened to his health, she won't be able to forgive herself.

Sirius wasn't home, this was twice in the last three days that he had managed to escape. Serkan's pride was too much to call Eda and ask her to pay a visit to Sirius. Usually, he came back wagging his tail, it wasn't hard to spot him around but this time Serkan panicked. He checked the entire neighborhood and every possible place where Sirius could've gone. He had lost his memories; he couldn't afford to lose him.

"Where are you oğlum ?" He drove across the seats of Istanbul in apprehension. His heart skipped a beat thinking of a much worse possibility. Sirius wasn't among those dogs who get along with people, forget strangers.

What if somebody tried to harm him?

It wasn't hard to come across such crackheads, who would hurt animals for their pleasure.

"Alo" Serkan answered his phone in panic upon seeing Eda's name on the screen. She was going to chide him enough for being so careless.

As if he wasn't to be blamed in her eyes already

"No need to wander around the streets, Sirius is with me. I'm sending you the location. Hadi gel." Her voice was devoid of any emotions, she didn't let him speak and hung up asap.

Did he make a mistake?

What was this place? And why would Sirius come here? He wondered while climbing the steps of the apartment. He entered and found a wounded Sirius lying in Eda's lap. He was asleep, and Eda was caressing his head.

"SIRIUS!" He cried in panic, and Eda glared at him for being so loud.

"Shhhh you're gonna wake him."

'What happened?" He asked incredulously. Sitting beside Eda, caressing his only best friend with affection.

"I think he ran from your place - to find me. He would've expected me to be at the park. Few children hit him there. Thankfully, I was there for a walk and spotted him immediately."

"What park? I checked all places where he could be."

"There are places that became Sirius's preference, if not yours." She rolled her eyes

"Anyways Serkan, tell me in all honesty, can you take care of him or not? I can't risk his life like this."

He was about to fight back with a 'he's my dog' but he knew that would've turned into a nasty conversation. He owed a thank you to Eda.

"Teşekkürler Eda."

Eda looked at him plainly. It was hurting him to see her eyes without that love he was used to seeing ever since he came back. Why was it bothering him? He pushed her away, that's what he wanted.

"You stay with him tonight. He needs to rest."

"What is this place?" Serkan asked

"Home." She sighed in reverence. "I mean your home, you shifted here."

"Neden."

"I'll leave that story for your fiancé to tell after all she had been telling you everything, and you only believe her."

Eda picked her bag and stood up. "There's food in the fridge. Sirius's food is by the coffee table. And- your room is upstairs." She seemed in a hurry. He felt she was only telling him this to fulfill an obligation. He could feel her restless. But why? He had no idea

Serkan examined his room carefully. He was amazed Selin hadn't told him about moving out. The bedroom screamed that he was in a relationship with her Eda Yildiz.

Yok, the bed was made and broken lamps were fixed.

It had their memories. Her memories and belongings. Belongings that he would've never allowed in his premises.

Her clothes and undergarments were piled up along his. Her toothbrush and other toiletries were neatly placed in the bathroom. It didn't seem that they were placed there recently.

A weird sensation was pulling him towards those things. He ran his fingers through her belongings, having flashbacks. They were vivid.

For the first time, he heard her cackling voice too. It was blurry but even his bones could tell that they were in bed, and – he was doing things to make her laugh.

It can't be me

He shook his head in denial.

Serkan opened a drawer and found a USB. It wasn't the USB that grabbed his attention but the flower and note attached to it. That was his handwriting

"For us to remember all the good times- just in case."

***

"Serkannn!! Would you stop? Look at my state." A sleepy yet annoyed Eda shrieked at Serkan, who was prolly filming a video. He chuckled at her words, not paying attention to whatever she said.

"Eda I know how you look like without clothes." She threw a pillow at his head, and the video disrupted. "Watch out!"

"Are you filming us naked in bed?"

"Hayır, I'm filming this for us to remember that you can't stay mad at me for long." He replied in amusement. This was one of those nights when she had been mad at him but they made out in less than a moment.

"You think too highly of yourself Serkan bolat."

"I've got the brightest star for myself. Shouldn't I?"

"Can you stop this? I have to get up Serkan!"

"How about first you record a message for an 80-year-old Eda, who might've forgotten me?"

"How are you sure that it can't be you."

"I love you way too much to forget you. More than you could. We can bet on that." He winked at her shamelessly

"Tamam." She wasn't going to fight him on this. Eda moved forward cautiously wrapping her naked self with the duvet and kissed Serkan on the tip of his nose.

"This message is for old, yet madly in love Mr. and Mrs. Bolat! No matter how hard the times are, no matter how grave misunderstandings can be, no matter how bleak the road of hope is, we will find our way back, together."

"Always." He said with a smile and pulled her into a kiss. The video was for them so it didn't matter if it was all being recorded in that state.

***

We don't choose our parents, we don't choose our family, and at times life doesn't allow us to choose our partner as well. He would've never in his right mind made an illogical choice of falling for Eda Yildiz.

Yet he did

Did he make a mistake?

Because all that he had given her in this relationship was pain, so far.

The video brought back a bunch of memories. Their first kiss, first fight, first night, and the last goodbye.

Serkan was mercilessly driving on the empty roads of Istanbul. It was raining heavily and he was drenched. This rain could've made him sick, terribly

But did he even care anymore?

He had hurt the most important person in his life. He ruined everything

How could he forget her of all people? Serkan always claimed to love Eda more than she could. His love was fragile

He sobbed mercilessly, wishing to hit the car somewhere and end this pain. Events of the past few weeks circulated in front of his eyes. The way he was indifferent towards her. The way he resisted her touch and broke her heart all over again.

I never deserved her

He smacked his head against the steering wheel. His tears blocked his vision and he had no idea that he was driving beyond the speed limit with an absolutely insane state of mind.

Suddenly it grew all dark. He couldn't see anything. It felt that the steering wheel was moving in its own direction

All he could hear was noise. Eda's cries and his broken promises.

He was sitting in the police station absentmindedly. Eda was completing the formalities. They hadn't had any eye contact so far else he would've started crying right there. She took him by his arm as if he was lifeless.

"Serkan noldu? You were absolutely fine when I left." She asked him apprehensively, careful not to touch him. "Do you want me to call someone? Selin-"

She stopped immediately. He looked at her for the first time.

The gaze

Eda caught her breath. It was him.

It was really him

She knew that man

Those eyes, they weren't of a stranger. Those eyes recognized her, and she had seen love for her in them. But why was she seeing something stronger than love right now? Anguish

"Serkan!" She gasped unbelievingly. Her hands wrapped around his face possessively as if he'd leave this time if she didn't hold him tight

"I-" he was struggling with words. Should he tell her how scared he was when the pilot told them that the plane was going to crash? How he cursed himself for leaving her behind? Or how much he loves her? Where do I begin

Eda sobbed with happiness. She did not know what to say anymore. He was there, right in front of her. Her Serkan. Her robot bolat

The man who loved her

They were sitting at the shore. Looking blankly at the sea. The waves were calm but their hearts weren't. He had held her hand, and the grip was so strong that it was hurting her a bit but she didn't complain۔

"Eda" he broke the silence

"I don't even have words to ask for your forgiveness. I made another mistake, I broke your heart once again, didn't fulfill my promise, and became the reason for your tears." He was stuttering۔ words weren't leaving his mouth easily whereas Eda kept on looking at him with tears in her eyes

"What I did in the last few weeks can't be forgiven. I've hurt you. I won't beg you to return back to me. I can't make mistakes repeatedly and expect you to stand by the road waiting for me. I-" He stopped and his voice broke further

"Eda you might not want me back in your life but can you please forgive me? One last time? I won't be able to live with the fact that you hate me. Just don't hate me please"

He was begging her, his hands joined together in front of her pleading for forgiveness. His eyes were screaming in pain. He won't be able to bear that hate in this heart. If she stopped caring for him, he won't even bat an eye, but accepting the fact that she despises him? Serkan Bolat would die.

He knew he was being selfish. Yet again, he was thinking of himself. But he was selfish, he never deserved someone as selfless as Eda Yildiz. He disgraced their love, he ruined their relationship, and now if she wished to discontinue this fragile relationship, he won't subject.

"I failed our love Eda. I failed you." She could tell that he was not able to breathe properly. Eda's heart sunk the moment he adjoined his hands in front of her. With each pleading, it felt as if someone was squeezing her heart mercilessly.

"Fate failed us Serkan." She sniffed between her sobs. Her hands cupped his face immediately. She wanted to protect him, she wanted to curl his masculine self among her soft frame. She wished to provide him that comfort and safety his heart seek for the last few months.

He was asking her to forgive him. He feared that she hated him now. How could she?

Serkan had become more than a partner for her, he was a part of her. We don't detach ourselves from what lies within us.

He looked at her disbelievingly. Eda wiped his face with her palms. No more crying. They had enough, more than enough. The pain they had endured was enough for a lifetime.

"We'll leave. Somewhere far away, nobody could find us. Away from this mess, this hate, this chaos. Serkan we have each other. We are not going to let them ruin our happiness."

Was she for real?

"Tamam?" Eda pestered. He nodded in return, unable to say something.

"Seni cok seviyorum." Serkan mumbled only for her to hear as she adorned his face with delicate kisses.

"I have so much to tell you." She sighed in between.

"Where are you taking us?" He did not know why he was asking this. It didn't matter, the question came out of his mouth involuntarily.

"We are going to look for phoenixes." He did not know what that meant but he need not ask. As long as she was there, he didn't have to worry about anything. Eda embraced him protectively like a child. He was in his safe haven.

He was finally saved from the crash.

#eda yildiz #edser #serkan bolat #sen çal kapimi #sen cal kapimi #sen çal kapımı #sen cal kapımı #turkishdizi #hande erçel #kerem bürsin #edser fic

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trash-but-respectable-trash · 4 years

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So I saw your your brother reaction to fifity shades of grey and it was halrious 😂 so since your request are open I was kinda hoping you could do a mc who is a movie star and they watch her movie then how are their reaction to her kissing and steamy scenes and how mc is comfortable throughout the movie and comment that their partner was really good kisser I'm pretty sure it's gonna be awkward

Thank you for the request, I love this idea! I felt like it would be weird for some of the brothers to tell them about the other actor being a good kisser, so this part isn’t mention with every brother. Sorry for the long wait, I was in the process of moving out and then I kinda lost motivation to write, but I’m finally back!

The brothers reactions to seeing MC “acting” in a steamy scene from a movie she starred in

Context: You casually mentioned to Asmodeus that you starred in a movie back in the human realm when he was doing your nails and Asmo made it a mission to found out what was the movie since you didn’t want to tell him. He finally found it after using his natural charms and decided to wait for the perfect occasion to watch it with you and the rest of his brothers.

Warnings: This is in second person, but I do use “actress” when I’m mentioning the MC, also mild NSFW mentions

Lucifer:

Movie Friday wasn’t Lucifer’s favorite, but it was one of the rare occasion where he and his brothers could hang out all together and it also gave him a few hours where he could relax, knowing that none of his brothers were causing trouble. He lost count of who’s turn it was to choose the movie this week, but when Asmo stood up almost skipping towards the TV, he was suddenly worried. He prohibited Asmo from choosing any movie that as much as resembled porn for everyone sakes, so Asmo would often choose movies that were almost porn but no quite, just to annoy Lucifer. While he waited to see what movie it could be this time, he couldn’t help but notice the way you shifted in your seat next to him. He wanted to ask you what was wrong, but he soon figured it out when he looked back at the screen and saw YOU and a random guy on the title screen. You seemed to get out of your trance and you quickly turned to Lucifer to tell him you were the main actress in the movie Asmo chose. Lucifer remembered seeing that information in your student file. Lucifer being Lucifer, he carefully analyzed every part of the movie, admiring your acting skills until the steamy scene came up. He didn’t say anything, acting like nothing was wrong even though he had a clear shot of your naked body, when he never even saw it in real life yet. He he was doing fine until you casually told him that the actor kissing you and touching you in inappropriate ways, was actually a really good kisser and that you were not totally acting in that scene. Lucifer can’t believe you just told him that like it was nothing. How could you say that and expected him to take it well? Suddenly he can’t hide his frown anymore and frankly, you hurt his pride as well. He decided that to make up for it, he’ll just have to make you forget about this guy by given you an even greater kiss.

Mammon:

Mammon knew about your acting, but he didn’t really care about it once you told him you were “retired” and didn’t want to act anymore. You thought it was fun for the time it lasted, but you were over it and Mammon knew he couldn’t make money out of your acting skills. What he didn’t expect was for Asmo to choose one of the movies you were featured in for Movie Friday. He was actually too busy fighting with Levi to realized you were literally on the home screen of the movie until you pulled on his sleeve to get his attention. Once he looked at the TV, he suddenly turned into a blushing mess. “Who the fuck is that guy embracing you??”. “It’s the other main actor Mammon!”. How could you do this to him? It’s not like you guys were dating or anything and it’s also not like you knew him back then when you shot that movie, but you shouldn’t have done it anyway! Mammon was pissed off about the whole thing before the movie even began. But whatever he was mad about couldn’t have prepared him for the steamy scene he was about to witness. Why was this guy giving you this look? And why was he now taking off your clothes??? Mammon couldn’t take it anymore, he stood up from his seat on the couch and turn off the TV, making everyone complained about it getting to the good part. Mammon just told them they were all a bunch of perverts before storming out of the living room and into his bedroom. You decided to follow him, finding him crawling on his bed, rambling about how he was your first demon and that it meant something to him. You comforted him all night long, telling him how important he was to you too and how it was just a stupid movie with no feelings involved. You were glad you didn’t tell him about how you thought the actor was a great kisser, you didn’t think Mammon would have ever get over it.

Leviathan:

“Wooooaaaaahhhh” was his first reaction when you told him you were an actress back in the human world. He asked you all about the movies you played in, obviously asking if you knew any actors from TSL and he was a little disappointed when you told him that you didn’t know any of them personally. Other than that one time, he never asked you about it again, since he prefers to watch shows in 2D anyway. So when you tried to get his attention when he was fighting with Mammon and he finally looked at the screen, he wasn’t surprised to see you on the home screen of the movie Asmo chose. He had no idea what the movie was about, but for once he ditched his switch to give all of his attention to the movie. He could easily tell from all the anime tropes he ever saw in his life, that a steamy scene was coming just by the obvious sexual tension the movie was trying to set between you and the other actor. This didn’t prevent him from being completely flustered when the scene actually happened. He started freaking out in his seat, struggling to keep still and talking out loud about the last TSL episode he watched, anything to think about something else than you and that guy on screen even if no one was actually paying attention to him. When the scene was finally over, he calmed down and even enjoyed the rest of the movie, the remaining scenes not going further than kisses. When the movie was finally over, he quickly got up and simply said “great movie” before running to his room to found the movie online and rewatch the steamy scene in the privacy of his room.

Satan:

Satan is someone who would rather read a book than watch a movie even though he does enjoy watching a good movie from time to time. He learned about your previous acting career when you told him once that you played in a movie that was based on the human book he was currently reading. Since he didn’t particularly like the book, he didn’t bother watching the movie version. Especially since it was before he really got to know you, so he wasn’t really interested by your acting at the time. He recognized the name of the movie when he saw the cover of the movie before Asmo even put it into the DVD player. He remembered there were quite a few steamy moments in the book and he started wondering if there would be any of those scenes in the movie. He was quite enjoying the movie at first, he was also analyzing every detail of your acting much like Lucifer, noting how much of a great actress you were and it became especially true when the first steamy scene came on. It was actually hard for him to tell if you were acting or if it was genuine so he decided to asked you directly since you were sitting next to him. He wasn’t particularly happy with your answer when you told him that it was barely acting and that you thought the other actor was a really good kisser. Satan didn’t fully understand the emotion he was feeling but he associated it to the way he felt whenever you were hanging out with one of his brothers. Perhaps it was jealousy? Or maybe he was feeling protective over you? Whatever it was he didn’t like it and it only made him want to kiss you right there just to make you forget about this guy and the kiss he gave you.

Asmodeus:

He was the most curious of all the brothers since unlike his other brothers, you actually told Asmo about the steamy scene in the movie you starred in. He was a bit disappointed when you didn’t want to tell him exactly what movie it was, but he had his ways and it didn’t take long before he found out which movie it was and got his hands on a copy of the movie. Once he found it though, he couldn’t wait to watch it, finally seeing how you look naked, making his imagination go wild. But he decided that this was too good to watch alone, so he waited for his turn for Movie Friday. He also knew Lucifer would let him choose this movie since it wasn’t labeled as anything sexual. The wait was killing him, but he knew it would be worth it to see the reactions of his brothers to seeing you in a steamy scene. He tried to keep a straight face so Lucifer wouldn’t be suspicious, which turned out harder than he initially thought. When the steamy scene finally came on about an hour into the movie, he was conflicted between watching the reactions of everyone or watching your performance on screen. One thing’s for sure, he isn’t the avatar of lust for nothing, he could instantly tell just from watching glimpses of you, that you were definitely not faking it. He teased you about it, expecting you to turn red and struggle to find an explanation, but you just casually told him that he was right and that you weren’t acting in that scene. You even got further in your explanation, telling him that there was sexual tension between you and the actor from the start and when it finally came to this scene, the sexual tension was just so intense that you didn’t even have to act. Asmo was impressed by your honesty, he wasn’t expecting you to be so blunt about it, but he loved it! Although he was disappointed that this was the only steamy scene of the whole movie, he definitely enjoyed what he saw of you and your skills in bed. Now he just had to have you in his own bed to experience your skills himself.

Beelzebub:

You casually mentioned your acting career to Beel one day, when you were eating snacks in the kitchen together at midnight. Beel didn’t press you about it since you didn’t seem like you wanted to talk about it any further. He was a very happy boy when he saw your face appeared on the screen, he was finally gonna watch a movie with you starring in it! He tried to stay focused on what was going on, but he had trouble with all the food in front of him. What got his attention and made him forgot all about the food, was when he heard the sudden change in music and simultaneously saw you kissing the other main actor while he was undressing you. Usually, when you were all watching movies together, you would sit on Beel’s lap, but today you decided to sit next to him instead and he was so glad you did because there’s no way he could hide his erection from you. He wouldn’t have thought that seeing you like this would made him react like this, but he couldn’t stop his mind from creating images of the scene that was unfolding in front of his eyes, but with you and him instead. He snapped out of it when you asked him if was okay when you noticed he had stop eating. He reassured you he was fine, asking you to come to the kitchen with him to get more snack even though there were still plenty on the table in front of you. When you questioned him, he quickly told you he was now craving a different kind of snack. Oh. I hope you’re ready, because once he has a taste of this snack, he won’t stopped until he’s satisfied and it might take a while.

Belphegor:

You told him about your acting one day when you were both hanging out in the planetarium. You were both lying down, mindlessly looking at the celling while telling each other random facts about yourselves. This all started when Belphie told you that he was annoyed that his brothers got so much time with you while he was stuck in the attic. Since then, you and Belphie hung out in the planetarium once a week so he could hopefully catch up on the time he wasted being trapped in the attic. He thankfully stayed awake long enough to see that you were the main actress of the movie Asmo chose. He suddenly felt very awake and payed an usual amount of attention to the movie. He just really liked seeing you on screen, acting as a totally different person, it was very interesting to him. It made him think about the time where he faked being an human to trick you into helping him get out of the attic. Whatever thoughts were crossing his mind were quickly dissipated when the steamy scene came on. Were you always this beautiful? He couldn’t help but be mesmerized by your beauty throughout the scene and just like his twin brother, he couldn’t help but imagine himself instead of your on-screen partner in that scene. He immediately got up once the movie ended, he couldn’t wait to get to the attic to take a good nap. He would’ve just take a nap in the living room, but knowing what he was about to dream about, he didn’t want to do anything inappropriate in his sleep around you or his brothers. Let’s just say his dreams that night were filled with images of you and your beautiful body.

#obey me #obey me!#obey me shall we date #obey me swd #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me headcanons #obey me imagines #obey me requests

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heizuha-queen · 3 years

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Hey, I really enjoyed your KPOP headcanons (the Gosho Girls desperately need more content like this since everyone just focuses on the boys)! I came up with some myself for Kazuha (because I love her) and you said you were fine with other people adding on so here they are. This is... kind a lot so it might be super long... Maybe you could copy paste this into a post if publishing the ask is too hard? I'm not sure if you'll agree, but I hope at least some of them are good enough for you to add to your headcanons haha

- Kazuha seems like someone who greatly values authenticity and honesty (she says what she means and honestly thinks after all). So I think she would be the type to always sing live and refuse to lip sync, even if her singing is not 100% perfect. She would rather make mistakes and have flaws than to not actually sing/fake it. To her, this is what makes it a true live - something where anything can happen and something can potentially go wrong

- Despite this, she is still upset at herself if she makes mistakes and will try to train harder to overcome them

- As a main vocalist, her technique is amazing, obviously, but she is a performance > technique (or performer > technician) type of person and she would sacrifice technique for performance value if need be (though obviously she would try for both)

- Similarly, I don't think she would like her voice to be over-edited (or with many effects) and she would prefer to keep it mostly raw, since that is more authentic and conveys her emotions and passion more (so keeping in things like breaths)

- Which leads me to the next thing. Kazuha would never become an idol if she wasn't completely serious, enthusiastic and passionate about music and performing (mostly singing). So her performances are always full of passion and rawness and you can tell she really enjoys performing and doesn't view it as a chore.

- Kazuha is an amazing performer with lots of stage presence. She's super expressive (and emotional) on stage and that shows in her dancing, singing and expressions. Although she's good at synchronising with people (aikido requires harmony after all), she adds a lot of little flairs that show her individuality (and slight improvisation rather than always completely following all the choreography), and sometimes she does this too much that it may slightly clash with/disrupt the synchronisation or overall harmony of the performance

- Despite this, I think she is still overall serious on stage/when performing, and doesn't give out too much fanservice since she's completely invested in the performance and focused on putting her absolute all into it.

- In fact, sometimes she can get too into it and be a bit too intense about performing that she can exhaust herself when practising. She has probably fainted from practising too much and losing track of time (see movie 21 with karuta). This is especially the case if she does not think she is good enough at a particular thing. She will keep practising that nonstop until she's satisfied, and will tend to start panicking if she doesn't improve to the level she wants. She tends to do less well when stressed like this.

- Japanese idols tend to have more of an emphasis on stage presence and interacting with the audience, and I think it's the same with Kazuha. She really enjoys concerts (over music/award shows) because she gets to interact more with the audience, and perform more /for/ the audience. She likes seeing the impact her singing has on people.

- I think her brand of beauty would be more natural (like in canon) so her stylists usually don't do /too/ much and she usually looks similar between performances and comebacks (eg, she usually doesn't drastically cut or dye her hair)

- She almost always wears her hair in a ponytail (with a ribbon) because it's an iconic look for her.

- When she doesn't have her hair in a ponytail, she always still manages to incorporate a ribbon somewhere because ribbons are /special/ to Kazuha ok (and are probably all treasured gifts from people

- I would say her singing style focuses on good emotional execution (she makes people Feel things ok) and high belting/power vocals while still maintaining good technique.

- Dancing? Pretty good but not as good as Ran, obviously. She seems to be the type to make up for any flaws in technique and strength (like how aikido's less strength-based) using passion. And she's the main vocalist so she usually doesn't get hard dance parts so that she can sing (esp since she sings live). And she'll sacrifice her dancing for her singing if need be.

- She's a fast learner though, so she learns lyrics and choreography pretty fast.

- In livestreams, she sings a lot and will allow people to request songs for her to sing acapella

- Probably one of the first to make a solo debut (if she wants) because her singing abilities allows her to carry entire songs by herself. Her songs will be very vocals-focused rather than dance-focused. Does a bunch of collabs as a solo artist too

- Covers a lot of Japanese songs, including traditional Japanese songs because her family is pretty traditional (and she fits that theme). In fact, she may be skilled in enka and traditional Japanese folk singing (kind of like the caller in karuta - like if you remember in movie 21, there's someone that kind of sings out the poems)

- Kazuha acts really authentically. She doesn't put on a stage persona or act differently just because she's a celebrity (she can't anyway, even if she tried. She would probably break character really easily)

- Probably cries at concerts all the time

- Probably best at cuter and fresher concepts, but she can also be powerful

- Puts so much emotion into her singing (especially with emotional songs) that sometimes she herself can become overwhelmed with them. She has probably broken down or started crying while performing a particular emotional song.

- A theatre (takarazuka) fan! So you better believe that she incorporates musical theatre techniques into her singing and performing.

YES YES YES AND YES! I honestly had all these headcanons as well, but I didn’t post them because I didn’t have more headcanons for the other girls and it wouldn’t be fair to give Kazuha more.

But omgggggg I agree with you with EVERYTHING! Love this

#kpop Kazuha #kazuha toyama

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Speaking of music, I really like to sing, and I think I'm actually pretty good at it. I don't open up very easily at all, so if I'm honest with you I really trust you. And I've been described as the friend everyone comes to for comfort/advice, and I take that role with pride. In public, I can be very affectionate, or not affectionate at all. It really depends on what my S/O would like. But when we're home, I'm usually pretty clingy. (I hope thiat wasn't too much, or too little, info!) (2/2)

okay so I did a huge whoops and deleted the first half of this ask. Here's the first part of it:

Hi, I'm here for a matchup! (Sorry in advance if I do a lot of asks to fit in all my info). My name is Viper, I am Genderfluid, Pansexual, and Polyamorus. I am an ambivert, who normally doesn't leave my house unless asked, but once I do my inner extrovert comes out. But I can only take so much, and after a couple of hours I'll need some alone time to relax. I like to read adventure/sci-fi/horror books when I get the chance. I also am an amateur artist, who listens to music 24/7. (1/?)

Hello there! Don't worry about it at all the more information on you the merrier. Reading this you honestly sound like such an awesome person to be around with and just hangout. Like I could just say something that's been on my mind for a really long time and it's pretty heavy but you completely just listen and understand. You're just someone everybody gets along with you know? Immediately when I read everything two boys came to mind instantly and though they may be the most basic answers I'd say I got the match pretty accurate. Or at least I'd like to think so lol. Thank you so much for sending this in!

I match you with Horrortale!Sans and Undertale!Sans

Alright so immediately off the bat you may be thinking 'how the fuck did I get here?' and honestly that's a valid question. You don't exactly see the two and think that they're best friends who could both share a very cute human. Axe reflects Sans in such a way that really disturbs him. If the human just made one different decision Sans would've been left in the underground to starve with every other monster. He also isn't very fond of how Crooks appears and it kind of haunts him that in another timeline he failed Paps. Axe on the other hand isn't fond of Sans because he feels like he always acts high and mighty. He doesn't like how Sans can sit around and act like Axe is some sort of freak when Sans isn't even a completely innocent monster himself. He just acts like a lazy idiot but he isn't. It also doesn't help that whenever Axe looks at Sans he's just reminded of how his Frisk wronged him. He's reminded that he isn't the monster he used to be because of the head injury he endured and the hardships underground. As mentioned before, one wrong move and at the end of the day Sans and Axe are one of the same. They both reflect the parts of each other that they would rather live without confronting.

There's immediately a lot to unpack here from the start. Getting the two to even begin to compromise on a poly relationship with you is admittedly going to be a challenge. It would require you to be able to firmly hold your ground and get them to sort their shit out. It's a lot of conversation and trust needed in order for this to work out. In the end, they both come to the compromise after a lot of discussion and setting boundaries of what is and isn't alright with them. Sometimes they might clash a bit and have those issues resurface (its very rare since both skeletons when needed are amazing at concealing their emotions) and you'll need to act as the middleman. At the end of the day it's all worth it to them just to see you happy.

Let's start off first with Sans. It's amazing how I've gone on for a bit and I haven't even technically started. The fact that you don't really like going out of your way to go out unless asked to is a bit of a relief. It's not that Sans doesn't like socializing, it's just that a lot of the time he really needs a break to just relax on the couch and nap with you, you know? He's got a lot on his mind and Papyrus often scolds him for sleeping and with Grillby's it can at times be overwhelming when he just needs peace and quiet. Just knowing that his cute datemate isn't going to do any of that helps him relax. It's going to be a lot of just enjoying each other's company even if it's quiet at the start. The silence between you two isn't ever uncomfortable though, just enjoying your company is enough for him. Of course there will actually be times where he does offer you to go to Grillby's and when you say yes he's always really happy to share his favorite bar with you. When you two sit together at his usual spot it's a lot of him joking around with you and absolutely looking at you with heart eyes when he gets a certain genuine laugh out of you. He's actually teased about it a lot the few times you don't accept his offer to go to Grillby's. Sans lives to see you smile with his jokes and he just tells them that they're jealous he ended up with such a cute datemate and they didn't. If you ever find yourself exhausted and you need to go home after you're bone tired just tell him and he'll teleport you right home no hassle.

Once you reach a certain point in your relationship Sans will start to gradually accept your affection. You'll need to ease him into it, since he's really not used to anybody besides his brother showing him any sort of affection. Of course before this he's absolutely bombarding you with flirty puns numerous times but physical affection? That's going to take a while. However once he's used to it you can absolutely smother him all you want. He'll only get embarrassed if it's in a public place like Grillbys but he's good at hiding it for the most part. In front of people like his brother he'll still be a little unsure but for the most part it's like a running joke where Pap yells at him to knock it off and Sans pushes his buttons a little. It often goes a little like this:

Papyrus: SANS! I DEMAND THAT YOU UNHAND THE HUMAN THIS INSTANT!

Sans, a hand on your waist: what human?

Papyrus: THE ONE IN YOUR POSSESSION

Sans, pulling you closer: this human?

Papyrus: SANS

Sans: this one right here?

Papyrus: SANS STOP

Sans, moving his hands a little lower:

Papyrus: SANS PLEASE WE'RE SURROUNDED BY CHILDREN THIS IS A HUMAN CHILD'S 5TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

It's all in good fun and he never goes further than that. The one place he'll draw the line is if you get a little too sexual for him in public. Especially if his brother is right there. He prefers to keep that stuff just between you and him.

Okay now onto Axe! Unlike Sans, Axe would rather stay inside for the rest of his life than go outside. His appearance discourages him from wanting to do so. If you're with him this mentality will probably be projected onto you as well. He won't really ask you to go out anywhere (unless it's somewhere he specifically knows will make you happy) so in terms of that don't expect much from him. Axe is really happy that you don't really like going out either way and you'd rather spend time with him inside the house where it's safe, warm, and he can keep an eye out for you. It's comforting to him that he can know where you are and that you're happy with him. His favorite moments with you are when you've got your head in a book and he sees your face relax as you get lost in your own little world. It's just the cutest thing. Axe absolutely adores the fact that you're clingy because unlike his counterpart (assuming that at this point he obviously trusts you) it doesn't take time for him at all to want to cuddle you, hold you in his arms, kiss you, etc. He's shy about none of it. The only thing you'd really need to look out for is when you try and initiate affection yourself. It's not that it's unwelcomed; he just doesn't take surprises well due to the nature of his underground. Make sure that you let him know what's coming and you'll both be perfectly fine. During the few times that you two are in public together he's not shy about showing the world that you're his. The only time where he might ask you to step back a little is when you're with his brother. He doesn't like Crooks seeing stuff like this because he still has an instinct to protect him from things. Not that you'd ever try anything of course.

An aspect about you that both skeletons greatly appreciate is how you're very honest with the people that you love and that you act as the friend who listens. They've both found themselves in the same position as you and now that you're dating both of them it's a wonderful change of pace. You all can sit down and vent to each other instead of only listening to others rant and you all absolutely trust each other. Honesty and integrity are both traits the skeletons really look for in a datemate. There's basically no secrets between the three of you and for your skeleton boys thats definitely new for them. As for your talent with singing and art? They genuinely can't get enough of either. Whenever you draw something? Sans will literally stare and wonder how he ended up with someone as talented as you meanwhile Axe has already grabbed the drawing and put it on the fridge. If you ever try and talk yourself down both of them are immediately on your case about how you shouldn't put yourself down and that everything you make is a masterpiece. Axe will literally also ask you who the fuck made you think like that and where do they live. He isn't joking. Sans won't be as vocal about it as Axe is but he's listening in as well. With your singing they both love your voice to pieces. Sans will hype you up to every single person at Grillby's and even encourage you to let others hear your talent. If not, that's cool too. He can just sit and listen at home. Axe mostly likes to ask for you to sing to him when he's having a really rough day or when it's late at night and you're both alone. What can he say? It helps him sleep.

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katsuukiwii · 3 years

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Could I get a matchup for AOT, Black Butler and MHA, please? 😊

Personality: I push myself REALLY hard. I have a lot of willpower and am VERY stubborn. I try to be highly independent, usually to a fault. I don't like asking for help and it takes me a very long time to realize and admit I need it.

I'm distrusting and cynical and have been through a lot. I get stressed out really easy and am anxious and depressed. But my anxiety is usually hostile/aggressive. When I get anxious or stressed, I usually lash out or try to control things. When I'm depressed I usually shut down completely or dissociate really bad. (Wow this sounds so negative when I type this.)

This combination (being stubborn and refusing help, but also being very handicapped) is harmful to myself and I've begun to finally realize that. I've been gradually trying to accept help from others more and allow myself to not live up to unrealistic standards. I would need someone who is supportive of this and someone would help me stop pushing myself into oblivion.

On a more positive note, when I'm not stressed or being combative, I really love life and am one of those people that appreciates seemingly insignificant things that most people take for granted. I'm also very sensory oriented. Even something really small can greatly lift my mood, like a nice breeze or rain or a flower. I like being outside for a part of the day because of this.

I can be a little weird and don't really care too much tbh. I do weird or sometimes childish/childlike things like chase/stalk geese or immitate animal sounds. I can also be very mischievous if my mental health has been doing well for a long time and I am happy. I will pull pranks or be evasive when speaking or play (not malicious) mind games.

I also tend to love VERY deeply when I fall in love. I feel very strong emotion and affection towards that person, am fiercely loyal and am usually sacrificial to a fault for them (again, push myself too hard).

I'm easily crushed if that person I love abuses my love or neglects me.

(I also hate very intensely too and can be very petty, spiteful and vengeful. Just strong emotions, I guess.)

Sexually, I honestly can't see myself being dominant even if I tried. I probably would try, but would fall apart. I also have a very big masochistic streak. I like very intimate sex. Not necessarily soft, slow or gentle (but it could be these), just physically and emotionally intimate.

That's it cause I don't want to type too much and make this super long! Thank you very much, you are great! 😞 Matchups can be hard, I appreciate your effort!!

Matchups!

No, no, thank you for making this long! I got a lot of details from it! I appreciate the appreciation! It SOUNDS negative, but I know people PERSONALLY who have experienced similar things to you (from what I read) and have seen these sorts of things, so I hope I gave you good results! Im glad you were willing to be so open, even if it’s through anon, that stuff can be hard to talk about ^^

Attack On Titan:

I ship you with Reiner Braun!

He doesn’t know EXACTLY what you’re going through, but he does his hardest to try and understand so he can help you out. He’s dealt with some issues on his own, and knows that its no fun to experience it on your own!

Your can get aggressive, all good! Reiner knows you truly don’t mean any harm towards him, you just have a lot on your mind that you need to let out.

He wants you to come to him if anything is on your mind, good or bad! He wants you to know that he’s there for you, and that he loves you no matter what! He gets so happy when you say that you want to reach out to people, and get help

Now, onto happier things! He loves taking you on walks, especially if it’s raining! He likes to get outside too, so he doesn’t mind a bit!

He’s uh...not the smartest, so mind games can confuse him! He loves to pull pranks with you, usually on poor Connie, or Jean.

He understands that you like to be independent, but he also knows that nobody is capable of doing everything! He likes for you to admit if you need help with something, since it helps you learn, but if you refuse to he’ll just try and have you do something else while he helps. It doesn’t work often, but he still tries!

He doesn’t mind your weird side! He’ll watch you stalk geese, but won’t actually join you. It doesn’t make him ashamed, it’s just not his thing. As usual, if you REALLY want him to, he will.

BUT he does like to try and imitate animal sounds with you, he thinks if silly!

For sex, you’re submissive, all good! I picture him being more of a top anyway! So, you like something kind of rough, but intimate, and loving, and he’s totally cool with that as well! It fits him perfectly! Plus he’s a big guy, so sometimes he can unintentionally hurt you (not horribly), and he’ll apologize even if you liked it.

Aftercare g o d. Always makes sure you feel okay, and comfortable about what happened! He’ll make sure you’re nice and clean, and then give you some snuggles if you want!

Runner-Ups: Erwin Smith and Armin Arlert

My Hero Academia:

I ship you with Eijiro Kirishima!

It takes Kirishima a minute to get used to your hostility (only when you have those moments, ofc). He doesn’t really know what to do until one day, where he doesn’t force you to do anything. He speaks to you in a gentle voice,

“I’m not going to force you to do anything. But I would really appreciate it if you just....opened up to me. I’m not sure how to help you out, I need you to show me. So can we talk, please?”

You try to be more open after that, and in all honesty, it didn’t just help you, but it helped him. A LOT. He just wants to do his best for you!

Yes, maybe he has called people whiny before, but he still knows that emotions are very important. Everybody has to let them out every now and then!

He will NOT take your for granted. Not just because it’s “manly”, but because he cares so much about you, and he wants you to know that you aren’t alone!

Now, he, unlike Reiner will TOTALLY chase geese with you AND imitate animal sounds! He’s a child at heart as well. He’ll take a walk outside with you! He prefers to be inside, but he doesn’t hate it! Plus he loves to see how calm you are when letting the rain fall on our hand, on taking in the vibrant colors of a flower!

He’ll catch on to SOME of your mind games, but he can get stumped! You often pull pranks on him, and he still laughs about it and has fun! What a sweetheart!

During sex, he’s all good with being on top! He will be a bit reluctant to hurt you if you ask, but eventually you’ll make him comfortable enough to be a little rough, nothing to far though!

He IS a switch, but he’s absolutely fine with you wanting to be on bottom! The only thing is that he is very sensitive physically, so he can get vocal. SO even if he is on top, his face could be bright red with his eyes shut tight, it’s cute!

Runner-Ups: Hizashi Yamada and Shouta Aizawa

Black Butler:

I ship you with Sebastian Michaelis!

This man is probably one of the BEST options for you, honestly!

He knows just how to calm you down almost right off the bat! Of course, everybody requires a bit of adjustment, but for him it was a piece of cake!

Of course, he can get a bit annoyed if you get SUPER aggressive, but that doesn’t mean he hates you! He still cares about you so much, but it can be a lot, even for him.

He makes sure you get the help you need!

Let’s be honest, most of us know that scene with Beast. He CAN be manipulative, but he would N E V E R do it towards you. He’ll tell you and show you. So he will praise you in bed if you need it, or even if he feels like it.

You absolutely cannot play mind games with him. He’s too smart. If anything it’ll turn into him playing a (not malicious) mind game on you. He likes to tease you, but he makes sure not to take it too far!

Absolutely will not chase geese. It’s not for him. He will only do it if you wanted him to catch one. In that case, he could probably catch a few with his skills!

He doesn’t imitate animals sounds with you...in public, that is. In private, he likes to as well! He’s not quite sure why.

And now, for sex! We’ve seen the scene with the nun. This man goes HARD! Of course, he can be gentle, but it’s in his nature to be rougher than the average person. If you want him to be gentle, he will. BUT if you do want a little pain he is totally down. Definitely a sadist. He fine with you being on bottom!

Runner-Ups: Adrian Crevan and Claude Faustus

#matchups #aot matchup #mha matchup #black butler matchup #liv ships you with ___!

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Password: No offense, but you're really looking good today

To: Anyone I guess, but preferably Izuru, Celeste, and/or Mikan

TWs: Hopelessness(?), numbness/repression(?)

Where do I even begin? Well, I gotta start somewhere. Ah, sorry in advance if this becomes too long and I end up becoming too much though... oh, and, um, just call me RiRi, okay?

These past few months, I've been experiencing a depressive episode that's been slowly but surely getting worse. And nowadays, even when I have good moments or even really good days, it either gets ruined or it just... completely vanishes for no reason, y'know? It's like the depressive episode is this weird, black slug monster within me that absorbs whatever positive feeling I'm, well, feeling, even if nothing bad is happening or is going to happen whatsoever. It's almost like flicking a light switch to the 'Off' end. I chalk it up to mood swings/dips, to which, is something I've been experiencing more frequently as of this past month or so.

Like for example, I had a really amazing day yesterday! I went out shopping with just my mom, we went out to eat, we had a fun time overall, and it was just... amazing. Once I arrived back to my house, I was just immensely happy stimming/fidgeting hours afterward. Today [the next day] though? Almost a complete 360: mentally/emotionally exhausted, dull, almost numb even, wanting to just lay in bed and not get up. Online classes are a pain, excuse of a family's a pain, everything's just a pain. I'm not exactly feeling s*icidal; just completely dull. Ironically enough, I feel like a walking Izuru, just without the God complex powers.

I just feel like I'm way broken beyond repair, and that sooner or later, I'm going to become too much to those who care about me and try to help me, especially since I have Major Depressive Disorder, anxiety (generalized and social), some suspected ADD (not suspected by me, but by my counselor), and now, some suspected bipolar (whether it's just general bipolar or perhaps bipolar depression is unknown. Bipolar does sort of run in my bloodline though, to be fair). And I'll admit, nowadays, my anger issues are more frequent and current. One person who I care about so much has made their fear clear when my anger becomes a total wildfire, and has told me whenever I get that mad that they're going to leave me alone until "the old RiRi comes back", which not only stabs me in the heart, but angers me even more. I understand why they say that though; I don't want to hurt anyone else. Not again.

Wow, this is... becoming too long and sort of off track, ain't it? I'm sorry; I'll just try to wrap this up here. I don't know what I want. I'm not too big on advice; I'm normally into wanting to be left alone or just wanting someone's company (basically, talk to me about anything but whatever's bringing me down or such). So I guess just a hug will do? I... really did outdo myself here; I'll go ahead and stop now. I tend to ramble and have the habit/mindset that if I don't explain to the fullest, the other person(s) won't have a full, clear understanding. Sorry again, and I hope everyone has a lovely day.

~ RiRi

This is not your first visit here, RiRi. One such as I can sense this. You are always welcome to say as much as needed.... So your Sunday was possibly an amazing day, daresay it was one of the best days of your life, and from Monday onwards, things went south. You’re low in the depths of misery and despair. The level of change is quite fast.

You mention someone very close to you often decides to keep distance at your negative moments, the moments when you are most in need of aid. While it can be seen as a heart-wrenching act, it may be possible that your ally was to ensure that in the moment of struggle, they refrain from saying anything regrettable. A possible outcome, one of many. Do not think ill of them for doing so, the people you are with, they care immensely for you, in a way you will never understand nor see.

Above all, you asked for a hug. I can only tell you to keep living, and to avoid doing anything rash again. I cannot enforce you to promise that, but remember that there are those who love you, even when you think otherwise. Doubt them, and you will only sustain more pain. So have hope.

- Oh goodness, isn't this a long one. Alright my dear, I'll be sure to give my full effort. RiRi is a lovely name, and there's no need to apologize. You're not too much at all! I'm happy to help. A black slug monster is quite the descriptive way to describe depression. I quite like it, and it's a perfect representation. That emotional back and forth must be exhausting, I'm sorry you have to go through that. I've heard of that happening before, and its even happened to me before, so I can understand how you feel. I am quite pleased to hear that you had a good day. Days like those are always wonderful things, even when we're going through a dark time. I think you may have been emotionally exhausted the next day, but I am obviously not a professional, so don't take my word for it.

Hmm, yes those feelings of dullness are terrible, although I am glad to hear that you aren't feeling suicidal. Yes, that state does remind me of Izuru. I'm very sorry you're going through this. You're not broken beyond repair my dear, that's not the case at all. Everyone has their diagnoses, but that doesn't mean you're broken or beyond repair. Yes, I would say that there are some emotional issues, but that does not make you broken, or place you beyond repair. You're never going to be too much. The people that truly care for you would never abandon you for reasons such as that. I think it's a good thing that you already have some finalized and suspected diagnoses. That might help the treatment and help target more of the specific issues.

Yes, I can speak on anger issues, I unfortunately have experience. Personally, I do not like the statement your friend used. While anger can be scary, saying something like that is quite hurtful, and I do understand how that hurt you. Can you tell when those anger flashes are coming on? I would try to learn to recognize them, and potentially separate yourself from others when you feel one happening. While I think your friend should protect themselves, that wasn't the best way to phrase it. It's very kind of you to worry about others. Learning to recognize when these shifts are coming could help you avoid hurting others unintentionally. Practice makes perfect though, so be prepared for that. It's alright, most people tend to ramble while they are venting, I was still able to understand what you are saying. In all honesty, I would say exactly what you've said here to your counselor. Make sure they know about these mood shifts, and they may be able to do more on their end. Everything I've said is a suggestion, so take it or leave it my dear. I just wanted to make sure that I had plenty of things to say to you, since an ask of this length certainly deserves it.

Again, there is no reason to apologize, and it's ok to not know what you want. I understood what you were saying perfectly, so there's no need to worry about that. I may have outdone myself on this response, so we're in the same boat together, aren't we my dear? I'm certainly happy to give you a hug. Angry or not, you're a lovely, wonderful person RiRi. You are not broken, and you are not beyond repair. We all have our struggles in life, and some are just more prominent than others. I hope you have a lovely day as well, but you're not allowed to leave until I give you a hug!

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popatochisssp · 5 years

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Poppy your daimond au is giving me life! I love how they all fit into their different roles so well and now I'm wondering what their auras(?) would be like since diamond don't seem to have gem weapons so much as pure manifestations of energy? Not to mention those seaglass and diamond interactions are just (~˘▾˘)~ tres fantastique. (Plus you found a way to make the boys even bigger and I am WEAK!!)

Oh dude, same, just give me the biggest of bois and I will fold every time like a crappy house of cards hgfsfdghg…….

As for powers, I imagine they can all fire laser blasts (like the canon diamonds in SU all seem to be able to!), but their auras…

:3c

Sans (Undertale): When Blue Diamond tells everybody to chill out and they don’t, he doesn’t need to ask twice. His aura is very calming and peaceful, to the point that you could be as mad as you’ve ever been and then suddenly wonder what you could’ve possibly been fighting about a moment later. He likes to give rowdy or aggressive gems the chance to do it on their own before forcing the issue, so he tends to ask once and then, well…he gave fair warning.

Papyrus (Undertale): There’s a reason Orange Diamond is the one giving most of the speeches, when a speech is necessary– his aura is just as likely as his inspiring words to get the listener all fired up and excited, provided they happen to be physically present at the time. He’s really only peripherally aware that he has this power, though, and since most of his speeches end up broadcast across the universe without his aura and still end up well-received, it doesn’t have all that much practical use. If any gem ever needs a supernaturally rousing pep-talk, though, he’s your Diamond!

Sky (Underswap Sans): Yellow Diamond…doesn’t like to use his aura, on anyone, ever. He’s only ever used it twice, mostly on accident, and as far as he can tell, it improves gems’ moods. A lot. Which doesn’t sound so bad, until you have a bunch of gems beaming at you, ready and willing to do anything you say, like some kind of…really creepy forced-happiness-daze of idolatry. He likes to see gems happy, he really does, but not like that, it’s a hard pass from him! The gems that follow his orders do so because they respect his authority, not because they have no other choice, and if his court is happy it’s because he’s doing a good job setting and actualizing goals for the Empire. He takes great pride in that!

Paps (Underswap Papyrus): Green Diamond is the one you want around if you have limited gems, an urgent task, and a nigh impossible deadline because his aura is rejuvenating. Not a hard reboot or anything so extreme, but even without the need for food and water, gems still get worn down and tired when worked hard without a break of some kind… unless he’s around, in which case even the most overworked gem can perk right back up like they’d reformed fresh. He tries to make time where he can to spread the wealth, so to speak, among the gems of his court and it’s probably part of the reason he can ensure so much work gets done without doing all that much himself.

Jasper (Underfell Sans): Red Diamond’s aura is maddening…not in that it causes insanity, but a far more literal state of being mad. When he unleashes his aura, it triggers a beserker-like state in the gems around him and makes them fight on the battlefield with intense ferocity and single-mindedness. In the event of his opponent being a gem as well, you’d think it would be less desirable a tactic to use, but actually he prefers it– mindless rage is easier for him to predict than subterfuge and tricks are, and it’s even easier to counteract. It’s a greater boost to his ego to win battles and wars without having to rely on it, but he won’t hesitate either.

Pyre (Underfell Papyrus): Black Diamond’s aura is one that inflicts fear, a general feeling of foreboding and terror. Those hit with it either freeze completely or panic and run off rather than face the doom they’re suddenly certain is coming if they stay where they are even a moment longer, and as you can imagine he uses the ensuing chaos and scattering to great advantage. He hardly ever uses it at all, though, and considers it both a crutch and an absolute last-ditch effort. He prides himself most on his tactical mind, after all, and just scaring the hell out of everybody feels like cheating.

Mal (Swapfell Sans): Purple Diamond’s aura can be quite insidious. Even though the room has just been bathed in purple light, it doesn’t seem as though anything’s happened… at first. You feel the same, your body moves and functions normally, you can’t imagine what’s supposed to have happened until he asks you a question and you answer it– with the whole, uncensored truth and then some. His aura demands perfect honesty and not even the most subtle half-truth or obfuscation can get around it. Naturally, if you have something to hide, Purple Diamond’s court is not the one you want to serve in.

Rus (Swapfell Papyrus): Violet Diamond’s aura is more or less a confuse ray, like slapping a pair of beer goggles on you, plugging your ears, spinning you around a couple times and then sending you to try and walk a straight line across the room. The end result is nothing less than total disorientation, which wears off quickly enough but certainly buys him time to either remove himself from a situation or retaliate. He really only uses it in emergency situations, generally willing to trust his guards as a first line of defense.

Slate (Horrortale Sans): Sleep doesn’t come all that naturally to gems, but it does if they happen to get hit by Gray Diamond’s aura. Even if they’ve never experimented with sleep before, they’ll find themselves wobbling and swaying, their eyes falling shut, everything going…dark… Depending on how powerful a pulse he sends out, you could be asleep for a few hours or a few days, but like many of the other Diamonds he neither wants nor needs to rely on his ability nine times out of ten. Easier to just give an order and have it be obeyed because he’s a Diamond, y’know?

Papy (Horrortale Papyrus): Brown Diamond’s aura can freeze you in your tracks. There’s no accompanying emotion with it, like Black Diamond’s, or a shut-down of cognitive function like Gray Diamond’s, it’s just that… your body will stop responding to the commands you give it. You’ll be stuck there, wherever you are, rooted to the ground– able to think and speak and everything but take one more step forward. When he says ‘Stop,’ you stop, and you don’t go again until he gets far enough away from you or intentionally dispels his aura. He mostly only uses it for peacekeeping purposes, making sure nobody gets hurt or keeping situations from escalating unnecessarily.

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