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la-dahlia · 1 year
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FBI | 5x09 
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themoonking · 2 years
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i understand that if you’re sapphic and also incredibly and unironically into the mcu like i was a few years ago then the hand kiss from love and thunder might seem like a big deal and might make you feel really good but. it’s nothing. it’s literally fucking nothing. it’s a few seconds with an unnamed character and then valkyrie talks about her dead, also unnamed girlfriend for a bit. there are movies and television shows and books and idk podcasts that actually feature sapphic characters and/or relationships. you cannot, should not, and do not have to rely on the fucking marvel cinematic universe for queer representation. and the mcu should not be praised for “steps in the right direction” or whatever when we have actual representation elsewhere, and they are the ones lagging behind.
#yes this is somewhat paraphrasing another post (that i already reblogged) but#idk its just that as someone who used to be an mcu stannie who wanted gay rep from it i understand where the people#who are hyped about love and thunder are coming from but also like. they're really just deluding yourselves.#and if you just love popcorn entertainment so much there's stuff that isnt 'pretentious' bc i know some tumblr folks hate art /hj#like there's but i'm a cheerleader (a cultural reset) more recently there's first kill#i promise you that there is actual tangible sapphic representation that will fit your tastes you do not have to rely on the fucking mcu#for your queer rep#and you also SHOULDNT#anyway this is why i feel a similar way about baymax cartoon trans man like. there's actual trans representation elsewhere#yes there isn't a lot but it exists and its better than this#we don't have to give disney this much credit when they want us dead#people act like this is the first time trans characters/queer characters in general have been done when it isnt#its just the first time DISNEY has done it#disney does not care about us and just wants our money i stg get that in your heads before you freak out over#the next disney's first gay character that comes around#also side note that i already said in the tags of another post but#a character doesn't have to be actively in a queer relationship to be 'good queer representation' but#that doesnt mean that valkyrie is good queer representation#especially compared to everything else that's available#like besties maybe val would be good sapphic rep fifteen years ago??? 🤨#i speak#mcu#mcu critical#thor love and thunder
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gabigabigabby · 7 months
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ryder cup | l. norris
part 2 of all the love in rome
lando norris x sainz!reader
the landosainz saga
a/n: ryder cup content here!!! y/n and lando have my heart fr
synopsis: y/n and lando show up to support carlos in the ryder cup
face claim: sophia weber
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ynsainzzz golf sister & girlfriend 🤷🏼‍♀️⛳️🏌️
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landonorris Passenger princess 🫶🏻
ynsainzzz landonorris the most patient
landonorris Sorry for being annoying today 😘
ynsainzzz landonorris at least you realize 🤷🏼‍♀️
carlossainz55 I think you should learn how to play sometime
ynsainzzz carlossainz55 just because i tag along doesn't mean i'm interested carlitos. but if you care, maybe sure
francisca.cgomes wish i was w you, i feel your pain 😭
ynsainzzz francisca.cgomes i knoowww, i miss you
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ynsainzzz pierregasly real
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username my brother better become a formula 1 driver sooner than later i stg 😤
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ynsainzzz's story
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landonorris Took the prettiest girl out tonight (:
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ynsainzzz i guess flattery is now the way to my heart 🤍
francisca.cgomes ynsainzzz does that mean i have a chance?
ynsainzzz francisca.cgomes you've always had a chance bbg
ynsainzzz love you, last lap lando 😚
landonorris ynsainzzz love you more princesa 🥹
carlossainz55 Leave her alone she's an independent woman
ynsainzzz carlossainz55 is this your way of asking me to come back to ferrari
pierregasly Gotta do it for the aesthetic huh bro 😂
landonorris pierregasly blame Y/N 😭
carlandoy/n seeing landosainz on my timeline >>
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ynsainzzz you're not as bad as i thought you'd be, rome. tornerò ❤️🇮🇹
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landonorris I am so cute wow
ynsainzzz landonorris real talk‼️
carlossainz55 Thanks for coming hermanita 🫡
ynsainzzz carlossainz55 love you hermano😘
francisca.cgomes prettiest girl there 🧡🧡
ynsainzzz francisca.cgomes i love you
heidiberger_ wish i was there!!!!
ynsainzzz heidiberger_ me too! 😭😭
charlottesiine miss you 🤍🤍
ynsainzzz charlottesiine me too omds 🥹🥹
pierregasly Miss you dude, see you in Qatar
ynsainzzz pierregasly you will 😚
charles_leclerc Post more Ryder Cup stuff
ynsainzzz charles_leclerc i'll leave that to your world champion landonorris
username y/ncarlos heals my heart 🥹🥹
carlandoooo that carlando pic💔💔
ln4updates too much for my small heart to handle
danielricciardo Wished I could've joined you guys
ynsainzzz danielricciardo miss you danny🥹
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dellalyra · 9 months
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𝙛𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙 - 𝙛𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨
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A/N: request from my wife @soraya-daydreams - this is almost crack I stg.
Summary: The kids try edibles. Yuuji - maybe went overboard.
CW: the kids do edibles, swearing, crackfic, one or two suggestive sentences idk. mdni shoo go away
“But where would we even get it? It’s not like I have many drug dealing contacts.” Nobara hisses, as the three first years discuss their plans in a secluded part of the grounds.
“Fushiguro - your parents would definitely know where to get some, why don’t we ask them?” Itadori pokes his boyfriend’s shoulder.
“Yeah they probably would, but they don’t do that shit anymore - Dad never could because of … all the eyes. Plus, with Akio being so young I don’t want them to have something to worry about if they start to fuss over us all smoking.” Megumi muses.
“Valid - when we started dating your Dad gave me lube and condoms and asked if I needed the sex talk, I think I died again that day.” Itadori nods, solemnly.
“Back to the issue at hand! Where do we obtain one bag of weed?” Nobara says, hands slapping the desk she sits at.
The three first years had decided that they wanted to do teenage stuff - since their lives were so crazy, Megumi was a potential heir for a large Sorcerer family and the son of the strongest sorcerers alive - Itadori was Sukuna’s vessel and Nobara was well on her way to a first grade, as well as the issues with being a young woman in sorcery. Because of their guardians (self-appointed) being as chill as they were, they didn’t really have anything to rebel against, so there was no point in sneaking out when they can just say where they are going with a ‘text when you get there’ from Y/N. There was no point in trying to sneak their parents alcohol, because there’s a ‘you can drink with us, or under our roof safely’ policy in place too. There was no secret dating, Itadori and Megumi were together already and Nobara… well, she hoped it wouldn’t be long before a certain Zen’in girl realised she was crazy about her. So that left smoking a joint, but Itadori said he had tried a cigarette before and hated it when he was at a party in school and Nobara didn’t want to smoke and stain her nails - so it was decided Yuuji would make brownies… special brownies.
“We could ask someone? Todo, maybe?” Yuuji suggests, before being answered with a unanimous ‘absolutely not’.
“I don’t know anyone else we could ask for weed from!” He responds, his sole idea shut down.
“You guys need weed?” A voice asks from behind them.
In the archway to the part of the garden stands a tall, beautiful woman with long blonde hair - holding a motorbike helmet under her arm and smiling.
Megumi thought he knew the woman from somewhere, photos maybe? Or was she at the wedding?
“Tsukomo-san! It’s - absolutely amazing to meet you!” Nobara says, shooting up from the bench.
“Wait - Yuki Tsukomo?! Who was Todo’s mentor?!” Yuuji adds.
“Ah, so you know that little knucklehead. Crazy kid, whole lotta balls I’ll tell ya that much. So - you guys need weed?” She says, leaning against the arch and shoving her hand into a pocket inside the jacket, before producing a small bag of greenery from inside.
“Eh! It’s - not what you think, we’re not - wait, is that weed? You have some?” Nobara asks.
“Sweetheart, I’ve travelled the world and back twice, of course I have some good - here, take this - share with the boys if you want.” She says, winking at Nobara who, for the first time in 6 months, swoons over someone who isn’t Maki Zen’in. Yuuji doesn’t fare much better.
She turns to leave, but gets caught by the sight of the boy beside Sukuna’s vessel.
“Holy shit, kid. Frightened the fuck outta me, fuckin’ clone of your old man.” She says, surveying him.
His head snaps to look at her.
“You knew him?” He asks.
“Yeah, cool guy - pretty fucked up, but still pretty cool. If ya ask me, you were way better off with the Jujutsu Royals - Y/N’s a badass, love that lil’ lady. The beanstalks alright, too - got some talent. She have the baby yet?” She asks, as she clips her bike helmet on.
“Um, yeah. He’s 10 months old now, just started walking.” He says, flabbergasted by this woman.
“Sick one, tell her good job from Yuki. Enjoy kids.” She says, and saunters away - and second later they hear the rumble of an engine.
The three are silent for a minute.
“What the fuck just happened?” Yuuji asks.
“Um… a special grade sorcerer just gave us a bag of weed.” Nobara says, equally as confused.
“I’m too tired for this shit. C’mon, let’s go inside.” He says, as they all begin making their way to the dorm rooms.
“Bone apple feet!”
Yuuji plops a plate of really delicious looking brownies down on the desk in front of his two fellow first years.
“So… do we just… eat a brownie each?” Nobara asks.
“Well, I made 6! So there’s 2 for each of us? Or we could ask the second years -” Yuuji is cut off.
“Ask the second years what?” Came the voice of Maki Zen’in from the doorway.
“Oh! Are they brownies?!” Panda asks, immediately making a beeline.
“They’re eh… special brownies.” Megumi nods.
“Shit - you kids make edibles?” Maki asks, a pleased smirk on her face.
“Do you guys want some?” Yuuji asks.
“Shake!” Inumaki says, sliding past Panda to grab a brownie as he turns away to pull his mask down and eat.
Maki looks at Nobara, who flushes and smiles, as Maki takes a seat on the bed beside her and takes 2 brownies - passing one to the flustered girl beside her.
Yuuji and Panda go next, each almost devouring their brownie in one bite - with Megumi taking his and deciding that you actually can’t taste the weed.
They all sit there for a few minutes.
“Yuuji - are you sure you put enough in? I’m not feeling anything?” Megumi asks, perplexed by the lack of effect.
“Well, I used the whole bag - but it was pretty small I guess.” They all just sit and chat together until out of the blue, a highly unusual sound comes from the corner of the room.
Inumaki was hysterically laughing at his phone, tears streaming down his face.
He spins the phone around, and immediately Maki and Megumi lose it laughing - true, belly shaking laughter from both the ex-Zen’in’s.
The video in question that made them all lose it was a man doing a voiceover on a video of a bird.
Maki’s laughter doesn’t seem to disturb the girl beside her, who - apparently within the last 30 seconds - passed out asleep, drooling on Itadori’s shoulder, and cuddling his arm.
Itadori on the other hand, had never looked so serious in his life. In his head, he was desperately trying to answer the universe’s biggest questions.
Are we alone in the universe? Is there other intelligent life? What is life, what are we here? Are human’s the true villains? Which Disney villain has the best fashion sense? Who closes the bus door after the driver gets off? Is this a simulation, am I being controlled by a greater being? What is God, was Ariana correct - is God a woman?
His mind was running through every profound thought a man could ever have, the universe’s question’s suddenly becoming his main goal and a quest only he can achieve.
Megumi’s interest in the multitude of videos that had Maki doing impressions of birds and Inumaki cackling had dwindled, growing distracted by the beautiful boy in front of him. Yuuji was so pretty, so perfect, so kind and so sexy. That thought flushed through his mind as the memories of times they had… ‘spent the night’ together made him giggle like a schoolgirl and flush bright red. He made his way over to Yuuji and sat himself on his lap, stroking his hair and pressing kisses to his cheeks.
“I love you, Yu - you’re so pretty. I wanna be your husband someday and I’ll help you make meatballs every night and we can get a dog.” Megumi started his enamoured rant, as he realised he’d never said these things out loud before and wondered why the hell hasn’t he? They’ve been dating for 4 months now, he must have just forgotten. He continued gushing over his boyfriend and pressing kisses to his nose and cheeks - Yuuji was externally smiling and had the Nobara free hand wrapped around his love’s waist but inside his mind was a whirlwind.
Is the s or the c in scent the silent letter? How does glue not stick to the bottle? What is colour? How many holes does a straw have? Is this real - am I real?
Panda, on the other hand - had never felt more paranoid in his life. This room, eyes everywhere. They we’re watching him, the walls we’re watching him. He abruptly stood up and stumbled to the door, and tried the handle.
It didn’t budge.
(It was just locked, he just needed to slide the lock.)
He tried again.
Nothing.
By now he was panicking and pulling at the door with all his might. He was Panda - he will not be imprisoned! So he did the only thing he knew and slammed his way through the door. It flew off its hinges and lay in two pieces on the hallway floor.
In the corridor, looking at a cheering Panda, running away and chanting ‘freedom’ - stood a tall, white haired man and his wife.
They just exchanged looks with each other before poking their heads into Nobara’s dorm room - where they had originally planned to knock.
They both surveyed the scene in front of them for a moment, before you just whispered:
“What the fuck…?” Your voice alerted the kids who all immediately froze.
“Is this opposites day? What’s going on here, kiddos?” Satoru asks, leaning against the wall.
“Nothing! Nothing is going on! We’re just - we’re having a girl’s night!” Yuuji spouted.
“Yeah! A girl’s night.” Megumi agreed.
As you both looked at all of them, you poked Satoru and pointed to your eyes - desperately trying not to laugh. The red eyes and droopy faces and flushed cheeks were painfully obvious and highly recognisable from your school days.
The kids were high as shit.
“Oh - what are you all doing?” Satoru says, thoroughly enjoying torturing them all.
“We’re eh - Nobara and I - we’re talking about boys! Crushes on boys and things. Penis talk.” Maki tries to explain.
Inumaki can’t deal with this and can’t hold back his laughter as Maki says ‘penis talk’ he loses his mind and flops laughing onto the desk.
“Maki honey, you’re a lesbian.” You say, and she raises her eyebrows - forgetting the ultimate flaw to her excuse being that she has no more interest in penis possessing men than she does going on a date with a curse.
“Also - Nobara doesn’t look like she’d make for a great conversation right now.” Satoru smirks, looking at the slightly snoring Kugisaki.
“Yuuji? Megumi?” You say, excited to hear what they say.
“I am doing homework! Studying, learning about eh - curses.” Yuuji says, picking up a blue object from beside him.
“Oh? I didn’t think you could do homework on a Nintendo Switch?” Satoru can’t help it now, the frantic excuses might be the highlight of his week.
“I do my homework beside a switch everyday.” Megumi says, smirking a provocative smile and pinching his boyfriend’s cheek.
That’s the final straw for you and Satoru who can’t help it anymore and the dam breaks.
You fall into him, head in his chest as he almost collapses from crippling laughter as you all survey the whacked out teenagers.
“Shit, ‘toru - were we all the obvious?” You ask, wheezing.
“God no - you guys were way better, how high are you?!” He asks, tears falling from behind his blindfold.
“I’m 5ft 11 inches.” Megumi says, smiling brightly and patting the top of his head.
That sets you both off again.
“Oh fucking hell, this has gotta be edibles.” You say, trying to catch your breath.
“That’s a fun word - isn’t it, edibles? ED - IB - LES. edi-bles. Wait - am I saying that right? Hold on, am I talking or is this in my head?” Maki considers.
Megumi stands up at this point, and puts a hand each on you and Satoru’s shoulders.
“Mom. Dad. You guys - you guys. You’re awesome. I love you both, Mom you are so badass and scary and you give the best cuddles and shit! You made a baby a while ago and then like? You can make flowers kill people? That’s so awesome. Dad you’re like, an idol, you’re so cool and it’s so fun that you have so many eyes, you’re like a spider! And I like your fancy hair.” He says, before throwing his arms around you both and hugging you tight into him.
Who the fuck was this kid?
You pet his head and thank him, and Satoru says that you both love him too - and that he also likes his fancy hair as he desperately tries not to laugh.
You notice Yuuji is deep in thought.
“You okay, Yuu?” You ask.
He looks at you, the most contemplative look you’ve ever seen on anyone.
“Is a gingerbread man made of house? Or is a gingerbread house made of flesh?” He asks, eyes wide with realisation.
You and your husband sit on the bed, megumi curling back up in Yuuji’s lap as Maki and Toge continue cackling over videos of dumb animals.
You settle in, Satoru’s arm around you.
There’s no way in hell you’re missing this show.
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softlyspector · 2 years
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can you do prompt 11 with jake lockley pls 💗
"did you bring a jacket?" / "no" / "here, take mine." + Jake Lockley
a/n: something about jake that just drives me up a wall i stg.
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"Y'know," you poke Jake in the side, "you really didn't have to come with me, Lockley."
"And let you handle this alone, hermosa? Nah." He shrugs his shoulder, reaching up with his free hand to pull his hat down over his eyes. "Someone's gotta do the heavy lifting.”
You roll your eyes, sneaking a glance at Jake from the corner of your eye. "I would manage just fine. I'm not that delicate," you snort, squeezing his bicep where your hand is tucked into his elbow. "They're just pumpkins."
Jake winkles his nose, glancing down at the wet grass you're walking through, yellowed and tramped down from the many feet that walked the path from the car park to the pumpkin patch before you, a layer of rusted brown leaves sticking up in clumps. "Don't I know it. Could have just went to the store."
"And where's the fun in that?" You pinch him gently. "Steven would have come with me you know. If you didn't want to."
Jake frowns at you, his shoulders stiffening just a little as his expression freezes carefully in place. "Oh yeah? I thought you wanted to surprise him."
"I do. Could have surprised him with a pumpkin patch trip," you say, not sure what to make of his reaction.
"Got him wrapped around your finger, huh."
It isn't a question, and the mood between your sours just a bit. There's a bite of something in his voice that you can't quite put your finger on. But it's icy, and it makes your chest contract.
It's always like this with you and Jake, fine one moment, sticky with something unsaid the next. But you're never quite sure what the unsaid thing is.
You decide not to answer, pressing your lips together, feeling once again like you were in Jake's way, like he barely liked you, only tolerated you for the sake of his alters.
The irritation in your belly curdles into melancholy. You don't have the energy to keep up with Jake's moods, but you do knock his hand out of the way when he tries to pay at the wooden entry stand.
He stares at you as you hand over your own money, the person manning the standing handing back your change without comment, eyes flicking between the two of you.
You just smile, take your change and the two baskets you paid for and move along, not waiting to see if Jake will follow you.
He does, but he doesn't speak to you. Jake follows a couple feet behind you, collar of his jacket popped up around his ears, cap pulled low over his eyes so you can see his gaze.
The strained feeling clawing at your chest only grows, until you can't really enjoy the outing at all, until you feel like you can't really breathe. You find yourself walking blindly past rows and rows of pumpkins until you reach the back of the patch and meet the start of the apple orchard.
You stare confusedly at the trees for a moment, the scent of apple and wet leaf spinning through the air.
Pumpkins.
You are here for pumpkins.
But if you turn Jake will be at your back, like a wraith, lurking, waiting to hit you with little bolts of unexpected hurt.
Got him wrapped around your finger, huh.
Yeah, you get it. He doesn't think you're good enough for Steven, but then why come along at all? Why offer to help you?
Pumpkins.
You are here for pumpkins.
You will decorate that damn flat no matter what Jake wants.
You will carve pumpkins with Steven, and probably even Marc if you could convince him, and Jake Lockley's distaste of you, his fickle nature when it came to you will not stop you.
When you turn, Jake is watching you, one brow lifted as he stuffs gloved hands into his jacket pockets. "You passed all the pumpkins," he says.
"I wanted to look at all of them first," you lift your chin.
He smirks at you, "Last I checked pumpkins don't grow on trees." He nods to the apple trees behind you.
"Oh? Silly me," you snark. "Sorry, I know I'm keeping you from better things, even though you offered to come."
You step around him, squishing through the wet, marshy patch again. The damp chill of the day is starting to weigh on you, and you shiver as you march ahead of Jake, actually looking at the pumpkins as you pass them this time, baskets swinging by your side.
You find a couple of little ones that will make nice decorations until you have to turn them into some kind of soup.
Jake rolls out the two big ones you choose without comment and deposits them into the baskets where you sat them on the ground. He stands guard over your stash while you look for a third. When you carry it back and set it carefully in your basket alongside the little ones, you shiver and wrap your arms around you middle.
"Okay," you start, eager to be back in the warmth of the car, eager to go back to the flat and decorate and put as much space between yourself and Jake as you can, "I think we can go-,"
"Three."
You glance away from the pumpkins and up at Jake, furrowing your brow at the expression on his face, confused, focused, wounded. "What?" You ask dumbly.
"Three big ones," he gestures to them like you can't see that there are three pumpkins. "Did you - there's an extra one."
"Extra?" You chirp, glancing down. "No, there are supposed to be three." You point at each one in turn, "Me, Steven, Marc."
"Marc?"
"Yeah," you say, curling your arms around yourself again, clutching at your ribs against the cold. "Marc pretends he hates this kind of stuff but I know he'll pout if I don't get him one to carve."
Jake blinks at you, that hurt expression flickering over his face again. "Yeah," he eventually agrees. "He would." You stand there in the cold as the autumn wind picks up, shivering, not able to piece together why something in your chest is twisting in knots, why Jake looks like you kicked him, like you kicked him on purpose.
"Jake-,"
"Are you cold?"
"What?"
He mutters something under his breath, the fiery lick of Spanish curling off his tongue. "Did you bring a jacket?"
"No," you answer. "It's fine, let's just go-,"
But Jake is already stepping closer to you, shrugging out of his jacket to wrap around you shoulders. It’s a nice weight against you, the smell of the leather infused with something sharp and smoky emanating from the fabric. "You can take mine," he says, adjusting it around you until he's satisfied. "The car is going to be cold now too. Can't let their girl catch cold, I'll never hear the end of it."
And there it is, that sharp little barb again. Like you were a weight and a problem and something nasty on the bottom of his shoe. You step back, out of his grip and yank the coat off your shoulders. "I'm not going anywhere, you know," you snap, holding his jacket back out to him. "So you might as well stop."
Jake doesn’t say anything for a moment, surprise flickering over his face. "I know you aren't goin' anywhere, querida."
You don't ask what that word means, even though you can feel the question fluttering around the back of your throat. "Then can you either...can you make up your mind about me?" He blinks again, like he doesn't know what you're talking about. "I'm not going anywhere, Jake. And you clearly don't think I'm...you don't think I'm good enough for them."
Jake takes the jacket, swings it around your shoulders again, and tugs you close. "Ay, Dios mío, you're as blind and hardheaded as Marc sometimes." You frown and open your mouth when he continues, "I don’t want you to go anywhere. You're more than good enough. And I've already made my mind up about you."
You don't feel like you can’t breathe, a light mist starting to pepper down over you. "Oh. You have?"
"Mhm," he tilts closer to you, hands still fisted in the collar of the jacket. "Long time ago actually."
You cycle back through your memories, casting Jake's comments in another light, another tone. Maybe you misread him. He wasn't irritated, he was jealous and trying to hide it. Lonely, and trying to hide it. Hurt, and trying so desperately to hide it.
"Oh," you say again, unable to look away from his eyes. "I didn't know."
"I know," he says, "It's okay. It's better this way."
His breath ghosts over your lips, warm where the air around you is sharply, stingingly cold. The scent of him like rain and smoke and mint. You step closer to him, tipping your face up into his. "Jake, would you like a pumpkin?" Before he can answer, you continue, a torrent of words spilling out, "We can carve it together and we can decorate together and it can be a little present for Marc and Steven. Together. Me and you."
Jake tips his forehead down against yours. "Yeah," he says, the statement heavier than it should be. "I want my own fuckin' pumpkin, mi vida."
You lock your fingers through his, the soft leather of the glove comforting against your skin. "Okay."
The twitch of a smile lifts his lips, and Jake cups his free hand against the back of your neck before he kisses you.
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nonbinarydeity · 1 year
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Give Up Control
This is gonna be a lot to read but PLEASE read it, it's so important, I can not stress this enough.
Holy shit. I just completely connected to my subconscious mind. I literally heard them talking to me, saying the nicest things; I realized somewhere deep inside of me that they have my best interests in mind, and I just gave up control completely.
I'm actually in shock writing this. I didn't realize it, but doing this is actually the best thing I could have ever done for myself. In giving up control, I allowed my subconscious to literally Speedrun the process of manifesting, but it didn't manifest things, it manifested feelings and this knowledge that I am a godly being.
I cannot describe to you how good I feel. It literally feels like my trauma, my pain, my fear, etc has been washed away. The moment I gave my subconscious control, it started washing out all of my old programming and it replaced it with love and acceptance. I feel so free like? I'm so much happier than I've ever felt.
How I gave up control
So what happened was, I was trying to get into the void state, and while doing so I was letting go of my outer world. I think I was one step away from it when my subconscious mind popped into my head and started telling me what I good job I was doing, and it told me that all I had to do this whole time was let go of the outer world, thus giving up control of my reality (let go of control, whatever is attaching you to the idea of needing control, let go of it). I literally disconnected from reality while doing this. I could feel and hear it, but I knew that it wasn't nearly as real as me if that makes sense??
Then it asked me what I wanted. And I stg I was gonna say the void state but then I realized that that's what was holding me back. I wanted so much and I had no idea how to get it; trying to get it made it feel farther away so I kept trying and failing and trying and... Let's just say I've broken that cycle.
So anyways, instead of asking it for the void, I just asked what it wanted, and this wave of happiness shot through me, and I knew I did the right thing.
What happened after I let go (why I think everyone should try this!!)
My subconscious mind literally walked me through the process of letting go of my trauma you guys. Like it literally helped me get into the correct states and everything. I felt resistance to some of the stuff (literally my ego was trying to stop it, like the fear and everything yk?), but I let go of that too and let my subconscious do it's work and oh. my. god. I feel so much freer, so much more powerful, so much happier and I can't even describe it fully.
I definitely don't feel done with this process, I know I probably have a few more sessions of this to go before I'm fully healed from everything, but even in one go I feel SO MUCH BETTER (I cannot stress this enough). I know that I'm in control but I also know that when it comes to actually getting what I want, it's a higher part of me that's doing it. Like it's me in the driver's seat, but it's not this earthly me, it's beyond that.
Anyways I hope this makes sense but I swear you all HAVE to try this. Like just lay down and meditate and ask your subconscious to help you let go of your need for control, and let them guide you through everything. Don't ask for anything besides their help and let them give you what you REALLY want (to heal, to love, to be free, etc). It'll be 1000% worth it, I promise 😭💕
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Every time i look at 1992 uwe tod i come away thinking that tod just..... should be weird. We can't be having normie tods running around... I want him to be this completely inhuman figure who tries to get close to humanity (because how do you personify death??) but deeply misunderstands some things, especially things like human behaviour and emotions. Máté is good at this too, he just did it in a different way, but after those two the effect is never really potent enough again. I mean, there is something to say for prods with humanized or gentle etc tods, at least theyre doing something else than mrak seiber, but it's not quite it for me at least. He needs to be weird because Elisabeth is weird and, dissatisfied with her life, craves a poem in the flesh.
And for me personally (this is not me saying gender non conformity is weird or inhuman btw, it's not, it's just hot and looks good) i want back the mayerling dress and all that, and the actors should be styled accordingly, if he's not going to put on eyeshadow and blush and get dolled up to kill rudolf then don't fucking cast him?? There are enough musical actors out there who like straying from the mold, the overlap between drag performers and musical artists is not insignificant. Hell, if despite your best attempts macho guys are still the only guys you can find, then cast a woman (trans or cis - for a trans woman the role might be easier/not require rewrites, because of vocal range), cast a nonbinary performer. You don't really have to change stuff in the script, someone who's not a man can still be a "prince" if the styling is androgynous. It really is that simple...
also this should maybe be a separate post but 1992 is so iconic for portraying mayerling as a romance, rudolf running to embrace tod, twirly dancing, Big Damn Kiss (rudolf barely notices the actual act of shooting himself, he's so busy making out) - up until the very end, when rudolf is dumped unceremoniously on the floor. symbolism. It's such a better deeper way to tackle the subject. Suicidal ideation doesn't just beat you over the head violently, mental illness/depression lures you in with promises of a "solution" but actually only offers a miserable nothing.
This is also why it's so important for Elisabeth to get dumped on the floor as well - there's more care in that than in how Rudolf is treated, Tod is obviously distraught, but that's the point and the tragedy of the show!!!! Freedom is fleeting, dreams are fleeting, emotion is fleeting, but yearning for them is what makes us human!!
If he carries her away the moral of the story becomes "if you die you get a hot supernatural partner that's obsessed with you!!!" No!!!!!!! The romance narrative is a big lie, suicidal ideation is a big lie, history is a big lie, it's all connected, but we always cover shit up with kitsch because some people prefer a simple romantic reading to the degree that they warp the rest of the story around it. I stg people have just replaced sissi movie trilogy fairytale prince FJ (1950s) with elisabethdasmusical fairytale prince modern peugeot king mark seibert leather tod (2020s) or insert whatever other boyfriend death you prefer
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Cat Got Your Tongue? (MMO AU: Leona Kingscholar x Reader)
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Master Post for AU: (x) please read for overview and links to other parts.
a/n: Sure Leona says he doesn't like video games but this is my blog and I choose the au. I ended up having to re-write this because the original premise wasn't working but this fits Leona's vibe a bit better. Side note, but I am thinking I'll probably write a sort of part 2 for each of these once I am finished with each of the main "routes" since there was some stuff I wanted to include in this fic but cut because it didn't flow.
notes: They/Them pronouns used for Yuu, loosely inspired by Love is Hard for Otaku and crappy otome games, Leona is a junior and Yuu is a freshman in American college years, some mild Ruggie slander? (he's hustlin and bustlin) Not a lot of gaming in this one sorry.
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Sometimes Leona really hates having a functioning brain.  Maybe if he had been born comatose his family would have taken time to understand him.  Hell maybe he would have understood them.  And maybe, maybe if he’d been a bit more stupid, a bit more happy, a bit more inspiring and a bit less morose, someone would have looked his way.
Someone.  His bright green eyes settle on a desk strategically chosen in the furthest shadows of the classroom where someone sits.  They’re tired, fighting against the eight am death sentence of a class to stay awake and take notes.  Nose always at the grindstone with so little in the way of reward, just like always.  Sometimes he wonders if they’ve ever noticed his gaze, it’s been on them for a long time creating a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach he’d gladly brush off as disgust to Ruggie when pushed.  Not that Ruggie ever pushed hard over something he wasn’t getting paid for and he had enough sense not to laugh at Leona to his face.  They both knew it was worry.  It was written all over his face and twitching through his tail, they look up to meet his heavy gaze and twitch.  A smile works its way to his face involuntarily as he closes his eyes.  
He is getting tired of waiting.
~~~
[FC] <Tempura Kun> I STG IM GONNA KERMIT A FELONY
[FC] <Granny Smith> fr?
[FC] <Granny Smith> where we pullin up?
[FC] <Tempura Kun> whatever hole my Algebra TA crawled out of this morning
[FC] <Granny Smith> we pullin out (´×ω×`)
[FC] <Tempura Kun> (πーπ)
[FC] <Tempura Kun> real brave
[FC] <Tempura Kun> ur such a big man 
[FC] <Granny Smith> HEY
[FC] <Granny Smith> I thirst for the glory of combat not suicide 
[FC] <Gloomy Samurai> whisper or get in a linkshell if you’re just going to bitch and braid each other’s hair
You smother your screams with a pillow as your discord lights up with a call from Epel, which you answer quickly enough it barely gets a chance to ring.
“Just not yer day, huh?”  Epel sighs sympathetically, but you know he’s making that stupid smug face of his.  “Whatcha do this time?”  
“I accidentally gave Dr. Crewel some paperwork dad had me working on and when I tried to explain that to Leona, he laughed at me before I got it all out.”  Epel whistles.
“Did you get the papers back?”
“Yeah.”  You glare at your monitor as you settle into your desk chair.  “Would have been nice to keep my dignity though.”  Epel has enough sense to not to tease you more, just inviting you to a party and shooting a message to the guild to see if anyone is up for running a few dungeons while you stew in your frustrations, squishing your pillow and try to avoid reflecting on your day.  Realistically speaking it wasn’t that bad.  You’ve been pretty lucky in life compared to some people, as your adoptive father is so keen to remind you, he is very generous.  He’s paying for you to go to a good school (that he works for so he’s actually just paying for books), he let you keep Grim when pretty much every other foster family you were placed with tried to get rid of him, and you have a pretty solid group of friends left over from highschool.  But still, you like to think you have a right to complain about things, what sort of father makes his kid go through zoning laws under the guise  of “father child bonding time”?  And what sort of teacher’s assistant says that’s not his problem and snarks about taking off points of your actual homework?
Leona Kingscholar apparently, it’s his idea of a joke.  By the day after tomorrow he’ll be back to his lazy self, slapping a half assed grade on your homework with a bunch of snarky commentary that’s surprisingly helpful when you go to amend your notes.  Assuming he doesn’t hijack your table in the library to take a nap first.  He’s a pain in your ass, and the worst part is you really don’t know why.  Leona’s a junior, you think anyway, and outside of his job as a teacher’s assistant you don’t have any shared classes.  Epel plays on the Spelldrive team, talks him up pretty much every chance he gets, so you guess he’s pretty good at that if nothing else.  Maybe he’s mad at you on Epel’s behalf?  He invites you to their games sometimes, but you never go because you’re too afraid of the crowds.  The thought makes you huff in frustration as Rex and Snake join your party and begin bickering about what to que for; that’s between you and Epel, what’s his captain got to say about any of that?  What does he want to do, show off?
[FC] <Snake Whisper> Tempura you still good to heal?  Gran said you were stressed.
[FC] <Tempura Kun> I’ll stress more if I make you heal lol
[FC] <Tempura Kun> Thanks for asking <3
[FC] <Snake Whisper> σ(^○^)
[FC] <Snake Whisper> You’re good
You stretch and do your best to pop your neck.
Vivat Rex >> You shouldn’t stress about making him heal if you’re tired.  It’s ok to take a break.
Tempura Kun >> lol I like heals I’ll be good promise
Tempura Kun >> ty for worrying tho &lt;3 <3
Vivat Rex >> <3 ofc can’t have our only competent heals falling over dead
Tempura Kun >> HA i’m telling Nautilus u said that
Vivat Rex >> (^_~)  punk ass bitch deserves it
The instance cuts off your reply and you settle into your chair determined to enjoy the hour and a half you set aside for yourself today before you have to go back to being an overworked unpaid student.  Before you have to go back to trying to convince your friend Ruggie that you have a friend named Rex who is real and not a figment of your imagination that lives in your computer caused by dehydra- wait.  Your eye twitches settling on the date and time mocking you from the lower right of your second monitor.
“Epel.”
“Hm?”
“I need you to go wall to wall or I’m gonna be late for work.”
~~~
“Finally.”  Ruggie gives an exaggerated stretch as he yawns.  You sigh to yourself in relief that he isn’t too upset that you’re a few minutes late, you know Ruggie’s a busy guy from the few closing shifts you’ve worked together.  He’s one of the few people you feel actually respects your situation, if the side hustles he kicks your way are anything to go by anyway.  You’d hate for him to think you’re ungrateful for his help.   “I’m practically dead on my feet here, took you long enou-”  You pause in tying your apron, unsure of why he’s staring into you so disapprovingly you almost swear he’s been replaced by Leona.  Almost.  His signature laugh is too unique.
“Stuff it.”  You scowl and his laughter gets louder and it’s a wonder his tail doesn’t knock any of the cigarettes off the back counter shelves.
“Oh you look disgusting.”  He fishes his phone out of his back pocket as he clocks out, checking it just out of your view as you try to salvage your pride and settle into your seat.
“You don’t look so hot yourself either.”
“Yeah at least I don’t look like a truck hit me and backed up to make sure it finished the job.”  He looks somewhat serious for a brief second.  “When was the last time you actually ate food?”
“Before I came here?”
“Instant noodles don't count.”  Your silence is speaking volumes you don’t have the strength to combat and Ruggie sighs.
“I know I’m one to talk, but you should really get some rest.”  His lips quirk into a grin for half a second, quick enough to have missed if you had blinked as if he remembered something amusing.  “Unless you’re angling for someone to force you.”
“Like a health professional?  You know the old crow will just look for a second opinion.”  Ruggie lightly flicks your shoulder while he continues to focus on his phone on the way out the door.
“You mean thirty-second.”  He doesn’t even look up to say goodbye.  “Well I’m out!  Try not to scare off the customers.”  If you had to regularly interact with customers you would not have taken this shift.  Epel had given you a hard time about that, something about personal safety being more important than sanity.
[FC] <Granny Smith> not what I said
[FC] <Granny Smith> u should at least have someone visit when ur alone on shift
And you did sometimes.  Ace likes to drop by after practice, and Epel hadn’t said that with the intention of not showing up himself.  Jack and Deuce probably would have visited even if you were on a daylight shift, not that Jack would ever admit to checking up on you outloud.  But it was still very much only a sometimes thing, not that they didn’t care or worry they just had lives.  Most of your time at the convenience store was spent alone scrolling through magicam on your phone, only looking up to ring up a hoard of energy drinks for whoever was just as tired as you were.  Though maybe not today, Rex had tried to convince you to just call out.  He always does, complaining about how he’d have to run things with Nautilus now, but he might have had a point today.  The chair you and Ruggie snuck behind the counter is not remotely comfortable but you swear it feels like a cloud.  You tried to focus on your magicam feed, but you couldn’t even bring yourself to care about the fan art Gloomurai posted of the First Fantasia Knight Commander.  If anything it just made you sleepier, like he was personally inviting you to take a nap on his lap or something.  Your eyes shut and your phone drops out of your hand.  When you finally wake up you swear it has only been a minute at most but the smug look of your customer suggests otherwise.
“Morning sunshine.”  Leona looks painfully out of place in this shitty college convenience store.  The dingey, twitching light barely bounces off his hair and you swear his clothes have to cost more than all the electronic equipment in the place combined, maybe even more than your computer back home.  An odd thought to have, he’s literally just wearing the same kind of athleisure wear you had been wearing almost twenty minutes ago while gaming, but you recognize the branding on that shirt from a rant Ruggie went on a month ago.  Something about wondering why anyone would pay that much money to leave the house looking stupid in cheetah print.  “Are you even listening to me?”  Leona drawls, lazy and the slightest bit disappointed, he has been talking to you since you woke up you belatedly realize and completely fail to hide the fact.  Leona sighs, tail thrashing in annoyance as he moves to join you behind the counter.  “Whatever, just move over.”  You almost fall off your chair.
“What?  No no no this is an employee only zone you cannot take a nap back here.”  You have no idea how Leona is expecting to fall asleep, even if you’ve tripped over him on the campus lawn before you’re sure the green has to be more comfortable than this questionably sourced tile.  And yet he seems happy enough, bracing his back against the concrete wall as you turn your confusion back to the counter and notice a thermos that you don’t recognize next to you.
“That’s yours.”  Your head whips back around but the fucker’s eyes are closed and he looks so incredibly unbothered your loud retort dies in your throat.  He doesn’t bother to meet your piercing gaze no matter how long you stare at him, you get more of a response from the thermos when you accidentally elbow it trying to get more comfortable at the counter.  It’s a nice thermos, one of those expensive insulated things that cost a ridiculous amount of money, in a bright yellow that nicely compliments the royal looking lion sticker stuck to it.  There are a few other stickers, the NRC logo, a Spelldrive team logo, and a reaper job icon.  The last sticker makes you smile, you’re pretty sure you linked a similar looking sticker to Rex in the guild discord a month ago, the design included a silhouette of the cowboy hat from the class armor set behind the icon just like this sticker.  Exactly like this sticker, you realize as your tired eyes settle on the artist’s signature.  The shop bell rings you to attention, a significantly less interesting customer enters the store and you try to shove your rising panic to the back of your mind and try to focus on doing your job.
Leona’s annoyed sigh goes completely unnoticed.
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“You aren’t going to tell Crowley I slept through most of my shift right?”  You have to be pushing things, Leona hates repeating himself and this is the third time you’ve asked him.  Leona had insisted on staying with you until the end of your shift, you had insisted he had better ways to spend his night but admitted, when he had explicitly asked, that no you weren’t uncomfortable with his presence just didn’t want to be an inconvenience.  That made him laugh, not unlike the little exchange you’d had this morning, but this time he had actually entertained your attempts at talking to him.  Until the time came to leave and he offered to walk you home.  Leona seeing you asleep at your shitty job was bad enough, the thought of that ramshackle house made your stomach tie up in all sorts of knots.  “I know you probably don’t see it as a big deal-”
“Because it’s not.”  He snorts.  “Really who do you think you’re trying to impress?”  You wince, Leona swings the thermos with that taunting sticker just out of view, as you huddle into yourself and he sighs stopping under a street light and turns you to face him.  “No seriously, just who are you trying to impress?  You’re always working to the point you’ve practically stopped being yourself.  It’s annoying.”  
“Well what’s it to you?”  You huff and Leona doesn’t bother to immediately answer.  Your eyes drift back to the sticker on his thermos.  
“Maybe I like playing games with you.”  His voice and face are uncharacteristically soft, but still unnervingly intense.  He doesn’t bother specifying what he means, almost like he’s daring you to ask first so he can make fun of you for thinking Rex was anyone other than him this whole time.  “Maybe I like Yuu enough that I want to spend just a little more time with them and not this weird zombie who doesn’t know the way back to their own house.”  
“Oh please-” you roll your eyes and turn back to the road only for your retort to die in your throat.  You are not, in fact, headed towards the haunted mansion.  This road, this stupid street light, is next to a diner you know the college sports teams like to go to after games.  Leona, gently, tugs you by the sleeve of your jacket towards the door.  “Hey, I can’t afford-”
“Oh don’t misunderstand we ain’t here for you, I was just feeling a bit hungry.”  The smug bastard doesn’t even pretend to hear your protests as he pushes his way into the diner and doesn’t wait to be seated.  He just drags you towards the back of the diner shooting you a truly catlike smirk over his shoulder.  “Of course if I have something left over, we can share.  Maybe if you play nice you can get your own straw.”  He spins you into the booth across from him, and despite what he literally just said shoves the plastic menu back into your hands when you try to hand it back to the clearly amused waitress.  
“How long have you known I was...”  You feel stupid even trying to broach the topic, there’s a pretty clear line you don’t cross when making online friends.  It’s even in the guild rules, you’re pretty sure “don’t ask for anyone’s IRL info” is probably Gloomurai’s life motto.  But Leona doesn’t seem to care, which you suppose is in line with what you know about Rex.  His laid back attitude was what had made him the most approachable out of all your guildmates, not that you would ever have thought to apply such a description to Leona.  If anything he seems confused why you’re so shy about talking, like he’s known who you are the whole time and that’s why he spent so much time pinging you in game or why he decided to spend his night keeping you company. 
“Maybe I like playing games with you.”  Something starts curling up in your stomach at the thought that he just might have, if Leona notices you loosening your jacket to release some steam he pretends not to notice.
“Epel mentioned he was gonna try to get you into the guild.”  Well that’s news to you, looks like someone is going to get yelled at later tonight.  “I didn’t expect you to be so excited about healing, but I ain’t complaining, it was cute and now I don’t have to take Naut’s shit outside of raids.”   Cute.  You intake a sharp breath and Leona definitely notices your nerves, clearly planning to press the point unless you can cut him off from the chase.
“W-what exactly do you have against Nautilus anyway?”  With the way Leona’s face wrinkles you idly wonder if he knows who Nautilus actually is too, or if he’s just displeased that the focus is no longer on him.  “He’s not bad at his role.”  
“Naut pays too much attention to pointless shit.  Sure he’s good but it’s not like he does world firsts or anything.”  Neither does Rex but that does seem to be besides the point when he’s paying for your dinner, especially now that it’s in front of you.  Diner food might not be the healthiest but Ruggie really was right about instant noodle not counting as a meal.  “You know he and Snake used to bitch at each other while they were supposed to be doing callouts?  Had whole ass arguments over cooking instead of calling out shackle timing.  Gloom and Musclered never stopped ‘em either since it was ‘funny.’”  They still do, just in discord and not while you run things.  It’s hard to picture someone as professional as Nautilus doing something like that, but then again you know that Rex has known him longer.  “So just in case you thought I was just being nice earlier, you are the better heals.  If I could get the cards I want with just you, Epel, and Ruggie I would.”  It’s disturbing how clear the picture is in your mind: your lala, Epel’s roe, and Leona’s cowboy coded catman being joined by some hyper pink catgirl in the mini game bunny suit that you can easily see Ruggie using to scam some tech worker out of his monthly salary in Pirate’s Port wiping to an EX rank trial because Leona decided his logs weren’t orange enough.  It sounds like a good time, and you can’t keep yourself from blurting out:
“We should try to run something sometime anyway, it’d be fun.”  And before you can retreat back into your shell,  Leona smiles, smiles and burns away any sort of shyness you wanted to have over talking video games with someone as “normal” as him.
“If you can think of something just text me.”  You fish out your phone and can’t even bring yourself to cringe at the time with just how happy that suggestion makes you feel.
And Ace said playing MMOs would get you zero bitches.
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This was a mistake.  It was hard to keep that thought from drumming away at your nerves the longer you stood in the station square; Leona had been the one to invite you out, not the other way around, so if he really ended up not liking this then that was his fault not yours.  You even took into account that Leona was a lazy bitch and suggested you meet up later in the day instead, but then again…  You try to resist drowning in a wave of self flagellation over the clothes you picked out as you somehow manage to sink further into the park bench you have decided to camp out on.  For someone who had been so insistent they were not going out on a date when their generous adoptive father asked where they were going during such prime father child bonding hours, you felt insanely self conscious.  That was normal right, people who actually went out with their friends to do stuff other than pal around the local big box store put thought into their appearance.  Not that there was anything wrong with that.  If this goes south you know you already confirmed you can have Jack over here in two shakes of his tail and that’s probably exactly what you would end up doing.  But when Mannon posted in the guild discord about a First Fantasia themed pop up cafe that was going to be A) running for a limited time within walking distance from your house and B) giving out a code for an in game pet-
Well admittedly your first thought had been to invite Epel, but Leona had texted you almost immediately after Mannon dropped the link.
[irl catboy] ruggie said you aren’t working this saturday
[irl catboy] come with me to the stupid cafe i never know what to order at those places
With such a gentlemanly request how could you possibly refuse?  And now here you were fifteen minutes early trying to keep yourself from going stir crazy, or from jumping out of your skin when an increasingly familiar deep voice whispers a sleepy “hey” into your ear.  
“Seven’s Leona!”  You’re half ready to hit him with your backpack but your indignation and fright are almost entirely wiped away by the sheer figure Leona cuts against the setting autumn sun.  Someone, Ruggie you decide, because there’s no way Leona decided to dress up to come see you himself, forced your upperclassman into a knit  black turtleneck with golden claw-like trim on the neck and rolled up cuffs.  He’s kept his usual tan slacks, but the ugly woven sandals have been swapped out for a more weather appropriate pair of ugly slip ons with similar gold claws to the turtleneck.  His hair’s still tied up like he’s been at spelldrive practice, not that you fully know what he looks like outside of Epel’s descriptions and your own imagination. 
“What, did I scare you?” you drawls, clearly eating up the attention you’re lavishing on his appearance.  Before you can collect yourself enough to stand up he leans down to cow you back into the bench.  “Maybe I should scare you some more?  The mousey look really suits you.”
“Oh shut up!”  You huff and stand, trying your best to avoid cracking your head off of Leona’s stupidly broad frame as you both go to head towards the cafe.  “Did you look up the menu online or are you just planning on winging it?”
“You really like to put effort into things don’t you?”  Leona doesn’t look or sound too upset but there’s a strange wistfulness to his look you do not really like, but it’s gone before you can pick at it too much.  “Nah I figured I’d just let you pick.”
“Are you sure?”  You try your best not to sound excited, you swear the only thing you admire about Ruggie is his work ethic, not his grift.  “I could just take advantage of you and force you to get a bunch of stuff only I’d like.”  As if he’s reading your mind, Leona's green eyes twinkle with mischief you know will bite you in the ass later.
“Oh no you would never do that.  I know for a fact that you are just too nice for that.”  The “unlike someone else" goes unsaid as Leona decides to really double down on the gentleman act when you reach the cafe, holding the door and not even pretending to look at the menu until you prompt him.
“Do you want to get the reaper soda?”  Leona shrugs. 
“Does it sound like it will taste good to you?”  It does but that’s sort of besides the point, you’re much more interested in the white mage one.
“I just thought you might want the coaster.”  You murmur and he smiles.
“I’d lose something like that real fast, you can just keep it.”  Your eyes have to pop halfway out of your head with how hard he laughs, other patrons shoot a confused look at your table as you try to resist the urge to self combust.  “Let me guess, they’re worth somethin right?  In that case all the more reason for you to keep em.”  The look in his eyes is practically daring you to ask if he’s really sure, but knowing Leona he wants an excuse to tease so for now you swallow your insecurities and point your awkward smile up at the server who comes to take your order.  
“Um can we get one reaper soda, one white mage soda…” your voice trails off and Leona pipes up with the name of a burger you don’t remember reading out to him but they apparently serve anyway with how quickly she notes it down.
“And is the check separate or together?”  She sweetly asks and before you can so much as breathe Leona cuts you off.
“Bill goes to me.”  You glare at him, well try to really Leona’s a hard person to stare down.  “Didn’t I say you could get whatever?”  Not literally, it was more implied along with the trouble that you weren’t expecting to catch up to you this quickly.  His smile widens, not quite wolfishly, more like a lion staring down a particularly foolish gazelle that’s stumbled weak kneed into his territory.  “Go on, tell the nice lady what else you want, she won’t bite you, that's my job.”  Flames aren’t enough anymore.  You need to turn into a particularly fine paste or particle dust to relive how fast your heart is beating.  Luckily for you the server seems amused, letting out a good natured laugh as she shoots you a wink.
“You heard your man, what can we get for you?”  You take back every judgment you have ever passed Ruggie’s way.  With just how proud Leona seems like now he really is asking for it.
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“You don’t really do things like this much do ya?”  Leona kept his teasing to a minimum after the bite comment thank god and kept his word about letting you keep the coasters.  Pretty much everything at the cafe seemed to have some sort of First Fantasia themed knick knack you were allowed if not encouraged to take back with you.  Leona had offered to walk you home once you both saw how dark it was, promising that would be your only stop this time much to your relief.  You weren’t sure how much more of his teasing you could take.
“I mean I’ve got Epel, but Ace, Deuce, and Jack don’t really like mmos.”  You aren’t sure if it has ever actually been established if you are friends with Sebek, but unless someone teaches Malleus how to use a mouse you doubt he’s going to be logging into anything other than a literal tree anytime soon.  “Sometimes Epel will send me links to merch he thinks I’d like, but he’s more into the…”  You pause to try and find the words for what it is you want to say, knowing your friend will kill you if you make him look lame.  “Sense of pride and accomplishment you get from beating high end content.”
“That sounds like him.”  Leona says proudly.  “He’s like that with anything mildly competitive.  One of his better qualities, just don’t go telling him I said that.  Wouldn’t want it goin to his head.”  There’s no way you’ll be able to keep his mild praise a secret from Epel forever, but what Leona doesn’t know won’t hurt him too much.  “But that’s not really what I was asking.”  Your pace slows as Leona lapses back into silence and you wrack your brain for what he actually could have meant.  “Do you like going out to cafe’s?”
“I… don’t really know.”  You liked tonight.  Talking to Leona, when he was awake enough to participate, was always fun.  Even when you were trading jabs back and forth in class.  “I used to dream about finally finding someone who I could do stuff like this with, but I kind of gave up after my last date said-”  you freeze in your train of thought and walk.  This had not been a date in any way shape or form.  Sure, Leona played a video game with you, and sure he’s been going out of his way to talk to you in real life more regularly since he came to visit your work.  But it’s not like he did that for any reason other than-  “said it was just too weird.  Said I was just too weird and I guess I just sort of got tired of not being able to talk about things that interested me so I gave up trying.”
“Then why not just date me?”  Leona’s eyes are a really strange shade of green now that you’re staring straight into them.  It’s like he’s got two neon lights shining a spotlight directly on you every time he speaks, judging and picking apart whoever he is looking at.  And right now he is looking pointedly at you, making it clear this isn’t a conversation he is going to let you run from.  “I told you before, didn't I?  I like playing games with you.  I want to spend time with you; I want to hear about your day every day, from what annoyed you to funny things you and your friends did.  I want to see you happy and know I made that happen, because you make my life a happier one just by being in it.  The only thing I have ever not liked about you is that you work too hard, and that’s not unfixable.  You just need to let me be a bad influence on you.”  It’s a confession you never really expected to receive, but somehow so very much him.  It’s insulting, honest, and just a touch demanding but it reaches into that small shrunken part of your heart that you’ve been burying most of your feelings in for who knows how long now and fills it with warmth.
“Would you-”  It feels like a silly question but with how intently Leona is hanging on your every word you feel a rush of power going straight to your head.  “If we were going out would you stop wiping things on purpose?”  He blinks, if he’s surprised by the request or shocked he got this far you don’t quite know, but he quickly recovers, moving into your space to offer his hand.
“If you ask nicely.”  You gladly take the offered arm and influence, squeezing his much larger hand with a soft smile.
“Then it’s a dea-”  Leona cuts you off with a kiss, swallowing your mouselike squeak along with most of your air with a speed you didn’t know he possessed.  
“Don’t use that punks line.”  He practically growls and you can’t hold in your happy laughter any longer.  It could just be the streetlights, but you don’t think Leona looks all that mad.  Quite the opposite really, not that you expect him to voice it out loud.  Instead he leans in for another kiss in a gruff effort to show just how much he means what he has been trying to say all along.
I’m happiest when I am doing things with you.
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*if you are curious about Leona's outfit, I based it off of Lion King clothing items in Disney Dreamlight Valley (black and gold claw shoes, tan sunny slacks, and the gray claw top for those looking for specifics)
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honoviadakai · 2 years
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Diaboys at a Carne Asada with Hispanic S/O/Reader: Sakamaki edition
Shu
So you’d have to warn this lazy ass at least a week in advance so he can mentally, physically and spiritually prepare to be productive and social
He’ll go but don't expect him to hold back on the complaints on the way to the gathering
“I could be blissfully sleeping right now...but I’m coming to see your family with you...You owe me big time later...”
Generally he’s polite and will say Hi to everyone but he’s not loving how loud it generally is so he might just stick to you like glue
If anyone starts speaking in Spanish to him his brain freezes and you’re now his translator
He’ll pick up SOME Spanish by the end of the day but I stg its nothing useful, its mostly lewd stuff
Honestly not a fan of the music...at first. Let him kinda absorb the music and he’ll find a weird appreciation for it
Might be up for dancing if you ask nicely beg
Enjoys the food until he experiences your tias, mom and abuelita ganging up on him and insisting that he eat more
Best way to save him is to drag him onto the dance floor
Honestly he’s not gonna know what to do at first because the music is so new to him
Let him find his rhythm because when he done...honey he’s so good at Salsa dancing it should be illegal
He’s so smug about it too and will ABSOLUTELY try to make the dance as sensual as possible just to rile you up
He’ll socialize with the older males of your family like your dad and tios quite a lot because the talks are much quieter than the actual party area and honestly he kinda loves vibing with them
Absolutely hates the beer though, Cerveza is just not his cup of tea
Tbh not a fan of any of the alcoholic drinks tbh, they’re either too sweet for him or they taste too strongly of alcohol for his pallet
LOVES Jicama though
Can’t handle spicy food but low key really likes the flavor for some of the spicier dishes???
But don’t give him too much of the spicy dishes cuz he’s dying after one bite…yikes…
Wont play with your younger relatives if they ask him to tbh, he doesnt have the energy
He WILL, however, talk to them and tell them stories if they REALLY wanna hang out with him
Because of his low energy, your family has nicknamed him “El Güero Flojo” or “Huevon” by the end of the night
Honestly kinda liked the experience and he finds your family endearing
“Going again sounds annoyingly exhausting...but it could be fun...”
Reiji
Hooboi this boi is really out of his element here 
First of all, he’s 100% going because he wants to meet/impress your family so convincing him is not the problem
The problem is keeping him there the whole time
His big issue is that while he’s aware that many cultures exist, he did not live in that reality. He’s a vampire prince and he’s use to a specific genre of “family gatherings” so this is a bit much for him
Poor boi is so over dressed one of your tios might offer him a change of clothes
Honestly he takes it purely because he saw what was being served and knew it was the better option to 6 hours of washing out stains on his Stefano Ricci suit
He’ll try to be social with your family but honestly he’ll be a little painfully awkward at first.
Honestly just let him go help out in the kitchen and everything will be fine
He’s so helpful and efficient in the kitchen that everyone lets him take charge of serving everyone, the only struggle he’s facing is he has no idea what the food is or how to prepare it but give him a quick recipe and explanation and it ain’t even a problem fam
The Kids there weirdly like him???
Like, they think he’s a little stuffy and strict but he makes really good pozole so they like him
He wont play with them necessarily but he will spectate him if they ask him to and he’s weirdly like a little cheerleader for them in his own way
“Don’t kick the ball so hard. Pick up your knees more when you run...There we go Miguel, much better form.”
Don’t give him spicy food…he can’t handle it…like at all….just don’t
Really likes tamales and other dishes like it because it’s presented in a nice, neat little package
He HATES the alcoholic beverages, cant even smell some of them without making a disgusted face so he can’t have a cerveza with the men to bond
He can however listen to them as they explain the brewing process of drinks like tequila, he’ll even take notes!
Picks up Spanish weirdly fast so he WILL understand you and your family by the end of the day
He’s never heard Hispanic music in his long life so dancing is definitely not his strength this time
Give him a hot minute and you’ll both discover he’s really good at Rumba, Tango and Salsa dancing.
ABSOLUTELY will help clean up after, you expect him to leave dishes dirty in the sink even at someone else’s home? Absolutely not!
Over all kinda enjoyed experiencing you culture with you and your family so he won’t be opposed to returning
“Your family is quite different from mine. I actually didn’t mind it, perhaps we can return another day.”
Ayato
Oh hes gonna LOVE this
A social gathering where he can eat, drink and dance to his heart’s content, be casually himself and no one’s gonna scold him for it? sign him up!
For sure the life of the party
Boi can tear it up on the dancefloor, like ayo come get your manz before he accidentally makes your cousin Dolores swoon for him
Absolutely AMAZING at dancing Cumbia, Cha-Cha, Bachata and Reggeaton
Your Abuelita loves him tbh, he eats and talks with her(mostly cuz she spoils him and he LOVES it)
He can handle some spicy dishes but not all so be careful
Loves all the savory dishes tbh
Cracks a cold one open with the men, quickly learns the way of “cerveza and chill” and just bonds with a bunch of your tios, cousins and even your dad
High key likes Cerveza with lime and salt and straight tequila
LOVES Fanta, like he had 16 bottles by the end of the day
Even the kids at the gathering love him cuz he plays with them when they ask, like they are fighting over who gets to play with him at some point.
Does not understand Spanish, doesn’t really learn much while he’s there, will 100% act like he understands what everyone is saying
Over all loves the experience, 10/10 wants to go again soon
“That was fun! Ore-sama demands to come back for another party! Especially if your mom makes arepas again!”
Kanato
...Finna be honest...leave this one at home...
Getting him there in the first place is a miracle, getting him to be polite and sociable is a whole other beast
If he does go, he’s honestly gonna act like a bratty feral cat 90% of the time
Will probably legit get mad if someone tries to talk to him in Spanish because he doesn’t understand what’s being said to him
God help you if he gets into an argument with someone...it wont be pretty for all parties involved
I can for sure see him getting into an argument over candy or desserts served at the gathering because he’s gonna wanna eat it all and not let any of the kids or other guests have any
He’s definitely gonna get smacked with a chancla...and it goes down hill from there
you honestly might have to leave early...or just...stay home
Laito
Ok so you’d think he’d be a disaster right?
WRONG!
He’s actually pretty pleasant to have at the Carne Asada
Except for a few things...
He might check out a few of your family members just to tease you.
He might even flirt with them just to get a reaction out of someone...you’re gonna have to protect him from any fists that come flying his way honey...
Other than that he’s much like Ayato in that he’s a social butterfly that will dance the night away with you and just enjoy spending time with your family
Some of the food will be a little too heavy and/or spicy for him but he’ll eat every bite he’s given to make you and your family happy
Not a huge fan of any of the beer your tios brought but that aint stopping him from socializing bby!
They might tease the hell outta him for not liking the beer though
Like Shu, he’s gonna have trouble picking up Spanish but he will learn quite a bit of it!
Unfortunately…he will learn some dirty things…blame your teenage cousins
He will be somewhat conversational in Spanish though, will need you to translate though
Likes Tequila though and he absolutely will try to do a tequila shot on you
Honestly his favorite drink isn’t even the tequila, it’s the Grapefruit flavored Jarritos soda
Will also play with the kids if they ask him but unlike Ayato, he doesn’t have the unlimited stamina needed to play with children
This man is a MASTER of Bachata, Samba and Reggaeton so be prepared to be literally swept off your feet
Honestly really loves your family, culture and traditions so he’s for sure gonna wanna come back anytime someone invites you to a carne asda
“Fufufu~ That was fun, Bitch-chan! I could’ve stayed for ages if it hadn’t ended!~ I hope we can come back soon!”
Subaru
*evil chuckle* oooh this one’s gonna be fun!
He THINKS he knows what hes getting into when you invite him along to your family’s Carne Asada
HE’S WRONG! OH SO WRONG!
The moment he steps into the host’s house it’s nothing but welcoming, smiling faces and embraces from your family
Watching this boy get severe whiplash from the warm and welcoming atmosphere is both hilarious and heartwarming
He’s gonna be an awkward duck in the beginning so expect him to just kinda follow you around like a lost puppy
As much as he’d like to hide, he stands out like a sore thumb because of his albinism(being an undead vampire doesn’t help tbh) so he’ll have no choice but be subject to your family asking him if he’s cold while putting a heavy coat on him despite already having one, relatives insisting he sit in the sun with them and everyone giving him heavy and hearty food because for some reason, they’re convinced he’s anemic
The irony HA
It’ll take time but he’ll start to open up and even like the loving, familial atmosphere
He’ll open up to your younger relatives first tbh
They’ll ask him to play with them and he’ll begrudgingly go play if they’re persistent enough
Any family pets on the premises somehow find him and immediately start giving him affection and they will not leave Everyone took photos LMAO
Will be invited to have cerveza with the men and while he’s indiferent about the beer, he kinda likes how your dad and other male relatives are just casual and welcoming while they talk to him
Will find his favorite drink, it’s horchata
Now you would think little Tsunbaru would have a nonexistent spice tolerance, but he can handle it like a champ!
He genuinely likes the taste and it honestly doesn’t burn that bad to him so he’ll eat some really spicy dishes
He might be a little scared of your Tias when they try to spoil him so expect him to lash out at them a little
They’re gonna continue spoiling him anyway and even pinch his cheeks and tease him for the outburst they can sense the tsun in this one
he’s a little awkward on the dance floor at first but if you get him to relax he’s actually surprisingly good at dancing bachata and cumbia
He WANTS to learn Spanish so badly because you speak to your family predominately in Spanish but he does not pick it up quickly
He does learn a few words and phrases by the end of the night but his pronunciation is ROUGH
Like stereotypical “white guy trying to speak Spanish” levels of rough
By the end of the night your family has dubbed him “Blancanieves” because He weirdly does remind them of Snow white...In a weird Tsundere way(For the love of everyone’s enjoyment do not translate that to him, let him be confused, PLEASE)
overall it’s an emotional roller coaster for him but he had fun
your family will beg you to bring him again and he’ll “reluctantly” agree every time
“Fine I’ll go...But I’m only going again cuz’ you’re all so annoyingly insistent! Not like I really wanna go or anything...baka...”
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bibibbon · 2 months
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Hello, can I ask why do you think there are so many BL ships from BNHA and JJK? Do you also have fav ships from those two series?
I don't mean any negative things to any fan fics writers or fan art artist (thanks so much every one for sharing your hard works in the fandom).
But like, I'm a fan of both series for years now, and I saw them mostly as just platonic (bakudeku, tododeku, kiribaku, satosugu, itafushi, etc). Now, I'm not anti mlm or wlw because I love BL and GL media (manga, manhwa, books, tv series, etc), but I'm kinda hard to enter into shipping. Do you think I'm weird? Or maybe I'm slow in understanding the romantic subtext in those scenes from both series?
My take on it I guess is that people just love shipping characters together. Fandoms low-key thrive on shipping most of the time and especially when it comes to rareships. In my opinion any legal ship can work depending on how someone writes the story so there's that.
Iam not a huge shipper myself and if I do ship stuff I tend to be a multishipper prefering to enjoy multiple amount of contents that people make. MHA has horribly written ships point blank. Sure togaocha could of worked but it doesn't the same with BKDK. Any ships in MHA that were introduced as possibilities also lack any sort of development. This obviously doesn't stop people from shipping and developing their own ships (as they rightfully should) but canon wise there isn't much going for MHA
When it comes to Jujutsu kaisen akutami already acknowledged that he isn't that good at writing romance so he chooses not to excpet of already established ships like hakari x kirarka or tragic ships like mechamiwa. Even when it comes to that people do view stgs and itafushi as heavily romantically coded and I can see where theyre coming from as there is some heavy romantic subtexts.
Overall, Iam not much of a romantic shipper myself I just love platonic bonds and ships. For some reason I find that platonic ships and bonds are just better written and can connect with the audience a whole lot more easily and better compared to romance. Iam not much of a romance fan so I don't consume much of that side of media. Iam not sure if it's only me but stories centering around one ship get really boring for me whereas other stories that go out to critique stuff or explore ideas are more enjoyable.
Also no I really don't think you're weird I do somewhat relate to you tho.
I don't think MHA has any romantic subtexts however I definitely do see the Jujutsu kaisen romantic subtexts.
Writers usually give readers freedom to decide how they view things. Iam not much of a romance type of reader so I just like viewing a lot of things as platonic just because I think platonic relationships are overall stronger and better then romance ones
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nichestartrekkie0-0 · 26 days
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How do Aenar fare when going to Starfleet Academy? Any challenges?
eeeEEEEEE <3 thanks for the ask! Yay, I love this question!!
Headcanons: I’d say since it’s the 2240s-ish when Hemmer goes to the Academy and (at least in the timeline I have) he’s the only one! This leads to…a lot of problems, unfortunately. Thankfully, he has good roommates and a few good friends!  Let’s go over the pros and cons! (For Hemmer at least)
Oof! 0-0 This one is long- more beneath the cut!
Pros: 
Friends: I headcanon that one of his first friends is from the Kanyakumari district (In India) as they both move to take off their shoes when they first go to class (as it’s a normal thing to do in their schools) and they both are like ‘hey!! you!! You’re like me!!’ And they bond over the shit cafeteria food (I have a scene (I stg the fic is coming…eventually.) where they take apart a small lunchroom jukebox to make a hotplate and cook their own shit- they hate cafeteria food so much lmao) They bond more over food, engineering, and culture shock! 
Space: he loves fixing stuff! And the stars! he’s happy to both explore his interests…while also serving his people by being an impromptu Anear ambassador for everyone. (More of the first reason than the second…but the second reason is important too)TBH him being in Starfleet and following his purpose/his path makes him more happy than anything. The cons do suck, but the pros far outweigh them! 
Cons: 
General: Aenar are communal. Living in San Fran (which is HUGE) and having money?? Hemmer has no idea wtf money is because Aenar don’t use money. Also, a lot of people who are strangers freak him out- who tf is he supposed to call when he needs help?? or food?? or a break from his crazy roommates and horror movies?? 
The classes: Aenar need help to see certain things. Color doesn’t exist to them. They can’t see screens! ( to some extent, at least for my headcanons) So, their psychic abilities are just as much a disability as they are an extra ability! So, in classes, he’d probably have a ton of accomodations! some professors are cool…others are not. (As it is in college, oof) 
Communication: Aenar are very indirect (Mostly) so he appears as cold and uncaring when he is very much the opposite! This also stems from his general personality and the isolation he gets from being away from home. The Andorians don’t really see him as Andorian. This leads to some loneliness in the first bit-  that doesn’t last twelve hours tho. (He makes a friend (Girish- the guy from India) almost instantly haha)
For later students, it’s probably better…unless you bring up how Hemmer died. I feel like his death certainly left a bad aftertaste and a horrible precedent for any Aenar kid who wants to be in Starfleet. Oof. 
Anywho that's what I got!! Thanks for the ask!!! :3
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shmaptainwrites · 1 year
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*knocks politely*
Hello hi!
Requesting Bobby with the “kiss me” prompt. Hehe okay byeeeeee
bestie i’ve got youuuu this prompt is so perfect for shenanigans so shenanigans is what you get
Pairings: Bobby Nash x GN!Reader
Warnings: they are two halves of one braincells i stg, breaking and entering, general idiocy, they’re just…so stupid
Amateur Sleuth
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“I swear there’s something illegal going on there but no one believes me! Doesn’t help that I don’t have any proof to prove them wrong,” you sighed, sitting back in your chair at the dining table in the fire hall, your arms crossed over your chest.
“You are absolutely insane for spying on your neighbours, you know that, right?” Eddie asked and you rolled your eyes.
“Come on Eddie, if you saw what I saw, you’d be snooping.”
“Which was what exactly?” Buck asked as he joined you.
“She says she has an Etsy store, but people only ever come and buy stuff from her in the dead of night.”
“So like 10:30 for you?” Hen teased and you lightly shoved her.
“No like 3 am, I’m not joking,” you said. “And I found her instagram and that girl is living well beyond her means for a retail worker who has an Etsy shop on the side. I’m talking about vacations every other month, she bought a Mercedes recently, something is up for sure.”
“I agree,” Bobby jumped into the conversation.
“Thank you! Finally someone with some common sense,” you exclaimed. “Now if only I could figure out what the hell she’s up to.”
“You need to stake her place out,” Bobby said simply.
“You say that as if you’ve done it before, Cap,” Chimney chuckled.
“Maybe once or twice off the record, but with good reason and my hunches were right.”
“What do I have to pay you to come over tonight and help me figure this out?” you laughed, but the whole team knew you were being dead serious.
“Just a cup of coffee, I’ll come over at 11,” he smiled and you clapped your hands together victoriously.
“5 bucks says this is gonna blow up in your faces,” Eddie took out his wallet and put the cash on the table.
“I’ll take that action,” Hen nodded. “I’ve seen Bobby do his thing, there’s a slight chance this could go right.”
“Thanks for the vote of confidence Hen,” you said sarcastically. “Jokes on all of you, this is gonna go great.”
After your shift was over you headed home and ate something for dinner before napping for a few hours so you could manage to stay up late that night.
Your alarm went off just ten minutes before Bobby arrived and you had a pot of coffee hot and ready when he came inside.
“So where does this neighbour of yours live?” he asked.
“She’s the apartment directly across the hall,” you pointed. “If you look through the peephole you can see, that’s how I’ve been doing most of my spying.”
“Alright, we can use that and since you’re on the first floor if the opportunity presents itself, maybe we can see if there’s any clues from the window.”
“Man, I didn’t even think of that,” you chuckled. “Oh this is gonna be so fun.”
You poured Bobby a cup of coffee and you waited eagerly for one of your neighbour’s customers to show up. After a while, no one had come and your neighbour had left the house a while ago so Bobby suggested to get a look through the window.
“We’ve gotta be quiet though, I’m not the only snoopy neighbour, if someone sees me they’ll call the cops for sure,” you noted, grabbing Bobby’s hand and leading him out of the building and to the rear where you could peek in through the windows.
Some of the blinds were drawn and others were open so you got looks where you could, but nothing seemed out of the ordinary.
“This can’t be it,” you shook your head.
“I know, somethings not sitting right with me,” Bobby agreed, there had to be something you weren’t seeing.
You leaned against one of the windows in defeat and looked over at Bobby in shock when it shifted. You exchanged knowing glances, no one would find out about this part.
Since you knew the neighbours better, you stayed on lookout to make sure you didn’t get caught while Bobby carefully climbed inside and searched for clues.
He took a few photos here and there so they could go over them later, but what he was really looking for was what she could possibly be selling that was making her so much money.
On the table he found a date book and quickly flipped through it, finding some potentially useful information on the sales, but before he could do anything about it, he heard your voice quietly, but urgently exclaim,
“Shit! She’s back! Bobby you’ve gotta get the hell outta there, but just as he was going to climb out the window you saw something that told you he should wait a moment. So you hid behind a bush and waited for another neighbour to go inside before practically grabbing Bobby and pulling him out of her apartment and closing the open window.
You both ran inside and you fumbled for your keys as your heard footsteps coming closer. Honestly, you thought it looked pretty incriminating, but it was possible the adrenaline was getting in the way of your better judgment.
The footsteps became even louder and for some reason your keys were not in your pocket, so in a desperate attempt to save face you looked Bobby dead in the eye and said,
“Kiss me.”
“What?” he quietly exclaimed like he hadn’t heard you correctly the first time.
“Just trust me Bobby! Kiss me!”
Just as he took your face in his hands and he pulled you towards him you wrapped your arms around his neck and his lips came crashing down on yours. You kissed feverishly as your neighbour came past you and to her door, only breaking apart to nervously chuckle as you made eye contact with her.
“Tinder am I right?” you shrugged and she smiled knowingly before nodding and giving you a thumbs up of approval before going inside her place.
“Tinder? Really?” Bobby asked.
“It was the only thing I could think of!” you slapped a hand to your forehead and shook your head.
“Just like kissing me was the only thing you could come up with?” he asked with a raised brow.
You finally found your keys, unlocking the door and letting Bobby go inside before you.
“Okay, maybe the adrenaline got my wires crossed,” you admitted. “But I could say the same for you Captain Nash, you really committed to the bit for that kiss.”
“Well,” he coughed nervously and rubbed the back of his neck. “Maybe my wires were crossed too.”
“Maybe we should cross them again,” you suggested, coming a little closer, “And never tell anyone about what happened tonight, like ever.”
“I can live with that,” he agreed, wrapping his arms around your waist and pressing another kiss to your lips.
At the end of the day, both of you knew there was no one else you’d rather commit a felony with, and really, what more could you want in life than a partner in crime.
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moviesludge · 4 months
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The MONARCH: LEGACY OF MONSTERS show is awful.
I'm usually pretty easygoing and forgiving about movies and tv. I don't know why, but I don't really get upset or something if a show is just okay. I guess maybe it's because it served a purpose of being something new to watch while I was eating dinner or whatever. If it has some action or humor or a compelling narrative or all of the above, it's all for the better.
But I watched the new WILLOW show and really disliked a lot of things about it. There were some good bits, like some refreshingly charismatic funny characters and some fun nostalgia and effects, but an overwhelming albatross around the neck of this show was some unrelenting bitchy whining characters. MONARCH shares this horrible element. Both shows have characters that constantly second guess anything that's said to them, are always being contrarian, are always bitching and complaining about something, are not in any way complex, and are just generally extremely unlikable. I don't know if this is a writer's attempt at creating conflict or trying to illustrate the character's struggles, but it fails in both shows. I stg in MONARCH someone will be like "I think we should do this proactive thing" and one of the moody asshole brother/sister characters will be like "That's the best plan you have? Our dad abandoned us to go off and chase Godzilla for a reason we can't possibly make an attempt at understanding because the only thing that's important about this is our perpetually hurt feelings, and that's your plan? FUCK YOU". And it happens over and over every time anyone says anything to them. It's like okay we get that they're upset, you've established that. Do they have to caustically eat up minutes of every episode harping about stuff we already understand??? And just being generally shitty?
I'm not sure about WILLOW, but I get the sneaking suspicion that whoever is writing MONARCH is a person who thinks all younger generations are spoiled insufferable whiners who are just complaining to hear themselves complain, and don't have any significant real problems. All of the elder characters (like Wyatt/Kurt Russell's Lee Shaw) seem to be stoic asskickers who are proactive and deal with their problems in stride, which while you're watching the show, is a balm against the opposite. If you think it's a good idea to write horribly annoying characters like the ones in these shows in any tv show, you're basically guaranteeing failure, regardless of intent.
Oh yeah, and would it kill them to actually include some fucking MONSTERS in the show? Like there are a few, but for a show called LEGACY OF MONSTERS it sure is 99% people running around jawin'!!
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berylcups · 26 days
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What type of music do you think la squadra members are into?
Also what type are you into!
What’s La Squadras Favorite Music?
Oh good question! This one definitely made me think! Thinking about their lives outside of their work makes you wonder…
CW: weed? And Melone just being Melone
Risotto
Music genre: Definitely metal this poor guy is a walking stereotype I stg 😭
Bands: Opeth, Dream Theater, and a classic-Rob Zombie
Where/what do they do while listening to music?-
He’s usually listening to his favorite songs in his office doing paperwork. Rarely if he’s in a good mood you can hear him lowly hum to the melody 🥺
Formaggio
Music genre: stoner rock - I’m not familiar with this genre but Formaggio would be! I HC him hard as someone who’s super chill and wants to relax with some psychedelic music.
Bands: Grateful Dead, Black Sabbath, Fu Manchu
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Usually when hanging out with others and rolling up a fat one 🌿 what’s better than listening to psychedelic music with the guys while passing the grass 🥳
Illuso
Music genre: classic pop - he’s always knows what’s popular but new stuff nowadays seems to turn to trash to this snooty man!
Bands: Duran Duran, The Smiths, Wham!
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Usually when showering and doing his beauty routine. He also listens to music when he’s cleaning, he hates the silence and always needs some background noise.
Prosciutto
Music genre: swing- ya like jazz? 😉I SWEAR this uptight dork loves jazz ! 😆 I hear people seeing him as a stoner but he just seems too uptight for me so I think this guy must like Jazz!
Bands: Frank Sinatra(supposedly not really jazz but what do I know lol), Michael Bublé, Bing Crosby
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Listening when he’s relaxing. He’s in a big arm chair with his feet kicked back on the coffee table smoking a cigarette and drinking some nice wine 🍷 he likes to be classy 💅
Pesci
Music genre: Grunge- this poor guy needs something to get his angst out and grunge is the perfect genre for him to let him blow off steam peacefully.
Bands: Nirvana, Soundgarden , Stone Temple Pilots
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
He listens to music usually when he’s waiting on something. Waiting at the doctors office… waiting for the train… listening on the train. He also likes to listen with one earbud in when he’s fishing or exercising.
Melone
Music genre: techno/D&B- this guy loves the repetitive sound of drums and bass. It’s good for his focus whenever he’s messing around on his laptop.
Bands: Pendulum, Lords of Acid, The Prodigy
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
Listening when he’s deep at work on his laptop. What’s he doing on his laptop? God who knows? 😬 also likes to listen to the raunchier songs during “special activities”. You ask him for clarification not me 😳
Ghiaccio
Music genre: this nerd likes metal too-🩵 I’ve met many metal heads and at least half of them were nerds 🥰 don’t complain to him about Nu metal and what’s real metal- he doesn’t care! If it gets his anger out that’s all he cares about! 😤
Bands: Deftones, System of a Down, Pantera
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
He likes to blast his music loud while he’s driving down the freeway. It boosts his mood and he’s a little bit of an adrenaline junkie. He also listens to it when he’s on a 1000- K run. He secretly wishes his hair was long so he could do those long haired head bangs like the musicians do 🤭 he will take this secret to his grave
BerylCups aka: Kris
Music genre: it’s a tie between metal and techno - odd combo! My music taste is all over the place 🤪
Bands: Rammstein, Alice In Chains, Depeche Mode (My top 3 at the moment)
Where/what do they do while listening to music?
I’m usually blasting it on my afternoon commute to work. Also while I’m working or drawing (all involves me hunched over a PC lol) or I decide to not be a vampire and go outside for a walk 😆
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dameronology · 2 years
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STRANGER THINGS 4 SPOILERS hi! could you do hcs for a scenario that takes place during s4 where steve is with reader and how he would react to nancy’s piqued interest in him. the stancy stuff does not sit well with me this season tbh haha
noooo me neither😭😭 i can always see steve/nancy as like a high school couple but they put sm energy into making her & jonathan a better couple and they make so much more sense than her & steve i stg. i digress.
also low-key the start of these headcanons that give the backstory are FAR too long but i got a bit too into this ngl. this is pretty much spoiler free btw, but it's still tagged <3
ok so it should be said that nancy will always have a special place in steve's heart. you can accept that tbh, because she was his first love and you hold your first high school boyfriend in the same regard
like your mum always said you never forget your first love!! and tbh she was right but there's a difference between the person that made you giddy in senior year and the person that makes you feel whole and complete
for some people, those two might overlap; they might meet the love of their life in high school
however, the man you consider now to be the love of your life is the same man you considered in high school to be an absolute mughead with the stupidest hair you've ever seen
and you were the kid in his science class who gave him evils all the time and couldn't speak to him in a way that wasn't sarcastic
so it's safe to say that you guys didn't fall in love until way after you graduated; it was sort of unexpected and it made no sense at the time but the deeper you fell, the more you realise he might be the only thing that makes sense in this fucking world
steve harrington wasn't an asshole anymore. reality had humbled him, and now he still had all his good traits - the hair, the humour, the stupid smile and goofy aura - but he scooped ice cream for a living
you worked at starcourt too in the unit next door and after your parents moved into the house beside him, he kept driving past you on your way home til he began offering you lifts
after a few weeks of steve driving you home, having deep chats and screaming along to madonna, he asks you out
its not long before you're pretty much convinced you'll spend your life with him. maybe you're young and dumb still but you only ever feel truly at home with him
you know he still sees nancy about. it never bothers you - why would it? steve loves you and nancy & jonathan byers are a well-known couple
1986 is...different though. you & steve are as strong as ever but ongoing events have him closer and closer to nancy, who you know for a fact has been drifting apart from jonathan
you'd never want to assume anything, especially not someone you consider to be a friend.
but she looks at him the same way you do
which is when you're like OH
and yeah steve is a certified dumb ass (the word "himbo" didn't exist in the 80s but steve is a himbo and a himbo is steve) but hell even he can see it too
you don't want to feel insecure: you know that steve loves you but nancy is...nancy. she's pretty and smart and way better at all of this upside down shit than you. she makes it all look naturally
steve brings it up straight away as soon as you're home that night. there's no beating around the bush. he just kinda puts his hands on your shoulders and forces you to look him in the eye
"i know what you're thinking," he says, "but i promise, no matter what, i love you"
it's nice, actually, that he just reassures you without a second thought
bc even though he loved nancy wheeler at one point in his life, he's gonna love you for the rest of it
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annasinterests · 10 months
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don't look at me like that unless you mean it
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so i get out of bed ♫ put on my shoes and in my head
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a/n: going back and revising can either be the best or worst thing in the world i stg lmao. i'm honestly surprised with how quick i got this one out?? anyway, thank you all for the likes and reblogs so far on this series! i hope you're all enjoying where the story is going!! if you have any questions, comments, or even suggestions (even if its like grammatical stuff), please let me know bc i'd love to hear some feedback <3
word count: 4.1k (where da freak did that come from?!)
pairings: joel miller x f!reader
warnings & tags: minors dni, angst, reader midkey being a little shit, reader also being a mom, swearing, lil fluff here n there, pining, looming threats — please tell me if i missed anything!
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Winter turned to spring.
Spring turned to summer.
And Ellie found her purpose again.
She volunteered to help all around Jackson when she wasn’t out on patrol with you or Joel, going above and beyond what was expected of her. At least twice a month, the three of you would go over to Tommy and Maria’s for family night, consisting of food and games for a couple hours. Sometimes even Dina, her now-official girlfriend, and Jesse joined– At Ellie’s request, of course.
You tried your best to have meals as a family, taking the time to share details of the day or week, or simply just enjoying each other's presence in silence. Ellie had made it a point to spend time with you and Joel separately once a week outside of work, whether it’d be having lunch, going for a walk, or watching a movie together.
It was like life breathed into her, and your house felt like home again.
Whenever you’d get lucky enough to all be home at the same time, the three of you would be in the living room together but be occupied with your respective interests. Joel would be on the couch with a guitar and rag in hand, delicately cleaning and polishing the instrument, while Ellie sat on the window seat across the room with her notebook and pencil. You’d be curled up on your reading chair between them with your nose in a book while cradling either a mug of coffee or tea. Sometimes the quiet would be broken by Ellie peering up from her art and seriously prompting Joel with a question that was so obviously from her book of puns and you'd watch as she eagerly waited for him to take the bait. You couldn't tell what was better, when Ellie would make herself crack up, or watch Joel shake his head in disbelief with a grin on his face. The best, though, was when Joel would answer with the punchline and laugh as he watched Ellie's face fall with contempt.
Things had just fallen back into place.
The general rule in Jackson was that everything had a set schedule and was planned in advance, no matter how big or minuscule it was. So when Maria had called in for all patrol, leaders, and committee members to meet at first light this morning, you knew it had to be something important.
On your walk over to town hall, you took the extra time to appreciate your surroundings. The sun shined a bit brighter, and the air felt fresher. The trees were regaining their green leaves in full, and weeds sprouted in the cracks of the streets and sidewalks. You waved to fellow settlers sitting on their porches and drinking their morning cups of coffee, many of whom you’d come to know as good friends.
The room filled up quickly and the air hummed with anticipation and light conversation. People arranged themselves according to their role in Jackson, but you only paid attention to the groups you belonged to: The committee, who sat before the podium, and patrol, who lingered near the back. And it just so happened that you were administration duty this week, so you took your seat in the front row. You scanned over your shoulder for Joel and spotted him off in the corner with Tommy, in what seemed like typical brotherly conversation. The two faced each other, Tommy talking passionately about something while Joel shook his head in annoyance, which slowly turned to reluctant nods and a hand up in defeat. You wondered what he’d been going on about.
Your attention was drawn back to the podium by the tapping sound of the microphone that was amplified through the speakers, Maria's favorite way of commanding the room's attention. But when you looked at her, she wasn’t her typical self. In all meetings, planned or not, she always exuded an unmatched confidence and possessed a let's-get-to-business attitude. That she wasn’t phased by the sheer amount of responsibility that rested on her shoulders, being the backbone of Jackson.
But now, something was off. She was bothered, and it showed. Her hands that normally folded in front of her now gripped the sides of the podium with such a strain that you could see her knuckles turning white and her thumb repeatedly scratching at the wood. Her eyes anxiously darted around the room, looking at all the bodies staring back at her, but not really seeing them.
"Thank you all for being here on such short notice," she tried to mask her concern with a bright smile, "I wanted to bring you all together to discuss an important development that has come to our attention."
She paused for a moment, as if to reel in everyone's attention moreso, though it was probably more for herself. You tilted your head and squinted at her as she nervously peered around again, wondering what the hell had gotten into her.
"Recently, some of our patrol has been encountering a group little ways beyond our walls,” she allowed her words to sink in, “but they’re not like our usuals– they’re more organized. Dangerous.”
And? Jackson’s dealt with savagery before, what’s so different now? Maria glanced at you briefly, as if she heard your thoughts.
“They pose a significant threat to us. One greater than we’ve ever seen, and one that we cannot underestimate.”
Without missing a beat, you looked over your shoulder between the sea of people that were exchanging uneasy looks and words for Joel, finding his eyes on you. He shared the same apprehensive expression as you did, with steady eyes and scrunched brows.
Maria held up her hand to quiet the murmur that had rippled through the room before speaking again, but you drowned out her words. The most you were able to put together was something about unsettling information, the community being built on unity and resilience, and stricter security measures.
For all the times you came across people, how many of them had been the company that played a hand in this? How many times had you walked away from someone who harbored ill intentions? How many times had you unwittingly brushed shoulders with death at the hands of these people?
You sat still as ever, eyes locked in front of you, but your body was beginning to shut down as more thoughts crammed themselves into your head. Your heart rate picked up, being able to feel the pulse just about everywhere, and your vision began to blur in and out.
Your hand ghosted over the void in your stomach. You could handle being out there. Fuck, you could come to terms even getting caught out there. But it made your blood run cold knowing that Joel was out there facing those same risks as you, and– fuck– even Ellie too.
One question still lingered: What was it about this group that set them apart from the rest?
“Hey sweetheart-” you were startled by the sudden hand on your knee, jerking your head to the left to look at the woman next to you, Charlotte. She frowned at you, “Are you alright?”
“I’m-” you shook your head to a nod, “I’m- Yes. I am.” She didn’t look convinced, but didn’t pry either. Instead, she gently placed her hand on top of yours.
You liked Charlotte, and not just because you had to for the sake of the committee, because God, there were quite a few that fell under that obligation. You actually respected her. She was sweet and southern as they made them, and everything she did was always handled with grace and poise. You’d also be lying to yourself if you said you weren’t slightly envious of her. To be soft and benevolent well after the end of the world? You could only wish to be those things.
“Well, if it’s alright with you, I could really use Ellie’s help at the school today.” She took her free hand and gestured about the room, “Just ‘ought to prep some things in light of all.. this.”
You placed your hand on top of hers, "Ellie would love to."
“And have Dina go too,” she gave a warm smile and squeezed your shoulder as she stood. She leaned down as if she was confessing a secret, sending you a wink. “I’ve always liked those two.”
It was when she walked away that you noticed the meeting had ended. People were standing clustered in groups, and you were unable to decipher what each conversation had really been about as you were preoccupied with finding Joel before heading out.
He’d still been near the back with Tommy and other patrolmen Samson, Milo, and- oh, great- Fitz.
You’d been paired up with Fitz on several occasions, only getting to know him well enough to stand him for an entire shift, but still struggled to do so. He was a patrol leader around your age, but still acted like he was in his twenties, in the sense of that he wanted to fuck every woman available in Jackson. Every time you’d turn him down, he’d have another girl on his arm the week after, and then a different one after that. And just when you thought he’d given up, he made his rounds back to you in hopes that you’d give him a chance to get in your pants.
Tommy's back had been to you, the four men around him listening to whatever story he'd been telling. You gently patted his shoulder and you stepped beside him so as not to spook him, to which he pulled you in for a side hug/cheek kiss combo and quick good mornin' as he carried on his story. Joel had been on the end of the semi-circle of men, leaving you a spot to settle in next to him. When Tommy got to the height of the tale, the three men erupted in laughter, Joel only shaking his head with a curled lip.
In a moment of reprieve, Fitz took the opportunity to draw the attention to you with a mischievous grin.
“Miler, how’s it that you’ve got the most beautiful woman in Jackson livin’ under the same roof as you, and yet you won’t even claim her?”
Fitz’s tongue poked his cheek as Joel’s jaw tightened at the slight. You caught Tommy giving Joel a smug look before looking down at his feet to hide it. He’d teased Joel for the same thing before, but never as direct or harsh, and definitely not in front of other people. Fitz redirected back to you, “Listen, if he won’t touch ya', I’d be happy to-”
“Who said he didn’t?”
You wanted to punch yourself in the throat immediately, but the wild look on Joel’s face made the lie so fucking worth it. You kept the smirk on your face and stared at Fitz until he grew uncomfortable enough to break contact, ignoring the wide eyed expressions from the rest of them.
“You could probably take some pointers, honestly.” You jerked your thumb at Joel.
Joel continued to burn holes into your head as Tommy, Milo, and Samson tried to stifle their laughter. Fitz rolled his eyes as a redness spread on his cheeks, mumbling an insult and withdrawing himself from the group. You smiled and bit your lip as you watched him walk away, letting out an airy laugh once he was out of sight.
“So, when were you guys gonna-” You and Joel both gestured defensively at Tommy as excuses fell out of your mouths by the second.
“No! We’re not-” you glanced at Joel quickly. “No. That was just to get Fitz to quit his shit.”
Knowing Fritz’s reputation, Tommy didn’t require anymore persuasion, saving you from having to over-explain yourself and wind up looking like a fool in the process. “Well.. we're havin' a thing at the Bison on Friday. Why don't you come down?"
You raised an eyebrow at him, looking at Joel for confirmation if you heard him correctly. “Shouldn’t we.. I don’t know, not be having a thing? Especially after what Maria just said?”
Tommy nodded his head and sighed, knowing exactly that’s what the invitation sounded like. “It’s not- It’s supposed to be a.. morale booster, fuckin’ whatever– it's Maria’s idea, not mine. I'm just supposed to get the word out."
While it felt a little odd, you could understand why she wanted to do it. "I don't know, Tommy, I-"
"Great! See y'all there!" Tommy smirked as he looked between you and Joel and began to walk away. You turned to Joel with disbelief, but he was unphased, conveying how Tommy had roped him into this way before you walked over.
As the room emptied out, you all took it as your cue to leave and begin tending to your responsibilities for the day. Joel had disappeared too quickly for your liking, but you didn’t have the time to sit and chat with him either.
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You stopped home to find Ellie, Dina, and Jesse in the kitchen eating breakfast together, chuckling at the idea of the other two essentially being your adoptive children as well for how much they were over.
Ellie offered you a strawberry off her plate and inquired about the meeting with genuine curiosity. Carefully, you explained to them the importance of being aware of their surroundings for the next couple of weeks, and to not stay out past curfew no matter where they were. Meaning if they needed to crash at your house for the night, so be it, and so on and so forth. They found your propositions to be odd, understandably as you didn’t give the proper context as to why, but nonetheless they didn’t question you.
"So.. are you going to the thing on Friday?" Jesse’s inquiry took you by surprise.
"How do you know about the thing on Friday?" You asked like a mother asking her child about something they weren't supposed to know about.
"I ran into Fitz before I got here.”
You rolled your eyes. Fuckin’ Fitz. Of course he’s going. You shifted your weight against the counter, crossing your arms. "Yeah, I am. Why?"
"'Cause we were gonna sneak in if you weren't." Dina mumbled behind her glass of juice.
You tittered at her honesty, your eyebrows now furrowed together. "And why would you guys have to sneak in?"
"Because Fitz said that Uncle Tommy said it was only for adults? Like, older than us." Ellie gestured to the other two and shot you a look of confusion, like you were already supposed to know.
Your expression stayed the same, but your eyes shifted around the room as you thought about the new fact she presented you.
Huh. Only for adults.
Your mouth closed and curled up. It was on brand for Tommy to not have added that important piece of information.
Ellie watched as the gears turned in your head, but you didn't give her the opportunity to pick at your brain as you changed the subject to Charlotte's request.
“Well, Ms. Charlotte needs you two to help her today.” You pointed your fingers at the girls, who shared an excitement to be with the kids. Keeping one finger on them, you averted the other to Jesse. “And you need to get ready to head out, Mr. Almost-Patrol-Leader.”
The kids rushed to clean up their dishes and grab their bags to get to it. Before running out the door, they each gave you their own special way of saying goodbye.
“Thanks for letting me eat your food!”
“See you later, love you!
“Love you more than Ellie does!”
You beamed at the door after it closed.
For some reason, you thought Joel would've been home. You imagined that if he had been present for the conversation, he definitely would've dropped a sarcastic remark somewhere to illustrate his dismay for Fitz or the party. But he wasn't, and it made you feel off.
You were still leaning against the counter in deep thought, feeling.. oddly familiar in the spot. It had only been months ago when you stood here, tea in hand, sharing a.. moment.. with Joel. You stared at the empty space where he had left the jar of honey that morning, a memory of yet another stolen moment.
The silence overwhelmingly contrasted with the energetic scene you were just part of, forcing you to realize just how empty the house was.
You shook your head, rousing yourself from your thoughts.
Go. Go out and get some work done.
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You spent the rest of the afternoon and evening walking through the bustling streets of Jackson, checking in with other leaders and taking note of their preparations for the coming weeks to report back to Maria. You wanted to gather as much information as possible to keep her adequately informed, but it also gave you a reason to push Joel far away from your thoughts.
Through your interactions, you couldn't help but admire the unity and spirit of Jackson. The sense of vigilance permeated the community, there was a collective understanding that every measure mattered in ensuring the safety of everyone. From rigorous training sessions led by guardsmen, sharpening their combat skills and marksmanship, to the meticulous maintenance of weapons and ammunition, no detail was overlooked.
Before returning to the town hall, you brought yourself to the stables. It sat on a hill that overlooked the town with no other buildings near it, making it the perfect getaway when you needed a break from all the noise.
It'd been empty with the exception of a handful of horses in their stalls. In relaxed movements, you swiftly picked up a bucket and flipped it upside down as a makeshift seat, plopping yourself down on it. Hues of red and orange brushed across the sky, the sun sitting just over the top of a mountain far out in the distance. You sat quietly, listening to the buzzing and ticks of nature.
"Can't beat that view." A gentle voice came from behind you, registering as Joel.
The sound of his boots on the floor let you know he approached your side, shoving his hands into his pockets. You nodded in agreement, not seeing the use for words in the moment. Neither one of you looked or even glanced at each other, focusing your attention to the sunset in front of you. The sun descended behind the mountain, dragging the bold colors with it and allowing new hues of blue and purple to replace it. The town lights began to come on, flickering up and down the streets. A soft yellow glow illuminated the stables.
You hadn't seen him all day after the meeting, but now here he was, joining you in your small time of solace. Honestly, you didn't expect him to be there. If he had gone out for his shift around noon, he wasn't supposed to be back for another few hours. You thought that maybe Tommy switched his shift last minute, or that you just remembered his schedule wrong for the week. Either way, you weren't going to poke and prod. Your thoughts had pivoted back to this morning.
“Do you think she’s not telling us something?”
He furrowed his eyebrows momentarily before relaxing. “Maybe.”
You stood up and slid the bucket off to the side, beginning to pace at the edge where the wood met the grass. Joel watched as you brought your hands to your hips and your eyes stared down at your feet, placing themselves one in front of the other as if they threatened to trip over thin air.
You couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something more to this. It all felt so sinister. You wanted to be mad at yourself– How could you have gone so long without realizing that there’d been people out there watching, judging, and assessing every move? But also, how could you have known? What were the signs you were supposed to be looking for?
“People hide things when they’re scared.”
His words stopped your pace, and fuck if they hit a little too close to home. You faced him with a perplexed expression etched on your face and a light desperation in your voice. “But why is she scared?”
You weren’t looking for a legitimate answer, you just wanted him to see where your train of thought was at. You searched his eyes in hopes that he shared the same doubts. That something bigger was in the picture.
“Tommy thinks they’re tracking us on patrol.” He shrugged his shoulders again, his eyes first glancing down at the ground before landing on you. He shifted his weight to his one foot almost cautiously. "Seems that way, I guess."
Your breath hitched in the back of your throat as you tried to take deep breaths. Your hands ran through your hair to stimulate the light-headed feeling that was spreading quickly. No fucking way.
“How long?”
Your eyebrows were knitted together and your eyes narrowed at Joel's. He brought his hands to his hips and turned himself towards Jackson, staring off into the distance, where somewhere between all those mountains, rivers, and forests, danger lurked. The weight of silence hung heavy in the air, a tangible presence that seemed to amplify the gravity of the situation.
“Been runnin’ into the same people for a couple months, at least.”
Months. They had fucking months on you. And only now had Jackson realized it. Yet, Joel seemed indifferent in conveying this to you. You felt that all the air had been knocked out of your lungs, and you turned away, dragging a hand down your mouth to cover your mouth, muffling an oh my fucking god. You reverted back to how you thought about how blissfully unaware you were about all the times they could’ve taken or killed you, or Joel, or– you whipped around to him.
“She cannot go on patrol anymore.” He looked at you with a somber expression, his gaze growing with concern as the lines on his forehead deepened. You didn’t notice as he drew closer to you as you began to think of the worst case scenarios. “I’m sorry, Joel- But she can’t. God forbid something-”
You’d been talking a million miles a minute and staring right into his chest, yet didn’t see his hands coming up to cradle your face and make you look up at him. In his eyes, you saw his worry as you lost yourself in your own head. He saw how troubling you found the entire matter to be, and knew that it would eat at you until it was put to rest.
“Please, don’t let her.” Your hands wrapped over top of his as your voice broke in a final plea.
His hands were rough and calloused, yet when they held you, you’d think that he’d held everything in life this softly. His thumbs ran over your cheekbones, eyes flickering between your own. If the circumstances were different, maybe you’d take your chance and crash into him. But when he looked at you like this? Man, it didn’t get much better than that.
“Yes ma’am.”
In his response that probably should’ve made either of you withdraw, neither of you did. His eyes quickly glanced down at your mouth, and you involuntarily did the same to him. You said his name, but it was barely audible. He brought his hand to the back of your hand and guided you into his chest, wrapping his arm around you.
“Hey,” he cooed, “we’re gonna be okay.”
His words had a profound effect on you. Those simple words said with such an assurance and sincerity that you so desperately wanted to believe him without question. It echoed in your head.
We're gonna be okay.
You don't know when, but at some point over all the years with Joel, it became something more than just surviving together. It became that you were unofficially his, and he was unofficially yours, with no room for anyone but Ellie inbetween. But still, you found yourself wondering if it would ever be more than just that. If he ever felt the same pull, the magnetic force that constantly drew you towards him.
You couldn't help but wonder if he truly understood the depth of your own feelings. If he grasped the significance of these moments that left your heart racing. Did he know how often you spent thinking about him, replaying conversations in your mind, searching for hidden meaning in every word and gesture like you were right now?
You buried your chest into his chest and nodded, a silent acknowledgement at best, allowing his words to sink in for what they were worth.
"Yeah, we're gonna be okay."
You didn't believe yourself for a second.
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