#It haunts me. It will always haunt me.

[kk1smet]

After a long time stalling, I’ve finally read Dwelling. Also because of this immaculate work of @sits-bound, and @tackytigerfic’s caution encouragement. I may have survived, but not without a crater in my chest made by thousands of shards. Here’s my sloppy attempt to patch that up.

PS. Dear @pl0tty and my irl friends, you’re the OG. Thank you for your insights. ♥︎

#Dwelling by aideomai #What a maddening torment. #K is Read(ying) #It haunts me. It will always haunt me. #my art #Art inspired by Fic #Kismet draws #Seems like making art tribute is becoming a pattern #Thinking of sharing them on ao3? #drarry #draco malfoy #harry james potter #drarry art

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

ok everybody block dnp on all socials they have eyes everywhere. they know way to much. those omniscient fuckers are always watching. no one is safe.

like what do you MEAN you know about those stupid “real voice” compilations and people absolutely clowning about jumpcuts and smudged whiskers and what do you MEAN you’re aware of those 2009 phan theories people still debate to this day? what happened to “i don’t check my indirects” “i don’t go on the tags”?? i bet you’re lurking RIGHT NOW reading this very post. all men do is lie. can’t trust anyone 😤😪

#/j #dnp #dan and phil #pinof #phan #gamingmas 2023 #yeet my deet #dan howell #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #danisnotonfire #i didn’t participate in the phandom until they came out #i was an older phannie i started watching at age 16 #so i knew better #so this feels like i’m being punished for something i didn’t do #and having always been mortified and embarrassed by the shit yall would say back in the day #my only respite was “ok maybe dnp didn’t see this” #no they’ve seen EVERYTHING #you’re past is coming back to haunt you but your past is also coming back to haunt me lmao #to be clear i am part of the problem simply for consuming phan/phandom media at the time and therefore giving those videos views #but i was always terrified of the phandom #like i didn’t even consider myself part of the phandom for my first 4 years as a phannie #i was a closet demon phannie lol #i started participating after they came out and we were all actual adults about it and super respectful #i was like we’re all old and gay now i love this for us #yeet my deenp

[ghostdrinkssoup]

the thing that really gets me about mizumono is that will doesn’t even fight back. he saw alana mangled outside. he knows jack might be dead. he has a loaded gun in hand. but not once does he try to hurt hannibal. he doesn’t even shoot. will just lets him caress his cheek, fingers curling into his hair. there’s no resistance. when hannibal stabs him, will leans into it. he doesn’t want to escape. and it all hurts so badly because it’s not like will tricked hannibal into loving him; he simply persuaded him that he might love him back. because that’s what will thought hannibal did to him in s1, and only now does he realise that maybe it was more real for hannibal than he thought. or worse, that maybe he wants to be with hannibal regardless of whether hannibal genuinely loves him. that maybe it’s worth it to be close to him, even if his touch splits his stomach open

#it’s midnight and I’m about to pass out so apologies if this doesn’t make sense #but I’m thinking about it and ohhhhh my god #the way will looks at hannibal before he gets stabbed always kills me #like he couldn’t look away even if he tried #so vulnerable and full of love #and then hannibal plunges the knife into him I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE #mizumono is the dead sister who haunts the narrative #she haunts my every waking moment #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #hannigram #ghost speaks

[avephelis]

if you like silly gay people in love read @phantom-does-a-thing's They Ain't Casing Out Weddings the clothing descriptions have me in a chokehold

#NOT REALLY SURE ABOUT ETIQUETTE WITH FANART FOR BANG FICS SO LMK IF I'VE MADE A FAUX PAS 🙏🙏 #jrwi #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #polypirates #albatrio #avepharts #genuinely finished the fic and my brain was haunted by the outfits for like two days until i blacked out and drew something #and if there is one thing about me it's that i'm always fucking drawing characters in clothes. #but they are my WORLD. do you understand. anyway hi phantom i'm obsessed with your fics forever and ever they're incredible.

[bettdraws]

You know the iconic scene where Elain is standing in the stairs and Lucien is expecting her to make a move towards him or say something until he realizes she’s not ready and he bows his head hiding his pain and turns around to leave, only for her to actually make that half step when he has already lost hope and doesn’t see it, I often think if this is foreshadowing of what their dynamic will be like in their book.

Elain trying to take that step when Lucien has already lost all hope for a possibility of her actually choosing him.

#no thoughts always just them #the half step haunts me to this day #elucien #pro elucien #lucien vanserra #elain archeron

[astralzeraphias]

megatron’s holoform

#megatron #dot malto #maccadam #transformers #this has been haunting me for literal ages #every since i found out abt holoforms ive thought #’what if megatron’s holoform was really hot. what then. how would the humans feel then.’ #i’d apologize for making every character i like bisexual but im not sorry. so. bisexual dot :) #i dont actually ship these two. however. #earthspark #man i always forget to tag continuity

[pokimoko]

haunting the narrative -> haunted by the narrative -> haunting the narrative -> haunted by

#adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #fan art #fanart #art #digital art #my art #just a lil something something i did for fun #adventure time has always been the show that makes me want to draw (i have SO many AT drawings from 2015 it's ridiculous) #but now I'm coming back to that ye olde passion with new digital art skills and many more evil tragic thoughts (thank you fionna and cake🙏) #i couldn't get the thought about them haunting and be haunted by the narrative out of my head so I had to make some art for it #the caption for this was almost: so who wears the haunted by the narrative in the relationship? #they take turns of course because damn these guys really do be having that tragic romance huh. hot potato cursed existence #never quite on the same wavelength. always out of reach. their love the very thing that dooms them to be apart. a love defined by absences #like two ships in the night passing each other by. except they keep trying to seek the other out. and so end up going in circles #the tragic dance of madness and sadness. lead on and i shall follow. ....so anyway...these two amiright? #/might/ have to write something at some point...maybe... #because like... ghosts are my thing. and these two...well. even when they aren't haunting the narrative they are still ghosts #never let themselves live in the present and okay I'm going to stop now. enjoy the art byeeeee #...AND they'll never be at peace because they'll always be reaching for a version of each other that no longer exists and— #(i am dragged kicking and screaming from the room before i can devolve into a full blown meta)

[topnotchquark]

Nico saying that Lewis gives his daughters boxes of presents every Christmas just got caught in my mind.

Imagine you were a mixed race boy born in Hertfordshire, different from everyone else around you. Bullied in school, being raised by your father to compete in a sport where money is very much of essence and you and your family do not have a lot of it. And then you meet this other boy who comes from the kind of life you dream to live one day. You're friends and fierce competitors. You find solace in each other. You visit Monaco for the first time with your friend, dreaming up the life you will have when you make it, when you beat out of the mould that the world thought it could capture you in.

And then you two grow through the ranks and you're at the pinnacle of your sport and you have what it takes to win and the world recognises that you can win. And you win. You win with your friend and fiercest competitor by your side fighting with you for those wins, and this fighting ruins something something that was valuable to both of you when you were still innocent and unsullied by life.

But despite everything that went into the doing and undoing of this relationship, you still realise that this person you once called a friend has a life and family beyond your bitter dynamic. He has children, and children need love and affection and good memories. And you're a better man now so you understand that. So you make sure the kids get gifts on Christmas. And you make sure of it every year. Afterall, if you met someone you loved deeply when you were both kids, wouldn't you feel a pang of nostalgia when they had kids. Wouldn't you try to extend the warmth that you couldn't find for your friend to his children. Afterall, whatever happens during childhood basically remains with you forever.

#and nico's perspective of the same is just #being bullied as a child and being profoundly lonely till you find this friend who is in many ways the yardstick for performance #and even when you go through all this rancidity and the love has almost evaporated down to bare bones politeness #you know there is something that remains deep down #and so he gets your kids Christmas gifts each year #both their childhoods were sites of pain and both of them found something with each other #and lewis honours that by being a positive presence in nico's childrens' lives #albeit from a distance #and of course we're no strangers to how much Nico loves his kids #you can bet if Lewis had kids Nico would do that same #sorry this caught in my heart a little #I knew he had been giving presents for a while and I always thought of that as very beautiful but seeing it on the tl made me remember #man #love haunts you in such peculiar ways forever #brocedes #lewis hamiton #nico rosberg #f1 #formula 1

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Sharing is Caring!

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jiang cheng #While listening to the Lotus Seed extra I was like 'aw this art is so cute.' #Post The Fanfic Fiasco (re: last comic's tags) I am haunted by the green orbs. WWX has a bag of edible green orbs and I am in hell. #First draft of this comic's script has JC saying 'dude you wouldn't even share with me!' and I love his little sibling indignation. #Middle child power is knowing that you don't have to share with your siblings. The little wet eyes and weak hand slaps do NOTHING. #JC probably already ate all of his lotus seeds. That's on you dude! #Part of me wants to get deeper with the metaphor of the lotus seeds here. It is a gesture of a certain kind of affection. #JYL gives something to WWX she does not quite share with JC. And WWX in turn gives something to LWJ he does not share with JC. #Really puts JC's line 'You're always eating...eating eating' into a very different light. #There are other kinds of starving besides hunger. There are other ways to be a glutton than just food and drink. #WWX's character pre-burial mounds is heavily focused on 'Indulgence'. Be it wine or flirting or hunting or eating- #-or receiving admiration; He is always indulging in ways we never see JC do. #I think the intentional contrast was with the Lan's 'Live simple and without indulgence' lifestyle. LWJ is the abstainer to wwx's gluttony. #But it does expand to JC as well! Both are locked into the role model position to have friction against WWX's apparent freedom. #I think LWJ and JC (at this point) see WWX as something they both want (in different capacities) and someone they want to be. #Yet despite the history between them it is not JC who WWX reaches out to. It's LWJ. #The boy already has an inferiority complex! Stop making it accidently worse!

[mmmairon]

Why not enjoy the view together?

#manspreading diluc haunts my dreams he’s just so large and beefy thanks for indulging with me #life is still really busy and i’m always tired so sorry for not being on here much #i mean to get to my asks soon i’m very dogshit at this if you haven’t noticed #someone very kind gave me a generous tip on kofi to finish the sketch to this painting so how could i now #not* #diluc #my art #genshin impact #genshin #diluc ragnvindr #diluc fanart

[hischierschain]

hello Nico Hischier !

#nj devils #devils lb #nico hischier #unfortunately you know it’s over when nico is like this #his deep breaths will always haunt me

[crystallizsch]

ahahahah have i ever mentioned that i love him

#this has been in the drafts for weeks #i drew this while i was destressing from studying #im already far gone lmao #i’ve BEEN far gone #he haunts me #the pretty boy #[— #twst #twisted wonderland #twst art #jamil viper #★'-my-art #—] #at this point i have been drawing jamil from memory #i dont check his reference anymore unless i absolutely have to #and i’m usually a strickler with details so i always have to double check details #but alas-

[stanleyscubrick]

the haunting of hill house, shirley jackson

#the haunting of hill house #shirkey jackson #horror literature #horror #uhmmmmm #this was very personal to me! #mine #studyblr #studyspo #dark academia #light academia #booklr #writing #chaotic academia #literature #classical academia #going googoo gaga insane #also read we have always lived in this castle

[itspileofgoodthings]

always thinking about when I was talking to a friend about IX about Ben’s death and she said “there was a whole lifetime in his smile” and I just. think about that forever.

#reylo #i know that like. nobody cares. and all the reylos have left/unfollowed in the way of scattering fandoms and I’m still at the restaurant #sitting in the corner I haunt #but reylo will always be that to me #anyway there WAS a whole lifetime in his smile 😭😭😭😭 #the thing about Ben and Rey is that they were simply and ultimately so quiet and so private #like. just the two of them in all the world #and for them to be stuck in the hugest of franchises in the most controversial of sequels in the most disappointing of final installments #just makes me love them more. #I’m a fighter. I’m a lover AND a fighter #anyway it’s just. I know #he just. it’s all there on his face. Breaking through the mask of his suffering and his dysfunction and all of his choices #just shining out for one perfect moment before he slipped away

[foolbehavior]

I love the little hat emoji people use to represent luffy, the android version has a pretty purple bow 👒

#one piece #luffy #monkey d. luffy #fooldles #experiencing the art horrors right now but the urge to draw him grabbed me by the neck and threw me through a window #anything for you pirate king #EDIT: I FIXED HIS HAND OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE IT WAS BACKWARDS #THANK YOU ANON FOR TELLING ME #haha i mean whhattt??? it was like this the whole timeeeeee #i don't think deleting a post will always delete the reblogs so i'm just editing #backward hand luffy will haunt me until i die BUT LESSON LEARNED

[lena--beana]

Being a game collector is so weird bc you tell your friends "hey have you seen this thing, it's one of my favorite things ever and if you want to try it you either have to hang out at my place for a week or emulate it which is always morally correct but there's like a 10% chance it won't play exactly right or buy it secondhand on ebay for $200 more than I did when I found it decaying on a gamestop shelf 15 years ago and you can only play it on the PS2 because that disc doesn't work on anything modern if it still even works at all"

but with movies it's like "hey have you seen Space Jam? It's an hour and a half, I've got it on DVD or we can rent it on five different streaming sites for like $5"

#big surprise i'm always going to advocate for game preservation #and i'll die mad about how hard it is for my friends to see these things that are important to me #go play metal gear go play chrono trigger go find as many weird old games as you can and fall in love with one of them #kitten politics #game preservation #collecting #game collecting #retro gaming #mgs #chrono trigger #chulip #mr mosquito #chibi robo #pikmin #silent hill #drakengard #haunting ground #castlevania #adventures of lomax #persona #persona 2 #shin megami tensei #illbleed #skies of arcadia #radical dreamers #wind waker #twilight princess