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healingwgabs · 5 months

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“Talk to a therapist” “go to the psych ward” are ableist statements and r not supportive to the psychotic communities who experience delusions of persecution and extreme paranoia who wont trust their therapist or the psych ward staff?? and are likely to get traumatized if they go to therapy or the psych ward in a state like that

Seen posts on here that recommend that psychotics (Doesn’t specify what kind) speak to therapists? And from personal experience I don’t agree (depends on what kind) and think it can be harmful. I was lucky enough to be given a few free sessions-my mom had something set up (like 3-the country I live in offers that to some ppl 🇨🇦 but my therapist) but it was during my psychotic depression (w chronic paranoia) and now I feel ways about seeing a therapist.. idk don’t recommend seeing one if ur like that, it was kinda traumatizing and it wasn’t the therapists fault

Everything is traumatizing when ur in a state like that :( still learning what triggers I got while like that esp having experienced things for as long as I have

I also never told my therapist about the psychotic symptoms I was experiencing during things, didn’t trust being honest about them with a professional at the time, just had to mask a lot. Didn’t tell my family either. I was rlly scared about the terrifying things I was going through internally

#disability justice #psychotic depression #schizophrenia #bpd psychosis #bpd paranoia #delusions of persecution #extreme paranoia #anti oppresion #transformative social justice #ableism #lived experience #bipolar 1 depression #psychotic depression awareness #improving care for psychotics

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xmybipolarmindx · 1 month

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Image by Екатерина Гусева from Pixabay I got home from work around 5:30PM, which was like an hour and a half ago. I ate homemade Pizza for dinner, courtesy of my mama, after not eating all day at work. So, now I am not doing anything and have no plans for tonight. I figured now is a good time to create another personal blog post. TGIF (Thank God It’s Friday), because I need a break after a busy…

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heymacy · 30 days

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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

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faiiryteethh · 2 months

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#my edits #quotes #text post #mental illness #bipolar 1 #autism #autistic #anxiety #ptsd #bipolar 1 rapid cycling #bipolar disorder #manic depression #manic depressive

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caseyscraftycorner · 3 months

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Bipolar, part 1.

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traumakid-hideout · 1 month

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An episode of mania almost always always always starts out so euphorically, makes you feel like you’re on the perfect drug, makes your confidence and motivation sky rocket and has you romanticizing all the fun it baits you with. It feels so amazing, you feel like nothing can hurt you or get to you.

Then the irritability comes, genuine rage, such an uncomfortable and overwhelming increase in libido, dangerous impulses, social behavior to be humiliated from by the time you crash, severe sleep deprivation that disorients the fuck out of you the longer you go without it, without even feeling tired at all. But feeling completely out of control. And if it escalates, Lord help you. Hallucinations, bad paranoia, black outs, substance abuse (or relapse if you happen to be recovering), delusions, everything that could get you into a psych ward. It isn’t fun at the end and any pleasure you feel is completely illusionary.

The worst part is I still normally never want it to stop. Because the depression after, which gets so ugly and terrible the longer, more intense the mania is, is something I’m not looking forward to at all. That, and mania can really sometimes convince you that you love it. I’m not wanting to go there though, because I have a lot to lose. Even if I don’t lose anything, I’m tired of this cycle and just can’t afford to desire it anymore. So I’m managing where I can, but wow it’s just scary to watch it take you higher and higher into it, and further and further away from yourself.

This is precisely why I despise any sort of stigma toward bipolar disorder. It’s so misunderstood, misquoted, and mistreated. I just really want and need some help. My hands are so sweaty and shaky, my heart and my mind are racing, I can’t stop talking, I can’t eat. I can’t focus, I can only fixate. And it’s just so overwhelming already.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallybipolar #actuallyhypomanic #actuallymanic #manic episodes #mania #manic #manic episode #manic depression #manic depressive #mental heath #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #bipolar mania #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #bipolar 2

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flashy-mf · 3 months

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Manic episode bingo! (Written at 3am during a manic episode lmao)

For bipolar, schizoaffective, cyclothymic disorder, and the like (if you have manic episodes, use it! I don’t really care what mental illness causes yours. All is valid which is why I made it as inclusive as possible, so no gatekeepers or ableists though I know saying this won’t stop anyone)

Here’s mine 🔥🎉📸👁️🫦👁️✨💥💪

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that-bipolar-mood · 1 year

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Being medicated doesn't mean becoming normal.

There's this trope I've seen in media, mentally ill that take meds and suddenly become neurotypical. To me this was a harmful fantasy, thinking that medicine means cure, and a fast one.

The reality of meds is often disappointing. You still find your limitations and differences. Lots of underground symptoms and sensitivities don't ever vanish.

Being bipolar myself it often left me perplexed, the fact that I was receiving correct treatment, but still struggled. Not with acute episodes, just a baby version of previous symptoms.

I'm trying to accept bipolar as my personal disability. I figured that medicine is my support, like a cane could be for those with physical disabilities. It means I'm still not like the rest and I will always struggle, but man is it nice to have some help...

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golden-golem · 1 month

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My mother had passed away just a few days after the launch of Guild Wars 2. I was struggling with a freshly re-diagnosed mental illness and was adjusting to the new medication. I would be reassessed and given new psychiatric medications every few months for the next couple of years. It is something I still struggle with. Guild Wars 2 was the only place where I felt, at least for a time, that I could forget about the things that were hurting me so bad in real life. Sometimes this was bad, and sometimes this was good. In those first few years there were some really messed up encounters out of character. Sometimes other people messed up with me and sometimes I messed up with other people. We can unknowingly cause a lot of anguish and harm. I still think about what damage I might have caused, and how I have lost touch with people so I am unable to apologize, or explain, or thank them for the good things they did for me when I had been unstable. While I no longer interact with people the way I once did, I treasure those memories. When I talk about Xam, I am also speaking about the experiences I had a few years ago. He's just a character, the roleplay might have just been a story created by multiple people but I was also on a recovering journey with him. It is strangely so personal. But I want to share it, and I hope you don't mind.

#was misdiagnosed with depression #re-diagnosed with bipolar type 1 #its been hard #but I love this character so much #I love the stories from that time I have to tell #its meant so much for me and I feel I've developed so much

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silkense · 4 months

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bipolar

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xmybipolarmindx · 2 months

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Manic Vents: March 11th, 2024

Photo by Iulia Mihailov on Unsplash It is 12:45 a.m. and I am more on the manic side right now. I should have gone to bed hours ago so that I could get enough sleep for work tomorrow. I am going to hate myself in the morning and I already know it. Lately, after my alarm goes off, I will set another alarm for 7:20 a.m. so that I can get 20 more minutes of sleep. Or I will go right downstairs at 7…

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psychocitysblog · 10 months

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I have so many different mental illnesses that I don’t know which one is worse because I feel them all continuously. I feel so alone.

#kinda depressing #depressing shit #this is depressing #bpd #bpd shit #depressing life #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts #actually bpd #bpd mood #bipolar 1 #ptsd #trauma #send help

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dissociation-plus · 2 years

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why is it so difficult to get help for mental illness?

#actually mentally ill #mental illness #mental health #mentally exhausted #adhd #anxiety.#depression.#bpd #borderline personality disorder #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #bipolar 2 #bipolar 3 #schizoaffective #schizophrenia

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caseyscraftycorner · 3 months

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Bipolar, part 2.

Part one here.

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narc1ssis1ic · 9 months

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You ever find yourself bawling your eyes out out of sadness but laughing your head off from happiness at the same time?

#actually bipolar #bipolar 2 #hypomania #hypomanic #mixed episode #bipolar type 2 #bipolar 1 #manic depressive

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tittyinfinity · 6 months

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it's crazy finding out you're autistic as an adult bc then you start to notice the ways it affects you and has affected you throughout life

and then it becomes a hyperfixation bc you're like "omg this makes so much sense now" and you start feeling a bit better about yourself knowing that there's an explanation to everything

#.bdo #autism #''panic attack disorder'' they have all been full-on meltdowns #which is just as much of a reason that I stopped working as my chronic pain #bc the last job i had i quit in the middle of a phone call #bc the lights and sounds on top of the problem solving on top of my ADHD were Too Much #i was also incorrectly diagnosed with both bipolar type 1 and BPD #it was the PTSD mixed with everything else like my post-partum depression and psychosis #found out that the ''bipolar'' was just me being happier when i have my pain meds #and getting everything done in those couple of weeks where i felt better (''mania'')#and of course more depressed when i'm in more pain bc i can't not notice it #and then also my period really fucks me up too and i get extremely angry for 3-7 days straight #but anyway #i noticed how i stim and how the way i think specifically in patterns and numbers #i've always had really bad texture issues w both food and fabric #i have misophonia and can also feel certain noises (ESPECIALLY mouth noises)(ESPECIALLY if it's repetitive)#it makes me feel like i need to make the noise too #and half the people in my family have vocal stims #ik they can't help it but it sends me into panic attacks & meltdowns #i can hear electricity on top of my tinnitus #i get socially overwhelmed easily bc of all the masking #i talk to myself and make my own noises when im alone #i have repetitive thoughts that will cycle for weeks sometimes months at a time #so i think the ocd is comorbid #bc ever since i was like 5 i've had this pattern that i HAVE to tap on things every now and then or it drives me insane #i get intense hyperfixations for months or years #there's just a lot i notice about myself now

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