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healingwgabs · 5 months

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“Talk to a therapist” “go to the psych ward” are ableist statements and r not supportive to the psychotic communities who experience delusions of persecution and extreme paranoia who wont trust their therapist or the psych ward staff?? and are likely to get traumatized if they go to therapy or the psych ward in a state like that

Seen posts on here that recommend that psychotics (Doesn’t specify what kind) speak to therapists? And from personal experience I don’t agree (depends on what kind) and think it can be harmful. I was lucky enough to be given a few free sessions-my mom had something set up (like 3-the country I live in offers that to some ppl 🇨🇦 but my therapist) but it was during my psychotic depression (w chronic paranoia) and now I feel ways about seeing a therapist.. idk don’t recommend seeing one if ur like that, it was kinda traumatizing and it wasn’t the therapists fault

Everything is traumatizing when ur in a state like that :( still learning what triggers I got while like that esp having experienced things for as long as I have

I also never told my therapist about the psychotic symptoms I was experiencing during things, didn’t trust being honest about them with a professional at the time, just had to mask a lot. Didn’t tell my family either. I was rlly scared about the terrifying things I was going through internally

#disability justice #psychotic depression #schizophrenia #bpd psychosis #bpd paranoia #delusions of persecution #extreme paranoia #anti oppresion #transformative social justice #ableism #lived experience #bipolar 1 depression #psychotic depression awareness #improving care for psychotics

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speakingofpsychosis · 11 months

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What to expect when you call a helpline c:

Knowing what to expect during a helpline call may help you feel a little more at ease. Your call experience will vary based on which line you call, why you're calling, and the severity of the situation. But in general, here's what to expect...

The waiting period:

In many cases, the first voice you will hear on the helpline may be an automated one. If the service is busy, the automated message will tell you to stay on the line until a worker is available. In other cases, the message may offer you additional options, such as the option to switch languages.

The call introduction:

When you are connected to a helpline worker they will probably let you know their name and they may ask a few questions to gain a greater understanding of your current situation. If you feel comfortable, you can let them your name, pronouns and age so they can offer a more personalised and friendly call tailored around you.

Assessing your safety:

If you're vulnerable, helplines have a duty of care to keep you safe and so they will want assess your current safety. If they believe you are in immediate danger they will first try to calm you down and work with you to come up with a plan. However, when this isn't possible the helpline may call or pass on your details to emergency service - this will always be used as a last resort though.

The main chat:

If you are not in immediate danger, you'll be able to chat to the worker about anything you want. They will help you talk through your feelings and experiences anonymously without judging you or telling you what to do. Many mental health helplines are open 24/7 or don't have a call time limit, so you can talk for as long as you need.

Finishing the call:

Once you've talked about everything you want to and have received the advice you need, the helpline worker will most likely recap on what you've talked about and help you come up with a plan forwards. Helplines are not therapy services, but, they will help guide you in the sign post you in the right direction for more regular support.

Will my call be confidential?

The simple answer is yes, unless you're in immediate danger and you're unable to come up with a safety plan. They will always try to calm you down first before they deciding a cause of action. Each helpline has a slightly different policy, but, they will all only ever break confidentiality as the very last resort.

Visit findahelpline.com to find a relevant helpline in your area. I promise you deserve support <;33

(reformatted for tumblr. original source: @claudisrecovering on instagram)

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madpunks · 1 year

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i have nothing but respect for mentally ill and neurodivergent people who choose to be unmedicated. if you don't like the way medications affect you, if you don't trust them, if you can't afford them or don't have access to care, if you don't want to put chemicals in your body, if you believe you are fine the way you are, or can cope without, i have nothing but respect for you. bless

#mad punk #mad pride #madpunk #madpride #mental health #mental illness #schizophrenia #mental heath awareness #ocd #anxiety #depression #bipolar disorder #bipolar #adhd #schizoaffective disorder #schizospec #psychotic disorders #agoraphobia #ptsd

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neuroticboyfriend · 1 year

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I think mentally ill people should be able to be more open about the darker/deeper aspects of their illness. While we should be courteous of others' triggers, I feel like a lot of us avoid talking about things at all for fear of making others uncomfortable, bringing down the mood, etc. etc. But it's not fair or healthy for us to keep secret what we go through and have gone through.

So, here's a poll to spark a little thought and conversation (Feel free to share specific songs/artists, as well as your experiences, in the notes!)

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babyfairy · 4 months

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weekend is here. time for 24/7 intense panic-inducing intrusive thoughts

#with no distractions bc all i do is isolate myself so people don’t see me in my most repulsive state of being 😋👍#truly feel undeserving of anything good really #i genuinely believe bad things happen to me regularly for a reason #and i might not be aware of it but i’m doing something to deserve or warrant it #and it’s only a matter of time until i’m all alone with no other option but to k*** m***** 😋 lolz #anyway i ate for the first time today (depressed) and now i feel sick and it’s triggering my emetophobia so you know #all around winner of a night #can’t wait to endure a thousand more just like it!!!!! i have nothing to look forward to in the near future and everything is bleak 😍#i feel like i’m going to have a fucking psychotic episode bro lol like my mind is going a mile a minute every waking moment #but that’s life (heart) i love it here btw

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emotionaldisaster909 · 6 months

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My toxic trait is thinking I don’t need therapy when I’ve had a few days of good mood in a year of constant mental breakdowns

#and then postponing seeking help in this fashion #until i get a borderline psychotic episode #because i had ran out of ideas of how to help myself #and my self-analysis turned into a self-distraction #so that I don’t need a therapist anymore but a psychiatrist #well #good timing #mental health #mental disorders #depression #anxiety #therapy #mental health awareness

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craycraybluejay · 6 months

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Me if I ever get a really bad psychotic episode and think my friend is a hulking scary monster so hit them with a chair: whoops, had a psychotic aggression moment after being psychotic this past month. Might want to find a better way to keep myself and other ppl safe in case it happens again

Some people: no!111!!1!! That's just regular aggression!!!1!1 stop talking bad about psychotics!!1!!!!! It was ur fully lucid and self aware choice to hit ur friend with a chair!!1!!!! Literally there's no such thing as psychotic aggression1!!!!1! Kys op!!

#narcissistic abuse #discourse #mental illness #actually psychotic #actually schizospec #literally yes mental disorders can drive u to do bad or stupid things. why do you think people seek help for them.#because theyre sad sometimes?#even low grade depression or anxiety can make you suicidal. and being suicidal can make you careless and stupid bc u stop caring ab shit #so like. maybe stop pretending mental disorders cant drive u to harm ppl and start addressing how to stay safe #and make sure others r safe around u #me if i say i got mad jealous bc of adhd related rsd and was mean about it bc adhd related impulsivity #people: OH NO UR SAYING THAT ADHD MAKES PPL ASSHOLES GO DIE RN #literally. go away. mental illness is an illness and not a quirk. bad shit happens. people do bad shit to themselves and others driven by #disordered behaviour and thought patterns #and you know what helps prevent this? talking about it honestly and spreading awareness so we can all get the kind of help and coping skills #that we need. so those who need meds or therapy can. so ppl can realize #'hey i felt super offended over this thing someone did that wasnt about me and hurt them! thats a pattern for me!'#'maybe i should talk about it with a therapist that specializes in stuff like that or try to use calming coping methods-#to calm myself down when i get really angry and see if it's worth hurting someone over!'#please take a moment to reflect #who are you helping by denying the disordered nature of mental illness

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girlcalledwhatsername · 2 years

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God give me the strength to not pick fights with people complaining about how every person who says anything about what helps them or others with their mental illnesses not following it up with a disclaimer of "you still need meds and therapy tho!!". There is no Single way to heal. Those therapies are often traumatising especially if you're suicidal and mention it to your therapist and they put you in a ward for it or because of the sheer amount of trauma a lot of people have with their therapists abusing the power they hold over their clients. And you'd think the blind faith in psych meds that were already founded on bogus science that was never properly proven to be true (the brain chemistry model) would at least dwindle now with the studies showing there's no correlation between serotonin and depression after all. Further readings and an organisation working on community based alternatives.

Another one and you can look at associated pages to find more, anti-psychiatry is the roots of mental health advocacy by mentally ill people who are marginalised and abused and oppressed by the system of psychiatry, it's nothing new and anti-science. Psychiatry is not an institution that is based on honest science.

I cannot believe the callousness of going to people or to creators or blogs or whatever that are talking about self care, about community care, about what helps them survive their afflictions, and having the audacity to say "you still need your meds tho, tell everyone mentally ill people need meds otherwise this is irresponsible and anti-science" no the fuck it's not. Therapy can help many people but it can and does likewise harm a lot of people too. People have the right to choose their treatment and choose how they want to heal from their traumas, you don't get to dictate that Western medicine has to be advocated by EVERYONE for them to be serious about their mental health. Psychiatric survivors are already traumatised by Psychiatry and speaking out about it and advocating for themselves and being thrown under the bus by people who don't care enough to organise and create a community that we can rely on.

Blind faith support for Psychiatry is Not Woke, it is Not Pro-science. And expecting people to advocate for it every time they so much as say "this comfort item helps with my disorder and distress!" is genuinely disgusting behaviour.

#I'm not adding links directly to the studies mentioned because it's more efficient to go to those posts #they have a whole bibliography #so i can give you the citation of several studies in the same link #but if you're genuinely filled with disbelief at this because you considered Psychiatry as doing-no-wrong feel free to read those #it's a good place to start #psych meds #psych abuse #anti psych #psychiatry #psychology #mental health stuff #mental health awareness #mental health advocacy #bipolar #depression #anxiety #cluster b personality disorders and psychotic people especially bear the brunt of this uwufication of mental health advocacy btw #ableism #sanism

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jellyfishfem · 10 months

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i saw a video today with two podcast guys (off to a good start) and one of them was saying how his cousin is schizophrenic and he started detailing his delusions, like that a doctor visits him every night and he has to keep him a way, so he nailed his windows shut…

and maybe, as someone who also experiences psychosis, im just “too used to crazy stuff”, it didnt sound disturbing or insane to me but the other dude was so shocked and everyone in the comments was eating that shit up and i could tell they all thought we’re some kind of freaks.

i just wish these people wouldnt think of us like we’re circus attractions

like its nice everyone is like hashtag mental health but the ones with the “scary” illnesses are still treated like zoo animals

#psychosis awareness #psychosis #tw mental illness #mentally ill #paranoid schizophrenic #schizoaffective #schizophrenic disorder #schizophrenia #bpd #depression #podcast #shock value #shock element #psychotic #rant #vent

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actual-changeling · 11 months

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i think my new anti depressants are working cause i no longer feel like i am about to drown in my own brain and there's some semblance of peace in my heart so i hope they keep doing that. it's only been a few days but there's definitely a difference. about fucking time man, i don't wanna have to try all available meds bro i just need these to do what they're supposed to.

#alex yells at the void #THREE meds that help with depression #two of them anti depressants one an anti psychotic #AND I STILL FEEL DEPRESSED #i would ask who fucked up my brain like that but i am well aware who did it #too many people to count at this point #i just wanna wake up and not have the urge to die okay is that too much to ask for universe can you give me that please #im tired of being suicidal yeah yeah this will never disappear i know but by god give me some relief it's been twenty years

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narkomanka-dream · 9 months

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maybe life isn't for everyone

#depression #klinik #unalive #mental health #mental health awareness #psychonauts #psychiatry #psychotic

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healingwgabs · 5 months

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Deceptive/fake? energy or perceiving it was such a huge trigger for me when I was struggling with severe paranoia. Being reality challenged is hard enough let alone have your fleeting intuition alarm bells going off when interacting w ppl trying to be appear “normal” and sane

#paranoia awareness #severe paranoia awareness #vent #severe paranoia is really hard #paranoia is really serious #cluster a #bpd paranoia #psychotic depression awareness #schizoaffective disorder #paranoid personality disorder #psychotic depression

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j4ck0l4ntern · 1 year

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Last art project of the semester 💙

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lunarwildrose · 2 years

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I looked up “anger from PTSD” and found this, cos I’m experiencing some anger out of nowhere, and couldn’t figure out why … okays, not entirely “out of nowhere” … I am irritated with how slow the xfinity internet is on Micky’s laptop which I use nowadays, as well as the slow mobile data on my smartphone (I need to upload my pics and such, as I’m running out of space, so that probably adds to how slow it is).

Anyways, I have C-PTSD, which is officially written down as “chronic PTSD” on my chart, but is otherwise commonly known as “complex PTSD” … I get all of these symptoms on the list and more, but I don’t substance abuse.

My “major depressive disorder” and crippling “anxiety”, officially written down as “social anxiety” (and is literally “social phobia” level for me these days – although I tend to get super anxious about everything) are most likely just part of my C-PTSD, rather than their own disorders, as I learnt more about C-PTSD and PTSD through the women’s trauma group … which I haven’t been attending in a while, as it’s too heavy and too much for me to start with, and I don’t feel comfortable, or safe, around, or like hearing the stories from, the other patients, either. I get, like, “vicarious trauma”, from hearing other people’s experiences, and being exposed to media with traumatic events, and it bothers me, a lot. 🥺

Being an empath, as my social worker calls me, really sucks. I also saw a post about “hyper-empathy” being a trauma response to protect one’s self, so who knows. Maybe that applies to me.

Oh, and my everyday hallucinations, occasional delusions, and slight paranoia being anxiety and trauma based?

Clearly from my C-PTSD.

It isn’t my “major depressive disorder”, as it isn’t mood based. I hallucinate regardless of mood.

And I don’t have a psychotic disorder, as I am always aware they’re not real (look up “pseudo-hallucinations” aka “non-psychotic hallucinations” for more info).

It’s just difficult being immersed in them when they happen, cos the experience and emotional responses I’m having FEEL real, even if I logically KNOW better, but I can’t just turn them off, hence “psychotic features” (this is totally different from fantasies and daydreams, btw – I add this note here, as my friends and mutuals often say they can “relate” with their own imaginary friends, but … I’m not so sure about that).

Plus, I’ve gotten much better being off antipsychotic medication aka the “wash out” trial, which proves it’s not a psychotic disorder, according to my APRN, and also proves my social worker’s theory it’s anxiety and trauma-based.

But what’s interesting is that if I’m immersed in a pastime, or around other people, even if I’m quiet, I don’t hallucinate unless I WANT to talk to my imaginary friends in my head (this is fantasizing and daydreaming, although I really do hear their voices respond, feel their touches, etc. – I guess it’s like my conscious mind roleplaying with my subconscious mind, in a way).

Oh, and I used to refer to what I experienced as “sensory overload”, until I was taught about hyperarousal (nothing to do with sexuality) aka hypervigilance, which is a symptom of PTSD and C-PTSD.

I get easily overwhelmed and startled by crowds, loud/sudden sounds, strong smells, closed in spaces, being touched without warning, etc. – my brothers, particularly Micky, get a laugh out of spooking me cos I’ll always respond so dramatically, LOL!

I don’t mean to, it just happens … >o<;;

#personal #c-ptsd #c-ptsd with psychotic features #ptsd #depression #anxiety #hyperarousal #hypervigilance #mental health awareness #always keep fighting #love yourself first #i am enough #you're not alone

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221bluescarf · 4 months

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My Psychosis Survival Guide

Things from my coping box that might benefit you too. Like any other skill, many of these things can be used to help any other mental health problem. This is just my own list of things I use in addition to seeing my pdoc and taking my meds:

Art

Grounding is my first and most effective coping skill. Among the skills in the grounding category, coloring and doodling are my favorites (bonus if you can color-in doodles you've made yourself) but any art will do, like painting or making collages.

This can distract you from hallucinations and keep your mind occupied to stop dwelling on paranoid or delusional thoughts. Art therapy is known to reduce anxiety and depression too, which is common with psychotic disorders.

Instrumental music

LoFi is my favorite. Something calming can reduce anxiety and help you rest or sleep, which is good for a brain bombarded with the psychotic experience. Lyrics can sometimes trigger unwanted thoughts and some people even find that the lyrics change and suddenly have special meaning, so this is avoided with instrumental music.

Some LoFi music has other sound effects which can help auditory hallucinations to blend in and be less intrusive. Cafe vlogs are excellent for this, as they have a background of people talking and kitchen appliances being used which disguise mild and pesky hallucinations.

Putty

It can be Silly Putty, Thinking Putty, or whatever you can find. Some of them change colors, some of them are even scented. This is excellent grounding. It involves your senses and you can completely turn off your brain and just play with it in your hands. It's also great as a fidget tool.

Letters to yourself

Writing letters to yourself while you're in a good and healthy mindset can be valuable to look back on while in a psychotic episode. Give yourself a pep talk. Remind yourself that this is real life, remind yourself of why these thoughts are irrational and why you really can trust your friends and family, etc.

I find it useful to write about past delusions, so that when similar ones happen, I have "proof" that this is unreasonable and I'm less likely to fall for it (nothing is perfect. sometimes I'll still believe the delusion despite everything, but it helps)

A list of people who can help

Keep a list of friends or family who are aware of your diagnosis and who are ready to help you if you're struggling. Keep the numbers to these people in case you chuck your phone. Also include the numbers to your doctor, therapist, social worker, or anyone else you may need to reach when you're unable to use your own phone. (It's also good to have these listed in case you get hospitalized and are unable to have your phone)

Also if you're dealing with paranoia around your phone, some people find it comforting to use WhatsApp because it's encrypted unlike text messages.

I hope these are helpful

#psychosis survival guide #schizospec #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #psychosis #mental illness #coping skills #mental health blog #221bluescarf.txt

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bugs1nmybrain · 12 days

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Bipolar!Shigaraki Tomura Headcanons

I'm writing it. Because I CAN

Before I start, I am writing these headcanons as someone who has been diagnosed with Bipolar Type 1 for almost three years now. I frankly could not care less if people don't think he has Bipolar Disorder, I'm writing this for my comfort and that of others who either have Bipolar disorder or just resonate with the idea that Tomura does.

and I'm also very aware of Bipolar Disorder being stigmatized as something that affects "bad" people. I'm not trying to suggest this, but that Tomura is someone who is neglected of treatment.

Warning: Bipolar disorder as title suggests (Tomura's symptoms relate to type 1 more), talks of depression, mania, psychosis, suicidality, etc, angst?

Tomura has never been given a formal diagnosis and likely has no clue that he has bipolar disorder himself. He doesn't know much about it, either, other then the stereotype that people with general mood swings are "so bipolar."

The doctor knows, AFO does too, but for them, they see it as more ammo for their arsenal to make sure Tomura's life is nothing but agony. He's never been treated with medications or therapy. Nothing.

Because he isn't medicated, his episodes are pretty strong. His manic episodes sort of blend in with his everyday behavior to a lot of people.

It's during this time that he finds himself planning out grand operations against the heroes. Some of his ideas seem unrealistic and not well thought out. They're more just ideas thrown around, and he jumps to gather people and means to carry out his goal before actually having a calculated plan.

He's up all night doing this. But if he's not, he's likely gaming. He huddles up in his room with multiple cans of energy drinks (as if he didn't already have way too much energy).

(semi-canon) will text his comrades at godforsaken hours either asking, demanding, or just rambling about stuff. If he gets an answer, the recipient often finds themself confused because Tomura just talks and talks and talks, and when he's in the heat of some plan or project he doesn't really stop to compose his sentences or even take a damn breath.

He impulsively buys things, like copious amounts of in-game purchases. Or DoorDash. If he's feeling reeeaaal bold he'll go for a whole-ass gaming console if he can, even if his current one is perfectly fine. Or assembling as many thugs as he can and feeling generous enough to overpay them when they definitely don't need the amount of money he's giving them.

You can see how when AFO was arrested, his lifestyle shifted in this regard.

Tomura is already an irritable guy, and so his mania can make it worse. He gets very overstimulated with all of his sensations that little things, like accidentally stubbing his toe, can make him mad as fuck for a good thirty minutes.

He also gets very paranoid about others. When he talks to people, he's already convinced that they are tricking him somehow and he'll read every cue he can to confirm it, even if the proof isn't even there.

Even when he's out in public and by himself, he thinks everyone is mocking, judging, and looking at him. That also comes with being the most wanted villain around, but that's beside the point.

When something finally goes his way, he is HAPPY. Sometimes the League will catch Tomura smiling his face off for no apparent reason (odd for him), and will ask what's up, only for Tomura to CACKLE back with, "ehehAHAH NOTHING!! THAT's just IT!"

They look at each other like, but just let him go about his day. They'll later hear him giggling to himself in his room, and sometimes talking to himself. He'll deny and just tell them he was on chat (his devices are not open and he is standing in the middle of his room).

Because he's not medicated, his mania can trickle into psychotic symptoms. Especially if he's going through more stress than typical. He hears voices that tell him mean things. Sometimes they're the voices of his dead family.

And because he doesn't sleep much, he sees detailed shadows and things moving that aren't. It disturbs him, but he accepts it and tries to just push on. But sometimes if he hears voices more than he'd like, he gets sad and has to grip his head and whisper "shut up shut up shut up" to negate them.

He's delusional, too. AFO's grooming and constant monitoring of his whole life have definitely emphasized his distrust of everything around him. Sometimes he'll think that the people he's gaming with online are secret hero spies trying to get him to reveal himself. He also has a fear that someone is watching him in every location, and he'll think that even the silliest things are cameras or microphones, or that those around him are also spies. Later on, it becomes paranoia that his master is everywhere.

Then comes the doom of depression

For Tomura, he's technically always depressed. But when he goes into a depressive episode, he's pretty lifeless.

He's complacent about his goals. Sometimes he'll get a tiny idea that makes his brain go !, but then he thinks of all the planning behind it and immediately slouches down on any nearby furniture

He'll lay in bed for a long period of time doing nothing. Sometimes he'll try to play a game on his phone but he gets bored quick.

Tends to eat more during this time because it's the only joy he can get. And he gets bored. He is SO BORED

Anhedonia is a bitch

His brain dwells and rambles, yet his thoughts don't make sense to him? He's constantly thinking about how fucked up his life is, how better other villains are, and how much he hates All Might and heroes altogether. He tells himself that if it wasn't for all of that he wouldn't feel this way (relating to the depressive episode).

It overwhelms him and he tries to sleep it off, but he's somehow so depressed that he's UNCOMFORTABLE. His itching gets bad.

He is very suicidal during this time and hurts himself to try and subside it. If you asked him his reason for living, he'd tell you "to see this world crumble." But he's too busy crumbling in his bed.

Psychotic symptoms can occur during his depression, too. Especially if he hasn't slept.

His lack of medication usually causes him to swap back to mania somewhat soon (2 months or so). He definitely has rapid cycles.

Because his condition isn't managed, his brain is sort of in an in-an-out stance when it comes to his literal sanity. He has moments where he can definitely be level-headed (he gets rrly confident when he notices it) but when his anger and stress fuel him more than usual, he spirals and quite literally sees red. Sometimes he can't even tell if he's dreaming or not. Often mistakes the date and day of the week.

:(

I might write a fic of the reader comforting bipolar tomura. I don't think I've ever seen a fic like that for any character.

#shigaraki tomura #shigaraki tomura headcanons #tomura shigaraki #tenko shimura #shigaraki headcanons #bipolar shigaraki #the league of villains #shiggy #shigaraki x reader

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