#i feel rage and emptiness

[class1akids]

Crowd-pleasing vs THE THEMES

Let's talk about about how Horikoshi brought back Bakugou for another crowd-pleaser moment and managed to destroy several character moments for dubious gains.

I'll start with Shoto.

As I said last week, Shoto's panel placing was odd and it looked like Horikoshi was hiding something. This chapter makes it clear that - as some have speculated - Shoto in that moment, lifted Izuku with his ice. Shoto was the endpoint of the Class A combo, the person who got Deku through the last leap.

The moment - if shown full, god forbid included with a DIALOGUE - would have been a nice and emotional callback to the iconic ice-platforms Shoto made at Kamino, or during Class A vs OFA, when he trapped Izuku in an ice pillar. Shoto is one of Izuku's closest friends - it really would have been nice for him to get something like Iida or Ochako - to parallel an earlier moment (here is an idea: get rid of the jarring US president moment that makes this page needlessly cluttered and put Shoto's ice there!)

But well, ok - if he left him off, that's because there is a twist right? We'll get a big TDDK moment, right? Or we get a finally a satisfying Origin Trio moment?? We'll get to know what was the point of the origins and rising and how it all comes together. Right?

Nope. What we get is Shoto being off-screen again (I'm not kidding you) for a "twist" or whatever, that doesn't even work as one. All these last chapters of holding off the TDDK moment was to reveal that Bakugou Katsuki who already had a huge team-up with Deku to save All Might that was good and satisfying, used Shoto's jump platform to reach Deku. (You didn't even need to hide the ice-platform for that!!)

I guess you could count it as a "recall" to the Class A combo scene in Dark Deku where Shoto and Katsuki work together to help Iida reach Deku or to the earlier Kamino rescue scene where Shoto's ice is the starting point of the rescue

But it really doesn't work when the visual is just this - Shoto gets a panel showing the size of an anthill, when he had Phosphor activated before and if it was gonna yet another ice move, it should have really been knocking on heaven's door and to boot, gets once again no lines and no scene neither with Deku nor with Bakugou in the end.

2. Well, if Horikoshi ruined Shoto's moment with Izuku it must have been for a fantastic, compelling team-up that had to be drawn exactly this way. Right?

The team-up in question is Deku punching through and Bakugou blowing up ShiraGiri's warp gate.

And Deku doesn't even stop and think, there is no internal conflict, there is no question about right or wrong. He went through Tomura's memories, so how much he cherished his friends, but not a single thought was spared about what ShiraGiri was trying to do.

Haha! Hilarious! So satisfying... FUCK THE THEMES!!! WOHOOOO!

3. Was any other dynamic destroyed?

Well, now that you asked, let me remind you that the Rooftop Trio whose dynamic and comeback was already shafted horribly was devolved to this:

Mic's emotional outburst over ShiraGiri's choice turns into wide-eyed Bakugou awe. Mic has no more emotions to spare for the tragic fate of ShiraGiri - what could ever take precedence over another layer of glaze for the main character, the inimitable, forever-winner-of-every-poll, Bakugou Katsuki?

It's a wonderful and logical character conclusion after all for the character who got twisted into an awful, insecure bully partly due to constant praise to share the spot of the most-praised character of the endgame with the toxic, outed family abuser, right? We must make loud and clear that there is a rEdEMptiOn aRC here in case some people missed it and they are so awesome because they are doing exactly what everyone else is. (I miss Bakugou who worked WITH Class A, who put on a tie to stand with them, who took out the trash quietly - that Bakugou was endgame material Bakugou. This current Bakugou to me feels blown out of proportion.).

4. At least we got a fantastic joke out of it. Right? Something new? A nuance and interesting moment between these two. Something special to be treasured by generations to come!

Well, ok. I guess cheritably it works like a recall to Ch 286. Maybe Shoto will catch Bakugou again. Strictly offscreen.

Don't worry. The crowd this scene was made for will be pleased. They have two weeks to gloat at the Ochako fans how Bakugou is the closest, bestest, amazingest, only-ever-important, special friend to Deku. Fuck the rest. They'll make hype, they'll tweet the tweets, blow up the trends and will successfully drown out the voices of the people who don't just focus on a single ship and care about the themes and dynamics and ask:

What happened to my MC?

What happened to the themes?

Btw, I'm not saying necessarily that Bakugou shouldn't have been back or he didn't deserve a moment. He did. He should have been part of Deku Rising last week as everyone else.

But looking at how Hori keeps fumbling the final arc, it's sadly fitting that instead of the chapter that raised Deku to his peak, Bakugou once again steals the spotlight in a chapter that wasn't about him and that tore down everything in a span of 15 pages that Izuku stood for as a main character.

I'd say I'll drop this manga, but it's too late. I'm still invested to see what happens with Touya and the Todoroki family, though after this chapter, my expectations are extremely low. All I can pray for is that Horikoshi doesn't assassinate Shoto's character as he did Deku's.

And maybe Deku is right and there was no other choice than to kill ShiraGiri (something Deku refused to do both to Muscular and Overhaul) and pulverize Tomura's body to ash while offering no words of comfort, but if Deku came to that decision, maybe the space wasted praising Bakugou could have been used for him to reflect on that, to grapple with the choice, to let us feel the sadness and weight of what he must do.

There is so much wrong with this chapter, with how Deku was written in the last part of the manga, with Shigaraki's "conclusion", with the AFO-overload, etc. This is just a small part of it. But I wrote it to show how much a badly placed scene can destroy several other important moments.

RIP THE THEMES. Crowd-pleaser won by KO.

#bnha meta #bnha 423 #bnha manga spoilers #bnha manga leaks #todoroki shouto #midoriya izuku #present mic #kurogiri #bnha 422 #i feel rage and emptiness #to alternating degrees

[mad--sad--bad]

way too much and never enough

#bpd #bpd life #bpd stuff #bpd rage #too much #not enough #never enough #i feel empty #traumatized #mentally ill #paranoid #depression #depressed #social anxiety #anxious #hate myself #hate everyone #lost #overthinking #hate everything #rage #unwanted

[bpdcodone]

One second while I dissociate and feel the empty void rip me apart internally forever in its vortex, never-ending

#cluster b #bpd life #borderline personality problems #bpd emptiness #system #borderline things #bpd rage #splitting bpd #i hate bpd #bpd mood #bpd thoughts #bpd splitting #bpd problems #bpd stuff #bpd #bpd emotions #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd fp #bpd culture is #bpd safe #bpd feels

[imperiuswrecked]

I've been actually physically sick from watching the news these last two days and grief has eaten my entire heart.

#i dont know when I'll be back online but im gonna be away for a while #the impotent rage I feel is unending bc i cannot do anything #i spent years locking everything away and its all come back and i cannot process anything rational #when I'm not feeling numb and empty im angry and sad #and yeah this isnt anything new every year theres death there but this is worse because I saw how the world #rushed to aid Ukraine but wont do the same for palestine #everytime i think ive cried enough i find more in me #so yeah i wont be contactable for a while even on discord bc im just unable to speak

[eddiesxangel]

My childhood home that I have lived in my entire life is going up for sale on Wednesday and I’m so sad. I knew it was coming and definitely need a change but I’m still going to pout

#TJ talks #I had the worst sleep also so I’m going to be raging today I can feel it #I’ve already screamed at someone who put their hazards on in the middle of the parking lot pathway when the whole parking. lot was empty #JUST PICK A SPOT WHY YOU GOTTA BLOCK EVERYONE TRYING TO GET OuT?

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I just wanna listen to music ragged with rage and emotional desperation. But it's kinda hard to search for that sorta thing.

#bc i guess i just Associate that sorta thing with screamo and i dont like screamo #like funeral or brutus both by the buttress are sung with so much rage and i want that #i too want to rage. i didnt get a lotta sleep last night #bc sometimes i make bad choices lol #and everytime i search like songs to rage to its like. no. u dont get it. i want songs that make me wanna start screaming and wacking #things with sticks. ya kno. a very common and universal feeling #listen. i apparently deleted a bunch of info off a backup hard drive today. like bro y didnt u tell me to b careful??? #i picked it up like ok i gotta make it work on this old ass computer. time to clear the disk space and reformat #so rip whatever was on there i guess. no used crying abt it now. that bitch is empty #hhhhh ive got that i didnt sleep feel where ur brain feels like its peeling away from ur skull #i need to go run. burn away my ✨️ RAGE✨️ #just gotta wait like an hr 🙃 unless i get call3d into a meeting rip #unrelated

[sasssydaddy123]

I cannot fucking believe the audacity of property management. There's a section 8 apartment complex in the north west part of town that recently had a mass shooting (7 injured, thankfully no one dead). And guess what the complex did just days afterwards? Sent everyone a letter saying their rent would increase by $300 a month starting 2024. Are you fucking kidding me? SEVEN PEOPLE GOT SHOT and they're more concerned with the rent. Absolutely unreal. I get that business has to keep going, to a certain extent. How can you know that people have been shot and injured on your property and probably are drowning in medical debt now and still have the audacity to demand they pay more in rent or get kicked out. This is not the first and probably not the last shooting this year here and they're really raising rent? Fuck this fucking city and every greedy piece of shit landlord and property manager out there. I hope they all choke on their own wads of cash so we can roast them over a fire like the pigs they are

#eat the rich #eat the landlords #hit them over the head with a bat until their sludge for brains comes oozing out #make them feel the rage of the poor and needy they've ignored for their own gain #im so angry i just don't know what to do #how many more people have to become homeless before they realize their greed has ruined their own game #if you charge too much for a house then no one can afford it #then youre left with an empty property and hundreds of people kn the streets #and ppl ask why im so radical at a young age #fuckin look around man this shit is not gonna fly anymore #ramblings #angry rant #fuck landlords

[theinfinitedivides]

also since i've basically been live blogging watching this i'm going to offer up an unpopular opinion. so pls if you are my mutual and have seen this do not hate me if you haven't avoid this post but uh. Ballerina could have been better than it ended up being and i don't know how to feel about that

#film: ballerina #ballerina #ballerina 2023 #ballerina netflix #netflix ballerina #jeon jong seo #park yu rim #kim ji hoon #like we had a perfect 8-10 ep long setup for a series here ok. i get the point was female rage and f*cking over the scum of society #(which they did and i am grateful for) but it felt empty somehow????? too short. not always realistic ik her taking everyone #out like that isn't supposed to be but you're telling me you're running a f*cking gang whose drug making headquarters is underneath #a racetrack/stable (convinced that's the set of the GSoul Blessed MV btw. i recognized it from the ceiling) and none of you have #a f*cking gun. none of you. not even a rifle. just knifes. are we all Chief Seo at this point just without the skills #ffs we didn't even really get to connect to the best friend dynamic and that sucks bc there was so much material to go over #idk. i'm feeling meh about this. the 'i don't regret watching but i wouldn't do it again' type meh and i hate when that happens #frankly the only good thing about this film was Jong Seo kicking ass with the high school student and the two of them burning #Choi alive on the beach with the flamethrower. ty flamethrower halmeoni we appreciate the gift

[antihibikase-archive]

[ "Who are you?" ] 

 [ "My name? It's..." ] 

 [ "..." ] 

 [ "...who am I?" ]

#Pokemon #Pokemon Black and White #Pokemon Black and White 2 #Gym Leader Cheren #My Art #((Not only did Paint crash several times but it also refused to read the file with the assets. Twice!)) #((I was about to Rage but thankfully it cooperated in the end! And it looks nicer now than the original!)) #((Kinda wanted to create something like this for awhile! Combining the web/thread motif but it also looks like broken glass.)) #((The feeling of emptiness + forgetting ones self)) #((And despite the large use of colors its dominated by black and white because of course.)) #((OH and despite this being a companion piece to Lower (the fic I wrote) )) #((-this was inspired by three different songs that are NOT Lower which is a surprise!)) #((The songs are Headlock by Imogen Heap Donut Hole by Hachi and Kami-iro Awase)) #((The latter is a Danganronpa anime op but. It vibes.)) #((Anyway sorry for rambling! More of Slater's existential crisis!)) #((Edit: forgot to mention- Slater's hands are not there on purpose.)) #BW/BW2 Rewrite - Blur / Blight

[mutatiio]

(s)maul tag update!!

#«   maul   »   always remember   ›   interactions. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   mirror. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   musing. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   inspiration. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   headcanon. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   dash commentary. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   about. #«   maul   »   always remember   ›   dash game. #«   maul   »   i am nothing   ›   v   /   training. #«   maul   »   i am a hunter   ›   v   /   apprentice. #«   maul   »   i am fear   ›   v   /   the clone war. #«   maul   »   i am filth  ›   v   /   after. #«   maul   »   i am changed  ›   v   /   bodyguard. #«   maul   »   i am lost   ›   v   /   rebels. #«   maul   »   i am victorious   ›   v   /   kss. #«   maul   »   i am repurposed   ›   v   /   ‘redemption’. #«   maul   »   a brother to ghosts   ›   savage. #«   maul   »   not beaten down just yet   ›   d. sidious. #«   maul   »   i can feel the soil falling over my head   ›   talzin. #«   maul   »   i am the face of love’s rage   ›   o. kenobi ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   on some level‚ i think i always understood   ›   feral ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   i carved out a place in this world for two‚ but it's empty without you   ›   maulkie ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   when everything stays   ›   feemor ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   there are times when i still wonder about you   ›   kycina ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   if maybe i shouldn’t have stayed   ›   k. matako ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   i'll keep you like an oath   ›   q. vos ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   cat and mouse   ›   d. judarri ft. mayxthexforce. #«   maul   »   it suits you better   ›   k. vosa ft. wstlnds.

#« maul » always remember › interactions. #« maul » always remember › mirror. #« maul » always remember › musing. #« maul » always remember › inspiration. #« maul » always remember › headcanon. #« maul » always remember › dash commentary. #« maul » always remember › about. #« maul » always remember › dash game. #« maul » i am nothing › v / training. #« maul » i am a hunter › v / apprentice. #« maul » i am fear › v / the clone war. #« maul » i am filth › v / after. #« maul » i am changed › v / bodyguard. #« maul » i am lost › v / rebels. #« maul » i am victorious › v / kss. #« maul » i am repurposed › v / ‘redemption’. #« maul » a brother to ghosts › savage. #« maul » not beaten down just yet › d. sidious. #« maul » i can feel the soil falling over my head › talzin. #« maul » i am the face of love’s rage › o. kenobi ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » on some level‚ i think i always understood › feral ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » i carved out a place in this world for two‚ but it's empty without you › maulkie ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » when everything stays › feemor ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » there are times when i still wonder about you › kycina ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » if maybe i shouldn’t have stayed › k. matako ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » i'll keep you like an oath › q. vos ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » cat and mouse › d. judarri ft. mayxthexforce. #« maul » it suits you better › k. vosa ft. wstlnds.

[yeonban]

This ends me every time I come across it bc it's THE most fitting Tobias statement in existence. I very much think that if he wouldn't have had to save himself time and again throughout his entire childhood, he would have had no issue with being one of L's men! Hell, he would've probably even been fine acting as a 'bodyguard' the way Watari did and would've paid no heed to the idea of sacrificing himself for L's safety like a lamb to the slaughter if need be, because he'd have liked L as the symbol of justice and he always returns favors/pays people back for what they've done for/to him (whether good or bad).

The issue is that he was NEVER ONCE in his life helped by law enforcement nor anyone related to it. If anything, he saw several people from the 'good side' partake in egregious dealings with his family and absolutely none of them spared a single thought to maybe helping the kid slowly bleeding out to death in the house every other time they came around. What did save him was acting the same way his enemies (parents, as part of the mafia) were, which set him out on a similar path. At that point people would've still had a(n albeit tiny) chance to 'set him right', but instead of a good samaritan taking him in & raising him like a normal kid, it was Watari who found him. And for a while it went well - he learned the people who took him off the streets were L's people and he used to hear about L from his parents (they hated him, obviously); they didn't abuse him (well. to his standards; I'd say Wammy's is very much a house of neglect); they allowed him to be around kids his age and make friends; they gave him the best education in the world - but all that stopped being a thing 'good people' did the first time he realized what the purpose of the House is and, in his eyes, Watari didn't help him for selfless reasons - it was to gain something from him, and maybe if it had been something else he would've been fine with it, but it was his identity; the only thing Tobias had. Then after his disillusionment he kept noticing worse things (how each letter being handed down to them means the one who held it prior died, which means several dozen of children/young adults from the program; how they were allowed to leave and die out in the streets if they felt like it etc), and then years later came L's famous shattering of hearts where he told the orphans that he doesn't do things for justice, that he too could be considered a criminal in the eyes of the law if they heard of some of his dealings.

All things considered, Tobias became a far more well-adjusted person than could have been hoped for sb in his circumstances. He appreciates the House for the opportunities it brought him, but he simultaneously has resentment for it and the staff (+L) attached to it. He doesn't care about how they do things, but his vision of justice is wholly different from theirs. He finds fault in their approaches, and unlike L you can expect Tobias to help you if you ask or beg him to even if he doesn't have any interest in your 'case'. While L is busy taking care of the most heinous cases that haven't yet been cracked, Tobias takes care of the actual evil entrenched in the system; from politicians, to the army, to the mafia, to practically every facet of society you can think of; aka the sides that he was abused by and the ones he's certain are of much more importance to the regular person than some far off genius criminal from the other side of the world. The people abused by law enforcement; the people taken by the mafia; the people accused as scapegoats; they're all people that Tobias willingly helps by taking them out of their situation and giving them enough $ to be set for life afterwards. If someone like him had been there for him when he was a child, he would've had a normal life. But there wasn't, so he's become it for everyone else in his former position/a similar position to the one he found himself in almost two decades ago.

#muse: tobias. #* tobias. / development. #Sometimes I stare at a wall and think about how different Tobias could've been if things had aligned better for him #Wammy's WAS very much a good thing per overall! but it too ended up exacerbating his decisions for his future/current lifestyle #Tbf Tobias doesn't detest his current lifestyle. He doesn't even dislike it. It feels about as natural to him as breathing #and he LIKES delivering payback!! It's one of his favorite things. And he equally loves having the means to enjoy things he couldn't before #but at the end of the day he's become a very... detached person in a sense? I mean he doesn't /feel/ much. When he kiIIs; he doesn't feel #when he helps; he doesn't feel much either. He had one (1) emotion growing up (rage) but he got rid of it when he realized that #being angry all the time would've not only been exhausting but also a hindrance to thinking clearly which he could Not have #if he planned to survive any amount of time in the 'field' he's chosen. THAT is why he's so fond of and helpful to amusing people #they make him feel /something/ and that something is; for once; a POSITIVE emotion!!! The only other times he's actively having fun #are when he sees the looks of utter shock & terror on his enemies' face when they didn't expect him to best them and get what they deserve; #and SOMETIMES when he tries new things. Not Most things though. He prefers those that inject some more adrenaline into him #Tobias when he comes across a funny person; which in turn makes him feel Not Empty Inside: (hovers around them like a curious dog)

[mad--sad--bad]

sometimes i just want to smile and stab a knife in my heart in front of them

#bpd #bpd rage #traumatized #i hate this planet #i hate myself #i feel empty #mentally ill

[girlinlavender]

girlhood for me and why it’s fucking cool and important: (kinda long)

so, girlhood for me is summoning demons at sleepovers, playing “runaway orphans” on the playground and becoming bloodthirsty mermaids in swimming pools. barbies getting messy divorces, shopkins engaging in cannabalism, stuffed animals fighting in wars.

girlhood for me is being evil and angry and creative and thoughtful and kind in ways that didn’t matter to most people and talkative about the wrong things in the wrong places in ways that isolated me from my peers and being wonderfully, violently, beautifully strange.

imagination running free cannot and should not always lead to cute, wholesome things that misguided adults percieve as acceptably docile play. yes, don’t hurt people, but if your idea of make-believe leaned a little bit more towards princesses riding on sparkly unicorns as they charged into battle, there is nothing wrong with that. i was a weird fucking kid. i would have full conversations with trees. pretend to be possessed to freak out babysitters. cry, laugh and scream at everything. i didn’t hurt people, and no one was scared of me, but i was made fun of a lot, and it really fucked with my sense of self and my perception of what staying true to yourself meant.

i had to unlearn that, am still unlearning that, and that shit’s fucking hard. btw, my experience as a girl is that of a cis, neurodivergent, able-bodied white lesbian with supportive, middle class parents, and all those things affected me and how people treated me and how i perceived the world and those inside of it.

girlhood for other people means other things. and that’s okay. some had stereotypically feminine childhoods, by choice or otherwise. some had a more masculine childhood, and may have been labeled a tomboy. and tons in-between had otherwise nuanced complexions within their own experiences as women. many people didn’t get to experience “girlhood” until they were of adult age, because they were raised under the impression that they weren’t a girl. many people do not associate girlhood with positivity, because their experience as a woman, or their childhood in general, was very debilitating or traumatizing for them. many people experienced girlhood only to one day realize that they were not female at all, or that their gender otherwise held more need for introspective thought that they originally had guessed.

my point is that “girlhood” holds nuance. it means different things for different people, and it is beautiful, and you are beautiful, either way. and if it hurt you, fucked you up, entangled you in things you’re still escaping from, you are valid in however you process that. you aren’t being dramatic, or being ungrateful, or not “letting bygones be bygones.” childhood sucks sometimes, and you are entitled to the anger you feel. we weren’t allowed to pass down our last names, so we passed down our fury instead, and it is wiser and wilder than our oppressors, or their namesakes. it made us, and allowed us to make ourselves. it is beautiful, and brilliant, and tortured in it’s glories and raptures, and so are we.

#i hope this was therapeutic to someone #also: #my “is my anger mine or my mother’s and so forth” sentiment is NOT trans exclusive #love u guys #this was an empty train of thought #but the message is that girlhood is cool and complex and ur valid in how you perceive it #kind of lost my train of thought but whatever #girlhood #feminism #just girly things #good for her #female rage #female righteous anger #terfs dni #wlw #trans-inclusive #will add more later if i think of it but these tags are already monstrous #hope i made someone feel good #we’re really cool u guys and we’ve gone through lots of shit

[lirazthirdlive]

Mom when you ask for a favor//Mom when you ask for nothing

#teenagers #i wanna d*e #suffering #idk man #i wanna disappear #rage #stupid #kill my thoughts #kill my life #idk #i feel like shit #i feel empty #dumb wh0re #blog #screaming crying throwing up

[strawberriandromeda]

Its hard to love god when it doesn't appear to love me or my friends or what's important to me but then i remember it IS me and my friends and what is important to me and i smile wide enough to start a whole new religion of one

#personal #refiba screams #functionally i am an atheist and will never commit to a religion in my life unless it meets my standards #but #its hard to live and feel lost spiritually sometimes #its hard to just not believe there is something sacred about sitting with my depressed friend in helpless silence #as i desperately search for a meaningless word to comfort them and close that gap of connection between us #its hard not to think there is something sacred about loving someone so much it hurts #or mourning a stranger or an animal #that there's not something sacred in rage and despair and emptiness #i hate calling it god #this feeling is so much more than an anthropomorphized feeling of being #but if i dont call it god then i am not sure ill be believed #it sure is something though ill tell you that #and i always find it in the silence #where its always been #and always will be #before and after my life

[trxshpxnda-xo]

I just want to feel something man.

Something

Anything

Good

Bad

Idc anymore

I just don't want to be numb.

#bpd #bpd splitting #bpd triggers #actually bpd #bpd brain #bpd things #mentally exhausted #bpd rage #mentally fucked #bpd mood #bpd feels #bpd feelings #mentally not here #mentally drained #break up #heartbroken #sad bitch hours #sad boi times #i feel numb #empty thoughts #void screams #i want to feel something #anything #emotional #emotionally drained #idk anymore #actually psychotic #self h@te #self destruction