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hydriotaphia · 4 months

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Anon2 here from yesterday - I wasn't bashing the antwina fic. I was bashing the character's actions within the fic, and explained why I felt that way based on details in the fic. If anything was worded too harshly as a result of my annoyance at the characters themselves, then my apologies. Also, saying that the characters felt like original characters rather than the characters wasn't me being mean; I provided details from the story for why i felt that way. I genuinely found the fic interesting, it was a unique take on the relationship between the three, as much as it required my suspension of disbelief. However, for any fic I read, I don't believe in pandering to the author and talking only about the positives. I put thought into why I felt the way I felt, and pointed to parts of the writing as reasons why. People analyze books the same way, and i don't like holding fanfiction to a lower standard than books.

Nor at any point did I say you were 'wrong' about writing your story the way you did. You wrote them based on your views. I only brought up what I agreed/disagreed with between you/anon1 bc I have different views. If you don't want to discuss the fic that's fine, I saw the posts from the anon1 and thought it was open for discussion.

I understand most of the fandom is harsh on edwina. Sometimes the hate is unwarranted, but sometimes the criticisms are not. I've seen people provide sound arguments based on moments from the show to support their claims. I don't describe some of edwina's bad qualities just bc kate is the main character, and it's not coming from thin air. The reason why most people agree on her flaws is probably bc everyone watched the same show and interpreted her actions based on what was shown. As for what I said in my original ask, I pointed out her youth, lack of experience in running a household as compared to Kate or other older women, reliance on kate, and tendency to have things centered around her. I can point out specific moments in the show that led me to describe her in this way (and youth is literally just her age). I also don't think any of these descriptions demean her character. For the most part, she is that way because she has been raised that way. She may also grow out of those qualities with time and experience. If there are other qualities I'm not seeing, I'd truly like to hear about them and what moments in the show you base them on.

Hey Anon, thanks for messaging to clarify. I’m going to reply in good faith too and I'll try to reply to some of yesterday's ask as well. I’m not sure how long and varied your time in fandom has been, but there are a few fandom principles I follow and would ask anyone interacting with me in a public space to keep in mind as well:

We don’t have to like the same things. This includes the 3 laws of fandom [Don’t Like Don’t Read; Your Kink Is Not My Kink And That’s OK; Ship and Let Ship], but it also extends to the perceived quality of what’s produced by other fans.

Public constructive criticism of fanworks is not warranted unless you are specifically invited to share your perspectives by the creator and you know what kind of criticism they are open to taking on board. You wouldn’t seriously criticise someone’s for-fun pottery attempts or your kid’s macaroni art. It’s the same with fanfic – it’s made with love and it’s not meant to be treated the same as published fiction. Not because it can’t be as good or deep or complex, but because fandom is meant to be a fun space that rejects the commercialisation of our hobbies and interests, and it’s meant to be welcoming and supportive.

I didn't write the fic you were talking about. In order to answer the ask, I would have had to publish your ask in full. So, when you put criticism of someone else’s fanfic in my ask box, I would’ve had to publicly share this where the author might see. I think you are aiming for objective by saying ‘textual analysis’ but, as a writer, 'bashing' character choices in a fanfic is pretty close to bashing authorial choices. These are fictional characters and authors make choices about what we think the characters would do. I hope you can understand why this made me pretty uncomfortable with answering yesterday.

Having said that, I get where you’re coming from, I really do! I also love textual analysis and I do it for fanfic I read with close friends. I am happy to talk about my choices for a fic and what drove those – I've done that extensively on AO3 for Malebolge for example. But I also play with premises and style across my work; there isn’t a ‘single’ head-canon. Half the fun to me is figuring out how to make a scenario work while still trying to keep someone in character. So I think your style and mine are fundamentally different and I question your premises as you question mine.

Specifically, from yesterday's ask:

“—even if I try to imagine them as real people who aren't guaranteed to be together, I can't see Anthony ever getting over her. While it is true that for most real people, time heals heartbreak, we don't see this sort of all encompassing love in reality”

Anon, I disagree. You seem to be arguing that ‘the only possible representation of Kanthony is that their love transcends reality so you can’t apply a realism lens.’ It reads like a tautology. Again, you are absolutely free to not buy my premise but I have no trouble imagining and accepting the possibility of a real life viewpoint. In a fic that applies a lens of reality as I’ve already explained, theirs is a big, heart-breaking love but eventually you deal with it and they were prepared to - that was what the whole scene in the park was about.

I do enjiy getting asks about interpretations and headcanons, but I hesitate to get into a back-and-forth in my tumblr askbox about this given we don't seem to be approaching B'ton character interpretation similarly?

For example, and I mean this as gently as possible, lesbian Edwina is not a great example of drawing conclusions from canon… I have no problem with it but there’s nothing objective about that characterisation. It’s not even hinted at in the show unlike say Lucy Grantham and Genevieve. You’re making choices based on reading into the show and that’s fine. Pretty much all of slash fandom and most fanfic is us reading into things (barring Stucky - I will die on that goddamn hill because it is in the text)!

#asks #bridgerton season 2 #anthony marries edwina AU #writblr

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americorys · 1 year

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I really hate that chenford had been pushed into the noley role so now we’re just seeing nothing about their growth as a couple. It feels like they don’t even like each other anymore. That sucks and their storylines have been stale since 05 12. If they don’t give us better scenes they’re going to get cancelelled.

genuinely i am sorry you feel that way! i don't and i don't agree with this message – especially the idea that if there aren't "better" chenford scenes, the show will get cancelled.

i honestly don't have much to say about the beginning of this message outside of: it sucks that you feel that way. the shift we're feeling from pre-relationship to relationship is...totally normal to me. tim and lucy are adults who acknowledged they've had feelings for one another for a long time. they're in a relationship that is clearly comfortable for them, and the show was never going to be like...exclusively about chenford just because they started dating. we were never going to get these long drawn out relationship moments because that's not what the show is about, period. we don't get them for other ships, and honestly? we get more of them for chenford than anyone else. there are literally so many storylines and characters to balance that i am honestly kind of shocked they write as much for chenford as they do.

as for the rest of this...fandom as a whole needs to grasp that we are literally such a small group of people. the (generously) 1000 active vocal people in fandom make up vastly less than a percent of the rookie's overall viewership. sure, they hear from us on social media and that matters – but ultimately? the story is never going to be in our hands, and nothing a chenford fan says to abc/the rookie on socials, etc., about chenford is going to get the show cancelled. just want to clarify here that i am not talking about social issues or anything that would be warranted to impact story decisions – literally just anything about the chenford relationship specifically. choices about storylines are so much larger than any of us – they are pitched by creatives, approved by executives, etc. it is bonkers when people try to use this as a point of argument. like, we as chenford shippers have never had anything to do with renewal because of the ship...we could all stop watching tomorrow and they would still have millions upon millions of viewers.

anyway: i typically like the show so i don't think this will be surprising to anyone, but imo, this episode was very fun and i enjoyed it. i don't personally think chenford lacked depth, but if you did that is your prerogative. i think it's important not to stack every chenford moment and leave them with nothing left to do with the ship by like, 5x21. they shouldn't always be the focal point, that should be a given.

tbh if you are feeling burnt out on the rookie or disappointed, my genuine suggestion is to find something else to watch – let your mind indulge in new content, decompress, and then come back. you don't have to just have one thing – putting so much pressure on the ship is just going to disappoint you in the long run.

#anonymous #ask #chenford #the rookie #sorry this is long i will try brevity soon i promise

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shaftking · 5 months

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https://www.tumblr.com/godmodebeginswithlesbians/732567688496431104/we-need-less-sanitized-queer-stories-youre-the

I can’t believe the amount of notes this post has of people agreeing with it. I have no idea what The Locked Tomb is so I can’t speak on that, but regarding She-Ra, ever since the finale, I’m one of the people who’s been agreeing with the statement that OP is mocking here. To clarify, though, I’m not a puritanical anti at all- in fact, I’m all for less sanitized LGBT stories (yes, LGBT, not q**r), but I want them to still be well written, make actual sense narratively, and deliver a positive message for a target demographic of children, all which She-Ra failed at.

I read some of the notes and aside from the typical nonsense I’m used to seeing toxic She-Ra fans spew, there are people who reblogged this defending She-Ra while simultaneously admitting that they DIDN’T EVEN WATCH THE SHOW. Ofc they’re not gonna understand or interpret any of the criticism in good faith if they haven’t even watched the damn show. That’s the brainless mob mentality that’s to be expected on this site.

Anyway, as a writer who majored in animation, seeing posts and notes like this is so disheartening. I don’t have much hope for the entertainment industry (especially animation) or the LGBT community. Both have proven that their standards are lower than dirt and that they all have piss poor media literacy and critical thinking skills that lead them to harassing and hating on anyone who dares criticize the media that they blindly worship. It’s insulting as a writer and sets a bad precedent that professionals can just produce poorly written fan fiction with a budget that validates childish NPCs who eat it up as long as it caters to their sensibilities and is under the guise of progressivism for kids so it can be praised as “groundbreaking.” It makes me wanna steer clear of this industry entirely tbh.

I’m also familiar with SPOP but not The Locked Tomb, so I can speak on that. And we all know that I really can’t stand SPOP. I personally view it as one of those shows that was fine and even good at times until it self destructed in the last season and especially the finale with just an astonishing lack of self awareness.

The problem with Catradora, especially compared to the other ships in the show for the most part, is that’s it’s dysfunctional and toxic in a show that is targeted to children that otherwise pushes a lot of life lessons subtexually and textually. This also isn’t just a problem of the relationship itself, it extends to their actions towards other characters, such as the fact that there is no real consequence for Catra literally killing Glimmers mother out of complete selfishness. I think the whole show kind of suffers from sudden character amnesia about other characters past crimes. Because it happened with Hordak and Scorpia and Entrapta as well to varying degrees.

And I think the doublethink the show has about being Mature and Complex vs It’s A Children’s Show So You Can’t Criticize It extends to fan attitudes. And let’s be real, the Catradora kiss was not that revolutionary when SU and LOK already had their representation moments years before. In fact it’s weird and dysfunctional asf to have characters who were implied to have grown up as sisters and raised together (the literal reason why Catra was jealous and over dependent on Adora) just kiss and have all of their problems and past just basically vanish so that they can have a few cute shippy moments before the series finale.

All that aside I personally hate being pandered to and baited. I genuinely want to see stories about people who are LGBT and different races and with different belief systems and backgrounds, but just slapping a label onto a character or story doesn’t make it good, you still have to write good characters and story. You still have to work to make things cohesive and you have to understand that as a writer you will always face criticism. Especially when you market your work so hard as the next big thing.

And as an audience member, at the very least as a teen and onwards into adulthood, you should be capable of media literacy to the extent that you can watch a show about a couple toxic codependent weirdos and recognize that they were toxic codependent weirdos even if you mostly just had fun watching them get up to fucked up shenanigans.

#ask #im a hater! I will remain a hater!#sorry for the anti Catradora rants but like what the hell

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2brosstandingupwhilegaming · 7 months

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Addressing a post that *totally* wasn’t directed at me /s

(NOTE: I will not be making any more posts like this unless it is absolutely necessary, because I really don’t like doing them. I simply thought this would be a good opportunity to clarify some things about our server and the people in it.)

Okay, so…

This is a response to @hoshaguma / @hoshathecrasher .

First of all, anyone who wants to talk about me/this account is free to do so while addressing it by name.

Actually, if you genuinely believe that what we’re doing is so harmful and dangerous, then it would probably be in your best interest to do just that. And again, if that really was the case, then nobody in their right mind would consider you addressing me/this account by name as “starting drama”.

So if that’s what you’re worried about, don’t be.

Second of all, define “unironically”.

When we say we “ship” them, we’re not literally actively pushing for any of them to start dating each other. We’re also not spreading rumors or conspiracy theories that they secretly are. Our discussions and content are simply a way for us to express and expand upon our appreciation for the dynamics between the guys, which is why we love their content so much in the first place.

Third of all, we at the “2 Bros” server respect and accept everyone’s *directly stated* boundaries.

So far, the only directly publicly stated boundary from any of the Party Crashers regarding fanart/fanfiction is Brent stating that he would rather people not create NSFW content of him. We completely understand and respect that, and if you were to look on our server you will see that we have respected his wishes.

If the Party Crashers as a group make a direct public statement that they are against the existence of shipping content of them, we will respect their wishes, and the server will be shut down, no questions asked.

However, at this point we have a collection of carefully curated and analyzed evidence to point to the idea that the guys don’t inherently object to this sort of content being made about them, as long as it’s not public.

Lastly, we acknowledge that shipping real people isn’t an appealing idea to everyone, and we accept that. Believe me, we found that out the hard way. The first and only time our group’s “activities” were made public, one of our members and anyone who even remotely looked like they were defending her received an onslaught of harassment and threatening messages. This event led to the official creation of our server, where we swore that this would never happen again.

Even though this person is no longer a member of our server, and at the time of writing this she and I are no longer friends, I still don’t condone any of the hate she received, and I wish her the best.

Actually, not everyone on the server even directly participates in the shipping. They simply don’t object to its existence. They ended up staying simply because they like the other people there. We’re not an obsessed “all shipping, all the time” cult. At the end of the day, we’re just normal people (as relative of a term as “normal” is).

I have nothing against you, Hosha. And if you really wish for me to not interact with you, that’s perfectly fine. But your insinuation that I am a basement-dwelling loser harboring some kind of parasocial obsession with the Party Crashers with no respect for or acknowledgement of them as people is a bit rude. Of course, you’re not the first person to say that sort of thing about RPF shippers, and you certainly won’t be the last.

To anybody else, if you simply want a chill and judgement-free environment to talk about the Party Crashers, or anything else you’re interested in, feel free to DM me for more information. This itty-bitty blog is as “public” as we will ever get, and its sole intention is to reach out to anyone who might be interested in joining us.

Have a great day, Party Crashers Nation!

#party crashers #RPF #real person fandom #real person shipping #this is not going to be the next Septiplier #you can quote me on that

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27emailsicantsend · 2 years

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Hello I was the one saying they may be exaggerating the almost kiss I hate to be right lol but I get it watching the episode I get it would be just not right. I sort of agree with your anon about Elton confessing, from a 'drama factor' stand point. But where does that leaves us? A whole season of Gina trying to choose between both (when one of them is probably WORKING AT SCHOOL)? REALLY? that sounds awful I'm sorry is GMW all over again. Hope they don't go there

Yeah I can’t go through what I went through with GMW. I need a firm conclusion. I’ve seen a lot of rumors flying around that this might be the last season. I am not going to take a stance one way or the other right now, but if it were, it would feel like wasted space to keep the p*w storyline through s4. I said this before, but every season has a beginning, middle, and end that makes up a bigger whole to a show. So while characters and storylines remain relatively the same, a good show is going to give every season ✨some✨ firm conclusion. This is a GOOD show. There. I said it. I genuinely believe the people who see the parallels, ins and outs, and progressive storylines to the show can see how much love, time, and attention has been calculated into it. Which gives me faith that the p*w breakup was the natural conclusion to this season.

To hopefully clarify what I mean, let me explain it a different way. Ricky and Gina are the troyella of the show. Their arc from season to season literally revolves around the other. This means that each season is a different lesson or side to them we’re seeing. I’ve been rewatching The Office (something we can easily see hsmtmts draw from) and Jim and Pam are the same way. As you watch the show, their arcs and growth constantly revolve around each other.

1: Pam dates Roy, Jim pines (I don’t count this season so much though because there were drastic changes to the characters and how storylines were written that make the show basically start at S2)

2: Pam sets a wedding date while dating Roy, Jim leaves, Pam breaks up with Roy

3: Jim dates Karen while Pam pines

4: Jim and Pam date

5: Jim and Pam get engaged

6: Jim and Pam get married and have a baby

7-9: (condensed because they start to feel the same): Jim and Pam have another child, we watch Jim take on a dream job, and the ups and downs of them being married.

Rina is doing the same thing:

1: Ricky and Gina meet and become friends

2: Ricky relationship and gina pining

3: gina relationship and ricky pining

4: (hopefully) overcoming any personal anamolies that keep themselves from dating each other/finally getting together

With Jim and Pam, I really appreciate that we got a good amount of story for them through the whole show. We saw them build, get together, and their life in a relationship. I really hope we can get a season 5, so we can see rina in a relationship, full fledged for an entire season and what that might look like. It’s just to give us a better idea of how much these two characters really needed each other. With Jim and Pam, we can see their growth and how happy they truly are once they’re together because we get to experience that. I think the pay off for a slow burn ship like this is getting to see them date, not just the build up and finally seeing them kiss or decide to be together.

I feel like watching the natural progression of things in comparison to the other shows, p*w won’t have an ily. The MOST I could see them do is Elton tries to confess but gina rejects him because she’s much happier with ricky or realizes she will be happier with him. I feel like the only episode this would make sense in is episode 8, so if we don’t see it then, I don’t know that we will see it s4.

#rina #hsmtmts #high school musical the musical the series #gina porter #ricky bowen #ricky x gina #troyella #jim and Pam #the office #hsm #high school musical #asks #send me asks #anon

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kai-keda · 2 years

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i kinda get and kinda dont get what you mean when you say dragonfru1t is most likely to be canon? like i get they have a lot of interactions but i think its more accurate to say no ships will be canon, flying bark seems to really steer away from romance in their shows (glitch techs, rotmnt, 100% wolf). the company seems to super focus on platonic bonds and found family as a whole

off topic , do you think if calabash didnt make it explict that mei and mk are only friends do you think people would say they were endgame?

(sorry for ask dumping!)

Never apologize for sending me an ask like this, I love them!

I’m assuming this is coming from these tweets I sent recently out of frustration with some “my ship isn’t the most popular one!!” whining I saw going on so I’ll add a screenshot for anyone who’s curious about the full context here:

Just to help clarify right off the bat, my main point of bringing Dragonfruit up was to say that, if I were to be one of those people who genuinely felt I needed to ship the most “analytically “cOrReCt” ship”, I would be shipping Dragonfruit and Dragonfruit alone.

Yet here I am with Spicynoodles as my OTP (despite Dragonfruit being my first ship of the series and the one that I have the most AMV’s about as well as still being a ship I enjoy because I am a multishipper)

Because I’m not held down by the bitter bs of when I was a teenager thinking I had to be “Right” in how I approached things that are meant to be for fun. Like shipping in fandom. (See also - my whole rant towards those people who were whining about how “If all you do when you take in media is look for ways to ship in it, you are objectively missing out and thus are bad and stupid”)

NOW

To answer your questions:

My main point that I didn’t have the character space for in regards to “Which is most likely to become canon” would be better worded as “If any ship was in the running of possibly being canon, it would be Red Son x Xiaojiao/Mei.“

While I am of the opinion that - similar to my hot take that the LBD host does NOT need to become a major character - this series does not have enough time to waste on dealing with the complications romance would bring to a story already focused on complicated platonic relationships, I still can’t ignore the simple fact that the only couple that has the most on-screen reasoning AND out-of-universe meta elements lined up to make them canon is Dragonfruit.

(See also - my reasoning why “What Makes It Complicated” will never have romance in it outright. The story is about complicated relationships with those you care about but fear you SHOULDN’T care about despite their best efforts via Wukong and Kumi, and adding romance to it would muddy the whole thing up in ways I have no reason to put the audience through)

I haven’t seen anything else of Flying Bark’s unfortunately (please don’t suggest Rise to me. I do not care for TMNT. It has NEVER appealed to me in any iteration. I’ve seen clips from Rise already. Animation looks other worldly. The show’s not for me.) but I am definitely willing to take your word for it that they don’t include romance in their work.

My opinion that Dragonfruit is the most likely ship to become canon comes with a giant “IF” in front for “IF there is going to be ANY ship that becomes canon”.

And for the last question:

Yes and I would hate it and that’s exactly why I am in love with how Calabash shut down my nemesis before they could even get off the ground.

“Main guy should always get with main girl!” is the source of so much shipping drama - even when people don’t realize that that’s exactly what their “But they have the most screen time together!” arguments are based on - and more for more than one ship war that I have seen for myself and I am glad to have that explicitly avoided.

If someone still ships them, that’s fair.

I still ship spicynoodles despite, as I’ve said, there’s not a whole lot of in-universe reasons to see them as “correct” analytically speaking.

I’m just relieved to have avoided “Main Guy x Main Girl just ‘cause” arguments being thrown around in fights.

#lmk analysis #fandom #shipping #fandom wank #fandom analysis #Kai keda analysis

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hannahreed3101 · 2 years

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some thoughts on haikyuu. please note i’ve only watched the first 3 seasons

first character i fell in love with - probably kenma or kuroo

character i never expected to love as much as i do - tendou, but he quickly stole my heart, also Kageyama but idk how genuine that is because my love for him grew because of fanfiction but i do to some extent relate to kageyama with the outbursts of anger and struggling to communicate

character everyone loves but i don't: don't really have one, haven't disliked any character so far (finished season 3). maybe hinata, i just don't really relate to him and he just doesn't quite feel as realistic to me. maybe that says more about me than it does hinata. also i do still like hinata just not quite to the extent where i baby him or think he's the innocent pure baby. like i'm kinda neutral towards him

character i love but everyone hates: idk if this counts bc love is a bit strong and idk if he's hated but ushijima, i understand why people might dislike him but i like socially awkward characters and that includes ushijima, also he just seems like he'd be really chill most of the time. he's not my favourite character but i do like him

character i would marry: Akaashi, he's chill and mostly calm but can still be sarcastic and doesn't take anyone's BS but he's still caring.

who i would kill: probably tanaka or hinata, not because i dislike them as characters but because if they were real they probably would annoy me. why not nishinoya? because nishinoya is baby gremlin and must be protected.

OTP : kuroken, ushiten, bokuaka ( i like a lot of ships and am indifferent towards even more. if you send or comment them i will go more in depth on opinions). Any combination of bokuakakurokentsuki. platonic everyone x everyone

NOTP: any incest, things like kageyama x natsu, which idk if anyone actually ships them but i digress (if it’s just a one-sided crush on natsu’s part it’s not as bad but i’d still rather not) because i don't like big age gaps, also for some reason i don't like hinata harem, i like kageyama harem and am open to other harems so idk why this is, maybe it's because i don't really like hinata as much as a character. i should clarify when i say i don't like hinata harem i specifically mean hinata x everyone, i do still have hinata ships, maybe it's because i ship most people in the harems with other people more than i ship them with hinata

if anyone wants me to elaborate or explain or give more opinions let me know. i think my asks are open but i just wanna talk about haikyuu but none of my friends watch it

#haikyuu #Kuroo Tetsurou #Kenma Kozume #TENDOU SATORI #kageyama tobio #hinata shouyou #Ushijima Wakatoshi #akaashi keiji #tanaka ryunosuke #Yū Nishinoya #kuroken #ushiten #BokuAka #bokuakakurokentsuki

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inthewild-flowers · 2 years

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Alsooo I’d love to hear abt ur space pirate ocs (sorry ur uquiz came up on my dash and the words space pirate got me so hype)

okay i swear i’ve gone on about them at length on here before but i couldn’t find it 😔 curse tumblrs terrible search system etc etc that said !! i do have a space pirates tag on my blog for random posts that remind me of them so like. probably not everything will show up but a fair bit !! u can also find a bit more by just searching each of their names on my blog i think

SO my space pirates r cap tachi and maisie. i love them with my whole heart. they’re a polycule <3 cap’s aromantic bc i love projecting but they and tachi are dating in like a bffs sort of queerplatonic but almost romantic but not really and love each other sooooo so much way (also bc i love projecting)(although tbf i came up with their relationship before i myself had a relationship to project onto them. it’s still kind of projection tho).

they r also dating maisie but like the cap/tachi dynamic is. okay i’m gonna clarify first that this bit is NOT projection. anyway cap and tachi r suuuuuuuuuper codependent and like definitely pretty unhealthy but also it works for them. they don’t know how to live without each other and neither of them want to find out. they’re definitely the type to go on an absolute rampage if either of them got killed. tachi can do the most terrible shit in the world and cap will find a way to justify it. cap can do the most terrible shit in the world and tachi won’t justify it but he will forgive it. tachi is cap with fewer inhibitions. he’s loud and brash and impulsive where cap actively reigns those traits in in themself. cap also tends to be very stoic and doesn’t like admitting they have emotions. they take care of people that’s what they Do but they often do it to their own detriment. they’ll ignore their own needs if there’s someone that they perceive as needing their help.

tachi loves swords. it’s a bit sexual ngl. he also loves fighting people. he’s absolutely the first of the group to start a physical fight; cap prefers at least an attempt at diplomacy and maisie likes to sit back and watch things unfold. tachi is easily bored and tends to look for any type of excitement. he and maisie argue for fun, but neither of them are very good at knowing where to draw the line, so often one of them will accidentally say something genuinely upsetting and it’ll become an actual argument. they fight a lot, but they also make up pretty easily. tachi will flirt with anyone and everyone, and he’s usually successful. he’s got a huge amount of people on various planets that he keeps in touch with bc he slept with them once or twice and left on good terms. this comes in handy a Lot. cap and maisie do have the occasional other partner, but tachis has the most simply bc he’s the most extroverted and socially adept.

maisie love of my life !! okay she kinda sucks ngl. VERY fuck around and find out. this often results in Bad Things. cap and tachi think she’s the hottest person in the universe but she’s actually kind of gross and greasy. (obviously this only makes her hotter) she likes to hide deep in the inside working of the ship and build bombs, but she also does general repairs when necessary. she loves to be taken care of, which feeds very well into caps need to take care of people, especially since tachi hates being taken care of and will brush off a near fatal wound if he can.

okay this was as usual LENGTHY but i just love talking abt them teehee <3 still trying to come up with some sort of a story but they r gonna be a novel someday i swear to god

#actually someone suggested to me a couple weeks ago that i work with an artist and make it a graphic novel #which would absolutely FUCK #like i rlly rlly wanna do that #bc the visuals would be fucking incredible y’know #anyway #asks #space pirates tag

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bookofmirth · 2 years

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I think I just came to a realization that the only reason why elriel’s don’t want elain to leave NC or explore courts is because Azriel won’t follow her, in normal terms if Elain wanted to explore courts and leave NC won’t it make sense for azriel as her LI to follow her but I think we keep forgetting that just like elain who doesn’t thrive in darkness, azriel doesn’t thrive anywhere but the dark, it’s literally inside him and you can’t take it out of him and let’s be honest if it comes down to choosing between the NC/IC and Elain, we all know who Azriel will choose without a second thought, it’s facts. I kept on thinking this people love elain so much so why do they keep pushing for her to have a stagnant storyline, why do they push her to stay in NC where she doesn’t thrive, why do they want her not to explore around like she said she wanted to, why do they keep pushing for the dusk court theory, a court that convinently has dark in it and I don’t think it’s because they want her to stay with her sisters because I legit always see them talk about how they hate the way her sisters treat her like she’s unimportant and useless, it’s pretty clear that it’s a cover up and this just proves that no one can win in that ship including azriel or elain and that’s just sad.

the only reason why elriel’s don’t want elain to leave NC or explore courts is because Azriel won’t follow her

I love this ask because I can practically see you having a lightbulb moment 😂

But yes, you're exactly right. Absolutely, 100%, there are no legitimate reasons to be so pissed and take Elain leaving so damn personally except for the fact that people know that Azriel will never leave the Night Court. Azriel belongs in the Night Court, he grew up there, his friends and family are there, he has no personal connections to any other courts, he literally looks out of place in non-dark areas; if anyone was made for the Night Court (other than Rhys), it's Azriel. We can all agree on that.

So yep. Absolutely. The only reason that people get all up their butts about the possibility that Elain might end up elsewhere is because they know that realistically, Azriel wouldn't go with her. So then what happens? They reject canon and act as if Elain is experiencing a human rights violation at the mere suggestion she leave the Night Court.

This outrage at the possibility that Elain won't ultimately settle in the NC is completely based on who is going to fuck whom, and not on what is best for the characters, or what we know about their personalities. If I had a dollar for every time I typed the words "the characters as individuals" then...

This is also why people get sooooo mad about Cassian saying what he did about how poorly Elain looks in black and tried to make up that ridiculous idea that Elain did it on purpose. No 😂 She was genuinely trying to be a part of the Night Court and failed. Not because she isn't beautiful - Cassian made sure to clarify that - but because she doesn't fit.

But again, if there is something about Elain's character that implies her story is incompatible with Azriel's, they will dismiss it out of hand. Or get so personally offended by the idea that they pretend Elain is being torn away from her family by the simple statement of canon.

Nesta and Feyre are not nice to Elain. They don't know her or understand her. Nesta and Feyre are far more similar to one another than they are to Elain. At this point, they just tolerate Elain. And you know what? She deserves better than that. Elain deserves people who not only see and understand her, but who push her to be a better version of herself. Who don't allow her to shut down and isolate and just pretend that everything is okay.

Feyre, Rhys, Nesta, Cassian, Azriel, they all just let Elain be passive - sometimes enabling her to be so - and ignore her problems. Amren and Cassian may be the only ones who see that there is something else to Elain, but they aren't in a position to do anything about it because 1) they know that it's on Elain to change, and 2) they don't want to come between Elain and her sisters (a lesson Rhys would do well to learn). I love all of those characters, but Elain does not fit with them.

The fact that people argue tooth and nail about why Elain does indeed fit, trying to explain why she should continue smiling and pretending to be happy, is disingenuous af because they just want her to be there to make Az feel better about himself. "Az needs someone to choose him!" okay well why can't that be Gwyn? Why does it matter who chooses him, as long as he is chosen???

The thing is, they know. They know deep down that these being more character-driven books, that it's the character's personalities as individuals that comes first, and that sjm pairs them based on complementing personalities and paths. Not aesthetics. If Elain doesn't seem like she fits in with the Night Court - which she canonically doesn't - then they know exactly what that means for her and Az.

I still have never, not once, in the five years I've been in this fandom, seen an explanation of why Azriel and Elain are compatible based on their personalities. I have never, not once, seen an explanation of what their relationship would look like that doesn't serve as a self-insert fantasy about how happy Elain is going to make Azriel and how she will be the only one who will appreciate his big dick the way it should be appreciated. Or an explanation of how they would be mutually supportive other than the vague idea of "wouldn't it be neat if Elain rejected her bond and ChOsE Azriel?!" Yeah, I can see why that would be a neat idea, but maybe with different characters. Because these two are fundamentally incompatible. I know exactly what Azriel would get out of a relationship with Elain. I have no fucking clue what Elain would get out of it, other than some good dick.

But sure. We're the ones who hate Elain. 🙄

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reidyoulikeabook · 3 years

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hi i saw that your requests are open for the night for that list and i feel like 15&35 with spencer might be all i need to survive

anyways i’m on anon bc i’m scared you’ll hate this request but just know your writing is my favorite i would read your grocery lists at this point

excuse me i love this request please do not disparage yourself ever again <3 that’s the loveliest thing anybody has ever said to me and i will now think of you and this compliment whenever i write a grocery list

Ship: GN! (wears a bra, no mention of gender other than this) Reader x Spencer Reid

Warnings: Mentions of canon-typical case things, pining, mild thievery.

Word count: 2.4k

Prompts: #15 - "You’ve just won one free pass to my bedroom.”

#35 - “Well fuck, didn’t expect to be announcing my undying love for you this early in the morning.”

A/N: This got so ungodly long I’m so sorry I don’t even know if I can call this a blurb at this point it’s a full fic but I loved this idea so much and it ran away from me.

PLEASE let me know what you think because I bashed this out in the span of an hour and I’m not sure if I love or hate it.

Rossi’s spitballing theories behind you. Your head lolls on the desk, feeling far too heavy to attempt lifting up at this time of night. The case was hard, you were sleeping in shifts, and somehow you, Rossi, and Reid had drawn the short straw. Your eyes are blearing a little too much to make out the exact time on the clock, it’s on the opposite side of the room and your eyes burn when you squint to look at the time; you’re fairly certain you’re somewhere on the wrong side of 3am.

23 hours awake.

Sighing, you push yourself up, looking around and only now noting that Spencer isn’t in the room. He must have made his exit while you were flicking through the files making notes, it was often easier to do that with your headphones in.

Thankfully, you'd set up shop in a conference room at the hotel, given the local PD was tiny and barely equipped to handle its own officers.

“What about the meat packing district?” Rossi muses.

It’s a rhetorical question but one you actually have an answer to, “I don’t think so. The busiest part of the city is between the meat packing district and where he’s dumping the bodies. Cops do random stop-and-searches sometimes, I don’t know if he’d risk it.”

“He could drive around.”

You frown, thinking, “He’d be crossing state lines. Hey, wait,” You stand up from your chair, walking to the board and starting drawing circles that illustrate your point, “Spencer thought there must be a pattern, right? But it died off here and we didn’t know about any more victims. If we expanded the search to outside of state lines it might connect here, here, and here,” You circle each here with a point, tapping the pen against the board triumphantly.

Rossi smiles, “Good thinking kid. I’ll call Garcia.”

Exhausted from your breakthrough, you flop back down into the chair. The clothes you’ve been wearing are icky, uncomfortable with sweat and flying and you’re strongly regretting your choice in underwear now too.

You hear the door swing open, looking up to see Spencer entering the room. Holding your go-bag. The one you’d left on the jet this morning. The jet that was a two hour drive from your current location.

“Where did you? When did you?” Your incoherency is related to both your tiredness, and his thoughtfulness.

He smiles, “It took some calling around but I found a cab driver willing to go and pick it up. It just got here.”

“Spencer I-,” You start, scrambling to your feet to accept the bag he’s offering to you, “Thank you. That’s so sweet of you. How much was the cab?”

“Don’t worry about it,” He says, handing it to you and heading over to the board, “What are these?”

Rossi - who was watching the exchange with some amusement - starts explaining the eureka moment you’d had. Spencer nods along, turning to smile at you when Rossi credits the thought to you. It’s something he does a lot, Rossi’s noticed. Not in a condescending way, Spencer knows more than anyone just how capable you are at your job. It’s as if he needs to channel his love for you somewhere, and chooses pride. It’s the easiest one to explain, after all, because who isn’t happy for their colleague making breakthroughs?

That’s how Spencer justifies it anyhow.

You leave the room, heading to the bathroom to change. You’re incredibly grateful to slip out of your dirty clothes and the bra that’s cutting into you, so much so that you decide to pop on a t-shirt under your blazer. The sports bra and t-shirt combo revitalises you more than you thought possible for this hour.

Digging through, you find an item that you didn’t pack. A pair of brown fluffy slippers. Attached to them, a note, ‘I thought the heels on your boots looked uncomfortable, and I didn’t want your feet to hurt. - Spencer.

He signed the note. Something about that, alongside the gift itself, sends a flush of warmth through you.

He gave you his slippers

So?

Is that something friends do?

Wracking your brain, you try to think up if he’d do this for anyone else. Hotch? The thought makes you laugh. Emily? Maybe, actually. If she didn’t make it so hard for others to take care of her. Penelope? Almost definitely.

Your heart sinks a little, and you distract yourself by fumbling to get your work boots off and the slippers on.

It doesn’t matter it isn’t romantic, it matters that he did it.

It matters to every other person you date

He sets an impossibly high bar

Thankfully, the late hour means that there aren’t many local PD still hanging around to see your interesting choice of shoe. You slip through to the conference room, where Spencer and Rossi are huddled over the phone talking to Garcia.

Spencer does a double-take. He knew the gift he’d given you, but he hadn’t expected to see you...wearing them? You look beautiful: hair mussed from fiddling with it, an old college t-shirt under your blazer, brown fluffy slippers on your feet. The mix of professional and homely attire does something to him that he can’t quite explain, and he has to clear his throat before making his next point to Garcia.

Did he just blush?

You try not to stare at him, try not to see if that’s a tinge of red creeping up under his turtleneck.

It is.

“Thanks Garcia,” Rossi clips, hanging up the phone, “I’m going to go and find some coffee. You two,” He points, looking knowingly between you, “Just keep doing what you’re doing.”

No sooner has Rossi left the room, you both try speaking at once.

“You look-” He starts.

“Thank you so-” You start.

You both tinge with warmth.

“You go first,” He says, gnawing at his plump lower lip, finger turning oer the pen in his hand.

You laugh, a little breathless, “Well fuck, I wasn’t expecting to be announcing my undying love for you this early in the morning.”

His eyebrows quirk, is that...hope?

No. Wishful thinking

It’s probably confusion, and you’re a little embarassed, so you quickly clarify, “I mean Spencer Reid this is the kindest thing anyone has ever done for me. I’m endebted to you forever, really.”

A look washes over him: disappointment? You can’t trust your eyes to see the clock, so you feel you can’t entrust them to analyse his micro-expressions right now either. Especially when you’re biased by personal desire.

“It’s no problem,” He says, voice cracking a little, “You look...” He trails off.

“Unprofessional?” You suggest, teasing.

He shakes his head, swallowing, “You look really nice.”

It’s your turn to swallow. You drop your gaze to the pen, feeling too flustered to continue looking your colleague in the eyes at this moment in time, “Thank you. Where did you get slippers at this time of night?”

He shifts, one hand settling over the wrist of the other and fingers nervously rubbing over the back of his hand, “They were uhm. They were mine.”

“Yours?”

“Yeah,” It comes out pitchy, a squeak, “I’m sorry, that’s probably weird I just thought-”

“No, Spence,” You say, looking up at him and giving him a genuine smile, “No, it’s really sweet. I’m really lucky to have you.”

He gives his signature tiny tight-lipped smile, the one he gives when he’s feeling awkward or suppressing something he wants to say but can’t.

Please let it be the latter.

You relinquish him of the obligation of responding, instead standing to join him at the board, “You think you’ve got enough to make a geographical profile out of this?”

He nods, tapping the board with his pen, “Your idea about crossing interstate lines was really smart.”

“I have my moments.”

He wants to tell you that everything you have is a moment. You want to step closer, to cup his face in your hands, to press a kiss to the lips that you swear are pouting, begging to be kissed. You don’t.

Namely, because Rossi chooses this moment to re-enter the room, clutching three cups of coffee, “A little help here?”

From the way you spring apart, despite not even being that close, he wishes he’d taken a little longer. Damn kids and their inability to express their feelings for one another.

***

It’s 4:30am when the alarm on your phone goes off. With the work of the four of you - Garcia sporadically included when she had genius updates - you’ve managed to uncover a pattern that arches across states. You’d called Hotch, who’d commended the good work and advised that you should head to bed at 4:30. The others would get up then, and start to head out to the different potential crime scenes. Local PD was already on it.

You’d been told under no uncertain terms that you were to rest until at least 10am. Unless there was a call from Hotch. You prayed there wouldn’t be.

Rossi’s off the minute the alarm rings, bustling out the door with a “See you later kids.”

You wait behind while Spencer packs his things into his satchel. Or rather, unpacks his things from his satchel, frantically tearing it apart.

“What are you looking for?” You ask.

“My key card,” He murmurs, “I swear it was in my wallet.”

“You were rooming with Morgan, right? Want me to call him?”

“Yes please,” He says, continuing to unearth the contents of his bag onto the desk, with an increasing degree of agitation every second that goes by.

You dial Morgan’s number, and he answers after two rings, ��Hey kid.”

You put the phone on loudspeaker.

“Hey. I’m with Spencer, we’re about to head up to our rooms for the night, are you still here? He can’t find his keycard.”

He lets out a breath of air through his teeth, “Sorry, I’m already on my way to one of the crime scenes. Local PD found a body over the state line. Nobody’s at the hotel but you guys and Rossi.”

Spencer outwardly sighs.

“No problem, we’ll figure something out.”

“Alright, good work kid, get some rest.”

The phone line clicks. Spencer’s brow is pinched with frustration, and your heart breaks for him. You’ve all been awake well over 24 hours, and he looks exhausted. He’s more eyebag than man at this point.

“Do you want me to go to the front desk?” You ask.

He shakes his head, “Reception doesn’t open until 6am. I’ll just wait here until then.”

He starts packing the belongings back into his bag, a resigned look on his face. And you have an idea.

“Actually,” You say, pulling the keycard out of your pocket and sliding it across the table to him, “You’ve just won one free pass to my bedroom.”

He picks the card up, squinting in confusion.

“Me and Rossi both got put in single rooms. I mean, it might not be the most comfortable thing in the world, both of us in a single bed, but it’s better than nothing right?”

He opens his mouth to object, and you shake your head.

“Spence you look like you’re about to drop unconscious on the floor and I don’t want to be responsible for yet another injureid.”

You’re so tired that the pun seems hilarious to you, and it does elicit a small laugh from him.

“Come on, it’s either share a bed with me, share a bed with Rossi, or try to sleep in one of these chairs. And I’ll be honest, I’d be kind of offended if you’d rather either of the other two options.”

“I can sleep on the floor,” He says, obviously warming up to the offer but not wanting to push his luck. You can hear the hesitancy in his voice.

“You can. But you won’t,” You tell him, settling your go-bag on your shoulder, “And might I remind you that all this time you’re spending objecting are minutes we could be spending sleeping.”

That seems to win him over. He tucks everything back into his bag, zipping it up, “After you.”

“You have the keycard,” You smile, “After you.”

***

The bed is a single bed. It prompts another round of ‘No really, I can sleep on the floor’ from Spencer, your enquiries about if it’s too much for his germaphobia or issues with touching, and his blushy embarassed reassurance that he doesn’t mind if it’s you.

He doesn’t mind if it’s you.

Not as if you’ll spend the next year mulling over those words or anything.

When you get out of the bathroom from changing, Spencer is tucked up in bed. Well, you say tucked up, but he’s practically lay right on the edge. How he’s actually physically still being supported by the mattress at this point must be his physics magic.

“I thought I said I didn’t want you getting injured,” You say, crossing the room to him.

He opens his eyes, “I didn’t want to-”

“It’s okay Spence,” You tell him, huddling down into bed.

There’s about enough room for you both to fit in, with an inch between you, so you pull gently at his arms, urging him closer.

“There’s enough room for us both without you going flying in the night,” You tell him.

He nods, obviously still a little nervous. It’s odd, lying face to face with him, illuminated only by lamplight. He looks soft. He always does, but there’s something intimate about this. You can feel his breath fan across your cheek, can feel how heat radiates off his arms.

“Do you want me to turn the lamp off?” He asks.

It’s not your staring that implores him to ask, because he’s been staring at you too. The both of you, trapped in a perfect bubble of a moment. Lamplight a spotlight, highlighting all the features of the person you love most.

“Sure,” You whisper, breath catching in your throat.

He flicks it off, settling back down.

His breath brushes against your face when he asks, “Do you want me to turn around?”

“Do you want to?”

He hesitates for a moment, voice even softer when he answers, “No.”

It’s dark. You can hardly make out his outline. Yet somehow, you both just know. Shifting, infitismally closer. Breaching the tiniest gap between you somehow feels like crossing the Grand Canyon. Your heart thumps in your chest, and you can feel it in your fingers, the fingers that trace cautiously along his jaw.

His mouth finally, finally, slotting against yours in the most gentle of kisses. A blink and you’d miss it.

And yet, in the same blink, your life changes forever.

When Rossi makes a speech at your wedding, he admits to being the thief of the missing keycard, and intentional orchestrator of the greatest love story he’s ever known. His words.

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neon-junkie · 3 years

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Hey everyone,

This will be my final post addressing the fandom conflict that has quite frankly gotten out of hand. Although it’s very likely this post will be picked apart, no matter how well intended it is, I will no longer be addressing, interacting, or responding to any further accusations made against me. Of course, if people have questions from a genuine place of interest, I will be happy to clarify anything for you, either via DM’s or non-anon asks. I will not be answering anonymous asks on this, as I do not want anything else posted on this topic.

As a side note: For anyone tempted to wade into the debate, I sincerely ask you not to get involved. Do not make yourself a target, do not feel you need to ‘pick a side’, and please do not think you have an obligation to reason with either side. It seems to be well past the point of that, so please find people you get along with in this fandom and curate a space for yourself away from all this conflict.

Warning: This post will contain uncensored slurs, mentions of racism, paedophilia, transphobia, LGBTQ+ phobia, death threats, threats of violence, targeted harassment, and abusive language.

To start off, I want to apologise to everyone who has somehow gotten drawn into this mess by either defending me, following me, or interacting with my content. This whole situation with me began well over a year ago when I wrote a crack-smut fic featuring Javier/Micah, posted back in August 2019. A crack fic is defined as “a work of fan fiction that is absurd, surprising or ridiculous, often intentionally.” It was inspired by a camp interaction between Micah and Javier, and like many other fanfiction writers, I decided to write smut about it. The fic was titled ‘Dirty Fucking Greaser’, and if that shocks you, I’m sure you can imagine how shocked I was to be informed afterwards that ‘Greaser’ was in fact a very serious 19th century slur for a Mexican individual. My first encounter with this word as insult was via RDR2, where it was used like a very casual insult. My only prior knowledge of this term was in regards to the greasers youth subculture, so the severity was lost on me. This obviously does not excuse my ignorance, and I should have researched the term better, but this is just again to apologize for that oversight, the insensitivity, and to highlight that my use of this term was not meant maliciously. Following this being pointed out, I proceeded to make 3 separate apology posts [Unfortunately I can only find the third one: HERE], renamed the fic, and added slur warnings in both the tags and the fic description. When I continued to receive complaints and increasingly aggressive abuse (which included being told my apologies weren’t good enough and I should delete my account and even kill myself), I attempted to delete the fic and mistakenly abandoned it instead. I contacted AO3 to see if it could be removed, but they said there was nothing they could do. I contacted their DMCA takedown team, who also said they couldn't remove it. Please note that all this happened 7-8 months ago, and has been dragged on for almost a year.

So, from this one unfortunate incident, I’ve been branded a racist, and someone who attacks POC, when all I have done is tried to defend myself and correct my past mistakes. I could have done this more gracefully in the past, but frankly when you’re suddenly the target of unrelenting callout posts and nasty anons, it’s very hard to be open to criticism of this sort, but this is what I’m trying to move past.

Over the course of the year, this one mistake has spiralled, and the crusade against me has somehow coincided with moral conflicts over certain characters and ships. This has devolved into dehumanizing abuse, witch hunts, death threats, doxxing, anon hate, and much more unpleasant behaviour.

I have been in fandom for a very long time, and at the heart of all fandom circles is the fear of censorship and subsequent purges, so the ‘ship and let ship’ mentality was more or less the pinnacle of fandom philosophy. And yes, this can be problematic in some contexts. People have their right to be uncomfortable with content, have a right to be offended by content, but that is not content meant for you. This argument has devolved into ‘what material is morally right to engage with’ and that is a mentality in which fandom will not survive, because for every person who is telling me I’m an awful person for writing about Micah, there are three other people telling me how much they appreciate me making that content. For every fic in which I characterize Javier and Flaco a certain way, some people are made uncomfortable by it and others tell me they enjoy it. And this isn’t just white people, but POC too, which makes it very difficult to know whether I am genuinely in the right or the wrong, especially when it comes to the concept of ‘fetishization’ which I have been made aware I need to educate myself on. I intend to do so, but I disagree with the common accusation that finding non-white men romantically and sexually attractive is inherently fetishistic and makes me racist. It’s pushing a catch-22; don’t find POC sexually attractive? Racist. Find POC sexually attractive? Racist.

I am always willing to be (politely) approached about anything my readers may be concerned about, but if it’s something I’ve specifically tagged for (such as themes, scenarios, etc.) I’m afraid you consented to reading it and with that I cannot help you. You are just as responsible for curating your space and what you see/read just as much as I am responsible for tagging it appropriately.

On the topic of racism, I want to bring up my prior use of ‘white racism’ which has obviously been a point of contention among both white and people of colour. The (literal) black vs white concept of racism is incredibly American-centric, and as someone from Europe, which has a history of oppression against white cultures and those of people of colour, it feels inaccurate. However, this has recently been discussed with me and I came to the realization that while growing up, especially in the UK, ‘xenophobia’ and ‘racism’ were marketed as one and the same. So, with this little revelation in mind, I will no longer be using ‘white racism’ (Or ‘reverse racism’) to identify the abuse I have been receiving, but will instead call it by what it really is; dehumanizing, debasing, xenophobic, puritanical.

Very briefly, I will also touch on the NewAustin situation, which has also been dredged into this. I did not ‘chase a POC from tumblr’. NA was a minor who for some reason was on my 18+ blog and took issue with me, likely from the ongoing discourse regarding my fic and initial mistake, as well as my interest in Micah. They were subsequently harassed into deleting their account by anonymous hate following various conflicts with other users for their support of me or their ships in general. I have never encouraged my followers to target anyone, and have always asked to be blocked and blacklisted by those who do not like me or my content. When NewAustin messaged me following the deletion of their blog, I was admittedly indifferent to the point of being unkind, and accused them of sending the hate themselves. This was based on the anon hate being racially-driven without there being any prior knowledge or publication that NA was a person of colour. This aside, I should have at the time, whether I believed it was my followers or not, condemned this behaviour. Regardless of the issues I’ve had with these people, it is never ever ok to send hate to anyone, no matter the motivation behind it, and that should have been stated at the time.

All I can do at this point is acknowledged and apologize for my past mistakes, and try to improve myself going forward.

It is not my place to dictate the morals of the character/ship-aspect of this argument, and I am not interested in waging a war of opinion. This post is simply to clarify how I am involved in this, and why I am so viscerally targeted. You can draw your own conclusions, but I am no longer interested in this endless back and forth.

To my mutuals/followers, I stand by my request to not interact and to block and move on, as this is what I’ll be doing too.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope it makes things from my perspective a little clearer.

-RAT <3

EDIT: Just after this post was made, the fic in question was finally removed. I had to go through a DMCA take down, which can take months, since I originally abandoned the fic, thinking that meant delete. I explain this in more detail above. Said fic is gone, and has been gone since this post has been around.

#the tea #apology #long post

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paper-cuts-and-fresh-bruises · 3 years

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Okay, so I’m gonna try and keep this relatively brief (I’m totally lying about it being brief if you look ahead, I really ranted) and what I’m talking about might get a bit heavy so bear with me. So, to those who have paid attentions to my posts that I make every once in a while, and even to those who may not have seen (I say this and it kinda sounds like I’m somehow framing it as me being famous, trust I’m not but this is how I’m phrasing it so let’s just roll with it) I’ve mentioned on odd occasions about what the haters want to say about Nace, because as always there are those who are going to disagree with your ship, not even for fundamental issues with it but the fact that they’re whiney and salty and don’t want to accept that their ship isn’t happening (cue that mean girls scene about “fetch” not happening). Now I, and as I’m sure the rest of us are, am used to defending my corner from the usual bullsh!t; this includes the “they look like siblings” which they don’t, the “they don’t have any chemistry” which hello they obviously do, and the “they don't even make sense as a couple, they should just be friends” which btw sure not every girl and guy have to become something more but this is a totally different scenario and they definitely fit each other on a deeper level, and then insert all the other random sh!t that gets said.

Now I will clarify first that I have no trouble with you shipping different characters together, I just don’t like the disrespectful sh!theads who seem to forget that we’re all individuals with different opinions and those who lack the depth to respect what is and is not, plus those that don’t want to get with the programme and find enjoyment in the show elsewhere, at least seen as they seem to love the show so much but then b!tch about it like their life depended on it. This leads me onto what I wanted to really address here.

It has come to my attention that apparently shipping Nace is racist to some of these people now, not the sane level headed people (which btw I don’t want to get it twisted when I say this I make no reference to those with just genuine mental issues, that is completely separate and should be treated with care and respect), but to the extremist that go out of their way to have a problem. Racism is a serious thing, certainly something I take seriously and I’m sure you guys out there do too, no matter who it’s happening to, when it’s happening, or where it’s happening, it’s a bit (a LOT) of a no no; but do you know what’s an on par no no to this, throwing around the term “racist” and diminishing its meaning. Like I don’t know what show we’re watching, but it sure ain’t one where Nancy dumped anyone or refused to date anyone because their skin wasn’t the same as hers. With Nancy it’s always been the case of when she’s dated guys the break ups are for purely either situational or key faults in the dynamic of the relationship. I mean the first guy we technically see her with is her high school boyfriend and they break up as it seems due to changing circumstances, her mother died and he focused on university, with Nick he started out as a hook-up and even when they tried a relationship the dynamic didn’t work especially when Nancy wouldn’t/couldn’t open up and Nick didn’t have the patience with her to wait (he’s learned since then obviously but the dynamic wouldn’t work with them again), and with Gil she was influenced by the wraith to ignore all his toxicity and when she gained back a bit of her ability to see clearly he got dumped because he was bad from start to finish, plus he’s just a whiney boy in a supposed “man’s” body. NONE OF THAT was racially motivated and neither is this direction with Ace, all it boils down to is chemistry, which Nancy and Ace have in abundance.

Those were Nancy’s reasons for her break ups and that's what we see too, and it’s the same thing with why we like the idea of her with Ace so much. We don’t ship Nancy and Ace because they’re both white, we ship them because they have ample chemistry, they fit together, and they make sense; their progression makes sense, it feels natural and dammit these two are cute together. Sure I’m gushing over them and that’s because they’re a ship I like, a ship we like, plus just because I mostly obsess over them doesn’t mean I’m not paying attention to the other ships or that I automatically hate anyone outside of them. Also like when you date, I’m sure most of us rightly understand that the people you date, and especially the person that ends up being the right person for you and that you stay with doesn’t automatically link to heinous discrimination. Like if you date a bunch of people from different races and happen to end up with someone of the same race (same skin colour as another way to put it), usually all it ever is is coincidence, especially on the Nancy Drew show. The level of reaching these people will go to knows no bounds and disrespects actual racism going on right now. (also Ace’s relationships follow the similar pattern of reasoning for breakups, yeah he and Amanda aren’t technically over as of this current time but y’know what I’m on about)

Anyways, this probably felt heavy for many of you as it certainly did for me, I got what was in my head out at least, might be stuff I’ve missed but there always is. I promise whatever post I make next will be lighter, but I needed to get this out and this just helps me personally to not bottle stuff up that bothers me. I leave this to you people now, feel free to go ballistic.

#Nancy Drew #nace #nancy x ace #ace x nancy #i mean seriously #this is what it's come to #apparently racism #disclaimer not racism #pulling at straws #long post #rant #character relationships

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smaidjor · 3 years

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i know they're losing (chapter 2)

Hello everyone! Since the last chapter received such a positive response (well, if screaming could be called a positive response), I've decided to not make you all wait long for the second chapter of this fic. Also, I have no self-control. Anyways!

Once again obligatory disclaimer this is characters not people, don't ship real people, etc.

Chapter Title: over snow and winter's morn

Chapter Wordcount: 3203

Content warnings: more discussion of death, also quite a bit of Scott being a bit of a dick. He's going through it, besties.

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Chapter 1

Actual fic under the cut:

Jimmy doesn’t get a chance to return the ring any time in the next few weeks. Scott must have told Katherine that he visited, since she doesn’t come to bother him about it, and every time Jimmy tries to go to Rivendell, something gets in the way. Demon attacks, urgent business in his empire, once even Scott’s own guards turning him away. Apparently Scott is a ‘busy elf’. Jimmy doesn’t doubt he is, but he also doesn’t doubt that Scott’s actively trying to avoid him. Scott is a petty man, ultimately, and Jimmy knows this, used to love it like he loved all his husband’s flaws, all his imperfections that were perfect to Jimmy. Now, though, it just hurts that Scott’s turning that pettiness on him.

Finally, something changes. Jimmy gets an invitation (in person!) from one of his closest allies; Lizzie wants to hold a ball, and she wants as many people as possible to come. It will be fancy and formal, with dancing and politics and all the things Jimmy’s just a bit awkward with, but he is an extrovert at heart, and well...Scott will be there, as Lizzie warns him.

“I know you and him don’t really get on, so I get if you don’t want to come. I really hope you will, though, it’s going to be a fun night!”

Jimmy nods. “I’ll be there! I need to talk to Scott anyways, actually, got to return this ring to him. It’s important, I think.”

“Gotcha! See you there,” Lizzie says with a broad smile. Jimmy appreciates that she doesn’t ask any questions about the ring, especially given that it’s the one thing holding together his emotional state right now.

And that’s how he finds himself frantically searching for something fancy enough to wear to a formal ball, wishing he’d had the forethought to plan for this a bit better. Scott would have planned, he thinks, would have had an outfit laid out for each of them and the time it would take them to get there exactly calculated.

He shakes that thought off, settling for a green tunic with copper accents. It’s not the most elegant thing in the world, especially when you take into account the slime that’s dripped onto it, but it’ll have to do. It’s representative of his empire for sure, and the copper is a nod to his ally. It’s good enough, and that’s what matters, Jimmy thinks.

Lizzie greets him when he enters the ballroom, smiling widely with her new fiance by her side. “Jimmy! Glad you could make it!”

“Yeah, yeah, I did make it! Here I am!” The smile he gives her is genuine; he likes Lizzie. She's fierce and kind all at once, the best kind of ally.

Joel offers him a brief wave, which Jimmy happily returns before Lizzie drags him off to chat.

“So, heard from a little birdy you’ve actually been visiting Scott,” Lizzie says, a grin like the cat that got the bird on her face.

“As a favor to Katherine,” Jimmy quickly clarifies.

She nods. “She did say that, yes. She also said she heard about the visit from Scott himself.”

Jimmy hates himself a little for being pathetic enough to ask “What did- did she say what he said? Was he talking about me?”

“She didn’t say exactly, but he seemed ‘shaken up’, apparently...and a little wistful.”

“Oh, no. Lizzie, no.”

“Say, why did you have his ring?” She’s still grinning, a little more evil this time.

“It’s a long story!” Jimmy blurts, and flees. How’s he supposed to say ‘oh we were married on a server where we thought we were going to permanently die and then we respawned here and now Scott’s refusing to talk to me because the grief over my last death is slowly killing him’ tactfully? There’s just no way to do it! Nice one, Jimmy, now she thinks you’re in love with him or something, he thinks ruefully. Not that he isn’t- wasn’t. Wasn’t. Scott’s made it very clear that he and Jimmy are through.

Still, even with his depressing thoughts, the ball is pretty okay. No one’s gotten assassinated, there haven’t been any demonic appearances, Lizzie’s already showing off her engagement ring, and he’s pretty sure Joey’s going off about how hot demons are. It’s a decent party, by empires standards.

Scott makes an appearance some twenty minutes or so later, stepping into the ballroom with typical elven grace. He’s not a very elven elf, as he once told Jimmy, short and sarcastic with a love for mortals, but he still looks twice as elegant as everyone else in the ballroom. The shakiness in his step from a few weeks ago seems entirely gone, and for a minute, Jimmy’s heart leaps in hope. Maybe he’s getting better?

Well, only one way to find out. Jimmy swallows the complicated knot of emotion in his chest as he crosses the ballroom, coming to an ungraceful stop in front of Scott. Up close, the elf looks worryingly pale, and there are dark circles under his eyes. He looks like a strong breeze might sweep him away.

“Lord Codfather,” Scott greets.

“Elvenking,” Jimmy returns, dipping his head a little. Look, Scott, he can be formal too, alright? “Care for a dance?”

Scott stares for a long moment before giving a single nod. “I suppose I wouldn’t mind.” He takes Jimmy’s outstretched hand in his own gloved one, letting Jimmy put a hand on his waist as they start into a simple waltz.

Now, Jimmy is a terrible dancer, and he’s not too proud to admit it. He steps on Scott’s feet, gets off-rhythm once or twice, and nearly crashes them straight into Lizzie and Joel. But despite their current status as enemies(ex-spouses?), Scott says nothing about it. He’s silent, in fact, seemingly caught up in the music. There’s something wistful about his expression, something soft and gentle hidden under his icy facade. If Jimmy tries hard enough, he can almost pretend that the two of them are back in 3rd life, dancing under the stars, and Scott is looking at him like he’s the most precious thing in the world.

The illusion is shattered, however, by how heavily Scott is leaning on him by the end of the dance. He’s unsteady on his feet, grip like iron on Jimmy’s hand and shoulder. Though Jimmy can’t feel his hands though the gloves, when he brushes against Scott’s arm, it’s still a little too cold to be entirely right.

The music slows and then pauses before the next song, and they head for the edge of the dance floor.

“Thank you for the dance, Codfather,” Scott says. He steps away, face falling back into the emotionless facade so quickly it’s hard to be sure the tender expression of a moment before wasn’t a dream.

That’s the final straw for Jimmy’s fragile self-control. “Can we please stop acting like we don’t know each other?”

“What else do you want from me?” Scott snaps back.

“I- something! Anything! Just acknowledge that I exist, won’t you?”

“Acknowledging you exist doesn’t mean I’m still in love with you, you know.”

“I know,” Jimmy says, a little softer, a little bitter. “I know, trust me. I just want you to stop- to stop hurting yourself to try and avoid pain!”

“That’s not what I’m do-”

“Then what are you doing? Enlighten me, o wise elf!” They’ve kept their voices low enough, but people nearby are still starting to stare at them. Jimmy can’t bring himself to care. “You told me it would destroy you to lose me, but you’re losing me now by pushing me away!”

Scott’s expression is pained for a moment before he covers it with a glare. “I’m trying to do what’s best for the both of us, Jimmy.”

“No you’re-”

“I am an elf, and I cannot love a mortal. Humans are quick flames, burning and changing quickly. You’ll fall in love again, and you’ll forget me. There will be a mortal who loves you- I’m sure there are many already.”

“But I don’t want a mortal,” Jimmy protests. “I want you.”

“You can’t have me.”

“But why? Why, Scott?” His voice breaks, embarrassingly enough. “You said you loved me, you promised me all the time we’d be able to- to carve out, to steal from the universe.”

“I can’t give you that!” Scott snaps. “You’ll live sixty more years, maybe, a fraction of my life, a blink of an eye to an elf, and I can’t even give you that long! Not when I have to be the elvenking before anything else. Nothing I can do will ever be enough for you.”

“Enough for me? For ME? All I want is for you not to die to your own dumb plan and acknowledge my existance once in a while!”

“And all I want is for you to realize I can’t love you again!”

“Why can’t you care about me?”

“Why can’t you move on?” Scott counters.

“You’re not moving on, you’re just trying to forget!” Jimmy shouts.

In the silence that follows, he realizes that most of the ballroom must have heard the end of their little lovers’ quarrel. In fact, Lizzie’s somehow appeared next to him, laying a hand on his arm.

“Is everything alright, boys?” Her tight smile says that they will most certainly get kicked out of the ball if they continue this, and Jimmy can’t blame her.

“My apologies, Ocean Queen,” Scott says, switching to a formal tone with ease that Jimmy envies. He dips his head in respect, and only Jimmy sees how his hands tremble. “Everything is alright, but I am afraid I will have to leave early.”

She smiles again, dangerous this time. “No need to worry, Lord Smajor. Do try to avoid picking fights with my allies, next time, though.”

“It won’t happen again,” he promises, and sweeps away.

“Coward!” Jimmy shouts after him, anger making him bold. “You’re a coward, Scott!”

“Stop it,” Lizzie scolds. “You’ve already made quite the scene, and I did essentially kick him out. I’m not sure how much further you really want to carry it.”

“He is though, Lizzie, he’s a coward! Doesn’t want to face me because that means facing- well, facing everything that’s happened!”

“What do you mean, everything that’s happened?” Lizzie turns to the gathered audience of people who have been watching the spat, shooing them off as best as possible. They slowly disperse, thank goodness. “You and he are enemies, right?”

Jimmy almost winces. “It’s a bit- it’s a bit more complicated than that.”

“I can see that. Jimmy, that looked like a messy breakup!”

“It, um, well, it was. Sort of.”

“Oh, Jimmy.” Lizzie’s giving him a sympathetic look, which she follows up with a tight hug. “Next time, how about we don’t invite him?”

He nods against her shoulder, rage leaving him as quickly as it came. Instead, he just feels...tired. “Thanks, Lizzie.”

“Of course. We look after each other, yeah?’

“Yeah.”

Jimmy leaves the ball exhausted, still reeling from everything that happened. The few lingering bits of anger are what gets him home, a bitter taste in his mouth from the bitter words he spat. Coward! You’re a coward, Scott! He refuses to regret them.

Scott’s ring nearly ends up in the swamp again, but Jimmy’s cooled down enough by the time he gets back that he can’t bear to throw it away. Instead, it goes in a box which he tucks into his old storage chest, somewhere he’ll never have to see it again. Scott can go to hell if he wants the ring back after all that.

For a while, Jimmy’s plan to tuck the ring and never think about Scott again seems to be working. Lizzie visits a few times to check on him, but she never asks specifically about Scott, and Jimmy doesn’t say anything about him. He receives radio silence from Rivendell, and he tells himself that it’s good, that he doesn’t want to hear from Scott.

So yes, his plan is working, up until he gets a knock on his door and opens it to find Scott there.

The elf looks terrible, frankly, almost worse than he did at the ball. His hair, which is usually so nicely done, is a mess, cyan strands falling all across his face. His clothes are wrinkled and have swamp mud on them, his eyes have dark circles as violent as bruises, and he’s swaying a tiny bit. In short, he looks like he didn’t sleep for a week, chugged coffee, and fought god in a denny’s parking lot.

Jimmy thinks he’s kinda hot.

No, he doesn’t. Fake news, brain.

“Hi,” Scott says.

“Scott? What- why are you here?” Jimmy’s voice rises, in shock or outrage even he doesn’t know.

“I came to apologize.” Though he looks like he’s going to pass out at any second, Scott’s voice is steady. “I was scared- I am scared. I’m terrified to lose you again. But I shouldn’t have pushed you away and hurt you.”

“No, you shouldn’t have!” Jimmy snaps, but there’s little real rage behind it.

“I know. I- uh- fuck.” Scott’s hands are shaking as he pulls out a little box from some hidden pocket. “I brought a gift as an apology.”

Jimmy takes it, curious despite himself, and finds that what’s inside is a silver bracelet with little crystals embedded in it. Flowers are the predominant design; he recognizes roses, hyacinths, irises, anemone, and poppies. On the underside, there’s elven lettering, though Jimmy has no clue what it says. The whole thing is a little clumsy, not quite as professionally made as the ring Scott once gave him, and Jimmy looks up at Scott. “Did you make this yourself?”

“Mhm. I did my best, but it’s not as nice as I’d like.”

“It’s pretty,” Jimmy says.

Scott’s shoulders slump with relief. “It’s spelled, too. Protection, good fortune, that sort of thing.”

“Do the flowers mean something?”

“They do.”

Jimmy doesn’t press for details.

“I-” Scott starts again, a tremble in his voice that wasn’t there before. “I’m sorry, Jimmy, I really am. I won’t ask you to forgive me, but I needed to apologize before my time ran out.”

“Is it that- that dire?”

The barest nod. “This is what I chose to do with it. Making that, coming here. You deserved an apology.”

There’s a moment of awkward silence, Jimmy staring down at the bracelet.

Scott breaks it. “It wouldn’t be fair of me to ask you to love me. I can’t promise you eternity. I can’t promise you happiness. I can’t promise you that I won’t have to be the elvenking first and a husband second. But I am yours still, if you’ll have me.”

A part of Jimmy is very tempted to throw both Scott’s gift and his love back in his face. He can’t bring himself to stay mad, though, not when Scott’s looking at him like that, with so much raw vulnerability. So much devotion, like Jimmy’s the most precious thing he’s ever seen. It would be so, so easy to break that last strand of fragile hope in his expression; he’s offering up his heart on a silver platter, ready to shatter. Jimmy could- should- yell at him, reject his gift, tell him that he’s ruined any chance he has at Jimmy’s love.

Jimmy kisses him instead. It’s messy and it’s sudden and he very nearly drops Scott’s gift in the swamp in his haste to tangle his hands in Scott’s hair and press their lips together, but it’s real.

The little startled noise Scott makes gets cut off by Jimmy’s mouth on his. Scott’s lips are chapped and taste a little of glowberries, but Jimmy doesn’t care. He’s going to kiss his damn husband, something he thought he was never going to get to do again.

When they finally have to separate, Scott’s breathing hard, cheeks flushed. It’s a good look on him, Jimmy thinks, much more alive than his pale, rigid expression from before.

“So, I’ll take that as you want to stay married?” Scott’s voice is wry, collected, but his blush ruins the smooth effect.

“Of course I do! You absolute idiot!”

“Just checking.”

Jimmy kisses him again, just to shut him up. Scott goes with it easily, leaning into Jimmy’s embrace without complaint.

They pull apart quicker this time, and Jimmy holds the bracelet out. “Can you help me put this on?”

Scott nods. His hands are cold against the skin of Jimmy’s wrist when he fastens the clasp, but Jimmy grabs them and holds them in his own warm ones until they don’t feel quite so much like ice. It’s something. It’s a beginning.

“Come in and catch up with me?” Jimmy offers.

Scott nods again, and he doesn’t let go of Jimmy’s hand when Jimmy turns to go inside.

They talk about a lot of things. Empires, 3rd life, nightmares. Pufferfish, cake, flowers. They talk about the trials and tribulations of ruling; really, Jimmy complains that people keep attacking him and Scott nods in sympathy.

Eventually, though, the sun is starting to set.

“I need to get home,” Scott says. “You need sleep, not to stay up all night talking.” He goes to get up, and Jimmy immediately lunges, catching his sleeve.

“Don’t go! Please,” he adds, feeling his face flush at how desperate he sounds.

“Jimmy, darling, we both need to sleep.”

“We can sleep! I just….nevermind.”

“No, no.” Scott kneels back down, peering at him like Jimmy’s a puzzle that needs solving. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.”

“Jimmy.”

“I don’t want to be alone!” Jimmy blurts, and immediately flushes again. “It’s just, I’ve been alone for a long time, and there’s this demon thing that keeps showing up, and I’ve only just got you back, I’m not ready to let you go, and-”

“Hold on. What was that about a demon?”

“There’s this demon creature that I keep seeing, and it’s really messing with me,” he manages. “It sounds like you, sometimes, but all distorted, and I can’t handle it! You know me, I’m not brave or smart or anything, I’m just Jimmy!”

Scott’s frowning, worry wrinkling his brow. “Alright. How about you come to Rivendell for the night, then? I can protect us both easier there.”

Jimmy nods, feeling especially pitiful as Scott helps him to his feet. “Thank you.”

“Always. Do you still have the ring I gave you?”

“I do, I just….give me a moment to remember where I put it.”

“Good. It’s important.” Scott doesn’t elaborate, and Jimmy is too distracted looking for the ring to ask what he means.

Scott’s offer of protection feels flimsier when he has to lean on Jimmy as they travel back to Rivendell, but even then, it’s impossible to feel quite so afraid now that Jimmy isn’t alone anymore. And it’s even harder to fear anything that could happen when he’s safe in a warm bed, his head tucked against his husband’s chest. They’ll be okay, Jimmy thinks. They’ve been given another chance, and this time they’re going to get it right.

#scott smajor #jimmy solidarity #empires smp #my writing

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vivalavillain · 2 years

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Jessica Jones

{While we’re on the subject of love and obsession, I’d like to take a moment to sort out how and where exactly Jessica fits in Kilgrave’s mind. This could be considered triggering for some given their history, so I’ll leave it under a ‘Read More’ and tag it just in case.

{I would like to clarify now, before we get started, that I personally DO NOT, under any circumstances, ship Kilgrave with Jessica. I will never seek to ship with a Jessica and I will never expect any sort of genuine forgiveness (as he deserves none) or positive, fluffy interactions with a Jessica. Their relationship is toxic as hell, even in the best of circumstances, and I will not write it as any less. Kilgrave does, however, still view himself as a man in love with a desire to return to ‘the old days’ with Jessica and while I don’t personally ship them, HE certainly does and has no qualms attempting to make things up between them, however ill-fated those attempts may be. If you write a Jessica with Kilgrave, please do not hesitate to crush this man’s hopes and dreams (and possibly his skull).}

For most of the series, Kilgrave believes himself to be in love with Jessica Jones. To him, she is the quintessential ‘one who got away.’ He goes to great lengths to find her, keep track of her, and engage in her life in subtle (and, at times, not so subtle) ways so that he can feel some sort of closeness or attachment to her, even when he’s not directly taking part in her day-to-day life. He wants for nothing more than her to reciprocate his affections and return to his side. He simply cannot wrap his head around the idea that she would hate him when, in his mind, he never did anything wrong.

When it becomes clear that she has no interest in him and is actively trying to put an end to him, he still clings to the idea that he might have a chance with her if only he could get his powers to work on her again. She is his every motivation after meeting her and his literal foil in every way, to the point that she even moves him to be something resembling a better person when pushed. He would do anything if it meant she would so much as tolerate him, but mostly he would do anything to have her under his powers again.

#but also #Jack speaks.#This post details how Kilgrave feels about Jessica #and as such vaguely references their history together.#In the event that this is triggering #please do not read under the Read More.#Headcanon - Kilgrave

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phoebelovingcare · 2 years

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Love/s how apparently it’s a thing that I’m a liar and a troublemaker, but only, ONLY to people who frequently interact with one specific person who’s saying that about me. I’m genuinely sorry if I’ve caused any problems, but just so that everything is out there, here is a summary of every. ugh. “””””””drama””””””””” I’ve gotten myself into. And for the record, I hate calling it drama, because “fandom drama” is “oooo shipping war” or “oooo conflicting lore piece”, NOT “hey this person just insulted me to my face? i don’t really wanna talk to them anymore”:

- Had a conflict with Mako regarding his choice of ships, among other things. This included me having a public conversation with a certain someone else I have blocked, who was ignoring the message a post was sending by stating she didn’t understand the terms used and cracking jokes, so I painstakingly pointed out every red flag and term pertaining to proshipping - that Mako had used - to say that, quote, “this is a dangerous person.” I do regret my wording, and I’d initially planned a long, heartfelt apology, until it came out that Mako was block-evading and consistently posting about stuff my friends and I had to say. Another conflict occurred in which I actually spoke to Mako for the first time and apologized for my actions while clarifying what upset me about his, we both agreed to a ceasefire and I left him unblocked for the purposes of open communication and abiding with requests, such as asking my own following to leave him alone and deleting certain posts, all of which I followed through with. Despite everything being cleared up between us, Mako continues to post that I am a liar and will belittle any who anger me. Mako, if you’re reading this, and I’m sure you are given the previous statement, I want to remind you that you said you’d stop throwing names around. I’m sorry for what happened, but this is creating a huge rift and tons of unnecessary conflict across the board.

- Had a conflict regarding a pair of fellow mage sister lovers, in which I had some distaste for the tone of their writings, which I set aside in favor of trying to educate on avoiding racism, ableism, and transphobia in ones content. At some point during this conflict I had joined a roleplay server of theirs and asked a question that resulted in a lot of panic and discomfort - I left, and returned a day or two later. I was asked not to bring up the incident again, however I did privately ask one of the two what exactly I did to trigger this episode in hopes of avoiding the issue in the future. I will admit I still do not understand exactly what went wrong that night, but the person I spoke to admitted that I may be at risk to be triggered as long as I stay in that server, so I apologized and took my leave again. Since then, I spoke to the other party on a few occasions. On one, they had made some concerning posts regarding their own health, so I checked up on them in an attempt to comfort them in a panic, and when they shrugged off my attempts to solve the problem I frustratedly asked them if they were actually okay, to which they told me they were. After a few more conversations, I realized I was so stressed, from this incident and another I will be getting to, that I blocked the both of them and took a long break from online interactions. Today, I am comfortably in a server with the two of them, and while things were slightly tense at the beginning, I am under the impression that we are on friendly terms now, which is why I do not intend to give their names - they’re much younger than I am, and I understand my attempts to help and teach may have done more harm than good in the moment. If either or both of you are reading this, keep up the amazing work, I’m proud of how far you’ve come and I hope you can forgive me for my missteps.

- While in the middle of the previously stated conflict, I got into several scuffles with rolli-zolli, mostly taking place over another discord server. Both of us were moderators, however I was under the impression that Zolli didn’t trust me, taking every opportunity to strip me of my status and an attempt to kick me from the server altogether. This was claimed to be a joke and, while not comfortable with it, I accepted it as such and had a long talk with Zolli regarding it, as well as an incident between myself, Zolli, and a different mod. During this, Zolli led with a statement that made me feel as though we’d get nowhere fast - she implied that the server admin, one of my, if not THE closest friend I have, was wrong to trust me, which was very upsetting and was something I brought up to that friend immediately for reassurance and comfort. From there, things spiraled further out of control - I left the server, but my admin friend kept me updated on the comings and goings, including instances of Zolli critiquing other’s headcanons with no regard for how they felt or if they wanted said critique, disregarding and disparaging tone tags despite most if not all of the server members making use of them, and even making a blatantly ableist remark towards the admin. I tried to reach out to Zolli again, confronting her about her cruelty, which I feel didn’t get either of us anywhere, besides her most likely having a worse opinion of me. She was given an incredible amount of second chances, and an even greater amount of excuses, but I will no longer tolerate her in my space. Zolli, if you’re reading this, I’m sorry for the stress you were under but that level of pettiness and aggression isn’t one I can support. And to any friends of hers reading this, of which I know there are many, I hope she treats you better. I hope she’s genuinely kind to you.

- If you consider my opinion on magecest ships to be drama or a reason to call me aggressive or petty, block me and never talk to or about me ever again. Nobody should ever need a reason to despise an incest relationship, but if it makes you feel better about yourself /s, I’m a survivor.

This is everything spelled out on the table. Everyone I see calling kirblr a garbage fire or a drama filled mess I plain-and-simple do not trust, due to the simple fact that the only people saying that Kirblr sucks are the people who did the harm in the first place, or people who associate with them. I’m not a liar for being upset that someone is aging up young characters for adult ships, or being upset about racism, or being upset about, y’know, being insulted. This isn’t a drama-filled hellhole, you’re just spending too much time around the people who make other people upset. The only drama here that was public was Mako’s. If you think of me as someone who starts drama, then I think you should know that between the two of us, one of us was saying “this person was mean to me” and the other is saying “this person did something I consider morally reprehensible and I tried to clear the air but failed so I have them blocked now and I get uncomfortable when they’re brought up”

Opinions aside, I hope you guys can forgive me for any trouble I may have caused - I’ve been on Tumblr for years and only in 2020 did I ever actually start making content for a fandom, and while I’m happy to be here writing and drawing, I’m not happy that all this keeps happening.

I’m saying all this because I want it to stop. So badly. More than anything. I can’t go on tumblr anymore without finding out that another Kirby blog is talking to Mako or Zolli and then oh look, now I’m being vagueposted. I try to extend kindness to everyone, and I’m sorry that in some aspects I have failed at this, but I don’t want any more of this. No more.

#pheb speaks #negative #this is all just a stream of thoughts and text #the goal was to be completely objective the whole time but its really hard to say #''stop dragging me into your drama'' without sounding upset or demanding about it #i dont want to talk about any of this but if youre really really desperate i can get screenshots

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