Q: As a poet, which performance place do you like to recite your poems?
In the beginning ...
… it really came down to which location had the best acoustics, since more often than not you’re trying to perform while a dozen different background noises do their best to drown you out. Book shops (the photos on the left were taken at Schuler's Books) were better than cafes and their espresso machines that would make the most horrific noises every time someone ordered a coffee. The Milan train station, on the other hand, while having fabulous acoustics was a hopeless cause since the audience clearly didn’t come here to listen to a lisping American read poetry in English. They were more concerned about getting to their trains and I was simply one more obstacle in their way.
I would say that the most interesting place I’ve preformed, so far, is at the sacred temple, Garni, dating back to pre-Christian Armenia.
I don’t actually have a whole lot of photos of myself performing; partly because we didn’t have camera phones back in the 1980s and early 90s but mainly because the friend of mine who did bring his camera wherever he went has since passed on and I had other things on my mind besides asking, “I know you’re actively dying but could you get your hospice nurse to look around your office and see if you have any photos of me?” Whatever photos he did take have long since vanished from this earth.
… and yes, in the last photo this is what Alcohol Bloat looks like. It would be several years after this photo was taken in the Muskegon public library (again, great acoustics) before I started Recovery and AA.
I’m a little unsure whether last week’s post went through, but I will continue where I left off. I’ve been trying to focus on reading for my university assignments now I have the bones of the writing down. I honestly feel like I have a year’s worth of writing that I need to do in the next month. I’ve tried to use Trello to manage it, but I’ve slipped behind some deadlines already and some of the…
Greenwashing, history washing - let's start on cruelty washing, today.
Animal welfare stops, for some reason, when one has no voice. If you can’t scream, you feel no pain – apparently.
Ask an angler.
Sport
Unwind, sport underlined, but ill defined,hanging on a line.Yeh! Call it sport!After all, it's only partial pain As the line winds and unwinds.Excruciating covers it - just.If evolution had given meA vocal cordyou'd hear screamsAnd animal rightlers wouldPut…
The feeling comes back, somehow unexpectedly. Like the buds of a naked tree branch, once stripped and ashen, now covered in sores and sap.
The feeling comes back even though we had long accepted its barren wood. Our chins grown sweaty from our palms’ caress, the jaw gone slack from staring. The window pane’s film becoming part of my natural world.
The exact day of its return can never be known. Like the groundhog who looks anywhere but the eye of the camera, who sees his shadow stretch oblong, disappointing us. I was once a young girl with her empty easter basket, ripping the hay apart in fistfuls, eager. Finding nothing and nothing and nothing.
Now that the feeling has returned, I have forgotten the weight of my solitude. It feels nice and warm and lazy. I’ve grown weak as the fetus of our love feeds from our blood. I don’t realize how quickly this leeching can starve me.
I am burrowed in my hideaway. They are cheering and coaxing me to the light. How do I tell them that I can’t stand the shiny white beneath me? I can’t bear to see their faces as the smile lines melt and wet my skin.
In my cave, I am bathing in shadow. They hate that, I know, but this is what makes me sleep safely.
I’ll stay one more night, I think. I’ll hear my own pulse applaud for me.
For the first time ever, I posted one of my performance poems to my literary/cycling blog. Based upon the San Ardo road race in the Salinas Valley, CA. May I suggest when you read it, to add emphasis to the words/phrases followed by an exclamation point.
I've be an reading up on John Cooper Clarke, a "punk poet" who has done performance poetry since the 70's. He was on an episode of 8 Out of 10 Cats Does Countdown, where he wrote a poem specifically for the occasion and it really spoke to me.
I have two favourites of the poems I have read so far, for very different reasons. A Distant Relation is amazing because it really captures the pressure of dealing with extended family, something I understand first hand.
Charles Bukowski, "Hurry Slowly" // uquiz by VoteforDaffy // @ka3l // Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov // Soozey Lipsey, 'Your Show Must Go On'
brand new city by mitski // i, tonya (2017) // jennifer’s body (2009) // black swan (2010) // euphoria (s2 ep7) // regarding the röttgen pietà by elle emerson // femme bougie by gérard lartigue // fleabag // a taxi by euginiya dudnikova // shame is an ocean by mary lambert