#personal demons

[thefuchsianeko]

Putting together all the Psychonauts art I've done for Inktober over the years... my second favorite video-game.

Fun fact about the Loboto drawing, it was originally sketched years ago for an unfinished monthly challenge (along with Doviculus here) and I only found it now, never posted it though. Since I've been messing around with using brush and ink, I decided to add some greytones to it, along with touching up the lines with a small brush pen and white gel pen. The paper was NOT made for that lol, but it still worked and I love how it turned out.

#drawing #doodle #sketch #sketchbook #inktober #pen and ink #fanart #fan art #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #pn2 #pn #dr loboto #linda the lungfish #raz #razputin aquato #the butcher #bad ideas #personal demons #veez art

[lux-scriptum]

GUYS GUYS I WROTE FOR MY ACTUAL NOVEL TONIGHT

#personal demons #alice #aalis #nanael #my writing #alice baby ur doing so good #even if ur body is falling apart as u speak #we'll get u patched up soon prommy

[liminalflares]

David Ho

Candice Unleashes Her Demons

#Art #Digital Art #David Ho #Crows #Personal demons

[valerieblogsalot]

I have the coolest concept for a ww thing, like draw yourself with your own personal demons aka yourself as a hellmaiden , to spread awareness of trauma and mental health issues , Like if you’re a guy, you’d have female demons and if you’re a girl, male demons , but if you’re trans , non-binary, etc you can do whatever you want 🙂

#wendell and wild #personal demons

[basicallyanotherwitchesthing]

David Bischoff, Richard D. Brown  and Linda Richardson - A Personal Demon - Signet - 1985 (cover illustration by Tom Hallman)

#witches #pentagrams #professors #conjuries #occult #vintage #personal demons #david bischoff #richard d. brown #linda richardson #tom hallman #signet books #a personal demon #demons #1985

[redbeardgeo]

#personal demons #demons #demons everywhere

[ribcageteeth]

#come vibe with me #personal demons #rufus rex #creature feature

[danskjavlarna]

Separated at Birth?

Our custom widget that checks for duplicated images suggested this unlikely pairing. See the original post for photo source details.

Wondering about this post? Wait for the dissertation (TBA). For now: Weblog ◆ Books ◆ Videos ◆ Music ◆ Etsy

#dark shadows #personal demons

[hazbinbossbrainrot]

Demons - Imagine Dragon

Relationship: Situationship

Inspiration: “Truth Seekers”

Who: Blitz Buckzo

#things have to get worst before they get better #personal demons #imagine dragons #stolas x blitz 🏳️‍🌈 #i couldn't resist #helluva boss #stolitz #sad but true #pansexual #demons #Spotify

[lux-scriptum]

My casts are so large I feel like a conspiracy theorist every time i try to explain how its all connected. Like. I need you to understand. Lev is dating Fax. Fax is Sorins cousin. Sorin is dating Cyrus. Cyrus is friends with Angela. Angela is part of the hybrid fam, including Amara. Amara is Lev’s (distant) cousin. Also in the hybrid fam is Baz. Who is dating (Gabe)Riel. Riel is Michael’s brother. Michael is Silas’s father. Silas used to date, you guessed it. Lev. On TOP of that. Silas? Is Cadoc’s cousin. Cadoc is Aalis’ sister. Aalis? Dated Amara. It’s all connected and I’m losing my mind. I accidentally made a tower held together with delicate little gossamer threads of connection and removing any more characters makes it all fall down. I didnt even list all the connections this was just getting long.

#dragonmarked is just as complicated #there are also connections that are spoilers! #why do i do this to myself #??? #my process #personal demons

[independent-eljey]

16/03/2018

I feel awful, angry, unimportant. I feel like yelling and lying in bed, rolled up and clutching my knees or sth. Why , why , why the hell like this? I hate everyone right now.

- Hey, me. I am sure you didn’t yell and cry in bed that day. I don’t really remember but I am sure of it. You don’t allow yourself be weak -or more precisely what you think is weak - you are not allowed to cry unless there is a solid reason- apparently you being just sad is not enough. So I want to tell you - Yell, Cry, Get mad, Get angry, Let out your negative emotions, so you can feel at ease.

Frankly I am having a bit of difficult time too. You know how sensitive we are towards the subject called parents. So it’s still making me sad, angry, frustrated but I can not really talk to them.I need to find some way out, because all the emotions that all the untold words keep inside me are killing me.

#cleaninaoutmycloset #cleaningoutmycloset #my diary #personal demons #personal thoughts #personal #talking #talkin to myself

[mymomisdrunkagain]

Home has never been sweeter!

Welcome to my world! Hopefully, as I meander along, posting sporadically and probably unnecessarily, there will come a moment when these delightful little tales from my amazing life brighten someone's day out there... and, if not, well, i'm guaranteed fuel for even more stories so i can try again another day!

#americana #living my best life #blessed #moms #couch surfing #stuck #waking nightmare #san diego #therapy #venting #40 going on #alcohol addiction #addiction #alcoholism #12 steps #recovery #personal demons #family #drunk mother #woe is me

[ashleymih]

I was a fool to think I deserved this.

You’re the most incredible, smart, endearing, and thoughtful human being I ever met

The value of love and connection didn’t mean much to me until I met you…until I really met you.

I’m glad you’re in my life,

you taught me so much…

Most importantly to love not only others but myself.

How a difficult lesson for anyone in this world to learn.

Constantly comparing and pulling all the unwanted feelings and thoughts of the past…

About themselves,

Reaching deep within.

Don’t let the past define you, they would say,

Little do they know how I didn’t take that saying to heart.

My poor heart can’t console itself anymore.

I made a deal with the devil.

My life for your happiness.

How I would do anything to ensure that.

But if the circumstances were different,

Would you do the same for me?

Or am I the fool once again?

I’m no saint.

I want you to be happy,

have a wonderful life.

But I made a deal with darkness, remember?

In return I only ask for sincere and genuine love, appreciation, loyalty, security, and for once honesty

That’s all.

But I see I asked for too much…

How I retained my title of idealism and naïveté.

How much I want to show love and be loved back with a force if not equal or more to my own…

Do I really love in a way no one can match even if they tried?

I know the world can wore the heart but despite the ugliness,

My younger self can’t seem to let go of

What she thinks the world hasn’t given her,

What she rightly earns.

She deserved more…

No one understood,

Her feelings weren’t valid.

Her dreams were never really consider.

She was never enough,

Doing everything she was told in order to please everyone especially those she looked up to,

Too compliant with life’s ordeals,

Apologizing for everything and anything,

Love wasn’t given a chance.

Her individuality never existed.

Fear

Uncertainty

Worthlessness

Sense of belonging

Being able to love and be loved back

Self-Confidence

Appeasing everyone

Working way too hard

Being deserved

All for what?

What am I?

Why am I still here?

They shoved, forced, and destroyed

Everything I ever was

Who will I become after this treacherous storm that ceases to end?

You know what happens after years of a bad storm?

Nothing

No one talks about it,

I mean truly talk about it.

If you ever do hear anything…

You hear it’s end way too soon…

One little girl that got tricked by her monstrous thoughts.

A lifetime of hurt.

Made a deal with the devil to end it all.

For the pain and burden was too great to bear.

She could have one person or everyone by her side but her conviction and stubbornness

Often mistaken for strength and determination

Ultimately decided what happens.

Who is this little girl?

Crying alone in her long hallway of bad memories and thoughts?

Maybe you’ll hear about her…

Maybe you won’t…

It’s not too clear.

Do you want her to find a loophole in her life altering contract?

Stuck in a cycle,

Time ticks,

Tears hastily drop,

The beautiful sunset you always peer at…

Might be her grave sight one day.

But you won’t know,

No one talks about it.

This battle never ends, that’s the horrible and hard truth.

No where to run or hide,

She sits in the middle of the darkness.

How she managed to find the middle of what surrounds her,

No one knows,

Knees tightly clutched to her chest.

Shaking and hyperventilating,

This inner world is too brutal.

The strain of her heartbeats…

Aren’t strong as they used to be.

Have you ever heard of someone breaking a deal with the devil?

Neither have I,

there’s your answer

Forever chained to the depths of her swindling mind.

Time’s almost up.

I wondered who’s going to win.

It’s too close to tell.

Dissociating,

I’m watching the fight from the outside.

My mind’s eye,

Knows more than it seems.

Intuition,

This sinking feeling,

These callous thoughts.

Isn’t a good sign.

Her name is written in the sky,

The cloud’s fluffy complexion,

Reflects off the water of warm colors.

How the view is breathtaking this time of day.

All bets are off,

Loneliness seeps in,

Sadness of this magnitude is indescribable.

Before it’s too late…

Sit on the dock in front of the sunset,

and take a deep breath,

Where you’re sitting with your love ones,

At least you still have that luxury,

That no amount of money in the world could ever provide.

Don’t worry,

The deal is done.

Who won?

Who do you think?

Who did you bet on?

#my drawings #mental health awareness #mental health #artwork #art therapy #personal demons #original poem #poems on tumblr #poetry #trigger words #tw sui implied #tw sui talk #spirit work #writing #my writing

[murderouscatboymonday]

Line art, red and teal on dark teal. Lishae Vacker, a middle sized troll, steps over a threshold. He is holding a bag in one hand, and slams open a door with another. His smile is wide and grotesque, and blood drips down from the teeth forcing his mouth open. His hair is pulled back into a ponytail. Lishae's eyes are wide and staring straight at the viewer. He is wearing waders that are dripping blood onto the floor. In the bag is the head of a tealblooded troll. Her face is obscured.All that can be seen is her bloodstained hair, and her horns. One is broken off. Another horn sticks out of the bag. The bottom of the bag is lumpy and drenched in blood, suggesting further grim remnants.

Day 27; Personal Demons. wouldn't you love to have your personal demons taken care of?

#MCMgoretober #MCMart #lishae vacker #goretober day 27 #goretober #neon gore #eyestrain warning #personal demons #blood #gorecore #creepycore #fantroll #trollsona

[lilfortunecookie]

#retro aesthetic #lovers #personal demons #memories #Spotify

[36monthplan]

Day Zero

Tomorrow begins day one of my case study of the 36 month plan.

Over the last seven years of my life I employed inconsistent, disorganized effort towards my self improvement… and let the record shows that the results have been profoundly successful! Even with my waxing and waning level of dedication I have clearly come so very far. I’ve proven to myself that with effort change can come over the passage of time, even if one fails more than they succeed, as long as they continue to right their course time and time again. 

It was largely a battle fought upstream with many exhausted stints of being swept back to where I had already been once or numerous times before. It was probably harder than it needed to be to get from where I was then to where I am now but it was the journey I needed to walk to come to this point, with this particular set of life experiences, including knowing just how hard it can be to sustain the will to keep improving in the face of the variables that live will inevitably bring our way as time passes on.

But they say that every seven years every cell in your body has been fully recycled over so that you are a fully different human than the one that existed seven years priors. I believe that to be true both on the cellular and spiritual level. I am so completely different from the Lace who walked the Earth seven years ago, though I know on some level that person was me. I am so conscious of my ability to shape my own existence with focus and effort. It’s been proven to me in both positive and negative ways and so now that I enter this next phase of my life I wish to test a more firm and resolute theory. 

What if one was able to maintain a focused effort towards their self improvement and spiritual development for a period of three consecutive years? 

It is my belief that one can completely reform their entire way of existence for the better in ways they cannot currently even grasp. It is beyond both their current world view and sense of self, existing behind numerous paywalls that they also cannot even yet fathom, but in the end would be so profoundly worth it.

Why three years? In truth, because three is an important number. It is the Trinity number, significant in both religious and spiritual spheres, and is a long enough time to undergo numerous consecutive season cycles with conscious reflection of the prior ones also sustained in this focused state. It’s like going to college, but this time, the only subject is self knowledge. In essence, it’s probably about how long I actually spent out of the last seven actually focused on growth. The rest were lost to regressions, pain and severely hurtful lessons that I will gladly accept with humility now that I have the realization that my experience may save so many from the time wasted on the angsty back and forth that can ensue on a spiritual development path without stability in your focus. 

Pulled yourself open is some heavy stuff and doing so halfway and then leaving it that way can also be so additionally heavy stuff. I have a lot to say on all of this and we will have time to get to all of it because we are going to be together for a while if you decide to stick with me, and I sure hope you do because we are doing this for the sake of all of humanity. Every person that elevates themselves individually elevates us all collectively. It is the greatest act of love and compassion towards your fellow man to master yourself so that you may walk through the world as an example of an awakened soul. 

Three years together at least, I’d say. Not even accounting for laying the foundation and after care, we will have quite a long time to get to know one another. Thirty six months, one thousand and ninety five days. This time is going to pass no matter what you choose to do with it in life. If you’re on the fence about committing, consider that it is a long time no matter what but it is especially difficult to stay conscious without an external support system which is something that became clear to me over the last five years. I’ve been pulled and pushed from the path by only my own inner compass. As dedicated as I am to my personal growth I am also human, flawed and in truth, traumatized. I have strayed and been brought back, time and time again. I do believe that if it is someone’s life path to awaken it will happen eventually no matter what but we do get to choose how difficult this whole process is or is not. We can choose if we want to use our hammer to hit nails directly or make more holes in the wall first. 

If I had a companion with me as I wish for everyone in the world to have, it would’ve been a much easier road to walk, and I think my recognition for that also will lead to this producing a community for me as well that I am very much in need of after many years spent in isolation focused on my own growth. And so that is what brings me to this point. This is the birth of the creation of the 36 month plan. A guide and companion to help walk you through the path of healing, personal growth and development and an ability to overcome your vices and stand in your own power to live the life you have been sent here to experience.

It is a thrilling time to be alive at the birth of this new era of connectedness and spirituality. A global awakening is underway and those of us who have been armed with the knowledge of experience have a responsibility to shine our light outwards as a beacon for those who follow similar paths. I offer myself humbly to you as not only as a guide but a companion through the darkness. My eyes are attuned and my soul is awake. I am no complete being and I am very much still a student of this world however after seven years of committed devotion I have earned the right to say that I live my life on the permanent growth path and I invite and encourage you to do the same.

May you see the best version of yourself behind your minds eye tonight and may you recognize it as truth. You have the power to be exactly that which you envision, and your purpose for being is to overcome your hardships and enable yourself to attain it. The world is designed to hold you down and force you into servitude. Do not accept this fate. Force against any that seek to hold you down and rise up against them in full display of your strength, for you are a champion placed here by God and it is time for you to come into glory.

Lacey Tasty

9/24/23

#spiritual development #spirituality #spiritual awakening #spiritualgrowth #personal development #personal demons #overcome #complex ptsd #complex trauma