#religious vent

[yourbelgianthings]

christ in gethsemane, heinrich hoffman, 1886 / in corolla, the mountain goats

id: an oil painting of jesus, shown as a white man with long brown hair and a beard, kneeling with his arms resting on a rock and looking upwards, there is a gold halo around his head and text over the image in white says “I tried to summon up a little prayer as I went under, it was the best that I could do” end id.

#message from mirph #the mountain goats #ex catholic #ex christian #get lonely #religious vent #vent art

[onyx-got-clowned]

Tw religious vent, sui mentions, sh mentions

“God didn’t hurt you, the people did.”

why didn’t he answer my prayers. Why didn’t he try and interact with me in any kind of way.

“you probably didn’t try hard enough. You have to keep faith 24/7, and don’t ask for signs- that’s fake faith.”

i did, i fucking tried for 11 FUCKING YEARS. I KEPT FAITH EVEN WHEN THE CHURCH HURT ME, I KEPT FAITH WHEN I READ THE SCRIPTURES, I KEPT FAITH WHEN I STARTED TO HURT MYSELF, I KEPT FAITH AND NEVER SWORE, NEVER DRANK, NEVER DID DRUGS, NEVER DID ANYTHING TO TRY AND BREAK THE FAITH I HAD IN HIM.

I DID FUCKING TRY!!! I TRIED BUT WHEN I PRAYED FOR HOURS, TRYING TO GET ANY SORT OF SIGN AS TO WHY I SHOULD STILL BE HERE, BEFORE ATTEMPTING TO FUCKING KMS WHY SHOULD I KEEP FAITH?! HE DIDN’T DO SHIT FOR ME. I TRIED OVER AND OVER, RELENTLESS FAITH AND PRAISE TO HIM. AND YOU WANT TO TURN AROUND AND SAY ‘I DIDN’T TRY HARD ENOUGH’ ‘YOU TRIED TO ASK FOR SIGNS, YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE TO DO THAT.’ ‘KILLING YOURSELF ISN'T THE ANSWER, GOD WILL SEND YOU TO HELL FOR THAT.’

FOR WHAT GOD FORSAKEN REASON SHOULD I KEEP FAITH?! FOR WHAT REASON SHOULD I TURN AROUND AND ACCEPT THE MAN WHO DIDN’T EVEN SPEAK TO ME. EVERYONE ELSE I KNEW, EVERYONE GOT RESPONSES, LITERAL 6 YEAR OLDS GOT SOME SORT OF REPLY. WHY DIDN'T I?!

it hurts and is so confusing seeing people talk good about the Mormon church, how do you live so peacefully there? How do you stay comfortable knowing your seen as normal? Do they not stare at you? Comment about you? Do they show compassion? You have no fear of hell? You have no fear seeing those paintings on the walls? No second thoughts about joining?

I’ve noticed it actually, there’s a difference in experiences with people who grew up in the church, vs people who joined willingly. They are happier, accepted more, those who grew up in it either are well known and loved, or shoved to the side with the adults who take pity on them for not being normal enough to hangout with the other people.

#I’m allowed to be angry #An old Mormon friend of mine kept trying to give me reasons to not hate Jesus and god #IM NOT LISTENING TO YOU. #Religious trauma #religion #Religion vent #Religious vent #Exmo #Ex mormon #Onyx vents⭐️

[purpurrock]

Christians genuinely scare me sometimes. They're always talking about jesus's coming and how it's almost the end of the world.. I know it's coming from a bigoted point of view but it genuinely scares me. A teacher was once talking about how in revelations it talks about people being able to pay for things with their hands, and that he saw a video of people paying things with their hands, because they have their credit card chip things surgically placed in them. I don't know how to feel about these things. What if it's all real?

It's really scary, considering that we're near the end of the world. When I was younger, I had a Bible book that summarized some passages, and in revelations it talked about the end of the world. The sky would be red, the moon would be bleeding, there would be earthquakes and the ground would split as the sky would curl up like papers. And once it starts, it's too late to repent.

Its so worrying. it's not fair. The way my brain works, most of the time I struggle big time with being sure that the people around me are sentient human beings like myself and aren't just NPCs in my story. Yet I'm supposed to believe in an all knowing, all powerful, all loving God? One that supposedly outdated everything, has no beginning or end, created the world? One that's supposed to be all loving, yet he's all knowing and does so little? He watches as the innocent people in Palestinian are tortured and genocided, he watches as people are manipulated into cults, he watches as people are mentally, physically and sexually abused, even as children- hell, ESPECIALLY as children. He watched me grow up, feeling alienated from everyone else, like there was something wrong with me, he watched the abuse I endured, he saw how I felt and didn't even let me die? He sees the way the 1% controls the entire rest of the world, killing us slowly, and doesnt help us? He sees people like me, desperate to believe in some sort of savior, God, something- and doesn't even reveal himself to me? He doesn't even confirm his existence to me? Yet he does so to the people causing all the harm in this world?

I already know that if I were face to face with God, he'd hate me. Reject me completely. My beliefs, my morals, my personhood in general, God would hate me. God points to people like me and tells his real children that they are to never to be like me, that Im the furthest thing from him. It doesn't even matter because I'm so fucking stubborn that I can't even think there's a god without solid proof.

It's scary hearing Christians talk about the end of the world. They're so calm about it, like it's a fact of life and they're ready for it. Because they know God will love them and accept them. Because they aren't me.

#vent #religious vent #tw religion #christianity #toxic christianity #religious trauma #abuse #abuse mention #tw abuse #long vent #agonist

[coffeeoverchrist]

Christian anti-abortion arguments always make God look like a dick. So you’re saying a soul has one chance at life, one chance to live on earth, and then it’s off to Heaven, Hell, or Purgatory? And God can see everything, and knows everything that can and will happen? But he’s full of love, right? 

So then why the fuck does he put a soul in a ‘baby’ that he knows will die before it’s born?! That’s a horrible thing to do, denying a soul a chance at the only possible life it would ever get under his own rules. Don’t tell me the ‘the baby will be happy in heaven’ thing, that’s not the point. The point is a loving God wouldn’t intentionally put a soul - a helpless, innocent soul, one that cannot control its own fate - into a situation where it would be killed. 

Look, Christians and/or pro-lifers. Either you worship a loving god, or you don’t. You don’t get to pick and choose what he does to benefit you or the people you’re voting for. Either god loves everyone, including souls that he controls the destination of, or...

[also, don’t you dare clown on this post or come to me with your arguments. you should spend that time doing some self-reflection on why you believe this crap]

#oh wow I'm angrier about this than I thought #roe v wade #apostate #exvangelical #not even censoring this post like I normally do #fucking read it and weep Christians #you cry about so called dead babies while actual ones are abused in foster care and deny lgbt people the chance to adopt them #hypocrites! #religious vent #vent post #pro abortion #supreme court #christofascism #fuck pro lifers #fuck pro birthers

[local-limebug]

A Discussion on Christianity and Islam, and How Critiquing Said Religions is Perceived in the Western World: by a Queer Person Raised in a Muslim Country

DISCLAIMER: I do not mean to offend the followers of any religion. I myself am religious, albeit neither Muslim nor Christian, and understand the importance of religion. I do not mean to insult anyone.

So with this whole fiasco of "Anonymous Sudan" taking down AO3, I think people know by now that it was a ploy to get people to be islamophobic by making the world think they hate the LGBTQ+ community. And it got me thinking about my own experiences as a queer person oppressed under Islam.

Now, obviously, if you are a Muslim or Christian reading this, I want to say right here that if you are accepting of queer people, then this post is not about you.

I just want to discuss how often I see ex-Christians critiquing Christianity for how it is used as a tool to oppress marginalized communities, and how this discussion is normalized/destigmatized in Western circles. Critique of Christianity is unproblematic in the East too, as it's a critique of a foreign religion, so no one really cares.

However, as someone who has been oppressed under Islam, who has been told that I am going to hell for being queer and that the Qur'an forbids my existence, I feel very isolated that there is no platform to talk about my experience without being accused of islamophobia.

I'm not islamophobic. My two closest friends are devout Muslims. I got lucky enough to see the beauty of Islam through them, but that doesn't change the fact that I still was traumatized by the religion.

In Muslim countries such as mine, I could be imprisoned for making this post. People have been killed for less here. But I need to talk about how in any society where religion is considered to be the most important thing there is, people will be oppressed by that religion.

Christians did it in the West (and most of the world, thanks to colonization), but Muslims are doing this in many Eastern countries. And I hate that unlike ex-Christians, I cannot be angry at the God and His people that traumatized me without being accused of islamophobia.

I'm not going to pretend that I love Islam in its entirety. It has beautiful facets, but of course I harbour resentment towards the religion. Of course I am angry. I deserve to exist and I hate that this religion was forced on me the way that it was whilst I was growing up.

Again, I mean no hate to any Muslims. Many are actually amazing people. But many are not. I was suffocated by Islam growing up, and I have no space to talk about it on any platform, which is just further intensifying my resentment.

In conclusion, this whole disjointed rant was just a way for me to say that there needs to be a space for ex-Muslims to safely talk about their negative experiences with the religion. Americans call Evangelicals a cult, and it is in quite a similar vein that Muslims in certain countries are. Muslims in the East are intolerant of any discussion against Islam and Westerners accuse you of islamophobia the minute you start talking (or else they're right-wingers who want you to call Muslim people terrorists).

If any Muslim people want to contribute to the conversation, my DMs are open, my askbox is open, reply to this post, reblog, put in the tags, whatever. If you want to discuss this, please do. I would genuinely love to hear what you have to say.

#islam #christianity #christians #muslim #religion #religious discussion #queer #queer people #lgbt #lgbtq #religious vent #please interact #limebug's rantings

[harleythealter]

For a YEAR my mom has entertained this idea of me talking to a specific guy I met. And then suddenly when I ask her to contact his mom so I can get his contact #(we don’t see eachother often), my mom was just like… well you know we talked about in the car was your faith differences so… we should probably pray for awhile.

????

I don’t understand why she changed her mind??? We’ve talked about it a lot that I put faith at the top of my list and whoever I decide to marry, it’s important that we agree on our faith. And suddenly she just decides that a year of considering hanging out with this guy for a bit NEEDS TO BE PRAYED OVER.

IVE ALREADY GONE TO HIS CHURCH(decided it wasn’t for me).

And so I’m confused about why she changed her mind and I don’t get it.

Also. I’m confused as to why she thinks our difference of faith would be just cause to not talk to him. I don’t personally go around trying to convince people to join my faith but also we acknowledged that all religions have, in some sort of fashion, goals to multiply believers and idk why it’s not okay for me to suggest the idea that this guy can change his religion to know me/for us to date??? And if he doesn’t want to, that’s cool with me too.

But I’ve only met one other guy that’s got the most similar faith to me and I’m like???? But you also low key disapprove of me entertaining the idea of asking somebody if they’d agree with my faith more than theirs. So???? I’m fucked?

What’s so confusing is this is so unlike my mom and she just said. Let’s talk about this in the morning. Aggggggggh.

#harleythealter #religious vent #vent post #I don’t understand??????????????????

[whoisthisguyandwhyishehere]

I keep realizing how much being raised catholic has affected my view on the world and myself. Honestly so many deeply held beliefs i have are heavily informed by it which i didnt even suspect

#cw vent account #cw vent #vent #catholic #religious vent #im not catholic at all and dont enjoy the faith #so its quite shocking to discover these things #im glad i am though #also no offense to catholics cause i understand how important religion can be #its just negatively affected me

[kouse-1]

I feel like religious people need to know that you don't have to torture yourself and your family in order to be good.

Like yeah I know donating while you don't have money is good and all but sometimes it can be really extreme like forcing yourself in abusive relationship because divorce isn't an options. Or forcing your child to be patience with your self destruct mentality because you refused to go to therapy.

#vent #rant #trauma vent #religious vent #family trauma #trauma

[cum-angels-of-the-lord]

as much as i hate god, i love jesus as comfort. cuz look, god, hes terrifying. too much authority. but jesus? he was a kid at some point. i used to look up to him when i was a child and christian. like he got baptized and he preached at age 12. he loved all and even the sinners. like maybe he wouldnt have hated me. maybe he would have accepted me. idk about god, but maybe jesus would have. damn, i miss being a stupid kid praying to Nuestra Señora Guadalupe (Holy Mary, Mother of Jesus) instead of praying to the sky daddy and eventually hating myself for being depressed, gay, and trans/

#hamilducktrash #ex christian #ex religious #religious vent

[robotgirlfoxears]

hot take: maybe making kids afraid of going to hell is bad for their mental health and development

#vent cw #religious trauma cw #catholicism cw

[zentropyart]

a silly little vent comic about religious trauma

#religious trauma #childhood trauma #personal vent #vent comic #artists on tumblr #digital artist #digital doodle #original comic #art #expressive art

[samvents]

[ID text — i begged God to save me and he shoved more torment down my throat to keep me quiet]

#sam posts #childhood trauma #religious trauma #trauma #traumacore #ventcore #actuallytraumatized #actuallyptsd #childhood ptsd #vent post #trauma vent #actually ptsd

[fuckingwhateverdude]

1.16.24

#reading a fictionalized biography of mary magdalene and it's fucking me UPPPPPP #theyre ab to kill jesus 😔 #so cool i wish it was real #my writing #my writing tag #poetry #original poem #spilled ink #vent writing #religious imagery #religious symbolism #ex catholic #athiesm

[nothing0fnothing]

As a young girl in the church I was taught to "respect myself."

We were told it from every angle. Our teachers, our preachers, our parents. "As a woman you have to respect yourselves." "How can men respect you if you're not respectful of yourself?"

I'm not sure why an 11 year old girl needed tips on how to make men respect her, but they felt it was important nonetheless.

So I educated myself and spoke my mind. I wanted to be respected for how clever I was. I asked questions that were thoughtful and well reasoned, I corrected elders when they were wrong and I focused on knowing as much as I could.

They didn't like that.

So I put all that aside, and instead I learned about feminism. I decided I should be respected for how firm I was. I said no loudly and clearly. I made my boundaries known and I reacted loudly when they were crossed.

They didn't mean like that either.

So instead, I put myself in therapy. I wanted to be respected for how self assured I was. I started caring for myself and putting me first. I healed from my trauma and learned how to not repeat old cycles, and everyone who I could, I brought them up with me.

They didn't like that at all.

No, apparently the type of self respect they wanted me to learn was the type where I beleived lies at face value, said nothing to those who crossed my boundaries and wallowed in depression and toxic cycles. But also like, while keeping my shoulders covered or something.

Silly me.

#religious trauma #anti religion #vent post #toxic parents #childhood trauma #feminist #intersectional feminism #radical feminism #feminism #feminism is for everyone

[samanthawd]

maybe I'm the only sso player with religious trauma but "surrender your spirit to Aideen" is giving mmm no I don't think I will

#I know shes a goddess but yeah its just #fits in too well with my irl religious background which do I want to use as my oc's lore btw but like #the wording is just mm #sso #star stable #sso vent #ssoblr

[stormywinter42]

Okay time to vent

I hate the idea of coming out I hate it so much. The fact that you have to come out as ANYTHING only exists because of hate. Really you should never have to come out as anything. It should be like seeing someone wearing a sweater during the summer you think “oh they like sweaters” or “maybe they have temperature problems” or honestly most of the time you would literally not think anything of it. It literally does not matter you usually wouldn’t even notice. Seeing a guy kiss or hug another guy or a girl with an Adam’s apple or facial hair or someone who doesn’t feel any attraction should be the same way. It’s not just for queer stuff though. People have to come out as religious (or atheist) or neurodiverse or even just having a different political view. There’s no reason at all for this the only reason coming out is such a big deal or even something that needs to happen in the first place is the intense fear of rejection that comes with it. Rejection for something you can’t control. If the world wasn’t just constantly hateful nobody would have to come out it would be completely normal and nobody would care.

#vent #coming out #queer #lgbt #lgbtqia #pride #trans #transgender #aroace #aromantic #asexual #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #tw: homophobia #religion #religious trauma