just had something hot happened to me... i still struggle to feel the effects, but i was listeing to my usual audio on loop, and after a bit i got tired and meant to change to another.. so i started nogging myself to stop and change, but still stalling it a bit to see if i could make it work... then it came to my mind:
"if i can stop it whenever i want, why am i still listening to it?"
and the realization that maybe i didnt have as much control downed on me as i felt a rush of pleasure take me deeper suddenly... then i started a play of resistance, pretending i could still stop it, but as the clickers happened they slowly drowned that voice more and more, until it was nothing but relax and warmth and head empty.. it looped idk how many times more and it was... 🤤
unfortunately the effects wore off slowly and i finally stopped it, gonna try another audio now, and as per usual, not really a horny feeling but ill get there eventually <3
it was so gnhheeee to realize that even if very slowly i can break my mind bit by bit, to the point i wont be able to tell if im still playing pretend or not.
now i really wanna keep listenin to audios...until the next update, whenever that is
I always use the same earbuds to listen to audios, but sometimes I still listen to normal music, except, when I want to put them on for music I always feel hmmm about it, and I kinda want to not to put them cuz the urge to play audios instead might be stronger than i think.. I'm listening to music right now but damn.. the urge, and thinking about it... makes me a bit hard.. maybe... not the kind of conditioning I was expecting but making me a bit wet still😵💫