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#speaking of comic book stores i went for the first time in a couple months it was so nice to break my back looking through boxes again </3
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if we ever somehow happen to run into each other irl im going to make you watch les mis and stare directly at you every time something happens that i want to go into depth for 30 minutes about. stare at you with my autistic eyes. /threat my autistic eyes are powerful bro. the other day i got so excited about sash mentioning my hal obsession and i stared at her and then they choked on an ice cube
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Between Your Wings - Chapter 1: Supply Run
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Series Masterlist
Chapter 2
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x female reader x Rick Grimes (slow burn)
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Twenty-nine days.
Twenty-nine days since the world ended, and the dead came.
Twenty-seven days since you have lost your adoptive parents, Elliot and Olivia, in Atlanta.
Twenty-seven days since you've met two brothers, Merle and Daryl Dixon.
Twenty-five days since the three of you met other survivors and made together a camp outside the city.
Twenty-nine days since the world went to shit.
"Hey, find anything?"
You looked over to your friend, Glenn as he tugged on his backpack over his shoulder while walking toward you.
"Just a couple of comic books for Carl, and a couple of water bottles," you answered as you put the books in your backpack.
Since you made a camp outside the city, you volunteered to do supply rans for the group to grab some stuff from inside the city, and your new friend that you made at the first day at camp was Glenn, he volunteered to go with you.
So, the both of you would go to the city a lot, but this time you brought a few people along which you thought wasn't the best idea.
So, you all agreed that you and Glenn would look inside a few stores while the others would wait on top of the office building. While you were away from the camp, the kids in the camp, especially Carl, Lori's son, were watching over your puppy Max, an Australian Shepherd dog which you received from your father on your 21's birthday a month before the outbreak.
"What about you?" you asked, walking to the exit with Glenn. "Found something?"
"Just a couple of cans, oh, and got you this." You looked over and saw him digging into his backpack. He pulled out a sketch book, and you smiled as he held it out to show you. "Got you three more, and a couple of pencils and markers."
"You're the best," you complimented.
Glenn grinned as he put the sketch book back into his backpack, "I try," he said as he zipped his backpack.
Bang!
You both paused immediately when you heard gun shots. You glanced at Glenn and quickly stepped out. Glenn closed the door after you and you both ran to the staircase that leaded to an alley.
You peered over and saw a young man dropping from his horse and shooting around at walkers. "What's he doing?" you hissed.
Glenn didn't answer and you didn't expect an answer, both of you watched the man crawling under the tank. "What is he doing?" Glenn asked now.
"Dumbass," you muttered as you peered down and around nervously as walkers crawled around the now dead horse and the tank.
"Look, look," Glenn said as he tapped on your shoulder. You quickly looked back at the tank and saw the guy opening the hatch and shoot a walker near him before closing the hatch again. "What do we do?"  
"We got to help him," you said. You unzipped your backpack and pulled out your CB Walkie. "We can't just leave him like that."
"Can you connect it to the radio in the tank?" Glenn asked as you zipped the backpack and stood up, playing with the walkie.
"Let's find out," you muttered yet you were confident you could. A few seconds of silent and you got statics. "Guess my nerdy skills still handy, huh?"
"You didn't hear me complaining of your awesome skills yet, right?"  he said, and you felt your cheeks heating up by the compliment.
You cleared your throat before speaking into the Walkie, "Hey, you. Dumbass. Hey, you in the tank. Are you cozy in there?" There was no answer, so you tried again, "Hey. Are you alive in there?"
"Hello? Hello?"
You glanced at Glenn and spoke in relief, "Good, you had me wondering for a second, thought you were dead."
"No, I'm still alive. Where are you? Outside? Can you see me right now?"
"Yeah, I can see you," you answered as you moved around Glenn and stepped to the side, "You're surrounded by Walkers. That's the bad news."
"There's good news?"
You glanced at Glenn and then away, "...No."
"Listen, whoever you are, I don't mind telling you I'm a little concerned in here."
You frowned as you looked at the walkers, "You should see it from over here. You'd be having a major freak-out."
"Got any advice for me?" 
You looked at the area as you answered, "Yeah, I'd say make a run for it."
The man in the radio paused before speaking again, "That's it? 'Make a run for it'?"
You rolled your eyes and spoke, "My way's not as dumb as it sounds, you've got eyes on the outside here. There's one Geek still up on the tank but the others have climbed down and joined the feeding frenzy where the horse went down. With me so far?"
"So far."
"Okay, the street on the other side of the tank is less crowded. If you move now while they're distracted, you stand a chance. You got ammo?"
"In that duffel bag I dropped out there, and guns. Can I get to it?"
You shook your head lightly, "Forget the bag, it's not an option. What do you have on you?"
"Hang on," he said and there was a moment of silent. "I've got a Beretta with one clip, 15 rounds."
"Make 'em count. Jump off the right side of the tank, keep going in that direction. There's an alley up the street, 50 yards. I'll meet you there."
"Hey, what's your name?"
"No time for the introduction," you said, "Move, you're running out of time."
The radio cut off and you looked at Glenn, "Okay, go back to the others, I'll be right there."
"What? Wait, I'm gonna go with you."
"Glenn, no time. Go! I'll be fine."
You turned and jumped off the stairs. You ran around the corner as you heard more gun shoots. You reached to the alley and ran to the end.
The guy you saw ran around the corner, shooting walkers around before pointing at you. You quickly held up your hands, "Don't, not dead!"
He lowered his gun, and you nodded back to where you came from, "Come on! Come on!" You both ran into the alley as the guy continued to shoot walkers. "Stop shooting, you are getting their attention!" You called.
You climbed up the ladder and he followed. You reached to the top and looked at the guy when he got up. You looked down under the ladder and saw the Walkers gathered around it, trying to reach for the both of you.
You let out a breath and looked at the guy, "Nice moves there, sheriff. You the new one who come riding in to clean up the town?"
"It wasn't my intention," he said.
"Yeah, whatever," you said and pointed at him, "You're still a dumbass."
The guy held his hand out, "Rick. Thanks."
You glanced at his hand and shook it, "Audrey. You're welcome. But don't do that shit again. Just saying."
Rick let out a soft chuckle and nodded, "I'll remember that."
You peered down on the ladder before up at the roof. "Well..." You looked at Rick, "The bright side, it'll be the fall that kills us." You shrugged and climbed up the ladder and he followed you.
"Did you barricaded the alley?" he asked, his tone in his voice was impression as the two of you ran to the building.
"Can't take the credit, somebody did," you said, "I guess when the city got overrun. Whoever did it was thinking not many Geeks would get through." 
You opened the hatch as he asked, "Back at the tank, why'd you stick your neck out for me?" 
"Call it foolish, naïve hope that if I'm ever that far up shit creek, somebody might do the same for me," you said and threw your backpack before you looked at him and shrugged, "Guess I'm an even bigger dumbass than you." You climbed down the ladder, and he followed and closed the hatch.
You grabbed your backpack and pulled it on your shoulders before you both ran to the back door of the clothing store as you spoke into the CB walkie, "Guys, I'm back with a guess and there are two walkers in front." You paused and held your arm out to Rick to stop as you looked at the two Walkers near the door. They turned and slowly walked toward you.
But then, the door opened, and Morales and T-Dog, came out with protective gear and baseball bats, beating the two Walkers in the heads. "Let's go!" you told Rick and ran to the door with him following behind.
"Morales, let's go!"
T-Dog and Morales ran into the building and closed the door. You turned to see everyone except for Merle there. You looked at Glenn in relief before at Andrea when the older woman pushed Rick to the wall and aimed her gun on him, "You son of a bitch. We ought to kill you."
"Just chill out, Andrea," Morales told her, "Back off."
"Come on, ease up," T-Dog told her.
"Ease up?" Andrea repeated, "You're kidding me, right? We're dead because of this stupid asshole."
"Andrea, hey, stop!" you said and moved between them. The gun was aimed to your chest instead of Rick's. "Enough. Or pull the trigger."
Andrea let out a shaky breath as she lowered her gun immediately after you said it. She glared over your shoulder at Rick and shook her head, "We're dead. All of us. Because of you."
"I don't understand," Rick said.
Morales walked up to Rick and leaded him away with you following, "Look, we came into the city to scavenge supplies."
"You're okay?" Glenn asked you quietly as you followed behind.
You nodded and gave the older boy a small smile, "Yeah. I'm okay."
"You know what the key to scavenging is? Surviving. You know the key to surviving? Sneaking in and out, tiptoeing. Not shooting up the streets like it's the O.K. Corral."
You all stopped at the window doors, and you saw the walkers were trying to get into the store, growling. "Every Geek for miles around heard you popping off rounds," T-Dog told Rick.
"You just rang the dinner bell," Andrea told him.
"Get the picture now?" Morales asked.
A few of the walkers were attempting to smash through the double set of doors to get to you all, and you stepped back.
"Oh God."
"What the hell were you doing out there anyway?" Morales asked.
"Trying to flag the helicopter," Rick answered.
"Helicopter?" T-Dog repeated. "Man, that's crap. There ain't no damn helicopter."
"I saw it," Rick said.
Morales turned to you, "Hey, Audrey, try that CB. Can you contact the others?"
"Others?" Rick asked as you held up your CB walkie. "The refugee Center?"
"Yeah, the refugee center," Glenn told him sarcastically. "They've got biscuits waiting at the oven for us."
You shook your head, "Got no signal. I'll try again on the roof."
There was a gunshot from above you on the roof and you looked up in annoyance while everyone else was freaking out. "Oh no," Andrea said, "Is that Dixon?"
"What is that maniac doing?" Morales asked.
"I'm going to kill Merle," you said in annoyance as you ran to the door, and the rest followed you. You got quickly to the roof to Merle and saw him shooting at walkers. "Merle! Cut it out!"
Merle stopped and turned to you as Morales shouted at him, "Hey, Dixon, are you fucking crazy?!"
Merle chuckled, "Huh? Hey! You ought to be more polite to a man with a gun!" He jumped off the edge of the roof, walking toward you. "Huh? Ah! Only common sense."
"Man, you wasting bullets we ain't even got, man," T-Dog told him, standing in front of him. "And you're bringing even more of them down on our ass! Man, just chill."
"Hey, bad enough I've got this taco-bender on my ass all day," Merle said, pointing at Morales. "Now I'm gonna take orders from you? I don't think so, bro. That'll be the day."
"'That'll be the day?'" T-Dog repeated. "You got something you want to tell me?"
"Hey, T-Dog man, just leave it," Morales told him.
"No," T-Dog told him.
Rick stood beside you and looked at them in confusion. He turned to you, and you shook your head to not get involved in it.
"All right? It ain't worth it. Merle, just relax, okay? We've got enough trouble."
"You want to know the day?" Merle asked.
"Yeah," T-Dog told him.
"I'll tell you the day, Mr. 'Yo', it's the day I take orders from a nigger," Merle told him.
"Mother--" T-Dog started, throwing a punch at Merle, but Merle grabbed T-Dog's arm, and hit him with the rifle.
T-Dog fell to the floor as you called out, "Merle! Stop!" You shouted with Andrea but Merle punched Rick and Morales when they tried to get him off of T-Dog.
Merle kicked T-Dog in the sides a few times, punching him in the face, pulling out a gun, pointing it in his face. "No, no, no, please," Andrea told him. "Please."
Merle spit on T-Dog's shirt, rubbing it, "Yeah! All right!" He stood up, moving away. You, Glenn, Morales and Andrea moved to T-Dog's side, and you helped him to sit up. "We're gonna have ourselves a little powwow, huh? Talk about who's in charge." Merle pointed the gun at all of you. "I vote me." He held up a hand. "Anybody else? Huh? Democracy time, y'all. Show of hands, huh? All in favor? Huh? Come on." You all slowly held up your hands. "Let's see 'em. Oh, come on. All in favor? Yeah. That's good. Now that means I'm the boss, right? Yeah. Anybody else? Hmm? Anybody?"
You saw Rick approaching him from behind, "Yeah."
Merle turned around, and Rick hit Merle over the head with the rifle, making him fell to the ground. Rick handcuffed Merle to a pipe as he yelled at him, "Who the hell are you, man?!"
"Officer friendly," Rick told him, grabbing Merle's gun, "Look here, Merle. Things are different now. There are no niggers anymore. No dumb-as-shit, inbred white-trash fools either. Only dark meat and white meat. There's us and the dead. We survive this by pulling together, not apart."
"Screw you, man," Merle told him.
"I can see you make a habit of missing the point," Rick told him.
"Yeah?" Merle asked, "Well, screw you twice."
Rick pointed the gun at Merle, using his words from earlier against him, "Ought to be polite to a man with a gun. Only common sense."
"You wouldn't," Merle told him, "You're a cop."
"All I am anymore is a man looking for his family," Rick told him, "Anybody that gets in the way of that is gonna lose. I'll give you a moment to think about that." Rick went through Merle's pockets, pulling out something, "Got some on your nose there."
Rick stood, walking away.
"What are you gonna do?" Merle asked. "Arrest me?" He chuckled. Rick walked to the edge, throwing what he found in Merle's pocket. "Hey! Dude, what are you doing? Man, that was my stuff! Hey!" Rick walked to the other side and Morales slowly followed him. "If I get loose, you'd better pray--Yeah, you hear me, you pig?! You hear me?!"
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Have any headcanons on Sonic and the wild? Like during his survival in the woods, did he communicate or befriend other animals if he can understand Ozzie? Raccoons... ducks... turtles maybe?
Hmm, you would like to see some Feral Space Hog headcanons? Aww! I love it! Yes, I think that I can arrange something like that for you all for today/tonight...
Sonic is a top-notch forager. He is excellent in knowing  what roots, tree nuts, herbs, berries, and insects are good to eat. Once collected, he would sort his items out and keep them stored in various containers and other shelves in his cave. He didn’t discover human food until a family left their picnic basket unattended at their camping site and ate all the contents inside. Since then, he would rise early, or leave in the middle of the night, and rummage through alleyways and corner stores at top speeds to take food.
Our lovable Space Hog learned how to communicate with the Animals in the forest way before he learned how to speak English and communicate with the humans.
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Thanks to Longclaw’s teachings, Sonic was able to recall and categorize all the natural herbs, roots, and other essentials needed in case he came down with any sort of illnesses and injuries. He used to doubt himself for thinking that he would never use them, but Longclaw’s voice always nagged him in the back of the head to collect them just in case. Sonic was always quick to thank his lucky stars for having them on hand during harsh winters--especially cold and flu seasons.
Sonic Wachowski also loved to collect comic books from store fronts when no one was watching--he relates to The Flash and Captain America to most. Comic books are one of two main sources of how he learned to read and write, the other was eavesdropping on an elementary school where some classroom windows were opened. He frequented them every day for a couple of years and learned some basic human history.
Before discovering his cave, Sonic would build small shrubbery caves and dig holes to sleep in them for the night. He didn’t discover his cave until falling into it taking a late morning stroll in search of food.
The forest that surrounds the town of Green Hills is called The Great Forest, Knothole Village is a national park’s name that preserved chunk of land to honor the first settlers of the town while migrating up the state’s borders.
All of the items that he has in his cave were found along sides of streets, abandoned buildings, dumpsters, store fronts, stolen from Crazy Carl, or he was able to take a thing or two from the Donut Lord and Pretzel Lady when they weren’t looking.
Sonic is best friends with Harry T. Bigfoot. Harry is a chill hippie that always greets Sonic with a smile and makes him flower crowns. No one in town believes Sonic when he says that he knows Harry... not even Crazy Carl!
Sonic still has an enemy on Earth--those stupid squirrels. Evil squirrels. Never trust them.
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Sonic did not sleep much while living in the cave. He had spent lots of hours trying to disguise it with moss, leaves, vines, and anything that he could find to make sure that it didn’t look like a cave. but he’s had many nights where he did not sleep. On average, he would sleep every other day and sleep a total of six hours... just enough to help him feel like he was secure in his cave.
He does contain many Earth hedgehog traits, such as a strong sense of smell and hearing. While tracking animals and humans, he often relies on his hearing and sense of smell to help him pinpoint if and where danger is around him. Sonic was trained how to do this by Longclaw--just a safety precaution she advised him to learn to help him track a certain clan if they’re near.
Growing up, Sonic had a rock pet named “Rocky.” Rocky went everywhere with Sonic, he still does. Sonic keeps Rocky in his backpack and takes him out to engage with Fred.
He does has a second cave that he’ prepared for himself in case he chose not to warp to the Mushroom Planet. He’s got a second one prepped with canned foods, some basic entertainment, and other essentials there to hide out in until he felt like it was safe for him to return to his true cave.
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The hole above his cave is a newer edition. He added that feature himself one night hoping to see if he could spot his planet in the sky. The stars appeared the same, so did the sky and the moon... he does wonder just how far his planet was from Earth if Longclaw claimed that it was on the farthest side of the universe.
He loved the Summer and Fall months of the year. Those were the easiest seasons to live in as he stayed isolated in the forest. Sonic loves snow and rain, he loves the cooler air and the sun’s rays on his fur, but the changes of the seasons always caused problems for him living in his cave. Some days there would always be rain puddles in it, others snow or fallen leaves.Sometimes there were days where he couldn’t leave his cave due to the weather’s conditions outside. Fall and Summer were much easier to manage due to the weather patterns being predictable.
Sonic has no idea where Toby the Turtle is. Last when he saw Tony was when the USA Military apprehended him in the forest and Dr. Robotnik wanted to take him in for questioning.
Sonic has made friends with the animals in the forest, such as the birds and the bears, they all taught him at a young age how to find food in every nook and cranny, as well as let him stay in their burrows to keep him warm at night. Many animals also taught him what the humans were and told them to stay away due to them fearing that they’ll lose their homes from deforestation. Sonic vowed to each animal present that they wouldn’t lose their homes from the humans wanting to expand their town. He often tells Tom of the forest critters concerns and they’ve arranged something with the Mayor of Green Hills to keep the land sacred and replenished with new trees.
Sonic loves to take the time to explore the forest. He’s got a name for every tree, flower, rock, and mountain he sees. He’ll also mark off each familiar site with a piece of cloth he ties to the trunk of a tree... or he’ll put a sticker on it. Sonic will also make maps of the forest as well and likes to mark off what each section has the best food, herbs, and springs to lounge in.
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His daily routine—if he slept that day—was wake up, do his morning stretches, take a quick jog around the state of Montana, bathe in the crystal waters of the lake nearby the entrance of town, quickly enter Jellee’s Donut Shoppe to snag a baked good, eat his breakfast on the rooftop of city hall to observe his favorite person work. Sometimes, if he caught Tom at a good time, he’d follow his police cruiser to the speed pit and play a quick game of “why-is-the-speedometer-going-bonkers-today?” with him before the end of his shift. He’s trend quietly to the Wachowski home just in time for movie night and return to his cave in the forest. Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays are reserved for his afternoon yoga session with Pretzel Lady.
Slugs, worms, flowers, bugs, fruits and veggies? Those are all things that Sonic loves to eat! On some occasion he’ll eat dried cat food, but it always tastes like there’s cat in it. Do not give Sonic catnip.
Although a very rare thing to see in the State of Montana, as well as the western part of the United States, Sonic loves to catch fireflies and play tag with them. He loves how gentle and warm they appear to be when they glow in the night’s sky and he loves how the glow from their body radiates a soft halo. He would never catch them in a Mason jar; he loves to cup them in his paws, make a wish, and set them free.So far, he can confirm that his wish came true...
Flower crowns. Love them. He makes them all the time in the forest and collects them. Give him one of the flowers in the forest and he’ll name every one and wear them in his spines.
Sonic mesures his growth by painting his paws and leaving the prints on the walls. He has no idea of how old he is, but he knows by the paw sizes that he is getting older and loves to see how much he’s grown.
The raccoons by the garage? Yeah, he’s the king of the trash pandas. Each one has a name: Joey, Monica, Chandler, Ross, Rachel, and Phoebe. They all obey Sonic when he asks them not to dig in the trash, they don’t with Tom. Joey likes to break into the house and steal Tom’s cake and watch TV.
Sonic has a soft spot for ducks. He built a small pond in the backyard of the house—with the help of Maddie—and he plays with them daily. They’re not allowed in the house, but he will sneak them in on occasion if it’s a rainy day and let them stay in his room.
Dequilling is a natural thing that Sonic will do. He does lose some of his spines, but he does manage to have them groomed when they start to fall. There is a catch to this, due to cultural beliefs of his species, the right to groom and style his spines must be done by a motherly figure, he always asks Maddie to brush his spines and help him style them up into a ‘do. This is how they’ve started to bond in the past.
Sonic does squeak when he’s excited, he’ll often squeak like an Earth hedgehog when he’s excited, happy, and annoyed. His squeaks and chirps are ways that he used to communicate on his home planet and will frequently use them around Tom and Maddie. Sometimes he forgets that they won’t always understand the exact words that he says, but the two of them know that their son is happy and they’re happy that he’s apart of their lives.
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And finally, Sonic likes to take Tom and Maddie to tour the place where he once lived. When they camp out in the mountains, Sonic took it upon himself to fix up his owns cave and catered it to the three of them to spend the nights in. It’s small, but comforting. He figured that since Tom and Maddie made it a point to welcome him into their home and their family, he thought that he would try to do the same by fixing up the cave as a “vacation home” of sorts for them all. He has never been happier.
I’d like to thank @movie-robotnik-positivity for helping me out with some of these for the headcanons. Thank you so, so much! You‘re a very wonderful person and I love you! I love and appreciate you very much, Matt. I think that it would be very cool to see a bit more of Sonic’s past in the second film, don’t you? I would love to see what his life was like growing up in the forest and what he did before meeting Tom and Maddie. Mainly I’d like to see the growth of the character. Sonic’s a special bean and he needs love. Thank you for suggesting it!
Stay safe for me, okay?
You matter❤️
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Thank you so much for the graphic you shared about gender identity, with umbrellas (different anon). For about 1-2 years I've felt like I might be nonbinary -- it actually started when I read a sci-fi book about a world where there were men, women, people of a third gender, and people with no gender, and everyone was allowed to choose/figure it out at their own pace -- and I thought, "Wow, that sounds wonderful." And thoughts expanded from there. Sometimes I worry I'm making it up, though.
HERE’S THE DEAL, ANON
Actually there are three discrete deals, but here they are.
First of all, the question I always remind people to ask is--why would you be making it up?  People make up things about their own identity for some kind of concrete benefit--if I decide to pass as cis, I’m doing it to protect myself on some level.  So what would the benefit be?  If you can’t think of one, maybe you’re not making it up.  Trust yourself, sweetheart.  If you doubt your own heart so much that you don’t believe that you know what sounds wonderful to you, then you may want to speak to someone about that.  My guess is, though, that you just--don’t feel quite allowed.  I feel you.  It took me years to feel like I was allowed to call myself trans, and I needed to be kindly lectured by a stranger at Comic Con before I was able to get past that.  So, here’s permission.  You’re allowed.  Try some stuff out!  Experiment in small ways!  See what feels good to you, what brings you joy!  Trust yourself and take that joy when you find it!
Second of all, hell, listen, even if you try out whatever “being nonbinary” means to you and you go “hm, no, I actually don’t like this,” then...so what?  What’s the problem?  You’re not signing your life away to whatever gender you experiment with.  You concluding you’re actually a trans man, or a demigirl, or that you’re just straight up cis and sometimes like to play around with how you present--none of that is hurting anyone.  You’re not invalidating the existence of anyone else.  You just tried something out and discovered it didn’t feel right and tried something different.  Gender isn’t a lifetime contract, it’s a nice jacket.  If you try it on in the store, you don’t have to buy it.  If you buy it, you can return it.  You can have nine jackets.  You can have no jackets.  It’s no one else’s problem how many jackets you have, or how long you try them out for.
And third, it is completely okay for you to take as much time as you need to figure out your own self.  It’s hard to figure yourself out!  Sometimes it’s a little scary, or a lot scary!  Sometimes you have other shit to do!  I distinctly remember starting my sophomore year of college and being halfway through a homework assignment when my brain very helpfully stopped doing biology and said, “You’re trans, you’ve never felt like a woman in your life even if I haven’t decided what the endgame is, and someday you might want to deal with that.”  
And I set down my pencil and took some deep breaths and responded with, “Maybe so, brain, but honestly what I need to deal with right now is passing Cellular Biology because I fast-talked my way out of the intro classes, so how about we come back to this in a couple of years?”  Said it out loud to my empty dorm room and everything.  And went back to my damn homework.
And then I proceeded to Not Deal With It for the rest of college!  I just!  Didn’t!  I didn’t interrogate anything about gender and I played the same shoddily constructed Star (Woman Edition) role I’d done my whole life and told everyone I was cis and finished my degree.  And by the time I’d finished my degree I’d kind of gotten used to my brain putting on the Check Gender light every once in a while, so I cut all my hair off, got rid of all my dresses, stopped wearing heels, bought some binders and waistcoats, and explained the term “nonbinary” to my parents, over the course of about six months.
Sometimes shit takes time.  Sit with it for as long as you need to.  Try on some jackets.  All your enby siblings are still going to be here and thrilled to have you when you’re ready.
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Evil Stepfather gets what he deserves.
TLDR at the bottom.
When I was 15, my mom started dating a man she met on a dating website. I didn't like him the first time I met him and two months later he moved into the house.
About three weeks after he moved in, he took my skateboards, self-built halfpipe, ramps, BMX bike, ice hockey gear, and many other things to the dump one day while I was at school. He said he did this because he didn't want all of my crap cluttering up "his" garage.
Maybe two months later he punched me in the stomach for the first time because I got up from the dinner table without asking to be excused. From there it escalated into full-fledged beatdowns for the smallest perceived slight to his authority.
One day he decided to take my extensive Pokemon card collection, even more extensive comic book collection, My Game Boy and PS2 with all the assorted games, and my fantasy and sci-fi book collection and got rid of it all because "15 boys should be playing football and baseball, not being a fa**ot nerd playing with Polemon cards and reading comics and books"
I would like to add that he was a middle school teacher, and then his off time refereed and umpired local middle and high school sports games.
My mom never intervened, and in fact acquiesced when he demanded that she stop giving me lunch money, because "the little shit will just spend it on comics and other gay shit"
One day, I took maybe $3 and change out of his change jar so that I can buy a slice of pizza and some fruit punch during lunch at school, because I was tired of being hungry. My twin sister was always a bit of an asshole, and frequently blackmailed me into doing her chores from a young age. I was fed up and refused to do something, so she told him what I had done. This man actually called the police and pressed a larceny charge against me, and once the police had left beat me senseless.
At that point I ran away. When the cops found me and returned me to my home, I found out that he I've been trying to talk my mom into sending me away to military school or something of that nature. I ran away again, and between having run away several times and the larceny charge ended up turning 16 in juvenile detention.
I spent the next couple years miserable and afraid, frequently contemplating suicide. Once I left home, I didn't speak to my mom for several years. We eventually reconciled, and by that point they had married. I was a lot bigger then I had been as a young teenager, and had gotten into weightlifting so he no longer acted like he was going to punch me to make me flinch, much less actually hit me nd we basically avoided each other for the most part.
My mother found out that she had stage 4 cancer, and no longer wanted to waste any of the time she had left with him, so she had a lawyer draft up a separation agreement whereby he would receive a set amount of money upon separation, and would have 45 days to retrieve his belongings from the house. He had spent his entire inheritance in six months and then had to sell his mother's house that he grew up in in order to settle his debts shortly before they started dating oh, and my mother bought the house back from the bank before they married. She allowed him to keep the house and he moved back into his mother's house.
My mother passed away about nine months after their separation and despite the agreement have been allowing him to come and get his stuff piecemeal. I put an immediate end to that.
I sold his baseball card collection (around $14k) and his autographed sports memorabilia (roughly $11k) and also sold all of his woodworking equipment, along with several finished pieces of furniture that he had made ($6,500 I think).
I kept his mother's engagement ring (platinum band 3 diamonds roughly 2 Carats), wedding band, his coin collection (I also collect coins) and some tools and other odds and ends.
Around a month ago I ran into him at the grocery store. I told him what I had done as he was pushing his cart out towards his car and he took a swing at me multiple times. Several of these punches missed in the ones that they connect didn't have much effect because he's nowhere near as strong as he was 20 years ago in his forties, and I no longer a skinny little 15 year old. He continue to try to punch me as I called 911, and was actively ramming his grocery cart into my new Toyota as the police officers pulled into the parking lot.
He was arrested for assault, communicating threats, and destruction of property. As a result he lost his job (and pension) at the local Middle School, and because he had never learned how to save money while married to my somewhat wealthy mother ended up having to sell his mother's house because he hired an expensive lawyer thinking he could somehow beat the charges.
My nephew, who was on the football team made it well known to his friends that he not only had just been arrested and convicted of assault as well as other charges, but that he had also beat me as a child caused several parents to call for him to resign from refereeing and umpiring for local sports games.
My niece, and my girlfriend's much younger sister are enrolled at the middle school where he worked, and say that he was not only universally disliked, but when he came up to the school to get his belongings, he made a big scene and ended up hysterically crying as he was leaving. At least that's what they've heard from the kids who were attending summer school at the time.
His son, who he was equally abusive towards as a child refuse to take him in or help him out so he ended up having to take a job as a cashier at Walmart so that he could afford the rent on his crappy little trailer in an absolutely awful neighborhood.
Even though that Walmart is not the closest Walmart to my house, that is now the only place where I go grocery shopping or to purchase anything that I need. I purposely stand in line longer than I need to just so that he can be the one who has the pleasure of ringing up my purchases. The first time I went through his line he attempted to ring up multiple items more than one time to overcharge me and when I called him on it said that I was mistaken. I asked for a manager, and the manager believed him that it was an accident but he learned that he can't get away with that. The second time, I made sure to be as nice as possible and had to ask for a manager because he was overwhelmingly rude. The people in line behind me back me up and he got in some trouble for that.
Every time I go there and step into line, I see him die a little bit inside, and it may be Petty but it gives me such satisfaction. Sometimes I'll say that I'm paying with exact change and as I'm about to hand him the money I'll say "Oh! I didn't realize I had (rare coin from his collection) in my pocket! I guess I'll use my credit card"
I just sold his expensive ratcheting wrench set, and so on Monday when he works again I'm going to go buy my daughter one of their better above ground pools, and as he's ringing it out tell him "I know that (daughter) is just going to love this pool. It's not like I would have ever used those expensive ratcheting wrenches anyway"
TLDR; Asshole stepfather got rid of all of my prized possessions as a child and beat the crap out of me regularly. I ended up getting all of his prized possessions and selling most of them, and when I told him he tried to assault me in public, which resulted in criminal charges, losing his job, and his house. Now I get to see him all the time and rub his nose in it.
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hawkbucks · 4 years
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Bucky and Steve’s entire friendship starts when Bucky spots Steve reading a Captain America comic on the playground, promptly sits down next to him, and goes: “You like Captain America? He’s cool, but I think Winter Soldier is better.” Steve, of course, is offended that this kid has the audacity to imply someone is better than his beloved Captain, so they argue about the finer points of the Captain and the Soldier, discussing their actions at such depth that you’d forget they’re just a couple of 3rd graders with scraped knees and wild hair. At the end, they agree to come to the conclusion that the Captain and the Soldier are equally as cool. Whenever they’re able–a.k.a when Bucky saves up enough of his allowance to afford a few issues for him and Steve (because, as much as Steve protests against Bucky buying him things, Bucky knows he wants that Falcon issue)–they head down to the comic store around the corner from their school run by a kindly man named Abraham. Abraham slips them snacks sometimes: bags of chips, candy bars, etc. If they prove they’re doing good at school, they also get free books. Tables and chairs are scattered around the store, usually reserved for the game nights that the store hosts, but Abraham allows them to do their schoolwork on those tables. They try to draw out their visits as long as they can, because they just love exploring the store, and Abraham is such a good guy, you know? One day, when Steve is over at Bucky’s house and they’re watching cartoons, Steve gets an idea. He turns to Bucky and proclaims that they should open up a store together. It’ll be the best store ever! Bucky sagely nods before he runs off to grab a notebook and pencils to plan it. Their store looks as follows: 3 stories at the minimum, and there’ll be a slide leading from each floor to the one below. They’ll have cool statues to put on display, a gigantic collection to sale, and a pyrotechnics display at the cash register at Bucky’s suggestion. And they’ll make a lot of money. It’ll be the best store ever.
Unfortunately, said best store ever ends up being pushed to the back burner once they realize that opening and managing a business isn’t as easy as it sounds, especially for a couple of kids. “We’ll just do it later, when we’re grown ups,” Steve says, and Bucky agrees. They grow older. Steve turns from the shortest kid on the playground to the guy that people have to crane their necks up to talk to (Bucky teases him and says that he’s become the real life Captain America. Steve retorts that that makes Bucky the Winter Soldier), and Bucky grows his hair out, looking more and more like a hipster everyday (which he vehemently denies. “Where’s your manbun?” “I will smack you.”). Interests come and go, but they still find themselves stepping into Abraham’s shop. Abraham’s older now, grayer, but he still slides them Snickers every once in a while.   Bucky ends up enlisting in the army to help pay for his tuition while Steve goes to art school to get a degree in illustration. An incident with an IED later, and Bucky comes home with an honorable discharge and an empty left sleeve. Steve visits him as often as he can, usually filling in the gaps when Bucky’s own family isn’t over. Sometimes Natasha (a girl they befriended in middle school after she came dressed as Black Widow for Halloween) and Sam (a boy they got to know during freshman year of high school when he complimented Bucky on his prime taste in superheroes because of the Falcon button pinned to his backpack) drop in, with Natasha keeping him company by watching trashy reality TV with him and Sam listening to him vent and offering a shoulder if he ever needs one. Hell, Abraham sends him a card through Steve when he heard about what happened. (He ends up getting all of them gift baskets as thanks for being there. Sam tries to decline his at first, but the lure of raspberry tarts was too strong.) One day, Steve comes over with Indian takeout and turns on some good ol’ History Channel. “Speaking of history,” Steve says in between bites of naan, “do you remember that store we wanted to open when we were younger?” Hit with that blast from the past, Bucky nods. He doesn’t have the notebook that they used when they first came up with the idea, but he stills remembers the basics of what they put down. Like the pyrotechnics display that he wanted. Steve asks if he’s still open to the idea, and Bucky replies, around a mouthful of rogan josh, that he is. It’s… been a while since he’s gotten out of his apartment to do something other than shop for groceries, pop into the Chinese restaurant right next to the building, or visit the doctor for those couple of appointments about him possibly getting a prosthetic, courtesy of some company that’s looking to do test runs of their new line. A whole bunch of Googling and Binging and Yahoo Answers-ing and they think they might have a slight idea of how to start a business. Slight is the operative word here. Like with many things, they end up going to Abraham for help. Abraham is a godsend, answering all of their questions and offering to point his customer base their way once he closes up shop for good (Steve may or may not have gotten a bit misty-eyed hearing about Abraham’s inevitable retirement). Fast forward, and their shop is open. Steve drew up the logo (gotta put that degree to use somehow), while Bucky was the one who came up with the interior design (and no pyrotechnics displays). Natasha and Sam are hired, with both of them helping to run their social media presence. They get a decent amount of people at their grand opening despite their location being slightly out of the way, and apparently those people liked their experience because they end up getting a handful of regulars, most notably some guy named Clint that Natasha claims to know, a pair of Norwegian brothers named Thor and Loki that Sam swears are actual gods, a timid PhD student named Bruce, and a woman named Carol and her girlfriend, Maria who are the biggest Captain Marvel fangirls that they’ve ever met. Their popularity grows–especially after Abraham closes–and they soon find themselves making a healthy bit of profit. Healthy enough that they’re able to decorate their shop more (Natasha insists that they place a life-sized statute of Black Widow near the front doors) and they tack-on other things, like shirts and posters and snacks to sell. Bucky gets his prosthetic somewhere around the first month that they’ve been open. It’s a wickedly shiny silver, and Steve suggested that he place a red star sticker on his wrist (because his shoulder isn’t visible 99.9% of the time) to represent Bucky’s favorite hero, and Bucky actually does that. Sometimes people ask to touch it. He lets them. Sometimes people ask what happened. He deflects them. At some point, a guy walks in with ruffled hair and glasses and Bucky nearly chokes on the soda that he’s drinking. Sure, they’ve had their fair share of cute customers, but that guy’s cute, and he’s gonna end up making a fool of himself. It’s not like he can ask Steve to talk instead because Steve just went out on his damn lunch break. He tries not to stare at the guy as he peruses the shelves and rifles through the boxes of back issues they have set out in the middle of the floor. He tries really, really hard, taking his phone out and scrolling through whatever social media website and liking the replies to their posts. Every once in a while, he glances at the door, half-expecting Steve to walk in at any time.
Then the guy (now dubbed Cutie in Bucky’s mind) comes up and he smiles at Bucky in greeting and Bucky would probably sob if that wouldn’t make him come off as a complete weirdo. Cutie hauls up a veritable stack and places it on the counter. Despair courses through Bucky’s veins when he sees the Captain America comic on top, because he could do so much better. “Mmm, I’m just getting those because my friend likes Captain America,” Cutie says and oh, shit, did he say that out loud? “I’m partial to Iron Man myself.” “Iron Man’s cool an’ all,” Bucky replies, somehow managing to keep himself from running out the front door and never looking back, “but he’s not my favorite.” Cutie’s eyes flick down to the red star sticker on his wrist. “Let me guess: Winter Soldier?” Bucky clicks his tongue. “Yup.” Cutie laughs, and it’s a really nice sound that Bucky wouldn’t mind hearing again. When he’s finished ringing Cutie up, he mentions the membership that they have going and how members have a pull list and would he like to sign up?  Mentally, he crosses his fingers that Cutie says yes because it would be a shame if he only got to see him once in his life. A damn, damn shame.
So, he should be thankful that Cutie says yes and he finds out that Cutie’s name is actually Tony and Tony just moved from Malibu and it was his friend James–whom he calls Rhodey–that recommended this place to him. (He goes through a list of James in his head, and figures that it most likely is James Rhodes, who also happens to be a member. He should send him a gift basket.)
Tony ends up leaving around the same time Steve comes back from his lunch break, and Steve must have this sort of sixth sense because he sends Bucky a knowing, amused look.
Tony drops by every 2nd and 4th Wednesday, and it’s always at 12:40 PM, give or take a few minutes. His pull list isn’t particularly long–or at least, it isn’t something that he needs to drop in twice a month for, but Bucky’s not going to complain, not when he’s able to see the way Tony’s eyes sparkle when the topic crosses over to a story arc that he’s passionate about or the way the tip of his tongue pokes out between his lips when he becomes engrossed in what he’s reading. They swap stories, with Bucky finding out that Tony used to be in the robotics club when he was in high school and how his father used to tell him that comics were all “bullshit,” so that threw him off of them for a bit. He always asks Bucky if he recommends something before he leaves, if he saw that episode of Game of Thrones, or if he’s simply feeling okay.
Tony’s visits last longer and longer and longer, until it’s basically just him and Bucky talking for hours on end, their topics ranging from comic cons to what they had for dinner last night. (Steve laments how he’s always the one stuck helping customers because he doesn’t have the heart to interrupt him and Tony when they look so concentrated on each other. He begs Bucky to just ask Tony out already because he can’t take it anymore.)
Bucky ends up asking Tony out on accident. Y’see, Tony was excitedly talking about the movie adaption of Iron Man that’s supposed to be coming out soon, and Bucky blurted out that he wouldn’t mind taking Tony out to see it, just the two of ‘em and some popcorn.
Tony says that he’d love to, and Bucky wonders if he should thank Steve for going out to lunch those few months ago.
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s-horne · 5 years
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27. Ornithogalum (reconciliation)
There was a voicemail flashing on the landline when Steve returned home. Absentmindedly, he pressed the button to play the recording as he sorted through his mail, throwing some of the envelopes down into piles on the couch as he listened to his mother rambling on about something or other before finally confirming their dinner plans. Why the woman didn’t just text him like everyone else, Steve would never know.
The only reason that Steve had a landline was for his mom to use. Though everyone else used his cell, for some reason his mother had an aversion to texting. Steve didn’t mind all that much. If anything, he liked that they had something that was special just for them. Even if Steve was never in when Sarah called him and she ended up leaving a message for him nine times out of ten.
The message finished and the automated voice announced that there was also a second one. Steve snorted before it started, expecting to hear his mom’s voice changing the time of their meeting or possibly a butt dial of Sarah singing loudly whilst doing the dishes or sorting laundry. So when he heard a voice that he hadn’t heard for months suddenly amplified in his living room, Steve startled almost comically.
“Hi.”
Though the message started simply enough, even that single word was enough to bring Steve to his knees. God, that voice. Steve reached out and grabbed the arm of the couch for support as Tony carried on speaking.
“It’s me, Tony.”
Steve rolled his eyes at that; of course Steve knew who it was. Like he could ever forget Tony, the stupid, insecure man. That very voice coloured nearly all of Steve’s dreams.
“I’m at a bar.”
Steve huffed out a laugh at that; he knew that too. So far in the phone message, Tony had only said a few words in short passages, but Steve recognised the slur to his words and the pauses between each sentence as he thought carefully about what he was going to say next. The music in the background was a bit of a giveaway, too.
“I’m in Sacramento.”
And that was something else that Steve knew. He remembered all too well the day that Tony had come to him and said that he had gotten a promotion with his work and that he would be leaving within the month.
“I miss you.”
And, well, that was something that Steve did not know. He had no idea that Tony missed him; that wasn’t a thought that he would ever let himself entertain. It hurt too much. It opened too many possibilities, too many hours put at risk where Steve was in real danger of doing very little but dreaming about Tony turning up on his doorstep and begging him to take him back.
He and Tony had been together for a few months. From the start, it had very much been more of a ‘they’d fallen into bed when drunk once and never really defined the relationship’ than a real boyfriend and boyfriend adult relationship. Steve hadn’t known that he had meant anything to Tony outside of the bedroom, though he’d wished in secret. There had been so many nights where Steve had lain awake and watched Tony asleep next to him, carefully memorizing every line on his face and every tiny flutter of his eyelids. The few dates that they’d gone on were crystal clear memories in Steve’s mind and there was even a shameful photo album saved on his phone of pictures of Tony, and Tony alone.
“I think about you every day.”
Tony’s voice brought Steve out of his thoughts and back into the room. He shuffled himself from the arm of the couch until he could drop down onto the cushions, envelopes crinkling below him as he sunk into the comfort of Tony’s voice washing over him.
“I think about you every day, every time that I walk past a book store or a bakery, a bar or a library. Everything that I see reminds me of you, no matter what it is. Did you know that I almost didn’t get on the plane?”
Steve jolted at that, his mind moving at a hundred miles an hour. Was it really true that Tony almost didn’t go? Tony had left so easily, coming to see Steve once to tell him that he was leaving and then just walking away without a pause in his step. Nothing had ever really seemed to bother Tony, and normally Steve admired that. That day, though, Steve could have done with some emotion.
Anything other than Tony walking away with no hesitation after breaking Steve’s heart into roughly four hundred pieces.
“But then I did, because I knew that you didn’t want me around anyway.”
And what was that supposed to mean?
Steve blinked and stared at the answering machine as though that held all of the answers. Since when had it been that Steve was the one who didn’t want Tony? That wasn’t right, that was not the right way around at all. It had been Tony who had walked out so easily, made the decision with no thought for their relationship and the wonderful thing that it could have become.
Tony had been gone the next week.
To Steve’s mind, California was not that far away at all and Steve had been more than prepared to suggest the long distance thing as soon as the word Sacramento left Tony’s mouth, but apparently Tony had already decided that that wasn’t what they were going to do. Nope, he had just cut and run.
“You wanted a clean break. But it didn’t work, not for me. I could never move on, I couldn’t forget.”
Neither could Steve, he thought incredulously. He wouldn’t have admitted the small wave of thrill that he got from Tony’s confession to anyone, but he felt it. It was probably sadistic of him, but the feeling was especially strong when Tony’s voice broke as he spoke. Steve got a tiny rush of something from just knowing that he did actually have some effect on the other man, an effect that he had not known he had had when they had been together.
It showed that Steve had meant something to Tony, that his love hadn’t been as entirely unrequited as Steve had cried about for so long.
“I still remember what we did,” Tony spoke again. He went quiet for a moment and the sounds of the bar behind him got louder until there was a deep sigh. “I remember the kisses, the touches. I still remember the way you taste.” Tony’s voice had dropped to a frankly obscene husky whisper and, coupled with the soft confession, his speech stopped Steve in his tracks. He was torn between crying and being ridiculously turned on, and he wished he could say that it was a new feeling. Unfortunately, when one was in love with Tony Stark, it was a battle that occurred quite a lot.
“I think about you all the time,” Tony continued and Steve slid his hands under his thighs to stop himself from reaching out for the phone. He didn’t know if he would delete the recording or press redial.
“I think about you when I go to bed, I think about the noises you would make for me and the way that your skin would flush under my touch. I remember the way you’d laugh in a morning when you woke up first, teasing me that you would have to leave me there alone and go for your run unless I could find another way to exercise. I still think about that first night we spent together, the second night, and the last night. I wish we could have more; I wish I could still be the one to swallow your moans, to soothe your cries. I want to make you laugh, want to be there when you come home.”
Steve felt tears well up in his eyes and the urge to stand up and grab the phone got even stronger. He wished that he had the strength to stop the recording from playing, but he knew that he wanted to do the stupid thing of calling Tony back to beg him to come home even more.
“Steve, I…”
It was then that Steve lost it. At the sound of hearing his name in Tony’s voice for the first time in months, he crumbled forward as though his strings had been cut.  
“I love y–”
Steve jumped up at the sound of the machine’s message ending with a cruel beep and almost screamed when the options for the message were listed instead of Tony finishing his words. Tony had just been about to…
No, he can’t have been. Steve heart was beating out of his chest, had he really been saying that?
No, no, he couldn’t have been, Steve thought desperately, frantically. Tony was drunk. It was just the drink talking.
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
Steve barely even registered the automated voice talking him through his options once again. His mind was elsewhere, a thousand miles away.
Tony had never said that before. There had never even been a time that Tony had gotten close to saying that to Steve. As much as Steve had dreamt about it happening, had had to physically bite his own tongue to stop the words from spilling out, Tony had never given any hints that the same thing had been happening to him. Love hadn’t been part of their arrangement.
But, having said that, Steve had been drunk with Tony before and Tony wasn’t an emotional drunk. A happy and overtly-sexual one, yes, but not an emotional drunk. Not like Steve, who frequently professed his love for strangers he met in bars and clubs whenever he had more than two drinks.
Maybe Tony really had been trying to tell him that he actually did…
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
There was a part of Steve that was desperate to ring back and beg Tony to explain himself, to ask whether it had been serious and the God’s honest truth.
But Steve knew that Tony would be mortified if he was in fact black out drunk and hadn’t meant to do any of it. If he’d known that he had rung Steve and spilt all of his secrets to an answering machine, then Tony would have hated himself.
Steve shouldn’t ring back. He needed to let it go.
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
Steve sunk his teeth into his lower lip, trying to focus on the slight sting of that instead of the lump growing in his throat. He tried to placate himself with the thought that Tony might ring back. That would be better in the long run; if Tony remembered what he had done and what he’d said on the phone and rang back to tell Steve that it wasn’t just the drink talking.
Steve could wait for that.
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
But what if Steve was meant to ring back? He let out a loud groan and threw his hands up, heels digging into his eyes hard enough to see swirling patterns of random colours. Why was everything so damn hard?
That could have been what Tony had wanted all along, what he had planned to happen. Steve would ring Tony and tell him that he wanted him. It was Tony’s master plan; it had to be.
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
But Steve had no guarantee that that was indeed the case. His head was starting to hurt with the number of conflicting thoughts firing in his brain, thousands of tiny voices screaming out over each other to be heard and making him feel dizzy. He swayed a little where he stood, the backs of his legs catching the edge of the couch cushions and making him wobble again.
His fingers literally itched to pick up the phone. The words that he would say to Tony were already burning on the tip of his tongue, just as they had been for months.
The only thing holding him back was the question of would Tony actually come back if Steve told him that he loved him too?
Steve didn’t think he would be able to survive watching Tony walk away for a second time.
“Press 1 to listen to the messages again. Press 2 to save the messages. Press 3 to delete the messages.”
Silence. He knew what he had to do.
“Message–”
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reminiscences · 4 years
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today in my group text i started with demo and erin (i met demo, appropriately, on tumblr 10 years ago and i met erin at a media happy hour where we established that we were both from the same part of pennsylvania) we were talking about how none of us are good at remembering like, anything. 
i can remember every stupid thing about my first year in new york but the years where i’m 23-27 all blend together in my head. but that first year was perfect: i was experiencing everything happening in new york for the first time, and it was that thing where none of it was new new, they were just new-to-me experiences that other people had all experienced dozens of times. 
i moved into my bedroom in bushwick off of the wilson L labor day weekend 2014. i had been living with my mom’s family in the rockaways that summer, and my mom’s cousin ed dropped me and my stuff off in bushwick. “this is where you live?” he asked incredulously. there was nothing wrong with the apartment, i just think he hadn’t been to bushwick in years. the apartment itself was something of an artifact: it was a two-story, two-unit building. the 90-something-year-old landlord lived with her family on the ground floor, and our three bedroom apartment was on the second floor. it was a three-bedroom place; it hadn’t been renovated in years. the paint in the unventilated bathroom peeled, the kitchen was enormous by new york city standards, and the living room was between the two other bedrooms, so i always had to walk through someone’s room to watch tv. 
the lease on the apartment belonged to emmy, who was a year older than me and went to newhouse before transferring to the new school. she was an unpaid intern at a photobooth startup whose offices were off the jefferson L, near cobra club (instead of waiting in line to pee at cobra club, we’d just walk across the street and use the bathrooms in the photobooth startup’s offices instead). her parents paid her rent. she smoked more weed than anyone i’d ever met in my life, and my college friends were comp sci majors who sold weed as an extracurricular activity. she had the biggest bedroom and a cat that routinely hissed at me. our other roommate brooke was once emmy’s best friend; brooke was in my year at syracuse. she worked at a boutique in carroll gardens owned by the real-life equivalent of jan levinson-gould on the office. brooke’s room was also big, and mine was small, but i had the only closet and my rent was $425 a month (the landlord clearly was unaware that the neighborhood was turning over; these days, the rent on my bedroom should be closer to $1000) so it was fine. 
i was never much of a weed smoker in college. i just wasn’t very good at it. and then i moved to 1337 bushwick avenue and i started smoking out of emmy’s bong whenever she and brooke would smoke. the railroad living room always stank like bongwater because there were no windows and the doors were always closed. brooke and i would get really high and walk over to the popeyes under the Halsey J, or order burgers from ridgewood eats. i am still not very good at smoking weed but brooke is still one of my favorite people to get high with.
here are some things i learned about and did when i lived in bushwick: doing all your grocery shopping after work at the trader joe’s on 6th avenue; getting off the L at bedford, grabbing falafel at oasis and walking all the way back to bushwick; the concept of a non-suburban target at atlantic terminal; parties in warehouses that had been converted to apartments; going to shows at shea stadium; standing on the balcony at shea stadium; going to union pool with emmy and expressing mild horror as she peed right on the outdoor patio by the taco truck; listening to cloud nothings on every commute into the city at 7:30 in the morning; riding the J train just to see what above-ground looked like in brooklyn; my college boyfriend coming down to visit and not having any idea what to do with him so we went to the comic book store in union square and got ramen and otherwise sat around counting down the hours until he left again; getting my full-time offer after working as a de facto reporter on a $13/hour rate for five months; getting coffee in bushwick at AP Cafe (now closed) on troutman with annie and asta to celebrate my new job; having pizza and champagne at my friend liz’s apartment to celebrate my new job; going to taco bell in union square with emmie (different emmie/emmy) to celebrate both of us getting our job offers on the same day; being extremely single in new york and dancing on an elevated surface at tandem (also RIP); uber rides home from fort greene to astoria on saturday mornings. it took so little to make me happy in new york that year. on a friday night if i came home after work, put on a bodycon dress from urban outfitters with my faux-leather jacket and got to sing at least a couple songs at karaoke at cobra club or slip into a party at house of yes without paying a cover i was content. our nights always ended the same way when i went our with brooke: we would go to bushwick pita palace, eat our falafel in the restaurant, and then take a car home. the idea of taking a car was also new: syracuse didn’t have uber, and we didn’t have the disposable income to make it habitual, so it always felt like a decadent treat when we’d have the car carry us a couple miles down bushwick avenue at 2 am. 
i never signed a lease when i moved in. this would eventually work against me when emmy informed me the day before i went home for christmas that another friend of ours, ben, would be moving into my bedroom in five weeks’ time. i felt like emmy had been thoughtless with sharing this information with me, a person who clearly did not have any sort of upper hand in a situation where someone older than me who’d lived in new york for years and who wasn’t paying her own rent was dictating the rules. 
will, my college boyfriend, was moving down to the city in about a month’s time anyway and the plan was for him to stay with us for just a little while while we got our shit together and found a place; emmy sort of just expedited that process. still, we had an acrimonious end to our friendship. we didn’t speak the entire last month i lived in her apartment, and the night before i left, she threw out all the food in the fridge that was mine. something else happened to the apartment around this same time in december 2014: it was invaded by houseflies. at first there were just a couple, and a flyswatter or some fly tape got rid of them. but then they multiplied. there were 20. then there was 100. then i had to eat all my meals in my bedroom with the door closed to make sure the flies wouldn’t come in. something was rotting in the walls. i think it was the wood itself. we moved out on february 1, into our new apartment in ridgewood, and within a year, 1334 bushwick avenue had been knocked down. the apartment had become unlivable. i drove by it a few weeks ago on my way back from the rockaways with my friends, and in its place they’d built a new apartment. if you hadn’t known it before, you wouldn’t know it changed at all.
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“Let’s get some pasta, green beans, kidney beans, and some lentils.”
Genevieve’s nose scrunched. “I don’t even know what to do with lentils.”
“I have a great recipe for a dal curry. I’ll teach you, it’ll be perfect. We can make a whole day out of it.”
A whole day? For lentils? Genevieve opened and closed her mouth shut, no words came out. 
Arnold’s Singularity Theory
October 26, 2019
Her back was hunched over the wooden desk beside her bed. The high pitched ringing of her alarm snapped her eyes open at six in the morning. The sky was a navy blue; she could make out the few dog walkers on the street. It was her only day off, but the piled work on her table argued otherwise.
Genevieve was alone in her freezing apartment. The heating was broken and when she told Mr. Goldwin, her landlord, he didn’t have his hearing aid on. She had a routine for Sundays: Wake up. Do practice problems. Make a cup of tea. Sleep. 
A dull ache prodded between her shoulder blades, her spine was sorely unaligned. Her face was all sunken cheeks and shades of grey. The sweater bought last month suddenly became a few sizes too big. 
The sun created hues of orange and reds. The blue that slowly peeked out at the sides made it seem like a bowl of dirty paint water being stirred. The evening stillness in her flat was interrupted by the sudden roar of an engine. As she looked out the window, a car zoomed down the road with a blaring radio. An animated lightning bolt was left behind, its speed meant it was gone within a blink. An unsettling feeling made itself a home in the pit of her stomach. She pictured it as swirls, starting off as small slow circles, and eventually growing into sharp hurried edges. 
It was probably nothing, maybe university kids having a laugh, but she didn’t have the time to mull over it because the swinging of her front door and jingling of a bundle of keys sounded loudly. 
Meena opened the door to her refrigerator and the only thing there was a flickering light bulb and an empty box of orange juice. A high pitched shrill followed.
“Gen!” 
Genevieve was out of milk, eggs, and cereal.
She wouldn’t have given it another thought and might’ve ordered take out or popped in at the Smalls’ to split a pizza with Jonah, the neighbour’s kid who she tutored every once in a while. He was the only child of a single dad who worked too many hours at the construction site to make rent. He wasn’t home often and they had a silent understanding of popping in every couple days to keep an eye on him, much like Meena liked to keep tabs on Genevieve. Except, Genevieve wasn’t a scrawny teenage boy who needed to be looked after, something which Meena would refute without a shadow of doubt. At the current state of Genevieve’s flat, the jury would easily side with Meena Ahmed.
Meena had a hand on her hip, her lips pressed in a firm line. She took a deep breath, pinching the carton between her thumb and index finger. “Gen-e-vieve!” 
Meena put her foot down and opened the trash can only to find it overflowing. She held back a gag. 
“Genevieve!” 
After some rustling and movement on the other side of the wall, her feet stumbled out of her bedroom. An unimpressed snarl on her face, Genevieve’s body leaned against the doorway.
“I think by now everyone in this bloody building knows my name,” she said with a textbook in one hand and a pen in the other. She had not looked away from the pages. She hurriedly scratched an answer to her practice problems before it could float away from her brain. “That’s exactly the information they need to kick me out.”
Meena was in her work out clothes, a bright pink neon top with matching trainers. She looked straight out of a healthy living ad. She had glossy black hair, almond shaped eyes, and always smelled of fresh daisies. She had that all American smile and pearly whites that were blinding. She was into juicing, kale, and art history. 
“What is this?”
“What’s what?” Genevieve inquired, her eyes glued on the next problem.
When a moment of silence went by and no response was given, her head shot up.
Her eyes flickered from the trash can—she thought she saw something move in there— to the open door of her empty refrigerator. Her lips fell into an O shape. 
“When you told me you went to the shops on Tuesday, I didn’t know you were talking about two bloody weeks ago,” Meena huffed as she bent down to tie a knot on the black bag, her nose scrunched up. It was atypical to hear her accent try out British sayings, but amusing nonetheless. “Have you been eating?”
“Don’t be so dramatic. I do have instant noodles on the shelf. And I mainly eat at the diner.” Genevieve shrugged, her attention migrated back to her pages. What at first glance looked like to be ten simple problems turned out to be a mess of numbers and formulas that weren’t making any sense. 
“That God awful place serves nothing but heart disease! It takes a whole stack of napkins to soak up that grease!” Meena scoffed as she replaced the bin with a fresh bag. On multiple occasions, she had cornered a frightened Walter to discuss his technique and may have even manipulated him to add a vegan alternative to his infamous pancakes. Thanks to Meena, Flo’s now served gluten-free, vegetarian, and no sugar added options. Genevieve firmly believed Walter did it out of fear, but he won’t admit it. “And instant noodles are not a meal, we have talked about this.”
“‘Course they are! An efficient one too.”
“What happened to ‘We’re gonna change things this year, Meena! Real changes! You won’t recognize me by the time I’m done’?” 
If there was one thing Meena Ahmed took seriously, it was New Year’s resolutions. She kept every one ever since she was old enough to make them. She hadn’t missed a gym day for the past three years. When she said she would take on meditation, she actually did. When her mind became set on studying abroad in London, on January first, she was boarding a plane. 
So when the following December 31st hit and Genevieve was one too many drinks in with Meena, she found herself making empty promises of eating better and taking care of herself. Little did Meena know that to Genevieve, resolutions were much like a two-week free trial. As soon as that time frame was up, you could up and go. 
“I put in a solid effort for a week, and that’s what counts!”
“We need to go to the shops. You have nothing here. You need a list.” The pen between Genevieve’s fingers was swiped and the tearing of paper was quick from her notebook. She was also very much into being intrusive. “Let’s start off with the basics. Eggs, milk, bread. Do you want tea?”
“I can do my own groceries! I’m not a child, Meena!”
“Could’ve fooled me. By the looks of it, you’ve been living off frosted flakes. Do you even know where the closest store is?”
Genevieve scoffed and propped herself on the counter with the back of her elbows. “Of course I do, I am very much capable of taking care of myself.”
Meena paused. Her body turned towards Genevieve with her full, utmost attention. Her eyes scanned her from head to toe, Genevieve was being appraised.
She didn’t put effort to hide the worried crinkle forming between her brows. “Have you showered today? Changed your clothes?”
Genevieve wasn’t a slob, but she did let herself go at times. It was something that Meena, who religiously went to get fresh manicures every two weeks, couldn’t quite grasp.  
“Oh, sod off! I was just about to run myself a bath before you came barreling in.”
She wasn’t, but Meena didn’t need to know that.
“Hm, what type of tea?” Meena asked after rolling her eyes dismissively. 
“Green, please.”
“Let’s get some pasta, green beans, kidney beans, and some lentils.”
Genevieve’s nose scrunched. “I don’t even know what to do with lentils.”
“I have a great recipe for a dal curry. I’ll teach you, it’ll be perfect. We can make a whole day out of it.”
A whole day? For lentils? Genevieve opened and closed her mouth shut, no words came out. She sighed, getting Meena to budge was a faraway dream. She rubbed her strained eyes as Meena listed off something about the lack of vitamins in her diet. She was now on a tangent explaining how an increase in omega-3 and healthy fats in her diet could be beneficial when Genevieve's front door knob jiggled. There was a grunt and a strategic kick to the door, and it flew open.
“Gen!” he panted, his tongue slipped out unintentionally like a dog. His cheeks were flushed a cherry red, probably from the trek up the stairs. Jonah’s backpack was twice the size of him. He wore a shirt with his favourite comic book character, its armpits a shade darker than the rest of his shirt.
He had a ghost white face and his left eye twitched. “Hey, bud, you alright?” Genevieve raised a brow.
Little lungs took in a heavy breath, quite like pulling the handles of a bicycle air pump up.
“I don’t get the trigonometric equations! I have a test tomorrow! Mrs. Hansuld was going over the review in class and it looked like she was speaking Russian— and I know I should’ve been studying last week but they just released the new version of Triton Galaxy X and it was just so beyond cool, Gen. I am already on level twelve, and, well, now I have a test and I don’t know any of it. Nothing. Zero. I don’t think I can even add numbers anymore.”
Genevieve looked at Meena. Her mouth was parted from shock as she blinked at the frazzled boy in front of them. “You’re so tiny… but you, you speak so much and so fast.”
“Um, actually, you’re mistaken.” He raised an accusing finger. His height was a sensitive topic. He was at the stage where all his friends were getting growth spurts and growing like weeds, whereas he had yet to experience his own. “I am almost five foot and that is within the normal height range on WebMD, Docs4You and according to my pediatrician.” 
Genevieve found it amusing that his voice reached a higher pitch the more defensive he got. He was a whistle by the end of his sentence. It also didn’t help that his last name was Smalls and kids in school could be cruel. 
“‘Course, yeah, I’m sorry. My bad.” Meena nodded quickly. She knew she hit a nerve as she backed up slowly. She scratched the back of her neck. “Um, well, Gen and I were planning on picking up groceries, but I’ll go grab ‘em.”
“Great, I’ll go take my books out.” Jonah dragged his bag like a potato sack into the living room.  
“You really don’t have to, Meena.” 
“Gen, it’s no big deal,” she brushed off. “Anyway, I don’t think your pal wants me around much. I need an escape and maybe a magazine too.”
When Meena gulped uncomfortably, Genevieve shook her head. She pushed herself off the counter. 
“Here take my card.” Genevieve shoved the plastic rectangle into Meena’s hand. A comforting squeeze was given. “If you get him one of those milk chocolate bars, he will forgive you in ten minutes tops.”
“Right,” Meena laughed. “I’ll be back in no time.”
***
October 27, 2019
There was a buzzing.
The room was swallowed in darkness, the crescent moon that hung behind the window didn’t provide enough light to warrant a quick search. It was enough of a reason for Genevieve to shut her half opened lids.
Except that the buzzing began again. 
Genevieve groaned into her pillow until the nuisance came to a full stop. Whoever was beckoning her attention could do without it until the sun came up. There was an ache in her neck from the poor posture that her body folded in. To top it off, she had an 8:00 a.m. class. There were not enough hours in the night so she was clinging on to any thread of peace. She tossed and turned until she got the sheets pooled around her in just the right way.
Just when Genevieve was about to slip into the blissful state of unconsciousness, the aggravating buzz started once more. The less than pleased frown on her lips could surely make fresh flowers wilt. Her limbs were heavy with sleep as she moved her duvet to find the pesky device. Genevieve lived in a shithole. Labelling her room a shoe box would be bordering glamorous. Although, it did make it easier to find things. 
It took a couple of shuffles and twists to hear the thud of a screen colliding against the floorboard. The damn thing was still ringing. The brightness on the unknown caller screen made her face glow blue and the back of her eyes burn; she shut them while blindly hitting the green circle. 
“Hm?” Her voice croaked. 
“You know the time I got you out of a thing?”
Their words were slurred and the glowing digits on her windowsill read 5:26 a.m. This meant one thing only. “No, sorry. Wrong number.” 
Genevieve brought the phone away from her face, and just as her finger hovered over the red circle, a needy yelp cried out.
“Gen! Don’t hang up!”
Her eyes rolled with an aggravated sigh, fingers reluctantly pressing the device to the side of her head. There was sleep crusted in the corners of her eyes and she had to blink a couple of times to adjust to the darkness.“What do you want, Niall?”
“You see, I’m in this predicament… and I might need someone sober and with a car.”
“Then call a bloody Uber. Who do you think I am?”
“Look, I thought that. But—”
There was rustling on the other side. After some bickering, another voice spoke through the line. 
“Gen, come get this tosser or else he will pass out on my floor. I swear, I’ll lock up with him inside.” 
“How bad is he?” Genevieve was already pushing aside textbooks on her floor in search of a pair of trousers. With one leg inside and the receiver pressed between her cheek and shoulder, she hopped on her bedroom floor. 
“Not good. He is a right mess.”
“I’ll be there in ten. Just keep giving him water, please? Thanks for the ring, Ted.” She knew Niall well enough to know that this wasn’t his bright and shiny idea. If it were up to him, he would pass out on a park bench. 
“Got your number scratched on the wall for a reason.” The click sounded on the other side, then the line dropped afterwards.
It was true. If you looked hard enough you could make out the chicken scratched scribbles right under the faux payphone mounted inside The Cabinet, where the beers were cheap and Niall Horan was reachable at the slightest inconvenience that struck his life. Last week, it was because he had failed his mid-term. This week, the problem was blonde and walking across campus and shared one too many of his courses.
“No, Gen, she’s just too gorgeous, it’s unbelievable. I think I am in love.”
“I’m pretty sure that’s not how it’s supposed to happen, but congrats.” 
Ted adored Niall immensely when he was bringing more business to the pub and getting the word out, not when he was a blubbering mess on the sticky countertops. He sipped his drinks like water to the point that Ted would morph into a psychiatrist. This happened so often that it had become a ritual. The day Niall stopped burdening him with his problems was a day that failed to exist. 
Much like her room, the small flat didn’t have the lights on. Genevieve didn’t need them to navigate her path, her fingers haphazardly pulled on her boots and plucked the bundle of keys from a mug. 
Her car, a well-loved hand-me-down, was nothing lavish. It got her from point A to B without much resistance on good days. Her foot eased on the gas, with the route was well versed and memorized. After a couple of stop signs, her destination would be reached. The streets were empty and not one car was spotted at any intersections. 
A light breeze roamed around and brought goosebumps to the surface of her skin. She should’ve brought a sweater, she thought, as her teeth began to chatter. Her dark hair was haphazardly twisted into a bun and rested on the top of her head. The car door shut behind her as she quickly jogged across the street to where the pub was located. 
The street was lonely. 
There were only a handful of people that would be up at this hour. This subgroup of people definitely did not include her. She thought she was still partly asleep when there was a familiar figure pacing down the sidewalk towards her. Maybe it was the dark, but even after she rubbed her eyes with the heel of her palms, the slope of the person remained familiar. As they got closer, the once blurred image sharpened, and she felt her stomach flip. 
A slight panic arose in Genevieve’s eyes. He was too close of a distance for her to dash through the doors, and it would’ve been clear that she was making a run from him. She doesn’t recall when exactly their encounters began to turn dreadful. But the reality of the situation wasn’t how, it was the fact that they had. This was the second time he stood across from her. The rate of their reunions was at an all time high after years spent apart. It made a heavy weight rest on her chest, her own personal Sisyphus boulder. 
Tiptoeing and maneuvering their way around each other was the hardest part. There wasn’t a book in the world that taught you how to stand across someone that you once spoke to every day. There was a time Genevieve could tell what each tilt, rise, and fall of Harry’s face meant. How do you go from sharing friends, laughter, a life, to becoming nothing short of hollow strangers? As they stood across from each other on an empty street, they only shared blank stares.
“Hi.” His breathing was a bit uneven, and Genevieve saw the beginnings of roses bloom on his cheek under the streetlights. His moose coloured hair was tucked under a beanie and there was a slight stubble on his chin.
“You are running?” Genevieve squinted at him. Navy gym shorts hung off his hips and a full sleeve athletic shirt was on top. “At five in the morning?” 
Genevieve hated how Harry looked brand new. In the midst of a mountain worth of chaos and hurt, how he managed to look shiny, pre-packaged, and unopened was well beyond her. She had to hold herself together with her bare arms when her seems unravelled. Harry was happier before Genevieve and it was something she had to be okay with. There was no specific reason why. It was just how reality worked. 
“By the time I’m done, it will be six. I’ll have to get up anyway.” His shoulders rose and fell in a mindless shrug. Genevieve brought her arms to fold across her chest, her fists cuddled under her armpits to trap heat.
“You’re insane.” Genevieve shook her head. The neon trainers he had on rivalled the brightness of the open sign hung on the doors of The Cabinet. When Genevieve thought she had made enough of an effort at a civil conversation, she turned around to push the heavy glass door. There was nothing else to say to him.
Conversation with Harry wasn’t always a chore. She was able to speak without having to think twice or second guess herself. Now, it seemed like every word led to a dead end of an inescapable maze.
Genevieve accepted that Harry was no longer the person she came to with her favourite songs, books and a cup of tea. She wondered if whatever reminiscent memoir she had in her memory of him served true till today. Her Harry was never the sober driver or the early bird runner. She did not expect him to stay the same. No, that would be cruel. But a small part of her wanted to know if she had known him at all. 
Before her weight gave to the door, his voice chimed up.
“You’re drinking?”
“God no, I’m, um—No. I’m here for a friend.” Genevieve paused, a deep breath circled her lungs and helped her string some words together. “He’s gone a bit over the top.” She chuckled. It wasn’t soft and light, but rather felt like sandpaper. 
“Oh, right. ‘Course.” Harry rubbed at the back of his neck with his fingers. He blinked to the ground, the cracked concrete suddenly became much more of an interest. “I wasn’t— it’s just, I run this route every morning and I never see you and maybe I thought—”
“It’s okay, Harry.” He began to run his fingers through his hair, the beanie scrunched in his left hand. “I really need to help my friend, yeah?” 
“Right, I’ll see you around?”
Genevieve left his question hung in the air like forgotten laundry on a washing line. She thought it was better than saying I hope not. She didn’t want to mention that she tried to avoid him to the best of her ability. Genevieve knew his habits, his patterns. She had knowledge about places he went to, so, naturally, she didn’t. It was a triumph for her to go without months of seeing him. But there was only so much she could do. Juggling probabilities of his whereabouts would never assign her a one hundred percent assurance of erasing him, even with a ninety-nine percent confidence interval.
“Genny?” he called out again. The rational part of her wanted to pretend she didn’t hear him and walk through the door. Instead, she took a breath through her nose and turned around slowly. She wrapped her arms tighter together as the temperature dropped by the second. “Um, do you think we could talk sometime?”
There was a frailness to his voice. He was nervous. Genevieve knew this because he had made a mess of his hair with the number of times his fingers combed it back. 
The next words off her tongue painted a sad smile on his raspberry chapped lips. He looked exhausted, the grey shadows under his eyes beckoned her to not beat around the bush.
“We are talking, Harry.”
Confrontation was a foreign concept to Genevieve. Brushing it under the rug and forgetting about it seemed the best way for her. If it is out of sight, it will be out of mind. But Harry had other plans. He wanted to strip the house down and uncover every corner Genevieve thought to be her hiding spot. It was an intrusion and she didn’t want him to come knocking down doors. 
“No, I mean—”
“It was nice seeing you,” she said, her mouth set into a thin, straight line as she held eye contact. They were still the same deep green with golden flecks. She had seen them angry, hopeful, teary, but right now they were desperate.
The slight tilt to her head told Harry not to push it. To leave things as they were. He served as a walking reminder of loss and all the things she wanted to forget. Their situation did not have to go back to a normal distribution; their data was skewed, and the standard deviation was large enough to wedge a significant distance from their past to present.
Change was good, even if it was different. Over time, the further apart she was from him the better it was for her. And she hoped it was the same for him.  
No one warned Genevieve that holding a grudge required discipline and so much energy. She felt drained, her bones became weak enough they could snap in half. There was no brochure that outlined the ins and out of the process. Your brain worked overtime to disguise clenched jaws and tight fists without any compensation.
On the surface, everything appeared smooth and stonelike. Beneath, lied the hot white anger. That type of anger was something no one wanted to intentionally claim; it was an orphan. It builds and builds and builds until you cannot see through it. You’re blinded, you’re revengeful. 
“Yeah.” Harry swallowed a lump in his throat. He teetered on the balls of his feet and toes with his bottom lip caged between his teeth. He was debating on what to say next, and Genevieve wished it would be something short and quick. She wanted him to say a casual goodbye that was heard between strangers in a coffee shop or book store. Something that didn’t make her want to burst into a river of tears. “One more thing.”
“Hm?”
“Nice shirt.” There was a quirk to one side of his mouth where a dimple had coined itself on his cheek. It was an innocent compliment. Something a friend might say to another. Before she could give a reply, he had turned around and broken into a light jog.
Genevieve watched his figure become muddy until the darkness hid him completely. It was an odd thing to say, her appearance was something she could give less of a shit about at five in the morning. She had literally gotten out in the clothes she slept in. 
Genevieve brushed his words off. She wanted a dry goodbye and he delivered. It was nothing more.
Without thinking twice, she pushed the doors open and warmth from inside greeted her. The pub remained looking the same since she had walked in with her two best mates three years before. It was a hole in the wall, fixed in between a thrifting and convenience store. It littered with mismatched chairs and alcohol stains, a pool table and dart boards lined the further corner, and a random sports channel glowed on the box TV. Niall’s blond hair was easily spotted; it laid on the century old cherry wood bar. The posture his back was slumped on the stool insured neck cramps.
The doors behind the bar came swinging open as the bells above chimed of her entrance. A rag rested on his shoulder and he wore a well loved band shirt from his touring days. For someone who was found frowning on most days, Ted beamed a smile at Genevieve. 
“Good! You’re here!” His shoulders dropped in relief as she made her way closer to her friend. “He’s been miserable.”
“Gen? Is that you?” Niall grumbled from his position. “Oh, shut it, Ted. You’re giving me no option but to take my money elsewhere,” Niall slurred as he lifted his head off the wood. There were lines indented on his cheek from his possible snooze. 
“Those are empty words.” Ted rolled his eyes easily and used his rag to clean up the surface that Niall previously occupied. 
“You know what else is empty, Theodore? This glass!” It rattled against the countertop when Niall dramatically set it down. 
Ted’s shoulders shook as he chuckled, crinkles lining the corners of his eyes. “I’m not pouring you another drop, mate.”
“Who said it was for me? Have you seen Gen? She looks proper in need of a few.”
With a deep sigh, Genevieve took the stool beside Niall. Her head slowly turned to scan the pub. A place that was the heart of loud laughter and cheers was dimmed down since they were the only ones. With her elbows propped up on the counter, she pressed her index fingers to her temples. 
“You do look a bit poorly. Under the weather?”
“No, not at the moment,” she sighed.
“Well, you look like shit,” Niall blurted.
“Thanks, Niall, really.” Genevieve glared with a frown. “Remind me to never do a kind thing for you ever again. Sorry I wasn’t in full glam when you called at ass crack of dawn.”
“Did you see a ghost or something? You look sick.” Niall squinted his eyes and pinched her cheek between his thumb and index finger. It was rather quickly slapped away with a snarl. “Ouch!”
“Nothing a pint can’t cure.” A tall glass slid in front of Genevieve. Condensation dripped and pooled on the counter. The frothy foam rested on top and sat at the rim without tipping over. “On the house.” 
A Stella didn’t sound like a bad idea to Genevieve. She felt like she deserved one. After all, two encounters with the person she disliked the most was beginning to become exhausting. The car keys weighed down in her pocket, her bones ached and her temples pulsed. A tired yawn stretched her face as the drink laid rested on the cherry wood. 
Niall scoffed as Genevieve stared at the drink for a moment too long. “If you don’t take it, I will!” 
His fingers crept to grasp the glass, and Genevieve batted his greedy hands away. “Paws off, Niall.”
A cold drink couldn’t hurt, she decided. The first sip eased the tense muscles in her shoulders. Niall found a basket of chips to pick at in the meantime. He probably ordered them to soak up his alcohol intake.
Genevieve could hear Ted in the kitchen. The shifting of pots and pans meant that he was officially closing up for the night. She thought the least she could do was flip the remaining barstools on the counter. 
In the two seconds that she had abandoned her glass, she had turned to see Niall gulping like fish.
“No more!” He made a strangled sound as the rim was pulled from his lips. “Don’t need your puke in my car.”
Genevieve threw back what was left of the drink. “You could just pull the window down and I’ll mind me business.”
Genevieve squinted her eyes to catch a better look at Niall and she noticed he was turning a few shades greener. He had on a dopey grin and his eyes were almost shut. Niall became whiny when he got sick, and if Genevieve were to let that happen in the pub there would be no chance of him leaving.
“How about we get you to an actual sink, yeah?”
With an arm thrown over her shoulder and Niall almost near collapsing on her, she yelled a farewell to Ted. He was more preoccupied with rubbing the stove clean but he got the message, yelling muffled goodbye of his own.
The car parked across the street never felt further away. Niall was in his own world, mumbling some drunk words into her hair. Genevieve caught some that thanked her for taking care of him. She took each step slowly. 
Getting Niall into the passenger seat was a process, one she thought she had got down pat. She had done everything as planned, put his head to the right, made sure he had enough room to stretch his legs and of course, double checked to see if he had his phone and wallet on him. Apparently, this was taking too long and Niall reached over to slam the door shut.
Genevieve had jumped back just in time that no fingers were caught between doors. She sighed in relief before shooting a glare at Niall. He looked at the fabric that stretched from her stomach. “Oops?” 
Genevieve rolled her eyes at Niall, who burst into giggles because it turned out everything was more hilarious at 5:00 a.m. She tugged at the material.
It was old and ratty. It was two sizes too big and hung off her frame, there were stains, holes, some she never remembered putting in herself. It took her a moment, with the fabric bunched between her digits, the gears in her brain set into place. The sharp intake of breath hit the back of her throat and the air on the street suddenly froze.
***
October 27, 2019
“It’s stupid, Gen.” The clicking of a game controller didn’t halt. The animated character on the screen ran towards a glowing torch. Jonah adjusted the headpiece he had on over his ears, probably muting himself so the other kids wouldn’t hear Genevieve lecture him. Beside him sat a bowl of finished popcorn on the sofa, like his player two, and unpopped kernels rattled every time he enthusiastically surged towards the TV screen.  
“This is due in two days, Jonah,” Genevieve emphasized. She had unzipped his backpack. His agenda was hard to read, his chicken scratch writing almost made Genevieve mistake a significant date for scribbles. It was for his English class, something that he had yet to mention, which Genevieve found odd because he always told her about his school work. Okay, it was more like Genevieve made sure he told her, but same thing regardless. “How are you planning on starting and editing and finishing it?”
She knew better than to talk to boys in the middle of a game. There was no use. Her experience regarding it only went one way, everything went in one ear and out the other. It was fascinating, really; their eyes would glaze over and for a short ten minutes the real world wouldn’t exist. They would become so immersed in whatever universe was in front of them. It had been once explained to Genevieve as almost the same thing as reading a good book, but with the exception that the player was put in charge of the main character’s decisions. 
His tongue poked out at the side and the Playstation keys were innocent victims to his quick jabs. His shoulders deflated when the message on the screen informed him of the scoreboard. He grumbled something under his breath before his miniature joystick highlighted the option to opt for another round. “I’ll edit it while I’m writing it.” He shrugged mindlessly. 
“I’m being serious.”
“I am too.” 
“What’s up with you? You usually love finishing your assignments for Mrs. Yu’s class.”
“Look how stupid the prompt is,” Jonah grumbled. Genevieve’s fingers were already pulling out a crumpled rubric and pressing it flat so it stayed without folding in on itself. Eyes scanned the short blurb of instructions which Jonah soon summarized. “Pick a month and personify it. What type of pretentious—”
“I think it’s very neat. Creative. Have you selected a month yet?” 
“Sure.” His flat tone said otherwise.
Genevieve rolled her eyes at his antics. “If you don’t spend enough time on this, she will give you an easy fifty. That will bring down your average and universities look at that. What will you do then?”
She reached over to the table to take a sip from her water bottle.
The Smalls residence was the same layout when compared to her flat, so it didn’t take long to get familiar to it. Granted, it was more furnished and had Jonah’s gaming consoles already hooked up to use. The latter being the deciding factor of Jonah’s executive decision to procrastinate his work for another week. Usually, Jonah would pop in after school to Genevieve’s, but she had just returned from a shift at the diner and his door was cracked ajar.
Like many days, his father left for the construction site and wouldn’t be back until after dinner, and the only appliance Jonah knew how to use was a microwave. Genevieve had some food which Walter packed for her and it was more than enough to share with a growing boy. His diet was worse than hers. He could go weeks on Pop Tarts and Twizzlers from his cafeteria vending machine. Plus, he wasn’t bad company to have around. 
“Easy. Play the dead mum card. Works like a charm.” 
Genevieve spluttered the water out, coughing since it had gone down the wrong tube. 
“Jonah!”
Her jaw went slack and her eyes widened, a slight worry arose. She wasn’t well versed on the ins and outs of parenting—she preferred to see him as a younger sibling— or child trauma, but even she had a hunch that there was something troubling and incredibly off about the way he had referred to the passing of his mother so nonchalantly. 
“What?” Jonah asked, dumbfounded. 
“You can’t just say stuff like that!”
“‘Course I can. You have no idea the amount of pity and sympathy they throw at your feet. At first, I despised it, because obviously I wasn’t a knocked over puppy like they were making me out to be.” His character on the screen jumped to deflect an obstacle. A triumph smile was the direct result. “But then, I was like what the hell, you know? Like if it’s there already, why not play my cards right and score some sort of advantage from it?”
Genevieve blinked. She tilted her head to attempt understanding his analogy. 
“Well, that sure is one way to look at it,” she said after a short pause. “But I am not gonna let you do that to Mrs. Yu. Something tells me you’ve already done it one too many times.”
He paused his game and finally turned to her, giving her more than his side profile at last. A hellish grin split his face. “How else do you think I got a month extension on that book report and a perfect score on our last quiz?”
“I don’t know… I had assumed hard work and honesty?”
“Wake up, Gen! This is the real world and the rules are different in this game!” 
“Alright, bud, you’re cut off from this game.” Genevieve pushed the power button on the TV remote that laid limply to her right. The screen became black with a click. Jonah’s back hit the backrest of the sofa, the bouncy cushion slightly propelled him further before absorbing his weight. “Let’s at least get started on a rough copy, how does that sound?”
He groaned with his head tilted back and eyes shut. “Excruciating, torturous, maybe illegal.”  
“I’m asking you to get a start on your project, not abducting you.” His pace to grab the rest of his belongings from the table two meters away from him could rival a snail. “Now, do you have a month in mind?”
“I was thinking maybe like February, December, or even October.” He opened an empty page in his notebook and clicked the top of his mechanical pencil to give away some lead. “Because, like, it will be easy to build a character off them because they all have some sort of festive holiday thing to them.”
“That’s a great start. But don’t you think it’s a bit expected? It is a creative piece, so let’s maybe brainstorm something out of the box. Try picking a month that doesn’t have a holiday attached to it.”
He sighed deeply through his nose. The thought of putting in a smidge bit of effort was like pulling teeth.
Jonah had started to doodle in the margins. He drew three tallies, evenly spread, and added another row of them. He then connected them in a way which Genevieve recognizes to be the symbol on a superhero’s chest. 
“August?” 
Genevieve swallowed a bug.
“Why did you pick that? What significance does it have to you?” Genevieve doesn’t miss a beat, it aided to mask her surprise. 
“Well, I don’t know!” He throws his hands up exasperatedly. “You said pick one, so I did.” He pointed out, his tone reminded Genevieve of how a middle schooler says “duh”. 
“Come on. Think a bit.” 
“It’s like... sort of like the last month of summer and it brings in fall. Which is the season where we witness life slip away, but barely because it happens so slowly.” 
Genevieve’s heart swells for two reasons. Jonah was a bright kid, well beyond his age. It was something he hid and purposefully tried his utmost best not to let shine through. Genevieve had guessed the reason behind his reluctance was mainly because Jonah was at that age where he just wanted to fit in and not stand out like a sore thumb. But every once in a blue moon, he would slip up. When he allowed himself to think out loud, his ideas lined in a way where it wasn’t just the tip of the iceberg anymore. The depth gave away his brilliance. 
The first time Genevieve was left speechless by him was when he analyzed one of his favourite comic book characters with an intensity that put the burning sun to shame. Then again when he asked her to edit his essay on a world issue. And once more when he asked her how to approach a girl in his science class that he clearly fancied. Genevieve tried to define this tendency of his as a recurring variable in Jonah’s equation. 
In many more ways than one, August held an importance like no other to Genevieve. It was a month that was easily overlooked because it was caught in a war for attention between the summer months and upcoming winter holidays. Its propinquity to strong competition was something that made it easy to forget. If it was a person, she was sure it would be a quiet boy around her age. Probably with a penchant for befriending girls and breaking hearts so slowly that you don’t even know it’s happening. 
Genevieve hummed in agreement with Jonah. 
“Go on.”
“Let’s say if I were to go with this month, I wouldn’t focus on death because that would be something colder, like December or January or like the first snowfall.” His pencil sounded against his notebook. A string of notes were effortlessly coming together as Jonah continued. He suddenly stopped writing and his face scrunched in thought as he stared at the blank TV screen with as much focus that could convince you it was on. “I think August is knowing you’re losing someone or something without the assurance of finding them again... and letting it deliberately happen.”
“Isn’t that almost death?” Genevieve raised a brow. 
“Almost, but not quite.” He tapped his pencil to the metal like coils that ran down the side. “August is loss, parting away. You know, something along the lines of donating old clothes, a friend becoming a stranger, even placing car keys somewhere different.”
Genevieve knew exactly what he was talking about. She couldn’t really describe the feeling of losing a friend in words with sharp precision. It was the same as repeating a word again and again until it came to the point you deluded yourself into thinking it belongs to another language completely.  
Jonah peered up, awaiting a response or another prompt to further his development. Instead, Genevieve smiled sadly and shakes her head. 
“What?!”
“Nothing.” She laughed softly, a bit winded.
There was just something about him that was light years ahead. Something so pure and good and applaudable that made you think about the character that so many adults lacked and how it was sitting in front of you in a corked up bottle of a preteen boy. He had lost his mother, his father wasn’t around, he didn’t have many friends at school, and he picked the month of August. He had hit the nail on what it was so eloquently that Genevieve could burst into tears. But she refrained, instead opted to narrow her eyes jokingly his way.
“You’re just too smart for your own good, is all.”
That night she went to sleep thinking about August.
How he probably wore wrinkled shirts so effortlessly, with his hair in a gentle disarray. People would make a note to comment on his ridiculously long eyelashes, but she favoured his eyes. They were round and shiny and reminded her of a cloudy marble, the colour of slate. He was charming but had an air of coyness about him that was inviting and deliberate. With skin the colour of oat and a smile like rain, it came or it didn't, he was a knockout. She hypothesized the variable that contributed to his allure had less to do with his looks and more with how he made you feel. 
He made you feel wanted, he made you feel like you were someone. 
***
October 31, 2016
It didn’t take long for Genevieve to spot him, his back was slouched against the red brick wall of a tall building. A pair of old wayfarers sat on the bridge of his nose and his arms pretzeled over his chest easily. His jaw went slack then tight, this pattern repeated like clockwork until Genevieve got close enough to notice he was working a piece of gum lazily. With his head tilted to the sky and one leg crossed over the other, he was imitating textbook boredom. 
“Do you have it?” Dried leaves crunched beneath the sole of his boots as he unravelled his legs and stood up straighter than before as Genevieve’s figure approached near. She could tell he was raising his brows, but they didn’t make an appearance, still hidden behind his frames.
“Yeah.” Genevieve dipped her index finger and thumb to the front right side pocket of her jeans. It took some wiggling to pluck out a piece of metal, smooth on one side and teeth jagged on the other. The metal was warm when dropped into his open palm. “Why the sudden need for it? Have you finally taken up my advice on actually locking your doors yet?”
It was natural for him to give Genevieve a spare key, a strategy that had served him well on multiple occasions. He had lost his more than once within the span of the first two months of getting his flat. This habit had come to a point that recovery was not an option; he preferred to keep his door unlocked anyway. Genevieve pointed out it was a safety hazard, but he liked to call it being efficient. In between locking himself out or forgetting his own key, Genevieve was a dependable solution.
“Not quite, don’t get too ahead of yourself.” She had seen his long black eyelashes hit the inside of his sunglasses, a clear indicator of him rolling his eyes. “I need it for a friend. He doesn’t have a place to stay for a while, and I offered the couch. Are you done with your lectures for the day?”
“I’m afraid not. Got one more and I’m free,” Genevieve sighed defeatedly. She shifted her bag from her right shoulder to the left. Today, she only had her laptop and one textbook, but the strap of her bag still created red dents on her shoulders from the weight. “Did you end up going to your tutorial?”
He gave her a look that was enough of an answer. His glasses rose on his face as a result of him scrunching his nose up in disgust. The tips of his mouth pulled downwards as sourness glazed his features. 
“If it’s before noon, I’m not going; you know this, Genny.” He rubbed his nose with the back of his finger. “Can I tempt you to skip by offering the first round at The Cabinet?”
“It’s like…” Genevieve glanced at her wrist watch. “One.”
“I’m not hearing a no.” He grinned, a smile pressed deeply into his face. “Come on, Gen! You’ll get to meet my pal too. I think you’ll get along really well. And Ted is offering half off today. It’s a win-win. What could be more important than good company?”
“Dynamic Systems Differential Equations, unfortunately.” The course name was a mouthful and her dull tone was enough insight into what it was like.
“That sounds like a migraine.”
“Oh, you don’t know the half of it.” She laughed sans humour already picturing the formulas needed for her practice problems. “Speaking of migraines, what are we doing as costumes for Hannah Morton’s party?”
He squinted his eyes and paused for a moment. Migraine Morton was a nickname that stuck onto the bottom of your sneaker like chewing gum. “Is that tonight?” 
“Well it is the thirty-first of October.” Her arms stretched to gesture towards the building she had exited from. “Do the carved pumpkins and the stick on ghost figures not make that obvious enough?”
“Fuck, I don’t know.” He winced in reply to her previous question. A fingernail scratched at the corner of his forehead. “I was thinking of piggybacking off whatever you’re dressed as.”
Genevieve’s brows creased and her head tilted. “What do you mean?” 
“If you’re Frankenstein, I’ll be the doctor.” He pointed to Genevieve and then to himself. “Bonnie, Clyde. Sherlock, Watson.” 
“You want to go coordinating? Isn’t that a bit…”
“What?” He prompted with a laugh spluttering from his lips. It was fresh and bright, and Genevieve didn’t know exactly when it would stop sounding like this. He had amusement glittering in his gaze, there was a youthfulness about him that was so prominent and bold. He leaned closer. “Are you too cool to go coordinating now? Don’t tell me you can’t sit beside me at the lunch table too.”
It was ironic because they both knew Genevieve had always chose him to split her fruit roll-up candy since pre-school. In return, he would never pick up the red smarties whenever they shared a pack because those were her favourite, despite the number of times you told her the colour doesn’t affect the taste. 
“I don’t know, a bit coupley? I mean, it worked well when we were eight. Would you think Hannah would mind?” 
To this, he scoffed.
“Of course not, don’t be ridiculous. Why would she?”
“She’s clearly into you, like a lot, and I don’t want to get in the middle of that. And I hear she’s going around saying that she’s your girlfriend.”
He closed his eyes gently and breathes out a sigh. “She’s not my—”
“I know that! You know that! But does she?” 
His phone buzzed and the question hung in the air until his fingers stopped their dance on the screen. He looked over her shoulder as if waiting for someone. 
“Doesn’t matter, she will soon enough.” He shrugged, his voice was distracted and far away. And that was one thing about him that Genevieve couldn’t shake off no matter how hard she tried. He broke hearts knowingly, and did it anyway. “What time do you want me to come pick you up?”
“I’m done with class at five. I’ll have to stop by Party City at six, then do my modules so that will take me till nine, then I—” Rolling tires sounded loudly against the pavement as they approached behind her. The closer they got, the less time she had to finish her train of thought. The radio was a few notches down from its max setting.
“Be ready at nine. No later.” He gripped her shoulders with both hands, brought her close and pressed a messy kiss against her hair. He smelled of cigarettes and toothpaste and beer. 
“No, I won’t be, I have to do my laundry and—”
“Great. Sounds good. I’ll see you then.” 
And he was gone. He opened and shut the passenger side of the beat up Honda Civic in two seconds. The driver was familiar to Genevieve, it was another blonde, not Hannah, with thick eyeliner. She was a regular turn up at every monotonous party thrown each weekend. She had seen her get too close to him on more than one instance. He convinced Genevieve to poke in at a few, but the scene was like a broken record and her lack of interest dwindled in them too quickly.
It once even prompted her to bring her textbook to do practice problems to keep her from falling asleep as drunk students lit up a joint around her. Every once in a while he would trap grey smoke in his cheeks and blow it directly on her face to elicit a scowl, something he found beyond hilarious when his inhibitions weren’t intact. 
The girl’s hair was knotted and she had a less than pleased demeanour, probably nursing a hangover of her own. She stomped her foot down on the gas. He didn’t even have his seatbelt done before their bodies lurched backwards and the car zoomed out from the parking lot of the mathematical sciences department building. The radio became only a faint sound away the longer Genevieve stood there. 
By the time she got to Party City, the student working behind the counter gave her an apologetic look. All the decent costumes were sold out. He led her to the back of the store where the remaining costumes were kept. Being a university student meant she couldn’t break the bank for something so trivial. In the plastic bin lied a pair of fangs and a deflated witches hat that had a tear near the rim. There were masks, but she would be better off by taking a paintbrush to her face. 
She sighed deeply, her lips pursing in thought. It was obvious her plans of coordinating were a dream far away. That was until she turned around. 
A long hat cowered in the corner. It had thick red and white stripes, she pictured it with eyeliner drawn whiskers and a cat ear headband from last year. Maybe even a red bow around her neck. What really sealed the deal for her was the red shirt hung on a hanger right above it. It had a white circle right in the dead centre. The font within the circle was a recognizable outfit from a famous children’s book character. Bonnie and Clyde, Sherlock and Watson, and now Cat in the Hat and Thing 1.
The relief that came along with not trying to maneuver creating an outfit at home was enough to get Genevieve to run to the till. Arts and crafts were not her strongest suits.
The same guy’s eyebrows shot up, surprised at her quick decision making. He shut his latest issue of Men’s Healthy Living and leaned his weight off his elbow. He scanned the items and Genevieve handed him the crisp bill. Before he could finalize the sale, Genevieve thought back to the couch friend that would be accompanying them tonight. Did he have a costume? Inferring from the fact that he didn’t have a roof of his own, a lousy Halloween costume was the least of his worries. But Genevieve found her feet trailing back towards the shop and grabbing the shirt that said Thing 2. The guy added it to her final bill and packed her belongings in a black plastic bag. 
He was late and Genevieve was thankful that her laundry was dry and folded neatly. 
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This old Coffee Shop I Love so Much | Cassian Andor x Reader (Oneshot)
Setting Prompt: Coffee Shop AU
Words: 1838
Fandom: Rogue One (Star Wars)
Warning: Not much, mostly fluff and mutual pining
Summary: You develop a crush on a regular customer who, unfortunately, works for a man that wants to shut the cafe down. Title inspired by Falling in Love in a Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg
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There was a man that frequented the cafe, Rogue One, where you worked alongside your two friends, Jyn and Bodhi. The cafe was owned by the most amazing bosses you could ever have, Chirrut and Baze, who claimed that the sign was supposed to be Rouge One, but the sign maker got it wrong. Chirrut liked the sound of Rogue and kept it. This man, however, seemed to be a close friend to the cafe owners.
The first time you’ve encountered him, he had walked in with wind tousled brown hair and a brown scarf tucked under his chin, a long overcoat covering his figure. He smiled at you, a hint of a dimple on his cheek, and gave you his order. You had to snap your jaw shut and input his order into the system using shaky hands.
“You’re new here,” he said smoothly, his voice making your cheeks heat up.
“Um, yeah, I, uh, started several months ago,” you said, trying to get the stubborn cash register spit out his receipt.
“It’s fine,” he assured you, “are Chirrut and Baze in today?”
“Yes, I think they’re in their office upstairs. Do you want me to-”
“It’s fine,” he said again, taking out the latest smartphone and started to ring someone, “Thank you.”
After that, he would come in once every month, then once every other week, then weekly, then every other day. Jyn, who had worked at Rogue One longer than you, said that it was unlike him to stop by this often.
“Who is he, really?” you asked her.
Jyn’s face scrunched up in distaste. “He works for an asshole called Draven who’s been wanting to shut the cafe down in favor of a more mainstream coffee chain,” she growled.
“But it’s not his fault,” Bodhi piped in, “He’s got his marching orders.”
“He doesn’t have to follow them,” Jyn mumbled under her breath before continuing on with her task.
“He seems nice, though,” Bodhi said optimistically, “Chirrut and Baze would have driven him off if they didn’t like him, and, like Jyn said, it really is odd that he’s here more often. Do you think Draven is close to closing us down?”
“I will start a rebellion before they could take Rogue from us.”
“Enough!” a stern voice called from the kitchen. Bodhi jumped and went back to his sweeping. “Mr. Andor is coming back later today and I don’t want my employees gossiping when he gets here.”
“Sorry, Baze,” the three of you muttered.
Like clockwork, the man, Mr. Andor, came over and gave his usual order. Jyn had you take over for her while she went to get more pastries for the display. You smiled at him and readied his order, doing the usual small talk that the two of you had every time he visited.
“How’s your paper going?” he asked.
You looked up from the Espresso machine with wide eyes. “I didn’t think you’d remember that. Um, it’s coming along,” you said with a shrug. “How’s your new dog, Mr. Andor?”
“Please, call me Cassian, and he’s actually very easy to train but he does have an attitude.”
You hummed. “Maybe you can bring him over the next time you visit,” you suggested.
“I will.” You handed him his drink. “Thank you. You know, you’re the only one that makes it perfect.”
Your cheeks heated at the compliment. “I don’t know about that…”
“It’s true!” Cassian insisted, taking a gulp for emphasis. Your eyebrows shot up, knowing how hot the drink was. He sputtered, turning away and wiped his mouth.
“Um… are you okay?” you asked slowly.
Cassian waved you off and gave a thumbs up. He straightened up when he heard footsteps walking down the stairs. Chirrut walked down steadily, his hand running along the railing.
“Mr. Imwe,” Cassian addressed him, standing at attention like a soldier.
“Please, Cassian, it’s been years. Using my surname implies that you bring grave news,” Chirrut said, “Do you?”
Cassian hesitated, his eyes flickering towards you then back at Chirrut. “May I speak with you and Malbus somewhere private?”
Chirrut exhaled slowly through his nostrils and nodded. As if he heard everything, Baze emerged from the kitchen, setting down a rag and his apron on a counter. Baze nodded over at Cassian then gently guided his husband back upstairs.
You watched as the men went upstairs without sparing a glance towards you, wringing your apron until another customer came in to occupy you. After you dealt with that customer, you saw Bodhi cleaning tables with a deep frown on his face, his lips drawn into a thin line. You could tell that he had seen the interaction and most likely shared your worries.
It had been an hour when they came back downstairs with solemn expressions on all three of their faces. Cassian said his goodbyes to them and walked out of the cafe. You’d be lying to say that you weren’t bothered by Cassian not saying goodbye to you, but with the current mood, your feelings weren’t much of a priority.
Jyn stood next to you by the counter, setting down a tray of freshly baked goods and waited for the news. Even Bodhi stopped his cleaning and made his way over to the two owners.
Baze regarded the three of you and sighed. “Cassian came here to tell us that unless we increase our sales in the next few months, Draven will shut us down and replace us with a coffee chain.”
“What?” Jyn shouted. “He can’t do that! We won’t be able to make that much in such a short amount of time. There must be another way, right?”
“Unless someone else beat Draven to it while also allowing us to keep Rogue One, I don’t see another way.”
“Don’t worry,” Chirrut said calmly, “All is what the force wills it. It will be alright.”
Baze grimaced. “I wish I shared your optimism, no matter how delusional it can get.” Chirrut slapped his shoulder and went to sit in the back office. Baze placed his hands on his hips and turned to the three of you. “We can start thinking of ways to increase sales. Maybe special events, reward systems, anything. Until then, continue as normal. I don’t want any customers knowing what’s behind the scenes.”
“Of course, Baze,” Bodhi said. Jyn looked like she wanted to say something, but nodded instead, going back to the kitchen to busy herself.
“Is Cassian coming back?” you asked quietly as you continued to wring your apron.
Baze gave you a sympathetic smile. “I don’t know.”
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Rogue One tried everything from stamp cards, to limited time recipes, holiday specials, and even open mic. Sales were certainly going up, but just shy from the needed threshold that would save the cafe. Cassian hadn’t come back since the day he gave the news and your friends knew that you were saddened about the turn of events. You knew it was foolish to have a crush on someone you only saw in the cafe, so you tried to turn your focus on work and school.
You finished your shift and stayed at Rogue One to study, taking up a table in the corner with your laptop open and your books open. Jyn plopped down on the seat next to you and shoved a newspaper on top of your notebook. You grimaced at her, trying to push the newspaper away.
“No, look,” she insisted, pointing at the headline.
It was a couple, Leia Organa and Han Solo, that ran a business together called “Rebel Republic” that went around helping indie businesses by investing and giving them financial support. They had saved several indie bookstores and comic book stores as well as mom-and-pop stores around the cities.
“We could get them to help us,” you agreed. “But how?”
“Hm, maybe we could-”
The door chimed, signalling another customer. Jyn immediately stood out of habit, readying to go into customer service mode. She frowned when she saw who it was.
“Didn’t know you’d show up,” Jyn remarked.
You looked away from the newspaper towards the newcomer. “Cassian?” His name escaped your lips.
He smiled sheepishly and nodded. He looked good, more like a businessman. Unlike his previous casual but still professional attire, he wore a suit that fitted him quite nicely, his brown haired slightly combed.
“I’ve, uh, brought some friends over who I know you’d want to meet,” Cassian said, gesturing to the door.
A small woman with neatly braided brown hair and a tall rough looking man with a roguish style brown hair walked through the door. The woman smiled at the homely atmosphere and turned to Cassian.
“You were right, Cassian, this place is quite cosy,” she said.
Jyn’s eyes widened, looking at the couple, then down at the newspaper. “You’re, you’re, oh my god. You’re Leia Organa and Han Solo!” Jyn said.
Leia smiled at her. “Cassian has been telling us about this lovely coffee shop that he’d frequented. When we heard that Draven was planning to get rid of it, we had to step in, so we got Cassian to show us the place.”
“For me, it’s more to spite Draven,” Han said, then flinched at the slap Leia landed on his arm.
“Why are you helping us?” Jyn asked Cassian, hands on her hips.
“I quite Draven’s company and went to work for Leia and Han,” he said, “I’m sorry for the way I’ve left things the last time I was here, but I want to make it up to you guys.”
“Thank you,” you told Cassian. He smiled, the familiar dimple smile that you can’t help admitting that you loved and missed so much.
“I’ll go get Chirrut and Baze,” Jyn said, “Sit anywhere you like.”
Leia looked between the two of you and smirked, dragging Han away to the other side of the cafe to give you privacy. Cassian shyly gestured to the seat next to you, which you pulled out for him. He sat down slowly, as if giving you time to change your mind.
“I’m not mad at you,” you said, seeing him visibly relax at your words.
“I’m sorry that I didn’t speak to you before I left the last time I was here. I wasn’t sure you’d wanted to speak to me after knowing what was going on. I’ve worked under Draven for a long time. I was good at what I did and I couldn’t see myself doing anything else. Why would I when it paid well? The guilt selling small business away was something I thought I had to get used to, something I had to numb myself with, but I was wrong. Chirrut and Baze were very kind to me and saw right through me. When I went to see Leia and Han about Rogue One, they saw my potential and I was finally able to leave Draven’s company.”
“I’m glad that you’re back,” you said, grabbing his hand and squeezing it.
“Me, too.”
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Boston Boy - Chapter 8
A/N Just a little bit of fluff to start your week off with.
Kate’s mother had decided to make a big breakfast for everyone that Sunday morning.  She’d already set the table and was flipping blueberry pancakes on the griddle.  There were sausage links, bacon, ham slices, scrambled eggs, fried eggs, and a bowl of grits sitting on the table.  Jan and Bill were already seated in their usual spots preparing the pancakes that were already on their plates.  When Helena served pancakes, she never put them on a plate on the table, she served them individually so they would be fresh for everyone.
“Wow.  This looks great, mom.” Kate said, kissing her mother’s cheek. “What’s the occasion?”
“It’s Sunday and we have company.” Helena said, handing Chris a plate with three small pancakes. 
“Thank you.” Chris said. “It smells amazing.” Helena handed Kate her plate with only two pancakes on it. “Oh, thanks.”
“You’re only eating two?” Bill asked. “I only ever eat two.”
“What’s on the agenda today for you guys?” Helena asked Kate and Chris.
“Uh, today is the last day of Howl O Scream.  I was thinking we could go to that.”
“Chris, do you like history?”
“Yes, ma’am.” Chris said between bites.
“You would like Williamsburg.”
“I plan to take him Saturday to Agecroft.” Kate said.
“Kat’s been telling me all about it.” Chris said. “I’m looking forward to it.”
“She loves that place.” Helena said. “You’ll enjoy it.  Will you be showing him Colonial Williamsburg, Katie?”
“Uh, probably not.  I want to get to the park early enough to ride the rides and then enjoy the haunted houses.” 
“It’s too bad you won’t be here for the Grand Illumination and Christmastown.” Helena said to Chris.
“Kat told me about Christmastown.” Chris said. “I plan to come back for that.  My family is probably going to come down, too, when we go to Disneyworld.”
“Oh, please don’t bring that place up in front of Katie.” Bill said.
“It’s ok, papa.” Kate said. “Chris’ mother invited me to go with them.  She gave me the dates before we left and made me promise I would go.  I’m going to talk to my boss tomorrow and see about getting that week off.”
Helena was staring at her daughter in shock. “Don’t worry, Mrs. Allen…. Uh, Helena.” Chris said. “I know Kat’s said that you would have to pay for it, but you don’t need to worry about this trip.  We’ve got it covered.  My family gets a bunch of suites at one of the resorts in a big package deal.”
“That’s…. very generous of you.” Helena said.
Chris smiled at Kat. “She won my family over pretty fast.  It amazed me, too, that my mom asked her to go.”
“So, you two are pretty serious, then?”
“Yes, ma’am.  I asked her barely two days after we met to give us a chance.”
Helena sat down at the table with her pancakes and looked between them for a moment. “My parents fell for each other pretty quickly and they enjoyed a lifetime together.”
“How did they meet?”
“Daddy was getting a haircut and mom walked by the building.  He saw her and had to ask her on a date.  He said, ‘excuse me, gentleman, that’s the woman I’m going to marry.’  He ran out of the barbershop with the cape still tied around his neck and asked her on a date.  They were married not even a year later.”
“They were together from 1939 until 1993 when grandpa died of a broken heart.” Kate said. “My granny had Alzheimer’s and the day she forgot who he was, it killed him.  He had a massive heart attack and died.”
“He couldn’t stand the thought of seeing her in a nursing home and not knowing who he was.  He chose not to get better.”
“That’s so beautiful.” Chris said. “God, that’s the kind of love that I’ve been searching for.”
“Katie says that all the time, too.  She’s been holding out for a man like her grandpa.  I think it’s the best decision she’s ever made, but I don’t know if she’ll ever find someone as wonderful as my daddy.”
“I don’t know.” Kate said. “I think it’s possible.” She secretly squeezed Chris’ hand under the table and he smiled at her.
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Chris sat in the passenger’s seat as Kate drove them the hour and fifteen minutes to Busch Gardens.  The weather was beautiful and the temperature was warm enough that they didn’t need jackets yet. ��He looked over and studied her face, memorizing the laugh lines that were permanently etching themselves next to her eyes.  Her mouth was full and naturally a deep pink that complemented the porcelain of her skin.  Her eyelashes were long and swept up to just under her eyebrows.  She’d put on waterproof mascara before they’d left and the blackness of it brought out the sparkling blues and greens of her eyes.
“You ok?” Kate asked suddenly.  She’d noticed him watching her.
“Yeah.  Just…. I’m thanking all the dumbasses that let you go because I am so happy to have you now.”
She smiled over at him as a deep blush set into her cheeks. “Chris….”
“Kat, you’re amazing.  Your family is amazing…. With the slight exception of your sister.  I don’t know what her deal is.”
“Right now, she’s jealous that she’s not the center of attention and she’s taking it out on everyone to try and win some of it back.  It’s her way.  She’ll get over it.”
“I hope so.  I want to get to know them.  I want to spend time with them because they mean so much to you.”
Before she could respond, her cell phone started ringing. “Speaking of family…. It’s my cousin, Todd.” He nodded for her to take it.  She hit the accept and the Bluetooth in her car picked it up. “Hey Todd.”
“Hey, Kitty Kat!  What are you up to today?”
“Uh, I’m actually headed to Howl O Scream with my…. Boyfriend…. Right now.”
“When did you get a boyfriend?”
“Long story.  What’s up?”
“Amy and I got a babysitter and wanted to see if you want to go to Howl O Scream.  She’s been dying to go and today’s the last day.”
“Well, we’re about thirty minutes away right now.  We can meet you there.”
“Cool!  We don’t have passes, so would you mind meeting us outside the park?”
“Are you just asking me if I want to go so you can use my free parking?”
“No.  I wanted to see how your trip to Boston went and use your free parking.”
Kate laughed. “Ok, fine.  I’ll meet you at Yankee Candle in Williamsburg.”
“Great.  Looking forward to meeting the new man.”
“Oh, I’m looking forward to it too.  See you in about an hour.” Kate hung up and grinned at Chris. “I am so sorry for what is about to happen.”
“What’s about to happen?” Chris asked.
“My love of Marvel…. It comes from Todd.  He is a huge Marvel fan.  He has a storage unit full of Marvel comics and his favorite character is…. Well…. Captain America.”
“Oh.  Ok.”
“I’m not saying he’s going to go bonkers…. But I am telling you to prepare yourself just in case.”
Chris chuckled. “Ok.  I’ll prepare myself.  So, we’re making a pit stop at Yankee Candle?”
“Yeah.  It’s one of their flagship stores and it’s huge.  It’s not just candles, either.  Though they do have every single candle you can think of there.”
“I might have to buy a few.  Ma loves Yankee Candle.”
“I do too.”
“I noticed.  You have quite a few of them scattered around your apartment.”
“They discontinued the one that I really loved, so I stocked up on it while they still had some in stock.”
“Which one was that?”
“The Napa Valley Sunset one.  It was part of their vineyard collection.  It smells amazing.  When I need to de-stress, I light one, grab a bottle of wine and whatever book I’m reading, and I curl up on the couch.  Or my bed.”
“That sounds heavenly.”
“It is.  It really is.  Or rather…. It used to be.”
“Why ‘used to be’?” 
“Because I discovered curling up on the couch with you and that is so much better.”
Chris’ lips spread into an ear splitting grin. “I think that’s the first cheesy romantic thing you’ve said to me.”
“Is it?”
“Yeah!”
“I guess you got to me with all of your cheesy romance.”
“Mission accomplished.” He leaned over and kissed her cheek.
Kate laughed and took his hand as she continued their drive to Williamsburg.  She pulled into the Yankee Candle parking lot twenty minutes later and found a spot in the back where Todd was sure to see her car and park next to it.  Hand in hand, they strolled into the store and Chris’ eyes widened. 
“Wow.  Ok, this place is cool.” He said.
She pointed up to the ceiling that was painted to look like the sky. “The ceiling changes from day to night every few minutes.  But that’s not the best part of this place.” Kate pulled him towards the back left corner and through an archway that led into a winter wonderland. “It’s Christmas all year in here.” They walked up onto the bridge in the middle of the room and looked around.  Above them, the ceiling was black with little lights twinkling on it like stars.  There was a loud noise like a large fan being started up and suddenly it was snowing.
“Ok, that’s really cool.” He spotted Santa’s workshop where a large, white-bearded man was sitting at a desk in a Hawaiian shirt and red shorts.  There were a couple of kids in front of him and he was writing things down in a book. “There’s a Santa?”
“He’s on vacation from the North Pole.  Later this month they’ll have a big Christmas parade with the Grand Illumination and Santa will show up in full gear here.  Though he’s not nearly as awesome as the Santa at Christmastown.”
They walked down the other side of the bridge and began to browse through the hundreds of different ornaments offered there.  Chris found a Boston terrier ornament and held it up. “It’s a Gally!”
Kate laughed. “I actually have that ornament.  I couldn’t resist it.”
He grinned. “They have every kind of ornament you could ever imagine here.”
“Pretty close.  Personally, I like Hobby Lobby’s selection.  I love finding ornaments there.”
“Yeah, ma spends a lot of time at craft stores.  She loves Hobby Lobby, too.” “It’s pretty much the Mecca of awesome.  I like to scrapbook, and their scrapbooking section is the best.”
“I noticed all your scrapbooks in one of your bookshelves.”
“There’s more up in the attic.” She laughed at the small collection of ornaments in his hand. “Here,” She walked over to the entrance of the Christmas store and grabbed a basket. “Put them in here.”
“Thanks.  Did you see the Christmas villages over there?  There’s a Nightmare Before Christmas one!”
“Yeah.  That’s my favorite.  If I ever start doing Christmas villages, that’s the one I’m getting.”
“I might have to start doing Christmas villages if I can have that one.”
“Well, my trunk has plenty of room if you want to buy it.”
Chris eyed the village for a long moment, contemplating. “Not right now.  I’d have to find a way to get it back to my house in LA.”
“Why not Boston?”
“The apartment doesn’t have anywhere big enough to put it all.” He wrapped his arm around her waist and they continued to the next section of the store.  
They were sniffing candles when Todd and Amy found them. “Kitty Kat!” Todd said, picking her up by the waist.
“Toad!” She laughed.  He set her down and turned to Chris.  Kate was sure she was going to have to pick his jaw up off the floor.  Amy was behind him staring wide eyed. “Guys, this is Chris.  Chris, this is my cousin Todd and his wife Amy.”
“Oh shit.” Todd said.  He took Chris’ outstretched hand. “It’s nice to meet you, man.  I’m such a huge fan.  Huge.  You’re amazing as Captain America.  The best there’s ever been.  How the hell do you know my cousin?”
“We met in Boston last week.” Chris said. “I knocked her down into dog shit.”
“It was very romantic.” Kate quipped.
“Kat, you do realize who this is, right?” Todd asked her.
“Yeah.  He’s my Boston boy that wooed me with food and chivalry.” She looked over at Amy. “Hey, you’re catching flies.”
Amy quickly shut her mouth and shook Chris’ hand. “It’s nice to meet you guys.” Chris said since Amy still couldn’t speak.
“So, are we taking my car or yours?” Kate asked, smiling brightly.
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Once Todd got over being star-struck, he and Chris kept up an easy flow of conversation.  Amy and Kate ended up walking behind their men and chatting.  They rode the rides and every roller coaster there and enjoyed a couple of the shows during the day.  
Chris got a few glances and stares as people seemed to recognize him, but no one swarmed him.  He kept a low profile while enjoying the park with his girlfriend and members of her family.  He did end up signing a few autographs for fans brave enough to approach him.  When they asked what he was doing there, he simply answered that he was having fun.
They enjoyed some of the food and drinks that the park had to offer.  A few of the stands were offering Jell-O shots in large syringes.  Chris had managed to collect about seven of these by himself in different colors.  Kate had only indulged in four of them.  When night began to fall and they opened the haunted houses, they’d gotten Quick Queue passes for them to avoid the long lines.  Chris kept Kate close to him, both of them laughing when one or both of them got startled.  Whenever a scarer tried to scare Kate and it didn’t work, she would wave and them and say hi.  This caused Chris to let out his loud, boisterous laugh every time it happened.  They didn’t leave the park until it was after closing time.
On their way out, Chris had a surprise waiting for Kate at the package pickup.  It was a large statue of a black clad fairy with a pearl white dragon wrapped around her as she lovingly pet its head resting on her shoulder.  Kate had been admiring it at one of the shops.  Todd had been the one to mention to Chris that the statue was something his cousin had wanted for a few years but had never justified buying for herself.  When she’d gone to the bathroom, he had quickly purchased it and had it sent to the front of the park for pick up when they left.
“Are you serious, right now?” Kate asked.
“Yeah.  This is the one you’ve been wanting, right?” Chris asked, carrying the statue back to the car.
“How did you even know?”
“Well, you were staring at it for a long time and I could tell you liked it.  Then Todd told me you had been wanting it for a while.” She shot a glare at her cousin walking ahead of them with Amy. “I’m sorry.  I thought you would like the surprise.”
“I do.  I do like it.  I love it, actually, because I have been eyeballing it for a few years now.  But you can’t just buy me things just because I like them.  You’re spending way too much money on me already.”
“Who says?”
“I says!  Chris, just because I say I like something or I want something, doesn’t mean you have to rush in and buy it.  I’m not asking you to.”
Chris stopped and she turned to him. “I know you’re not asking me to.  You’re not that kind of person.  I understand that.” He set the statue down and gripped her upper arms. “Look, I like making you happy.  The smile on your face makes my world light up and I would do anything to be the one to put that smile there.  I’m sorry if me buying you presents is making you uncomfortable.  That’s not my intention.”
He looked like a slightly wounded puppy dog. “Oh, Chris.” She sighed. “I know you’re not trying to make me feel all out of sorts.  I should probably just stop complaining.  I just…. I’m not used to someone that seems to want to give me the world.”
“Maybe not the world.  But definitely the things in it that make you happy.”
“I can’t give you those things back, though.  I can’t just buy you things at the drop of a hat.”
“Baby, it’s ok.  I can buy me things if I want them.  You don’t need to.  The only thing I need you to give me is you.  And maybe some scrapbooks.  I wouldn’t hate some scrapbooks from you.”
She leaned into him and reached up to kiss him. “You’re ridiculous.” He grinned and picked up the statue and they continued on their walk to the car. “And I do love my statue.  Her name is Silvren Uir, by the way.”
“That’s pretty.  Where did you come up with that?”
She blushed and shook her head. “It means ‘glittering eternity’ in Sindarian Elvish.” He gave her a confused look. “Lord of the Rings.”
He laughed. “You’re such a nerd.”
She stuck her tongue out at him and he grinned like a big kid.
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Kate and Chris laid in her bed later that night, both of them naked and sweaty.  The room was quiet except for their breathing and the snoring coming from Gally sleeping on the back of the couch.  The bed was positioned right under the window and soft moonlight streamed through the curtains.  Chris admired every curve of her body and the soft tendrils of blonde hair spread around her head.
“You really are stunning.” He said quietly.  She chuckled. “I mean it.”
“I won’t be so stunning in the morning.” Kate said, glancing at the clock.  She was going to have to get up in six hours to go to work.  Starbucks was definitely in her near future. “What will you do tomorrow?”
“Probably sleep in.  Maybe snoop around your room.  Find those handcuffs you mentioned.”
“You’ll probably find more than that.”
“Fun.” He pulled her closer against him. “I might rent a car and explore some.”
“Do you want to just take mine?”
“Won’t you have it at work?”
“Not if you take me to work and pick me up when I’m done.”
“Are you sure you’d want to do that?”
“Yeah.  If I suddenly need a vehicle, I’ll just use the company car.”
“Only if you’re sure.”
“I’m sure.  Besides, you can come have lunch with me if you want.”
“Your boss wouldn’t mind?”
“Tasha won’t mind.  It’s usually just me and her in the office.” “Ok.” Chris let out a yawn that threatened to split his face in half.  His eyes were half closed and he could barely keep them open that much anymore. “I’m beat.”
“I’ll see you in the morning.” Kate kissed him before cuddling against him and falling asleep.
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Black Sun Tale | Bread and Water
Remember that this is only a first draft with minor edits, but have fun reading! Comments and reception is greatly appreciated! --- “What I came up with today? Uh…,” Flipped some pages, “I came up with two new characters earlier?”
The city streets screeched with traffic noise and crowds chattering, smoke surrounding the air with a bar across the avenue. 
“Gabriel’s story’s kinda sad. He killed this guy named Wren, but they were like brothers.”
Off between two aged buildings, an alleyway poked out with barely any notice.
“He hates Zero- or Hiro now though. He’s the reason why Wren went crazy.”
The interior of the alley carried a scattered mess of blankets, journals, calendars, along with other miscellaneous things. Though a single journal stuck to being held, firm by the grasps of a boy. 
His sickly pale skin complemented his unkempt and grimy black hair. While his twig body shivered by the gentle cold. His boney fingers pointed at drawings from his one of many journals towards the girl next to him. “That’s Gabe when he got mad at Dannie after finding out.” His voice rasped. 
Observing the girl’s reaction, her expression perked to something of confusion. “How did Wren and Gabe get to that situation though?”
He rolled his eyes to the side. “I haven’t gotten that much into the backstory. But all I know is that they both got into a mess like Evie or Lucia.” Blinked twice. “It’s just that while Evie was mad at becoming a slave, Gabriel was mad because his entire life’s purpose was taken away from him… and he’s in denial about it being kinda his fault too.”
Her cocoa hair blocked the faces she made from the boy’s slouched position on the ground. However, she chirped up quickly enough. “Ayu, I’m really digging Gabriel right now.”
“Really,” Ayu questioned, sitting back up a little the process. “I thought he was kinda basic.”
“Yeah,” she turned her floor seat towards him, revealing her fair complexion made out of light makeup. “From what you told me so far. I’m guessing he’s being ignorant of his past mistakes completely and letting out all his anger to someone else, right? At least from what I can tell in this picture.”
“I guess so?”
“Okay, I didn’t screw up on reading the comic panel,” making a small clap with her hands. “That can be realistic if you do it right, but you can also mix in a theme with that-”
“Annette. No,” Ayu interrupted her. “When you talk about ‘theme’ and that stuff, I get more of a headache than every other minute of life,” he groaned. 
“Do you want me to get you some ibuprofens?”
“I’m fine.”
Annette nodded. “Well other than that, I still feel bad for Hiro,” she pouted. 
Ayu lifted a brow and eyed her. “He’s the one who trapped ten kids in a death maze.”
“But he’s trying to get better!”
He scoffed, “He still did bad things, that’s why Evie treated him like shit afterwards.”
“You’re the one giving him a redemption arc though?”
“I’m just trying to stay close to the original idea.” Ayu closed the book and chuck it to the side. “Even if I don’t really believe in it.”
Annette’s lips twitched. “He’s just trying to be a better person than before…”
“He was still a dick. Out of anything, you should be feeling bad for Wren.”
“How so?”
Ayu set his arms back. “He was lied to for most of his life and he only got killed in the end for having a different opinion, pretty much.”
“So, he’s pretty much a pity party?” Annette eyed him. Ayu already knew what she was telling with her expression. 
“No. He just go fucked over too much because of both Gabriel and Zero.” 
Annette rolled a shoulder, pulling back her hair in the process. “I guess I like all of them, anyways. I’m just still hoping you can pull it off well.” Her lashes fluttered in the dim lights. “Did you come up with Gabriel and Wren from your dreams again?”
Ayu hummed. “Kinda. I had a random dream last night where a guy shoots another guy with an arrow but gets sad about it. That’s how I got Wren’s death.”
“Anything else from it?”
“There was a bit more, but it’s blurry.”
“Any others dream while I haven’t been here,” She asked. 
Ayu blinked. “I just have that, some girl screwing herself over and getting her friend dead, then nothing.” 
Annette hesitated with her words. “No dreams of Lillie?”
Ayu paused, seeing Annette flinch from her own question. He buried his hands in his hoodie pockets and looked down. “… None of those.”
She apologized with her eyes narrowed. The area went silent for the two. A minute? Two? Ayu couldn’t tell. He could barely count with patience. 
“How long have you been here?”
“Huh? About an hour, I think…” She brought her phone to her view, checking the time. “God, we spent a lot of time goofing off.”
“You have homework, don’t you? You should go home, school’s tomorrow anyways.” 
“… Right.” Annette stood up, her tall figure looming before Ayu. A second of standing still, she face-palmed herself. “Oh god, I have three projects to do.”
“Then get on to it,” Ayu joked. 
“Yeah, yeah.” Annette grabbed back her already cleaned up board game and binder. “I’ll see you another time then.”
Before taking a turn back home, a “Bye” could be heard quietly over a car honking. 
Ayu studied the outside of the alleyway in silence. Every second brought a new face passing by, and it brought the reminder that no one noticed him staring. A child, a couple, a group of teens, they all went their own ways, not even taking a glance of something that’s nonexistent for them. 
The boy groaned, turning back and plopping his head to a pillow, gifted by Annette. As he slammed his body to the ground, the rough concrete hit him back. He winced like every other day when he fell over from exhaustion. Though, the routine of his ‘home’ was redundant. 
He muttered in his own silence, “Ow.”
At least he had a pillow unlike the first two years of four when living in the alleyway. 
Laying down, still and blank, Ayu sighed and grabbed his journal from the side again. He flipped through the thin paper, skimming past the art he made, and stopped at the next blank page. He crawled to grab the pencil he left on the other side of the alley earlier in the day, and crawled back to his pillow to write:
October 21st 201X
Came up with new caracters today, dont know what to do
Did noting else today, like usuel
I got a litle mad at Annette, probly was a bad idea
No monsters, No Akeldama
As Ayu moved his arms to store the book away, a voice halted him. 
“Looks like you’ll be having an insipid time again.”
Ayu jumped, sitting immediately and twisting his head around. Finding nothing, he sighed, “Speak of the Devil…” He then crossed out the note of ‘No Akeldama’ for the day. 
“Did you miss me from last time?”
Ayu leaned back to the rigid wall, conversing with the voice ringing across his head. “Just tell me what the hell is going on,” he groaned. 
“Oh child, you won’t be getting that anytime soon for sure,” The voice mocked him. 
“You’ve been telling that to me for how long?”
“I don’t know in all honestly, I’ve lost track of time after my first hundred years.”
Ayu leered at nothing. “Four years, Akeldama. Four years.”
“Ah right, you’re twelve now, correct?”
“Yeah. Turned twelve last June.” 
“Well, aside from that, have you met any new people?”
Ayu sighed. “I haven’t, luckily.”
“What a pity,” Akeldama sneered, “You were the kid that pouted about being lonely, yet once you get a friend, you don’t even want another one anymore.”
“Shut up.”
“You’re just a greedy brat.”
“What do you want now Akeldama?” Ayu’s mind raced quickly, his heart beating rapidly. 
“I was simply here to check if you were the same as before, which you are by the way,” he muttered. “Though I’m also here for something else on the matter of you.”
“Dear god, what now?” 
“Funny calling me ‘god’,” he chuckled, “but I think you’ll soon meet somebody you’ll get along with.”
“Wait…,” Ayu murmured. His eyes widened. “Akeldama don’t tell me-”
“You’ll be having fun for the next few months. I promise,” he reassured him. 
“You fucker,” Ayu yelled, slamming his fists onto the hard ground. Though, he brought both of them up immediately from the pain, gasping at the impact of the floor cracking. He held both tightly against one another as they both burned. 
“God, damn it Akeldama…”
No reply.
Ayu placed his head down into his knees and closed his eyes. His boney joints pressed against his forehead. Two deep breaths, then hold. 
He pulled his head back after seconds, groaning, “Why did I decide to go through with this…?”
Ayu’s eyes flutter back open as his stomach made a painful growl. 
“Right…” He clicked against his chapped lips. “When was the last time I ate?” 
The growl reminded him of the stomach pain from recent days, aching as he puckered. The pain bothered him, but Annette already left to his dismay. 
“I need to get food now then,” he muttered to himself. 
He hopped up from his sitting position, his bone-thin legs freezing up from the cold. Exiting the alleyway, Ayu turned to the grocery store route. 
He pulled up his hoodie quickly, his tired eyes being protected from the soft light. And he ventured out to treat himself to food and water rations.
*
A jug of water and a bag of bread, Ayu repeated to himself multiple times. 
The shop held multiple items to Ayu’s attention. Aisles carried shiny toys, colorful pencils and journals, to junk food and candy. Ayu stared at the chips bar, slurping up the slight drool dripping out of him. He shook his head. Bread and water. Bread and water. 
How long had it been for the boy to have a nice meal? When was the last time he had the sweets he loved?
Bread and water. 
When was his last chip binge? His coloring book sessions and playtime?
Stop being a bitch and get what you need already. He scolded in his head. 
He dashed to an unfamiliar aisle so his mind wouldn’t get dragged elsewhere. Stacks and piles of paper towels and toilet paper surrounded him through his short walk to the bakery. His head bobbed in a sigh that he didn’t need anything of such thanks to shop bathrooms and recreation center showers.
However, as soon as he exited the aisle, aromas of pastries and baked goods filled his senses. He ignored it since the shop’s goods were usually too sweet for him despite his tooth. Walking down, he read through the brands of bread, squinted his eyes to spell and read out some words himself. It was only until his found a decent bag of bread rolls did he go off to the drinks section. 
The sodas and fizzy pops caught eyes of most, though Ayu’s tongue had more of a distaste for it. He turned from the bright and dazzling colors to the row of water jugs. His memory of measurements buzzed in his mind, though not enough to remember how much a liter was compared to a gallon. 
After staring, his mind boggling on which was which, Ayu gave up and choose which one seemed like the largest. 
Ayu ended up carrying the bread rolls in one hand and the three-gallon jug of water with the other by his stick arms. He walked out of the aisle, closing in on the exit. 
He stepped with hesitant feet. His head twisted and turned to assure nobody near him. A single bump from someone else and he could be done for the day. 
He swept through the cashiers. His scattered gaze wandered through all of them left and right. But in a single heartbeat, his body already went passed them unlike his mind. 
Ayu sighed and took a step towards the store exit. His guilt cultivated him like every other time he’s done this. It’s better for me. Even if I don’t actually need it-
A grip of a hand pulled him back from leaving. Ayu’s heart froze as his breath started to stutter immediately. He turned slowly, and echo of a voice ringing loudly to him. I’m fucked. 
“Hey…” He saw the face of the one who grabbed him by the arm. He was around the same age as him, younger maybe, but shorter for sure. “Hey…” His light brown skin shined by the store’s lights along with the freckles dotted around his nose and cheeks. While his soft green eyes glared at him in confusion. His dark red hair was also a first for Ayu to see-
“Hey!” the kid repeated himself. Ayu blinked spastically, his breathing still frigid. “What are you doing with that?”
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Martini With a Lemon Twist
I wasn’t in the room when Adam pulled the trigger on my ex-boyfriend. Adam had hit Ben across the face with a gun we’d gotten from some stranger in an alleyway and dragged him into another room. I was pouring bleach across the floor of the shoddy apartment Ben and I used to share when I heard the pop of Adam’s silencer, and then I heard actual silence. After a while, I wonder if everything is okay, because Adam’s been very quiet and for all I know Ben could’ve been the one to fire the shot, so even though Adam told me it was probably best if I stay away, I walk across the kitchen and open the door to the bedroom Ben and I used to sleep in. When I first walk in on Adam hacking Ben apart, plastic bags and Tupperware strewn beside him, stained red, the first thing I think how similar Ben’s organs, strewn about the walls and room, looked like Christmas garland that we used to hang for the holidays. Intestines are all across the floor in wide, stretched out W-shapes and leave traces of red in their wake until they fall into the corner in a bloody heap of gore. 
I immediately feel sick (the stench is like a punch in the throat), and Adam must see how green I look because he yells at me to hold it down, June, hold it down! His voice is grating, angry, desperate, not like I have ever heard before. I keep my lips locked up tightly and throw the key into the back of my mind, and soon enough my insides slide back down my throat and vanish somewhere within the black hole of my body. Adam’s face and thick layers of clothes are all red, and so are the latex gloves around his hands that once were creamy white, and so is Ben, whose ribs are split apart like chicken bones, who has a tiny, bloody hole on his forehead, and whose face is frozen, blue eyes staring vacantly at the sky and mouth slightly agape. The inside of his mouth is filled with blood and for a moment I fear it’ll open wide into that demonic grin of his and pull me in, like a black hole sucking me further and further until I no longer exist. I remember myself, and I turn, shut the door, and continue pouring bleach across the kitchen.
After a long, long while, Adam emerges and pulls the door shut with his foot. I can hear him walk up behind me, and more than anything I just want him to hold me in his arms and let me cry and kiss the tears off my face but I know he can’t do that right now (and besides, I didn’t particularly want Ben’s gore and carnage on me; that’s why Adam was the one to actually kill him and cut him up like a science project). 
“Are you okay?” Adam asks, his voice little more than a whisper. “I’m sorry I yelled at you.”
I turn to look at him and his face and clothes are still red. He has a huge black duffel bag at his side, filled to its capacity with our crime against God. I could barely hear Adam through the pounding hammer sound in my ears, and as I open my mouth to speak it feels like my blood has run cold. “It’s okay. We’re both on edge. Are we finished?” I say, my voice low and my hands trembling at my sides.
“We’re finished. Did you touch anything?”
“No. Do you think the neighbors heard?”
Adam squints. “I don’t think so. We made some noise, but you said the walls here were thick enough, right? ”
I feel a little dizzy for a split second. “Right. They were thick, alright.” 
Adam realizes what he said and he reaches his hand out to me before remembering our job, and then he retracts it and says, “Come on. There’s still a lot we have to do.”
The two of us slide on the long, thick coats we bought in the largest size at the thrift store, button them over ourselves. I’m worried that the blood that Adam is covered in will seep through the fabric and that the security camera in the hall will see the stains, or that there will be someone out at 3:24 in the morning as we walk to our car who will see the giant duffel bag and correctly assume that there’s the cut-up remains of a dead man inside. For now, at least, the layer of red covering his body is shrouded by the dark brown coat, so I banish my fears and bite my tongue and try to calm my rapidly-beating heart. We wipe down the wooden chairs and the kitchen table where Ben would serve us dinner and I’d pick at the food like a bird for a while. I remember I’d bought the table-and-chair-set secondhand from some old lady on Craigslist--she was sweet and kind, like honey on the back of my tongue, and offered us a plate of cookies, but she kept calling me Jennifer, Janice, Jane, Juniper. When we left Ben was making fun of her and saying terrible things and I didn’t tell him to stop--it doesn’t matter, anyway, this is the last time I’ll see those chairs, and about five minutes ago was the last time I would see Ben’s eyes. We open the door, wipe down the knobs, and step out as casually as we can into the dark. I wonder as I walk closely behind Adam if Ben is still staring at the sky. I wonder what his hands must feel like now.
----
I met Ben at a seedy-looking bar farther downtown Chicago after I had just broken up with a “we-dated-all-through-college” girlfriend exactly four weeks before, on the day. I didn’t think I was ready for a relationship, but that night the bartender handed me a martini with a lemon twist and told me that the guy at the other end of the bar had ordered it for me. When I turned to look at the guy at the other end of the bar, his blond hair and blue eyes glinting slightly under the dim light of the bar, he cocked his chin back, grinned, and waved at me. I didn’t really like martinis and I especially didn’t like them with lemon twists, but I smiled back and downed the martini (I took a second to choke back a gag reflex) before going to sit with him because I thought it would be impolite to refuse it and, besides, he was pretty attractive so maybe I’d get lucky.
We introduced ourselves and made small talk. Pretty soon we were smiling and giggling and he told some joke that made me laugh loudly and heartily and my laughter resounded through the cigarette smoke and soft 80s music of our little meeting place. He kept pulling on his sweatshirt strings, adjusting them absentmindedly, trying to straighten them out, and I thought it was cute. Twenty minutes later Ben had me pushed up against my car door and we were making out, and his fingers trickled down my back and onto my ass and thighs.
“You got a boyfriend?” he said in between hot, angry kisses.
“No,” I said. “No, I don’t.”
When I said that he grinned and kissed me again, kissed me harder, kissed me hotter, kissed me faster, and when I went back home that night, his contact in my phone, and woke up in the morning, I pulled my pants down and saw that his fingers had left dark bruises over my cinnamon-colored skin. Soon they got bigger and turned angrily purple, but after a while they got smaller and soon disappeared without a second thought, as if they were never there to begin with. But they were.
----
Adam and I had already bought a place in New York. We’d been saving for months, and as soon as both of us were approved for jobs up there we started to cover our tracks. A week ago I had a friend in New York pick up our keys for us and tell our landlord we’d be coming in “tomorrow.” She left the door unlocked and the lights on, thinking we’d be there like we told her. The electricity bill will be a bitch to pay but we’ll work it out. Adam and I both left our jobs officially two weeks ago, saying we’d be leaving within “the next few days.” We’ve been sleeping in our car for several days now (it might be too risky to stay in a hotel too long), but as far as our friends and family are concerned we’re settling into a new home in New York City, not planning and executing a murder.
Adam and I get into the car and I hear him fiddle with the keys, but other than that I can’t really focus too well. All I can look at are the gloves on my hands, and even though I can’t see the blood on them with my eyes I can picture it clearly in my mind. I shut my eyes and lean against the window. I thought of killing Ben so many times before; I once thought of tearing him open and holding his oodles of organs in my hands and devouring them, or cutting one of his veins with a knife and drinking the life from him like I drank the martini he bought me, only this time I wanted it. I wanted to drain any evidence that he was ever alive from his body and lock it away inside myself forever, so that no one could ever find it again, and maybe in his honor I’d add a fucking lemon twist--but right now I’m not sure what I want. Now that it’s over and Adam and I are finally free I feel numb in my head and I feel pins and needles everywhere else, and more than anything I can still taste a martini faintly in the back of my mouth and see him waving at me across the bar.
Then I blink my eyes open and I don’t see the city anymore. I just see wide open plains and a couple of farmhouses quickly getting smaller and smaller behind us. The sun is starting to rise, and orange light spills through the dark. When I look at the car clock it’s just past six-thirty. A few minutes later we get out of the car, step into the dim light outside, strip naked, and burn our clothes inside a cluster of trees, careful so that it doesn’t spread and draw attention. Then, when the flames are high enough, Adam takes the duffel bag, full of what remains of Ben, and tosses it into the fire. I watch the flames cackle, lap, and kiss at the air, and I don’t speak, I don’t move, until I can’t see the red in Adam’s clothes anymore, until the duffel bag is ash and the scent of burning flesh just tastes like regular air. But when he pulls me back into the car and we change into different clothes, I look down and I can still see the red on my hands.
----
When Ben first found out I was an artist at a small comic book studio, he initially seemed to think it was pretty cool.
“It’s awesome you’re doing what you love,” he said, hand on my arm, thumbing the freckles scattered across my skin like spilled coffee beans. “It’s really cool.”
His response was much different from that of my parents and my abuela when I first told them what I wanted to do, so I smiled and thanked him and I fell even more in love with him. That’s what he did--in the first few weeks of our relationship he kept building me up and up like a house of cards, like the tallest house of cards in the world, and his hands on my body felt like they were supposed to be there, like he was home. So when he started texting me every day asking me where I was and who I was with, I didn’t think much of it. I thought he might have just been worried, overprotective. When he started texting and calling me when I was at work, on the way home, when I was with friends, when I was anywhere without him, I started to get a little annoyed but I bit my tongue and shut up about it. My friends were getting worried, though.
“He doesn’t need to call you that much,” they said. “Doesn’t he trust you? Put your foot down and tell him to stop.”
For a while I didn’t really listen. It was just something that bothered me about him versus all the rest of the things that I loved about him.
“Where are you?” his gray bubbles on my phone screen said. “Who are you with? Call me soon. I miss you.”
At first they seemed like he was genuinely worried, and for a long time when I read those messages I thought he was like a little lost puppy, or a neighborhood cat rubbing against my legs and begging to be fed. Sure, it was irritating, but because I was falling hard into love with him I fed him with where I was, that I would call him when I got off work, that I was with Stacey and Henry and Ashley and that I’d be home soon. After a while, though, Ben started to get more aggressive.
“Tell me where you are,” he said if I didn’t respond within an hour. “I’m worried. You better not be doing anything stupid.”
I started to get a little angry that he would talk to me that way. I kept telling him that I was busy, that I couldn’t respond all the time, that he needed to cool it and stop freaking out so much. He would apologize, but then he’d keep doing it. I was starting to think my friends were right.
One day, I’d been in a meeting with the writers at the studio. To be fair it was technically my day off, but I’d gone in to work out the details with the other artists in a specific comic we were making. I put my phone on silent. When I took it out a couple of hours later, I’d had exactly one hundred and three text messages and six missed calls from Ben.
“Where are you?” his texts had started, a little heart emoji lovingly placed at the end. “I swung by ur apartment but u werent there. Call me when u can.” They went on like that, but when thirty minutes went by without a response, his words became a bit pushier. After two hours, “pushy” couldn’t even begin to describe it.
“WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU??? ANSWER ME! IF YOU’RE WITH SOMEONE ELSE RIGHT NOW I SWEAR TO GOD!”
My blood ran cold.
“FUCKIN ANSWER ME JUNE I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU!”
I wasn’t shocked--I was shaken to my core. And they just kept coming--it seemed like every few seconds came the next hundredth-something message and I barely had time to piece together a coherent puzzle of a response. I decided right then that I wouldn’t be spoken to like that--if he thought he had the right to threaten me, to curse at me, then I wasn’t going to take it.
When I texted him, “I was in a meeting, at work. We need to talk,” his messages abruptly stopped. Then, when I got to my apartment, he was waiting, pacing back and forth across the kitchen floor and wringing his hands. He scrambled up to me when I swung open the door, and I pulled it closed with the back of my foot and regarded him with the most furious look I could muster.
“I’m sorry,” he said, his voice pleading and quiet. “I’m sorry, I was just so worried…”
“Worried that I was with someone other than you?!” I snapped, slamming the door behind me. I decided I wasn’t going to just lay down and forgive him--I decided I had more self-respect than that. “You can’t talk to me like that--I’m just as much a person as you are, you know.”
“But you’re my person!”
“I’m not anyone’s person but my own! If you’re going to freak out every time I don’t speak to you for two hours, then maybe this isn’t going to work out.”
His eyes widened and his voice became hushed and breathless. “What are you saying, June?”
I folded my arms across my chest. “I’m saying what you think I’m saying. Maybe we should break up--”
As my lips molded the words “break up,” he grabbed the lamp by the door, where it stood right next to me, and he smashed it hard against the wall. Glass flew everywhere and the light bulb made an ugly, monstrous sound as it shattered and burned out. I made a short scream and fell back against the door, shutting my eyes and covering my face with my arms.
“We’re not breaking up!” Ben screamed, bringing his an inch or two from mine, so close I could feel particles of spit shoot onto my skin. “We’re not breaking up! You fuckin’ hear me, June?! I won’t let you! Fucking look at me!”
I didn’t say anything--I couldn’t do anything except for tremble while he screamed in my face, until finally he roughly moved me away from the door and left, slamming it behind him. I stayed still as a statue for what felt like hours--I didn’t move, I barely breathed, I couldn’t even cry. All I did for the rest of the day was sweep up the glass, climb into bed, and stare at the wall until the sun fell and then rose again. Ben and I didn’t talk for the rest of the day. We didn’t talk for the rest of the next morning. Then, he texted me as I was at my desk at work, while I was sketching out a page in a comic about a female superhero, still feeling like my stomach had been submerged in ice cold water.
“You should move in with me,” he said in his text message. “It would be easier so I could know where u are.”
The sane side of me beat against my skull and told me to run, to tell him it was over, to block his number and to find another person and forget Ben ever existed while I still had the chance. But the part of me who cowered against the door while he smashed my lamp to pieces and screamed in my face texted back, “ok,” and my fate was forever woven into his.
----
“Pull over,” I say to Adam as soon as I feel my stomach begin to gnarl and twist.
“What?” he says, turning down the music a little. “What did you say?”
“I said pull over!” My voice suddenly spikes in volume because it feels like there is a wild beast inside my stomach, clawing and ripping away at me and I need to get it out.
Adam clicks on the hazard lights and swings to the side of the road. He has scarcely parked before I throw the door open, tumble down the grassy hill at the side of the road, and free the beast inside me through my gaping mouth. Adam yells after me to come back, but I can’t even hear him anymore. Out comes the fast food we’d gotten the night before we killed Ben, out comes the water I’d been sipping on in the car, out comes everything except for my shame, except for Ben’s eyes--they stay glued to the backs of my eyelids no matter how much I retch and heave.
I feel Adam’s hand start to rub figure-eights into my back (I’d know his hands anywhere) and soon when I can’t throw up anymore I just cry, I cry and cry and Adam guides my head into his lap and even as I hear his heart beating comfortingly through the veins in his thighs I’m still crying because all I can picture was Ben’s ribs split apart like some fucked up viking sacrifice and his Christmas garland intestines and his gaping mouth and his eyes, sweet Jesus, his eyes--!
“I’m sorry,” I sob, my shoulders violently wracking up and down. “I’m so sorry, I just--! God, Adam, I can’t stop thinking about him!”
“I know,” Adam says, his fingers running through my hair. “Me too, June. Me too.” He purses his lips together and says, his voice breaking, “God, June, but what choice did we have? We couldn’t just leave his body there. They’d know it was us.”
“We shouldn’t have done it,” I say. “We should have just moved.” Adam and I both know I don’t mean what I say. We didn’t have a choice--it was Ben or us, and it must always be us.
Adam doesn’t say so, though. Instead he just keeps stroking my hair, and his heart keeps beating through his thighs.
“Ba-dum,” Adam’s heart says. I wonder if my heart still beats the same way after what we did. I imagine Ben’s heart in my hands, still beating, and I wonder if it beat the same after all the things he did, too. “Ba-dum… Ba-dum…”
----
As soon as the last of my boxes were unpacked into Ben’s apartment, it was like I was living in some secret tenth circle of Hell. The change was so hard and fast, I didn’t know what could have triggered it, but Ben was different. He made me throw away all of my clothes--he was worried they were “too slutty,” and since I thought that women and men were both beautiful in every way I was sure to cheat on him if he didn’t hold me back somehow. I tried to fight him on it--I told him I can wear whatever the hell I want--but he argued right back.
“Who wants to see you in that anyway?” he said to me one night, beer on his breath and a hideous grin on his face. “You look like a beached whale in it. You look like a fucking bear with all that hair on you, a sasquatch.”
He said it so often, so angrily, that every morning I looked in the mirror and all I could see were the dark hairs that stuck up from my arms like shoots of grass, and my full eyebrows and hair in places it wouldn’t be on the pretty white girls on television, so I shaved it all so thoroughly that I was late to work that morning. The sane part of me watched me do it, and she beat her fists against my skull again and again and told me to kill him, and I wanted to, I wanted to so badly, but I didn’t. I stopped arguing with him after a while.
Ben wouldn’t let me hang around with any of my guy-friends, but as time went on he didn’t want me hanging out with women either. Almost a year into dating I was only allowed to hang out with his friends, and even though my work friends and my college friends stretched out their hands to me, no matter how much I wanted to stretch my hands back I had to keep walking forward as Ben dragged me further into the abyss. By the time Ben and I had been dating for a year my friends had stopped calling.
Ben was the son of a family of cops, so he knew he could just about do whatever kind of crime there was and get away with it. He’d go to parties with me clinging to his arm and he’d tell me that he got us ecstasy, or coke, or a xanny to take before we went inside. I’d tell him I didn’t want it, and he’d tell me how ungrateful I was being because he’d got it for me as a present (even though I never asked for it). So I’d take whatever he gave me and I’d go into a party with a red solo cup in one hand and a plaster smile on my face while I met Ben’s druggy friends. All I wanted to do was take the back of Ben’s head and pull back, and fill his mouth with xannies and beer until he couldn’t take it anymore, and I wanted to watch him seize on the ground and I wanted to watch the life seep out of him slowly until he was empty, until the only thing inside him was death. Then I wanted to reach my hands inside him and spoon his sin and his hatefulness out for all his shitty friends to see, and maybe I’d spoon everything out of them, too. But I didn’t do any of that. I just imagined myself killing him, and then I drifted away as Ben sloppily kissed my neck and the sound from a band I don’t know blared through the speakers. By our two year anniversary, the real June, shackled and chained in the back of my mind, stopped pounding at my head and only wailed occasionally.
“You laugh and talk too loudly,” he said. “It’s embarrassing. Your art shit is never going to get you anywhere. How do you think I feel having to provide for you all the time? Get a real job.”
I thought of scientists breaking open geodes to see the colors and crystals inside. I thought that maybe Ben was treating me like a geode to see what was inside me, only I knew there wasn’t crystals hidden within me. I thought there might be rotten fruit and dead crows and crows picking at the dead crows. He had strategically broken me down to my core. All I wore were turtlenecks and jeans. Ben made me quit my job, and soon my pen and sketchbook were shoved into the back of a closet, and every other night I’d go limp on our bed while he did what he wanted with me, grabbing my thighs and leaving bruises that would disappear eventually like they were never even there. I’d scream sometimes, hoping the neighbors would hear, but the walls were so thick, how could anyone hear me unless they were right on top of me? All my despair would cluster in my head and chest like swarms of black bees and it felt like my skull was full of water, like my brain would start melting out of my ears at any moment, and I couldn’t take it, I couldn’t take it, I couldn’t take the buzzing in my head getting louder and louder and I couldn’t take the real June wailing in my mind but I couldn’t stop, I couldn’t stop--!
Then, on our three year anniversary, when Ben’s fist lashed out and struck my cheekbone, when his hands closed around my neck and tried to squeeze everything out of me, the real June finally broke her shackles and took me over, and I kicked him hard in as many places as I could, turned and walked out of his apartment. He called after me, tried to chase me, but he was doubled over in agony and soon I got in my car and drove to a friend’s house. I only looked back once.
----
Adam and I were tired of sleeping in the car, so when we were several states away we get a room at a place called the “CuppaTea Hotel,” which Adam and I think sounds dumb as hell but it gave us both a little bit of a chuckle amidst everything else. Adam opens the door and flips on the light--the room looks quaint and has a lingering tobacco smell that’s almost comforting. I shower for the first time in about a week; Adam lets me go first but for a while I don’t shampoo my hair or wash the sweat and bleach smells off of me. For a long time I look at the white tiles on the wall, and I watch the water droplets ricochet off of my hair and onto the tiles, slowly rolling down until they’re consumed by other droplets and they all fall down into the tub. A clump of hair has come out and stuck to the shower wall, and I swirl it around with my fingers into some kind of art piece. It doesn’t really look like much of anything when I finish, but maybe if I squinted I’d see Ben’s eyes again. Maybe there’s his ribs, hooped and cracked and twisted apart. Maybe there’s his bones popping amidst the flames. Maybe there’s a martini glass with a lemon twist. Or maybe there’s nothing there at all.
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I met Adam at another bar in Nashville when I went on a roadtrip with some of my friends. He was in town for a bachelor party, and he’d come to the bar to step away from the festivities for a little bit. I liked him because he asked if he could buy me a drink before he actually bought me one. When we got to talking for a while he told me he was an accountant, but that he really wanted to be an actor.
“Are you going to go to New York?” I asked, my finger stirring my glass of whiskey. “Be a Broadway star?”
He laughed a little. “Yeah, I’d really like that. My family wouldn’t like it much, but maybe when I save enough, if I can get  a stable job there for a while, then…”
“I wasn’t meaning to make fun of you,” I said. “I’m an artist. I’m freelancing right now, but I’m reapplying at this studio where I used to work. My parents didn’t like that much either.”
He laughed again. “We’ve something in common, huh?”
I was hesitant to live with a significant other again, but after about a year of dating Adam, when he asked me to get a place with him I couldn’t help but say yes. My friends loved him, my parents loved him--I loved him. Adam didn’t really like parties, and he didn’t do drugs, and he didn’t say that I was ungrateful when I didn’t want to sleep with him (which I didn’t do for a long time), and beyond all of that he was the only person I could talk to about Ben. At night I’d shoot awake in bed, wracked with nightmares of Ben’s hand on my sides, his smile against my ear. When I was living alone, I’d call Adam at the crack of dawn and before leaving for work he’d knock on my door and I’d let him in and he’d hold me. When we were living together he’d wake up with me. When I was doing some menial chore and sank to the ground, a sobbing, pathetic heap of flesh and woe, he’d sit beside me and just listen. For the first time in a long time I felt at home. I felt like I was a ship captain after a long, stormy voyage, and after years of being grinded under Ben’s heel, I was finally seeing the sun come out.
At least, that’s what I thought. Then I got a knock at the door on a weekend in April, and when I opened it there was Ben.
Ben’s eyes were wild, like a wolf closing in on a rabbit, and before I could slam the door shut he stuck his foot in and shoved his way into the apartment. 
“I found you,” Ben said, his voice dripping with venom. “I finally fuckin’ found you, June!”
Adam was sitting on the couch, but when he saw Ben he lurched forward and shoved me behind him. Adam told me later that I was as white as a sheet, trying to piece together words and sounds into a sentence but I just couldn’t do it. Ben’s eyes and grin, the same eyes and grin that haunted me day and night, awake and asleep, bore down into me.
“Get the fuck out of here,” Adam said as calmly as he could, “or I’m going to call the police.”
“Oh, please do,” Ben snarled. “June, whenever you want to come back home, let me know. I’ll be around.” His blue eyes, the most innocent and evil eyes I’ve ever seen, seemed to glint as he looked at me, a predator’s piece of meat. “I’ll be around.”
----
When Adam and I are both clean, we climb naked into the creaky hotel bed together, and turn the TV onto a crime documentary. Adam starts kissing my neck and then he rolls on top of me and starts kissing down my collarbone, between my breasts, on my stomach. I moan a little as his fingers and lips explore me, and I wrap my arms around his shoulders and I press my body against him.
He stops for a moment, and I look towards him with concern. 
“We had no choice, June,” he says, maybe more to both of us than just to me. “We had no choice but to do it.” He clenches his jaw. “I had to cut him up like that. We had to get rid of the evidence, you know?”
“I know,” I say. I run my fingers through Adam’s hair. “I know.”
“The police wouldn’t help…”
“I know. I knew they wouldn’t.”
“He was gonna kill us.” Adam wraps his arms around my waist and presses his forehead into my stomach. “He was gonna hurt you.”
I don’t say anything because what is there to say? We were stalked, we were threatened--I couldn’t even go to work without one of my neighbors walking me to my car--and Adam’s line at his job was blowing up with calls from Ben. He knew where we lived, where we worked; we just weren’t safe. And no matter how many times Adam called the police, no matter how many times I ran into the station, a deluge of tears streaming down my face, they never did anything. Ben was given a firm slap on the wrist by his daddy at best and they told me to just ignore him. 
Adam and I knew we had to take action into our own hands when Ben broke into the house--he’d left before we came home, but he’d shattered our window along with several portraits of Adam and me. That’s when we knew that it was too dangerous--we had to leave. What could we do? Go live with our parents and put them at risk too, or leave some other poor girl at a seedy bar downtown to her wretched fate? No. Not again. Not to anyone again.
Adam grinds his hips into mine, and soon he enters me and I sit up on his lap and lean back and let him take me, praying it takes his mind off of things, but for me there is no hope. I thought that the last time I saw Ben would be when he was dead, but the truth is Ben blasted apart and his shrapnel embedded into my flesh forever, and though I can pull some of it out, the rest have burrowed into my skin and into my organs and there they shall remain forever. And the swarm of black bees and water in my head never truly left, they were always there, even after I left Ben and only looked back once, and now the buzzing of my sin and my grief fills my head with such vicious ferocity. I’m sweating and moaning, and I feel my stomach start to twist. Suddenly, all at once, I picture the Bible that’s surely in the bedside drawer next to us, and I remember the story of Jacob in the Bible and how he pictured his stairway to heaven. Suddenly and all at once I feel just like a Jacob’s ladder toy, like I’m hanging onto the remaining pieces of myself with strings of the person I used to be, and if I lean my head forward too much I will collapse, again and again, over and on top of myself, dangling over the tenth circle of hell I thought I’d escaped.
As we collapse into bed, breathing hard and sweating harder, as Adam starts to kiss my neck again, I can taste a martini with a lemon twist in the back of my throat.
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I sleep soundly for only a few hours, and when I wake I can see the sun just beginning to peek over the roads and buildings in the tiny village around us, turning everything in its path a soft baby blue. When I turn my head to look at Adam, he’s still sleeping soundly. He’s breathing through his mouth, and his breaths are quiet, hushed, troubled. I decide not to wake him. I sit up in bed, pulling the sheets over my chest and rubbing my eyes, and my gaze drifts over to look outside the window. It’s just after six in the morning--I can see cars driving to work on the roads outside, I can see street lights turn off and house lights turn on. I can see that baby blue tint the sun is giving everything on earth, and even though my stomach doesn’t feel ice cold anymore, I feel like my mouth is full of sand and my brain is a flat-line on a heart monitor. I just don’t feel anything. 
Ben didn’t really have many people come over often, so I wasn’t worried about someone immediately finding the body. I had estimated that we had at least a few days before someone went and checked on him, and by then we would be long gone. I wasn’t really worried about being found, either, which by all accounts should worry me because I had taken just about every step I deemed necessary to prevent anyone from knowing Adam and I were involved. When I see the flash of police sirens on a road far from the hotel, however, I start to worry a little bit. It doesn’t last long, though. They can’t find us. Not now. Maybe eventually, but not now.
All I can do is continue sitting in a bed next to the person I love, watching the flash of police sirens in the far, far distance, wondering if I should wake Adam up but deciding ultimately to just watch the red and blue flash on and off for a while. It is pretty, in a weird sort of way.
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elizaviento · 6 years
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Wine & Spirits
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Well, I was actually able to bang this one out quicker than I anticipated as a nice little stress release.
Wine & Spirits
(Rick Sanchez x Reader)
NSFW lite -- 2100 words.  Suggestive language and some smoochin’.  But, overall cuteness.
*****
I first met Rick Sanchez at the grand opening of a new liquor store on the edge of town.  After perusing the aisles for a decent bottle of red wine to take to a birthday party, I bore witness to his ire with the store’s owner as I tried to exit.
“Wha -- what do ya mean, he can’t come in?!” Rick shouted while gesturing wildly toward his teenage grandson.   
“Sir, no person under the age of 18 is permitted to enter the store.  It’s state law” the shop’s owner politely explained.   
“Oh, so -- so you just assume that he’s under 18?”
“Sir --” the shop owner began again with a sigh while rolling her eyes, “-- it’s pretty obvious he’s not.  I mean, he can’t be older than 12.”
“Um, actually I’m 14” the boy -- who I would later officially meet as Morty -- whined while wringing his hands.   
The shop owner rolled her eyes again in response but firmly stood her ground.  Meanwhile, I was directly behind her during the entire exchange, waiting for the three of them to clear a path.   
“Excuse me” I finally piped up when I checked my phone and realized I was running late.  All three focused their attention on me as I stood there with my wine safely tucked away in a brown paper bag.   
“Oh, I’m so sorry!” the shop owner apologized, stepping aside.   
“Yeah, no problem” I replied, smoothly walking past her out the door only to be stopped in my tracks, once again, by Rick -- who I then only knew as the odd man in the lab coat.
“W-w-what do you think?” he asked me, blocking my path when I attempted to side step him.  When I realized that he was actually attempting to pull me into his petty disagreement, I couldn’t help but laugh.   
“Look, I seriously don’t care about any of this.  So, bye” I said, finally passing him only to run directly into his grandson who stuttered an apology and colored a shade of red I’d never seen in nature.  “Don’t sweat it, kid.  Just make sure to bring your ID next time” I joked and winked before hauling ass to my car.
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The following week, I ran in to him again at the same liquor store.  This time, however, I was shopping for myself.  He was standing in the vodka aisle with two gallon size jugs tucked under each arm as I passed through to locate the whiskey.  He didn’t glance my way when I shuffled by but I couldn’t ignore the nagging feeling that I needed to speak to him.   
“No teenage tag along today?” I asked as I came to stand beside him.  I leaned forward slightly to feign interest in the label of the bottle directly in my field of vision.  At first, he didn’t even acknowledge my existence -- only reached for another comically large jug before turning in my direction, presumably to head to the register.  When he nearly bumped into me, it was then he must have realized that I was talking to him.
“Uh -- what?” he asked with an adorably dumbfounded look on his face before making a quick recovery.  “Nah.  His -- uh -- his fake ID got stolen by a hooker.  New one’s in the mail.”
“Humm. Maybe next week” I mused, plucking a bottle of Grey Goose from the shelf before strolling away.
The week after that, he was standing in front of the store with his arms crossed and, when I approached, he made a show of checking his watch before shaking his head.   
“You -- y-y-you’re late.”
“Or maybe you’re early” I countered while pulling the door open and motioning for him to step inside. 
And so it went for several weeks.  I knew what was happening.  I knew I was going to that liquor store specifically to see him and I was pretty sure he was doing the same.  During our little weekly encounters, he’d share bits and pieces of his life -- most of it sounding like a complete bullshit fairy tale. However, I couldn’t deny belief any longer the day he asked me if I wanted to take a ride in his spaceship -- his fucking spaceship! -- and then pulled me through a swirling green hole that he shot into thin air, from something he called a ‘portal gun’, directly into my living room. 
“What the fuck?!” I had exclaimed when I recognized my surroundings. “How do you know where I live?!”
“Trust me, sweetheart.  You -- uh -- you don’t wanna know how many answers that question has” he teased with a smirk before shooting another portal at my front door and stepping through.
I only balked as the green swirl popped closed, amazed that all of his crackpot stories were true and that I had somehow developed a crush on a legit mad scientist.
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“Hey. You wanna come -- wanna see my subterranean lair?” he asked one Saturday afternoon as we stood in the beer cooler.
“Is that where you keep your clones?”
“Yep” he replied, picking up a 36 can case of Natural Light.
“Sure. I could go for a good gang bang with, like, ten younger versions of you.” I shot him a sidelong glance before reaching for a craft berry blend.  “How on earth do you drink that piss water?” I asked, suddenly changing the subject as I was apt to do once I’d pushed the flirting envelope another inch further. 
“You’re pretty confident of -- of yourself, huh?” he quipped with a raised brow.  “And, I-I-I’m trying to get drunk, not tickle my taste buds.”
“You check out my ass enough for me to be pretty secure in my assumption” I said, turning to leave the cooler.  He was directly on my heels as we approached the register where the shop owner greeted us with a smile.   
“My two best customers” she said, tossing a book of coupons in my bag. “Don’t miss the big sale next week!”  The bell hanging above the door jingled to signal our departure and, a moment later, Rick yanked me through a portal leading to his garage.   
I’d been in his garage a couple of times prior but the atmosphere seemed a bit different now.  I couldn’t hear voices or movement from inside the house like I had on my previous impromptu visits and I suddenly felt my stomach drop to my toes at the prospect that we were alone.
“So, where’s the Sanchez clones?  I’m ready to par-tay!”  I pulled my 6 pack of craft beer from the bag and shook it playfully before plopping down on a nearby stool.
“I lied” he said, dumping the Natty Lite into a gigantic cooler he had tucked away under his workstation.  “I killed them all so it’s -- ya just got me.”  He cracked open one of the warm cans and chugged it, making me wince as I imagined how disgusting it must taste.
“Darn” I replied with an exaggerated pout, spinning on the stool.  Even I had to admit that I was trying much too hard to be cute.
“Don’t -- uh -- don’t you worry, baby.  I-I-I may be old but I gotta big dick and know how to eat a pussy” he said, making a V with his fingers and wagging his tongue in the middle.   
“Oh my god” I breathed, my face flushing as I spun the stool away from him to face the wall.  This was the first time he’d successfully one-upped me and I heard him laugh victoriously as he grabbed my shoulders and spun me around to face him once more. “You win” I conceded.
But, instead of poking fun -- as I fully expected -- he sat down on the other stool and pulled me toward him; my stool gliding effortlessly on four wheels across the concrete floor until our knees bumped together.
Something had changed.  I couldn’t think of an adequate come back to continue this little game of cat and mouse we’d been playing for the last few months.  Instead, I only stared at him -- completely consumed with the urge to lean forward, close the distance between us and kiss him.
“Do it, do it, DO IT” my mind chanted.  But, I was frozen still as his large hands began to knead my shoulders and one side of his unibrow quirked in challenge. When I still didn’t move or speak, he finally broke the silence. 
“W-w-what would you do if I kissed you right now?” he asked, turning his stool slightly so that one of his knees slipped between mine, effectively bringing us closer.  He thought he had me, but I’d finally come to my senses.   
Without warning, I darted one arm forward to capture him by the back of the neck and tugged his face toward mine.  Opening my mouth slightly to encase his bottom lip on contact, I gently nipped and pulled as I just as quickly retreated.  The look on his face was that of pure shock and I giggled triumphantly.  He thought he had me.  He was wrong. 
Or was he?
Before I knew it, he had snatched one of my wrists and pulled me back in. And, when our lips collided a second time, he threaded his fingers through my hair to palm the back of my head and pushed his greedy tongue into my gaping mouth.  As expected, he tasted like the warm, cheap beer he’d chugged moments earlier but that was quickly overshadowed by the ridiculous skill his tongue displayed as it sought and danced with my own.  Within minutes, I was breathless as I struggled in vain for dominance and completely gave in when I felt him tug me further and further until he’d dislodged me from my stool and had me securely perched on his lap.
When he finally let me pull back for a breath, I lowered my head to his shoulder with a strangled laugh.  “You win again.”
“Mmm” he hummed in agreement, settling his large hands on my hips.  “How long have you wanted -- you been waitin’ for that?”
“You’re pretty confident of yourself, huh?” I asked, throwing his earlier jab back at him.
When the garage door engaged and began to slowly rise, I shoved myself from Rick’s lap so fast that the stool flew backward and caused him to crashed against the counter of his work station.   
“Ow, fuck!” he yelled as I scrambled to remain on my feet as the garage door continued its ascent and reveal Rick’s granddaughter landing his spaceship in the driveway.  As she pulled into the garage and got out, I leaned nonchalantly against the counter and gave her a timid wave.
“Oh, hey” Summer greeted with her signature bored expression.  “Sorry I, like, interrupted your make out session.”
“How --” I started, shaking my head.  There was no way she had seen us with how slow that garage door moved.
“God, adults think teenagers are so dumb” she said, pulling her phone from her back pocket.  “It’s, like, so obvious with the way you two flirt with each other.  Gross.”  With that, she tossed the keys to the ship toward Rick where they bounced off one of his knees to land on the concrete floor with a clatter.  So -- I obviously wasn’t the only one taken aback by Summer’s effortless observation.
“Nice catch, Grandpa” she said, rolling her eyes.  “Thanks for letting me borrow the ship.”  And then she disappeared through the door leading to the kitchen.
“Well, I should probably go” I said, grabbing my 6 pack from the counter.  The moment had passed and I suddenly felt awkward, wondering if I’d somehow ruined our easy going friendship.
“Yeah. I need some time to -- to uh -- regrow the clones” he said with a smirk, standing from the stool while rubbing the section of his back that had slammed against the counter.  I instantly released a breath I didn’t know I’d been holding as the atmosphere became light and playful once again.
“Well, if what you said earlier is true; don’t bother.”
Rick raked a hand through his hair and pulled the portal gun from the inner pocket of his lab coat, preparing to send me back to the liquor store parking lot so I could retrieve my car.
“See ya next week, baby” he said, pulling the trigger and repeating the lewd gesture with his fingers and tongue as I flipped him off and stepped through.
I already couldn’t wait.
The End.
P.S. Yes, I used my favorite line of Rick’s again.  I’ll never get sick of it!
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haraways · 5 years
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The Last Mission
Midoriya Hisashi/Midoriya Inko
Midoriya Inko/Yagi Toshinori | All Might
Making Out, Established Relationship, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Villain Inko, BAMF Midoriya Inko, Pregnancy, Villain Midoriya Hisashi, Origin Story, Plots, Slow Burn, AU technically, Gangs rebellious young adults, Young Lovers, Mid 20's, Office work, Angst, Lots of Angst, Fluff
Summary:
“We need to do this,” Inko stated. It was a fact; they did need to do this mission, it was for their own good.
“I don’t want to,” Hisashi replied quietly, “It’s not the clothes or the job and if it was just you and me I would do it in a heartbeat but it's not just you and me anymore.”
“I know,” Inko replied mournfully, “But this would be it. Once this is done, we would start over. It wouldn’t just be a fresh start it would be a good start and that’s all we need.”
“And each other.” Hisashi dropped Inkos hands and they leaned in to share a sweet kiss.
“Okay. We will do this, but only on one condition.” Hisashi said seriously.
“What is it?” Inko asked in mild suspicion.
“If you marry me.”
Inko smiled softly, “I think I can do that.”
They were young and stupid.
On top of the world.
Unstoppable in their petty crimes and rebellious vandalism.
They’d dropped out of their last year of high school and run deep into the heart of the city. Away from their parents, and expectations. They’d gone and joined up with other young, disenchanted, abused and forgotten people like themselves. They formed a gang of sorts. Moving into an abandoned office building. One of their friends was able to use his quirk to reconnect them to the grid, so electricity was abundant and with it, internet, T.V and everything they’d ever need.
They didn’t really have a focus on their crimes. They liked to have fun. They liked to terrorize corner stores at 3 am, running before any police or these “heroes” could interfere. These “heroes” made their little gang laugh, using their quirks for “good, truth and justice.” It was childish. These heroes even went so far as to call criminals of all types “villains”, it was done right dilutional. But it caught on, with the public and with criminals. It made all crime sound fare more serious then what it was. The Hero system was popularised in North America before making its way over to Japan. The idea sparked from early twentieth-century comic books. Only in the last few years did Japan establish the hero system, even going so far as to invest in specialized schools and degrees at universities.
It was ridiculous.
In time their gang grew older and more bored with the petty crimes. If they were going to be labelled “villains” then they were going to commit crimes befitting such a dramatic title.
Their little gang grew and soon became a well-oiled crime committing machine. And with it, Inko’s quirk grew. When she was little, she thought her quick was borderline useless; being able to pull a small object towards herself. But she soon realized if she trained, the speed the object returned to her would match the speed in which she throws it. Her quirk became dangerous. Not as obviously as Hisashi’s, with his fire breath, but she began to favour long metal needles; small and sharp, she hit her target every time.
She never killed anyone, that was a little too far for her liking. But she’d be damned if she’d let anyone past her.
As their goals changed so did the dynamic of the gang. There was a shifting of power leading to a hierarchy so to speak. Their leader USB, named for his quick, turned out to be ruthless in his prostate in his need to build an organization. Their main operation focused on the accusation of information and selling it off to whoever could afford it. They’d break into business’s, banks, government building, and private residences if asked; they were the best at what they did. It was Inko’s and Hisashi’s job to ensure that their operations were never interfered with. They were the force behind the hijacking of information, removing any obstacles in the way. A simple enough task that put them squarely under USB in their organization. They were not to be messed with.
By their mid-twenties, they've made a name for themselves in the villain underworld. They even had been granted Nom De Guerre’s by the Hero’s that would try and pursue them. Hisashi was dubbed Hot Head. He was anything but his namesake. Hisashi was calm and collected, always critically thinking and had a plan for everything. He was smart but despised being told what to do unless it was Inko giving him the orders. Him and USB butted-heads often enough that they were more like siblings then Leader and Subordinate. A lot of their disagreements stemmed from differences in how an operation should be executed. But when there was no mission, USB had a tendency to flirt shamelessly with Inko, much to Hisashi annoyance, more on Inko’s behalf then jealousy. Hisashi wasn’t a jealous type; Inko and he had been together for nearly eight years and neither planned on changing that. They’d even talked about marriage but that was an afterthought and when they first turned eighteen. They were happy as they were and didn’t need a document to tell them differently.  
Inko’s granted name was entirely uncreative, thought up by an equally uncreative, American inspired hero. He’d dubbed her Green, for her hair. Inko hated it; Hisashi thought it was cute. Of course, she’d be named for a physical feature rather than her quirk or other another aspect, like her charming personality. But there was nothing to be done about it.
It was an evening like any other, Hisashi and Inko were alone in their hideout, for once. And as young couples often do when they were along, they were thoroughly enjoying the company of the other.
Laying back on a worn couch, Inko’s hand travelled inside Hisashi’s shirt, running her fingers up and down his back and sides; enjoys the warmth that always radiated from him. Hisashi’s own hands were occupied by Inko’s fleshy thigh and waist. Her long skirt hiked up, exposing her legs. Not wishing to be the only one exposed, Inko brought her hand to the top of Hisashi's pants and ran her thumb along the inside of the waistband from back to front before pushing them down.
It was at that moment USB and the team decided to return home. Loudly, excited for their success. Not at all startled, Hisashi pulled himself away from Inko’s witched lips and tongue to frown at the grinning leader strutting happily into the room.
“Do you have to so loud? We’re busy.” Hisashi bent his head back down, fully intending to finish what they started, others in the room be damned. Not one to be ignored, USB took a wad of cash from their latest mission and tossed it down onto Hisashi’s messy black hair. Hisashi sighed before pulling himself up. Inko sat up and turned towards USB very annoyed at the interruption, she frowned at USB, but his grin only grew wider.
“What?” She asked with a little bit o a snap. Not at all appreciating the interruption either. It had been a while since Hisashi and herself had been able to be alone together, they were too busy that last two weeks.
USB pointed at the wad of cash. Inko looked down and her eyes grew wide; the cash, rapped with a string was probably as thick as her forearm. Picking it up, Inko flipped through the paper. All of them 10,000 yen notes.
“Is this real?” Hisashi asked, eyeing the money suspiciously. USB Grinned impossibly wider and nodded.
“It’s a down payment.” USB said smugly.
“Down payment for what?” Inko asked, righting herself from the interrupted fun with her lover. Hair and cloths fixed she handed the cash back to USB.
“We have another job.” USB didn’t wait for the other two to ask about it before continuing excitedly. “It’s a down payment for our biggest job yet. Four hundred thousand now and four hundred thousand after the job is finished.”
“What’s the job?” Hisashi asked.
“And for who?” Inko added. The amount of money unnerved her. The job would be risky if that kind of money was being offered.
“It’s easy.” USB reassured. “Our benefactor wants us to break into ‘Hero Headquarters’ and get our, well my, hands of the database.” USB nodded with confidence as though it was the simplest request in the world. “Of course, I excepted since all we will need is us three. It will be a cake walk and who are we to turn down such a generous offer.”
“Only us?” Inko was very concerned. Breaking into the ‘Hero Headquarters’ sounded close to a suicided mission. The headquarters held all the vulnerable data on all active and inactive heroes. Their strengths, weaknesses, addresses and even their social numbers. Everything. It was also one of the most secure buildings in Japan.
“Well, do you want to share the money? The fewer people involved the better. Besides; I only trust you and Hisashi.” It was true, as USB’s right and left hand he trusted them the most and he had a point about sharing the money. Not even knowing all the details, Inko knew it was a high-risk operation but the draw of the money was too magnetic, that money was life-changing money, they wouldn’t have to work again for a long, time.
“We need to know all the details first before we agree,” Hisashi said seriously. He was interested but wasn’t stupid enough, at least not anymore, to jump in, eyes closed as he uses to do. He and Inko didn’t have that type of luxury anymore.
“Yeah, yeah.” USB waved his had dismissively at Hisashi.
“The plan is,” USB pulled three I.D badges seemingly out of know where and handed them over to Inko. “We are going to infiltrate as temporary employees. Only for a few months. I will be in IT obviously, Hisashi will be Security and Inko you have to the most important job; you’ll be Executive Assistant to the director of Hero Logistics.” He smiled at their bewildered faces.
“But…But I’ve never even had a job before! How am I supposed to keep up for three months?” Inko asked in alarm. Didn’t executive assistants suppose to have an education and skills, actual skills? Hisashi would do fine in Security, he was built enough and could sport an impressive scowl if the occasion called for it; moreover, he would probably actually enjoy his job, temporary as it was.
USB shrugged, “Fake it until you make it?” he suggested. “We only have to be there until our benefactor gives me the signal to download the info and we’ll be out of there.”
Inko was biting her lip and wringing her hands together, muttering to herself in distress. Seeing that she was too distracted, Hisashi pressed for more answers.
“What do you mean? Don’t we have a timeline?” He looked at his I.D badge; it had all his information on it as well as a small picture of his face. Hisashi was curious as to where USB got a picture like this, it looked as though it belonged on a passport and like all passport photos, he looked like he was a murderer.
‘Not villain like at all’ Hisashi thought to himself sarcastically, seeing that Inko’s photo was much prettier, more befitting an executive assistant.
“No. We don’t have a timeline. The main bank of computers is locked up at all times unless maintenance is needed. Even then, most maintenance is done remotely on a terminal outside the room itself and only one action can be performed at a time on it; so I couldn’t access all the information in a timely manner so we need to get into the room. Our benefactor will be the one to make it so that I can be let into the secured room; it might take a while before that happens though, so we have to bide our time.” USB explained as though, not Actually having a plan was a normal occurrence but even Inko could see that USB wasn’t entirely thrilled about there not being a more detailed timeline.
They would have to actually work their jobs well they were waiting for the right time to strike. They would have to be their own teenage worst nightmare; Salary workers.
“Will we be getting paid well we’re there?” Hisashi asked, if they had to maintain appearances then that meant no other jobs in the meantime and that meant no money.  
“Of Course!” USB confirmed brightly. “Our benefactor even got you two a small apartment closer to the office. I’ll be staying here part-time to keep an eye on the others but it's safer for us to be separated from the gang for now. We don’t want any unsavoury association’s.”
USB took back their I.D’s for safekeeping and handed over a set of apartment keys.
“We haven’t agreed to do this yet.” Inko didn’t take the keys.
“What? Why not?” USB was perplexed at Inko’s hesitation.
“Hisashi and I need to talk about this first. This operation is dangerous and we can’t commit until we talk about it, alone.” Inko said firmly; she’d learned over the years that if you weren't firm and straight forward with USB he would use an excuse to not understand you're perspective or ignore any hints you were giving him. Despite Inkos rebellious nature, she didn’t like confirmation all that much, especially with her friends.
“Fine, fine. I’ll leave you to it but this is an opportunity of a lifetime and I’d much rather it be you two with me and not be replaced by one of those other idiots. Besides, if you can’t commit to this then I wonder at your commitment to the group.” USB said lightly before turning to leave.
The threat was not lost on either Inko or Hisashi as they watched USB retreat from the living space. Hisashi had an ugly look on his face staring at USB’s back, not at all liking the threats made against them.
Inko got up off the couch and grabbed Hisashi’s hand and dragged him out of the old office building. She didn’t let go until they were halfway down the road. As soon as she did Hisashi grabbed both of her hands with his two and brought them up to his lips and kissed her knuckles. Eye’s closed, he took his time to enjoy the moment.
“We need to do this,” Inko stated. It was a fact; they did need to do this mission, it was for their own good.
“I don’t want to,” Hisashi replied quietly, “It’s not the clothes or the job and if it was just you and me I would do it in a heartbeat but it's not just you and me anymore.”
“I know,” Inko replied mournfully, “But this would be it. Once this is done, we would start over. It wouldn’t just be a fresh start it would be a good start and that’s all we need.”
“And each other.” Hisashi dropped Inkos hands and they leaned in to share a sweet kiss.
“Okay. We will do this, but only on one condition.” Hisashi said seriously.
“What is it?” Inko asked in mild suspicion.
“If you marry me.”
Inko smiled softly, “I think I can do that.”
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Omegle
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: real?
You: Last time I checked.
You: Sadly
Stranger: damn
Stranger: going into the heavy shit right out of the gate
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You: Same
Stranger: you okay?
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Stranger: with the whole "wishing you weren't real" thing, I mean
You: I didn't necessarily say I wished I wasn't real.
You: I just implied it.
You: What even is real?
Stranger: I mean, really....
You: I'm fine, just having a bit of an existential crisis.
Stranger: I'm sorry
You: Nah, it
You: is fine
Stranger: okay,I guess
Stranger: so how may this stranger on the internet enrich your brief time on this earth?
You: You got happiness in the shape of a carton of ice cream?
Stranger: ...I don't know how to do emojis on this thing...
You: I wasn't referring to emoji's. Real happiness comes in the form of ice cream
You: Sorry that took forever
You: I'm freaking out
Stranger: oh, I'm sorry
Stranger: I thought you said "cartoon ice cream"
Stranger: read it wrong
You: Something keeps whacking the side of my house and freaking me out.
Stranger: ...is it windy right now?
You: Yeah, I'm still on edge though
You: I am paranoid af
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You: Not quite.
You: Why?
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You: HECK NO
You: It is 2 30 in the morning and I am home alone
You: this scared bitch ass ain't walking out side that late in -30 degrees weather
You: I have weird neighbors
Stranger: ...are you saying one of your neighbors might be knocking on the side of your house?
You: No... i am saying that I wou;dn't put it past one of them to do it. Especially if they knew it would freak me tf out and I was home by myself
You: It's is pretty windy, though, too.
Stranger: it's probably just the wind, tbh
You: Oh, I know it's the wind.
You: But whenever I get scared, or even nervous, my brain pulls the scariest shit from the depths of my brain just for the fun of it I guess.
Stranger: where are you, anyway?
You: Iowa
Stranger: oh, cool
You: Where are you at?
Stranger: California
You: Cool
Stranger: um... I can't really help you...
Stranger: with whatever's going on outside, I mean
You: It's just nerves
You: So... age?
Stranger: 24
Stranger: you?
You: 15
Stranger: m or f?
Stranger: (just curious)
You: f
Stranger: I kinda figured
Stranger: (doesn't want to talk about sex stuff ==> PROBABLY a teenage girl...)
You: Trust me, I hear enough about sex during the day.
You: I just realized how creepy that sounded.
You: I am so sorry'
Stranger: O_O
Stranger: Do you need me to call child protective services?!
You: I live with my older sister and three brothers.
Stranger: (also I just realized that response went to the wrong person)
Stranger: (I have 2 different Omegle windows open at once)
Stranger: (the other person I'm talking to opened the convo with "NO SEX STUFF;" I got you confused)
You: Cool, I used to do that when I had a perfectly functioning memory
You: Anyways, they are very vocal on their sex lives at any chance they get.
You: Not vocal as in...
Stranger: ah...
You: Nvrmind
Stranger: I get the idea, yeah
Stranger: they brag
You: My sister doesn't brag, she just sucks on her boyfriends face
Stranger: it's gonna come off some day if she's not careful...
You: And when she's not found doing that, she'll be found in the kitchen talking as loud as she can
You: Hopefully
You: Maybe then I won't have to see that moron
Stranger: XD
Stranger: or maybe you'll just have a guy without a face hanging around
Stranger: which would be... worse...?
You: Well, if he didn't have a face, I wouldn't be able to hear him speak
You: BUT, if he wasn't around, then I wouldn't have to see the sorry excuse of dick always lounging around our house
You: Tbh, idk what would be better. It would be absolute torture for him to not talk about himself all day
Stranger: oh no
Stranger: he's one of THOSE...
You: Mhm
Stranger: ...I kind of want details, lol...
You: get this, when he's drunk, he's actually really nice and quiet for the most part.
Stranger: HAHAHA
You: He asked me the other day how you cut a banana
Stranger: -_-
Stranger: I hate to be the one to tell you this...
You: I had to teach him how to make kool-aid, season chicken, and cook pasta
Stranger: ...but your sister might be dating a moron.
You: fold towels
You: Tell me something I don't know
Stranger: ...how did she even find this man?
You: I think the only reason she does it, is because she is either blinded by love or stupidity
You: He lives next door
You: close family friend for years
Stranger: SHE'S FUCKIN' THE NEIGHBOR BOY?!
Stranger: oh good god...
You: Yeah, I know right?
You: Fun fact: He graduated last year and always hangs around our housse
You: how he didn't know how to season chicken is a crime
Stranger: you... you put seasoning... on chicken...
Stranger: there's... nothing... to... figure... outt...
You: Especially since his father is the professional grill artist of this side of the culdesac
Stranger: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK
You: He covers them completely
You: Like actually douses them in spices and throws em in a pan
Stranger: ...
Stranger: okay, so what you need to do
Stranger: is get your sister a chastity belt
You: THAT'S THE WAY TO GO
Stranger: this guy's privileges are revoked
You: AHHHHH
You: they don't exist though...
You: I wrote a book this Christmas.
You: It's called, "How to Survive Planet Earth When You're Name is Cael and Can't Function Properly"
You: Inside, I wrote VERY detailed basic things and adult-ish human should know how to do.
Stranger: you could sell it
Stranger: no matter what's in the book, you could absolutely sell a book with that title
You: You think?
Stranger: I ACTUALLY laughed out loud when I read that XD
You: It has full coverage from folding laundry, cleaning a house-and this rate
You: Changikng Diapers
Stranger: (congrats on writing a book, btw)
Stranger: (that's not easy, even if it's just a gag gif for your sister's idiot bf)
You: Aww, thanks
You: I think it ended up being about thirty thousand words.
You: He'll still be reading it around next Christmas
Stranger: well, at least he can read...
Stranger: ...that's a start...
You: That itself is a big accomplishment, so I have to give him that.
Stranger: XD
Stranger: Do you write a lot?
You: yeah
You: I love writing
Stranger: GOOD.
Stranger: What kind of stuff do you write?
You: I like writing fantasy, fiction, non-fiction
You: Anything, I just love writing
You: I also right stupid do-it-yourself books for people with an IQ lower than a duckling
Stranger: I dunno
Stranger: I've met some pretty smart ducks...
You: I have not
Stranger: Do you like comics at all?
You: there's this one duck that the people own across the street. her name is Greta the Great (idk why that name), she likes to climb onto cars somehow and sits on them. She does not move and when you try to move her physically, she go all murder duck on you
You: yeah
Stranger: (I promise these questions are going somewhere)
You: I am literally reading ms marvel comics right now
Stranger: YESS
Stranger: I MET G. WILLOW WILSON ONCE
You: REALLY???
Stranger: SHE IS THE SWEETEST HUMAN BEING ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH
You: HOW WAS SHE?
You: WAS SHE MAGICAL?
You: SHE SEEMS LIKE SHE'D BE MAGICAL
You: LIKE, JUST BY HER PRESNENCE
Stranger: THE SUN SHINES OUT OF HER HIJAB
You: AHHHHHHHHHH
You: I KNEW IT
Stranger: (I am a big fancy California person so I get to go to Comic Con hahaha)
You: My parents won't let me
You: YoU'rE tOo YoUnG
You: No I'm NoT GoInG tO gO wItH yOu
Stranger: also tickets are a couple hundred bucks
You: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
You: nope to that shit
Stranger: I am a big fancy california person who also has enough industry ties that he can get in on a free professional guest pass XD
You: HOW
You: I MUST KNOW KIND SIR
Stranger: My dad worked on some of the official Marvel character encyclopedias
You: LUCKY
Stranger: YUSS :3
You: Do you know which ones>
You: ?
Stranger: those big leather-bound ones they used to have in Barnes & Noble...
Stranger: "Marvel: The Characters and Their Universe"
You: DE FANCY ONES
You: That's cool. Those are normally the types of books I just read in store
Stranger: yeah, cause they're $75
You: Yup
You: I almost bought one once, but if I bought it, I wouldn't have been able to go to camp
You: So I put it off
You: It was only because it was marked down for like 54.99
Stranger: you can get them for, like, $25 now
You: Really? I haven't been to a Barnes and Noble for like three months
Stranger: I mean... if you were to send me the money, my dad would PROBABLY sign one for you XD
You: That would be cool...
You: Although it wouldn't be wise to send money to a stranger across the internet
Stranger: yeah, I was gonna say...
Stranger: might be kind of hard to explain...
You: and I don't make enough in a day babysitting the snotty nosed demon down the street
Stranger: "HEY DAD, I NEED YOU TO DO A FAVOR FOR THIS TEENAGE GIRL I MET ON THE INTERNET"
You: I can see why he might be concerned
Stranger: yeah, lol
Stranger: anyway
Stranger: LOOOONG roundabout point I was trying to get to
Stranger: there's a new comic publisher called "AHOY Comics"
Stranger: that prints short prose stories in the back of each issue
Stranger: and anyone can submit one
Stranger: and it pays
Stranger: so if you can do a quirky horror/fantasy story in about 1,000 words
Stranger: it might be worth looking into
You: You don't have to draw?
You: Or anything like that?
Stranger: no, it's a prose story
You: Oh, duh
Stranger: you should probably check out one of their issues first, if you get the chance
You: That sounds interesting, I'll have to check it out
Stranger: They already bought two stories from me :)
You: awesome
You: So is that how people get like "discovered"?
Stranger: I hope so! XD
Stranger: Mine haven't actually been published yet
Stranger: so I don't know how it works after that
You: So do they publish them after they buy them? Just raw, like after no tweaking or changes? Or do you have to do rough drafts upon rough drafts before they release it?
You: Or would you know?
Stranger: they tweak a little
You: I can actually understand why. I mean publishing something that's probably never reached professional editing doesn't really sound like a wise idea to me.
Stranger: the biggest change they made to mine was just shortening it
Stranger: 600 words is the optimum length, even though they accept up to 1,000
You: That is actually a genius program. I wonder how many creators they have?
Stranger: a lot...
Stranger: have you looked them up
You: Yeah, I've been scrolling through their website.
You: Most of their comics look like something I'd read
Stranger: The prose story in the first issue they ever published was by Grant Morrison.
You: have you ever heard of line webtoon?
Stranger: And now they're publishing me.
Stranger: In the same space
Stranger: as Grant
Stranger: Fucking
Stranger: Morrison
Stranger: Yeah, I actually have a webcomic on Line Webtoon too...
You: He wrote that one comic about the asylum right?
You: Really?
You: Which one?
Stranger: ...TWO, actually...
Stranger: One's about a gay penguin, and the other's just stream-of-consciousness, usually R-rated doodles
You: Oh cool, so like the slice of life/ comedy?
You: Oh, have you read Backstory?
You: that's one of my favorites/
Stranger: I haven't, no
Stranger: what is it?
You: One of the creators is Stan Lee
You: May he rest in peace.
Stranger: *crosses heart*
You: not, back story
You: Backchannel
You: Sorry
You: On the surface, Tom Tanner is having an average high school life - struggling to stay on the lacrosse team, hiding his affections for his friend Sally, and trying to keep his head down and grades up. What his father, an LA police detective, and friends don’t know is that Tom is an engineering prodigy and is being recruited by BACKCHANNEL, a decentralized hactivist group causing havoc at prisons across the U.S.
You: There's the description that was on the webtoons page
Stranger: ooohh...
Stranger: Here's mine, if you're interested...
Stranger: https://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/i-think-im-a-penguin/list?title_no=194476
Stranger: (I really need to update this thing again...)
You: OKKKKKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
You: Ima be right back
You: Thud downstairs
You: fam might be home
You: ima fetch a vacuum hose
You: brb
Stranger: vacuum hose...?
Stranger: Also where were they?
You: OH MY LORD AND SAVIOR
You: My sister, her boyfriend, and parents are with my cousin who was pregnant and having difficulty delivering, they were staying until friday
You: One went with while the other is at his dorm in Iowa City
You: And that leaves the little shi-thead, Ethan
You: He was supposed to be at a sleepover.
You: He comes home at almost four in the morning when it is -50 degrees outside and covered head to foot in snow. Banging on the front door, because he forgot to grab his stupid fourth controler for playstation.
Stranger: -_-
You: He left with a muffin
Stranger: ....
Stranger: ...
Stranger: ..
Stranger: .
You: He also left with the little warm air left in this house too
Stranger: ...
You: So there's that.
You: HEY!
You: WHAT IF THOSE THUMPS WERE HIM AND HIS TWAT FRIENDS
You: THE ONES I WAS HEARING EARLIER
Stranger: I was about to ask about that, lol
You: Okay, I'm technically not home alone. I've got ninja. Our small bean of a cat who believes she is a lion.
You: She likes to attack strangers
You: Maybe I should have sicced him on the little shit
Stranger: I approve of everything about your cat
You: Thanks
You: She is sitting with me, growling at the window
You: I am now annoyed knowing that my brother and his friends have nothing better to do than sit outside in -50 and stare at me through the window.
You: I hope their parents are proud
Stranger: I mean... your brother's parents are also your parents, so...
You: Yeah, they are real proud of his accomplishments in life
You: *sarcasm
Stranger: WAS IT REALLY HIM?!
You: Thumping on the window?
You: Walls and such?
You: I have no idea
You: And I don't think he'll come near me for a few days until he knows I won't rip out his intestines
Stranger: you should do it anyway
Stranger: just to show him
You: I just know, I saw four figures waddle back down the street
You: Little shits
You: Ima tell their mommas
Stranger: ALL FOUR OF THEM CAME?!
You: They'll whoop their ass
You: They didn't come in
Stranger: Just... just stay and play video games at your house!
You: (thankfully)
Stranger: They already made the damn trek!
You: I can't
Stranger: god dammit
You: Oh.
You: they are petty and have nothing to do with their lives
You: I'll gove them this pleasure
You: give*
You: Besides
You: that is waaaaay too much testosterone for this house. Plus, I don't have a door on my room and I won't get any sleep at all, let alone with like the two and a half hours I have to do so.
Stranger: ...do I need to let you sleep?
You: Nah, who needs sleep when you have a blanket fort and enough coffee for four thousand vikings
Stranger: And idiot siblings who would've woken you up anyway!
You: Exactly
You: The only reason i'm up this early, is because I never get me time.
You: This is my time to shine baby
Stranger: SAME
You: I'm listening to thirteen reason why, eating waffle crunch, sipping on mostly sugar induced coffee, and on omegle. making friends and bonding over comics and douch brothers and boyfriends
You: Besides, my parents aren't here. I could be like a normal teenage girl and throw a party
You: but why would I do that when I could invite the best person on planet earth.
You: ME AND ONLY ME
You: It is a strictly me party.
You: That's probably why his friends didn't come in...
You: I am tying all sorts of strings together tonight
Stranger: not everyone's a party person
You: I LOOK LIKE A FREKIN MARSHMALLOW MAN RN
Stranger: embrace it
Stranger: BE the marshmallow
You: I have on: tights, spandex, leggings, yoga pants, and sweatpants. two long sleeve shirts and a sweatshirt, four pairs of socks and a beanie
You: Oh, and leg warmers I found under my bed a few weeks ago
You: I also have the heater shooting lava temp air into my pillow/blanket fort
Stranger: Perfect.
You: Ikr?
You: At least I won't freeze to death, even if the power goes out
Stranger: haha, that's good
Stranger: freezing to death should be avoided
Stranger: (I REALLY feel the thing about needing to stay up late to get "me time," btw)
Stranger: (It's 2:17 AM here)
You: Ah, 4;17
You: lol, most the time, this neighbor girl named abi?
You: She comes over and pretends she's part of the family because shes a lonely only child
You: Gotta love her though
Stranger: Not as bad as your brothers or sister's bf?
You: Nah.
You: I can tell her to leave me alone and she listens
You: That's the difference
Stranger: KEEP HER
You: IKR! XD
You: You know that stupid NUN movie?
You: The horror?
Stranger: I know of it, I haven't seen it.
You: Neither have I nor will I ever...
You: An ad just played for it and I think i just had a mini chest pain there at the end
Stranger: I haven't seen the ad, I don't think...
You: At least the devils hour is over. I don't have to worry about stuff like that
You: I've only seen it once before, although it was months ago. I don't know why it'd be playing now.
You: brb
You: THEY CAME BACK FOR THE MUFFINS!
Stranger: MOTHERFUCKERS
You: GOD DANG IT, THEY'RE ALL GONE
You: Oh wait
You: They left a single chocolate chip in the bottom
You: at least they have common decency
Stranger: i suppose it's better than nothing
Stranger: ...but not by much...
You: Yeah...
You: There is literally nothing sweet in this house.
You: i could make something, but I don't want to leave my fort
Stranger: WHY ARE THEY VENTURING OUT INTO FREEZING SNOW
Stranger: FOR MUFFINS?!?!?!?!
You: Who knows
You: HEY, THEY ORDERED PIZZA
You: WHY DON'T THEY EAT THEIR OWN FOOD
Stranger: tell their parents
You: oh they most definitely will hear of this
Stranger: tell their parents that their children are out wandering the streets at 4 AM in the middle of a blizzard
You: Funny thing
You: My cousin?
You: The pregnant one that is giving birth three states away?
Stranger: yeah?
You: that's her mom
You: She's gone
Stranger: what?
You: Brother is staying at cousin's house down the street
Stranger: OH
You: I locked the door
Stranger: lol
You: they ain't getting my heater
You: if they come back, that's probs be what they go for.
Stranger: well, it kind of sounds like you need that to... you know... LIVE...
You: well, unless the furnace doesn't kicks off i'll be fine
You: besides i've got ninja
You: a very irritable portable heater
Stranger: *tapes cat to face*
Stranger: "I'm good!"
You: No...
You: .
You: .
You: .
You: kitt-ing
You: haha
Stranger: -_-
You: I have no friends
Stranger: I'm sorry
Stranger: I'm a 24 year old man who still lives with his parents, and spends his evenings socializing online with total strangers who--not always but USUALLY--turn out to be teenage girls.
Stranger: ...so you might still be ahead of the curve on this one...
You: I don't know about that one
Stranger: (nothing wrong with being a teenage girl, obviously)
Stranger: (just... maybe not the demographic I should be socializing with the most...?)
You: I'm a socially awkward fifteen year old gorl who has severe anxiety and when tries to speak to anyone that's not related to or known for at least five years, cannot speak to in person without screaming on the inside. If not found caressing my refrigerator or at the back of my public library, I will be found on youtube, tumblr, pinterest, or just staring outside at the field of cows across the street.
Stranger: (the person in my other Omegle window called me out on it and now I'm feeling self-conscious)
You: haha
Stranger: yeah, I have anxiety problems too
Stranger: and I'm starting to dip towards being more comfortable interacting with people online than I am in person
Stranger: which scares me a little
You: Oh, I'm homeschooled too, so... there goes anything that has to do with people
Stranger: cause, you know... real life... is... goof
Stranger: *good
Stranger: OH GOD
Stranger: Okay
Stranger: yeah
Stranger: I'm sorry
Stranger: homeschooling is bad
You: Not necessarily.
Stranger: I mean, it can be really hard on your social life
Stranger: (and yeah, the regular education system is pretty bad too, soo...)
You: I don't have to ding fucks that call themselves teenagers. I can stay at home in my jam-jams all day
You: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
You: WHAT SOCIAL LIFE?
Stranger: ...
Stranger: I don't even know what advice to give you on that one...
Stranger: Most of my friends who need to get out more are, you know... adults... who can leave the house without needing permission and drive and shit.
You: Ok, I will admit. If I put my mind to it and really focus and stuff, I can form a coherent sentence without looking like a mentally sick and deranged horse.\
Stranger: And I do have SOME friends my own age. Lol.
Stranger: ...
You: I do have one friend.
Stranger: Is it Abi?
You: Nah, she's family
You: his names Levi
You: He is nine and his favorite animal is parrot
Stranger: ah
Stranger: is this the "demon you babysit" you mentioned earlier?
You: HOW DID YOU KNOW
Stranger: ...because you mentioned babysitting a demon earlier...?
You: That is some serious string tying, sir
Stranger: > person says they never interact with other people
Stranger: > person mentions one other person they interact with
Stranger: > person mentions interacting with someone recently
Stranger: QED: person they interacted with is probably one person they mentioned
Stranger: ...
Stranger: okay that actually made me more confused...
You: YOU'VE BEEN TALKING WITH ME FOR TOO LONG
You: YOU'RE DEVELOPING A TERRIBLE MEMORY
Stranger: ALSO IT'S ALMOST 3:00 IN THE MORNING HERE
Stranger: SO I MIGHT BE A LITTLE SPACY
You: that might be my excuse as well
You: I am dreading to admit I have a dentist appointment at 8:30
Stranger: FUCK
You: its five
You: fml
Stranger: ...
Stranger: I can't really judge anyone else's life choices
Stranger: especially when it comes to spending too much time on this site...
Stranger: ...but you should not have spent a couple hours talking to me
Stranger: :P
You: Nah, it's fine.
You: I should probably get a little sleep, though
Stranger: yeah...
You: so i don't fall asleep at the dentists office
Stranger: hope this bite-sized glimpse of socializing gave you what you needed...
You: Maybe
Stranger: ...i don't even know what I'm saying anymore I'm tired...
You: probably not
You: good night
Stranger: hang in there
You: actually, good morning
Stranger: it gets better
You: does it really?
Stranger: adult responsibilities really aren't that much harder than teenage responsibilities
Stranger: but you get the freedom of being an adult
You: adulting sounds pretty difficult
You: are you sure?
Stranger: to, like... leave the house whenever you want, and pick your own schedule and shit
Stranger: you've managed to keep yourself alive while your parents were out of town, yes?
You: .
You: .
You: .
You: barely
You: almost murdered four teenage boys, that's for sure
Stranger: it seems hard when you're not doing it
Stranger: then you just kinda... start doing it, without even realizing it
Stranger: adulting, I mean
Stranger: not murdering teenagers
You: I was gonna say...
You: I was so confused after that first statement
Stranger: lol
Stranger: okay, I'm out of wisdom
Stranger: go get some sleep
Stranger: and... try to... find friends? In the real world?
You: That was real encouraging
Stranger: sorry
You: Go and... find friends
You: Nah it's cool
Stranger: wherever you get your comics
Stranger: see if they hold D&D tournaments or something?
Stranger: or Magic?
You: okie dokie
Stranger: okay
Stranger: good night
You: night'
You have disconnected.
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