#spiritual ocd

[magnetothemagnificent]

The little spiritual OCD pixie in my brain: "If you talk about your anxieties, they'll summon the Evil Eye and come true"

2019: *I finally get to a point of opening up to my therapist and talk about my anxieties. Tell her about how I read about a novel coronavirus outbreak in Wuhan that I'm anxious will develop into a global pandemic*

Now: *I finally get to a point of opening to my new therapist and talk about my anxieties after years of being afraid to because of the 2019 incident. Tell her about my debilitating phobia of driving and how I'm afraid I'll get into an accident. Gradually work on exposure therapy to get to a point of being comfortable behind the wheel*

Today: *Feels confident enough to drive alone for the first time in years........crashes car into fence.*

The little spiritual OCD pixie: "told you so."

#yes physically I'm alright baruch Hashem #mentally I am very Shaken #sigh #personal #spiritual ocd

[thecorvidforest]

if you see this, you are now and forever completely immune from every single “it’s the first of the month, use this sound or something bad will happen to you” post and every variation of it. those posts aren’t real. nothing bad will happen to you as a result of not using those sounds. i promise.

(tags are for reach)

#spirituality #first of the month #new month #psychosis #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #paranoia #schizophrenia #paranoid schizophrenia #spiritual psychosis #spiritualguidance

[canisalbus]

I'm definitely projecting but Machete with religous/contamination OCD with a particular emphasis on cleanliness of the soul.

At least to some degree, I'd say.

#the symptoms of contamination ocd sound correct but they could be just a part of his overall health anxiety #answered #anonymous #he has sort of an one sided love-hate relationship with God #so it depends on the day how much he worries about spiritual purity #his most pressing concerns tend to be a lot more mundane and perceivable #mostly

[astrosouldivinity]

Astrological placements in a natal chart that may indicate OCD or Anxiety

+ Autism/ADHD

Part 2:

⚠️ Disclaimer: I am not saying these placements have AuDHD/Anxiety/OCD. But they may be more prone to certain behaviors relating to the disorders. You can use astrology to observe your subconscious patterns. Essentially, you can use it for shadow work. But these may not apply to everyone so take what resonates and leave what does not

I was requested to do Schizophrenia so I will be doing that after this part and then I will be done with this series ❤️

Cancer Sun/Moon/Venus/Rising/Mars: OCD regarding their emotional environment. They need to feel safe, in control, & secure in their feelings. If they are not able to do that it can be stressful/anxious for them to navigate & just find emotional balance overall. They give off neurodivergent vibes too because of their heightened sensitivity. They are sensitive individuals who can easily pick up on the emotions & energy of their environment + others.

3H Stellium- Gives off ADHD vibes. They may also be prone to anxiety because of their active mind. They are mutable air so they can be multiple different people at once while feeling multiple different emotions, & perceiving multiple different perspectives & realities. Their mind is rarely still for long.

Aries Moon/Mars/Mercury: They can be impulsive & brash. I think they unintentionally anger a lot of people because of their brutal honesty. But they are authentically themselves & refuse to settle for anything less than that. Honesty or just being a truth seeker in general is commonly associated with Autism, & impulsivity is a symptom of ADHD.

Scorpio Sun/Moon/Mars/Rising/Mercury/Chiron: They are sensitive individuals but don’t show it at all. They might mask their emotions out of fear of being vulnerable. Similarly to Cancer/Pisces they will pick up on the emotions of others & they may need time to themselves to recharge their energy. I think their energy is pretty intense, it has a mirroring effect which unintentionally triggers a lot of people. Mirroring is a symptom of Autism/ADHD.

Pisces Anything: They are mutable water so they are quite adaptable. They can easily morph into the emotional energy of their environment. They are creative & intuitive which naturally makes them sensitive individuals. Autism can show symptoms of having heightened sensitivities. So like sensory issues & needing to stim which stimming for a Pisces could be their creative outlet.

Honorable Mention: Aquarius + Capricorn, 12H Stellium or 12H Moon/Mercury/Mars

~Part 1~

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[sillycathorrors]

resisting the urge to tell ppl on tiktok who make those ‘you will get good news in 10mins if you use this sound’ vids to kill themselves is SO HARD cause usually i try to be nice on tiktok cause theres alr so much bitchiness but those vids make my blood boil

#they are especially SO BAD for people who have delusions ocd paranoia etc #and as a spiritual person they just annoy me as well #spirituality #ocd #paranoia #delusions #my thoughts #sorrens rambles #tiktok

[rabbitprayer]

I'm really struggling right now with fears that my attempts to help people IRL (volunteering, tentative activism plans) are useless, voyeuristic, naval-gazing, just a way to inflate my own pride, doing harm instead of good, etc. This is probably an OCD thing and I'm trying not to let my fears stop me from action. I can be reasonably sure that I am not causing any harm. (As much as anyone can be reasonably sure that their actions are not causing harm.) If what I'm doing is useless, at least I can know that I tried to do something. If what I'm doing is naval-gazing, that does not negate the attempt to do good.

What is the point of this post? It's the second, less detailed draft and I'm not sure.

I am not seeking reassurance because that will not help me and I can't grow dependent on that as a source of relief for my mental discomfort. Honestly I suppose I am just yelling into the void because the OCD demons have got me trapped again in multiple mental mazes right now like

#I should be putting this on r/ocd or just keeping it inside like I normally do but idk #this beast is really coming for my spiritual life rn #txt

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to learn to meditate

I have to stop being externally dependent on moods and events for peace. I need to learn to quiet my thoughts without external aids. I need to be able to calm myself. I want desperately to be able to just sit and do that. It would be good for me in so many ways

Everything is getting worse and traditional prayer is hard and mostly sends me spiralling into panic attacks or trauma induced nausea

Send me your fave books/lectures/resources/etc on meditation. Esp for big dumb idiots who don't know how to do anything.

#no but fr i am genuinely asking for recs and resources #the internet is full of sm bullshit #which yes i CAN sort thru. but if someone could give me some directions that would be nicr #also. if u r reading this and are a well meaning but misguided christian and feel the need to come warn me about the spiritual dangers #and how meditation is linked to pagan or new age religions or whatever. consider. dont do that. i dont care #go read some thomas merton and maybe youll calm down #(i dont think merton has a guide but ykwim) #literally was starting yoga at school eons ago and it was so good #and a well meaning scare tactic christian triggered my ocd so bad i stopped #and now my hip is too fucked for it #but i miss the peace i had that one semester #and i want that emptiness. that awareness #its not prayer but its the next best thing #i cant be filled with god but the emptiness is close. if all peace has a divine source or whatever #idk i really am just #needing to. stop my brain and my heart #and have a peaceful self emptying in a non harmful way #i need to learn to inhabit myself without panic

[aeternalight]

The witchcraft community is literally so mean to people with OCD. I will not elaborate but I will say, there is no right way to be into witchcraft. You can do literally whatever practice with no consequence. And the people that act like others will be smited by some all-knowing god is fucking ludicrous.

I'm literally sick and tired of people acting like witchcraft and beliefs exist in a perfect bubble/vacuum, no you dumb bitch, you're affected by other beliefs, especially the world that you grew up with. There will be no such thing as a pure belief or thoughts on spirituality. Everything becomes affected by one another.

I'm also fucking tired of people assuming that we have to dredge up things or evaluate things to be a perfect little witch. Why don't you stop putting people up to insane standards and mind your damn business. How other people's practices go is no concern of yours, its not your place to judge it.

And as far as misinformation goes, just don't get yourself hurt. If its bad for you, don't do it. But most things are on the table. Just don't do something illegal.

The witch community has a severe purity problem and most are influenced by christian beliefs without realizing it. Maybe you need to evaluate your own beliefs before you judge others.

#.post #witchcraft #witchblr #like y'all are so cringe for treating others with blatant disregard for their wellbeing #maybe the reason why you have found no peace in your life is because you're messing with the peace of others #and that's inviting drama and bullshit into yours #so mind your business and you will be blessed with peace and happiness #don't fit people into a mold and do what spirituality has been saying for years #there is no label on this. no name for experiences. i realize now what they mean #its not that people should not seek labels on their own identities #its that they shouldn't seek to label others'. #but fr so many witches trigger mine and other's ocd in the name of divine interception #who cares what im doing!!!!!!!! care about what you're doing instead

[himalayaan-flowers]

i’m so tired, i just want to know if God exists and if He does, what is wanted from me, or if i’m allowed to die

but there are too many religions and beliefs and it’s exhausting

i need to read about religion & science. about prophecies that apparently came true. pray. read about all the different beliefs and their histories. try to weigh up which is right, which, if any, has enough evidence to suggest it’s true. read all the major religious texts. try to work out which translation is right. which interpretations are right.

but i can’t make myself do it. i don’t have the energy to eat, let alone any of this. and doing it all alone is so hard. and it’s very, very hard to find the motivation when i’m 99% sure there’s no God anyway.

but what if i’m wrong and i end up dying and going to hell for believing the wrong thing

i feel like no one can help me i feel so trapped

#i’m just so stuck #I have no energy #no concentration #no motivation #and the ocd makes it so hard #idk what to do #religion #hell #christianity #Judaism #islam #hinduism #buddhism #God #spirituality #agnosticism #atheism

[rosealouette]

intrusive thoughts are not affirmations

intrusive thoughts do not manifest

#ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #witchcraft #manifestation #spirituality #ocd and spirituality

[susansontag]

it wouldn’t be incorrect to suggest that my experience of OCD informs some of my politics and general ideas about the world tbh! it’s no surprise to me that I’m against the idea that thoughts have the inherent power to harm others or enact real violence, and this extends to my ideas about speech and writing/reading in most cases. it similarly doesn’t surprise me that I’m skeptical of all forms of religion, but also quasi-religious thought and cult-like dynamics and groups, and quasi-religious thought does include ideas about manifestation and fate btw (so yep zodiac, tarot, etc, all included). I’ve seen how these ideas can lead people down self-destructive paths where they feel completely helpless to factors beyond their control

this isn’t meant to be reductive, I think when managed correctly and done in moderation some of these ideas can even be helpful. but I won’t pretend they’re more than helpful ideas and actually represent some deeper truth or meaning about the workings of the world, because they don’t. and it’s healthy to be suspicious of people trying to tell you that they do because they’re usually trying to control or limit your expression, thoughts, or behaviour in some way

#I get this puts me in opposition somewhat to more spiritually inclined materialists but well we need balance #as I said it's not to be reductive. but I believe in absolute honesty when it counts #moth.txt #ocd diary

[dykeyuu]

i agree that your living essence is present in every cell. but i don't think we can say consciousness is only a series of electrical and biochemical signals. what we can say is that electrical and biochemical signals have a causal relationship with consciousness. but we don't yet know the exact shape of that causal relationship.

is your consciousness different from mine? of course, our bodies and cells are different. do we each produce two distinct separate consciousnesses? or is the same consciousness interacting in a causal relationship with both of our bodies?

electrical and biochemical signals happen at a scale that we can easily study. but what about the quantum scale? what's going on in our body at the quantum scale?

i think you may have misunderstood me, which is probably more my failure to communicate than yours, when i said i feel as though my consciousness is present in every cell. i feel that way because i don’t believe the consciousness is anything more than a network of signaling pathways being constantly stimulated and regulated. every cell in my body is “conscious” in that it’s constantly receiving input and making minute adjustments based on cellular/organismal context— i eat a cookie, which increases my blood sugar, which activates a transporter protein on the surface of β-cells in the pancreas and causes glucose to be taken into a cell (one cell, for the sake of simplicity), which stimulates glycolysis and therefore ATP production in the cell; the increase in ATP closes ATP-gated potassium channels, which traps potassium ions inside the cell, which causes the cell to depolarize, which opens calcium channels and lets calcium into the cell, which causes the exocytosis of insulin-containing vesicles and the release of insulin into the blood. my cells recognize a stimulus and, through a series of electrical and biochemical signals, produce a response. my blood sugar goes up, my pancreas senses this and secretes a hormone that’ll take my blood sugar back down. all five of your senses function on signaling pathways— the key signaling event that allows you to see, bizarrely enough, is the light-induced isomerization of retinal from cis to trans. the retinal is bound to an opsin protein, and in the trans configuration, retinal exposes a binding site that cis-retinal had been covering up. once that binding site is open, transducin binds and a whole series of chemical and electrical events ensue that eventually result in the nerve impulses that your brain uses to piece together an image based on the way the world around you is reflecting or emitting light (and it’s not actually eventually— this all happens in less than a second). your growth and development, from the moment of conception to the moment you cease to exist entirely, are facilitated by signaling pathways and if i started listing those off i’d never stop. your memories and personality and identity are stored in the connections between particular neurons in your brain— calcium is essential to learning and memory because it activates calmodulin, which activates CaM kinase II, which, in its active form, activates more of itself independent of calcium/calmodulin. through this mechanism, a transient calcium signal is turned into a constitutively active CaMKII signal. CaMKII is a structural protein, and more importantly a master regulator within the synapses, and it has been proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that CaMKII is necessary for synaptic plasticity, learning and memory— even something as intangible as memory is rooted in biochemistry. the brain is ridiculously complex, and the body’s system of communication with itself is just as ridiculously complex, and what we know is barely a drop in the sea. given all that, is it really so hard to believe that our entire consciousnesses, everything people like to classify as the “soul”, could be products of our highly individual and specific cellular contexts— our genetics, our epigenetics, our environments, even our memories— interfacing with a cell signaling system that’s been evolving for billions of years?

i’d leave it there for the punchy ending but i do actually have somewhere i’m going with all this. in my mind, it makes far more sense to believe that every aspect of my being is rooted in material reality than to believe that there’s some ephemeral “life force” or “soul”, some essential piece of me that is somehow a separate entity residing within my body. the comfort i would gain from believing i have a soul that transcends my body would be overpowered by the discomfort i’d feel at not understanding the scientific basis of my belief. i find much more comfort in believing that i am a highly complex organism and that everything that makes me unique, everything that makes me a person, all of my love and curiosity and determination and thirst for knowledge, is rooted in material reality. it’s all tangible (or at the very least, theoretically detectable). that’s very powerful to me.

i’m not gonna speak on the quantum thing because all of my quantum physics knowledge comes from chemistry classes and i could barely pass general physics so i’m definitely not qualified for that discussion (unless we’re talking about orbitals i’m pretty decent with orbitals lmaoo). i’ve got no fucking clue what happens in the body on a quantum level. my academic disinclination towards physics tells me that it’s not my business what happens in the body on a quantum level, but truthfully i’m very interested in the answer because i like to understand the way things work on every possible level (hence the chemistry degree in progress).

one final note: i’m high as shit and i have just spent the last 5+ hours smoking, listening to the same song on loop, and alternating between answering this ask and reading the wikipedia for cauchy sequences (and several other related wikipedia pages— the devil is on my shoulder telling me to take real analysis even though i know i’d hate it). do with that information what you will.

#autistic girl take: if you let yourself be a little spiritual about science you will see the divine everywhere you look #autistic girl take 2: life is happier when everything has a logical explanation (whether or not that explanation is known) #actually is that an autism take or an ocd take… #because chief im not gonna lie knowledge is a collection of collections and complete collections correspond to moral purity🫣 #long post

[astrosouldivinity]

Astrological placements in a natal chart that may indicate OCD or Anxiety

+ Autism/ADHD

Part 1: ⚠️ Disclaimer: I am not saying these placements have AuDHD/Anxiety/OCD. But they may be more prone to certain behaviors relating to the disorders. You can use astrology to observe your subconscious patterns. Essentially, you can use it for shadow work. But these may not apply to everyone so take what resonates and leave what does not

6H Stellium- OCD regarding their perfectionistic nature. They need things to be exact & orderly. Change in routine may be difficult especially if they have already established a routine that makes sense to them. This placement gives Neurodivergent vibes as well tbh. They need some type of structure/routine to feel secure.

Mercury Aspects: if negatively aspected these individuals may struggle with communicating their innermost thoughts. Their thoughts/communication often get muddled which can make it difficult to understand them.

Mercury Square Venus: relates to Mercury aspects but I wanted to go into detail with this specific placement. They may be awkward in social settings & have a hard time connecting with others overall. They could say the wrong thing or just make someone feel some type of way but it’s not on purpose.

Virgo Anything: OCD regarding their physical environment. I didn’t put any specific Virgo placements because I’ve observed that the placement truly doesn’t matter when it comes to these behaviors. Since they are an earth sign they are pretty grounded. However, they are ruled by Mercury & are a mutable earth sign which affects their stability levels. They need their environment to be perfect & make sense to them at a mental level. So they may be control freaks. They give off restless anxious energy similar to Gemini. They are sensitive & feel things in their gut due to Virgo being ruled by the abdomen. Digestive issues are a common symptom in autistic people.

Libra Sun/Moon/Mars/Mercury: They are likely to have a strong sense of justice which is common for people with Autism. But they are also an air sign too so I think it makes it more difficult for them to stay grounded in general. They pick up on many different frequencies which I think makes them very intuitive. They may have pattern recognition which is another Autistic trait. They like to weigh their options and see things from different pov’s before coming to a decision. But they can be indecisive & value their freedom a lot. It’s giving PDA (pathological demand avoidance).

Gemini Anything: I didn’t put any specific Gemini placements because I’ve observed that the placement truly doesn’t matter when it comes to these behaviors. Their brains tend to be scattered & they are usually all over the place. They have a restless/anxious energy to them. It’s hard for them to stay still for prolonged periods & they need lots of mental stimulation or they will get bored. They are good at retaining information & sometimes have a good memory. But they can be forgetful too. They may remember their special interest in detail but everything else is debatable.

~Part 2~

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[shoplifting]

HELLO✨ happy women's day to and from my bigender self! it's my birthday again and I feel insane at not being a teenager anymore but also not having bar access. Life is hard to do when you're stably housed but disabled, unemployed, can't drive, and don't live in walking distance of public transit. I'm finally back to doing classwork so if y'all wanna give me some money for pick me ups, my paypal is @aboveandbeyonder, cashapp is $brillyiantly, and venmo is @Eleanor-Cetina, and my teepublic is here; I'd really appreciate it, or just sharing this!! Love you all lots 💞💞

#bi rambles #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually ocd #queer #trans #nonbinary #bigender #tic disorder #it's so similar to tourettes but not quite what is the actually x tag #disabled #language disorder #expressive receptive language disorder #again what's the actually tag!!! #actually disabled #anyway listen to the song it's so good #i saw it live and now i understand spiritual experiences #Spotify

[devilfruitdyke]

on my soapbox again but. not every opinion should be an identity because then every dislike turns into oppression

#hi weirdgirlfag if you see this we're going through it #anyway i was in the t.ransid tag because someone asked them about it and hm .. #rapid fire take time #if you identify with wanting to have trauma yr probably traumatized #if you identify with having ocd (for example) you probably have obsessions/compulsions but feel like you need a label for validity #if you identify with being a different race yr a weeb who should log off and realize you can actually appreciate cultures. #rather than literally being born there #if you identify with a different age you probably wish you were less constrained by weird ideas of maturity #and most importantly. you need to consider yrself as religious/spiritual for believing in past lives and dimension shifting #those are metaphysical beliefs and you shouldnt be swayed into believing some cult tiktoker while able to maintain yr atheist identity #..when you look in the mirror. #theres not even anything bad about having those as spiritual beliefs i just dont want people with preexisting beliefs on religion #to be talked into increasingly more controlling shit #ps. t.rans-opinion doesnt have to be a thing because opinions are different than rigid social constructs. you can just lie.