#the colors look like shit on my pc so i hope it looks okay

[blissfali]

did you start thinking ways to fill the void

replaced with endless scrolling spite

#doodles #wilbur soot #wilbur soot fanart #mammalian sighing reflex #ycgma #art #im gonna get an abortion!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i hope you guys like this :) #the colors look like shit on my pc so i hope it looks okay

[gottagetback2u]

✰ stray kids doing ur makeup!

warnings: some lighthearted jokes, emojis used, cursing. established relationships! don’t wish for too much with these boys. inconsistent use of correct spelling.

my bestie gave me this prompt when we were texting 🤭 hope u guys enjoyy

-✰ chan

he’s so giggly with it the entire time. u ask him and he’s like “u want me to? 😀” he asks u in between laughs “is this product right?” and when u don’t help him, he gets whiny bc he at least wants to make ur makeup look good!

-✰ minho

a menace most times, but a soft expression appears on his face when u ask him. he gets that lazy, soft smirk, his eyes squinty with an obvious twinkle in them. somehow, instead of purposefully messing up, he tries his best, actually doing a good job! (he secretly memorized the order of ur products from watching u get ready <3)

-✰ changbin

“awwwww~ u want binnie to do ur makeup huh?? u want ur sweet cute talented bf to do it?” kick him out. take it back 😭 but honestly, he wouldn’t do terrible… he’s just not very coordinated with his hands. application of foundation and blush are so patchy. PLEASE DONT LET HIM NEAR UR EYES

-✰ hyunjin

he wants to be good. like i have said, he loves that aesthetically pleasing, pinterest type relationship shit. once u tell him how to blend, he gets pretty good. downside, doesn’t want to do anything except foundation, concealer and blush. says he’ll “mess it up” 😑

-✰ han

no mirrors involved. he’s gonna, quote on quote, “blow ur mind”. ends up using every single product, continuously confused about which each of them are. not like he gets his makeup done every single day 🤨

-✰ felix

u would expect him to be the best… surprise, he also has no hand coordination!!! he might build pcs, but that has nothing on makeup application. does powders before foundations, wants to do ur eyeshadow, and if he doesn’t like a color he will just cover it up with another one. help him.

-✰ seungmin

okay… hear me out… he’s actually really good at eyeliner. but that’s all he’s good at LMAOO. u tell him that u do ur eye makeup first, and he spends 45 minutes doing the wings, always reaching back with a q-tip to fix it. once he’s done tho, he tells u it’s too hard 😐 this lil bitch

-✰ jeongin

gets all shy and blushy. he feels like this is the boyfriend duty out of boyfriend duties. bUt, once he starts, he realizes how hard it is and starts to mess around. “ya! i don’t care if it’s wrong! u asked for this-“

masterlist!

taglist: @strawberrimarchi

#sapphire’s log~ #🎧 #stray kids #stray kids soft thoughts #bang chan #lee know #changbin #hyunjin #han jisung #lee felix #seungmin #yang jeongin #skz #skz fluff #stray kids imagines #stray kids scenarios #skz headcanons

[broken-clover]

7- Home

So I'll admit I'm not sure huge into shooty bang bang rpg-type games, but fallout 4 dragged me in with its settlement building mechanics and now I can't leave. Also, as this fic indicates, it gave me Preston Garvey

Preston is such a terrific and underrated character that I'll absolutely go to bat for. I know being an asshole in these kinds of games is fun, but Preston's always been admirable in how he's so well meaning and constantly tries to see the best in everyone despite living in awful circumstances. I'm a massive sucker for the 'everything is terrible so I'll do everything humanly possible to try and make it a little less awful' type of character. The fact that he's all but stated to be chronically depressed from the sheer amount of shit he's lived through but still is so well-intentioned and kind toward strangers and even towards ghouls who usually get the short end of the stick in canon makes me wonder constantly why he consistently seems to be one of the least liked companions. Preston is an absolute treasure.

I wrote this in the context of my second playthrough with my PC Doctor Stella, but he doesn't get mentioned by name so it's fine to just imagine the default Sole Survivor for this

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In a weird way, Commonwealth sunrises were a beautiful thing. Preston got to see a lot of them when he was on the morning shift, patrolling about to make sure all of the defenses were active and running and that no troublemakers were attempting to pry through the barrier walls. In the moments between barbed wire and machine guns, he’d gaze off into the horizon to catch a glimpse of the orange-green sky.

According to the flagpost set up by the bridge, the wind was pushing southward. Good. It carried the airborne radiation from the Glowing Sea, and that was one of the few things that the walls couldn’t keep out. Even with the radiation scrubbers that Sturges and the General’s robot friend had put together a few months ago, radiation storms still forced everyone inside and made the older settlers ill until the air cleared. Preston was perfectly happy having the sickly glow blown in the opposite direction, though there was still enough suspended in the sky to the east that it left a color on the clouds and the sun as it rose.

The sound of mechanical whirring distracted him for a moment. A Mister Handy robot was floating down the street, eyestalks wiggling in different directions.

Preston approached with a polite nod. “Morning, Codsworth, is everything okay?”

“Oh, perfectly marvelous, sir!” His buzzsaw arm gestured for emphasis. “Just doing the morning check, but I see you’re doing the same! I hope, then, that I may be allowed to check on the begonias, Mister Garvey? I’d hate to leave important duties unfinished, but they have looked a tad wilted lately.”

Taken off-guard, he blinked for a few moments in silence. “If…if you want, go ahead. The others should be waking up soon, so if I need any extra hands, I can just ask them.”

“Splendid, sir, splendid! If you need me, I’ll be right by the front entrance. It’s hard to miss with the new sign, isn’t it?”

As Preston watched him go, he tucked the rifle back over his shoulder. Codsworth hadn’t been wrong. The General and a few volunteers had put the thing up last week. Plenty of settlements had their own little signs to mark the outer limits, carved in whatever walls or driftwood was available. But this one had been made from scratch, the General had gone out and felled a birch tree outside of Concord, dragged it back up to Sanctuary, cut the wood, and put the planks together. He’d been meticulous in painting the letters and placing the sign on stakes in a particular spot, close enough to be visible at a distance but far enough from the river to keep from being splashed by the water.

The whole thing puzzled him, though he hadn’t voiced it. Sometimes he struggled to follow the man’s rationale. It seemed like a non-necessity, but the General had been incredibly passionate about his little pet project, though he only had others work on it if they asked to help. A few of his strange friends had offered their assistance in piecing it all together.

The General had brought back all sorts of odd characters to Sanctuary over the last few months. Between the migrants from Diamond City, refugees from destroyed settlements, and people just looking for someplace more secure, he’d come back with the dog, a detective, a gun-for-hire, another robot, a super mutant- good lord, a super mutant! That one had been difficult to break to the other settlers, and several still preferred to stay out of arm’s reach, though his reading circle sessions with Mama Murphy had made him a more mundane sight around town.

A few people began emerging from their homes as the sun kept rising. Preston offered them all a warm smile and a wave. It brought him some peace of mind to see them up and about, it was easier to keep everyone safe when he knew where they were. He patrolled the little market district as the merchants started setting out their wares. Once he was sure everyone was alright, he went back to patrolling the sidewalks.

Through a broken window, Preston spotted errant sparks flying through the air. As he approached, he picked up on the smell of hot metal. One of the General’s friends sat in the midst of a makeshift workshop, soldering something to something else.

He waited for the man to sit back and turn off the blowtorch before making his presence known. “Being safe?”

“Pfft, what kind of question is that?” He wasn’t always the best with names, but he knew this one was from the Railroad. Dale, Des- Deacon? That sounded right. He always had a bit of smugness about him, but it was the playful sort that made him easy to like. Whenever he stopped at Sanctuary, he seemed to get along well with everyone.

“I just don’t want you injured.” Preston raised his hands to placate the man. He noted the faintest hint of shadowy rings around his eyes. “Have you gotten enough sleep? It seems early to be working on something like this.

“C’mon, I don’t sleep! Who’s got time to sleep, eh? There’s work to do!”

Preston chuckled to himself. “Guess I can’t complain about hard work. So what’s your project? Does that get mounted on the turrets?”

“W-well, uh…” Deacon didn’t generally come across as awkward, but he definitely was right now. “Nah, it’s not actually something that important. Heard that Professor came back with a bunch of old holo-tapes ‘n was talking about how he wished there was other ways to watch ‘em outside of their Pip-Boy and the terminal by the water pump. I borrowed some stuff from Tinker Tom, and I know Nicky mentioned finding that big old tarp at the truck stop, so I was thinking we put all this together and have a movie night with everyone in town!”

“...I see.” Preston wasn’t sure how to reply. “I hope…I hope that goes well for you.”

It was odd to see so many non-necessities across Sanctuary. He didn’t mean it as a complaint, but like in the Commonwealth was a difficult one, and having even the basic necessities was a tall order. Preston had never envisioned living a life where there was space for things like flowerbeds or movie nights. He would have fretted about it more if it came at the expense of things like growing food or security, but Sanctuary had an abundance of it. Between their own resource scavenging and the massive supply trades that the General had set up with the Minutemens’ assistance across the northern section of the Commonwealth, there was enough to go around that there was some free space for frivolous things.

Wasn’t that a thought! Even if he was befuddled by it, he could take some delight in seeing his organization’s message finally reaching people, finally making some kind of impact. There was a deep chasm of difference between aspiring for a lofty goal like safety and unifying people, and actually being able to see it pan out after all that time and effort. Sanctuary had been an irradiated pile of rubble not too long ago, and now look! A real, honest-to-god home.

Home. Not a stronghold, not a settlement, not a base of operations, or even a camp. Home. Where was the last place he had considered home?

A cowbell clanged somewhere in the distance. The shift was officially over, and today’s menu called for grits and eggs. With a hint of boyish glee in his smile, Preston jogged off in the direction of breakfast.

#Frog Writes #comfortober #fallout #fallout 4 #preston garvey

[zzoguri]

thanks for the tag @winterchimez and @from-izzy !!

rules: you're going to pick 10 of your biases (or as many biases as you have and then fill in the rest of the spots with idols you like) and number them 1-10. then answer the questions below! try not to look at the questions before you make your list!

bias list:

kim sunwoo (tbz)

jacob bae (tbz)

ji changmin (tbz)

kim namjoon (bts)

kang younghyun (day6)

choi soobin (txt)

kim jiwoo/chuu (loona)

im yeojin (loona)

hong eunchae (lesserafim)

nakamura kazuha (lesserafim)

questions under the cut!

between 7 and 5, who did you bias first?

i stanned day6 since 2017, but i def biased chuu first!! i was sadly a jaehyung stan then, but i started biasing youngk like around 2019??? i think. chuu has always been one of my biases since heart attack was released :3

between 2 and 6, who are you more attached to?

BROTHER IN CHRIST!!! i am very much more attached to jacob :') i love him so much as a lesbian..... like bro he is MY future like i am his teehee. idk like his vlives really are something i listen to before sleeping and they bring so much comfort </3 BUTTT i forever love my soobin :')) i biased him longer and he is my bestfriend forever and my boyfriend...

if you were to spend the day with either 3 or 1, who would you choose and what would you do?

BYE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY.... I CANNOT CHOOSE BETWEEN MY SUNKYU!??!?!?! OHMYGOD I THINK I'LL JUST PASS OUT... but okay realistically tho.... i would love to spend my day with sunwoo and play a lot of video games and talk about anime with him tbh... like idk its always fun to just visit a pc cafe and play with friends IM SORRY!!! i would also expand his silly horizon with more anime recs

BUT OKAY HEAR ME OUT I WOULDVE LOVED TO SPEND IT WITH JICHANG :'))) BRO THE READING DATE .... THE PICNIC AND READING IN EACH OTHER'S PRESENCE... ANNOTATING EACH OTHER'S BOOKS... UGH I CRAVE IT I DO!!!

what is your favorite physical feature about 9?

EUNCHAE HAS THE PRETTIEST EYES!!! AND HER SMILE <33 THAT IS MY KID I LOVE HER FOREVER!!!

what is your favorite part of 6's personality?

i love how soobin is the introvert who gets progressively chaotic as you get to know him. LIKE IDK BRO THATS SO ME!!! and i think he really does have one of the biggest hearts i know <3 he cares so much for the others like i just know how lucky it would be to be loved him <3

if you were to tell 8 anything you wanted, what would you tell them?

ah my yeojin <3 i love you and im proud of you always. i'm so glad you got to debut, and i hope you spend more years with loona very happy :]] proud of you always my shining girl!

between 1 and 2, whose closet would you raid?

urgh okay fashion wise, i prefer sunwoo's more! i really like his style now tbh! but jacob's closet would def have a lot of hoodies and just pieces that are sooo intimate like hoodies etc </3

what is a style that you want to see 3 try?

OHMYGOD CAN I PLEASSEEE !!! I WANT TO SEE JICHANG IN MORE CAMP FITS !!! I KNOW WE KNOW HIM FOR THE ALL BOYFRIEND NEUTRAL COLORED FITS BUT HOLY SHIT I WOULD KILL!!! FOR A CAMP FIT!! I WANT IT!!! i want the most colorful craziest pieces on him!!

between 5 and 4, who are you closer to in height?

im pretty sure its youngk LAWL namjoon is like 6ft right

between 10 and 9, whose music do you like the best?

well they're both from lesserafim so GFYUSDGFYSGFG i love my girls!

tagging @wuahae @juyeonszn @mosviqu @sungbeam and anyone else who wants to play!

#games with moni

[miikaji]

fun fact! 😌✨

my pfp is me from the loona concert last year! i was looking at my recent concert selfies and thought “damn... i do be looking cute sometimes” lol

^ LOONA + KCON 2K22 ^

i wanted to be as colorful as possible when i went to see them! this was actually my day 2 look (see day 1 below). currently, loona is honestly probs one of my ult girl groups of the 4th gen. idk how but i ended up falling in love with a LOT of their discography a little after their official debut. when i heard about their tour (and that chuu wasn’t going to be participating...) i KNEW i had to go. i didn’t want to chance not seeing my girls on their first, and possibly only, tour. i bought VIP and everything for BOTH nights i went....

^ Day 1!!! I’m actually pretty happy I took photos of the few freebies I got (because usually they get destroyed at some point in transit back home... which happened lol)

(backside)

(frontside)

ALSO!!! I met a Once before going to the venue and she gave me some freebies from when she went to Twice’s most recent concert. She only had a few but let me pick out a Momo, Jihyo and Chaeyoung pc 🥺💕

THEE ENTIRE DAY 2 LOOK!!! lol this was the only full lewk snap I got of it. YES, I did wear crocs. The crocs were on my feet when I went into the venue. I made a mistake wearing playform sneakers the day before and I learned the error of my ways. I was SOOOO much more comofrtable night 2 bc tbh I sweated a lot in line day 1 and didn’t have things to freshen up from what the sun had caused. Peep the bags of shit by my feet lol I was READY with extra deo, deo spray, body sprays, wipes, hydration items... ALLTHAT

You see that? That’s me in pure bliss. I was closer night 2 as well?? My feet were still hurting??? My body was in pain??? But Loona cured all that??

night two was the only night i had the photo, but i will literally never regret spending the money i did to have this experience... got to do hi-touch both nights! i didn’t intend on this post getting so long lol but since i’m remembering it all now i remember how lip went “your hair!” when she saw me lol. vivi and yves were like so enthusiastic too when it was my turn... it was so fast though, even though i did it 2 nights in a row, its still like a blur of how crazy pretty they are in person 😭 i thought that was gonna be the last and only time i’d see loona.... then kcon happened 👁👄👁 LOL!! Sadly, for a friend of mine, my homie who was at the con got sick with Covid and didn’t want to waste the night 2 concert ticket... SO SHE GIVES IT TO ME FOR FREE?????

^ my ass RUNNING to the floor bc WTF???

LIKE??????

^ me turning my lightstick green for NCT since I don’t own NCT merch

SPEAKING OF THAT LIGHTSTICK. I ALMOST FORGOT. Shoutout to that random attendee who just gave me batteries for my lightstick once I got to the floor? Kcon was literally at the end of the month (Loona’s concerts were on the 1st and 2nd of the month) so my batteries were def dead lol. BUT BLESS THEM!!! 😭 It was so fun. i screamed a lot.

(also also i can’t believe i was attendance for the iconic “RUN TO YEW” from stacy bskfjkfn)

^ MCR 2K22 ^

BRUH.

First off, this was my first trip to Vegas?? I might make a whole entire separate post for the Vegas pictures and tings (because I wanna document for myself). All I’ll say for this is even with my fro fro out and lazy make up, I still felt very cute seeing MCR for like the 10th time uwu

. . .

AND WITH A HIGH SCHOOL FRIEND WHO LITERALLY NEVER SEEN THEM BEFORE??? WHAT???

I MISSED YOU KURT AND I HOPE IT WAS A NIGHT TO REMEMBER SHFBNHKSDBNFSJKNF

^ MM@TA 2K23 ^

OKAY THERE’S SO MUCH I COULD SAY BUT LEMME JUST SAY THIS. I GOT TO SEE THEIR SOUND CHECK?? (See Below)

Literally life changing experience omg hsnfknsjf

Currently, Meet Me @ The Altar is like THEE band for me. Their music is so good?? I knew I HAD to see them!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I’d write more but my brain is shutting down LOL!! I will say, I was kinda sad I couldn’t get my hair done before the show. Them braids was my b-day braids and the way my part looked like moses parted the seas once it was this concert date (mid March, bday was in Jan). So I included a pic below of this actual lewk in all its glory lol.

Bday was lit lol. Edith and I had a moment. I was UP front. TOUCHING the stage. She may or may not be my hair inspo lol

^ RICO NASTY 2K23 ^ THIS YEAR IS LITERALLY INSANE WITH THE CONCERT LINEUPS???

So lemme just say this... bc there was a lot going on for this hbfkdjs

FIRST OFF. PEEP THAT MY HAIR IS BLUE.

I had to get rid of the green and get my hair braided again. My mom mentions “oh hey children I’m getting this life changing award from my sorority and its SUPER IMPORTANT that you show up. this means SO MUCH TO ME.” so me being the OG i am i decided to get my hair done in the colors of her sorority (blue and white, I wanted to get silver but didn’t have enough for the other hair shfnksf). She goes “oh you don’t have to do the blue” and I’m just HUH???

COME TO FIND OUT.

SHE WASN’T GETTING NO AWARD.

MY DAD FINISHED SCHOOL AND HE WAS GRADUATING.

lol but it was cool i actually ended up liking the blue.

ANYWAY.

I was also very excited for this show BECAUSE of the fact that its been FOREVEEEEER since Rico went on her own solo tour!!!!!! Like I love you Rico but I can’t justify paying music festival money just to see YOU do a set for a set amount of time like no. I wanna spend hours with you. So much so... I went to TWO Rico Nasty shows 🧍🏾‍♀️

low quality pic of my messy make uwu

i WISH i was smart enough to check monster energy’s ig. this tour was sponsored by them and when i was in line, they were snapping pics of fans who would accept a free monster (i didn’t want to die so i said yes to the monster lol). rico’s folks also took pics but i have noooo idea where those are... my fit was so cute too 😭  even tho... i’m noticing i keep wearing that same damn pink crop cardigan 💀

^ rico’s reaction when we all started screaming every word to iphone 🥺💕

man.. i was out of BREATH this whole show the way I was jumping and yelling all the lyrics hsnbfksdjnf. my feet were fucking SCREAMING in pain. i felt so bad to the people who were trying to talk to me bc the way i was mentally checked out whenever there wasn’t music going hgbnksnjfd night 2 was WORSE for my feel and social battery but omfg i’d still do it all over again lol my crocs sadly could not save me either show

^ TWICE 2K23 ^

FIRST OFF.

THANK YOU TO MY FRIEND TRIN.

FOR LITERALLY BUYING ME A TICKET TO SEE TWICE THE DAY BEFORE THE SHOW???? 😭😭😭😭😭

My first time finally seeing Twice and you wanna know what I SEE the second I enter the venue?!??!?

HELLO???

LIKE?!?!?

THEY’RE INSANE FOR THIS

LOL

(also thank you for sticking with me if you got this far i by no means meant for this post to be so long hsfkjnf i wish i could have added this videos but i guess the gifs will do)

i didn’t document a lot of the freebies but i did get a LOT!! and the once i met at the loona concert was also here and gave me a LOT of pcs!! 😭💕 (ty kelsey ur like the sweetest hfbksdnf)

my view

the views of me

sadly no full fit pics but a lot of people complimented my outfit 🥺💕 next concert i’m hoping to attend is aespa bc they will be here in a few weeks and the nosebleed seats are like so cheap??? i’m going.

also

i’m seeing beyonce?? with my mom? on beyonce’s birthday for my mom’s birthday gift??? btw my hair is gonna be pink next so i can’t WAIT to see what i do for lewks for these shows uwu

#personal #just a lil ramble about recent concert selfies #i'm still getting back into the swing of blogging again i need to get my tags together #okay wait so this is me from like 5 minutes after typing the tag above #so this post STARTED as a ramble of recent concert selfies #but now its a full fleshed post lol #this is for anyone who cares and that's more than likely me from years from now looking at my archive wondering wtf was i posting #life update #face card

[r0-boat]

Let me know if this request has been done already, it's kinda NSFW but what do you think the boys lingerie or sexy costume preferences are when it comes to bedroom fun time?

I want the Mc to be gender-neutral about this bc lingerie is not just for women

so I won't have any pictures to provide I hope that's okay : )

Nsfw below

Lucifer

Something about wearing lingerie just for him to tear apart later is a turn-on to him.

Lucifer is such a sucker for thighs, anything Lacey that hugs the body can't help but stare. With straps that squeeze the thighs just a little bit.

Lucifer usually prefers darker colors like black, dark red or dark blue. But it's something about the color white that gives him the Demonic urge to defile.

Mammon

expensive and shiny

It has to be something he buys for you he will not let you wear anything else otherwise.

There's nothing that truly says mine than someone laying in his bed wearing shining treasure that he purchased, waiting for him to worship their body like the gem they are.

He loves decking you out in gems and gold. And when he's had enough you finally ravishes you.

Leviathan

Cosplay for him and see what happens. He almost doesn't want to touch you because he doesn't want to ruin your outfit

How to distract Leviathan from gaming.

Step 1: wear a nice maid outfit come into his room and just to clean.

Step 2: wait for him to notice you. As soon as he does he will try so hard to not take a Second Glance or third one or fourth. Until you hear his PC power off.

Maid lingerie? He might just pass out.

High heels does something to him, high heels of any kind. The sound of the heels hitting the floor as you step makes him squirm.

Satan

I'm going to get the low-hanging fruit first...Cats cat ears cat tail cat themed lingerie.

y'all know the gist so I'm going to spice things up: Satan and Levi agree on one thing Maid outfits. They literally bond over that shit. The idea of MC in a maid outfit pops into their head, and they're already planning the perfect design ( Asmo also involved). Cat maid? Even better! Levi thinks it's overdone but understands where he's coming from, Satan's trying to cover his blushing face.

"The Bell collar, don't forget the bell collar it is very important."

Satan is a sucker for lace he loves looking at all the patterns against the skin. He also loves to run his hands against the patterns and feel the texture.

Asmo

It's hard to pick a favorite with this man. he'll just dress you up in whatever he feels like that night.

But I know his weakness. Asmodeus Mr.Avatar of lust has a hand kink. So gloves on your hands drives him up the wall. You were trying out some leather gloves at Majolish and Asmo staring with a look you had never before. (New kink unlocked)

In bed you can do a lot of things with your hands so can't blame him if he wants to feel those gloves somewhere else.

Beelzebub

I want to say edible lingerie I really do but the edible lingerie we have sucks ass. It doesn't look good nor i don't think it tastes good. Idk Maybe in the Devildom they actually have good ones... and plus it's Beel we are talking about he'll probably eat that shit like a gourmet snack before the main course.

Anyting food-themed (no not the burger one) like something simple with a strawberry pattern.

Beelzebub is not is that strong about lingerie kind of guy but tights can certainly change his mind pretty quickly.

Belphie

Beel🤝Tights 🤝Belphie he seems that any immediately thinks ' I'm going to lay my head right on that lap' anything's soft is just so inviting to him

Anything that's long and drapes over the body or Mash that barely hide anything at all no in between.

He loves soft relaxing colors like lilac.

#obey me #obey me lucifer #obey me beelzebub #obey me mammon #obey me one master to rule them all #obey me satan #obey me leviathan #obey me asmodeus #obey me belphegor #spicy🔥🥵 #smut #obey me smut

[january31st]

I show up to the party just to leave (Venable x reader)

Summary: After a long time of not seeing each other, your brother invites you to his birthday party.

A/N: Title from Amoeba by Clairo. Her new album is like salt on an open wound, but in the softest way possible, and I love it :'). This has been in the drafts for a month and it was supposed to be a quick one to get me out of a slump :/ oops i guess (also i have no idea what this is or how we got here)

The reader doesn’t know about the whole selling their souls to the devil thing

Warnings: Drug addiction, overdose and hospital mentions. 

Masterlist

~1800 words

The brightness inside Kineros was somehow even worse than outside in the California heat. Its whiteness and clean, modern look took you by surprise, given that your brother’s room back home used to be a mountain of unwashed dishes and dirty clothes, his PC setup the only thing you could look at without getting a headache. 

“This.... is insane Jeff” you said as you took your sunglasses off, squinting very hard.

“I told you! I don’t know what’s so hard to believe about it. The whole multi-million company thing wasn’t convincing enough to make you believe this place is nice?” He said as he led you around to his office.

“Well, I’m just saying that coming from you I expected more of a nerd bunker than a sci-fi spaceship”

“Are your standards really that low Y/N?” he said with his hand on his chest, pretending to be deeply offended.

“Yeah, in the beginning you bragged for months about your Van”

“Oh but you can’t say that a company on the move isn’t cool”

“Sure” you said, shifting your attention to the woman in purple sitting behind the desk.

“Hi, you must be Ms.Venable! I’m Y/N, Jeff’s sister.” You said with your hand stretched out in front of you.

She looked from you to Jeff, and then at your hand, considering whether she should take it or not. Slowly, with the help of her cane, she stood up and shook it.

“And I hear you would be joining us to prepare for tomorrow, although I’ve told Mr. Pfister I have it handled.” She said, shooting your brother a menacing look, but you were too distracted by the feeling of her gloved hand still in yours. Had someone turned off the AC?

“I know Ms. Venable, I just had to show her the place before the party so she would believe it is nice. And by having her help get things ready she would know we didn’t mess things around to make it look better than it is” He said, and when you managed to shift your gaze away from her you noticed how Jeff looked. Someone finally taught him respect?

“If I had met Ms.Venable before, maybe I wouldn’t doubt how nice it is.”

“If you hadn’t left home for so long, maybe you would know more about the company”

“If you didn’t have so much blow up your nose all the time back then, maybe I wouldn’t feel the need to run away!” 

“Awww family reunions are so cute” You turned to the circle door on the left side of the room to see your brother’s work partner leaning against it and looking at you two with a pout.

“Oh… hey Mutt” 

“How is my favourite Pfister doing? I can’t believe how long it has been since I’ve seen you bro!” He said giving you a hug you did not expect.

“Hey! What the hell? Your favourite Pfister? Really? Stop flirting with my sister, asshole” said Jeff.

“I’m not! But it’s true, your sister is the best. Back then before we even dreamt of Kineros, the three of us would have so much fun!” Mutt answered, his arm still around your shoulders.

“Yeah I guess, before you two started your bullshit in between the lines” you said, scratching at your nose.

“Oh, speaking of flirting, how is that girlfriend of yours doing?” Jeff asked.

“Girlfriend? What… Ah. Yeah, well- she..” You laughed “ I swear I can’t make this shit up. Has it been that long since we spoke really?” The topic was making you even more uncomfortable, and you noticed that Ms. Venable was looking at you with an almost curious look? Was it? She was hard to read.

“Well, would you believe it, she fell in love with your dear coke instead.” Jeff looked at you as if he had just broken your favourite toy.

“Yea she just dumped me a while back and hit the streets. I tried to look for her, but she was just gone. I have no clue if she’s even alive.”

“Shit Y/N I’m sorry” Jeff said.

“Are you? Or are you still sniffing lines like a mad man?” 

“Technically not lines no.” He said, smiling at Mutt knowingly.

You took his arm from your shoulders. “So you’re telling me that if I punch your ass right now it wouldn’t be snowing in here?”

When he didn’t answer with anything other than laughter you went on “It’s not funny! None of this is funny Jeff! Not now, and not that time I had to take your ODing ass to the ER! And not on all those times you were in withdrawal!”

He only laughed more, and said “It would be hell if that happened again!”

“Jeff! Have you-”

“I’m terribly sorry to interrupt, but the last of the decorations for tomorrow are just arriving.” said Ms. Venable. And despite her low voice, all three of you went silent.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“You worry too much”

“What?” You asked through the pen you were chewing at, with your back still turned to her from the top of the chair, as you exchanged the regular lightbulb with a colorful one from the box you were holding.

She didn’t repeat herself for a while, as if she regretted saying anything in the first place. The past hour or so you had barely exchanged more than a couple words, her impassive looks making you assume she just didn’t like you.

“You worry too much about him.” She said, her voice loud and clear this time.

You stepped down from the chair placing the white bulb on the box she was holding with one hand. Thinking about your brother now made something clench on your stomach. To hide how hard it was to find an answer for her, you went to write a check on the lighting part of your to-do list.

“How could I not?” You asked.

“I must admit his lifestyle is… interesting. But it seems to have worked to bring this company to where it is today.” She said.

“I know he’s your boss, but you don’t have to doll-up how things are around here. And don’t give him more credit than he deserves, he is cocky enough about it.” after a pause you added “I know that if it were up to him, he would still be assembling robots amidst his dirty socks. It doesn’t take much to realise who’s behind everything that isn’t necessarily robots here.”

You reached for the box she was holding to go put it away, and noticed she was standing as still as a statue. Grabbing it from her with the ghost of a friendly smile on your face you went on, since she didn’t seem to know how to answer you this time.

“He used to say it helped him think and work better. And maybe it does but as his sister I can’t just ignore it and pretend I’m okay with it. He never takes things that matter seriously.”

“Before we got here I- for some stupid reason- actually thought he stopped it. He isn’t like he was before. Something has changed about him.”

“It has.” She said. “I think his dedication to the job put him in his tracks somewhat. Whatever his tracks are” She added with a smirk.

Giggling at that, you said, holding the checklist for her to see “Now that we´re done, how about we go get a snack and talk about something that doesn’t involve dumb and dumber or their tragic hairstyles?”

Fighting back a smile, she guided you somewhere you could eat, and said “I’m glad you don’t have a bowl cut too.”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

For the first hour or so Jeff introduced you to random people at the party, none of them getting much of your attention at all. Fancy and famous people, and though it was hard to believe seeing your brother around them- their nice suits next to his striped shirt, jeans and hoodie- you didn’t feel astonished at all. You felt crushed by everyone around you and took every opportunity to avoid dull conversation.

Some of them were surprised to meet you, to see how his casualty wasn’t a trait you shared, and given that you knew this would be a somewhat big party you did, in fact, dress up to the occasion. You decided to wear a nice blazer over a silk lingerie type shirt, straight legged pants and heels, hair slicked back and makeup dark and bold. Anywhere else you would look out of place, but here you managed to melt into the rest of the well dressed crowd. Thankfully that worked to your advantage so you could be away from the center of attention.

On the quick calls you did have, your brother never failed to gloat about his life and how great things were, and a part of you hoped blindlessly that it would mean he left his bad habits behind. Though now as you stood under the coloured lights it was more than obvious that he wouldn’t change, and all the bad memories from his addiction came back to you at once. Overwhelmed by your thoughts and the ambient itself, you made your way to the outside of the building unaware of the tic-toc of a cane following you.

“Where are you going?” her voice pulled you back to reality.

“I don’t know. Just away from this” you said, hand waving in the air. Then you took a second to look at her, as formally dressed as the day before, lilac suit and all, only her expression had changed. Though you knew she would never admit it, her face was contorted in a plea, almost begging for you to stay.

“I thought he changed. I really did. Like a foolish fucking child.”You blurted out.

“You don’t have to leave like this.” She stated, sounding disinterested despite herself.

“I do. I really do.”

“I never come to these events… I hate these people just as much as you do.” You narrowed your eyes at her, waiting for the rest of it, and when it didn’t come you asked “What made you come this time?”

After a long pause she said “I was surprised to meet you. I would never believe your brother had someone as… prudent and sensible in his life.” Another pause. “I’m trying to say don’t leave m-” She stopped herself.

“Then take me somewhere” You said without thinking, looking straight into those brown eyes as they seemed to soften. And for the first time her face twisted into what was definitely, unmistakably, a smile, and all you could do was smile right back.

“Come along then”

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[transhawks]

So does that mean bakugou is also a abelist too and so was most of the kids in the class since you call Inko one I mean if you are going to go that far

"Go that far"

Let's unpack this because this is more than just an opinion about anime and hopefully what I write can change your opinion on a lot of things going forward in your life. Which is an opportunity I am very happy about. A lot of people really get upset when you call something "ist". Racist, Ableist, Cissexist, etc. Or the phobic words.. You get my meaning. But the upset over it shows that people mistake what is really being said because we think very simplistically about this - that everyone who is an "ist" or a "phobe" is inherently a bad person.

Why? It's due to a lot of people getting caught up in individual actions over the societal motivations behind them. So, if I was to say "every white person is racist" or "every man is a misogynist" it feels like an unfair absolute, right? Not all people are like that, right? What if someone is actively trying to be an exception? The point blank statement feels mean, right? How could you just generalize?

Here's the thing, the reason the general statement is made is because it more talks about society than individuals. What I mean is this - not every white person (in the US or West, though we can talk about other places too) is actively being bigoted, but we are born in societies that have historically (and today too!) been built and profited off the oppression or exploitation of people of color. And like in a lot of things dealing with unfair power structures, there's a lot of motivation to make sure shit does not change you know, which is why people end up, even if they don't realize what they are doing, defending things. Are they trying to be actual bigots? No, not always, and something to learn is that a lot of these ism do not equal just plain bigotry. There's always a power structure behind it, or an imbalance. So, you can find someone who is bigoted but isn't actually being an 'ist'. When a lot of people complain about 'reverse' anything, what they are usually talking about is bigotry, which is an individual action that on its own doesn't confirm or defend a power structure.

I know this is a bit complicated. It took me a few years to grasp it too, but understanding the difference is really important.

Now, let's go back to Bakugou. In my post about Deku and Inko and how Deku states how much her initial reaction to his quirkless was hurt him for much of his childhood, I did mention that Inko admitted she didn't support him. So there's no argument about whether she did or didn't because Inko took accountability for her mistake. Now, the reason she did it in the first place was because she grew up in a society that tells people quirks are their personalities.

I made a post a couple weeks ago about Deku and Hawks and being 'selected' out of their circumstances where I talk about how the Quirkless are sort of seen as lesser humans simply due to the way Quirk society has folded. You can see it the older name given to Ujiko before the changes, and in Izuku being read as 'Deku'; the implication is of wooden people, puppets, etc. Then you have lots of ranting on the MLA part that revealed that a there kid's books that teach kids people aren't always their Quirks but that this is seen as a very PC concept and not really taken in by the population. Sure the average person probably isn't a Geten level supremacist, but we see how the Fox lady was treated when she was walking outside by her neighbors, or how Spinner was bullied, even by his own family, or just what Endeavor did to 'fix his quirk'.

Inko is a 4th generation quirk owner. That means one, or more, of her great-grandparents have been quirk users. Dr. Tsubasa, upon seeing Deku, also says it's rare for someone to be like him these days, implying the statistic given to us by the manga, or the 4:5 are quirk owners, is very much based on age (I've seen people put forth it might also be location based too). Toshinori adds to this by saying it was more common when he was a kid, and he is likely in his 50s.

Okay, so that's the society Izuku is born too, right? Stay with me, I know this is long but we're getting to Katsuki right now.

In the ask that you messaged about where I explain why Inko's initial problem can be criticized, I said what she did is very similar to how parents treat children with disabilities or illnesses. Hence, why you said I was calling her ableist. As I've been trying to explain in this ask Inko may not be actively trying to be 'ableist' and bigoted, but her apologizing to her son was an issue that he felt insecure over. And that this is of course tied into the fact quirk society does not treat the Quirkless well.

You see this early set of panels? This was Deku explaining that Katsuki only began to bully him really when he manifested his quirk. Why? Because there was a clear difference in the way he was treated and the way Deku was.

These panels show Katsuki looking at Deku and seeing how he's being talked about. Children are impressionable and understand that there are these dynamics even if they don't get why. Katsuki is being told here that he's amazing, that he's going to achieve greatness, and being praised. Deku is being whispered about, pitied. They are not the same. It even goes into their teens:

Katsuki is immediately praised even if he was the one in need of rescue. Deku's actions bought time for All Might but he's seen as reckless especially when he's Quirkless. I've said in the post I linked that Deku's amazing traits - his natural skill at analysis, his quick wits and reactions, and dauntless nature are really where he shines, but until he had a quirk, that society didn't see any of that about him. This is a clear example of how much importance people place on quirks. So is it any wonder in a society like this that a little kid like Katsuki soaks it all in?

Deku also calls Katsuki a bully a few times. I'm not going to post the panels here but I collected a few so there's an absolute acknowledgment on Deku's part that he is bullied for being quirkless.

As I said in the previous ask, you can't remove a lot of these actions from greater societal trends. I also, personally, refuse to label Katsuki as an abuser because he is a child and abuse is usually a very intimate thing which is not the relationship Katsuki had as a former friend. He was, however, a bully who does bigoted things like tell Deku to jump off a roof if he wants to be a hero so he can get quirk in the next life. So, he was bullying out of bigotry and doing so out of societal norms and ideals that he has absorbed growing up.

Most children that are bullied are bullied on differences, and a lot of the time it really does fall on the same divides that as adults turn into oppressions. The children's bullying reinforces the same dynamics marginalized faces outside of childhood.

So, to finally answer your question, if 'quirklessness' is pretty much a bnha-verse disability and is treated very similarly some that we have in real life, then yes, Katsuki as a child and a tween was indeed 'ableist'. But again, this is not remarkable..I don't want to say he's exceptionally bigoted even since so much of it was also fueled by his own insecurities and cognitive dissonance when it comes to Izuku. And unlike Inko, who unconsciously hurt Izuku, Katsuki did so actively but, again, he was a child and he is capable of maturing, reforming, and learning which I think perhaps he might be heading to. EDIT: a few hours after I posted this, he apologized to Izuku so he has gotten there! Katsuki was this was because he was raised to be, so outright condemning a 16 year old for a norm doesn't really solve the real issue that it was a norm, does it?

Now, I will say for victims, it's often very hard to parse this too. Even if it's normalized, the individual bigotry of a person does hurt, and it really doesn't matter to kids that it's other kids. It's why a lot of people who are marginalized will bring up childhood memories, because we are shaped so much by our experiences as kids. But kids don't always have cognitive ability to challenge the norms and ideals around them, it's one of the biggest differences between an adult and a child. Making Katsuki out to be 'biggest bigot ever' is not what I am trying do with this ask, and it's silly to think so.

I will thank you for giving me the opportunity to write this answer. I often forget that my style of applying what seem to me very basic concepts in discussions of identity to anime analysis are not as basic I assume. Your ask seemed incredulous but it reads as someone genuinely new to the concept of societal vs individual actions, and how oppression and strata work with that. I hope that whatever you gained from this ask is something you can apply to a realize situation in the future by the dynamics I speak are real life ones, with genuine real consequences, and I'm happy I can use a manga as teaching or outreach tool. Thank you for allowing to do so.

#asks #long post #bakugou #izuku midoriya #deku #bnha #meta #my meta

[loquaciousquark]

Talks Machina Highlights - Critical Role C2E111 (Redux! Oct. 13, 2020)

Gooooood evening good evening good evening, all! I started the VOD late for this recap and somehow the first four or so minutes of the show have a Twitch audio copyright claim, so I am reduced to only reading Brian's lips when he asks if we're on the internet. Hilariously, Marisha's background room is a comfy-looking blue/gold fabric wall with a ceramic colorful abstract lamp and a yellow silk scarf over the lampshade, and Taliesin's is an industrial looking games room in grey and black with multiple monitors, overhead speakers, and mysterious metal fixtures behind him. What a treasure this group is, honestly.

Tonight's guests: Marisha Ray & Taliesin Jaffe, discussing episodes 110 and 111 again. I wildly speculate once more about what might have caused their absence: jury duty? Sam appearing on The Masked Singer? Something to do with the animated show? One day, we’ll know, one day... (One day this “copyrighted audio” section will come back from the wars, too. Ugh!) Finally! The audio comes back to reveal Brian discussing the endless reality of digital meetings and Marisha talking about (I think) her glare-reducing glasses she’s wearing. Welcome to the New Age (welcome to the New Age, to the New Age).

Announcements: Marisha suggests checking out Dimension20, another live tabletop gaming group, which premieres live on Wednesdays at 4pm (CollegeHumor). 

Brian immediately wants to know how they feel about the revelation that Molly is alive. Taliesin’s personal reaction: he “knows some things” he can’t talk about and is aware of several possibilities that might be going on, but had a sneaking suspicion that there would not be a body for them to find. He says it’s almost all there for anyone to see in past material. Marisha’s personal reaction: she just wants to know how she’s doing with her theories, & was trying to block Tal’s face out deliberately as she was going off on her theories in the last episode. Taliesin says he thought her ideas were pretty good!

Cad has no clue what to think - it’s like listening to your friends talk about Buffy. Marisha thought it was a 50/50 Molly would still be there, but Beau had no idea. Not that it mattered, because as soon as Matt went through with it the reveal still blew their minds. Tal laid out his plans for the character with Matt during Campaign One (towards the end) after they all got their VM tattoos.

It is a “horrifying and gross” thing to dig up a body, and Beau was pretty reluctant to do it. Tal, as Cad: “Sometimes dead’s better.” The moral quandary of trying to speak with a dead friend was very different here than the frequent occasions they used the spell in C1.

Taliesin says his poker face is very bad, so it’s easier for him to over-react and let it all play out. The only other player he can see very easily from his place in their current setup is Travis, and because he knows Travis doesn’t watch TM, tweet, or participate in social media, he admits he thoroughly enjoyed watching Travis freak out at his freaking out. He says he only knew about 20% of what Matt described at the end of that episode. He was picking things to mug to increase Travis’s surprise. I love this so much.

Taliesin provided the table left leg shake; Travis provided table right. Ha!

Beau is really accepting her role in the Cobalt Soul. It’s good when “as a person, you feel like you can settle into your calling. Sometimes you can do more from the inside than fighting from the outside.” It’s a mirrored but opposite path of Keyleth from C1; Beau felt like she was too good for her duty, while Keyleth thought she wasn’t good enough.

Caduceus is not a big believer in jumping to conclusions. He does have an idea/notion of the “city of the undead” and thinks all this necrotic energy must come from somewhere, and wonders if this is the “capital of anti-death.” He’s willing to believe whatever he sees. This is one of the few things that trigger a bit of loathing and disgust in him. It was terrifying that the Wildmother didn’t know anything.

Beau is pretty confident in her Charlie Day impression laying-out-the-research last episode. She enjoyed taking the things that were known & extrapolating around them; this is a huge facet of Marisha’s own personality and she really enjoys it, so she built a character this time that would allow that kind of puzzle-solving. It’s also why she repeatedly notes when Beau journals, so she can avoid metagaming. Trent’s mention of Vess Durogna’s tomb raiding was completely circumstantial, and the only reason she’d made the connection to the Tombtakers was because she’d recently reviewed those notes for a separate unannounced project. Sometimes she tries to make connections and Matt is like, “It was...just descriptive. Just flavor. The curtains were red...” and she has to discard a paragraph of notes. She feels like it’s still something they have to do because of “look at what he does! Look! It’s totally valid!”

Cosplay of the Week: @kitsunstudios with a gorgeous Caduceus with a very intricate silk vest.

Caduceus’s takedown of Trent! One of my favorite moments in the entirety of C2. Taliesin felt Trent was an asshole; Caduceus felt sorry for him because of how dumb he thought he was. Caduceus’s response was "this is the dumbest man I’ve ever met in my life. He’s so dumb! Is nobody going to tell this guy how dumb he is? Oh, they’re all freaked out. Somebody needs to tell this guy he’s an idiot before somebody gets hurt.” (Marisha: “Before?”) Tal says it was the product of several years of therapy and many drunk conversations with Whitney Moore. It was from a genuine place of concern from Caduceus. “How are you allowed to have this much power and be that dumb?”

Brian loved how funny it was to watch everyone tiptoe around Trent and then Caduceus bulldoze through the end of the meal.

Taliesin: “Damage doesn’t make you interesting or better. It’s not what makes you good. Character isn’t found in damage. Just recovery.”

Brian & Marisha commiserate going through the stage where believing surviving something automatically made you a stronger person, better for the pain; instead it just meant you had to pick up the pieces after. Marisha talks about how strength through survival may be true for some people, but it shouldn’t be considered a necessity. Taliesin talks about how he used to think he had to be miserable to write. Brian talks about how believing he liked reading and writing miserable things only limited him for years.

Marisha feels it’s a C2 theme that almost all the PCs have someone trying to handwave or take credit for their accomplishments or explain their pain as being for their own good (Trent, Beau’s dad, Obann). She thinks it’s interesting to see all the various ways people try to take credit for your work/delegitimize you as a person. She loves that RPGs allow you to explore these odd moralities in interesting ways. The only way to fight it is to have a sense of your own self-worth, which is a problem a lot of the M9 started with.

Caduceus likes everyone, and really likes people who appear to need role models (Eodwulf). “With the right friends and the right bar and the right attitude, I think he’d be okay. Come over here where it’s so much better. That seems like an exhausting friendship that you have there.”

Marisha loves the mix of personalities in the M9; Veth, Cad, & Jester were all “we kind of like them!” after the dinner, and she immediately made eye contact with Travis and they both shook their heads. She knows Beau has to go along with it for Caleb’s sake for now, but she & Fjord are pretty sus of Trent’s proteges.

Beau is less concerned about Artagan’s relationship to Jester because “he showed his ass--she’s less worried about Jester now because a little of the magic is gone.” It’s a little like becoming an adult and realizing your parents are also just adults & human. Caduceus wasn’t suspicious of the Traveler for a long time until they got to the island. Aside: Taliesin loves the pantheon in D&D. “The notion of attempting to apply common Western conceptions of religion to a world where you have a pantheon of interventionist gods as baseline makes no sense to me. Everyone admits that every other god is there and doing shit; it has more in common with ancient Rome than anything else.” Now that he knows it was a con, he feels the wind had been taken out of it. He does have a sense that Jester’s gotten back together with an ex: “I hope that I’m really happy for you.” They’re both interested to see how Jester navigates the new relationship.

My internet goes out, of course. I panic for a second, thinking I’ve lost everything above, but all is well! Thanks, Form History Control addon!

Marisha loved punching Artagan, but regretting rolling so poorly. “I miss violence.” Dani lets us know it’s been about four episodes since the last battle.

There’s no way the Cobalt Reserve doesn’t have a single document on the Eyes of Nine. Beau believes “there are no real secrets” because people are just bad at not writing things down. For there to be no information at all seems really suspicious for her.

Fanart of the Week: @oddalchemist on twitter with some awesome Beau conspiracy red-thread boards overlaid a distant shadowy Molly walking away.

Caduceus feels a little guilty for really enjoying his time right now with the M9 and not wanting to go home. He’s starting to suspect that he’s going to go home very different than when he left. “He has the softest problems. I don’t know if I want to move back in with Mom & Dad.”

Beau is trying to get comfortable with the idea of being happy. Jester is probably Beau’s first real best friend & one of the first healthy female friendships she’s ever had. As long as she still has Jester in her life, she doesn’t care. For Yasha... “At the end of the day, Beau is a lonely person and has always been a lonely person. And I think you kinda reach this point where once you’re not lonely anymore, you can kind of come out of the fog and realize that was horrible! And terrifying! And is even more terrifying now that I know what I could have, and I don’t want to go back to that. At the end of the day Beau doesn’t want to be lonely anymore. There’s always been that flirtation with Yasha, but everyone had to figure their own shit out. And now it feels like it’s coming out a little bit of that haze, maybe this actually could be...” There are a lot of ways they complement each other & are good-different from each other. Marisha believes people can be attracted to more than person at once.

Caduceus doesn’t think nature turned against him on Rumblecusp, it was just a reality of nature being dangerous and violent. “He has a complex relationship with nature.” He doesn’t expect special treatment.

Thoughts on the mansion: “Man, it’s nice to be seen.” Marisha: “I don’t know how I ended up becoming the Scanlan of this campaign, but I’m living for it.” It felt like an echo of “I’m better for having known you.” They compare Marisha taking specific notes on the campaign to Liam taking specific notes on people’s favorite tapestries, comics, etc.

They talk about missing theme parks and daydream a park version of the mansion in CritRoleLand. It’s lovely.

Taliesin never expected Divine Intervention to work; he just wanted to roll some dice. He’s still processing what he saw/heard. They all agree it was very useful in the Vokodo fight.

Vilya! Marisha: “Ah! Ah! Ah!” As a player, Marisha was so deep in Beau’s eyes she didn’t pick up it was Vilya at first (especially since Matt really emphasized they should not be looking for C1 NPCs). Marisha’s brain melted. She bawled her eyes out on the ride home after that episode. Right after it ended, Laura told Marisha “Keyleth finally gets her happy ending,” and it makes Marisha emotional again since Keyleth’s story ended so bittersweetly. She talks about the very real feelings of “just wanting them to be happy, though!” She went back and listened to all her old Keyleth playlists. Everyone was teary after the episode. “Everyone has these 100% real memories of being these characters and having these good times.”

And that’s that for that! Thanks for your patience, all, and is it Thursday yet?

#critical role #critical role spoilers #talks machina #talks machina spoilers #long post for ts

[captainjimothycarter]

An AU where Steve is Cap and Peggy is in modern day (no shield or anything for her)

They break up after a petty argument where they're both too stubborn right now to see they're both wrong.

They still very clearly harbor feelings for one another.

Steve was just always late and kept trying to hide he was Cap for her safety.

Peggy thought a) he was cheating on her because the excuses for his bruises and broken bones and exhaustion were weak, b) when she found out he was Cap, she took that he hid it because he didnt want her to be in love with Cap or use Cap like others, etc. and c) she was tired of the lies.

It was a petty, nasty argument during a date when he showed up half dead. She wasnt so petty she didnt help him and call help from his phone, no doubt seeing texts from a Natasha Romanoff, etc.

Its been a few months and okay she misses him BAD. After the Battle of New York, she texts him out of the blue:

Glad to see you're not dead. You did good work out there. - PC

Steve texts almost immediately back.

It was touch and go. Stark almost died. Are you...safe? - SR

I saw. I wasnt worried about him. I was worried about you. - PC

And yes I'm safe. I wasnt in town. I was with Micheal and Daniel. My shop? Not so much. There's a hulk-sized hole in my roof and my flowers are ruined. - PC

You worry about me? - SR

You were...out of town? Right. Yeah. I hope you had a lovely time with your boyfriends. Oh shit, Pegs. I'm so sorry. I'll talk to someone, see if we can fix it. Insurance isnt budging? - SR

Natasha is now glaring at Steve after reading over his shoulder. "Jealousy doesnt look good on you. But I'll call in a few favors. That's the only shop that grows purple roses. If Clint can't get those for his poison dipped arrows, he's going to be upset."

Theres another motivate behind it, Steve knows. Because he still likes her. The arrows and roses have nothing to do with it.

I always worried about you. - PC

I'm not doing this, Steven. I can handle it myself. - PC

So colored her surprise (not) when she shows up the next morning to find Steve Rogers still hurt from the battle wearing plaid and a construction belt, working on her roof. She stares up at him, lips pursed before slamming her office door. Not that it does much good, the wall falls right out.

Steve tries not to look disappointed and upset.

"I don't get it," he says after climbing down from the roof and standing in the wall-less doorway. "Why are you pissed? I'm helping! Natasha already bullied Stark into revamping your shop. You get all the say. I was doing a headstart! Why are you pissed?"

"Because you're a bloody fucking idiot!" She screams at him over the desk, the chair flying back as she stands up. The office is ruined, its again her desk is still standing.

"If Im such an idiot why are you here then? Why arent you with your boyfriends? Where's Mikey and Danny to help you?"

Steve swore she was going to slap him as she stalked forward. Instead she jerked him down to kiss him hard. It stunned them both, her hand still gripping the dust-covered shirt tightly as they parted.

"Micheal is my brother and Daniel is his fiance, Steven!"

Steve blinks, eyelashes clumping together. All he can think about is how beautiful she is and how theres a fleck of sawdust on her nose.

"Oh."

"Damn right oh. I worried about you! You didn't...didnt even call me. I always worry about you."

This time its Steve who kisses. Its hungry and needy. He picks her up with one hand and knocks the things off her desk, laying her on it.

They don't notice the construction crew coming in and instantly leaving.

Nor Natashas sly photo of Steve with Peggys legs around his waist and his pants down.

She later sends it to both and says 'Americas Ass.'

Peggy isnt sure if shes mad at herself for getting back with Steve or happy but she knows one thing as she cuddles into bed with him that night.

Steve needs her. Needs someone to remind him hes human and to watch after himself. To take care of himself.

She needs him. More than she knows. And its not because hes Cap or can lift the heavy water barrels.

She needs him because she loves him, because she reminds her that some things are worth fighting for, that you have to let your guard down some times to let people in.

But she definitely needs him to fix that goddamn Hulk-sized hole in her back garden or she's going to be peeved and no Bruce Banner rage will equal to hers if her Tropical Plants are ruined because aliens invaded New York

#steggy #stevepeggy #peggy carter #steggy prompt #steve rogers #flowershop au

[st-just]

Wherein I shill for a 9 year old RPG

At the request of @lifeattomsdiner Answering this as a proper post, because I have yet to figure out quite how to do formatting in the chat box. Sorry about that.

But, okay, concession first: The game could absolutely have used another 6 months in development. They re-use the same, like, 5 maps for 80% of the game’s quests, the entirety of act 3 is just a mess, thematically, and, well, I don’t consider it a problem, but if you liked Origins the whole aesthetic of the game is much more stylized and 4-color.

That said – so, the central contradiction of Bioware games (or at least the Dragon Age and Mass Effect series, Anthem is just a whole other mess) is that they’ve got a studio of really excellent character writers, and are clearly very good at making likeable, engaging characters with personal dramas you get invested in and endearing interactions with each other, but for some reason they insist on every game being based around the most cookie-cutter, boring, ‘save the world/galaxy/kingdom/colony from the unending hordes of [space] orks and their [space] demonic masters! You are our only hoped, poorly justified PC messiah!” generic map fantasy/space opera plot imaginable. Dragon Age 2 is the only time they actually ratchet back the stakes a bit, and tell a story about literally anything else .

(Similarly, Mass Effect 2 is the best Mass Effect game because, while the ‘save humanity’ plot is terrible garbage, it’s also pretty ignorable and the majority of the game’s run time is (mostly, sorry Jacob) really well done character-focused stories.)

Specifically, it’s about the rags-to-riches-to-who-the-fuck-knows story of Hawke, their relationships with their companions, and the past and future of Kirkwall the city. And, like, calling it an actual tragedy is absolutely overselling it, but it’s not so much of a straightforward power fantasy, either? Hawke is exceptionally good at doing violence to things and saying terrible one liners, but they’re no Savior or Chosen One, so at the end of the day they’re covered in blood and beloved by half the city as everything burns down around them. That, to me, is interesting, far moreso than the standard save-the-world plot, anyway.

Getting a bit more specific – I know that quite a lot of people like a protagonist whose a total blank slate in these sorts of games, but generally speaking I do like a main character who has, well, character, and Hawke delivers that far better than either the full blank-slate protag or Origins or the miserable bland middle ground in Inquisition. Or, well, properly they have three characters – there’s generally three possible responses in any dialogue prompt, diplomatic/righteous, snarky/charming and aggressive/intimidating, which does helpfully signpost what tone your response is going to be read in when you choose it. And the game does actually keep track of which you choose most often, which can determine the lines spoken in cut scenes and, well, I have admittedly only ever played as sarcastic asshole, but if you commit to it you occasionally get fun little monologues like this.

But really, it’s a Bioware game, the real draw are the companions. And it’s, like, 60% just that the framing device is ‘10 years starting out as a refugee in a fucked up cesspit of a city’ and not ‘chosen one on a desperate quest to save the world’, but they really do seem much more their own people who happen to have close relationships to Hawke, and not adjuncts or subordinates or aides on her Epic Quest. They help you get rich or deal with a political crisis, and you help them deal with their ill advised blood magic experimentation, or with the agents of the slaver lord trying to drag them back in chains, or in one case do their job so they can use their evening patrol to flirt with a coworker. Or you don’t – the game does absolutely let you be a massive piece of shit and sell companions into de facto slavery on at least two occasions. But it also avoids the problem where you basically have to go along with your friends terrible ideas or you’re locking yourself out of content – you can be Friends with your companions, but you can bottom out approval and keep going down to be Rivals instead. (This goes for romance as well, and I think DA2 might be the only big-budget game ever made with a whole mechanic for hatesex). There’s also a lot of banter between companions when you’re just walking around the city, so much so that I usually end up cycling through every possibly combination to have with me as I walk around every act to make sure I’m not missing out on any (it’s often really funny, too)

Beyond that, well, minor things – the combat’s divisive, but I really do enjoy it, playing as a mage anyway (though difficulty spikes like 1000% when you switch up to the setting that enables friendly fire). The outfits and aesthetic are exagerated and silly, but I like the look, and at least the rogue with a V-neck going down to their navel is a guy for once. It’s not especially elegant or anything, but I maintain ‘just make all* the romance options bi’ is a better solution than anything Bioware has come up with before or since. The voice acting’s uniformly extremely good. And the loading screens are very, very pretty.

So, in conclusion, I want to replay the game now. Can’t wait for my new laptop to arrive.

#lifeattomsdiner #dragon age 2 #video games #dragon age #in this essay I will #bioware #this is theoretically a writing blog

[nc7dr3am]

LILY’s BIRTHDAY PARTY VLIVE

december 1st, 2020

you know the drill for nct dream birthday parties

they’re all at the long table, there’s balloons that spell “happy birthday lily” behind them

and they all have party hats (except jimin) and snacks and the cake on the table

jimin is seated in the middle, mark to her right, then chenji

to her left is renjun, hyuck, and then nomin

jimin: hiii czennies!!

and the rest of the boys do their shit yknow greeting the fans

hyuck: it’s our jimin’s birthday!!

and all the guys cheer but it’s so loud that jimin plugs her ears and wrinkles her face

hyuck: i remember when she was just a tiny baby :’)

jaemin: she’s grown so much :(

jeno: she used to be even shorter when we met her

renjun: even back then, we were all taller than her

jimin: today, i will be opening my members presents in front of czennies- we can all celebrate my birthday together!! sadly, mila unnie wasn’t able to though :(

chenle: mila noona got her an electric violin

mark: it’s so cool, seriously. and she played misfit on it as soon as she got it

hyuck: i was so shocked- she just knew it already without preparing

jisung: our jimin is talented~~

jimin: it wasn’t hard! i plan to cover dancing in the rain soon, since i helped compose it

a minute later, they start with the gift, youngest to oldest

jisung hands her a single card and everyone laughs

renjun: where’s your present?

jeno: ah, you know he’s always like this

jimin: *trying not to laugh* shh, let me read the car

jisung is just hiding his head in his hands, and the others and laughing quietly

jimin: ‘jimin... noona...’ ahhh, i hate being called that, this sounds so awkward?? anyway, ‘you’ve came a long way. it’s okay that you have grey hairs-‘ jisung!! WHY WOULD YOU TELL CZENNIES THAT

renjun then leans over while they’re all laughing and tries to count her grey hairs that actually exist. girlie’s got premature greyness 😔

jimin: ‘it’s okay that you have grey hairs and are grumpy a lot. you’re just becoming an old woman... but we still love you. happy birthday, from jisung’ you’re dying later tonight, jisung park. say goodbye to czennies now while you have the chance

once they settle down a little, chenle hands her his gift

mark: is there not a card?

chenle: she doesn’t need one

everyone’s laughing again and mark’s is super loud and cute and lily smiles while looking at him

jimin: let’s see what’s inside

everyone is looking over curiously

jisung: i already know what he’s gotten her. he wanted it to be the most expensive gift

jimin: you dummy, i don’t need- OH MY GOD

she’s holding a light grey purse and her mouth is gaped open

jeno: what is it?

yknow when they’re all confused and making those confused noises? yeah they’re all doing that

jimin: YOU SERIOUSLY GOT ME A GIVENCHY ANTIGONA PURSE?? THEYRE TOO EXPENSIVE

chenle: i know grey is your favorite color, so i got that~~

hyuck: HES TOO RICH

renjun: HE HAD TO OUTDO US ALL

jaemin: HE DIDNT EVEN HAVE A CARD

jimin: thank you so much, lele!!

and then she stands to hug him while he’s dolphin laughing

chenle: honestly, your purses all break and are too cheap... this one is supposed to be sturdy and hold a lot without breaking

hyuck: it’s funny when they break at the airport

jimin: shut up... jaemin oppa?

jaemin passes her a card and she freezes suddenly

jimin: will this make me cry? your cards are always so touching

jaemin: just readdd

chenle: she’s going to cry, i know it

jimin: ‘our lovely jimin’ WAHHH THIS IS GOING TO MAKE ME CRY

renjun: just read, it’s okay!

jimin: ‘watching you grow up has been so strange. when i met you, you were such a baby. you were someone i wanted to protect, and you still are. you’re my little sister, and it’s been an honor to grow up with you, to perform with you, and be part of your family. you’re our most precious member, and i love you so much. let’s be together for a long time. happy birthday, koala.’

she was tearing up durinf the letter and you could hear it in her voice but at the end she began to cry more and covered her hands with her eyes as the others slightly malfunction cuz they don’t know what to DO

jaemin: don’t cry, jimin-ah!!

hyuck: get her a tissue! it’s okay~~

mark: *in english* hey, it’s okay! don’t cry, lils *puts his arm around her*

chenle: i told you she would cry

renjun: *helps to dry her eyes with his sleeves*

jeno: jaemin, why did you do this??

jisung: open the present, stop crying!!

^^ and all of those are just kinda all at once it’s so chaotic

jimin: *laughing* it’s okay, i just love you. oppa, give me a huggg

soon she’s opening his gift and she gives a great big smile

jimin: i was going to buy this myself!

jaemin: i had to get it for you~~

she holds up a new camera and even though her eyes are still a little teary she looks so happy

jimin: manager noona, can you help set this up? i want to take a picture with everyone after this!!

soon it’s time for hyuck’s gift, and she’s trying not to laugh as she opens the card

jimin: i’m most excited for this card...

when she opens it she LAUGHS and she shows it to mark who laughs even more

the others all clamor to see it and CACKLE when they do. she holds it up to the camera

the card just has all of hyuck’s recent pcs in it and says ‘you’re welcome for this card which has made your birthday wonderful’

jimin: donghyuck oppa, i love you so much. you’re the love of my life

hyuck: 😳 stop lying, stupid girl

she’s already opening his gift and laughs when she sees it. it’s noise cancelling headphones

hyuck: you were yelling at us recently that we were being too loud and you wished your noise cancelling headphones werent broken

jimin: i usually only use my earbuds, but these are so nice!! are they wireless??

hyuck: yeah, since you never use airpods i thought this was the closest you’d go

jimin: thank you oppa!! i love you so much

hyuck: i love you too

when she opens jeno’s card she grins

jimin: *in english* ‘little lilly,’ *in korean* ‘happy birthday. it’s been so many years since we met, and you’re still as special as you were then. stop growing so that you can be our baby koala forever. love you, jeno’

they all applaud, and jimin is pouting

jimin: i’m only you and jaemin’s baby, stop acting like i’ll be a baby forever!

jisung: taeyong hyung says that you’re his baby too

jimin: okay. i’m only nomin and taeyong oppa’s baby

jeno gives her a large gift bag and she pulls out some blankets

jimin: ahhhh, thank you oppa!! these are so soft!! i love blankets!!

jeno: keep looking, there’s something else~~

jimin: *gasps* l’interdit?! omo, i’ve wanted to try this for so long!! you all know i love givenchy... doyoung oppa got me givenchy sneakers today

mark: it smells really good

jimin: ?! did you all try it already?

chenji starts laughing and then it’s OBVIOUS what happened

jeno: we wanted to test it!!

jimin: *sprays it on herself* ooo, it does smell quite nice. thank you, oppa, i really love it

renjun: after you read the card, i have to go get the present

jimin: ?!

mark: is it too big for the room?

jeno: huh?

renjun: just read, jimin-ah~~

jimin: ‘jimin, i still remember when we met. you looked so scared in the practice rooms, but you still smiled at us all. i’m happy we see that smile every day, even when you’re feeling bad. happy birthday, jiminnie, we love you’ awwwh, junnie oppa... thank you

she leans on him, smiling

renjun: you’re welcome. but let me get the gift

hyuck: i don’t know what it is, does anyone?

no one knows what it is, but they’re even more suspicious when a manager leaves with him.

renjun, from a distance: cover her eyes!!

mark scoots closer to her and covers her eyes, making her pout

jimin: i want to seeeee

and then all the dreamies GASP which has her freaking out

jimin: what is it?! mark, let me go, i want to see!!

when she does see, her eyes go wide.

jimin: woahhh...

when it gets brought in, even all the fans watching are like O_O

renjun’s gift is... a huge floral arrangement with... WHITE LILLIES

LIKE THE INSTAGRAM POST MYSTERY

jimin: these are gorgeous... thank you, oppa

he hugs her, smiling

renjun: you really like them?

jimin: of course i do! you know white lillies are my favorite... and the daisies and leaves are gorgeous

hyuck: we should put them behind the table, so everyone can see them

jaemin: those are really pretty, renjun

jisung: woahhh

chenle: mark hyung looks upset- that’ll be hard to follow LMAO

hyuck: *smug* i think his will be good...

mark looks embarrassed handing her the card and starts to LAUGH

jimin: *in english* ‘lils, i hope the day has been better than every other one. i don’t wanna be weird and write as long a letter as i planned, so i’ll just shorten it. you’re one of the funniest, most talented people i’ve ever met, and i knew that even when we were little, shy trainees. i’m happy about all the time we’ve spent together and all the time we will have in the future, performing and growing by each other’s sides. happy birthday, m.l.’

at that point everyone is clowning mark because he got sentimental and sweet and mark and lily BOTH feel embarrassed-ish

jimin: thank you, markie oppa. it means a lot

mark: LMAO you’re welcome... it was nothing

hyuck: open your gift!!

he throws her a small box and she quirks an eyebrow

jimin: what, no puzzle? or an empty picture frame?

hyuck: what about a bible?

renjun: or an english dictionary?

mark: ahhhh. why are you all being like this

hyuck: don’t worry, jimin-ah, you’ll like this...

she opens the present and is met with a light blue tiffany’s box

jimin: no way. this is a joke. you didn’t get me anything from tiffany’s

mark: just open it!!

jimin: *opens it and just stares for a while*

and all the guys are wondering what’s in it and they’re all like woah.

jimin: oh my god mark

mark: do you like it?

jimin: of COURSE i do oh my god

she holds up a necklace with three charms on it. one that looked like a tag and another that was an ornate key and then a sagittarius charm. she’s smiling so big

mark: look at the other side, i got it engraved

jimin: ‘happy birthday, lils. m.l.’ oppa this is so gorgeous... help me put it on?

she lifted her hair and he fastened the clasp

hyuck: i told him to get you jewelry but he thought this up himself. i was surprised

everyone started to agree because mark is horrible at giving gifts

jaemin: it’s so pretty!

mark: haha i’m glad you like it

jimin: i absolutely love it! i cant believe it- i hoped you’d be the one person who didn’t spend much money on me. you know i hate people spending money on me

renjun: you deserve it, though

mark: it was nothing... i was just scared you wouldn’t like it

she gives mark a hug from the side, eyes closed and head on his chest

they all talked a bit more, the guys taking a bunch of the snacks, before they sang happy birthday to her and served cake

jimin: thank you guys, really... it means so much

jeno: you know we all love you

chenle: totally

he tHEN SMASHED JIMIN’S CAKE INTO HER FACE AND THEIR MANAGER SNAPS A PHOTO ON HER NEW CAMERA AS SOON AS IT HAPPENS

jimin: ZHONG CHENLE-

chenle already started running, but before chasing him, jimin says goodbye to czennies

then the rest of them closed the live

#na jimin #na lily #nct addition #nct dream addition #nct dream oc #nct oc #kpop addition #kpop oc #nct 22nd member #nct dream 8th member

[awkweirdgaming]

What have been your personal highlights during the past console generations, of you can remember?

I think I have a few games for damn near every console I’ve owned that were personal highlights for me.

Super Nintendo

Final Fight (My first ever actual official console video game that I ever played and owned. It’s what truly opened the flood gates when it comes to video games for me and not only will it always hold a special place in my heart for that but it’s just really fun to play.)

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Tournament Fighters/Turtles In Time (I can’t even begin to sum up how much I enjoyed these TMNT games. Tournament Fighters for me at that time was like the best fighting game ever; what the fuck is even Street Fighter II Turbo? Also, Turtles In Time was like that direct connection to the animated series and I absolutely loved that series so as a TMNT fan these games were so far up my alley.)

Wolverine: Adamantium Rage (That’s always going to be a highlight if for nothing else that lit-ass theme/beat alone)

The Pagemaster (It was the game I got along with Final Fight and while I never did beat that game I really enjoyed the hell out of it. Not to mention the movie is a fucking gem.)

PlayStation

Mega Man Legends (To me that’s always going to be one of the best Mega Man iterations right next to Battle Network. It’s also my first PSOne game. Lemme tell you the level of triggered I am at the fact that it’s on PSN for PS3 along with the sequel which I never got to play but nowhere to be found on PS4. That is an absolute crime and this Mega Man deserves a lot more respect and appreciation.)

Legend of Legaia (That game just caught my attention almost instantly when those commercials started dropping. I just needed it, I needed to play it and I got it and I played it and it felt just as good as I had hoped......but I never made it too far for 2 very specific reasons. 1. Did not have a memory card, could not find a memory card and 2. The damn disc got damaged so I never got to get past the very first chapter and I never got to meet that game’s Brock and Misty. I had such a connection for this game and I never got to truly play it and that shit’s gonna stick with me for fucking ever. Could never manage to find that game again and my PSOne got stolen but that part comes later.)

Battle Arena Toshniden (Now when I say I was addicted to that game best believe I was ADDICTED to that game. A lot of the characters and voice lines of that game is still imprinted in my brain to this day. I played that thing more than any other fighting game around at that time. The characters just looked so cool to me and I loved the whole different set of weapons they came with. I was obsessed.)

PlayStation 2

Max Payne (My first rated M game as well as my first PS2 game in general. There was a level of anxiety that came with playing this game because it felt so down to earth compared to everything else I’ve played before and it was so gritty that the danger was just exuding through the screen. It never occurred to me at the time that I was playing a game that would later be considered as something that revolutionized the genre as well as the industry but damn if it wasn’t making so many impressions on me.)

Grand Theft Auto III/Vice City/San Andreas (The most I can say is those games were just so much fun and felt so freeing to play. I never knew sandbox games could be such a thing and from that point on it was a whole new world. I appreciate that PS4 actually has the ports for them because I’m kinda feeling the urge to go back. GTA III was always my personal most favorite out of the 3.)

Def Jam Vendetta/Fight For NY (Rappers/actors and fighting games. Sounds like a combo that should be absolute trash but damn if they didn’t nail that shit. I would love for them to be on PSN because I need to go back.)

Marvel Nemesis: Rise Of The Imperfects (I absolutely loved the way this game played and I loved the set up to it. It is just sorely underrated in my eyes. It was dark but it was absolutely fun and I appreciated how every character felt to play. Also, those destructive arenas and how wide they’d span was my shit.)

XBOX 360

Basically everything Valve: Portal/Portal 2/Left 4 Dead/Left 4 Dead 2/Team Fortress 2/Half Life 2 (”Whats inside the Orange Box?”. I had absolutely no love for ANYTHING first person shooter related because I NEEDED to see my character on screen. If I couldn’t see my character there was no point BUT that all changed when I played Left 4 Dead. That game drew me in so hard and so fast and what made that even more impressive is I was never about horror games either but now they got me hooked. So I’m out here living my L4D life and then that just perfect commercial starts playing on television. “What’s inside the Orange Box?”. From style to presentation they just nailed the perfect vibe because it immediately caught my attention and then I’m finding out it’s a collection of games that were done by the people who made my one of my most favorite games so I gotta jump it. Needless to say I was not disappointed. I feel in love with everything. What I am disappointed in, however, is Valve feeling as if they’re too good to be on consoles now. I would like to go back to a lot of these worlds but you ain’t gonna catch me burning my PC for it.)

And now I think I will stop here before I end up going on forever which would be very easy for me to do on this subject. So yeah; there are quite a few highlights for me that are just about impossible to forget. I haven’t even gotten to touch on the handhelds. Okay; I’ll touch on 2 very quickly.

Pokemon Blue for GameBoy Color (My first Gameboy and Pokemon game and the circumstances at which I got it makes it a very special memory for me.)

Mega Man: Battle Network for GameBoy Advance (It took 2 of my biggest interests which was Mega Man and the internet and brought them together in what was in my opinion a flawless execution. I love the style, I loved the characters, I loved the story and I loved the music. If I were to ever play a GameBoy game on my television it would be for the Battle Network series.)

#Final Fight #Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Tournament Fighters #Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Turtles In Time #Wolverine: Adamantium Rage #The Pagemaster #Mega Man Legends #Legend Of Legaia #Battle Arena Toshinden #Max Payne #Grand Theft Auto III #Grand Theft Auto: Vice City #Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas #Def Jam: Vendetta #Def Jam: Fight For NY #Marvel Nemesis: Rise Of The Imperfects #Portal #Portal 2 #Left 4 Dead #Left 4 Dead 2 #Team Fortress 2 #Half Life 2 #The Orange Box #Pokemon Blue #Mega Man: Battle Network #Video Games #So Many Tags And I Only Have Myself To Blame

[shinglescat]

Alright, so, ram modules that are about 3600Mhz is just enough, esp for 5xxx Ryzens. Then the more ram sticks you have, the better the performance thanks to the channels. God, my head is boiling from all this computer information.

Then Ryzen has something called Infinity Fabric, and it matters the most when it comes to AMD’s CPUs and memory; timings matter too, but seems like IF matters more. Still don’t exactly understand it, but it’ll be something to think about once I actually have the new pc.

Rant goes below.

Then there are PSUs. Man, I wanted a Fractal Design build like a dumbass I am, but... their PSUs are not so good when it comes to oscillations, and that’s a big thing apparently for stability. Looked at all the reviews about ion gold, decided to switch back to the Cougar PSU I bought last year, and then decided to switch to a be quiet! PSU because of the CPU I chose... but something tells me I may actually revert back to my Cougar and buy the second one. AAAAAAA

Then there’s mobo. The first one I picked was ASUS ROG STRIX B550-A, because good VRMs and heatsinks on them. And watercooling compatibility. Then it’s 4 gen PCI-E, but whatever, ‘cause I picked gen 3 SSD, and the video cards don’t utilize gen 4 in full. Also its heatsinks are whitish. And I’m a girl. And I want pretty things. Like an idiot, I chose the mobo based on looks, what a retard, but I can’t make myself get me one of those ugly shroud-less mobos, I’ve had enough with my current one, SO UGLY. Luckily, the mobo doesn’t seem to be faulty. Then I heard people recommend MSI B550A PRO for 5xxx CPUs. Picked one, granted it also costs 7k lower than the strix. And everything would be okay, but turns out this mobo has a lot of failures. So I went back to strix. Also, initially, a year ago or so I wanted an MSI board, something-something ace meg whatever with SLI compatibility. But they’re gone, and SLI’s dead, and games don’t really support SLI anyways. So lucky me here, otherwise I’d spend more on the mobo like an idiot I am.

Anyways. Since my mobo is white, I changed my FD case to white, lmao, it’s also couple rubles cheaper than the black one. Also note - I hate RGB stuff, and there’s not glass panel in the case I picked, it’s just solid block of metal... So why the idiot me needs a pretty motherboard? Logic, but I can’t fight it, I want me a pretty thing.

And I changed my AIO, which is FD Celsius S36 to Noctua NH-15D. Had a fight here with myself, ‘cause the AIO looks nice, and the NH-15D looks ass ugly in Noctua’s brand colors; Celsius performs slightly better than the NH-15D, and... THREE FANS. Wanted to place it in front of the case, but then... evaporation is a thing. Fuck it, went with the Noctua, esp since I found it in stock in black, yay. Then again, watercooling is good for short bursts of temperature spikes, then it equalizes and performs maybe worse than an air cooler. So Noctua it is.

Then come SSDs. Fuck me. That’s just hard to pick, there are so many drives. Initially I planned on a 512 GB Samsung 970 PRO because it’s probably last of the MLC guys when everyone went for TLC and QLC. But it’s pricey as fuck. Reliable, but pricey. With great tears I swapped it to an Aorus SSD. Same capacity, but TLC, similar speeds, similar write span, only almost 4k cheaper. But it’s new, no reviews whatsoever, kinda sus. So I just sat and thought about this all and went for a 512 GB NVMe WD Blue, ‘cause I don’t really need it besides having the OS installed on it and all that. And it’s cheaper. And I’m not going to be writing anything on it myself, it’s all for Windows.

Ha, also found some cheap memory sticks at a retail electronics store, 64 GBs of ram would cost me around 20k. 3000Mhz, low timings, could forgive it having rgb lighting. Next day I open their internet store and... there goes my el-cheapo HyperX. Send everything to hell and opted for four sticks of G.Skill RIPJAWS V 3600Mhz CL18. Gonna be fun making it marry the air cooler.

Damn, HDDs got pricey, thanks to the chia mining. Wanted a WD Gold, had it bookmarked, it was around 12 to 14 grand before, and now it’s just unobtanium with its price. Fuck it. And el-cheapo ones, a-la barracudas and blues got more expensive. But I need me some storage, for went for a 2TB WD Blue anyways... and for a Seagate SkyHawk, 1TB.  

Man, I wish someone else would pick me parts and build the thing, but last time my father bought one (not for me ofc, I’m the devil child, even tho I eventually took over it), it almost fried my new shiny 2080 thanks to a cheapfuck of a PSU.

Do not ever cheap out on PSUs, ever.

Also got me a single high static pressure Noctua fan (but it’s black, ugh, and the case fans are white) for the video card cooling. Dunno if it’s going to fit in between the PSU and HDD cage in the end, but if not - it’ll have to do on the front panel in the middle of two white fans pushing air to the 2080. At least the case doesn’t have a glass panel. And finally no fans with light, I swear I hate my shitty Thermaltake fan with passion - it shines blue through the small window on the side panel of the case like a beacon it is, no way to turn it off (except for smashing it, but I ain’t no barbarian).

Low key regretting I went for the bachelor in civil and industrial engineering instead of electric stuff, would’ve been so much easier for me now, lmao.

Hoping I won’t change my mind yet again about the parts, tho honestly I really want to wait till the DDR5 hits the market, and AMD releases their DDR5 compatible CPUs, but I don’t want to wait a year, and then DDR5 will be a lot more expensive than DDR4... and I just can’t wait, I need me more power and less bottlenecks.

UWU

Fuck I’m excited for it. Also dreading it, never dealt with PGA CPUs, wonder how fragile the pins are.

Also, I’m finally excited for a game, ready to shit-piss my pants. Stalker 2 is coming next year, baby! Gotta get me that retail version of the game to put it in my Stalker collection... 

#annie does rant

[oikaw-ugh]

ok i just saw justine requested for 1 already so imma go ahead and request for 3 LOLOLOL

HALLO SOPH, HAHAHAH SHDBHADB THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING INTERESTED WITH MY OCs I love them so much, too!

Tagging Pilar and Dilag as well! @ineedselfcontrol-helpme ​ and @applepienation ​ (insert sparkle emoji since I’m at the PC)

Also! I posted my other fanart of them and a couple of canons I made before hehehhe (at the very bottom)

Full name

Fujiwara Maria (Breath of Nature)

Preferred name/nickname

Maria

Generally referred to as

The mother who has Daddy issues HAHAHAHAHHA

Appearance

Sex: Female

Height: 5'4"

Weight: Somewhere around 60-80 kilos hehe

Build: Voluptuous? Did i spell that right?

Hair: Her hair is curly and it used to reach up to her elbows but now it’s up to her jaw.

Skin: Fair complexion. Fujita did say her face is smooth but her arms are rough. (Notice how Fujita does all the commenting? She’s a bitch)

Eyes: Her eyes are inspired by Muzan’s! They are green in color but the slits are very demon-like which scares other slayers sometimes.

Mouth: Not too thin but not too full.

Hands: Small! She hates it because anyone can literally wrap their fingers on her hands and wrist.

Feet: Small.

Scars: None.

Other features: 

Noteable features: a helix piercing.

Voice

Accent: Very motherly-like? It reminds you of a mother.

Verbal Ticks: Has difficulty with pronouncing ‘r’

Language: Let’s assume they speak Nihonggo.

Articulation: 

Laughter: She usually sounds like a choking chicken.

Grump: She mutters under hear breath when she’s mad. Like, Fujita is convinced Maria is into witchcraft when she mumbles.

Breathing: She does the ‘OWWWWW’ Amida does.

Mannerism

Face: She’s not frowning but she’s not smirking either. It’s like (o_o) but not as creepy as Junko’s.

Hands: Knuckle cracks.

Legs/Feet: She likes to Indian(?) sit

Habits: She chews her nails.

Posture: Kind of slouching. 

Walking posture: She kinds of slouch when walking.

Sitting posture: She slouches, too.

Personal space: She likes receiving hugs from Fujita, Amida, and Junko (which happens rarely since the whole lot is not that expressive smh)

Personal

Spacial awareness: She usually can’t tell HAHAHHAHA

Sleep: She sleeps late. She’s very productive at night.

Excercise: Being a slayer.

Activity: She does the chores unconsciously. She just hates getting dirty so she does the chores first since she can’t really rely on Fujita. Amida and Junko helps though but they are not that good (at least for her)

Cleanliness: She likes to keep things clean.

Odour: She smells like nature!

Medical drugs: None

Narcotics: None

Addictions: Coffee

Illness: None

Injuries: None

Parasites: None

Other:

Introvert/Extrovert: An introvert. 

Diet: She eats anything edible. HAHAHAHAHAHHA survival to the fittest

Optimist/Pessimist: In between? 

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Bisexual.

Romantic: She’s never tried to be in love so I can’t tell. She does get jealous of partners being affectionate to one another (not her getting jealous when she went for Fujita and Amida's wedding but is also too tired for commitment. I mean, being a demon slayer is already a big commitment-)

Memory: Poor. HAHAHAHAH.

Planning: THE BRAIN OF THE GROUP. BE IT AT THE FIELD OR JUST AT A NORMAL BASIS. EVERYONE THINKS SHE IS RIGHT AND SHE IS MOST OF THE TIME THOUGH.

Pensive: Her famous line: “Ah, shit. I shouldn’t have done that, right?”

Intuition: She’s good at it! She’s the brain.

Goals: To protect her friends in honor with her senpais.

Insecurities: Her scars from the demon who tried to kill her.

Achievements: She became one of the most highly-regarded demon slayer.

Anxiety: Deadlines. And the sound of her speaking crow.

Overwhelmed: When she sees too much blood. She can handle it but...not too much.

Self-help: She sucks surprisingly! She’s good at giving advice but she can’t apply them on her own. But Junko, Amida, and Maria has her back dw.

Comforts: Her friends.

Philosophy: To do things in honor for her deceased fathers and her demon slayer senpais who saved her from that hellhole

Triggers: Demons.

The Past

Parents/Guardians: She lives with her father. At their village, rumors spread that there’s actually a demon living at the mountain near their village. Men of their village decided to raid the mountain in the hopes of killing this demon.

With this, she was forced to live on a different household, working as their maid for the mean time while her father is away. But surprisingly...the village never heard about the men for months after they left. A survivor managed to return though, only to say that the people shouldn't expect for the rest, including Maria's father.

School: Her father thought her the essential skills for her to survive (cleaning, cooking, even hunting)

Adolescence: She gained more weight and she grew taller.

Leaving home: Didn’t mean much to her. It was leaving her father’s memories behind that pains her.

Further education:

Life events: She grew hysterical when a survivor from the group of men who raided the demon’s den was able to come back to the village. No one believed him when he told them that he’s the only one who survived.

Maria refused to believe his bullshit and so, she went to the mountain herself, only to be knocked out unconscious by the demon the moment she went in the abandoned house.

Worst day of their life: When she raided the demon’s lair alone. She was mad, yes, but she was terrified as well.

Lessons: Things just don’t go according to your way sometimes.

The Relationships

Family: She grew with her father but he unfortunately died. When she was knocked out by the demon, she had to be surrounded by corps for months and that developed her slight trauma for blood. Waiting for her end, she was miraculously rescued by these 'demon slayers' who would become her senpais.

Her senpais are both members of the demon slayer corps who were tasked to kill this demon. Maria was the only one alive amidst the sea of corpses so they took her in.

Because of this, Maria was inspired to become a demon slayer, not only as a sign of gratitude but also as a way to avenge her father.

Notice how her clothing has onion-print on them and she has her tips dyed pink? Because her other senpai loved onions and they also had onion-print on ther uniform while the other had their hair dyed pink. She did these to honor her senpais. I mean, okay Maria you are grateful but that's just plain weird.

She then meets Junko, Fujita, and Amida who became her friends and her family.

Friendships: Junko, Fujita and, Amida.

Friends in need: She will not hesitate to HELP you.

Annoyance: She grumbles a lot! She wouldn’t speak her thoughts but you’d hear her mumbling underneath her breath. Again, witchcraft according to Fujita.

Romance: Heard of it but never tried it. In the future, she knows it, she wants to try it, but is too lazy.

Marital problems: bich?

Adversaries: -

Enemies: Demons, dirt, and insects.

Strangers: She’s very approachable even though she is an introvert.

Fun stuff: She loves to eat onions! (raw, caramelized, or what)

Dating: None

Best friend: Amida, Junko, and Fujita

Love: Her father, her senpais, her friends.

Respect: Her father for risking his life and her senpais for saving her. Fujita for accepting her despite of being a 'commoner' (we all know Fujita is joking but Maria took it personally. Not offended though). Junko for letting her in her life despite her trauma and Amida for accepting her even if she couldn't replace his senpai.

Interactions

Mingling: She’s very timid at first but she’d warm up eventually.

Comfort levels: Comfortable talking to people who are older than her. She thinks younger people are as stubborn as Fujita.

Physical: She likes to give cuddles occasionally. Well, shed love to all the time only if her gang is into physical touch.

Group: She looks fine but she’s very anxious deep inside when talking to a group of people.

Jealous: Of those who still have their father.

Temper: SHORT. Like an asian mom’s.

Empathy: She feels for her friends. They all had it rough in different ways.

Affectionate: MOTHERLY-LIKE.

Distaste: When she hates someone, she tries to be kind to them. Fujita tells her to just straight ass tell them she dislikes them but Maria is too kind for that.

Responsibility: To eliminate every demon she sees.

Self-esteem: Normal. 

Honesty: I wouldn’t say honest but secretive? Like, if you didn’t ask, she wouldn’t say.

Leader or follower: A LEADER. Though she’s confused why but she is.

Praise: She likes them!

Criticism: She accepts them!

Insults: She disregards them. She knows better anyway.

Embarrassment: Hmmmm when they see her eat raw onions? Because that’s disgusting for some?

Flirting: Haven’t tried.

Attention span: OOMF! Poor when not on a mission. But when she is on a mission, she becomes very attentive.

This is my last post of being a dork so might as well pour out all of my nerdiness >=]]]]]

MARIA

•Maria is the eldest of the 4 and is the first one to join DSC.

•Maria has her hair pink and her clothes designed with onion patters to honor her seniors who saved her from the demon near her village. (Emphasized on her back story)

•Maria was attacked by the demon residing at the mountains near her village. Hitting her head with shards of glass, specifically her eyes. This is then the reason why she wears glasses. (Emphasized on her back story).

•Maria is the mother figure of the 3. 

•Maria has separation anxiety because of her daddy issues. (Emphasized on her back story).

•With her sepanx, Maria would insist on having the group in tack in missions even if the situation demands the 4 to split 

•Maria, being treated like Cinderella from the household who sheltered her, is used to chores.

•Maria fights the cleanest.

JUNKO

•Junko joined DSC next after being influenced by Maria.

•Junko came from a wealthy family.

•Junko hates her father and his principles in life.

•Junko always had her hair tied up because she hated the fact that men loved her straight and silky hair.

•She also always had her hair cut raggedly (?) because men adored her straight hair.

•Junko hates talking about beauty. She thinks that everything and everyone is beautiful and must not be questioned.

•Junko hates arrogant, ignorant, and disrespectful men (emphasis on men).

•Junko, surprisingly, can tolerate Amida and he is so far, the only man who can touch her with ease.

•Growing from a rich family, Junko is accustomed with poetries, books, and paintings. These are the things Junko and Fujita get along well.

FUJITA

•Fujita came from a wealthy family.

•Fujita has brother complex hehe.

•Fujita, after hearing her brother's death, disappeared from her household for months. Eventually, she came back with dirty clothes, bloody wound, and with Maria, Junko, and Amida. At this point, she has already joined the DSC.

•Maria and Junko found Fujita fighting with the drunkards the night Maria and Junko indirectly adopted Fujita. Fearing for her life, they had no choice but to fight back against the drunkards.

•Fujita emphasizes on how Maria, Junko, and her should eventually retire and settle down with someone wealthy. (Maria and Junko hates this discussion)

•Growing from a wealthy family, she is used of things going according to her way so she is used on bossing everyone around.

•She likes Amida??? SIKE THEY'RE MARRIED

AMIDA

•Amida, after running away, was homeless for months. With no food, no shelter, and no money. (Emphasized on his back story).

•Amida loved his senpai so much up to this day, he dreams of meeting with him once again.

•Amida's biggest fear is to know that his senpai has turned in to a demon.

•Fujita found Amida on the streets. He had no choice but to go with Fujita because of starvation, homelessness, and dehydration.

•Amida seems like the only person who couldn't tolerate Fujita's banters and orders.

•Amida sympathizes with Maria. As much as possible, he helps with the responsibilities.

•Amida is a fast runner. Very much useful when fighting.

•Amida grew in the streets with senpai and is used to fights. Fighting against demons is not new to him.

•Amida considers himself bisexual. Aside from Senpai, the only person he admired is Fujita (romantically or platonically, it will be unanswered). He admires how she, with no doubt, brought him along with her when he had nothing.  THEY'RE MARRIED THO SO JOKE'S ON U

Amida

Junko

Fujita

#kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer tamayo #kny #kimetsu no yaiba art #kimetsu no yaiba fanart #kimetsu no yaiba oc #kimetsu no yaiba oc art #demon slayer fanart #demon slayer oc #demon slayer oc art #kny art #kny fanart #kny oc art #kny oc #i love my OCs heheheh

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Found Family - Ch 3: Disastrous Distraction

Notes: We finally get to the chapter that contains the plotpoint that got this whole thing started! It was this prompt @lizluvscupcakes sent me:  If you’re taking prompts, how about Virgil who isn’t up to date on his shots, Logan who knows *just* what to look up and how to do this, and Patton, who needs to half hold Virgil still and half hug him.

Premise: Virgil’s homelife isn’t the best. The day after he turns 15 he packs his bags and runs away to live with the only family who actually cares: his older brother Roman who lives with his best friends Patton and Logan. Virgil is quickly pulled into their little family. He’s never been happier.

Warnings: past child abuse, antivaxx rhethoric, vaccines, injections and syringes, needles, panic, fear, yelling, crying, unsympathetic Remus mentioned, hurt/comfort

Relationships: brotherly Prinxiety, platonic LAMP

Wordcount: about 2.8k

Masterpost

Ao3

Chapter one  Chapter two  [You’re here!]   Chapter four  Chapter five  Chapter six

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Patton wasn’t sure how the day had gone from normal to… this.

It started during breakfast when Logan looked up from his coffee, made eye contact with Virgil and told him that now that he was living with them he needed to get his vaccinations taken care of.

Virgil paled significantly, scrunching himself down to look even smaller than he was normally. “How do you know about my vaccination status?”

“I checked.” Logan had answered as if it was the most normal thing in the world.

“When? How?”

“After you moved in with us. I have taken the liberty to make an appointment with the pediatrician at my medical complex to get your vaccines taken care of and to create a plan to get you all up to date. It is today at eleven a.m. so we can go get lunch after.”

Virgil had nodded, finished his own coffee and bolted out of the kitchen towards his and Roman’s shared room.

Patton looked over at Logan who seemed clueless, then at Roman who looked exasperated and worried. “He’s not going to come willingly is he.”

“Absolutely not. Remus told him so much shit about vaccines, he’s terrified of them. He’s never gotten a vaccine in his life because our mother couldn’t be bothered to take care of him like that. The only one who was vaccinated as a kid was Remus because he was important, in comparison to Vee and me. She also didn’t really- believe in most medicine? She only got Remus vaccinated because it was a condition to him joining this sports club he’s been in since we were kids. You’re gonna have a horrible time with Virgil.”

Patton sighed and put his face in his hands. He’d suspected this since Logan had brought up the topic. It would inevitably be up to him to coax Virgil out since Roman was leaving for “work” soon.

He watched his roommate finish his breakfast and head up to his room to get ready and bid his brother goodbye. An hour after Roman left it was time for the Creature to emerge so Patton knocked at the door of Roman and Virgil’s room.

“Kiddo? It’s time to go, we don’t wanna be late to your appointment.”

“No! I’m not going! I don’t want any shots!” Virgil shouted from inside, sounding angry but unable to hide the little tremor in his voice.

“Virgil, you don’t have to be scared. It’s gonna be okay, Lo and I will be with you the whole time! Nothing can hurt you.” 

“Vaccines can kill people! They’re full of toxins! What if my arm starts to rot and falls off!”

“That won’t happen, Verge. And regardless, this is just to talk about a schedule for you to get your shots, you won’t get any yet!” he said, leaving his I hope so at least unvoiced.

That seemed to get through to Virgil as the door opened just a little bit, barely enough for him to peek out at him. “You sure?”

“Yeah, I’m sure. And I’m sure Ro can come along to your next appointment when you do get a shot.”

He watched Virgil chew on his lip as he contemplated before finally nodding and letting the door swing open wider.

He smiled at him and offered his hand. “Let’s get ready, kiddo.”

Virgil didn’t take his hand but he did nod and step out of the room, following him downstairs.

They were on their way to Logan’s workplace a few minutes later, Logan driving, Patton riding shotgun and Virgil in the back. 

The closer they got to their destination the twitchier Virgil seemed to get, fidgeting with his fingers, pulling the strings of his hoodie’s hood, tapping his feet, sliding around in his seat as if trying to find a comfortable position.

By the time they arrived Virgil was actually shaking with how hard he was tapping his feet. Or maybe he was just shaking and the tapping didn’t make much difference.

“It’s okay, Verge. We’re here with you.” Patton reassured him as they entered the building, following Logan who steadily approached the door labeled as pediatrics.

“Hello Remy, I am here for the appointment I scheduled for Roman’s brother.” he announced to the person manning the front desk who didn’t even dignify them with a greeting and just waved them on through the door.

Behind the doors was a brightly colored nightmare filled with overtired parents and loud kids entertaining themselves with the provided toys or crying about being at the doctor’s. Logan frowned at that a little but took a seat next to Virgil, placing the boy between himself and Patton.

As luck had it they were summoned not too much later, a perk of getting the co-worker treatment, for sure. Logan had planned to let Virgil go in on his own since he was old enough to but Patton’s scathing look quickly made him follow them inside.

“Hi! I’m Dr. Sylvia Davenport. You must be Virgil right? Logan told me you’re his roommate’s brother?” The doctor introduced herself, trying to make him relax a little by mentioning Roman. Secretly, Patton was glad they’d ended up with the kind looking middle aged woman with the smile lines around her eyes. She seemed harmless and was obviously good with kids.

“Yeah. His name’s Roman.”

“Okay. And I heard that you and Roman didn’t really get vaccines growing up. I can’t really help Roman in that regard but I can help you. Let’s talk about a schedule to get your immunisations to where they should be for a 15 year old, huh?”

Virgil eyed her warily despite her trustworthy smile and soothing tone. He just shrugged. She kept smiling.

“I think we should start with combination vaccines so we can get as many in you in as little time as possible, that means you’ll get the vaccines for several diseases in one go so you don’t have to get as many shots. Once we’ve exhausted those we can move on to the single vaccines like tetanus or tick-borne encephalitis. Does that sound okay?”

Virgil just shrugged again though Patton could see the panic in his eyes that told him he just wanted to get out, to run, to hide and he felt something in his chest ache at the sight of it.

“Okay! I’ll print out the schedule for you so you and your guardians can keep track of your appointments, then we can get to your first combination vaccines. I was thinking ProQuad and Pediarix. Pediarix will protect you from diphtheria, tetanus, pertussis, hepatitis B, and polio while ProQuad will help with measles, mumps, rubella, and varicella.” she explained calmly as Virgil’s face drained of color until he was pale enough to almost count as translucent.

“You said I wouldn’t get a shot.” he whispered, eyes not leaving Dr Davenport’s back as she drew up the schedule on her PC. Patton felt as horrified as Virgil seemd.

“Yeah because I thought you wouldn’t.”

He truly hadn’t meant to lie to Virgil or lull him into a false sense of security or break his trust. While he was still mentally kicking himself Virgil had gotten up, wiping sweaty hands on his back.

“Thank you very much but that’s not necessary. I think I’ll head out now, bye.” he said before turning tail and leaving.

Well he tried to leave but Logan grabbed on to the back of his hoodie, pulling him back. “No, that’s not happening. Please ignore him, Sylvia, he’s nervous but he will get the immunisations you recommended today.”

Dr. Davenport, bless her soul, raised an eyebrow at Logan and Virgil, scepticism clear in her eyes. “Are you sure about that?” she asked to which Virgil was just about to answer No I’m fucking not, I want to leave, when Logan shot him a sharp glare, much like his mother always did when he was about to do something she would very much dislike.

So he shut up, stuffed his hands into his hoodie pockets to hide their shaking and gulped. “Yes Ma’am.” he whispered, eyes so wide and terrified Patton wondered how Logan could pull through with forcing Virgil to do this.

Logan nodded, clearly satisfied as he herded Virgil over to the padded examination table, making him lay down in an attempt to make him relax even marginally while Dr. Davenport prepared the syringes.

Virgil watched her warily, trying to keep his breathing even. He lost count on his breathing when Dr. Davenport approached with the little tray holding the syringes and alcohol swabs.

He tried to squirm but Logan was still holding on to him, holding him down.

“No, please don’t, I don’t want this. I really don’t.” he started to babble, quickly drowned out by Logan’s reassurances that Yes, Sylvia, I’m sure, we want this, he needs his vaccines, he’s just nervous. I’ll hold him still.

Patton felt his heart break at Virgil’s panicked look and felt it absolutely shatter when he started crying and begging for the doctor to please stop, please! and he couldn’t stop himself from getting up and sitting with Virgil, grabbing his hand for comfort.

“Oh honey, it’s okay, you don’t need to be scared, I’ve got you, it’s okay.” he tried to soothe him. Needless to say, it was unsuccessful. The more he tried to calm Virgil down, the louder his pleas became.

Pleas became cries became wordless shouts of fear.

Patton felt his ears ring. The boy had a pair of lungs on him and Patton wished he’d stop for his ears’ sake. Until then he had an idea to try and calm him down.

He held his phone to his ear, desperately hoping for Roman to pick up. He let out a sigh of relief when Roman picked up at the second ring. “Roman! Thank gosh, you gotta help us calm Virgil down.” he said, not even acknowledging his roommate’s greeting.

Virgil had apparently heard Roman’s name over his own shouting, fell silent for just a second as he stared at Patton. Then he zeroed in on Patton’s phone, realised what was going on and started shouting for Roman, tears running down his cheeks faster than before.

Patton hurriedly held his phone to Virgil’s ear.

“Roman! Roman, help! Where are you? I don’t wanna be here, I wanna go home! Roman-” he cried, muffling any noise that might come out of the speaker, meaning he was the only one able to hear what Roman said to him. Whatever it was seemed successful though. While he was still crying, Virgil was definitely calmer and not squirming as much as he babbled into the phone. Meanwhile, Dr. Davenport quickly administered the shots, quickly applying bandaids over the injection sites.

Only then did Logan let him go, rolling off the table as he rubbed at his temple with one hand. He had been even closer to Virgil’s mouth, Patton wouldn’t be surprised if Logan had permanent damage to his hearing from this. Heck, Patton wouldn’t be surprised if he himself had hearing loss from this!

But what was definitely true was that Virgil had screamed and cried himself hoarse. His voice was absolutely wrecked as he still cried into the phone.

“Kiddo, hey, it’s okay. It’s over now, c’mon, let’s get you up.” Patton coaxed, gently grabbing his shoulder to help him sit up. “Let’s go, you’re done, we can go now, we can go home.”

Virgil, still clutching the phone, nodded miserably and huddled into his hoodie which Logan had forced him to take off to expose his arms to the doctor.

“Do you wanna keep talking to Ro on our way home?”

“Uh-huh.”

“Okay, honey. You can do that, I just gotta take the phone for just a second okay? I’ll let you talk to Ro again in just a moment.”

Virgil looked at him warily but slowly gave him the phone.

“Hey Roman. We’re done now, we’ll take Vee back home now.”

“Okay. I’m on my way home now, I’ll be there in twenty.” Roman’s voice came through the speaker, somber and tinny, accompanied by the noise of other people and traffic in the background.

“Okay. I’ll take Lo out later to get take out, I think our kiddo deserves it today and I think he could use a bit of down time with just you.”

“Yeah, sounds good. Thanks Pat.”

“It’s no problem. I’ll give you back to Virgil now okay?”

He didn’t wait for an answer since Virgil had considerably perked up at his last sentence, already making grabby hands at Patton. Or more accurately, at Patton’s phone.

With Virgil on the phone with Roman it was easy to usher the teen into the car to start their way back home. Once there Virgil followed them home and scurried to his and Roman’s room, Patton’s phone still clutched to his ear.

“Well this went horribly.” Patton told Logan who just nodded.

“You mentioned takeout. What should we get?”

“Well I’m not sure but Virgil likes pizza. We should ask Roman once he gets home.”

Logan nodded and headed up to his own room.

Patton stayed downstairs and began making hot chocolate a few minutes before Roman was supposed to come home. He waved at him when he came in and handed him two mugs of the beverage to take upstairs for Virgil.

Then he settled on the couch so the boys could have some privacy.

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