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Desi LGBT Fest 2023 (hosted by @desi-lgbt-fest)
Day 7 : Faith/Rituals of Love
Definitely geared heavily towards the 'Faith' part of this prompt as soon as I read it!
If being Queer is defying conventions and if being a part of the Queer community means going against heteronormativity and gender conformity, is it not Queer to forego materialistic ties and the love of a human partner and embrace the love of a greater being you have only heard about in stories?
All four individuals featured here were integral part of the Bhakti Movement and/or Sufism in South Asia. None were married other than Meerabai.
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Chaitanya Mahaprabhu (1486-1534) : A key name of the Bhakti Movement and the Gauriya Vaishnav tradition in 15th Century Bengal, Chaitanya Mahaprabhu was believed to have been a vessel for both Radha and Krishna. Bengali doesn't use pronouns or gendered language and we may never know what they would have preferred to be identified as in a language they didn't know (English), I will simply resort to using They/Them for them. Their written teachings are few and far between but the verse mentioned here is the seventh verse of the only written record of their teachings, the Shikshastakam - a collection of 8 total verses. The translation here is my own and quite literal so that the interpretation is left to the reader.
Meerabai (1498-1597) : [CW : IMPLIED QUEERPHOBIA/APHOBIA] Meerabai was born into Rajput royalty and was married off, also to Rajput royalty, in likely an arranged marriage. While most of the stories surrounding her are folklore whose historicity is yet to be confirmed, her marital status can be confirmed, and so can her devotion and affection for Krishna and the divine, which she has herself penned in numerous poems and songs. Folklore does strongly imply that she was non-committal to her marriage and that her in-laws tried to poison her to death multiple times for it.
Kabir (1398–1448 or 1440–1518) : Found as an orphan by a Muslim weaver couple, Kabir's religion grew to become somewhat of an enigma for future generations. His stance, however, on the topic romance and marital relationships is quite clear - he looked down upon them and a huge chunk of his couplets strongly imply that romantic and sexual relations simply obstruct spiritual enlightenment.
Bulleh Shah (1680-1757) : Bulleh Shah, though an ardent proponent of loving the divine, was declared a Kafir, a non-believer/non-Muslim by a quite a few Muslim clerics of the time. He was known for speaking up against existing power hierarchies of the time and used vernacular speech for his writings (Punjabi, Sindhi) which not only served to popularize his works, but also let people connect to his words.
A personal note on my motivations under the cut.
A while back when I was actively going through the anxiety of finding out that I am ace and that I will never fit into the current South Asian society that the wedding industry has a chokehold on, I desperately wanted to see people from my own culture living happily without a partner. During one of my history rabbit hole escapedes, I restumbled upon the story of Meerabai, how she always insisted on loving and devoting herself towards Krishna, despite being married into a normative and wealthy household and despite her in-laws repeatedly attempting to poison her for not committing to her husband. Most of us from India grow up hearing about Meerabai, her spiritual connections to Krishna, and her struggles. The moral of those stories is always framed as 'believe in god, he will help you through tough times'. But this was the first time I was making a different connection, I was drawing different morals. And when I took Meerabai's non-conformity to her married life and started looking for more examples like hers, I was overwhelmed by how many more individuals existed without a partner, condemned being in a normative, married relationship, admitted to having lost human connections and faced resistance even, and yet stayed true to their orientation and sounded HAPPY! It was extremely hard to narrow it down to these four, but these do make my point! Labels are hard to transpose across cultures and history. But if being queer means being nonconforming of marital structures and being aspec/arospec implies neutrality, indifference, or aversion to romance and intercourse, then no one fits the label if they don't.
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comment-exchange · 9 months
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303. Refined for Fear (Khyber Shards)
Title: Refined for Fear 
Link: AO3, Squidgeworld 
Creator: YellowMagicalGirl 
Work Type: Fanfic 
Fandom: Khyber Shards 
Rating: T 
Pairing: Arlo Fletcher/Thora Tavin 
Word count: 2007 
Warnings: Dubcon Kissing, Implied/Referenced Aphobia, Implied/Referenced Canon-Typical Violence 
Number of comments: 1 
Completion Status: Complete 
Short summary/description: Attending an academic conference away from Stormreach was a mistake. Thora won’t let Arlo be hurt the same way she was. 
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spacedykez · 1 year
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do you ever wish u were gay. in a. GOD it would be so much easier to come out sorta way
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First of all, there are some BIG TWs!!! Being: Violence, past Trauma, HEAVY GORE, Mental health themes(some of the characters are HEAVILY traumatized), Mentions of religion(Pastry.), NSFW stuff (gore, heavy language, sexual, ect.) Horror themes(Hunter really goes into the whole horror thing with Sovereign of Darkness and a few others), past abuse, religious trauma(PASTRY), past bad parenting, torture, mistreatment of others, stalking, obsession, near death experiences, murder, visual horror on some sprites, torture mentions, heavy grief in some characters, mentions of stuff like implied alcoholism, tyranny, conquering villages, and death.
RULES:
-NO MINORS. THIS IS FOR MOD HUNTER'S COMFORT AND THERE’S SHIT THAT KIDS SHOULD NOT BE SEEING. THIS IS A 17+ BLOG.
-Don't throw a hissy fit if a character is rude to you.
-Be patient with ships! They may not appear at first, but they will appear in due time! <3
-Please don’t try to introduce characters into the universe. The characters may recognize your username if it comes up a lot, but otherwise, all asks will be just “messages” for them.
-DO NOT FORCE SHIPS. SOME SHIPS EXIST, OTHERS DON’T, SUCK IT UP, BUTTERCUP.
-If you want us to tag something a certain way, DM us and we will try our hardest. DO NOT ABUSE THIS.
- This is an AU, so this is OUR TAKE on a story in the Cookie Run universe, Please respect this.
- Also! If a character is dead, they’re DEAD. What we say about a character’s mortality goes.
-This is a mature story. It'll contain mature topics. Read the trigger warnings and read accordingly.
-This features OCs. Don't like, don't read. Thanks.
-This heavily features OC x Canon. Don't like, fuck off. Cope, seethe.
-NO TRANSPHOBIA, APHOBIA, OR LGBTQIA+ PHOBIA IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM.
-IF YOU'RE A RECURRING ASKER, PLEASE NAME YOURSELF. IT HELPS MOD HUNTER BE ABLE TO KEEP TRACK OF PEOPLE. 
- There are 2 mods, one of those mods doesn't take people's shit, and will act rude to you if provoked, you have been warned. 
- This was made out of the Mods' love for this series, don’t ruin it for us, thanks.
-Follow the rules. Please, for the love of God, follow the rules. 
-THIS HAS BEEN IN THE WORKS FOR THREE YEARS-ISH ON AND OFF. BE FUCKING RESPECTFUL, HOLY SHIT.
-DO NOT BE UPSET WHEN A CHARACTER REACTS POORLY WHEN YOU PROD THEM TOO MUCH. USE COMMON SENSE.
-Some sessions focus on some characters more than others. You can still ask others stuff, but the ones who are the main focus will be priority.
-Will add as needed.
Love Mod Bee and Mod Hunter
EXTRA: Main blogs are: 
Bee's: @horror-bee-ing
Hunter's: @hunter-the-sad-skeleton
Mod pronouns:
Bee: She/her
Hunter: He/him
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aroaceconfessions · 1 year
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Tw: aphobia
Was watching a video of some of my favorite content creators discussing their experiences as queer people, (plus one token straight) and they sort of randomly went on a really long mildly aphobic tangent. Nothing crazy like saying ace and aro people aren't part of the community, but they were very heavily implying that ace people should only ever date other ace people, that not having sex is indicative of a toxic and abusive relationship, and that some if not most ace people could simply be fixed with some 'sex therapy'.
It's really bummed me out. I like the content these people make, so I know I'm going to keep watching their stuff, but it really sucks to remember that the community isn't as welcoming as my curated online spaces are. It just really made me realize that those types of comments are the common opinion that allos have about ace people. I even looked into the youtube comments hoping someone might point it out, and there was nothing, no one even mentioned the comments which is almost worse than blatant exclusion I think.
The part that got to me the most is that the token straight clearly didn't have any opinion either way at the start of the convo, and then agreed more easily and readily with the aphobia as the conversation went on. It really sucks that people in the queer community are the ones teaching allys to be aphobic.
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figured I should probably make one of these | she_who_reads on AO3 | no permanent MCD or unhappy endings | no smut | all posted to AO3, some also on Tumblr | putting it under the cut because this got LONG
Consul Alec Lightwood (soon to be Lightwood-Bane) Malec | G, no warnings | One-shot | Missing scene from QoAaD in which Alec tells Magnus that he was elected Consul | AO3
bargaining (for you) Malec | G, tw amnesia | ch 8/8 | Alec makes a different deal with Asmodeus. Angst follows. | AO3 | Series (extras) | Tumblr
Whumptober 2021 (Series on AO3)
together Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence | ch 5/5 | Alec has been kidnapped. We're not sure by whom, though… | AO3
hunger Malec | G, no warnings | one-shot | Magnus is magically exhausted for the first time since the Owl incident. It brings back bad memories. | AO3
an eye for an eye (a son for a son) Malec | G, tw minor self-harm & vampirism | ch 4/4 | An alternate universe in which Imogen Herondale demanded justice for the death of her son when the Circle fell, and the Lightwoods didn't get off so scot-free | AO3
hope (and the lack of it) Malec | G, tw magical illness | one-shot | missing scenes from QoAaD when Magnus is sick with the blight | AO3
flightless angel Malec | G, tw violence, blood | two-shot | Canon divergence from CoHF in which Shadowhunters have wings, Raphael lives, and a different deal is made to escape Edom | AO3
by proxy Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, torture | two-shot | Magnus’s voice was hoarse from screaming, and his wrists chafed from the magic-suppressing cuffs on his wrists, but he was otherwise unharmed. He wished he wasn’t: if he had been the one getting beat up, his husband wouldn’t be. | AO3
don't you die on me Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, presumed character death | two-shot | And then, to Alec’s horror, the Alliance rune on his wrist flickered, and he looked to Magnus just in time to see him fall. | AO3
bleeding through the bandages Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, blood & injury | one-shot | Magnus is stabbed with a seraph blade fighting Circle members. | AO3
immortality (and what a certain Shadowhunter will do to get it) Malec | G, tw blood | one-shot | Alec figures out how to become immortal. This is how it happens. | AO3
escape (getting home) Malec | T, tw implied/referenced torture | two-shot | Alec is kidnapped by Circle members. He escapes. | AO3
adrift Malec | G, tw dehydration | ch 3/3 | In a few days, Alec would be dead. His head ached dully, his mouth felt dry. He tried to stand up, and his head spun for a few moments before he steadied. He wished he could see Magnus one last time. | AO3
self-sacrifice Malec | G, tw self-sacrifice, suicide for saving others purposes (no MCD) | one-shot | that scene from Sherlock BBC (s4e3) where Sherlock has to choose between killing John and killing Mycroft, except with Shadowhunters | AO3
learning to love Malec | G, tw implied/referenced & internalised homophobia & aphobia | one-shot | Alec was sixteen when he realized that he was asexual. A story of self-discovery, of coming out (the first time, and then again, and again), and of acceptance. | AO3 | Tumblr
libertate bellantis Malec | T, tw canon-typical violence, implied/referenced torture | ch 17/17 | They met in a coffee shop. Alec, a member of the Resistance, Commander and Acting Head of New York. Magnus, known to the Shadowhunters only as Bane, one of the most powerful warlocks in the world. Both think the other is mundane. (Both are wrong.) Both will find out the truth. Plus, Valentine has been leading a worldwide Clave-sanctioned genocide of the Downworld for the last twenty-five years, and now Alec and Magnus have to work together to stop him... | AO3 | Series (sequel and extras)
Unforeseen (series) Malec | T, tw canon-typical violence | 3 works | Alec has magic, Malec are very soft, and there are shenanigans. | Series on AO3 | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4
Deruned Malec | G, tw derunement | one-shot | An alternate universe in which Alec didn't marry Lydia, but he didn't kiss Magnus at the wedding, either. There are more consequences than you might think. | Inspired by Universes of You by giidas | AO3
Febuwhump 2022 (Series on AO3 | Tumblr Masterpost)
Choices and Self-Sacrificial Tendencies Malec | G, tw demonic possession | two-shot | Magnus is possessed. Alec doesn't want to hurt him. | AO3 | Tum/blr
dreaming of you Malec | G, tw minor mention of blood | two-shot | Magnus knows he’ll never have a soulmate — he’s the son of a Prince of Hell, after all. Alec has been dreaming of his soulmate for as long as he can remember. | AO3 | Tumblr
Chronic Pain Malec | G, tw chronic pain | one-shot | Alec has chronic pain. Magnus finds out, and does what he can to help. | AO3 | Tumblr
bone deep Malec | G, tw unconsciousness, hypothermia, delirium | two-shot | Magnus’s skin was cold to the touch. | AO3 | Tum/blr
home Malec | G, tw illness, mention of death | one-shot | An unknown disease sweeps across the Shadow World. | AO3 | Tumblr
hidden scars Malec | G, tw scars, discussion of past injury | one-shot | After a fight, Magnus can’t keep up the glamour that usually covers his old scars. Feels and hurt/comfort follow. | AO3 | Tumblr
magic (is more than the caster) Malec | G, tw human experimentation | two-shot | Malec get captured, Valentine is an evil maniac, Magnus is a BAMF, and his magic loves Alec almost as much as he does. | AO3 | Tum/blr
Belief Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, body-swap | one-shot | Alec knew two things: he couldn’t risk letting Valentine free, and he couldn’t risk letting Magnus die. (2x12 canon divergence.) | AO3 | Tumblr
growing pains Malec | G, tw descriptions of pain, mention of suicide | one-shot | Alec is poisoned at a Clave function. Magnus makes the antidote in time, but everything is not over yet. | AO3 | Tumblr
with great power Malec | G, tw earthquake | one-shot | There’s a lot of responsibility associated with great power. Magnus has the opportunity to stop a tsunami. | AO3 | Tumblr
burning bright Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, blood | one-shot | Trapped under a magic-suppressing ward without access to weapons, Magnus uses an ability Alec didn’t know he had. | AO3 | Tumblr
Gospels Malec | T, tw swearing, mention of kidnapping and torture | one-shot | Magnus Bane has been taken. Alec Lightwood is not merciful in his quest to take him back. (Conversations during the in-betweens and the after from Revelations by ClinicalChaos.) | AO3
let your voice be heard Malec | G, no warnings | one-shot | Shadowhunters don’t sing. aka five times Alec remembered that he wasn’t supposed to sing, and five times he knew he could (because this 5+1 idea is totally unbalanced and the characters deserve better). | AO3 | Tumblr
Shadowhunters Pride Bingo 2022 (Series on AO3 | Tumblr Masterpost)
of love & names Magnus-centric, Malec | G, tw transphobia | one-shot | The best thing that Asmodeus ever did for him, Magnus sometimes thought, was letting him choose his own name. Or: Magnus is trans, has friends, and (finally) feels accepted. | AO3 | Tumblr
U — Understanding [Shadowhunters Ace ABC] Alec-centric, Malec | G, tw internalised & institutionalised homophobia | one-shot | Isabelle realised that her brother was not straight when she was fifteen and he was sixteen. Or: Izzy loves her brother, but some wounds go deeper than she can fix. (Ft. gratuitous light/dark metaphors, sibling antics, and angst with a happy ending.) | AO3 | Tumblr
of colourful nails & the defeat of homophobes Malec | G, tw homophobia | one-shot | Magnus’ nails glowed with every colour of the rainbow. Or, Alec paints his nails and is politically savvy. | AO3 | Tumblr
N — Natural [Shadowhunters Ace ABC] Malec | G, tw internalized & external homophobia & aphobia | one-shot | Alec is ace and gay, Maryse is evil, Alec meets a certain Magnus Bane, and the road to self-acceptance is long and hard — but it's a bit easier when you have friends and family to support you. (Ft. pining idiots and Alec writing books.) | AO3 | Tumblr
sweeter than sugar Malec | G, tw minor mention of homophobia | one-shot | Pretty boy. Darling. Alexander. Sayang. Husband. Five times Magnus called Alec something that wasn't his name, and one time Alec returned the favour. | AO3 | Tumblr
G — Gaze [Shadowhunters Ace ABC] Magnus-centric, Malec | G, tw aphobia | one-shot | Magnus sometimes found the gazes of strangers unnerving. Or, Magnus is demisexual and sex-positive, people are not always understanding, Camille is a bitch, and Alec loves Magnus. | AO3 | Tumblr
pull me closer Jimon | G, tw mention of Jace's abusive childhood, panic attacks | one-shot | For most of Jace’s life, his assumption that he was straight went unchallenged. Jace is definitely not straight and in love with Clary. That doesn't change just because Simon's cute and funny and brave and— well, Jace is straight, so obviously he doesn't like Simon that way. (Right?) | AO3 | Tumblr
(beyond) this place of wrath and tears Malec | T, tw for mention (not graphic) of the following: biphobia, racism (anti-Downworlder and anti-POC), whatever it's called when people want men not to wear makeup, suicidal thoughts, and depression | one-shot | People tend to hate what they do not understand, and while Magnus can ignore most cruel words, he sometimes fears there might be a fragment of truth in them. Fortunately, he has Alec. | AO3 | Tumblr
Never Alone Malec | G, tw violence, reference to rape/non-con, and vampirism, all at canon levels | ch 21/21 | In a world where Shadowhunters’ dæmons never lose the ability to change shape, Clary spends her eighteenth birthday learning why Hunter can still shift. Or, a shameless fix-it featuring BAMF Magnus and Alec, logical problem-solving rather than the disaster that was Jace, Izzy, and Clary — and, of course, Malec falling in love (in a slightly less difficult situation). | AO3 | Tumblr
the implications of language Malec | G, tw minor reference to Magnus' mother's suicide | one-shot | Indonesian is Magnus' mother tongue — the language he slips into when he doesn't have the presence of mind for anything else. Alec wants to learn. | AO3 | Tumblr
bloody but unbowed Malec | G, tw implied/referenced torture, discrimination against Downworlders | one-shot | Twenty years ago, the Circle won. Six years ago, Alec Lightwood began freeing every Downworlder to enter the Institute’s cells. A week ago, he was caught. Nobody’s going to free him. | AO3 | Tumblr
Whumptober 2022 (Masterpost | Series on AO3)
Unscheduled Meetings Malec | G, tw canonical MCD for Thule Malec but not for other versions of Malec | one-shot | A (relatively) everyday trip to confront a warlock results in something decidedly not everyday. Who would’ve thought Alec’s magic held the key to unlocking the multiverse? | AO3 | Series on AO3 | Tumblr
Could Cry Power Malec | G, tw kidnapping | one-shot | People are disappearing from New York, and Alec has no idea why. What he finds out is worse than he’d expected. | AO3 | Tumblr
mothers & sons Malec | G, tw suicide attempt | one-shot | Maryse is evil and there are some particularly nasty spells hidden in the Institute’s archives. What follows will leave scars. | AO3 | Tumblr
of demons & protection spells Malec | G, tw canon-typical violence, self-harm | one-shot | Maryse Lightwood doesn't show up at Magnus' door, but instead helps Alec kill Jonathan. Magnus leaves New York, heartbroken, but refuses to join his father in Edom. Asmodeus isn't happy about that. | AO3 | Tumblr
(and if i couldn't walk) i'd crawl to you Malec | G, tw blood loss, canon-typical violence | one-shot | A routine patrol goes wrong, and Alec is left bleeding out in an alley. | AO3 | Tumblr
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ao3-feed-shadam · 2 years
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the one where they go to a party
by o0Rubix0o
The Squad goes to a party. Unfortunately, things do not go as planned.
!!! READ THE TAGS PLEASE !!!
Also, you don't necessarily have to read the other parts in the series for this, though it will help in terms of understanding references made in various conversations. The friends I had Beta read this hadn't read anything from the series but this, and they still understood everything though.
Words: 22231, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Series: Part 4 of the one where it's a series
Fandoms: Voltron: Legendary Defender
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: F/M, Gen, M/M
Characters: Keith (Voltron), Lance (Voltron), Adam (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron), Curtis (Voltron), Matt Holt, Allura (Voltron), Pidge | Katie Holt, Coran (Voltron), Hunk (Voltron), Shay (Voltron), Nyma (Voltron), Rax (Voltron), Rolo (Voltron), Lance's Mother (Voltron), Krolia (Voltron), Regris (Voltron), Thace (Voltron), Ulaz (Voltron), Kolivan (Voltron), The Blade of Marmora, Original Characters
Relationships: Keith/Lance (Voltron), Adam/Shiro (Voltron), Curtis/Matt Holt, Allura & Pidge | Katie Holt, Pidge/Original Male Character (VERY one-sided)
Additional Tags: Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Aphobia, Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Angst with a Happy Ending, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Pidge Angst, Langst, here an angst there an angst everywhere an angst angst, but not all angst!!, note the fluff tag!!, keith and lance are made for each other, But also klangst, sorry - Freeform, Party, Nyma and Coran save the day, like actually, Bisexual Lance (Voltron), Gay Keith (Voltron), they are disasters but we love them, Aromantic Asexual Pidge | Katie Holt, Bisexual Matt Holt, Gay Shiro (Voltron), Gay Adam (Voltron), Coran just exists tbh, NOBODY IS STRAIGHT EXCEPT FOR HE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED, aka the worst OC ive ever written IN MY LIFE, therapist coran, Character Development, group chats, Texting, BUT IN A SHOCKING TWIST, THIS IS NOT PURELY CHATFIC EVERYONE, its like half texting half real shit yknow, I think I got all the TW?, oh theres an allusion to drugging someone's drink but that doesnt actually happen, posting this before church choir camp takes away my laptop
source https://archiveofourown.org/works/40225185
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a-dotrivenitupontop · 3 years
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today a teacher said ‘we’re all ell gee bee tee kyoo plus because were all allies and the a stands for ally’ to an openly queerphobic girl and i physically jerked away before crying. like,,, mr schuelace?? is that you??
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i hate how aroace people have to fight tooth and nail to keep the few characters we have and we are just brushed off as being annoying and should just let people take the little rep we have because aroace characters are inconvenient for them
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guiltyidealist · 2 years
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Trans person: I'm gay
The cis: omg you're just a (cis)hetero trying to con your way into having sex with ACTUAL gay people!!!!!11! choke and die dirty hetero invader rapist scum
Trans person: I'm straight
The cis: omg you're just (cis)gay and facing internalized homophobia!11!!!!!1
Trans person: I'm bi
The cis: omg you're just a (cis)hetero trying to con your way into having sex with ACTUAL gay people, choke and die dirty hetero invader rapist scum1!!!!11!1!!!! OR you're just (cis)gay and facing internalized homophobia!11!!!!!1!!1!!!!!!111
Trans person: I'm ace
The cis: that's fake lol get fixed
Trans people:
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lady-raziel · 3 years
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just about went off on my psychiatrist today for implying my asexuality is caused by the medication i’m taking
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Closeted and undiagnosed culture is lowkey feeling validated by people saying invalidating things because they remind you how bullshit their invalidating opinions are.
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artsyshitshow · 3 years
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Assholes: Aspec people dont belong in the lgbtq+ community. deal with it.
also assholes: (insert transphobic/homophobic ideology and general assholery here)
Me: hm.
Later...
Me: officer i swear they ran into my knife.
Officer: 77 times? they ran into your knife 77 times?
Me: ... yes? I mean. they're stupid enough to do so, so. yea.
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an-actual-anthill · 3 years
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[tw: aphobia; implicate suicide mentions; death mentions; swearing]
Hell yeah aspecs are confused! Who wouldn’t be, when you don’t feel something that society sees as a basic part of being human? When people why you need pride when you’re afraid to tell people what you don’t feel? Of course we’re confused, confused as to why people feel the need to brand us as strange, or as freaks, or as broken. Think for a moment, if you didn’t feel something that the rest of the world saw as a basic function of life, that you’re bad and broken, that you need to be fixed, that you’re just confused, that you’ll find someone someday, that you’re faking it for attention, you’re scared you’ll loose friends or family because they think it’s weird, and you’re told over and over that you’ll die alone and unfulfilled, but no matter what you do, you can’t force yourself to feel something. Tell me, tell me in full honesty, that you wouldn’t be confused. Tell me, in truth, that you wouldn’t be afraid. Tell me that you wouldn’t feel lost if when you told someone that you loved them, they took it in a way you didn’t realize was there at all. Imagine how you’d feel, telling your best friends that you love them, that you want to be with them, to love them for everything they are and aren’t, and they misunderstand. They think you want sex, that you want to kiss them. But you don’t, you want to be their friend, now and forever, to live side by side and be with them through everything that tries to pull you apart. Imagine the feeling of saying this and more, and for the world to laugh in your face, screaming that you’re weird and a freak. Imagine being so totally isolated in your experiences that when you discover others like you, others who give you words other than broken and wrong to describe yourself, and the feeling of being so not alone and being right for once in your life that you feel you might cry. Imagine all of this and more, and then think what you’d feel when you hear even more and more voices telling you how wrong and weird and bad and horrible and broken you are, saying you’re just confused and fake. Now tell me, with everything I just told you, that people on the asexual spectrum and he aromantic spectrum are broken. Tell us that we are wrong for what we don’t feel, or who we feel for, or how we feel, tell us we’re wrong to be ourselves and to be proud. Tell us all of this and then think to yourself, think hard, and tell me that it was all true. Every single cut and wound and death of people like us, tell us to our faces that it’s okay for us to die alone and broken, lost and confused. Now tell us, with every ounce of confidence and truth, that you are right. I fucking dare you to lie right here, right now, and tell me that I am wrong for what I do and do not feel. Tell me that we are wrong, and then tell yourself that you are not a dirty fucking liar, and that your hands do not bear the blood of the people you convinced of their own inhumanity. I fucking dare you.
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lehhoh7822 · 3 years
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Hmm.
It’s not Loki this time, now I’m just talking.
So I have managed to make myself a dashboard full of really cool people. But also, my thing is, a lot of the content, I don’t like it, or I’ve already heard the idea, or sometimes it brings up my hopeless ‘I promise I’m trying, I really am’ feeling. Sometimes I’ll see a whole fandom that I have literally no interest in, but I continue following that person because they’re really cool and I enjoy the content in SaSi that they do create. I see a lot of content about aspec people (and then I’m sorta dumbfounded by the hate at them, like come on, some of the coolest people I know are aspec), I see a lot of content about racism (again, I’m slightly dumbfounded about the intensity and specifity of the hate to them, as someone who has only experienced issues because they are asian), I see a lot of content about disabled people (AGAIN I AM STILL, EVEN AS SOMEONE WHO HAS EXPERIENCED HATE AND DISCRIMINATION DUE TO A DISABILITY I STILL CAN’T UNDERSTAND THE REASONS). 
And so much more. 
The variety of content on my dashboard is confusing, and often angry, often accusatory.
The thing is, I don’t complain about it, (if this sounds like I’m complaining about it, sorry because that wasn’t the intention), mainly because those people are really cool, I signed up for this content and I always have more time to improve. 
But when my dashboard starts to feel like the anger on it is directed specifically towards me, like I am the source of all evil, I get off Tumblr almost immediately and as myself how many hours of sleep have I had, have I eaten anything recently. Because it’s my issue to deal with that stuff, and I want to be a good balance of understanding, but also happy. I want Tumblr to be a semi-chill thing where I come on here to shit post and learn just a bit more about how representation of POC is obscured in the media, or how certain words are offensive to this community specifically. 
I wish to understand how to be a better person, but when I feel like it’s counterproductive, I’m hightailing it out of here, and there’s no reason why you can’t as well, if you’re anything like me, give or take some details and interchange the types of content out.
.....in rereading I can see that this doesn’t make sense. Oh well.
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