It burns, doesn’t it? [Pt.12]
Genre/au: Mafia!au, Mature, Fluff, Angst. Violence and all that good mafia stuff. Warning: Depictions of graphic torture and brief/mentioned sexual assault. This story contains graphic imagery, mental health problems, mature subject matter, improper drug usage, suggestive language, self-medication, crude/unnerving behavior, toxic coping, intensity, bloodshed. If you’re easily triggered, please proceed with caution or don’t proceed.
Members: Jungkook x Yoongi x Namjoon x Jin x Hoseok x Jimin x Taehyung Feat. Got7
Summary: Why am I hurting alone? Why am I in love alone?
A/n: wow I literally have never written over 20k words in a chap before, I have no idea how this happened welp this is a lil early Christmas present, enjoy~♥️
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A good nights sleep is a mere thought for him.
It was 5 am when he woke up. At this point, he was convinced that not even the strongest narcotic could keep him unconscious for more than 3 hours. There was no sense in laying here, he figured he might as well get a head start on the day
“Ugh...” He threw his legs over the edge of the bed and sluggishly drug his hands down his face. His gaze fell to the nightstand, his handgun wasn’t there. He must’ve left it in his office, seeing him without that gun was like seeing a naked soldier—it never happened. He groaned, dragging his hands down his slightly puffy face as he arose from the bed. He missed a call from Seo for the third time, the confrontation was a pain in the back. Being the person he is with the intuition he has, of course, he had a clue on what he might want to talk about. The explosion that happened in broad daylight. The conflict between him and Namjoon was definitely out of hand. They’ve gotten to the point where it’s affecting other people. Since the mayhem that’s broken out with Jin, Namjoon, Jungkook, and you—there wasn’t much he wanted to tell the man.
He peeled himself out of bed and walked into the poorly lit bathroom. He bent over the sink and splashed cool water on his face, blinking rapidly to clear up his sleepy vision. His hand rubbed around his neck and chin and he frowned at the feeling of prickly patches of hair—he hated stubble, it made him cringe. So, it’s either shave or go the whole day fumbling with stray hairs on his face—shave it is.
He dug through the cabinets, searching for the can of shaving cream and razor, for the life of him he could never find them when he needed them. Naturally, he wasn’t that hairy and since he doesn’t grow facial hair that fast, so a razor and Yoongi have very few encounters. When he found the can he applied it to the necessary areas and grabbed the new disposable razor in his drawer, he leaned in to look in the mirror better before gliding the blade across his skin—a few good passes and he was finished. After rinsing his face he applied a mildly scented aftershave he went to his room to find something to wear, he skimmed through his options in the closet but settled for the first pair of pants and shirt he laid eyes on. He stripped down and pulled on his clothes. He fluffed through his hair, straightened his shirt and sighed. How was he already tired from just those little tasks?
Just as he was about to leave the mirror he caught a glimpse of himself—he was never one to spend a lot of time in the mirror. Unless he had to shave, fix his hair or something like that, he never really took time to notice his face. His face was the one thing that forbids him to ever forget that man. As much as he wished he could erase him from his memory he couldn’t escape the constant reminder of his face. It was no doubt that he favored his mother, he had her soft face shape and smile. But at the end of the day, he is fathers son and his face was the dead give away.
This face reminded him of where he came from and who he really is.
“Come here, Yoongi.” That thundering voice had never changed it’s pitch or depth. “I have something to show you.”
He knew better than to leave his hotheaded father waiting and so he arrived in the old mans presence, the old man who looked just like him. “What is it.”
“You see this son? This is the first gun I ever used and the first gun I ever killed a man with, there's a lot of memories and lives on this beauty.” He held the firearm with awe, admiring the piece of metal that sat in his hand like artwork. He’d come to appear soulless, seemingly unfazed and uninterested despite how he may feel.
“Okay.” Yoongi grew impatient, unsure of why he was explaining all of this to him, the very first gun he used to kill a man with didn’t mean anything to him.
“I want you to have it.”
The gun was light in his hands, too light. Weightless. To wield something so powerful, an object with the ability to take a life, it should’ve felt heavy, with the weight of stolen souls and silenced cries. He wondered why it felt like second nature to hold it, how could anyone become so familiar with a gun? His father was like that. He was precise, cunning, devious; those qualities were Yoongi’s downfall. First, it was the gun but that wasn’t all. That was just the beginning of his ultimate plan, his goal was to make Yoongi into his prodigy, and that he did, but not without repercussion and consequences. Those repercussions and consequences being his first and only son, Yoongi.
Min Yoongi. That name flowed all too well when it rolled off of his father's tongue. He spoke as if he were calling a servant or slave, it annoyed him to no end. Yoongi knew his mother named him, the old man would complain about it endlessly. Even when Yoongi was young he’d say she was, in his exact words, a ‘selfish bitch’ for not discussing the name with him, but it was his fault. She had to give him a name herself because the father wasn’t there during the birth. When he was born, it was just her and her baby, and if she had to do it again she’d do it the same way, alone; without the man who made shambles of her life. That’s how much she couldn’t stand that man.
When she brought Yoongi home, she had to do it by herself. Yoongi hated him most for that, for making her life so hard. He treated her terribly, he used to beat and degrade her like she was nothing. And in the beginning, she was merely one of the many women he slept with. Sadly, she was the only one who ended up pregnant and married to him—her biggest mistake. There was a time in his life when he wished he was never born by her. That thought was never anything against his mother—he loves her. But if he was never born she wouldn’t have had to go through what she went through.
Yoongi swore on his life that once she was away from him, that man would never be able to touch her again. He’s kept that promise for all these years, and not once has he come close to breaking it.
He walked out of his bedroom—it was highly secluded from the rest of the base but closes to his office. He arranged to be out today but he had a few things to take care of before that. When he sat back in the leather chair, he could hear some of the runners piddling around. He tapped his finger on the desk and took a deep breath, today was gonna be very interesting. There was one person he’s been dying to hear from and he took it upon himself to give that person a call. He picked up his cell and dialed the number, it rung for not even a second before the other line picked up.
“Hello?”
Silence, Hoseok knew all too well what that meant, Yoongi was frustrated. He sighed.
“Hyung...I was gonna call you but-...looks like you beat me to it.” He laughed a little, hoping to loosen the tension through the phone.
Yoongi wasn’t in the mood. “I expect you, of all people, to communicate with me but I can’t even depend on that.” Impatience is evident in his icy tone. “Where the hell are you?”
“I’m at Hakyeon’s old shipment pick up, some of our suppliers haven’t gotten the word of all that’s happened yet, I thought I’d take any deliveries back to the base or back to my place. I meant to tell you but you know how things are right now, I’ve gotta take care of my own, at least what’s left of it.”
“Well, I’m glad you’re enjoying your alone time but I need you back here with details about Hakyeons exchange between anyone within the last month, by tonight. I’m so fucking sick and tired of people forgetting that I’m the fucking boss.” He doesn’t normally snap like that so Hoseok a little surprise at the outburst.
“Listen, if anyone will stand by my side, I know it’s you Hoseok, you’re loyal. It seems like everyone else is straddling the fence but you. So, I’m gonna ask you something that I think only you can answer truthfully.”
“Okay?” Hoseok questioned over the phone, anxious to know what the question was.
“Did Jungkook kill Hakyeon?”
He had to think about that answer, Jungkook said he didn’t and he believed him but he can’t just start declaring facts. “No, I don’t think he did. We’ve known Jungkook since he was a kid and I don’t think we should jump to conclusions about this, despite the evidence...”
“Do you have evidence?”
“Well- uh...” He had to bite his tongue before he blurted out that Jungkook had met with him.
“I can’t be positive, sorry. But if I were you I’d ask the person closest to him in the last few months. Jungkook’s surprisingly shares more with people than we’d think.” Yoongi could here other people in the background and the opening and closing of doors.
His forehead wrinkled at the implication. “You mean, the girl...”
“Bingo. I think anything you want to know about him, you’ll find through her.” Hoseok felt like that was a sufficing answer when he heard Yoongi’s hum of approval.
“That’s another task on my to-do-list..”
A few moments of silence went by before Hoseok asked the question Yoongi probably hadn’t been asked in weeks, maybe even months.
“How are you doing? I’m pretty sure you haven’t had a moment to breathe. How many packs have you gone through?” Hoseok, always checking on his stressed Hyung. Yoongi had to smile, there’s been too much going on for him to breathe for himself. Staying alive for Jin, Jimin, Hosek, this organization, and you now.
“I’ve had one. After my second pack of Dunhill, I realized that the tobacco wasn’t doing shit...But a cigarette is better than ripping my fucking hair out. I have to meet with Seo so I need to coordinate that. I also need Jin to stop calling shots without consulting with me, he keeps fucking with my patience....”
“It should have never happened in the first place. You know I never said anything because I trust you, wherever you go I will follow, it’s always been like that and it always will be. But Jin is a different story. He plays you and you dismiss it every time, he thinks he’s the boss here. And that Wei guy? I wouldn’t put anything past him at all, I found him snooping in my office one day. I told you when you first recruited him, I didn’t like him.”
It was brought to Yoongi’s attention that he’s the one who let Wei work under him. Hoseok groaned lowly, not wanting to go into detail about his suspicions, he still had a job to do. “I gotta get back to work, I’ll see you later.”
I was sixteen when we got the call that he was killed in battle. Mom took it hard but she didn’t show it, she told me that dad was a good man and that it was okay, I didn’t need to cry. The sad part is, I didn’t feel the urge to. He was in and out of my life, never really showing me what a healthy and consistent household was; as long as I have my mom, I’m okay. The funeral was good closure for her, Junghyun was there though. They thought he should be the one to speak on the families behalf, he was always dads favorite. Junghyun was talking to her and asked her if I was giving her a hard time, I only told him to fuck off and stop talking to her. That started quite the conflict at the dinner.
“I’m home.” He walked in the back door, his bag heavy on his shoulders and his leather boots being the only audible sound. He assumed she was either at work or she just didn’t hear him come in. He went to the fridge, opening it up to see the usual groceries, eggs, milk, bread, other stuff. There was one bottle of banana milk next to the eggs, he settled for that.
It was odd, there was no food on the stove and she hadn’t called for me to pick up any food. He guessed in her defense, he came home a lot later than normal. “Mom?” He made swift strides up the stairs, speaking softly with the intent not to startle her.
“Yes, I know.”
She was in her bedroom, folding laundry as she had the phone between her shoulder and ear—his curiosity got the best of him. He waited outside the door, trying to listen in on the conversation without being noticed.
“Money isn’t what I’m worried about right now. His parents paid for the funeral, so the money is there.” She was talking to her older sister, that woman was always sticking her nose in someone else’s business. “Junghyun? Well, yes he offered but I told him it wasn’t a good idea. He and Jungkook don’t get along that well, I wouldn’t want to make him live there with him, he’s 9 years older than Jungkook, he lives a different life…”
He frowned, thinking of the things his nosy Aunt was probably thinking about his mother. Why would she have two sons but give the oldest to her in-laws and keep the younger one? For one, Junghyun was born out of wedlock. They had to let him live with his grandparents when he turned 6, financially they just couldn’t take care of him. When he finally found a job they had to relocate him, three years later she had Jungkook.
“No, I haven’t talked to them yet but-” He could hear bickering on the other end of the phone, that woman never really knew when to shut up about subjects that don’t concern her. “Look, Jungkook is my son and Junghyun is too. I choose what I want to tell them. Goodnight.” She dropped the phone on her bed, her brows furrowing in thought or frustration, probably both.
He naturally walked in, as if he had just arrived. She smiled when she saw him.
“Jungkook? Hi sweetheart, how was school?” He had the cutest face to her, even now.
“Fine…” He groaned. “How was your day at work? Is your boss screwing with you again?” He quickly pecked her cheek before lying on her king sized bed like he’s done ever since he was a kid.
“No, work is fine…” She sighed, Jungkook glanced at her to see her expression and attitude turned solemn all of a sudden. She wasn’t just doing any kind of laundry, she was packing up her husband's old clothes, to presumably give them away. “I used to hate this orange and yellow tie, but your father insisted on wearing it on our wedding day, he said it brought good luck..” She laughed sadly, just trying to lighten her mood a bit. “Thank God you inherited my sense of color coordination, huh?”
“Yeah…” He ran his hand through his dark brown locks and sighed. “Have you eaten dinner? I didn’t see anything cooking and you didn’t ask me to pick anything up, so…” He trailed off, massaging the back of his neck before getting up to stretch his tense muscles.
“Oh, Kookie I completely forgot! I’m sorry, I’ll throw something together-”
“Don’t worry about it, I’ll order take out.” He said casually, they didn’t do take-out too often but often enough to have them on speed dial.
I went downstairs, called the usual Chinese take-out place and put in an order. That would take about twenty minutes, that leaves enough time for him to shower.
“Thank you.” She took the bag of food from the kid at the door. “You have a good night.”
“You too Mrs. Jeon.” And the usual scrawny kid with thick-framed glasses left.
“What’d you order Jungkook? I smell something different.” She sniffed the bag, bringing it to the center table in the living room.
“I ordered a different chicken, it’s spicy.” I moved my feet from the table and gave up on trying to find an interesting show, the cooking show will have to do for now. We set up the plates and I began shoveling rice, meat, and vegetables onto my plate. She furrowed her brows, scrutinizing my every move, her arms crossed, something was up.
“What? Why’re you staring at me like that?”
“Why are your knuckles bruised Jungkook?... And don’t you think about lying to me.” She could see right through me sometimes, it was scary how well she could sense when I bent the truth and tried to hide something.
“It’s nothing…”
“Were you seriously fighting again? Or were you hanging out with those guys that are well over 2-3 years older than you?” He froze, all he could think was how did she know. “You think I don’t get suspicious when you’re coming home late and I see bruises all over you? What the hell do you think you’re doing Jungkook?” She smacked the back of his head, earning a pained whine from him. “Huh?”
He rubbed his head lightly. “Look, it’s nothing okay? I just get pissed when anyone says shit about us that they don’t even know shit about. Some bastard said something and I couldn’t let him get away with it. All I did was punch him a few times, then Namjoon Hyung pulled me off of him. Sorry…” He sighed, flashing her those pearly doe eyes that he knew she always fell victim to.
“How many times do I have to tell you? Don’t let your anger get the best of you, you can’t show them it hurts sweetheart, that’s the only way you’ll make it in life…I’ve learned that the hard way, I don’t want you to.” She pets his head lovingly. “And stop cursing, I didn’t raise you to talk like that.”
He pushed the piece of broccoli around with his fork. “I heard you on the phone earlier…” She side-eyed him, already getting upset that he was listening in on her conversation. “Why were you talking about Junghyun? And what were you going to wait to tell us?”
“You were eavesdropping?” He couldn’t do anything but nod. “Jungkook, that was a private conversation…”
“Yeah, but since it’s just us, and I don’t like secrets to be kept from me so I’ll find out anyway, why don’t you just tell me?” He sat up, putting his food on the back burner of the conversation, he was more focused on other things now.
“I had a doctors appointment a few days ago while you were at your friends' house. You know I don’t take medication but I had to get some of the body pains and fatigue.” She sighed. “I know I’m Anemic and I have a few other health issues but that’s not stopping me, that military check isn’t going to support us forever and I’m not leaving you to pay for anything on your own. The doctors think there’s too much physical labor and my sister thinks I should have you live with your brother so I can take care of myself. You don’t get along with your brother and while he’s in med school I don’t want to create any more stress in his life. I’m a little worn out but don’t worry about it, I’m okay.”
We didn’t talk more about it, we ate dinner in front of the TV like we do every Friday night—that was the moment he made the life-changing decision to protect and care for her like no one else.
You reminded him so much of her.
“Mr. Jeon?”
That same nurse from yesterday walked in with some other girl. “I’ve been made aware of your situation so unfortunately you’re not allowed on the terrace to get some fresh air, but I’ll open up the blinds for you. You’ll have some nice sunlight. I also brought you some breakfast.” She walked over to the window and Jungkooks eyes followed her, the nurse assistant held a tray for breakfast and she looked frozen, just staring at him.
“I’m not hungry.” He half lied, looking off and changing his expression in a way that his light dimples showed briefly. They interrupted him during his daydream for some plain tasteless hospital food, he’s chained up and they’re trying to feed him like an animal. Nope, that’s not happening.
“Sir, are you sure? You haven’t eaten since you got here.” The CNA commented, just trying to do her job and help her patient. “It’s actually very good.” She sat the tray in arms reach for him but he barely acknowledged it.
“I’m sure it is, but food doesn’t taste so good when you're chained to a bed...” He didn’t mean to sound so snarky but he didn’t want to see another person taking care of him that wasn’t you. He was like that even when he was young.
“Okay then...I’m gonna leave the food here, just in case you change your mind.” She cowered away from him and decided to leave the room to save her the backlash of his attitude. The nurse practitioner stayed though, making him frown.
“Dr. Jeon has asked to speak with you before you have a word with the police and your lawyer.” She informed him.
“Tell him I don’t want to talk.” Just as he said that Junghyun cracked the door, smiling with a bag in his hand.
“Good morning little brother.” He walked in, greeting the nurse with a sweet smile. “Good morning Sue.” He walked over to place the bag on the coffee table.
“Morning Dr, I’ll give you two some privacy.” She finally left but he was starting to wish she was in here and not him.
“As a patient, don’t I have the right to refuse visitors? Why are you here?” Jungkook pulled at his handcuffs in frustration, wondering why Junghyun was even allowed in here.
“Not from your doctor.” He grinned.
Jungkook furrowed his brows. “So you’re my doctor now, what happened to that other guy?”
“Don’t worry about that. I’m sure you’re aware of the charges they want to file against you. You had a gun in the car, they’ve been trying to research you and they couldn’t find much, aside from the fact that you have some relation with some Gang or Mafia...” Jungkook didn’t respond, he just looked away, actually giving Junghyun room to speak for once.
“So it’s true? I see...” Junghyun rubbed his chin in thought. “Didn’t you arrive here with someone? Where were you coming from? Who were you with?” He was eager to know how Jungkook cane to this predicament.
“What're you the fucking FBI? I’m not telling you anything, especially not about her.” Jungkook insisted on resisting no matter what. “And aren’t I entitled to a phone call or something?” He groaned.
“Jungkook, you need to calm down and cooperate with me. I’m trying to get you out of this clean, I even arranged for you to get one of the best lawyers in this city.”
“You what?”
“They might take you to court, you’ll need a good lawyer.”
“I didn’t ask you to do any of this.”
“I know, take it as a favor from your big brother.”
“You’re talking out of your ass.” He scoffed. “I don’t know what makes you think I want your help, or need it.”
“I’m just trying to do you a favor Jungkook, you’re my little brother...” He sighed, finally revealing the truth behind his sudden arrival and concern for Jungkook.
“That’s what this is about? You feel guilty and want to take care of your little brother now? After all, you did? And in case you haven’t fucking noticed I’m not so little anymore. I didn’t like you when I met you and I don’t like you now.” Jungkook was making this situation harder but Junghyun was well prepared.
“You’re still stuck in the past...Okay, I’ll leave.” Surprisingly, he got up and walked towards the door, leaving Jungkook in there with the sound of the heavy hospital door shutting. That was unexpected, but Junghyun needed Jungkook to calm down, in more ways than one.
“We need to come and talk to the patient-” The police tried to open the door and Junghyun stopped him.
He stood up straight. “My patient is in no condition to be interrogated right now.”
“Your so-called patient is a potential felon and needs to be questioned, Dr. with all due respect, step aside.” The police’s expression changed to a serious one. “Listen he may be your patient but he’s also on his way to jail-”
“You can’t take a corpse to jail, can you?” Junghyun shot back, causing the officer to rethink his tactics.
“Exactly, so leave him alone to recover and you might be able to talk to him tomorrow.” Junghyun walked on his way, now reassured that no one would bother Jungkook until tomorrow, they couldn’t bother him if he was knocked out. The glass of water that came with his breakfast had a sedative that Junghyun had prepared before the nurse assistant took it in there, that should buy him some time.
Namjoon had been numbering weapon orders and storing them away. After what happened he made it a point to overstock the safe house with as many weapons as possible, the salvaged material was still coming in from the base. Taehyung was nowhere to be seen, they assumed he would call or try to contact someone but he didn’t. They don’t know where he is.
“So,” She poured a second cup of coffee, setting it on the table, “what do you want? I haven’t seen you since the funeral...” She was on her way out of the convenience store break room, she did the night shift and the last thing she wants to do is talk to the brother of her dead best friend. She was shocked when she saw the tall, dark and handsome fella lock the door presumably so no one would come in. Taehyung had tracked her down, in hopes that she would have a short conversation with him, not like he’d give her a choice. “I haven’t had contact with any of you and I wanted to keep it that way. I do have a life...”
“I found out Jin has a little sister apparently. Yoongi found her and gave her to Namjoon...Everything went downhill from there. I wanted someone to talk to...” He deadpanned, staring down at the dark liquid in the cheap styrofoam cup.
“Okay, and?” She sat down, hugging her dark gray sweater to herself. “Get to the point kid...”
“Why did she have to die...” He blurted out suddenly. His gaze drifted up to hers. “Do you think she blames me? For not doing more...”
She choked back the urge to cry or punch him, she felt like doing a little of both. She’s tried all these years to forget what had happened. It was a Thursday night when she saw that her best friend was shot and killed. Just hours before that she said she would go in with Namjoon on one of his missions—he told her it was dangerous. That night she lost a brother, a best friend and she decided she couldn’t bear that lifestyle. Watching friends and family die, for drugs, money, and power—that’s not what she signed up for. So, the day after the funeral she cut ties with everyone and she was free. Alone but free.
“Don’t ask me that.” She hissed, glaring at Tae and he almost shied away at that. “After all these years you want me to tell you if she blames you? Get real Taehyung, how the hell would I know? I've not involved in that life anymore and I don’t want to be dragged back in it by the likes of you.” She shook her head in disbelief, how could he show his face around her? After all he’s done.
“You’re screwed in the head Tae, ever since she died, you changed..Think about it, my brother didn’t care about her, he doesn’t care about me, and he doesn’t care about anything that doesn’t get him something in return. That’s why he keeps you around, you lessen his guilty conscious...” She stood up, putting her bag back on her shoulder—she couldn’t get sucked back into this, not with all the work it took to get away from it.
He grabbed her arm, causing her to jerk away. “Geongmin, please-”
“Open your eyes, damn it!” She screamed in his face, leaving him frozen in his place. Before she knew it, her hand flew across his cheek, leaving a bright red mark in its wake. “You could’ve told her to stay out of it but you didn’t! It’s your fucking fault!” She lashed out, her chest heaving in anger.
“She was killed Taehyung, and yes, I blame you, I blame myself and I blame Namjoon. She liked him and I told her that he was nothing but trouble, she didn’t listen. Do you know how much she cared about you?... More than you deserve.”
He felt his heart pounding against his chest at her angry words towards him and her brother. Geongmin has always felt this way, Tae was just as guilty as Namjoon for her best friends death.
“I chose to forget the past and move the fuck on, you should do the same.” She walked towards the door, her hand fumbling to unlock it. He just sat there, what was he supposed to say? He started to wonder why he even came here.
“Just wait, please...” He called out and before she knew it, he was right behind her. She didn’t say anything, he just slowly wrapped his arms around her shoulders, resting his head on the side of her head. She stood there, her first instinct was to shove him off of her, the brother of her best friend follows the man who let her die. His body engulfed her own, his chest rising and falling against her back—he was crying. Tears streamed from his baby soft cheeks and he clenched his teeth in order to choke back any audible cries.
“Taehyung,” She sighed, grabbing his large hands and prying his slender fingers off of her, “you’re a sinner...Don’t come and repent to me. Why don’t you go crawl back to the man who caused this, like you’ve always done.”
She turned around, seeing his slightly pinkish eyes, his expression favoring one that would be natural to pity, but she couldn’t muster up any sympathy. A low muffle could be heard in the silent room, was he laughing? She treated him terribly, yet, he laughed, literally he was in between tears and laughter. Geongmin slowly turned around, there was a look of mild disgust on her face—he really was screwed up.
“You’re crazy...” She looked around with an impatient expression, trying to distract herself from the way his eyes darkened, giving her unnerving chills. She abruptly grabbed the doorknob to get away but he quickly ceased hold of her neck. “What’re you?-...” He cut her breathing short and she gasped. “Ah- T-Tae stop it-...” She coughed.
He smiled.
“Oh, Geongmin...” He brought his mouth to her ear and whispered, “Calm down, breathe-” He paused to giggle at this irony. “I guess you can’t really do that, can you?” He tightened his grip on her delicate muscle as her tiny hands were weakly trying to pry him off of her throat.
It was funny how contrasting she was to her brother, she was petite with small hands, feet and everything else. Namjoon was tall, lean and towered in comparison to her. He shook his head, feeling almost sorry for the girl but also not at all, he actually found this disturbingly entertaining. She had no idea the number of times he’s done this, resistance was very much futile.
“What makes you think that her death hurt you more than me, she was my sister...losing her was like losing everything, I had no will to live...Yet, here I am.” He growled that last bit. “I thought maybe you’d understand but you’re still angry and...Ah,” He made a small sound of surprise. She thrashed a bit, her efforts only urging him to cut off other air supply completely, his eyes lit up in wonder when she shuttered.
”Your face is turning red,” He chuckled, “do you think if I squeeze hard enough, you’ll pop?” He brushed her hair from her eyes with his free hand. “I should try. Someone with a temper like yours should learn their lesson...”
Tears built out her eyes and she struggled to speak. “Y-you're h-...hur—ting, m- m-”
“Am I?” He released her and she inhaled sharply before collapsing to her knees, coughing violently.
She rubbed her neck to soothe the burn and she glared at him, and he crouched over her. “I heard what you had become but I didn’t believe it at first. Now, I know it’s true, you’re sick...Rose would be so disappointed in you...”
Rose.
She had to say it. Rose was her nickname from most of her friends because she insisted on watching the Titanic at least once every other weekend, hence the nickname, Rose.
Geongmin stood to her feet, gathering her bearings from her light-headedness.
He said nothing. A name he’s tried to forget had been throw in his face, he hadn’t heard that name uttered from Jungkook’s mouth in years.
“I’ve gotta go...don’t try contacting me again or I will call the police.” She opened the door and looked back at Tae before leaving him. When she went to the back of the convenience store and got into her car she finally realized why she left them in the first place—they were all screwed up.
Yoongi sat outside on the curb of the back of the building, a bottle in his hands—he was actually drinking water today. He finished it and made his way back inside. He walked in and saw Jimin coming back from somewhere, he decided now would be the best time to talk to him, he walked up to him.
“Oh, hey hyung- wait where are we going?-...” Yoongi grabbed his upper arm and dragged him off to a secluded area.
“Why did you do it?” That was abrupt and Jimin furrowed his brows, what was he talking about?
“What?” He was baffled, he wasn’t sure what he was asking,
“You saw her when she ran away. Why were you seeing her behind my back?”
“Um,” He rubbed the back of his neck, “I wasn’t seeing her behind your back...The first time I was -”
“The first time?” Yoongi cut him off. “It happened more than once?”
“Well, yes...” He swallowed. “Jungkook brought her out, I got curious, I wanted to make sure she was okay. No one else was going to see if she was alive and I just wanted to make sure she was. The next time I saw her is the time she ran away, that time was sheer coincidence, I was passing by and she was in some cafe...”
He inhaled and exhaled deeply, trying to recall all the times he met with you. “She begged me to take her with me because she knew Jin would be here, and I really wanted to but I knew you wouldn’t approve and that would only cause more problems. I thought we were supposed to monitor Jungkook after what happened with Hakyeon, that was the plan...” Jimin looked for Yoongi to respond, but he was only met with an emotionless expression.
Yoongi’s squinted slightly in thought, why was he just now hearing about this? This was crucial to the current situation. Jungkook could have seen Jimin and told someone or that he sent him, that among other things. He really needed to enforce his leader right now—too much has gone on without his awareness, it was starting to piss him off.
“Who's plan?”
“Your’s-”
“No, not mine. I never told you to monitor Jungkook. Who did you get these orders from?” He questioned, knowing Jimin would be insane to lie to him right now.
“Hyung, I think-” Yoongi cut him off.
“Tell me,” He hissed.
“Jin...” He cleared his throat out of discomfort. “He asked me to keep an eye on them, I thought you knew. She’s his sister, hyung, I had to help him out.” He ran his hand through his fluffy blonde hair and looked at him to say something.
Yoongi is done—not only did Jin order Jimin to get you and Jungkook while he met with Namjoon, but he’s been giving Jimin and other people orders behind his back.
The bed was so cold and uncomfortable, especially without Jungkook by your side. You settled for throwing a blanket on the floor and sleeping there. When you arose from your choppy slumber, the second blanket still covered your legs and torso—you probably slept like a log to still have covers on you but now your back was killing you, maybe the floor wasn’t such a good idea. You groaned in pain when you stood to your feet. The unforgiving hard surface tore up your posture. You came to the realization that your ankle was still very sore, among other pains you were enduring.
“Huh...” You tried to scurry over to the bathroom, the task of walking that distance proved to be harder than you anticipated. You were a bit dizzy, probably from lying around and not eating well but you couldn’t let that stop you. Today you were determined to look for an escape, that meant you had to keep your energy up.
The bathroom looked very clean, you’re probably one of the only people to stay in here. When you stripped down, you reached to turn on the shower head, waiting for the water to get warm. You stepped into the shower and let the warm water soothe your sore and tender muscles. The water streamed down your face, on to your chest, and down the drain. For a moment you wished you could stay like this forever. Just drowning your troubles in the water. It made you think, Jungkook used to try to shower with you all the time, he even begged sometimes, saying that all you two would be doing was getting clean.
Knowing him, that’s not all that would be happening, he was the mischievous type. And even if you were just bathing, you were way too shy to do that. But today would’ve been his lucky day, you’d say yes in a heartbeat. Anything to have him near you again, you wouldn’t hesitate to do it. Before you were separated from him, he told you that he wanted to be with you forever, that he would die if he couldn’t have you. Loving you had filled an empty space in his heart...You felt the same way.
You shook yourself from those thoughts and deemed that an hour of running water was enough to wrinkle your fingers. You turned it off and quickly grabbed your towel. All morning you heard people walking around and talking, you assumed it must always be like that. It kind of reminded you of Namjoons base but less high energy; it was ten times calmer here.
Water droplets fell to the floor as you walked over to the drawers, digging through to find a sweater. You found one that was a bit oversized but it was fine with the jeans you slipped on.
You weren’t gonna sit around and sulk in your room if Jungkook was in your position he wouldn’t be waiting around. There wasn’t much you could do though, besides try to run away and that really wasn’t an option right now. You were limping slightly so anyone could tell you weren’t one hundred percent healthy and healed. When you walked out of the room you realized just how big this place was, you weren’t even sure where to go. Your curiosity got the best of you,
“So that girl is his sister? They don’t look alike.” The girl commented.
“Yeah, I know, they’re half-siblings.”
“He told you that?”
“Yeah, why?”
“You two seem close...” She mumbled.
Their conversation went on but you had already lost interest. You found a sort of freedom now, Jimin wasn’t babysitting you, Jin wasn’t on was nowhere to be seen, it kind of unnerved you. Maybe they did this on purpose, maybe it was a trap. They probably made you feel like you had some freedom to see what you’d do. If so, that’s cheap. When you walked past a tall, intimidating looking guy, you realized you weren’t at Namjoons base. It really hit you.
As much as you were glad to be away from that hell, that hell also had Jungkook in it, that’s what made it somewhat bearable.
The people here didn’t have the same energy as what you were used to. Whores weren’t eyeing you like vultures, just waiting for a chance to rip you up limb by limb. They aren’t like that here, they really just ignored you, and so did the guys' everyone seemed to keep to themselves, or they were just gossiping behind each other’s backs. Yoongi was to blame for that. He’s never liked it when his men got too rowdy, especially during the day; it gave him, how do you say? A headache? Luckily, a majority of the time he was either in his office or out, so his people knew when to turn it on or off. When Namjoon and Yoongi once worked together, Yoongi would threaten to kill when Namjoon would come in loud and drinking. That’s one thing that he couldn’t stand, it reminded him of his fathers' drunken exuberance. He hated that.
Yoongi wasn’t the slightest bit a saint. He would get angry and take it out on the only people who care. He was blunt, he calls it like it is and if you have a problem you can just leave. He was contrary to Namjoons precise and meticulous way of phrasing things. He had a nasty habit of breaking the hearts of the women who tried to get close to him. He also was a bit of a pothead during his teenage years, he had no room to judge.
When you made it down a flight of stairs you saw Jin, standing at a table with a few guys doing other stuff, you weren’t sure.
“Y/n,” Jin called you out, “what’re you doing up here? You’re supposed to stay upstairs...”
“I’m just-” You tried to explain but he just cut you off.
“You should to go back to your room and get some rest, I don’t want you down here.” He looked back down at what he was doing, you were not about to be sent back to your room like some child. You thought about walking back upstairs but then you thought about it, you don’t have to do what he says.
“But I need to talk to you.” You walked off to a corner and waited for him to follow. “Now.”
You had such a persistent attitude if he didn’t follow you he didn’t how you would resist or retaliate, better not to take his chances.
“Can’t you see I’m in the middle of something, can we talk later?”
“Where is my Aunt? Melinda West, that’s her name.” You crossed your arms, furrowing your brows when you realized how his mind was elsewhere.
“Your aunt?” He knitted his brows. “I’m not sure.”
“How could you not be sure? They kidnapped her for information about you and you don’t know where she is?”
He snapped. “Did you try to contact her? Look, I have a lot going on, I can’t go around keeping tabs on everyone-”
“You people kept tabs on Jungkook, didn’t you? But not on her.” You criticized.
“For the sake of your well-being, Y/n, yes, we had to.” In his mind, it was a literal matter of fact.
“That’s bullshit Jin, but keep telling yourself that. And I couldn’t contact her for months because they took my phone as soon as I got there, I was off the grid, I couldn’t contact anyone. Not too long ago I took someone else’s phone to call her. When I called her she said not to call her again...I want to know why she said that...Maybe someone was threatening her, I don’t know, she didn’t want anything to do with me and I don’t know why...”
“I can’t help you with that right now. What matters is your safety. Your aunt isn’t my problem, you are.”
“She’s my mother, Jin,’ You threw your arms up in frustration. “The least you can do is look into it,” Without even giving him the chance to respond, you blew him off—Why did you even try to talk to him? All you wanted to do was get more information about her and he could care less. You walked away but not far enough not to hear his conversation.
Wei. The man who was responsible for Hakyeons death stood right beside Jin, and no one had a clue. To your relief he was leaving, probably to go do some illegal activities. You monitored the man's body language and it said everything. The way he walked, talked and even looked, was reeking with lies and mischief—he looked so suspicious.
“Jin, Sir, we haven’t gotten any updates on his whereabouts but we’re pretty sure he’s still at the hospital.”
“Okay, we’ll handle him in time. He is in for a world of pain for what he’s done...” Jin scoffed. The faster he could destroy Jungkook, the easier it’ll be to get you to realize that you didn’t need him, Jungkook had to be subtracted from this situation, it was essential.
Jeon Jungkook, forever the most tenacious person he’s ever known.
Years ago, when Kookie was just a teenager, he would constantly observe those around him. Reading their every move like a hawk. It was clever really, watching someone so much that you know hove to treat them to get your way, it was a skill and he mastered it. Jungkook was tricky, despite his innocent and agreeable facade, under all of that was a boy who wanted what he wanted and took it if he felt like it. That’s what used to drive him insane; Jungkook would beat someone half to death, then barely have anyone say a thing about it. He could get away with murder.
“What is he thinking?...” Some guy commented and you lingered around to see what else he had to say. “I hope he suffers for what he did.” The guy talking was fairly close to Hakyeon, and just like everyone else, he thinks it was Jungkook. As much as you trash talk Namjoon, he cared about Jungkook and that made up for the shit he put you through.
Don’t react, don’t react, you chanted in your mind...You were finding it harder not to tell them all off. They didn’t even see Jungkook, they were going off of rumors and assumptions.
“Jungkook didn’t do that.” You blurted it out before you even thought about it, you just defended the man they all wanted to kill.
Everyone in the room stared at you/
“What?” The guy next to Jin frowned at you, when you looked over at Jin, you knew you were in trouble. “How the hell would she know?”
“She doesn’t.” Jin shot back. He was not happy. It was hard enough trying to keep you from everyone, he didn’t want to have to hide you and Jungkooks relationship too. Disappearing would be your best option right now. So that’s what you did, you ran in the opposite direction of Jin, hoping he wouldn’t come running after you—he probably will though.
You walked with an urgency to find an exit. “Ah-” You ran into someone’s chest.
“Sorry,” You said that with very little repentance and Jimin only giggled when you neglected to look up at him. You just stormed off and he was sure you didn’t know where you were going.
“Hyung, what’s going on?” Jimin blocked him by putting himself in his path. “Is everything okay? Y/n looks upset,” Jin shook his head, a rant is guaranteed to follow.
“She just defended Jungkook in front of everyone. She’s demanding that I find her aunt as if I’m supposed to know where she is. She’s so ungrateful, she’s always been like this. I’ve busted my ass to get her safe and she doesn’t even appreciate it, Jungkook ruined her.” Jin was unusually excitable, something was throwing him off and whatever you had said probably made it worse. “It makes me regret all those years we were apart, I don’t get her at all,” Jin wandered off into a frustrated frenzy.
Jimin made a small sound by clicking his tongue against his teeth, was saving a flower as in danger as you were a good decision, he wondered if he did the right thing... Should he have ever taken you from them? Would you lash out at him for it? Would you start to despise him like you’re doing to your brother? Those questions circled in his mind.
Hoseok came in from the back, going through his workroom, of course, he would feel more inclined to go to the room he spent the most time in. He sat his bag in the corner before pushing his hair back, he was exhausted but at least he won’t have to worry about held up shipments. A dozen of the runners was informed of the news and instructed to communicate with their buyers before finalizing any sales. As long as he could keep the drug trafficking steady, there was one less thing to worry about, at least until another problem arose.
For the first time in a few days, he was where he called home and he figured he’d check in with Yoongi. The man with the persona of cold, cruel and underlying insouciance had always made him interested, how could someone appear so seasoned? Yoongi was fairly young but his aura was beyond his years. Everything about Yoongi screamed troubled childhood, to his dark eyes, bruised knuckles, and thin legs. There was just something about him. Despite his boyish face, he was a little screwed up inside and it was enthralling.
And that’s what made him so good.
“I don’t care.”
Hoseok heard a female voice say passively; when he peeked out he realized whose voice it was. Since Yoongi’s, Jin’s and Jimin’s rooms weren’t far from his. They all shared a kitchen and a dismal excuse for a dining room.
“You don’t know anything about him, Y/n.” Jin snorted, shaking his head, that was the start of the heated argument. “I know you had it rough but don’t you see that Jungkook is playing you? The mere fact that you would see him as-” He paused. “How do you see him? What kind of relationship do you even have for you to think that he’s innocent? He’s a killer and a liar, that’s just a fact.” The more he talked, the more matter of fact his tone got, it was starting to piss you off.
That’s when Jimin walked in, sweaty and damp because of his nightly training, and he realized that the argument was still escalating
“He’s isn’t a liar. If he told me he didn’t do it, he didn’t do it. I don’t know where the hell you got the idea that-”
“We have evidence that he was there. We saw him leaving the building after the fire.” He reached into the drawer and slammed the photo on the table. “Explain that, will you?”
You peeked over at the picture and there Jungkook was in the photo, the briefcase in handbag and blood streaming down From the wound you often cared for at his hairline.
“Okay, so what?”
“So? So he was there, was he not the only person at the scene?”
“How do I know if you didn’t have the pictures of the other person thrown out? I don’t know you that well, Jin, but I know Jungkook, he didn’t kill anyone -”
“Killing is literally what he does! That’s how he gets paid and he’s been doing it since he was a kid. If you really knew him that well, you would know that.” He rubbed his temples, m you were speaking nonsense to him. To see Jungkook as anything but a nuisance was not fathomable for him.
“That doesn’t change anything,” You shoot back, “he cares about me more than you do.”
It was true, in your perspective, Jungkook loved you more than anyone and no one would ever understand that.
“Oh please, while you were hooking up with that bastard, I was doing everything in my power to save you from him. I don’t get it, why are you making this so difficult? God, I’m trying to make this easy for us,”
“You're the reason I was with them in the first place! You are the problem here, not me! You don’t care about anyone but yourself, .” You almost screamed and you had to bite your lip in an attempt to keep you from walking out. You suddenly felt Jimin walk up behind you, wishing to deflate the issue between these two dysfunctional siblings. But you weren’t finished.
“You don’t give a damn about me! I know you don’t. You just want to massage your fucking ego by making me seem weak, but you don’t know what I’ve gone through because of your trifling ass, me meeting Jungkook is your fault, and now you’re mad because I don’t hate him...I love him.”
“You love him!?” He had that funny look on his face as if he were shocked. He swallowed, pressing his lips into a line when you suddenly revealed how upset you were.
So, that’s what it is.
“That good, huh?”
“What?” You crooked your brow, what he’s implying is gonna get him killed if he doesn’t watch it.
He smirked. “You stayed with Jungkook, in his room, this entire time...You didn’t fight him. You just stayed there, and did what exactly?” The tension between you two was thick, Jimin cleared his throat and was just about to say something.
“What’re you trying to say?” You crossed your arms, daring him to further explain.
“Y/n, I’m not saying you’re loose or anything but-” He sighs, you aren’t making this easy for him to say.
“Come on, he’s a man Y/n, you mean to tell me he showed you the ‘utmost respect’? ” He gestured quotation marks. “I’m sure you know about Jiyoon...He sure didn’t have her around for a heart-to-heart.”
“I’m not like her,” Why he was trying you right now was beyond your comprehension. If his point was to bring you to your boiling point then it was working effectively.
“Don’t say shit like that about your sister,” Jimin sounded serious, he knew your relationship with Jungkook. To think Jin had the audacity to bring that girl up was low. “Is that really necessary? Jiyoon has nothing to do with this,” You were glad Jimin was defending you but you also remembered that he played a big part in taking you away from Jungkook.
“Stay out of this, this is between Y/n and myself,” Jin’s expression contorted in disgust. “I don’t want to imagine what he did to get you to be this die hard for him.”
“Shut up.” You warned.
But he kept opening that big mouth.
“Did he establish it or were you just an automatic plaything-”
“Shut up! He wouldn’t do anything to hurt me and you wouldn’t understand that,” You were gonna kill him if he says one more thing-
“Oh?” He feigned as if it was a surprise. “I never saw Jungkook as the type to-...take things slow, not sure why you’d be an exception. He always seemed more demanding, ready to go at it at any time, Jiyoon could tell you that much,”
That was it.
Before you knew it your fist flew across his face and you made the final decision, he has to die tonight. “Fuck you! You ruined my fucking life!-” You lunged forward at him but you were lifted to you’re feet by nonother than Jimin.
“Y/n, quit it!” Jimin grabbed your arms, pulling them to your body to keep your hands away from Jin. “Calm down, he doesn’t mean it! calm down.” You struggled to get out of his grip because you were so close to hitting Jin again but so far.
You screamed. “Jimin! Let go of me! Let go!-” You tried to lunge towards him again but you struggled pitifully. Jin’s cheek had already begun to form a bruise, you wanted him to suffer for what he said.
“You're a shitty brother Jin!” You screamed, tears streaming down your cheeks beyond your control. “You’re nothing like my father! You’re a lying, cheating, dishonest bitch-” You paused, catching your breath. “I can’t believe I ever thought I needed you!”
How could I be so broken?... That’s when the build-up of anger, confusion, sadness, all those things Jungkook would keep you from feeling but it hit you all at once. It was painful, you couldn’t handle it anymore and Jin was the most suitable punching bag in your eyes.
“So you think punching me is gonna make a difference?!” And he had the audacity to still blame you. “You're acting like a child...” He shook his head to condemn you.
“Someone finally got to knock some sense into you.” Hoseok walked into to room and you looked at you. He’s the one who kept drugging you up in the beginning when all this mess arose.
“Get out,” Jin did not have the patience for Jung Hoseok right now.
“No, I don’t have to listen to you,” He took long and slow strides towards you and Jimin. His gaze fell on you as Jimin tried to calm your rage but you only became more frustrated as you tried to free yourself.
“I feel the same way about him.” You froze when you heard him speak almost sweet, sympathetic words towards you. “But I’ve never had the satisfaction of punching him, you did me a favor, sunshine, thanks.” He pats your shoulder, giving you a genuinely honest smile. This is the same man that injected you with drugs, but for some reason, you were on his side.
“Don’t start guys,” There was only so much conflict Jimin could mediate in one day before he goes crazy, and he was almost at his limit.
Hoseok continued. “No, I don’t trust you Jin, and you’ve given me every reason not to.” He dropped the honorifics completely when talking to Jin, what’s the point in breaking his back for someone he doesn’t even respect? “You’re a joke.”
“Really?” He sneered. “We’re all adults here, and things happen. You feel wronged once and then go pout about it, like a child. It’s funny how you still don’t understand the complications that goes along with this business.” He chortled, trying to tend to his bruise with the coolness of the back of his hand, it didn’t make much of a difference, it still felt terribly sore, he wondered how you learned to punch so hard.
“When Yoongi picked you up off the street, you were a mess...You’re still joined at the hip with him because of that, you’d do anything he asks.” Jin was teasing a raw nerve bringing that up, Jimin saw the look on Hobi’s face and was a bit worried about Jin's safety from then on. Hoseok packed quite the punch. “Like everyone else in this organization, you have to fend for yourself.”
“That’s bullshit and you know it.” He spat. “And if you want to talk about the past you can’t forget about your own.” He glared at Jin who was returning the gesture with his an unfazed look.
“You sold info on us under the table, for extra coins. You dug that hole and we all should’ve buried you in it—but we didn’t, Yoongi had a heart for you. But not only did you continue to lie to his face, he knew it. He knew most of what you were doing but he didn’t say anything to you. To this day, I don’t know why he won’t let you go.”
Yoongi is clever, strategic, he could outsmart anybody, so Jin shouldn’t be. He could predict Namjoons moves before he even did them sometimes, so why is Jin the exception?
“Look at yourself. You created this mess and you dragged me into it.” Somehow, you felt like you came to Hoseok’s defense, as you were still being held back by Jimin. Anyone against Jin seemed to be on your side now. “You left me to those people and never in a million years did you think I wanted to stay with them, but you’re wrong. If Namjoon came here right now and told me he’d take me away from you, I’d go without hesitation.”
“You're delusional-”
“All of you, my office. Now.”
That voice like intimidation embodied in a single sentence.
Uh oh.
Yoongi stood at the pathway from his office after being rudely interrupted by all the ruckus. He just walked into a circus of crazy people that he’s in charge of. It wasn’t a sight he was new to but it looked ridiculous. Jimin was holding you back like some rabid dog, Hoseok was cursing at Jin and Jin had a bruised cheek. He’s had it with the four of you.
“But Yoongi-”
“In here, now. God help me if I have to say it again.” Yoongi was not about to hear anyone’s explanation until he asked for it. The three men murmured as they followed behind Yoongi who was already inside. He peeked out to see you standing there with a pout on your face.
“You too.” He pointed at you, his gaze getting darker the longer you stood there.
Being summoned to a talking-to with these guys wasn’t something you’ve ever imagined or planned for. With heavy, slow steps, you trudged you’re way into his office, the big room that was far too much space for one person. The three of them stood in front of Yoongi and you skipped over to do the same, it was funny how they all towered over you, or so it felt like they were towering over you.
He leaned against his desk, eye drifting between all of you guilty culprits, before speaking.
“All of you have forgotten your places here,” He paced, not looking either of you in the eye, “and I won’t put up with this bullshit. All of you are aware of the mess we’re in and how we got into it. But you’re acting like a bunch of fucking kids.” He furrowed his brow, eyes cutting to Jin.
“Let’s start with you,” Jin had the nerve to give him a smug look, with his half bruised pretty face.
“You gave Jimin a job to spy on Jungkook behind my back, what the fuvk? That should have gone by me first,”
“Yoongi, I have a job to get back to.” Jin, always thinking about himself.
Yoongi sighed, scratching the back of his neck before taking all his willpower to not beat the living daylights out of him.
A sound of a clearing caught his attention and his eyes went to Jimin. “And you. You didn’t even say anything, you just did whatever he told you to do? Do you know who you answer to anymore? Because it sure as hell ain’t Kim Seokjin.”
“Hyung...” Jimin attempted to speak but it was so low and he rather not interrupts in a mood like this.
He went on to the next victim.
“Hoseok, you’re the only person I can really trust, but even you, ” As much as he tried to calm down his tone sharpened noticeably “You’ve been God knows where doing God knows what, I don’t know what secrets you’re hiding.” The next and last culprit.
“And you.”
You.
He was looking at you. With slow steps he walked over from Hoseok who was next to Jimin, who was standing next to you, pitting you as his boss scrutinized your very presence.
You grumbled, tilting your head and running you’re tongue against your teeth with an attitude. Even with the crook of his brow, you could go so far as to say he wasn’t surprised. Surely you didn’t think you were some hotshot now that you punched your brother. In his eyes you’re just a girl with a troubled family, somewhat like himself. Aside from the fact that your father shielded you from it while his father bathed him in ideology. His father taught him that the things of this world were at his will if he wanted it to be. That man believed he was a God.
“There has been nothing but chaos since you arrived. The only reason you’re here is because you’re Jin’s little sister and now Jungkook’s...something.” He said that last part as a bit of a question.
“Bullshit...” You gritted your teeth, clenching your fists in anger. “You gave me to them like a piece property, I’m not here because of them I’m here because of you.”
“I didn’t know who you were until you were already gone. Honestly, it wouldn’t have changed anything, my people were on the line. So, in my eyes, you were a casualty. The bottom line is, I didn’t know who you were, kid.” He made it a point to emphasize the dynamics here, you were basically just some kid in his eyes, even if you were here you weren’t experienced.
“You didn’t fucking know? And you think you have the right to choose who to sacrifice or not?” You breathed in with the intent to hurt his pride. “Fuck you and this hell group you call a fucking business-”
“Calm down before you say something you regret,” He leans down to whisper in your ear, causing the room to zero their attention on you, “you’re just as flip at the mouth as your brother, but I won’t take it from you, you don’t know me.”
“I’m-…I’m sorry,” You hurriedly apologized, biting your lips.
Now that is interesting—he tilted his head, for some reason he didn’t expect you to apologize so quickly. You uttered a sweet little ‘I’m sorry’ as if you didn’t just cuss him out. He now knows you were lying straight through her teeth, you were just having an outburst. You were bluffing, so why did it look so believable?
They all noticed how Yoongi eyed you a bit longer than normal.
“I’ll be out for a while, you’re dismissed,” Everyone was given the cue to leave and so they did. Jimin was right in front of you and you were right at the edge of leaving this room and planning your escape.
“Not you,” He grabbed your wrist and pulled you from the door shutting it in the process. “we need to talk.”
“About what?...” Your voice became timid when you realized that you were all alone with this man.
“You said that Jungkook didn’t kill Hakyeon, why did you say that? Were you there?”
You shook your head as a response and he groaned in annoyance.
“Say something. You sure had a lot to say earlier,”
“Why?” You fire back, “Don’t you already believe Jungkook did it? Why would my word mean anything to you? You told me you don’t even believe that I love him...” You make a fair point.
“That’s true, but I don’t think you’d lie about him unless it was to save him. Hoseok doesn’t think it was him, and I trust him more than anyone right now. So, why don’t you think Jungkook did it?” He questioned.
“He just didn’t do it, he has proof but I think it was destroyed or something, I don’t know... He didn’t kill that guy, but the person who did it did it on purpose and I don’t know why. Did you ever ask Jimin or Jin if they knew anything?”
“You would know more about him right now,” Yoongi went to his drawer and pulled out a folder, he handed it to you.
“What's this?”
“It's a file.”
“What's in it?”
“Open it.”
You opened up the file and the first page was a list of names with numbers beside them, numbers in the hundreds. Some of those numbers had red marks beside them, indicating that they must’ve been different from the others.
“What is this?”
“Every person with a red line was recently killed in the explosion.”
“Oh,” your tone saddened at the thought of that, you sat the folder back on his desk, “why are you telling me this?...”
“Whether you like it or not, you’re Jin’s family and that means you’re on our side, for now at least. Every red line was a life lost by the hands of them, I’m showing you that to say this; we are enemies. I’m responsible for everyone in this building, even you. Your ties to Jungkook is the most annoying part of this whole mess,”
“Namjoon ordered that you stay in that room, didn’t he?” You nod. “And that room was Jungkook’s room, and to his surprise, Jungkook didn’t throw you out...he fell for you. Damn it, he knew that would happen. Shit, he’s smart but I’ve never met anyone so malicious.” He sighed. Your attachment to Jungkook was arranged, and vice versa. Anything to cause more problems, Joon made sure it happened.
His eyes drifted downwards. “Get some shoes on, you’re coming with me.”
“Jungkook...It’s dark, why did you wake me up?... You know it’s hard for me to go back to sleep when I wake up this early...” You mumbled almost inaudibly, trying to turn away from him and go back tonight sleep but he grabbed hold of your arm and scooted closer to you.
“I know, but I couldn’t go back to sleep...” He nuzzled his face into your chest, his arms wrapping around your waist and he shut his eyes. “My head is killing me...it hurts really bad...” He mumbled, with pouty lips that you couldn’t see well but you knew he was making them.
“Fine... just try to go back to sleep...” Your warm fingers slowly went up to massage his scalp and any pain or discomfort began to fade away,
and so did that beautiful memory.
The peaceful dream he was having, of you, just being with him was not something he wanted to be pulled from. But consciousness kept pulling him out of his deep sleep and ultimately it prevailed.
He woke up to a dark bedroom, the parking lot lights illuminated the room along with lights from the cars on the street. Did I really sleep all day? He started to question whether that nap was voluntary, he was never one to really sleep for extensive periods of time even when he was sick.
“You’re finally awake, ready to talk now?”
He's back.
A number of questions would normally be running through his mind of he’d be telling him off. But he was oddly tame, all he did was stare at his brother who was sitting in the recliner, legs crossed, with a cup of tea in his hands. He took Jungkook calm expression as the go ahead.
“You’re on a few medications for your injuries so it’s expected that you get tired. But let’s talk,” He brought the mug to his lips, sipping it diligently.
“I really do want to make things right Jungkook, I know you probably don’t believe me but I do feel bad for the stuff that’s happened over the years...” Jungkook was actually listening, not interrupting him like he was used to.
“But you know mom isn’t without sin, Dad messed up but he wasn’t the only person at fault in our lives...”
“Yeah, right, like she decided to join the military and fuck up her kid's lives,” Jungkook mumbled sarcastically, moving his arm to realize his wrist was no longer cuffed to the bed. “The only person that messed up was him, and now you...”
“You’re biased, I can understand that since I wasn’t really in your life and neither was Dad. And I guess there’s no way I can convince you that mom was at fault, so I’ll leave that alone.” He continued. “But when dad died I was there for you and you told me to get out of your life, it’s not my fault you were immature and didn’t want my help.”
“I saw you maybe a total of 5 times before he died, I hardly know you, aside from the research I’ve done. And by the way, while you were off getting your medical degree and sending checks that she never fucking cashed, she was getting sick...” That’s when Jungkook choked a bit on the thought of what had happened.
“I was there even when she started having health issues, it’s not my fault that you almost worried her to death-”
“Y’know how I can tell when you’re lying?” He jeered.
“Your lips fucking move. You’re a liar, you know you were never there. Your money was there, your stupid letters that I fucking burned anytime you mentioned me were there, but there’s no way in hell that your useless ass was ever there.” Jungkook swung his legs over the edge of the bed and groaned, already itching to curse him out.
“Jungkook, that’s not true. When she went away I went to see her dozens of times.”
“Don’t remind me. I know you went to see her and it drove me insane. Her sister swore that living with me made her worse but it wasn’t me, she loved me, and she couldn’t bear being without me.” There was a look of both confusion and anger, he didn’t how he was supposed to feel, he just knew he didn’t want tin to feel this way anymore. “Leave, just get the fuck out. I don’t want to talk anymore...”
“Look, I think we need to talk about this.” His older brother’s gaze suddenly softened a bit. “Whether you like it or not, she is my mother too. I am your brother and you can’t decide whether I see her or not. I know it’s hard for you to understand but no matter what you say, or what you do, you can’t control me.” Junghyun was standing, pacing back and forth.
“I’m an adult, I have my life and you have yours but the one thing we have in common is our parents, and they have a lot to do with our problems...”
“Shut the fuck up. Don’t blame her for any of this shit, all she wanted to do was protect me.” Jungkook suddenly shot out of bed and ran up to Junghyun, making him flinch a little. He stood equally the same height as him, Jungkooks soft hair looked as if it hadn’t been brushed properly.
“Where were you when she fainted at work because she was overheated and fucking exhausted, huh?! were you cooking dinner for her when she was crying from a pain that had no cure?... Were you there massaging her feet because she had to stand up for almost twelve fucking hours, just to make ends meet? And where were you when that asshole of a boss fired her because she caught the flu and missed one fucking day...Don’t ever tell me you were there for us because you weren’t.” After a good thirty seconds of tense eye-contact, he decided to continue speaking.
“She never told you this but not long after the funeral, the monthly check from the military stopped coming. She didn’t want to ask you because she said you were too busy with whatever shit you were doing to help her. She didn’t even tell me until I went through the mail and saw that we got a notice from the bank saying we were late on some of the bills. I couldn’t let her pay the bills with the little savings from the check she used to get and she didn’t want to ask anyone. I took it upon myself to take care of her, and we were doing just fine. I did what I had to do to get the money. If it wasn’t for my real brothers, we would’ve been on the streets. She didn’t like how I got the money I had to, someone had to take care of her,” Never in his years of knowing Jungkook had he seen him show sadness rather than anger. The onslaught of memories was too much to come to grips with, he began to tear up, he wasn’t sure if he was sad or angry, but right now he just wants to stop feeling.
He paused and took a little while before saying anything. “I’m sorry you’ve had to do this alone, really, I am...” How he could just look at the person in front of him, his little brother who he never grew up with was right in front of him, showing him how affected he was by his childhood. “I know how much mom means to you, that’s why I want to take you to see her...”
After that single sentence, Jungkook stared out the window, the parking lot lights shining on his pretty slightly bruised skin.
“She doesn’t know we’re coming, but I’m pretty sure you haven’t gone to see her in a while, she tells me you don’t call that much anymore...She misses you Jungkook, and I know you miss her, she’ll be happy to see us both. So, why don’t you come with me?” Junghyun eagerly awaited a response.
Jungkook turned his head to leer at him just standing in front of the door, he couldn’t open his mouth to form a response, all he could do was stare.
“I can try to get the police to drop the charges or something...If you decide to come let me know...” With that Junghyun exited the room, and that triggered a sudden lashing out from Jungkook.
“Fuck you motherfucker- Son of a bitch-” He cried out in rage, storming around the room like he was on a rampage, which he was. “Fuck you!” He was spitting out every profanity and insult he could think of as he kicked the mini trash can at the end of the bed. “I’m gonna fucking kill him! I swear, the next time I see him he’s a dead man. I’ll fucking kill him, I swear to god I’ll kill’em!” After using all the strength he could muster up to kick any poor unsuspecting object in his path, he was finally having a breakdown.
He was angry and couldn’t decide who he was angry at. His father, Junghyun, Namjoon, Yoongi, Jiyoon—all of those names contributed heavily to his upbringing. It was abuse, it had to be. Someone as young as he was should have never had to live the way he did with the people he lived with.
He slumped over on the floor, tears still flowing steadily but he stopped moving, he sat still yet shaky. “I need-...I need-” He stuttered, rubbing his eyes like a distraught child. “Agh...I need you, I need you...” He didn’t who he was calling to, you or his mother, he just knew he needed someone to kiss him and tell him to calm down, and that it was okay, or he’s gonna hurt himself and others...
As he wallowed in his emotion the low buzz of his phone caught his attention. He almost broke his neck trying to get to that phone, he almost forgot to answer it before putting it to his ear.
“Hello? Jungkook, you there?”
“Hyung...”
“I’m coming to get you, okay? Give me a few hours and I’ll be there.” Taehyung told him all he’s wanted to here for days now and he couldn’t even respond. “Jungkook? Hello?”
“Y-yeah,” He cleared his throat, “I’ll be waiting...”
You sat anxiously, twiddling your fingers as you were forced to accompany Yoongi on his little outing, for what reason you had no idea. You listened in on the conversation, he was talking lowly, almost not audibly. Every few minutes you’d see him do this little thing, his lips would part a bit and his eyes squint as his tongue would brush against his teeth. Jungkook would do that anytime he was upset with you but didn’t want to get into an argument, not that you had many arguments at all.
The city made you hopeful, anytime you’d go through it—it reminded you that it was still possible to live a normal life. Seeing families walking down the street, creating more memories for their children and themselves. Is that what a young family looks like? You wouldn’t really know. All you knew was what you had, and that wasn’t much but it was something.
While you were lost in your daydream, you hadn’t noticed that the car was already parked in a lot with a few others.
“Stay here.” That little command caught you off guard and you just watched him get out of the car and his eyes cut back to you, you swallowed. He looked at you and you tilted your head in confusion—why did he bring you with him if this is all you were gonna do. And to make matters worse you felt like you had to pee.
He vanished in front of the building, this building looked more like a two-story mansion or something. What is this place?
He walked through the entrance gate easily, knowing that it would never be unlocked. He walked up to the front door, ringing the doorbell only once before he heard someone coming to the door.
“Mr. Min, Seo said to come right up.” His wife greeted him as if he were a work associate, which in a sense he was. Yoongi gave her a slight nod before walking up the marble staircase, the pathway to Seo’s office. When he walked around the corner he wasn’t met with the ever so faithful Officer Seo.
“Mr. Min, you made it.” Seo stood you his feet, smiling from ear to ear like his own son. “You look good.” He laughed sarcastically, Yoongi looked as sleep deprived as always. Yoongi took a seat in front of his desk and sighed, waiting for Taji to lay it on him.
“Well, you probably know why I wanted to talk.”
“Yeah,” Yoongi smiled slightly. “I have an idea.”
“Yoongi, the explosion on your enemies territory, it wasn’t exactly private.” He took off his glasses, setting them on the table. “Care to explain how that happened?”
“I’m in a tough spot right now,” He pressed his fingers to his temples. “There’s not much more I can say, you know that Seo.”
“You have to say something Yoongi, some of the guys down at the police department are dying to know why we aren’t further investigating. As the director, I have to give the city an explanation and the news stations have already gotten their hands on it. They want to send federal agents...” He picked up the remote and turned on the local news station. The news reporter stood across the street from the destroyed building and the headline read,
‘Suspected Terrorist Attack?’
“When did this start?”
“Early this morning, you’ve been pretty busy I take it?” Seo had to scoff a little, he would never understand the morning routine of a mafia leader.
“Yeah, busy isn’t quite the word for it.” Yoongi walked towards the TV, then turned to look back. “But what does this have to do with me? All of my members are untraceable and Namjoon is in hiding, why does this matter to me?”
The nervous chuckle coming from Seo peeked Yoongi’s natural suspicions.
“The Director of Health and Welfare wants a word with you over the phone.” The phone on the desk was on hold—he noticed that when he walked in. “Here.” He handed Yoongi the phone and for a second he considered walking out but he may as well get it over with.
“I know you were involved so you better tell me something, Yoongi.”
“You’re not entitled to any information involving me or-”
“Damn it, Yoongi. I may not know everything about your organization but I know the explosion happened at a location that had too much correlation with you.”
“I’m not worried. You don’t know the hell I’ve been going through and frankly, it’s none of your concern. So, do me a favor...Stay out of this and my lovely mother won’t live broken-hearted because of us, understand?”
“Don't even try it. Your actions could put you in a bad place, son. Just like your father-”
His chest rose and fell in irritation. “Fuck off. You don’t know shit about him and I swear to god if you mention him again you will regret it.” He seethed. “If I really wanted it, I could have your little position taken in seconds.” The grip on the plastic black phone tightened.
He dismissed the threat. “Tell me you’re going to take care of this. I can’t afford to have my good name involved in your mess.”
“Look,” He leaned in, “your empire is on the surface, the pillars that keep you standing are underground, my territory. All I have to do is knock on one, then they all come tumbling down.” His tone darkened. “If you know what’s good for you, you’ll stay out of my fucking business.”
“...”
The sound of the dial tone was his only response. Yoongi always thought Kenneth was a jack-ass so this wasn’t new.
He groaned. “So, that’s why you were so persistent in meeting me. It was him.” The pesky husband of hers, he knew he never liked him and he had a good reason not to—the man was a fake.
“Yeah, what can I say.” He put the phone on the hook and sighed. “I’m in with both of you.”
“He won’t be so quick to interfere when he realizes who he’s married to.” He wasn’t afraid to use his mother as a threat—it was sick but that’s how the game is played.
“Seo, I have a small favor to ask.”
He hummed in question. “What is it?”
“Can you give me everything you know about a Melinda West and Jeon Jungkooks whereabouts?”
Meanwhile...
“I have to pee...” You said for the fifth time to yourself, and you couldn’t hold it in anymore; if a girl’s gotta go, a girl’s gotta go. You opened the car door and looked around, hoping no one was watching you. You could see a convenience store not too far down the road, and he wouldn’t notice if you left for a few minutes-...wait a minute, this was the perfect time to escape, he wasn’t around, you could leave...
“Where are you going?”
Just in the nick of time.
You couldn’t hide how startled you were, your stance became unsteady and you looked as if you’d been caught. Taking into account your sprained ankle, bruised arms and pitiful—you took a risk. You ran. You didn’t look back.
“Hugh...” He got in the car and shoved the key into the ignition, he put the pedal to the metal and followed you full speed. You were really trying his patience with a stunt like this, you couldn’t run fast enough to ever outrun him, let alone a car.
When you looked back he was hot on your trail. This wasn’t your original plan, but you ran as fast as you could with your sprained ankle.
This was new, he’s never had to chase someone like this. He knew you once tried to run from Namjoon, and he’d dare say that Namjoon probably reprimanded you nicer than he’s about to. He couldn’t understand it, you are literally running from the person responsible for saving your ass. He decided that he’d make it a point to make you regret every decision that leads up to this conclusion. To your dismay, there was a guy on the street who was drinking a beer and smoking a cigarette, he had his eyes on you. Before you could get past him he grabbed your arm and smiled drunkenly. He was wasted. And you did not have time for this.
“Where’re you going pretty lady, huh?” He didn’t know who he was messing with right now.
“Fuck off!” Without so much of a second thought, punched him. He went tumbling to the ground and you felt bad for a split second. That ounce of sympathy fades quickly when you saw Yoongi driving up to the pavement beside you. You probably knocked the intoxication out of this pervert but you didn’t have time to think about that. You stood there like a deer in the headlights and Yoongi managed to let down his window and looked at you.
“Get in the car, now.”
“No!” You kept running. You just ran and ran and ran...You weren’t sure how long you could keep going, you’re ankle wasn’t subtle at reminding you of how sprained it was. There wasn’t a police officer in sight and you were being chased by a mafia boss—great timing. Yoongi shouted something at you from the car but you just ignored him.
There were miles of alleyways and you ran down the most narrow one you could see, he couldn’t drive through there, you thought hopefully. You laughed, you kind of felt like you won, you’re freedom has finally come. By the sound of a closing car door you looked behind you, he was running after you, and he was close. That’s when you knew you had lost.
“Aghh!” You screamed when you saw him approaching, you found it hard to believe he got on foot to catch you. His eyes bore into your skull as he was catching up to your pitiful attempt at running—this had to be the worst decision you could’ve made.
“Ugh!-” He tackled you from behind and you went straight to the ground—worsening your pre-existing injuries. “Ah-...G-get off-” He manhandled you but not on purpose, he knew you were injured but you didn’t seem to care when you elbowed him in the stomach. He grunted and held his abdomen for a second, you managed to stand for a few seconds and he pressed you against the wall.
“You’re testing your luck.” He hissed. You were breathing hard and his eyes were glued to yours, daring you to try something. You furrowed your brows and looked down. You stomped on his foot and tried to burst out in a sprint.
“Ah- fuck, I swear, if you don’t-” He yanked you back and stood behind you. His arm tightly wrapped in front of your stomach and over your chest, immobilizing you. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
“Getting away from you!-” You thrashed against him but that only made him tighten his grip. You hissed at the pain that began to spread like wildfire starting from your ankle. “I want to go home!-”
He threw you out of his arms and you stumbled over your feet. You fell face first into the gravel and asphalt, scrapping your already bruised hands in the process. “Ah, ouch-” You tried to stand but when he lunged towards you, you fell back in involuntary submission—you would be a fool to challenge him now.
He clenched his fist. “Home?”
“And where the fuck is that!? Where will you go? You’re gonna run all over this damn city and get yourself abducted or arrested, all because you want to go home, and you don’t even know where the fuck that is, do you?” He actually shouted at you. The vein in his neck bulged against his milky skin. For the first time, you were completely frozen in shock, your mouth went agape in disbelief.
Suddenly, you were terrified of him but you still tried to stand up and say something. “I don’t want to-”
“Shut the hell up,” You flinched at his harsh tone. He glared down at you. “If you interrupt me one more time you’ll have more to cry about than a’couple dislocated fingers.” He cut you off before you said something that got you in even more trouble. “Don’t move.”
He pointed downward like an angry parent. I rung my white flag in surrender then.
He was piping hot with you and every other situation he’s in, you were a temporary punching bag. He groaned and huffed while mustering up something to say to you. You were already looking like you were about to cry but he didn’t have the patience to hand hold.
“You don’t have a home, kid. That’s why you’re with us, you have nowhere to go and you’re alone.” He inhaled then exhaled deeply, looking down at your teary puppy dog eyes with not an ounce of sympathy. This is life, and life won’t give you a hug and a tissue when you cry. “That’s the truth, it burns, doesn’t it?”
It burned down to your core, the reality was just thrown in your face and you couldn’t take it. You didn’t have a real home anymore, you just wandered around hoping to find solitude in someone, anyone. For so long, Jungkook was able to block out the severity of your situation. You’re here alone now, you had to deal with it all by yourself.
You choked, you couldn’t hold it in, tears began streaming down your cheeks almost instantly. You just cried, for a good minute you just sobbed and sobbed until Yoongi knelt in front of you. You hid your face out of shame, this man was actually trying to help you but you just put your life on the line to attempt an escape.
“Your hands, Y/n,” He pulled your hands from your face and your feeble fingers trembled under his scrutiny. A bit of blood was on your face too. “You’re gonna get an infection if you leave them like this.” He looked at the already bruised up flesh to see blood trickling slowly from the abrasion on the ball of your hand.
“Come back to the car,” When he finally let go of your hands he urged you to follow him. You steadily listened to the sound of the dirt being crushed under his feet, you were like that dirt these days. Anything could trample you and you were still there, holding on. When you were back in the car he drove back to Seo’s and parked. He didn’t pull off or turn the car on.
“Your aunt is safe and alive but she’s no longer in the city.”
“Really?” You were at a loss for words.
“She was a hostage but that didn’t last long, she got away, maybe a month ago, something like that,” He spread his legs a bit to relax, Jungkook did that too when he was in the car—that quality distracted you for a short second. You were touched, the mere fact that he even cared to check on her warmed your heart, for only a second. “Now you can stop asking about her, she’s fine.”
It was comforting to know she was okay, that phone call was probably because she had no other choice but to answer the way she did. You were silent, you just looked ahead with bloodied hands. He glanced down at your lap and reached over to the glove compartment and pulled out a flask and a few clothes. He sat the cloth on his thigh and opened the flask. He looked at the alcohol-filled container and thought, what the heck. He took a quick swig before setting it in the cup holder.
“What is wrong with you?�� He sighed, putting the cloth under your clenched bloody hands that were covered with a bit of dirt. “Open your hands...”
You hesitated but opened them slowly anyway, and he immediately began pouring the searingly harsh liquid on your ruined flesh. “Agh!-...” Instinctively, your foot slammed down on the floor and your mouth parted in a silent scream. Now your hands were really shaking uncontrollably and you broke out into a light sweat. In an effort to put a stop to your cries, you bit down on your bottom lip, drawing blood in your wake.
“You decided to leave a perfectly functional vehicle,” He continued to pour the liquid and dab at it with the cloth he sat on his thigh. “Instead of trying to drive away, you decided to run away, on foot...” He reached into the glove compartment again, grabbing gauze and bandages.
“Were you even trying to run away? Or—?” You still didn’t answer. That was it, he dropped the gauze and bandage in your lap, hinting that you’d have to bandage yourself, and so you did. He wasn’t about to baby someone who refuses to actually acknowledge that he is speaking to them.
“You’re seriously giving me the silent treatment? Like a fucking 5-year-old...”
You cut your eyes to him and frowned, that was your petty answer...
“Huh...What is with you Kim’s?” He let out an exaggerated sigh of annoyance. “Jin is sneaking around, making plans, calling shots, like I don’t know. “ He hit the steering wheel and laughed in disbelief.
“I know! It’s not like I’m blind, I see the shit he tries to do. You’re probably thinking, ‘If you know all that, why don’t you do something about it? Why haven’t you cut him off?’ Trust me, I’ve thought about it. But every time I get to my limit, I just can’t do it. This has gotten way out of hand and it’s partly my fault for not cutting him off from the beginning.” His eyes drifted down to the ashtray and up to the car ahead of him at the stop light.
Your thought wandered back to when the neon lights from the convenience store and bars on the strip to the left of the car shined on his face and caught your attention. Something about him looked desolate and cold—his pale skin and prominent contrasting locks only further peeked your intrigue. But you were pulled from your thoughts and looked around, you were still in the car in the lot.
“And y/n..” He spoke as if to narrate for himself. “Suddenly, everything revolves around you.” He didn’t look at you when he said that but he knew it would get a reaction out of you. “And for the life of me, I can’t remember why I let this happen. I wish I never would’ve found out you existed. Life would look a lot different right now...”
You muttered lowly, attempting to bandage your hand without hurting you any more than you already were. You hissed, flinching from just flexing your fingers, why is this so difficult? If Jungkook were here he would’ve pulled over and bandaged it himself. He’d even leave time to talk to you in the sweetest tone. He smothered you and you loved it. Nobody is gonna do that for you here, and frankly, if it’s not Jungkook, you don’t want even want it.
“Agh!- Ugh! Stupid...” You threw it to the floor and left your hands sensitive to touch and sore. This is what it has come to, you slumped against the car door throwing an attitude like a problematic lunatic.
“Where were you trying to go?” The car would remain locked and parked in the parking garage until you responded. “And don’t give me that silent treatment shit.”
“I don’t know, okay!? Stop asking because I don’t know...” He stared at you with almost half-lidded eyes, this was the reaction he’s been trying to ween out of you.
“I don’t know...This isn’t my fault. I can’t even trust my own brother. Who am I supposed to trust? You? I don’t know you, and you didn’t even know I existed until all of this started. I’m tired of all of this, I don’t know what to say or how to feel...”
“You’re scared, that’s obvious, but your solution to fear is like most of the world, to run from it.” You slowly looked over at him and his head hung low and he licked his suddenly dry lips. He grabbed the gauze and bandages out of your lap, he quickly wrapped your hand and threw the leftover bandages in the back seat.
“You don’t know me...” How dare he even insinuates that he would know anything about you.
“Like hell I don’t.” He couldn’t take your back talk anymore. “Do you even know what’s happening? What situation you’re in? I know everything about you Y/f/n, everything I want to know at least. Are you trying to be a nuisance-”
“Min.” Seo walked out of the back door of his home to see Young and you arguing and he mistakenly interrupted your scolding.
“What?” Yoongi looked at him with a cold stare.
The middle-aged man without dark brown hair and glasses looked at you shortly than back to Yoongi. “We just got a call, Jeon just escaped the hospital.”
“Are you serious?” Seo nodded.
You smiled, whispering that to yourself. “Yes...”
Yoongi leered at you. You didn’t say a thing and Seo looked at you oddly, he wondered—why do you care about Jungkook? Who are you?
“We’re going back to the compound. If I get anything less than silence from you, I’ll do to you what I do to most of the people who decide to act crazy with me.” That was harsh but’s it sure did shut me up—the more you tick him off the more you can see, he’s got malo in him.
One mission, get Jungkook.
The objective: Don’t get caught.
Easy enough.
When he saw the sign he was sure he was at the right hospital, it was 5 blocks down from the accident. Taehyung is skilled in many things and one of those things is getting in fast, and getting out fast. This institute is crawling with security, patients, nurses, doctors... How was he supposed to blend in?-
“Dr. Kumar is on the second floor in the podiatrists center.” The women at the front desk were to thank for this marvelous idea.
All he needs is the right outfit and a clipboard, and nobody will suspect a thing. He watched a few of the staff getting off their shifts and heading to a parking garage—there has to be an office with extra clothes. Tae had absolutely no hesitance, he knew what he was doing and how to do it. He made it to the hospital through a back entrance that read ‘do not enter’. Little did he know, that path leads him right to the janitor and coat closet. He went inside the closet and found a coat as well as some glasses, fortunately, they weren’t prescribed so he could see perfectly. On the top shelf there were a few sets of scrubs, he plundered through the stack until he found the right size.
“I hope this works...” He’s pretended to be many things and the list could go on—now he can check doctor off that list.
He walked out of the closet and down the hall, searching for the elevator or the stairs. He found that the staircase he used lead him to the trauma center, he needs to get to the emergency center.
“The patient was stabbed multiple times in the lower intestines with a screwdriver, where is Dr. Odom? This man needs surgery now.” That sentence would make an average person sick to their stomach but he looked with curiosity. The nurse relaying the message tried her best to remain calm but the patient was right there, bleeding despite the pressure being applied by the slightly frantic nurse assistant, the paramedics were still bringing people in—Tae was thinking he probably knew the people who did this.
“He’s in surgery right now, all of the surgeons are, except one, she’s coming down now.” The desk lady reassured and then glanced at Tae.
“In the meantime, disinfect the area and leave the screw in, it looks like it’s close to the liver, he could bleed out and die instantly. I’ve seen incidents like this, that screw is covered in bacteria. When it’s out and the wound is cauterized infection is a definite risk. He’ll need antibiotics.” Tae walked closer and the man was breathing shallow, they were running out of time. “That surgeon needs to get down here before you have a dead man in your lobby, and I can’t call time of death. I’m a resident Doctor.” He looked up and they were all taken aback by the strikingly handsome man. But they all slowly nodded, taking the Doctors orders like they normally would.
“O-okay-”
“Take him to operation room 9, I’ll get suited up now.” There she was, the man will live. Without a second thought, the team in front of him ran the man out of sight. Taehyung couldn’t help but smile.
“Um, excuse me, are you Dr. Kim? The guest Doctor? I thought you weren’t coming until the morning.” Her eyes sparkled in amazement and she couldn’t hide the grin on her face—she knew they said he was fine but not this fine.
“Oh, yes, I had a change of schedule.” He smirked. “Well, I have to get going. Have a good evening, Miss.” That’s all he said before continuing his journey to the emergency room, that he didn’t even know where it was located. Ah ha, There it is. There were a few signs that said emergency center or department, Jungkook is in there.
He walked down the hall, seeing clipboards in front of several rooms but none said Jeon Jungkook—he must be on the second floor then. He passed a few nurses and techs that didn’t pay him much attention and that’s when he saw Jungkooks room. There was a doctor writing down something and he realized he needed a clearance badge.
There’s a doctor and she has a badge, he thought.
“Dr. Go, how are you?”
She was taken aback when she saw the man but she smiled warmly nonetheless. “Oh, hello Dr.—?”
“Kim, Dr. Kim.” She didn’t even notice but he unclipped the pass right from her coat and he just smiled.
“I'm well, thanks for asking.” She had never seen him before so she assumed he was new, she could get used to seeing a face like that.
“Don't work too hard.” He waved goodbye, he’s fooled yet another person. He took off his glasses and slid them into his coat pocket, without so much as a knock he quickly opened the door and closed it as soon as he got in.
“Hyung-...” He paused. “What’s with the Doctor get up?” Jungkook spoke from his seat near the window.
“It’s your ticket out of here, and I just helped save a life with this on.” That boxy smile had brought a glimmer of hope to Jungkooks eyes, he got up and hugged Tae for a good few seconds—it was nice to have his brother back.
“I’m so sick of being here...How are we gonna get out of here without getting caught? They all know I’m on hospital arrest...”
“Get these clothes on and you’ll see,” Tae said on the extra bed and Jungkook grabbed his clothes and went into the bathroom. He was so glad to be out of that stupid hospital outfit and into his own. He winced when he moved his shoulder back too far—he forgot about that injury, he had more important things to think about. But instead of his lovely jeans, T-shirt and leather boots, he’s wearing a pair of scrubs.
“Okay,” He fluffed his hair with his hands, he noticed how bad it looked in the mirror, “what’s the plan?”
He grinned at Jungkooks baffled expression. “Just follow my lead.”
“What kind of plan is that?”
“Just trust me, okay..” Tae got up and stretched before letting out a very deep sigh. “Act natural...”
Tae slipped the glasses back on and opened the door, Jungkook made sure to grab his phone before following him. It was like a breath of fresh air to be out of that room, the bright hospital hallway lights woke him up.
“So, let’s pretend we’re talking the medical talk, we need to look believable.” He mumbled, popping the collar of his coat before walking swiftly down the hall.
“Okay,” Jungkook skillfully avoided looking anyone in the eye, “where have you been?”
“Just out, just thinking...But that doesn’t matter, let’s talk about you. What do they have you charged for?”
“Stolen car, possession of a gun, among other things. They wanted to investigate me in the morning...” Jungkook glanced at a nurse who seemed to let her eyes linger on him longer than he was comfortable with. She wasn’t either confused into why a nurse and doctor were here without proper introduction or she was just innocently looking, he didn’t like it either way. “And Junghyun slithered into here...”
His head cocked to the side in incredulity, he hasn’t heard that name uttered from Jungkook’s lips in years. “Your brother?”
“If that’s what you want to call him...He decided to crawl back into my life and bring up shit that I don’t want to talk about or remember, I don’t know what he wants but I’m sure I haven’t heard the last from him...”
“That’s interesting...” Taehyung couldn’t help but wonder if Junghyun had any involvement in this whole mess. As he continues to listen to Jungkook he noticed the nurse in the same lobby he entered. It’d look odd if a supposed Doctor just got up and walked out the front entrance of the hospital, he had to give an explanation or find another exit. Unfortunately, she caught his gaze before he could decide what he wanted to do.
His eyes fell to her chest to read her tag for a split second. “Mira, I’m going out on break, I can’t do the cafeteria food today.” He chuckled and Jungkook just tight lip grinned and nodded like a cute little puppy.
“Oh,” She tilted her head in suspicion, she couldn’t remember if she’s ever seen this man before, and he just casually addressed her like she was supposed to know him. She cleared her throat momentarily. “Okay.” She just went along with it, she didn’t want to make a fool of herself if he really was the doctor and she didn’t catch it.
Through the sliding glass doors and off to the car.
“That was close, she looked like she was on to us for a second there...” Jungkook muttered, speed walking to get to the back of the hospital where Tae had parked.
“Huh...” He let out an exasperated sigh to relieve the tightness in his chest. He was brought to the realization that he wasn’t in that stuffy hospital bed anymore, he could breathe.
“I brought your clothes, you can get back there and change.” Jungkook jumped into the back seat, not paying any mind to the pain he was feeling, he wasn’t just glad to be with his brother, his real brother.
“I can’t even think straight right now...” He mumbled, pulling off his shirt and pants, he put on his old familiar T-shirt and distressed denim jeans, and a pair of sneakers, his favorite sneakers to be precise. “How did you bypass the surveillance cameras? They’re all over the place...”
“I shut the power off in a few of the departments, there’s no way they could have caught us on film. You don’t sound so good Kookie, you okay?” Taehyung looked at him with a concerned expression.
“I’m fine, just tired...ready to go home,” He hummed in agreement, normally he’d be 24-hour energy but right now, all he wanted to do was sit in the silence and breathe. He was surviving but that was really an understatement, he wasn’t fine, his whole world was crashing on top of him and he didn’t know how to feel.
The safe house was originally meant force relatives of there is but since no one ever used it so Namjoon decided to make it a bit more functional for his needs. It was a small looking house right at the lake since it was out in the middle of nowhere, it took a while to get here.
Jungkook groggily got out of the car and shut the door, he blinked continuously, attempting to shake the sleepiness from his eyes. The light in the downstairs area was on and Taehyung ran up to the door to unlock it with the spare key. “I don’t think he’s here...” He commented before pushing the door open to the dimly lit mud room. The entryway keep them to the center of the home, there wasn’t much there but a couch, coffee table, and a few miscellaneous items.
Jungkook looked around—Namjoon must’ve run out and left the light on by accident. That’s probably why there was a light on in the back room, or someone was back there, there was only one way to find out.
“Hey.” Jungkook’s attention went straight to the voice coming from the walkway leading to that room, he tensed but soon relaxed. It was one of Namjoons assistant sellers, Jae. “The boss said he was at the base earlier and I’m not sure when he said he’d be back but he told me to check up on all of the safe houses.” He grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and took the keys from the counter. Jungkook looked blankly at him before furrowing his brows in confusion. Jae. The same Jae who kept looking at you in Japan—he had nothing against the man but that small incident left a bitter taste in his mouth.
“Well, I’ll see you guys later.” He began to make his way out before Taehyung spoke up.
“Wait, where is everybody?” Tae questioned, pulling off his white coat and tossing it on the couch. “Is everyone just fending for themselves or what? I haven’t been contacted by anyone but Hyung.”
“Kind of,” He glanced at Jungkook who was giving him a weird look for some reason, “we’re all spread out in the other safe houses and some of us are still in the city, everything is scattered right now. The boss instructed that we lay low until he says otherwise, so that’s what we’re doing.” Jae left through the back door.
They really didn’t take a major hit from the fight but when the headquarters was destroyed, they were thrown a curveball—Namjoon didn’t know where to turn. He had a number of issues to worry about, Jungkook was under arrest at the hospital. He didn’t want any of his men involved with the law, especially not Jungkook. As far as the law and the government goes, it was Yoongi’s terrain. If he makes one wrong move, it’ll mean hundreds of lives on the line—no pressure.
“Ah, I’m starving, you?”
“Yeah...” Jungkook scratched the back of his neck and started walking towards the staircase.
“I know you probably didn’t eat any hospital food so I’ll get a pizza from down the road.” Taehyung went out the front door, leaving in the house by himself. "I'll be back.”
When Taehyung shut the door Jungkook decided to go upstairs and go straight to the shower. The scrubs he was wearing were starting to feel like restraints, he needed a nice hot shower to help wash away the hospital feeling and calm his mind.
How many showers does it take to forget about the person you love?
He’ll never know, if you love someone they’ll always be on your mind—you were living proof of that. He squeezed a dollop of shampoo into his hand and massaged it into his hair and scalp, his hair needed it. He lathered it into his dark locks, bringing a nice relief to his untouched scalp. The hot water droplets washed the foamy suds out. For a while, he let the water rain down on him to no avail. If you were to look at him now, you’d know he was feeling a range of emotions—confusion, hopelessness, resentment, and it was really heavy on his heart. Jungkook knew who he loved and he knew who loved him, but the people he loved were all on opposite sides now, everyone was scattered. “Agh...” He sighed, stepping out of the shower with a hand pressing against his wound to keep front further irritation. How was he supposed to tend to his wounds with a half sprained wrist? He’ll figure it out later. As he towel dried his hair he went to look for a spare shirt and sweatpants, he was thinking while he changed.
Showering together was one thing you wouldn’t allow, and that fact made him realize how different you were from the women he met in transit while on the job. He naturally saw you as fairly innocent but at the same time, he expected you to be familiar with his lifestyle. You, the ideal A, B student, on her way to getting her colleges diploma and working a steady well paying job. You told him that you even volunteered at the preschool he used to go to, that place was still open. You could cook pretty well, at least that’s what you tell him, he’s never tried it before but he sure would love to right now.
And then there was Jungkook. The late nights that turned into early mornings, the crime, violence, the reckless situations and wild men and women. His lifestyle wasn’t even that bad, he knows people whose lives are spiraling out of control in comparison to his. Either way, you two were just as opposite as you were the same and it was perplexing but that's what made it so perfect. You were soulmates, your DNA was constructed in such a way that your paths were meant to cross. Is this the love he’s heard about? Because from the very beginning, his heart only beats for you.
—
“Yeah, there are fifteen in total. Bring them before noon tomorrow.” Namjoon got off the phone with his supplier and he had to have been on the phone the whole ride here. His suppliers, his buyers, the organization itself was anything but organized at the moment.
“Tae’s here?” He saw Taehyung’s car in the driveway and he was suddenly relieved, he’s here. He hoped he could’ve to fill Taehyung in on the current situation and discuss a plan. He got out of the car and made his way up, he unlocked the front door and walked right inside.
“Taehyung?” Namjoon got no response, he had his hand on his gun, just in case. He took long strides towards the living room where he heard the television, if that wasn’t Taehyung then he would be very surprised.
“He went out...” Jungkook mumbled from the couch, his eyes lit up.
Jungkook.
“Jungkook? How did you get here?” Namjoon couldn’t help the bright smile that came to his lips, he sat the bag on the center table and sat right beside the rough looking kid, he looked like a wreck but he was alive. “You don’t how hard it was not to walk up there and discharge you- Wait. How did you get out of the hospital? And when?”
“Tae came and got me, I don’t want to go into details but I might be wanted soon, but I don’t know or care.” Jungkook smiled at that and sat up a bit. “Hyung, I’m just glad I’m out of that hell hole. Man, there’s so much I need to tell you and ask you. Out of sheer coincidence, Junghyun is the president of the hospital I was at and the bastard is on to me. I don’t how or why but he went on about our past and our parents...I don’t know if he feels guilt or what but I want him out of my life.”
“That doesn’t add up, what would he want from you?...” Namjoon tilted his head in thought. “I wonder if that has anything to do with Jin, it probably does.” He swore anything that went wrong had some relation to Jin.
“Maybe...” By the way, his expression went day-dreamy, he could tell Jungkook’s mind was elsewhere. “Hyung, I’ve been in the hospital for days now, has anything changed with Y/n, is she still with them?” Jungkook hoped not but he was probably wrong. “I can’t stop worrying about her...”
“I assume so, she’s his sister so I’m sure he didn’t go through all of this trouble just to send her off somewhere. And Jungkook, you know I can’t keep checking on her when I have an organization to lead, Y/n is fine.” Namjoon went to the kitchen to get a beer. “Besides, our main focus is to expose Jin and we have just the material to do it.” He snickered. “We just need to find the best time to do it.”
“But we need to get her back, like now.” Jungkook wasn’t hearing him. “She doesn’t want to be with them, I don’t care how related they are, they aren’t even full siblings. She told me they weren’t that close-”
“Hey,” Tae walked in with a pizza and saw Namjoon from there, “hyung...”
“Kim Taehyung, if anyone would be able to get him out clean it would be you.” He walked over into the living room and took a seat. “Good work.”
“It was no problem really. A doctor coat and some scrubs will get you far in the hospital.” He smiled setting the box of pizza on the center table for all of them to share. “It was actually an easy escape, I wasn’t recognized and neither was Jungkook.” Tae sat in the recliner and relaxed. “All I had to do was find the right time.”
“Good, I’m glad you guys are here. Look,” He pulled a paper out of the busted briefcase, the same one Jungkook threw at him that one time.
“Remember the four-digit number in the briefcase?” Jungkook nodded and Taehyung as well. “Well, I was doing some research and I found out that that’s not an address or date, it’s a ledger. An order for firearms. And I can tell you right now that it was Kim fucking Seokjin. Think about it, all of the explosions, the sudden even playing field, it had to be him...” Namjoon gritted his teeth. They were all eating, and they could’ve sworn Jungkook inhaled that whole half pizza.
“Boys, we have quite the predicament on our hands, Jin seems to be getting one over on Yoongi but I don’t think that’ll last long, not with the information I have on him.” He smirked. “You know what I find really funny? Y/n was once a peace treaty between us, but now she’s stuck in the crossfire. How’s that feel Kookie?” He smirked at the thought.
“Hyung, you don’t know how it feels...” Jungkook uttered lowly. “I’m going to die if I can’t see her again...” His sudden confession had both Namjoon and Tae at a loss for words—he was dead serious. “Before they took her I told her that I loved her and I'll protect her. I love her...I love her so much and now she’s gone.” He choked, gritting his teeth. “I’m fucking mad at myself for even letting this happen...I swear, I’ve never wanted to kill Jin for anything more in my life. He’s brainwashing her probably, then again she never told me about him being her brother.” Jungkook lost his train of thought.
“Why are our lives so difficult?” He grits his teeth, staring at the flickering television screen blankly. “10 months ago I didn’t have to worry about anyone but myself and you guys.” His gaze went to Tae and a bit of water welled in his eyes before he diverted his eyes elsewhere. “Now I can’t stop thinking about her, no matter what I do my thoughts go straight back to her...”
Taehyung tilted his head, seeing that Jungkook was too upset to continue talking.
“If we were all drowning who would you dive in to save, Jungkook? Me,” He pointed to himself. “Or her?” Tae said suddenly.
Jungkook’s lips parted as if to say something but he couldn’t, what kind of question is that? Taehyung was asking him to choose between his brothers, the people who raised him and protected him ever since he was a kid; and you. He was shocked, to say the least, he’s always assumed he could have both. Is it really not that simple?
“W- What kind of question is that?”
“The kind you need to ask when your decisions mean life or death...” Tae was right—Jungkooks choices affect everyone and he needs to be aware of that. Namjoon makes decisions that can mean someone’s life almost every day and the consequences of his decisions can ultimately mean a life—He knows that first hand. “It’s just something to think about.”
“You know what...” Jungkook stood, rubbing the bandages on his stomach as a reminder of his physical ailments. “I need to get some sleep.” Jungkook wished not to be conscious any longer, he’s lovesick and too tired to think straight. “I feel like crap, I just want to go to sleep, do you mind if I catch up later?”
“Nah, go ahead you need your rest, we all do. Goodnight.” Namjoon let him go and he glanced at Tae, what urged humble to ask that question.
“Goodnight...” Namjoon watched Jungkook go to the room upstairs and close the door, the kid was exhausted and he couldn’t blame him.
Namjoon stood up and stretched his aching bones.“Well, we should get some sleep too.” He walked over to the recycling to throw out his empty beer bottle when he felt a tight grip on his forearm, it was Taehyung. “The hell are you doing?” Namjoon questioned as he still wore a calm expression.
“I want to talk first thing in the morning, hyung.” Taehyung once childlike eyes morphed into much darker and ominous ones —Namjoon returned his gaze with a look of confusion. “Or I swear I’ll murder you in your sleep.” Taehyung frowned before walking off to his room, someone’s a little grumpy, Namjoon thought. Taehyung would never get that serious with him unless he had to be. Even in the high position he’s in now, he had to admit, Tae could be a little scary. Sometimes he was unpredictable and unhinged, he could become a completely different person in the blink of an eye. That’s good ole Kim Taehyung for you. Soon they all went to one of the multiple bedrooms and Namjoon chuckled with a sly smirk as he turned off the lamp.
They’re back.
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