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ozlices · 4 months

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my mom has repeatedly dismissed the idea that she has favorites between us, and yet earlier this year she literally admitted to my face that she's prioritized my abuser over me bc she's 'going through worse stuff'.

and constantly. fucking CONSTANTLY i have to hear abt my abuser, how much she's 'changed' and 'loves me' and 'wants a relationship with me' etc etc etc

and the most draining part of all of this is that i busted my ass for multiple fucking years to finally break the shackles off and get the fuck out of here, only for a selfish, heartless, absolutely piece of utter and complete shit to damn me back here.

and now, im stuck in this cycle again. where spending EIGHT HOURS on the phone trying to get my phone shit settled, and being at my absolute fucking limit bc on top of dealing w that crap, i had to listen to my abuser and her kids screaming at the top of their goddamn lungs for the past two days, and snapping to shut the fuck up,, gets me dealing w my mother holding a grudge w me.

bc 'oh let me have kids and then maybe ill understand' IT'S LIKE THIS EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME SHE'S OVER HERE. AND SHE WAS LIKE THIS BEFORE SHE FUCKING HAD KIDS. THE BRUNT OF MY ABUSER WAS LITERALLY BEING SCREAMED AT AND BERATED BY HER OVER STUPID SHIT.

/IM/ THE ASSHOLE FOR BEING INSISTENT THAT SHE HASNT CHANGED ?!?!? WHEN SHE LITERALLY HASNT FUCKING CHANGED!!!?!?!?!? SHE'S /WORSE/ NOW /BECAUSE/ SHE STILL HAD KIDS ANYWAY WHEN LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN HER LIFE WARNED HER NOT TO BC WE ALL KNEW SHE'D BE A SHITTY PARENT. AND WOW, HUGE SHOCKER, SHE IS!!!

i made the decision when i was VERY young, but also old enough to realize just how deep rooted my trauma runs & how much it affects my responses to stress & other shit, to not have human children bc i fucking KNEW. no matter how much i try to be a nice person, no matter how good my intentions try to be, i can be very nasty. i can be harsh. i can be snappy. i can be violent. i can be completely apathetic to how my actions affect other people when i'm angry enough.

i ACKNOWLEDGE that shit. i will be the first to admit when i probably went overboard, but i am so fucking sick of being put in a position where if i dont apologize for being fucking straight up verbally, emotionally, mentally, or even physically abused, & responding to that abuse like any fucking body would, ESPECIALLY a person who has existing trauma, im an asshole.

im so. fucking sick. of being alive. this year has broken me. it really, truly fucking has. i lost EVERYTHING. i dont even have a fucking doctor. i am back in the house all my trauma happened in, damned by someone i thought was my best friend who looked me dead in my eyes a month after my daughter died in my arms & told me damning me back to the house every traumatic thing ive ever gone to 'wasnt her problem'. & having to be put right back in the cycles i brutalized myself to get out of.

and the worst fucking part is that this year has left me in such shambles from stress, i physically cannot pick myself up anymore. my alters can't pick themselves up anymore. we are all so fucking burnt out, and it is so fucking draining to lie to ourselves that hope is worth it when we had it all stripped away from us repeatedly in such brutal ways. nonstop. i swear to the moon herself, i mean it when i say not one single day this entire year has been peaceful. has been free from some degree of pain, or straight up agony.

i am tired of beating myself up for being angry. i am tired of being berated by other people for being angry. FUCK all of that shit. this year, and the shitty people who refuse to fucking offer me the same empathy they DEMAND from me, have fucking destroyed me. and i DESERVE TO BE FUCKING PISSED OVER THAT SO I FUCKING WILL BE IM FUCKING PISSED FUCK THIS YEAR FUCK MY ABUSER FUCK HER GODDAMN DEFENDERS FUCK THE BITCH WHO DAMNED ME HERE FUCK MY ENTIRE LIFE IT'S NEVERENDING BULLSHIT AND IM TIRED OF ACTING LIKE ANYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME WAS OKAY OR THAT I HAVE TO BE OKAY WITH IT!! NONE OF IT WAS OKAY!! IM NOT FUCKING OKAY WITH IT!! NOBODY FUCKING WOULD BE!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#mine #vent #abuse mention//#i had to get all this out im literally so fucking pissed #i went to get food after starving all day bc my abuser was here #and my mom stood in the kitchen doorway and glared at me for almost a full minute #and when i snapped 'what' she cursed me out. bc. u know.#i fucking snapped hearing my abuser SCREAMING for two days straight.#oh but if /i/ have a meltdown where /i/ scream and throw a ~tantrum~?#then it's 'grow the fuck up. ur so immature'.#my sister is fucking 30 years old. and has NEVER fucking honed in her anger. EVER.#but IM the immature one here. not the 30 y/o with TWO CHILDREN WHO NEVER LEARNED TO CONTROL HER ANGER #im so done.#i literally bend over backwards being everyone's goddamn therapist #& then get told im a piece of shit when i too have human emotions & reactions to TRAUMA.#im done! im done. im done.#yall want a fucking apathetic snippy selfish piece of shit i always get framed as for being fucking burnt out after being brutalized #every goddamn day & losing everything in a year? fine. im done being a therapist for fucking free & suffering in silence alone #fuck this shit

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chaosqueena · 1 year

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Nintendo Direct Pop Offs List:

-Immediate Pikmin trailer good start

It actually looks so pretty in engine holy shit

Dog moment

-Xenoblade dlc I probably should have guessed that

-honestly the maraca game looks kinda cool

-The little girl in me wants the dress up game but I know it's not going to be good

-wait a minute this dead cells update isn't news wtf is this

-tron game sure

-Ooh ghost trick looks cool

-Why am I such a whore for detective games

And it's an rpg too c'mon man

AND ITS BY LEVEL 5 dude

-Bayonetta Origins, again not new

-MARINA STORY MY BABY MY GIRL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-Disney game looks like Rayman, honestly kinda cool

-Wow who could've guessed Engage dlc way too early

-Yo Harmony looks sick af

-Octopog 2

-Katamari we love

-Sea of stars looks so pretty!!!

-yo new strikers but actually good? (And also horny)

-Literally never heard of Etrian but looks cool

-ADVANCE WARS FINALLY JESUS IT TOOK WAY TOO LONG

-Wait Magalor's side story looks so cool that's awesome

-Gameboy shocker (I could not care less about NSO)

-Gameboy Advance tho, that's pretty cool

-Wait I thought Metroid prime remaster was a joke wtf?

Kinda lame it's only the first one tho

-I completely forgot about the Danganronpa spin-off dude

Not bad looking tbh

-Don't know what Baten Kaito is

-FANTASY LIFE 2 IM GOING TO CRY

Me and The boo are literally playing through the first game rn

-PROFFESOR LAYTON??? YOURE ALIVE!?

-I'm glad Birdo is back actually

-Of course we got to have the highlight reel. Honestly not a bad one

-Alright Zelda Fans have your cake and eat it (no offense meant I just didn't enjoy BotW like everyone else)

Homing Arrow looked sick

-No Silksong. Sad

I wanna hear what people think because there were some crazy reveals that direct

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devilherself666 · 1 year

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Overhaul daughter x bakudeku part 4

Warnings: abuse, trauma, slow bonding, OC!

~seven years later~

"It is time Overhaul." The doctor spoke. As Overhaul nodded and walked down to the basement with the doctor. They saw her. Her new hair. It was long and black no longer purple, her body was fully grown as she was now a teenager, Overhaul sighed as he looked at her. Her tail and ears had shown up years ago, but the horns just showed up along with her wings about a month ago. Her body was cover in scales of tattoos. How you knew she had the snake side. Only part of her skin that wasn't covered in tattoos of scales was her face.

She was beautiful, she looked like he planned. He walked to the tube and drained the water and pulled her out with the Crain he put her in the tub with. "Do it." Overhaul spoke. The doctor nodded as he walked over and grabbed his shockers and rubbed them together and shocked her. "Ah." Kai screamed as she breathe in heavily. "My beautiful daughter finally awaken." Overhaul smiled as he kissed her head. Kai looked at her father and hugged him. "I had missed you." She whispered and he chuckled. "I had missed you do darling, would you like to see yourself?" He asked her and she nodded as he held out his hand and she took it.

They walked upstairs to the bathroom as she looked in the mirror as saw the new her. "Wow." She looked at herself shocked. Her head then started feeling dizzy. "Dad, I don't feel to good." She held her head. "Kai get mad." He spoke. "What?" She asked and Overhaul smacked her. "HEY WHAT WAS THAT FOR!?" She yelled but sounded more like a roar and covered her mouth but the dizzy feeling was gone. "You have to keep your anger going, I will understand. But in order to stay alive you must be rude and angry." He crossed his arms and Kai looked at him. "Whatever fine." She huffed trying to keep her anger up, letting her fear turn into anger. "Good." He nodded. "Let's test out your quirks." He spoke and she nodded.

The walked outside into the gym on the other side of their home. "Try your panther, your claws will come out of your actually nails." He spoke and Kai focused and her nails got longer and shaper. "Now try to come at me full speed." He spoke and Kai ran at him so fast he didn't even see her coming as she clawed his chest lightly. "You have gotten old. Or maybe I'm just better." She huffed. Overhaul stared at her in disbelief and smirked. "No you are perfect..wait talk again." He asked and Kai looked at him. "What got a problem?" She talked but this time they heard the hiss in her voice. She looked at her dad letting her fear turn into anger once more. "Kai. You have a snake tongue." He spoke and Kai felt her tongue the slit in the top told her he wasn't lying. "WHAT!?" She roared shaking the gym. Her eyes was now green was just the slit for a pupils. They was glowing. "Kai calm down." He huffed as Kai skin started to boil as she stared at him. "YOU MADE ME INTO A FREAK!?" She roared in anger. "I made you into a master piece!?" He yelled back as he walked up to her and smack her. "Do not think the time-out room isn't a thing!?" He huffed at her and she clawed at him, ripping his mask off. "IM NOT A KID ANYMORE STOP ACTING LIKE IT!?" She roared as she stormed off. "Where are you going?" He asked. "Away from you." She glared at him as she walked out of the gym. "Kai you never been out of these walls!" He huffed. "My point! I'm leaving! I'm going to explore Japan! LET ME LIVE!?" She roared as she walked away out of his eye shot.

She walked around Japan seeing all the light and people as she never saw before. She was enjoying her freedom as she just turned her anxiety into anger. She looked behind her and of course someone was following her. Her father really didn't trust her? She hated that and it pissed her off more as she smirked. "Let's get rid of them." She went the nearest alley way and focused on snake, as soon she was the snake and slipped threw the sewer. She slithered through the water as she tired to find away out, before changing back and getting her clothes more wet as she forgot to change the clothes that are now four times to small for her body now.

Looks like she is just wearing a bra, and really small shorts that could pass as underwear. The more she thought about it the worse it was. She sighed. She had to go back at some point. Walking around Japan in small clothes wasn't the best idea.

She found another way out and slithered up the bars and crawled out of one as the holes as she just thought it was safer to stay hidden in the snake form away from people seeing her body not far from being nude.

She made it back to the house and she formed back into her human self and went to her room same, black theme as none of her clothes fit her. "Ugh!? DAD!?" She sighed as she called her dad to her room. "What? Finally came back?" He asked. "Well yeah! I had too look at me!" She pointed at her clothes and his face went black. "I let you leave with that on?" He asked and she nodded. "None of my clothes fit me!" She huffed in anger and he nodded. "I'll give you a hoddie and some of sweats from the my clothes, we will go shopping." He sighed and Kai huffed and crossed her arms. "Thanks or whatever." Overhaul rolled his eyes. "This goal is going to be a pain in my ass." He shook his head.

<<< >>>

#mha bakugou #overhaul daughter #abuse #child abuse #mha deku #bakudeku #my hero academy oc #OC #original character #slow burn

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axeyyeartaxeplosion · 2 years

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Blacks And Whys

This was written for performance, hence the words in *stars*

Looking for what it means to be alive

is a search that most start early, right?

On the search in this world of blacks and whys (?),

shining light, we use these flashless lights

*expressions like you can't find the fitting word*

well,

not really light but these things that light our world up

making colors bloom like neon lights

*relief, you found the word*

Glowsticks! exactly, right...

they're fun in the black and somewhat bright,

till you realize you need to use them to search for that answer about life

On the ground barely seeing,

you could only find

from the way you see people live their lives,

what they do,

how they're getting by,

You conclude:

It's happiness

*with a joyous smile*

That we should all be on a quest to find

what makes us glad and merry ,

feeling happy inside.

In those little things that the glowstick is able to shine its light

along with the multitude of people who carry the same things to find

keep searching your life to light it up.

*leave the stage and act like it's over*

*whisper audibly*

*then come back*

Something is still missing inside

see,

I have all the happiness & all those merry feelings inside

but it doesn't scrape the surface of the kind of answer I'm looking for,

So, I dropped it

& grew to love what i found to be around me,

Darkness,

But still,

I sought that little light

So I could find this answer,

I’m dying to know

So I picked up a telescope & gazed at the stars

The glitter that never falls off the surface of the sky

(Or so I thought)

& the one who smiles, who is the smallest among them ,

But looks big to me

shone a little light on some faces including mine ,

Knocked off my socks & out of my mind.

Shocker that I never got cold feet

When I knew this was of the nature of darkness

Blacks and whys

So I concluded:

That life means to know yourself

& follow what you discover you are for yourself

And stand by it

Follow your heart

Shun anyone who stands in the way & be proud

*then walk off the stage frowning*

*stop*

*then shake your head & come back*

You knew I’d be back right

Because

although it seems that the answer was received

Can’t shake the gut that tells me that I’m being deceived

By the world and how I feel

Surely

I’m not the only

Elon Musk

The richest rich can be

With everything he wants at the flex of a apple,

Asks the same question

How dare I be satisfied

When I know I’m missing something deep inside?

Or how can I be, how will I be

No longer asking how I could be

But deep down

Seeing from the way I still breathe,

You know for sure

Im still searching

Although I see faces

Something I was born having

& and some of what they say is true about me

I wonder

Is that what I’m really meant to be?

Self-centred, self-seeking, evil

Then cover it up with the good things I do so I won’t have to suffer the screams of my conscience to be free from me

Although I try, she keeps …

Her voice

It’s not silent,

But you and I can’t hear

So it’s not a sound

It’s screaming, but it’s not my mind

It’s in anguish

But it’s not my heart,

Have you heard it ?

That same concerning person

Is the one who keeps asking all the time

“WHAT IS MISSING?"

It’s like at the dinner table

Everything is set

Everyone there

But someone missing

Who’s name you don’t know

The most important member at the table

Although I’m present

It seems that maybe it’s me

Or the best version of myself

But I’ve been there

Or where the world things that to be :

Gorgeous, adored, beloved, on it, that thang 💅👁👄👁

You know

It all seems good

But that voice knows that

That’s not me

& it never lies

Many times I seek ways to deny

But I can’t bare the pain to run and hide

Who am I

Why is life

Blacks an whys?

*open a window or something, or switch on the light*

Light

Wow!

I remembered the only other that never lies

Indeed, I’ve always been afraid to be exposed

All along the best light was there

I just wanted to create my own way to be alright

That light always called my name

But in my pride I looked away

Because it was the kind of light that would reveal all that I intend to hide

Sick of all my efforts to try and find the answers and invent them for myself

Have you ever heard the phrases:

Make your own truth & follow your heart

Anything you’d have to make up is a lie

I’ve followed my heart, it chased happiness,

I got it

But I still wanted to die

More good feelings was not what I was missing in life

I’ve know what I thought to be everything about me & all those who surrounded me

But man that’s foolish

Who looks into the mirror for assurance under the light of the distant stars

And believes all they see is all there is to know

Wow

Light

I was missing Jesus

#truth Jesus happiness stars astrology love gospel freedom peace light

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softgreysentences · 4 years

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: RWBY Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ozpin & Oscar Pine, Jaune Arc & Oscar Pine & Lie Ren & Nora Valkyrie, Jaune Arc & Lie Ren & Nora Valkyrie, Jaune Arc & Oscar Pine Characters: Oscar Pine, Ozpin (RWBY), Jaune Arc, Lie Ren, Nora Valkyrie Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Post-Season/Series 07 Finale, Post-Volume 7 (RWBY), Whump, Hypothermia, Oscar Pine Needs a Hug, Blood and Injury Summary:

Oscar and Ozpin after the fall.

#rwby #oscar pine #rwby fic #ozpin #jaune arc #nora valkyrie #lie ren #wow im alive????? shocker

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deatheatersmemories · 2 years

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Hii!! I found one of your michael langdon edits on youtube, which led me here and I was so excited when I saw that you see cody fern as Avery as well. I didn't do a lot of digging so Im not sure if youve done this already, but I was wondering if you would be up to making another edit with cody as Avery?

Hi!

Sorry it took me too long to answer, I wasn't really active here for the past few months. The thing is - I'm not that invested in these characters for now so that's why there's an obvious lack of updates both on my YT channel and in this blog. However, I still have a draft of Miranda Ollivander & Barty Crouch jr's video on my laptop and if I happen to go back to this story and characters, I might finish that vid and make more. But that really depends on the vibes lmao

As for the Avery family - originally I was planning to do all of my characters' families/storylines videos or at least as much as I would've been able to edit, except for the Black family, probably. So if I'll return to posting videos about this universe, there's a big chance on me doing the Avery family, yeah. (Tell you a secret, they are one of my most favourite ones) 😂😌

#harry potter #wow im actually alive #thats a shocker #anygays #the avery family #plans??? kinda

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lighthouseborna · 3 years

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𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ?

You're the Alchemist — (A spontaneous dreamer) You make out-of-the-ordinary decisions, quick as a flash.

Openness: 90% Your high level of openness suggests that you are imaginative, creative, and comfortable with variety and change. But you can also tend towards individualistic behavior and impractical thinking.

Conscientiousness: 5% You like to act immediately on impulse, which can be both effective and fun. But if taken to the extreme this can produce undesirable long term consequences for yourself and others.

Extraversion: 88% Your high level of extraversion suggests that you experience positive emotions from social situations and activities, so are likely to seek them out and thrive in them.

Agreeableness: 84% You value getting along with others, so are considerate, friendly, and willing to compromise for the benefit of the group around you. As a result you tend to be very popular.

Neuroticism: 21% You are calm, emotionally stable and are less easily upset than people with high levels of neuroticism. But this doesn't necessarily mean you experience more positive feelings than them.

Outlook: Optimist High levels of extraversion combined with low neuroticism mean that optimists always look on the bright side of life. This doesn't mean that they don't experience troubles from time to time, but they don't let negative things get to them or bring their mood down. Your naturally sunny disposition means that you have plenty of other things to get excited about.

Character: Thoughtful Thoughtful people have a very giving and sympathetic character and are genuinely interested in and concerned about others. However, they can sometimes lack the persistence to follow through with their positive intentions. Luckily, you're very adept at inspiring good feelings and actions in others who can help carry you along too.

Self Control: Relaxed You may be very slow to anger, and reluctant to express it when it arises. As a result you may come across as too placid and seem like a bit of a pushover - but it's just that you'd much rather forgive and forget than harbour a grudge until it festers. You know that there are two sides to every situation. [Not slow to anger, but difficult to anger in a broad sense (barring when he’s defending loved ones); will not hold grudges for a grudges’ sake.]

Composure: Easy going Easy-going people are very laid back about life and don't really see a need to be overly serious about things. This means they can often lean towards the easiest [most direct] route or option in any situation. It's [also] important to overcome a lack of self-motivation you may feel and put in the effort when you know it’s really worth it.

Taste: Pioneer You're interested in the new and different. Whatever it is, if you haven't experienced it before, you'll want to give it a try. People who share this characteristic also enjoy meeting people from different backgrounds, so thrive in big communal activities where they can learn about new places and perspectives.

Sociability: Leader People with this characteristic are likely to enjoy social situations where they can really shine - where they can be in charge and give instructions [take charge of yourself] rather than take them. They tend to be natural decision makers. If you recognise this trait in yourself, remember to think about how other people might perceive your forthright approach.

Action: Spontaneous Spontaneous people tend to be pretty full of energy and love the thrill of new adventures. But that energy isn't always completely constructive. Your spontaneity and impulsiveness might mean that it's sometimes all too easy to drop those serious, unglamorous tasks for the promise of a good time.

Attitude: Progressive People with progressive attitudes tend to have a great deal of faith in human nature and believe in education, co-operation and free thinking as ways to help develop society. They are willing to try new ideas and solutions and take a thoughtful approach to issues like social problems. It sounds like you tend to be seen as the voice of reason in most situations.

Process: Dreamer Dreamers get very excited by the prospect of new ideas and ways of seeing the world, but they tend to lose their way in theoretical possibilities and flights of fancy. If this sounds like you, you might be seen as a fantastic starter but not so great finisher. But, no one can fault your enthusiasm and ability to thrive in the uncertainty of the new. Force yourself to be a bit more organised and you'll blow people away.

Resilience: Engaged Engaged people tend to take life quite seriously, but are still able to see the funny side and laugh off difficulties when they arise. They're very adaptable, and don't view problems as things to stop them but as opportunities to inspire them to come up with creative solutions - and of course some humour.

Tagged by as seen from @tiderider & @cecaelian Taggging: If You Are Reading This I Would Like You To Do The Thing. This is not a joke I always want these to just circle, please steal it (and tag me if you want but if we’re mutuals I Will see it!)

#''nuance of character too strong for the quiz to quite nail down'' squad represent #...henry rly out here like ''yeah im mostly relaxed but also when i start things i dont let them go'' slfkjglskfjglskfjg #''yeah i like people and get along with them but if they start shit with people i love it's on sight''#''no i dont really plan things or stress about them in advance but that doesnt mean i give up''#''yeah im idealistic and sometimes have unrealistic expectations but i dont balk when it becomes clear things wont work out #like i thought i just adjust course and Keep Going''#they rly dont know what to do with ''impulsive but also stubborn as all fuck'' do they ;slkdjfgsdl;kjgldkjg #anyway wow i love him !#(what a shocker)#☩ chicken on a raft ( DASH GAME. )#☩ alive with the beating of a young heart ( ABOUT. )

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sad-sanders · 5 years

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Logan: *in a ball on the floor, clutching a Crofters ‘The Only Jelly I Will Put in My Belly’ ™️ Jar plushie to his body* You poor soul.

Roman: What in the name of all that’s good and gay did you say to him?

Virgil: Sometimes I don’t realize an even is disturbing or traumatic until I’ve turned it into a funny story and then people start looking at me weird.

Patton: Kiddo, what could’ve been so bad?? Are you ok??

Virgil: *shrugs* All I did was mention the time I dropped a Crofters Jar on the floor and slipped on the jelly puddle.

Picani, popping in: I heard one of you has gone through a traumatic event.

Patton, sobbing while clutching Virgil to his chest like he’s a baby: PLEASE, HELP MY SON!!

#I saw a tweet and this happened to come to mind #blame my dumb goblin brain #it’s 5 am #incorrect sanders sides quotes #sanders sides #thomas sanders #roman sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #dr. picani #we take crofters very seriously in this household #wow im still alive? shocker

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voidpomf · 2 years

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been sitting in my drafts for almost a year.

(Okay this started as a oneshot but then turned into 1.3k of just introduction and world building. im not a writer and there are absolutely lots of grammar/other errors. I’ve always had a hard time writing. so welcome to my self indulgent hell)

-venti x reader(oc? self insert? how to you write a reader)

quick sum: You’re a socially awkward adventurer

Your respect for the archons was much like the rest of Mondstadt, though the way you showed it was a bit...odd.

No, you weren’t as unorthodox as that Sister Rosalia, but prayer and visits to the cathedral didn’t sit well with you. You never spoke ill of the gods, but didn’t put your hopes and dreams in their hands. Not like they were around to do anything anyways.

No, you payed your respects at one of the various statues littered across the region -Windrise being your favourite-, usually seated upon the ground as you rambled about your day. Your reasoning was, these all powerful beings probably already had lots of material goods, but what about the really valuable things? Stories of action or suspense, feelings of adoration or dread. You recounted many memories of your own, as well as tales you’ve heard through your time alive. It must get lonely being above the regular folk, so you spoke to the statue as a friend, probably the best friend you ever had.

Yeah big shocker right? Loners’ best friend is a fucking statue. It’s not like you are a /complete/ shut in. You did work at the Adventurers Guild and were friendly -almost bubbly- with your fellow adventure pals. But once the pretense of work was gone, well.. so were they.

“ah archon, I didn’t mean to turn into a moody teen, sorry there” You leaned back, bumping your head against the statue as you looked up. A small scowl making a home on your face. A gust a wind seems to pass by, rustling the large branches of the tree at Windrise. Honestly a beautiful calming sight, making your face soften in wonder.

“I...do appreciate our uh talks though” Some of the branches shed leaves, that road the sky into the distance. It was enough to calm you down from the dark little moment you made for yourself.

And much like those leaves you figured it was time to head back. You did technically have something planned for your evening. It’s a bit awkward to explain out loud but the event itself still made you jog just a bit faster into town.

Slightly breathless you reflected on your... was ‘acquaintance’ the correct term? You both seemed to look forward to each others company, well at least you hoped they did.

What was an awkward outing with your ’adventure buds’ thankfully turned into possibly the best social interaction you’ve ever had. Alcohol was not one of your pass times. There wasn’t really any other way to say it, you were tired of hinting and suggesting otherwise when those around you would shove mugs and bottles into your face. It was something you got out as quickly as you could, to get over the two possible outcomes. Complete confusion or collected indifference.

The group you ended up with that day ended up being the latter and still insisted that you join them in a ‘good day get mora’ drink at the tavern. You almost said no, but it had been a while since you had actually socialized and for once you were willing to put up with the fumbling drunk patrons. Quickly praying to the Barbatos that they would at least pick a table near a wall.

They did not.

So one can imagine a sober socially awkward person, drinking apple cider, surrounded by those heavily drinking their choice of beverage and seemingly having a good time. To give them credit, /before/ your group got drunk they were pretty good company. But as the night wore on, it became more and more apparent that you needed to get the fuck out of there for the sake of your sanity.

You couldn’t help but be frustrated with yourself as well. Why couldn’t you enjoy yourself? Surveying the crowd everyone seemed to be elated, bursting with jo-

oh. well. not him. Oh wow actually he has quite the scowl on him.

Now seated at the end of the bar to breath a little, you noticed that the red headed bartender was definitely /not/ enjoying himself. It was far from his most intimidating look, the winery owner/bartender was a well known staple of Mondstadt. His usual indifference look traded for a ‘I’m tired, let me go home’ type of stare. And while feeling more social than usual thanks to the outing itself, you decided to try to socialize with a /stranger/. Piping up after he had refilled your drink,

“At least there hasn’t been any fights yet, knock on wood right?”. Followed by you letting out a wavering ‘hah’ and knocking slightly on the bar top. The smile you wore faltering slightly as red eyes meet yours, thankfully they seem to soften and as his stature relaxes, his eyes close and he releases a ‘hmph’.

“They know it wouldn’t be the wisest decision when I’m here” Thankfully he seemed to accept your invitation to jest.

“Yes! You do that that intimidation stare down pat” You would be proud of yourself later, but at that current moment you were running in completely blind and felt that you were just /vomiting/ words.

Ultimately you both connected on your equal dislike for alcohol and after a /subtle/ passing comment on his schedule, a habit formed. You did eventually learn his name, forgot it a few times, and had to awkwardly ask during one of your visits. But you learned Diluc enjoyed consistency in his life, and worked the sames days each week at the bar. Thus those would be the night you would act as moral support.

Which of course led to the night that this story was initially building up to.

(an: god im so bad at conversations =x=, i haven’t written anything in so long

and holy shit did I digress for probably way to long lol)

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Seeing the red head behind the bar made walking in feel quite comforting. It was easy to ignore the other patrons and settle yourself at the end of the bar, a glass of apple cider already resting on a coaster. You couldn’t help but let out a sigh of relief, practically slumping onto the bar top.

“Long day?” It was clear Diluc had a more relaxing day then you, looking well rested (for once) and eyeing you with a raised brow.

“Spent too long thinking” Giving a pause to drink a mouthful of apple cider and the man simply replied with an understanding hum. Though neither of you had really delved into your pasts, it was obvious to each other that the two of you both had demons. You never knew if one day that time would come, perhaps you could work up to it.

There was always a casual air, you didn’t know if you could really call it friendship but part of you wanted to.. Said air seemed the shift as soft plucks could be hear over the quieting crowd. Today seemed to be your lucky night, if anything could help raise your spirits it would be music that would be the most effective.

Well.. if they were any good.

After a few scales and arpeggios the bard decided to start their song and it was then you decided to look up. Firstly, he was a lot younger than most bards that have come through. Dark hair that were tied into two braids framed his face. Atop his head a green beret type hat which went well with a similar coloured cap that flowed around him as he moved.

You couldn’t help but stare, even though that was a normal response when witnessing a performance, but your gaze might’ve been a bit hard...because FUCK was he gorgeous. There was some confusion floating around in your head as well, this bard was new...right? There was a possibility that you were simply out of touch with the on goings of the town, but looking around at the other patrons showed that you were possibly right.

Various people around the bar also held either curious or confused faces. Which made sense considering the bright colourful difference between this bard and the usual. Shifting your gaze to Diluc however, made you inwardly grimace. Though his face was seemingly completely passive, there was a fire that burned in his eyes. Not a good fire. You prayed to the archons that you would never be on the receiving end of that stare.

The bard cheekily smiling, oblivious to Diluc or simply choosing to ignore it, paused his plucking and poised his whole body.

And then he started to sing.

It was like all your worries were brushed off and all your muscled relaxed. A calming ballad of feelings blooming between strangers. You had a faint memory of hearing it before, and though it was a bit cliche, this bard had talent. His voice like silk wrapping you in a soft embrace. You settled more, laying your head onto your arms on the bar. You mind surprisingly blank, just experiencing the music fully. Man you couldn’t remember the last time you felt this relaxed.

Perhaps a bit...too relaxed. A few times you had to furiously flicker your eyes open and closed to regain control over you mushy body. In doing so, made you focus once more on the cute bard. You secretly hoped that he would be sticking around town. But by the quiet sigh that left your lips and darkening thoughts, your mind already foretold a big /HAH NO/.

But enough of that, back to song boy.

Your drink was now gone. Settled once again on the bar and focus back on the music. Would it really be a bad idea to fall asleep? Just a small nap, you were safe. And do you decided to treat yourself to one last look at the pretty bard, as you drifted off...

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“Hey”

...

A slight nudge of your shoulder made you awake with a small inhale. The pressure let off and you raised your head to see the always stoic Diluc peering at you. In reply you let out an attractive “huuu?”. You tried to form a more coherent sentence-

*SLAM*

Before jolting, almost falling off the the stool. Now awake, you saw the source of the noise. The pretty bard from before, was finished his songs and had just finish downing a /whole/ bottle of wine(and then slammed said bottle on the bar top). You didn’t know whether to sneer or look perplexed but Diluc beat you to it.

“Bard, I told you. I’m closing up and would rather not have to haul you out.”

#venti #venti x reader #venti x y/n #draft dump

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scvrllet · 3 years

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Unfinished Symphony

PAIRING: C!Wilbur Soot x Reader

SUMMARY: Wilbur’s unfinished symphony would forever remain unfinished, no matter what

WORD COUNT: 559

WARNING(S): gender neutral reader, mentions of explosives and death, in game AU

AUTHORS NOTE: wow would you look at that, another hp writer who’s writing for mcyt now. shocker

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TNT rained down onto the country that you had once called home.

Home. You scoffed at the thought, glancing down as you watched L’manburg crumble to the ground. This country was never home, not since you were exiled from it at least. L’manburg was supposed to be yours and Wilburs’ and if that wasn’t possible, then what was stopping you from blowing it up all over again. If anything, you were only finishing what he had started, what he died for.

With the ghost of a smirk on your lips, you pulled up the hood of your sweater and walked away. All that needed to be done had begun already. Dream had promised to blow the nation to bedrock and the withers that Phil and Technoblade spawned would be enough of a distraction to allow you to leave. All you had to do was not get caught.

You had thought that wasn’t going to be a problem until,

“This was our home, our L’manburg.” A soft voice said from behind you. Turning around, you were now standing face to face with a ghost who wore a yellow sweater and a frown on his face.

You always found it ironic how he seemed to look so much more lively after becoming a ghost. Even now as he stood frowning before you there was something in him that he lacked when he was still alive; hope. From the way his smile would finally reach his eyes again to the way he would gently wrap his arm around your shoulders, you found yourself often forgetting why you stayed in L’Manburg after he had died.

“Hello Ghostbur.”

“I built this nation for us to be free and you’re letting them destroy it!” The ghost shouted, glancing between the destruction of his once beloved country and you who seemed to have no ounce of remorse or guilt.

You watched as he fought back tears, carefully taking a few steps closer towards him. “Why?” He managed to ask through his trembling voice.

“Tell me Ghostbur,” There was a grin growing on your face as you spoke making the ghost take a few steps back. “Do you remember who blew up L’manburg the first time?”

He shook his head causing his brown locks to fall over his eyes and in the midst of all the chaos, the boy in front of you looked like the one you had fallen in-love with a year ago. Just for a moment, you didn’t see Ghostbur who could only remember the past you but the boy you had shared countless memories with. It was the same one who had led you down the path to want to destroy the nation for once and for all but it was also the same person who had saved you and gave you a home.

As if something had clicked, you glanced around at the TNT falling down and for just a second, a pang of guilt hit you before turning back to the boy in front of you. There was hope in his eyes as he looked at you, waiting for you to say anything at all only to immediately regret it, as all remaining hope he had was drained as the words fell from your lips.

“You started this Wilbur. This was our unfinished symphony and unfinished it will remain.”

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years

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Idk about Alec but I sure as hell got a heartattack from that description.

first of all- RAFAEL CAN BE SAVED. RAFAEL CAN BE SAVED. FIRST DAVID AND THEN RAFAEL THANKS MA'AM I-

Lexi is alive god bless

Gigi

Simon and Izzy making out lmao

That parabatai oath scene (why would you add that Jem’s part I am in pain)

Lake Lynn- wow shocker

Mf SELENA IS THE ASSASSIN.

BELIAL YOU SON OF A BITCH

“Alec had no idea what was happening. The only thing he could think of was Rafael” SAME ALEC SAME

Max saving everyone-thats my boy

Liv and Lexi you idiots

I thought Lightwood-Banes were in pain but Clace’s family has me on the floor- pls stop. How is Lexi supposed to recover from her twin killing her and Jace and Clary?????

I hated Belial at this-

“I will not hurt the consul. That privilege belongs to someone else”

But I wanted to murder him at

“You too, Alexander”

- Maxwell Lightwood-Bane I love you but if you do not talk to Malec about Asmodeus’s deal I will cut off your hair okay???????or even better, I will cut off David’s hair.

- I didn’t like how the adults reacted in this chapter. I mean I get that too many kids had died and everybody was suffering but considering most of the tmi/tda/twp gang has themselves suffered at the hands of princes of hells and crazy villains, they should’ve acted better. I’m conflicted. Only Isabelle Lightwood-Lovelace deserves rights.

- "Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood. A beautiful story but I'm afraid, it doesn't have a happy ending" what if its a foreshadowing of you killing one of them because both of them will move heaven and hell to bring back Rafael and David. IM anxiety.

Malec (+us) @ Brother Enoch when he mentioned souls can be brought back

Omg your gif game making me 😂😂😂

And YAS Rafael is alive and mighttttttt be back but what will the price be 👀

Also lmao David @ Max rn:

#lbaf

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m143ui · 4 years

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A MESSAGE TO THE PJO FANDOM

so hello friends on the other side

I understand some of the major concerns regarding characters like piper and the feather and hazels description but when you bring Leo and Reyna into the fucking conversation I have lost all respect.

ANYONE CAN BE ABUSED, ETHNICITY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT

LATINO CHARACTERS

Reyna is not a negative stereotype, she isn't defined by being latina and neither is Leo, he isn't a stereotype simply because he’s latino and was abused. also him being called an elf was because he was short, which had nothing to do with him being latino. also the mamacita comment like y'all hide under the label “progressive” but ignore that mamacita has been a thing in Latin American communities for a fucking while. its not an insult dammit. its something that happens in our communities!!! its like saying muchacho y'all don't see men bitching about that.

also shocker I read the mamacita comment and I can proudly say I didn't go

“RICK YOU RACIST BITCH”

things that actually happen in communities aren't racist

and before any of y'all come at me with the usual you’re white excuse, hello friends im Peruvian and Paraguayan.

I don't think he’s perfect but bitching about characters like Leo which gave many of my Latin American friends hope for similar characters destroys your “listening to minorities” argument

also the lol “hes Mexican taco bad” argument like I live in Mexico we eat tacos like every fucking day. its literally a fact. and Leo isn't just defined as taco man.

believe it or not us latinos respect rick because he gave us role models and characters like us. we don't define a character by one line and instantly call discrimination. like yes a asian character can be snobby it has nothing to do with ethnicity. y'all are making this about ethnicity. an asian character can be anything, just like a white character or a black character or a gay character. people are not simply defined by their labels like ya’ll think. y'all are just a bunch of easily triggered snowflakes that can't live with that. they can be influenced but in the end labels are labels we are all human and should be treated as such.

LGBT REPRESENTATION

another thing Reyna was never officially a lesbian that was YOUR interpretation not riordans. IF HE DIDNT STATE IT , SORRY HONEY IT ISN’T CANON! I don't care about how she was “lesbian coded” if he didn't state it it isn't canon.

I am so sick, as a lesbian, to see people use ALL QUEER DEATHS as a bury your gay tropes, what happened to seeing us as humans? why can't we be treated like any other character? if we die we die, it isn't always “haha gay evil boom death”. sometimes fully fledged characters have to die friends.

Nico isn't a bad gay character, he’s just a normal character who happens to be gay and has suffered major trauma. HIS TRAUMA WAS CAUSED BY HIS UPBRINGING, Nico isn't a 2000′s character, he’s from the 30′s, so obviously he woudn’t be perfect with his sexuality for gods sake it was the 30′s. the exact same thing happens with hazel, she isn't a modern black woman, she's a 30′s black woman. Nico’s coming out isn't him as a 21st century teen its from the time when the GOVERNMENT KILLED YOU FOR BEING GAY

also saying there are no lesbian characters? like wow look emmie and jo don't exist. Lavinia doesn't exist. poison doesn't exist. thanks fam you really make yourselves look smart here. simply because rick never said the word gay doesn't mean the gay characters don't exist friends. they are just labeled as what gay characters should be labeled as.... human.

LESBOPHOBIA & RACISM

im not educated in muslim or black culture so I won't mention characters like sam and hazel and piper because I respect and I am highly critical of what rick put in his books to describe these specific minorities.

HOWEVER saying rick is a lesbophobe, a homophobe, a racist a sexist cis guy is like do y’all wanna be taken seriously? use arguments don't hide behind words.

rick isn't a perfect writer but y'all really don't know how to criticise, y'all just hide behind big boy words and back it up with no evidence, just opinions.

rick doesn’t have the best minority rep out there but he is damn well trying and I respect that unlike all you fucking idiots.

SHIPS

now onto ships.... yay

frazel: im not gonna censor it like you pussies, believe it or not 13&16 year old relationships exist. they might not always be healthy but they exist. to deny this is to be stupid

solangelo: another ship that is censored..the main argument I've seen is that it isn't developed and will isn't even a character... he was in last olympian and lost hero not my fault y'all have fish brains. I don't care if you dislike it but don't be like “ANYONE WHO SHIPS THIS IS AN ABUSIVE WHORE” like wow you always preach about accepting all ships and then throw this? also if you hate solangelo because of the “abuse” but ship percico like hi friends Nico is 4 years younger than Percy.. if y'all hate frazel because of the 3 year age difference y'all should hate this too.

CONCLUSIONS AND SHIT

not every character minority or otherwise is gonna be the way you want them to be, believe it or not any character can be anything, black characters can be loud, white characters can be loud. if they're only loud because “haha black” then THATS an issue not the simple existence of a loud black woman who has a loud personality.

y'all be here bitching about drew and I've never heard the asian perspective of this? just a bunch of black and white people telling asians they should be offended. was that just an uno reverse?

also last point stereotypes aren't always a negative thing and y'all need to get that in your heads.

anyway stay mad hoes <3

from a sane Peruvian <3

EDIT

I saw this beauty and had to comment on it

“having LGBT characters experience abuse and violence. nicos forceful outing rubs me the wrong way, especially because hes called a coward for being in the closet. its violent and kind of disturbing to make your gay character come out of the closet by force. maybe write better. additionally, alex's abusive father and subsequent homelessness because of her being trans is badly written.”

oh noooo gay characters can't deal with homophobia anymore ! like I can tell you have never been punched for being gay. is it bad to showcase how trans and gay ppl are 40% of homeless youth? or is even mentioning that discrimination? believe it or not some of us live in countries where people try to kill us. you have an advantage and it shows. about the coward thing...

was FUCKING CUPID A GOOD CHARACTER? NO? I REST MY CASE. CUPID IS NOT SEEN AS A GOOD PERSON THEREFORE HE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON GET THAT IN YOUR THICK SKULLS.

YOU HEARD IT HERE FOLKS LGBT FOLKS DONT GET FORCED OUT OF THE CLOSET

#NEVER HAPPENS IN REALITY.

JUST BECAUSE YOU WERENT FORCED OUT OF THE CLOSET DOESNT MEAN OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THAT SAME LUXURY.

maybe stop spewing bullshit <3

(so I get that this scene can remind people of being outed and it can hurt them however this scene was never intended to be a good thing it literally says Nico is scared of facing his emotions)

EDIT NUMBER 2

oh boy rick really pissed off the snowflakes that I share a fandom with

“give Nico to the gays” no? he would be a femboy and they would yeet his trauma like ssrsly?

also hate rick? bitch no one is forcing you to read his tweets.

death of the author is such a toxic thing like the mans is alive boo he aint going nowhere..like What the fuck

EDIT NUMBER 3

anyway final thoughts on this :

nico insn’t Uwu gay and its an insult to his character

Reyna is not a lesbian canonically (neither is Thalia)

Leo and Reyna are not racist

none of ricks characters are written as insults to their communities

and if I see one more “but ....phobia/ ...ism I will do very illegal things

peace lol

RICK RIORDAN UPDATE:

congratulations rick antis! you have successfully harassed a 56 year old man into leaving social media! wow so progressive!!!! this totally won't backfire or anything!!!

all jokes aside all of you who harassed rick to the point of someone else taking over his social media should feel ashamed

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clydefrogzz · 4 years

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listen i was considering doing this correctly but i’m too lazy to wait a month to finish it so y’all are getting the answers now

day 1: craig

day 2: randy

day 3: something you can do with your finger or t.m.i.

day 4: d-yikes,,, legit, i watched that episode for the first time on a day that i didn’t get much sleep and i fell asleep at least 4 times

day 5: kanye west

day 6: paris hilton

day 7: stripe #4 or sparky

day 8: going native (i’ve seen this one at least 5 times)

day 9: “i'm sad, but at the same time i'm really happy that somethin' could make me feel that sad. it's like it makes me feel alive, you know? it makes me feel human. and the only way i could feel this sad now is if i felt somethin' really good before. so i have to take the bad with the good, so i guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. i guess that sounds stupid...” -butters

(bonus: “well, thanks for offering to let me in your clique, guys, uh but, to be honest, I'd rather be a crying little pussy than a faggy goth kid.” -also butters like 15 seconds later)

day 10: cartman singing poker face

day 11: probably around the time in margaritaville where they were at whistlin’ willies and i realized that the entire episode was a parody of christianity

day 12: THE END OF YOU’RE GETTING OLD AND THE ENTIRETY OF ASS BURGERS. HANDS DOWN.

day 13: a nightmare on facetime where randy forces everyone to stay at the blockbuster video on halloween

day 14: craig

day 15: bebe stevens

day 16: stan and kyle or craig and clyde

day 17: nobody kisses, wh-?? i think stan and wendy kiss like two times but i don’t even like stendy so

day 18: gerald broflovski

day 19: randy marsh or stephen stotch

day 20: sharon marsh

day 21: linda stotch (wow it’s not sheila, big shocker) (but i just hate butters’ parents so)

day 22: him getting smashed into the ceiling in the jeffersons or him (as mysterion) shooting himself in an effort to prove that he can’t die

day 23: towelie

day 24: the whole nambla thing was hilarious

day 25: tweek, im a huge kinnie so-

day 26:

day 27: i,, i dunno

day 28: stark’s pond

day 29: season 9 (excluding mr garrison’s fancy new vagina,, we’re gonna pretend that episode doesn’t exist)

day 30: probably cartman, but he’s everyone’s enemy so

#south park #30 day south park #south park 30 day challenge #im very opinionated

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Since you weren't able to answer my last ask apparently? My parents and their parents, with a lot of german Jews, went to Palestine before ww2 broke out to survive. We didn't want a war with the Muslim people of Palestine but they saw us taking refuge in Jerusalem as an attack and the fight broke out. When we were divided y'all kept fighting. It isn't genocide. The numbers of born children is growing. Don't pretend it isn't anti semitism

okay wow. lots to address here. i dont wanna say i KNOW things happened, bc i wasnt alive that time, and im guessing u werent either so we cant know what happened exactly abt everything. lets just put that out there ok.

i cant confirm or deny the thing abt Palestinians fighting Jewish people when they came bc of WWII. what i WILL say, is that i doubt that they were fighting Jewish people bc they came to survive from Hitler. Palestinians started fighting when we were being killed!! oh and, this must be a shock, ik, but stay with me, but not all the Palestinians that were killed were Muslim!!!! there are a LOT of Christian Palestinians as well, and they were killed too.

im not gonna say Jewish people were killing us, bc they werent, im gonna say Israeli’s, bc THEY were. We didn’t see Jewish people as settling in Jerusalem as an attack, as far as my knowledge goes and im gonna believe my family (some of who were alive then and are now) when they tell me what they do.

& dont give me that “divided” bs bc literally Palestinians are more divided now than ever?? so shut the FUCK up. i cant believe i have to sit here and type this out to defend my people. my people, who have been stolen from and who are DYING AND BEING SLAUGHTERED especially.

also, the whole Palestinians being born thing i cant comment abt bc i dont know enough but again there are Palestinians NOT in Palestine (wow shocker i know) so like consider that great thanks

all my posts abt g*l gad*t, who i will say again i hate with my ENTIRE heart, for all u assholes who love to kiss hers, is NOT bc shes Jewish. NONE of my posts or the ones i reblog say anything abt her being Jewish. i HATE her and feel UNCOMFORTABLE seeing her on my dash bc she was INVOLVED and SUPPORTS the death of MY FUCKING PEOPLE. is that wrong of me?? btw thats a rhetorical question bc i dont care abt what u think and i will continue to hate and spread what she does.

anyways, idk why u brought Jewish people into this abt g*l gad*t when thats not even the argument!!!!! and please, read up a bit more b4 attacking me k. if u wanna kiss her ass go ahead but im not supporting a demon who wants me and my people dead so fuck u

and also 3 words for ya to educate urself a bit more: the Balfour Declaration.

#im so mad #im not explaining myself anymore to u guys #im so done #dont come back thanks #anti gal #palestine #long post #also ik the posts i have say zionists and thats diff to israelis who want us dead #and i dont use that term when describing those ppl if thats what bothers u sm #anon #tala gets asks

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