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Text messages between you & your f1 besties pt. 4

Summary: Just random dialogues between you & your f1 besties + your crush. Friends in question: Charles Leclerc, Lando Norris & Max Verstappen Note: Eventually the boys will take the matters in their own hands since it hurts physically to watch you (be so chaotic). Part 4 of the non ending saga is ready ofc with more chaotic Y/N content + bonus part.

Y/N always fake flirting with Charles just to annoy him. It always works..

Lando receiving his daily dose of headache at 01:34 AM as usual nothing new really..

Gossip girls are just dirty minded. Nothing wrong with Y/N and Maxie at all?!

You believe me when I say Charles is sometimes done with Y/N? Unbelievable but true.

Y/N being Y/N

What do you mean you see someone Bob? You gotta be more specific about it!!

Nothing just Y/N flirting with her babygirl Max.

Tf you mean you don't love Y/N more than Carlos? Is that even possible?

Next target 👉🏼 Christian Horner ✔️shit happens - check

Steiner just don't know yet what he is getting himself into. Y/N is not the one to take a hint and get out of trouble. Hard to believe that Y/N is a troublemaker right?

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B o n u s :

random short insight into Y/N life with the boys:

„You are not going to do no such thing!” Y/N protested stamping her feet like a toddler, standing in the middle of the gaming hall.

“Why not? You like him, don’t you?” Charles grinned at Y/N widely. Y/N wanted to punch that smug grin off his pretty face. Y/N wanted to escape this very situation she was forced to be in, well sort of, so badly.

“Don’t grin like the cheshire cat and stop talking nonsense. How dare you?!” Y/N smacked Charles arm. Charles rubbed his arm while trying not to burst laughing. She looked around. Nervosity took over Y/Ns every single cell. Y/N could not believe that her so called friends made plans with the most handsome and perfect f1 driver on the grid at a gaming hall and did not tell her. Out of million places, the gossip girls choose violence and took her to the gaming hall. Y/N was competitive af and hated losing. The last time she went to a gaming hall Y/N had entry ban for three months.

As Y/N wanted to protest again Lando and Max did their entry. Lando was smiling from ear to ear. What a dumb man Y/N thought, trying the urge to roll her eyes. As for Max, he had his nonchalant way of looking. Casually dressed, his hands in his pockets and smiling at Y/N. What a man Y/N thought. Her "I have a crush on Max Verstappen" vibe was visible from the moon. Awkwardly greeting both of the drivers Y/N wanted to run away. She could feel the elephant in her stomach, yes elephants no butterflies, period.

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“Y/N please calm down!” Lando laughed at Y/N. Y/N was horrible at racing games and currently she was losing miserably.

“I hate you all, how is this even a fair game? Racing with f1 drivers? What a fugging joke.” Y/N protested for the 100x time in the last five passing minutes.

“Since when do you care about fair play?” Charles mocked Y/N. Since I am terribly losing Y/N thought. She pointed Charles her favourite finger.

“Remember when you cold heartedly with a total serious expression explained me the rules to that one game wrongly so you could win?” Lando questioned with a fake disappointed look in his face.

“You did not!” Max laughed out loud. Laugh again you loser Y/N thought. It sounded like music in Y/N ears. What a beautiful man Y/N thought.

“It’s not my fault, it’s your own stupidity.” Y/N shrug and showed Lando her tongue. Y/N could see from the corner of her eye that Max was smiling while shaking his head. So pretty Y/N thought.

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“I knew that Y/N would find a way to get her ass kicked out again!” Charles laughed.

“Disappointed but not surprised…” Lando added shaking his head.

“I still don’t know how she managed to punch a hole into the fucking wall!” Max questioned with a slight surprise in his voice.

"It was an "inchident." Y/N replied. Gaining a burst of laughter from Lando, a death glare from Charles and a grin from Max.

pt. 1 | pt. 2 | pt. 3

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Writers note: I didn't want to let you wait for too long + I thought it would be fun to show short parts of Y/Ns life with the boys. What you do you think about it? Would you like it or no?

#f1 #f1 x reader #max verstappen #charles leclerc #lando norris #max verstappen scenarios #max verstappen scenario #max verstappen imagines #max verstappen imagine #charles leclerc scenarios #charles leclerc scenario #charles leclerc imagines #charles leclerc imagine #lando norris scenarios #lando norris scenario #lando norris imagine #lando norris imagines

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nymosity · 1 year

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secret crossing (first impression)

****Minors please scroll past this post. You have been warned! ***

Is anyone else playing this r-rated game?

Someone please take away my phone or at least sabotage my internet connection. I don't know what I downloaded here yet again but I'm very intrigued lol.

Somehow my love interests are some kind of humanized plants? There's a dominant heliamphora with a very sharp tongue (he's annoying af haha), a submissive cactus, a fragile skeleton flower (who seems unapproachable) and a passionate ivy. MC is working in a research lab and accidentally brings these needy creatures to life.

Apart from the female character (I'm straight as hell, so this one is just not working for me as LI) they all seem interesting. Especially Cereus. Ngl he's mighty fine... the voice actors also did a magnificent job. You won't be disappointed in that regard.

Did he really say that? Yes he did.

I haven't gotten any items yet and I'm too stingy to purchase some with diamonds but I'm very curious about this feature haha... so far all I can do is *touch* them.

As for gameplay: You can collect character cards which you will need to train/upgrade in order to complete missions and progress in the story. Getting cards seems difficult though. There doesn't seem to be any free draws (as in other games where you get a free pull every 24/48 hours), so I'm a bit worried this is going to be pay to play at some point. But we'll see. I'm determined to save all my diamonds for card drafts. You can of course buy some but you also get some for free by clearing stages, watching ads, winning PVP matches.

I'm just leaving the trailer here. Let me know your thoughts in case you are playing.

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#secret crossing #storytaco #otome #first impression

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killuababie · 4 years

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Hello!! i just found ur blog and i cant help but to fall in love w it🤧😍 can i request Karasuno,Aoba Johsai and Nekoma seeing their cute and shy manager kitten sneeze? like i would love to see them react in a certain way seeing their cute manager sneezing🥺 love ur writings btw💞💕💗💝💓💖❤️ oOoo and can i be 🌸 anon? hehe -🌸

Sneeze.

Paring: Karasuno x Manager, Aoba Johsai x Manager, Nekoma x Manager.

Summary: Manager with cute kitten like sneezes.

Type: Platonic Headcanons.

A/N: OFC YOU CAN BE 🌸 ANON!! I would love it! 🥺🥺 also this such a cute request, I loved it 🥺

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KARASUNO:

Y'all were having a normal ass convo until you sneezed

They all went like ":O that's one small sneeze"

Third years definitely found it cute but they had the most normal reaction

Kageyama always thought people lied to him when he heard about 'soft sneezes' according to him sneezes are supposed to be LOUD

He'd literally say sumn shi like "that's a weird sneeze" but he means no harm

Yachi would definitely, low-key have a gay panic moment because excuse you wHO ALLOWED you to be so cute????

Ik gucci boi's type is cute, so man's literally has a crush on you.

Also the fact you both have a shy personality, you both are literally together almost all the time.

The chaotic duo are literally praying the heavens for giving them such cute/sexy managers

Protect y/n bar: +100 points. Ik it's a weird ass meter but it's Karasuno

Whereas Tsukishima is literally judging everyone, like "...y'all really swooning over a SNEEZE???"

AOBA JOHSAI:

YOU LITERALLY SET OFF IWAIZUMI'S ALL PARENTAL INSTINCTS 😭

Since you're a shy person and Oikawa is an annoying bitch, he literally isn't even allowed to breathe near you

Why you may ask.

Once, Oikawa literally flustered you so much by flirting and showering you with compliments it sent you into an emotion overdrive

So yeah, Iwa had to help you out 😔

Iwaizumi: Breathe near Y/n and you're on SIGHT

Oikawa, terrified: Y-yes-

Hence, the first time you sneezed-

YOU KNOW THEY GONNA TEASE YOU FOR THAT😭

+ Iwa being stressed because every hoe out here be annoying af, except you.

Oikawa literally THINKS of teasing you ab it and BOOM MAN'S ACROSS THE ROOM

Makki and Matsun were gonna tease you but now they're like: 🤐

ALSO WHY IS KINDAICHI MORE FLUSTERED THAN YOU?? WE-😭

+ Kunimi is like 'imma sleep thru this shit😴'

+ Kindaichi thinking Kunimi died 😐

NEKOMA:

Nekoma probably had the most normal reaction.

You literally like the girl version of Kenma and they're like 'oh we got 2 Kenma's now :D'

They're used to Kenma so they're pretty much tame with you

Except that Kenma can definitely beat a bitch tf up if needed and you're a literal babie 🥺

DW they love their cute babie manager.

Since they already know you're a shy person, they know how to limit themselves.

Also, whenever y'all go out of the school for matches they stick with you like glue because some settings are too hard you to overcome

Like asking for extra ketchup at McDonald's. Dw we all hate it 😔

So the first time they hear you sneeze-

Kuroo: OMG YOU SNEEZE LIKE KENMA :O

Kenma: Why are we talking about me?

Kai, being the angel he is🥺: Bless you y/n, here have a tissue🥰

Lev: Omg your sneeze is so smo- OW YAKU-SAN THAT HURT

Yaku, being the protective bby he is: SHUSH YOU'LL JUST EMBARASS HER

They get used to it already and you're definitely thankful for that.

OH RIGHT!! You're the only person who is allowed to play Kenma's games other than Kuroo

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thran-duils · 3 years

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Use All of Me (P.9)

Title: Use All Of Me (Part Nine) Summary: Fem!Reader x Dark Mob!Steve Rogers. The Avengers are heroes saving the world but in this AU, they are also permitted by the powers in charge to have less than favorable business underneath their guise of mere superheroes. Steve and Tony are at the helm, keeping their empire’s wealth in check, both devious and perilous if crossed. Steve takes a liking to the reader at a party and it may be her undoing to her autonomy choosing to go home with him. Words: 2,440 Warnings: Dark AF, angst, emotional/mental abuse, smut, breeding, death

Part Eight || Part Ten || Masterpost (mobile) || Fanfic masterpost

Steve was downstairs in the Avengers compound working on something with Bruce. He would not tell you what it was, but you had a feeling it had to do with their drugs. You had overheard him on the phone, which confirmed that they were involved with shady business. He had left you upstairs, letting you mill about on your own. It was nice to be out of the house. You had taken the opportunity to walk outside along the waterfront. It was tranquil by the water away from the building. You wished you had brought some bread to feed the ducks.

Instead of taking the elevator, you had elected to take the stairs back up to the communal areas of the facility.

When you arrived back in the main room, you were breathing heavier than normal. You were already getting winded far easier now, which was annoying. Bucky was in there now and he noticed your discomfort when you walked in. You tried to look normal, but he had already seen it.

“Y/N, here,” he said coming over to you and putting an arm around your shoulder to lead you to the couch. “What happened?”

“I took the stairs,” you told him, laughing uncomfortably. “Not boding well for at home… staircases and all.” You let him sit you down.

“You cut your hair,” you said to Bucky, giving him a small smile.

He ran his hand over his far shorter hair, returning the smile. “You like it?” You nodded. “I was getting tired of the upkeep. Far easier to manage in the shower now.”

Your own hand ran over your stomach – a habit that was becoming common – as you chuckled. “I can imagine. It does look suave though.”

“That’s what I am always going for,” Bucky said jokingly. “Do you want some water?”

“Sure.”

He fetched you some and the two of you made small talk until your breathing and heart rate was back under control.

“I do feel I should work out more. Steve has a gym. I just have only been using the treadmill.”

“You think anything more than a treadmill is smart the further you get into this?”

“People work out all the way up to giving birth,” you told him. “But I’m sure I’ll need to get the okay from Dr. Kamal before Steve agrees to any strength training or the like.”

You stood up to return the glass to the bar, Bucky watching you with caution. You walked past him, stretching out your legs. On the way back to the seating area, you passed the table. It was glowing around the edges and you frowned slightly. Curiosity got the better of you.

Your fingers ran over the table and as Bucky warned, “Y/N, don’t—" suddenly a hologram popped up. You jumped back seeing all these equations you did not recognize. Bucky sighed, pulling you away from it just as a door slammed down the hall and loud voices echoed down the hall to the room the two of you were in. Tony stormed into the room with Clint on his heel.

“I don’t give a shit who gets the blowback! I almost got fucking SHOT, if you happened to miss that!” Tony was practically shouting.

Clint started, “I get that, Tony, but—”

“Who touched that?” Tony barked, turning an accusing look at you and Bucky, cutting Clint off.

The way Bucky slightly stood in front of you, sheltering you from Tony’s melting glare was all he needed. He advanced on the two of you and Bucky pushed you even further behind him.

“The next time you put your hands on something that doesn’t belong to you, I’ll put a bullet between those pretty eyes!”

“Tony!” Bucky barked at him now, standing his ground. “She just touched the table as she was walking by. She wasn’t snooping. Back off!”

Straightening up, Tony had a stare off with Bucky, the tension in the room thick.

Tearing his gaze away from Bucky, Tony told you, “Sorry. I’m not frustrated with you.” He whipped around and looked at Clint again. “Who I am frustrated with is that idiot.” He clicked something on the table, turning it off, the hologram disappearing.

“You already killed him,” Clint pointed out. “I don’t know what more you want to do to him.”

“Defile the body? Chop it up?” Tony suggested wildly as he strode over to the bar. He grabbed a bottle of Wild Turkey and poured himself a healthy amount. He took a long drink before smacking his lips and leaning on the counter. The other three of you were watching him with unease, wondering what he was going to do next. After a few moments, he looked up and demanded, “Where the hell is Nat?”

“She was making sure the shipment got through,” Clint answered.

“I know that,” Tony said strained. “But where is she now?”

“Hopefully on her way back.”

“What happened?” Bucky finally ventured to ask.

Tony snarled, “Adrian was trying to get some revenge. We gave him a fucking chance to work for us and he decided that wasn’t going to work for him. Well, now his face is kicked the fuck in, thanks to yours truly. You know, I am ready to just wipe out the rest of his stupid little shit stain of a crew – his fiancé included because if that little bitch tries to squeal—”

“Tony,” Clint said sharply, catching his attention. “Y/N doesn’t need to hear shit like that.”

Waving at you wildly, Tony snapped, “She’s in it now. She’s gonna hear shit sometimes. Right, sweetheart?” He directed the last at you and your mouth fell open, unsure of what he wanted you to say.

“Um, yes?”

“Right. See, Clint? I’m sure Steve has said some shit in front of her too. It happens. I’ve done it to Pepper plenty of times. They’re the side pieces. Which is why his bitch needs to get gone. Now. She’s a liability.”

Bucky tried this time, “We can talk about that later. You just need to relax. Have some more whiskey.”

Tony shook his head at them trying to shut him up, but he did all the same, taking another large gulp of his whiskey.

You sat back down slowly, resting back on the couch, taking in what you had just heard. You knowing even the slightest about their operation made you a liability apparently. It made whatever Bryce said the other day truer: you would have the whole team after you if you tried to leave and they would want to find you because they would not want you to talk about anything. It compounded the risk of running away.

Tony refilled his glass and came over to the couch, sitting down near you. “You mind if I turn on the TV?” You shook your head and he chucked you underneath the chin. “Good girl. I just need to watch some people knock the shit out of each other. There was a fight card last night and I missed it.”

Natasha appeared, closely followed by Bruce and Steve. She looked upset and Tony held up his finger. She stopped, narrowing her eyes at him.

“Uh uh. The three here got me calmed down, stopping me from exploding my artificial heart. I need a few. Just tell me yes or no, did the shipment go through?”

“Yes.”

“Perfect. I will discuss the bullshit later. I need a little bit of time before we plot on the next move. Actually, if you have questions, Barton or Barnes can take you out into the hall and give you the basics of what I want to do. Y/N and I can sit in here and watch Holloway hopefully knock this joker out.”

You locked eyes with Steve and gave him a slight shrug, sinking back down into the couch. His hand rested on your shoulder as he leaned down to give you a kiss on the top of your head.

“I’ll be back then, love,” he said before following Bucky out of the room.

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‘This is going to be your favorite!” Yua announced.

“Is it from you then?” you teased.

Natalie and Yua had arranged a baby shower for you. When they brought up the idea, you had proposed to Steve it be done here at home. He was more receptive to the idea presented that way. You had pushed your luck, suggesting he should not be home while the party was going on, mentioning it was a baby shower, typically for the ladies. You believed he was relieved you were excited about the idea at all, extending it towards the idea of being a mother, because he agreed quite heartily.

He was not quiet about it to the team, and you found yourself having three more guests added to the list: Natasha, Pepper, and Wanda. You were surprised at Natasha, she did not seem the type to enjoy such a get together but you kept that to yourself. She had been enjoying herself well enough, passing Natalie, exchanging looks.

Your friends insisted on you staying upstairs while they decorated and only allowed you to come down once they were finished.

Yua smirked, “Maybe.”

You laughed in return, opening the gift, the one of many more to go.

A little while later, you managed to pull Natalie aside while everyone was distracted with passing out prizes for a game. She followed you away from the room and let you lead her to the bathroom. You closed the door behind the two of you and turned around quickly.

“Can I use your phone?”

“Sure,” Natalie said, looking at you curiously but handed it over.

Googling, you tried to see the time it would take if you were to follow through with what you wanted to do. In seconds, your hope was dashed.

It was three hours at least – and that was with good traffic – to Grand Central Station. There was no way you would be able to get there in time before Steve realized you were missing. Even if you managed to knock Bryce and Patricia out with sleeping pills, Steve would more than likely check in and see them unresponsive.

You numbly handed the phone back to Natalie.

“What’s wrong?” she asked, seeing the look on your face.

“It’s nothing.”

“Y/N.”

Tears welled up and you wiped at your eyes, shaking your head. “If I tell you it will wrap you into it and I don’t want that. I don’t want you to be unsafe.”

She grasped your shoulders and forced you to look at her. “Y/N,” she repeated. “What’s wrong?”

“I just…he – Steve – wants 5 or 6 kids,” you told Natalie tearfully. Her eyes widened in shock and you hissed, “I know!”

“He said that?”

You nodded. “I haven’t even had the first two.”

“Did he even ask you what you thought about it?”

You shook your head now. “Of course not.”

Natalie’s shoulders fell and you sighed heavily, wiping at your eyes again, “He loves me. I know he does in the form he believes it to be true. But it’s… it’s suffocating. I can’t eat anything not approved for my health by my nutritionist and the babies healths. I didn’t have any say in that, he made that decision for me. I don’t leave without him and if I want to, I have to tell him where I’m going so he knows where to go if something ‘goes wrong’ and he can find me quickly. I’m afraid to google anything that might be suspicious because I’m afraid he’s going to ask to check my phone. He hasn’t ever but the fear is there if he ever got suspicious, you know?”

Slowly, Natalie said, “No. I don’t know. that’s not normal, Y/N.”

“Right. And I mean, he forced me to move in with him, sell my apartment, he quit my job for me—”

“Hold on. He did that?”

“Yes.”

“I thought you wanted that.”

“Are you joking me? I told him I could work. I’m pregnant, not disabled I believe were my exact words. And he said he didn’t want me working and I was going to end up not working at all anyway if I was with him.” Natalie rose her eyebrows and you shrugged helplessly. “I…I wanted to leave. I asked Bryce – my security – first and he told me he wouldn’t help me and made me promise I wouldn’t try to leave. So, then I wanted to take a train. Somewhere. Anywhere. It would be hard to track a train route if I took someone’s ticket at the station rather than being on camera and buying my own. I could manage on my own. Find a church to take me in and I could work to make up for their hospitality. I don’t know. That’s why I wanted to see your phone. See how far away it was.”

“That doesn’t sound like much of a plan, Y/N.”

You burst into tears and she immediately grabbed your shoulders. “Y/N, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude.”

“It’s not rude, it’s true. I’m… fucked!”

“If you’re that miserable—”

“I’m not miserable all the time,” you cut in.

“But you want to leave.”

“Yes, but more so I want to be able to breathe! If I could just do that…” you breathed shakily. “If he gave me space, I would be satisfied. I would be okay being with him. I just don’t see it happening… and I hate it because I still want it to work as I want to run away at the same time.” Rubbing your stomach, you looked around the bathroom. Sniffling, you said, “All the baby gifts are so nice. I could make the best of this.” You cradled your stomach closer, and said, “You don’t have to say it. I know you warned me. I was just smitten… so very smitten. And he was so sweet. I didn’t care about the danger.”

Natalie pulled you into a tight hug, cradling you close, electing to stay quiet.

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Outside the bathroom window, Natasha ground her teeth. She had been doing rounds around the grounds, wanting to get air from the tittering women inside. The bushes had done enough to hide her from sight. She heard Y/N and Natalie speaking and gotten curious why they were both in the bathroom. When she was able to hear clearly, Y/N was talking about having to sell her apartment because Steve ‘forced’ her too.

Natasha left the bushes when they fell silent, careful to not make any noise.

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kurogiriis · 4 years

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Hi! Can I request HCs or scenario or whatever’s easier for you, for Shouji, Kirishima and Shinsou with a Plus Sized best friend who they adore and want to make their GF but she’s oblivious AF? Or rather, she’s not and she just thinks that she’s not good enough and would rather keep the friendship. Tysm

A/N: OMG I LOVE THIS REQUEST!!! This ended up slightly very angsty specially with kirishima’s and I just want you guys to know, DON’T THINK THIS WAY!!!! Y’all are beautiful regardless of how you look and I know this sounds hella cheesy and overused but what matters is what’s inside <3 What’s the point of looking stereotypically good/hot if you have the personality of a fish? besides, most mainstream ideas of beauty are based on unhealthy European standards that completely disregard POC and other ethnicities so we should ignore them anyway. On another note, now I really want to write some bnha x confident Plus Sized reader so if you guys would be interested…. ;)

Shouji, Kirishima, and Shinsou with a plus-sized S/O who thinks they’re not good enough.

Shouji Mezou

💙 You and Shouji had been close friends even before getting into U.A.

💙 You guys went to the same elementary and middle school and wanted to be heroes together.

💙 After getting into U.A., you were both really happy for each other, glad you got to go on this journey together.

💙 He was always very supportive and always followed you whenever you had a “crazy idea.”

💙 You guys had some sort of bond over being teased for how you looked.

💙 To put it simply, little kids were ruthless.

💙 Mutant quirks were thought of as “weird” and you were constantly harassed for your weight.

💙 Neither of you cared about those sorts of things so you became close right away.

💙 With all those years of friendship under your belt, it was not a surprise when he started developing feelings towards you.

💙 However, you were very oblivious to any advances he tried to make, always dismissing them with the excuse that it was because you were so close.

💙 After all, why would he date you?

💙 There were plenty of better looking people at U.A. that would make for a worthier s/o.

💙 After his continuous advances and your oblivious responses, Shouji was tired.

💙 He decided to give up and give you a proper confession, understanding that you just couldn’t take a hint.

💙 “...I like you, y/n. Would you ever want to go out with me? On a date?”

💙 Once he was done, you thought he was pulling a prank.

💙 “You’re kidding right?”

💙 “Why,” he looked hurt and perplexed, “Why would I be kidding?”

💙 He thought you were rejecting him.

💙 “I just don’t understand why you would want to go out with me. Have you seen me?”

💙 At that point, you broke down into tears.

💙 Shouji opened his arms and pulled you into a tight hug.

💙 “Of course I’ve seen you,” he said pulling back a little so that he could look into your eyes; “You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met.”

💙 With that, you pulled him into a kiss, connecting the space between you.

💙 “So, I’ll take that as a yes?”

💙 “Of course!”

Kirishima Eijirou

❤️ You met Kirishima after being paired for sparring during one of your classes and you guys clicked right away.

❤️ Your personalities just matched, and you became friends right away.

❤️ Thus began your descent into madness.

❤️ You couldn’t help it; you were deeply in love with your best friend.

❤️ The worst part was, you weren’t even his “type.”

❤️ Although there were the occasional moments where you thought he was flirting with you, the long glances, the lingering touches, the occasional blushing comment.

❤️ You knew about his past s/o’s and his obsession with “manliness,” and, you had decided, you were nothing like that.

❤️ Just look at yourself, you thought while picking at your body in front of a mirror.

❤️ Everything was just so wrong.

❤️ You picked at the skin on your arms, hips, belly, and thighs. He would never go out with me, would he?

❤️ As you wallowed in your thoughts you heard someone knocking on the door to your dorm.

❤️ “Y/N? Are you in there? I brought my switch.”

❤️ You had forgotten. Kirishima was coming over to play video games.

❤️ As you stood up from your bed, a few unnoticed tears that had pooled in your eyes trickled down your cheeks.

❤️ “Just a minute!” you said as you wiped your eyes.

❤️ As you opened the door and Kirishima saw your face, his bright smile faded a little.

❤️ “What’s wrong? Why were you crying?”

❤️ You assumed your eyes were red.

❤️ “Oh, it’s nothing Kiri, don’t worry about it.”

❤️ “You sure?”

❤️ “Yeah.”

❤️ You guys settled on a comfortable silence as you sat next to each other on your dorm room floor and played video games for the rest of the afternoon.

❤️ Much to Kirishima’s surprise, you beat him in all your races in Mario Kart.

❤️ After accepting his defeat, he decided to take advantage of how much fun you two had and pry a bit further.

❤️ “Y/n,” he said as he looked at you.

❤️ “Hm?”

❤️ “Why were you crying?” he asked softly, shifting to be a bit closer to you.

❤️ “It’s stupid.”

❤️ “It’s not stupid if it made you cry.”

❤️ You ended up explaining your insecurities while still making sure not to spill anything that would hint at your feelings for him.

❤️ Throughout your one-sided discussion, you could see a range of emotions on his face, anger at anyone who bullied you, sadness that you actually believed them, and frustration at how he hadn’t noticed or done anything to assure you otherwise.

❤️ “Y/n, I can’t believe you’ve felt like this whole time.”

❤️ “Sorry for telling you, you must think I’m annoying.”

❤️ “Don’t apologize,” he said, looking at you with determination; “You are so much more than what you look like and you should never let anyone influence you into thinking otherwise.”

❤️ He took your hands and continued.

❤️ “Y/n, I honestly can’t believe you could come to believe that. I mean, have you seen yourself? You’re one of the best looking people in our class, no, all of U.A.!”

❤️ “You’re just saying this to make me feel better,” you said; “it’s not like you’d ever date me,” you added quietly.

❤️ “Not like I would date you?” he asked bewildered; “I’ve had the biggest crush on you ever since we got paired up for that assignment at the start of the school year! Y/n, how can’t you see it?”

❤️ Your world suddenly stopped. He liked you back.

❤️ Quickly, you pulled the redhead into a tight hug.

❤️ “I like you too, Kiri.”

❤️ You still had a lot of insecurities to deal with, but you knew Kirishima would always be at your side to help you combat them.

Shinsou Hitoshi

💜 Ever since the sports festival, you were interested in Shinsou.

💜 His dedication regardless of what anyone told him was inspiring, and you decided you wanted to become friends.

💜 Although he ignored you at first, arguing he wasn’t there to make friends, he ended up turning around and you guys became pretty close.

💜 You always hung out with each other and he slowly began catching feelings for you.

💜 However, no matter how much he tried, you never noticed his subtle moves.

💜 Shinsou was tired of waiting and, being the forward person that he is, decided he would just tell you outright.

💜 You were studying for one of Cementoss’ impossible math quizzes in his room when he forcefully closed his book, catching your attention.

💜 “Shins-”

💜 He cut you off before you could finish your question.

💜 “Y/n, will you go out with me?”

💜 You could feel your heart behind your ears, beating so hard that even Shinsou could probably hear it.

💜 “But you could do so much better,” you said cheerlessly.

💜 “What?”

💜 “I’m serious Shin,” you said finally looking up from your notebook; “just look at me, you could do so much better.”

💜 Shinsou was speechless. He couldn’t believe such words could come out of your mouth.

💜 “You’re mocking me, right? If you don’t want to, it’s fine, I understand.”

💜 “It’s not that, Shinsou.”

💜 “Wait, you’re serious?”

💜 He stood up and walked over to your side.

💜 “Y/N,” he said, looking deeply into your eyes; “you have the best smile, and the best laugh, and the best style, and the most beautiful eyes, the softest looking hair, the-”

💜 “Shinsou stop,” you demanded, blushing.

💜 “My point is y/n, I don’t care if I can do ‘better’, I don’t want to. I want to go out with you.”

💜 “Shin-”

💜 “And I don’t care what you say. If you don’t want to go out with me because of me, it’s fine, but if it’s because you don’t think you’re good enough then I don’t want to hear it.”

💜 With that, you pulled him into an embrace trying to hide away your tears.

💜 “Thank you.”

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milks-writings · 4 years

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hiii could i get hcs for the karasuno boys where their s/o runs and cries with them after they beat shiratorizawa? 🥺🥺

I really hope you like those, anon!If you feel like something is missing out, I would love to know what :)

☆*.:｡.✿ Headcanons:

Karasuno winning against Shiratorizawa and crying + cheering with their S/O:

Daichi Sawamura:

he always practiced so long you got worried

but in the end, it all paid off

because they won???

You two are in s h o o k

It takes you a few seconds to realize what happened—

He always dreamed of this and you are so proud omg

You both end up hugging each other and just crying

After all this was his last year and he really trained hard to get this far

„I can‘t believe we have gotten so far“ he is so soft omg my bby

After the match, you two decide to go to a date and celebrate the win

Kōshi Sugawara

He always practiced even though he wouldn‘t play probably much, but you were glad that he kept up his hopes because you know how insecure he might be

In the end, they made it

They?? Made?? It??

He didn‘t do much while the game, which makes you a little unsure if he actually thinks he deserves it

But seeing him cry proves you wrong

„Koshi!“ hugging him, he hugged you tightly back and you two are just h a p p y

„we actually made it y/n“

„I am so glad you finally won, after all those years!“ You cheered, then pulled away to give him a small kiss on his cheek

Even though he didn‘t play very often, you were glad that he got to play at least once

Now they were going to the nationals and you both were excited as ever

Asahi Azumane:

Since he is also really insecure about being the ace, he also practiced always really much and sometimes asked you to help him

On the game day you thought he would pass out before going on the field because he was so nervous

but as they won

Your teddy bear is so happy slajfly

He cries

Well everyone does but still

After running over to the ace and hugging him, he just kept on ranting about how happy he was to finally win once

He is a little insecure so you keep telling him how much he deserves to win now, after all they have been through

And soon he just stops being insecure and just keeps crying

You two probably cry the most because you don‘t want the other to cry but you are softies for each other-

After the match, you would definitely cuddle the whole evening and you would tell him how good he was on the field to make sure he wouldn‘t get too insecure again

Yū Nishinoya

He never doubted himself

like he was always like

„I WILL WIN ASLFJA“

And they did win

Smoll boy is happy af

I mean who wouldn‘t be

You two just hold the hands of each other and tell how the game went and how they ended up winning

„and then the ball went woosh and you won!“ you told him excitedly, while he just nodded in agreement, adding then

„and the ball totally went like that and they looked to surprised“

„and you just stood there with confidence like yes we won“

you two keep talking until someone finally interrupts you

and you also cried until you wouldn‘t stop talking

He would walk around the room and just tell everyone that his s/o got him a lucky charm and that‘s why they won

Afterward he would brag so much about winning omg it got kinda annoying at some point but at least he is confident

Ryūnosuke Tanaka

He always practiced with you and Yuu

You set him the ball and he would smash it in, while Yuu tries to hold the ball above the floor

As they win you run over and his sister does as well

Tanka almost run over you boy was so happy

He was never so happy in his life (okay as you two started dating he was just as happy)

His sister praises him so much and you do too

He is still kinda baby after all

He just teases Tendou how they won and Tendou is like ‚ok and?‘

He is so childish but you are too hhhh

Stops crying after seeing you cry and says things like „issa ok don‘t cry“

He cries after that again

totally takes his shirt off only to get hit by Kinoshita

Chikara Ennoshita

HHHHH

He is so insecure :(

„no no you did great!“„really? I literally do not deserve this because I did nothing-“

You keep reassuring how much he deserves winning against Shiratorizawa

And he ends up actually being happy about the win because he got his s/o here and won

You make sure to boost his ego the whole evening

Hugs you after stopping to cry and finally gets to think properly

„I am so glad that we won“

„I am too“ you only melt into his touch even though he is sweaty and eww

At the end you two decide to go to a small date hehe

Hisashi Kinoshita

He always practiced his serves so often until his hand would literally burn from how often he hit the ball

And even if in the end he didn‘t get to do many serves, he was glad to at least get one or two

If they win you all are like ?????

You totally are hugging each other till you get tired, or even longer

He was so anxious you thought he would pass out while the game

He is always so insecure and scared about not being enough and now they won and go to the nationals?

If you cry, he cries as well

Even though he only cheered at them, he is so happy and like „yes we won“

Would totally go with you to a fancy restaurant to celebrate

Or you just go to the grocery store because boi doesn‘t have much money with him

Kazuhito Narita

He usually isn‘t really childish but this time he just couldn‘t help and jump around after winning

Might crush you with his hugs

He doesn‘t cry very much but after seeing you cry he does as well

„WE DID IT ASFJA“

You might get deaf after his screams but its worth it

After he finally let’s go he just takes it all in

„Uh are you fine-

„yES I AM“

He is totally not fine and all excited lmao

Tobio Kageyama

He barely got to sleep the night before so you had to calm him down

But once he was on the field he was totally himself

His sets were better than you could remember

And as they won you totally embarrassed him

„TOBIO YOU WON AOJDSFLY“

Everyone looks at you in confusion and he blushes

Ends up hugging you because he doesn‘t want you to see him crying

„YOUR SETS WERE SO AMAZING“

He gets even more embarrassed

„Of course we won, they have me after all in the team“

„YES I AGREE“

blushes even more

You might have broken him but it’s okay

Shōyō Hinata

He never thought he would make it this far, especially with his height

But as the day against Shiratorizawa came he was fire and flames for it

You thought he was nervous?

Yes, he was.

He almost threw up

But as they ended up winning

IT WAS SUCH A MESS WITH YOU TWO

You just jump around and cry in happiness while telling each other how the game went

He is so sunshine

You might get blinded by how bright he looks

You end up showering him in kisses and he gets all proud again

All in one I would rate the way you treated each other after the game as a good 11/10

Kei Tsukishima

He wasn‘t nervous at all honestly

He thought they would loose but as they won he was like ??? How???

He wouldn‘t cry honestly but be all frozen until you come up and hug him

„YOU DID IT“

He finally realizes what happened and nods a little „stop hugging me, I am sweaty and that’s disgusting“

damn he is still salty af

But after you two would be alone he would shower you in kisses and tell you how he felt after winning

He just doesn‘t want to show how soft he is for you or else he will get teased by the team

Ig he would cry after the match with you

Tadashi Yamaguchi

AOSJFLYJYSFE

Ok, first of all, he is also really nervous, especially once he had to do the serve

But after seeing you in the crowd cheering for him he would finally calm down

After it got announced that they won he cried immediately

After you came down he hugged you even though he was all sweaty

„we actually won“

alesjfysf I love him :(

„You did amazing, Tadashi!“

you keep praising him and he is so flustered by your sweet compliments

„C-can we get french fries?“

after the match, you got him french fries and you just kept telling each other how nice the match was

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu!! x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #haikyu headcanons #haikyuu x you #hq x reader #hq!! x reader #hq x you #hq headcanons #hq!! headcanons #karasuno #karasuno headcanons

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beecherdrysdale · 3 years

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Hi bbs, we are back for another part of greece:) also if Quinner and Jamie could come real quick, I need cuddlessss

Brigid I’ve been having constant baby fever after our convos so thank you :) like I just want all of that to happen lol.

Kesh- thank you for your your responses I don’t have much to add, but I loved all of it ! Also yes a red sundress would look gorgeous on you:).

Adding onto some thoughts:

- yes yes yes to the new chains. That photo of Quinner shirtless is on my mind constantly and this will be the look in Greece lol, and now we know that he does have a chain that he wears. It’s a silver chain for me, wbu?.

- beanie stealing will ofc happen. Like softest look ever esp with Jamie.

Now adding onto more thoughts hehe:

-yes to all of these soft moments. Like freckle tracing is just so cuteeeee. and ofc play w his hair cuz it is amazing. I ofc am honorary photo taker of Brigids cute moments with Jamie so lots of photos will be provided.

-hmmmm what if I want too..... like Jamie is down to makeout anywhere lol.

- hehe I’m still laughing, Jamie paying cozzy to sit with you. Hehe cozzy and devon are just vv chill and no action will be happening with them. Just a very quiet flight for those two. Kesh and Kirby are just not available to deal with us yet lol.

- hehe yes dyl better buy you food after the flight bc he’s heavyyyyyy. like I said before Jamie just gives ofc the biggest makeout vibes so ofc you gotta do it on the plane. hehe you gotta make sure that dyl, me, Quinner and Ryan are all occupied so we don’t see that. If dyl does see he’d be like no no no I can’t handle this right now. ‘Ummm Brigid maybe we shouldn’t bother bowen’ so Jamie keeps you calm. Which I love bc it’s so cute how you two help each other.

-hehe why do I see Peyton accidentally hitting dyl in the head while trying to give you a snack and we all quietly laugh bc Dylan’s still passed out and that it was a pretty hard throw.

-hehe yes. Like how is that possible to drink that much coffee and still sleep. Like he passes out 5 mins after take off. Okkk can I just say that I love rope bracelets so Quinner wearing one is just necessary. awww Brigid this made me melt, him pretending to sleep bc he’s enjoying it sm 🥺. hehe yes Quinner saved you with this one brigid bc I fidget a lottttt. ‘Lexi I swear if you kick my chair one more time’ ‘sorry brigid I’ll do something’ and I’m like what does that mean?.

I think we all want to see me slap Ryan awake. And he’s wake up so startled hehe. Yessss clear hair, pretty hair = happy life lol.

First night in Greece:

- I see you brigid, going after but we both know you two are loudddddd hehe. Ok so I see Ryan starting the tag and him tagging Braden and then Braden tags me and we all just start running around. All of us are looking for you and Jamie but we notice that we can’t find you until we notice Jamie’s shirt on the floor. So we all just run away ‘here we go again guys’ ‘hey Peyton I dare you to walk in’ absolutely not does it look like I wanna see that’ ‘guys let’s just give them so privacy’.

- aw a slumber party would just be so fun. ‘I’m sorry what’s the point of hydrating your face lexi?’ ‘ what does that even mean. Wait I’m sorry do you not use moisturizer Ryan?’ all of us just watching movies and bonding. Also pillow fightttttt! It would become very intense.

- ok we must have a girls day in Greece. and yes we have moneyyyyyyy. ‘Wait has anybody seen Brigid?’ ‘Hmm no I haven’t’ and they all just start looking for us and we come back and are like seriously you guys?.

-everybody looks so hot in water so moments will be happening. ya Ryan try us.

Next day:

- Brigid I’m with you here I’m like constantly hungry lol. So we’d just eat a mountain of food. Ooo yess we need some energy after our eventful nights😏.

- ok cliff diving is so fun. hehe Jamie looking terrified but you just grab him and jump. the hype up would involve a lot of slapping imao. haha ok if you’re not marco the entire time. I think I’ll go w dyl bc I wanna bond with him lol. The boys need your help bc swimming is hard. And then Jamie can piggy back you out of the water. And cuddle with you on the beach.

- awww I love this, holding hands while scuba diving. hehe yes I wow you all with my not forgotten guitar skills. ‘Please dyl can I try’ ‘no I’m scared you’re gonna drop my guitar in the water’ ‘I promise I won’t’. Lol this was random. actually a song i know how to play on guitar is Our last summer from mamma mia so we can all sing that :). I love cuddling our bbs on the boat.

- awww I love Jamie finding your wallpaper and him asking that in the most soft voice ever 🥺. And ofc some kisses will be exchanged. vv cute moment all together.

- we’d have the most chaotic moments at night while we are tipsy lol. Like some would try to race up the stairs and fall. Some dare each other to jump over stuff.

-so after dinner we just encounter a live band and see some people dancing and it’s pretty out with lights everywhere. ‘Hey bb wanna dance with me?’ And ofc you agree so you two take off to dance. Aww you tucking you me face into his chest🥺 and he just tightens his grip on your waist. Kesh and Kirby are #couplegoals they are the best dancers out there. hehe ofc Quinner is slow, but then he realizes that he wants to dance like that as well so he asks me to dance and we have a cute dance as well.

Next dayyy:

Hehe yes me and Ryan falling I feel like would be vv funny. It’s just all very sudden. imao you’re a hockey player it’s in your job description.

The chirps that would be happening ‘ hey brigid seems like you had an eventful night and he looks at your small hickey’ ‘ I saw a girl come out of your room this morning Cole. What are you doing trying to go through every girl in Mykonos by the time we leave’

‘I think by the time we leave there won’t be any more girls left.’ -Lexi.

Haha I would (no offence) totally abandon you to go play tennis with a pro. aww thank you for taking the photos. Lol everybody would just be confused on where I went for the afternoon.

Next day: I honestly think that for our final days of Greece we should just all be on the beach lol bc that is mostly what you can do there. Like all of us just bonding, playing volleyball, riding on jet skis, tanning, getting tipsy lol.

So now it’s travel day so we all head to the airport, chaotic as usual. And we are ready to board our flight to the beautiful ITALY 🇮🇹.

Get ready.

Sorry if this was kinda bad.

Enjoyyyyy

‘uhehe ok i’m finally responding, welcome to the last part of greece:) once again a longgggg post

okkk so before we start discussing the trip a couple random things:

yesss ik this was from a couple days ago when lexi and i both really needed cuddles but i’m always down for jamie cuddles, so quinner and jamie better come cuddle us real quick (also kirby better come for kesh)

haha sameeee i’m having such bb fever, i just want a bb jamie🥺

yes kesh ty for your responses i love them :) also you would look so cute in a red sundress

okkk adding on to random thoughts:

yesssss to chains, like that’s so hot. i love the quinner pic with the chain that we found lol. haha same silver chains>>>gold chains

awwww yes i love beanie stealing, it just seems so soft to me that you want to wear their clothes bc it reminds you of them🥺 and also bc it’s comfy lol

adding on to more thoughts lol:

awww yes freckle tracing is so soft, i love it🥰 and i just want to play with his hair, which is somehow amazing even tho he probably uses a 3-in-1. tyyy lexi for being our photo taker lol, i need you to send me the pics so i can put them as my wallpaper

lmaooo why do you feel the need to drag me and jamie into our discussion about you and quinner? it’s ok tho, this is true jamie and i are down to make out anywhere lol. we’ll find somewhere semi-private tho lol bc it’s kind of weird if you’re just making out in the middle of the airport

lmaooo i love that jamie’s literally paying $50 just to sit with me, like that’s kind of a lot of money lol. but then devon and cozzy are just chilling on the flight and just sleeping for most of it so their row is vv quiet. and kesh and kirby are just not at all ready to deal with our chaos this early in the morning lol

yes dylan you better buy me food, i’m hungry af and you’re heavy so i deserve it. hehe yes jamie and i have a little makeout sesh while dyl is asleep bc we know dyl would freak out if he saw lmao. but at this point idc if you and ryan see bc you’ll find a way to chirp us no matter what lmao. ‘ummm brigid let’s let bo sleep’ so he has to grab my hand or put his hand on my leg to stop my fidgeting🥺

lmaoooo dyl getting hit in the head with one of the snacks that was meant for me bc apparently peyton can’t aim. but somehow dyl doesn’t wake up lol

okkk yes quinner is somehow asleep 5 minutes after the plane takes off so lexi starts playing with his hair and his rope bracelet. and then quinner pretends he’s still asleep bc it feels good🥺 but thankfully he wakes up to stop you from fidgeting bc or else i’d end up punching you lmao

hehe yes ryan might get annoyed by you slapping him but it’s fine. and we’ll all be living our best life in greece lol

first nightttttt:

lmao noooo jamie and i are not that loud. hehe yep you guys just start a game of tag and just start sprinting around the hotel. hehe you come to my and jamie’s room looking to tag one of us and then you see jamie’s shirt on the floor and it’s just ‘hey peyton i dare you to go in and tag one of them’ ‘absolutely fucking not i don’t want to say that’ and then kesh is like ‘all right, let’s just give them privacy’ lmaooo

yessss a slumber party!! ‘what’s hydrating your face? like what does that even mean?’ ‘ummm do you not use moisturizer ryan? how is your face not completely dry?’ hehe yes we would watch a bunch of movies and stuff, but then we would have an epic pillow fight and i would be beating everyone up lmao

hehe yessss girls day in greece! and we have money so we can buy whatever we want

lmaoooo everyone looking for jamie and i and peyton finds us ‘ahhhh my eyes!!’ ‘seriously guys? again?’ hehe we would all be having hot water moments tho

next day:

haha we eat like the entire breakfast buffet at the hotel bc there are so many of us and everyone else at the restaurant is just like where’d the food go? hehe we need it for sustenance tho to make up for all the calories we burned😏

hehe yeah cliff diving is so fun, i have to pull jamie in with me before he backs out bc he’s scared lol. lmaoooo you and ryan and quinner have the best hype up before you jump. and then once everyone’s in we’re playing marco polo and i’m just destroying bc im good at swimming lol. haha then we have to send you and dyl to find the way back up while i help the boys swim lol. awww yes i love jamie piggybacking me out of the water and then cuddling with me on the beach🥰

awwww yes hand holding while scuba diving is the cutest. and then while we’re on the boat you can resuscitate your guitar skills for us ‘pleaseeee dyl i want to try’ ‘no you’re gonna drop it in’ ‘nooo i promise i won’t, just let me try please?’ so then he does and you wow us with your skills and we all sing along. and we’re just cuddling our bbs on the boat🥺

yesssss omg jamie just going to do something on my phone and then he sees i change my wallpaper and in the softest voice ‘i’m your wallpaper?’🥺🥰 and i’m like ‘yeah is that ok?’ and he’s just like ‘ofc’ and then soft kisses

lmaoooo yes we’re the most chaotic people ever when we’re tipsy. lol we’re all racing each other and daring each other to do stuff

awwww yes we see a live band so jamie asks me to dance ‘hey bb, come dance with me?’ in the softest voice, and ofc i say yes and i tuck my face in his chest while we dance🥺 and he just pulls me closer. and then kirby and kesh are somehow just amazing at dancing and perfectly in sync bc they’re like the perfect couple sooo. and quinner is just a bit slow on the uptake, but then he eventually asks you to dance and then you guys just have a cute slow dance and you’re playing with the little baby hairs at the back of his head if you know what i’m talking about

next dayyyyyyy:

lmaooo you and ryan falling down the stairs would be so funny, like one minute you’re walking and the next you’re just tumbling down the stairs. ‘you’re a hockey player it’s in your job description’ love that lol

lol the chirps that are happening ‘hey brigid and jamie looks like you had an eventful night’ ‘shut uppp cole, i saw another girl coming out of your room this morning? what, are you trying to get through every girl in mykonos before we leave?’ lexi: ‘i think by the time we leave there aren’t gonna be any girls left’

hehe yes lexi dips to go play tennis with the pros, but kesh and i come find you and we take photos for you

rest of the days:

we’re on the beach alllll the time, doing whatever, like volleyball, jet skis, tanning, just swimming, etc. and ofc getting tipsy

hehe our travel day is soooo chaotic again, but we somehow get our flight on time to go to italy

overall, i love all of this, it was amazing

#ask answered #anon answered #skating anon

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jaybug-jabbers · 3 years

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Pokemon Prism Review

Well I’m currently finishing up the post-game content of Pokemon Prism.

Dang.

What a fun game.

(what follows is an informal review of the game. it got a little long, lol. it has some spoilers for the game, of course.)

My background

To give you a quick idea on my perspective on Pokemon, I grew up with Pokemon Red on the big grey brick Gameboy. After Red, I pretty much stopped playing for many years. My little brother had a Gameboy Color and had Silver, but I never got one myself. Wasn’t ‘til years and years later I found some emulators and played through several generations of Pokemon at once. So, Gen 2 really isn’t nostalgic for me. It’s close enough to Gen 1 to hit some nostalgia buttons, though. I am admittedly somebody who feels Gen 1 is the best gen of pokemon. I don’t care of people laugh or say I’m a genwunner for believing that. Gen 1, I feel, had the raw creativity and charm of the original idea, and it simply sets my imagination alight far more than any other gen does. Those simple pixel designs for those little virtual creatures just opened up a world in my mind. THAT SAID, I did play and very much enjoyed all the other gens of pokemon. I do not shun things just because they are new, and I am not one of those people who says the new designs of pokemon are stupid. I adore plenty of modern pokes.

Blend of Old and New

Anyway! Pokemon Prism, for those unaware, is a ROM hack of Pokemon Crystal. It essentially delivers a brand-new Pokemon adventure for the Generation 2 games. It’s a really neat blend of classic gameplay and modern features. You’ll find species from modern games all the way from Gen 3 (such as Breloom) to Gen 6 (such as Sylveon) but their sprites perfectly integrate them organically into the Gen 2 environment. You’ll get many modern pokemon moves and conviences but also plenty of throwbacks to older experiences. Miss crafting pokeballs from Apricorns? It’s there. Enjoy a simplier time when there weren’t any Natures? Well, there ya go. Really want to call Joey and talk to him about his Rattata? Well, err, no, you can’t do that, but let’s face it, the telephone feature was probably one of the most hated features in Gen 2. :P

But Prism isn’t simply about updating Gen 2 with some modern pokemon, moves and game features. Not in the slightest. It’s full of original mechanics and gameplay concepts, and has tons of original areas and an original storyline. Pokemon is known for experimenting with new gameplay ideas, so it’s really fitting and enjoyable to see these take shape as you play the game. Mining and crafting is introduced in the game, for example, and there are a couple new pokemon types. There’s even a few sections where you can play as your pokemon, Mystery-Dungeon style. Do all of these experiments with new concepts work? Probably not ALL of them– when you try something new, not all of them will work out as amazing as you’d hope. But a lot of them are welcome and fun additions. And the game is bristling with these new ideas! It’s a joy to see so much creativity and novelty.

Sprites

It should be noted the spritework for these games is A+ and utterly fantastic. There is perhaps 3 or 4 out of dozens and dozens of new sprites that I thought were a tad off? Seriously, they look AMAZING and their animations are perfect and they fit in with the style so well I found myself briefly getting confused as to which were originally from Gen 2 and which weren’t. Saying these sprites are good is no small thing, because they are such a vital part of the game. The backsprites were not shafted, either– something even Gamefreak often shortchanged on back then.

Music

It should also be noted the music in this game is really damn good and has a huge variety. There are tons of classic songs, classic remakes of modern pokemon songs, remixes, and original tunes. There were like one or two tunes I was a bit iffy on, but considering that’s only a few out of so many, that’s impressive. The new bike music and Surfing music are probably my favorites, and they are SO GOOD, and those are especially important ones to sound good, because you typically hear those a lot.

Writing

The writing in this game is fairly solid. Not A+, but still not bad. It suffers occasionally from slightly rough and confusing grammar, and the climax of the story is definitely anti-climactic and very weak. In addition, the post-game story basically does not exist, but that can be excused since most likely more story was planned but they ran out of time. (C&D)

I also felt that at times, the story felt out-of-place within the world of Pokemon and went “too far” in the darker direction. The entire prison sequence, especially, and the frequent mention of inmates being mistreated, pokemon being abused, etc., just felt a bit much. Because this game was largely concerned with replicating the feeling of a true Pokemon game (some hacks intentionally focus on making a story that would never take place in the Pokemon world, like zombie survival horror stories or whatnot), I find it relevant to mention that. All of that said, though, its darker departures were at least not *too* extreme. We don’t get the very jarring and frequent problem of some ROM hacks where it’s full of cussing all the time or intense violence. Compared to those it’s still relatively subtle. And while the NPCs in this game I felt were rude a little too often, (holy crap, it felt like 95% of Naljo and Rijon were crankyass people) I do appreciate the attempts at making people a little more “real” and not quite so freaking happy and idealized all the time like Nintendo tends to do. The dialogue often made me chuckle. It did go a tad overboard with that “realness” (because, hey, a variety of people exist in the world, you know, both rude and polite, optimistic and bitter) but oh well.

So yes, the writing had its drawbacks. But overall, it felt like it was progressing a pokemon-style narrative with some interesting ideas, and wasn’t simply a dreary rehash of the same basic tropes Pokemon has been regurgitating for ages now. I just think if the writing were cleaned up a bit– the grammar cleaned up in a few sections, the plot threads clarified a bit more, and the climax reworked– it could take a “decent story” and make it a great one. There’s definitely some neat ideas there, it just needs polish.

Maps

As to the different towns and locations in this game to explore, there are many. This game is ambitious AF. As I said, it’s FULL of new ideas, features, things to do, and places to explore. Naljo is the region you explore in the main game, but post-game you can wander a whole new region of Rijon (the featured location of an older ROM hack, Pokemon Brown) and beat all the gyms there. In addition, there’s a few towns in Kanto and Johto you can visit (I believe they originally planned to open up all of those regions eventually), AND one town in ANOTHER new region, Tunod. The game’s ambitiousness occasionally outpaces what it delivers, but that’s quite acceptable in my mind, since updates with additions to the game were originally planned. So, yes, there isn’t much to do post-game, but that’s largely because a lot of stuff was going to be added.

Back to the locations, though! It’s an important aspect of ROM hacks. Not everyone is good at designing a good town, with logical building placement, intuitive layouts, aesthetically pleasing locations, and interesting things to explore so it doesn’t feel totally plain and lacks character. I’m pleased to say this game does a great job of it, though. I should point out I have a terrible sense of direction and bad spatial memory. Despite that fact, I found myself remembering important features and where they were located– oh, the Move Deleter house is in Phacelia on the left, the bullet train is in Torenia– and that’s a good sign. Physical travel was not a sloggy chore, and it wasn’t bogged down in a confusing layout. Towns were memorable and fun to explore.

Pacing/Level Curve

Another thing ROM hacks can screw up, because it’s a tricky thing to do, is the challenge pacing. How many trainers? What teams do they have? What levels? Are the Gyms challenging without being insane? I actually Nuzlocked the main part of the game. In my opinion it was well-paced. There’s probably fewer trainers overall in this game than a standard Pokemon game. But it did not take me much extra grinding in the grass– and I was only doing that to play it safe for the Nuzlocke. And that’s GOOD. You shouldn’t have to do tons of grinding in the grass all the time just to have a reasonable shot at the gyms. Pokemon Uranium, sadly, seems to suffer from that issue. So, yeah, the pacing was very reasonable to me, good balance of fair and challenging.

… with one important note. Once you reach the League? Well, we could have used higher-levelled wild pokemon in the cave that served as the victory road. The highest in that cave was level 34 or so, and you were facing trainers with teams ~level 55. That’s a huge gap. Not everyone has the same play style. Some people like to do extra grinding before the Elites. Some people are Nuzlocking and may do extra grinding as a safety buffer. Some people might want to adjust their team & add a new pokemon to their team and need to grind them up from a lower level. For those cases, you NEED decently-levelled wild pokemon to grind on. So, yeah, I really do think the Seneca Caves wild pokemon need a level buff. It would also help with the level gap for the post-game. Trainers in Rijon are suddenly at levels 70ish and higher, and for some folks playing, that’s a bit much and they’d like to do a little grinding first.

Puzzles

This game has puzzles. You have been warned, lol. Apparently a lot of people found the number of puzzles a bit frustrating, or felt that some of them were excessively tricky or annoying. I find it very funny, because usually puzzles are my least favorite part of a pokemon game. But I really enjoyed the puzzles in Prism and didn’t find it annoying or offputting at all. I was sick with a cold through most of my play of Prism, and yet even in my dumb brainaddled state, I didn’t find the puzzles too difficult. I solved them all at a pretty average length of time, even the ones some people traditionally found a little unclear or confusing. (the Ruins puzzle often confuses folks, apparently, but I really didn’t have a problem with it at all.) I was briefly confused on one of the switch puzzles (and it contained an element of bad puzzle design imo– there’s a gap that you can leap down into when normally a gap of that size just gives the ‘run into wall’ sound and is not passable) but not for too long. Even the ice slide puzzles, which I traditionally hate with a passion, were not bad!

All except for one thing. The Magikarp Puzzle. Anyone who has played Prism knows what I mean. Haha, fuck that puzzle man. Even the creator of the ROM hack himself has acknowledged the puzzle was not great, heh. To be honest, I find it kind of hilarious, in a way, though. I mean, obviously it’s a nightmarishly difficult and frustrating puzzle and is intensely exhausting to look at, let alone try to solve. But it’s also kinda glorious in its demonicness. I didn’t spend too much time on it before just looking up a solution to it. It’s tedious and not fun at all, and hey, that’s OK, because even the creator realized that.

pls nerf magikarp

But seriously, outside of the magikarp puzzle, I didn’t just enjoy the puzzles in this game– I felt like they were an important part of what gave this game its character.

Fakemon

There are even a few fakemon in this game! Which I was excited to learn because I thought there weren’t! All of the fakemon are Legenderies. Unfortunately, I don’t care for most of their designs. Like, at all. I think Varaneous and Libabeel’s sprites look really, really shitty. They’re ugly and don’t match the style of Pokemon at all. This feels weird to say, since I love so much about this game, but man, there’s just no way around it, I hate ‘em. Everyone has their own tastes, of course. There’s a couple fakemon I have yet to capture– I’m finishing that up now and the very very last of the post-game. But one fakemon I did capture and ADORE LIKE NO OTHER is Phancero.

I happen to know about Phancero’s designer, because I saw their design years ago. They apparently were approached by the team and were asked permission for the use of the design, which is awesome. I won’t rant again about Phancero here because I already ranted about it before, and literally could keep ranting for pages. :P But yeah, it’s a totally creative and awesome pokemon both in idea and execution, and by FAR my favorite fakemon ever created.

Conclusion

This is the best ROM hack I have played in years and probably ever. I haven’t played hundreds of ROM hacks, but I have probably played dozens over the years. I think they are a creative and wonderful expression of the pokemon community, but let’s be honest. There’s a lot of really bad ROM hacks out there. There’s even more ROM hacks that have a lot of potential but are never finished or anywhere near completion. (And that’s perfectly understandable. People run out of time, they have real life get in the way, etc.) The fact that not only did a ROM hack of this caliber get made, but was 95-99% completed? Is fantastic. It was an intensely massive project and I cannot begin to imagine how much work it must have been. Pokemon games are normally developed by an entire team at a company, and folks are paid to do it. The comparatively small team of devs who made this game in their spare time and implemented these amazing things had to do it all on their own. It’s no wonder it took as long as it did for them to finish it; and the amount of effort SHOWS. There is so much loving attention to detail and polish to Prism. (I mean, yes, there’s still some bugs and the occasional unfinished bits, but of course there are, those were going to be finished, but then the C&D hit)

Most ROM hacks are just strong in a few areas, because it’s one or two people who have strengths or interests in a few things. So, you’ll play a hack with a really good story but terrible fakemon and mapping, or you’ll play a hack with fantastic designs of new areas, but no new story, etc. Prism kinda has everything, though. It really did feel like playing a new Gen 2 game.

(It’s now almost 11pm and oh god where did the time go. I have a problem with being concise. :P This was far longer than I intended but thank you if you’ve read this far!)

This is a repost on a new blog. The original post was on Jan 17, 2017.

#pokemon #pokemon prism #pokemon fan games #pokemon rom hacks #mycontent #spoilers #pokemon reviews

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colourthestarts · 4 years

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The Bet

Miya Atsumu x Reader

By no chance in hell did you expect to spend you Saturday evening on a date with Miya Atsumu. Yet here you were waiting for the asshole himself who was by no surprise late. Well maybe not so much an asshole but a self-cantered prick. Just thinking how you got in this situation made your head spin. Why on earth did you take the bait on the bet?

To be honest the whole thing wasn’t even started by either of you. All you ever shared was some jokes, teasing and some occasional short arguments. It was during one of the breaks when the twins argued that the class conversation led to worst nightmares. Osamu quickly nagged at his brother. Some classmates included more serious fear such as dark spaces, the homeroom teacher, parents’ pressure to get married, being murdered. Others included funnier or banter ones which is where both you and Atsumu got in. It was the previous day that you refused ‘to be flexible’ around his volleyball practice when he asked if he can come in later for his meeting with the student body. So he called you stuck up and head strong. But it didn’t concern you too much. Tho that was exactly what came up on that day in his mind.

“Having to work with someone like y/n. God just being bossed around by her would kill me. She’s awful.” Atsumu sang while nagging you with a pencil in the bag. Why on earth did he sat behind you of all people.

“What about you y/n?” one of the classmates asked.

God you wish now that you did not overhear that during the last date Atsumu had, the girl began to cry. Because you answer was:

“Being one of those girls on a date with Atsumu. I heard the last one cried.” You replied while turning to Atsumu who had looked irritated af.

“That’s a bet then.” Osamu declared.

“Wait what?” Both of you simultaneously replied.

“Whoever losses their cool first wins. The looser has to comply to the bet.”

To your defence you agreed cause you really didn’t think that you’ll loose your cool before Atsumu. He couldn’t survive a lesson without complaining or, as so you heard, yelling at volleyball players for not keeping up with him. Yet his constant nagging with the pencil for the whole day was what made you grab it, break it and throw it to his face.

Just thinking about the embarrassing moment made you put your face in your hands to hide yourself from everyone. But you jerked them back when you felt someone else touched them. To no surprise it was Atsumu who was grinning with his dumb face.

“Ahh already embarrassed for what an amazing time you’ll have tonight? Don’t worry I don’t kiss girls like you.” Ahhh here it was. The first dig of so many you were going to g through tonight.

“Who’d want to kiss your ugly face. That’s why the last girl cried right?”

“Not at all! She cried cause … cause…”

“Cause you probably snapped at poor girl and humiliated her in front of the public. I can feel that’s my fate tonight too, but I don’t plan on crying. Sorry to disappoint.”

“I’m not that bad.” Atsumu pouted. “You’re the one who crossed the line. Threw a pencil in my face. It made a mark you know!” He added pointing to his face. And he wasn’t wrong. There may have been a tiny mark from the sharp end on his cheek.

“Sorry.” You mumbled.

“That’s barely an apology from you. You should make it better and -”

“-Buy you plasters.” You replied with a frown.

“-Blow it better.” Atsumu replied with a smirk.

“You can’t be serious.” You stated but Atsumu just leaned down to you and waited. “You are serious…”

“Absolutely. We’re not moving un-” But he was cut off when you leaned up and blew some air on the graze which made Atsumu to stop function. All he could register was the peach send from you.

“You’re happy now?” You mumbled without noticing how fast he turned away from you.

“Yeah. Let’s go.”

Majority of the ‘date’ was just casual chatting, going through shops and to the arcade where you won majority of the games. It also involved Atsumu taking a lot of selfies with you which he concluded as either part of the torture or evidence of the bet. But he did comment that you didn’t look too bad. Soon after that you went to watch movies and of course it was Atsumu’s choice as the bet winner. But of course, this fool, of all the amazing movies, had to pick a gory horror one. He also took salty popcorn. Disgusting.

It was thirty minutes into the movie that Atsumu finally took his eyes of the movie towards you and was taken by surprise when he found you looking down absolutely terrified. Despite that he wanted to torture you a bit during the date, tho that kept backfiring cause he kept just looking at you for no good reason, he deffo didn’t plan to make you terrified. This would be way worse than the last date. So he grabbed your attention by grabbing the popcorn bag from you, leaning down and whispering.

“This is boring, let’s go” You didn’t think twice to bolt outside and Atsumu was left for dust until he caught up with you. “Jezz since when do you move so fast…. You should of told me you were scared…”

“You’re blaming me for losing 10 years of my life just now?” You huffed while turning around and finally sitting down on a nearby bench. But Atsumu could tell you weren’t mad. Cause by now he knew that it went along with a massive frown with raised voice.

“I wouldn’t have picked it. Popcorn?” He was gad you took some. Although there was that comment again that salty popcorn was disgusting. “Bet that was your worst date.”

There was that look again that you missed the whole evening. The look that looked at you in a delicate way. But either one of you noticed.

“Nope. You’d lose that one. One guy took me to a horror house then ditched me in it. I got ghosted in the worst possible case.”

“What an asshole. Who was it?”

“Yeah… one of the guys from basketball club.” Atsumu pursed his lips.

“Your own fault.”

“Whatever.” You said while throwing some of the popcorn at him. “What about you then?”

“Deffo the last one.” Atsumu said while remembering the last date.

“No wonder. She cried. What did you do?”

“Nothing major. She kept asking me out for weeks. It was so annoying so I said yes. But she was so clingy and talkative. I couldn’t speak at all so I… kinda…”

“Snapped?” You finished with a cringed face. Ugh that sounded rough.

“Yeah.” Atsumu said while hiding his face in his hands. He still felt bad for the girl. But he couldn’t apologise. It was not his character.

“Not surprised. But don’t feel too bad. Her next date will definitely be better than you.” You ruffled his hair and stood up. “C’mon let’s go it’s getting dark. I don’t wanna get killed in a dodgy street with you. Being found mugged or stabbed.”

“I’d protect you!” Atsumu protested but nonetheless followed and put his arm around your shoulders. He noticed that you were just correct height for him. And he still didn’t mind the smell of peaches.

“As if.. you’d be first to run away like a coward. I should ask your brother out.” You insulted back but put your arm around his waist.

“How dare you! He would be way worse than me!”

“Doubt it.” You replied with an eyeroll which Atsumu didn’t like. He couldn’t accept it, but the idea of you hugging his brother instead of him really bothered him.

“You can’t cause we didn’t finish our date.”

“Seriously Atsumu it’s getting late.”

“We gonna have to go to movies next week to complete it then.”

“Are you asking me out?”

“No way! I’m taking my bet seriously!”

“Fine…”

And while you agreed giving up, Atsumu was already planning how to keep you from Osamu or any other guy.

Maybe invite you to a concert?

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu scenarios #miya atsumu #Miya Atsumu x reader

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dolcenco · 5 years

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Ay Mami Likes It Rough Pt. 3

Christopher Velez x Reader

Warning/s: SMUT AF

S/N: SOOOOOOO, for some reason t*mblr deleted the contents of this and im like???????? wtf duddddde why??????? i just added some tags what gave you the right to delete everything, if i didnt back this up from my drive id have to type everything back up from memory and scratch akhakhsakhs thank u almighty for back-ups

“Erick?”

“Que?”

“Why are there dicks on my tour publicity materials?” You watched him edit the publicity material due later over his shoulders.

You, Erick and Joel, were at backstage in the lounge room waiting until it was time for soundcheck. Erick was designing the concert edits after the short photoshop lesson you gave him, and Joel was reading mountains of fanfics on Tumblr with your phone.

The moment that seemed like a calm afternoon turned into a stressful one in minutes.

“Erick, No! We don’t put dicks on our tour edits!”

“(Y/n)! Do you have any more of those fanfictions?”

“Hold on, Curls. Gotta stop Erick from turning the edits into a dick gallery before I get fired.”

After a little game of tug of war and few sermons, Erick ended up messing with an old tour edit instead of the ones due. You let out a stressful sigh and plopped next to Joel on the couch. He didn’t even bother to acknowledge you as he continued to be engrossed by the content he was reading.

“How is it?” You asked, amused that he was enjoying the Marvel fanfics you suggested him to read.

“Did you know that people write about me?” He muttered, eyes still glued on the screen.

“What?” You asked and checked your phone.

Oh, so he wasn’t reading marvel fanfics.

“Oh?” You knew about them but he doesn’t have to know that you read them during your free time.

"Yeah, they were so good, I'm not even mad!" He gushed, pointing at the phone. "I mean, It was flattering. Weird, but impressive."

You just nodded in agreement, and let him continue to read when Clara, Richard, and Zabdiel finally entered the room with a bag of doughnuts, back in time for sound check.

“Clara have I ever told you that you’re an angel.” You thanked her as soon as you get your hands on the blessed doughnuts.

“Least I can do for babysitting the children.” She motioned at the two already stuffing their faces with food.

“Oh, you should see what Erick did with the edits.”

“No don��t show her!” Erick panicked, his mouth filled with doughnuts and hid your laptop behind him.

“Cla, where’s Chris?” Joel asked, and when Clara was about to answer, Chris walked through the door of the lounge with a smile the moment he saw you.

When you noticed him start to walk towards your direction, you panicked and quickly sat in between Richard and Zabdiel, “So, my favorite daddies, how are you?”

He stopped and shifted his direction to join Erick on the other couch instead, giving you one last look before turning to his best friend.

It had been two weeks since the jacuzzi night, and both of you had the most intense sexual tension in the air. Even other people could feel it. You’re afraid if Chris came any closer to you with his sensual touches, you’ll end dragging him to the nearest room for the 2nd round.

That night in the jacuzzi was undeniably the best sex of your life but when you reached your hotel room, realizations hit you like a ton of bricks. You were breaking the“no sex on the job” rule, and it was hard to follow through when Chris wanted to go for a second round. He didn't even try to hide it when he was around you and touched you more than he used to.

The hoe in knew that if you bite into the bait, it’d be the endgame for you, Chris and your career. Even the way you saw Chris changed. He was Chris “the skater boy who steals all my uwus” to Chris the “ Papi, bend me over and fuck me senseless” in a snap.

You distracted yourself and was teasing Rich and Zabdi when one of the photographers rushed into the room, panting then sighed in relief when he saw you.

“(y/n)! I need you!” He asked if you could fill in the spot of one of the photographers for the show tonight, and once you agreed, he proceeded to orient you on the key placements for later.

As you both were reviewing, you both feel arms draped around both of your shoulders.

“What are you guys doing?”

Your body stiffened when you realize it was Christopher.

“Talking about the key spots for later, any suggestions?” The photographer asked and showed him the venue layout.

“Maybe have angles coming from this side…”

You tried to focus on the game plan, but can’t help notice Chris’ hand hanging dangerously in front of your chest, but he pulled them away, still conversing with the photographer.

“But (y/n) takes amazing shots so,” He says with a smirk. You don’t know if he was doing it on purpose or what, but his hands hanged dangerously close to your boob and with a little movement he can brush up on them accidentally.

You sighed in relief just when you thought he pulled his arm away. His hand slid down your back and paused just over the clip of your bra, curled his fingers as if he wanted to unclip them but thankfully didn't. He continued to caress down your back, and when you feel him move closer to your ass, you knew what’s about to happen.

AND NOPE NOT HAPPENING

When you quickly transferred to the other side of the photographer, Christopher frowned and looked confused but nodded his head anyway at the photographers’ instructions.

Although, you knew getting sexual with Chris was a bad idea but your body can’t help but look for his touch after that night. You just held everything in you not to drag him out of the room for that round 2.

It was an hour before CNCO's performance, and you were rushing down the hallway in a hurry to get to front stage for a proper evaluation of the venue. As you were fixing the settings of your camera, you suddenly feel a hand grabbed your arm and dragged you inside the nearest room

You were so ready to fight this person's ass, so you screamed and thrashed around until a hand muffled your protests.

“(y/n), shhh, calm down. It’s me.” The voice whispered, and your eyes snapped open to the sound of an all too familiar chuckle.

“WHAT THE HELL CHRIS!”

“Your face!” He harshly pulled you into a room, you were late, and his laugh rang in your ear in a really annoying way that you punched his arm.

“You’re such an irritation.” You cursed and glared, watching Christopher clutched his sides from laughing so hard, and when you realize that he wasn't going to take you seriously, you rolled your eyes and was about to leave when he stopped you.

“(y/n), wait, lo siento.”

You faced him and crossed your arms on your chest, feeling the weight of your camera heavy on your neck. You noticed that he was already wearing his blinding concert attire that you always questioned why management approved such a disappointing design.

“Aren’t you supposed to be preparing in…” you checked the time, “...in 50 minutes?”

He shrugged, “50 minutes is enough.”

You gave him a curious look, suddenly intrigued by what he meant. “Enough for what? and why are we in the bathroom?”

He eyed you cautiously and bit his lip when the confidence he built up earlier started to diminish. “Why are you avoiding me?”

“What makes you say that?” You scoffed and avoided his gaze when your cheeks heated up. How can you say that the reason you avoided him is that because you wanted him to pound inside you over and over again until you couldn't take it anymore?

“That night at the jacuzzi. I don't know. If it was bad, I'm so sorry.”

“No, it wasn’t,” you reassured him. “It was good, like really good.”

“Oh?” He cocked an eyebrow and his lips twisted into a smug smirk.

“Don’t get any ideas, buddy. I could get fired for that stunt we did.” You told him sternly.

“No, you won’t.” He teased and tucked a loose hair that was falling over your face. ”I got you.”

Christopher Velez back at it again with the soft fuckboy gestures.

“No, you don’t.”

“Yes, I do.” The moment that stupid grin appeared on his face, the strings of banters began.

You took a good look at him now that he hovering close to your body and thought to yourself, oh how you badly wanted him in between your legs. You got all excited and drowned into his minty and masculine scent that made you weak in the knees.

”Besides, ” he started, whispering.

A shiver ran down your spine when you feel his lips grazed against your ear but the next thing he said sparked electricity in between your legs.

“I wanna make you cum.”

You were surprised at how blunt he was but It wasn't long until you reached over and smashed your lips again his soft, luscious ones. You sensed him smiling into the kiss, his craving for your lips finally satisfied after weeks of longing for them.

When he snaked his arms around your waist and pulled you against him to feel your body against his. Chris lets out an “oof” forgetting about the camera in between you two.

You quickly apologized and he took your camera, placing it on the counter to keep it away from damage before he smiled at you darkly and resumed the kiss.

He pinned your body against the door with so much force that you gasped, and he took this as an opportunity to slid his tongue inside your warm mouth and massaged yours with his.

He pecked your lips and you moaned when he sucked your bottom lip. He pulled away to trail kisses on your cheek and traveled to your neck as he pressed himself against your body.

You let out a small moan when you felt Chris’ hard manhood pressed against your thigh. You wanted him so bad.

Kissing and sucking on your neck, Chris finally ground himself against your crotch and rolled his hips so you could feel how hard he was for you.

“Fuck, Chris.” You moaned and wrapped your arms around his neck, bringing him close to you as possible. You were so turned on at this point and all that worry about the no sex on the job thing was threw out of the window.

His hand slid down to your ass and grabbed it, giving it a good squeeze. He reached under the back of your thighs and picked you off of your feet. You wrapped your legs around his waist and deepened the kiss. Your arms snaked around his neck and tossed his cap to the side so you could run your hands through his hair.

He grunted when you tugged on the ends, enjoying the feeling of your fingers weaving around.

“Watch the hair, Mami. They just fixed that.” You giggled and continued to play with his hair. You squealed when he walked you both to the counter and sat you on it, not breaking contact.

Christopher ran his hands all over your body, wanting to touch every inch of skin he grabbed on to. He didn't even hesitate to go under your shirt and cupped your breast underneath your bra in the process because oh god how he loved your tits.

Your skin shivered at the coolness of his rings as it grazed the skin around your nipples when he thumbed your sensitive buds. You moaned and arched your back at the sensation sent to your now aching pussy, rocking your hips against his crotch to tell him that you wanted him now.

“How much time we have left?” He managed to huff through the kiss, and you pulled away to check your watch while you tilted your head and granted him access to leave hungry kisses down your neck.

“30 minutes until the show.” You managed to pant out and Chris cursed against your skin.

He lightly gripped your neck and looked you straight in the eyes. He was giving you one of his signature sexy glare. The same dark looked he had when he caught you touching yourself in the jacuzzi. “I’m going to fuck you properly soon.” He growled and squeezed your tits. “But for now, I’m not going to let you go until you cum for me.”

You groaned with the aching feeling in your wet pussy intensifying with every word. He pulled your leggings off all the way down and grinned at the sight of your soaked gray panties. “Wet for me?”

Before you could respond, you gasped when he rubbed you through the cloth. He licked his lips as he pulled your panties to the side and slides two fingers into your soaking pussy.

“Fuck, Chris!” You moaned loudly and grabbed his shoulders, his fingers working their magic as he moves and massaged your clenching walls. He was hitting the perfect spots and you didn't want him to stop.

You noticed his hard-on printing on his pants. He looked like he was begging for release so you reached over and rubbed him through his jeans.

“Missed my dick, baby girl?” He bites his lips at the sight of you withering for him.

You nodded your head eagerly, whimpering when Chris pulled out his fingers out of you to pull down his pants and set his blessed cock free, stroking it for you. Ready for you.

He pulled your body closer to him and hovered over your shaking body. He laid you on the surface of the counter to bring you pussy close to his hard dick and tease your wet folds with the tip of his head. When you were just about to demand him to put his cock inside you, Chris eased himself into you and cursed how tight you were around his cock.

“Fuck, babe, you’re tight” He groaned. It was so intense the way you clenched around him, taking his size all in. The pleasure was running down your core as he eased in and out of you, thrusting himself.

“Faster,” You begged and he increased the movements of his hips and thrust harder, deeper into you. You whimpered for him. You couldn’t take it. His dick felt so good.

“Oh fuck!” You cried out and threw your head back in pleasure, finally having his cock buried inside of you after weeks of wanting, craving for him. He grabbed your leg and brought your body closer to him so he can fuck you deeper.

Grunts and moans filled the bathroom as Chris continued to fuck you on the counter. “Fuck, babe. So fucking good.” You moaned and pulled him closer to your body, his dick filling your tight cunt. The way you moaned made him roll his hips faster, and harder into your pussy.

“Fuck baby!” You cried, and Chris pulled your hips closer to his, sinking his cock deeper inside of you. You were almost laying on top of the counter, your elbows supporting your body as he thrust his hips onto you, the sound of skin to skin filling your ears.

He pulled down the front of your shirt, exposing your black lacy bra as he thrust into you harder while his other hand rubs your sensitive clit that sent electricity all over your body. You start to feel the burning sensation of your climax forming in the pit of your core.

“I’m close, babe.” You gasped and wrapped your arms around him, sucking and kissing his neck as you near your finish.

Chris grunted, desperate to make you cum so he picked up the pace, and fucked you faster and harder while he rubbed your clit furiously. You didn’t want the feeling to stop, but you were so fucking desperate to cum.

“Cum for me, Mami.” He whispered into your ear and when you heard him call you ‘mami’ you were gone. You cried out his name and you came all over his dick. Chris smashed his lips with yours as you ride out your high. The sound of heavy breaths filled the room with Chris leaning on your shoulder while you sank back against the mirror, catching your breaths. When Chris pulled out of you he checked the time and cursed, “Fuck we’re late.”

He quickly pulled his pants up and helped you get into your leggings and panties before he carried you off the counter. You both checked yourselves on the mirror, fixing your hair and clothes.

“You go out first, and I go last so we don’t look sketch or anything.”

He grinned at you, “Who cares if people knew?”

You rolled your eyes and was about to swat his arm but caught your hand and pulled you towards him, giving you one last sensual kiss and a squeeze on your tits.

He pulled away from you and went to open the door discreetly. He smirked and gave you one final wink until he poked his head out the door to check for any passerby.

After he made sure that the hallway was clear, Christopher stepped out of the bathroom first. You waited and counted to 10. You took a deep breath and swung the door open. As soon as you did, the sooner you wish you hadn’t.

"Well, well, someone doesn’t understand the meaning of ‘no sex on the job’ rule.”

You gulped. You were screwed.

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texanredrose · 4 years

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Hey there ! Apparently you like video-games (or at least Smash), so what's your favourite one ?

Hookay, so… I know this is going to get long, so adding a Read More, but the short answer is: I don’t have a clear cut favorite, but some of my favorites include such well known properties as Mass Effect and lesser known ones like Sudeki. I’m not some gaming guru but I definitely have some Opinions™ about video games.

Favorite First Person Shooter: Halo: Reach. Generally, I don’t ask for much in my FPS; let me kill shit and the less I have to reload, the better. However, Halo: Reach, being at the time the 4th game in the franchise that served as the prequel to the entire series, provided an excellent story with great characters and an underlying message about the indomitable human soul.

Favorite Real Time Strategy: Halo Wars. Okay, yes, another entry from the same franchise, but!!! This one also has some fantastic characters and a great storyline, even if it’s… somewhat confusing when considering the bigger narrative (Halo in general is just messy af and retconned-but-not all to hell anyway). Still, it’s a fun, mostly intuitive RTS, which is notoriously difficult on consoles.

Favorite Horror Game: Resident Evil. Listen, this game came out when I was seven, and my Uncle let me play it to fuck with me. Nothing will be scary than those early PS1 graphics, the loading screen a constant tease of ‘what’s behind this door? Is it death? It’s probably death!’ that got me good. Fear Factor comes a close second, as though it wasn’t much of a horror game, the game mechanic of your character’s rising stress level kept me on the fucking edge.

Favorite Final Fantasy: Final Fantasy X. Listen. I don’t care how awkward Tidus’ laugh was. I don’t even mind how passive Yuna was. Blitzball was amazing and I have forgiven all sins. No, seriously, I loved the cast in FFX, much like other FF games, and Seymour was a villain I enjoyed hating with every fiber of my being, and even some of the mini games were fun, too. But Blitzball could’ve been a standalone game and I would’ve bought it. Still would.

Favorite JRPG: Sudeki. If you didn’t get a chance to play this on the original XBOX, you missed out. The characters were fun, if a bit goofy, and the high fantasy mixed with science fiction was a nice touch. What really sold me, though, was the AI. Not only could you switch between different available characters in the middle of a fight- very easily and very intuitively- but the AI actually behaved very well, saving my ass more than a time or two. In most games, AI are either cannon fodder, immortal, or require close attention/precise manipulation of their preset actions. Not in Sudeki; some fights, I could actually stand back and let my party do their work, and that was immensely gratifying. Yeah, the ending was a bit of a let down, but it didn’t erase how much fun I had with the rest of the game.

Favorite Super Smash Brothers: Super Smash Brothers Melee. Don’t get me wrong, I love a lot of the elements in the sequels but SSBM was the version I played most heavily with friends, so I have the most fond memories of it. Plus, it was before they changed Link’s moveset, which I’m still high key upset about. (I don’t like the new bombs or his new down attack.)

Favorite Series: Mass Effect. Now, one might expect Halo to be my favorite series, seeing as two of the games are some of my all time favorites, but… nah. When you take out the multiplayer element, the Halo games didn’t have much left. Yes, they had a galaxy spanning conflict with twists and turns but, honestly, Mass Effect did it better, with better world building and exploration, and a lot of interactive features that I enjoyed. From what I played of Andromeda, (long after it released, so no weird bugs yet), it continued to build on the foundation of the original trilogy, though I would’ve preferred to stay in the Milky Way, and Ryder can’t hold a candle to Shepard. Still, even what issues I have with the series (LET ME ROMANCE KROGANS, DAMNIT) don’t detract from the excellent story, fun gameplay, and intriguing mystery.

Favorite Elder Scrolls: … okay, I actually don’t like any of them, tbh. And??? I’m not sure why??? I actively can’t stand Skyrim.

Favorite Soulsborne: There is only Dark Souls, and it’s the pinnacle of ‘I don’t need my brain for this’ for me. It’s just… run around and kill things. Nothing matters. I think the main difference between this and Skyrim is the way the player character moves. ES games look so… silly. At least Dark Souls looks silly for a reason.

Favorite Sports Game: NCAA 2007. I’d rather play as a college team than a professional one. Although, NFL Blitz comes a very close second, purely because it gave no fucks and only barely qualifies as a sports game.

Favorite ‘Oh Fuck’ Game: It’s a tie between Minecraft and ARK: Survival Evolved. And you’re asking ‘how are those two in the same category’ and the answer is ‘because the only difference between the two for me is, which is going to kill me, lava or a raptor?’ and don’t ask how I die to these two things with equal frequency. More to the point, I usually play these games with friends, and thus my ‘oh fuck’ moments are witnessed by others, or I witness their ‘oh fuck’ moments. Sometimes they’re funny, sometimes they’re sad, but they leave an impact and, hey, that’s fucking impressive.

Favorite Pokemon Game: Blue Version. Yeah, it’s a bit of a cop out, but the original game I got back when Pokemon first came over to the States actually taught me a life lesson: that it is possible to play a game wrong, which is what I was doing. So, I started over, and I was much happier for it! No matter what features are added to the franchise, I don’t think I’ll ever gain such an important life lesson from one again, so it’s gonna stay at the top of the list.

Favorite Chill Game: Any Harvest Moon. Let me tend my farm. (I haven’t had a chance to play Stardew Valley, which is basically Harvest Moon but gay, so that’ll probably take the top spot once I get a chance to play it.)

Favorite Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Although there are some aspects of Majora’s Mask I liked better, OoT had fishing. Yes, that’s honestly my favorite part of the game. I love fishing in video games. Don’t judge me.

Favorite Team Game: Overwatch. Love the character designs and gameplay. Witch!Mercy still owns my soul.

Favorite Battle Royale: Apex Legends. For some reason, one of the few ‘competitive’ games that doesn’t spark my frustration when I lose. Dunno why, it’s just fun. Lightning rounds are great, too!

Favorite Hack-n-Slash: Brutal Legends. Heavy metal, axes, and guitars- everything from the aesthetic to the gameplay is fun and the story is interesting as well. The RTS portion can get a bit annoying but, other than that, no complaints here.

Favorite Fable: Fable III. I endorse any game that allows me to woo as many people as I can find who are attracted to me. Let me have as many spouses as I want, one in each city. I will marry half the kingdom, damnit, just watch me.

Those are the ones I can think of off the top of my head. I know I’m missing some but I’ve sunk perhaps hundreds of hours into the games listed, so, yeah.

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cosmiciaria · 5 years

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In defense of Final Fantasy XIII-2 (long post - mild spoilers ahead!)

Disclaimer: Sorry for the pics bad quality. I don't own a ps3, my friend lent me one, and I don't really know how to take screenshots, so I did my best to make my photos look visible. Just don't mind them much.

SO, I'll start by saying that this game IS BAD and it's part of a badly executed and hated trilogy. To be honest, I don't appreciate Final Fantasy XIII much: the first time I played it I was blinded by (light – sorry pun) the visuals and the crystals and everything was shining and whatever. But then I replayed it, and started seeing all the things people were complaining about. As I skipped some scenes to make my second playthrough smoother and faster, I noticed one thing: I was bored. I wasn't enjoying the gameplay, I didn't understand the story in its entirety even if it was my second time playing it. It was one of the first videogames I played in English (hello from Argentina) so I thought that maybe my limitations with the language were dampening my experience, but I asked a friend about the plot and she told me she didn't understand it either.

At any rate, I only played FFXIII because I wanted to play FFXIII-2. I didn't know why, or what, but something in the sequel (cof cof Noel cof) gave me the urge to try and see it for myself. Like I mentioned before, I don't own a ps3, so I had to wait until in 2015 they released the PC ports. I was so happy with this, that I decided to complete the game 100% and see everything it had to offer.

And it has so much to offer! Yes, I won't deny it, the plot is all over the place, and this is where the trilogy goes to hell with its story. But, let's just say we are all aboard the suspension of disbelief train – if we do it, we'll find there's a great story behind all the time gates.

What I enjoyed the most about this sequel was the characters. In XIII I spent HOURS complaining about how annoying everyone was (except for Fang, she's perfect). I couldn't relate to or stand anyone: Lightning became obnoxious with her monotone, Hope was a crybaby with a pretentious revenge plot that didn't work out well, Sahz is just kinda there not contributing anything to the plot, Vanille just has that oh-please-kill-me squeaky voice and Snow is… I hate Snow. I just hate him. The little fondness I have for him stems from my love for Troy Baker's performances, but oh my Etro, Snow is just like a shonen hero in the body of a 21-year-old man. It's just not right, it defies the laws of anime and videogames. Please eradicate him. I hate Square Enix for creating a character like him and forcing me to play as him and use him as a Sentinel because he's just that good in that role, damn him!

But in FFXIII-2? Suddenly, I found myself rooting for Noel and Serah. We get to learn about Noel's backstory, his sad present, his depressing lifestyle. The inexorability of his tale, the imminence of his decaying world. And he becomes such an endearing partner! He's always there to catch Serah if she falls, he's always asking her if she's feeling well. He's proficient, he's efficient, and he's not complaining about stupid stuff. He even doesn't want to talk about his past because he doesn't want to bother Serah – PLEASE Hope just learn something from this man!

And what about Serah? She's not the best character, I give it to you, but she goes from damsel in distress to a badass time traveler in a blink of an eye, and I can certainly get behind that! She's selfless, she faces everything head on, even though she's scared. Her journey began with the search of her sister, but slowly she found herself surrounded by things she couldn't quite comprehend, only to learn that she was more entangled with the fate of the world than she'd anticipated.

And if you do some optional stuff, you can learn things about Mog as well – not only his features are useful (and funny), but he's also the comic relief, adding extra spice to some of the conversations. His exaggerated expressions and his cute voice make up for a good companion.

And I cannot NOT mention Caius (Liam O'Brien I stan). Say whatever about him, but I love his characterization. He's well made. Yes, he wants the same as countless others villains from the FF franchise, but this time I can understand his motives. I feel pity for him. I want to help him. He's cursed beyond redemption. And he's got the best theme song ever.

I can understand these characters. The game spends enough time on everyone so we can learn to care for them, they show us how their relationship nurtures, their dynamics. And I care! This is something XIII-2 made right and XIII did not: I don't care about Lightning, or Hope, or Snow, but I do care that Noel and Serah succeed in their task. I don't care about Barthandelus or the Pulse Fal'Cie, but I do care about Caius getting what he wants. XIII had so many characters but spent too little time in developing (properly, at least) their strengths and weaknesses, but most of all, their relationships. The only real relationship that feels genuine is the one between Fang and Vanille, but that's because they know each other from before the events of the game; whereas the rest of the team feels like… badly placed pieces of puzzle trying to fit.

I know you're gonna say, hey, other FF put together characters that had nothing to do and it worked (yeah, I can mention FFXII and to a certain extent, because Penelo and Vaan were just there for the lulz I guess). In XIII it just didn't work for me: I couldn't root for any of them, and when the game was finished, I was kinda relieved.

That doesn't happen in XIII-2. Maybe they got it, maybe it was out of luck, I don't know, but characters here are better fleshed out, and we can learn to care and root for them, so we want to see it through to the end by their side.

That's just one thing that XIII-2 did better.

Gameplay was enhanced: now it's faster, more strategic, it doesn't bullshit you like when the leader died in XIII. I'm not going to delve deeper into the Pokémon thing, but yes, you can catch them all, and it adds a lot to the stakes because there's one more thing to gain besides the battle: the monster you're fighting. The game added so many features, it blows me away: the time travelling, opening new paths, closing some; the fragments, which give you experience points and insights in some of the lore; the fragment skills, additional things you can earn or do if certain requirements are met; the f*cking casino that has chocobo races, something that was lacking in the previous game; you can add ADORNMENTS to the monsters you tame to get the ultimate fashion experience. I don't know, there's so much to do, too many timelines to visit. There are too many sidequests, but all of them are linked to the main plot, so you feel like you're still learning things from the main story. Yes, I know, they reuse the same map over and over (Yaschas Massif and Oerba, I'm looking at you), but they compensate with some brand new maps, like Academia 4XX AF which must be my favorite location, so full of life and futuristic style, and the Archylte Steppe, with its weather changing feature.

Sometimes the lack of gameplay slaps you in the face but in the good sense, for instance in Academia 400 AF, where you have a forced battle every two seconds. The sense of urgency and danger is well conveyed through the use of random encounters with enemies. Or when you visit the Void Beyond with Serah, that you're alone, and you have a ghastly Mog following you around, with some of his features blocked. They used everything they had at their disposal, and they used it well. Gone are the days with the endless hallway that we complained so much about in XIII (as if FFX wasn't linear as hell too, but we don't complain about that one – don't dare because it's my favorite FF I warn you): now you can choose how to play, when to play, face that monster or go for an alternative ending. They listened to our whining and gave us this sequel, yes, that nobody asked for, but yet, they did.

There's a huge world-building surrounding all the time travelling thing: in the future, time travel becomes something of an everyday topic, so when you walk around in Academia 4XX you can hear kids playing "let's go and destroy those evil paradox monsters". They built a world around the idea that you can time travel, and that's how Hope gets to live and see every era, monitoring his work that will take centuries to be fulfilled. This is how we should take the time travel in this game, not as doomsday-serious as in Terminator or Back to the Future, but with a more light-hearted approach. I think that's what they tried to do, and it works well that way.

However light-hearted this game tries to be, it has some sad and depressing bits, mostly around Noel and his way of life. Whenever his theme song kicks-in, you can understand all his character without a word. And that takes me to another thing this game excels at: soundtrack. Now, I won't say it's better than XIII, because the first game has some awesome music as well, but I'll be damned if I don't give enough credit to this game's songs. Yeul's Theme, Noel's Theme, Wishes – you learn everything of these characters by just listening to these beautiful vocals. And I also love that the music took risks, like the Crazy Chocobo theme – I swear that thing is both the best and worst thing out of this game.

Confession time: I can't stop shipping Serah and Noel. I'm just so angry that Snow exists because it forbids this ship in the canon. I have one major complain about it, though: I can't help but notice that both Caius and Noel are infatuated by a fifteen-year-old. I can't discern how much of it is "loyalty beyond boundaries" or "I love her, I truly love her, like I'm in love with her" kind of love, but still, it bugs me a bit. Caius and Yeul's relationship feels more natural, given that he's her guardian, and he acts upon this role the whole game, until the end, where Noel clearly states that Yeul always came back because she wanted to stay by Caius's side. So it leaves me wondering. And Lightning Returns pretty much confirmed to us that Noel was in love with Yeul, which of COURSE I don't LIKE at ALL but I'll roll with it. I'm just glad that we got XIII-2 ending where Jason Marsden's voice breaks when he yells Serah's name. They gave me enough content for a thousand fics. Let's pretend that Noel's attitude in LR doesn't happen, ok?

You can hate this game. I can't blame you for it. Nobody wanted it, it doesn't connect well to its predecessor unless you read two novellas, and it forcefully leads us to Lightning Returns where, I can safely say, the plot goes to hell, almost literally. But this game exists, and it doesn't deserve half the hate it receives. If you play it it's because you enjoyed XIII (I highly doubt that you'll make yourself go through this suffering if you didn't like the first one – if you do, I just don't know why you hate yourself so much), and if you did, there's no way you're not going to see all the good things they added in this one. Enjoy it for what it is, and not for what it's not, or for what it could've been.

I sometimes wonder what could've happened if this game didn't have "Final Fantasy" on its cover. Because the time travel is intelligent and fun to play, the world-building around the Farseers and this bleak future is interesting and well made – the problem with this game is that it's a Final Fantasy and that it's a sequel to an already quite finished story. It feels like they forced a sequel, and maybe they did. But I, for once, am glad they did.

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serenagaywaterford · 5 years

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Hello, I really don’t know who to talk to but I’m realizing I’m a lesbian after identifying as bisexual since 2016, I came out to my parents and they’re both supportive and happy for me. I’m a highschooler and it’s awkward being gay and no one knowing as ppl tease me to date my guy friends. Any tips or advice in general on being a lesbian? It’s still so weird to talk about but I wanna grow to be very open with my sexuality

Been there. (I used to insist I was straight (for YEAAAAARS I was with the same guy), then bisexual cos I thought I had to be since I was “straight” and not particularly conflicted about it for so long. So it’s a process and a journey getting here no matter what, and everyone takes different routes.) And I’ll be honest, you’re way ahead of the game already. Good for you and you should be proud and happy with yourself for being so self-aware and in touch with yourself. That takes a lot of insight and courage.

I think generally… people will say a lot of things but until you are comfortable being around your friends and family as yourself, it’s never going to be easy. It’s not easy when you’re out either but at least you’re not stuck hiding who you are and adding that level of tension to every interaction. To be honest, I was never particularly comfortable with myself. Not even when I got married to another woman. (My issues with the institution of marriage aside…) But in my job I basically am forced to come out daily to complete strangers, constantly, with the words “my wife”. It gets way, way easier and I’m lucky enough to be in a place and a position that affords me that freedom. Not everyone is.

Are the people teasing you your friends? I mean, high school fucking sucks. I don’t even care how people want to romanticise it after the fact, or in media, or whatever. Even the best experiences are littered with a bunch of drama. We’re all idiots in high school and we all treat our friends like shit half the time, even our best friends. I didn’t have a bad time in high school. In fact, I’d say it was pretty good overall. (I wouldn’t do it again, mind you.) But still, the shit you put up with from friends is just excessive, and also the shit you give friends–or at least the shit I gave my friends lol. It’s just so… ugh.

So, I mean, without knowing much more about the situation, I would confide in my good friends. Unless, for some reason that endangers you in some way. And yes, unlike some hardcore people, I do think social ostracization in high school is damaging. I don’t buy into the whole “Well, if they don’t like it fuck them, all you need is you!” cos that’s bullshit. You DO need friends in high school, even if they’re not perfect friends, even if you won’t stay friends with them in a few years. Having social support is incredibly important and to be alienated completely is lonely and leaves you vulnerable, and you miss out on stuff too. I mean, if your friends are complete total assholes, then by all means, drop them cos that won’t help and you may be better off alone, but if they’re only sort of annoying, well… That’s life, lol. Until you get out of the fishbowl of high school and people being to calm the fuck down about every tiny drama, there aren’t a lot of options. I found my best friends annoying af sometimes, and some of them had views on certain subjects that fucking pissed me off. But hey, at the end of the day, we still got along and had a bond, and worst came to worst almost all of them would be there for me, and me for them, despite some differences.

Are those the type of friends you have? Or do you think your friends would turn on you if you confided in them?

It’s so lonely to hold onto a secret like that, and constantly put up with what I’m sure they think is harmless teasing about boys. It can hurt you, and god, it’s fucking irritating on top of everything else. And, I hate to say this, but that sort of thing NEVER ENDS. It gets less and less, but I’m literally married to a woman for like 2 years now and a dude friend of ours just last week asked us if maybe we both just hadn’t found the right men yet. And on the subject of sex, he said, “Well, how do you know if you haven’t tried it?” to my wife. Interestingly, she is not a gold star and knows very well what hetsex is like (she fucking HATES it on every imaginable level), but she’s just never volunteered that information for public consumption. Still, as you can see, you’ll always have stupid imbecile friends who say stupid ass comphet shit to your face, even when you are blatantly a lesbian. Unfortunately, it one of those things you just have to… learn to deal with. I hate that we must.

I know that’s not exactly helpful or hopeful, but it’s reality. So these dumb friends of yours, maybe they’re not doing it to be hurtful or annoying, they just genuinely think you like boys. There’s only really one solution to get them to stop (and even that isn’t going to be a guarantee) and that’s to come out to them–only if you can. Tell them how it makes you feel. Share with them what you’ve said to me. It’s hard enough to exist as a lesbian right now, let alone having to hide and be shamed for it. Friends should get that. But all of them may not…

I had one friend who was super open with her “sexuality” (she’s an attention whore, lbr.) who, when I told her finally that I think I wanted a girlfriend, she was super supportive. Then when the group of them were going to a gay club, I said I’ll tag along and she told me no. And her exact words: “You look too straight. Nobody will talk to you and I don’t want people to think I’m straight too.” (SHE IS STRAIGHT, just for the record. But she likes to steal girls’ boyfriends by doing threesomes, pretending to be into girls, threesomes, and poly, and then manipulating the boys into dumping their gfs. She also likes to breakup girlfriends just to prove she can. She has NEVER been in a relationship with a woman, only breaks lesbian couples up and then fucks off. She tried it with me and my girlfriend once. Nice friend. Just so we all know what she’s like.)

Note: These were my high school friends, and I was in my mid-20s at this point. We’d been friends for over a decade. And they still said shit like that. (And I mean, in some way, I get it cos when we’d go out to non-gay spots I’d get picked up by men CONSTANTLY, and women never looked at me that way. It was super aggravating.)

Which, it turns out, was her way of saying “You’re competition and I don’t want you around.” (and she’s obsessed with stereotypes), cos when I started going to gay clubs and parties with other friends who weren’t douchebags about it, NOBODY judged me like that. And I remember meeting my wife for the first time and telling her that story and she was just like “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUR FRIENDS?! You do look super straight but I like you and I’m super gay”. And then she took me to a lesbian bar, and I didn’t change a thing about myself, and was picked up by all sorts of girls, and really hit it off with the cutest butch girl I’ve ever seen to this day. (It didn’t end up going anywhere but still, it was nice to learn that sometimes your friends are just insecure assholes.) It really is dependent on who they are, where you live, etc. etc. And those are only things you know. I can’t comment on what the best course of action is without knowing the nitty gritty.

SO, that’s a long way of saying, people suck. Even your friends sometimes. It’s going to be difficult for a while as you weed those sorts of people out of your life. Being an open lesbian is rocky, especially at first when everything is sorta all over the place. But it does settle down, and you make better friends. And since your parents are supportive that is a HUGE hurdle you don’t have to deal with, which is absolutely AMAZING :) It’s so nice to hear.

But if you’re not able to come out and get support IRL, that’s fine too. My advice is what you’ve already done :) Come online and reach out to older lesbians. They’re the ones with the experience. If it wasn’t for the older lesbians in my life (either online or IRL that I met, including my wife), I’d be so much more insecure. I would probably still be walking around feeling a lot of shame, embarrassment, anxiety, shyness, confusion, etc.

But there’s something comforting about talking with women who have lived the same struggles, and hear about all the paths they all took and the ways they’ve dealt with specific issues. And they’re generally more calm, more realistic, and more compassionate than other baby dykes who aren’t in a privileged, secure position yet. Not that there is anything wrong with bonding with others of the same age. That is also INCREDIBLY important because those experiences will directly reflect your own, and there’s built-in support with peers. The things older lesbians have been through may not translate as well for you. A lot of us didn’t have the same pressures of social media, etc. But we also didn’t have the same online resources available either. So, it’s an interesting balance. I will say my friendship with my best friends from university (one is a lesbian too, one is straight as an arrow but a huge ally) are just as important cos age is a factor.

You can get insight from older women, but you need peer bonds too.

Online I think is very important nowadays, especially when you’re not able to go to spaces like gay clubs and bars yet. And surround yourself with positive lesbian representation. If that whole soft cottagecore thing does it for you, keep that in your orbit. But also never be ashamed or fearful of the sexual part of your sexuality. Just like it’s natural to romantically love women, it’s natural for lesbians to physically love them too.

I feel like as toxic overall as tumblr is, there are corners of it that have been incredibly supportive and nurturing even to me. Especially lesbian positivity blogs and women’s arts, etc. Poetry written by lesbians is beautiful and inspiring to me. It’s a whole genre I had no idea existed, and that has given me a great deal of peace because I can finally relate to words. Music, written and performed by gay and bisexual women is the same. It may seem trivial or cheesy, but it’s powerful to hear about women like you in songs. I have to say Mary Lambert, for one example, helped so much. I remember listening to Alix Olson in secret too when I was much younger (maybe that should have been something of a hint to myself, lol.) King Princess and Girl In Red are current faves, Saara Aalto, Shura and Brandi Carlile are a constant faves I always love (not that I even knew that about Brandi’s sexuality til recently cos I apparently live under a fucking rock lol), but I have whole lists now and it’s wonderful to have taht access.

When you’re all alone, seeking out lesbian musicians and writers can make so much difference in easing that isolation, and confusion, and fear. They speak to you and about us, as a whole. It’s affirming and less lonely.

Same goes for well-written fanfiction. Things that avoid the drama of fandom (cos there’s so much drama even when you have canon f/f pairings), because fandom is really just microcosms of society at large with all the same morons in it. But fanfic was such an escape where I could learn and explore all the things that most everywhere wouldn’t show me. TV shows touched on it (especially back 10 years ago there was like nothing), but fanfic made it real.

Even when you’re feeling secure, I think it still helps to have all the representation we can, and just… you know, revel in it.

Do not watch porn. Don’t. It’s awful and horrible and not at all realistic. A well-written fanfic by actual gay or bi women is way more helpful. Avoid porn at all costs. It will never teach you anything your body doesn’t already know about how to be with a woman (although I’m sure for you this isn’t a pressing concern at the moment). I just know that I made the mistake of it, and also stupid ass magazine/how to articles. Ignore ALL that junk. When you get a girlfriend there’s only ONE thing you need to know how to do, and that is communicate honestly. Everything else falls easily into place.

When you say it’s so weird to talk about it, I feel that. It took me YEARS to even really be able to comfortably say the word, especially in relation to myself. That feeling will pass. It’ll take time and don’t push yourself into any sort of thing you’re not ready for. You’ll feel weird about it probably, and that’s on society, not you. “Lesbian” still does have a stigma attached to it that a lot of people are afraid of or dismissive of. Just… try your best to tune that out. That’s all you can do. You’ll feel comfortable eventually. :) Give it time. You’re already doing well. The fact you can say it to me, even as anon, is beautiful.

You’ll be very open one day if that’s what you want and being a lesbian, and being seen as one, will be second nature. I mean if I think about myself at 20 and now, there’s a very big difference. I used to shy away from so many things, and dress particular ways to avoid things, now I’m definitely not giving nearly as many fucks. Also, I’ll say here that I own a bar. It’s not a gay bar, but almost every day we’re open, at least one lesbian couple will come in. And honestly my heart grows so big and warm every single time. (Gay men come in too, ofc.) But there’s something particularly ecstatic in me that I get to see that everyday. (I don’t actually have many gay friends at all.) I love the openness and acceptance and comfort. And I love telling people there that I own it with my wife, and see people’s faces light up. (Some don’t… but, meh, that’s real life too. I’ve had a few shitty fucking people come in too.) There are a lot more lesbians and bi girls around than we probably know. :)

You are not alone. Even if it’s only talking to people online, you’re never alone.

And never get discouraged that other people seem to having an easier or better time at it. Everyone moves differently, and for some it is easier, some it’s way more difficult but that doesn’t mean you need to pressure yourself, or change. I took my way exceptionally slowly and awkwardly, but ya get there eventually if you surround yourself with genuine people.

It sounds cliche but it does get easier talking about yourself as a lesbian as long as you surround yourself with positive lesbian content/people, and it takes practice (sometimes a lot of it as I’ve learnt), especially dealing with internalized stuff. But you’ll get there. You’re still super young and you have so much ahead. :D

I don’t have specific personal advice about how to handle it all in high school cos I didn’t have to deal with that. Just that there’s a whole world outside high school, even though it may not feel that way sometimes. If you’re in a small town or in a country where it’s not accepted, you’ll have a harder time finding love but it is ALWAYS possible, somehow. Never feel like there is nobody at all. There is. There’s some cute, hot, smart, interesting girl somewhere that will be into you as much as you’re into her. It’s just a matter of time til you find each other. If nothing else, in the mean time, you can form friendships and bond with people online in various ways.

I wish somebody had told me in my teen years that it’s possible to be in love with a woman, that I’m going to kiss girls one day and suddenly everything else is going to make sense and feel right after so long of things not quite fitting together, that it’s just as possible to be fulfilled with a woman as it is with a man. I wish someone would have told me I’d be loved by a woman in ways that nothing else would ever match. That I’d touch women and feel at peace with myself, and being intimate with them will change my whole life, and it’s something I was meant to do and feel. That loving women will help me love myself in a way that I never realised, and that just goes back and forth forever cos if you love yourself, loving other people is so much easier. And not to fight that cos I’m too scared to face the not so nice parts about being out. Bad shit is gonna happen no matter what, but better stuff will make up for it. I wish someone had told me that “lesbian” isn’t a bad word (I grew up with a lot of homophobia everywhere, including my family), and that I will cringe when people call me that initially but that should force myself to use it at first, cos it’ll get way better and feel right the sooner that happens. It is what I am, and I can’t avoid it forever. Own it. Cos as soon as you do, the sooner they can’t use it against you the same way anymore. But nobody said any of that to me.

And never, ever let anybody ever guilt, shame, manipulate, or pressure you into anything you don’t feel is right for you or your body. You’ll feel it deep down what you want and need, and what you don’t want and don’t need. Don’t ignore that. Don’t let anybody talk, guilt, scare, or shame you out of that. It may be hard but you already seem very strong and self-aware.

You’re not thinking wrong, you’re not made wrong. There’s a lot of that around in our society and lesbophobia is very alive still, everywhere.

You don’t need to find the “right man”. Ever. There’s no perfect high school boyfriend waiting for you if you’re a lesbian. There’s a girlfriend waiting for you. More than one, probably! You’ll love many women throughout your life and they’ll return it back to you. You’ll have friends that love you and support you. And when you say, “I’m a lesbian” it’ll roll off your tongue as easily as your name. Or your wife’s name. :) And you won’t feel any twinges of awkwardness or shame.

I wish you nothing but love and kindness, anon. Xx

And, also, anybody can ask me anything, btw. I generally really fucking suck with advice but my askbox is always here, if anybody needs it.

#Anonymous #baby lesbians are my fav precious beans and i am here for you 100000%#tho i am hardly an expert tbh. just an idiot finding her way through it all too.#long post

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Hypostatic Thoughts: Why Purgatory is RAD

When I was a Youth Minister I had to come up with a lot of “get to know you” games. They are part of the everyday life of ministry: you find icebreakers and games to get youth comfortable with sharing and eventually learning and forging a relationship with Jesus. One of these icebreaker questions I remember vividly was threefold: What is the craziest thing you’ve ever heard? What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done? What is the craziest thing you believe? I don’t recall my responses to the first two questions, but I remember that icebreaker went before the lesson on the Eucharist and Communion because the Catholic teachings on those are something crazy by most other Christians’ standards.

I do remember my response to the third question: What is the craziest thing you believe? I remember sitting in my office and giving it a good long think. I landed on purgatory. The teaching of Purgatory is canon within Catholic teaching, so I spoke about it for a little bit that day. I’m certain there was a lesson on the Last Things as well and in the Catholic Church no discussion of Heaven and Hell is complete without a part of Purgatory. It’s a sneaky fun topic to talk about. No Catholic teaching is falling out of popular favor quicker than purgatory except maybe celibate priesthood but that is a discussion that deserves a blog post to itself.

I do believe that Purgatory is very important. In fact, I think it’s crazy to believe in the Christian God without a belief in Purgatory. There is a very sharp criticism of Christian faith that is rarely talked about. Why would an all-loving, all-knowing, all-powerful God subject his son to crucifixion? Why would a God who claims to be all-loving subject anyone who dies disbelieving in him to eternal damnation and suffering? That God couldn’t possibly be a good God. That God is evil actually. The crucifixion point is a little bit more complex but the traditional Christian retort of “to save our souls” isn’t much of an explanation. This is essentially the Problem of Evil question. To be very clear every Christian denomination believes God is good and that God is just too far beyond the comprehension of human minds to truly understand any of this, but the question remains: How can the God of Christianity be good? My answer: purgatory.

The Catholic Church has maintained an explicit teaching on purgatory since about the tenth century AD. While there are biblical moorings for the teaching, like we discussed in the last Hypostatic Thoughts blog way back in August (The Kingdom Christians don’t want), this one is more implied. Without getting too bogged down in theology, the very acute intellectual flaw in Christianity we just described in the problem of evil is in part taken care of via purgatory. In a way… God doesn’t send anyone to Hell. He doesn’t really send anyone anywhere in terms of the afterlife. The thing about an ever-loving God is that he’s personal. He wants to be with you. After we die, God wants us to be with him. It’s very clarifying to think about the Christian afterlife this way: there isn’t places you go so much as degrees of distance from God.

Before going any further with this let’s talk about the first reason Purgatory is Rad: because of God! Who is God? This question is immense but for the sake of this blog post let’s keep it on point: God is the being whom no greater being can be thought of. Imagine what you think God is: he’s bigger and better than that. That is literally the canon teaching on God. He’s too beyond incredible to comprehend. God is literally too wonderful to be comprehended across Christian theology. That’s why it’s so incredible he’s loving and wants to be with us according to the way the Christian myth is built (when I say myth I’m using the theological usage of the word, not the meaning fake or not real). Once again though, that is another blog for another day. So if God is this wonderful being too great for our minds to comprehend why wouldn’t we want to be with him? Give it a totally non-religious thought for a minute: after you die wouldn’t you want to go to the greatest being in existence? Mind you: this being by such a nature would be the answer to every question and fulfillment of every desire. He’s so wicked rad that to think you want to go anywhere else is kind of missing the point of who he is.

Purgatory, like most religions with one God for that matter, doesn’t work at all if God isn’t a worthy goal. So if God is the worthy goal for us than life can be thought of as getting ready to go be with him. In the parlance of sports, life is training camp. To stick with the sports metaphor: in the teaching of purgatory, purgatory is a practice during the regular season or playoffs. It’s getting ready to be with God after you’ve already entered game-time. This is the second reason Purgatory is rad: you’re not in a gray, limbo zone when you’re there; you’re there training to be… you! That sounds egotistical and millennial AF but in the understanding of who-God-is that we’re working under, God is, in the very being of who he is, the fulfillment of ourselves, the complete satisfaction of our being. In sappy romantic comedy terms: He completes us. We are most ourselves when we’re with God. Getting to heaven to be with God then is like winning the Stanley Cup or the Superbowl to go back to the sports metaphor. Just like winning a championship or an Olympic Gold is the fulfillment of what being an athlete is, so too is getting to heaven the fulfillment of being human. Purgatory is the training ground that gets us to victory circle.

That second reason is A LOT so let’s talk about that some more. If God is the fulfillment of everything we were made to be, and purgatory is more training for that fulfillment, than God is good because he gives us every opportunity to be with him as we need to be. Heaven is the completion of Purgatory in a way, in other words a stop on the way to heaven. So if God doesn’t send people to Hell and purgatory is God giving us every chance possible to be with him than who is in Hell if anyone? That’s a great question that is somewhat contentious in contemporary Christianity. Some thinkers these days will tell you Hell simply doesn’t exist. I’ll tell you personally I don’t know if anyone is there, but I think Hell needs to exist just like Heaven and Purgatory if you believe in the Christian God. There has to be a place for people who just don’t want to. People who may know all this stuff about God but just say no thanks, nonetheless. The third reason purgatory is rad sheds some light on this: Heaven, Purgatory and Hell aren’t exactly what you think they are.

Purgatory is very metal. If you’re into punk rock culture in anyway I don’t see how purgatory isn’t the embodiment of how you feel. The most punk thing about it is the third reason its rad AF: you don’t have to exit one way. In the Christian faith there is free will at every turn. That sentence may sound insane if you’ve ever been annoyed to be dragged to a Church event or join in an awkward blessing before a meal but it’s very much true. Jesus implores us to join him but never forces anyone into his friendship. Yes, Free Will is crucial here and with that in mind it’s time to go really deep. Remember the problem of evil we talked about at the beginning of this article? We can look at people and see victims of circumstance, but it’s also impossible to say real evil doesn’t exist. Evil does exist. But it really only exists as a deprivation. It’s the lack of a thing more than its actually a thing. Evil is a lack thereof, not something unto itself.

If you don’t want to be with God you really don’t have to be. While Hell is often imagined as torturous inferno its better understood as freezing cold. It’s a distance from the warmth of a relationship with God. The Devil himself is imagined in the classic Dante’s inferno as frozen into a lake with his arms crossed in resolve. He made his decision. He wants to be there. Nobody is evil because they’re born that way, people are evil because they lack something whether that be patience, hope, self-love or plain old empathy. That may sound like a pivot back to victimhood but again, it’s very intentional. No one is in Hell who doesn’t want to be there. Let me say that again: nobody is in hell who doesn’t want to be there. Just like the Devil some of us choose in spite of perhaps even the distant sight of the all-wonderful God, to move away from such a being. There is choice in the afterlife too in the Christian world. This is why all of Christian faith is built around redemption. God wants us to make the choice! He gave us Free Will from the literal day one. It’s our choice.

That’s the third and final reason Purgatory is Rad in your humble blogger’s opinion. Purgatory is the most jarring reason the Christian God is good and free will exists. We are given every opportunity to exercise our free will for the purpose of going where we want to go. The evil in our lives that may hold us back from exercising our free will is a deprivation of something else at the absolute worst. Purgatory maybe a pretty wild thing to believe in, even if you consider yourself Christian; but its also pretty essential if you want to believe your God is good.

Thanks for Reading.

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You’re Now Mine (P.14)

Title: You’re Now Mine (Part 14) Summary: Fulfilling a request for @lets-personofinterestontumbir! – “Could you do a drabble for the Persephone AU I don’t know If you’ve seen once upon a time but the episode 1x07 reminded me a lot of this story when the evil queen ripped out the huntsmen’s heart if you could do something like that it would be awesome. Thank you.” Words: 1,795 Warnings: DARK AF, Emotional/Mental abuse, smut Author’s Note: Sorry for such a long delay but I needed inspo which I have now! I am glad though that I waited because I was given a whole new storyline idea to take it now that we know what we know about the SPN verse.

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“You… killed… them.”

Upon landing back in his throne room in hell, it had taken a few moments for you to wrap your head around what had transpired. Your friends – your family – were dead. And Lucifer had killed them.

“Yes.” Lucifer’s tone was cold as he pulled away from you, leaving you. You stumbled a bit, hand coming to rest on the back of his throne.

Lucifer breathed deeply; his gaze pointed upwards. “Wasn’t it you that mentioned my dad? You know how he hasn’t shown up?” You choked out a small noise, which he took as an answer. He turned his head to look back at you, brows raised expectantly. “What is the best way to get him to show up if you think those fucking idiots are important?”

At loss for words, tears pricked your eyes, feeling the grief coming on like a wave. Lucifer must have noticed because he turned around completely and came back to your side. Leaning down, he forced you to look at him through your bleary gaze.

“To kill them, princess. To kill them.”

He said it so nonchalantly. He dismissed them so flippantly, what they meant to you. He always had. He did not seem to care about your feelings at all and to be frank, he seemed to never have had. Flaring anger scorched through you then.

“Why did you do that?” you shouted, losing your cool.

“I just told you why. Are you deaf?”

“That makes absolutely no sense! You just wanted them dead! You’ve always wanted them dead! How do you even know he cares about them that much?”

“Not that I have to explain anything to you, but… think about it, Y/N. Dad has been ignoring us. All of us. While none of us were injured or you know, dead. If he loves the Winchesters so much, well… I sure as hell have his attention now.”

Chest heaving, you exclaimed, “What if he doesn’t bring them back?”

“Well, then what you said is still true. I did want them dead and now they are. You don’t need them anyway.”

“No! You don’t get to kill my family and then expect me to be okay with it! Get mad at me! Lock me in my room and let me starve again! I don’t care!”

You started hyperventilating.

To your immense shock, Lucifer was gentle, pulling you close.

He cooed, “You’ll be alright, princess. You have me.”

You had him. All you had was him now. That was the truth.

Lucifer nuzzled his nose into your neck. “Shh.” His arms tightened around you protectively. “I was doing what was best for you. And for all of us. We need dad to come give us a well, fucking deserved assist. He owes it to us. Especially to you.” He kissed the top of your head, giving your body a squeeze. “Plus, I have been preparing such a lovely place for you. Away from here. Portugal.”

“I don’t want to go to Portugal,” you choked out.

He pulled away, peering down at you. “I know your little emotions are whirling, my darling, sweet kitten.” He pecked the tip of your nose. “Hmm, you are okay. I’ll make it okay. You’ll be happy there. It’ll be top side. You’ll have sunlight. A beautiful forest. Acres to walk, get your exercise. This wasn’t working here anymore, obviously. Too many loose ends and back doors. Where I’ve got your new home, you’ll be protected from all angles.”

This is what it had come to. One gilded cage traded for another.

“Can I take you? I think it’ll help you calm down,” he practically purred.

His hands wandered, pulling you closer to him.

“Please? I worked so hard.”

“I…” you breathed, not finding the strength to continue.

He leaned down, cusping your face. He placed a slow long kiss on your forehead.

“I’ll take that as a yes.”

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“Lucifer.”

Lucifer could not hold the contempt from his dry laugh. Turning around, he found Chuck perched up further the staircase leading down to the edge of the mountain. Lucifer was making himself more available, going to different locations on the planet, exposed, just waiting for Chuck to appear. He was not sure if he was more disappointed that he had; it might have meant something if even disposing of the Winchesters did not bring his dad to show his face.

“Wow. The Winchesters are really what it took for you to show up, huh?” Lucifer asked, masking his hurt as he turned around. “Not anything else going wrong in the world? No, just those blabbering, flannel wearing morons. Good to know.”

“You know how important they are. I explained that to you, Lucifer. At the beginning. Or have you forgotten?”

Lucifer waved him off, stepping off, going to the edge of the cliff. He stared off the edge, hands in his pockets, jaw clenched.

“You’re going to have to give her back.”

This caused Lucifer to pay attention, turning his head to pierce his father with a stare.

Chuck told him firmly, “She’s not meant for you.”

“Says you, here in this little play through.”

It was Chuck’s turn to stiffen. Lucifer knew more about his father’s plans and games than he was comfortable with.

“Right,” Lucifer chuckled darkly, throwing up jazz hands. “I don’t know anything about that. Tell me though, do you like me more in the other places? Did you lock them away too?”

Chuck was silent, watching Lucifer closely.

“What I feel isn’t a fluke though, daddy-o. And you can’t just chalk it up to whatever the hell Castiel feels because I can assure you, I am very apt at separating myself from that. I wanted to squeeze Dean’s head like a pimple every time I had to exchange the same air as him.” He mimicked squeezing the life out of an object. “It was tiresome to put it lightly. But, say, what made you decide to try to pair Y/N with a foot angel this time around? Was it just to really stick it to me?”

“Castiel is more than a foot angel.”

Snorting, Lucifer responded, “Not to me.”

“What you feel isn’t my concern about it,” Chuck said, causing Lucifer to snap his mouth shut, glaring. “He needed her here. In this place. Every world is different.”

After a few beats, Lucifer cocked his head to the side. He chirped, “What are the other mes like?”

Chuck bypassed the question, stepping away from Lucifer. “I didn’t change you. Like you’re insinuating I did in ‘this play through’. And that has proven to be a mistake.”

“You made a mistake?’ Lucifer crowed.

“It’s been known to happen. Rarely. But nonetheless…” Chuck said tightly.

“You didn’t foresee her and I ever being face to face here. You planned on them never releasing me,” Lucifer challenged. Chuck’s silence was all the answer he needed. “That wasn’t in your grand scheme. Well, you can thank your broken toys for that one. Luckily, they’re dead now. No more trouble and mishaps from here on out.”

“They’re not dead, Lucifer.”

That almost knocked Lucifer flat but he recovered quickly, anger rolling up from the pit of his stomach. He laughed out loud, boisterously. And in a second, a flip switched, and he practically shouted, “REALLY?”

“I need them, and you know it,” Chuck told him calmly in the face of Lucifer’s outburst. Lucifer turned away from him, scoffing loudly, trying to regain control of his emotions again. Chuck walked down a few steps to come closer and told him sincerely, “That being said, I know you’re upset. And you should be. I want to make it up to you.”

“You want to make it up to me,” Lucifer repeated sarcastically under his breath.

“Yes. I need your help.” Lucifer scoffed again and Chuck emphasized, “Again. I know that’s asking a lot, but I think it should suffice if I do something for you in return. Something big. Of your choosing that won’t jeopardize what we need to do here with Amara.”

Rolling the proposal around his in his mind, Lucifer was silent and Chuck waited patiently.

Without turning back around, Lucifer ordered, “Make her forget about Castiel.”

“You’ve only ever been in his vessel to her. It’s his face. And I won’t be killing him.”

“Honestly, don’t kill him. Let him suffer without her knowing him. He’s been such an annoying gnat to me this millennia and even more so this last year.” He added, “And you know, like you can’t make that memory obsolete if I had a new vessel that you could put in its place.”

Chuck merely gave an uptick of his lip to acknowledge what Lucifer said was true.

“Give me back Nick. He was a good vessel. If you want to make it up to me, this is how.”

“You’re forgetting everyone she knows and has relationships with outside of Castiel.”

“They don’t matter!” Lucifer bellowed, losing his temper. “I know you let me have her in other realities. And it’s not just because of Castiel that she feels for me too. If it was just him, she would never give me an inch of what I ask.”

Silence fell between them.

Chuck finished walking down the stairs to stand before Lucifer. He shrugged, “So, just for you and only you?”

“Yes,” Lucifer spat, exasperated.

“She is going to die eventually, Lucifer. What will you do then?”

“She hasn’t been aging under my care,” Lucifer informed him. Chuck cocked his head, his eyes only widening ever so slightly, causing Lucifer to sneer, “I learned some very valuable things from you that I can wield myself.”

Chuck exhaled heavily, turning his gaze away from Lucifer. “Fine. We pull this off, I’ll do it.”

Lucifer shook his head defensively and said, “No, not after. Before.” He noticed the bemused expression on Chuck’s face and laughed darkly. “I don’t trust you. I can’t.”

Chuck chuckled in return, shrugging sheepishly, “The feeling is likewise. How do I know you won’t just bolt?”

“Like you wouldn’t be able to find me?”

Narrowing his eyes, Chuck retorted, “I need my strength, Lucifer. All of it to go up against her.”

“This is beans to you, and you know it!”

“We’ll split it up then. What will it be? Which part of the deal for you first?”

Lucifer considered the proposition.

“What do you think?” he asked Chuck dryly, finally. “I want Castiel removed from the equation. We’ll deal with this –” he gestured down at his vessel – “after. She’ll be fine for a few days by herself while we get this done. I’ll tell you where she’s at.”

“I know where she’s at,” Chuck smirked lightly. “I’m God after all.”

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