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yutasbimil · 3 months

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woozi x fem!reader | seventeen ff. [one-shot] !!! also posted on my ao3 acc! { here } tags: fluff cw: hogwarts!au, slytherin!woozi, prefect!woozi, sly gf testing jihoon's nerves lol, teasing, couch cuddles, you're different houses with jihoon, established relationship, fluff! note: this is an old piece I wrote! just wanted to share it here as well :3 ! also, not that comfy w/ 2nd POV, tho hope 3rd POV is good for y'all ♡ word count: 1.1k

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The rain pouring hard outside can't seem to be heard well in the Slytherin common room.

The only thing that can be heard from the dimly lit room was the mild crackling embers by the fireplace, and the blond Slytherin humming along as he got himself comfortable on the couch.

Maybe it is actually the resounding, non-stop downpour outside or is it that Jihoon got too engrossed in a book he got from the Restricted Section that got him too preoccupied, that he didn’t even notice someone creeping into him.

"What are you doing here?" He says, almost a hiss at the figure of the person he's so familiar with.

He almost flinched at the sudden presence, as if she apparated in front of him. His voice reverberates a bit too uncomfortably due to the lack of people occupying the room, it's as if both their breathing echoes along the droplets of rain.

Y/n just comes in and sneaks into the Slytherin common room as if it's her usual thing— quite a common… room occurrence to put that pun lamely out of the box.

Well, it might as well be, but it isn't as settling for the older male as she's so casual about it.

His eyebrows remained knitted together, looking at the girl standing before him. He was so sure that everyone was out since there are still classes on-going...

"Y/n, seriously, this is not the time that..."

She shushes him quickly. Not even bothering about the daggers he's shooting at her as she quickly makes herself comfortable on the couch.

This is definitely not the time I am in a particular mood to see my girlfriend busting into another house’s territory. Let alone her breaking the rules.

‘Rules are meant to be broken,’ a smug tone rings in his ears. Jihoon could already hear her mischievous lips saying those exact words to retort to him.

He remains his glance over her, following her every move like a hawk hunting for its prey. He suppressed a sigh. Even seeing her in her pajama pants, feeling way too comfortable and home-y to be even in a different house common room.

Jihoon just grips on the book at hand and then settled to place it on the table nearby.

“Come on. I’m asking you. Answer me,” he pressed with a tone full of authority.

But she gave no flying broomsticks about it.

“How bossy,” she snickers, finally talking after being silent at Jihoon.

He just glares at her.

“Come on. Jun told me how to get in… And I know things around here already.” She says nonchalantly, as if it’s gonna convince him. He just puffs, way too distracted to even go back to the book he’s reading.

He stares right at her.

“Have you even forgotten about that ‘raincheck’ we talked about, Ji?” she slightly tilts her head sideways, then puts her lips into a thin line. “Earlier? …this week?”

More staring.

“You told me? Because you were busy and…” She bits her lip, necessarily pausing to give time for him to put the puzzle pieces together, but he’s just left with more pieces. Y/n suppresses a huff. “Nothing…?”

She crosses her arms when Jihoon looked more confused than he already is with handling plants in their Herbology classes. And FYI, he got an E on his O.W.L.S. result.

“I honestly don’t know what you’re talking about.” He says in defeat. Y/n only nods absentmindedly, leaning in close to him to remind him of some things.

“You told me that I can come by this week since your schedule’s more free, and that if I can come by at my convenience… I can then spend time together with you in the dorms...” she says, as if laying out a parchment of proof for him to remember. Exams might’ve taken a huge toll on his brain power hence being so absentminded.

Jihoon goes back to his stern look at her, as if he really can’t trace back on anything that he might possibly said.

Y/n slumps her shoulders yet again.

“At least look like you’re happy to see me.” Y/n cooed, gesturing a bit of affection to trickle out of the male’s sharp expression.

Finally, Jihoon’s features soften.

Okay, he does remember some of it coming off his lips, but I didn’t mean it in a sense you barging in here like a mad woman… He holds back a sigh.

“Well, I am, but still…” He looks away for a moment, worrying his lower lip. Being a prefect he is… he’s also bothered of course. She might get in trouble. Not on my watch that she’ll get away with it, that is.

“Stop worrying too much, and let me be…” She says in retort, automatic as if reading his mind. But that’s full of guts for her to express. “Besides, the seniors know me too well. I assure you I am safe here.” She stretches a bit, and even gets comfortable by the toasty fire nearby. It contrasts with the cold stares the older male is giving her, along with the cold weather cooping them inside.

He rolls his eyes at her, letting out a chuckle.

“This is why you get issued on how much of a Slytherin you are.”

“And do you think I care, Oppa?” Y/n sat right up at that, then pouts her lips, playing with the ends of her sleeves. “I don’t think that’s a bad thing though.”

“Like I said, so Slytherin-like of you.”

Y/n emits a soft laugh at that, standing up to even do a curtsy for him. “Thank you, my good Sir.”

It remained quiet after a while.

Even as she gives him a smirk, she still gets silence from the older male. The coldness surrounding them reflects the feeling like the foggy glassed walls enrapturing the muddled stares between them. It’s a distinct type of tension, no words are needed to be exchanged to reveal it.

Y/n shakes her head lightly, perking a brow at him followed by a cheeky smile. “So that means to say I am welcome here anytime then, huh?”

That finally got a reaction from him.

“Unbelievable.”

“Dude , you’ve been seeing bizarre, floating things and disappearing objects on and off for almost two decades,” she throws her hands high, then gesturing at him and to herself, “and you do not believe in an enchanted lady like me?”

“I do agree with the ‘enchanted lady’ part.” He responds and then clears his throat.

Jihoon avoids his gaze as he begins to feel he’s letting himself loose. He shrugs off the blush across his ears and cheeks with a question he had been throwing at the younger.

“What actually brings you here, Y/n?”

She laughs at that, putting both her hands behind her. “Oh, come on, babe. No need to sound so casual.” Y/n smiles.

He just sounded stiff there at his probe.

She pats him on the head. “Lighten up a bit.”

In these instances, he begins to question if they really switched houses. He gets quieter and curious-er whenever she’s around, and her being the sneaky and more of the talker between them.

“I will, now that I got you here.”

Without a word, Y/n envelopes Jihoon in her arms, giving him a light peck on the side of his face. Jihoon wraps his arms around her as he kisses the top of her head.

He breathes in her scent, feeling her legs wrap around his. Jihoon stares at her. “You missed me too much, huh?”

Y/n just warmly beams, nodding in response.

Jihoon then puts a stray hair of hers behind her ear, tucking more of her hair behind her jumper. He leans closer to her again, seeping in more of her warmth.

She scrunches her nose at that, with Jihoon’s eyes forming into light crescents as both of them are immersed into each other’s world again.

They just let the sound of the loud pouring rain seep into them, letting the warmth of each other be enough to ease the coldness they feel.

“What are the odds to have both our classes cancelled, huh?” Jihoon asks after a while, content as the sound of the rain is still evident outside. Y/n finally has done her explaining to him.

“And what better way to spend it like this then.” She leans more on his chest, breathing in his fresh scent with ease as she felt vibrations from him as he lets out a chuckle.

“It does feel nice…” he says, more of a thought out loud.

“And come on, champ, let’s not use our spare time thinking about that and just spend it wisely instead.” she prompts with a pat on his shoulder, scootching closer till they’re no longer hair strands apart. So clingy.

“I’m just saying.” Jihoon moves his arm above the shoulder, playing bits of her hair.

She feels his shoulders relaxing as he heaves in a deep breath.

It feels nice here, it gets more comfortable as time passes, she thought, closing her eyes.

Like home.

She lets the silence envelop them, a smile slowly forming a similar curve on both their lips.

Maybe she does belong here after all.

She accepts her Slytherin side more so in these instances.

And imagine if they were in the same house though… She can get all the time she needs and wants to have him at arm’s length and look after him.

But for now, she can manage very well to slither in their dorm to her convenience.

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written-in-flowers · 2 years

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Hi there! I really enjoyed your married to aegon headcanons! Especially the spicy bit with aegon's wife and aemond ;) what do you think aegon's reaction would be if his wife accidentally (or not?! :o) moans out aemond's name while theyre doing the nasty? 😂 i bet he'd be so mad but his wife would just laugh it off like whoops sorry 😍 i really enjoyed wife's character 💜

Wrong Time, Wrong Name

At the worst time too! Aegon thrusted into you at a nice, steady pace; his cock throbbed inside you with every stroke, feeling your walls clench around him. Sex with you was the ultimate feeling. It's the best end to a night of debauchery. He gazed down to see you on the bed, legs around his waist and tits bouncing from the position. You were jaw-dropping. Eyes closed, lips parted, and body glistening with sweat, he felt so lucky to have you, his sweet sister and soulmate. He'd leaned over to kiss and suck on your breasts when it escaped your lips.

"A...Ae-e-Aemond..."

He thought he'd heard wrong at first, so he kept going.

"Aemond..."

Aegon immediately stopped. "What did you say?"

You paused, your eyes flying open as you looked up at him. "Um...uh...Aegon. I said your name, love."

"No," he said, "You said 'Aemond'."

"Don't be stupid. I never would."

"Yes, you would," he kneeled up, but didn't withdraw from you. "You called me by his name."

You sighed in defeat, "Alright, alright, you caught me. I might have..."

"Might have what? Fucked our brother?"

"Oh please, I wish. I'd have more luck seducing a horse than seducing our brother," you grumbled, staring at the ceiling. "Every time I try, he rejects me because I'm your wife."

"As he should," Aegon said, shocked by the confession.

"You cannot fault me for trying," you giggled, rocking your hips on him so his length went deeper inside you. "He's tall...handsome..."

"A complete psychopath..."

"Who definitely has a big cock..." you continued grinding and closing your eyes, "Gods, imagine if I could have you both."

"I'd, um," he shut his eyes to the pleasure returning to him, "I'd rather not share holes with my brother, thanks."

"You can take turns. You don't need to be in me at the same time," you began fondling one of your breasts. "Intelligent men like him always have a bit of depravity in them. I bet once he gets going, it's hard to get him to stop. Like some other men I know..." you smile at him, pinching one of his nipples so he winced.

"I'm not touching swords with my brother. He's a twat."

"And I wish he'd fuck mine."

"Alright, alright. That's enough. I get it."

He significantly picked up the pace so you finished quickly; he pulled out of you and sprayed it over your stomach. You never let him cum inside you. He didn’t fully know why, but he never questioned it. He didn’t want children. He’d make a terrible father, and you wouldn’t be a great mother either. Yes, everyone asked why no children came from your frequent love-making, but neither of you answered them. Lack of issue was nobody’s business but yours.

He couldn't get it out of his head: you and Aemond. If things had been different, you'd be married to him. Aegon was no fool. He saw how Aemond coveted you. He spotted the jealous gaze in his eyes whenever you and Aegon stood near each other. It surprised him that he’d rejected your advances. He supposed Aemond refusing you is another sign of his piety and righteousness. He’d never bed another man’s wife, even if he desired her.

"You know I'm only teasing," your voice broke into his thoughts.

You rolled onto your side to face him. Undeniably beautiful, he couldn't help admiring you in the firelight. You'd both always kept things fun and light, but deep down, he burned for you. Your presence is the only thing keeping him in The Red Keep. He would have flown away on Sunfyre long ago if he didn’t have you. The thought of you with Aemond, in any capacity, irked him to an extent.

"Aemond has no interest in me, even if I do attempt to seduce him,” you said, “Surely, you’ve wanted Helaena before?”

He grimaced at the thought of their empty-headed sister. "No, she's an idiot. She's not my type."

"Then, what about that serving girl? What's her name? Ellyn? The one with the big tits who pours you wine at night?"

"I've already had her."

"More than once, I wager."

"That’s different.”

“How so? You’ve actually fucked her. I haven’t done anything with Aemond.”

“But you will.”

You laughed, “What makes you think so?”

“He could only resist you for so long,” he insisted.

You saw the pensive look on his face. Guilt buried itself inside of you seeing him this way. You scooted over to kiss his lips, the ones that gave you such pleasure and comfort.

“I still wouldn’t mind both of you,” you joked, kissing him again.

“In your dreams.”

“I suppose that’s where they’ll stay,” you sighed sadly, putting your head on his chest.

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A/N: well, this added a lot more depth to a couple I never imagined working on again lol So much so....I might have written this from Aemond’s perspective???

Heerreeee!!!

#aegon ii targaryen #aegon x reader #aegon ii x reader #aegon the elder #aegon ii x you #house of the dragon #house of the dragon fanfic #house of the dragon drabbles #hotd drabbles #hotd fanfiction #hotd imagines

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lookismaddict · 1 year

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Lookism Chapter 438 Memes/Thoughts I Have:

(SPOILERS !!! I don’t own any of the Lookism panels and the translations. Only the memes that I made.)

God. It’s like every week, I get even more tired than the previous week. What has my life come to? I feel so dead inside.

Anyways, wooooo new chapter is here. Let’s goooooooo!!!

“DiD yOu JuSt HiT a CoP ?” Yeah mf. Call it “injustice” or a “crime”, IDC. Daniel gon beat yo ass GTA style. 😤

It’s ok Daniel, go get him!!!

*h e a v y s i g h*

. . .

PLEASE. EXCUSE ME FOR A SECOND WHILE I… “TAKE CARE OF SOME BUSINESS”.

*stays in the bathroom for about 30 min*

I'M KIDDING... not really.

BRUH EVEN DANIEL IS NAKED? AROUND GUN??? This is dangerous. 😭😭😭

OHHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYY GAAAAAAAHHHHHDDDD.... SIRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! THE WET HAIR THOOOOOO. 😩😩🤤🤤🤤🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴

I def know what I want for Christmas this year... 👀

Santa would definitely kill me in my sleep...

N S F W M E M E W A R N I N G !!!

(If you don't wanna see the inappropriate meme, just scroll past it.)

God, my 😺 been quivering... What? I bet those of you who read Rendezvous would agree that you want him too. I'M LOOKING AT YOU!! READERS WHO'VE READ THOSE CHAPTERS ACTING LIKE YOU HAVEN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT, SMH. 👁👁 Don't lie.

Man, this is giving me mad inspiration to write again. Who knew that some steamy shower panels would bring me back to continue writing for that story? How ironic. 😅

YESSSSSS GUN BBG, MAN WHORE, DADDYYYYYYY. 🥰

DAAAAAAAAMMMNNNNN DANIEL, BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE FANCY FIGHTING SPINS!!! Also, "I'm gonna get punished severely when I get back." 🧐 Is Gun gonna make you give him 🧠 or nah? Like what?

BRUHHHHHHHHHH. DANIEL NOOOOOOOOOO!!! 😭😭😭

AWWWW BABY, DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP ABOUT IT. JUST CONTINUE TO GIVE IT YOUR ALL!!! 🥺🥺

Awwwww shit... Is this where I think this is going...? 😭

Hey Alexa, play "Lose Yourself" by Eminem.

OMG WAIT. HE DOESN'T LOOK THAT DIFFERENT FROM WHEN HE WENT CRAZY MODE IN HIS OTHER BODY!!! :O God, it's like the same demon possessed Daniel or something.

OK DANIELLLLL!!! I SEE YOUUUUUU, KING!!!! 😩😩👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

AYO, IS THAT JAKE'S OLDER BROTHER??? 👀 HOW TF JAMES LEE KNEW ABOUT HIM AND NOT EVEN HIS OWN BROTHER, JAKE KIM KNEW ABOUT HIM UNTIL TOM LEE MENTIONED HIM??? 💀💀💀💀

Geez, I'm starting to feel bad for Jichang. Like, ok Daniel, I get it. Your fight with Jichang started because you're trying to find out more about Jinyoung and all that, but... y'all can't just... talk it out? 😅 "Civilized folks" style? No? Ok.

Oh crap... that's not good. 😬

B R U H. THESE PANELS GAVE ME MAD GOOSEBUMPS. SHIIIIIT. I HOPE DANIEL'S HOMIES ARRIVE!!!! 😖

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I KNEW ITTTTTTT!!! I TOLD Y'ALL WTF. 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I EVEN KNEW IT IN THE LAST REVIEW HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I GOT PSYCHIC POWERS. 🔮

SEE???? I CONCLUDED THIS LAST WEEK WITH MY OWN WORDS, BRUH. CALL ME A... G E N I U S. ✨ (Actually don't. I'm still a dumbass.)

"Thanks. I almost died just now." 💀💀💀💀 Idk why I thought that line from Hudson was funny to me LMFAOOO. Just caught me off guard because I mostly see him being so serious all the time. Also, Jichang... don't underestimate Daniel lol. It'll be your downfall if you do.

I stg. Almost every chapter, Daniel always gets even more attractive. 😍😍

I always see people comment on how Daniel is turning more into Gun due to how he has improved in fighting as the story progresses. HOWEVER, I've never heard Daniel becoming James Lee before and I find that concept very interesting. I'm not sure if PTJ is leading Daniel towards that path of him becoming the new "James Lee", since he is a self-righteous character who seeks truth.

Even though I find this moment to be very cool, I worry that Daniel might create more enemies for himself and I hope he doesn't kill anyone then spiral into long-term guilt like James Lee.

God, I still can't get over the GUN SHOWER PANELS. AHHHHHHHHH!!! HIM... NAKED??? I MEAN, COME ON MAN. HE LITERALLY IS EXPENSIVE ALCOHOL WHO REALLY AGED SO GOOD. SO TASTY. SO DELICIOUS. SO SCRUMPT-DIDDLY-UMPTIOUUUSSSSS!!! CALL ME A CONNOISSEUR, BUT HE CAN BE THE YAMATO TO MY HENNESSY, WITH HIS HIGH PRICED SEXY ASS. 🤤🤤🖤🖤🖤🖤

If any one mentions him in the shower, yk Imma be "showering" down there. 💦

ALSO, WE NEED MORE SHOWER FAN SERVICE PTJ. KEEP 'EM COMING!!!

The correct answer is "Both".

They'd be amazing Calvin Klein models.

Anyways, BYE- 🏃🏽‍♀️

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brandycranby · 9 months

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ce characters + whether your asian parents would like them and how to win them over 🥺😣🫶🏻💕🍵

based on unfortunately realistic intrusive thoughts i have while reading self-insert fics

steve: military? hm. desi peeps leave ur comments bc idk how desi parents feel but i know ALL the east asian and southeast asian parents and grandparents might have something to say about that. the US army has left its mark.. just saying... better highlight his better features such as his sensitive artistic nature!! wait. wait. not that either, no need for them to call him a bum at the dinner table.

just... have him win your mom over with his stunning future son-in-law adorableness and charming smile 😀

andy: lawyer. that's it- no, no it doesn't matter if your EA mom prefers flower boys and he's a little too bearded. lawyer. the desi parents are messaging the Whatsapp group chat, they're calling the fam back in the motherland. look at that beard. lawyer.

tall ✅ upper middle-class ✅ drives an audi ✅ divorced? he has you now.

ari: handsome... ok.. but also. military. hmm. non-religious/non-abrahamic religious peeps, your asian parents might give him a better reception. but um, "divorced?" "has a daughter??" "soldier la??" "he have steady income???" 👁️👄👁️

my super religious background peeps, im so sorry. maybe the part where he's Jewish will get lost in translation. um. that's a fight and a half at the dinner table, good luck 🥲 maybe just elope.

curtis: ... I MEAN IS IT THE APOCALYPSE?? if not, your dad would probably like him. a man's man. strong, silent, built like a brick wall and does whatever DIY project he points him towards when you visit. your mom will call him scary. i don't think that would change whether you're E/S/SEA, your mom is pulling you aside in the kitchen and asking if you're really sure about him.

let Curtis show his gentle side. yeah, he's tall and intimidating but he has a soft heart. tell your lil cousins and niblings to use him as a jungle gym

jake: see Andy above- no, EVEN MORE POWERFUL THAN ANDY. yeah, military veteran, yeah, he's a lil awkward. but. computer science. information technology. wifi. tvs, laptops, phones. your parents are going to turn him into their personal help line and you might have to put a stop to it but goddamn if they don't call him son the minute this convo happens:

"he's in cybersecurity"

"what is cyba-"

"... IT"

"OH EYE-TEE. EYE-TEE VERY GOOD"

ransom: he's rich. he wears L.L. Bean and probably has the Louis Vuitton travel duffle bag. ransom is the nicest dressed, actually fashionable, sleek, and nicest smelling compared to the rest of these bozos. your mom loves him already. your dad is on the fence but also, he's well off enough to take care of you.

don't... say that he writes. yes, he does write. but focus on the fact that he's connected to a big big publishing house. yes yes. if this is an au and he's in charge of Blood Like Wine. BUSINESS OWNER, TAKE THAT.

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disclaimer, all asian parents different. my dad is a graphic designer/artsy (though idk if he'd want me to date an artist tbh...) if ur parents aren't represented feel free to reblog w ur thoughts 😌

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icekweenb · 9 months

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Can we get some nsfw Leon hcs?👀

Abso-damn-loutely! Srry it took 6293863929373 days to answer, I’m a depressed woman w/ a busy life

A for Aphrodisiac

What always turns them on?

Leon has multiple tabs open in his brain and at least 3 of them have constant displays of you. He loves looking at you and taking pictures of you! It doesn’t even have to be explicit to turn him on; just seeing how good your legs look in a skirt or how your outfit accentuates your body will have him ready.

B for Bondage

Who gets tied up and how?

100% a switch; he allows you to tie him up and even gives tips on certain knots. He’s always impressed when you get it right and praises you for listening to his instructions. He’s a little uneasy at first but easily succumbs to your ministrations.

When it’s your turn to be tied he’s focused and careful. Making sure the knots aren’t pinching you or digging into your skin in ways you don’t like while telling you all the things he plans to do to you. When he’s finished he likes to stand back and admire the masterpiece he created and how pretty you look strung up for him.

C for Cuddling

How do they cuddle after sex?

Leon will want to hold you/be close. He doesn’t care how hot it is in the room, how messy the bed is, or how sweaty/sticky you are after! He wants to hold you and pillow talk until you both can’t stay awake anymore.

D for Dirty

How do they dirty talk? What do they say?

With Leon it’s either a smooth start or almost cringey. I imagine it starts as something cringey/jokey and you playfully express your disgust while pushing him away from you. He’ll pull you closer and apologize with a soft kiss and say “I’m sorry baby. It’s just that the idea of *insert cringey thing but in a sexy voice here* with you is really turning me on. If you give me a chance, I think you’ll enjoy it even more than I will” or something along those lines.

E for Exposed

What is the most daring place they've had sex?

In a church. I cannot elaborate further but it’s out there lol

F for Favorite

What do they find sexiest about their partner?

Leon would find your voice the sexiest! He imagines it all the time while he’s away

G for Graceful

What is the weirdest position they've tried?

The Amazon position for sure!

H for Hands

What do they do with their hands during sex?

Leon’s hands are always holding or caressing some part of you; he loves holding your hips when you ride him. Sometimes he’s so wrapped up in the moment he’ll leave bruises behind

I for Imagination

What do they fantasize about?

Depending on the kind of day he’s had, the fantasies are endless. Some times it’s him helping to measure how deep your throat is, other times it’s imagining all the things he’d do to you on your wedding night. Every fantasy is perfect to him as long as it stars you

J for Jazz

What's their go-to sexy song/playlist?

Leon loves a good slowed and reverb track, doesn’t matter what it is as long as it sounds good and fits the mood

K for Kink

What's their secret kink?

It’s a mix of public sex and auralism! He travels to many different places and when he gets a moment alone he often imagines taking you in the nicer ones he’s seen and how your voice would sound as it moaned his name over and over or how he’d have to cover your mouth so the people around you wouldn’t hear too much

L for Lingerie

What kind of underwear do they like to wear or have their partner wear?

Leon wears fashion briefs a.k.a tighty white-ys! When he’s home he prefers boxers. When it comes to what you wear, Leon appreciates attention to detail. It turns him on when you pop out with new style of lingerie in a color he mentioned he loves on you 2.5 weeks ago!

M for Moan

What kind of noises do they make? What sounds do they like to hear from their partner?

We a l l know exactly what sounds he makes thanks to the godsend that is DBD but he’s also a talker. He talks because, while he knows you love hearing, it makes him feel good too! He loves telling you how good you feel, how close he’s getting, asking you to beg, etc. He loves fucking his partner beyond words; watching you go from being able to form full on sentences to whimpers, moans, and single syllable words is a huge accomplishment for him

N for Night

What time of day do they prefer to have sex and why?

Leon’s grown to be fond of morning/daytime dec simply because it’s a rarity for you to wake up together. He loves being able to arouse you awake so he can have you cum while you watch the sunrise

O for Oral

Giving or receiving? Why?

Receiving because that’s Leon’s weak spot. If he’s mad or upset or anything of the sort, seeing you on your knees ready to pleasure him give him a little jolt out of the funk he was in just so he can enjoy your talents undistracted

P for Position

What is their favorite position(s) and why?

Leon loves missionary just so he can take in everything all at once. He loves to watch your face while he rearranges your guts

Q for Quickie

How would they have sex if they're in a hurry?

Quick sloppy kisses and hurried movements but he always makes sure you’re satisfied; he’d curse your underwear for being in his way before slowly pushing inside. He’d hum at the moan you let out and stay still for a few seconds, looking into your eyes. He knows he has to be quick but he loves savoring the feel of you around him and how hot you are both inside and out. Then he’s straight to it, working you both towards a much needed orgasm before he has to go away for work.

R for Role Play

What is their role-playing fantasy?

Leon’s go-to role is the cop who just wants a lil somethin’ for letting you slide without giving you a speeding ticket! He’d be down to try new stuff though

S for Sexy

What would they do/wear to turn on their partner?

Once Leon is invested, there’s nothing that could gross him out(aside from the big no nos most people seem to have). If you told him it turned you on to paint him with honey and fuck in a feather factory you would get a little side eye and occasional teasing but he would absolutely do what you asked

T for Trust

How would they implement rough sex or kinks?

Slowly and based off of the comfort of both parties. If something rough happens spur of the moment he will always check in after to apologize if it caught you off guard or to ask how you liked it/if it’s something you’ll want more of in the future.

U for Under

Who's in charge and how?

Leon is game for anything! He’s willing to take control of everything from start to finish if you ask it of him. He’s also more than ok with handing the reigns over to you, giving himself over to you for your every whim

V for Voyeur

What do they like to watch their partner do?

Leon loves watching his partner while they go self care! It brings him joy to watch you care for the person he holds most dear.

W for Wet

How would they have sex in the shower?

Slowly and sensually; lathering your skin with his hands and worshipping you while he washed you from head to toe. Then he’ll let you touch him and even offered to kneel before you so you can wash his hair. He’d barely last 2 mins before he’s throwing your leg over his shoulder to taste you and then…well, you know the rest

X for X-Rated

What kind of porn do they watch or read?

He can’t get off to visuals unless the likeness between his irl interest and the video/book character is uncanny. But if he finds someone who sounds like you, he’ll close his eyes and imagine you instead

Y for Yummy

How would they involve food/drinks?

He treats his partner like a sundae! Whipped cream, chocolate sauce, and a couple cherries placed here and there just for him taste before he devours his real dessert ;)

Z for Zipper

How do they prefer to undress? Both themselves and their partner.

Leon gets home and wants everything off/to be comfortable! He takes pride in what he does so he’ll quickly and put everything in its place. He thoroughly enjoys a show from his partner; he’d enjoy watching as you deliberately remove one piece of clothing at a time. To him it’s like watching a perfect gift unwrap itself 🎁

#ty for reading #love requests #ask response #resident evil leon #leon kennedy #hcs #x reader #resident evil #18+ content #anon <3 #leon x reader #resident evil asks

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sugar-omi · 6 months

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angst time :,) n a little comfort at the end bc I'm a sucker

i started thinking abt mc leaving rockstar cove after they get hurt bc of that crazy 'fan' (to the anon who brought it up, YOUBE BROKEN ME<////3)

even though you want nothing to do w him anymore, he'd pay for everything. even if you move out he'll pay for whatever you want and need until you're ready to go back to work

doesnt matter how much money you have, he'd feel so bad and this is the least he can do to relieve his guilt and your troubles.

I think him leaving music is very spontaneous yk that

he took a bit of a break before he tried doing shows again but it just wasn't the same. not like before he met you and definitely didn't feel the same as when you were dating.

so before the last song, he mumbles, only audible because of the mic, that this is rhe last show he's ever doing.

the crowd gasps and murmurs collectively, his crew and manager are freaking out backstage n baxter is prbly cussing him out thru the earpiece bc wtf is he doing? we never talked abt this???

and the last song cove plays is some sad song he wrote :,,)

he's crying in the middle of it, slow tears running down his face and by the end he covers his face, hands shaking and he exhales shakily.

he's in such ruins after everything that happened, and he thought he could move on, but he can't. it's too different. everything is too real now to ignore or play off. it's not simple anymore. it's real and it got dangerous and it's scary and hes.. he's tired.

he'll thank all his wonderful fans for supporting him, for all the love, especially after that stalker.

but through tears he gives a big fuck you to everyone who harassed him and especially you.

the internet totally breaks. the news is bumping for weeks especially with every new piece that comes out

"rockstar suddenly quits"

"hardass rockstar, cove holden, crying on stage during last show"

I'm torn between cove deactivating his socials and him just leaving everything as it is.

doesn't touch it unless you ask him to change his bio n pfp and everything.... that crushes him. he cries and cries n it takes so long to delete every post/photo of you/both of you. (he downloads every one, even if he knows he has the photo still.)

the internet breaks again, n if his fans know your socials n you took cove outta your bio/deleted your photos, etc. it just confirms the rumors that you're broken up.

which leads to a few a lot articles n posts n threads abt why you broke up, or fans in ruins bc they liked you together n hoped it wasn't true.

if it gets bad or annoying or whatever, and especially if you ask before he can act altho it wouldn't take long before he makes a statement or post on whatever remaining social he has to "Stay outta our business. leave y/n alone."

and maybe the pap, creepy as always, see you and cove moving things out the house into your car or uhaul depending on how much you run away with (you can take all his left shoes n he wouldn't complain)

n now the photos n articles are circulating like wild fire and cove tries to be civil telling everyone to stfu n get out your business, but somehow he ends up making a dark, pixelated video of him in what looks like the kitchen? cussing out the pap n telling everyone to just stop n fuck off, that you're blowing it up too much n to just stop

it blows over eventually, resurfacing here and there over the years

ik rockstar cove is dramatic n wild n blah blah blah, he's crazy ik stfu I think he's great n hes like the next beyonce in my head i think but yes he is a drama queen and he's still a big crybaby

definitely ends up back w his dad, helping w his shop early on (definitely got caught behind the register once bc some fan made a tiktok captioned "cove fucking holden just rang up my surfboard and stuff im going to FAINT" and now the shop is more busy than usual)

when you run into each other again and catch up, he definitely cries and can't stop feeling bad for not protecting you better. for not doing more even though he did the most whole youbwere together to keep you safe from crazy and delusional fans

please tell him it's not his fault, bc he really did do everything before and after the attack and you'll never regret being w him. he'd blame himself so much and would cry with relief to know you don't hate him

#olba #cove holden #angst

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inkybloom-luv · 9 months

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Words Unsaid 10, fireworks

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Hi everyone! Late upload but w/e! At least it's a long one! I hope you enjoy my little silly update! I have worked in a little bit of Urdu, for which I will put the translations at the bottom but please be aware that it is not a language I speak, feel free to correct me! (Politely tho please)

Major Al'ab Nayira spoilers

Slightly suggestive for like,, 1 sentence

2.5+ k words.

Part 9 Masterpost Part 11

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At the Camel Bazaar Grim managed to sniff out a Shawarma stall and also managed to convince everyone to order. Six different orders, all accustomed to everyone's preferences and still Jamil could remember them and give them to the stall owner. Both Cater and Inky found that absolutely amazing, but Inky found Jamil amazing on a different level than Cater.

When their food arrived however, one seemed to be missing. Jamil's. Everyone accused Grim at first but he was obviously not it, because somehow his counter argument made enough sense. "I could have stolen the whole spit of meat if I was going to steal anything!" Or something like that, at least.

It was then discovered that a young woman, slightly younger than Jamil, maybe by a year or two, had swiped it. Her appearance sent Jamil into a sputter as it came to light she was his younger sister, Najma. The group was theorising over what was causing Jamil to loose his composure but really it wasn't because he was embarrassed, he just didn't want his younger sister to find him with.. well, his crush, NOT THAT THAT'S WHAT INKY WAS TO HIM!! Absolutely not! He just didn't know another word for it! Yeah that's it! And to top it off Najma inserted herself into the group via Cater suggesting she join them after hearing how her plans got cancelled after Mr Viper had sent her out to tell Jamil about the change in seating, though this was because their father did not quite understand phones and technology all too well. Of course, that made Cater give Najma the rundown of the group after Jamil had been unwillingly coerced into letting his sister join. Everyone else got a turn and then it was time to introduce the prefect.

"And this lovely lady is the prefect, Inky! She's super sweet and the school would probably go up in flames without her! Get this: she's actually real cammable! And her outfit today is an easy 100/10!" He said, and of course, that flattered Inky, although she didn't really fully believe that. Actually the part about the school was probably true but the rest was a little odd to her. She did try to be sweet though. It was then that Najma noticed her as Jamil had sort of stood in the way, which was totally on purpose. Najma inspected Inky a bit, noticing her brother was looking at her as well, trying to keep a stoic expression. But there was just something in his eyes that felt different, new, more.. affectionate even. And then she realised. The pretty little lady had stolen her big brother's heart and he was more than slightly in absolute denial.

"And that's the short n sweet on our little group!" Cater finished.

"Wow, honestly I'm surprised my brother has this many friends! He never mentions anyone when he comes home over the holidays!" Najma said, which made Jamil respond in a slightly agitated manner.

"They're not my friends, they are schoolmates, that's all." To which Najma ghasped in exaggerated shock, worming herself through the group to behind Inky, gripping her shoulders. Which, Inky seemed slightly hurt by what Jamil had said, though he didn't intend to make her feel that way.

"You can't tell me this little cutie of a girl you brought is *just a schoolmate*" Najma said, continuing to feign shock to tease her brother.

"Well- no, she's not just a schoolmate. She's.. a close friend. Had I the time to say anything I would have but for today I am busy." He answered, trying once again to avoid the truth. It was then Najma had a sort of lightbulb moment. She had never been more glad to be his sister and to understand what he meant by that.

"Jamil Viper..! تم اس کے ساتھ چھپ کر چھیڑ چھاڑ کرنا چاہتے تھے..!"

She said, a smug grin now plastered on her face. Her brother was making googly eyes at a girl and was trying *so hard* to hide it that it was almost hilarious!

"No! آپ چیزوں کا تصور کر رہے ہیں!"

Jamil said, almost a little too quickly. He felt immensely glad that his friends did not understand a lick of Urdu right then. Even if the little sad look on Inky's face earlier did kind of plague him. But it's not like she was his crush! He just didn't have another word! Sure she was absolutely breathtaking in her current attire, not just that, anything really and she was so sweet and- you know what? Nevermind! What mattered was that Jamil was most definitely not crushing on her and his sister was just trying to tease him!

His sister gave one last and incredibly unconvinced "yeah sure Jamil, whatever you say...~", before everyone had finished their food, save Inky, who was still holding half of hers. Odd but maybe she wasn't all that hungry yet.

One way or another the conversation drifted to a fruit vendor who was selling many high quality fruits. The group then learned that fruit grown here was high quality due to a special irrigation method since water was scarce back in the day. Malleus also learned what a dragon fruit was and Najma bought some and drizzled it with honey for the group to try.

Another mentionable fruit was the so-called silky melon, a Silk City specialty known for its taste and texture.

"It's said that sharing these with someone will make your friendship or romance last forever." Jamil explained. He couldn't help the way his eyes wandered over to her, to Inky. Would she share a melon with him? He hoped she would. He bought some for the group, himself included. Though he was surprised when Inky refused a portion. Did she not want to be tied to the group, or even him? Was it him? He had to know, so he asked her why she wouldn't take her portion, then again she didn't finish her shawarma either.

"I don't like melons much. In my home they are popular too, a summer treat but I just find it tastes.. weird. So while I would try a piece.. a whole portion would likely be wasted on me." Was her reasoning. She was eyeing Jamil's portion though. He waited until everyone was distracted with their melon bits until he turned to her again, holding out to her one of the smallest pieces from his little pile. And she did take it. Despite what she said about not liking melons she ate it. Jamil didn't know why, but she knew. It was because it was Jamil that offered, ever considerate a small piece. But they shared. And that's what mattered to them both. Cater wanted to take another picture.. but no one except Inky was down for it and she didn't have a melon so no pic for poor Cater.

They tried bread next, which made a story of little Jamil come to light. Apparently he loved to make bread when he was younger and his sister tried it once. That one didn't go so well so Jamil made Hamburger steak out of what was left. After that they saw some urns and vases at a stall, where Grim did, in fact, fall into one. Najma chose that moment to reveal that Jamil had hidden in one as a kid and scared the daylights out of his sister as her tried to leave with it in a very Link hiding in a barrel fashion. It embarrassed Jamil to no end but Inky was giggling at least.

Since it had gotten hot now they settled on going to get some coconut water. Turns out that Kalim drank it by the truckload and the Malleus Draconia cracked the empty coco-fruits for everyone to enjoy. You know, like a glorified nutcracker. No one was gonna believe that. After that, they wandered and found a stall that sold, among other things, dates! The vendor recognised Jamil and began to coerce a story out of him. The one that explained his seething hatred and fear of bugs. He'd burnt down an entire awning of the stall trying to get the bug away, but he was a child and the control he had over his magic at the time was most definitely not that great. Apparently he was crying too, according to the stall owner. But that didn't matter much because right in the next moment it was Inky that shrieked and jumped at Jamil, seemingly out of nowhere. It happened quickly enough that Jamil barely managed to stay standing and it alerted the whole group. But still, Jamil held her up as she clung to him, not daring to put her feet on the floor. Unfortunately no one in the group could tell what happened until about half a minute later when Inky lifted her head to sniffle as she slowly put her feet back on the floor.

"S-sorry..!" She stuttered out, drying her tears as best she could before she actually started to cry. "a big s-spider was crawling up my leg and I p-panicked..!"

The prefect was not scared of a lot of things, but spiders, specifically large ones? That did her in. It had the whole group scanning the floor but at least nothing was on fire. Jamil was trying to calm her down a little too, offered her a date, which she gladly took, no matter how much Jamil disliked the fruit. After that whole mess Inky held on to Jamil's sleeve for a bit. But they walked past a toy stall, so upon Grim's request Inky did actually buy a game.

Najma left shortly after to meet with her friends, not before giving Jamil another teasing look about the girl that he was absolutely head over heels for. Unfortunately that was suddenly unimportant as Malleus had somehow managed to disappear right then and there. Somehow Jamil seemed a bit too calm as he led the group to Zahab Market. Turns out those neat little bells on everyone's outfit, right? Those cute things? GPS trackers. Not only that but Kalim showed up, since he'd finished early and wanted to join the group a while, with permission of course. A bit of conversing later and it was decided that they would all go look for souvenirs to bring home from the trip, though it was likely that Inky would really only look rather than buy.

After everyone finished and they moved on Grim had somehow gotten his heart set on coffee divination. Turns out Jamil knew the basics as Najma was into it, this Grim could happily try. And for once, Inky wanted to as well, if only to try the coffee. Grim had swallowed the grounds, unfortunately, however Inky had been careful not to, so Jamil could read her fortune. He took a few looks and blinked.

"A J, which refers to love as well as a 1, the start of something new, a romantic relationship perhaps.. as well as.." he leaned in slightly closer "a 6.. for.. intimacy" he said to her, hoping he'd made his point come across and by the looks of those slightly rosy cheeks, he did. He said a few more minor things but that was about it. Those first 3 were the most important to Inky, for obvious reasons.

They kept walking and a little while later as everyone dispersed for a few more moments Inky was looking at jewelry. Waist beads to be specific. She'd always been fond of them and wanted to try them, too bad they were just slightly out of their tight budget, so they turned to the others to learn what they'd gotten instead. And while that went on, Jamil disappeared for only a moment, only to come back with seemingly nothing. But who knows how true that was.

More time passed as the sun set and they ran into the chief pyrotechnician, who struck up a friendly conversation, only to realise he'd been stolen from! Not only that, someone tried to snag Inky's poor old phone! Well, not someone, a monkey they'd seen earlier, that performed tricks. Malleus suggested using magic to stop the creature but that was quickly passed up on in favour of Jamil's plan, which, although it ended in Jamil fighting the man who owned the monkey, went well. Considering it was a great way for Jamil to blow off steam, of course it went swimmingly. Gently brushing the dirt off him, Inky congratulated him with a smile as the police went and took care of the crook, who regretted his life choices. The show was on!

Once they reached the venue and everyone had gotten a mint lemonade, which was very tasty, they waited. It was then that the pyrotechnician from earlier had come back, offering Jamil the chance to set off the firework festival's finale. He needed a lot of convincing but eventually agreed to do so, perhaps it was everyone's encouragement or their smiles.

Kalim was the one that asked everyone their opinions of the day, and they all had lovely things to say. "I loved it, I can't believe there's a place this amazing out here. Makes me wish I'd lived here all my life, maybe I would've met you guys sooner..!" Inky chuckled to herself, being the last one to say anything. The fireworks started and music played as everyone got roped into dancing, though Inky simply swayed a little to the beat, not far from Jamil, who took the chance and danced with her, once again for a little while, instructing and guiding her along the way, not taking his eyes off her and her bright smile for even a moment. When it came time however he gave the cue for the final fireworks. His heart raced as he looked at all his friends and then at Inky, who was standing there amazed and wide eyed, the biggest smile on her face. He stepped closer, slightly out of breath.

"Was.. was the timing right? Did I do it? How did.. how did everything look?" He said, turning to face the night sky, lit with blooming colours and bright lights, like stars or flowers that blossomed. Everyone was enamoured by the performance of the carefully organised spectacle. Even he allowed himself a brief moment of distraction until he felt a hand on his shoulder and something soft on his cheek. he looked to his side, seeing a flushed Inky look at him from the corner of her eyes as she pretended to enjoy the fireworks rather than stare at him. He grinned, a smile on his lips as his own cheeks grew hot. He couldn't help but intertwine their fingers and hold her hand in that moment. It was pure bliss. Alright. Maybe he did have a crush on her. Maybe he loved her even. Who could say? Jamil certainly couldn't. But he could say for certain he had fallen. And maybe that was okay this time.

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Translations:

¹; You wanted to flirt with her in secret..!

²; You're imagining things!

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forgottencillian · 7 months

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OOC | Cillian & Brigit

so!!!! cillian!!!! has!!!! feelings!!! for!!! brigit!!!! and unfortunately he is cruising to make it EVERYONE'S problem smdh hahaha ok so i feel like he's lowkey the laurie to their march girls and if we follow that analogy, brigit is DEF his jo, like, i feel like he grew up w them but it was always a lil different w brigit bc he was always a little bit in love w her, even before he really knew what that meant yknow like she's always just had this special place in his heart but then!!!!!!! she turned him down!!!!!!! w a laugh!!!!!

i deffff think that shut him down hardddddd and, like, he probs tried to play it off like 'hahaha yeah what a ridiculous idea omg imma laugh' but then he was like 'sick for a week' and couldn't come to work bc he was too busy staring into a frozen lake and writing tragic poetry while all his dreams of his future shattered around her (he was def v dramatic abt this to his poor bro idk what to tell you lkajsdlkfjdsjf) tbh, i think he always knew it was doomed bc she was a lady and he was a servant and, like, he was ok w that...(and still lowkey held on to hope bc she was never super conventional and her dad just wanted her to be happy etc etc etc and i think he bounced between whether he thought it was mutual too all the time etc) but then to learn that it wasn't even that standing in their way, it was the thing he had loved most (her laughter) between them just really...wasn't a fun time

once he 'recovered from his illness' he def tried to pretend it was nothing by being in particularly good spirits (supposedly) when she was around, and generally tryna play it cool, but i think he ~does hold her a touch more at arms length emotionally than he ever did before bc he doesn't wanna get hurt again, but he also can't resist being around her bc he still has feelings and, even if he didn't, she'd still be his bff and he will always love her etc and it's just...extremely complicated

anyway, idk how long ago the not!breakup happened? but that would def play a role in ~where he is now~ in this emotional journey, but i can say i do think that cassandra has made it at once better AND worse????? bc, like, its really nice to feel wanted after being rejected etc and he genuinely enjoys her company!!! but then he gets back from that and he kinda feels like a jerk bc he's lying to her and using her to help destroy her fam which is obv not a great (boy)friend move lakjdsfkjldsf but also like there's brigit right there and what is he doing messing around when the person he's always loved is right there and maybe he can still convince her they belong together, and, like, he just feels like hes cruising to get EVERYONE hurt and yeah its a M E S S and i feel like the result is that he just acts kinda...strange, like kinda running hot and cold and its all v emotionally confusing for everyone probably alksdjfkljdsjkf id say im sorry in advance but i know you're not even a little bit surprised me and my characters are out here causing chaos hahahaha

#brigit malconaire #ooc

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heavensickness · 1 year

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HIII SUDE <3 i wanted to ask u if u have any thoughts/theories/remarks on the part of the trailer where ais exhales the smoke, which then morphs into a bird, and then we see birds flying past kuras?

it could just be for smooth transition between the two scenes, but considering the game is filled w symbolism i'm inclined to think it's more than just that. so far things i've found on the dictionary of symbols by j. e. cirlot is this:

also i find it interesting that birds fly towards kuras (who has biblically accurate wings) rather than mhin (whose monster form is an actual bird) but other than that, i have no concrete theory so would love to hear what u thought ab this <3

First of all, your IQ is around 3000+ & i think you should make a post about this (if u want to of course!) so other people can read about it too. Honestly I didn't have time to focus on the intricate symbolism in the game or trailer like this since I was so busy with work this week.

But!!! I think Ais being an oni (a demon) and Kuras being an angel is very interesting as they would be normally fundamentally opposite forces, yet they hold respect for each other. Seaspring, the "people" of Ais who have joined the groupmind, and his seemingly "missing" gang makes me think that Ais originally held a very high position among monsters; maybe he was the ruler of all of them at some point. I am not sure what happened in his past to cause him to be so isolated as he is right now, but I feel like it wasn't his choice.

Ais is portrayed as a fallen leader and Kuras is a fallen angel, so maybe they understand each other on a different level: Being cast out by your own people and the unbearable loneliness that comes with it.

I also think that Kuras's dark secret has something to do with monsters. We know that the border between MC's world & another plane of existence has been demolished; thus allowing monsters and the Soulless into MC's world. This is a complete shot in the dark but maybe Kuras was the angel who was supposed to guard this border and he somehow failed? So his punishment is to wander around the world for eons and eons without a chance to return Heaven back?

I know that this isn't the answer to your question, but these are my thoughts about Ais and Kuras so far. I find their dynamic as one of the most interesting dynamics between the LIs & I can't wait to learn more about their past and relationship

#ais #kuras #touchstarved #things i'm playing

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fruit-of-infidelity · 1 year

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♱ DIABOLIK LOVERS: Haunted Dark Bridal ー Sakamaki Shuu | Dark 5½ ♱

⌜ Scene: School Courtyard ⌟

ー The school bell chimes. ー

Yui: Aah!

Time for class again, Shuu-san. Let’s get going, so we’re not late… Again.

…Eh?

Shuu-san? Where did you go?

( I could have sworn he was right here, with me. )

( No good… Don’t tell me he disappeared after hearing the bell. )

Pwahh… Is he avoiding me so he doesn’t have to go?

???: That shouldn’t be surprising.

Yui: E-Eh!?

ー Ryuuto suddenly appears by Yui. ー

( This guy! He’s… )

Ryuuto-san, right? That one that approached me at that house…

Ryuuto: The very same.

You seem surprised that we’ve crossed paths again, although I’m pleased to know that you’ve remembered my name, at the very least.

Yui: It’s hard to f-forget someone sneaking up on you like that…

( Something about how he’s looking at me tells me he’s up to no good… )

…Anyway, I think I better be on my way to class.

ー He blocks her path. ー

Ryuuto: I admire your desire to learn, although…

Missing class for but a few minutes won’t hurt; Stay for a little chat, will you? There is oh-so important business for us to touch on, after all.

Yui: What are you talking about?

Ryuuto: You see… I’m here to offer you a second chance.

I’m not too happy with how things between us left off, choosing the eldest Sakamaki – of all people – to care for you. It was foolish.

Yui: W-Well… I made my decision, and that was Shuu-san.

Ryuuto: Why decide upon him, I wonder?

Yui: Why not?

( Something tells me Ryuuto-san wouldn’t have been at all better… )

Ryuuto: Fufu, it should be obvious enough by this point already.

I’ve observed, how you’ve been disregarded by him on multiple occasions. Despite your gold-hearted attempt to do what is best for him.

Don’t you feel used, already?

Firstly, that kiss… and that bath incident. Of course, that’s not to mention his perverted assault upon your ears, with that “music” of his.

Yui: Y-You… know about all that!? How…

Ryuuto: …Fufufu.

Being tossed aside, used as nothing more than lewd entertainment, in such a perilous situation… Surely it is nothing short of difficult, no?

Alas, that happens to be just the sort of person Shuu is. One to disregard any and all responsibility he has, just for his own amusement.

So, why not place your trust into someone far more sensible?

Yui: That’s…

━─┉┈◈ Selection ◈┈┉─━

　　❈ I can handle myself ( ♥ )

Yui: I appreciate your concern, I think, but…

Besides that… weird behaviour of his, I’m sure I can handle myself with Shuu-san. S-So there is no reason to be looking out for me.

Ryuuto: You may have made your bed, but you need not lie in it, Pet.

Yui: Look, I’m confident that I’ll do just fine…!

　　❈ No, thank you

Yui: Do you mean… someone like you?

I think I-I’m fine as is, thank you…

Ryuuto: You don’t seem to say that with much conviction.

Yui: At the end of the day, you’re both Vampires. S-So what sort of difference would it even make, picking you?

You can’t expect me to take this sort of leap blindly…!

━━─┉┈┈◈◉◈┈┈┉─━━

Ryuuto: You can doubt my words all you like, though you’ll soon come to regret it; He’s an irresponsible one, Shuu. Mercilessly irresponsible.

And, I have no doubt that it might just get you killed.

Yui: But… It’s like Shuu-san said, there are those “special orders”. Right?

I’m not allowed to be killed; Why would he go against his own words?

Ryuuto: Would you take that chance?

Yui: ( And trust you instead? )

Ryuuto: You underestimate those people’s savagery, it seems.

ー Ryuuto creeps closer to her. ー

Once they catch scent of Her blood that runs through your veins… Fufu, you’ll be torn limb from limb in their frenzy; They’ve never been good at sharing.

Yui: “Her” blood…?

ー He grasps onto her arm. ー

Ryuuto: …Why not save yourself the grief, and choose me?

Yui: H-Hey…!

( He’s g-got such a tight grasp on my arm, suddenly! )

Ryuuto: Surely you know better than to trust these Sakamaki’s.

Is there not something deep within you that knows you would be safer elsewhere? A feeling… A voice, even, compelling you to say yes?

Yui: Ouch…

Ryuuto: You needn’t even let them know where you’ve run off you; We can head home right away, and you’ll be safe with me.

Yui: R-Ryuuto-san...!

You’re hurting me!!

ー He lets go of her arm. ー

Ryuuto: … …

Yui: Uu…

( I-I didn’t mean to raise my voice like that, but that really hurt! )

ー The second bell chimes, this time. ー

( …! The w-warning bell. )

Ryuuto: …I’m a patient man, but even I have my limits.

I’ll give you some time to reconsider, hm? Just don’t take too long doing so, before it becomes – ultimately – too late for you to be saved, Pet.

Yui: I…

I-I’m sorry, I need to get to class. Excuse me…!

ー Yui quickly runs off. ー

Ryuuto: … …

✥ TO BE CONTINUED ✥

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#Diabolik Lovers #dialovers #diabolik lovers oc #haunted dark bridal #haunted dark bridal dark #sakamaki shuu #sakamaki shu #shuu sakamaki #shu sakamaki #sakamaki shuu route #shuu sakamaki route #shuu route #shu route #sakamaki shu route #shu sakamaki route #haunted dark bridal mini chapters #hdbshudark #hdbshuudark

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theshortolivia · 1 year

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Ok I finally got around to watching all of buddy daddies and I have Thoughts.

First off literally months ago I had a fan fiction idea in which rei’s father called him home, told him he knew about kazuki and Miri and had had them assassinated so rei would have no more connections (this was before I’d watched that Misaki was even in the picture) so?? I’m psychic maybe? That fic idea also included a 10ish year time skip so Literally

As a psych student I couldn’t help but read way too far into everyone’s actions. I know some people have said Rei is autistic coded and while I def do see that I also see similarities to isolated children cases (to a lesser extent of course he wasn’t isolated more deprived) which ends up with a lot symptoms we also see in ASD like the difficulty in reading social cues. in general reading way into Rei’s actions and words and relating it to his upbringing was super fun.

Super interesting that Rei, while clearly being emotional stunted and not the best with social cues, is super good at reading people, at least Kazuki and Miri

The CHARACTER GROWTH they clearly still have so much more to go but moving past unhealthy coping mechanisms? Processing grief healthily? Learning life skills? Learning to parent? Amazing

This anime shone light on so many real issues in modern day Japan (that are dealt with all over the world to different extents) that I’m just beginning to learn about now since I’ve been doing research since I want to go and maybe live there at some point. Namely same sex couples being still stigmatized by not a small amount of the population (we see the variety in acceptance with the first daycare woman and miss Anna) Also with gender labor division at home, Kazuki feeling taken advantage of and exhausted trying to balance home care and work and being frustrated Rei is not contributing equally in those aspects is something a lot of women deal w in Japan since the role of house and child care and cooking is still seen as the wife/mother’s responsibility while the man is the breadwinner a lot.

While the eventful ending was wonderful and shocking and scary and well done i was ultimately disappointed by the ending for a few reasons

Personally I don’t think an non functioning arm would make Rei’s father suddenly okay with him not taking over? Like as the head of the business I don’t think rei’s father is doing a lot of active assassin work anyway (I will write fanfictions about this don’t worry)

Disappointed that they made a point to include in the timeskip that kazuki and rei were not together instead of leaving it even just ambiguous with Miri’s comment about kazuki going out with a woman the night before or w/e. I know it was clarified to NOT be a BL anime so my expectations probably should have been lower than they were but idk the amount of tropes they so obviously put in there throughout make me feel a LITTLE queerbaited

The outfits were all ICONIC especially Miri’s I LOVED THEM

Finally, I have MORE STORY IDEAS NOW some bridging off from the canon end and some from earlier in the anime and I’m trying to get back into writing so wish me luck on that cause I’m SUPER inspired rn

#buddy daddies #buddy daddy spoilers #rei suwa #kazuki kurusu #miri unasaka

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the-character-lounge · 2 years

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Spinel’s Giggle Fit

Spinel relaxed again, feeling a little bit warm and fuzzy when he kept thinking about the fact that he was fed a grape and had a flower put in his mane. And under the moonlight too, on top of all that. Wasn't this just the stuff they made up for the movies...? He felt more than nice, he felt glamorous. In an old abandoned overgrown garden of a failed project. How....? He was quietly sampling the different cheeses, perplexed brows but a warm smile none the less.

The colors of the flower fluctuated from a shiny copper, to a brilliant glowing purple. Eventually it settled on pulsating blue, with swirls of yellow and light green blossoming and colliding with one another as they danced and swirled from petal to petal. Randy looked over at Spinel, and watched him silently. After a few moments, he finally spoke. “.. Y- You know, you look ab- absolutely radiant Sp- Spinel..” he smiled and gently pressed his cheek to his shoulder. “.. especially wh- when you don’t think any pony’s looking at you. B- Because you’re not tr- trying so hard. Y- You’re just… being you. And there’s this.. glow that comes fr- from you when you’re just b- being yourself.” He smiled and nuzzled him gently. “.. I- I like that a l- lot.”

His cheeks couldn't be any redder, and he choked on a bit of wine dipped bread for a second. He was in shock for a moment, but then felt these bursts of overwhelming emotions that he really didn't know how to contain because he didn't recognize them. He just started... Giggling. Over and over, just, giggling and shaking his head before hiding it as quickly as he could with the blanket.

Randy blushed a bit, and he looked away, feeling suddenly embarrassed for some reason. He took a sip of his wine, waiting for Spinel to rip into him. He didn’t even bother to check the flower, he felt like he knew what was coming. He looked away, stared towards the door where a crack of light was flooding in, and dipped his bread in the wine and snacked on it nervously.

As the giggling continued, one of Spinel's hooves reached out blindly to pat around Randy's foreleg, and between giggles he managed to speak, "G-g-Go on, t-tell me more!" He made a weird restrained 'Mmmm' noise after that, moving the blanket away but hiding his face at an angle. His ear tips were a deep red.

Randy looked back at him, and raised a brow. “.. U- Um..” he scooted a bit closer and chuckled awkwardly. “O- Okay um…” He stared at him and opened his mouth a few times to say something, but he chuckled again. “I- I’m sorry, i- it’s hard t- to think of something wh- when you’re giggling l- like that. Y- You’re making me nervous!” He said, playfully nudging him.

He caught his breath, rubbing Randy's foreleg absently before giving a deep, relieved sigh. When he looked up he had a very relaxed flush on his face, a bit worn out from the force of the giggling and having to catch his breath. "I don't know what that- ahahh... was about but... Whoo...."

Randy scooted a bit closer and chuckled with him. “W- Well.. that’s another thing I- I like about you. Y- You have a cute giggle.” He smiled and leaned forward, giving him a gentle peck on the lips. “Th- That flower must’ve been g- going berserk h- huh?” He hadn’t actually seen it, he was too busy feeling embarrassed.

"I don't have a- F--" He had to hide his head again. Jeeze, what was wrong with him? Why did he feel this need to cover himself up and why was his stomach bursting with wiggly things? "You can't tell any pony!" he snapped shyly, horn closing the portion of the blanket around his face.

Randy chuckled and softly pulled the blanket down. “Not a s- soul will kn- know you have the c- cutest giggle in all of E- Equestria.” He leaned closer and pressed his nose to Spinel’s. “S- Scout’s honor a- and all that.”

He just couldn't process this. At all. The wiggling things in his stomach were apparently explosive, and it produced a strained, high pitched sound that was a near yelp but a single 'ha' laugh. He made a few of these sounds, then managed to clump three of them together before he simply went as limp as a noodle with a dumb, overwhelmed smile.

He smiled, and gently kissed him on the lips before sitting beside Spinel again and letting him lean on his shoulder. It got a bit chilly. But instead of reaching for his own blanket, he took half of Spinel’s and wrapped himself up in it. “Brrrr! A b- bit cold up here.. Th- The mountains corral all that freezing air and blow it straight down in here.” He looked out over the balcony of the open roof, and out over the expanding countryside. This being the last building on the edge of the Canterlot, they didn’t have the lights of the city contending with the stars and moon. The sky shimmered in all its glory, the arms of distant galaxies mingling amongst the endless sea of stars.

Spinel went quiet and stared up at the stars as well. He was always looking down on everything from his 4th floor, where it was high up and seccure and all his. Everything below his hooves was disgusting and not worth his time, but the stars were beautiful and shining so bright despite being so far away. He aspired to be up there with those stars. Quietly, he whispered, smile still on his face but eyes warm and looking for a nice answer, "So what's a better view? Me or those stars...?"

“Hmmmmm….” he said, still looking up at the stars. “I dunno, those stars are looking pretty good tonight…” he chuckled and looked over at Spinel. “But then again, they don’t l- look nearly as b- beautiful up th- there in heaven as they do in your eyes.”

And there was that nice little sweet spot. He was a melted noodle once more and this seemed to suddenly transform him in to a clingly snuggler. He levitated some grapes and happily popped them in his mouth, tail wagging a bit.

Randy softly kissed his temple, and rested his cheek against the top of Spinel’s head. “.. Hey I just realized something!” he said, pointing up towards the stars again. “I- I was wondering where..” he chuckled and squinted as he stared upwards. “I’ve seen th- this all before!” He softly bopped his forehead. “Duh I’ve seen i- it like.. a m- million times!” He stayed staring for just a moment, before he took his eyes away from the stars. His voice grew tender as he gently touched Spinel’s cheek and looked him in the eyes. “All of that out there.. I’ve seen it every single t- time I look deep inside those gorgeous eyes of your’s.” He chuckled and gently stroked Spinel’s cheek as he whispered softly, “F- Finally, Heaven caught up with the beauty y- you were born with.”

Spinel's expression was... a mess, to say the least. He made a twitching smile but it was going between a smile and a shocked gape, and then there was the occasional violent lip quiver which was twitched away each time. His eyes became glassy and his eyebrows couldn't decide what the hell they wanted to do. His throat couldn't figure shit out either, first came out a choke, then a fluttering breath, then what sounded like a mild moan of distress, one of those weird laughs, and finally he just crumpled down against Randy's hooves, yanking the blanket down with him as he hid once more under it. He felt embarassed and ashamed, he felt admired yet he felt he didn't meet expectation, happy and sad and longing and lost all at once.

Randy was.. for lack of a better term.. completely and utterly confused. He didn’t know if he had said the right thing or the wrong thing, but all he knew was now he had a unicorn with a downy blanket hiding in his forelegs, and he couldn’t decide if he should feel guilty for saying what he did, or if Spinel maybe misunderstood what he said. He nervously swallowed, and gently hugged the bundle of unicorn to him, and cringed. “D- Did I.. I say something wrong?” he asked in a hushed voice, feeling really conflicted and kind of embarrassed all at the same time.

"I- No, you-- Khahaha, I don't know." he peeked out, flushed still, staring up with his cheek pressed up to one of Randy's hooves. "It's... like, I wanted to hear it." he paused, slowly hiding once more, speaking in a softer voice, "But I feel.. wrong believing it, even if I want to so so much..."

Randy softly stroked his cheek, smiling a very kind smile. “I never th- thought I lived to see the d- day th- that you would show a l- little modesty.” He chuckled and kissed one of his ears. “Well b- believe it. I- I think you’re absolutely dazzling.. I al- always have~” He felt himself flush a bit, and he gently stroked his cheek still.

"I don't know. I don't think I'm perfect enough sometimes." He stared at Randy, "And it isn't like ponies haven't told me time and time again I'm stunning, gorgeous, perfect even." He laughed, slightly strained, "And I know I am but it's somehow never enough. But then you..." He managed to sit up, hooves pointing to all of Randy, "You make me feel....." he stared off blankly, speaking in an aloof manner, "... Weak and needy. I need it. I need... I need to feel... like this all the... time..." He shook a bit, then gradually started to look more upset.

Randy held his cheek and looked a him with a worried smile. “Hey hey hey, d- don’t get upset…” He scooted a bit closer and took Spinel’s hooves in his. “I- I’m here.. it’s o- okay…”

"But I don't. I don't even though I hear those things all the time, it doesn't feel real." He bit his lip, breathing and scooting closer, trying to contain the helpless anger that was trying to push its way out through the misery. His eyes focused once more, seeming to snap out of his daze. "Why is it different now...?"

Randy softly squeezed his hooves. He didn’t know what to say. He just softly held Spinel’s hooves, and listened to him. It was important that he talk this out. Randy wasn’t going to try and pretend he knew and understood Spinel. What little he did understand was obviously not enough to help Spinel when he asked questions like that. Randy wasn’t in his head, he had no idea what it was so different when compared to other ponies. Maybe it was because he actually cared about Spinel? He stared intently, ready to jump in when he felt like he could say something useful or meaningful.

Spinel took a few more focused breaths, then sighed, forcing a smile and moving himself to lean against Randy again. He levitated some more wine for himself and dipped the bread in it, eating quietly and slowly, giving a soft swallow before he spoke again, "Whatever. I'm going to enjoy feeling like this right now."

Randy gently kissed the top of his head, and snuggled into him. “H- Hope you don’t mind i- if we share that feeling,” he said in a hushed, but sweet and tender voice. He kissed Spinel’s ear softly, and rested his chin on his shoulder. He smiled and looked over at the flower tucked behind Spinel’s ear. It was still a flurry of colors, and he didn’t think it would ever settle on just one. He gave up trying to figure out how Spinel was feeling based on the flower, and went back to cuddling with him, sighing happily as he rocked the unicorn back and forth softly.

#spinel #rp snippet

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animeloverskylarmoon · 2 years

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Jujutsu Kaisen Fanfiction- Chapter 1

"I guess I should expect this by now, it is high school."

"Are you okay Suno-san?"

"Hai, arigatou (Y/N)-sensei. You really didn't have to get involved. Toshi-sensei said they would just stop on their own." Kneeling down. You pick up her book.

"I know I'm only an assistant teacher here, but that's a load of crap." Her eyes widen at the use of language.

"If they ever give you trouble just let me know. I'll see to it that they have something better to do than harass one of our best students. " Her eyes brightened, and she nodded as you handed her the book.

"A-Arigatou-sensei!!" She took off happily, despite the scuffle with her peers.

It wasn't that long ago that you were in her very position.

Although you were a part of the faculty now, you could still relate to it. Being different and targeted for it. The steady trail of energy that follows her is a bit worrying. When you intervened you didn't feel it, but now you could.

"Cursed energy.."

Just great.

"Gojo will be happy to hear this."

"A potential recruit!" He perked up. You nod.

"Akane Suno. Her cursed energy is raw right now. I didn't feel it at all until I got close to her. Some seniors were messing with her. With the right training she can be great. "

"Think of the look on those seniors faces if they knew what she was capable of."

He wasn't wrong. The first thing you did after school ended was head over to Jujutsu Tech. Today wasn't just a regular visit from him. For weeks you'd been pestering him to get you another training partner. He was mostly out on missions, and you didn't want to fall behind. Especially with the recent situation of Sakuna's resurrection.

"Are you ready!!"

You groan. The only problem you truly had was his need to play ridiculous pranks.

"Gojo-san, is this another one of your sick games?" You grumble.

"Eh, I'm offended you would say such a thing."

"Baka."

He just offers a smile.

"Today, you'll be training with Nanami-san. "

"Nanami?"

You heard about him. Up until recently he was just a regular business man. Like most he attended Jujutsu Tech, but navigated to a different route. Only to return.You remember vividly the mocking voice of Gojo when he picked up the phone. Stepping into the building, you frown.

"It's been a while since I've been back here."

You'd just recently been appointed to the position of second grade. Gojo insisted you had potential to do more. A part of you assumes he just liked punching you around. Training with him is the definition of hell. His methods were often childish, and he just had this annoying way of pushing your buttons.

It's that way with almost everyone he interacted with to be honest. Gojo slid the door open, and there he stood. The infamous Nanami Kento. One of the more recent rumors was his ability to use Black Flash. An attack that was envied by many. If you could land something like that, you could make first grade easily.

"Don't have too much fun!" You blink, because he was already gone. You sigh.

"What a nuisance."

"Are you ready?" You blink.

"E-Eh!!"

"We'll start with hand to hand combat. Gojo has said that you're a second grade sorcerer. From the reports I've read on your abilities, you would be a good recommendation for first grade. "

"Ah, t-thank you. "

"I'm not complimenting you. Merely stating the facts." You sweatdrop.

"So he's one of the blunt ones. "

Of course. You'd read up on his profile. The only reason he came back was truly due to boredom. At least that's how it sounds.

"Let's begin."

"W-Wait a second!" You barely have a chance to drop your bag, because he's already rushing at you.

~Ten minutes Later~

You spat out a mouthful of blood, wiping your chin.

"He's landed every hit and he doesn't even have his blade. I'm barely keeping up with his speed as it is."

"Are you already at your limit?" You grit your teeth.

"Gojo insisted that we trained without weapons to get you more equipped in handling combat situations. But if you aren't going to take this seriously, then I may have to force you."

Narrowing your eyes, you brace.

"What the hell are you talking about? I've been going non stop since we started. "

"We're less than twelve minutes in, if that is your limit, then you have no place being a jujutsu sorcerer. "

You snarl.

"You're one to talk. Weren't you a lowly business man!" It was irritating the way he was over here lecturing you when he had no clue of all you'd done to get to this point.

"Your speciality is endurance. "

His assessment makes you stiff. Pushing up his glasses, he straightened from his bent position.

"Aside from what has been presented by Gojo, I know all of your strengths and weaknesses from the school's database. Your weapon of choice is a sword, but you don't truly need that particular weapon. I've been watching every attack you've countered. Not to mention track the flow of your cursed energy. It is very low right now. Initially I thought you weren't very skilled at producing it, but that's quite the opposite."

"The hell.."

You'd been fighting for such a short time and he'd already figured it out.

"You have an abundance of cursed energy, not to mention an alarming amount of control when applying it. You've been sparing with me to read my patterns and attacks. You're marking my flow to establish a base so when I tire, you can fully release your own."

"I knew I should have been more weary."

He fixed his tie.

"It's a clever tactic, but you'd be more effective putting your immense flow to better use. I don't think you do it because it's strategically efficient. You're afraid of your own power, so you never exceed a certain amount. That fear is what will keep you from moving forward. Our lesson today is done."

He just turned, walking off.

"W-Wait I-I.."

What could you say? The door closed, and your shoulders sagged.

"Is he...right?"

Gojo said something quite the same when you first met. Now you feel as though you understood. There was no way to get strong if you were afraid of the very power you were trying to obtain. Kneeling, you just picked up your bag, exiting.

The day felt like a complete waste. Now standing in your apartment, you twirl the chain around your neck as you stand in your kitchen. It was hard to focus. Nanami's words wouldn't leave you.

"Was Nanami too hard on you yesterday, I'll need to have a talk with him." You jumped at his sudden appearance.

"What did I tell you about just showing up!! What if I were naked!"

"Then it would indeed be a treat."

"DIE!"

Gojo folds his arms.

"Did you take a hit?"

He must have been referring to your bandaged arm.

"I'm fine."

You reached over, unwrapping the gauze, and Gojo smirked when it dropped to the floor. There was no sign of a wound.

"Your healing has gotten much better."

"Yeah well l think after all the beatings I got from you my body has learned to adapt to anything."

"You're welcome."

"I wasn't thanking you!!"

He smiled nonetheless, walking over to you. You hate when he just drops by your house casually, but you couldn't exactly keep him out. You lift your eyes from your spot leaned on the wall.

"You have a lot of potential, but you have to chase after it. If you limit your power, then you limit your progress. "

"I know."

At the end of the day, you knew he just wanted to help you.

"Besides, I can't have my girlfriend being weak." He winked.

You flush.

"I-I'M NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND!"

He really was an ass.

#gojo satoru #nanami kento #fights #power #Jujutsu Kaisen #sorcerer #protective #Friendships #training #students #cute #fluff #humor #understanding #practice #cursedenergy #cursed users #battle #trust

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lavendertowerarchives · 7 months

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That fucking girl again. I swear, any time I try to talk to her, I end up talking here instead.

I saw JH today. A fire-and-forget message, sent to a mutual who I knew was studying with her (E), allowed me the pleasure of sitting across from her for several hours while she did homework. We talked about random shit, I spilled my beans of "I'm coming off my anti-anxiety meds" to the others who were with me, normal stuff. For context, I'm now-overcorrecting, since I believe no one likes me and that my friends are faking their friendships with me. I concurrently believe this to be flawed reasoning, since I didn't think that several weeks prior.

I shook off my worries (somewhat) this evening and hit her up, asking to see a movie with her. No response, as usual. This is different from just 7 hours prior, where she was holding actual full conversations with me, albeit in person. Hence, I'm depressed and stressed and searching for answers. Hence, I ended up here, detailing my woes to an audience of my future self (and those who find this account in whatever obituary I leave it in).

In my search for answers, I become paranoid. Highly so. As I type this, my mind searches for what I did wrong. I've come up with an answer: I came on to her.

Again, as I've described in past updates, I find her attractive. I told her I wanna bang, she said maybe, 6 months ago. I got stupidly drunk off 6-7 shots of vodka (I'm a lightweight) and told her exactly how attractive I find her. I would assume she's still creeped out by me.

So I take my data, and I analyze it. She only talks to me when someone else is present, whether it's in a group chat or in person (with another friend there). Today, she evidently asked a friend to come by and study with us without any of the other current attendees knowing. He showed up, he's fun, he's nice, but the (mutual) friend talked to me much more than JH. Why invite him if not to talk to him or study with him? I conclude it was for my sake.

I believe JH to feel unsafe around me, or otherwise not enjoy having me around. Why else would she exhibit this behavior? She doesn't even respond to my discord messages. I feel terrible. The question of "Why else" has been asked many times, and answered in myriad shitty ways, but never satisfactorily. I could imagine a hundred scenarios tantamount to fantasies in which she actually just has the same kind of social anxiety as me, or just has some random reasoning, or is just busy. These are all too optimistic, I must be the problem.

This is paranoia. My thoughts on the matter of JH talking to me are unhinged, unchecked, and unfounded. I recognize I have made terrible judgement in listening to myself, but we all know at this point that I'm the only person who talks to me. What else do I have in my ears? Endless distractions, which fade away to give more voice to my paranoia. I label it as such because I have no real data, no real proof, no real reasoning, and absolutely no substantial counterpoints. This is all me.

I want to stop listening. Taking Wellbutrin made it easier to ignore the voices telling me "they hate you," "no one wants to talk to you, let alone listen to you," and "you did this to yourself by being yourself." That's no longer the case. They're loud, and they're constant.

I miss JH. I miss S, J, A, E, B, even less talkative friends like W, WH, C, or friends not in my school like AK, or AB. I literally saw some of them 8 hours ago. It's nice to see them on someone else's terms, but I need to know that they'll come see me on my terms, or at least their terms. We only seem to talk when we have an external reason to be together.

As of the time of writing this, JH has gone offline on discord. I was holding out hope that she'd respond sometime before midnight, but now there's no chance. Screw me for being hopeful, I guess.

#lavender town #mental health #lavender tower #college #social anxiety #cpsc #computer science #friends #friendship #thoughts #diary #diary entry #dear diary #data analysis #analytics #paranoia #intrusive thoughts #fantasy #fantasies

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the-firebird69 · 7 months

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XPremium Black | Mid-Drive eBike | Lectric eBikes

This is my bike and it is what used to start and is electric like he said and the top speed is probably around 50 mph if you change the tires and that's very fast for the evike it's scooter speed and if you don't change the tires it's like 45 miles an hour. It only uses One battery at a time it's not a huge motor it's a 500 w for him he would need a 750 but with that motor the top speed is about 70 mph just like we've been talking about. And it goes on the chain drive and it's for sale now and I'm making a lot of them. I'm going to have to take a lot more. And the distance it goes is about 120 miles on two batteries with me on it and I weigh 125 lb with him and a 750 watt it was about 80 miles with two batteries and he says twice as much as he gets now and he says also it depends on how you use it I'm saying average use and you got 30 miles an hour and it gets the best mileage and you can probably do that he says on the road it's actually true if you go right down the middle of the road you can get the best mileage I'm converting some of these two mopeds and I'm leaving the foldable option and so people can bring it into work and it's working great and this is partly his suggestions for the design he had a lot of design input what is concerned about was he weighs a lot and I fix that and he looked at it and said it's not bad and things would fit nicely in his small apartment and it would it would fit in the corner and he has space for a desk and I'm starting to think that this is a nice bike for him and so is he his wife seems to still be keep going no I don't what it goes through. Part of the reason is I wanted him to go up to the northern laundromat but it's not really a car and with him in the laundry on it the battery get burned out faster and his is going along faster too so the greatest idea what he's doing but improved that it can do the job he's a big guy he's got a hundred and twenty pounds on me that's another one of me and he's a bear and these people are nuts here they don't want to leave alone and he doesn't do anything to anybody for the most part the hell there kind of abusive but the empire is pushing them around that much but they go to the best. He saw a couple up there and he said those are the best and I said why I said you put a like an Enduro tire and he said v tire sandstorm and I saw them with it and instead it goes like 70 miles an hour. Not real big and before they get like 50 or a little bit under and didn't think it was that great they put the tires on it he has and they said this is the fastest bike on Earth and I keep telling him that's what it is

It's just a small difference in design but it makes a lot of sense cuz people have been using the bicycle to go faster and not slower and these e-bikes are ridiculous you can't go in traffic and you can't do anything now there are older mid drive that you can switch over to the other side a lot of mid drive are on the chain and they noticed that they're just faster so they're trying to buy them and there aren't that many of them out there so they are actually buying conversion kits and they're buying a regular wheel and it is a big big business right now and we said that they're everywhere and they really are you thought it was a fable again but it's not so you changing tires on these and they go all you have to do and they feel very fast with our son on it with his feet tire sandstorm vee tire and we seen someone who weighs 250 they go about 60 to 65 mph on this bike on a flat terrain going downhill it's like 70 and I'll tell you what they can go to traffic all the time I haven't seen anybody have more fun than on this bike and they bring it to work put it in the office cubicle and they ride it home and when you're bringing it on to the elevator has a little handle and you screwed along on one wheel and you don't have to scooch over mostly it's really nice and our son and daughter help design it.

She behaves like the redhead in the iron Man movies and that's Sarah like she's not doing anything and then one day in the movie and people caught it she came up and she started talking about it and she left and that's what she does but not in person not out loud and she was kind of brutish but that's not what she does but she she does stuff I know it's not Brutus

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