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whetstonefires · 9 months

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Hey you said something about the my hero academia creator being unhinged about sexism, do you mind explaining?

I tried to write like, a thorough explanation of this and it just got longer and longer and longer and I have not touched this series in actual years and yet I've still got all these receipts a;lkjk;lfasd.

So rather than trying to build the whole massive case, here's a pared-down version. It's normal to have sexism in media, and shounen manga especially. Everyone does it. The level and mode and intentionality and so forth all vary, but of course it's there.

What's not normal is to have lots of varied and interesting female characters with discernible inner lives, and on-page discussion of how sexism is systemic and unjust and holds them back in specific ways, and then also deliberately make consistent sexist writing decisions even where they don't arise naturally from the flow of the narrative.

Horikoshi is actively interested in gender and sexism, he's aware of them in a way you rarely see outside of the context of, you know, fighting sexism. He is hung up on the thorny issue of what women are worth and deserve and how power and respect ties into it. He genuinely wants, I think, to have Good Female Characters, and not be (seen as) A Sexist Guy!

But. He doesn't actually want to fight sexism. He displays a lot of woman-oriented anxieties, and one of the many churning paddlewheels in his head seems to be that he knows intellectually that morally sexism is bad, but emotionally he really feels like it ought to probably be at least partly correct.

There are so many things I could cite, and maybe I'll get into some of them later, but the crowning item that highlights how the pattern is 1) at least partly conscious and deliberate and 2) about Horikoshi's own weird hangups rather than simply cynical market play, is Mineta Minoru.

The writer has stated Mineta is his favorite character. Mineta is also designed to be hated--that is, he is a particularly elaborate instantiation of a character archetype normally deployed to soak up audience contempt and (by being gross and shameless and unattractive and 'unthreatening') make it possible to include a range of sexual gratification elements into the narrative that would compromise the main characters' reputations as heroic and deserving, if they were the actors.

Good Guys don't grope girls' tits and run away snickering in triumph, after all. Non-losers don't focus intense effort around successfully stealing someone's panties. Nice Girls don't let themselves be seen half-dressed. And so forth. You need an underwear gremlin for that. So, in anime and manga, longstanding though declining tradition of including such a gremlin, for authorial deniability.

Horikoshi definitely uses him straight for this purpose, looping in Kaminari as needed to make a bit work. And yet he has Feelings about the archetype itself.

The passages dedicated to the vindication of Mineta, then, and the author's statements about him, let us understand that Horikoshi identifies with the figure of the underwear gremlin. He understands the underwear gremlin as a defining exemplar of male sexuality, at least if you are not hot, and finds the attached contempt and hostility to be a dehumanizing attack on all uh.

Incels, basically.

It's not fair to write Mineta off just because he's unattractive and horny (and commits sexual harassment). Doesn't he have a mind? Doesn't he have dreams? Doesn't he have human potential?

So what's going on with Horikoshi and gender, as far as I can figure out, is that he knows damn well that women are people and are treated unjustly by sexist society, but however.

He also understands the institutions of sexism as something protecting him and people like him from life being nebulously yet definitively Worse, and therefore wants to see them upheld.

So you get this really bizarre handling of gender where obviously women's rights good and women cool, women can be Strong, and the compulsory sexualization imposed by the industry isn't them or the author, and so forth.

But also it's very important that in the world he controls, women never win anything important or Count too much, and that jokes at their expense that disrupt the internal logic of their characters are always fair game, that women asked about sexism on TV will promptly get into catfights amongst themselves, and they are understood always in terms of their sexual and romantic interests and value, and sexual assertiveness and failures to perform femininity well enough are used to code them as dangerous and irrational, and that the sexy costumes are requisite and will never be subverted or rebelled against--at most they might be circumnavigated via leaning into cute appeal.

And that Yaoyorozu Momo, who converts her body fat into physical objects, is being frivolous when she wants to use money to buy things instead (rather than as sensibly moderating her Quirk use) and is never encouraged to eat as much as possible at every opportunity to put on weight and even shown being embarrassed by hunger (even though Quirk overuse gives symptoms that suggest she's been stripping the lipids out of her cell walls or nervous system to keep fighting) and always, no matter how many Things she has made, has huge big round boobies.

#ask #hoc est meum #beastenraged #bnha #sexism #i think i got the main points here #just getting lost in the weeds of subsidiary arguments and supporting evidence was destroying me #i don't need to do those this is fandom on the internet #and not even a serious level of that #meta #mineta minoru #yaoyorozu momo #honestly psychologically pretty interesting #it's like he keeps saying 'look i know sexism bad but I Need It'#someone tell him that the patriarchy is exploiting him too and we can all achieve liberation together #this is the same mechanism that upholds white supremacy among the poor #'my life is so bad already the idea of liberating those below me and having to share the crumbs with them is horrific'#ESPECIALLY if i know they're worthy and lots of them are better than me #injustice is the only thing keeping my head above water!#he's also fishing for vindication ofc #but it's wild to see how he'll put in the groundwork that would let him do something gender-egalitarian with his themes #and then opt not to #despite having done the hard part already #idk how much that's making a statement and how much it's just 'this Feels Right'#but as a pattern it murdered me

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sweet-honey-fruit · 2 years

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I saw you were asking for a request so I thought of something. What would the harbingers (Dottore, Pantalone, Tartaglia, Capitano, Arlecchino) do if someone hurt they're s/o to get information about them? Have a nice day btw :D

This this THIS! I’m a sucker for these kinds of things. It’s definitely a guilty pleasure of mine with these scenarios. Thank you for this, I had a lot of fun writing it!

Harbingers With Hurt S/O

Warnings: Violence, mentions/descriptions of torture and death, use of pet names, possibly OOC Capitano cause there’s literally little to no information about him, spoilers for Fatui Harbingers lore

Arlecchino

She doesn’t want to admit how badly her heart ached when she saw you walk in battered in wounds and bruises. Yet you still greeted her with a bright smile.

All she did was stare at you with a blank look on her face, wrapping her arms around you and giving you a kiss on the top of your head

You held a special place in her heart, so seeing you like this raised an unbelievable amount of worry and anger, but she wouldn’t let you see that

Her voice came out in a hushed whisper, swaying you back and forth slightly, “Tell me my beloved, what has happened to you?”

You’re hesitant, of course. You know how she can get, especially when it comes to you

But you especially know how she gets when you’re not upfront and honest with her

“Treasure Hoarders wanted information about the whereabouts of the delusion factory,” The moment the words leave your mouth, she brought you closer to her before letting go

Her face is stone cold, but you can practically feel the infuriation radiating off of her like a waterfall

It leaves you shaking a little bit, and you’re not even the one she’s livid at

She sends you to Dottore to get patched up, making sure to not-so-subtly threaten him to keep you safe and to not turn you into one of his experiments

She’s using these circumstances as a training exercise for some of her children in the House of the Hearth to gather information

Once she has the information she needs, you better believe she’s going absolutely batshit crazy

And I’m talking about leaving the Treasure Hoarders mangled bodies at other Treasure Hoarder camps to send a message

That message being that if they touch you again, she’ll make sure every single one of them will perish by her hands personally

Capitano

He’s not the type of man that pays attention to those that he deems weaker than him

He doesn’t find them worthy enough for his time

Yet when one of his Fatui subordinates delivered him the news that you’ve been captured and tortured by a group of Nabushi in Inazuma-

Well, he could make this one exception, couldn’t he?

He’ll seek to hunt them down himself

He wants them to understand the mistake they did for touching the only person he has deemed worthy for his endless time and attention

For every mark that was bestowed upon you, he will make sure he doubles it both in numbers and in pain

He won’t outright kill them, he wants to get back home to you as soon as possible

But we will leave them barely conscious

Surely the Rifthounds can take care of them. They gotta eat too after all.

He’s grinning the whole time he walks away

Hearing them scream for him to save them as the Rifthounds bite away at their flesh

For anyone else the sickening sounds of tearing flesh and blood curdling screams would be enough to show mercy

But to him it’s music to his ears

Maybe next time they would think twice before using you to get information

Dottore

He’s cackling to himself when he found out

The poor subordinates that informed him are quivering and praying to The Tsaritsa that they won’t feel his wrath

Cause this man is insane, but in that moment, that is the most insane he has ever been

Thankfully The Tsaritsa seemed to answer their prayers cause he dismisses them to bring you to him

Although one managed to climb up the list to be his next test subject when they declare that you’re being seen by a Sneznayan doctor so it “might not be a good time”

He snaps out a “I’ll treat them myself, your lucky my priority lies with them right now, otherwise I’d already have your flesh ripped away and replaced with metal”

He makes a mental note to do it later, for when you’re escorted in, he’s furtively seething

Littered in cuts and bruises, a deep cut slashed along your side, and lightning shaped scars surrounding it

He has a good idea who did it already, and why it was done

As he’s treating you, he’s tracing along the lightning scars, letting out a small hum

“My dear, tell me, what exactly happened.”

This man intimidates you from his voice alone, and you can’t even form the words to speak

Even though he knows, he wants to hear you say it, to just confirm that his anger is justified

Not that he cares on rather it is or isn’t, but his superiors certainly do

He can sense your timidness which makes him grin. He finds it so cute, but now is hardly the time to be having those thoughts

He reassures you that it’s okay, you can tell him. He’ll make it all go away. He’ll make them go away. Just tell him, he’s there for you.

And you do tell him in a hoarse voice, and he finds it pitiful.

Some Dancing Thunder Kairagi thinking that they’re entitled enough to put a hand on you, just because they believed you would tell them the Fatui’s plans

He doesn’t say anything after that, staying uncharacteristically quiet. Which is more daunting to you than if he were to spill out threats

He continues to treat you in silence. And once he’s done he’s escorting you back to your shared bedroom within the palace.

After, he’s having some of his subordinates fetch the ones that hurt you. When they are brought in, well, let the experiments commence

He’s certainly enjoying hearing them scream in agony as he tests out the effects of having multiple delusions. Hearing them beg, and plead for him to stop. But he doesn’t. He’s sure you did the same thing. Pleading them to just let you go. They didn’t stop till some Fatui Skirmisher’s stepped in, so why should he? But there wont be any Skirmisher’s saving them.

He’s making sure they suffer for a long, long time

Pantalone

“Oh, how pitiful” he states as he walks into Dottore’s lab

He’s been told that you’ve been sent there after having a— rough encounter, to put it lightly— with a few Shogunate soldiers

He saw the pure exhaustion on your face, and yet he still maintained a smile

“I can see you were determined to give it your all. But do not worry sweetheart, for I will fill in and give it my all for you.”

He won’t only hurt the Shogunate soldiers indirectly, oh no. He’ll hurt the whole Shogunate army.

Slowly, he would cut off their money supply through the Northland Bank (don’t ask how that works, I don’t know myself but for the sake of this, it works). I mean, you can’t do anything without the very thing that gives you the pathway to do anything in the first place, right?

He’ll watch from the shadows as the Shogunate army is scrambling for funds, and ultimately scrambling to regain power

It would take a meeting with Kujou Sara in order to settle things. His only request was that the Shogunate stays out of the Fatui’s business, and most importantly, stay away from you.

You know how I said he would hurt them indirectly? That’s because he’ll have others do it for him.

He’ll give some to Dottore as test subjects, and some to Arlecchino for target practice for the kids. He’s just as much of a supplier as he is a taker.

While everything is going on outside of your knowledge, he’s keeping you close to him. Holding you, walking you to and from work, and even allowing you to tag along with him on more PG related missions for lack of a better term

He’s a man of endless influence throughout Teyvat, and he will not hesitate to use it to rip apart the nations for you. Especially if they dared to touch you like they did.

Tartaglia

Definitely the most sane one when it comes to it, and that’s saying something

Especially since he’s the one that witnessed it first hand

As stated previously in another post, he’s already paranoid anytime you’re not around him since the Fatui have a lot of enemies

So when he went out looking for you since you took a tad bit longer to get groceries than it normally would, he found out that his paranoia was justified

Imagine his surprise when he found out that it’s not Treasure Hoarders or Hilichurls, no, it’s the Millelith of all people hurting you

“Well well, what did I just walk in on? Am I interrupting something?” He has a smile on his face but it doesn’t seem very happy

Perhaps that’s because his eyes are showing nothing but unadulterated hatred towards the group of men that think it was a good idea to beat you around for information on him and the Fatui

“If you wanted information you could have just came and ask me yourself, but instead you had to go out and dig yourselves your own grave. What a shame.”

He’ll instruct you to turn away, cause he’s pretty sure that what he’s about to do to them would traumatize you for life. He doesn’t want that for you.

When you do, this man is pulling out all the stops

Slicing and dicing, aiming and shooting, hydro and electro

He wants to watch them suffer, and he’s grinning like a mad man when he watches the life drain from their eyes

As much as he wanted to make them suffer more, he had to cut it short since he still had to prioritize you

He’s going to pick you up and carry you back home no matter how much you want to protest and insist that you’re okay

But this man is stubborn and he’s not having any of it.

He’s taking you home and cuddling you close, not letting you go even after you’re all cleaned up

His laid-back persona is broken as he apologizes to you, that he’s sorry that he put you in danger

Please reassure him that it’s not his fault and give him plenty of kisses

He’s not leaving your side for a LONG TIME

#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin men #genshin men x reader #childe x reader #pantalone x reader #capitano x reader #arlecchino x reader #dottore x reader #fatui harbingers x reader #fatui harbingers #genshin hurt/comfort #childe #pantalone #arlecchino #capitano #dottore

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murder-cookie-dust393 · 27 days

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Seal anon here!

Just thought of a very funny y/n for the cookie world...a y/n who is oblivious to all the cookies trying go flirt and stuff with them! Also easily distracted like one second they simply think a cookie is being really nice to them and then the next they get distracted by a butterfly. Basically in the 'I want y/n' wars, they gotta keep y/n's attention on them and basically be something like 'and that is why I should be the one to date y/n-y/n, sweetheart, no. Don't wander off. Here, have a sweet treat and stay riiiight there. Ok? Ok. Anyway what makes you think you're worthy of y/n?' Or two cookies could be fighting over y/n while THINKING y/n is still close by but then they pause and realize 'wait where did y/n go?' And have to go chase em down lol!

Like have to keep y/n distracted and close to them or else they will wander off and do their own thing lmao! A very oblivious y/n!

What better duo with this than Milk and Yam?

Tw: SHITPOSTING, brief mentions of manipulation

Milk is sweet and worries a lot. He tends to panic when MC wanders off without him nearby. That's why he tends to hug them or hold their hand so they don't leave without him noticing. Once he finds them he's cooing and basically babying them a little too much.

Meanwhile, Yam is the equivalent of a Chihuahua. He's screaming and yelling, which is his way of calling for MC. Once he finds them, he just puts them over his shoulder so they can't get away. He does enjoy the feeling of them being helpless without him.

If the two are in the same space, it's literally an old married couple + MC.

Milk will try to lure MC in with his nurturing nature while also trying to passive-aggressively shove Purple Yam out of the way. If they're out adventuring he likes to just randomly put his shield up and be like, "You can't forget your shield MC! You might get hurt without me right by you!"

Yam gets so pissed at Milk because he knows Milk is trying to push him out of the way. The only way Yam tries to get MC's attention is through his language. I can see him swearing and being mad about things constantly; that MC finds it funny. In battle, he'll just swing around his mace to protect the group. But especially MC. "HRAGH! GET OUT OF THE FUCKING WAY MILK I WANNA TALK TO THEM!"

I can see Milk and Yam arguing in whisper-yelling (we'll ignore that Yam can't be quiet right now) while MC is asleep. Like when they're camping for the night and MC is sleeping in between the two.

"You need to stop being so mean and aggressive with them! They do nothing wrong! I can't believe you would do such a thing to a poor little thing like them..." Milk pets your hair, pulling you closer to him.

"Look who's talking! You're the one manipulating them with your fucking 'Prince Charming' act! If anything, I'm just like any other cookie who has anger issues!"

"Me? I would never! I just want my precious one safe...and sound." Milk stares at your face with too much of a loving look. His smile practically glued onto his face.

"Yeah right! I'm the one beating up bad guys here!" Yam reaches an arm to tug you closer but hesitates.

"Go to sleep!"

"No! You go to sleep!"

"Guys I think I might be controlled by a human entity that has a really large finger." Suddenly, you whisper, absolutely clueless to the conversation.

"What? Say again?"

"HUh?"

"Finger..." You fall back asleep.

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I was in the mood for some shitposting. No, I will never be sorry for it.

I was thinking Gumball and Darwin at the very end lol

- Celina

#cookie run #yandere cookie run #cookie run x reader #yandere x reader #yandere #crk #cookie run kingdom #crk x reader #milk cookie #purple yam cookie #cookie run ovenbreak #crob #crob x reader #yandere crob #yandere crk #yandere cookie run kingdom #yandere cookie run ovenbreak

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psychelis-new · 11 months

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pick a pile: "Message from your inner child"

take a breath and choose the photo or number that calls you the most to read a message from your inner child probably on how to reconnect with them and work with them. reminder that we're plenty of layers and there are also different children's ages inside of us (and teens too, if you're older), so you may need to reconnect with a specific inner child at this moment.

don’t take the reading too seriously. only take what resonates with you and leave the rest. if you're not called by any pile, let this reading slid as it may not hold messages for you. if you're called by more than one pile, there may be messages in each of those piles. remember that is a general reading and some things may not resonate with you. energies can change and readings are based on present ones (as you read); you're always in charge of your life.

(photos found on unsplash)

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pile 1

Your inner child seems to love winter -I heard "best season!"- (maybe you were born in winter too), snow/ice (making snow angels or playing with snow), and Christmas (if applies). You probably loved receiving gifts (it made you feel special) or you not always had what you wanted. Your inner child needs you to comfort them and remind them that they are worthy of anything they want and that they can receive it too. Help them believe in Santa again, or be their Santa ("work" -mostly inner work- so to bring them the stability/safety/self worth they lack so much after having being told many no's). Your inner child is cute and funny but only with people they like. They probably are a bit closed off with other people and children and rather play/stay alone. They are an observer, probably don't talk too much but know and understands a lot. So very sensitive and caring. Probably loved to listen to blues and jazz with someone from your family, or any other type of music (music relaxed/s them).

Someone here (or on pile 3 maybe, but prolly just a few from there) doesn't want to do something they're supposed to do and keep procrastinating/postponing the task ("adulthood... meh"). It's probably cause you feel worn out for some reason, maybe you kept going for so much without giving yourself a break and now your tiredness is hitting you all of a sudden. Or maybe you somewhat "fear" doing that will comport you having to take some type of action/decision (and leaving this current "stagnant" but safe situation) and probably you don't want it, especially unconsciously. It's okay, it happens, do not fight that feeling. Listen to yourself, to your inner child -they probably want to help you understand why it happens-.

Your inner child wants you to take a break, just enjoy a nice walk outside or do anything you feel like, even just taking a nap. They want you to hug them and cherish them, and to give yourself accolades cause of all the work you have done until today. They are better with actions than words, they're so cute. Please take care of them, stay around them and play with them a bit when you can. They need your presence, even if it feels like they are used to be alone. They don't have to (and not even you). Hugs to both.

song: love me | jerry butler

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Your inner child is very pretty and elegant (i am seeing them dressed up for a picture, maybe it's picture day at school or a family pic for grandparents). For some of you, they may have been a bit spoiled but at the same time, they may have been idealized a lot as THE child: the one who had to be "perfect", with "perfect" grades, clothes, behaviour... This child is just very sweet but got very pressured into being more than a child. They had to be what they didn't want to be, despite they didn't know what they wanted, except for making others happy and being praised. It may have made them a bit naive or egoistical on occasion, but they never act this way consciously, with bad intentions. They're (you're) just hurt, but don't know how or why cause they didn't do anything wrong. They obeyed the rules. This child has idolized their parents/caregivers too (which is normal for many kids, to see their parents as superheroes and to want to follow them/obey without asking why).

Your inner child needs some support from a different type of adult. A more permissive and a less pretending one. An adult that understands that we all make mistakes, no matter if we are children or adults. And it's fine to make them. They need to remove that little bow tie or the hairgrips/barrette and just go splash in the mud. To cover their clothes in mud, to let things be. They need you to be that type of adult, to teach them how to be their real imperfect self, cause nobody is perfect (perfection is also very subjective). To take them around on a bike and laugh with them if they stick their tongue out to passers-by. No reason, just because. They need you to ruffle their hair and laugh with them at how funny/crazy they look. They need support into being just a child, not a copy of an adult. They need you to ask them about their opinions and to help them form some others, cause they always relied on others' ones and it doesn't have to be so forever. They need to think and see with their own mind, heart and eyes. And they want you to do this for them too. They want to listen to your own opinions and ideas, they want you to stand out and to be yourself. To be unafraid of others' thoughts and reactions about you. To not care if you are not who others want you to be but to know that you're happy to be who you are also thanks to them and all they did and learned in the process.

Still, remember to pump them up on occasion, I feel they still need to feel nice words and compliments here and there. No matter what they do ofc. Just get on your knees and imagine to look at the in the eyes, and compliment them.

song: love your voice | jony

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Your inner child probably felt very different when little. It was hard to feel like they belonged. Maybe they also had to grow up quite fast. They are very sweet and gentle, nice, lovely big smile (for some their teeth aren't perfect but nobody cares, this big smile can brighten anyone's day and any room). [TW childhood] They probably had to parent themselves at times or kinda act as a parent to their parents or adults (especially if emotionally immature/unstable). They are very welcoming and helping, at times even to a fault. May have been people pleasing, maybe their home wasn't the best to grow up in and had to do it, not just because they felt it as an inner need. Still, it didn't changed their big heart. [/TW childhood]

If you're called to pile 1, you may want to check it (2nd paragraph in particular), cause I feel for some of you too that you don't want to do something you are supposed to do.

Your inner child wants you to sit and talk with them, and tell them about your adulthood and how things are there. They want to know if things changed and they... want to help you too just by listening and being there. It's like you two keep working together as a team, and sustain each other. Be there for them too, I do think they need it a lot. Listen to them rant and talk, and do children stuff like playing or running. Take them with you in a field, sing, shout... make a flower crown or anything really.

And please, if your inner child feels scared sometimes, hug them (physically envision hugging them): remind them you can make it together as you always did. And you can always ask for support to some other adults too if it's too much for you as well. If you both feel lost at times, which is normal after all you had to go through, just talk and ask for support to adults. It's okay. We live in communities, we can ask others and be helped too. If you don't trust other adults to be able to help you, try to breathe and give them a chance. Not all the adults are like those you turned you down and couldn't support you or give you a stable fundation. Also, remember it's okay as adults too to not have all the answer and to not always be in control of everything. I know it feels so scary, but it's what life has to be like sometimes. Just do not let fear take control of you. Remember you can control your decisions and yourself anytime and anyway. Whatever happens. You can do it. You both can.

song: truth is | sabrina claudio

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pile 4

Your inner child loved adventure, playing with other kids, maybe dressing up as a pirate (for Carnival or not)... they also loved to read story or imaginging living in different worlds/times, being a hero or similar things. A very vivid imagination. I do believe they still love to watch animations, to draw, or to write stories (do you?). The life-of-the-party kid. Not necessaily had many friends, but just by mood they're always hyped and happy (unless they have to go to school? I heard so, lol. How can I blame them). Maybe had a tree house or favorite a hiding place, or could create one in their room/garden. Always busy creating something new, drawing, painting, running somewhere... such a funny exciting energy.

They are asking you to put down in words whatever is going on inside. Especially if you haven't been paying attention to your emotions and feelings. Take some time out and focus on you. Come back to your dear words, let the pen roll on the paper and write down it all. Be it in the form of a journal or a diary or a letter to someone (write a letter to them too, I totally feel like they want to listen to your story since you lost contacts -"but make it funny/adventurous"). Write, write it all until you can't no more, until you've written all you needed to and cannot think about anything else. Until you're so tired you need to go to sleep. And have a refreshing sleep then.

They are a bit concerned about you. They want you to know that they see how busy you are and that maybe you cannot connect with them too often, but they want you to remember that they're always by your side. They want you to remember how it feels to be free. To take time for yourself. It feels like you're ovewhelming yourself with things to do and this is causing you pain, inside out. They want you to take time out and meet with them so that they can take you on a pirate ship on adventure (may it even be doing chores in a different and more adventurous way, like dancing/singing, or better, trying to battle with "Captain Dust"... Idk, something like that, talk with your inner child :'D). Just create a safe space for you two to come together again, even just a few moments here and there during your week. You don't have to always be so serious and busy.

song: hope ur okay | olivia rodrigo

#pac #pick a pile #pick a card tarot #pick a picture #pick a photo #pick a card #pac reading #pac tarot #divination #intuitive readings #clairs readings #psychic readings #tarot readings #free tarot reading #tarot reading #tarotcommunity

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nonsensical-ramblings · 1 year

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The Stranger Things OST is something we haven't been paying nearly enough attention to, because I think I've just found something monumental.

We all know these two scenes feature the same music:

But what we haven't been talking about is how the tracks in these four scenes all share the exact same melody-

Or that the tracks from these two scenes sync up perfectly to create an entirely new piece of music

But what if I told you this is only the very tip of the iceberg, because I've been sifting through evidence for quite a while now, and we are far past the point of this all just being a coincidence?

ahem.

Welcome to Soundtrackgate.

(AKA: The wild, wacky world where connections go way, way deeper than you could've possibly imagined, and it all still manages to lead back to byler in the end)

So, just by themselves, those three instances of matching soundtracks creating parallels between different scenes are pretty cool, and worthy of analysis. That's all well and good. But it gets a whole lot more complicated when I tell you that across those three examples, all the songs from those eight scenes I've pointed out match with each other too. The music playing during the J/ancy kiss syncs with the music from the R/ockie scene at the gun shop. The M/ileven kiss has music that syncs with the "It was a seven" scene. R/ockie making sandwiches has music in the background that syncs with the Byler van scene. They're all in the same key, B flat major.

I can prove that I'm not making this up in the form of some amazing mashups between four important OST songs. But before I show you those, let me take a step back and introduce you to the songs individually: Being Different, The First Lie, The First I love You, and Kids.

(I slowed them down so they're all the same speed). And I thought to myself, golly, these all sound pretty similar, they all have a pretty consistent pattern of eight quarter notes that get repeated over and over. (Listen closely, can you hear it?) I sure bet it would sound nice if someone combined them. So. I figured out how to edit audio and I did it myself XD

When I said they synced, I wasn't kidding. When I did my initial little experiment, I was not expecting the songs to, in no uncertain terms, match up perfectly, as if they were all variations of the same track, because the only thing I'd done was change the tempo a little bit between each of them. No splicing, no extra editing, no looping, no nothing. And they sound beautiful together!!! Here are my three favorites:

Putting all four together pushes my limits a bit and it comes out a tad messy, but I love it anyways. It's overwhelmingly clear that these four songs are meant to fit together.

So... what does this mean? The tracks are undeniably connected, and some of the scenes in which they occur are clearly parallels too. I mean, we've been ENDLESSLY analyzing parallels between R/ockie, Byler, and J/ancy, and this discovery lends more credit to the theory that those aren't just coincidences. But especially for major motifs like Kids, there are a lot more scenes where these songs play!! It's not just the few I mentioned at the beginning of the post that are pretty obvious in how they're similar to one another. Haha, but wouldn't it be crazy if ALL the scenes that these songs (and their variations) appear in followed the exact same narrative pattern; a pattern which would just so happen to offer extremely compelling evidence to the fact that Byler has been endgame since season 1?

Ha ha... ha... um.

They do.

All of them.

I'm not fucking joking. Out of the 22 scenes I've been able to track down which feature any of these four songs or variations of them, I've identified a pattern which every single one follows. Some definitely better than others... but it is un-fucking-deniable that this pattern exists and it has to be deliberate, because all of this being a coincidence must be some sort of statistical impossibility with the sheer amount of evidence I've amassed.

The pattern I'm referring to is a collection of four themes:

A misassumption / some form of dishonesty

Love. Often romantic, but sometimes platonic or familial

A subversion of expectations

An atypical relationship between two people

Often in that order.

So basically, we have a collection of scenes throughout all four seasons that are very strongly linked to each other, through both the music that plays during them, and the narrative pattern they follow. And theoretically, if we now know for a fact that each of these scenes follows the same pattern, we can use it to support our interpretations of moments like the van scene or "It was a seven"! (A pattern which, I'll remind you, will fall perfectly in line with Byler endgame)

Okay. So here, we get to the main chunk of the analysis. The hard data. I've gone through every relevant scene and listed how each of them fit the pattern, to prove that it's legit, and to use it to demonstrate how this discovery supports our theories! I've also added whether I think the scene matches well (✅), moderately well (🤔) , or poorly (❌) with the interpretation. (Keep in mind that even the ones that match poorly still relate to the themes in some way!) I sorted everything by motif, then into individual music pieces, then into scenes that feature that music. So scenes that have the same track playing in the background are grouped together.

Obviously, it's pretty long. I did my best to organize it well and make it as concise as possible. But that's why I'm adding a star (⭐️) next to all the scenes that explicitly support the Byler agenda, in case you want to scroll past the rest and only focus on what you came here for!

Without further ado, let's start out with...

The First Lie motif

The dominating melody in these tracks is: D D# D A# C F A# C

Track 1: The First Lie (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3S5-J7BLoIY)

Scene A: Jonathan And Nancy get together (S2E6) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/Dishonesty: Both of them are denying their feelings for each other • Love: And those feelings are romantic in nature • Subversion of expectations: They discover that their feelings are requited! • Atypical Relationship: Nancy, a popular and conventionally attractive character, ends up with Jonathan, the outcast

Track 2: The First I love You (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y68LnSZ_j3M)

Scene A: Robin and Steve talk in the Bathroom (S4E7) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/Dishonesty: Steve believes he has a chance with Robin, Robin hasn’t told him the whole truth about her sexuality • Love: Steve has feelings for her, she has feelings for Tammy, the two of them love each other as best friends • Subversion of expectations: Robin wants to kiss girls!!! And Steve is surprised, but wholly accepts her, even as a straight guy in the 80s • Atypical Relationship: Platonic soulmates <3

⭐️ Scene B: El Tells Mike she loves him and says goodbye (S4E8) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/Dishonesty: Their relationship had been damaged by the fact that Mike lied in order to avoid seeing her / getting into trouble with Hopper • Love: El forgives Mike, says that she loves him, and tries to repair their relationship • Subversion of expectations: El admits to having heard Mike when he said that he loved her, back in episode 6 • Atypical Relationship: It wouldn’t be very atypical for a straight guy to get back with his straight girlfriend after a brief break-up, would it? So maybe this relationship isn't as hetero as it- [gunshots]

Scene C: Joyce and Hopper Kiss (S4E9) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/Dishonesty: Up until this moment they’ve been dancing around each other since season 1, not quite being honest or upfront about how they feel • Love: But now they finally have their moment and make it official! • Subversion of expectations: We’ve seen it coming for years, sure, but considering where they started, their relationship was an unlikely one • Atypical Relationship: Joyce, the high-strung, divorced, single mom, and Hopper, the troubled, divorced, adoptive dad, certainly make a unique pair together

Kids motif

The dominating melody in these tracks is: G A# F A# G A# F A#, and/or F G F D C A# C A#

Track 1: Kids (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ha2OcL_0gtM)

⭐️ Scene A: The party finishes up their D&D game, “It was a seven” (S1E1) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Lucas urges Will to lie to Mike about his roll • Love: Little Will cares about his friendship with Mike too much to lie to him • Subversion of expectations: He’s honest, and admits that he only rolled a seven, even if it means he lost the campaign • Atypical relationship: Oh, you know. :)

Scene B: The kids disguise El so she can go out in public (S1E5) This scene doesn’t match very well ❌ • Misassumption/dishonesty: The kids are disguising El’s true identity so they can bring her to their school • Love: The four of them are beginning to trust one another; the boys trust El to help them find Will, they're bonding as friends • Subversion of expectations: The boys (but Mike specifically) are surprised with the degree of El's glowup • Atypical relationship: Mike thinks El is pretty, even though the rest of the party is still a little apprehensive towards her

Scene C: Mike, Lucas, and El make up after their fight in the previous episode (S1E7) This scene matches moderately well 🤔 • Misassumption/dishonesty: El had been misleading the boys to keep them away from the lab • Love: The friends are all sorry for what they did, and care too much about each other to stay mad • Subversion of expectations: They’re able to reconcile • Atypical relationship: Even after a pretty serious fight, the friends are back together again, stronger than ever

Scene D: The party finally gets to play D&D again at the end of season 1 (S1E8) This scene doesn’t match very well ❌ (But, it’s excusable because the main purpose it serves here is to parallel the first scene from episode 1- matching this narrative pattern is probably a secondary concern) • Misassumption/dishonesty: The campaign is over too soon, the kids feel like it’s not a truthful finale; there are loose ends left to be resolved in the story • Love: The friends are finally back together again, having fun, enjoying each others’ company, healing • Subversion of expectations: Will is able to defeat the monster this time • Atypical relationship: Even after everything they went through, they made it out OK and are still the best of friends

Scene E: Dustin reminds Mike to look for some change before going to the arcade (S2E1) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Mike avoids Dustin’s questions of why he’s on an unusual channel on the walkie talkie, and why he hasn’t been looking for quarters to bring to the arcade • Love: Mike is still grieving El • Subversion of expectations: He hadn’t been looking for quarters because he was busy trying to contact her • Atypical relationship: He still feels guilty for having lost her, more so than the rest of his friends. He believes she’s out there, even after a year has passed

Scene F: The kids work together to assemble Cerebro (S3E1) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: The kids don’t quite believe Dustin is being honest about actually having a girlfriend • Love: But he does! He actually is in a relationship • Subversion of expectations: Suzie doesn’t answer • Atypical relationship: A nerdy mormon and an agnostic with no collarbone; an unlikely pair!

Track 2: Kids Two (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PydvdEdGwE)

Scene A: El and Max spy on the boys (S3E3) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: The girls are secretly spying on the guys • Love: They’re talking about their relationship troubles • Subversion of expectations: They’re doing a terrible job of trying to win El and Max back; putting all the blame on the girls, talking about how they're a "different species", all while eating chips and generally being gross • Atypical relationship: Elmax bonds over having dumb ex-boyfriends, even after their friendship's rocky start in the previous season :3

Scene B: Robin sees Vickie at Warzone (S1E8) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Robin thinks she has a chance with Vickie • Love: She’s about to make a move and talk to her crush… • Subversion of expectations: …but Vickie has a boyfriend. • Atypical relationship: Queerness!! And the fact that Vickie gets distracted by Robin, probably has a bit of a crush on her too, even though she's currently in a relationship

Scene C: Robin & Vickie make sandwiches (S4E9) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Robin is initially fairly certain now that she DOESN’T have a chance with Vickie • Love: But unbeknownst to her, they're almost definitely endgame • Subversion of expectations: Vickie admits that she ended things with her boyfriend • Atypical relationship: Imminent 80s Lesbians!!!!!!!!

Track 3: Teens (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D3JICAZAEBs)

Scene A: Suzie changes Dustin’s Latin grade (S4E1) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Suzie and Dustin are cheating his Latin grade by hacking into the school’s computer system • Love: The two of them are still together :3 • Subversion of expectations: Suzie decides that her relationship with Dustin is worth more than being entirely morally virtuous, so she changes the grade for him • Atypical relationship: The unlikely pair of the mormon and the agnostic strike again!

Track 4: In The Closet (At Rink O Mania) (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lwl-HPNQFLc)

⭐️ Scene A: Mike and Will argue at the roller rink (S4E1) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Mike’s upset that Will and El haven’t been honest about the bullying • Love: Will just misses his best friend and is upset that their relationship / communication over the past year has been strained. And he’s in love. • Subversion of expectations: “We’re friends! We’re friends.”(AKA, Mike has been struggling with his feelings just as much as Will has) • Atypical relationship: Queerness!! We can be fairly certain now that they totally feel the same way about each other, even if neither will admit it.

Scene B: …but also El hides in the closet at the roller rink (S4E1) This scene matches moderately well 🤔 • Misassumption/dishonesty: El had been hiding the fact that she was being bullied • Love: This lie has has driven a wedge even deeper between her and her boyfriend • Subversion of expectations: She decides to go confront Angela • Atypical relationship: El, the humiliated victim, decides to stand up to her bully, Angela, instead of letting her get the final word

Track 5: Home (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdcV1u6RUh4)

Scene A: Hopper takes El in (S2E3) This scene matches moderately well 🤔 • Misassumption/dishonesty: Hopper wants to give El a place to stay where she can hide from the people looking for her / Hopper discreetly puts away a box labeled “Sarah”, hinting at a more personal reason for taking her in than he lets on • Love: He cares about El like he’d care for his own daughter • Subversion of expectations: Even though he's a supposedly hardened and lazy police chief, he cares about El enough to go through the effort of fixing up the cabin to give her a place to stay • Atypical relationship: Found family :’)

Scene B: This song also plays during the scene where Robin sees Vickie at Warzone (S4E8) This scene matches well! ✅ • [See Kids Two, scene B]

Track 6: What’s The Internet? (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vqx4idF4ObE)

Scene A: The Hellfire Club and Lucas’ team celebrate their victories (S4E1) This scene matches moderately well 🤔 • Misassumption/dishonesty: The basketball team and the Hellfire club both thought they were screwed • Love: Despite the looming potential for failure, everyone’s having fun and feeling included within their groups, they love their hobbies and their friends • Subversion of expectations: Both teams won their respective games despite the odds! • Atypical relationship: Lucas still hangs in the balance between the two teams, feeling unsure about which of his friend groups he should prioritize

Track 7: [Unreleased song, but the Kids motif is faintly audible towards the end]

⭐️ Scene A: El and Mike argue over Mike not being able to say “I love you” (S4E2) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/dishonesty: Mike’s refusing to acknowledge that he can’t say the words, he’s lying about how he really feels • Love: Their relationship as boyfriend/girlfriend is finally starting to show cracks, as its fundamental flaws are presented front and center • Subversion of expectations: Their relationship isn’t as perfect as we’d been led to believe • Atypical relationship: They’re on the verge of a breakup, but that's really what's best for the two of them

and finally...

Being Different Motif

The dominating melody in these tracks is: A# D F D A# D D# D, and/or A# D F A# D F A F

Track 1: Being Different (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_o29YLtS_NA)

⭐️ Scene A: Mike and Will talk in the van (S4E8) This scene matches well! ✅ • Misassumption/Dishonesty: Will lies, using El’s name to hide his own feelings • Love: And those feelings are his love for Mike :’( • Subversion of expectations: It’s now overwhelmingly clear that Will is canonically gay and in love with Mike • Atypical Relationship: Well, it doesn’t sound all that atypical for the sad gay boy to have fallen for his straight best friend (who is obviously straight because he’s in a relationship with a girl), so what if Mike- [gunshots]

Track 2: I Like Presents Too (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trSjkqM0VT4) (I’m not positive about this one, but I swear I hear similarities between Being Different and this song? Especially between 1:52 - 2:05 in Being Different, and 0:38 - 1:00 in this song)

⭐️Scene A: This song also plays during the scene where El Tells Mike she loves him and says goodbye (S4E8) This scene matches well! ✅ • [See The First I love You, scene B]

Okay. And that's all of them! I hope I've made my point. The fact that every single one of these 11 songs and the 22 scenes they appear in are connected both musically and thematically cannot be a coincidence. And by simply tracing the pattern, it's pretty easy to see that these connections hint at the fact that there's something more that we're not explicitly seeing between Mike, El, and Will's relationships, which has no other explanation besides Byler endgame. Let's review- by applying what we know about the pattern to Byler and M/ileven scenes, we can infer that:

When El kisses Mike at the end of season 3, it isn't meant to be taken at face-value. There's something atypical about their relationship, and it's the fact that despite saying the words, it doesn't change the fact that neither of them are in love with each other, not romantically, even if they think they should be.

When Will tells Mike he rolled a seven and lost the battle in the first episode of season 1, it's more than just Will being a good friend. There's a deeper connection- something atypical compared to Will's relationships with his other friends, because this is Will being in love with Mike before he even understood what those feelings meant.

During their fight at Rink O Mania in season 4, they're not just arguing about Will being dishonest or Mike not staying in touch. There's something deeper under the surface that they're dancing around, unaddressed feelings on both ends, something more atypical than just two friends who drifted apart. At the root of their frustration is the fact that they both believe the other doesn't feel the same.

Mike said it himself- when he and El argue over the fact that he can't say "I love you" to her, this was a fight they can't come back from. Because it's been made clear to them that their relationship isn't romantic anymore, it's atypical in the sense that they realize this whole thing between them has just been a heteronormative charade they were pressured into, rather than something they really wanted or needed.

When Will delivers his veiled love confession in the back of the van in season 4, we're led to believe that this is him ripping off the bandaid, because Mike is supposedly happiest with El and he'll never see Will the way Will sees him. But this interpretation is incorrect, because there's something very very atypical about the way Mike stares longingly into Will's eyes, completely mesmerized, in a way that he's never looked at his own girlfriend despite allegedly being so in love with her. Mike is in love, but there's no denying anymore that the love he feels is for Will, not El.

Of course, none of these interpretations of these scenes are new or anything. But the fact that we now have solid proof that all of them are actually intentionally connected? They all share linked music and follow the same pattern?? That, I think, is revolutionary.

But of course we're not done yet.

Because as lengthy as it is, this isn't a finished analysis. Now, if you've made it this far into my mad and delusional (yet strongly supported by evidence) rantings and ravings, you're probably just as excited about this breakthrough as I am. So if you're thinking about exploring the theory yourself, I have a few suggestions on where to start, because there's a good number of things that I haven't fully looked into yet! Most notably, there are several tracks that sound like they almost fit with the ones I already identified as being part of soundtrackgate, or they have similar vibes, but just aren't similar enough to make it into the list. Some of them I've tried to mix with The First Lie, Kids, etc, but came up empty-handed. There songs are:

Journalistic Instinct

Boys and Girls

Feel Safe

First Kiss

Presumptuous

My BOOBS Hurt

A Kiss

I wouldn't remember me either

Eight Fifteen

Walkin in Hawkins (i really really really hate this song for no justifiable reason please don't make me listen to it any more than I had to this is my one exception)

This Isn't You

Blank Makes You Crazy

Weirdly enough, out of these twelve, there are exactly three tracks from each season. Does that mean anything? No clue. Odd, though.

For all you eightfifteengate truthers, I tried really, really hard to mix the track Eight Fifteen with any of the established songs... but all I got was a pretty resounding muddy mess of a failure. Which sucks, because it sounds like it should work! Unfortunately, I don't think Eight Fifteen is part of soundtrackgate. However! I did notice that it sounds very very similar to the track Presumptuous, which is interesting. Here's the best I got, for what it's worth:

If you want to take another look at these songs and try to prove me wrong, please do!! Maybe there's a pattern within them that I didn't catch. And if you ask, I'll be happy to try my hand at combining any tracks you think would work together!

Other than that, there are a few interesting little details I noticed while perusing the OST. Maybe they mean something, maybe they don't, but I thought they were worth mentioning! Feel free to investigate if any of these pique your interest:

Like I mentioned earlier, Eight Fifteen and Presumptuous both contain the same melody

Blank Makes You Crazy and I Need You to Trust Me are both songs tied to scenes where we see evidence of the stained relationship between Mike and El, and they’re both in the same key; F Major

Not Kids Anymore plays during the Byler rain fight in s3, AND when Dustin and Mike refuse to go to Lucas’ game in s4

As far as I can tell, the song Destroying The Castle only plays one time other than when Will takes a bat to Castle Byers- it also plays in S4E9 when Hopper is about to use himself as bait for the demodogs, but assures Joyce that he’ll be alright

On The Bus almost definitely does not match with any of the other songs, but I feel like this particular track is important and worth looking into regardless, so I’m mentioning it here.

You’re The Heart does not sound similar, mix well with, or parallel Being Different, let alone ANY of the established soundtrackgate songs. I just don’t hear it, sorry.

Eulogy and Letter to Willy sound very very similar

Journalistic Instinct and Boys and Girls sound very very similar

Still Pretty, the song that plays in season 1 when Mike reassures El that she looks pretty without the wig, also plays in season 4 while they talk in the pizza shop, right before they get interrupted by Argyle.

Okay. I think that covers it, for now. Thank you so much for reading, seriously, I poured my soul into this so it means a lot!!! I hope it all made enough sense. MASSIVE shoutout to what-song.com for its list of all the songs that appear in each ST episode, in order, complete with listing what minute each song appears in, providing a 30-second sample of each song, and a description of the scene that occurs during it. It SAVED MY LIFE no joke. Also big shoutout to bilibili.tv, my platform of choice for sailing the seven seas of content of questionable legality; I used it liberally to pull up all the scenes I had to analyze lol

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theerurishipper · 7 months

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After learning about the leaks about Paris special, I just want to say that all of the comics and headcanons fans created speculating how they would be in emoverse are much better than what we got. Wouldn't it be ironic to say that they're born evil like Chloe in ogverse and that some backstory doesn't justify their wrongdoings. They are evil and very much proud of it with either their cringe worthy fails or terrifying terrorism

Agreed. Like, I don't mind the arc they were intending for with Chloe, I don't mind them showing that some people can't change, but then they'll redeem the terrorist/abuser. And they'd rather say that Chloe is just inherently evil without exploring or acknowledging the backstory and motivations they wrote for her. That's the issue here. And now Shadybug and Claw Noir are going to get some half-assed redemption. Honestly, I would have preferred them being evil, you know, like an everyone has a good and bad side in them and who you are depends on the choices you make kind of thing, especially since Miraculous is so fond of redemptions.

I get it, that's just my wish and the show doesn't have to follow my exact preferred storyline to be good, but the information we have doesn't paint a very promising picture either way. Considering the bullshittery of the Season 5 finale and Gabriel's shitty-ass redemption, it really just feels like this special is pushing the Gabe Is Good agenda in our face, you know? I mean, Guardian Angel? For the child abuser in our main continuity? The one who doesn't seem like he did a good job in the alternate timeline either seeing as his son was so unable to process his grief that he became a magical terrorist? This guy is called Guardian Angel? I mean, maybe he did his best, but we won't know until we watch the special, and the show has a habit of blaming Adrien for Gabriel's actions anyway, so. It just feels like it's pushing the "some people are good and some people are evil no matter in what continuity, and Marinette and Adrien are good deep down, and so is Gabriel. But Chloe is just always evil lmaooooo." I don't mind it too much, but shit's still kinda weird, man.

And like, what do you mean "Shadybug and Claw Noir don't even like each other?" That's kind of the whole appeal for a lot of people lmao, and they hate each other? I mean, I'm not going to judge it based on my expectations and say it's bad just because I didn't get what I wanted, but... really? And I'm also gonna go out on a limb and say Hesperia and Claw Noir have no personal interaction despite them being father and son and Adrien's motivation being to bring Emelie back. Like, at a certain point, it crosses the line from being my insignificant expectation to being just... bad choices and an inability to create proper payoff. I think Hesperia interacts more with Marinette than Adrien in this special. Getting major Season 5 finale-esque "Marinette replaces Adrien in his arc" vibes.

But I'm not disappointed, surprising as that sounds. I never expected it to be good. I was always just here to see Claw Noir on screen so I can properly pick him up and toss him into my fanfics. I was excited for the special, sure, but I didn't have my hopes up and the leaks seem to have proved me right. Idk, maybe they'll surprise me. I doubt it though.

Thank you for your ask!

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brighteststar707 · 9 months

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I would love jumin + dark chocolate for the prompts if the slot hasn't been filled! a combo of sweet and suggestive would be fun but I'll leave the content up to you – have fun with it 🤎🍫

congrats on 300 followers too! :)

We did it! We finally reached the last of the event requests. Thank you very much for your patience Ann, this one is a treat for you!

I've tried to match the request for sweet and suggestive (mild spice warning ahead!), and I'm really happy with the result! I'm sorry it took a few months to get to you but I hope you enjoy <333

✧Dark Chocolate ~ Fantasies

The silence in the lift on the way up to Jumin’s penthouse is full of things unspoken. The night so far has been filled with so much to say, so many thoughts, indulgences, memories that just begged to be shared. So, their silence now is not uncomfortable. Both Jumin and the woman with him are processing all that has passed between them, and for that, the lift serves as the perfect reprieve.

Then, all at once, their silence is disturbed by the soft chime of the lift reaching his floor, then the sound of their shoes across the tiles and his quiet words to the guards as they open the front door. He gestures to her to enter first and she hesitantly steps inside. He follows closely behind her and encourages her to please, sit down, make herself comfortable.

He goes to the kitchen to pour them both a glass of wine (the very thing that lured them up here in the first place), and he feels the weight of her eyes on him. Usually, people who come into his home spend time ogling every little detail – and he doesn’t blame them, there is a lot to take in. Not her, though. Her attention is focused solely on him and his every movement as he pours the wine into their glasses. It fills him with a self-consciousness that’s completely foreign to him.

He sits next to her on the sofa and hands her a glass of wine.

“Cheers. To you,” he says, raising his own glass to meet hers with a soft clink.

“Cheers. To us.”

It’s the first thing she has said since they entered the building and it has already set his heart racing again.

She takes a sip, then tilts her head to the side, thoughtful.

“You’re right, this is better than the wine we had at the restaurant.”

“I knew you’d have the palate to appreciate it.”

“You think very highly of me.”

“I do, and you haven’t given me reason to think otherwise.”

And he means it. Others might call him overly critical, but Jumin has met enough people throughout his life and career to know how to read them. He has met many of his father’s girlfriends and seen in each of them the greed and shallowness that his father has consistently failed to see. He has to see through the smiles of his business partners while they're trying to push him on a disadvantageous deal. He could not exist in the position he does and not be judgemental.

With her, he has searched (especially early on) for anything to prove that her character wasn’t as she presented it. It was for the safety of the RFA (and certainly not to protect himself from his own feelings). But he never found anything in her that wasn’t worthy of admiration.

She has always, from the moment they met, been his exception. The person to make him laugh when he usually would not, the person he wants to tell his thoughts to when he was sure nobody would understand. This much he had told her earlier over dinner. What he did not tell her is that she was also the person to make his heart race when he was sure it could never beat that way for another person.

Despite how much he has denied his feelings, they never once subsided. They only continued to grow with every phone call, every meeting, every word she directed at him (and more painfully in the ones she didn’t – jealousy is a beast he was only recently getting to know). But he was sure nothing would ever come from it. With so many members in the RFA, so many people who seemed to understand her better than he could, so many people less strange than him, why would she feel the same way?

So, when he impulsively phoned her up one evening to invite her to dinner, imagine his surprise when she agreed. Imagine his surprise when she took his arm without hesitation and grew bashful at his compliments. When she didn’t shrink away as he tried to explain how much she means to him but responded with equal enthusiasm.

He is thankful for his own knowledge of people and their reactions because that way there was no way for him to mistake the way she was looking at him over dinner. Her eyes wide and attentive, taking him in like she couldn't afford to miss a moment. And he was not brave enough to say it at the time, but here in the penthouse, over their glasses of wine, as she looks at him with that same intensity in her eyes, he says it.

"Am I wrong in assuming that your feelings towards me are the same as mine for you?"

“To answer that, I’d need to know what your feelings towards me are, Jumin. Would you tell me?”

He inhaled, took a moment to turn the question over and put his feelings into words.

“You’re in my head all the time. There’s always a part of me that is thinking about you and that misses you when you’re not around.”

“Oh?”

“You fill my head with fantasies. Ones where I can make you feel the same way you make me feel. Ones where I can be the source of your happiness and a person you can rely on.”

“You have quite mundane fantasies," she says affectionately.

“Well, there’s others, but –” He stops, reels himself in before the wine can speak for him. He does not want to say too much at once. If he starts to think about those other fantasies, then he isn’t sure where he’ll end up.

Then, more quietly (as if he is ashamed), he says, “I was sure you wouldn’t feel the same. That there was someone else who had your heart. But is it too forward to assume that you feel the same way I feel?”

She smiles, shy too now.

“It’s not too forward at all. I’ve had feelings for you for the longest time.”

“And you didn’t say anything?”

“I know how you feel about romantic relationships. I value your friendship very much and I didn’t want to risk it by making you uncomfortable.”

He reaches out and cups her cheek in his hand. She leans into his touch and his heart pounds furiously against his ribcage.

“It is that level of consideration and understanding that makes you the last person who could ever make me uncomfortable,” he says fondly.

She covers his hand with her own.

Jumin isn’t sure how much time passes before they move again, before they both start to lean into each other and their lips finally meet. He only knows that one minute he was looking into her eyes, and the next they were kissing.

He can taste the wine on her lips, the fine red he had been wanting to share with her since he had learned about her appreciation for such things. Funny, it tastes better from her than it does otherwise.

They pull apart only to set down their glasses and pull each other closer. Their kisses go from soft and unsure to more experimental, more needy. His hand moves from her cheek to her neck, his fingertips resting at the base of her head to hold her steady. Her own hands find purchase in the collar of his shirt as she tries to pull him closer still.

She leans back just a bit (only enough for their lips to not touch) and whispers teasingly, “you said something about other fantasies?”

He chuckles. “The mundane fantasies aren’t enough for you anymore?”

Her legs are draped over his lap. One of his hands drops to rest on her thigh, holding her firmly in place.

“I know there’s more to you than that. Will you show me?”

He kisses her again, lingering and tantalizing. He usually tries to cut his imaginations of her short, but tonight, he wants to let them run. He moves from her lips to kiss her cheek, then the soft spot where her neck meets her jaw. Her breath catches in her throat.

“Having you here with me was already more of a dream than I could have asked for.”

His breath is hot against the bare skin of her shoulders and his fingers are gentle as he fiddles with the strap of her dress.

“And yet” – she shivers – “there seems to be something else you want.”

Her fingers dig into the fabric of his shirt, encouraging him to keep going. He lifts the strap of the dress and eases it off her shoulder. Her hands move to his hair, egging him on to continue.

He lowers his head so his lips are grazing against the newly-exposed skin.

“Be careful what you ask for. Asking me to show you what I want is like opening pandora’s box. You’re willing to indulge me?”

Without hesitation, she breathlessly replies, “yes.”

#300 follower event #mystic messenger #mystic messenger jumin #mystic messenger Jumin han #mysme jumin #mysme jumin han #jumin han #mysme #my writing

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y2khaos · 1 year

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ive been watching a lot of mental health vids today and i got to thinking while talking to a friend..... i think a good way to balance self deprecating and self enabling tendencies is to mostly acknowledge that thoughts are...just that. thoughts!! esp w self deprecation, a healthy way to deal w that is to take a step back and examine the negative feelings u have abt urself. and then u just shrug ur shoulders and say, "so what?"

- feeling stupid? so what, ur still smart enough to acknowledge there are things u need to improve!

- feeling ugly? so what, the only people who will actually call u that to ur face are elementary school bullies. (if there are ppl who do that aren't in elementary school, resorting to criticizing you over things you can't control makes them no better than an elementary achool bully.)

- feeling generally undesirable? so what, there are plenty of ppl out there who are willing to deal with what u personally consider mediocrity!

as for self-enabling tendencies, i think a good way to handle them would be......smthn like, "will this actively contribute to my satisfaction in life, or just give me a brief hit of dopamine?"

whether it's food (esp stuff u know will leave u on the toilet later from issues like lactose intolerance or things particularly aggravating for ur ibs), impulse purchases, or saying smthn rude in the moment you will later regret (i know i need to work on this on the rare occasion im irrationally angry LMAO), u need to think stuff like:

- will this food item make me feel better after eating it, or do i know from prior experience that it makes me feel sick?

- will this purchase be smthn i will display in my home or wear or use often and be happy about seeing every day, or will i leave it to rot in the closet or garage or basement?

- is this comment something this person needs to hear for their own wellbeing, or will it just upset them and make us both spiral into a pointless argument?

obviously recovery is a long, arduous road. but it's all worth it in the end to feel better abt urself and others. u deserve to feel that. i don't want any comments or reblogs abt how "oh this applies to everyone but me": actually, it ESPECIALLY applies to you. believing you're not worthy of basic positive experiences in life is, in fact, a very harmful form of self deprecation.

i don't care how "toxic" of a person you think you are. truly toxic people don't care about the negative effect they have on others whatsoever. they don't dwell on whether they're good people or not. meanwhile, good people make an attempt to get better. sometimes, maybe even often, they will falter, and it's natural. it's natural to make mistakes. it's natural to relapse on occasion. again, the road to recovery is tough. but i promise that you deserve good things. 💚💚

screenshot this post, print it out, set it as ur lockscreen, whatever you need to do to remind urself that you're worthy and deserving of love - whether it's from others, or yourself.

#neo.txt #mental health #actually autistic #ptsd #depression #recovery #self harm #bpd #did #osdd #npd #ocd #positivity #aspd #ed #adhd

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apocalypticavolition · 4 months

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Let's (re)Read The Great Hunt! Chapter 26: Discord

Gather around everyone and I'll tell you a tale. It's a tale of my reactions to someone else telling me a different story in book form. Many book form, to be technical. And I already know the story, so my reactions will be very spoilery for all the books. Every book. If that's gonna be a problem, plug your ears or something I guess.

This chapter has a harp icon because it's Thom time! I'm as happy as Rand is to see him.

Rand, I may have been too hasty in leaving Stedding Shangtai the way I did. When I do go home, I may be in a great deal of trouble.

Not sure why you couldn't just lie about being a young Ogier from Saldaea or something, Loial. You all can't keep that close a set of tabs on each other. Or is the unbearded look a dead giveaway?

When they came pounding through the common room, Rand winked at the innkeeper, then laughed at his startled look. Let him think I’m off to play his bloody Great Game. Let him think what he wants. Thom’s alive.

What is it about needing to keep a low profile in inns that makes Rand so reckless? First Baerlon and his channeling sickness, now this when he doesn't even have that excuse.

The innkeeper was a woman with hair as white as Thom’s, and sharp eyes that studied Loial as well as Rand.

Innkeeper size, and therefore loyalty, uncertain.

The slender woman sitting cross-legged on the bed with her skirts tucked under her was keeping six colored balls spinning in a wheel between her hands.

Dena meanwhile has to be small so that Jordan can fit her into the fridge more easily.

“I have never heard of a woman gleeman,” Loial said.

And this frankly makes Dena's fridging all the more exhausting. Why are there no gleegals anyway? Surely there'd be a good source: women who go to the Tower to become Aes Sedai and then get put out again when it's clear they're not worthy but who don't want to go back home now that they've tasted the world. Especially since this world seems to be pretty low on sex work, you'd think that gals who don't have much else in the realm of prospects would pick up the job.

But also, it's infuriating that Dena is intro'd in this way and then killed off and then we never have any other woman who tries to take up the mantle later. One can hardly blame Thom for being in a hurry to pick up a lady apprentice given what happens to Dena and the events of the next few months, but by the time he ended up in Ebou Dar it should have been going again. It's a wasted opportunity.

They hang a scrap of painted canvas behind them, supposed to make the audience believe these fools are in Matuchin Hall, or the high passes of the Mountains of Dhoom. I make the listener see every banner, smell every battle, feel every emotion. I make them believe they are Gaidal Cain. Seaghan will have his hall torn down around his ears if he puts this lot on to follow me.

And here's another apparent revolution in the world's culture that doesn't seem to go anywhere. Theater exists; there's a play held in Andor much later, but apparently Gleemen will stay the preferred style for now. I suppose after the circus it's probably for the best we didn't pick up a subplot of players.

“She listens to a tale once—once only, mind!—and she has it right, not just the words, but every nuance, every rhythm. She has a fine hand on the harp, and she played the flute better the first time she picked it up than you ever did.”

Yes yes, we all know she's too pure for this sinful Earth.

She’ll be court-bard to a king or a queen before she’s done.

Okay but for real Thom, there's only so many monarchs in the world and I doubt many more nobles besides their immediate subordinates could afford court-bards so what are all the women in the world who aren't mind-bogglingly talented supposed to do in the performance arts? They can't all just give up their dreams and move on. Why are they absent?

“Your clumsy sheepherder’s fingers were never meant for the harp.”

There is something very sad in Rand not being meant for the sophisticated forms of art (and science) that he'd really rather be a part of than conquering.

There is even a lord in the city has what he claims is the Horn locked up inside his manor. He says it’s a treasure handed down in his House since the Breaking.

You know, I'm willing to believe that this lord really does have a 3,500 year old horn in his basement. Obviously not a magic one, but still. Stranger things have happened.

“Moiraine says it’s the Horn,” Rand said. Thom’s mirth was cut short.

Thom takes Moiraine as gospel even now.

“I don’t suppose you are talking about simply riding to Shienar and handing the Horn to—who?—the King? Why Shienar? The legends all tie the Horn to Illian.”

I suppose this must be one of those myths that grew in the telling. That or there was some confusion with a Foretelling and the sea that the Horn gets tossed into is off of Illian's coast.

“Thom,” he said at last, “are there any books that have The Karaethon Cycle in them?” Easier to call it that than the Prophecies of the Dragon. “In the great libraries,” Thom said slowly. “Any number of translations, and even in the Old Tongue, here and there.”

Thom of course has to answer slowly because Rand's question has given him a heart attack and he needs to take deep breaths. This might well be one of the more terrifying moments of Thom's life, having a young boy taken from his home on suspicion of channeling asking about the Prophecies while waving the sign of their imminent fulfillment around. Or at least this would be the case if Thom was taking it at all seriously (he's not, not yet).

For a moment, Rand could only gape at him, and when he could speak, his voice was unsteady. “The sword makes five. Hilt, scabbard, and blade.” He turned his hand down on the table, hiding the brand on his palm. For the first time since Selene’s salve had done its work, he could feel it. Not hurting, but he knew it was there.

Moiraine of course thought she was fulfilling prophecy but as Rand points out the coat counts for nothing, though funnily enough the sword and the coat are echoes of the later, true markings: the sword setting Rand on his path away from home and the coat being Moiraine naming him among the candidates as the real deal.

Thom's got to be happy Rand's denying it though.

I suspect Aes Sedai would want to make events fit the Prophecies as closely as they can. Dying somewhere in the Blasted Lands would be a high price to pay for going along with them.

Thom's a very kind mentor for actually telling Rand straight out what the price of being the Dragon is and suggesting that if he's just doing it for the Aes Sedai that it's time to do something.

“Then why ask about the Prophecies? Why send the Ogier out of the room?”

One of the problems of being an expert player of the Great Game is that when a novice shows up and starts blundering around, you're going to mistake his idiotic moves for strategic ones. Thom correctly identifies Rand's got an ulterior motive for his behavior and skips right past the obvious, simple, and true answer in favor of a conspiracy theory.

“I’ve learned a few things since we parted, Thom. They will come for whoever blows the Horn, even a Darkfriend.”

I'm not sure you've learned that at all Rand, and I suppose we should have taken Thom not knowing that detail as warning enough that it wasn't true.

“Owyn held it off almost three years. He never hurt anyone. He didn’t use the Power unless he had to, and then only to help his village. He. . . .” Thom threw up his hands.

The taint on saidin was an absolutely masterful counterstroke if you think about it. The perfect way for the divisive paranoia of the Shadow to worm its way into the minds of Light aligned individuals. Thom knows that Owyn was a danger to society but he still tries to make excuses out of love.

If Moiraine’s let you go, then you are well out of it.

While Rand outplays Thom through naivety, Moiraine outflanks him legitimately.

“A clean break is best, boy. If you’re always coming around, even if you never mention it, I won’t be able to get the Horn out of my head. And I won’t be tangled in it. I won’t.”

A cruel move by Thom, but one can hardly blame an old man for trying to refuse the call. One can blame the Wheel for how refusing the call plays out for him though.

Ruefully, he realized he was considering whether to tell Zera the truth or let her continue thinking as she did. All it takes is to think about the Great Game, and I start playing it.

Politics as a whole are a rather infectious way of corrupting the Light too, and the fools do it to themselves. It's no wonder part of Rand's coming is resetting the whole damn board on the players.

Coat or no coat, Rand was still only a shepherd. If he had been more, if he had been what Thom once suspected—a man who could channel—neither Moiraine nor any other Aes Sedai would ever have let him walk away ungentled.

Frankly, I think Thom's very much hiding in denial here like Rand does. He has to know that the facts don't add up in any way that's good but he pretends he can send Rand away and not have to worry about it.

Ah well. We have to part ways here too. See you next chapter!

#let's read #wheel of time #wot #robert jordan #wheel of time spoilers #wot spoilers #rand al'thor #cuale #loial #hurin #zera #dena #thom merrilin

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I do find it interesting that Agent Green gets a whole redemption but Damien doesn't*. Like Damien, as much as he is a fucking asshole who does horrible shit to people, a lot of what he does clearly stems from a genuine inability to understand other people. Meanwhile, Owen is over here low-key doing Nazi shit. Like I know The Bright Sessions doesn't lean as hard on the "people with powers are a minority group" thing as say, the X-Men, but it is a present theme, and Owen actively assists and participates in the kidnapping and unethical experimentation upon said minority group. And his motives for that are... career advancement? Impressing Joan? Like I know he likes to focus on the good the AM does for people like Rose, but he focuses on that by ignoring the fact that they're torturing people in a basement until it threatens his job security.

I know Owen does stop what he's doing and comes to Joan and Sam asking them to help him be better, but Damien asks multiple characters what he should be doing to actually connect with people and they all just kinds roll their eyes and go "Well, if you don't know, I can't explain it to you." Explaining it to him should be part of his therapy- which admittedly it's unclear the extent to which none of his therapy actually being helpful is his own fault by forcing Joan to spend the sessions talking about abilities instead of actual therapy, but it still could've been part of her little "you always wonder about the patients you can't help" speech. Is the fact that Owen gets the help he asks for and Damien doesn't just because Owen helps oust the bigger threat of Wadsworth- which doesn't even work? If Wadsworth hadn't made herself immune to abilities and Damien had made her fuck off, would he have been welcomed afterwards?

Don't get me wrong, I don't think Damien necessarily needs a redemption, and I definitely don't think he should be spending more time around the main characters, Mark especially. But Owen's redemtion has always rung a bit false for me and like the reason he died is that killing him was the only way to make him ultimately sympathetic, and I think this is part of why.

If you asked me to rank the villians of Tbe Bright Sessions, Damien would be at the bottom of the list because unlike Wadsworth, Owen, and to an extent Blackwell, he doesn't weild any institutional power over a group of people, and unlike Helen, the only person he's ever killed was in self defense. And while what he did to Neon to enact that self defense was despicable, forcing atypicals to use their abilities in ways they hate is what the AM did to every major character who went there other than Rose. And we know Owen actively participated in that because Mark and Helen know him. And it doesn't feel earned by the narrative to redeem to some extent both Owen and the institution that gives him that power over people, especially when held up in comparison to another villian.

*I do need to reread Some Faraway Place, but to my memory, the "well maybe one day, if he keeps working really hard, he'll be worthy of forming a genuine human connection" story that Damien gets there is still a far cry from Owen becoming a protagonist in The AM Archives

#the bright sessions #damien gorham #owen green #owen thompson #how do you tag him?

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My take on Harumi part 1

Let's start with her name. Jade is not really canon, but Harumi is a japanese name meaning "spring beauty". The picture she has with her parents on some fesitival was taken in spring as the blossoming cherry petals are falling around. Spring is associated with her younger persona. Then she never uses her name again in her evil schemes, she goes by The Quiet One, Kabuki Mask, Crystal King's Messenger showing that she distances herself from who she was as a child, cause she's dead. The person that trusted ninja so much and was so joyful and hopeful is dead (or so she thinks).

We have young Harumi (or a minifigure that looks like her) in that one Nya's vision/dream, but there's a lot of focus on her specifically, so i like to headcanon it as canon and assume that before they moved to the city, her dad was working at the rice fields and then got a better job in Ninjago City. Maybe the village she attacked with Garmadon was her first home... It's nice that it's Nya because in her diary (the book called Garmadon Rulez), Harumi wrote that it's a shame that she won't have her as one of the Sons of Garmadon so she still kind of liked her i guess and she wrote (if i well remember) that Nya didn't really do anything to her but she's a ninja so she have to be destroyed (something like that idk)

Harumi idolises Ninja. She wants to be like them when she grow up. She trusts them. She feels safe. Maybe it's because she saw Nya in action. As a Samurai but still. First time she has the figures it's after that so who knows... (the idea of the ninja existed long time before they appeared, so that's why she's able to have the figures, while they're not that known)

Then the Devourer attacks and her parents die. She's 9 years old for me here. She's a child. Kids are much more guillable. First thing she hears is that the ninja didn't help, and that Garmadon is a true hero. That's what she believes from now on. And also she wrote that she saw Lloyd in action and he was a helpless child, destroying the way she viewed the ninja before. They are some unskilled kids for her now.

Kids are also more prone to be jealous (we see it with Jordana too), especially if they are sure that they can do something better, the world just underestimates them.

Harumi doesn't think of Lloyd as worthy of the Green Ninja title as well as Garmadon's child/heir.

And here he is flying around the city on a dragon, greeted by his crowd of fans. Here he is having new shiny family. Everything that she had and wanted to have is now his. He lives her dream even tho he was the one who failed and who released the snakes (she get to know about this later). The world is unfair. The world function in the wrong way. He took these things from her.

Harumi also doesn't feel safe. Her parents that believed in good are gone. So they were wrong. The good isn't enough for it to be peace. Her hero is considered "bad" and then he becomes good. As we read he visites the palace to beg for forgivness. Harumi throws her Garmadon merch away. She's furious, but she's also scared. She's a child and there's nobody left to truly protect her.

Emperor and empress, they talk about her more like a heir to the throne than like an actual child. I think they did care for her to some extent, but they grew up in the palace, their perception of parenting and marriage was different. And she feels it, she wrote that she knows that they don't love her which is so heart-breaking when you remember how young she is. They also could've adopted her for their reputation. You know, Harumi felt used. Her tragedy was used for them to be told that they are so great, since they decided to give home for the child that just lost everything in previous attack. They care for their people so much.

They also wanted to arrange her marriage, they wanted to control everything about her. And she had to listen. They isolated her. She couldn't leave the palace. Her whole live was in their hands. She couldn't bond with anyone her age, she was probably recieving a different education than her peers, she was a princess after all. And they neglected her need for attention and affection. And all that she should do was sitting still and looking pretty. They even made her change her hair color, so she could look more like them, which might've made her feel even more unwanted as a person she already was. Her lack of control over any aspect of her life, including her not feeling safe, cause her hero is gone, makes her crave it desperately.

The royals were also on ninjas side. The good side. Which made her hate them even more. The world blocked her. She was stuck in her quiet despair. And nobody listened. Nobody cared. Nobody told her that what she's thinking is wrong so she only went deeper and deeper into her delusion.

And the world was cheereing for people that did this to her. She wanted revenge.

She also saw Garmadon as her father figure. She felt more worthy than Lloyd to call him father. She was a child of course she yearned for a parental figure. She needed someone to protect her. He was perfect to play that role. His evil version. Cause she believed the good is too weak. She got unhealthy attached to her version of him, leading to her obsession. Later she wants to control him too, she'd rather like him as a toll in her hands than an actual person. She feels safer this way. She believes that Ninjago needs a strong leader, that will keep it in order.

Hutchins gave her the diary, for her to write it all down, he also was the one whom she learned the spider lullaby from. That also inspired her plan later. But he's still listening to the royals, and then he is very close to discovering her plan, so she decides that they should murder him too.

After Garm has his redemption arc she decides that there is no longer any hope for her, so she tries to live the way, her new parents want her to. Until one day she hears the mask speaking to her in Garmadon's voice. She needs to learn more, so she reads a lot and even visites Mistake, asking her to tell her the story of the Oni and the Dragon, lying that it's for school project.

When she finds out that Lloyds the one that released the serpentine, of course she's even more pissed of, but she does not mention it while they were fighting in the cave as one of her motives.

Maybe him doing something "evil" was actually something she considered powerful, not to ruin her perception of "good" and "evil", and she's more furious at the fact that he couldn't control it later, what shows his "weakness".

Harumi sneaks out of the palace, wanting to taste freedom by ordering garlic noodles, that were forbidden for her as they were causing a bad breath. That would be a scandal for the princess.

Harumi also claimed before that she likes cats and ice cream. (She's defo a cat person, just look at her). She also likes Lloyd golden suit more, when he was in green, she once called him a frog. Mocking practiacally everything that he does, showing how much she actually despise him. The way she speaks of him is truly concerning.

She is also interested in the current events that the ninja are taking part in. It may be just her obsessing over them (in the bad way), but it also shows her interest in the way the city functions. That makes me wonder if emperor and empress wanted to also use her to get back the political impact that the royals lost overtime.

She creates Sons of Garmadon. The people she works with are only strengthening her believes. Even tho she is closer with some members, she has to remain a strong leader in their eyes, so there is no way that she would open up to anybody about how her past experiences truly affected her. She only dwells in her hatred towards the ninja, the royals and the way the world works. She is slowly going insane day by day.

She does want peace and for the city to be safe, and to "return it to it's former glory", but she isn't able to see that actually, the only person she wants to make feel alright again is herself. This is showed more in crystalized. She just needs something to delue herself into thinking that she's doing the right thing, to be able to achive her goals at any cost. Even if it's innocents lives. After all everyone that is not with her is against her. And only her ways are rightful. She will be slowly blocking her conscience and empathy. But it's still there and it will appear again when she'll actually experience the consequences of her own actions.

#harumi jade #ninjago harumi #ninjago #lord garmadon #garmadon ninjago #royal family ninjago #hutchins ninjago

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PAC: Temperance

Where Justice's balance is all logic and laws, Temperance talks about the kind of fluid balance that works better for emotions and spirituality. Temperance talks about seeing things in shades of gray. Temperance is the calm surety of intuition. The balance of nature: mild and gentle but also unflinching and ruthless. Temperance is inner peace and strength. The balance between the material and the spiritual. Where do you need more harmony? Where do you need a more balanced perspective? Maybe you need to ruthlessly make your peace a priority? Let's fuck around and find out.

as always this reading is for entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional advice in any capacity. Remember: use common sense and don't be a dumbass.

Pick the Cups, the Irises, or the Sun and Mountains, and head to your reading.

The Cups

Ok, before I even got all the cards pulled I got a vibe that a lot of people who pick this group may be currently in the closet? And I was kinda confused about what that had to do with the reading, but when I finished pulling the cards it all made sense. Sweetheart, you will have a place and time to be free and safe. There is peace in your future. You are not any less valid than someone who's out. I'm getting that some of you may be even be feeling guilty or bad for being lgbtqia? Listen to me, babe: You have nothing to be guilty for. You are good. You are whole. You are strong and badass and so, so, fucking worthy of love. And that goes for all y'all, not just those of y'all struggling with sexual/gender identity (but especially those who are).

The message for all of y'all is about balance in your relationships and prioritizing yourself. Y'all may be giving too much to the people around you and not keeping anything for yourself? Blessings are trying to come your way but every time you receive something good, you immediately give it away. Did y'all know that being generous to a fault is ACTUALLY a problem? Not even in a humble-brag way but in a giving-to-the-point-that-it-hurts-you-financially,-emotionally,-or-physically way. Or in a you're-uncomfortable-with-receiving-things way. Or maybe even a feel-your-worth-is-based-on-how-much-you-give-or-do-for-others way. The blessings are being held back because what's the point if you're going to give them away? They're for you. Not the people around you. Sometimes the point of something IS to make you happy and that's fuckin it. You can have nice things just because you like them. Not only that but you DESERVE nice things. You don't need a reason to be happy. Fighting for your happiness isn't silly or naive. You don't need to justify it or prove you deserve it. More than that: you can make your own happiness a priority in your life. Hard to believe, right? But it's true. It's your life and contrary to popular belief, you are supposed to be the main focus of your life. I mean, it's your life who else should be the focus? The blessings coming your way won't look how you think they will. Or they won't show up the way you think they will. They will come when you stop trying to give them away. When you stop trying to be everything and do everything for everyone else and take care of yourself first. You can't pour from an empty cup, babe. No matter how hard you try. You are super powerful as hell but you keep using that power for everyone else. Then you wonder why you never seem to get anywhere. You got the Death card representing what you don't see. That tells me that you have no fucking clue how much you're life will shift once you start prioritizing yourself. You may not even realize how much energy you've been giving away. Temperance is here, feels like demanding you make choices with your best interest in mind. With your happiness in mind and doing so ruthlessly. Demand rest. Demand joy. Demand your life to be your own.

One other thing, if any of y'all have a shitty ass boss. One who acts like you owe them or acts like they own you? First of all: they're a dick. Second: They don't own you and you don't owe them jack shit. So, they gave you a job, big fucking deal. People are hired all the damn time, they ain't a saint for doing their job. I'm not going to advise you to do anything that could fuck you over but it may be good for you to find ways to regain some control over your working life. Whatever that means for you.

random ass vibes: 88, yellow, origami, paper cranes, wings, birds, blue eyes, Capricorn, frayed blankets, oreos, the wizard of oz,

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The Irises

Before I pulled any cards I heard 'take off the crown' or 'time to take off the crown'. And looking at your cards, I get it. Y'all have presented the world with this persona to hide who you really are and you're sick of it. It looks exhausting, tbh. It'll be different for all of y'all but it looks like y'all are way softer, gentler than you let on. You put on this mask of apathy and logic but you've got a shit ton of love to give. My chest/ heart space are physically aching with it right now. For some of you, this 'mask' is very cutthroat or ruthless. I think all of y'all feel like this persona is stronger than the 'real' you and you don't want to lose that strength? Being more genuine would mean admitting to the parts of yourself that are vulnerable and I'm hearing squishy? Y'all may have even received praise at one point for how tough and unbothered you seemed. I just heard 'low maintainance'. Lemme just say people being low maintenance is a fucking lie. We all have emotional, physical, and spiritual needs that should be met and when they're not it doesn't build up some sort of tolerance, it creates a deficit. Think about it, you can't build up a tolerance for dehydration, and people who drink enough regularly can go longer without water IF they have to because they're fully hydrated. They may feel the lack of water before someone who's chronically dehydrated but that's just because they're not used to the symptoms. Emotional needs are the same way, even if we refuse to recognize that. Y'all are worried that if you show your softer side, you'll fall off of that 'low maintainance' pedestal that others have put you on. Is that really a bad thing though? If people are only around you because you're not getting your needs met? Because here's the thing: the ONLY thing that will happen is you fall off that pedestal, or you take off that 'unbothered' crown. You are as strong as you think you're pretending to be. Yeah, you maybe secretly crying in the shower but crying is a human expression. No different than laughing when you're happy or yelling when you're pissed, are those expressions weak too? You can be soft and sensitive and care and still kick ass. Yeah, you'll lose the title of unbothered who the fuck cares though? Be bothered about shit. If someone's treating you like shit be fucking bothered, bothered enough to tell them off. You don't deserve that. Do you think people who created awesome changes in our society, did it by being the most 'unbothered'? Hell no! They got good and rightly pissed off and they set out to fix shit. Fuck apathy, sweetheart. Aim for passion. You have such a big heart and you care deeply about the world. Caring is a good thing, but it doesn't help anyone if you don't show it.

There's a second smaller message for some of you who are exploring more spiritual things: This attitude is blocking your intuition and it's through your softer side that your gifts will truly shine.

random ass vibes: turtles, plaid, goats, cowboys, goldfish, iced coffee or tea, grocery shopping after midnight, slurpy

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The Sun and Mountains

First off, y'all need to give yourselves a pat on the back. I'm seeing that y'all have just finished up or are on the tail end of a really fuckin rough cycle in your life. This cycle was one of self-growth and learning your own depths. (I'm getting that some of you may be in the middle of this cycle and if that's you this is a message of encouragement that you're kickin' ass and it won't be much longer now.) Some of y'all have been unlearning family patterns and trauma. Damn, sweetheart. That's a rough one. I'm getting this really strong defiant vibe from this group. Like I'm hearing 'this ends with me'. This group has looked their shadow or their family's shadow in the eye and not backed down. This is some POWERFUL fucking energy y'all got here. This was mostly internal work for most of you and you've been going through a lot that no one else could see. But sweetheart, I see it, the universe sees it, your guides see it. You need to see it. I think that because you don't have much materially to show for it, you dismiss all the work you've done. but babe. YOU DID THAT. YOU ARE DOING IT. LOOK AT YOU FUCKIN GO! OWN THAT SHIT. This journey has been rough, babe. Let yourself act like it. Take a day and breath. Now that this part is over (or will be over soon) there's some leftover shit you got to let go of from this cycle. The way it's being shown to me is like when you're building something or working on a project and you get it done but now you have to throw away the scraps and shit. It could be some mementos you still have from a shitty time in your life that you need to let go of. Or you may still be doing some of the habits from the last cycle and need to start putting what you learned into action. Maybe you just need to clear the energy from this cycle now that it's over, take a cleansing bath or shower and focus on washing it away, take a dip in a natural body of water, or stand in the rain (my personal favorite). Once you clear the last of this out y'all are going to feel so much lighter and freer. There are definitely some blessings coming your way, it's going to be like a breath of fresh air. Especially if while you were going through this cycle, things were very stagnate or you felt stuck. Things are going to be moving again, it may even take you by surprise. I am seeing a sort of heads-up for some of y'all if this was family shit you were working through, there may be some people who are jealous of the blessings you're getting. They may even try to guilt you for it? Like, make you feel bad for having good things happen? I'm getting that for a few of you someone will try and get you to give your blessings to them. Or talk down about the good things that are happening for you. Only a lil sorry, but this energy is kinda shitty, honestly. It's like when things start going your way they can't stand it and try to pull you down and I don't like that. Be careful who you talk to about your blessings. Don't worry though, this ain't nothing like that cycle you just went through. You got this, easy.

random ass vibes: The Hobbit, LOTR, 44, Here comes the sun, maps, crooked teeth, scuba diving, black cats, a metallic smell??,

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That scene were the girls comfort Usagi in her time of need in Crystal depicts their friendship better than the entirety of the old series. In the '90s anime, aside from the first two seasons with MAJOR exceptions and the R movie, it seems like the girls really don't want to be in the same room with Usagi and only support her because she's the princess and Usagi supports them because they're her guardians. It's quite apparent what detractors define as "friendship" is really....

having Usagi being the butt of jokes and scrutinized by the girls for her weight, her grades, her study habits, her worth as a partner/girlfriend to Mamoru, and her leadership skills. There was always a certain mean-spiritedness to it. The fact that many consider the '90s anime the pinnacle depiction of friendship says a lot about the fandom, IMHO. They really believe numerous episodes of the girls and Luna lampooning/ridiculing Usagi constitutes as "friendship".

I will say this over and over again until I'm blue in the face.

Usagi and the inner senshi relationship in the 90′s anime feels like employees who have to put up with their boss who they constantly feel like they are incompetent. But instead of keeping those comments to their self ,they say it in those comments in the boss face. Which they act like they can do a better job than the boss. Instead of giving constructive criticism in order for their boss to be better they bash their boss with ever chance they get. Due to the fact that boss have low self-esteem ,she puts up with it instead firing their asses and telling them to go fuck themselves. In which she will do the job herself like she been doing anyway since they always show up late and don’t do shit.

Like Usagi wasn’t what they signed up for when they agree to reawaken as Senshi but remember Serenity and being her protectors.

It's like ( I'm taking this a little bit from Blackmanta who did this well)

Senshi and Luna For the Majority of the Season: Usagi you can't do nothing right! Stop being a lazy crybaby! You need to stop eating, sleeping, reading manga and focus on your grades which are sooo bad and study! You are never going to get in high school if you keep acting like that! Mamoru should be embarrassed of you and shouldn't want to marry you if you don't pull your weight! No wonder he dumped you for a while! You need to be more mature to be worthy of him. You are not pretty enough to be with him either. You are such a slacker when it comes to the enemy! You are not leadership material at all Usagi. You need to be focusing on the enemy and not whining over Mamoru or because Chibiusa ate the last piece of pie. You need to be more nicer to Chibiusa because she is a long way from her parents and needs love! You are going to be big as a whale if you keep eating all these sweets. You are such an idiot. Why is Mamo with you again? You are not " pure" if you got Seiya in your house knowing that you supposed to be with Mamoru!

The last few episodes aka big bad:

SHE'S OUR BESTEST BEST FRIEND!!

SHE IS SOOOOO PRECIOUS TO US!

SHE'S OUR PRECIOUS FRIEND!!

SHE'S IS THE GLUE THAT HOLD US TOGETHER!

SHE'S DONE MORE FOR US THAN ANYONE!

WE CAN'T DO NOTHING WITHOUT HER!! ( cough which is the truth cough)

IF YOU USE THE SILVER CRYSTAL YOU'LL DIE SAILOR MOON!!!

WE CAN'T LOSE HER!!!

WE WAS ALONE BEFORE HER!

WE NEED YOU USAGI!

WE ARE NOTHING WTHOUT YOU!!

WE LOVE YOU USAGI!!

What kind of bullshit is this?

You spent majority of the season talking about her ass like a dog ( especially Rei and Luna with sometimes Ami say some cold shit) then when it comes to last few episodes when she saving everyone ass then want to kiss her ass and act like you love her. I remember someone on reddit said that Mamoru only act like he love her when she is dying. Which to me the 90's Senshi act like this.

( Cough But for some reason people want to say the manga/crystal senshi is kissing her ass because they are nice to her and appreciates what the fuck she does for them... Since she feels like she is returning the favor since they protect her so she's going to protect them. cough )

But everyone want to say the Manga and Crystal have this type of realtionship where the Senshi are just servants/ protectors to their " princess" and it's no real friendship. Which they aways bring up Dream Arc where their collective dream was to protect her and her prince, the earth AND each other.

People keep forgetting the each other part so bad.

In which Usagi said the extract something is the fact that she want to protect the earth with Mamo AND protect her friends.

Her Friends aka Sailor Sesnhi aka her Sisters

Which for some reason just because we don't see it people think they don't live their individual dreams or find love ( if they want to) because they are " slaves" aka bound to Usagi and only Usagi is able to found happiness.. ( Even tho her dream before the collective dream was to be married, have 2.5 children, and live in a house with a picket fence not a Crystal Place protecting people and earth. People forget that .)

Which if you read the damn manga which you should know Usagi fucking character, that's not going to fucking happen.

She would want to live out their dreams and be their biggest cheerleader doing it.

#tanya rants about sm

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