#bipolar stuff

[insomniac-arrest]

Depression is such an effective tranquilizer that it creates a great opportunity for plot twists in your real life. I have a pretty consistent opinion of myself which is "low" and "never ending guilt and shame for reasons I don't understand."

Recently received feedback from two different editing clients that started with "Please pass along to your editor that she is phenomenal at her job" and "I was blown away by the evaluation I received."

You always hear about how depression (and anxiety) lies to you and distorts reality, but there is logically knowing that and then there is like, physical proof of it and you are suddenly Neo in the Matrix jumping out of the fucked up little tube machine.

#damn ego is a helluva drug #regular plot twists where I Am Good #you ever wonder why you are constantly mad at yourself despite like the world burning down #I could have better things to be mad about #but brain has priorities known as Must Be Hard On Self #IA talks #bipolar stuff

[smrtelnaaleziva]

hello fellow mentally ill tumblr users, let´s swipe studying tips!

pretty please cause i will otherwise fail the most important exam of my life at the end of summer and i am slowly going crazy.

i am currently going through depressive episode so on top of adhd i have to manage that and i am barely able to function.

to make it easier for me, i use study bunny bc it makes me motivated (i dont want the bunny to be sad :(((), have stim toy and assign one thing i need to do to one song (so when the song ends, i have the thing done - i learnt this recently and it helps me a lot!). i also weaponize my fucked up mental situation against me so if you have social anxiety like me, i usually go study to library so i can feel like people judge me for not working hard enough and end up studying for four hours.

i cant take adhd medication so that doesnt help either. if any of you have anything that worked for you, please share!

thank you so much!!

#adhd #actually adhd #adhd problems #studyblr #studying tips #depression #bipolar stuff #help #send help #executive dysfunction #studying with adhd #maturita #chaotic academia

[insomniac-dot-ink]

The River Styx

There is a before and after to our lives, one or the other, even as we know you are both the child and the grown, even as you know you are both the hero and the crone.

When I was 13 there was a sick girl with a wrongness, sick only in the abstract, and after 13 I am the after version, a sick girl with a category. Unwell, unstable, somehow still asked to be a person over a ghost. How do you make sense of world with no anchor? Unmoored, sinking, on fire, I am both the electricity and the drowning.

The first question I asked my doctor was, “can you cure me?”

He said, “we can make it manageable.”

Before and after, but no one talks of the terrible in-between, a kingdom of the healthy and the managed, and the land of the other: the body that betrays you. A mind that you cannot trust. A place only spoken of in whispers and behind your doors of medicine and repetition “it gets better (for some)”.

You become better. You get worse again. You reach land, you’re out to sea without noticing. How do you live as a dual citizen of the well and washing away? The mind is not such an obvious thing to see breaking. There is little language to convey how badly you want to be loved and how hard it is to be seen, and whether you can be both in the hellish in-between.

Before and after, living as the “and”, but when you look around the river Styx, never reaching shore or anchoring, there is an entire world unspoken of, many hushed in a question with no answer. How do you get better? The ferry man won’t take you home or take you any further. You must manage.

But maybe if we reach across there is a hand, stuck here, ready for you, and maybe if you keep reaching we’ll lace our fingers together, press our palms flat, and maybe we don’t make it out of the river Styx.

Maybe I just stay here with you.

#I would like to be well :( #poetry #poets on tumblr #Poems #bipolar stuff #mental illness

[moonly-bitch]

Just pulled an all nighter and read a 500 pages book in like 24hs

This might be the hypomania kicking in but I might do it again

#bipolar things #bipolarthoughts #bipolar mania #bipolar tag #lol send help #bipolar stuff #help? maybe? #idk anymore

[riddlemethiswilliam]

TAKE YOUR MEDS.

Fr fr. Do not ever randomly stop taking them. I couldn't get my meds for 5 days and I laughed it off. Now I'm shaking like Rue from Euphoria and I can't stop crying. Take. Your. Meds!!!!!

#and yes I'm back on them now #it wasn't by choice #bipolar stuff #bipolar thoughts #bipolar blog #bipolar problems #bipolar things #bipolar feels #bipolar tag #bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar meds #take your meds #med reminder #bipolar advice #withdrawals #this shit sucks #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #actually bp

[outofmy-system]

i feel like creating something, I feel like I should put something out there, a drawing, a text, a poem idk something to express how I'm feeling right now. the thing is, I don't even know what I'm feeling. I'm not hypomanic, I'm not depressed, but I don't feel good either. I feel empty. alone. I'm having some suicidal ideations but not the right amount to start to get worried, I'm having sh flashbacks and triggers but not enough to do something about it. I don't want to go out but I want to do stuff. I want to lay in bed all day. I want to draw, paint, write. I want to create stuff.

guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't want to disappear, even when I don't feel like existing at all.

#bipolar disorder #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #bipolar 2 #guess it helps to get it out of my system #bipolar ii #bipolar things #bipolar #bipolar stuff #anxiety #depression #hypomania #hypomanic #mania

[sularis92]

Why? Why does everyone I've ever known, or loved, leave me? Why is it so easy for people to misunderstand me? Why is life so difficult? Nobody said that I would spend my 20s and now into my 30s explaining my train of thought to every single person because my thoughts only make sense to me. Its been hell. Life is hard. I've just been looking for anything to change the way I can see the world, or even other people, because I don't fit. Depression is a cruel mistress, mania her partner in crime. Nobody said this would be so hard. My dreams are dead. My aspirations nonexistent. Its like I am only alive to exist... like there is no reason for me to be here. But, don't take any of this the wrong way. I WILL NOT give up. I WILL NOT be beaten. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but I will triumph. Right now I am just... moving on. One day, I will be *experiencing*

#bipolar stuff #depression thoughts #i will win

[bee-bees-posts]

12.19.22

Monday

Last night we had a nice dinner with Forrests family. They said I look like I'm doing so much better these days. I know I am doing better but a part of me still feels empty.. its small but noticeable like a zit.

#like a zit #bipolar stuff #small but mighty

[ramshacklefey]

Swear to god, bpd is the only disorder where you can be sitting there telling your therapist about how great you're doing lately and then realize they're giving you That Look, and then you realize that you're probably describing a manic episode, but like fuck it you haven't spent all your savings and you've gotten 3/4 of a novel written, and if the worst thing you do this time around is adopt a new cat, it's probably fine.

#ramshackle life #bipolar stuff

[squeakadeeks]

rotating my OC in my head wasnt enough. I had to bring him into the physical world too. four different times.

#my cosplay #cosplay #oc art #oc cosplay #ocs #original character #also not me just not realizing sulu is basically my mascot for depression #its like i usually make stuff for him when im in the throes of an acute depressive episode #and babygirl lets just say i have clinically diagnosed bipolar II 😏😏😏 #also did you guys know that they came out with a bipolar III #like sons of bitches out here releasing sequels making the worst trilogy known to man #if bipolar II was so good why didnt they make a bipolar II 2 #except they did and its bipolar III

[insomniac-arrest]

not to jinx myself, but after an adjustment period of about a week and some transitory anxiety sobbing the first couple days, I think my new meds are working!! God, I forgot how it feels to find the right combo. Like, a window opens somewhere and I am a plant feeling sunlight for the first time. Or like, Aloe vera to some soul-deep burn that you didn’t know could be helped.

More than anything, I am so grateful for whoever created medication, because there is such a relief when you remember, it’s not you. You’re not the thing that’s broken. And however, twisted you think you are, things can be different. 

People write about emotions in very particular ways with phrases like “overcome by grief” or “overcome with rage,” but there is something to be said for the days you are overcome with hope. 

#God you forget you're walking through the mud and pouring rain until the skies clear again #bipolar stuff #thank god thank god #I know not everyone has had good experiences with medication but mine just fills me such reverence and holiness #someone created this to help me and what a form of care even if I never meet them

[savemefrommymindpls]

#no fr tho #bpd memes #bipolar memes #anxiety memes #depression memes #dankest memes #fresh memes #mental health memes #derealization #depersonalization #actually bpd #actually bipolar #actually ocd #schizoaffective #adhd #bpd stuff #funny shit #lmao #lol #funny

[dailydivergent]

Neurodivergent reminder: Overstimulation feels a lot like anxiety, and understimulation feels a lot like depression.

More importantly, you don't need to know which it is to practice self-care.

Self-caring anxiety and overstimulation looks the same:

Recognize you're feeling big feelings

Take as many deep breaths as your need to slow your mind

Identify what’s causing the feeling, whether sensory, environmental, or situational

Minimize that cause as much as possible immediately

Self-caring depression and understimulation looks the same:

Recognize you’re in need of stimulation

Turn on an interesting long-form video of some kind

Do some quick exercise like a walk or jumping jacks

Call a friend that'll let you infodump

If you're neurodivergent and easily get stuck on labelling things — I see you.

I'm here to remind you that you don't need to know what it is to take care of it in the meantime.

You can — will — figure it out later.

#neurodivergence tips #neurodiversity tips #neurodivergencies #neurodivergence #actually adhd #actually audhd #audhd #actually autistic #autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodiverse stuff #actually neurodiverse #its the neurodivergency #dailydivergent #bipolar #cluster b #cluster c #avpd #ppd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster b pds #actually aspd #tourettes #tic disorder #actually tourettic #tics #fnd #nuerodivergent #bipolar disorder

[moonly-bitch]

I'm not sleeping tonight, I'm trying to see if I can self-induce a manic episode, I reaaaally need to fell something right now

#bipolar things #bipolarthoughts #bipolar mania #bipolar tag #lol send help #bipolar stuff #help? maybe? #idk anymore

[nightmarefuel0410]

My mood swings are so bad right now someone make it stop

#vent #bipolar stuff

[riddlemethiswilliam]

Haven't had a chance to re up on my meds and it's been almost 5 days without them. Y'all, I was really starting to think I was faking it...then I woke up today with hypo mania. Yeahhhh, def not faking it. I danced to Kelly Clarkson on repeat for like an hour like it was 2004.

#bi polar #bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar tag #bipolar feels #bipolar thoughts #bipolar hypomania #hypomania #no meds #bipolar stuff #bipolar blog #bipolar things #bipolar problems #being bipolar #actually bipolar #actually mentally ill #mania #take your meds