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mindfulstudyquest · 4 hours

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❥﹒♡﹒☕﹒ 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲-𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗴𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄

𝟭. set SMART goals ( 📒 )

make sure your goals are specific, measurable, actionable, realistic and time-bound. this will help you maintain focus and track your progress over time. how many times has it been you and your unrealistic to-do list against the world? well, it seems that a mile-long to-do list is not a good ally at all. remember that you are a person and not a machine, and that just dedicating four hours to deep work and concentration is A LOT. be kind to yourself and don't overload yourself with more work than you can humanly do.

𝟮. daily planning ( 🧸 )

mea culpa because i'm the first one who doesn't plan their day. to-do lists generally stress me out and make me feel overwhelmed as if i don't manage to complete all the tasks an asteroid will end up hitting the earth. but i recognize that it is a good starting point. sometimes i have too many things to do and i end up doing nothing in total confusion, but having at least a general list to follow gives me more motivation. moreover do we want to talk about the dopamine released when you tick an empty box? marvelous. maybe don't write down tasks that are too onerous and demanding, break them into several smaller tasks, also try to write simple activities such as "drink a glass of water" every now and then. having these low-commitment activities will help you stay motivated while completing more important tasks.

𝟯. reverse-engineering method ( 🪴 )

start with the end goal and work backwards to plan the actions needed to achieve it. this helps you maintain clarity on the steps to take and focus on the most relevant actions. the best thing to do is plan based on the time available and do your best to stick to your daily goal.

𝟰. timer roulette ( ⏳ )

choose a task from your to-do list and set a random timer between 15 and 45 minutes. work on that task with all your concentration until the timer goes off. this helps you fight procastination and keep your mind fresh.

𝟱. mind mapping time ( 📍 )

before starting a study session, take a few minutes to create a mental map of the subject you need to cover. this helps you see connections between concepts and organize information more effectively.

𝟲. task batching ( 🫒 )

group similar tasks together and tackle them in batches. for example, reply to all emails in one session rather than doing so at scattered times throughout the day. this helps you reduce transition time between tasks and maintain focus. contrary to popular belief, human beings are not truly multitasking (only a few possess this great ability) and when we do multiple things together we do nothing but shift our attention from one task to another, greatly reducing the quality of our performance. if possible, try to avoid these switches that are harmful to your focus and concentration.

𝟳. the pomodoro method ( 🍅 )

okay, y'all probably already know this one because it became so popular in the last year but if you don't, the pomodoro method is a time management technique developed by francesco cirillo in the late 80s. it is based on the idea of working for short periods of time, usually 25 minutes, followed by a short 5 minute break. after four rounds of work, a longer break is taken, usually 15-30 minutes. this technique helps improve concentration and productivity, as it breaks down work into manageable tasks and offers regular breaks to rest and regenerate energy. i personally prefer the 50/10 ratio while i'm studying but you decide which time ratio is better for you, i find it really useful and it helps me a lot while i'm studying for my exams.

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lostinvasileios · 13 hours

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Hi! I’m sorry if my question seems to be silly, but I really was wondering.

Have you ever saw and/or heard you deities? How do you do that? I’ve never experienced something like that, but I see people sharing this sort of experience. Like… they can describe appearance, voice etc of their deities. How? I fully rely on my gut in my journey, but I do wish to see, hear and know my deities in face. So, if my question doesn’t bother you, could you share your experience and tips, please?

Thank you!

Hello there, lovely!! Your question isn't silly at all, don't worry. Thanks for asking. 🤍🌼

I indeed have! I've seen/felt and heard my deities before. And, the process to be able to do this is different for everyone.

But, for me, it took countless hours of meditation with them, I was spending so much time focusing on my already existing abilities. Like my active imagination, my sense of visualization that came from that, and so on and so forth which would eventually allow me to begin to see my beloved deities. Being able to recognize their energy soon led me to being able to comprehend their voices and feel their touches. Then that got me into the process of being able to see them.

Gut feelings are actually one of the ways you can get to learn your deities appearance as well. You could try and picture them from whatever comes to mind. A pop culture artwork of them, maybe a livened version of their statue, someone pretty on Pinterest with a few extra features, ect. Deity appearances are very fluid, and can change depending on any factor, so there's no pressure on finding out what they "exactly" look like. Because, they have no exact look. Just take whatever feels best for you. That's what it will come down to most of the time, anyway. What resonates. Like always, lol.

Actually, for about 6 months of being able to see them at first, I couldn't register their voices outside of when they would speak. If that makes sense, lol. Like, I'd understand it when they'd talk to me, but when they weren't speaking, I couldn't recall their voice, just what they had said. Sometimes, their appearance will do the same. You'll see it in the moment, you'll feel or hear them in the moment, then whenever that interaction/meditation ends - so does the...sensation? of them. You know?

For some part of my time with Apollon at first, I'd simply spend my time scrolling through Pinterest for pictures that reminded me of him. I kept them in a sort of e-altar board for him so I could go back and refresh my mind if I was having trouble seeing him in my imagination. Since, sometimes, it helps to simply - daydream of their appearances. At least for me. Getting more used to their eye colors, their body languages, imagine them speaking to you every now and then to try and have their voice be easier to comprehend, stuff like that.

Don't rush it, I can almost guarantee that you'll see and sense your deities in these ways eventually. However, they know what's best in the end. Seeing deities, feeling them, hearing them, ect - can be quite the energy drainer because of how high frequency they are and whatnot. Even if they lower themselves to some extreme degrees to be able to show themselves to us in these ways. So, if you aren't experiencing it just yet, that's probably because you aren't ready for it. Comprehending deities is a difficult task for anyone at first, and can be a persistent struggle even over months. And that's perfectly fine. Because these are celestial beings of the stars and all that other universe-y stuff, we as humans are conditioned not to believe these astral realm things because of how unlimited it all is. Of how... Ironically unbelievable the experience is.

So, even when you're sensing them, your brain will be like "mm...no" most of the time when you're first getting the hang of it. Out of the want to protect you and whatnot.

Deities will 9/10 times try their darndest to help your comprehend them by coming in appearances of like... TV characters, like I've heard some people see Loki as the Loki from the marvel series. Or, how you see book characters. There's been a few times where Aphroditus has appeared to me as a fanart of Lucien from ACOTAR that I loved and made the way I see him whenever he's present in the book. Their voices just the same. They might sound like a singer you very much enjoy, or like a comfort character of yours. I could go on, but I think you get the point, haha.

I saw Apollon as the Apollo from Blood of Zeus without ever having watched or have had heard of it, I only noticed he was taking that form after I looked up his name on Pinterest, and I just went with it. Same with Dionysus. Point is, let them show themselves to you however your brain allows them. I put so much tremendous pressure on myself to perfectly memorize how my higher self looked or how my deities looked, just to be reminded how their forms are infinite. How - they don't want you to stress over that.

They don't want you to feel less because you cannot experience them in the way another devotee can, because that's them, this is you. And they love you. And they'll meet you where you're at to help you progress and grow.

My motto for this? It'll happen when it happens, and when it does - I know they'll be refreshingly, ravishingly beautiful.

I never liked surprises, but, hey. When your deity pops out with a new look entirely and it takes the breath out of you to see it - you get more accustomed to it over time, haha.

Sorry if I dragged this on, I love questions like these lol. I hope it helped!! Blessed be. 💛🤍💛

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youremyheaven · 6 hours

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Sailor Moon & Nakshatras

I thought it'd be interesting to correlate the different Sailor Moons and their powers with the themes that are present in different nakshatras.

This is a super low effort post so all of it is just speculation and I'd love it if you guys told me what you associate with the different Senshi.

Other than Sailor Moon herself, there are 9 sailor senshi who protect the solar system.

Sailor Moon

A crystalline object which provides her basic power, contains limitless power and is the source of all energy in the universe. She can call upon her future self to use the power of both the future and present crystal to double its power.

she's the only one who has no power of her own and has to rely on some object so i guess that makes her Moon dominant??

Sailor Mercury

Sailor Mercury has the power to create and manipulate water. For the entire first story arc, she uses her water-manipulating capabilities only to create solid and dense clouds of mist and fog, chilling and blinding the enemy while her allies prepare more direct attacks

this is actually super on brand Mercury behaviour

Sailor Venus

I feel like Sailor Venus has more powers than other senshi??

It includes: Flight, Magic, Transformation, Longevity, Immortality (Type 4), Limited Shapeshifting, Teleportation, Forcefield, Light Manipulation, Energy Manipulation, Energy Projection, Weather Manipulation, Electricity Manipulation, Data Manipulation, Creation, Reincarnation (Overtime not applicable in battle), Can Survive in Space, Resistance to Mind Manipulation, Death Manipulation, Existence Erasure, Gravity Manipulation, Radiation Manipulation, Poison Manipulation, Power Nullification, Resistances to Status Effect Inducement and Soul Manipulation, Resistance to Telekinesis etc

idk if this is Venus' "being better than others" theme lol but i feel like these are powers that belong to all 27 naks and not just Venus

Sailor Mars

Precognition: Rei is shown to have strong precognition, where she can make full use of this ability to predict events from the near future, but it can fail sometimes.

Pyromancy: Rei is also shown to have a great affinity with fire, to the point where she is capable to manifest her future sights by forming images on the flames. The images are very enigmatic and unreliable.

Purification: Even when she is in her civilian form, she can use her "ofuda" (a Shinto talisman used to protect homes from evil spirits) to "exorcize" people, while yelling "Evil Spirit, Disperse!" (although it can cause normal people to faint, as shown in episode 10 when she tried to "purify" Usagi).

Sixth Sense: Rei is sometimes shown to have a "sixth sense", using it to detect "evil presences" and approaching danger, as shown in Chapter 6 of Codename: Sailor V manga, but it can fail sometimes when she mistook Usagi for an evil spirit.

Expert Archer: As a Shrine Priestess, she is an expert archer, and this potential is shown in her "Mars Flame Sniper" attack.

these are a variety of powers that don't really all connect to Mars energy, it's giving strong Venus & Jupiter vibes tbh

i associate the purification, pyromancy and precognitive abilities with Venus and the sixth sense, expert archer ones with Jupiter

Sailor Jupiter

Electrokinesis, martial arts, longevity, and "emphasized superhuman strength"

these powers are a bit random, i guess the author wanted to emphasize martial arts and physical strength with the masculine grahas but I get more Mars and Sun vibes ngl

Sailor Saturn

Daughter of a possessed mad scientist, a terrible lab accident in her youth significantly compromised her constitution. After overcoming the darkness that has surrounded her family, she is able to become the Soldier of Silence, Sailor Saturn. She wields forces of destruction so powerful that she is rarely called upon to use them, and unlike the others, her Senshi and civilian personae seem somewhat disconnected. She is often pensive, and as a human has the inexplicable power to heal others.

this backstory is in itself very Saturnian and I think Saturnians do suffer a lot of abuse and injustice in their lives. So all Saturn naks like UBP, Anuradha & Pushya

Sailor Pluto

Manipulation and control of spacetime, Time Wave Generation Teleport others over short or vast distances. Open rifts or doorways in space through different eras Freeze all of time (forbidden) Erect a shield of time-space energy

i mean it goes without saying but this is literally Punarvasu & Swati. both these naks have themes of space and time travel

Sailor Uranus

she possesses powers associated with the wind and sky, precognition, as well as sword combat.

this is giving me Mars & Venus energy, more specifically Bharani as it is a Venusian nakshatra in the Mars ruled rashi of Aries

Sailor Neptune

exceptionally strong psychic abilities and is the only Outer Scout who has such powers and she can channel the power of the ocean.

I associate Neptune's abilities with Pisces (neptune rules pisces so this is a no brainer) and I connect it to PBP, UBP & Revati

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gortashs-skidmark · 22 hours

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ASTARION HEADCANONS and DND Canon lore about VAMPIRES

(UNDER CURRENT WORK, UNFINISHED)

18+ MNDI, MATURE CONTENT FAR BELOW WITH FOREWARNING

CONTENT WARNING: Corrupt behavior, blood suckin', malice feelings, mentions of suicide, mentions of mangled appearances and bodies, life and death mentions

I always start with Canon, and then Headcanons because I have evidence.

There is much less history in the canon bits, just conditions of being a vampire. You can note many different vampires in different periods of DND History but none were noteworthy at this time.

𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔡𝔥𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔰𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔞𝔴𝔫𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔡𝔥𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔰𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔞𝔴𝔫𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔡𝔥𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔰𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔳𝔞𝔪𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔭𝔞𝔴

Info Source: DND BEYOND, Forgotten Realms Wiki, CBR Utilizes 4th and 5th Edition Lore.

CANON

TRUE VAMPIRES and their Abilities, Habits, and Beginnings.

small warning: this will entail their weakness, which will tell you, in-toe, what Cazador's weaknesses are in combat. If you don't want that and want a stupidly difficult battle with him, skip this first canon part.

𝔒 True Vampires are undead, feared, uncompassionate creatures that feast on blood of the living with their Sanguivorous diets. They bleed utter corruption and are highly intelligent for the undead.

𝔒 They don't have a favoured climate but they have a couple of known places where lairs are more common. Such as the Prime Material Plane, Shadowfell, Negative Energy Plane, Thanatos, The Abyss, and Pandemonium.

𝔒 They are nocturnal creatures, naturally blessed with darkvision.

𝔒 They challenge level 13 adventurers, and are aligned Lawful Evil,

𝔒 True Vampires are shapechangers, which is seen in Cazador's Fight. He takes on a Gaseous Form. In any form, if they die, they revert back to their original form.

𝔒 They can take on a Tiny Bat polymorph form, though they cannot talk in this form. Has a flying distance of 30ft or walking distance of 5ft.

𝔒 In misty form, they can't take action, talk, or manipulate objects. It is weightless and has a 20ft flying distance. It's capable of moving in hostile creatures areas. Its form cannot pass through water. It still has Dexterity, Strength, and Constitution saving throws in gaseous form. Can still take sunlight damage, but not non-magical damage.

𝔒 Vampires regenerate 20 hp at the start of every turn. Unless dealt with Holy Water or Radiant Energy.

𝔒 Vampires are found in lavish lairs, fortified manors, castles, or walled abbeys. Their coffins rest in underground crypts, often guarded by Vampire Spawn.

𝔒 Regionally, their lair warps the land, with an increase in bats, rats, and wolves in the area which they are capable of dominating control over. Plants within 500ft die and warp into twisted thorns, shadows cast within 500ft around the area are unusually gaunt and haunting, creeping fogs appear within 500ft of the lair. Sometimes the fog takes on form such as writhing serpents and grasping claws.

𝔒 The determining factor of a 2d6 (2, 6 sided dies) will tell how long these regional lair warps will last after a Vampires Death, in days.

𝔒 Vampires retain their likeness, but gain pale cast skin, red eyes, glassy claws, retractable canines, and sharper features akin to looking predatory. Vampires often wear blush and makeup to hide their undead features.

𝔒 When Vampires are well fed, their decaying process stops, giving them a pinkish hue on their pale skin, and temporarily kick starts their circulatory system.

𝔒 They engage in decadent behavior.

𝔒 Usually vampires are always evil, before undeath. They're a piece of shit in life, and a piece of shit in undeath. Sometimes losing memory of life in the process. They are meticulous in their planning and don't mind slow moving plans as long as it's executed perfectly.

𝔒 True Vampires CANNOT feel love, its twisted in obsession, friendship is warped into jealously. Many will seek out a past fixation and make it an obsession in undeath. Such as sought love becoming beauty sought in all their prey, ones who value youth prey on children.

𝔒 Obssesion moves onto Possesion, they collect art, objects of torture, and decorating their lair with trophies.

𝔒 Their organs have acute sensory, including darkvision, hearing, and smell.

𝔒 They do not need to breathe, sleep, eat food. Prey are destroyed after feeding to prevent them from turning into undead.

𝔒 Vampire Spawn are granted free will after their master's death, or being allowed to sup on their master's blood, transforming them into a True Vampire.

𝔒 Vampires and lich have quite a bit in common, which makes for deadly history. Vampires have been known to take militia ranking next to lich in armies of the undead.

𝔒 Though vampires are incredibly solitary creatures.

𝔒 Humanoids, monstrous humanoids, dragons, illithid, giants, or even flying snakes are capable of becoming vampires.

𝔒 Half-Vampires, although incredibly rare, can exist. A vampire must consume enough blood to start circulation, and breed with a humanoid creating half-vamp offspring. OR even rarer, a mother survives being drained by a vampire, and the fetus carries tainted blood to birth.

𝔒 Curseed Enchanted Items can create Vampires, such as vampiric swords that collect the blood of their enemies, and when the carrier dies, is brought back as a Vampire at the cost of their Constitution. They are bound to their sword for eternity until a dead undeath.

𝔒 Vampires need permission to enter houses, can be damaged by running water, silver, stakes, and cannot regenerate when in water.

Can There be Different Forms of Vampirism?

𝔒 In short yes, there are many. We're looking at Elven Vampirism. It is called the Dominion of Dread.

𝔒 There can be Gnome, Dwarf, Kender, and other humanoid forms of vampirism.

𝔒 some subcategories of Vampirism include Cerebral (they are a slim subdominon that can walk in the sun), Corpse Vampire (they are Spellplagued beings that arose from improper burials and evil energy pollution), Dhampyrs (sun-walkers who have tainted blood from vampires), Hellborn (they are sun-walkers, who cannot fly or turn into gaseous forms), Master Vampire which is the most common and what Cazador is (evilly perfected beings with a gaggle of spawn), Nosferatu (Hideous beings found in the Domain of Dread), Velya (Aquatic Vampires), Vampyre (rare Faerûnian Vampires that have the ability to cast fire).

𝔒 Let's talk about Vampyre for a moment, ya'll will eat this shit up. They are able to transfer life energy to undead or living by way of breath or kissing, which revitalizes them.

𝔒 Elven Vampirism; only full elves or half-elves can contract. In the 14th century had a presence in Toril of the Prime Material Plane.

𝔒 They prefer forest climate.

𝔒 Often adorning scarred and twisted face, shocking and scaring those who gaze. Typically they hide it under dark robes. Maybe that's why Cazador has a crazy amount of acne-looking scars.

𝔒 They harbour deep hatred for all thing beautiful, vibrant, and lovely.

𝔒 Super unfriendly neighbors. Destroyed and corrupt anyone who tried to farm or live near their lairs.

𝔒 Adept perception, particularly for hidden seals and entrances.

𝔒 Their polymorphs are often eagles. Snd their ability to command animals varies to wolves, badgers, prey birds, hawks, porcupines, monkey rats, and weasels.

𝔒 They sustain life on the Charisma of other creatures. Victims suffer from disfigurement after feeding, too many or too big of a feeding results in victims feeling suicidal. Anyone who succumbed to those urges who become undead spawn.

𝔒 The touch of an Elven Vampire can wither any plant away. They can feel the exact pain and agony the plant goes through as it happens. Elves are connected with nature but this feature drove them mad if cursed with vampirism.

What are the Differences in Vampire Spawn?

𝔒 They don't have all the abilities of a True Vampire, but suffer from the same weaknesses and vulnerabilities.

𝔒 If freed from their Masters control, they are unable to be enslaved again.

𝔒 If they posses Spider Climb, they are capable of walking on walls and ceilings.

𝓐𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓐𝓷𝓬𝓾𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓐𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓐𝓷𝓬𝓾𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓐𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓲

HEADCANONS

𝔙 Astarion can walk on walls, he's uncanny about it. It really adds to his Dexterity and scares the shit out of his prey during a fight.

𝔙 He doesn't have Elven Vampirism, have you seen his face? he put the definiton of beauty to shame. but he does hate flowers and loves vanity, also ruining others people's fun.

𝔙 He's got the regular form of vampirism under a Master Vampire, but because he lost vanity and can't see his beauty, he ruins it for others. It's not an obession yet, but it stabs his ego quite a bit. A bitter fuck he is.

𝔙 He cannot be re-enslaved, but if he could, by a Cerebral vamp, he'd get the ability to walk in the sun.

𝔙 He can't see his shadow. or face, or reflection, that's all a given. but he CAN, ladies and gents, see himself through your eyes using a tadpole. Even more he feels how you feel about him. It's a dangerous game to play, letting himself see him through your eyes.

𝔙 Astarion will lay down in the dust and have you trace his figure. He can guess his height from general objects he's around but he likes doing that. Not the dusty part though.

𝔙 If you let him drink from you, it can't be all the time. You gotta know the days you're in intense combat or rolling in a skill you're not proficient in.

𝔙 “maybe you’ll meet some new buddies Astarion!!“ “ ‘buddies’? “ “yeah the Shadowfell has a shit load of vampires and undead” “I will not be making ‘buddies’ with anyone”

𝔙 He has longer fangs that come out when he's about to feast, you only get to catch glimpses of it.

𝔙 You can find Astarion in streams of water, unharmed by it. He gets a chance to reconnect with being a regular elf again, touch nature and swim in streams.

𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚𝔑𝔖𝔉𝔚

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𝔙 You and Astarion love swimming at night. He can admire the glimmering water and fresh feeling on his skin. and you get to see him naked, you love it. It often can lead to something more, or just chatting on the edge of the bank.

𝔙 He can't get hard without blood circulating. Cazador let him feast on bugs and rats before "dates" as to lure victims in. with you it's so easy, he doesn't have to beg or starve before sexy time, he can just go and kill boar or bear and keep his energy up.

𝔙 He only needs to meditate for 4 hours with the tadpole like a normal elf, before, the meditation was impossible. He's got a lot of energy. and if you're an elf, you'll plan the same meditation time and wake up with him so you can chat or have alone time together. if you require sleep, he'll prod and poke you until you wake up to have alone time together when he's feeling extra needy.

𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨𝔶𝔬𝔲

Thank you so much to those who have read this far! it's not done and I will keep updating it thus far as 04/28/24.

Enjoy any of my other works on my masterlist!

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vessuna · 2 months

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i still have asks from december because i'm a hoarder and i'm like " i could do these eventually ! " and then yuuji doesn't cooperate

#JHSVJDV some of them are good asks tho. im like yeah i have a rough idea of how to reply!#and then i don't reply. because i have undiagnosed adhd probably jhsjdv #and sometimes i just CANNOT put words on the page it is so frustrating #if i reply to your ask please know i had to be blessed by the heavens for my muse + energy + ability to write to align to do so jJHDSVJDHV #☆ / out of character.

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dravidious · 6 months

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You're more amazing than sickness

Lost Caverns of Ixalan is coming out on Arena tomorrow and I've avoided looking up any spoilers, aside from a few individual cards I stumbled across that didn't have any reminder text, so I have no idea what the new mechanics are. I looked up a list of the NAMES of the mechanics on the mtg fandom wiki, and I decided to make mechanics based on those names to see how close I get and also because it's fun.

Also I made this card for the descend mechanic at first but I didn't like the mechanic. How dare WotC make such a parasitic mechanic, they should really hire better designers smh. Also I realized that craft would probably be more interesting with artifacts that have tap abilities.

#asks #custom cards #i picked up little bits and pieces about the mechanics #i know that maps are tokens and that discover comes with a number #and i also know that caves exist and transforming cards were listed as a mechanic so i made something with that #a neat inversion of the original ixalan block's nonlands that transform into lands #i also know that there's a graveyard theme so i built that into discover #but craft? all original baby #and i think i heard something about descend having variations? so my “ascend but graveyard” mechanic is definitely not accurate lol #also for context a “parasitic mechanic” is a mechanic that inherently works better the more of it you put in your deck #or that's really weak unless you have multiple of it #sometimes this is okay but my depth counter version of descend is just kinda really boring #it may as well say “this card is stronger the more cards with descend you have in your deck”#stuff like energy and dungeons are kinda parasitic but they're using that to do cool stuff not just to scale effects #also also putting craft on artifacts that have tap abilities IS weaker because now you have to choose what ability to use #but that also makes it fun because you have to choose so you can't just get everything #attachable lantern was actually the original craft card i made but i made Mortician's Toolkit because tap abilities were so bad with craft #little did i realize that having that anti-synergy makes the mechanic actually cool instead of just making your artifacts cheaper #craft+tap offers a tradeoff: you can get access to the effect for cheaper but you have to put it on another artifact #of course you can just use artifacts that don't need to tap. if you have one #the main reason why i don't think my craft mechanic is accurate is because “equipment that taps” is a terrible idea #even if the tap ability is being given by another card #when you tap an equipped creature it's easiest to just turn the whole pile of cards sideways #but if you have to track whether an equipment is tapped or untapped that becomes a pain #Reconfigure creatures are on thin ice #well actually there's cards Citanul Stalwart that tap artifacts as cost so maybe it's not that bad?#i'm most confident in the accuracy of my map tokens and transforming lands ideas #though idk whether the transforming lands and the cave lands would be the same thing #if they have transforming lands then probably because it'd be weird to have 2 separate land mechanics #spelled separate correctly first try fuck yeah

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theloveinc · 1 year

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#not to start sh*t (tho i always do)#tho i really do understand the frustration surrounding like... ppl only reading x part of whatever fic #at the same time... the policing of how ppl read is so irritating #nobody has a right to comment on how ppl interact with writing + work #like i personally don't care but ... wanting interaction and comments makes more sense than telling ppl they can't read ur work #if they only read the sm*t/the dialogue/the whatever #like.... why are u writing if ur gonna take the enjoyment away from ppl... even if they're not getting the whole thing... thats on them #sometimes the enjoyment itself comes from interacting with the parts that make it understandable / touch upon someones interests #plus... like .. writing can be good but writing can also be way too flowery. there should be balance.#PLUS... if the only way to get the story is thru the dialogue? thats a WRITER problem #and also.. as someone with chronic brain fog and tons of sh*t i need to get done and also mental illness and such...#not everyone has the time or energy to invest in hours or even minutes of reading #ppl have different abilities not to mention reading speeds #and if skimming is the only way they can/how they participate in reading fanfic... literally leave them be #u can still enjoy stuff that way and appreciate a writer's talents even if ur only looking surface level... it just shouldn't matter #and it just makes me sad readers are being targeted and told theyre a bad audience for stuff like this... WHEN I GET IT #i can't control anyone obvs but i wish it would stop #i think it really makes this community less welcoming which is the uh. last thing we need.#but anyway no hate i guess even tho this is a bad take #i have opinions that would get me sniped truly #okay thats it bye #caitie blabs

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strangefable · 9 months

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sometimes i go off in the tags on some random post or poll or something. and then i go 'you know what? nah not gonna post'

then i think 'felt good to say it tho'

#to be clear it's never a negative attack on anyone #i don't do that i don't have the energy to be hateful #just rambling thoughts on some mundane thing #like my personal experience for whatever poll etc #but i go all out just let loose with these long rambles that i then just decide i don't need to post #surprising i know with how i sometimes go on a massive reblog spree #but there is so much i don't reblog actually #even more so since i got xkit rewritten and the ability to tag ramble directly on the dash #i just let it all out and then go 'no one needs to read this tho'#i mean i also do this out loud sometimes where i just launch into a long talk to myself over whatever topic i'm fired up on #so i guess it's an extension of that particular personal quirk #i vaguely wonder if i'm the only one who does this i mean i know i'm a weirdo so it wouldn't surprise me tbh #anyway it is late and i can't sleep so i'm just saying things on my blog again lmao #delete later

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gideonisms · 2 years

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sometimes you will have a period of your life that is so good for your ego and so bad for absolutely everything else

#remember when i used to work full time and go to school full time i had the worst hair ever i chopped it myself in the bathroom mirror #i was turning in good papers like every week and girls wanted me #men too but like.#i'm not saying i had game that's never been true. but i was so fun and unhinged back then #anxious 100 percent of the time absolutely miserable but i had a social life i was making that misery work!!#why am i so much more fun when i haven't slept #where's that disgusting girl energy #i have a haircare routine now you know what i don't have a life and/or a job #hhjkkkklll #i think it wore me out maybe permanently which is so unfortunate #i could really use some of that ability to push myself through happenings and events at any cost rn. where'd she go she was so awful #this is me firing gunshots to keep the rent down btw #gotta be pathetic on main sometimes #actually this isn't my main but u get it

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elytrafemme · 1 year

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i wish i knew just how tired people actually are. because i’m struggling these days with the thought (that honestly terrifies me not because of what it is inherently but because i’ve been in denial for so fucking long) that i might not be like physically abled. and might have physical health issues.

but most of my issues that are substantial is this like. perpetual exhaustion. but everyone is tired i feel like at least in my life. so i just. i don’t know what’s normal you know?

#nightmare.personal #because sometimes i'm so tired i can't like. move. or talk. or eat.#like i can do a few words mumbled out but that's honestly it #and it happens for no reason it's not related to sleep or anything #and sometimes i feel like passing out doing things and my therapist thinks it's POTS #but i don't know and like. i feel so fucking exhausted now and i know that #alli have to do is get out of my bed and walk a few steps and then im at my desk that's it #but that seems like. so much. i already did it twice today and i dn't want to do it again #and i have also always worked from my bed at least recently i can't. work at my desk i'm too tired to. i don't know #is this normal? i think it's normal? it seems normal #the only part that odesn't really match is i feel like my friends like #have the ability to have energy sometimes but i . don't?#i can't even be like reckless or on a high mentally because i'm too exhausted to be #it's so fucking weird and i don't know what it is

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pathsofoak · 2 years

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I have discovered the reason I am the epitome of "I will not eat new foods ever" is because my parents make sure whenever they make a dish I've never had before, that there is something in there I can't stomach to "teach me to eat it"

I'm autistic lmao. It's been almost 19 years now, you're not gonna magically cure me from picky eater-ness by still forcing me stay at the table until I finish my plate of something that contains taugé, or whatever that's called in English.

Seriously I get it's annoying when you cook and someone doesn't like it but like. It's a) not your fault, and if you're the parent/caretaker of this person it's b) your responsibility to not make your kid dread eating anything other than bread and rice cakes because you keep pressuring them to eat "normal food"

#*ACTUALLY stomps foot for a tantrum*#potatoes. just give me potatoes #(I can't cook for energy reasons btw that's why they're in charge of food. still)#I would eat more if I didn't absolutely dread dinner time. much less eating a stranger's place #potatoes or some non crunchy veggies like broccoli. I like broccoli. especially when it's a bit roasted #tomato paprika and mushrooms are an absolute no #(unless it's tomato sauce and not too much of it)#and spinach but I'm allergic to that one so sometimes that one gets left out #I wish there was some tool that just KNOWS what I will and won't like without me having to #either contain myself in front of people because there's a few textures and tastes that make me want to puke #regardless of how good a cook someone is. so I always feel bad #or that situation where I sit at the table for an hour and quietly sneak my food into the green trash once everyone else gets bored #to eat a quick sandwich instead #I've actually accidentally trained the ability to tell when I'm full out of me #because (I still do this btw) I would always lie and say I was full to get out from under dinner #so now my stomach can't tell anymore. You put Macaroni (unless it's carbonara) in front of me? *full*#this became a bit of a rant lol #btw when I say *normal food* up in the post #by my parent's definition that's either italian or chinese food. even though. WE ARE NEITHER. like. don't call that #*normal food* in my face when I like literally every type of fucking stew you refuse to let me eat #sorry for the rant again lmao

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birdofmay · 8 months

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And again, as always: It would be nice if you guys could stop making this about yourselves. Whenever we post about our particular experience, people who normally can speak, but used to struggle with it, or struggle under certain circumstances, add on something to talk about themselves. This eventually leads to people talking about something completely different, and ignoring what the post was about at first. Make your own post. We are constantly spoken over even in online spaces, and that's especially unfair because we struggle to communicate even more than other autistics. Don't derail posts about people who never learned to speak from the very beginning and won't learn it ever. That's unfair.

Sometimes I see people on here who want to be good allies to nonverbal autistics, but at the same time don't understand nonverbal autism at its core.

Most of us, who are nonverbal "from birth", struggle with language, to communicate, and to understand complex concepts. That's why we never learned to speak at all, ever.

But their strategy is to "hand us the mic" and ask "What are some misconceptions about nonverbal autism you'd like to discuss?" and expect us to respond.

"Misconceptions" is an abstract concept. Most of us can't just come up with an answer; my mind, for example, goes completely blank when I read this.

I wanted to talk about allies assuming that our brain works similar for at least 2 weeks, but it's only now that I am able to write something. 2 weeks!

Sure, there are autistics who can't speak due to apraxia, and who don't struggle with language otherwise, apart from the "not being able to speak with their mouth" part. But that's rare.

Even my ability to express myself well is rare. I am not your average nonverbal autistic. I am very skilled compared to the rest of us.

One thing about "never learning to speak" is that most of us really really struggle with language, and with understanding big words and topics. Not everyone, but many of us. That's why most of us aren't on social media.

Whenever I write "educational" posts, my inbox is flooded with follow up questions I just can't answer without help. Because most of the time I don't understand the text. I regularly have to close my inbox because people assume that I can process the text and respond like everyone else can. But having these abilities is an exception within autistics who never learned to speak from the very beginning. It seems normal, but those people just are the loudest. Because they're on social media and love to participate in discussions.

Most of us can't do that.

I'm glad that I made some speaking friends here who made an effort to understand us thoroughly, and they now often repeat what we think and want "but louder". Listen to them, most of us can't advocate for ourselves. They're not speaking over us, they're helping us to communicate without draining our energy.

And for everything else I have some posts linked in my pinned post because I can't just participate in discussions.

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defiantbird · 1 year

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Lately when people ask how I am, my automatic response is "tired". And then they start asking me about it, and I realize that I'm probably an abnormal amount of tired and people aren't gonna just go "oh word me too" when every time they ask how I am I say I'm tired.

#personal #it's most likely iron deficiency but idk sometimes I wonder if I'm just coping poorly with getting older #or I don't move enough and I'm ruining my ability to have energy or something

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emthimofnight · 3 months

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Name ✨Stellar the Hedgehog✨

Age Varies based on what age I draw her, but let's say 16!

Pronouns She/Her

Basic Description The product of Project Stellar—a secret government operation aiming to perfect Project Shadow—Stellar is a genetic experiment combining the DNA of the Ultimate Life Form and the fastest thing alive. Designed to be a living weapon, Stellar was born in a hidden facility where she would have been raised to be an unstoppable weapon for the military. Thankfully, Shadow the Hedgehog (with help from Rouge the Bat) discovered her existence, destroyed the lab, and rescued her as an infant. Shadow then went on to begrudgingly inform his long-time rival, Sonic the Hedgehog, of their newfound child, seeing as she was technically just as much Sonic's problem as she was Shadow's. From there, the duo (along with help from their friends) raised Stellar as their daughter, sheltering her from the knowledge she was created to be a force of destruction for her masters. Along the way, Sonic and Shadow found themselves truly falling for one another, dissolving the barriers they had placed between one another as rivals, finding new appreciation for each other in their new parental roles.

Stellar herself is a bright, warm-hearted person. She has a strong sense of justice and never shies away from standing up for what is right. She takes after Sonic in personality, always cracking jokes and finding it hard to sit still. Despite this, she inherited Shadow's finesse and ability to plan out her choices, not to mention his abilities to utilize chaos energy. She has a love for figure skating, ballet, and make up (thanks to Auntie Rouge!), but don't let her feminine side fool you, she is not afraid to get her hands dirty! She would love nothing more than to spend her day smashing badniks into the ground with her skates if her dads would let her! Stellar loves both of her parents dearly, but sometimes wishes that they wouldn't be so protective of her. After all, what could they possibly have to be worried about?

Extra ✨Stellar's favorite color is red. ✨Her favorite food is chili dogs. ✨She is bisexual. ✨Her favorite flower is lavender, because it reminds her of home! ✨She learned how to skate from Shadow. ✨She calls Shadow "papa" and Sonic "dad". ✨She desperately wants to make her family and friends proud. ✨Her best friend is Camellia the Cat, the daughter of Blaze and Amy. ✨She loves racing Sonic, but is frustrated he always lets her win. ✨She can be VERY impulsive when angered, much like both of her parents! ✨She is SUPER dense when it comes to romance. She has no idea ✨Camellia has been in love with her since they were little! ✨The inhibitor rings she wears keep her powers under control, but they also prevent her from truly mastering them. ✨Her powers are designed after collapsing stars/black holes. Extremely destructive to both herself and everything around her. ✨She has no awareness to the extent of the latent power inside her.

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gl1tteryzebra · 2 months

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the main cause of conflict after having children with rafe is his lack of ability to compromise. you see, he's not accustomed to having to share you: your time, your energy...your tits of all things.

prior to bringing the lil brats into your lives, it was 'you're the only one for me rafe' or 'I missed you rafe' or 'lemme suck your dick rafe.' now the tuckers keep you up at night. scream, kick, and bite while all you can do is try your best. your eyes are sunken and dejected, the passionate flames that once resided within them now reduced to a dull spark.

blame it on his upbringing, but he finds the whole situation kinda triggering. like tearing open an old wound and restitching it with floss, bound to bleed again. and not that he would never admit to it (bcs of course he loves his kids!), but sometimes he finds himself loathing them– he's no longer your top priority, and grappling with this can be tough.

so he took matters into his own hands.

the kids were staying the night with the elders– rose (in particular) was gleeful at the prospect of spending time with her grandkids.

they squealed as you got up to leave, clinging to your dress with misty eyes and snot dribbling down their chins. the guilt chipping away at your resolve was practically oozing off of you and rafe was forced to steer you away before you had the opportunity to change your mind. "they'll be al'ight, c'mon."

it had been too long since it was just the two of you… too long since he'd gotten his dick wet.

he couldn't even wait till after the booking he'd made at your favourite restaurant, his length throbbing painfully within constraints of his slacks – fuck, did you always smell so sweet?

your brows furrowed as the car came to a halt on the side of a dark and desolate road. "rafe? why're we stopping?"

without a word his large frame leaned over your seat, unclipping your belt before he cupped your cheeks, “c'mere."

and that was how you ended saddled on his lap, knees leaving indents in the leather-cushioned seat as your hips sloppily rolled onto his. your nosed brushed against one another as he pulled away from your lips, breaths coming out in laboured pants. "shit—ha, missed this, gorgeous? squeezing me so fuckin' tight."

“yeah…missed this so much.” the expanse of your throat was exposed and vulnerable to his ravenous maw as your head tilted back in a pleased sigh. "missed you so much."

"mhm, haven't had much time for me recently." he chuckled into the supple skin as you whimpered, the airy sound awfully reminiscent of an apology. "don't worry 'bout that now, sweetheart–"

his rough hands pawed at your hips, assisting your exhausted frame bounce up and down. "mummy needs her rest."

sincerely ~ 🦓༝༚༝༚

#rafe cameron prompt #rafe cameron smut #rafe cameron drabble #rafe cameron x reader #divider by @fairytopea

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bittersweet-folder · 6 months

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~□☆ seventeen imagines:

☆Types of kinks I think Seventeen has [hyung line version]

[ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT JUST FUCK OFF IF YOU DON'T LIKE THINGS LIKE THESE:) ]

[ Maknae line version ]

• masterlist • ps: reader here is a female with vagina and breasts and identifies as a female as well •

☆Seungcheol: (soft dom who goes hard eventually)

Breeding kink: this man wants kids so bad. Of course he'll talk with you about it and if you don't want kids he'll still love to fill you up with your consent of course.

Foreplay: please we all know he radiates big dick energy. Hence he needs to prepare you well before he uses the actual thing.

Very light bondage: loves tying up your hand with a piece of silk cloth

Creampie: he can and will make you cum more than once. And will make you squirt too <3

Praise kink: He. Has. A. Huge. Praise. Kink. He literally worships you and your body and well how good you're doing.

Daddy kink: self explanatory im hoping.

Thigh riding: he loves to see you struggle to get off, on his thigh without his help.

Extras: he's always so ready to try different positions when you tell him to.

☆Jeonghan: (switch with a sub lean who teases you a lot)

Edging: this man loves, literally loves to control your orgasm so that you cum hard later.

Oral fixation: either you are giving him the best head of his life or he's pussy drunk so he's eating you out like there's no tomorrow.

Sensory deprivation: he loves it when you blindfold him he loves the adrenaline rush he gets while anticipating what you might do next.

Pegging: he took a lot of time to open up about this and when he did he had the best experience ever.

Degradation: when he's taking control he will be like "only my fucking cock can make you feel this way and make a moaning mess of you right kitten" and so on<3

Overstimulation: he wants, sorry needs you to push his limits. It goes the same way around for you as well.

Extras: this man is very vocal. He will moan loudly. And has the ability to make you moan loudly as well.

☆Joshua: (the soft yet mean asf dom)

Edging: he loves to see how frustrated you get when he stops and doesn't lets you cum.

Shower sex: very self explanatory I'm hoping

Cockwarming: the warm feeling of your pussy around his cock. He loves it when you squeeze around his cock too.

Dacryphilia: he loves to make you cry on his cock, literally loves to see how desperate you become to reach your orgasms. "Fucking hell you're so pretty when you cry baby" that's what Joshua says.

Squirting: again, he loves to make you cry so he would push your limits a little bit if you give him the consent.

Praise kink: "being such a good girl for me yeah" "you're doing so fucking good baby" "you're driving me crazy do you realize that" yeah this man would go crazy.

Extras:he sometimes would let you ride<3 he would have his hands grabbing your hips while you ride him and cry on his cock<3.

☆Jun: ( soft dom through and through until he's- well- all riled up )

Edging: with his fingers and mouth until he uses the real thing.

Marking: he loves, literally loves to give you hickeys on your neck.

Creampie: he can and will make you cum twice to fill you up.

Overstimulation: he's soo pussy drunk he craves and needs more.

Bondage: he likes tying your hands only if you're okay with it and will try something new as well if you talk about it to him.

Sensory deprivation: he loves to blindfold you. Also he's into wax play

Mirror sex: this man's a menace as we all know. He literally loves the position where you're bent over on the edge of the bed while the mirror right beside the bed displays everything. He'll make you look at yourself while whispering "see how it's me who makes you scream like this baby". Yeah he's a menace.

Extras: he has a thing for you in lingeries because he loves foreplay.

☆Wonwoo (soft to kinda hard dom)

Edging: he enjoys it so much when you get frustrated because he isn't letting you cum. Oh and he will make you cry outta too much pleasure later on.

Dacryphilia: he will make you cry on his cock. No one can stop.

Choking: I hope that's self explanatory or should I say he loves it when silent moans slip from your lips and squirm a bit under him.

Daddy kink: I mean you can't convince me that this man doesn't have a daddy kink.

Degradation: oh he gets cocky on how you're crying on his cock begging for more.

Thigh riding: he loves it when you ride his thigh while hold onto him and he will kiss you while doing so with his hand on your hips while the other hand caressing through your hair.

Very light bondage: like tying your hands or just holding your hands together by the wrist while he thrust hard.

Extras: he has a thing for skirts because he likes how it slides up to your waist during the process and how easy access he gets as well, he can and will make you sit on his lap.

☆Woozi (switch with a dom lean but a switch)

Foreplay: he loves the intimacy of those kisses and touches all over each other's body before the actual thing takes place.

Creampie: this man loves it in a messy way with his cum dripping outta your pussy.

Squirting: told ya he loves it so so messy getting his freaking studio couch wet.

Slight like very slight exhibitionism: since he's fucking you in his studio.

Reverse cowgirl: this man loves literally lovesss groping your ass.

Mommy kink: he has a mommy kink you can't tell me otherwise. He gets very vocal when you ride him. He loves it when you take control and make a mess of him.

Praise kink: showers you with praise and makes you remember that you're the prettiest girl he's ever laid his eyes on.

Extras: he'll make you sit on his cock for hours when he's working. He relishes that warming yet tight feeling of your pussy.

☆Hoshi: (a pure switch with a slight sub lean)

Marking: he loves leaving bite marks and hickeys on your neck and chest.

Mommy kink: he'll moan so fucking loudly and lewdly when you ride and call him a babyboy.

Praise kink: it goes both ways. He showers you with praise. You shower him with praise as well.

Orgasm control: in other words edging. He has to see you struggling to cum. He wants you to beg for it as well.

Oral fixation: he's so pussy drunk too. He'll eat you out as well as finger you until you can't take it any more.

Creampie: another man who loves it so so messy. He'll make you squirt eventually as well and then he'll eat you out just to overstimulate you more.

Overstimulation: the sight of you squirming and crying on how good he makes you feel is literally heaven to him

Extras: he has a great stamina and will go on all night long in various positions until you're crying. He likes to bend you over on the table the most.

~~☆~~

a/n: I'm working on that Hoshi fanfic presently but i can't guarantee you when exactly I'll post.

Also here's the taglist till now: @hongmingoo @shuabby1994 , @nishloves , @unlikelysublimekryptonite , @asyre , @yumiyumis-blog

[If anyone wants to be in the taglist please comment under this post]

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