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josiebelladonna · 2 months

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it was 10 years ago

it was 10 years ago that i wrote to ben shepherd.

i’ve been thinking about how to approach this whole entire thing because i have to admit that there’s a lot that ties into it. i can’t just say, “oh, i wrote a letter to him, wing bang boom” because it’s admittedly complicated on my end. writing to ben was like a much-needed light for me back in march 2014 and it was like the beginning of a culmination of something. something admittedly sexual.

so, for that reason, i’m going to get quite tmi about this and i suggest to read at your own discretion.

if you’ve been following me for any length of time, you have probably seen me break down over my sexuality at some point, and i recently started looking into sex therapy to do on my own because i’m tired of hitting my head against the wall about all of this: i figured i have arousal/interest disorder because there’s just naturally having a low drive/interest in sex, and there’s having it down low and it breaks you into a million little pieces. the latter is me.

my tortured relationship with sexuality directly ties into my letter to ben.

he was kind of my first legitimate crush. like, you have your celebrity crushes and your legitimate crushes. ben for me began to blur the line between the two and i realized that a broken mind like myself could indeed have feeling in their heart. it’s not as potent as the whole “love yourself and then relay that to someone else”, but it’s real, though (so don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t love someone if you don’t love yourself first because you get a carrot-and-stick situation going which completely defeats the purpose of being in love). it’s real, especially when you make art for them.

i had made a drawing for him that i made only for him. i think i still have it, too, tucked away in a safe place in my room. i remember sharing it with soundgarden fans on fb and telling them of my intentions. something like that is pure and it was the start of something with me: i draw you when i feel something for you. see it as “marge simpson painting ringo starr” as much as you would like, but it’s one of my love languages.

except, in 2013 going into 2014, i was in bad shape on a psychological level. i had depression that had warped itself into anxiety. i was still dealing with anorexia. anything that seemed “off” in any way sent me reeling into overthinking. perfectionist like you wouldn’t believe. perfectionism that brimmed on paranoia at one point. intrusive thoughts, many of which kept me awake at night so i remember dealing with insomnia for a bit. i would argue with myself, usually about him and the fear of being vulnerable to him for fear of rejection.

add to this, i had no idea as to how to get a hold of him. at least not at first: when i’d tell people about what i wanted to do for him, they’d wish me luck. and that was it. no lead-in questions or leads or anything. when you tell people that you want to send a gift to a stranger whom you like, the obvious answer is to find a lead of some kind, six degrees of separation notwithstanding. it wasn’t until my mom looked him up in the white pages on bainbridge island and used a person-finder (which i think is defunct now) for me to find him.

we did that because it’s not like soundgarden has/had something like ten club or metallica’s club where you can readily send fanmail or what have you. i’m just going to say this because on principle i knew it was weird. (i remember finding the eminem song “stan” around this time; then some few years later, the word “stan” came in vogue and i still get this weird chill up my spine thinking about that.) but once we had that lead, i got down to brass tacks.

introduce myself and my background. how i found him and how much he meant to me: his music literally saved my life. the drawing for him… but then there was the fact that i had a crush on him, and the fact that a.) it’s already a big deal for me to admit that to someone as is; b.) people were judging me left and right; and c.) i didn’t know how he was going to react.

i couldn’t admit that to him. i was afraid of confessing that to him. a lot of it had to do with the fact that there was a lot of judgment surrounding me then: because, like i said in how people were judging me, i was so fucked up mentally back then that it seemed like nothing i did was right. i was being asked all these weird questions like, “how do you know this?” and the like, and nine times out of ten, i couldn’t answer it, either literally because i wanted to protect him—i remember a couple of stalkers coming after chris back then, so of course i didn’t want anyone to know everything because people couldn’t be trusted—or because the answer was so complicated that i didn’t feel like elaborating and they wouldn’t understand anyway.

or, worse, people would call me delusional for it and that i needed help. well, no shit, i needed help. but doing that letter was the stepping stone to getting it. it seemed like all anyone wanted to do was hold me back or buy into the whole trope that a woman following her desires was trouble.

so, i kept it to myself and i just… hinted it to him. i never told him that i was attracted to him because i was judged for it enough already. the classic catch-22 of wanting them to know that you have a crush on them but you also risk having them hurt you by turning you down, except the way it happened to me was particularly odd.

and yes, i wound up blaming myself for it, too. i would blame him as well, because i wrote to him four more times after that, that september for his birthday, the next summer after we moved, the week after valentine’s day 2016, and then for his birthday again after chris died. and each time, i vowed to never be like stan. i would tell him how i was doing and i keep it balanced between the two of us—i would also send him little drawings, too.

sometimes i would picture him speaking with family, like his mom or his sister, and they’d be like “aw, ben, she likes you! she keeps writing you, she likes you!”

it’s why when alex entered the picture, i adapted this eddie vedder-type ideology of “if you love or care for someone, tell them”; the threat of the pandemic had a lot to do with it but it mostly stemmed out of my failure to fully tell ben that i liked him, and i soon realized that he’s literally way too dumb to figure it out, either.

and i soon realized that i had made a complete ass of myself, too.

where he had the opportunity to be like joey, alex, eric, or even chris and show himself to me, he never did. he never replied to me. i knew he got my letters because my mom and i would get notifications from the post office about it, and the aforementioned family members, including ione his daughter, eventually started interacting with me (if you can believe it). my last one to him in 2017 was the last time because i was tired and we were all worried about him; in fact, it was summer 2016, i started to feel as though i was being played—that was one of the multitude of things that led to my hiatus in that i had to get away from the things that reminded me of him. i went quiet with the intent of clearing my head and turning over a new leaf. i drifted out to sea and left it in the past, no questions asked; the 2017 letter was meant to be both a means of coaxing him out of hiding as well as a postcard. and though i don’t recall what i said to him exactly, i remember my tone in that one was a bit terse; i kept things gentle and tender, like someone who truly loves you would pull you aside and say that you’re fucking up. never heard a peep.

and it wasn’t until summer 2019 when i found out why.

now i was in the dark on all channels for all of 2017 so i had to dig around to find this once i re-emerged, but there’s an interview of chris and ben from i think april of that year where ben talks about his then-2-year-old son. wait, 2-year-old son? was what i asked aloud.

the kid was apparently born in the summer of 2015, about a month after we moved and a month after my third letter to him. and all of a sudden, it all made sense, especially the weird questions. the gossip i was subjected to in summer 2014, about a week before i saw soundgarden in seattle, made sense, too: some woman messaged one of my friends at the time out of “concern” and diagnose me with borderline personality disorder (to this day, i still wish i knew how to screenshot back then because it’s unethical and malpractice, even if there was something truly that wrong with me), and this was immediately after she went onto my profile to trash my art. and you would think those friends at the time would defend me and dismiss it as malpractice and abuse of ethics—nope. they called me crazy and told me they’re worried for my mental health because a friend to miss armchair psychologist who also happens to be friends with Ben, saw him with a woman in florida and had not a single clue what was happening but put two and two together anyway.

GUESS HOW WELL I TOOK THAT.

and guess how well i took to finding out how ben had a 2-year-old and no one in his family said a single word about it to me… or for that matter, let me down easy and told me the truth straight up.

but i’ll say this…

the day i found this out and began putting the pieces together, through my tears, i opened my sketchbook to that one sketch of joey cradling maya in his arms. the “writing to ben shepherd for superunknown 20” to “now it’s dark” pipeline is one you cannot make up or replicate for that matter.

and i’ll also say that not a day goes by when i don’t think about him. i think of chris every day, i think of ben every day. i saw a picture of him back around christmas and he looks terrible: he had regained all of the weight he had lost during soundgarden’s third act and then some, he’s got little “baked bean” teeth, and his skin is all leathery.

what’s even more sobering is he and alex are literally the same age: ben was born september 20, alex on september 29, same year, 1968. alex, even with his frizzy disheveled hair, pale skin, and big sanpaku eyes looks very cute and like he can be his chubby, round little rosy self again if he does something. ben irreversibly became an old man over the course of a couple of years, and i know for a fact it’s from smoking as well as parenthood: i saw a pic of him in 2019 at the tribute concert to chris followed by ohana fest and he still looked good; i mean, as far as anyone knows, he had more kids.

god, i just.

…

man, you broke me.

you broke me. you broke my heart.

i did what i could with the resources at the time and even though i was too chickenshit to admit it to you, you couldn’t figure it out and you didn’t do shit about it. i kept writing to you because i had my head in the clouds but you couldn’t be mr. down-to-earth as everyone says you are… why? is it because you had a kid on the way and you were nesting and your family is so bass-ackwards that it’s too much to ask to even trust an outsider like myself? would that have made it so fucking hard to relay back to me? bro, i’ll take secrets to the grave with me if i have to.

it wasn’t a silly little obsession like what people think, it was… it was real. what i was feeling for you was real.

i loved you. and even after everything, i still love you, and i could never not love you, either.

…

i can only assume that he was scared to sit down and do that for me. so, to that i say that this isn’t hard to follow: i wrote to a guy who wasn’t interested but was too spineless to admit it to me. in fact, that’s admittedly the same vibe i get from alex: there is undoubtedly something here, like i can feel it whenever i see him and hear it in his voice, but that goddamn g*psy just clings to him like that loose hair you can’t see but can feel and it’s driving you crazy. it’s a lot more passionate and intense with alex, too, and that in and of itself is a whole other essay (all i’m going to say about it is at least he’s transparent about how he feels about me).

i can only assume that ben’s baby mama has it worse. one of the things that, to this day still stands out to me from the armchair psychologist incident, was this: “I don’t know how many girlfriends Ben has now”. yeah, and that person claimed to know him. so, in a weird twisted way, i actually kind of feel bad for her. i tried to love the frankenbass but not even the frankenbass seems to know what he wants.

he’s an old man now and he’s probably going to be facing ill health here if he isn’t already. no idea what’s going on with his mom anymore, his sister’s neurotic, his brother’s a.w.o.l., his daughter broke it off with me as per the usual division over the israel-hamas conflict… ugh. and all i can say is welp.

but ever since then, i like to see transparency and authenticity, and i’m suspicious as fuck of people who are “not very social” and “extremely shy and private and avoidant” when it comes to the internet. i can appreciate someone who could care less about it because there are other things in life worth getting upset over, but to be calculating about it, especially when you can find it by a few keystrokes, is a major red flag in my eyes. wonder how we’re feeling with that in mind, ahem.

i try to be transparent about the weight of my heart as well as the weight that surrounds it. and if you have to jump… jump, even if you end up making a complete ass of yourself, because your ass will still be showing anyway.

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vantapearls · 9 months

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was thinking about etika recently and i just wanted to write down my feelings.

it's still hard to accept that one of if not the biggest influences on my life as an adolescent is dead and i never got to meet him. i can't even watch highlight videos years later because it just makes me sad.

i used to keep notes with timestamps when he would read my name in chat so i could go back and fanboy the stream ended.

i once wrote him fanmail saying i would become an internet celeb and meet him one day (i was like 14 don't judge - no one here to judge anyway).

i used to skip classes to watch his streams on my school ipad.

when the nypd confirmed his death i spent a day in bed, my best friend mohammed even called me. i cried till my eyes burned.

someone i looked up to as a role model from the ages of like 13-18 just gone after a series of manic episodes that i didn't take seriously.

i'd like to dedicate some art to him subtly when i'm good enough to do him justice.

rip.

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theliterarywolf · 2 years

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Sam anon again. Many actual voodoo practitioners are happy that the tattoos were removed because they were inaccurate and apparently if you're not from the religion you shouldn't use them, but this still sounds dishonest from Disney to me because the multi-billion dollar company chose to erase a part of specific black culture instead of hiring people to redesign it, which they easily could have. Respect? My ass, to me it screams EW BLACK RELIGION TOO COMPLICATED AND FUSSY TO PORTRAY FUCKING ERASE IT ALL TO MAKE IT MORE PALATABLE TO US AUDIENCES. And I'd like to see if they'll do the same thing with the future Christian references.

Anonymous asked:

Sam's bones were removed because it's considered offensive when those tattoos are done by none-practitioners, so it was to BE respectful. I think Sam being changed is nontroversy

Anonymous asked:

Why didn't Disney I don't fucking know HIRE A CONSULTANT WHO ACTUALLY PRACTICES VOODOO TO REDESIGN THE TATTOOS RATHER THAN JUST REMOVING THEM

Here are the reasons why this whole thing bothers me.

1. Disney originally approved this game in the first place. Yana Toboso may be the creator but Disney had to approve the use of their aesthetics and IPs. So they obviously had to see and sign-off on all of the character designs since this is using aesthetics and motifs from their IPs.

Why didn't they say 'Hey, can you change this?' before?

2. Why didn't the western fanbase try to make this complaint known to Disney/Yana Toboso beforehand? I swear, western fans of things will go out of their way to try an harass an anime studio over Yasahime for 'you're condoning pedophilia, reeee', but actual matters like this just results in 'I'm sorry, I don't know how to use contact information all of a sudden'.

3. Following that last point, it reeks of fans gladly letting a problem fester so they'll have something to complain about rather than making their concerns known in a calm, rational way. I am, once again, reminded of how a section of this hellsite went after Himaruya Hidekazu when in a chapter of Hetalia, he wrote about Emperor Heliogabalus of Rome -- 'The Roman Emperor Who "Lived Life as a Woman" (Though He Was Really a Guy)' -- and rather than contact him to say 'whoa, my buddy, my friend, this is kind of transphobic' (and Himaruya had an open-blog for letters and fanmail that he took in both English and Japanese at the time so they had no excuse), they just sat around and whinged.

4. Disney, you can go above and beyond to make sure that your IPs based on other cultures are accurate and respectful while still being present, but when it comes to anything black or African it's just better to erase anything problematic rather than re-examining and re-approaching? Alright, cool. That's cool.

5. Why is it okay for so much of media to use gaudy sprinklings of Christian and Hindu iconography without research or respect but this is a big no-no and it has to be removed for 'respect' reasons?

6. Are the tattoos not still there in the Japanese version of the game so what is the point?

At the end of the day, they can do whatever they want because, of course, this is Disney and they don't want any controversy and they want to make sure that people will watch the TWST anime they're going to make for Disney+. But I personally think that the whole this is a none-issue that got turned into an issue and the handling of it reads like

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thirsthourdemon · 4 years

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Headcanon on their online platforms but mainly on Twitch, onlyfans stuff, patreon, tumblr

Includes: Demon bros + undateablesss

Genre: Crack, Fluff and slight smut

Warnings: NSFW mentions

||Lucifer

-He didn’t have a big online presence because he was active, no no

-He had an online presence cause everyone always sees him on Diavolo s pictures and such so for a time they shared an audience

-One time Diavolo and Barbatos were doing a thing where they read a book aloud for some sort of game

-Diavolo kind of recorded that for a little bit

-ASMR I TELL YOU

-People liked it so much they suggested for “the one with the deep cold voice”, luci, to do asmr on youtube or something

-He doesn’t know what an Onlyfans is however he does have a patreon.

-Diavolo was interested in the idea and discussed it with him

-HE BLEW UP CAUSE EVERYONE WAS FREAKING OUT OVER HOW AMAZING HIS VOICE WAS OF COURSE! 😡

-His fandom consists of either people who are interested in what he reads or...Horny people who get off at how proper and low his voice is

-His profile picture is a picture of him with his head cropped out where he’s fixing his gloves

-Luci isnt like super famous but he has a loyal fanbase that appreciates him a lot also lots of simps with daddy issues

-He was confused as to why someone would ask him to be their father

-He gets the daddy kink but why???

-Last post: A picture MC took where he’s holding a whip cause mammon fucked something up 🙂

||Mammon

-Bold of us to assume he didn’t already have one

-You already know why he’s on here.

-He has random content but he mainly got his audience since he kind of tried modeling thing for a while. It was for a big brand on their new jock type jackets

-Mammon really wanted cash at that time and he got the thing over and done with making him a couple more grims richer

-The photographers told him they could transfer the pictures though! So he just saved his pictures because “Who wouldn’t want a picture of THE mammon?”

-That gave him the idea

-His audience? Whoreknee

-They even accept the fact that his captions for some pictures are “You should be honored you get pictures of me”

-He posts that with a blushing face half of the time HAHAHAHA

-Levi found it and just laughed at the pictures

-Surprisingly enough the pictures were actually well taken because MC was forced into em

-His most popular picture was the one with him was actually a picture that the brothers took of him tucking in what appeared to be goldie on a seperate MINI BED WITH A SMALL TOY LAMP BESIDE IT

-He did a QnA for his followers to celebrate on his instagram

-PFFTT He got so many questions about Goldie

-Was dubbed “Goldie’s Daddy” after that

-Last post: A picture of him wearing the new Luxury brand jacket he got and his keys in front of his car with the caption “Daddy’s going for a ride”

||Leviathan

-I’ve always head canon that Levi knows how to draw digital emotes. Like he just picked it up cause he wanted to make fanart of him in henry together 😔

-Also has a red bubble or an etsy where he sells some prints and stickers of fanart 👀

-He went on twitch since there were so many TSL streamers there who just played games while they discussed theories as well

-Levi is an emote artist and while he draws he sometimes just discusses the theories with his fellow Yucky Otakus

-He’s the type to really interact with everyone even though he barely does that in real life

-Sometimes though when he gets packages that fans sent or ones that he ordered he’d stream unboxing them.

-He hates showing his face? Oh dont worry He’s wearing a facemask and all that

-His fandom is genuinely into him. Like they actually like him as a person but kinda once got into a scandal on gatekeeping

-He took a break for a bit but he kind of said sorry and everyone just forgave him because he isn’t really the type to do drama and it was just that one instance-

-Overall loved by the community due to how chill he is and how invested he is on fan theories

-He has a twitter btw and lemme tell you it’s just threads and threads of discussions

-Whenever he does stream unboxing videos though and he shows his shelves everyone freaks out how he has EVERY FUCKING VOLUME OF EVERY ANIME AND GAME

-People sometimes ask him personal questions and he tries his best to try to answer them but he shows a face where he looks uncomfy

-Everyone just bullies anyone who makes him uncomfy giving his fanbase a very protective reputation

-Last post: “Unboxing fanmail L8er @ 10pm LOL CYA GUYS XD”

||Satan

-He has a tumblr. You cant tell me he doesn’t have one.

-He had tumblr like back in the old day though like when porn was still available here.

-Get this...He’s known all through out the academia blogs. He INVENTED Academia

-Satan has 1 blog and that’s it. It’s his main blog and he just posts pictures of the book cover and does essays, reviews or sometimes he writes the ending he wanted to happen.

-Dont get me wrong he has a patreon but only because people loved getting more exclusive takes of stuff like his book notes on certain pages or sometimes his notes and thoughts on Artistic Erotica

-Probably has a Ko-Fi because he though he needed it after most of the blogs he followed had it

-He thinks it should be “Table of Content” and not “Masterlist” so he uses just that

-Profile picture is him wearing his signature washed out green grandma sweater while he has a book in hand and a cup of earl grey on his table

-People go to him falling in love with his aesthetic and Book reviews but they stay in love with him because he is big on one on one discussions actually

-He goes for one on one voice calls where he just...He talks to you about any book of your choosing

-Fans send him tea but he knows better than to eat something a stranger gives so he makes beel take a taste first sometimes but ultimately scolds the boy when he takes too much

-He wasn’t supposed to have merch but everyone liked the idea of small packages (More like letters) that really do look old and vintage

-He usually only give those to the people who pay for the top tier stuff

-It usually contains 1 type of tea, a letter he wrote for them himself and a bookmark with his name stamped on it

-He got the stamp custom made ❤️

-Last post: (Insert 5k word essay)

This is what I thought of Edgar Allan Poe’s “A cask of Amatillado”

Playlist: (Insert soft classic Music playlist on Spotify)

Tea: Black Currant

||Asmodeus

-ONLY FANS THROUGH AND THROUGH

-Is a brand influencer as well

-The brand ambassador of this pretty well known semi-luxury skin care brand

-His devilgram? Perfectly made by his PR team which is just him and solomon

-Before I move onto the NSFW stuff I want to emphasize how Beautiful his instagram is and his aesthetic

-His aesthetic is romantic/sexual tension/Unparalleled beauty

-Also a make up brand influencer and has his own make up line

-something along the lines of “The Devil’s box of charms 🖤”

-The type to DG live whenever he’s just showing off the make up look he did or the outfit he got

-The house of lamentation may have PR packages stacking up due to how most of them have an online influence but out of 10 boxes 7 of them would be for Asmo

-OKAY NOW ONTO NSFW STUFF

-Lemme tell you this...He has a specific drawer and space in his closet just for the sexy outfits he has.

-The demon’s onlyfans has pictures of him just teasing his audience where he’s wearing a black skintight get up and his bulge is showing

-Nudes are for mid and top tiers

-His fandom loves seeing in stocking and chokers

-“The choker is from etsy and here’s the link to their shop~”

-He doesnt completely show his body but...Him in suggestive clothing gets everyone pre cumming

-His fandom is just filled with simps 😔

-He loves them and blows a kiss towards the camera everytime he ends a live

-Probably has had a scandal or 4

-Posted an Ahegao once and everyone lost it

-Has been the face for Ahegaos ever since

-Belle delphine who?

-Definitely tik tok famous too 😎

-Has memorized all of Doja Cat’s songs

-Last post: “Hope you guys are ready for tonight’s session~ 😈” With a picture of him in an Fuchsia and black themed lingerie set. A collar with a bell on it.

-Bonus: One time Solomon summoned him while he was taking pictures and he was still in his lingerie set. 😛

||Beelzebub

-Was originally inspired by Mukbangs Channels so he did them on youtube too

-You get his Mukbangs on your recommended, You subscribe because of his cute and funny reactions whenever someone in the backgrounds is astounded to how much he’s eating

-Everyone knew beel as a cute guy who just does Mukbangs and loves to eat

-He once did a fridge raid and ended up eating everything in the fridge

-That was THE MOST CHAOTIC VIDEO on his channel cause you can just see luci and MC trying to make him stop

-He eventually got a patreon because mammon told him people will give him more money for food like that and to be honest he made a patreon but mammon takes care of it from time to time

-Oh you knew him as this sweet beautiful boy who just likes eating? hERe HavE sOmE WorKOUt pICs

-His body got everyone thirsty or may I say Starving

-S I M P S everywhere

-His patreon content is just him making small videos eating or pictures of him being all sweaty from the gym 😛💦

-“DADDY BWDONMXMSKC PLEASE FEED US”

-“Eh? You should feed me instead” *opens his mouth*

-Fans send him lots of boxes of weird food to see his reaction sometimes

-Did the fire noodle challenge a bit late but everyone is surprised to how he isn’t giving the reaction like they expected him

-Spice tolerance? Unmatched

-His fandom is either “UwU Beel please eat try this!” Or “Daddy Please FEED US WITH YOUR DELICIOUS THIGHS! 😩🥵💦💦💦”

-He does the service where he sends you his body building pictures except he isn’t sending them, Mammon is.

-Manager Mammon 😎 Gets a half of the profit

-Can I just...BeelProbablyHasnevergottenintoanyscandalbuthasalotofhaterssayingthefansonlylikehimforhishandsomefaceandgreatbodyandnicevoicebutlikewhatiswrongwithlikinghimbecauseofthosethings?Itisntbadtolikethatstuffatall

-Last post: “🍙 Thank you to @(Your Username) for the Onigiri! I finished the whole batch! Please send more food”

||Belphegor

-Sleep Guru

-Im sorry but I cant see him having any other social media aside from tumblr, twitter and Devilgram

-Belphie barely checks his phone but he has tumblr because apparently there’s a thing called the SandMan’s Box Community

-It’s like LootCrate, a subscription service that gives you stuff like Comfy Pillow sheets and tea for better sleeping

-This even gives you something like sleeping masks or ear muffs.

-The community is well...nocturnal

-His ask box is always full of his 100+ mutuals who just discuss stuff with him

-Whenever he actually does try to type online he makes articles about the best sleep positions or stuff like that

-His fandom is just loving mutuals who sleep and take care of each other

-They have a discord server where it just plays soft music to help everyone sleep

-Last post: “Humans aren’t so bad when they’re asleep”

||Luke and Simeon

-He has a big following on twitch where he just bakes sweets in his cute little hat and-

-Clearly you can tell I follow him on twitch

-The type of twitch streamer that no one hates on because why would you? He is literally just baking and cute comments

-Sometimes he streams with Simeon and everyone loves both of them

-When people give money they dont give “money” no no...they call donating headpats

-Luke is just so adorable that everyone just...

-“Angel Lulu’s Protection Squad⭐️”

-He got famous when he...He doesnt want to call it a collab but He made a lot of sweets and gave them to beel so everyone freaked out and thought

-THE SWEET BOY THAT EATS A LOT AND THE ANGELIC CHILD THAT MAKES SWEETS A LOT ARE FRIENDS?!

-He is now pissed that everyone thinks they’re friends 😠

-Basically his fans started making dishes and candy inspired by him

-Sometimes they send it in and Simeon has to confiscate some because

-“Im sorry, guys. You are all really sweet and I know that you mean well but Luke isn’t allowed much sweets yet”

-No one ever EVER lewds luke

-Fortunately Luke’s fandom has the least amount of pedophiles because everyone drives them away the moment they try something

-Whenever luke does fan mail/unboxing videos people just adore how Simeon places a glass of water at the table below the camera and the scissors or cutter he uses is child proof

-Even though Luke is the main person on his account everyone also notices Simeon.

-How couldn’t they? He looked like he wanted to make everyone in the audience live a better life

-Add that with luke’s wholesome baking and BOOM! You are now ready for a better life🌟

-Last post: It’s a picture of Luke shyly showing of his new batch of sun and moon shaped sugar cookies. “Sun and Moon. Tune in later at 3 pm to see how we made these!”

||Solomon

-He barely posts but he helps asmodeus with his stuff

-Too busy with anything else but helps out when things get interesting

-Proposes Ideas for Asmo sometimes when the demon doesn’t know what to wear for a live or a story

-Laughs at Asmo sometimes when he gets into scandals and drama

-Happy cameraman ❤️

-People follow him because 1.) He’s hot 2.) The fans ship him with Asmodeus

-Last Post: “When will you learn 🙂”

||Diavolo

-He is a vlogger~ Not a very active vlogger but a vlogger nonetheless

-He films anything he can but he’s more known on tik tok and devilgram rather than twitch or youtube

-People have been thirsting for him ever since and no one can convince me that they dont just shamelessly call him daddy whenever he goes on live

-Barbatos makes sure however that whenever it isnt appropriate anymore that he would tell diavolo to turn the camera off

-Wranggled Luci into his mess and now everyone knows the face of that one dude who just reads documents

-Everyone lowkey ships them

-Diavolo is the type to take a picture of a big meeting or a retreat out of instinct to just document his life

-He actually didnt know about vloggers before but he just liked the thought of documenting it

-Everyone picks up “Master” vibes as they say from him hehehe

-He doesnt have an Onlyfans or patreon 😔😔😔

-I honestly would have subscribed to his services

-Last post: “Barbatos made a delicious meal for us at the retreat today” Along with a picture of the Beautiful Demon Delicacy Spread in the table.

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delightfullyatomicfest · 3 years

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John interviewed in Melody Maker, 6 December 1969

Last week I spent some time with John, during which he told me the truth about the early days, the current relationships within The Beatles, and his consequent need for independence, and a host of other subjects. We begin with the group’s rise to fame, and John’s feelings about the way it was achieved.

“In the beginning it was a constant fight between Brian [Epstein] and Paul on one side and me and George on the other,” he told me. “Brian put us in neat suits and shirts, and Paul was right behind him. I didn’t dig that, and I used to try and get George to rebel with me. I’d say to him, ‘Look, we don’t need these suits. Let’s chuck them out of the window.’ My rebellion was to have my tie loose, with the top button of my shirt undone, but Paul’d always come up to me and put it straight.

“I saw a film the other night, the first television film we ever did. The Granada people came down to film us, and there we were in suits and everything - it just wasn’t us, and watching that film I knew that that was where we started to sell out. We had to do a lot of selling out then. Taking the MBE was a sell-out for me. You know, before you get an MBE the Palace writes to you to ask if you’re going to accept it, because you’re not supposed to reject it publicly and they sound you out first.

“I chucked the letter in with all the fanmail, until Brian asked me if I had it. He and a few other people persuaded me that it was in our interests to take it, and it was hypocritical of me to accept it. But l’m glad, really, that I did accept it- because it meant that four years later I could use it to make a gesture.

“We did manage to refuse all sorts of things that people don’t know about. For instance, we did the Royal Variety Show once, and we were asked discreetly to do it every year after that- but we always said, ‘Stuff it.’ So every year there was always a story in the newspapers saying ‘Why No Beatles For The Queen?’, which was pretty funny, because they didn’t know we’d refused it.

“That show was a bad gig anyway. Everybody’s very nervous and uptight, and nobody performs well. The time we did do it, I cracked a joke onstage. I was fantastically nervous but I wanted to say something, just to rebel a bit, and that was the best I could do.”

Was there, in fact, anything at all that he enjoyed about the years of Beatlemania?

“Oh sure. I dug the fame, the power, the money, and playing to big crowds. Conquering America was the best thing. You see, we wanted to be bigger than Elvis - that was the main thing. At first we wanted to be Goffin & King, then we wanted to be Eddie Cochran, then we wanted to be Buddy Holly, and finally we arrived at wanting to be bigger than the biggest - and that was Elvis.

“We reckoned we could make it because there were four of us. None of us would’ve made it alone, because Paul wasn’t quite strong enough, I didn’t have enough girl appeal, George was too quiet, and Ringo was the drummer. But we thought that everyone would be able to dig at least one of us, and that’s how it turned out.”

When John returned his MBE in protest against Britain’s involvement in the Vietnam and Biafra conflicts, he added, “And against ‘Cold Turkey’ slipping down the charts.”

Does that mean that “Cold Turkey” is a specially important record for you?

“Yes, because it’s MY record. When I wrote it I went to the other three Beatles and said, ‘Hey lads, I think I’ve written a new single.’ But they all said, ‘Ummm... arrrrrr. . . welll. . .’ because it was going to be my project, and so I thought, ‘Bugger you! I’ll put it out myself.’

That had happened once before, when I wanted to put ‘Revolution’ out as a single, but ‘Hey Jude’ went out instead.”

Does that mean that Plastic Ono Band is, for John, a kind of alternative Beatles, particularly in view of Ringo’s refusal to go on tour again?

“Yes, I suppose so. It’s a way of getting my music out to the public. I don’t bother so much about the others’ songs. For instance, I don’t give a damn about how ‘Something’ is doing in the charts - I watch ‘Come Together’, because that’s my song.”

Can he ever conceive of a time when he wouldn’t want his songs to be on the same album as Paul’s or George’s?

“I can see it happening. The Beatles can go on appealing to a wide audience as long as they make albums like Abbey Road, which have nice little folk songs like ‘Maxwell’s Silver Hammer’ for the grannies to dig.

“About ‘Maxwell’s Hammer’ - well, all I can say is that I dig Engelbert Humperdinck as much as I dig John Cage, and I don’t listen to either of them,” he said with a marvellously relevant irrelevance. “I always wanted to have other people on our records, like the Stones and our other friends. But some of the others wanted to keep it tight- just like The Beatles, you know? But you wait - it’s starting to get looser, and there should be some fantastic sessions in the next few years. That’s what I wanted all along.”

Going back to the past, did he enjoy doing The Beatles’ two films, Help! and A Hard Day's Night ?

“I dug Hard Day's Night, although Alun Owen only came with us for two days before he wrote the script. He invented that word ‘grotty’ - did you know that? We thought the word was really weird, and George curled up with embarrassment every time he had to say it. But it’s part of the language now-you hear society people using it. Amazing.

“Help! was a drag, because we didn’t know what was happening. In fact [Richard] Lester was a bit ahead of his time with the Batman thing, but we were on pot by then and all the best stuff is on the cutting-room floor, with us breaking up and falling about all over the place.”

The present: has Allen Klein made an agreeable difference to Apple, which was bothering John the last time I spoke to him?

“Oh, it’s really marvellous. People were very scared of him to start with - and some still are - but that’s probably good. He’s swept out all the rubbish and the deadwood, and stopped it being a resthouse for all the world’s hippies. He won’t let people order antique furniture for their offices and so forth; he’s really tightened it up and it’s starting to work a lot better.

“He’s noticed that The Beatles had stopped selling records as they were doing around the world, and he found out that it was because the record company simply wasn’t bothering to push them. They thought that our records would sell themselves, and they were wrong. They don’t. If you can get to No 1 in Turkey, Greece, Switzerland and a couple of other countries then that’s as good financially as getting a No 1 in Britain - they don’t realise that.

“Klein’s very good - he’s going to make sure they stop sitting on the records and actually release them. He’s even keeping tabs on me - I usually make mistakes about who to get in to survey my house, and I can spend a fortune without getting anything done. He’s making sure that I do it the right way.”

Richard Williams

Melody Maker, 6 December 1969.

Source: https://archive.org/stream/TheHistoryOfRock1969/TheHistoryOfRock1969_djvu.txt

Quoted in Rolling Stone in December 1969: https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/beatles-splitting-maybe-says-john-182489/

Lots of this is quoted on the John Lennon website here: http://www.johnlennon.com/news/cold-turkey-plastic-ono-band/

#I don't know why I'm posting this #it's not great #and this is only part 1 of 3 #allen klein #December 1969 #this is post-'Paul is (not) dead and by the way The Beatles are over' Life interview #Not sure if Paul was still in Scotland at this point #don't care for John Cage eh #is that so #I didn't realise John was already trashing Paul's music in public as early as this #Poor Englebert Humperdinck #did nothing wrong and caught in the middle #the true victim of The Beatles break-up #him being mad at Paul about this is always hilarious to me though

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iamanonniemouse · 3 years

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Okay, tumblr was being bitchy so @vector-to-the-heavens had to dm me the questions she wanted to me answer for the Book Recs Ask Game. Let’s goooo--

3: a stand-alone that you wish was part of a series

Hmmmmmmmmm this is a gOOD one and yet I am BLANKING WHY

I guess maybe because I’m just thinking of how many shitty sequels are out there in the world lol

Okay, no honestly?? I can’t think of any book I wanted a sequel to or a series from, because the standalone books I adored all were just so perfectly wrapped up, and I feel like writing more would ruin them??? I SWEAR THIS ISN’T A COP OUT I HAVE BEEN SITTING HERE FOR LIKE 20 MINUTES.

But because I make the rules here, I will ABSOLUTELY take this opportunity to gush about a book that I don’t want a sequel to but a book I NEED to tell everyone about lol

I worship this book. I love everything about this book. It’s called Extraordinary Birds, by Sandy Stark-McGinnis. It’s about a girl named December. And it’s about foster care. But it’s about SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. It’s about -- gah I don’t know that I even have words to summarize it other than This book is everything I would ever want a fiction book about adoption/fostering to be. It’s just so good. It was written with such LOVE and such CARE and just !!! Everyone should go read it.

:steps off soapbox:

:shoves this book into everyone’s hands:

62: a book with a forgettable plot but amazing characters

VEC STOP PICKING SUCH GOOD BUT HARD QUESTIONS DAMMIT

I read a book a couple months ago (:checks goodreads: *six months ago) called Fragile Remedy, by Maria Ingrande Mora and it wasn’t a forgettable plot but it was one of those books where the most special thing about it, hands down, was the characters and the way the author wrote the relationships between them. Like, the plot itself was okay? But damn the characters. I would die for them.

86: a book with an insane plot twist

One of the first books I remember reading that had a :gasp: plot twist was The Thief, by Megan Whalen Turner. The entire series is golden, for sure, but this was a book I read when I was probably elementary/middle school and I remember when I got the twist at the end (which really isn’t a HUGE twist in the grand scheme of things) and going O.O AMAZING.

Other plot twisty books I liked include

Bonds of Brass, Emily Skrutskie

Red Rising, Pierce Brown (Pierce Brown is AMAZING at plot twists)

The Poppy War, R.F. Kuang

The Mime Order, Samantha Shannon (book 2 of a series, but the twist on the LAST DAMN PAGE of this book sent me REELING i was like OOOOH SHIT)

104: a fluffy, sweet read

Okay, I’ve got TWO THREE because once again I MAKE THE RULES HERE and also this is going under a cut because wow I got SO carried away

Deal Maker, Lily Morton

Gah, this book is one of my comfort re-reads. It’s soft and sweet and filled with PLENTY of hilarious moments but also just such WARMTH. There is also a cute as hell child named Billy who is my favorite in the world. This book follows a model who ends up working as basically a temporary secretary to an award-winning actor, and it’s GREAT because when the actor (Asa) finds out Jude’s a model, he’s all like oh you’re too stupid for this job but whatever, do your best, and then Jude spends weeks if not MONTHS purposefully screwing everything up just to fuck with Asa. These hijinks include:

Drafting answers to fanmail with increasingly outlandish things

Telling Asa the journalist who arrived was the plumber

Bringing back a child’s suit from the dry cleaners and telling Asa, wide-eyed and innocently, that he thought Asa was going to slim into it

Red, White & Royal Blue, Casey McQuiston

Hilarious. Adorable. Enemies who have to pretend they’re friends -> actual friends -> secretly dating while pretending to be friends. One of those awesome, classic rom com plots except the main characters are the son of the president and a prince of England. Features hilarious moments like

the first son (accidentally!) pushing the prince of England into the wedding cake at a wedding

a bi-awakening that includes the MC trying to figure out if he’s bi and his best friend going, wait you didn’t know?? WAIT ARE YOU COMING OUT TO ME RIGHT NOW? OKAY WAIT LET ME GET MY SUPPORTIVE FACE ON.

a mom who prepares a SLIDESHOW when she finds out her son has been secretly dating the prince of England

demon turkeys (but not really)

our main characters and their friends wildly singing at a karaoke bar

and also really heart-warming, absolutely touching moments like

love letters are OUT love emails are IN, especially emails that have quotes from queer historic figures at the end

“I love him on purpose.”

both characters fighting to be together despite the metric TON of pressures on them not to

a secret date night in a museum after hours

This book is adorable, okay??

Boyfriend Material, Alexis Hall

I recced this in this ask too because it’s just adorable and hilarious. It has a brief bit of angst towards the end for that classic “we broke up but I want you back” bit (that isn’t nearly as cliche as you think it’ll be) but it’s absolutely hilarious and lovely and then hits you RIGHT in the face with feels and then has you laughing anyway because dammit you fell in love with these characters along the way and didn’t even realize. It’s got fake dating (and fake breakups and fake makeups) and crap I actually like you and SO MANY JOKES. And did I mention how damn English it is????

Aside from the joke I mentioned in the other ask, there’s a great scene right at the start of the book where the two main characters are having dinner together and it’s like

Oliver: I’m a barrister. Go on, get it over with, ask me the question everyone asks when they find out I work in criminal defence.

Luc, mind blank and panicking: Do you have sex in the wig?

Oliver:

Luc:

Oliver: The question people usually ask is how I can live with myself, putting murders back on the streets?

Luc: Ah. That’s a good question.

I am belatedly realizing all three of these books are set in England or involve an English character. Oops? I JUST REALLY ENJOY THESE BOOKS OKAY.

#mousie rambles #omg i get asks now #books #random

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butzing-in · 3 years

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🐢🦄⌛💩 hi sorry but I also love your Larry

[ Fanmail? FOR ME?! || Meme: Send me symbols, get headcanons! ... That's a fair trade, I think! ]

[ Oh sweet golly goodness I wrote a lot again. As before, the HCs are under the cut! ]

🐢 - Mental Health!

「 Larry's got a few mental health disorders, most of which went over most people’s heads as it seemed to blend near-seamlessly in to his goofy, wacky antics. He’s got moderate ADHD — just enough that it makes focusing and remembering pretty difficult for him but not impossible. To others it manifests as him seeming lazy, unmotivated, or easy to discourage, but it’s really just his brain being indecisive and wanting to do way more than he is capable of at the time. As a result of this compounded with his constant failures in the dating scene, he’s slowly developed a Rejection Sensitivity Disorder as well, where he takes rejection harder than he lets on. It’ll hurt for a while longer than usual, especially now that he’s a bit older and still struggling to find “the one” who will stay with him. It’s a touchy subject for him! 」

🦄- Physical Health!

「 For all the antics he gets up to, Larry is surprisingly healthy! Though due to an incident when he was a teenager, he managed to injure one of his legs pulling a really stupid stunt and it resulted in a part of his left thigh going numb. He can still use his leg perfectly fine, but he wont feel anything if that area is touched or hit. It’s lead to a lot of weird situations, some of which he’s a bit embarrassed about and others that left him audibly yelling at his leg like it was a person for not realizing some pretty lady had brushed a hand across that spot. It’s a mixed bag, really. 」

⌛ - Sleep

「 When he tries to sleep, it’s a whole-ass Odyssey every time. At first he tosses and turns, sometimes checking his phone, trying to find that perfect spot to finally settle in to. Once he does find it he starts off as a light sleeper where any little noise will spook him awake, and sometimes during this process he starts the whole journey for the sacred spot all over again if he is woken back up. Once he is passed out though, good luck waking him up for anything that’s any less than a natural disaster; he falls in to a deep sleep where nothing short of nature’s fury will rouse him back in to the world of the conscious. During this dead slumber, he does what could be called “dry snoring,” where you can hear him breathing audibly but it doesn’t have that rolling that is typically indicative of actual snores — and the cause of much irritation. It’s easy to sleep through that, thankfully. Though always expect to find him sprawled out or contorted in to uncomfortable-looking positions by the time morning rolls around, not unlike a dog that’s rolled around in his dreams. 」

💩 - Ridiculousness! [ Alcohol/Drunkenness mentions TW, in case you wish to avoid those topics! ]

「 There was one time Larry had decided to go out to a bar to pick up sober chicks — the alcohol was going to just be liquid courage for Larry himself — and he spent half that night drunk as a skunk on fermented junk either hogging the karaoke machine or waxing philosophical about all the dumbest topics like if the plural for “moose” should be “meese.” He then left the bar, wound up distracted by a cat in the alleyway, and wound up taking that cat home in an attempt to adopt it while singing “What’s New Pussycat?” the whole way there. He was entirely off-tune, and forgot half the lyrics, and to this day he has no idea if he even made it to his house with the cat or if it just scarpered off out an open window later on. 」

#‹‹ Answering the Adoring Fans! ››#‹‹ What Makes the Butz Tick? ››#[ I HOPE that last one feels funny and fitting enough ];#tw alchohol mention

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pakchoys · 3 years

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rank the new who doctors?

i would very much like to YAY thank u!!! i’m gonna uh.... ramble. because i am excited to be asked. my personal list don’t take it too seriously

1. capaldi. i love him So Much. it breaks my heart so many ppl gave up before his run, or while it was still in its early stages. among dw fans who still watch the show he’s generally already considered an iconic doctor. you hear a lot of people saying they regret not appreciating him until he was gone which i 100% feel. he was a who fan his entire life (the fanmail he wrote as a teen is so cute) and he poured so much love into the role!!! maybe didn’t have the best writing at the start but he more than makes up for it with his fucking phenomenal acting ability and pure LOVE for the doctor’s character! his arc too is the most touching for me.... he’s the doctor who finally heals. he starts off so jaded and almost seems cruel. i think that’s why so many people were turned off from him initially. but, after watching his entire run, you realise that was set up for a masterful arc abt healing and kindness and learning to laugh again. the pure love between him and bill, his unrelenting faith in missy..... “laugh hard, run fast, be kind” is the best fucking dw quote don’t even LOOK at me

2. tennant. sad man runs around being sad, stands in rain, grieves over all that genocide he committed, generally looks like a kicked puppy at every given chance. we love to see it! his relationships with his companions make him so damn real, maybe the realest of all the new who doctors. i love him dearly. my favourite thing about him is that he does have terrible moments of arrogance and they’re called out and his arc is about acknowledging that he’s not all-powerful (waters of mars i loooove yoooouuu). i love to make fun of him and i also want to hug him

3. smith. funny, tumblr hates him lmao. most people i ask irl here in br*tain will either say tennant or smith as their fave in a 50/50 split (maybe favouring tennant slightly). matt was the first doctor that made me want to watch the show, age 7 and sitting down for his first ever ep :’) so he’s special to me i can’t help it!!! his first series, s5, is the most cohesive series in the whole of new who imo. it’s the series i always rec to ppl who wanna start the show bc it knows what it wants to do and generally all the episodes are mid to high tier doctor who (except the winston churchill daleks one, good fucking god). when i learnt that tennant is “the man who regrets” while smith is “the man who forgets” it helped me understand him much better.... he desperately wants to bury that past but he can’t run forever. his final episodes lose it a bit but i don’t think he deserves the distaste so many on here seem to have for him. his writing suffers from feeling a bit contrived so that’s probably part of it

4. eccelston. important thing to keep in mind is that he got only one series and in that time he made such an impression as his own doctor!!! if he had more time he’d probably be higher on my list. “just this once, everybody lives” stays in my mind RENT FREE... it sums up how painfully tired he is—the post-time war doctor, fresh with hopelessness and loss and he’s so elated to save everyone, just once, even if it never ever happens again. his hearts are so big and so are his ears :]

5. whittaker. she’s on the bottom of my list but that doesn’t mean i dislike her! i love her, actually! her first series however is the worst in the whole of new who because of its disaster writing, imo. worse than series 7, yes, bc at least series 7 had some fun episodes at the start. i seriously don’t believe that chibnall has a vision for the show, just a mish-mash of done before ideas he doesn’t know how to string together into a plot or characters that actually feel like family. but enough of chibnall, whittaker is so FUN as the doctor!!! she’s everything i wanted from a post-capaldi doctor, who ended his run choosing to be kind. whittaker continues that legacy by smiling and being a Literal Ball of Sunshine <333 although i was worried at first she wouldn’t get much depth beyond that, series 12 made my desire for her as the certified repression doctor CANON!!!! i have my issues with s12 but im so so excited for the upcoming series!

#ask #doctor who #im so sorry.. no one should ask me abt doctor who bc this always happens. every time.#dw crit #yeah it’s a lil critical... ain’t that just the dw fan experience #dw

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otakween · 3 years

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07-Ghost - The World (Part. 3)

Episodes 21-30 of the 07-Ghost radio show! Aww man, I’m really sad it’s over. I had a lot of fun listening the whole way through. It definitely made me a Namikawa Daisuke fan. I look forward to spotting him in another role!

Episode 21

Kuroyuri VA’s second episode. Honestly, she was kind of annoying (sorry!) She wouldn’t stop cracking up at everything and it made the whole episode very chaotic. They started out by discussing: their ideal birthdays and nicknames they’ve had in their lives. They then played a “what would you do?” game where they had to pick the most popular reaction to various scenarios. This time the punishment was to speak like a servant/butler. The loser was...Namikawa of course (lol every time!)

Namikawa failing at keigo was honestly the highlight of the episode for me because, same. Apparently this episode came out close to the end of the anime. Funny that the show would go on for so long after the show was already over. I guess because the manga was ongoing and they still had DVD sales to boost?

Episode 22

The first no-Namikawa episode in a long time (another scheduling issue). This time though we got two guests: Castor and Lab’s VAs! Saiga called it a “church special” lol. It did feel like a mini reunion. The opening discussion was “what do you do to calm down when you feel stressed.” Lab’s VA said he likes to be alone/have alone time. Castor’s VA said he likes to eat sweets lol. Maybe it’s because Namikawa wasn’t there to react, but they barely read any fan mail.

For a game, since Lab’s VA was there they played a “flower language” game where they had to guess what each flower signified. Somehow the flowers were also connected to birthdays? I tried to Google this but couldn’t find much. I want to know my birthday flower! Anyway, the final corner was a “Last Supper” where they ate something that was supposed to taste like chestnut and another thing that was supposed to taste like sweet potato. For once, both experiments were yummy.

Episode 23

In this episode Namikawa comes back and so does Lab’s VA (sorry, I should probably learn his name). I was honestly pretty relieved to hear Namikawa again because he’s really the heart of the show. They discussed their blood types and caught Namikawa up on what he missed in the last episode. I finally looked up what the heck “Namikawa ga Kamu” means (the name of one of the corners) and I think what they’re going for is that he snaps at the listeners who send him ridiculous mail lol. Kamu has a bunch of different meanings so it took me awhile to get that.

They played another flower-themed game. This time they had to guess which flowers out of a bunch listed were currently blooming. They kept saying “ah that one blooms in winter, huh?” and I was like “wtf? Nothing blooms in winter!” Damn you Japan and your higher temps! This time Saiga and Lab’s VA lost and their punishment was to speak like a maiko (I didn’t even know maiko had a unique speech style). The final segment was responding to listeners worries but I honestly struggled to understand what they were saying and spaced out a little, oops! Lab’s VA said he wants to come back, but was disappointed in the lack of food this time around lol.

Episode 24

Wow, a Bastien episode, how unexpected. I honestly forgot what Bastien sounded like because he was in so little of the anime, but he has a nice, deep voice. Probably second deepest after Ayanami. It cracked me up how he and Namikawa bonded over how they both voice dead guys. The started the episode out by discussing what kind of food they like to eat in November and then talked about how popular/unpopular they were in their younger years. One fanmail asked what they would give Teito as a birthday present and no one really knew what to say LOL (it is a hard question). Namikawa said a camera and Bastien’s VA said “Mikage” loool.

I thought the game they chose for the Bastien episode “find the impostor” was clever, but it was hard to play along. It was another game where they had to pick “which one of these doesn’t belong” out of a list of 07 Ghost things, but they didn’t clearly read out the options so it wasn’t super interesting to listen to. Bastien’s VA lost and his punishment was to talk like a country bumpkin for the next segment. They ended the episode by doing the confessional-like corner and listening to listener’s sins. Amen.

Episode 25

Another Kuroyuri episode! I guess she was really available lol. This one was recorded around Christmas time so it was slightly Christmas themed. They talked about sock fetishes (for some reason lol) & read some more chaotic fan mail. One girl that wrote in claimed to be from Namikawa’s elementary school and they freaked out.

The game they played this time around was “what do you want for Christmas” where each person listed a bunch of things they might want for Xmas and then the others had to guess what the correct answer was. Kuroyuri asked something along the lines of “what cup size boobs do most women want?” I’m used to boobs coming up a lot in stupid anime so I was kinda surprised to hear real people have that conversation lol. Namikawa was clearly uncomfortable and gave the “I think size doesn’t matter” speech haha. (By the way, the answer was C cup). Namikawa lost as usual and had to use “reindeer speech” for the following segment. His interpretation of this was to add “tona” at the end of every sentence (because tonakai = reindeer).

The final segment was Last Supper and they ate things that are supposed to taste like melon when you eat them together (white chocolate + apple juice, cucumber + honey). Apparently neither hit the mark but at least they weren’t too gross this time.

Episode 26

Jun (Hakuren’s VA) returns! They call him “Jun Jun” which is way too cute. I think he’s one of my favorite guests, just cuz he’s so iconic and has great energy for radio. In this episode they discussed what color each person would be (Namikawa = orange, Jun = black, Saiga = blue). They also discussed New Year’s resolutions because this was recorded around January. They played an 07-Ghost themed version of karuta which was fun to play along with. Guess who lost? (It was Namikawa lol). I totally didn’t get what his punishment was. He had to talk like “maro/daimaro” and I couldn’t figure out via google what the heck that is.

In the final segment they gave advice to listeners. One listener asked what they should do about a mouse problem. Namikawa at first said “move” but then changed his answer to “get a cat” lol. Very inspired. Only 4 episodes to go~!

Episode 27

A rare no-guest episode. Namikawa seemed very fed up and low energy in this one lol. This was recorded in January so they discussed new years again. It’s kinda cool hearing time pass in these. Oh how innocent times were back in 2009/2010. The only thing that really stood out in the beginning of this episode was that one listener called Namikawa “Namikawa D-Cup-san” and Saiga and Namikawa died laughing. This was in reference to a past episode where Namikawa called himself that but he acted like he never said that loool. Honestly, the best part of this show is just hearing everyone laugh at dumb jokes.

The game they played this time around was pretty creative. Basically while one person was blindfolded the other had to help them draw a picture of a 07 Ghost character with verbal instructions. As they did so, they had to stay in-character. It was really funny hearing Saiga switch from polite Japanese to Teito’s feral speech style. You don’t really realize how cartoony anime character’s are until you hear natural speech right next to it (or maybe that’s just me lol). Namikawa lost again (I felt bad for him this time cuz he sounded genuinely disappointed) and his punishment was to stay in Mikage-mode until the end of the episode. He said acting so “pure” was exhausting.

Episode 28

Another Haruse episode. He was really cute in this one, he admitted that he was nervous about doing radio and was worried his voice would shake haha. They again talked about New Years and New Year’s resolutions. They also took some kind of “psychology test” where they had to describe what color/pattern handkerchief they’d want to receive from a girl. The color handkerchief = the color of panties they like or something stupid like that lol.

For the game, they had to put 07-Ghost characters in the correct order. Saiga had to order the ghosts, Haruse’s VA had to rank the Black Hawks, and Namikawa had to organize a bunch of characters in the order they’re introduced in the manga. Pretty difficult. Everyone did about the same so they had to do rocks, paper, scissors to decide the loser. The loser was, of course, Namikawa. His punishment was to sing everything like an opera singer for the next segment.

The final segment was giving advice to listeners. One person asked for advice on dating someone older than you and another person asked about giving “the talk” to their younger brother lol. At least I think that’s what they said. These advice portions have some tricky Japanese.

Episode 29

The first Konatsu episode, it’s interesting to see them bring in new guests at the very end. Konatsu was one of my favorite characters so it’s unfortunate that I found his VA really annoying lol. His style of humor was to just repeat the same obnoxious thing over and over again and I found it really grating. This was recorded in February so they discussed how much you should spend on Valentine’s day chocolate. They also asked Konatsu’s VA what kind of character Konatsu is and he basically said “I had like no lines, so I dunno” lol. Too true. I forgot Konatsu was even in the anime.

For the game they had to pop some balloons and the more hearts they got the better their score was. (I guess they put heart on pieces of paper and stuffed them inside the balloons?) For once the loser was the guest and Konatsu’s VA had speak in a Kansai dialect for the final segment. The episode ended with “The Last Supper” and they ate avocado with vanilla ice cream, which apparently is supposed to taste like mango.

Episode 30

The grand finale! They actually called it that too. I wasn’t sure if they were going to acknowledge this as the last episode but they made it special. They did a lot of reflecting on how far they’d come and how the show seemed long and short at the same time. This was an hour long episode but they basically spent the entire time reading listener mail (which is my favorite part anyway). No games, no guests. Namikawa’s “kamu” corner got special background music for the first time. Most of the listener mail was people saying their goodbyes and being sad that the show was ending.

At the end of the episode some staff person came into the studio to thank Namikawa and Saiga for their hardwork and to give them chocolate. Very cute. The depressing part is that both the hosts and the listeners were talking about “if season 2 happens...” which obviously never did. Pooor 07-Ghost :’(

#07 ghost #07 ghost the world #radio

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my-arlington-academia · 4 years

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Hello! Could I get headcanons for the main 10 with a Scholar who likes to leave love letters around for them to find?

Yes! 💗 and thank you for the request ✊ I'm not sure if they're already dating or not? I'm gonna assume they are. (This turned out to be so long! I'm gonna flood the tags again...)

Alistair

- first time you gave him one, it was on his desk

- he tried to read as swiftly as he could, but as he was reading through it, he started getting weird looks from the other students

- not surprising, he was grinning the whole time

- Raquel tried to look over his shoulder

- "Oooohhh~ what's that? A love letter? You're so popular with the ladies haha."

- he immediately hides it and stuffs it in his bag

- "Psh. N-no? It was just uhhh... homework!"

- poor boy sucks at lying

- "Of course, I'm sure everyone smiles like that at homework."

- Alistair keeps on giving you glances during class

- he didn't have the time to read all of it but he did see that you signed it and your handwriting is really recognizable

- afterwards, he quietly reads it in his room

- his heart races at each word

- comes to your room as soon as he finishes reading it

- "Y/N I came here to th- than- uhhh? Yeah! To thank you! Haha..."

- for a hot second he forgot how words work

- is laughing out of nervousness

- after that, you keep giving him more and more letters

- he starts consciously expecting to find one on his desk when he walks in

- is really sad when there's nothing on the desk...

Axel

- he already receives a lot of love letters ("fanmail") so how can you give it to him while making sure that he knows it's yours right away?

- you thought of a silly trick to throw him off guard

- When he's walking through the hallways you call out his name and give him the letter, you tell him that "he dropped this"

- he's surprised so he automatically grabs the letter

- "Oh! Thank you for picking it up for- Wait. I don't think this is mine. Uh...?"

- too late! You ran away immediately

- it takes him a few seconds to understand what you just did

- he's excited! But of course he's not going to read it in the middle of the hallway

- skips the beginning of next class to read it carefully in the cafeteria

- he blushes furiously at how passionate the letter is

- he's persuaded that you could write a beautiful love song

- comes in class 20 minutes late and gets detention from Tadashi but to be honest, he doesn't even care anymore

- When he walks in, he gives you a subtle look but you know what that look means

- you're so embarrassed that you try to ignore him the whole period... until he stealthly throws a paperball on your desk

- you open it, it says "look my way"

- even though you're mortified, you do so anyway

- he waves at you and smirks all knowingly

- ohhhh boy, you look away again

- you hear a stifled laugh, he probably thinks your reaction was really cute

Claire

- she often lends you pretty little boxes with cookies in them

- but when you have to give the box back to her, you get an idea

- you put a love letter in the empty box and give it back to Claire

- she discovers it in the evening when she opens the box, expecting to only find crumbs you left behind

- blinks a few times and closes the box

- opens it again and the letter is still inside

- she thinks "it wasn't a hallucination!"

- reads it really slowly because she has to stop at each sentence to calm herself down

- the next day she gives you the box again with the new cookies she baked yesterday

- runs away as soon as you take the box

- you open it and there's a letter on top of the cookies, it's a response to your letter!

- seems like she was too shy to tell you in person

- to fit the theme of the letter: the cookies are heart-shaped

- you guys keep on exchanging letters through the box and it becomes a habit between the two of you

Ellie

- since she doesn't have a roommate, you slide the letter through the small space under her door

- finds it on the floor when she gets back to her room

- OwO whats dis?

- opens it and reads it super quickly

- she's so giddy that she reads over it multiple times

- sends you text messages with lots of emojis in them

- "Thank youuu 💖💕💗 you sweetheart!!! 💘💝😍😊😘"

- builds a robot to deliver letters between the two of you

- it knocks on the door and if you don't open it to take the letter, it goes back to Ellie

- she teaches you how to use the robot!

- "Don't worry! If someone else snatches the letter away from the robot it'll activate an alarm on my phone! And it's not like we need to sign the letters, we can use codenames!"

- You remind her that she's the only one in the pure and applied sciences department to create cute robots like those

- "Ah whoops... well uh, to be fair everyone already knows that we're dating so... no need to hide it!"

Karolina

- she probably doesn't care much about love letters

- she always thought that it's childish and extremely ridiculous

- that is until you gave her one

- the really first time you gave the letter to her directly or else she wouldn't read it, not knowing that it was from you

- she's all proud of herself while reading it

- she agrees with each statement but still blushes

- "Of course I'm gorgeous! You didn't have to write that part..."

- she's actually a sucker for books, especially from the romance genre

- you make her feel like a heroine from one of those books and she's secretly really happy about it

- but she'll never admit that of course

- after a while she gets inspired and tries to write one herself

- she thinks "I'll show you how it's done!"

- ends up getting really embarrassed at the thought of you reading the letter and doesn't give it to you until the end of the year

Neha

- after multiple attempts you somehow managed to sneak the letter in one of her sketchbooks

- too bad you couldn't see the surprise on her face when she found your letter

- she wanted to work for a few hours and brainstorm ideas for some new outfits

- but her plans went out of the window

- she read it. Put it on the side and started thinking about you during a solid 20 minutes

- wants to thank you but doesn't know how to do it without sounding like a little kid

- decides to send you a text for now, but she'll also write you a letter later

- "Thank you a lot for the letter. I really appreciate it."

- thinks that maybe it's a little bit too cold so she adds a heart emoji at the end

- cringes to herself while sending it

- gets back to work but sometimes she draws your face on the side

- scribbles all over it when she realizes what she's doing

- "This is not professional! If I have to show my sketchbook to someone and they see this, they won't take me seriously..."

- decides to write you a letter first or else she won't be able to focus

Raquel

- This is a hard one

- Raquel always moves from place to place without stop so it's hard to be sneaky with her

- eventually you slip the letter in her bag but you don't know how much time it'll take for her to find it

- like you thought it took her a few days

- when she did, she was very vocal about it

- she ran to you and almost jumped on you

- hugs you and thanks you hundreds of times

- "I love you too!!! You're so sweet Y/N..."

- becomes much more flirty, she was already confident but now it's even worse (or better? 😌)

- puts the letter on the wall of her room and shows it off to Claire

- "Look at that Claire! It seems like my godly charm cannot be stopped."

- Raquel starts carefully checking her bag everyday in hopes of finding another letter from you

- and even when she doesn't find anything, it gets her into a working mood

- "Might as well do my homework I guess..."

- becomes much more responsible with homework now that she checks her bag everyday

- your love literally helped her to get better grades

Tadashi

- This was a risky mission

- you had to sneak into the student council room and leave it on his desk

- they had a meeting this afternoon and Tadashi has been in a bad mood lately

- Well, to be fair he's always done with everybody's BS but this time it was worse than usual

- he finds the letter and gets confused right away

- wants to read it but he's having a meeting

- he's really fidgety the whole time, for some reason he has a feeling that it's from you though he can't explain why

- once everyone leaves the room he opens the letter

- all of his stress dies down, he falls back on his chair and sighs

- goes to find you and brings you to the council room, he makes you sit on his chair

- you tell him that you can't be here but he smiles and answers "Oh? You say that now even though you snuck in earlier to give me a secret love letter of all things?"

- he teases you with endearment and massages your back to thank you

- asks you if you'll write more (because he loved it) and you promise to do so if he promises to take more breaks

Tegan

- Tegan often invites you to play videos games with him (or to marathon some shows/anime/movies/whatever)

- you left the letter behind for him but he didn't catch the drift

- goes to your room to give it back

- "Um... you forgot this, I think..."

- you tell him that it's for him

- "Wait, really? You can just text me, you know? It's quicker and way easier than writing letters."

- oooohhhh boy. He really doesn't get it, you have to spell it out

- "A l-love letter? For me!?"

- "Tegan. We're dating."

- "Oh right! Sorry... I always forget that, it seems like I'm in a dream..."

- reads it in front of you while you're paying close attention to his reactions

- and to no surprise: he's a blushing mess

- you're fully satisfied, all that time was worth it

- he says that he'll repay you with a "love text message" which sounds like he's being lazy, but really knowing how... "unique" his handwriting is, you're glad...

- but it was not just a text message.

- "Sorry, I went a bit overboard 🙏🙏"

- his text has a 23 pages long file attached to it

- he wrote a really really long essay explaining in details why you're "so awesome" and "the best person in the world"

Tyler

- after classes are over, when he's working on a new painting he spends almost all of his time in the art room

- that's when you strike!

- you know he has a habit of sitting in the corner of the room so that's where you leave the letter

- honestly, he was in a slump lately because he felt like he was doing a really half-assed job with his new art piece

- but your letter gave him so much motivation that he finished the painting in a day

- "This is crazy Y/N! Reading your letter gave me the same rush as drinking 5 monster drinks in the span of 2 hours!"

- "Uhhh... Please don't do that?"

- laughs at how worried you look and asks you to write more to give him strength

- you say no at first but he pulls out your letter out of his pocket and starts reading it out loud in the middle of the hallway

- "Ssshhh! People might hear!"

- "Yeah, so? That's kinda the point but if you promise to write me more I'll stop~"

- you know he's just teasing you but it's still so embarrassing...

- in the end you give in out of shame however you have no idea just how much this letter helped him

- whenever he feels down or like he's not good enough he pulls out one of your letters and reads it

- he keeps all of them safe in a box, they're his treasures

#sweet elite #se #main 10 #headcanons #requests #asks #hope you guys like it!

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banditthewriter · 5 years

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Limited Time Only - Billy Russo

Prompt: i’ve had this au stuck in my head. like billy is good and got his scars during his time in the marines and now has anvil and how he does security and what not. well this like pop princess or whatever hires anvil. she’s younger and like super pretty and he expects her to be shallow and judge his face but then they actually fall in love. i love when the reader makes billy feel better about his scars and the secret relationship trope with a client and their security Prompter: Anonymous

Okay so my requests aren’t open but this one came through and when I was about to politely decline, I had a burst of inspiration... oops!

Warning: Stalking, being filmed without consent, some violence.

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*gif is mine*

Enjoy!

*****

Billy Russo was good at his job. He had protected senators, CEOs, millionaires, and the general populace. He’s negotiated kidnappings, led retrieval jobs, been shot at and actually shot a few times. His face bore the remnants of his time in the Marines, scars from a mission that had gone belly up within the first ten minutes but he hadn’t called it quits.

He was a perfectionist. He was a professional. He was good at his job.

That’s why he had almost turned down the job that came across his desk. He’d never protected celebrities outside of events, and this would be something completely different. This felt more like glorified babysitting. The manager had told him that it would only be for a few weeks until a stalker was caught.

“I’m not sure Anvil is the best option for a stalker,” he had said slowly as he read over the information. “I can refer a few smaller companies that–”

“No offense, Mr Russo, but you’re the only company that we’re considering. If you’ll read all of the packet that you were sent, you’ll see that this maniac has broken into Miss Y/L/N’s apartment, has almost successfully kidnapped her, and sent her a box of snakes when she called the cops. This isn’t just a stalker; this man is a danger.”

Billy hadn’t flipped through the rest of the packet, actually. He had seen the name and the word stalker and had almost immediately lost interest.

“And Miss Y/L/N is aware that she will have a private security firm with her at all times. There’s very little privacy if I’m to secure her safety.”

The manager sighed, the noise loud over the line.

“So you’ll take the job?”

He was good at his job. He’d go as far as saying that he was the best.

“Anvil is at your service,” he said as he leaned back in his chair.

There was a first time for everything.

------

The weather was about as dreary as you felt. You listened to your manager talk about the new security team that he had hired for your protection while you were in the city.

“The head of the company will be here shortly to go over some ground rules and talk to you about your schedule,” he said as he flipped through the mail that had been x-rayed already. “We have a stack of fanmail to bring you. And if we’re not able to get to the recording studio, you’ll need to do some camera work here.”

“I thought we said no cameras? Anything that can give my location,” you reminded Grady as he flipped through your mail some more.

“Then just do an audio recording,” he said with a shrug. “We can’t lose the momentum that we have after your tour. We need to keep your name out there and since you refuse to publish that you’re being stalked–”

“I’m not making this guy famous for terrorizing me,” you shot back as you stood up and marched towards the kitchen. “And I’m not getting publicity from this. I’ve told you that already.”

Grady held his hands up in surrender. When the doorbell rang, he waved off your look of worry as he headed towards the door.

“Now remember what I told you about the head of the company,” he said with a gesture towards his face. He opened the door and gave what you had dubbed his television smile. “Mr Russo, glad to see you can be punctual. Come in.”

The man came in, giving a nod to Grady. He looked around the apartment, but didn’t even look at you twice.

“My guys are going to come in and get a feel for the layout if that’s alright. They won’t mess with anything, but they need to know all points of entry in the apartment.”

“Feel free,” you said with a wave of your hand, earning a second glance from him.

He nodded a bit, ushering his guys in. He gave them their orders which included having one stand outside of your apartment door. While the others made their way around your apartment, Mr Russo walked over to where you were standing.

“Miss Y/L/N, I’m Billy Russo, head of Anvil.”

“Just call me Y/N, please,” you said as you accepted his hand. “So you’re in charge of keeping me safe?”

He raised an eyebrow before he gave a stiff nod.

“Our first point of action is to make sure that the apartment is secure. Once we’re done with that, we’ll need to talk about your schedule. I see from what your manager sent that you have an interview that you were going to do, but I don’t know if that’s a good idea. It’s available to the public and it’s all over the internet which means your biggest fan knows about it.”

Mr Russo turned away from you at one point to address one of his guys. While he did, you gave yourself permission to study the man. You hadn’t immediately noticed how attractive the man was, but it was obvious now. Not even the scars on his face could distract you from it. His dark eyes were intent and alert, moving over every inch of the room he was in. You watched his lips as he spoke them, followed the line of his jaw and the length of his neck. His hair was slicked back, longer on top than on the sides.

You felt something buzzing under your skin, your fingers itching. You made your way over to the notebook on your coffee table, plucking up the pencil you kept beside it.

You wrote a few lines, tapping your pencil on the page to a beat in the back of your head.

“Ah, writing? Good, if you can’t do anything else that I’ve asked, at least you can work on a new song,” Grady said as he came back into the room. “Mr Russo, if you have issues with her doing the interview, we’re going to need to come up with an alternative plan. Miss Y/L/N can’t stay cooped up in this apartment until the man is caught. She’s an artist and needs to be out with her fans.”

“I would think she would need to be safe more,” Mr Russo said in a dry tone.

“Grady,” you cautioned with a shake of your head, “I think we should defer to the professional here. If we have to shift some things around for the next few weeks, that’s not much to ask in the grand scheme. I did just finish a fourteen month long tour.”

Grady sighed, pulling his phone out.

“I’ll get on it,” he said as he left the apartment, shutting the door behind him with a soft click.

“Wasn’t sure which of you were in charge,” Mr Russo said as he turned to look at where you were perched on the edge of the couch. “My guys have pointed out a few weaknesses in the security here, so we’re going to install some upgrades. It’ll be a bit noisy here for the rest of the day.”

You shrugged a shoulder and picked up a pair of noise cancelling headphones you had on the shelf of the coffee table.

“You guys can do what you need. If anyone needs me, just tap me on the shoulder.”

Mr Russo seemed surprised by that. You pulled the headphones on and plugged them into your phone. You hesitated just a moment too long in playing any music and you were just barely able to catch him say something.

“–not what I expected.”

You tugged the headphones down around your neck, giving him a strange look.

“What was that?”

He cleared his throat, obviously unaware that you had heard him the first time.

“I said that you’re not what I expected.”

You smiled as you leaned back on the couch a bit. He shifted his weight from foot to foot, but you noticed there was a certain center of gravity that kept him steady at all times.

“What’d you expect? A spoiled princess who was going to make your life hell?”

“Honestly? Yes,” he said with a laugh, not a trace of shame on his face. “I guess I expected some primadona that was going to do everything in her power to make me regret taking this job.”

You grinned as you grabbed your headphones once more.

“Sorry to disappoint you Mr Russo,” you teased as you tugged the headphones back onto your head, “but I’m just a normal girl that got lucky.”

This time you started to play your music, drowning out anything he might have said to that.

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“Miss Y/L/N,” a familiar voice called from the living room, “there’s something that you need to see.”

You crossed the length of the office that you had set up a small recording studio in. Once in the living room, you saw that Mr Russo was holding what looked like a DVD case in his hand.

“What’s that?”

He gestured to the television. On it was a night vision video of someone sleeping in a bed. It took you a few moments to recognize yourself. And it took even longer to recognize that that was a hotel room from the tour.

“What the hell?”

Mr Russo fast forwarded the video a bit. There were more like that, images of you sleeping in various hotel rooms. Some of the videos showed you changing and Russo was went forward quicker for your sake. And then there was a video of you in bed, legs spread, your hand–

The screen went dark. Mr Russo put the remote down, reaching up to tap on the wire in his ear.

“Jameson, I want you to check the security footage. This was delivered to the building and I want to know who brought it. Franklin, I want you to get a list from Grady of any of the hotels that Miss Y/L/N had stayed in for her tour. I want to know how these videos were taken. On the double.”

You sat down heavily on the ottoman that was thankfully nearby. You weren’t sure you could have stood for much longer.

“It’s never going to end, is it?”

He dropped down to one knee next to you, reaching out to grab your hand.

“We’re going to figure it out and we’re going to catch him,” he promised with a confidence you were eager to believe. “You’re safe here. I’m going to keep you safe.”

You nodded, your eyes falling from his face to his hand on yours.

“I thought I was safe in those hotels. We always used fake names, I always had a decoy car so that no one would know where I was going. I thought I was safe. This… this guy saw things. That video showed me changing, showed me… I feel violated.”

“That’s how he wants you to feel. He wants you to feel like he can get to you anywhere. But that stops now, okay? He’s not going to get that close again.”

You let out a watery laugh, reaching up to wipe away the tears that had started to well up in your eyes.

“Thank you Mr Russo,” you said with a small sniffle.

He squeezed your hand before he stood up. He moved over to grab a box of tissues and moved back to where you were sitting.

“Call me Billy,” he said pointedly as he shook the box to get your attention.

You hesitated before you took a tissue.

“Billy. Okay. But only if you actually call me Y/N. Don’t think I haven’t noticed that you still call me Miss Y/L/N,” you teased as you wiped your nose.

“Alright. Y/N.” He smiled, the action making his scars pull a bit.

It wasn’t fair that something so simple, a smile, could make your heart speed up.

“I should probably call Grady. He needs to know,” you said as you gestured to the blank screen, wincing at the reminder of the last thing that had played. “And uh, if you could pretend you didn’t see anything?”

“Don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said as he grabbed the DVD case and handed it to you. “I just saw a few clips of you sleeping.”

He turned to head towards the door, that smile still on his lips.

“Thanks Billy,” you said, testing the name out for the first time.

He hesitated next to the door, turning his head just enough to see that the smile had somehow intensified.

“You’re welcome Y/N.”

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“Ah, I’ve got–shit, ow! I’ve got it!”

You were on the floor. You weren’t sure how you got there, but you were on the floor. There was a creak nearby and you turned your head in time to catch a grin from Billy.

“You’re drunk,” he said as he stared down at you.

“I dropped my pencil,” you said as you held it up in victory, “but I found it!”

He shook his head and knelt down next to you.

“I don’t think this was covered in my protection detail,” he said as he looked you over. “Keeping you safe from your stalker, sure, but protecting you from your own bad decisions?”

“Hey!” You pointed the pencil at him, not even noticing when he tugged it from your fingers so that you didn’t accidentally stab him. “This wasn’t a bad decision. There’s a video of me getting myself off that’s being spread around the internet. I’m allowed to want to drown my liver.”

Billy sighed and grabbed you around your middle, tugging you up. Then he hefted you onto the couch.

“Your manager got the video taken down,” he started, but you let out a snort.

“Yeah, like that’s gonna stop it. I had to delete Twitter because of how many notifications I was getting.”

Billy sat down beside you. You couldn’t help but think that this was the first time he’d been this close to you.

“Did you watch it?” At his curious look, you gestured at the television across the room. “You turned it off that day, but it’s on the internet. Have you watched the whole thing?”

He shook his head, meeting your eyes.

“I wouldn’t do that to you. I don’t get on the internet much as it is, but I wouldn’t do that to you.”

It was nice. You felt that buzz under your skin, the same one that you got when you knew you needed to write something. This was telling you something else though. You leaned forward into his personal space, grinning when he didn’t even twitch. Your hand went to his knee, sliding up a little bit on his thigh.

“Would you like to see it in person?”

His face didn’t change.

“You’re drunk.”

You shrugged a shoulder, your hand sliding a little higher up his thigh. When he didn’t move, you leaned back a bit and let your hand drift down your stomach towards your shorts.

“C’mon don’t you wanna–”

His hand wrapped around your wrist, tugging your hand away from your body and pressing it against the couch. Your heart started to pound, curious and aroused, but he simply stood up and took a step away from the couch.

“It’s my job to protect you. If that means I have to protect your from yourself, I will. Drink some water, take some aspirin, and go to bed.”

You narrowed your eyes at him. Then you stood up, pushing past him and away from the couch. You needed to put some space between you and the rejection.

Of course he’d reject you. What would he want with a spoiled popstar? What would he care about a musician? He was a military man, a businessman. He probably dated CEOs or models or–

“It’s not that,” he said, drawing your attention to the fact that you had said all of that out loud.

“I don’t need a breakdown of it Mr Russo,” you said as you turned to face him, blinking when you realized he had followed you across the living room. “It’s fine. You’re here to do a job, right? Here to protect me. It’s fine, it’s great, you’re doing a great job.”

You said that last bit with a bit of a hiccup, the alcohol and your emotions building in your chest. You felt anger building too, itching it’s way to the top of your throat.

“You’re doing such a good job protecting me, right? I mean, the entire world got to see me with my fingers in my pussy, but sure, I’m safe.”

You spun back away from him, marching towards your bedroom. When you slammed the door, it made the pictures on the walls rattle. There was nothing but silence on the other side. You stayed there for the longest time, half hoping he would knock on the door, but in the distance you heard the front door open and shut.

Alone. That’s what you were good at. That’s what you were going to always be. Alone.

You let out a pathetic laugh, tears building in your eyes. There was a song in that, wasn’t there? Maybe you’d have to scrap the song you were working on about the man that made your heart beat fast and settle for a song about being alone in a crowded room.

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“Fuck,” you groaned as you rubbed your forehead, tucking your face into your arm as you half curled up on the counter. “I’m never drinking again.”

“I find that people never mean that,” you heard a voice say from behind you.

You winced at the voice. Not just because it was a little louder than you would have liked, but because it was Billy. You weren’t drunk enough to have forgotten the embarrassment the night before. It played on repeat in your head all night in technicolor.

Usually when he was there at night, he was gone for the morning shift. He didn’t come by every day, but he did take shifts with the other Anvil employees that watched you. And while they usually stayed outside of the apartment, Billy was the only one that ever felt comfortable being in there with you.

You really wished he didn’t feel comfortable. You wished he had left in the morning like he usually did. You wished… you wished…

“I really don’t need a lecture today,” you mumbled into the crook of your arm.

“Good thing I’m not here to lecture you then.” You could hear him shift around a bit before he spoke again. “How much do you remember from last night?”

All of it. You remembered every painful moment of it. Flirting with him, touching him and then touching yourself. You remembered his hand on your wrist, the hope in your chest that was extinguished in an instant. The rejection.

You were just a job for him. He was just there to protect you.

“I–”

“Mr Russo,” a voice called from outside of the door with a knock, before it opened to reveal a member of Anvil, “there’s a gentleman downstairs that says he knows who released the video. He wants to speak with you.”

Billy gave a tight nod to his employee. When the door was shut and the two of you were alone again, he turned back to look at you. You had sat up at the revelation, and with Billy looking at you like that? You wanted to curl back up.

“You should go check on that,” you said as you gestured to the door with your chin. “It’s your job, right?”

He stood up a bit straighter, giving you a tense nod before he turned around on his heel. You watched him head to the door, fighting back the urge to call his name.

Maybe this was almost over. Maybe your stalker would be caught soon and you’d be safe to return to your life from before.

Maybe you wouldn’t have much more time with Billy.

You didn’t want to think about that.

------

“We’ll get you outside and into the car,” Billy said from beside you, his eyes scanning the crowd of screaming fans that had gathered outside of the building. “I’d like to know who told the world that you were coming here today.”

It was supposed to be a short trip to the recording studio to do something for the song you had been working on. Billy had said it wasn’t a good idea, but you were tired of being cooped up. When he had relented into letting you go, he had said it would be a good idea for it to just be the two of you. He had his men on standby at least.

“I can’t even see the car,” you said as you tugged your hood down a bit, turning so that they couldn’t get photos of you. “How are we going to get out there in this? It’s never been like this before.”

Billy gestured towards the glass doors where you could see men in Anvil uniforms coming up.

“They’ll get the crowd under control,” he said with a nod, “and then we’ll have to make a break for it. Stick close to me, don’t pause for pictures or autographs. You can be the media darling once we’re sure your stalker isn’t out there with them.”

You nodded, hugging your arms around your chest.

“I guess you were right about this being a bad idea Mr Russo,” you said quietly as you turned away from the door completely.

He didn’t react to the name. Ever since the night you’d gotten drunk, you’d made a habit of keeping that distance between the two of you. It was for your sake as much as it was his. You didn’t want to put him back in that position.

And it was easier to pretend you hadn’t started to fall for him if you reminded yourself that he was just there to protect you. It was just a job to him. He was a professional.

Once Anvil had the crowd controlled and separated enough to get through, Billy wrapped his arm around you and led you to the door.

“Just stay close to me,” he whispered into your ear before he pushed the door open.

The two of you moved together, tucked in close as the raging fans pushed closer and closer. At some point you heard a yell of ‘get back’ right before you felt the swell of the crowd start to close in behind you. They must have broken through the barriers, deciding to take the chance.

Fans were touching your sleeves, your legs. Billy kept his arm around you, but at one point you felt someone grab your wrist. They were begging for a photo and you were yanked sideways, your arm aching immediately. As you tried to tell them that you had to leave, you felt something sharp and hot through your side.

“Billy!”

He was there in an instant, pushing the phone down and dragging you the last few feet to the car. He pushed you into the back seat before he joined you. You were about to ask how he was going to drive from the backseat but you realized someone was in the front seat already.

“Drive. And someone is going to answer for letting the barricades fall,” Billy barked out as he turned to watch the crowd start to grow smaller as his employee raced out of the lot. “We were ambushed. I lost her at one point, do you realize what could have happened?”

“Billy?”

“I want an after action from every person out there. I want a minute to minute description of what happened. I need to know exactly–”

“BILLY!”

He stopped his tirade and turned to look at you. You saw him gauge the look on your face before he looked down to where you had your hand pressed to your side. Red was starting to seep through your fingers.

“Fuck. Hospital, now!”

He pulled your hand away to look at the cut, swearing again. He yanked his jacket off to ball up and press against the wound, holding the pressure there.

“When did this happen? Why didn’t you–”

“I didn’t realize until we were in the car,” you said through gritted teeth as you leaned back, the pain stretching with you. “Was it bad? I think the adrenaline kept me from feeling most of it.”

“Looked pretty deep,” he admitted as he looked through the windshield, checking to see where you were. “Not long now, we’re almost at the hospital. You’ll probably just need stitches.”

You nodded, closing your eyes for a second as you tried to brace through the pain. It burned. The only comparison you could think of was like a papercut, only so much more.

“It takes you being stabbed to call me Billy again?”

You opened your eyes in startled realization. You had called him Billy, hadn’t you? A glance to him showed that he looked worried, but there was something else there too. Something more.

“Caught up in the moment, I guess,” you said with a wince of pain.

“I prefer Billy to Mr Russo. From you at least,” he added with a strained smile as he applied a little more pressure against your side.

“I need it to be Mr Russo,” you admitted with a ragged inhale, deciding you might as well admit it now. “I need the reminder that you’re just protecting me. That I’m just a job to you.”

You didn’t miss the subtle shake of his head. He leaned in close to you, his eyes darting up to where his employee was breaking countless laws to get you to the hospital in a hurry.

“You’re not just a job to me. You haven’t been for some time.”

Oh. A new type of heat started to spread in your stomach. You turned to look at Billy, tried to figure out if he was saying what you thought he was, but the car jolted to a stop. The driver turned around and looked at the two of you with wide eyes.

“We’re here,” he said a moment before the door was opened.

You were ushered out by some nurses, having been called by someone on Billy’s payroll. When you looked behind you, you saw Billy standing helplessly next to the car before the doors closed behind you.

------

The stitches itched, but you kept your hand away from them. You had gotten back to your apartment at almost midnight, your body aching and sore from being up for over twenty four hours. The stress and excitement had finally gotten to you.

Billy had left to go talk to his men about what happened in the hopes that someone had seen the attacker. You’d only found that out through the guy that he had left in charge while he was gone.

His words in the car made you unsure where you stood. You weren’t just a job to him, sure, but that didn’t mean he wanted you. Maybe he considered the two of you to be friends. Would it be so bad to be friends with Billy?

God, yes, it would be horrible. To be close to him and not have him? It would be torture. You were sure you’d rather be stabbed again.

“Y/N?”

You paused as you started to lift the sweater over your head. You limped towards the living room where Billy was standing. His eyes met yours and you tried not to show how badly you were shaking.

“Did you catch him?”

He shook his head, dropping his jacket onto the floor. He crossed the distance in a few strides, his hands coming up to frame your face. You had only a few seconds to prepare yourself before his lips were on yours. It felt like he was trying to devour you, his mouth crushed against yours. His hands moved to your sides, one hand pressed ever so gently against the gauze on your side. His other hand tugged you closer, pressed your body along his.

“So that’s what you meant by me not being just a job,” you whispered against his lips, fighting back a smile.

“The reason I stopped you that night was because you were drunk and I wasn’t sure if you meant it. I thought you were just looking for something to distract yourself and I didn’t want that to be me. I didn’t want to get only part of you. Not when I want the whole damn thing.”

You clenched your fist in the front of his shirt, tugging him down into another kiss.

“Idiot,” you chided fondly, kissing his jaw as you did. “It’s yours. Whatever you want, it’s yours. As long as I get you in return.”

He gave you that grin that set your soul on fire.

“Deal.”

------

You were tracing your fingers over Billy’s face, the scars uneven. His eyebrows furrowed a bit and he opened one eye to look at you.

“I thought they’d disgust you,” he admitted quietly.

“Why would they disgust me?”

He shrugged a shoulder as he closed his eye once more.

“I see the stares I get. I know what people think.”

You smiled and leaned up, pressing a kiss to the scar on his jaw. Then the next. And the next. You kissed each scar until he rolled the two of you over, his mouth descending upon yours with a smile.

“When are you going to realize that I’m not like other people?”

He laughed as he kissed you again, his hands careful on your side even as he moved between your legs once more.

“Think I’m starting to get the memo,” he teased as he got you ready for a second round.

------

They did finally catch your stalker. He admitted that he had gotten access to you from your manager who hadn’t thought you’d actually be in danger with Anvil at your side. He just wanted to generate some buzz, keep your name in the news.

Once you fired Grady, you made another decision. It was a long time coming.

Billy walked into the apartment, frowning when he saw you packing a suitcase. He crossed his arms over his chest, a protective gesture if ever you saw one.

“You leaving?”

You smiled as you dropped the shirt you were folding. You made your way over to Billy and put your hands on his shoulders, lifting yourself up so that you could give him a kiss.

“I never wanted to be a popstar. I like writing music, but I’m not big on performing. That tour I just did? It just made me see how much I don’t want that to be my life. So I’m going to become a songwriter instead.”

Billy nodded slowly, his hands going to your hips. His left hand went immediately to your side, his thumb running across the scar from your attack.

“And that requires you to pack a bag?”

You laughed and looked over at where you had been packing.

“This apartment is in the record label’s name. Since I’m going to be my own person, I’ve decided to get my own place. It’s not far from your place, actually,” you added with a grin.

He leaned in and brushed his lips against yours.

“I’ve got a few ideas how we can christen your new place,” he teased as his lips went over your neck.

You couldn’t wait.

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Disruptor Designer and her Model, day 19

19. Love Letters

He’d only worked about two weeks as Marinette’s assistant-slash-manager, and he already loved it. A non-stressful work environment, working with Marinette to do anything she needed, and starring beside her in videos. And of course, being with her a lot, but that was just a bonus.

Today, Marinette said she was going through fanmail, and Adrien knew from her fanmail videos that it was a task and a half.

But of course, a wrench was tossed into those plans. Yesterday, his apartment gave him notice that they were coming in to do an inspection check and fix the dripping sink in the bathroom. However, he knew from previous experience that when workers enter his apartment, they didn’t shut the door and Plagg played escape artist. Adrien had spent a couple hours searching for his cat that day, only to yell at the office for not warning the workers to close the door once he did find the cat.

That had not been a fun day.

So, Marinette had been the one to suggest bringing Plagg over. “Because if things keep going the way they are…”

She hadn’t had to finish that sentence. He could hear the blush on her face and knew what she was implying. Tikki and Plagg would be living together.

“Please behave,” Adrien whispered to Plagg, who was less than thrilled being in the cat carrier.

He growled.

“And please don’t do that,” he warned the cat as he knocked on Marinette’s apartment door.

When she opened it, he saw she had Tikki on a leash. “Hey, so, I think that since we’re introducing Plagg into this environment, that Plagg kinda gets free roam of the house and I’ll keep Tikki leashed. I don’t think she’ll mind if I’m holding her or anything like that. That way, since this is all new for Plagg, we don’t stress him out by trapping him or confining him or anything.”

“That’s a good plan,” he said, walking through the door.

He set Plagg’s carrier down facing out into the open living room of the apartment while Marinette held Tikki at a distance on the leash. It was clear the spaniel wanted to go greet the new guest, but Marinette held her back.

“Do you want to open Plagg’s carrier?”

Adrien unzipped the front, allowing Plagg the freedom to step out. Not that he did. Plagg’s green eyes were wide and pupils narrow, focused on Tikki.

That was how the first part of the morning was spent, slowly introducing the two pets together. They didn’t expect it to be perfect, but luckily for everyone, things went very smoothly. Plagg eventually stepped out of his carrier and started observing his surroundings, keeping an eye on Tikki all the while. Tikki whined and whimpered, wanting to go greet the cat, but Marinette didn’t let her.

“You’re a good girl, Tikki,” she said over and over while Plagg made a tentative home for himself on the couch. Only then did Marinette let Tikki get closer.

Plagg’s eyes widened, and he shifted, but he didn’t move from his spot.

“Okay,” Marinette said, picking up Tikki. “That’s pretty good progress for the day. I can keep Tikki leashed by the table while we open up the fanmail.”

Adrien glanced over at the pile that was way bigger than he expected.

“Yeah, it’s small today,” she said.

“You say your table overflowing with letters and packages is small?”

She hummed and nodded. “There are times it extends to the floor. But that’s what happens when you only do this every other month.”

He shook his head. “Well, we should get started.”

Adrien managed the camera as Marinette opened the letters one by one, read them, thanked some people, and made comments to the camera about definitely including those, which Adrien wrote down and set aside those letters so he’d remember.

Throughout the process, Adrien was glancing over at Plagg, who had decided to jump off the couch and investigate Tikki.

“Sorry,” Marinette whispered to the camera. “If I seem distracted, it is because Adrien is here behind the camera and his cat is visiting. And it’s the first time Tikki and Adrien’s cat, Plagg, are meeting.”

She then motioned for Adrien to move the camera toward the animals. Tikki was at the end of her leash that Marinette had tied to the chair, her tail wagging up a storm and her ears perked forward with interest as Plagg slowly approached.

About three feet away, Plagg slowly sat down, staring down Tikki.

Tikki’s excitement only grew.

They watched for a moment longer as Plagg ever so slowly lowered himself to the ground and curled his paws underneath his chest.

So far, so good.

“Okay,” Marinette said, motioning for Adrien to move the camera back to her. “I think things are looking good. Keep an eye on them, Adrien.”

He nodded. “You got it.”

She continued opening up letters, Adrien continuing to keep an eye on the two pets having a stare off. Tikki threw out a whimper every once in a while because she wanted the cat, but Marinette would distract her with treats and encouragements.

Marinette got to the last letter, reading it out, only for Adrien to get jealous of each word. Marinette had gotten a few love letters before, but this one was as intense as could be without being obscene.

When she finished and looked toward the camera to give a response, Adrien got up, moving behind Marinette and draping his arms over her. “Sorry, dude,” he told the camera. “She’s mine.”

Marinette giggled, reaching up to grab hold of his arms. “Uh-oh. Someone’s jealous.”

“I will protect the honor of my lady.”

Marinette only giggled further.

“Should you challenge me to a duel, I’ll have no choice but to defeat you.”

“Adrien,” Marinette said, her laughs loud and free. “Stop it.”

He grumbled. “Fine.” He squeezed her tight, pressed a kiss to her cheek, and then hid behind the camera again.

“Sorry, Theo,” she said, referencing the letter. “I’m already a taken woman, but I’m flattered, anyway.”

…

“Hey,” Marinette said once the filming was finished and the camera was off. “You’re not really jealous, are you?”

Adrien sighed. “No,” he said, reaching out to grab her hips and pull her closer. “No, I know you’re mine and that those are just fans. I know I don’t have any reason to be jealous.”

“But you are?”

“I was when I heard some of those love letters. Particularly, that last one.”

Marinette gave him a soft, sweet smile. “I know you know this,” she said, reaching up to cradle his cheeks in her hands. “But you know you never have to be jealous. You’re the man I’m dating. I love you.”

“I know,” he assured, tugging her closer still. “I know. I love you.”

Marinette stood on her tiptoes to kiss him, and Adrien eagerly responded. This was his woman, after all. He had sole rights to do that.

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