#love u all and stay healthy - drink water - talk to ur friends!

[heyitsmejona]

"They tried to put her on the cover of VOGUE, but her legs were too long."

#guild wars 2 #gw2 art #my art #it is jona #she grew up so fast *cries #i have been barely active the last few monts bcus of work and some life stuff happened #*months by god my english derailed too #i am doing .... okayish #this is actually my first digital art piece since a looong while i barely have time nor the enegy to draw these days #but feel free to use this as inspo! would love to see more commanders/charas on journal covers #love u all and stay healthy - drink water - talk to ur friends!

[baekhvuns]

IM SO IPSET RN I ALRDY TYPED A LONG ASS ASK AND THEN TUMLR DECIDED TO CRASH DKJFLSJLKSD i forgot what i wrote alrdy pleek my memory is worse than dorys'

anyways

HIIII i am here bcs i forgot i sent an ask a day ago lmfao im sorry BUT IM HERE

I FINISHED BRIDGWRTON S2 AND PENELOPE IS SO FUCKIGN ANNOYING ESP THE LAST 2 EPS DFJSJKFHSKJDF AND THE NEXT SEASON IS HERS :< NEWTON THE DOGGY IS SAUR CUTE AAAAAAAAAA WANT TO SMOOCH ngl i was waiting for the featheringtons downfall but lord featherington being kicked out is okay ig AHSHASKJHAKJSH also everytime the queen uses the sniffy stuff it makes mY NOSE ITCH SO BAD

cant believe edmund died bcs of a bee,, JDFHKSHSHF but anthonys side was kind of sad esp bc all those responsibilities were given to him so early and suddenly,, didnt even have time to grieve and mourn :<<

collin is a dumb bitch (2)

KATE IS SO PRETTY AAAAAAAAA ID DO ANYTHING FOR HER,, IT TOOK THEM 8(?) FUCKING EPISODES TO SAY I LOVE YOU edwina looks so,, polite SHAKJSHDKAHS if u get what i mean,,

i do this thing where after i watch a series or movie i binge watch interviews of the cast and bloopers/ behind the scenes clips JLDJLSJLKAA

HOW ARE U MISS BAEKHVUNS<333 HOPE URE DOING WELL, STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY ALWAYS

ive been rereading duke hwa,, uhm quite a lot AHAHSHASHASHHAH am i fine idk i think im okay AHa

-🍤

hello hi!

IM SO IPSET RN I ALRDY TYPED A LONG ASS ASK AND THEN TUMLR DECIDED TO CRASH DKJFLSJLKSD i forgot what i wrote alrdy pleek my memory is worse than dorys'

NAURRRRRRR 😭😭😭🤚🏼

anyways HIIII i am here bcs i forgot i sent an ask a day ago lmfao im sorry BUT IM HERE I FINISHED BRIDGWRTON S2 AND PENELOPE IS SO FUCKIGN ANNOYING ESP THE LAST 2 EPS DFJSJKFHSKJDF AND THE NEXT SEASON IS HERS :< NEWTON THE DOGGY IS SAUR CUTE AAAAAAAAAA WANT TO SMOOCH ngl i was waiting for the featheringtons downfall but lord featherington being kicked out is okay ig AHSHASKJHAKJSH also everytime the queen uses the sniffy stuff it makes mY NOSE ITCH SO BAD

NO FUCKING LITERALLY I HATE PENELOPE WITH A PASSION SHE JEOPARDIZED HER FRIENDSHIP WITH ELOISE BUT NOW SHES GONNA MARRY HIS BRO??? FUCK NO HELL JO FHWKFHWK newton 😭😭😭😭 HES SO CUTE PLS LIL CORGI FFBFB no bc i was lowkey shopping lord featherington with the and pen’s mom..

cant believe edmund died bcs of a bee,, JDFHKSHSHF but anthonys side was kind of sad esp bc all those responsibilities were given to him so early and suddenly,, didnt even have time to grieve and mourn :<<

LMFAOOOO UR SO RIGHT FBFBFB 😭😭 the season should’ve been named “struggles of the oldest child ft. anthony” JFBCKAVCK no bc he had to chose between saving his mom and the baby (???) so extremely sad his storyline was rly well written

collin is a dumb bitch (2)

absolutely.

KATE IS SO PRETTY AAAAAAAAA ID DO ANYTHING FOR HER,, IT TOOK THEM 8(?) FUCKING EPISODES TO SAY I LOVE YOU edwina looks so,, polite SHAKJSHDKAHS if u get what i mean,,

FBWNDBWK RIGHT I WOULD TOO THE COLOUR OF HER DRESSES ON HER 😩😩 no bc edwina looks polite but she looks like “the too sweet to be real” always got something in her hair ABSOLUTELY HATE HER FBFB

i do this thing where after i watch a series or movie i binge watch interviews of the cast and bloopers/ behind the scenes clips JLDJLSJLKAA

I DO THE SAME PLS FBRKWHDMW CHECKIMG THEIR PROFILES AND SOCIALS AND AGES AND GETTING OBSESSED WITH THEM no bc of british acc comes out of no where

HOW ARE U MISS BAEKHVUNS<333 HOPE URE DOING WELL, STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY ALWAYS

I VERY WELL MISS SHRIMP HOW ARE YOU!! HOPE UR DOING WELL SERIOUSLY DRINK WATER OKAY 😭😭

ive been rereading duke hwa,, uhm quite a lot AHAHSHASHASHHAH am i fine idk i think im okay AHa

2/2 I REMEMBER NOW I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE ACTRESS PLAYING ELOISE sHES IN HER 30s😭😭😭 I REFUSE TO BELIEVE SHEKFKWKD SHE LOOKS LIKE SHE SIN HER EARLY 20s or maybe thats because shes playing a role of an 18 year old in bridgerton BUT😭😭😭 AND ALSO HER LIL BOY space FRIEND

I REGUSE TO BELIEVE SHE’S 21+ WTF IS GOING ON SHE LOOKS LIKE 20YO 😭😭😭😭😭 HER LIL BOY IS SO CUTE I SHIP THEM SO MUCH 😭😭😭

the looks the new lord featherington were giving to pens mom was😟 PLEASE😭😭😭 AND ALSO HIM AND i forgot pens older sisters name WAS ABOUT TO BE MARRIED😭 AND THEYRE COUSINS i mean it WAS common to marry ur cousin, sibling, mom even, at that time BUT😟

no bc why were they kinda good together 👁👄👁,,,,, FBQKDBKQBDWK THE BRITISH TOOK FAMILY MARRIAGE TOO SERIOUSLY

was kinda sad the duke wasnt in s2😔 BUT THEIR BABY IS SAUR CUTE did i mention newton alrdy in the prev ask i forgot lmfao my brain capacity is only 4gb😎 BUT THE DOGGY IS SAUR CUTE

omf yeah i was expecting him in there but the kid’s absolutely adorable dbdb FBWNDHEJ NEWTON >>>> EVERY SINGLE CHARACTER IN BRIGDERTON

#✉️ : ask #🍤 anon

[linorangge]

Jackson as Your Boyfriend ! <3

(keep in mind this is a head canon !) requested by anon :)

how you met:

- u were actually a model for his brand team wang

- u kept everything v professional nd he always complimented u among other models abt how well u guys did

- he was a good, respectful ceo

- u modeled for his brand since its release

- u were admired by him

- nd of course he was admired by you

- one day you guys bumped into each other at a restaurant while u were both out with some friends

- you both had a nice conversation about the food there and then went on with your day

- your friends were like “omg he's hot how do yk him ??”

- nd u were like “,,,,, he's the ceo of the company I model for” 

- one of ur friends heard “ceo” and pulled up to Jackson’s table nd tried to flirt with him

- nd jackson was like “actually I have a crush on ur friend lolz”

- so ur friend goes back to ur table like 🧍‍♀️

- nd ur like “?????”

- “he has a crush on u”

- “DEADASS?????”

- u and Jackson said nothing to each other the rest of the night

- the next day at work he was like

-”sorry abt what I said yesterday I was a bit tipsy”

- “its ok !! however if the offer stands....”

- “hm?”

- “I wouldn't say no to a date with u”

- he was like “OH”

- nd then u guys went on with ur day

- until a secretary delivered a note to u

- nd it was from Jackson

- the note read “ 9pm, ill pick u up friday”

- u were ecstatic but nervous

- skip to friday

- he got ur address from the secretary

- so he picked u up from ur house

- u guys were both well dressed

- he took u to a fancy restaurant

- u guys sipped expensive wine and ate 50 dollar salads

- u were very intimidated by him but u tried ur best to carry out the conversation

- eventually he broke you in with his charming personality 

- he made you laugh the whole night

- u both talked abt your experiences in the clothing business and how it led you to where you are now

- you guys hit it off rlly well

- at the end of the night he walked u to ur front door nd kissed u

- you both made sure to never speak of the date in order to keep work professional

- despite this though he still texted you daily and would occasionally ask you on more dates

- eventually during a date at his place he asked you if you wanted to be something more, start taking this whole thing u had going seriously

- Jackson was more serious abt relationships, he had a lot on the line nd if he wasn’t careful, a scandal could rlly mess with his career

- he explained this to u

- nd u understood

- you liked him enough to take a chance of having something serious with him

- nd if he was willing to take a chance with u too, you must’ve been special to him

- and so, the relationship began

Jackson as your boyfriend:

- he’s his usual out going self ofc

- when he sees ur down he tries his best to make u laugh

- u send him pictures of urself modeling his clothes nd he enjoys it sm

- sometimes when u haven't sent one in a while

- he texts u

- nd he’s like

- “how are my clothes ?? 👀”

- “hold on”

- nd u send the photos nd he showers u with compliments

- also

- compliments u on literally anything nd everything u do

- “u look so pretty when u drink water”

- “when my gf looks hot just breathing”

- “when my gf”

- he’s so loving pls

- calls u quite a few pet names

- mostly baby girl nd princess

- unironically calls u “boo” or “my boo”

- he shows u off quite a bit on social media

- he usually covers ur face or takes pics without ur face in it

- otherwise

- he takes a bunch of pictures of u when u don't notice

- u could be sitting next to him literally doing nothing

- nd he’ll just snap pics nd ur like

-”bro stop”

- nd he’s like “no❤️”

- hmmm

- pda

- he doesn’t rlly do it at all

- bc of gossip nd dispatch nd the press he doesn’t like to do pda much

- he’ll hold ur hand every now nd then but that’s it

- in private

- he showers u with kisses nd hugs

- he likes to cuddle a lot when ur alone

- lowkey likes to b little spoon but he would never admit it

- he’s rlly affectionate

- butt slaps

- u do it back to him nd he’s like 😐

- he likes to play with ur hair

- probably take showers together

- u cook a lot for him nd it makes him feel special

- u stay over at each other’s places a lot

- also u guys share clothes a lot

- probably buys u lingerie

- u guys shop together

- u guys buy each other self care things

- you know each other very well

- u guys talk on the phone a lot when ur not spending time together

- he’s a bit protective of u

- a bit of the jealous type? but not overly possessive

- he’s just afraid to lose you for the most part

- he worries abt u a lot

- you hang out with him nd the sevens quite a bit

- usually u guys drink together nd then go home

- u guys get a long well tho

- they rlly like u :)

the first time I love you I said:

- you said it first

- you were modeling as usual

- it was shoot nd u were yk doing ur thing

- he walked in and watched u behind the camera

- afterwards he motioned for you to follow him into the hallway

- it was the first time you were scared of him even tho u guys were together

- he cupped ur cheeks and gave u a long kiss

- after he pressed his forehead against urs

- “I'm very proud of how far you’ve come baby girl”

- “I love you Jackson”

- for a moment u swore he sniffed

- he did tear up a bit

- “I love you too baby”

- nd then he wiped his eyes

- he kissed ur forehead nd let u know he’d see u later

- nd u went back to ur shoot

- Jackson was the happiest guy alive

- you guys trusted each other very well

- u had a very healthy relationship you

- so yea

- Jackson soulmate of the century

- if u want more of these with other members or skz pls let me know

- byeeeee

#got7 jackson #jackson wang #jackson smut #jackson fluff #jackson scenarios #kpop #kpop preferences #kpop fluff #kpop smut #kpop scenarios #got7 #got7 writing #got7 smut #got7 fluff #got7 preferences #got7 mark #mark tuan #mark fluff #mark smut #lim jaebeom #jaebeom #got7 jaebeom #jaebeom scenarios #jaebeom smut #got7 jinyoung #park jinyoung #jinyoung smut #jinyoung fluff #jinyoung scenarios #choi youngjae

[dirtyrottenraskel]

my take on yueki's personalities

yue 

notes / personality

cocky (but also like understated confidence - r e g a l af) 

kind of a nerd

maybe a little entitled, and a little bratty and suki loves to indulge her or to rile her up depending on her mood

books

seems soft but made of steel

strong sense of duty

socially intelligent - can be manipulative and suki (the dork) thinks it is so hot 

aloof queen bee typa beat

supportive, both in ur day to day and in going after your big moral life goals 

deep water - steady and powerful, often underestimated

untold depths, private yet surprisingly nurturing - master of deflecting away from herself

political nerd - well read, and when she has someone she trusts not to take advantage of her, she goes OFF 

distrusting of most people, has been used and ignored and underestimated her whole life

patient - homegirl knows how to play the long game

excellent at pai sho / chess 

she and suki have epic battles of wits - dif types of strategy but both are really into it and get a little too competitive (multiple board games have had to be replaced over the years)

loves travel bc wasn’t allowed to much, esp when she was sick 

was super repressed growing up - never let her be herself or really have any sort of independence

used to sneak out and wander around in rebellion and casually sabotage plans and decisions she didn’t agree with 

introverted, many opinions but keeps them to herself, discreet but well spoken

weaponizes secrets and information - doesn’t often use it but...she could

definitlyyyyy worries and overthinks and re-evaluates - worries ab social politics a lot

obsessive about picking things - wants it to be perfect

shes growing into her confidence as a leader

prefers quite intimate places

incredibly romantic

classic lit

planner for the future - visionary

kind / sweet / gentle - yes, but that’s also her “front” to a degree (seriously, i feel like she gets painted as so sweet and submissive and one dimensional by the fandom a lot of times and it freakin kills me)

INFJ-T (The Advocate) ((yes this is from 16p which i know is not super accurate but u can still catch her overall vibes from it ya know)

Creative/insightful/principled/compassionate/altruistic

sensitive/reluctant to open up/perfectionist/prone to burnout/not a fan of the ordinary

friendships / relationships

(<> indicates that they’re one of her best friends)

sokka - puppy love crushes, laugh ab it now, get into deep late night talks about responsibilities and leading, water tribe culture, prank wars (no one believes sokka when he says yue is a mean prank master (expect suki comes to see it in action lol))

katara - <> badass women friendship, totally would go to matches and protests together, tough girl shit, waterbending practice/duels - start of cautious, but then get rough in a good way bc they trust each other, they do water tribe food adventures together

toph - indulges her chaos, bonding over stupid royal upbringings, odd yet weirdly endearing pair

zuko - both sort of standoffish gay royals, but once they come to see that they are friends - take up similar spaces though, so only hang out in a group or rarely by themselves, they do hang out at like political parties and stuff when they get more comfortable together

aang - <> he has an impressive world view, yue is super studied and well read, so she and aang nerd out over past cultures together, and also their peace keeping nature, they have tea together often - usually after she and katara wipe the floor w/ each other

clothing / aesthetic:

blues and pale colors

classy and understated wealth

like those cute feminine button down shirts

dresses

like cold weather classy

complicated braids

sort of soft girl aesthetic?

pleated skirts !!!

i feel like she would wear ethically sourced fur (i don’t wear fur but idk how to get it in an ethical way - maybe it’s just fake??)

knit sweaters and skinny jeans and heeled ankle boots

light academia !!!

hella funky earrings - to mark her native pride and also cuz gay

from my readings, tattoos have a lot of cultural significance for Inuit women, and so i feel like yue would totally have some (when she comes of age ofc) 

suki

notes / personality 

extroverted 

also very strategic 

more spontaneous tho - will totally calculate the odds in a spilt second in her head and then just go for it

like still a careful planner, but willing to say fuck it, yolo if it seems right 

reflects on her mistakes, but more in like a healthy way - unless it was a leadership mistake, then it eats her up inside - worries more ab keeping her girls safe and making the right call

likes lively places

total bashful romantic

manages the present and the short term - realist

loves to do lists 

a little punch happy - loves to make violent threats, but also does it out of excitement and she’s just a really physical person tbh

steady, can come off as stubborn and abrasive but she really just wants what’s best for everyone she loves

harsh on herself and worries about her girls a lot 

always ends up in the oddest situations 

totally would kick someone’s ass for being racist/sexist/homophobic/etc 

dedicated to her training and her regime 

not a great cook, but she can manage 

would drink monsters 

has a weird relationship with femininity - took her awhile to reconcile strength and toughness and being assertive and aggressive with also wanting to feel pretty and feminine and embracing being a girl and how those things can coincide and amplify each other

abandonment issues - parents absent/dead 

was imprisoned - obvi she had several almost successful escape attempts, but she got really close to breaking 

was incredibly independent really early, grew up really fast and tries to make up for that now by sometimes being reckless 

tough/assertive/woman of action 

dry sense of humor/sarcastic - not good at nickname/pun humor tho

practical/dedicated/strong-willed/direct/honest/reliable/loyal/patient

stubborn/judgmental/difficult to relax/difficulty expressing emotions/too selfless 

friendships / relationships

(<> indicates that they’re one of her best friends)

sokka - <>  man they’re like platonic soulmates - she beat him up, and now they spar all the time, totally funny and crack jokes all the time, go skating together, they do shitty art together, and then show their lovers after zuko and yue come back from their high society mixers, broke her out of prison, m/f friendship !!! 

katara - also sparring buddies (suki will throw down at any literally moment (and tbh so will katara)), not close but will hang in a group - go to each other for advice 

toph - <> listen these two wreak havoc together, they help each other out a lot, i feel like they’re shopping buddies (similar enough style to frequent the same shops) toph knows suki won’t judge her for wanting to feel pretty and suki knows toph will be honest, they are both blunt sarcastic assholes and get along like a house on fire 

zuko - <> shows zuko how to like,,,enjoy things (and how to let go of some of that pressure to be always right and the adult and in charge bc they were raised with so much responsibility on their shoulders even tho they were just kids)? she is also super protective of him (once she trusts him), one of the only ppl who can match suki fully in hand to hand combat, both do the Disappointed Parent Look when the group falls into chaos, but by themselves, the two of them end up in hijinks

aang- suki enjoys his optimism and they’re just chill bros, they love exploring abandoned placed together 

clothing / aesthetic

sporty and skater mixed 

ripped jeans, crewnecks, vans 

green and yellow and dark red 

gym clothes/athleisure - lifting style gym clothes - cut off t-shirts and bike shorts

skirts too, likes to play into femininity

she’s a gold jewelry kinda girl - but stuff that won’t hinder her movements 

necklaces that end in the hollow of her throat & occasionally rings

definitely cuffs all of her jeans (it’s just bisexual culture ya know)

so many crop tops - some came like that, some were more of a diy project

yueki’s relationship!!!

nerd/jock solidarity 

feel the burden of responsibility and the weight on their shoulders 

they create a safe space between them, full of trust and warmth and vulnerability 

yue will read suki sappy passages from poetry books while suki polishes her fans 

they slow dance in the kitchen a lot 

they get good at ordering takeout - and they have some weird decision making process that only they understand - bc neither of them are great cooks 

yue would feel jealous of suki and sokka, if it weren’t for how stupid in love sokka was with zuko and yue can see that suki really only has eyes for her 

yue is taller than suki and it amuses her to no end to pick suki up and carry her away from a fight (we all know suki could get away if she wanted to, but when ur hot tall sexy gf throws u over her shoulder,,,,,,u don’t complain)

joke they’ve adopted kataang and zukka, bc they’re all dummies, but in reality every last one of them is stupid LMAO 

they love to do each other’s hair and it’s like super intimate and really cute 

sometimes it’s these epic elaborate hairstyles and then at other times, they try to see how many ponytails they can fit on suki’s head and how many little braid yue can do 

they travel EVERYWHERE 

since yue is royalty and suki is her body guard,,,, well i mean, they totally have to see these kingdoms they are doing trade deals with in person 

it helps that they're friends with a lot of them 

they stay over in everything from camping so they can stargaze to ritzy hotels with hot tubs in the bathroom 

yue gives suki rocks she finds on all their travels and suki lines them up on their mantle around the pictures of them in increasingly weird locations 

suki loves guarding yue’s meetings bc she gets to watch her absolutely rip a new one into misogynistic old men and it never fails to bring her joy 

While yue doesn’t love getting attacked, the ruthless efficiency suki defends her with is like,,,,,stupid attractive 

#wow this got long #this is a mix of modern au and canon verse headcanons #but yeah #let these girls have more dimension than just soft uwu gfs #esp yue #yueki #headcanon #atla #yue #suki #yue x suki #wlw #zukka #kataang #sapphic

[too-gay-for-marvel]

a night to forget

a/n: this is a request that i was a piece of shit about because i couldnt stop coming up with new ideas for it and i am so sorry. it was gonna be a blurb and i was gonna crank it out but then it just kept getting longer and longer and like,,,,,,,,, now you get this tho right? 

Request:  Hey! Carol and Reader are best friends and both have feelings for each other but don’t know the other likes them back. and reader gets drunk and goes ‘you know, when I first saw u, I thought u reminded me of sunshine, bc ur hair’s golden and ur eyes are this gorgeous honey brown that shines in the sunlight and ur smile was the brightest thing I’d ever seen’ and carol gets really flustered and the next morning reader wakes up with a hangover and they confess their feelings? Thank you!

Word Count: 2615

Warnings: drinking

Pairing: Carol x Reader

Drunk you needed a filter. You needed a filter very badly.

Was this new information to you? Absolutely not. You had been drinking for far too many years and you knew how you got. Some times weren’t as bad as others, but you still knew. Did that mean you had learned to change your ways?

Oh hell no.

If you were smart - which you weren’t - you would have declined the invitation to celebrate. It wasn’t some huge event; no one was in the mood to deal with that many people. Only a small group would be there and none of you wanted to even talk to each other quite that much. There were too many things that none of you wanted to talk about.

But you had to do something to celebrate bringing everyone back, right?

So you all had agreed to relax in Stark Tower, and it was probably the most mundane thing you had all done in… well, a long time. You had all downed a shot for Tony, who was still recovering in medical. Another shot for Nat, who had refused to come and instead went with Wanda to Barton’s farm. A few more shots for some other people that probably didn’t deserve it, but who were you to question it.

And then that was it.

Everyone separated and went into their own little groups to forget about everything on their own terms. The super soldiers had gone to sit on the couch in silence. Rhodey and Sam were playing Thor and Valkyrie at pool and were wiping the floor with the Asgardians. Everyone else was just scattered around, no one really celebrating but just trying to pretend nothing had happened.

Which was exactly what you were trying to do as you sat at the bar.

You were no super soldier or Russian spy, but you knew how to throw it back. Should you? Of course not, but this was a party. What was the point of a party if you couldn’t get blackout drunk? The whole point of this was to forget the past five years, and that was exactly what you were going to do.

Your methods of getting drunk weren’t exactly… healthy. Every time you would see Carol flirting with Valkyrie, you would take a drink of your beer. If you heard Carol’s smooth-talk over the light music, you would down a shot. Was it smart? Definitely not. Was it efficient?

Abso-fucking-lutely.

You were about to take another drink when you heard Carol’s laugh, and you could only let out a sigh and drop your head to the bar. You wanted to be mad at her for flirting and laughing and having fun with someone that wasn’t you. Whether it was Valkyrie or Thor or Nat, it didn’t matter, you wanted to be mad.

But you couldn’t be mad because she didn’t know how it made you feel. She didn’t know that you could feel your stomach doing somersaults every time she smiled at you. She didn’t know your blood rushed deafeningly loud in your ears whenever she walked into the room. She never noticed the blush on your neck when she would hug you or grab your hand to drag you around.

If she didn’t know, then you couldn’t be mad, and your faux anger was replaced with yearning.

So the next time Carol called Valkyrie “baby,” you downed three shots. After all, the whole point of this party was to forget.

-----

Carol had noticed you at the bar. She had noticed the way had taken far too many shots. She had noticed the furrow of your brows. She had noticed the slump of your shoulders and the way you had defensively wrapped your arms around yourself.

It was clear that you weren’t okay; you two had been best friends for years, Carol knew when something was up. She told the group good night before making her way to you. As soon as she was close enough, she put her hand on your shoulder and almost instantly felt you relax underneath her.

“Hey,” you said softly, so softly that Carol felt her heart swell.

“Having a good time?” Carol asked with a gentle chuckle.

“I am now,” you answered as you turned your head to give her that dopey smile that she loved so much.

But she noticed the way your cheeks flushed and your pupils were dilated. You had had way too much to drink at this point, and she knew it. Why? She didn’t know, but she wasn’t going to question it because everyone else had been trying to blackout too.

“I think it’s time for bed,” Carol gently urged and in a surprise twist, you nodded in agreement.

She picked you up effortlessly, not even bothering to try to help you walk; she knew you couldn’t. No one really seemed to notice you two leave. Or maybe they just didn’t really care, too wrapped up in their own emotions to concern themselves with anyone else. Even though Carol wouldn’t say it out loud, she understood.

It didn’t take long to get you back to your room, but when she had laid you down on the bed she was faced with yet another task; getting you changed for bed. If she had realised that would be part of this problem, she would have had someone else take you home. But now you were giggling on your bed and she couldn’t back out now.

“Don’t get up,” Carol mock-demanded, pointing a finger in your direction to add to her point.

“Yes, captain,” you said seriously with a mock salute that soon dissolved into giggles.

Carol rolled her eyes and tried to hide her smile by turning around and getting you something comfy to wear. Getting something for you was second nature; you two weren’t best friends for nothing. But when she got back to you, your favourite pair of pyjamas in hand, she realised she would have to physically help you get changed.

Oh boy.

“Arms up,” Carol ordered, but she didn’t wait for you to help before she tried — and, quite frankly, failed — at getting your shirt off.

“Buy me dinner first,” you shot back. Well, you tried to. You ended up giggling again halfway through.

“Can you behave?” She teased.

“I can if you can.”

“Y/N-”

“-Wanna hear a secret?” You interrupted as you fell back onto the bed. Thankfully your new position made it easier for Carol to help you into your pyjama pants.

“What — hold still — what secret?”

“It’s about — that tickles! — about how I feel.”

“About what?”

“You.”

“Me?” Carol asked, her attention no longer on your legs and instead on what you were going to say. You weren’t looking at her, but at the ceiling with half-lidded eyes and a smile.

“When we met, you reminded me of sunshine,” you said softly, still looking at the ceiling.

“Why?” Carol asked just as softly. Her heart was beating so loudly that she was worried she wouldn’t hear what else you would have to say.

“Because,” you sighed, “your hair is golden.”

Carol crawled onto the bed and sat down beside you so she could see your face. Your eyes were still slightly unfocused but she could see them shine.

“And your eyes are a- a gorgeous honey brown that shines in the sunlight.”

The smile on your face grew a little bigger.

“And your smile was the- the- the brightest thing I’d ever seen.”

She waited for you to continue with bated breath, but you stayed silent. No, you just laid there with your eyes fully closed and a smile on your lips. It was only a few moments longer that Carol realised you had fallen asleep.

With your admiration for her on your lips.

Carol’s heart continued to beat so hard that she thought it would fly out of her chest. But she did her best to ignore it and finished putting you to bed. Only when you were settled did she rush out of your room and head to the gym. It was far too late, but she didn’t know what to do.

Her best friend had just said the sweetest words Carol thought she had ever heard.

And you wouldn’t even remember it in the morning.

-----

You were never going to drink again.

It was something you had told yourself over and over after every night of partying, but this time you meant it. As soon as you had come back to the land of the conscious, you felt like dying. A blinding headache, enough nausea to make you think you were sea sick, and you knew it would be a bad day.

You had no idea who had left the bottle of water on your nightstand, but you didn’t care. As soon as you grabbed the bottle you downed it, not even bothering to stop and breathe. It wasn’t going to get rid of the awful feeling, but it would help. Or so everyone said.

As much as you wanted to immediately go back to bed, you knew you still had to go to training. No one would have blamed you for not going because what threat could be worse than Thanos? But you had promised Carol you would train with her, and you were never one to break promises.

Well. Not to Carol.

With your whole body and mind protesting, you threw on your dirty gym clothes (which you really needed to wash) and trudged to the gym. Making your way through Stark Tower was like a blast to the past, but you weren’t sure if it was a good thing or not. Either way, the trek was instinctual and you made it down to the gym in time to see Carol already training.

“Early start?” You called out, making Carol react by shooting a photon blast. A squeak flew out of your mouth as you dropped to the floor only a moment before the blast had hit you.

“Shit,” Carol cried before she ran over to help you up. “Are you okay?”

“Peachy,” you groaned as you straightened back up. “You’re awful jumpy this morning.”

“Long night,” she sighed, and you noticed she let go of you almost as quickly as she had helped you. And just like that, you knew something was wrong.

“You alright?” You called out as you followed Carol to the weights.

“Peachy,” she replied a little too quickly, mimicking your earlier response.

“You sure?” You asked again, but Carol ignored you and instead started benching. Which you were completely entranced by until you noticed that she was working just a little too hard for her. Almost angrily? Could someone angrily bench?

It would be hard to explain to someone that hadn’t been there. There was just… an added tension that made itself present under her skin. That was a weird way to say it, but you had seen people angry and knew the signs. Carol was pushing the weights up just a bit too intensely. Your thoughts were confirmed when she pushed up and the bar and weights went flying across the room. The noise was loud enough to irritate your hangover headache yet again.

She sighed and brought her hands up to cover her face. It was an act you hadn’t seen from her in a long time. One that only reared its ugly head when she was stressed or worried. So it wasn’t anger, then, it was something else. Something she didn’t know how to handle.

But you did.

While her face was still covered, you moved back over to stand beside the bench and look down at her. She pulled one hand down just enough to peek at you. Apparently you weren’t what she wanted to see, and she covered her face again right as she let out a sigh that you had a feeling she had intended to keep quiet.

“What’s wrong.” It wasn’t a question, not anymore.

“Nothing,” Carol grumbled before moving to sit up.

But you knew that if she sat up and walked away, you would never figure out what was bothering her. Before she could swing her leg over and stand up, you practically pounced on her lap, straddling her and putting your hands on her chest to push her back down.

“Y/N-”

“-What’s wrong,” you demanded this time. She opened her mouth to argue, but all it took was one raise of your brow for her to lose any fight she had left.

“You said some… things last night,” she mumbled.

“Things?” You asked as you sat up taller, keeping your eyes on her. “What things?”

“Just… things.”

“How am I even supposed to know what that means?”

“You admitted things.”

“Carol-”

“-You said I reminded you of the sun,” she finally blurted out, throwing her hands out to the side for emphasis.

“I-.” You didn’t know what to say.

For lack of a better term, your brain short circuited. Had you really told her that? Why would you tell her that? It was supposed to be a secret, not even your friends knew! Well obviously your friends didn’t know, Carol was one of those friends. Why would you tell her that, why would you be so incredibly stupid-

“-Did you mean it?”

You looked back down, brought out of your thoughts by Carol’s surprisingly small voice. There was a vulnerability on her face that you knew was reflected on your own. But what could you say? If you told her no, would she be upset? Would she be hurt that you had drunkenly said something that you hadn’t meant?

Or on the other hand, what if you said yes? What if she found out the truth, found out how you really felt and she didn’t feel the same way? Of course you wouldn’t hold any resentment or anything like that, but would she still want to be your friend? Or would she think it was weird and want to distance herself?

What if either answer meant you would lose her?

“I dont-,” what could you say? What could you say?

“Did you?” She asked again. You didn’t like vulnerable Carol, you decided. Not like this.

But you would be damned if it didn’t send a message, loud and clear.

“Yeah,” you said so quietly that you could see Carol struggling to understand your admission. “Yeah, I meant it.”

There was a moment that seemed to stretch on forever. One that left you with an aching chest and a familiar stinging sensation behind your eyes. In that moment you saw everything fall apart. You saw Carol’s rejection, saw the pity in her eyes, saw her leaving and not coming back. It had all been a mistake, and you should have kept your heart to yourself.

But in the next moment, Carol sat up so quickly that you almost fell off her lap. One of her arms wrapped around your waist with the speed only Carol possessed while her other hand went to the back of your neck, and she pulled you into a messy kiss. One that was clashing teeth and rushed movements, as if everything would fall apart if you both slowed down.

And it was perfect.

“Does this mean you like me back?” You asked when Carol pulled away and rested her forehead against yours.

“You’re an idiot,” she chuckled, and you could feel her breath hit your face in the best way.

“I’m not the one who didn’t know her best friend had the hots for her,” you shot back.

“Just kiss me,” she sighed.

You didn’t need to be told twice.

#requests #carol danvers #carol x reader #carol danvers x reader #captain marvel x reader #carol danvers imagine #captain marvel imagine #marvel #marvel x reader #marvel imagine #my writing

[chimtaera]

imagine prince jungkook.

adventure time! 

jungkook isn’t the crown prince so outside of his princely duties he can go questing! exploring! adventuring!

of course his family doesn’t really approve of his activities, but they’ve basically struck up a bargain that he’ll attend court and such without making a fuss, as long as he gets to run around when he isn’t needed.

of course he has protection with him, the court approved putting together a little adventure party, which is basically just all his best knight friends, i’m sure you can guess who.

these guys have been together most of their lives, always getting in trouble as kids, climbing what they shouldn’t be climbing, fighting what they shouldn’t be fighting, eating what they- ok you get my point.

imagine a seamstress running frantically around after jungkook before an event because he always tears his clothing somehow.

or being chased out the kitchen before a big banquet with flour in his hair.

everyone loves him though.

he’s the baby of the palace, everyone dotes on him and lets him get away with mischief, ‘cause it’s cute.

and the people down in the villages love him too.

they’re always excited to see him ride out on an adventure, or to see him coming back form a quest.

and he’s often invited in for a drink at the taverns, to tell stories from one of his quests.

and if there’s any loot he shares it, because he doesn’t actually need any of the gold and jewellery. 

boy is more likely to like, take a hedgehog he rescued with him as a pet, or like, keep a really round rock he found in a river when he stopped for water, than he is to hang onto any of the valuable stuff.

people in the tavern be like “ooh, look at all that gold.” and jungkook will be like “ok sure but guys this rock is so smooth, u gotta feel it.”

probably has separate room in the palace just for his adventure keepsakes, and he keeps it very organised and tidy.

oh and people write songs and poetry about jungkook and his brave knights’ many adventures, but the best songs are of course his own.

because, like any royal, jungkook is highly educated.

in everything from politic and war, to the arts.

and, like any good royal, he’s also a brilliant poet.

so how did you two meet? ok story time

you live in the woods somewhere far away, at the bottom of a mountain, just u and ur doggo.

you have a little cottage that’s been with your family in generations, it’s where you’ve grown up and you didn’t really know much else so you stayed. 

you travel to the nearest villages if you need something, about a day’s journey, but you’ve never felt very welcome. 

they’re not mean, it’s just- you’re an outsider, and an outsider you shall remain.

so your doggo wakes you up one morning and you’re like?? what is it

it’s clear the doggo has found something outside and desperately needs you to come see.

you’re like, did you find another baby bird that’s fallen out of its nest?? do i gotta raise a NOTHEr baby bird ?? istg

the answer is no, but also yes.

jungkook looks to be fast asleep in the moss and soft heather, he’s got a few scratches, but he’s got lovely pink nose and lips and seems quite healthy.

you gently prod him awake like, u ok my guy ?? you’re gonna catch a cold come have some tea.

he’s a little spooked at first, with his big round eyes snapping open to stare at you, rendering you a little speechless at first. 

but eventually you explain that you live here at the bottom of the mountain and that your dog just have smelled him because they woke you up to come find him.

doggo takes the opportunity to introduce themselves, you know, the way dogs do, and that’d the first time you hear jungkook giggle, and suddenly you understand what your grandma was warning you about when she said to stay away from the pretty boys.

you invite him to come warm himself in your cottage, you just put a log on the fire before going out, so it should be warming up by now.

he’s like umm uh sure

and you’re not sure why he’s so hesitant, you’re not a very intimidating figure even though you live in the woods by yourself.

but then as the two of you start making your way back to your cottage you start to realise he has some difficulty keeping up with you.

it’s dark, but you still se him grimace when you turn to look for him.

“oh no, you must be hurt!” how silly of you, why else would he be sleeping in the woods behind your house.

“ah, no it’s- i’m just, uh... yeah. okay, yes.”

turns out he’s twisted his ankle falling from his horse, and the way down the mountain in the night has only made it worse.

you help support him the rest of the way back, much to his embarrassment.

as you sit him by the fire and make tea and a little breakfast he explains that he was on his way back home from his quest when he lost his companions, and later his horse when it got spooked. 

when he finally got to the bottom of the mountain, which had taken him almost all night, he was exhausted and fell asleep as soon as he sat down to rest a little.

he seems a little embarrassed, so you tell him it’s the sort of thing that could happen to anyone, and maybe you tell him that story about how you fell down the mountain as a child and almost scared your grandmother to death, but by some miracle you survived with barely a scratch. 

anyway, he’s lucky you found him.

jungkook asks how far the nearest village is. his friends will be looking for him and perhaps he can find a horse there, or send word of his whereabouts.

you tell him it’s about a day’s walk and he’s not going anywhere on his ankle, it needs at least a few days rest, but he’s welcome to stay with you in the meanwhile.

in that case his friends will probably go back home, and gather a party to come search for him, it might take a few days.

again, he’s embarrassed but very thankful, and you find it adorable.

he is very cute actually.

like super handsome, he’s tall and seems strong, he’s so well-spoken and well-mannered he seems almost otherworldly to you, but he has a shyness to him, and a playfulness, and the way he takes everything in with his wide, enthusiastic eyes really adds to his boyish charm.

as the sun comes up you get some water so he can wash up, and help clean the scratches on his face and neck.

he’s actually?? so pretty ?? it’s very distracting, you’ve never seen anyone that looks like this and especially when he blushes wow

you think it’s just because he’s embarrassed, but in actuality it’s because you’re really close and kinda very cute and you smell so nice?? like earthy and warm and dried flowers and herbs.

you spend your day like you usually would, but with jungkook helping out where he can, like chopping wood because he can do that seated.

and it’s so nice to have his company tbh, you two talk about everything and nothing, and in the evening you make dinner, and sit by the fire in the dark.

and that’s when he starts humming.

and you’re like?? omg what is this

you’ve only ever heard your grandmother sing, or like drunk people in taverns, and you only know a handful of songs so this is new!!!

you ask him to sing for you, and he’s a little flustered but he does so gladly.

and it’s a m a z i n g omg let me tell you

imagine sitting by the fire? in a little cottage miles away from anything? cozied up with your doggo and a cup of tea? and jungkook? singing? songs about epic battles and tragic romances and awesome adventures?

you make him sing every song he knows and eventually you ask to hear some of them again, and you two sit up sooo late sharing songs and stories.

jungkook never mentions he’s a prince though.

you let him have the bed and sleep in a chair by the fire that night, although it takes a while to convince him.

another day goes by like that, and you’ve come to really enjoy his company.

you know he has to leave, but you know it’s going to be strange to be so alone again when he does, and you find yourself wishing he could stay forever.

you were never discontent with your life, but you realise you like sharing it with someone.

that night he insists you sleep in the bed, and after a little arguing you agree, but only if he'll sleep in it too.

and he’s very flustered but he agrees and you pretend you’re not flustered too.

you two sat up until late again, talking and singing, but it’s hard to fall asleep with all the butterflies in your stomach, and he smells so nice??

like, you don’t know what expensive smells like. 

but that’s what he smells like. 

just the lingering remains of exotic spices and perfumed oils.

it’s really nice to wake up next to jungkook.

like, really, really nice. 

like, your heart swells with warmth and fluff and it feels like it’s gonna burst or do a dance or something so you have to get out of bed, and only watch him sleep for a very brief minute.

at breakfast you notice that one of the scratches on his forehead looks a little inflamed, so you go out and pick some healing herbs while he chops more wood.

you’re both very quiet as you apply the paste you’ve made of the herbs to the cut.

he’s sitting in the chair, you standing over him, and watches you so closely with his shiny rounds eyes that it gets very hard to focus.

as you finish up you meet his gaze and find it impossible to pull away like you had intended to do.

without a word, like magnets, the two of you are drawn to one another and meet in a kiss.

carefully, he wraps his arms around you and scoops you into his lap, and you in turn wrap your arms around his shoulders and deepen the kiss.

and then the doggo barks.

you pull away from each other but can’t look away, just smiling shyly at one another for a moment before the dog barks again, and you decide you should probably check it out.

outside, you call the doggo and they appear through the trees, followed by jungkook’s search party.

you feel a little forlorn as they greet one another as old friends and you realise you will have to say goodbye to jungkook already. 

but you knew it would happen eventually, so you suck it up.

“are you ready to leave, your majesty?”

“your majesty?” because of course he is, i mean, look at him.

cat’s outta the bag.

jungkook realises all too late that he has to leave you too, and makes a hurried excuse that he has to fetch something inside, to get you alone.

once you’re alone he kisses you passionately and tells you in a rush that he’s a prince, that you are the most enchanting person he has ever met and that he will return to you as soon as he can, that while he is gone he leaves with heart with you.

and then he leaves.

and you don’t know this but when he comes home he writes many sonnets and sings many songs about you, and your little cottage in the woods, by the foot of the mountain.

so much so that he begins a whole new movement in literature, a genre idealising the simple life, chopping wood, gathering herbs in the woods and raising baby birds, all with the one you love, miles away from anyone or anything.

and when he comes back to see you he brings you a horse, so you can come and see him whenever you want.

#jungkook #jungkook scenarios #jungkook imagines #bts scenarios #BTS au #bts imagines #bts reactions #kpop scenarios #kpop reactions #kpop imagines #bts fluff #jungkook fluff #kpop fluff

[sunrisegrip]

this one is kinda cringey lol but,,

i want to be bobby's bestfriend so bad.

i want to braid his hair or make a ponytail from it, i wanna paint his nails with glitter nail polish while talking about the world or any other random things like "do you think pikachu is a girl or a boy" and then he'll like "why does it even matter to you", i wanna tell him about my day, i want him to teach me how to drink beer because i always hate beer and its bitter taste, i want to have a coffee date with him but i'll order milk tea bc i hate coffee and he probably gonna order something like ice americano and then he's gonna make fun of me for not being able to drink coffee :( i want to discuss about how shitty the government is and he'll probably will laugh over me complaining about everything the gov did, i want to send him some memes (!!!!!!) or any funny thing i've found on the internet, i want to ask him "does eyebrows piercing hurt?" bc i always wanted to get one and he'll either encourage me to get one too or forbid me bc he think i wont be able to handle the pain lol, i want to spam him with my text just to annoy him, i want to ask his opinion before i buy something online but he'll probably gonna say "why are u always spending ur money, u say u want to save some money for concert" :(((((( i want to remind him to drink lots of mineral water and stay hydrated (bc thats what i always do to all of my friends), i want to have a deep late night convo with him in a parking lot (!!!!!), i want to send him my new fav song and playlist, i want him to randomly send me a voice note of his new song and he'll ask my opinion about it, i want to randomly send my stupid selfie to him and then he'll reply with another selfie with a stupid pose too, i want to randomly call him at night and he'll probably still awake and he'll ask me "why are u still awake at this hours. babies shouldnt stay late at night" bc he knows im a baby and i always sleep early :(((((, im gonna make him my fav instant noodle and we'll eat it while watching movies together, i want to hug him while im crying, i want to hug him when he's sad, but most importantly i want him to be always healthy and happy with whatever he's doing at his life

idk why i write this lol ive been feeling so soft lately and i love bobby so much and i miss him too and im grateful that he went on vlive today. i hope he's okay and doing well always.

#ikon #bobby ikon #ikon bobby #kpop boys #kpop idols #i love him so much #i feel like im gonna cry #bye

[krreader]

I've had mild symptoms. A tempeture, and cough really. I was in quarantine for 2 weeks and then I had to do another test. I was so glad though since I couldn't go anywhere, I got a lot of my online classes done!!!

I just wanted to post all of these, because you all helped me more than I can say. I was so scared and confused at first, but hearing all your stories made me feel so much better. If any of you is testing positive in the future, save this post and read through it, all these lovely people are a massive help!!!!!!

anonymous asked: my best friend tested positive but they didn’t call her same as you and she payed a little more for a better test and it came out negative. Could be a false positive!

@nendere asked: tips from my friend who's a front line nurse now. You need a lot of hot liquid and nutritious food. But not coffee, that's dehydrating. Keep yourself warm. After 7-15 days your symptoms can disappear if you're taking it lightly. If you have a cough, don't lie down, lay on your side or sit. relax your muscles. stay in a good ventilated room. if you throat starts to hurt, eat a teaspoon of honey. You should not leave the house for a month,for a month you still have the virus and can infect others.

anonymous asked:  I’m sorry to hear you got Covid! When it happened to my dad, he actually got really sick. The doctor had him and my whole family quarantine for 14 days and then retest. We all tested too, but luckily were negative, but still had to quarantine. When he finally got a negative test, we were all good to unquarantine. Depending how sick you are tho, take longer if you need it/are able to! Bc my dad really needed longer to recoup than the 14 days and he had side effects for a while.

anonymous asked:  Girl dont worry and dont stress yourself my aunt and cousin had it but now they dont anymore drink a lote of water vitamin C and zinc trust everyday do that try to stay a little active like if u live alone do some cleaning to keep u moving if u live in an area thats a little empty just wear ur mask and go for a walk far away from people dont just stay in bed when my aunt had it she said she didnt feel anything she just couldnt smell or taste anything at all like she’ll eat a spoonfull of mustard and not feel a thing. But trust vitaminC zinc water are the key and dont stress aver it its gonna pass i promise we love you Hey im the anon who talked about the vitamin c and zinc also if you have some lemons try to make a lemon juice its also really good

anonymous asked:  Omg I hope you’re doing ok and will continue to do so. My mom got COVID a few months back, she had to do 14 days of quarantine or until she had two negative tests in a row. But that’s in Denmark, I’m not sure how Germany handles things😥

anonymous asked: Omg, I hope you get better :( As long as I know you have to stay at home at least for 2 weeks, but idk how true this info is, I live in 3rd world lmao Take care bby 💕

@softyoongistuff asked:  Hi! First of all I hope you get well really soon. I have had people in my family who got thise virus. While the virus is deadly, it nothing that young blood can't fight. I am sure you'll get well soon. As for the stay at home thing, quarantine yourself for at least 14 days. Drink lots of immunity booster tea, which includes a pinch of tea, ginger, lemon, and black pepper. Drink this at least 3 times a day, you can add a bit of sugar to it. While its not medically approved? its really affecting in boosting the immunity, as proven according to ayurveda. Take steams. Eat healthy. Do a bit of exercise and deep breathing. Practice some yoga, like pranayam. Record your temperature too. Hope this helps.✊🏼

anonymous asked:  Hey Michelle! I’m sorry that you got covid but I’ve been there too (actually, this is my first week after recovering) I’d recommend for you to take paracetamol if you got fever for more than 1 day! Stay at home, rest and be careful with back pains, that can mean something is not right on your lungs! Also, try to take showers only at daytime and to not drink anything cold. What I learnef from this is that those little things can affect and get it worst! Be careful and please, keep us updated! It’s gonna be fine :)💖💖

#awesome tag #information stuff #covid

[serotoninsuggestion]

How do you continuously stay positive?! And not fall back into ur negative ways

o gosh!!!! hi

this is such a complicated question and it’s a long ass answer apologies in advance

firstly it’s very very untrue that i’m always positive and that i never fall back into negative ways. that sounds lovely but probably a bit unachievable.

i do cultivate a positive presence online, true, and it’s a purposeful choice to focus on the good stuff bc i find that helpful. but maybe i need to work on making it more obvious that i do also struggle lol

and i guess it’s also true that things are better.

i often dismiss it as “oh, that’s just because your circumstances have changed; you’re not at the school you hated anymore and you’re not friends with that toxic girl and your dad isn’t ill anymore, so of course you’re going to be happier” or “oh, it’s probably just a chemical imbalance in your brain that righted itself over time, nothing you did” but i think it’s not just that

even at uni with my great friends and my healthy dad and buzzing social life and general “i’m better now” mentality i occasionally went back to feeling like i did not deserve to be on the earth and i would not understand at all i’d be like u were supposed to be gone where the fuck did u come from

so i actually got help and went through 2 rounds of CBT. if i’m honest on the whole i didn’t find them that useful because the first was a group session so i felt let down that they gave such general blanket advice, and the second was over the phone so i just people-pleased my way through the six weeks saying the expected answers i knew she wanted to give the impression i was improving. oops. also there was homework????? ew???

HOWEVER there was a recurring thing both therapists mentioned which stuck in my mind despite how cynical i was about the whole experience:

learn how to recognise the different types of negative thoughts

google tells me they’re called cognitive distortions, but “unhelpful thinking styles” is a lot nicer. i’m not gonna list them, u might know them already or u should look them up.

but for example, i learnt and noticed that most of my spirals were full of self-critical thoughts and hypothetical questions. a lot of “no one likes me i’m the most hated person in every room” and “what if a gunman walked in the flat right now and i didn’t have my phone on me”

and before therapy i never realised i could just interrupt and go “uh. excuse me. just noticed that you’re catastrophising there. wanted to point out that none of this is true or likely and it’s just your brain lying to you.”

and then you’re like “shit yeah u right. my bad. what else shall we think about?”

it’s excellent. it feels like you’ve hacked your own brain, like you’ve pressed pause on the horror movie and remembered it’s a nice day outside. keep an alert lookout for those thoughts like there’s a game of laser tag going on inside your mind, and after you’ve shot them down they hold their hands up like “fair play. you got me.”

sometimes it works like that, all over in a second, and sometimes it’s only retrospective. sometimes it is bad, still

e.g. this christmas eve i didn’t sleep a wink because i was up all night sobbing convinced my dad wasn’t going to be alive by christmas the following year. it was a lot of “what if his diet means the cancer will come back because i read somewhere white bread can do that or what if the cancer doesn’t get chance to kill him because a shredder falls on him in the garden”

then on christmas day at like 9am i was suddenly like “what an unlikely array of events and a stupid waste of sleep. but it’s fine. i’ll get an early night tonight.”

another example i went out for drinks with my amazing work colleagues and it felt like wading through water trying to join in the conversation, i felt like i was a useless unnecessary part of the party, i never knew what to say and only thought of it when the topic had already passed, and i got on my train home and hated my reflection and cried and felt that familiar ten-tonne weight on my chest.

and then i got up in the morning and thought “everyone has an off night, it’s fine, just chat to them at lunch” and i did and we all had a giggle imagining forming a work synchronised swimming team

so in summary of this ted talk.......

life is shit on all of us in big or small ways and sometimes we forget how to pull ourselves out of holes which we then look back at and realise were two-foot deep. it’s ok. it’s ok. just try and remember next time u have a step ladder right there in ur pocket.

and sometimes the whole really is that fucking deep. and if that’s where u are right now, i’m sorry. because i can’t remember that stage of my life too well, i can’t give very specific advice, all i can tell u is that it ends, and hopefully the cognitive distortion thing will give u just a little step up.

i love u and i believe in u and we might never have a life full of 100% good days but the bad ones will seem less and less and less intimidating

#the chaotic good(??) in me decided not to add a read more #Anonymous #alicesasks

[kinktae]

kinktae? i think you meant the sweetest & loveliest person ever 🥺💞💓

Anonymous said: rose deserves all the love and more rt if you agree 🤠

(warning: oodles of precious and dear anons under the cut)

yooniversus said: i faqing luv u (hehe get it) 💕💕💕🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🥺💕❤️💫💕💫💜💕💜💕💜💕💕💜💕💜💜💜💜 ok soddy i was just bored 

Anonymous said: i dont usually interact with fic writers but ur work is out of this world!!!!! the way you write dialogue makes it seem casual and natural flowing like how you would talk to a friend :)) connecting to the main character has never been a challenge for me, but with your writing its like i am the character instead of just some reader. i hope that you never stop writing as long as it brings you joy, and that this message makes you smile (even just a lil' bit) luv u!!

worldclasscassy said: i am so geeked over ur writing 🥰🥺

Anonymous said: uwu punch me daddy

Anonymous said: ur deada$$ one of the best writers on here, i don’t make the rules sis 🙈

into1995 said: heelo! sending all my love! 🥰 you have such a beautiful soul, please take care! we are here for you always. 💕

dejayoon said: take your time lovey! you deserve a break💜

Anonymous said: imagine waking up every day knowing ur rose...PHEW!! wish i could be that lucky 😪😪

lovesic-eunoia said: hey, sweetie. i know your anxiety has been making you feel like crAP and i'm here to tell you that it really does get better❤️, there's always gonna things that make you wanna quit trying to get better, but don't give up. anxiety doesn't rule your life, you do. i wish you the best through all of the ups and downs. you're a precious piece of life. much love ❤️❤️

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: saw u on my dash and my heart went lub dub

Anonymous said: I hope you take some time to yourself and enjoy hiatus! We love you!

evilkookie said: Your health is way more important than anything!! I wish only good and positive things for you and you feel better, take as long as you need for your Hiatus 💝💝

Anonymous said: I dont know if I'm late but take care of yourself bby! Health always comes first and I hope you'll be enjoying your time outside of tumblr! Will miss you but love you so much bby! -Bunny

miss-peys said: Hope all is well! I myself had to take a step back from school because my mental health was terrible! Hope everything is going okay in your personal life! Can’t wait for you to come back to tumblr, but please come back when YOU feel ready not because others want you to come back! Sending positive vibes your way! Can’t wait for you come back💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: Rose my darling dearest I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and I hope you’re doing well 💜💫☁️

Anonymous said: hi jared ilu xoxoxo

Anonymous said: I love u and I hope ur taking care of yourself and staying hydrated!!

googie-kook said: How are you doing lovely? Miss you loads and hope you’re feeling better! Love from London! 🇬🇧 💓💓💓💓💓

Anonymous said: hi bby! im just coming in to tell you i love you! and you are loved!! and i hope youre taking good care of yourself and doing all those good things to keep yourself happy and healthy!! and im super excited for your spooky fic soon! sending you nothing but the best !!!❤❤❤

Anonymous said: i’m really happy that you’re taking a mental break from social media(tumblr). i had to do that a couple days ago and it really helps. anyways hope you get better and you take time to heal yourself. i love youuuuu🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Anonymous said: Ur meat is huge, keep going.

Anonymous said: how are you being doing rose? hope you're well

hyzzzan said: I'm glad you're still here 🥰💜

Anonymous said: You are so good and such a cute human bean oof (are we still saying ‘oof’?) it’s really frustrating cause I can’t make u feel the intensity with which I mean it. You are so so so so good, your stories just hit different. Like next level shit. Your characters, stories, yo skills I swear if only I was half as good as you are at writing maybe I would be able to make u feel the intensity of my feelings.. I hope writing these masterpieces brings you as much joy as reading them does to me💕💕

Anonymous said: Your stories are soooo good! I am in love with them.

Anonymous said: I MISSED YOU. seeing the "hiatus" taken off your blog just made me so happy. I hope you're good 🖤 happy Halloween 🦇

Anonymous said: I'm rereading all your fics and I keep falling in love with your writing. Thank you for quality content. Also, I hope you're doing good!

Anonymous said: Hi love! I'm so so sooooooo happy you're back! Hope you had a great break and noe you're feeling better. But take your time with writing, exams come first. I still can't wait to read your new stuff tho! (On a side note, we already talked in private but I'm still shy, sorry) ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: Hi omg are you back?? I missed you 🥺

Anonymous said: rose ur writing is insanely good and whenever im having a ton of anxiety i read ur writing to calm me down so tysm for being the best ever

lorengarcia-yut

said: You're BACK! I'm so happy you're back! I really hope you are feeling good and happy. Just wanted to send you a lil welcome back message with a little love

monohoed said: Hey, hope you been feeling better? I love everything you’ve written so far and just wanted to let you know! I’ve struggled w mental health myself and I empathise ♥️♥️

sydney--chan said: I fr think I might die when you post a fic again like no cap ive missed you and your writing so mUCH🥺🥺🥺

Anonymous said: so heyyy idk how to say it buttt ily~~ ★☆~

Anonymous said: hihi rose ilu sm and i hope ur doing well, pls take care of urself bb 🥺🥺💜

Anonymous said: .........you are like so beautiful

Anonymous said: HEY IM WUV U AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!! 💕💕 I love all your work and I hope the best for you!!!

Anonymous said: ummm ma’am??? you are so beautiful and I am so gay??????

Anonymous said: I followed you on twitter and you are pretty, funny, kind, and creative. Biggest friend crush uwu

Anonymous said: Omg you should be a model. You're so gorgeous, I'm jealous. If I ever met you in real life, my self-esteem will go down. But I love you too much girl 💕

mazeyoongi said: i haven't had much time or interest in reading fics lately because i am so busy between work & college, but every time you post a new story i HAVE to read it. no natter how busy i am or what is going on, i always read your new fics. they are ALWAYS so so so amazing and you manage to keep my interest from beginning to end no matter who or what it may be based on. thank you for giving us such wonderful work. you're amazing! 💓

Anonymous said: You're so pretty I- TAKE MY HEART PLIS I MIGHT JUST MAKE A TWITTER ACCOUNT FOR YOU 🥺🥺😩😩 -Bunny

Anonymous said: wtf the twitter video, jeezus you are freaking stunning

Anonymous said: you‘re so pretty lemme suck your dick, it‘s only fair

Anonymous said: low key your facial structure is like perfect?? i'm kinda jealous?? luv u b

charlie-hatsune said: JUST FOLLOWED YOUR TWITTER AND YOU'RE SUPER PRETTY!!!

dazedaurora said: okay but like how tf is everyone around here so pretty?! you're an absolute doll 💖

i-want-to-bite-your-head-off said: I haven't been on here in a WHILE but hi hope you're doing well and ily uwu

sapphireprinces5 said: Hello!! I just wanted you to know I really love all (and I mean ALL) of your stories. I really want to be a better reader for all of you amazing writers who share their art with us. With so many authors leaving, I really want to do my part better! So, you will definitely see more from me when you update!! Excited to see what you have in store for us ❤️

Anonymous said: Omg hi lovely!!! I just wanted to tell u that you are a precious human being and I hope u know that

ktgguk said: uwu I hope you had a lovely day, don’t forget to drink plenty of water 🧸💗 keep being amazing at what you do!!!

Anonymous said: You’re so consistent through your work and everything you write is a phenomenal masterpiece! I hope you don’t mind me asking, but how do you manage to always get such a high word count per chapter. That probably sounds so dumb and I’m sorry if this wastes your time.

Anonymous said: I LOVE U SO MUCH THANK U FOR ALL UR HARD WORK IN UR WRITING AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

justaregularcrazyfangirl said: So, hm... It's not an ask but i just read what you said about my little review and i just wanted to say that you managed to make me blush 😆 (urgh i'm not used to do this and it shows !) Anyways, i'm happy you found my review interesting 💜 I hope you have a nice day ~ "You nice, keep going" ! (And that's my cue to go and hide somewhere !)

Anonymous said: you're an amazing writer!!!

Anonymous said: pls rose u deserve ALL the love in this universe

Anonymous said: Ma’am!! We are your friends!!! That post was SO CUTE!!! Love U!! My heart is full of love and appreciation for your cute self

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: i love your stories for one, always have ever since I found you 🥺 you give me most of my inspiration to write and let my creativity flow but it’s so dang hard actually putting the words I want on the pAGE BENDK

Anonymous said: Do you ever read your own fics and be like "Damnnn I'm good"

Anonymous said: Oh are you sick 😥 Get well soon 💜

Anonymous said: Omg you speak French too?!! Is there anything you can’t do?!?! You’re such a smart girl 😭🤧💕

Anonymous said: I think you’re really cool and I wish I could be your friend. ❤️

Anonymous said: 💜💜💜 Hey love, idk if you've already deleted the app or it'll get barried in the inevitable avalanche of asks you're about to receive but I hope you can feel the love I'm sending your way nonetheless. You're my favorite writer and there's so question, i'll be here when you get back. Take as much time as you need and I'm very proud of you for taking the necessary steps to get better. That alone takes strength. I wish you the best of luck. -🌻

Anonymous said: Life is a pendulum between your fics and your ficsrec

Anonymous said: just wanted to slide in here to say i dont really like smutty stories, but damn yours be hittin different and im obsessed, so thank u for sharing ur work with us 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: hi! i’m a reader of your work and well, I completely understand where you’re coming from. exactly. 100%. so you take your time and love yourself like you know you deserve to. I support you!

bugznot said: whenever you decide to come back we’ll be ready with open arms. remember you are powerful but you can only take so much. breaks are necessary and important and i hope you are kind to yourself in this time

Anonymous said: Leaving this message for when you’ll come back: I hope you finally start to love yourself back, you take chances cause you believe in yourself and your abilities, you leap blindly because you have faith in yourself and you know where you stand. I hope you have learnt to love yourself, to demand more of others and you for yourself, because you are worth it. I hope you come back, rejuvenated and free of all those schemes that bring you down. Love you 💕

Anonymous said: Saw your most recent post and wanted to say that I hope you feel better soon. I understand how tough it is when it feels like you’re living a lie, but not to minimize your experience, I’m sure it’ll pass and you’ll feel more comfortable with yourself. We all love you here and are patiently awaiting your return. If you celebrate it, happy holidays! Hopefully it won’t be stressful for you and you get some time to relax! 💕

Anonymous said: take as much time as you need & don’t feel like you HAVE to write just because there are people waiting for updates. your real life & health always comes first but pls know that we’ll be here for you & only want the best for you. We’ll be patiently waiting for you & understand your struggles (or at least I do 🙃). pls keep your friends around you, stay in good surroundings with positive vibes & take care of yourself (& your dog aw). sending all the love to you!!!

peachishiz said: Hey Rose my love Dw u don’t gotta answer just popping in to say I love u so much and I hope ur doing good and stuff 🌸💕

Anonymous said: hi bby, i just wanted to say that i can’t truly say ik what you’re going through, bc every circumstance is different, but i really relate to you & what you’re going through. i teared up a bit bc i’ve had the similar thoughts & feelings (and i still do) but i think being open & vulnerable about it is the first step (& hardest) so i just wanna day i’m proud of you 🥺 i wish i let you know more how much i love and appreciate your fics, but i hope the time you take for yourself is healing 💜 Luv -⭐️

Anonymous said: Hope no matter where you go or what you'll do, you'll be happy with it. Lots of love and best of luck ❤️❤️❤️

Anonymous said: dude honestly , taking that step to take care of yourself makes me extremely proud and i dont even know like that. When i first moved to Miami i think i felt similar to how you do , i held a lot of resentment for myself and the life i led and its a sentiment i dont wish on the worst of my enemies. Im sorry you feel that way , but you know you have the strength to pull yourself out of your slump , and that's quite the feat on its own. Good luck and i hope happiness finds you soon. - A.L.Á

Anonymous said: heeeeey, I hope you take lots of care during ur hiatus. Stay hydrated, eat some tasty food, make yourself a priority, reach out for help when you need to, and life is like a minecraft house, sometimes it gets burned down, sometimes it gets attacked but in the end you always have the opportunity to rebuild something new, that makes you happy and satisfied. u rock, u r wonderful and amazing, ily

Anonymous said: Hi! Just wanted to say that your writing is brilliant. It’s okay to be going through a tough time. I’m proud of you for recognizing that you need a break and taking one. The year is almost over: it’s the perfect time for a lifestyle change or a new beginning. Do what you need to do. We’ll still be here. Love you!

Anonymous said: You’re doing great sweetie! Keep going ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: im not sure if you still have the app or not or if you'll ever see this but i love you 💓 & i know idk you but to see you taking steps toward loving yourself is so beautiful ! im still on that journey myself 🤷🏽‍♀️ & it gets hard but you gave me some newfound energy just now. good luck !

Anonymous said: I am so proud of you. You’re so brave for accepting the fact that you are not okay, and doing something to turn that around. Now you’re walking the path towards betterment. I won’t wish for you to not fall back into that hole, but that when you do, I hope you come out faster and stronger every time. You made my life a thousand times better through your works, I hope through this hiatus, you’ll be able to do that for yourself. I am rooting for you ❤️

sydney--chan said: Hi babie🥺 please take all the time you need for yourself. I am proud of you for taking a step back and realizing you needed change. You are very strong and I cant wait for you to come back better than ever:)

Anonymous said: Ah, baby! Just the fact that you opened up and came with this decision shows that deep inside you care for yourself and you are also really brave. YOU ARE inspirational, your friends aren't lying. So many of us can't stop being stagnant and that's ok too. But you, you are doing so much and you are handling this better than you see it yourself. You are mature enough to see that things are wrong and that you deserve to heal. Everything that's wrong is going to pass. (1/?)

Anonymous said: And the cloudy days are going to be gone. I believe in you and I hope you believe in yourself as well. Treat yourself like you would treat one of the boys, for ex (I know it sounds silly but... lol). Imagine if they were feeling down and if they made mistakes. Wouldn't you forgive them? Make them see that it is ok? Wouldn't you want to cuddle and take care of them? Treat yourself like that, please. Treat yourself like you deserve to be taken care of, because you do. (2/?)

Anonymous said: Try to date yourself, you know. Take yourself on a date, buy you something nice when you can, try not to tell yourself things you wouldn't tell other person (cuz I know you are the kindest to people). And it is ok if somedays you can't handle things the best way, but you're just human and it is okay. Allow yourself to be imperfect. We are all trying hard in this life and we are all making mistakes. I am proud of you for trying. Keep trying to be better for yourself. You are precious and (3/4)

Anonymous said: I hope everything gets better for you as soon as possible. We are cheering you up, also while you're on hiatus. Come back whenever you feel like it and don't feel pressured to please others. YOU are the one who matters here and you're amazing af. We are going miss this bright star that you are but be patient with yourself and take your time. Please, seek a professional and take care of your health. You are lovely and loved. Everything goes, my love ♥♥♥♥ (4/4)

Anonymous said: I love you so damn much❤️

Anonymous said: I'm proud if you, I get that this was a hard decision to take, and you still did it. So, I'm proud of you. You finally understood that you are the n. priority, so please treat yourself like it. Even if you'll be gone for the whole year, I'm still super happy ti hear this. You deserve this, as you said yourself, you deserve the world. I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing good, but I know that you can make it better. Please, remember that you're not on your own: ask for help if you need it. Ily

lorengarcia-yut said: I just read your post and I just want let you know that we support you! Your health comes first, please take all the time you need. I feel for you, cause in a way I understand. Please take of your self! May God bless your life cause it’s gonna get better. Keep going, don’t ever give up, and please keep pushing. You deserve better than what you’re going through. Bless your heart ❤️

Anonymous said: 🌹 I don’t know if you will see this but I completely understand what you are going through. I have depression and social anxiety, and it’s so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning to go to school in a city where I don’t know anyone. I just want you to know that I will always support you and I hope that this time away will help to clear your mind of some negativity and bring you into a new year with hopefully brighter days 💜✨☀️

minigalixies said: i hope you come back feeling better, love ♡ so proud of you making the decision to put YOU first !! it’s a hard, but VERY important, decision that i hope benefits you sO MUCH !! i look forward to seeing your new posts when you feel better mentally + physically !! ♥️

Anonymous said: I hope this break provides you with everything you need. I hope life in general gets easier for you, you deserve it my love. Your mental health is way more important than providing us with content. Please take care of yourself, we'll be here for you if/when you decide to come back. I love you.

Anonymous said: hello im here to state a fact: your writing is perfect

moonchild-love-letter said: Hi, how are you? I hope you're okay. Actually, I hope you're better than okay, I hope you've been eating well, sleeping well, and spending your days chasing your bliss. Your writing is a piece of art, whenever I finish a chapter I always feel so happy and blessed to have found your blog. I hope that happiness returns to you ten folds. I hope your days are filled with love. Thank you for sharing your work. Thank you.

Anonymous said: BABY ROSE YOURE BACK!!!!! I’m ready to spend my 2020 supporting your 10/10 writing and you on your life journey. GONNA SMOTHER YOU WITH KINDNESS AND LOVE 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: i admire u so much for being confident enough to put ur mental health first. school causes me so much stress and anxiety and makes me slip back into my depression so fast. i look up to u so much. im glad ur doing what makes u happy. 🥺

Anonymous said: HAPPY NEW YEAR BBY 💙💙 YOU WERE LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW BLOGS I FOLLOWED AND YOU GOT ME INT HE FEELS SO MANY TIMES AND YOUR THEMES ARE AMAZING AND YOURE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU YOU SMOL BBY -Bunny

tinievmin said: Okay so you’re my internet older sister now!!! Wow this is so cute 🥺🥺 Take care of your health, eat well, drink water, sleep, and be kind to yourself this year!!! Sending u love!!

Anonymous said: U ARE A BABY 😩😩😩😩😩😩

Anonymous said: WT FFFFFFF ROSE HAPPY NEW YEAR 🌟 u are backkkkk i miss u little bby 🤧💕

Anonymous said: While they say that army’s are toxic, i think I’ve never found so many people sharing one common interest with such an awareness and consciousness about complex concepts like loving yourself. I like to think that BTS deconstructed the cliché of “love yourself” into something more complex and difficult that u would pursue in life bravely, even through struggles, and not just a quote u find on aesthetic pillows. And I think you’re doing just that too with your stories and your journey. thank you💕

Anonymous said: hello! i'm a returning bts writer and so glad to see find you on here still!! i remember reading one of your earliest fics i love you

Anonymous said: You’re so talented!!

Anonymous said: hello miss rose how are you today? I thought id just come over to say hi and i love you so much you beautiful human being. I hope you and your little fur babies are doing well!💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: hey, idk if you'll even see this, but i just wanted to say i'm in love with all of your fics. i don't even have a tumblr account, i just come to your page from google to read your stuff and see if you're doing well😳 i could say more but that robot verification keeps running out, so hope 2020 treats you well and you're an amazing writer!

pocketfullofsuga said: hey I checked who im following and it said you are one of my favorite tumblrs I mean they aint wrong though bby

Anonymous said: JUST WANTED TO SAY ILYILYILY AND I HOPE THAT THE NEW DECADE IS TREATING YOU WELL EVEN THO WE ONLY FOUR DAYS IN. ILY, STAY HEALTHY, LOVE YOURSELF. k bye 🥺🤍🕊🥰

#so #I just really really want to take the moment and apologize for not responding to so many asks #this year #as u can tell by reading this past #had been kind of a whirlwind #and im so so grateful and humbled rereading all these asks #u guys really are my friends #above all #and im so just brimming with love #genuine love and appreciate for you all #thank u #I love u guys #Anonymous

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literally just a dumb unorganized list of school tips

source: im a grad student. i’ve had a lot of school. also i’m adhd & mentally ill and require +8 organization. this is mostly directed @ college students, but maybe high school students can use it too, fuck, idk, it’s been forever since i was stuck in that hell hole

just say “professor” either ur using the correct title for a person (will make them feel good) or you’re giving them a bigger title on the assumption they deserve it (which will make them feel good) and also prevents having to ever i mean ever use their names

talk at least 1 time a week in each class, aim for 1 time a day. even lecture classes. i fucking hate talking in front of more than 5 people, so what i would do is prepare a question about the hw/etc (even if i didn’t need it answered) to ask the professor after class so they saw me and got used to me and saw i was invested in their class. about 89% of teachers - if they see you try, they will pass you. i mean it’s literally that easy. i know people who went from like a c- but because they legit tried, their grade got bumped up to a b-. 

if u have to bring a laptop, pre-download the required material/screenshot it, and then turn off your wifi. it’s too easy to not listen.

physical writing will always give you more information recall over typing.

nobody cares about stupid shit anymore trust me they don’t remember that you were accidentally locked in a towel out of your room bc they have their own dumb shit that happened.... in college all the “cringe culture” turns into “god i wish that were me” culture ... wear ur onesie to a party trust me you make +800 friends and 799 of them will be girls telling you you’re adorable and they’d die for you

about locking urself out.... if ur like me and can breeze past post-it notes placed in obvious areas, don’t be a dumb bitch and rely on post-it-notes. while most schools offer 1 free lockout, dont rely on it - it once took 2 hours before someone could get to me. i was in a towel, which meant no phone. so like. anyway, what i do now is i put something on the handle of the door i have to open/unlock. i can’t just open the door w/out the thing falling down and making a loud “you dumb bitch unlock the door before u shower” sound. 

this works for all important don’t-forget it things. other obstacles i’ve used to remind myself to do something include: putting a chair with my wholeass posterboard in front of the door, an entire printer with a single piece of paper that just read “for the love of god check to be sure you have that essay”, and a recycling bin i kept forgetting to empty. guess what bitch finally emptied the bin once it was between me and a swift exit!

no offense and like the whole “it’s the best years of your life!” thing is great but in reality everything goes better scholastically when you treat it as “i came here to win, not to make friends.” i still did make friends, went to parties every weekend, was popular enough i’d be invited to several on one night - but i came there to win. when i put my scholastic life and my mental health first, i went from a 2.0 to a 3.98. yes you can, bitch.

you’re spending the money. don’t squander it. trust me when i say i know plenty of people who breeze through, bc you often can. but like. don’t. challenge yourself bc like. talk about an investment.

if you hate your major, change it. don’t make your life something you can’t stand. on that note, do NOT agree 100% to a track until you have at least some experience in the field. i cannot tell u how many ppl i know who got their whole masters/phd program done, walked into their new profession, and were like, Oh Fuck, I Can’t Live Like This.

college literally offers so many free things and if you’re not taking advantage of them whenever possible i get it but like. try to take advantage of them. this is everything from your gym (which probably has free classes dude) to clubs to like. sober events. these sober events are so ... fuckin good dude i’ve made mason jars with little plants in em... bee aviaries... candles.... go to the free stuff

oh ps on free stuff i wanna say about 4 of 5 days there’s free food on campus just look for things like job fairs, presentations, or discussion groups. also while you’re there at the job fair like. u know, go to the job fair in earnest

i took off 2 years to work and also to just. recover from my bullshit. and it took me 6 years and 3 schools to get my bachelor’s. it wasn’t easy but bitch i lived. there’s no such thing as “too long” to graduate if that’s truly what you want to do.

if on the meal plan, eat as clean as you can the first week. then introduce each part of the cafeteria’s possibly-food-poisoning-creating foods one at a time. give @ least 2 days between each experiment so you know for sure if you get sick what caused it. i literally never eat meat at school but you can still get sick off of unwashed lettuce/salad dressing that hasn’t been refrigerated properly/weirdass things you won’t even think of. this prevents like. dying in a public bathroom.

white loaf bread can be gross & boring. discount bakery section for your slightly chewy artisianal bread needs. if overstale, either toast it or dunk it into water and microwave it (unless u got an oven. use the oven if u can)

steal as many apples from the dining hall/events/etc as physically possible just do it they keep FOREVER and @ some point you’ll be like. fUCK i need a nutrition. ps if you’re keeping them in ur backpack (i wouldn’t keep more than 2) make sure to wrap w/a few paper towels so if you drop your bag you don’t get apple mush

write it all down bitch. “i’ll remember it” no you won’t. unless you are capable of remembering every idea on this list and in order, you won’t remember it. in general, if you write something 3 times, you will recall it correctly at least 80% of the time. i also read it out loud to myself, bc, you know, auditory recall

DO NOT just put your assignment at the top of your notes, unless you’re 100% sure that will work for you. in most cases, it’s much better to have a planner/agenda/place you expect to look for assignments. +7 points if you lie to yourself about deadlines and move them all up.

like not to sound too much like a DARE ad but like. if you don’t like it/don’t want it, don’t fuckin do it. the idea that “there’s nothing to do if you don’t party” is such bullshit. like i promise if you’re like “i am a grouch and want to stay in and binge netflix” about 45 ppl will show up in pjs like “bitch fullscreen it, im a grouch too.” there’s also like. the chance to just.... not overindulge. on wednesdays i have “wine wednesdays” where we sit around and drink a glass of wine while we do our hw. it’s chill and friendly instead of like. drink until u vomit. don’t feel like you either gotta slam the breaks or the gas pedal, is what i mean.

PLEASE know the signs of alcohol poisoning/overdose. most schools have a “Safety Always Matters Most” policy, which means that you can call for help w/out getting into trouble. if you think someone is in danger, act. this also goes for making sure ppl get home safe even if they’re just incapacitated, not poisoned. step in, dudes.

also just. notice when ur starting to rely on stuff too much. i’m super easily addicted to things, so i keep a healthy distance from liquor. i don’t let myself “drink to feel better” bc that’s a scary, scary thing to link to feeling better. if you or somebody u know starts drinking all the time/gets anxious if they don’t drink/drinks in the daytime .... get help. schools have counselling services for a reason.

you’re gonna get a cold/flu of some sort in the first 2 months just brace for it. in the meantime, drink vitamin c, try not to touch too many handles, and when people say “there’s something going around” believe them.

watch kaplan nike just do it 

if you can teach it, you know the material. a super good way of knowing if you studied the right way is to try and teach the material to a stuffed animal/imaginary class.

“i don’t know how to study” bitch me too the fuck. this is usually bc we’ve been taught that studying is just sitting down and staring @ ur notes. it’s not. it’s different for everyone, and you need to understand it’s 99% preventative care. if you don’t go to the class or do the homework, studying is going to fucking suck, bc you’re learning the material all at once for the first time. the place you should consider “studying” is “i’m confident in 70-90% of the material, but need to review.” do not let yourself fall behind .... just go to office hours and ask questions if ur not getting something. studying should feel like you’re remembering what you already knew but kinda forgot, not like you’ve been blindsided.

the whole “writing it down in ur own words” while u have been told this 700 times it really helps bc it means u gotta translate it through your own understanding. if you can’t, and it’s not bc the material seems too obvious to you to state in another way - ask yourself if you don’t understand the material. chances are u are missing a bit of info.

i know it’s like A Thing that Some People do but i never had the mental health points for it but i know some people just take 15 minutes after every class to review their notes. since i’m 100% early to every class ever, obnoxiously so, i try to do it before class. having the last class’s notes up in my head super helps. like. put down the phone i know you’re socially anxious me too but review those notes. chances are if u start flipping through pages other ppl will too. this is also fun bc as soon as you start this whole thing, at least one person will be like “is there a test?” no bitch there’s no test but im gonna be ready when there is!

literally so much of success is fucking posturing i could link about 800 peer-edited studies that show that when a student is expected to do well (and knows they are), they do well. like i literally didn’t change my appearance at all, never bothered to look nice (once winter hits i wear 67 layers all the time), but when i showed up after my 2 years off from school, i presented myself with the whole “i came here to win” vibe and people... really respected me? i mean in hs i remember ppl saying shit like “yeah, well, you aren’t gonna have the homework”. by the time i was in college i had an honest-to-god conversation which included someone being like “so tell me what you’re overachieving at right now” like they just expected it from me. wild.

i live by “bite off more than you can chew, and then CHEW IT” but it’s probably unhealthy. the truth is that i have a lot of energy all the time (lmao adhd!!!) and i used to get told i was “trying too hard” and for a long time (still???) i didn’t (i don’t?) know what that was, you know, bc i had a D average, clearly i wasn’t trying. it turns out i was just. putting all my energy into stuff that wasn’t making me happy like toxic friendships etc. when i decided “nope, all this energy is for me and my schoolwork”..... uhhhhh suddenly i was a golden child and everyone praised my try-hardness ... it’s a fuckt up system tbh

take at least 1 class just for fun. i try to do that every semester. it helps break up all the requirements. if you’re like an engineer and got no time or credits left to spend, try to audit your fun course.

make ur advisor love you i don’t care what it takes make them cupcakes show up to thank them i dONT CARE just do it 

the library isn’t always the best place. if i start getting anxious bc i pavlovian train myself that library=work, i find a new place to go to do hw. try to go outside if you can!!! not like where i live bc like it’s snow all the time but try. a little green really really really helps depression. 

if you’ve been in the same “Studying” place for 1 hour and haven’t done anything the chances are Something Isn’t Right. first, look @ ur body. are you not focusing bc of some pressing physical need? sometimes just taking a shower and coming back helps. are you uncomfy? are you too comfy and going to sleep? if body okay, look @ the material. do you not understand it? do you just need to switch to a new topic for a little bit? can you find a youtube video that will help you better understand it? make notes on what you don’t get so you can ask in the next class. if it’s not the material, it’s not ur bod, check the Actual Space. sometimes just getting up, going for a short walk to a new place, and trying it there actually? really works? if none of this is working.... try ur brain next. hardest to reset bc like, what, turn it on and off again? i use things like caffeine, a short workout, a nap, or a podcast all to just... give me a little boost. 

don’t be afraid to leave. i mean this about class, friend groups, and the college ur at. just get up on outta there if ur not feelin it. i cannot recommend “drop the class” enough. even if it’s a required course see if u can switch the times if u hate the professor day 3 it’s not gonna get better just get the fuCK out

don’t nap in the same position u go to sleep in, nap upside down w/ur head away from ur pillow. don’t ask me why but it works to 1. fall asleep faster 2. make sure u sleep okay at night and 3. wake up less annoyed 

on that note don’t ever do anything in ur bed in a sleeping position unless it’s genuinely sleeping in it. body will get confused. just sit up, lazybones.

when/if the library has those therapy dogs during finals week.... just go pet them make the time for it

ask before hugging people, but don’t expect a “yes”

get a backpack that fits and doesn’t hurt ur back u fuckin hippie idc how cool it is to wear ur backpack super low just don’t do it it’s not worth it

the tutoring center is a fucking goldmine.... free essay edits my dudes

bring a fan dorms are always hotter than u expect

switch dorms if u can if u realize ur in the wrong room/wrong roomate like just don’t bother with nonsense

when in doubt, follow preschool rules. tell ppl when they did something cool, just ask when u need help, and be confident even in your mistakes, because at least u tried

#anyway

[gg-astrology]

hey gg! can you do capricorn sun-sagittarius moon? i feel like it's a rare combination and i'd love ur input on it! thank u

Aaaah I’d love to talk about it!!! 💕💕💕 This seems so fun! 💕

[Below Cut: Capricorn Sun - Sagittarius Moon 👹]

This is the devil’s advocate, this is the kind of person who embodies both the realities of being someone who can take things easy, makes jokes. but is also highly critical and accessive

Would rather use their prowess for mischievous mayhem and ‘bringing senses’ into others (sometimes through playfulness) at the same time

They can get serious however, they can be extremely blunt and powerful. If you really don’t get where they’re going, they may resort to calling you out right for something.

The type of people who has a hard time mincing their words especially when it serves others better to learn something from what they’re saying. They tie in Capricorn’s observation and practicality with Sagittarius’s perceptive and highly intellectual mind.

If they are (or were) kind of a geek I wouldn’t be surprise-- their minds needs stimulation and often the would have to find them in outlets, in medias, in something they can sink their energy into

Would actually do well in sports, if they have -- um, other things pointing to good co-ordination as well (can be good or terrible at dancing, depends on the person)

Because their mind is rather spontaneous, despite being in a stable sign. These people might need to ‘switch gears’ often in order to keep themselves motivated in doing a task or staying on track with something.

They’re powerful when they can work for like, 30 minutes and get something nearly done, take a 1 hour break and then get back to work again

So make sure to pace yourself, make sure you drink water and walk around. Capricorn/Sagittarius likes to keep their mind on something so they may switch gears from writing essays to looking at the tv to going back/remembering they were writing something again

I think the most important thing people notice about them is their easy-going manner, like these people really try to relax around others

It’s more to do with their wit?? They’re still moody-- they’re allowed to have their exasperated mood, their down time, their introverted-needs. But when they hang out with people, they’d rather be remembered to enjoying their company, bringing their best interaction forward. Having fun together, joking around

What they do in their spare leisure time is up to them, some just prefers to lounge around and have room/space to take/breath in the clear energy. All they need is just to feel good and alone in their surrounding sometimes

So don’t take it personally if your Capricorn/Sagittarius friend doesn’t want to hang out someday--- they have more needs for their alone-time and that might be why those who are completely extroverted may think they’re more introverted than not

Occasionally, they thrive on a lil adventure. The type to feel rejuvenated and genuinely excited for it even though they don’t normally show this pattern. Sometimes you can catch them bouncing on their feet a lil at the prospect of one of the hang out being to ‘go explore something together’

They like adventure, and they like doing new things. They’re much more open to newer experience than you realize (even risqué daring ones that makes more conservative Capricorn gasps in shock) -- so be sure to tell them when you made plans, because these people often try to urge themselves to ‘feel ready’ for it when they’re motivated by something that could be potentially new/an area of activity they aren’t normally used to

They can also get sulky or whiny, if you don’t invite them to something. Even though they love their homes/alone-time and you know they may sometimes just not want people around (scurry back into their space) 

Just being invited or feeling welcomed (openly) into a space, like they belong or have a place to go back to is what matters to them. They don’t want to feel like just because they missed out on one, they are immediately losing sense of what happened and they’d have to force themselves into social interaction all the time (it makes them tense, fatigue and nervous if it’s constantly)

Don’t make them feel orchestrated by their difference. Make them feel like you’re also adaptable, open and inviting for them to be there. 

(So in a way, a sense of freedom and autonomy is encouraged within the group. As well as just not making a big deal/trying to be passive aggressive about someone having needs/flaking out. Or making them feel like they’re possessed/belong/tied to the group and can’t hang out with their other friends)

Just don’t make them feel bad-- these people are sensitive to their social groups and their sense of belonging. They like structure and has a healthy respect of what it does to tie people together (like a Capricorn) but they also need to have space and a healthy dynamic with their more freedom-loving side, their ‘birds gotta fly’ side as well (don’t tie them in)

They are often good at a wide arrange of activities, talented concise yet witty remarks (maybe satirical even) but the most important thing they seek is to be recognized by others. That others nurture and recognize their value/progress here too 

They work hard for it, and they often let others know their sharp insights about their personality/traits to make them feel better. So let them know yours too, they appreciate any subjective comments as well, it makes them think about it and feel good about themselves. Rejuvenated.

These people are generous and kind-hearted, yet at the same time as long as they feel you have no ulterior motive behind you (and is just a dumbass) they often offer to do you ‘conveniences’ to make your life easier for you (like if they have a car, they’ll offer to drive you ‘since you’re on the way anyways’ or if they have a game console then ‘come over i can’t play this by myself’ after literally playing the game solo for a whole day before skdjnfsk)

They’re kinda like?? looking after their friends. They just want to see people happy, and while they may be dragged down emotionally by themselves. 

They often know what to do to keep balance between them dealing with their own shit vs everyone seeing it (as in they won’t expose their own problems but they’ll just suffer/keep it contained into two separate personal vs social life-- don’t want to drag anyone into it)

Thus--- these people are often less guarded, more casual around people. They have a way of speaking that doesn’t sound elitist, while coming across as pretty educated and can speak to people from all types/walks of life at the same time. 

They’re liberals, like their mind are often liberators of ‘why/how’ things are like this or that.  They may be adept at politics or philosophy-- but that doesn’t have to define their advocacy (considering they are still Capricorn so they’ll want to have something ‘independent but long term’ or something)

They’re the type who’s sensible and aligned, their minds are often organized when they have to declutter/do something about it (in preparations for a presentation or something) often much more balanced than other people (will try to actually get some sleep and not be frantic)

They’re the types who keeps cool and that often pays off in a successful ‘job well done’! -- after all the srz bzn is done they’re back into Bouncy Mode again (let’s celebrate! A dinner! Just enjoy!)

These people however-- may piss you off if you’re not into theoretical analysis or discussion of concepts sometimes (when they’re in the mood, their mind is always in the mood but they can sometimes show it out) -- please let them speak and just be happy to discuss in their mental/conceptual adventures (entertain them sometimes, take care of them)

That’s it!! 💕 I hope u enjoy! 💕💕

#sagittarius moon #capricorn sun #capricorn #sagittarius #capricorn-sagittarius #anon #asks

[tenecity]

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IM SCREAMING

AKSBSKKSSKAN thankyou all so much for your support and love!!!! i rlly didnt think i wld make it this far and definitely wldnt without u guys 💓💓

now for the mutual appreciation. these pple srsly make my day and hve given so much love, advice and care and i cldnt thank yall enough. and in no particular order:

@yanjunify: I MISSED U U WERE GONE FOR LIKE 13924839years. thankyou so much for giving me advice, for being there for me and for being such a great friend srsly ilysm. i want you to be happy ok! stay happy, stay cute:)

@abziyi: BABE WE HAVENT TALK IN SO LONG thankyou for being my supporter, for always loving my works even when they are crap, for being rlly a great mutual and a wonderful friend :))) thankyou for reminding me to take breaks, to not feel stressed, for caring for me. i love you :))

@eriines: WE HVNT TALKED IN SO LONG MOTHER I MISS U JDFHLDHF thankyou for being theorising with me and alSO FOR MAKING ME FALL FOR YOUR STUPID TRICKS IN WRITING THE SONG NAMES DJFLHDJHFJD i hate u i hope youre doing well :))

@itszeren: WE LITERALLY JUST STARTED TALKING but u r one of the greatest writers ever, i love your work, you slowly kill me with 10s lol rip me iM LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR FRIENDSHIP OK I THINK WE WILL B GREAT FRIENDS ;)

@whu-zhengting: thankyou babe for being so so so caring of me, listening to my problems and stuff and taking care of me so well. i can feel your genuineness even though i’ve never met you before and i love you so much!!!!!!!!!!! you make me so happy and fluffy 

@04-naridx: NARIIIIII one of my first few friends on tumblr. i look up to you so much!!!! and its amazing how you can handle everything, studies and all and be so talented. i have really learnt so much from you and jdflhjsdhfljd i miss TALKING TO U 

@yanjunniiee: HELLO U SNAKE STOP POSTING ANGST WHERE, IS, MY, FLUFF!??!!??!? STOP KILLING US youre a great person to scream at and if ure wondering why i always talk to u in caps um????have you seen what youve done to me????u ruined my life with angst i hate u for that. im kiDDING I LOVE U VERY MUCH 

@youzhangpang: 大姐！！！ i hvnt talked to u in a while but its always so fun to talk to you and always feel like a child and like ure my mother, if that makes sense??? hahahah yEA WE SHLD TALK MORE OFTEN

@tolwenjun: my one and only person who i always scream at when i just CANT. CHOOSE. A. BIAS and u always scream along with me jsdfhlajhdjf thankyou for being a fellow fan i can scream with!!

@caixukun-9: we havent talked much but damn you are so so so talented teACH ME u can make gifs, you can write, you can do anything wow im so in love with your works and youim screaming im so greasy

@yanjuniverse, @dahyunmingyu: to these two talented people, you hve put me through much suffering with your works. thANKYOU for being cute mutuals and can you both PLEASE GET SOME SLEEP!!!! i cld give a lecture on how sleep is the most important thing in the world. pls let your body rest, drink water, dont fall sick, be healthy ok!! i love u both :))

@scripturam-phreneticus , @vicccwrites, @evanismyking, @baobei-xiaogui , @linkeai have never talked to any of you but!!! you guys are such an inspiration for me, your works are beautiful :))

sO UM IF U WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT ME CHECK THIS POST: introduction; its a start, or send me asks abt me i wlD LOVE to interact with you and be friends :))

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[studylustre]

hello carol, on december 30 i will turn 20... god im no longer a teen!!! but i still look 12 though... ppl also treat me like im the maknae of the group. i dont like makeup so i'll be stuck with my babyface until 40 haha. since you are a 20-year-old urself, what do you want to say to us who are about to turn 20 soon?? tips on better adulting? life lessons?? ily btw pls never stop being a great person. my studyblr will never be as bomb af as urs but i try to be like you in a noncopycat way:))))

hello!! oh wowowoww how exciting - i turned 20 on the 1st of november and whilst everything is pretty much the same, it’s so weird to think that i’m entering?? a different era of my life?? that’s so freaky to think about lmao, in the best way possible. anyway, is this like a “20 things i learned at 20″ kinda thing?? bc if so,, i got u (ps this ask is so cute bless u and i love u)

1. choose the people who choose you sounds dumb + obvious but as someone who chased the approval of people who couldn’t care less for a solid part of their high school years, trust me when i say it’s so so important to surround urself with the people who love you unconditionally for you. don’t change urself or make urself into something you’re not for others bc it’s never worth it. and on that note,,,

2. don’t be friends with people for the sake of having “friends”i get a lot of asks about fake friends + toxic friendships and it makes me so sad. you all deserve so much better than to stick with toxic people who hurt you and take you for granted. i know it’s tough and a nerve-wracking process to confront them or leave them, but please stand up for yourselves and don’t let people walk all over you in the name of “friendship”. demand respect, and if they’re unwilling to give it to you, leave them for the people who will. you all deserve wholesome and healthy friendships that leave you feeling fulfilled and happy.

3. work hardagain, seems obvious but when you’re in school/college/whatever it seems like procrastination and general slacking off is the easier + better option. please do yourselves a favour and work hard, even when you don’t feel like it. you owe it to yourself (and specifically your future self, who believe me, will thank you for it) to do well in life, and that comes as a result of hard work.

4. wear sunscreen. seriouslyskincare is SO important and a vital part of that is wearing spf (factor 50 or above, always) to protect your skin. even if you think you won’t care, you probably will when you’re older so just apply some goddamn spf before you leave the house + reapply regularly throughout the day if it’s particularly sunny. it literally takes like 5 seconds and your skin will thank you for it. speaking of skincare….

5. wash your face and invest in skincare that works for youskincare culture was so big in 2017 and i hope this trend continues because skincare is, as previously mentioned, v v v v important. you don’t have to buy the most expensive stuff, but if it whatever you use works well for you, it’s worth investing in. make sure you cleanse your face every morning and every night and moisturise. do a face mask every now and then, and if you wear makeup, never fall asleep with your makeup on or i swear to god i will find you, break into your house and remove your makeup myself bc i am THAT committed to the anti ‘not removing your makeup before bed’ cause. (psst: if you haven’t tried it already, retinoid is a miracle worker and is definitely worth checking out. do your research on it first though bc it’s a time consuming process to work it into your skincare routine)

6. drink!! water!!!!!!y’all,,, staying hydrated is v v important. ik it’s not the most exciting beverage choice out of juice and coffee and tea etc but it’s the best for your body and for your skin, so make sure you drink at least a litre of water a day!! if you want to make it more interesting, you can stick some fruit in, or even cucumber (which is rly nice!!). also, hot water is rly good, especially with lemon and honey in

7. don’t sweat itthis sounds neurotypical af and i don’t want to trivialise your emotions at all, but when it comes to small things like a low grade on one assignment or missing a deadline one time etc, it’s not a big deal. is it ideal? no. but will it affect you dramatically, 20 years from now? also no. it may feel like the end of the world and it might make you sad (which is understandable!!) but don’t work yourself up too much over it because the likelihood of it affecting you a year from now, or even a month or a week, is very very low. sometimes you just have to laugh and move on (and if you cry a little bit while doing so, then that’s your prerogative. i won’t judge you. just keep your chin up high and move on - you’re doing great!!)

8. learn to cookplease don’t be one of those people that turn up to uni and don’t know how to make toast. learn at least one recipe, and learn it well. you should always have at least one recipe under your belt to feed yourself. also, if you haven’t already, learn how to do laundry.

9. if there’s something you want to do but you haven’t because you’ll do it “one day”, do it now. just start. it’s either “one day”, or “day one”. what are you waiting for?

10. take a breakit’s important to work hard but it’s also important to rest when needed. you are not a machine. go for a walk, hang out with friends, bake some cookies, take a bath, do whatever that’s not related to your work. it’ll do you a world of good to distance yourself from your work for a little while - when you come back to it, you’ll be refreshed + ready to get shit done

11. always listen to your gut instincteven if everyone’s telling you otherwise, listen to your instincts. they (your gut lmao) know what they’re talking about, and in my experience, they’re never wrong.

12. know when you’re in the wrong, and apologise for itlisten,,, as a v petty and stubborn person ik this can be a tough pill to swallow but sometimes you just gotta put your pride aside, own up to your mistakes and move on. don’t be that person who can never admit when they’re in the wrong, bc they suck.

13. appreciate the beauty in the little things like sunsets, the night sky, the first snow. everything is temporary and life is a little less stressful and more enjoyable when you slow down and appreciate what’s around you.

14. unless it’s not the norm in your country, always leave a tip.just don’t be one of those assholes that writes shit like “don’t eat yellow snow” in the place of actual money, because as a waitress, i can confirm that everyone in the restaurant will hate you

15. if you want a haircut/dye your hair/change up your look somehow but you’re too nervous in case it “doesn’t suit you”, just do it anyway.hair is just hair and it will grow out. same with makeup - if it doesn’t work out, you can just remove it (and that’s never the case because in my experience it always works out, so just try it out and stick with it!!) makeovers are fun and life changing in the best and most superficial way.

16. treat yourself to things you like, but know when to dial it back and savei’m always encouraging people to treat themselves, but it’s important to save money too. try putting 10% or 20% or whatever percentage you’re comfortable with of your wages into your savings every month. your future is always worth investing in. and on that note…

17. things also worth investing in: good books, lingerie, perfume, shoes, your dreams

18. take pictures of/with your loved ones more.

19. always stop to pet cats/dogs you see in the street, and if you’re driving, always brake for birds

20. be kind, even when you don’t feel like it.

#answered #anon #cute ask #advice

[danielnelsen]

seeing all the bria 2.0 drama is just..A Lot good lord. really didnt think id be living through this kinda thing again

TLDR: self care is important. distance urself from things that hurt u. if u stay on tumblr, this isnt the only drama you’ll ever go through. please look after urself

thinking abt how much the 2014/15 fandom drama absolutely traumatised me and still affects me to this day (sometimes i get panic attacks when i get an ask. i love and appreciate everyone who sends me stuff but i just freak out sometimes and..anyone who was in the fandom back in those days will probably understand why).......like, pls everyone who is affected by this: look after urselves.

[for context bc a lot of ppl werent here back then: bria was someone in the fandom who sent copious amounts of anon hate, made hate blogs against specific users, sent people violent sexual asks, and all the while publicly sucked up to everyone. there was other stuff but this isnt an essay and also it’s horrible to remember]

please please please: if this is affecting ur emotions and general wellbeing, you have to talk to someone about it. if u were friends before and now feel betrayed, that’s legitimate stress and can lead to lasting emotional damage. same with anyone who was negatively impacted while she was around; cyberbullying and harassment can also affect u for a v long time. it’s always best to talk to someone offline, but if you cant then finding someone online can also be helpful.

some tips below

limit ur exposure. dont completely submerge urself in the drama. u need to focus on some good things otherwise youll get overwhelmed. practice some self care.

im serious. this sounds like crappy cliched advice, but go outside; for a walk or something. read a book. watch a light comedy tv show. listen to ur favourite music. hang out w friends who dont know abt this stuff and just enjoy ur time w them. u need to have fun activities that are completely unrelated to the fandom.

feel the emotions, but dont act on them. it’s v important not to suppress ur emotions, but feeling them doesnt mean getting physically angry or upset. be angry. be upset. hell, cry; that’s completely fine and actually helpful. but while ur feeling them, sit back and observe them. think abt how ur feeling and what ur thoughts are. if ur thoughts are negative, question them. challenge them. dont try to control ur thoughts and emotions, but recognise them. it’s hard and takes a lot of practice, but it really helps w staying on top of ur emotions and not letting them get too out of hand.

take a break if u need to. even when ppl are laughing abt the drama, it’s still not a healthy attitude and being around it can still hurt u. laughing w everyone else is just gonna keep reminding u of what has happened. it’s not safe to keep engaging w what is hurting u, unless ur in a controlled environment (eg, w a therapist; not on tumblr). turn off tumblr notifications on ur phone. leave all the drama behind, even if just for a few hours. give urself some peace

like..again, more cliched advice, but look after ur body. this is a stressful experience and looking after ur body helps ur mind. eat well, drink plenty of water, try to keep ur sleep schedule consistent, and get in a little light exercise if u can.

idc if it seems like im overreacting. ppl are talking abt how she made them feel scared to interact w certain ppl and that’s a really terrible situation to have been through.

but, even if things look bad rn, you will be ok. i promise xx

idk how helpful this is, but if u think it could help ppl then feel free to share it

#personal #choices #choices stories you play #csyp #wasi drama #pb fandom #pb fandom drama #drama tw #bria tw #self care #long post #wasi #mindfulness #this is all stuff that takes a long time to process and a long time to master #ive been in therapy for a loooooong time #everyone passes this stuff off as 'neurotypical advice' like..shut up pals it's helpful #[suicide tw: i tried to kill myself last year and yet this stuff is still helpful; even w severe mental illness] #im so glad mindfulness is something of a craze rn bc oh boy it is sooo good!!!!!! #literally ANYONE reading this go look into mindfulness and some of the practices #read about observing first; that's what i talked a bit abt here #it's so helpful for managing unwanted thoughts and emotions #ANYWAY that's so off topic #all fandoms are shit #look after urself #my 2018 brand is wholesomeness and self care #i love u all xxx

[ask-svt-hearteu]

“to all admins (who are so beautiful it is sO UNFAIR) : it’s me!!! sofia ahaha and im sending this a lil early because i wont be home for christmas (:p) and i’d like to thank all of you because i can’t send over gifts due to the ocean. damned water. somewhere in december, i think on the 14th??? i will have known this blog for 5 months ! which isn’t that long but im looking forward to spending many more weeks and months on this wonderful blog. all the admins are so, so friendly, nice, amazing, interesting, beautiful, etc etc. thank you for talking to me ! thank you for being here for me during the tough times! thank you for your advice, thank you for your jokes, your rants, your posts, your everything. this blog has given me as much joy as seventeen does. really! i’m so happy i stumbled upon this blessing of a blog when i was still a baby carat and needed more knowledge. 

but please, you guys, get enough rest okay? i heard that someone (like joshua’s wife cough) doesnt get enough sleep and i swear im flying over. all of you are humans and you need rest. you all are in school and you need rest from school (which can be a pain lets be honest) and a break from writing. remember, we, as your readers and fans, care more about your health than how fast you answer our asks. we want you all to be happy and we wish we could give you back the happiness youve given us with this blog. i hope that in 2018, the blog will earn many,many more followers, the admins will make many more friends, and get more supporters (ok but i still dont understand why and how people send hate to the admins?? like fuck you man, these people work so hard arghhh don’t send them hate just because you’re pathetic and lonely and deprived of love and all the good things in life. Legit everytime I see a post about a hater i want to throw a pan at the shithole who hated on these amazing creatures. @jun @minghao @hoshi @scoups jom let’s go beat up the haters im bringing my frying pan and my sunat knife y’ALL BETTER WATCH OUT LATER KENA I SUNAT YOU) drink water, not alcohol : okay sO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT A HUMAN IS ALLOWED TO BE A TALENTED WRITER, PRETTY ENOUGH TO BE A MODEL AND BE A SINGER ????? JESS IDC WHAT YOU SAY YOU ARE G O R G E O U S YOU’RE SO QR3UBFD-BGQIF and you’re so talented and friendly and n i c e. You’RE SO HARDWORKING AS WELL YOU’RE IN YOUR LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL AND STILL WRITE ON THIS BLOG AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN (it really touched me when i told you me and my best friend were fighting and you sent me tons of dino pics and tagged me in pictures of him. that really cheered me up , thank you :D) i think you’re the first admin i started to talking to hahahaha and even though im really annoying you still talked to me? like ?? i heard that you’re in your last year of high school and i wish you the best of luck !!! do only what you want to do. Don’t stress about choosing the right college/uni or the right course, just do what you want to. Please take your time with the blog, college tends to stress writers out and whenever you feel stressed rEST PLEASE. pls make many many new friends in college and have a better diet than ramen 24/7 which doesnt sound too bad but that’s a lot of sodium. i hope everything goes well for you but remember if anything goes wrong or u just wanna talk im here! love youuu bb. 10:10 : ok sERI. WE REALLY NEED TO FIND TIME TO TALK because whenever i text you you’re in class and whenever you text me im about to sleep (damn these timezones) sighh. it’s okay if i ever have kids, i’ll sell them and buy a plane ticket to meet you. okay when i first started talking to you i was really impressed because you’re really..tough? like i really people with thick skin and people who don’t give a shit about what other say and tbh i’m trying to be more like that. people like that are so cool !! and ur so pretty and cool sighh im so jealous (you have vv nice lips dONT TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY I JUST THINK THEY’RE VV PRETTY oR dO I) also you’re really smart ! like you’ve gotten full marks for a test like woah hoshi is so lucky. i hope you remain thick skinned and brush the haters away, but it’s okay to feel bad once in a while, you’re only being human. but you can talk to me any time you feel down or u just wanna talk or rant or vent. i hope you don’t stress about school, please take a break if you have to (i dont want you to go away i want you to get the rest you deserve)anyways i love you ! my name is soonyoung, call me soon : APA KHABAR MY MALAYSIAN FREN ahaha im soooo happy i met you on tumblr. *ur the aesthetic queen* . i hope that we meet in person soon or one day because we live in the same country and won’t it be cool to see each other? we should have a photoshoot together. speaking of photoshoot im very happy to have a model sensei to teach me how to pose. also ur one hell of a sweetheart. you always share fandom things with me and i tend to fangirl in the middle of tesco or class because of you. hmm if seventeen ever come back to malaysia we should meet at their concert, given both of us are going. i’d really love to know more about you lmao you’re so interesting and you’re really patient with me!!! which is reallly nice. okay bb let’s find a date when both of us are free and leggo have some fun. i hope you don’t ever have to feel sad. well actually i think sadness is vital to humans so maybe anger. i hope you’ll continue to be very peaceful and freak out w carats and kpop fans across the glose and i hope that one day you’ll see naega hosh up close and p e r so nal. ilysm bb xxx my i geddit because wo ai ni so ur my love heh : hello my wife /name twin ish / dancer girl / jun’s / blessing to thie world. oh my god we need to talk moreeeee. ur so funny and we’re so alike (like we both swear like pigs) but we’re different because you’re so good at dancing! heck, whenever i dance i blind people from a 5 kilometre radius. all the other admins say you could dance my i with jun and i am sHOOK BECAUSE ho l ee s h i et also do you know what i would give to see you dance with jun? i’d give up all my memes. yeah, that’s right. my knowledge of all memes and vines and fre sh a vacado. apart from your dancing skills, you’re very, very pretty. i can’t believe you think you’re ugly , sweet jisoos, you’re have… the beauty of all the sunsets in the world. you’re actually really nice (stop protesting) because you’ve listened to me rant about all the damn drama in my life and you gave me advice. and you’ve never lost your patience with me. jeez i love youuuu !!! you’ve laughed with me and sent me dino pics to make my heart explode and you were there when i did something really stupid on kakaotalk. sighhh good times amirite? well we can still talk on tumblr. i hope you continue being yourself, the amazing person you are. xx love you to bits. seventeenteenteen : i survived. you havent killed me yet. i have stuck to dino faithfully. well actually, my first bias for like, a week, was memesol but then dinosaur found his way into my heart. i know y’all are busy and it may be hard but please rest. please don’t read mean comments, please love yourselves, please eat well. please do anything that would make you happy. each and every one of you are so, so important to me and i hope all of you are healthy. the8 please rest, i hope you get better soon. scoups, i hope that fever is gone. dino, i hope you find someone that makes you really really happy and i hope you wake up with a smile on your face each day and i hope people will stop prying into your personal life because you deserve to find someone you love and you deserve to be able to love that person without hate. i hope all of you don;t feel pressured to keep away from relationships because of selfish “fans” and i hope all of you will be happy. @josh @hoshi @jun you guys, please take care of your aegis. @josh wish ur gf luck for college, @hoshi stop killing these girls w ur visuals and @jun im waiting for u and sophia’s dance duet. i love all of you with all my heart <3333 thank you for a wonderful 5 months, i hope many more will come. love, sofia xx add on : i wrote this note before jonghyun killed himself and i’d just like to say this to everyone. the admins and the readers ; please ask for help. you are not alone. people are here for you. mental illness is not and will never be a light topic. suicide is never the answer. i know it’s hard but you need to stay, because we need you. i need you. it doesnt matter if we are close friends or complete strangers : you are so important. you are strong and brave and kind and smart and beautiful and you can get through this. you have people willing to listen. if somehow the whole world refuses to listen, im here. there are people around you who care deeply about you and please, stay. if any of you feel sad about the recent tragedy, take a break from tumblr, okay? i love all of you and please, stay safe. — sofiafabulousphan”

Admin Jess: Sofia, bb T^T I honestly can’t express how much your words mean to me. I love you so so much thank you for everything. I honestly won’t deny, it’s hard. I think it will always be difficult to a certain degree to run this blog. Not that I don’t love every second of it believe me, I just (LMAO LEAVE IT TO ME TO START TEARING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF TYPING THIS) I’ve never wanted to do something I wanted to just because I can.  I don’t run this blog expecting anything in return. I do it because I genuinely love, love the happiness it brings other people, because I love seventeen and I love doing it all. If I didn’t love it with all my heart I don’t think I would have held up this long. You’re right, it’s my last year of high school. My hardest year because I decided to take a multitude of difficult classes. I have cried tears over so many classes (I’m crying writing this response omfg PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER JESS), I have had plenty of mental breakdowns, a lot of crying whenever someone simply asks me if I’m ok or suggests I get more sleep. I have been an emotional wreck all year. It is my fault though, I did decide to take challenging courses this school year, but one can only run on four hours of sleep everyday for so long and not be emotional I guess. AND I WAS TERRIFIED. I was so scared that in the course of this year, through all the difficult hours of studying and finishing homework at 2/3am in the morning before having to wake up at 6am and walk to school by 7am, that I wouldn’t have the time or effort to do just the one thing I wanted to do the most in the world. I only had one real hobby I loved doing and it was running this blog (again hella emotional and dramatic sorry it’s like one am here when I’m writing this). So I forgo sleep to get everything done. It’s not healthy but in my mind, if I gave up on this blog for one day, that one day might turn into two days, which would turn into a month, and then I’d never be able to do anything ever again just because I kept pushing it off, treating it as if it didn’t mean the world to me when it so very dearly does. OK I’M RAMBLING ABOUT MYSELF NO ONE CARES JESS AHEM,,, My point is, I sacrificed sleep for school and this blog not because I was forced to, but because if I slept, this feeling of guilt when I woke up in the morning, a feeling of “ahh I could have done more, I could have been better” would permeate my mind for who knows how long. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone. I hate disappointing people. So to hear you say this blog and all the stuff we do on it makes you happy? It makes me think maybe I’m not such a big disappointment after all, and maybe if I keep working hard, I can continue making more people happier, and that’s all I really want. True, with college approaching, I can’t make any guarantees. I anticipate not being able to do anything at all, and that idea is scary too and makes me want to work even harder now while I still can. I will definitely try to get more rest though??? I mean no one likes a sleep-deprived me at 3am lmao, I may seem nice but at 3am I’m bawling my eyes out over homework and cursing at my posters and pictures of Seventeen and school and textbooks in like three different languages (it’s not pretty lol). So yes rest? Idk what that is... but I’ll try??? fjnvksjn? I think I recall when you first sent in an ask, I’m not too sure but honestly the blog is about as old as you’ve been here so thank you for being one of our first supporters (did you have a book with a flower icon hmm trying to recall)! The hate I think will always be a thing I’m sure, I just don’t know how to deal with it T-T I am very naturally a sensitive human bean, what can I say... LMAO I’M NOT GORGEOUS THOUGH it’s called filters, lighting, angles, and makeup. The only reason I look anywhere near decent is because I use a combination of those things to hide all my flaws LMAO. As for singing, I’m not super? I can sing a pitch correctly I suppose? I can sing a chromatic scale? Idk if that qualifies as good singing (I can definitely sing svt songs in broken Korean shamelessly no matter where I go though). I’m really not that good, but I’m not awful like a dying seal or smth. I don’t even think I’m a talented writer, I just try my best I guess. I do sincerely try my hardest. YOU’RE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL I 117% would listen to you rant or scream about anything and I’m just super grateful you don’t think I’m annoying lsnfdnvd. OF COURSE I THINK YOU AND CHAN ARE THE CUTEST (or you and Jongdae pick your poison;) and of course I sent all those Channie pics omfg, I’m always here if you need it^~^ Thank you for all your kind words love (AND IMMA PRETEND YOU DIDN’T CALL ME JOSHUA’S WIFE BC MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT KDFJNVKSBBDIBI I’LL CALL YOU CHAN’S WIFE ISTG I WILL) make sure to take care of yourself and you’re always welcome to come talk to me bb :)

Admin Meagan:  aaaHHHHHHH, really appreciate you Sofia ✨😩 Gosh, can't believe you wrote us sub a long essay AHAHAHAH. Also, SUNAT KAU AHAHAHAHAHAHAH (Non-Malaysians  wouldn't understand lmao) But yeeeee, thank you so so much baby for taking the time to send this ask in <3 It's been amazing knowing you and gosh you are such a sweetheart! Also, Chinese New Year is soon, let's go out together ;)) Cafe hopping at SS15 maybe? Hehe. I want my postcard AHAHA and to spend time with you of course!! <3 You are such a bright individual and Chan loves you hella lots. Thank you for always sending us such encouraging messages and for being a good pal really. But for reals, you mean a lot to me and gosh I can't wait to meet you. Also I not model material lah AHAHAH, only a certain days ;) but yess!! A photoshoot would be amazing haha, I can try to teach you some tips lmao. And yes, thank you for caring about our mental health. January hasn't been the best month for me, honestly it's been horrible but stuff like this really warms up my heart yah know. So yes, really really appreciate you man. Keep being so spunky and loveable. Take care, stay safe and I hope we get to meet each other soon ❤️

Admin Seri: SERIously SERIously, you have no idea how much this warmed my heart. ahh i so wish we could find a better time to talk, i’ll work on that :’) i’m not very good at expressing my feeling through words! and for that mianhae mianhae. in fact, that’s one very VERY COOL thing about you!!! expression your feelings isn’t the easiest and hey, use those feelings to brush for those haters. as you know love, other people’s opinions don’t effect me BUT THERE’S NOTHING WRONG with being affected! just know, those people are irrelivant, and once you realize they can’t do a single fucking thing to you unless you let them, it gets a bit better <3 but GIRL i remember you from the VERY being!!! i can’t believe you stuck around this long , you’ve seen all the changes, how much we’ve grown, it’s seriously amazing. becoming an admin (sure as hell didn’t know it back then) was definitely my HIGHLIGHT of twenty seventeen. there’s not a day that goes by where i regret it, not at all, even when our inbox is loaded or when i have writers block. and you being here along that journey warms my heart so so much! i’m not kidding sometimes i find myself in the middle of the night looking through all the comments or reblogs and GOSH i just see every single sweet sweet message you leave. AND OH MY GOD I’M ALREADY FOR SURE GONNA VISIT AJVBELJNGR IM ALREADY PLANNING TO ONE DAY TO SEE MEAGAN SO LIKE DUHHHH WE COULD MEET UP!!! just augh i’m super super grateful for you message jinja jinja ily~~~ <333 !!! {p.s. i totally wrote bodyguard reader! Chan thinking of you, ngl}

Admin Soph: As much as I love you and as much as you’re my ai. DONT GIVE UP YOUR MEMES FOR ME WTAF. MAN I LOVE YA BUT MEMES ARE IMPORTANT XD. And you might only be disappointed after watching me dance with Jun. Ah I wish we could talk more too :””) We get along so well and Im fucking positive were soulmates just looking at how similar we are XD. Ah im not really good at things like this. Im really speechless because damn boi I love ya and you took the time to write all this for us :””). Youre an angel sent from the heavens. AND ME PRETTY??? NUUUUUUUU.Just like what Jess said, filters and lighting exists. Im only cute tho (char). But youre more prettier than me love. Both inside and outside. You're as beautiful as the northern lights. And like the northern lights, you light up my dark days :””). We dont talk much but we always check up on each other man. Goddamn I love ya. I hope we can make more stupid but fun memories together ^^. And I will literally hug the shit outta you when we meet. Also can we like talk about how much we appreciate ya? You’re always in our inbox sending adorable and heartwarming asks to both Svt and us. I remember telling you that your asks about the admins literally brightens our day. How you're little “I hope the admins stay safe” means so much to us. I really hope you only experience happiness for the rest of your life. You’re a person I really appreciate and love. AS MUCH AS I LOVE JUN. HELL YEAH I SAID IT. hAHHAH Dont be afraid to come to me if you have any problem. I will always be here to talk to you and help you love ^^. Please take care of yourself too. DonT FUCKING SKIP MEALS. GET A LOT OF SLEEP OR IM GETTING CHAN AND JONGDAE. Ah im sorry if I didnt say a lot. I want to say a lot but I literally dont know what to say :””). I WILL MESSAGE YOU A LONG AS MESSAGE ON YOUR BDAY OR SOMETHING. I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY TO YOU GADBSVF ASNMK. For now, I love you and take care of yourself. You are loved by a lot and I hope your life gets filled with happiness and joy. Im also always here if you ever need to talk ^^

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