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basicallyanotherwitchesthing · 8 months

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Mary O. Rank - A Dream of Falling - MacFadden - 1968

#witches #fallers #occult #vintage #a dream of falling #macfadden books #mary o. rank #dreams #falling #hopwood awards #mental disintegration #moral disintegration #disintegration #1968

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thehealthofficers · 1 year

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#toxoplasma gondii #schizophrenia #mental disintegration #health & fitness

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ircn-dad · 4 months

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do you also think tony told peter to hold him while they were hugging in endgame because the last time they hugged, peter tried to cling to him, but no matter what he failed to hold onto him and fell to the ground, or are you normal

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c-ptsdrecovery · 1 month

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#mental health #identity #growth #positive disintegration

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john-lennon-unofficial · 1 year

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reblog with 5 tags that come up when you type "literally" because i just realized i use this word entirely too often

#my day literally just circles through dragnet circus boy and the monkees #seriously i literally had a mental episode when i heard she makes me laugh #my soul is literally disintegrating #i am literally heart broken #literally me all day today

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thiswaycomessomethingwicked · 1 year

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you know, it’s because it’s all these straight dudes who kind of want to be Napoleon making films about Napoleon is why we don’t get anything with the very deep, intense and intimate friendships he had with the men in his life.

they wouldn’t know what to do with Junot, Duroc and Lannes and it shows.

edit - including this because I want it outside of the tags:

none of these blokes would know what to do with Junot AT ALL, because it’s such a complex and intimate and homoerotic/deeply homosocial relationship the likes of which just don’t exist in the west anymore

AND, it’s also a story of disintegrating mental health alongside an obsessive love representing how Empire twisted everything. It twisted Napoleon, it twisted his friends, it twisted their love for each other, their dislike of each other too (depending who we’re talking about).

The destruction of Junot’s body as destruction of Napoleon’s ability to express intimacy and sympathy, the inevitable destruction of Empire, the nakedness of the court scene just showing the horror of it all plain

and it’s uncomfortable and horrific but the audience has to look.

gods people don’t know what they have. And that’s just Junot! Not even getting into Duroc and Lannes.

#napoleon #napoleon bonaparte #they REALLY wouldn't know what to do with Junot because it's so homoerotic #AND it's also a story of disintegrating mental health #alongside obsessive love and how Empire twists everything #the destruction of Junot's body as destruction of Napoleon's ability to express intimacy etc etc

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brightlyburnt · 2 months

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anyway a lot of discussion I've been seeing lately (due to Helldivers 2) is that people miss the point and it's satire and there are definitely people who don't catch that satire

but also some of it is just ironic fun and I think we should normalize acting like bad guys and soldiers who just wanna kill their enemies because it's fun and fuck you

especially applies to playing Stormtroopers in Battlefront games

#helldivers #star wars #let people have fun #not everything we do in games has to be morally correct #and if you disagree i will mentally disintegrate you

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digitvlvom1t · 1 year

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it’s easier for me to get closer to heaven than to ever feel whole again

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wrongfourtytwo · 1 year

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Wing tats whatever himboifying this old ass

#scp 106 #scp fanart #corporal lawrence #scp lawrence #soos amugos #soosie Baki #mreow #mrrp?#simp #pansexual tears #I can’t believe I wanna fuck this guy #pan pain #bi cryptid #it burns when he kisses <3 #I’d disintegrate so happily #i’m mentally ill

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heatseekingghosst · 1 year

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Ridden

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spiderwarden · 6 months

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Thinking about Minthara healing from the psychological damage that happened at Moonrise Towers.

#[ 🕷️ ] —— musings #[ brief moments where she would stare - trying to grasp mentally at memories - trying to shift through them. separate them. ]#[ it happening at random via camp idle - and then Scratch bringing her to ]#[ the fact Scratch would see that this ol' war vet is struggling with something and starts hanging out with her more and more ]#[ cause you can't convince me that she was IMMEDIATELY okay aFTER THEY TRIED TO LITERALLY DISINTEGRATE HER MIND ]#[ wouldn't be surprised if she's a little fractured in some places ]#[ im capitalizing on the sudden new meditation animation ]#[ MINTHARA IS HURT STILL AND NO ONE EVEN KNOWS IT ]#[ besides all of that illithid control requires mental sharpness so both healing and fortifying metnally thaNKS ]

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karliahs · 7 months

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there is a whole genre of complaining customer where it's so clear that in their head they are a Crusading Revolutionary who is going to Demand Better from the System™️ when actually what they want is to verbally abuse someone who can't fight back bc it makes them feel better

#talking #like when i offer multiple times to escalate your complaint to Someone Who Could Actually Do Something and you refuse #it is extremely transparent what you actually want. and it isnt to fix whatever you're yelling about. it is to yell #like people feel powerless in other areas of their life so they use the customer service dynamic #to manufacture and then immediately abuse some power #while also doing mental gymnastics to get to feel like a beleaguered mistreated hero of the people #and understanding this does not make it any less fight or flight body disintegrating bad when it happens #like I Know Your Game and that you are a bad person but unfortunately person yell = i am shaking

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splickedylit · 2 years

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TREMENDOUSLY ENORMOUSLY GOOD NEWS IN MY PERSONAL LIFE FUCKING #BLESSED HOLY SHIT. I can't elaborate!!! But I'm so fucking jazzed!!! I love everybody in this bar!!!!!!

#the prospect of a looming thing that was doing incredible anticipatory damage to my mental health has been removed!!!#amazing how the wasps in my brain settle down immediately when I no longer have to look forward to [redacted]!!!!!!!!!#now if you'll excuse me I have to go and disintegrate with relief!!!!!!!!

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last-of-the-jaded · 1 year

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That short little character dream-sequence-memory scene of Kratos on the boat having Faye try to convince him to develop a relationship with their newborn, and that Atreus is his new purpose in life, really emotionally fucked me up y’all

#god of war ragnarök spoilers #god of war #god of war ragnarok #god of war kratos #god of war atreus #anyway the lighting and line delivery got me #the fucking baby disintegrating in his hands to represent his mental state

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realmackross · 8 months

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Time: September 1st, around 2:30 am. Content Warnings: mental health tw, depression tw, grief tw, there are heavy mentions of not being able to have kids.

"There is no grief like the grief that does not speak." - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Late nights. Late nights were always the fucking hardest. It was the time when most of the world slumbered away and rested their weary minds and souls. Recharged for the next day with at least some rest and preparation for what life was about to throw at them. But not for Mackenzie. Not anymore.

Late nights sucked. Infomercials often popped up at a certain hour for shit she didn't need while she scrolled endlessly on her phone until the battery was almost as dead as she was. Then came the reruns. Episodes of things that took her back to staying up late as a child, because she wanted to rebel against her parents despite knowing she would have to be up early for a photoshoot or filming on some new project.

But tonight's viewing left a different taste in Mackenzie's mouth. Usually mind numbing and something to pass the time; this late night rerun of Grey's Anatomy had just hit different.

Maybe it was because of the injuries she had sustained in a recent and shameful dumpster dive. Or maybe it was because more than usual, she was missing Brody. Whatever it was, the episode's central theme of babies and being a parent had taken Mackenzie's lifeless heart and started to slowly pull it apart with each little bit sending jolt after jolt of emotion to a woman who could barely feel anything anymore; except all the things you hid yourself under a mound of blankets from, until it felt like you could no longer breathe from the weight, darkness, and heat.

The thought of never being able to have a family with the man she loved, much less have children of her own, had lingered lightly in the back of her mind, and most of the time stayed there with all the other shit she thought about. But just like most things in her life, Mackenzie hadn't been able to grieve.

She hadn't been able to grieve Brody for the guilt she regularly felt. She hadn't been able to grieve her former life for having to stay hidden from the public as best she could. She hadn't been able to grieve losing her family. Her friends. And the list went on and on. But tonight, the universe had decided she was going to grieve motherhood.

As the episode progressed, and she watched Amelia's struggle, Mackenzie began to slowly break. First, a slight quiver of her lip and a shake of her head for perhaps denial or the refusal of wanting to go down this path. Then her eyes trying to well up, but being a zombie had made it nearly impossible. However, soon, she had found her knees drawn up into her chest as she rocked back and forth on the couch.

The hard truth that she would never be able to give birth to kids of her own had smacked her like a ton of bricks dropped into a pillow case. And with each passing moment came the thoughts of firsts and how they would never exist for her. No first steps or first words. No first day of pre-school or first day of college. Then came the realization that there would be no motherly advice to give. No hugs to hand out when life got impossibly hard. There would be no weddings or grandchildren. Or even a legacy to carry on the Ross name.

In that moment, a woman who no longer needed to breathe felt like she was suffocating. And out of heartbreak and anger found herself throwing the remote down as hard as she could, until she realized that just like everything else in her life, there was no Brody to share this hurt with. There was just no one, who would ever love her like that again.

With the credits rolling and the glare of the bright screen lighting up the house, Mackenzie wiped her eyes and what little flow of tears she had before lowering her legs and grabbing the remote that had bounced off the couch and onto the floor.

Deciding it was time for a change of the channel, she flipped to the next station to see funny animal videos, including one of a llama pronking to the beat of some popular song, which made her laugh rather loudly as if the breakdown she had just experienced had never occurred.

But it was there. It had happened. And just like everything else that was horrible in her life, she slowly began to force it down deeper only to be held behind a dam of emotion that was already barely together by hairline cracks that had been forming since the day her life as a zombie had started. And it was only a matter of time, before the poor patching job that kept her from breaking would explode resulting in something that no one could have ever seen coming.

#solo: disintegration #mental health tw #depression tw #grief tw #wickedswriting #{closer to fine; plot}#relationship: brody stevens

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neverendingford · 2 months

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#every time a character does the whole “talk softly and reassure the dangerous person” thing while also walking ominously towards them ughh #it drives me absolutely nuts. like. you're trying to talk them down from paranoia while you're threateningly walking towards them?#someone does that to me and I'm shooting them at least in the leg or stabbing with whatever makeshift spear I've manufactured #anyway. criminal minds is getting real annoying with the whole pathologizing of people.#like. guy shows signs of being very good at torturing people and they go “ah yes.. a pure sadist” or whatever the fuck #I get that it's shitty crime drama stuff but still. ugh.#I just. I fucking hate when people take the obviously wrong route when talking to mentally destabilized people.#like. people are shit at talking to suicidal people. are shit at talking down irrational fears. people are shit at talking down paranoia.#I hate how people don't fucking know how to interact with freaks I hate how people don't know how to interact with me #everyone acts on their own level without understanding what it's like in any way #and so everyone just projects their own reality onto you without performing any sort of empathy or exercising any sort of understanding #and I want to scream so fucking loud #you're all living in a cotton candy world and your words disintegrate in my humidity #and it's so fucking lonely #and my mind has been clear this past week. the autistic need for pressure satisfied by this prescription pushing on my brain #and I can feel the cogs turning. the wheels and pins and linked gear trains and drive shafts and traction band motors.#all the parts of my brain churning around and I can't get close because the heat from my motor makes my hood hot to the touch.#I burn your hand as you try and press your palm against my flanks.#only think saddle and tack make contact. strict guidelines and harsh rules to govern me.#when I am free I buck and I shift gait and I drag you under too-low branches #also. compared to Hannibal I can basically listen to criminal minds as a podcast. none of the visuals really contribute anything to the show #like. feels very shallow

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