#oops i deleted this

[ogygian]

instinctually i adore john silver because i find him so relatable. but then im like, id never do half the shit that insane man does. and then im like, wait, IS HE relatable?? or is this just what john silver does? his effect on people? like, is this how the crew feels about him...? am I the crew???

flint is only relatable bc we get so much insight into his past & what drives him. but silver is relatable bc that's how he survives

#oops i deleted this #anyway #i love that guy #black sails #john silver

[nettlesketches]

feral niece and her favorite uncle

#i should draw these two together more often #submas #myart #submas fanart #pokemon #pokemon ingo #warden ingo #pla #pokemon legends arceus #pokemon akari #pokemon fanart #deleted the last one bc I forgot to color in one of the stripes on ingos coat oops 🤡

[beautifulcrayon]

Brian: where am I???

#repost cause I accidentally deleted it oops #the walten files #twf #twf spoilers #the walten files spoilers #“Bon” #yes this is that one jerma meme redrawn again

[mixtercandy]

made bookmark designs for a zine that got canned :/

#i could make them intobactual bookmarks and sell them for cheap maybe (cus i really like that first one) #cand posts #cand arts #cookie run #cookie run ovenbreak #licorice cookie #poison mushroom cookie #chess choco cookie #cand fav art #cus i really like the first one i like.. poured my heart into it.. #we didnt even get to check in 1 before the zine got deleted and i litterally already finished these. #its just time i wasted which couldve been used to do something better. so i really might sell these. #pawn black cookie #pawn white cookie #omg i just noticed that everyone here has the 3 downward eyelashes oops

[meaningless-mayhem]

Being asexual and possibly aromantic but also being a huge shipper and hopeless romantic is such a wild experience ngl. I'm always freaking out about my favorite ships and giggling internally reading ship fics, getting invested in characters finally kissing or reading about their pining and their love and I think "I want what they have!!"

But then sometimes you have a slamming realization that your sweet shipping scenarios you imagine in your head look totally different irl and that you are extremely aspec.

One time I went down a YouTube rabbit hole and stumbled across Vsauce's "Why Do We Kiss?" video and let me tell you. When I saw that stock video footage of two people kissing each other I was a little flabbergasted lmaooo

#i mean this doesn't apply to all aspecs obviously but like #that stock video footage #they were kissing but it was more sucking each others faces and i was like wait #do people actually do this #lmaoo #it lowkey repulsed me oops #it hit me so hard but it also kind of validated my asexuality a bit too lol #ace #asexual #asexuality #aro #aromantic #aromanticism #aroace #this also may be because i dont watch live action shows or movies that much but still #does anyone else feel like this #ill be hardcore shipping something but i see one minute of irl relationship stuff and feel extremely disconnected #idk if im making sense #id like to hear some thoughts #might delete later but just wanted to get my thoughts out there #someone's probably said something like this before #edit: adding tags #yeah for me imagination of my ships kissing 👍👍👍💖💖 #vs #footage of irl people kissing/live action kissing scenes 🫠 #fandom #fanfic #fanfiction #my rambles

[mikesbasementbeets]

#i have made this gifset before but i ended up deleting it bc i didn't like the style. but i love the song so much and i've been #thinking about remaking it forever. i think this one turned out much better idec if anyone else cares for it this one is for me #i stayed up too late making it though oops bye #byler #mikesbasementgifs

[shadandrews]

Yes!!! I was already in the process of a loop drawing, so here’s that and an extra lil doodle page!!

#art #isat #in stars and time #siffrin-enthusiast #oops i deleted it on accident teehee

[c-rowlesdraws]

wow!! It's a........

#specific poll #tumblr polls #catie talks #OOPS lol let's try this again i messed up the duration setting and did a dirty delete

[lavender-phannie]

*exits gamingmas covered in blood* so how we feeling phannies?

Idea from @elorca

#I HOPE ITS OKAY THAT I MADE THIS #I saw your post in the dnp tag and it made me giggle #now we have a duo of pins #accidentally deleted this post the first time oops lol #dan and phil #phan

[ivoreene]

hmmmmm

#SORRY I DELETED IT OOPS #Jujutsu Kaisen #jjk #gojo satoru #satoru gojo #itadori yuji #yuji itadori #nanami kento #kento nanami #nanago

[saint-vagrant]

🌿🌼🌿 love in a mist 🌿🌼🌿

may/december butches 🖤 a piece made during my residency. pencil, ink, gouache, tape (in lieu of masking fluid.)

#illustration #traditional media #queer art #butch #not sapphic just brutal dykes #éire #ireland #wildflowers #trans #transfags #trans artist #he/him #queer #oops I accidentally deleted it teehee sorry

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Do you sleep with socks on

this is such a random ask that I feel like i’m morally required to answer it lol

and the answer is- this ✨mysterious✨ museum curator obviously never sleeps soooo that answers your question :)

#ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #shitpost #shit post #also I actually haven’t been sleeping and just have been spending every waking moment texting #because like if I wasn’t a ✨mystery✨on here i’d SCREAM FROM THE TOO OF MY LUNGS THAT I HAVE A WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND NOW #AND AM TOO DISTRACTED TO DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT TALK WITH HER AND AAAHHH #but i’m a complete and total ✨mystery✨ so i’m totally not saying that ahahaha nope #mysterious museum curator tour guide barbie obviously isn’t saying that and totally can contain her excitement and be so so chill about this #hahaha of course #you know it’s bad when I can’t help but EMOTION POST ON MY HHOF BLOG AAAHHH #help y’all I have to chill #definitely delete this tags later oops #I can’t not post them tho or I might explode #but also #like I didn’t post the other day for the first time in like 4 months #like wtf #am too busyyyyyy aaaahhh #this is when someone needs to scream ‘go to sleep miss curator’ into the void bc I might need that oops #this is a mega shitpost wow

[kit-n-kamoodle]

commission!!

#my art #furry #I got ahead of myself and deleted the form response after posting on twitt so I missed your tumblr acct name for tagging here OOPS WHOOPS #MY B!!!!

[cornflakesdoesart]

Oc Frézia for huevember, supposed to be the 3rd hue but, uhmm maybe it's more like the fourth?? It's hard getting these right traditionally for me , there's a just very little difference between hues that are the same color, I'll probably end up with little clusters of pieces in one color rather than a nice transition between hues but ah well! :")

Also I decided to just do these whenever I feel like, specific monthly challenge who

#my art #traditional art #huevember #yellow #elf #elf oc #elf ocs #my ocs #oc #original character #oc artist #oc art #original art #frézia #space elf story #oops I accidentally posted this twice #I deleted the one that had a typo in it ^^"

[kathairoette]

Oooohhh?!✨✨💕

#oops i guess i deleted it by accident? my bad #this was an experiment but I had fun :D #yugioh #ygo #mutou yuugi #yugi moto

[spectrumgarden]

I keep thinking about how no one seems to think about nuance when it comes to like, the concept of "autistic traits / symptoms" and discussing them, and how that is intertwined with the push to not consider it a disability. And its complex to discuss, but here's my convoluted thoughts. I know it's long but I hope people will take the time to read it.

There are in fact people who do fit some commonly associated with autism traits that are not impaired by them. Let's make up a guy, for a second:

They like routine and repetition a lot but easily handle change in them. For example they wear the same set of clothes for years with no desire to ever branch out, but if you made them wear something else they wouldnt really be bothered by it as long as they dont think it's super ugly, etc. They like to watch the same movies over and over but happily agree to watch other things with their friends when spending time together, and are engaged and interested in those movies. Etc. They speak very formally or choose "complicated" words for things that could be expressed easier. They however do not face problems with communication beyond annoyance of others because they're able to rephrase things easily to be understood, and they also have a normal back and forth in conversations and initiate conversations normally. They sometimes engage in subtle self stimulating behaviors and recognize the desire to do so during boring or stress inducing times (which pretty much everyone does, btw). They dislike loud environments but do not respond with melt- or shutdowns or any other "severe" reactions, and while for example preferring to go to a museum over a club, they easily go through their daily life in busy areas like city centers, shops or cultural events like parades without issues beyond like, mild annoyance and no desire to stay for longer than necessary. They have strong interests in seemingly random topics and spend quite some time researching or engaging with those, but they do not view the world through the lense of said interest, they do not neglect caring for themselves or fulfilling academic or professional responsibilities because they are so engrossed in their interests, they are easily able to hold conversations about other topics. I could go on.

This person would not be diagnosed with autism by any doctor who pays attention to the impairment clause of the diagnosis. They would probably be told "you're subclinical / you do not meet enough criteria / ..." While his person would probably relate quite a bit to (parts of) descriptions of (level 1 and / or low support needs and / or high masking) autism. And this is an imaginary person I made up, but these people obviously exist (and as a side note, are probably what people refer to when they talk about "everyone being a little autistic" etc)

And this person being told they're not autistic might be upset. Because clearly, they have so many autistic traits. They relate to so many videos! But the thing is! There is no impairment! The one thing that connects all of the symptoms related to autism to the actual diagnosis. This does not mean they do not in fact relate to the autistic experience. This does not mean these parts of their life or personality are fake / non existent / not important to who they are and how they experience things. But it is important to differentiate. If they consider themselves autistic, if the world considers them autistic, it waters down the definition to a point of being categorically useless from a medical standpoint, from a standpoint of figuring out who needs support and in what ways. Who needs (early) intervention, who needs extra support in school or at work or at home or in public.

And like. Humanity at large will probably always want to shove themselves into random categories. "Which character are you like?" "What is your personality style?" "What is your star sign?" or "which sports team do you support", and countless more come to mind. I dont think this imaginary person is wrong or silly for wanting to find a category of people they are like, or recognizing this similarity with some autistic people. I wouldnt even mind if they made up a non-clinical category / group of people who relate to autistic experiences without the impairment. It would get the point across that it is a group of people with shared experiences, but it is not the same as autism.

However autism is increasingly treated like something thats just a personality type without impairment, by people online and offline. And when they go "this is an autism symptom" without nuance, without looking at the need for impairment, or even differential diagnosis, it spreads that attitude. "Liking to eat the same foods is an autistic trait"... or is it normal to have food preferences to a degree if it does not cause you stress to eat new foods, if you are capable of eating other food if hungry and presented with them and not the food you prefer? Or is this person anorexic and their mind has created categories of "allowed to eat" and "not allowed to eat" based on arbitrary categories relating to their fear of weight gain? "Only eating with small spoons at home is a common autistic trait"... or is it a harmless preference as long as you are still able to eat food outside a strict routine set up with zero possible deviations? Or is it a person with OCD and eating with small spoons is a compulsive behavior for some sort of intrusive thoughts?

I could go on forever. But in the end, these short sentences are all the same. They are, at the same time: autistic experiences and allistic experiences, because they are so non specific. They are watered down and any additional information is removed.

autism is about a specific combination of experiences that impair you. That's literally all it is. It does not automatically turn us into a category of "other" that is fully not possible to relate to, because we are human too. And some of it will be relatable to people that are not autistic!

And there is value in discussions of experiences of autistic people that go beyond the impairment, as long as we do not forget about it, or treat it as secondary instead of the defining factor. I dont mind if autistic people bond over something they're not impaired by, that they see as a common experience, for example not easily going along with authority. Being creative. Preferring the small spoon (without being impaired by it while having other impairments), whatever, and call those common autistic experiences. But those are not the pillars of what make up autism and solely relating to them should not be your reason for calling yourself autistic. Neither should relating to commonly impairing symptoms without being impaired by your version of them. The impairments resulting from abnormal development are what makes someone autistic.

There needs to be more nuance, detail, when discussing autism symptoms. And the push to, at the very least, expand autism into an area of experiences that do not cause impairment of any kind, or worse claim it never caused impairment, need to stop. It does not help anyone.

I genuinely think part of the whole "everyone is autistic these days" crowd who likes to go after people and invalidate them has picked up on some of this, but they lack the skills to criticize it for what it actually is and / or they want there to be a simple solution, which is that everyone who calls themselves autistic online who does not fit their very stereotypical view is faking. They are wrong of course. But I dont think this comes out of nowhere. There is something to criticize about how autism is treated in many circles, especially among younger people.

I'm really not sure how to end this post because I like to come to some conclusions on my long posts but just. Uhm. The way some people treat "autistic traits" as completely unrelated to the impairment they cause while staying exclusively autistic traits is wrong. The way people try to redefine autism is harmful and in the end not needed because they could simply invent other words for that experience.

#actually autistic #autistic adult #autistic community #actually disabled #i feel like im poking a sleeping bear with this one. poking a hornets nest. whatever #but yeah it needs to be said i think. and i have the privilege of my “smart sounding” speech being more likely to be listened 2 so. *shrugs #long post #(very long... oops. i think this is the longest thing i ever wrote on here) #also this took me. i believe over 2 hours to write! im not good at this actually! i moved 80% of these paragraphs around multiple times - #- deleted entire paragraphs. merged them. rephrased things again and again and again #its exhausting #because when i think about this i can think through this entire concept in a couple minutes but trying to get it across takes hours ://