#piano programs make

[sunburnacoustic]

In the world of rock, Queen stands out as a good example of the clash between guitar and piano in songwriting. I think that’s where you stumble across those more unusual arrangements and chord structures.

In my heart I want to do more hard rock music, but at the same time, I’m much more attracted to the piano. I think that automatically causes something unusual to happen.

Also Smashing Pumpkins, even though they’re not piano-based. I always found their arrangements interesting, like on the album, Siamese Dream. In terms of guitar, I also like Rage Against the Machine and Jimi Hendrix.

But in terms of piano, I love Ben Folds, but to me, that’s a very different style of music. I love the low, heavy piano bit in “Jackson Cannery.” It made me realise if you want to get heavy, you have to get down there and hit some large chord.

Matt Bellamy on his influences and making a big sound | "Innocence And Absolution", Keyboard Magazine, June 2005

#Muse band #Matt Bellamy #the uniquely Muse sound #muse #muse interviews #2005 #Keyboard Magazine #Absolution era #muse quotes #on songwriting #pianos #Queen band #Smashing Pumpkins #RATM #Jimi Hendrix #Ben Folds #the duality of this man #all this just makes me sit and think about how important it is to give people the time to grow and develop you know? #Matt wasn't born knowing how to make a unique sound. That develops over time you're allowed to just tinker away and tweak. #I don't know if musicians now are getting that space and chance. And of course it affects the quality of music being released. #You want fresh non-derivative music? Give artists the space to create! Smh. And I don't even mean uni programs and classrooms. #Just like the Irish artist UBI thing; grants; rehearsal spaces; that kind of thing. It's not easy! (esp not if you play a louder instrument

[piplupod]

shoutout to the time i thought juggalos were just a random type of clown in the same way rodeo and pierrot is, and I off-handedly mentioned them in a conversation about clowns to one of my DQ managers when I worked there, and she fucking lost her mind laughing and I was like. damn. I didn't think my joke was THAT funny but okay. and then I never looked up what a juggalo actually was until just last year, like four years after I'd stopped working at that place 🧍

#when u dont have internet access very often u don't use ur small bits of time to look things up #esp when u dont have any unmonitored internet access fjdkdl #i was scared to look things up at school and i couldnt look up very much on the home computer #and my mobile had net nanny installed on it lmfao it was set for like... 12 yr olds #NOW GRANTED. I ACTUALLY DID MANAGE TO BREAK NET NANNY ON MY OWN COMPUTER. u have to move some files around inside the program files #and then u can basically break and un-break it as u please #so i could have it on to keep up the charade that i had it installed and it was monitoring and reporting my good boy usage #but then when i wanted to do stuff like... go on tumblr. or look up slang or whatever fhdkdl i could break the program #until i was done and then fix it so it'd go back to normal #this didnt help v much though bc i couldnt lug my laptop to school v often #and i wasnt allowed internet at home fhfkdl unless I was using my mother's laptop for looking up piano music LOL #eventually i also figured out how to break the program on my phone too but that one was more luck than anything else i think #anyways. all this surveillance made me good with tech stuff but im not Good w tech djdkdl i just know how to look things up #and i learned a bit how the backend of programs work or weird tricks for hidden folders and stuff on laptops #hey why tf am i rambling abt this in the tags fjkdl I've lost the plot #anyways good morning everyone please look up words that u may not know the meaning of before u use them #i do this too often now fhfjld. i have to look up words that i DO 100% know the meaning of just to make sure i dont have it wrong somehow #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[argiopi]

welcome to the bell parade

7  6 2 5  4 7 3  2 5 1  4 4 7 4  7 6 4 (when i was a young boy) 6 74 6 7 67 4 53 (my father took me into the city) 6 7 6 54 3 (to see a marching band) 4 5 7 4 764 (he said son when you grow up) 674 6 7 67 4 53 (would you be the savior of the broken) 6 7 6 54 3 (the beaten and the damned)

(notation is only somewhat reflective of timing lolz). the limited palette necessitates a bit of wrongness.. for instance the first B (third note) is supposed to be higher than the other notes but adapting to the lower B sounded better than using the only other higher note - the A7. alas, tis the nature of shits and giggles 🖤

#MCR #I stayed up until 4 AM on christmas eve (christmas day i suppose) to do this. #MUSIC IS HARD.. I AM NOT A MUSICIAN (YET?) #i bought a kalimba recently and one of the melodies i've learned is..... the opening to black parade !!! #since i realized it's a fairly simple piano melody and went O_O I Could Play That so i did. #and now here tumblr is giving me another instrument.. waow... #mods please i would pay to keep this blessed thing #or i suppose i could just. install a software which lets me program my number keys to notes. and have a more flexible range of notes.. #but that lacks the whimsy of Playing Music on Tumplr Dot Com 🌈 #So anyway i saw my chemical romance live on tour this summer owo #I GOTTA BRAG ABOUT IT HEH #THEY WERE SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #legendary show. #unforgettable. i think i almost passed out trying my god damn best to dance in the aisle #me and my buds rolled up in our best emo attire #we did make a hot topic run at a mall on the way before the show. #i also made a tractor supply run. what the hell can you wear from tsc to a concert? i will leave it to mystery. #my setlist had mama B) i would have been so sad if not. #okay now i am just reminiscing good night or not i'm gonna fiddle with a couple more tunes and try to not get absorbed. #I WANT THE BELLS UNTIL NEW YEARS AT LEAST. PLEASE #on the kalimba i like to transition from zelda's lullaby into WttBP... lullaby (or at least the part i've been playing??) ends on #the same note parade starts on. it's funny

[saltedsolenoid]

also. been playing piano recently, and i've been trying to come up with some INTERESTING accommadations to make up for my flawed hands. going well (?)

#need to make music for tih and none of the online programs i tried really. felt Good with me #piano is way more difficult (nerve + bone disorder in hands) but it feels more rewarding? so we're goin analog for this bitch! #dug up an old yamaha keyboard #been going insane over it

[idontdrinkgatorade]

i feel so anxious rn

#on one hand i want to do nothing bc. senioritis #but also. because i'm doing nothing. i'm running out of time to do things #*staring at my piano solo that i'm trying to take to state but haven't even touched* #*staring at fafsa* #*staring at driver's ed* #*staring at actually deciding what fucking university i'm going to go to* #i haven't had any mental breakdowns but like i feel like i'm close #it's like a constant dread #i hate thinking about the future but now i don't have much of a choice #plus no matter where i go for college i'm going to be alone #like...i feel horrible because most of my friends are going to the same place. and i'm just gonna be alone and forgotten about #and they'll prob say 'no we'll keep in contact and visit' but will that actually happen? #and even if it does i'm going to inevitably be left out of everything #if i go one place then at least i'll only be an hour away but my parents are pressuring (and manipulating) me into not going there #and they'll be pissed if i choose that and i don't know if i can deal with them and their passive aggressiveness. #but the other option is at least three hours away from any friends #and i don't have social media outside of tumblr...like i can get an instagram but at this point it probably won't be until i graduate #because my mom is so adamant on hating it and she'll be pissed at me if i make one without telling her which means i have to ask #and then there's the passive aggressiveness again and she'll probably try to stalk everything i do on there #and additionally the university option that my parents hate has the better linguistics program #and every time i mention that they get so pissed at me. and my mom's like 'we're just trying to protect you' #at this rate i'll probably never have a stable career or friends or anything #i'm just so fucking scared #i know when people say someone 'peaked in high school' they usually mean like popular kids and stuff #but like i feel like high school is going to be my peak. i think my life is going to fall apart after this

[laughinglynx]

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#wooo tag rant! #this feels too silly to talk to friends about (and also feels a little like bragging which I’m NOT but) #but some stuff has happened in the last week that made me sad so. here we are. #for some context: I’ve always loved music. I sang constantly when I was younger (much to my parents amusement and therefore belittling) #I took piano lessons for five years and cello for three or four #both of those my parents were hugely supportive of #but neither of them were really It for me #I really really wanted to sing #finally in early middle school I talked my mom into letting me take a group voice class at our nearby music school #I didn’t think that would go anywhere of course #but the teacher of the class disagreed #she moved her entire schedule around to make room for me to take lessons with her #she immediately had me fast tracked to the basically honors program in the school. super performance based super exclusive #I’m pretty sure she tried to get lesson prices lowered for me #it was. amazing. #and also the first time I really felt like an adult thought I had potential for something? #I took lessons with her for a few years. I was about to be accepted into the honors program. and then I got my wisdom teeth removed. #tldr we don’t really know what the fuck happened but the muscles in my jaw went insane. I was in constant pain for like two years. #I tried to stick with voice but I just. had to quit. #I went back with a different teacher later in high school but had to deal with Constant complaints about it from my parents. #and when that teacher fell through I just. stopped trying. #my jaw is a lot better now. but I still don’t sing much because it all just. makes me so sad. #it’s this constant reminder of pain and having to quit something I’d dreamed about for Years and having my parents just… not care. #I’m just. so angry and sad. #this was something I loved. and I was good at it. #and now I barely sing in private. #I went to a cool chapel a few days ago that had amazing acoustics and was empty. and it was the first time I had fun singing in. years. #but then I tried again today and felt miserable. #idk. #I miss singing. I miss music.

[coolxatu]

does anyone know any good midi makers that are free and work offline?

#also that has like a built in piano feature because i barely know how to read music #the way i make songs is i just press each key individually until i can find the exact note im looking for #been really want to make something lately but im mostly stuck w mobile internet at the moment #and the music programs i usually use are both online :/ #pls dont say audacity because ive tried that and it confused me lol #i need a program made for infants

[theworldwasengulfedinpudding]

went to the second hand piano shop today, was amazing being surrounded by so many instruments! they had some really nice yamaha uprights and a beautifully restored 90 year old blüthner grand (with a price tag to match...) and also a rather sweet kemble that was pretty fun to play :)

#fun to try out different pianos even if i don't decide on one! #the U3H i saw was so nice but O_O at the price #makes me wish i sold my soul to a programming career to afford a beautiful instrument like that #piano

[girlantony]

in my flopping at reading sheet music era

#my dear pianist who is one of my favourite teachers told me off for making her adlib on the piano #and now i would like to drop out #thank you to everyone who has supported me through this journey but this is the end i cannot face the embarrassment in my next class #the pianist teaches my next class #this isn't even the first time i've messed up on the second week in this class #last semester the exact same thing happened #i hate it here i'm simply not good enough for this program tbh #myrt moments

[eyivibyemi]

✧ I won’t really write descriptions for these, but see original post tags for explanation/commentary on the song snippet ✧

#girl help I don't know how to use digital instruments to make music #licherally my like 2nd time trying to play the digital keyboard instruments to make a song... SO much harder than just sting #*than just singing #also very obvious that I never ever use the metronome function ever #not for singing recordings eaither but it's less obvious since there's usually no beat actually #WHICH like I enjoy playing rhythm games I have a game that's alll about following beats and it will tell you if you #come in early or late or etc. and generally I'm pretty accurate and can get all perfects so it's not like it's impossible but #I guess when there's layers of stuff it can be harder to follow. ALSO my problem is I think youre supposed to to beat #first like get that established before anything else and I always forget about it until last lol. #doing a bunch of beatless audio thats only in sync with it's own custom fluctuating improvised flow then trying to last minute add #a drum underneath sometimes just sounds weird lol. which again would be fixed probably if I used metronome function #but...................eh #turning settings on and off is too high of an investment for like 10 minute daily songs lol #Also on some more recent joke songs like the locust one or the sims gibberish 'pop song' ones I will use pre-made drum #samples or something that come with the music program but a majority of the time I'm just manually doing any drum parts #myself playing it on the keyboard (not piano keyboard real asdf typing keyboard lol) #which makes it more vairable and not as consistent as like robot program computer perfection #ANYWAY... very goofy but hey.. it's Squirrel

[vexwerewolf]

Showrooms of LANCER Manufacturers

IPS-N

IPS-N showrooms are what you'd get if you slammed a truck dealership, a hardware store, a camping gear shop and a sports bar together in the Bass Pro Shops Pyramid. We're talking row upon row of shelves stocked with the most precision-engineered engine parts you can print on one side of the floor, and on the other, durable, hard-wearing survival gear. Camping stoves you can run off of your mech's coldcore, sleeping bags that'll survive a HEX charge, automatic camo cloth, the works.

Right down the middle, you've got the mech floor. They've got the Tortuga. They've got the Blackbeard. They've got the Drake. They've got the Lancaster and the Kidd. They've got the Vlad (they put a chain-link fence covered in DO NOT TOUCH signs around that one after the infamous CFO's 10-year-old Incident). They've even got the Raleigh, kinda tucked away a little bit behind the water feature, but it's there!

Everything on the shop floor is ruggedized to the point that you could take a mech's fist to it without leaving a dent - and they sometimes do that to demonstrate the engineering quality. There's a giant screen hanging from the ceiling displaying constant advertising for the mechs and IPS-N in general, usually striding purposefully through idyllic Diasporan wilderness or doing hard, honest work like starship loading or construction. There's a mixtape of the most famous bro-country hits playing 24/7.

Smith-Shimano Corpro

In a word: bespoke. Everything in this place is custom. Each and every desk is individually built according to the height of the salesperson who sits behind it, and manages to be a unique art piece without disrupting the overarching aesthetic of the showroom. Whenever there's a change of staff on the sales floor, they rearrange every single desk so that they're still in ascending order.

All of the salespeople are inhumanly pretty, by the way. This atelier has its own fully-staffed makeup and wardrobe team. You're part of a work of art when you work for SSC. Everything and everyone gleams. Even the most chic visitors might feel underdressed in the midst of all this splendour.

The mechs aren't just there to be sold, they're there to be part of the experience. You might see a Monarch holding up the ceiling like the titan Atlas himself. A Mourning Cloak might be posed provocatively like a nude statue. That Swallowtail - is it in a slightly different position every time you see it, or is that just its camouflage decals? How does it always manage to be just inside your line of sight, even when you're looking somewhere else?

They have a catwalk, like you'd see at a fashion show, but it's sized for mechs. If they really think you might make a purchase, they'll queue up the entire performance for you, and you'll get to see a Viceroy strut.

The mix tape for this showroom is a seamless mixture of complex jazz, psychedelic ambient and classical piano music. It's sophisticated and mysterious.

Harrison Armory

Imagine if America could be a showroom. Harrison Armory mech outlets are part dealership, part museum. Every mech is in its own diorama, depicting some heroic event in the Armory's glorious history. A phalanx of Sherman Mk. Is holds the line against some Diasporan slaver-tyrant's army. A Saladin fends off Karrakin hordes during the Interest War. The Genghis Mk. II? Oh, that diorama isn't open right now, it had to be closed for *coughcoughcough* and *coughcoughcough* but let's move on shall we heh heh

Everyone who works here has been in the Colonial Legion at some point, and knows every specification of the mechs they sell off by heart without even looking at their slate. If possible, the Armory tries to employ people who have actual combat experience with the mechs they're selling; people who can speak to the efficacy of their technology first-hand. It's one of the many programs which the Armory has open for retired veterans; it's easy work for decent pay, good benefits and it looks great on your Social.

The music here is a constant loop of patriotic Armory anthems. If you've ever heard the music from Starship Troopers, or the Outbreak of War from Star Ocean, you'll know what I'm talking about.

HORUS

Being a decentralized omninet collective with no official branding or even consistent manufacturing standards, it should come as no surprise that HORUS has no showrooms.

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#lancer #lancer rpg #lancerrpg #lancer-rpg #mecha #ttrpg #mech

[hometoursandotherstuff]

Aside from needing a new roof, and being a fixer upper, my first thought was that this 2002 home in Berkeley, West Virginia, is the perfect witches house, but it's also a very unique home. There are 3 levels, but the description says 0 bds. It's so open that there are spaces for beds, but not actual rooms. It does have 2ba. and 7.40 acres of land for $325K. The rural property is on the Virginia border so apparently commuting there to work would be easy.

At the entrance, 2 large tree trunks hold up the roof and the path is paved with colorful tiles. The 2 front tiles say "Welcome."

As soon as you walk in, you can see the open concept. The ceiling spreads out from the center fireplace and the floorboards are in a square pattern surrounding it.

The main floor can be set up in many different ways.

It's quite spacious.

There's also a bath and walk-in closet.

This is the second level. It goes around and is open in the middle.

It's pretty big up here- there's a piano in the corner on the right.

A large deck goes around the house on the 2nd level.

Behind the fireplace on the main floor are stairs to a lower level.

The kitchen is down on this level.

This area with the shelving would make a nice bedroom or den.

The area next to it also looks like it could potentially be a bedroom, also.

Lots of space down here.

There's also a bathroom and laundry.

There's storage.

The description says "bring all the animals." Looks like a couple of kennels there.

Over 7 acres can certainly be a farm and  are under the Farm and Ranch Lands Protection Program.

There are 2 loafing sheds (a place for horses and other livestock to take shelter from harsh weather) that need repair.

There are also several fenced in areas.

Well, it's a large farm property with a most unusual farm house.

It certainly has character.

https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/2822-Mauzy-Rd-Berkeley-Springs-WV-25411/2052987024_zpid/

#unusual homes #unique homes #farms #houses #house tours #home tour #fixer upper

[simplestudentplanning]

100 Hobbies To Try

Update: I wrote this at like 1 AM, so I was kind of half-asleep lol. A few people brought up that there were a bunch of duplicates in the list, sorry about that! I redid the whole list and ordered them alphabetically to avoid any repeating words. Hope you find the new list much more helpful!

Hobbies are a great way to practice self-care, and to have as a stress reliever. As uni students, we often find ourselves stressed out about our academic responsibilities, projects deadlines, and even financial concerns. We need some way to let out those stresses, and hobbies are one way to do it. You don't have to be good at them, you just have to enjoy doing them!

Here's a list:

Acrylic pouring

Antiquing

Archery

Astrology

Astronomy

Baking

Beekeeping

Bird watching

Bookbinding

Calligraphy

Canoeing

Candle making

Cartography

Chess

Checkers

Collecting coins

Collecting crystals

Collecting funko-pops

Cooking

Crochet

Crossword puzzles

Cycling

Dancing

Diving

DIY electronics

DIY home improvement

Drawing

Embroidery

Fencing

Filming

Fishing

Frisbee golf

Gardening

Genealogy

Geocaching

Glassblowing

Guitar

Homebrewing

Hiking

Horseback riding

Hot air ballooning

Ice skating

Inline skating

Jigsaw puzzles

Juggling

Kayaking

Kite flying

Kite surfing

Knitting

Lego building

Letterboxing

Magic tricks

Martial arts

Meditation

Metalworking

Model airplanes

Model building

Model rockets

Model trains

Mountain biking

Origami

Paper folding

Painting

Paragliding

Parkour

Piano

Photography

Podcasting

Pottery

Programming

Puzzle solving

Quilting

Rappelling

Reading

Rock climbing

Rollerblading

Running

Sailing

Sculpting

Sculpture carving

Scrapbooking

Scuba diving

Singing

Skiing

Soap carving

Soap making

Stand-up comedy

Stand-up paddleboarding

Stained glass crafting

Stargazing

Surfing

Traveling

Urban exploration

Urban farming

Virtual reality gaming

Web design

Wine making

Wine tasting

Writing

Yoga

#studyblr #study tips #study advice #study hacks #study tricks #university #school tips #student #student life #study motivation #hobbies #selflove #self care #self love #self improvement #self healing #mental health #emotional health #coping #coping mechanism #school advice #high school #school #students #college #uni student #university student #collegelife #college life #exams

[theambitiouswoman]

Hobby Ideas 🎨💻🎵🧁🪴

💰 Hobbies to Make Money:

Freelance Writing

Photography

Graphic Design

Web Development

Online Selling (e.g., Etsy, Amazon, eBay, Shopify)

Blogging

Stock Trading

Real Estate Investing

Affiliate Marketing

Freelance Consulting

💪 Fitness Hobbies:

Running

Yoga

Weightlifting

Cycling

Swimming

Martial Arts

CrossFit

Hiking

Rock Climbing

Dance (e.g., Zumba, Hip-hop)

☀️ Outdoor Hobbies:

Camping

Fishing

Birdwatching

Gardening

Geocaching

Kayaking

Mountain Biking

Backpacking

Stargazing

Horseback Riding

💻 Technology Hobbies:

Programming

Robotics

3D Printing

Virtual Reality (VR) Gaming

Home Automation

Drone Flying

Cybersecurity

App Development

Electronics DIY

PC Building

🎵 Music Hobbies:

Playing an Instrument (e.g., Guitar, Piano)

Singing

DJing

Music Production

Songwriting

Music Recording

Karaoke

Music Theory

Joining a Band or Choir

Vinyl Collecting

📚 Brainy Hobbies:

Chess

Sudoku

Crossword Puzzles

Board Games

Reading

Learning a New Language

Brain Teasers

Logic Puzzles

Math and Mathematical Puzzles

Astronomy

✨ Other Hobbies:

Cooking and Baking

Painting and Drawing

Pottery and Ceramics

Woodworking

Knitting or Crocheting

DIY Home Improvement

Model Building (e.g., model trains, airplanes)

Collecting (e.g., stamps, coins, vintage items)

Volunteer Work

Meditation and Mindfulness

#hobbies #creative #creative inspiration #inspiration #creativity #creating #learning #skills #life skills #advice #life advice

[tobylovesspence]

Late Night Talking

Content: Your poor boyfriend Reid just has to talk about how he feels. Reverse comfort! He's such a sweetheart :(

Working with the B.A.U. really was a tole taking job. Even more so when you got told you were a room down at the hotel. "You can room with me if you want." It was Reid's quiet voice next to you, "I don't feel much like sleeping so you can have the bed." He gave you that tired smile, the small one that had you knowing that he really didn't feel like sleeping.

Even after you'd both settled in the room and sat comfortably on the bed you could tell he wouldn't sleep so you laid down first. "Lay down." you mumbled and he did so, albeit awkwardly but he laid beside you. "Do you think I'm strange?" it was quiet, an almost unnoticeable whisper. "Strange? Why would I think that?" You could see from your peripherals that Reid was messing with his hands, anxiously thinking. "Talk to me, Spence."

At that he was quiet for a moment. "I just know I'm odd. I use words like betwixt and I know what ballads are. I seem to talk too much and never notice that people don't like what I'm talking about. My favorite shows are nerdy and I always explain them to people who don't care. I go on and on about things the team finds creepy or weird. Derek says I'll never get a date if I keep being this way and I'm starting to see his point, I'm lacking in the boyfriend department and I can't even make friends. You know, the team tells me their secrets and I think it's because they know I have no one else to tell. Did you know J.J. collects butterflies? Or that Derek secretly likes The Smiths? Or that Hotch is fond of chocolate flavored sweets? Emily likes deathmetal. Penelope's favorite television program is Vampire Diaries."

Reid turned to you as he spoke, looking at you as if he might cry. He felt so estranged compared to everyone else, you seemed to be the only one who listened. You didn't even talk when he was done, letting him continue. "I just know all this stuff about everyone, and I feel like no one knows me." You nodded softly and finally talked after a beat of silence. "Chocolate frosted donuts with rainbow sprinkles." Reid was instantly confused by this, raising a brow. "Excuse me?" '

You chuckled, "Your favorite donut. Emily told me." A small smile graced his lips at this. "And Derek said you really like chicken tandoori." His smile only seemed to widen. "And you put three whole tablespoons of sugar in your coffee according to J.J." You seemed like you weren't going to stop anytime soon and he looked so contented he didn't want you to. "And Hotch says you like pretzels and rice crispy treats. Pen says you grew up with horses and that you adore Halloween and all its traditions. Gideon told me you loved classical music and chess, he even saw you play piano once. And you're never lacking in the boyfriend department because you've been nothing but perfect. You're the sweetest man alive and I wish you'd ramble to me every second of the day because your voice is lovely."

He seemed about ready to cry as he moved his hand to touch your cheek. "You're too good to me," he whispered, kissing your forehead, "Thank you. I feel much better sweetheart." You give him a small smile and a kiss. "That's good, now let's get some sleep you look exhausted."

#spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid x you #spencer reid fluff #spencer reid fanfiction

[agi-ppangx]

💭right person, wrong time (100 followers special)

chan | minho | changbin | hyunjin | jisung | felix | seungmin | jeongin

“you should definitely go,” chan said quietly, his voice strained and filled with misery. you didn't say anything back, quietly fighting the tears angrily wailing in your eyes.

you two were lying on the beach, listening to waves hitting the shore. the sea was restless that day - as if it sensed your mood. you were cuddled with him on a small blanket you took from the car, surrounded by his cologne, the scent you knew all too well and loved even more. 

you'd just told him about the offer you received a few days before. you were given this huge opportunity which could possibly change your entire career for better. though there was something that made this whole thing a bit less exciting. yes, you got into a one-year program for aspiring scientists, but it was taking place in canada. but who would reject such a great opportunity to finally spread their wings? who would even question whether to go or not? well, that would be you. of course, it was huge and it could quite literally change your whole life - better income, bigger knowledge, more opportunities to work with respected scientists in the future. but then there was chan. 

you two met almost five years earlier. you were friends with felix, who happened to be chan’s friend as well, so it was natural for the two of you to meet up at different occasions. and the bond between you grew and grew. he would help you to figure out how to write an essay for a particularly mean lecturer even though he knew shit about the topic. and he would always bring you snacks and coffee for your late study sessions, helping you to write and cut the flashcards and proofread your drafts to check if there are any typos and grammar mistakes. but you two would also enjoy mundane activities such as going to the movies or cooking together. you would spare shy glances at him when he wasn’t looking just to admire him. in the meantime he shared his love for music with you, creating you various playlists for different occasions and playing piano for you. he'd never told you before, but with you he felt safe, as if any worries in his life disappeared when you approached him, you were his haven. and over the time you realised that you couldn’t lie to yourself anymore - his shiny eyes, soft smile and unique worldview made you fall in love with him too. of course, you hadn’t figured it out in a few days, you simply couldn’t. but after what seemed like eternity you both sorted things out in your heads and a week ago you finally talked about it. and when you thought that everything in your life was coming together the offer came and you started questioning every single decision you have ever made. you thought about how are you going to tell chan about it - you knew he would be supportive, of course he would. and you loved that about him. but deep down you were hoping, just a little bit, that he’s going to be selfish this time, that he’s going to tell you “please stay here with me”. but he simply couldn’t, he knew this was too big for you to let it go. 

“you do want to go, right?” he then asked, there was panic in his voice at your lack of response. why was he panicked? “i guess so…” you finally mumbled, not sure at the moment. all you knew is that you wanted to be where you were right now - in chan’s arms, surrounded by his warm body and this pretty cologne. 

“what do you mean? i mean, you love your job, it’s a great offer. i’m pretty sure not everyone got it” he spoke again, trying to help you, convince you that this is what you should do right now. in reality he tried to convince himself, not wanting to say anything that could discourage you from going. of course he wanted you to make your dreams happen, your happiness was his happiness. but why now? 

"sure, i love my job, i just… now i wanna be here, with you," you mumbled, cheeks rosy. suddenly you felt embarrassed, because who on earth would put a boy over a great career? 

but chan wasn't just a boy, he was a person you could quite literally see your future with. it didn't matter that you weren't really in a real relationship yet, you both knew it was just a formality now. "hey, yn, i'm not mad that you're leaving now. i want you to be happy and i know this is gonna make you happy, yeah?" he whispered, his voice getting weaker and weaker with every word. you suddenly got up, breaking free from his warm embrace. "you know what would make me happy now? being here, with you," you shouted, angry tears welling in your eyes. "going to the convenience store at 2am to buy some snacks, watching a new movie on netflix and cuddling on a sunday morning. you would make me really happy now," you whispered the last words, feeling defeated. what was the point of lying? he knew how you felt towards him. 

the tears started falling down your face and you started to shiver from the cold wind. chan didn't waste time, he got up as well and brought you to his chest, hugging tightly, and started rubbing soothing circles on your back. he muttered sweet nothing into your hair, kissing your forehead from time to time. but you couldn't calm down, not now. you wanted to let out your anger and misery, wanted the whole world to know how deeply hurt you're right now. you wanted to scream on the top of your lungs at whoever was up there, cursing at them for putting you in this situation. 

but you sobbed into chan's chest instead, desperately clutching at his hoodie. you were like a porcelain doll, fragile and defenseless. 

"it sucks, you know? i-i really thought we could be together but-" you hiccuped through tears. at this point your head hurt, your eyes stung and you grew more and more tired. "it's okay, i'll wait for you however long you want me to" chan interrupted you, sensing your pain. it was hard for him too, knowing he has to set you free and let you spread your wings. how bittersweet, chan thought. he was willing to wait for you, but god, was he impatient by nature. he wanted to kiss you hungrily, clutch into your clothes and never let go. but now it would only broke the two of you even more and he was not letting it happen. 

you stayed like this for a long time, over the time your broken sobs stopped, but you didn't let go of chan, clutching to him like a koala. he was quiet, running his fingers through your hair. 

"i don't want you to regret going, yn" chan spoke suddenly, his voice barely above the whisper. "i don't mind waiting, i just want you to go there and make your dream come true, 'cause seeing you happy will make me happy." you sighed and finally looked up to make eye contact with chan. "you know i love you, right?" chan was caught of guard by your words, but he smiled nonetheless. he nodded and placed a soft kiss on your temple. "i will come back and when i do i'll make sure to compensate you this year," you exclaimed, taking his hand in yours and squeezing it. 

a few days later chan accompanied you to the airport. you didn't want to let go of his hand, as if he was going to disappear as soon as you do. but the time didn't stop for the two of you and you had to say your goodbyes. "can i kiss you?" chan asked you and you looked at him. "not now. if you do, i won't go anywhere." he only smiled sadly at your words but nodded his head. he understood. with that you pecked his cheek instead and let go of his hand with tears in your eyes. "see you soon, chan" you whispered. "see you soon, yn".

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