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deadsetobsessions · 3 months
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Damian Wayne was like a duckling. A violent, stab-happy, danger-prone duckling, yes, but a duckling all the same. Which means when Danny almost got stabbed by a sleepy, instinct driven Damian, he was able to wave it off with a laugh. Damian, on the other hand, stared in horror at the butter knife firmly lodged in Danny’s arm.
“PENNYWORTH!” Danny jerked back at Damian’s scream. “RICHARD! FATHER!”
God damn, the kid had a pair of lungs on him. Danny’s wince was interpreted as pain to Damian, who gently grabbed his injured arm and started to pull him towards the kitchen’s marble island.
Danny blinked, non plussed as his hearing picked up a thundering of feet as the present family members scrambled towards Damian’s distress call.
“Wait, Damian, I’m fine. It’s-”
“You have been impaled, you imbecile! Had it been any of the other simpletons, they would have-!”
“Ouch.” Danny put his other hand in mock hurt over his slow-beating heart. He literally doesn’t care about the butter knife. He’s just impressed there was enough force in there to impale him. “Are you calling me names now? After- gasp- stabbing me?”
Before Damian could reply, the beginnings of regret, remorse, and guilt on his face, Alfred, Dick, and Bruce burst into the kitchen.
“What happened?!”
“My word, master Danny!”
“What is it?!”
“I’m fine. It’s like a small stab. Not even a big stab. I’m good.”
Dick paled, seeing Danny’s arm clutched in Damian’s hand.
“That’s- that’s a knife. In your arm. How is that ‘fine’?!”
“What happened.” Bruce asked Damian, gently removing Danny’s arm from Damian’s death clutch.
“I- I did not mean to,” Damian starts, guilt coloring his voice.
“He didn’t,” Danny cuts in. “I startled him and got stabbed for being dumb. I won’t fault him for having a defense mechanism like that, ancient knows what I might do if you guys startled me.”
The awkward silence that settled at his words made Danny twitch awkwardly.
“Uh, so, can I add this knife to my collection? Even if I didn’t get mugged?”
“Danny.”
“Bruce.” Danny stared stubbornly back. With his uninsured hand, he patted Damian on the head. He was going to enjoy the fluffiness before Damian’s guilt was no longer enough to hold him back from snapping at Danny’s hand like a grumpy alligator. Bruce loses, obviously. He’s a teenager who was also an ex-vigilante. Batman’s got nothing on a determined halfa.
“Master Danny, I must insist you refrain from getting stabbed. There is only so much gauze and antiseptic cream in the house.” Alfred returned- huh, when did he leave?- with a med kit.
Danny called bullshit because he knows there’s a whole ass medical bay beneath the manor.
“Sorry.”
“No need to apologize.” Alfred said, promptly beginning the extraction of the butter knife.
“Are you okay?” Dick asked, hovering worriedly. “He- are you…?”
Damian was allowing Danny to ruffle his hair, so…
“Yep, I’m good. This isn’t even on my top thirty most painful stabbings,” and it really wasn’t. That honor was given to the GIW and that one time Jazz accidentally stabbed him with her earrings. “That was pretty impressive, actually. It’s like, a butter knife. The other ones had pointy ends.”
“Do not clump me with those pathetic wastes of spaces. I am naturally superior and would… would never harm you on purpose.” Damian said, getting quiet at the end like he was trying to plead to Danny to believe him.
“Of course not. But- if you want help me keep the knife, you can hit me with a mug, it would technically be a mugging.”
The pun got the desired effect. Damian leaned away with a disgruntled look and Dick stopped hovering as close in order to let out a small cackle.
“Done.”
“You should go get changed, kiddo. We’re going to see Tim’s photography at the Gotham Gallery today.”
“Oh, for real?” Danny patted Damian’s fluffy hair one last time, pushing away from the counter. “Oh, I’ll clean up here first and-”
“That will not be necessary,” Alfred scolded, a mop somehow already in his hands. “Please see to it you are prepared for the day.”
“Thanks, Alfred. Can I keep the knife.”
“Very well.”
“Sweet. See you guys later?” Danny pranced off after seeing the nods.
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“He’s… he got stabbed a lot. Before us, I mean.” Dick tapped a furious rhythm onto the counter. “Not that we’ve stabbed him until now but even once is concerning for a civilian.”
“He was used to it.” Bruce replied.
“Perhaps we should join Todd in his endeavor and ensure that his worthless tormentors are permanently out of the picture.”
“God, he said top thirty. He was counting.”
Damian silently withdrew a kitchen knife.
“No murder with my quality chef’s knives, Master Damian.”
“Tt.”
“Master Jason follows the same rules. Now, out of the kitchen. I may be old, but I remember the last time master Bruce and master Dick stepped foot in here and I will not have a repeat.”
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decora-kai · 3 months
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Yk i wish medical professionals could actually act fucking professional and understand that being in constant pain is not something that 'everyone has' or 'just growing pains'. I want them to recognise that I'm not just a whining kid who wants attention, or an unhealthy kid who just needs to exercise. It fucking pisses me off. I'm also pissed because I feel like my level of pain doesn't warrant any help compared to others. I know some people with chronic pain are bed bound 24/7 and because of fucking medical gaslighting I feel like I'm not worthy of a diagnosis because I'm not also stuck to bed forever. Like Im with my chronically ill friends who have to deal with such bad pain that they probably will never be able to leave their house and I feel for them, but just because I'm not 'as bad' as them doesn't mean I'm just a pussy bitch.
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hejee · 5 months
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Finally introducing my inquisitor Myrella Lavellan (she/they) 🫶
also some facts about her:
ex-clan member of the lavellan clan (got exiled for arson and attempted murder lol)
sore loser
not herald of andraste
that mage who’s surprisingly great as a spy
elfroot enthusiast
the elf that always has a surprise dagger hidden somewhere
a bit vain and prideful
is out there dreadwolf-hunting with varric and cassandra
always scares the fuck out of their keeper (her sister scolds her for it)
may or may not have tried blood magic before
the template for the first pic is here:
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thekats · 3 months
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1:38AM thoughts (on Aziraphale bc he has taken over my body help he's making me write things in his defense, well except this part, obviously, I am doing a joke, haha):
"We can be together!" and "I need you!" followed by "I don't think you understand what I'm offering you." is so fucking tragic to me? It's like he's saying 'I love you, I want to be with you' reeeaaally really clearly (though some people would rather just ignore it and are all 'oh, Aziraphale's only talking about jobs and promotions'). He is offering Corwley a way they can be with each other for realsies, no take-backsies without fear or interference, with earth and humanity protected (which Crowley was previously the main advocate for, remember) and Crowley hits him with "I think I understand a whole lot better than you do."
Wanna know what I'd have thought in Azi's place at that? I'll tell you anyway: whoa, fuck, I completely misinterpreted everything Crowley's been throwing my way for... a long time! He doesn't want to be together together, he just likes to be really good friends and wants to keep that up, he's so lonely on earth, being a good demon that he expresses his platonic love in a way reminiscent of pining love-interests- heck, maybe I'm so lonely down here that I misread common best-buddies-stuff as romantic interest! This is bad. He understands what I want to do here and he doesn't want that. He wants to be 'us' as we have been for millennia. I... don't know if I want that... I don't want to hide this shit, but if he doesn't reciprocate, then I'd make him uncomfortable and things wouldn't work out anyways. Guess I might as well save us both the pain of one-sided love and a friendship that can never be the same again and go. Now I'm angry. This isn't at all how it was supposed to be. I need distance now. From him, our relationship and my emotions bc this hurts. Ouchie. Rude.
And then Crowley mentions the nightingale and hits him with that angry, tragic as fuck kiss? The (potentially perceived) mockery! Crowley is mocking Azi's feelings for him. 'Is that what you want, angel? This? Silly birds proverbially singing about our love? Kissing? That's what you want for us?'Yes, it is, damn you a second time!
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adhdslugcrimes · 1 year
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Dick: Wally, guess who's here.
Wally: my pizza!
Dick: no, your dad.
Wally: I don't have a dad, call the police.
Rudy: hey son...
Wally: I'll call the police.
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neuroticboyfriend · 8 months
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psych ward survivors who vouch for psych wards because they kept them from dying through abuse/neglect sound the same as people who justify hitting kids because their parents hit them and it built character. in this essay i will-
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thedreadvampy · 1 month
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vaguing a post that's on my dash that I don't want to engage with (as usual) but actually no CPTSD isn't a diagnosis for 'when things were a tiny bit bad a lot' or 'if you experienced relationships that were toxic but not abusive' it's a diagnosis describing the impacts of CONTINUOUS TRAUMA. not less significant but more frequent trauma; trauma which is ongoing/continuous/recurring in developmental years.
like I'm not trying to gatekeep here and I recognise the value of saying 'it doesn't have to be a Single Big Obvious Trauma' because one key thing about CPTSD is that generally it makes traumatic incidents Your Normal so you don't necessarily view them as unusual or concerning. but I often see people talk about CPTSD as if it implies smaller individual incidents than PTSD and that just is not the case.
most experiences I have seen people be diagnosed with CPTSD for (myself included) are not 'a little bit toxic'. they are things which, each incident taken separately, an outsider would still recognise as traumatic - medical emergencies, rape and sexual abuse, significant physical violence, emotional abuse and coercive control, homelessness, severe poverty, war, torture, etc - and the thing that makes the PTSD C is not the relative level of the trauma, but the fact that it's enough of a repeated and consistent pattern, at an early enough stage, and sufficiently embedded in everyday life, that it becomes a person's baseline for 'normal'.
CPTSD is not a synonym for emotional microtraumas or cumulative trauma or 'death by a thousand cuts'. It's specifically defining the psychological differences in response to long term formative trauma as opposed to traumatic events which you process as an aberration (eg the difference between regular violence against you from trusted adults in childhood vs being physically abused for the first time in adulthood with existing experience of healthy relationships). Traumas causing CPTSD tend to be pretty similar in type, scale and severity to traumas causing standard PTSD - they are just more embedded and normalised earlier in life.
all this to say there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that cumulative microtraumas can't affect us in traumatic ways. there's nothing wrong with pointing out that there's a broad range of types of trauma, and trauma can include stuff like growing up marginalised or ill as well as abuse, war, injury or immediate loss. there's nothing wrong, too, with acknowledging that a lot that is traumatic doesn't necessarily feel traumatic to you.
but like. no. CPTSD is not a diagnosis for people whose trauma wasn't 'big enough' for PTSD. CPTSD is not cumulative microtraumas. CPTSD is a response to formative macrotraumas or to a long term traumatic situation without hope of escape or change and if you want to talk about microtraumas then do that but it's not what CPTSD is!
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starlooove · 20 days
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Ppl will say fanon v canon doesn’t matter and it’s all jokes and I’m sooooo close to going sure sometimes and then I remember y’all removed a major role of one of the if not THEE most prominent black character in Bruce’s story who was created a whole decade before tim and gave it to tim based off a run where he literally handed the role back! Like IN THE COMIC Tim was CEO in name only and handed it back to Lucius relieved when he didn’t need to front anymore like.
#also if I said y’all took a lot of what tam does and her character traits and handed them off to tim….#like from that run#it’s crazy bc I always say that’s like the only comic tim stans read#but if that’s true the racism isn’t even covert anymore el oh el#tim Drake#it’s actually about him this time#I’m not gonna clog Lucius or tam tags any further tho#oh and on the tam note#her quick thing and sheer insanity was seen as naivety from tim even tho it saved his ass quite a few times#mainly that Vicki vale shit#which is hung up on LUCIUS’ wall#bc it’s HIS office#bc HE is the CEO.#I think it’s so funny how Bruce quest was like unreliable narrator knows their unreliable and thinks that knowledge means that everything t#they say is true bc they acknowledge that maybe they’re not thinking healthily#which is so fucking fun#but y’all go ‘yesss this is Tim!’#like no! it’s not! and tim knows that! and he’s too high strung to be pissed or scared about it!#AND THAT IS WHAT SHOULDVE HAPPENED NEXT#IK cómics don’t like to acknowledge that kinda trauma and shit#but something going deep into Tim’s mental state at the time and how he was impacted in daily and personal life#(bc instead of black characters being written out and ignored I’m choosing to believe tam distanced herself bc he was such a Dick)#Like that would’ve been craaaazy#like even tims lack luster reaction at seeing Kon in Paris after he was DEAD#And then later having the emotional reaction like he really kept that shit on the backburner#but noooo he’s so badass and a killer 🥺#anyways justice for the fox family#at least for Lucius like he and cyborg are in the same boat for me#where they’ve been around for so long and have been so important (cyborg on a waaaay wider scale)#that the fact that they don’t get their flowers in favor of making shit up for tim is SICK
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greensaplinggrace · 8 months
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hold up guys… apparently disagreeing with the writing decisions for a female character means you don’t actually like her.
apparently having valid criticisms of the ways her development is regressed due to narrative shaming through her ties to one bad man means you’re a fake fan. apparently you can’t ever wish for her ending to have sacrifices that she chooses and a path that she chooses to walk down because then you’re a fake fan.
hang on guys! the literary criticism of how her complex character traits are used to hate and prop up the two men in her life may be seen as you caring more about the men! because god forbid you call sexist writing actually sexist when it comes to your repressed and regressed main female character who’s ending she didn’t choose and which she actively grieves ends up in her assimilation.
and apparently criticizing the way fandom talks about genya when they use all of her traumas and decisions and major character moments to hate a man instead of like her are faking it too. because god forbid you don’t treat all of these women like perfect paragons and perfect victims who’s every bad action or thought or major character moment can be attributed to one man. if you do, they might hypocritically think it’s fucking misogyny.
hold up guys, real critical analysis doesn’t exist anymore because I have to lick the author’s boots like all these fucking centrists do the government.
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millionsnife · 9 months
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@orangetintedglasses: It certainly won't be too long after Knives wakes up that someone does enter the room-- one Luida Leitner, eyes glued to and fingers flying over a datapad as she shuffles in. Once glance up and a short squeak of surprise later, she offers a smile that's only slightly embarrassed. "Goodness, you're already awake...!"
Of course it's her. Of course. Knives sighs, dropping back down against the bed with a vaguely pained noise, dropping his uninjured arm across his face. "Yes. I am awake. And I suppose Baby Vash decided this was the safest spot to dump me."
Narrow, icy blue stares at her over the top of his arm; she's older than when they first met, but not as old as his visit a year or so ago. "You don't need to pretend you're happy to see me either. Unless things went wildly different here, I had every intention of making sure you died first." Rem, not Rem; fingers wrapped around her neck and her hands scrabbling at his to make him let go. He doesn't, until he does, until Vash interferes. The Knives of this world had, by all accounts, been even worse. He doubts she'll keep him here if she can get rid of him.
"I'll heal fine, so thanks but no thanks."
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decora-kai · 2 months
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I been doing some thinking, about chronic illness and shit. I haven't gotten a diagnosis for anything yet, so I'm left to search for myself. I wonder if I might have fibromyalgia, Juvenile Arthritis or Pots. But recently, one of my friends caught COVID and it turned into long COVID. He has similar symptoms to me but not exactly the same. It's just making me theorise if potentially I have Long COVID, or if I had long COVID and it triggered the existence of something else.
The only thing is, I know that no medical professionals seem to take me seriously. Coming back to my point on my friend, In school, he has a newly adjusted timetable that allows him to only do half days, instead of a full six hours. I'm not sure if he is professionally diagnosed with Long COVID or not, but I really wish I was also able to have half days as sometimes, I just cannot go through with my day due to the pain I'm in or the fatigue I have. But I'm not diagnosed, which means I either have to have my parents backing me (and they are but they wouldn't back me so much as to allow me accomodations within school unless I'm diagnosed) ot get diagnosed which takes God knows how long. I don't want to seem like a lazy bitch because I literally don't even appear to be in pain to almost everyone, I mask it very well and I feel as though if i do try to get benefits in school without a diagnosis, i will be seen as a faker or just trying to skip school.
Luckily, my 8 week period of the exercises is nearly done, so I'll be able to tell my physio that it hasn't helped and has actually made me feel a bit worse and hopefully then I'll be closer to a diagnosis
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tomcatyowls · 2 months
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White systems need to be aware of the fact western cults & abusers are fundamentally attracted and tied into racist propaganda, targeted micro-aggressions, hate speech, and racism.
White systems need to be aware of the fact that they are not actually an ally, unless they dedicate the time and energy educating themself accordingly.
White systems need to be aware that being sexually or physically exploited because of race is not comparable to white experiences of sexual or physical exploitation.
White systems need to be aware that they are still in positions of white privilege & have the same level of expectation to shut up and upraise minorities voices in their own country, AND educate themselves on Blk & Asian & Indigenous & Native & Tribal cultures and conflicts.
White systems need to be aware that white experiences with RAMCOA does not give u any type of personal insight to the struggle & exploitation of Non-White Systems RAMCOA.
White Systems need to start putting in effort into being accountable & dealing with their internalized racism- stop tokenizing conversations & thought pieces from Non-White Systems/People online and calling it “education”.
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BLK, Asian, Indigenous, Native and Tribal people want complete change from Allies. Stop your skin deep mindset changes and face the fact its GOOD that you are uncomfortable and upset you benefit from exploitation, BECAUSE WE ARE ANGRY ABOUT THIS SHIT AS WELL.
You being upset & angry enough to learn is IMPORTANT in educating yourself properly.
Start reading the ugly parts of what white colonization has done to people. Download history books, WATCH educational documentaries, and LOOK to EDUCATORS for answers — not influencers.
STOP forcing your minority friends to be responsible for educating you. YOU need to put in the effort of Academic Education. Thats how being an ally works.
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cistematicchaos · 1 year
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I honestly don't think it's anymore inherently traumatizing to live with mentally ill folks than it is sane ones. I think people just like to chalk abusive behavior up to mental illness in order to have an excuse or "explanation" for why it happened. This isn't to say mentally ill people can't be abusive but to point out that claiming living/being close with us is inherently traumatizing because of our madness is a wild and frankly fucking absurd thing to say. Anyone can be abusive and/or traumatize you, madness is not some sort of addition to our personalities that automatically makes us tick either of those boxes.
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poppytuft · 1 year
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bothers me very much when people use Ted getting upset telling the denver broncos story as like evidence that he could be queer instead of thinking about an old friend drowning in loneliness and saying to himself “i should’ve been there i should’ve supported him” is him reflecting on his traumas, as if this is not a man who heard his dad kill himself at age 16 and carries that guilt wherever he goes. he tells EVERYONE he loves that he supports them no matter what the struggle is and colin’s struggle was internal and invisible, WHICH SCARES HIM. he’s terrified by invisible struggle and he always has been BECAUSE of that childhood trauma. so TO ME…… it reads very media illiterate to take it that way, because Ted didn’t have some tender gay experience with his denver broncos friend in the 90s, he’s haunted by knowing there was someone he loved who went through something alone (even if it was silly and minor like watching the Super Bowl alone) and doesn’t want anyone to ever feel like that again, (especially if it’s something as big as being one of two gay men in a room in an industry that hates them) let alone one of his players on the team that he has worked so hard to turn into a family!!!!!!!!!! damn!!!!!
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constantvariations · 7 months
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"Ruby wouldn't be angry at Jaune because she would understand it was Penny's choice" as if grief over losing a close friend again after going through so much to save her again wouldn't manifest in absolute rage that blocks out suicide fetish logic. The writers refused Ruby her anger not only to protect their precious Jaune, but because they think certain emotions are evil
I'm constantly thinking about Blake in V5 attributing spite to Adam as if it's a bad thing. Spite is the emotional version of "hold my beer," and is responsible for some incredible things
Lord of the Flies by William Golding is a spiteful response to The Coral Island by R. M. Ballantyne, a story with the same premise of several middle class English boys being stranded on an island. Where Ballantyne has the boys having "wonderful adventures" such as... saving women and children from being killed and eaten by the native Polynesians, Golding depicts the boys falling into savagery as time and isolation grows their paranoia to the point where they start killing each other. Golding was pissed at the saccharine portrayal of English boys as the height of humanity because he was a teacher who taught that exact demographic and damn well knew better
After a teacher said he wasn't smart enough to get into college, Huey P. Newton taught himself how to read and got into law school. When the college committees were more into intellectual talk than action, he said, "Fuck this, I'm gonna make my own group," and he did! It became an international organization that had the FBI shitting themselves! That's the power of spite, baby!!
The writers are using emotions as a shorthand for a character’s morality, which is why Ruby can't be mad at Jaune without losing her status as a hero and why Adam's anger at injustice makes him irredeemable from day one. Ruby's ptsd disappears with a triumphant smile and musical number while Ironwood's vilifies and dehumanizes him even after his death
The writers have tied "negative" emotions to evil and "positive" to good when they're neither. Emotions are a body's response to stimuli, similar to goosebumps and crying. Think of it as a "check engine" light on your car's dashboard. What someone does because of their emotions can be good or bad, but emotions in and of themselves are morally neutral
Really wish people would learn that
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