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4thestars-sun-n-moon · 3 months
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3d modeling a special someone......
(its an oc. its always an oc.)
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ramattra-simping · 1 year
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Ramattra’s mission failed and he has a child! Human reader who he adopted. They were gonna go and see him but saw him pissed off for the first time and in nemesis form. I hope it’s okay as a request ^•^
This is really adorable and i can see him actually taking in a small child because they havent done anything Bad yet.🥺
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Ramattra with child!reader
So you around 5 years old and live in the Null Sector with the Omnics the reason for this is simple because of Ramattra.
Once on a Mission Ramattra was done with killing a few humans who hurt an omnic but before He left He heard crying.
After following it He saw a small Baby. He was about to Go when He saw a picture with your parents and saw they were with the dead now.
He felt bad for the human Baby. And He got an Idea If He Take them with him raise them with other Omnics they can help someday and show humans Omnics arent the real Monster.
This is how you ended up in there.
You never knew your real parents but you didnt Care. All the Omnics were so nice to you. And you even saw Ramattra as a Father figure.
Sadly He is most of the time gone so you dont really See him but when He is home he makes sure to spend a Lot of time with you.
You are like the daughter He never can get.
But sadly one day some dumb humans followed him to the null Sector thinking they can destroy them all.
Ramattra was the first to act.
"(y/n) Go to your room and dont come out until I am Back"
You did Walk to your room but turned around and run Back.
You wanted to be there for your Dad.
Then you saw him outside with the humans around him.
"I advice you all to leave otherwise you must face the consequences" He didnt want to fight here making it a risk you might see or hear anything.
"How about we take you apart and than Just burn everything down. I like this more. You Guys?" "Hell ye" "absolut" and more.
"As you wish. I wont show Mercy"
And with that Ramattra and the Humans starts to fight.
The fight lasted awhile until you saw that Ramattra was slowly losing. He didnt Had as much strenght as He thought He Had.
"No!" screaming you run out to Ramattra and hug him. "Please dont hurt him"
The other Humans were a bit shocked seeing a child here and hugging this Thing.
"Kid get away from it. Now." " No! Dont hurt my daddy!"
Everyone was shocked. The humans because you called this Thing a father. Ramattra because ifs the first time he hears you calling him your Dad.
"Thats it." One of the men was trying to pull you away from him but a standing up Ramattra stopped him.
"Not you nor any of you will touch my daughter!" Holding you in his arms Ramattra turns into His Nemesis form holding you Close to his chest with his normal arms while the other two are ready to punch all of them.
But it didnt come to it. All of the humans got scared and run away screaming.
Making sure they are gone Ramattra then Looks down to you. "I thought i told you to Go to your room, (y/n)." "I know. But i was worried something will happen to you Dad"
If He could He would be smiling from ear to ear. "Nothing will happen to me. After all i have to come Back to you."
Still with you in his arms He brought you Back inside to your room to Bring you to bed.
Today was a stressful day for a 5 year old Kid.
His Kid.
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Heyyy i hope you like it. I really liked the Idea of Ramattra adopting a kid🥺
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robinismywifee · 8 months
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Back to the Old House - Chapter 5:
August 30th, 2034
[7 days after previous chapter]
Raines age: 16 years, 6 months
Ellies age: 15 years, 3 months
CW: none
Words: 1381
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Raines POV:
I've been going on patrol with Jesse for a week now. He still started awkward conversations and tried to get to know me, but since I would either just not reply or give an answer without actually answering, he would resort to just telling me his answer in detail. Although I didn't care, I did listen because it felt rude not to. He hasn't done anything wrong and is a nice guy, however, I wish he didn't try so much.
Me and Jesse were on our way back to Jackson, on our horses, we finally ran into infected today so it wasn't entirely boring, even if it was only 2 runners.
"So, school starts up again next monday, you're gonna go, right?" Jesse randomly asked.
I looked at him confused, "School?"
He looked back at me, confused of why I was confused. "Yeah?"
"Oh. Didn't know there was a school system for older kids here."
"Well, I went last year and it was fun. We learn a
bunch of different things! Like, grammer, poetry, history, all different kinds of science, some math.." Jesse listed on his fingers, "Oh! And you can take an extra class for art, or at least last year they had it. And then they have all the other boring stuff, like health.. survival.. combat.."
I liked the idea of learning more poetry and history. My ears perked up when he mentioned an art class, awhile back when I was super young, before i lived at the QZ, I would paint all the time. Anything I saw in nature I painted. I sketch from time to time, but I miss painting alot. Maybe they have the supplies for that?
"Art class?" I simply asked.
"Yeah! My friend E- uhh.. my friend took the class, she really enjoyed it actually. Do you draw?"
I shrug, "Well, i'm sure you're great! And you can improve by going to school! You should sign up for it, or I guess since you live with Maria you could just ask her."
"What do the teach in the art class?"
"Well, I didn't take it, thats not really my thing, but, from what i've heard, they teach the history of art, different techniques for drawing and painting, i'm pretty sure theres even a lesson on clay sculptures and you get to make stuff out of it. Pretty cool, I wish I was artsy."
I sat on my horse in silence as Jesse continued talking about his favorite classes, thinking about the idea of school. Real school. Not stupid QZ school.
The idea of learning more about most of those stuff sounded fascinating to me but the idea of having to be social and just around people was the mood killer.
Shortly after, we arrived at the gates of Jackson. We got to the stables as always, and as I began to walk away to go back to Marias, Jesse stopped me.
"Hey, I know social settings or gatherings arent really your thing, but I really think you should give it a shot. If you don't like it, then you can quit. But I think if you don't try then you'll regret it. So, if you do decide to show, find my face and there will be an open seat next to it!"
I nodded, "Thanks, Jesse. I'll think about it"
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The next day
"So, didya sign up yet?"
I glanced at him from behind me, hes still going on about the school thing?
"For school classes"
"Yeah, I got that" I mumbled, turning back and continuing walking.
We had just gotten off of morning patrol and I was walking back to the house when he followed behind me.
"I'm guessing you haven't"
I shook my head no, he walked infront of me as we both stopped walking, "how bout' I take you to the sign up sheets and we do it right now?"
"Uhh, Jesse, I don't really think I wanna do-"
"How about I stop annoying you on patrol and shut up whenever you want, if you sign up for them and go? Just the first day"
I stood and thought about it. I would much rather hear the chirping birds then Jesse chirping about how his girlfriend broke up with him.
"okay."
"okay? i- is that all?"
"What else is there to say? now, take me there"
Jesse cheered silently and started leading me the opposite way. He took me to a familiar building. This was the building I woke up in from my coma.
"Jesse?"
"Hm?"
"I thought this was the towns hospital?"
"Oh, yeah, top floor is. This is a pretty big building and its like the main one, so theres alot of different stuff in it." he explained
as we entered, I saw a sign in the lobby that labeled what each floor was.
Jesse took me to the front desk, the guy in the chair seemed to be focused on something else as Jesse grabbed a paper that was layed out, and a pen from a cup.
We sat down on nearby chairs, Jesse placed the paper and pen down on the table infront of us, "Pretty simple, just fill it out and mark it off, kinda self explanatory"
I nodded, and filled out my name, age, guardians, marked off all the boxes of what classes I wanted to be in, and stated the job I had and what time I worked.
"now what?" I asked, looking at him, Jesse answered by getting up, a dick eating grin plastered on his face, and handed the focused guy at the front desk the paper.
"Lets go! Oh, you're gonna love it, I can't wait for you to show me your artwork-"
"Okay, you're annoying me, shut it," I couldn't help but smile at him as we walked out the building, "and who said that i'm gonna show you my artwork?" I snarked
"Uh, me? I did? And the shutting-up-whenever-you-want-deal isn't on until you go to school on Monday, plus I said only when we're on patrol"
"So I just did that for basically nothing since Monday isn't for 4 days and it only applies to patrol?"
Jesse laughed, "You would have missed out on a big opportunity i'm doing you a huge favor-"
"Hey Jesse" a snarkling voice interrupted, my soft smile immediately dropped once I saw the short black haired girl. The same girl who was holding hands with Ellie that night, the same girl who rode the bicycle with Ellie, I suddenly felt like throwing up.
"Oh, hey Cat" Jesse said with a soft smile, I looked to the ground, shifting on my feet, my cheeks were growing red from embarrassment She heard me call Ellie a dyke..
"Ah- this is Raine! Shes my patrol partner" Jesse said after an awkward moment of silence, a hint of excitement behind his voice. Probably excited to finally introduce me with his friend. God why is he friends with this girl? and what kind of name is cat.
"We've met." Cat says coldly, my eyes stay to the ground, I bite my tongue so hard I start to taste blood.
"Oh? I didn't know Raine met anyone other then me and Dina.."
"Well, I guess we hadn't officially met, but it was enough. Anyways, we were all gonna watch a movie tonight at my place, wanna come?"
I could feel Jesse glance to look at me, and back at Cat. "Uh, yeah Cat, thats.. good, what time?"
"Be there at 7, it's gonna be so fun, I bet you could get Dina back by tomorrow"
I couldn't take it anymore, her voice was stinging.
I sped walked away with my head down, I could hear muffled behind my ringing ears Jesse calling my name, but I ignored it.
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justalilpearlie · 3 months
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hi guys dont mind me being insane again
im not tagging this too much cus its more of a personal ramble cus idk im feelin silly today and the BPD hits too hard. i wont be explainin what BPD is either so if u dont know either look it up or ignore this post,,
man i. have you ever loved someone so much you cry? /pos
like man i. its not romantic, may i clarify. most of my fps, except for my main one, are platonic. one of them is familial even
but i just. i feel like such a parasocial freako but i genuinly feel so intensely. its so positive too. if you ignore the crippling paranoia i always have abt my fps hating me or me being so intense they get uncomfortable...
but i just??? im not. normal about them.
i dont wanna sound creepy but they make my world so much better. id take a bullet from them. if give anything for them to be alright. i genuinly just REALLY enjoy their company and knowing theyre having fun with me aswell. knowing they enjoy me as a person. that im not a nuisance for the people i love the most.
and gosh i really hope they dont see this. i would feel so ashamed and embarassed if they did.
luckly i have better ways of copying with distress, attachment issues, jealousy, possesiveness, and all that other FUN (not) stuff that comes with BPD or rather specifically having an fp. A nice trustworthy psychologist (if u can afford it) does wonders to you, let me tell you.
its still hard sometimes but ive learnt to deal with it in ways that arent destructive to my relationships with those around me. i can cool down and such instead of lashing out or splitting for the most minimal things.
but now. for whatever reason. i went on a huge "positive" ramble instead. it was meant to be appreciation at the time, and still is, but i feel like its something that couldve scared them off. i showed some stuff to irl friends and online family, and everyone said theyd feel very appreciated if someone told them that stuff, but i cant help but feel is because they're my loved ones also and stuff. i really. really feel like i was too intense. i suck at showing affection in a normal way, a calm way, subtle way, like a normal person.
at this point i think. sigh i think its better if i just say nice things anonymously. i think if people, in general, not only my fps. but if people dont know affection comes from me they'll take it so much better than if they know its *me* in particular. and idk why! its just my brain being stupid again.
brains love doing that, dont they? being stupid. telling you everyone hates you oh so much no matter what you do. that theyre lying behind your back, and hate you in secret, theyre just being polite and allat.
well let me tell you, dear reader, whoever the fuck might read this, specially if its from the bpd tags: thats not true. sure, there might be assholes out there, but those people you think hate you despite how close you are, most likely dont. and i cant even get this through my own head but my sister repeats it to me all the time. "[name] talks so nicely about you and seems so happy seeing you". even then its hard to believe, i gotta stare at nice screenshots ive saved where i believe ive done something good, something worthy of appreciation, something that has not only meaning but an impact, a possitive one. and i know the chances of them actually hating me are low, but i still believe more in those chances than the proof.
i feel a bit delusional in a way. and i mean, i am, often times. but this is one of those thoughts- those god dammed thoughts where you're self aware yet- yet it doesnt shake the feeling away, you know? like no there is no proof, no logical proof at least, only what your mind twists into proof. but you still just "know it", yknow? even if you dont actually know shit and are very wrong. you feel like you do and it- it fucking sucks.
dont even get me started on splits and mood swings, highs and lows. Cause well. THATS NOT THE TOPIC OF THIS POST !! Lmao. i could go on for hours complaining tho. ough.
but yeah!! i just !! sorry, this took a turn. i just. needed to express myself idfk. i'll go back to posting abt minecraft men kissing soon or whatever, sorry normie followers /hj
i love them so much its overwhelming, yet i wouldnt change it for everything in the world, you know? not them. its hard but id rather endure it for them than have them not be THIS level of special to me anymore.
i really REALLY hope theyre not. uncomfortable by it tho. and wont dump me for it. i really wish i had a guide to how to and how to not mess up. so i could avoid doing dumb shit on accident.
and its funny cause theyre ppl that would absolutely tell me if im doing shit that bothers them, yet i believe theres smth else, stupid thoughts man. LEAVE ME ALONE FREDDY MERCURY!! UR SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD !! /ref
sighhhh anyhow yeah im dropping it here. bpd is a bitch. and to anyone out there dealing w it? godspeed. you can do this, i know life already sucks and this shitty dissorder doesnt help, but i know you can push through, mi gente bella.
Pearlo out. BPD hours rlly seem to be hitting at around 11-12 am, huh? /ij
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mothlegs · 9 months
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yelling abt meeting i had with my psych nurse today, mostly talks about selfharm so be warned
Learns of The Day:
my nurse is stupid
my nurse does not know things
my nurse is not to be trusted (should already know this)
i selfharm more than i thought
my mom was with, beloved mother who is able to speak for me and translate the things i say. my nurse isn't great at english and i'm mildly shit at my native language (thanks dropping out of school to live on the internet) so there are Some language barriers, and i'm generally also just shit as saying what i want to say, especially with people i don't know well
so! my mom did most of the talking and she did great, much progress, thank you mother
i already forgot how the topic came up, but she starts asking about selfharm? and i'm like. genuinely i do not know how often i remember very little about it. and my mom then says it's At Least weekly because she sees on my arms??? and i'm like. wot i had no idea. and then she mentions scratches and bruises and i internally go ohhh right yeah scratches is a near daily thing huh. idk about bruises though, i don't remember that much either. but idk i feel kinda stupid for not realising cause i'm very Self-Harm Is Many Things And Not All Are Physically Visible kinda stuff cause it's important to me non-scarring forms of selfharm arent minimised or looked over. yet i completely looked over when it happens with myself
but then nurse asks about what i use to hurt myself??? and i'm like. =_= why? and she just keeps asking and not really giving an answer, saying something about how it helps her to know how i'm doing which? complete bullshit lol? and eventually i get her to say that yeah maybe they would try to take my tools. so i just like. yeah i'm not telling you lol get fucked
when we get home my mom's talking to my grandma about it and she said she felt like she almost had to defend my self-harm to my nurse and like say it's ok??? genuinely love to my mom i appreciate her so much, and she's self-harmed too when she was younger so she Gets It she actually understands it and what i need. she also mentioned how it would do no good, and how she has done really dangerous things to hurt herself like using things she found on the sidewalk- i wouldn't go that dangerous but i Have done dangerous things that risked getting pieces into wounds so like. yeah. my mom is good ok
ALSO JUST. i luckily have never had my tools taken but i thought they'd taken them once and i had a major breakdown. as in major major breakdown, and the second i found them i was ok. so like. lmfao y'all ain't trying to help me fucking bullshit
so anyways i'm not getting meds but she's gonna ask the doctor (who is stupid and i hate her) about re-evaluating me Again after i'd ALREADY BEEN TOLD I WOULD BE RE-EVALUATED god shit like this keeps happening. one person will tell me i'll get a thing and then i will be patient but eventually ask about it and then a new person will say they have to ask someone if i can have the thing and then that takes literal months. happened with therapy too and i still haven't heard anything about it
oh and my mom told me to write a thing explaining my plurality cause i can't really explain it to my nurse, very complicated and i struggled to explain it in private to my mom too so definitely wouldn't be able to with my nurse. i still don't know how accepting my mom is? but she gets some of it, i think
OH GOD AND MY NURSE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT DISSOCIATION IS. SHE LITERALLY DOESN'T KNOW WHAT DISSOCIATION IS. WHAT i'm going to have to explain dissociation and dpdr and ifs to her jfc she is literally working at a psychiatric facility, there is a psych ward where she works, psychiatric evaluations are made there, AND SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT DISSOCIATION IS ???
so yeah she stupid don't know shit never to be trusted
rest of my day was good though i got a slushie at the mall and we bought makeup?? i dont know how that really happened but i guess i might learn to do eye makeup now. maybe
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actualbird · 3 years
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I got distracted reading 4-04 and 4-05 i totally forgot the actual thing i was supposed to ask you today, what are your thoughts on the kinds of shows the nxx team wouldve watched as kids growing up. MC and Luke have apparently watched animes and even dressed up as characters but i have this need to know the finer details. LIKE. WHAT DID YOU WATCH SPECIFICALLY?? And i remembered you said luke was the one who probably understood most of the terms zangr was saying so like?? Luke do you like these kinds of things?? -Marsh
MARSH, thank you so much for this ask and for the SPECIFIC WORDING "watched as kids growing up." because that makes me have to go back in time and thusly uncovering by far my favorite yet most under-utilized and never-brought-up detail of tears of themis:
the story of this game takes place in the year 2030
DO U HAVE ANY IDEA HOW FUNNIER THIS MAKES SHIT???? AND ALSO HOW MUCH MORE SENSE STUFF MAKES??? let me explain myself by going thru all the boys one by one
luke pearce
YEAH HE SAID HE AND MC WERE RLLY INTO ANIME AS KIDS. luke pearce who is 24 years old in 2030 means that from the Important Media Ages (12-15) it was 2018-2021. this period of time, anime started getting more and more accessible, most notably getting on netflix and stuff like this. so like all the anime on netflix rn? yeah luke's watched them.
though because i kin luke, imma say that his fave is fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood. ive got no characterization proof for this, i just want to give him this honor
additionally, luke is a HUUUUGE fan of the original Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle novels (ACD Sherlock) and i think this would have pushed him to watch like, just every popular sherlock media adaptation there is. he personally liked Elementary better than BBC Sherlock. he generally just gravitates to the adaptations that dont forget about the heart of all of the characters.
also also also, luke likes action movies ranging from "hey this is "good" to critics" to "this is a shit movie but MY GOD IS IT FUN!!!"
artem wing
artem wing who is 29 years old in 2030 means that from the Important Media Ages (12-15) it was 2013-2016. but also artem is a MOVIE SNOB LMAOOO, hes That Guy with the Opinions On Film and you bet that his analytical ass was into just the most extra shit to watch those days because no teenager is chill, every teenager has some kind of ego, i dont know what movies he would have watched at that point to be the Smartest Teenager About Movies, but he sure did watch them
though artem also is very into sci-fi literature and 2013-2016 had a BUUUNCH of huge sci-fi movies. Pacific Rim, Gravity, Interstellar, Arrival. Arrival is deffo artem's fave, dont fight me on this, i can explain further but not in this answer bc it will get LOOONG LOL
artem also is into "classics" which uh. wait artem what do you Mean by that, what is a "classic" for somebody born in 2001??? i dont really know exactly what he means by "classics" so i just take it to mean he's a slut for period dramas which leads me to my closing point
"Once upon a time, when [Artem] was younger, around 17 years old, he pondered identifying as asexual or as one of the subsets under that term, but he put that aside after he first watched Pride and Prejudice (2005). He had then acquired a recurring fantasy in which he would be sensually accosted by Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy in a secluded study after months of furtive, charged glances, lingering, split second touches, double entendres classily and subtly masked but still implying a repressed yet voracious—Moving on." -an excerpt from my comedy smut fic where artem goes thru a crisis. yeah. yeah. Pride and Prejudice dir. Joe Wright was his bisexual awakening.
MOVING ON!!
vyn richter
vyn richter who is 27 years old in 2030 means that from the Important Media Ages (12-15) it was 2015-2018 but honestly that doesnt help me AT ALL LOL BECAUSE VYN IS A TOUGH NUT TO CRACK.....
like honest to god i cant even imagine vyn as anything other than an adult KJBSJKFS (which is depressing, if i think about it more... but also what vyn would want, i assume he would hate for people to have known him as a child, imperfect and shunned.....which is ALSO DEPRESSING. VYN, U GOOD???)
okay yknow what im not studied enough in Vyn Richter Studies so i will come back to this once ive gotten more of his story and know more of his (what im theorizing to be a SHITASS TERRIBLE) childhood history. so vyn, i guess ur safe from me....ur safe FOR NOW, THAT IS....
marius von hagen
marius von hagen who is 21 years old in 2030 means that from the Important Media Ages (12-15) it was 2021-2024. good fucking lord, marius was born in 2009 and that makes him so young that his Important Media Ages arent even DONE HAPPENING IN OUR CURRENT TIMELINE, JESUS....
2021 is an interesting era of entertainment because it is getting steadily more and more apparent that corporate greed is trying to swallow up good storytelling; movies and shows are made as fast food products to be consumed immediately and thrown away just as fast. there are smarter posts and articles talking about this, but my point here is that marius "believes SO MUCH in art and art's capability to make a difference" von hagen would HATE THIS SO MUCH and, through spite, get into a lot of indie medias that dont necessarily sell. smaller movies, tv shows that got cancelled way before they should have.
oh, hey, MARIUS WAS 12 YEARS OLD IN 2021, yeah he could have watched The Owl House and threw a fucking FIT when disne/y nerfed the show's third season. he has not forgiven and he has not forgotten.
regardless of his age, marius, at some point in his teens watches Vincent and the Doctor (s5 e10 from Doctor Who). for those who dont know this episode, it involves Vincent Van Gogh and a bunch of sci-fi stuff but, at the end, a scene where Van Gogh is taken to the future and shown the impact his art has made on people. please watch it, if you havent it, it's very good and no words can do the experience justice.
anyway yeah marius watches it and it makes him FUCKING SOB
yeah so these are my takes kdjbfdsjfs
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taki118 · 4 years
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Go Watch the Venture Brothers
So just heard the complete and utter Bullshit news that Adult Swim has cancelled one of (if not the best shows) they have the Venture Bros. This series is one of those shows that for WHATEVER reason never got to the level of fandom Rick and Morty has even though they’ve been at the genre parody game longer and in my opinion better. 
The series is about Rusty Venture former boy adventurer and failing super scientist who in an attempt to keep his head above water in debt goes around with his two boys Hank and Dean, and bodyguard Brock on misadventues while various legal archnemisis go after him, such as the Monarch. 
So if you never watched or never heard of this 7 season series let me give you a break down on why you should, 
1) Art Style & Animation
Venture bros is one of those rare Adult aimed animated series that that really truly tries to utilize their medium to the best of their abilities. Season 1 had like such a small budget and corners had to be cut so it can be a little hard to watch at times. 
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But with each passing season they get a little better, a little more fluid, go just a little harder and it truly feels rewarding to watch. Like seeing an artist you follow online improve over the years. Like they COULD have stayed with the choppy and stiff animation from season 1 it fit right in with its fellow adult animated shows but it didn’t. They strove for quality to have something that matched the story they were telling.
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2) The Writing 
Venture Bros has some of the tightest and consistently great writing of ANY serialized show I’ve seen, adult, animated or other wise. Wanna know why? Cause it’s all done by TWO people (save for like one ep each season where one other person is allowed to touch their baby). Yeah TWO people and they work their asses off every season to interject, humor, refrences, parody, plot and character development in equal measure. 
3) Character Development
Um yes in case you were wondering that’s right an adult animated show has CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT  that holds as the series goes on. Not to give spoilers but characters will go through changes in alignment, relationships will develop and change, some characters will go through negative arcs where they are straight up unbareable for a season before coming out the other side even better than they were before. There is no end of epsiode or even end of season reset. Characters, settings, and dynamics all change over the course of the show and it feels just so god damn good.
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4) Story Development 
Just like the characters the story of the Venture Bros grows and changes each season. Things that are set up even as early as season one are paid off as the series goes on. Like not to be that bitch but you know how RIck and Morty teases an overarching plot ALL THE TIME but like will often just spit in the face of fans hoping for more than like one episode a season addressing it? Yeahhhhhhh that doesnt happen here, fans are consistently rewarded for putting the time in to rewatch and really think about what happened in the series. Characters that are seen in the background or are just referenced by other characters will be brought in to be recurring characters, things that start off as a small detail or gag will be given larger relevance and each time they do this you get that “OH I remember that from last season! So thats what it was!” The writers WANT you to rewatch, they WANT you to analyze and they WANT you to theorize, and they give you a show that gives back the time you put in.
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5) Parody & Reference 
This series does a great thing with parody. They make real characters  who are just as enjoyable as the characters they parody, they make story lines that both poke fun at the absurdity of the media but shows the writers love for it. So often parody and references are just used to mock the thing but with Venture Bros you feel the love and care so when you know the thing being parodied you can laugh but feel good about laughing cause they are never laughing at a thing maybe you cared for in your youth but rather laughing with it.
And it’s never just one thing. When they parody a thing its often layered with other things to make it even more unique. Scooby-Doo is overlayed with famous criminals, Laura Croft is mixed Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman, GI Joe is given the look of the Village People and so on. They never go for the easy joke or reference. Hell theres an episode that starts with them reciting the lyrics to David Bowies Space Oddity for really no reason other than they could. They weave these things in naturally with their setting and characters so nothing feels out of place. Like if you dont catch a reference or parody you dont feel like “I think this isa reference to something?” like a LOT of things do not just adult animated shows. You arent taken out of the moment cause it all feels so natural. 
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6) The Characters 
God damn these characters, I could go on for hours about these characters. From main to one off these are some of the most likeable characters you can find. I mean it when I say I can’t think of a single character I wish they had cut cause they are all so well created. Even the ones I hate i have fun hating cause they were made to be that way. I’ll be good though I’ll only talk about my absolute top faves.
- The Monarchs
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You ever sit and wish villain couples could have functional  healthy relationships? Well look no further than Malcom Fitzcarraldo aka The Monarch and Dr. Shelia Girlfriend (yes that is her last name). The Monarch is a high strung impulsive saturday morning cartoon villain whos tendency to over react is only matched by his unspecified hatred of Dr. Venture. And Dr. G is his nonsense partner in crime who will cut a bitch if they don’t play by their admittedly weird rules. Both characters are great on their own but are better together. Though that doesnt mean they always get along. Like a real couple they have their ups and downs they fight, break up, make-up and grow stronger in their relationship with each season. 
- Shore Leave
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Ok ok so I want you to imagine James Bond, mixed with GI Joe simmering in a cocktail of the most flamboyant gay men you have ever seen and you have one of my favorite gay characters/characters in general. Shore Leave is a member of OSI (the shows SHEILD/GI Joe parody organization) he’s loud, brash, flippant, sassy and highly competent at his job loving every second of getting to beat bad guys down within an inch of their life. I love seeing him play off the stoic Brock and the two have this great brotherly dynamic that’s never called into question. He also gets to have a very cute romance with Al the Alchemist (who is also great). I could talk about this man all day.
- Dr. Rusty Venture
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They did such a good job with this man. He’s a self serving, sexist, perverted, whinny, self important asshole and yet you feel pity and genuine sympathy for him and want him to succeed. You can see how Dr. V was given a raw deal by his father who seemed to care more about his adventures than his sons well being and how this molded him into the bitter man he is today, but on the flip side you can see where he chose to use that as a crutch for his worst behaviors and impulses. Seeing him slowly grow and change and be an actual good father to his boys while all the while still be a giant dick is actually really great. 
- Dr. Byron Orpheus 
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Ahhhhh Dr. Orpheus part Dr. Strange Parody part busybody stay at home dad, he’s just such a delight. Dr. Orpheus is a divorcee, with an unfulfilling job of maintaining order to the cosmos (which isnt as hard as one might think), and uses his magical ablities in ways most of us would (ie menial tasks and home chores). Overly dramatic and affectionate Dr. O is a delight whenever he appears, but he’s at his best around his daughter and old friends The Order of the Triad. 
Again I can go on but all these characters ranging from main to recurring are crafted with the utmost care for you to want to see them succeed or fail, to see them again even if you know it’ll never happen, and want them to cross paths with other characters. 
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The Venture Bros is one of those series that I will ALWAYS recommend even to the pickiest of humor tastes. But if you don’t believe its as good as I said or don’t think the concept is to your tastes I’ll recommend a few eps that I think best show off the base idea of the series without giving much away. In terms of plot and spoilers, though somethings wont make a lot of sense. 
- S1 ep10 "Tag Sale – You're It!" - Dr. V is having a yard sale so of course all manner of costumed weirdos show up.  - S2 ep5 "Twenty Years to Midnight" - basically a fetch quest around the world to save the planet with daddy issues - S3 ep2 "The Doctor Is Sin" - Again daddy issues but with one of the best recurring characters and a great showcase of the series deeper emotional plots - S4 ep6 "Self-Medication" - Really embraces the parody as Rusty goes to a former boy adventurer support group.  Anyway the show is 7 seasons with 80 episodes, please go watch it. I will never forgive @adultswim​ for cancelling what was to be their final season. And in closing GO TEAM VENTURE!
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beomglocks · 3 years
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pretty please ; c.yj
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summary : you’re just yeonjun’s pretty baby right? or yeonjun’s hidden infantilization kink jumps out
pairing : yeonjun x reader (established relationship)
warnings & other: slight manipulation (mindfuck) and infantilization
w/c : 1k
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if you knew it would turn out like this then you wouldn't have done it in the first place.
you thought nothing of it when you had addressed yeonjun the way you had the other day. it was a fairly simple request for the most part. "can we go get some ice cream please?"
albeit you had slipped up a bit when forming the sentence causing the word 'cream' to sound like 'cweam' and 'please' to sound like 'pwease'. you used your best puppy dog eyes because you just knew yeonjun wouldn't be able to resist you then.
you were surprised when he had obliged rather quickly to your request. he took you both to the nearest open ice cream parlor and you got to order what you wanted.
"yay! finally, ive been craving vanilla ice cream," you moaned. he simply nodded, watching you eat. he hadn't even ordered anything for himself which was a shock within itself.
of course, you thought nothing of it, brushing it off as he just wasn't hungry. you were so caught up with eating that you hadn't noticed the ice cream dripping off the side of the cone. it was only when you felt the tiny glob land on your jeans were you alerted.
"ah fuck," you mumble. you hear yeonjun tsk and look up to see him grabbing some spare tissues. "you're such a messy eater y/n." he wipes off the ice cream and also wipes off your face. "your face is all messy too," he mumbles.
he grabs your cheeks with his free hand causing them to get squished and give you pouty lips. he chuckles lightly at your appearance, "i guess my baby can't do anything on her own hm? is that right?"
you say nothing as he tucks another napkin into the collar of your shirt gingerly. you eye him weirdly but thank him nonetheless.
the next day was even weirder. it wasn't out of character for yeonjun to buy you gifts. as a matter of fact, there were special days of the week where he would take you to go pick out anything you wanted, he was just like that.
today was different though. instead of taking you to the shops like he normally did, he informed you to stay put at home and he would go get you something.
you thought it was odd but you agreed. besides, the uncertainty of what he would get you was enough to make you feel giddy for his return. a couple hours later he arrived with a box inside of a bag. a million and one possibilities ran through your mind at the sight of the bag. there was no branding on it so you couldn't tell just yet.
"baby i got you something super special!" his tone sounded like a tone one would use on children when their parents came back from the grocery store with snacks that the kids actually liked. you didn't have time to wonder why he was speaking to you in this way but you didn't have to wonder because he swiftly pulled the box from the bag.
your eyes widen at the sight of it. a...build a bear? for a second, you almost asked yeonjun if he had mistakenly picked up someone else's bag at the mall. "what's this?" you ask hesitantly.
yeonjun's smile brightens up. "it's for you silly." he doesn't give you the chance to unbox it figuring it would be too much work for you to have to go through. "your very own stuffie!" he announces.
well simple enough as it was, it's fairly cute. it's just a brown bear. "a stuffie? yeonjun im almost 20," you laugh. you see him deflate and then you start to feel bad for laughing at this attempt to please you. "it's just that...well you were acting so cute the other day like a child. it made me want to see you like that," he admits.
what does he mean by that? you sigh taking the bear from him, "it's cute, i like it. now i have something to sleep with when you're not here."
later that day when it was nearing that time for you to sleep, you asked yeonjun if he was coming to join you. he had shaken his head no and remained on the couch. you sighed, walking into the shared bedroom. hours later when you were in deep sleep you hadn't even noticed yeonjun standing at the door frame trying not to coo at how childish you looked holding the bear he had brought. he just wanted to relish in that feeling and see you like that for as long as possible.
leading you to where you are today.
"yeonjun it was cute at first. with the whole cleaning up after me, making sure i don't get hurt and the bear, but this a little too far." you held up a coloring book and a ruffly dress to indicate what you were talking about.
he sighs turning to you. he was in the middle of making dinner and you notice he was arranging your plate very specifically with the vegetables on one side and the grains on the other.
"are you being ungrateful?" he folds his arms in front of him, looking at you disapprovingly. you open your mouth to say something, anything, but nothing comes out. he shakes his head, leaning himself on the counter, "sorry it's- it's all my fault. i thought you'd appreciate the gifts and me taking care of you but maybe i got a bit too ahead of myself."
you walk up to him, placing the coloring book and dress on the counter. "yeonjun it's ok. i- i really do appreciate it, it's just that well this is a little much..." you say. "so me taking care of you and giving you pretty things is too much?" he mumbles.
"i just wanted to make you happy you know? make myself happy too? don’t you want me to be happy? are you saying you arent happy?” he rambles. it was a bit too much for you to handle so you just sigh, not wanting to argue with him. 
“yeonjun it’s fine, forget it. thank you.” you kiss him on the cheek gently and he straightens up to hug you tighly. 
“that’s my good girl, you’ll always be my baby.”
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qingxintea · 3 years
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glaze lilies
i would rather hold you close than try to understand. when you get sick. (zhongli)
‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵
scenario and headcanons
gender neutral reader. (second person)
my pronouns: he/they
‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵
ZHONGLI
~ the cold air nipped at your skin, slowly biting away at your consciousness and drained your energy. your thick sleeves didn't seem to help contain any amount of heat at all as you were shivering against the warm summer sun of liyue.
- you had felt terrible all morning. woke up at 2am after your system decided it wanted to disagree with some food earlier,, had to run to the bathroom and yeah
- for further clarification, you did not shart.
- you felt. really, really cold and hot at the same time. took some tylenol and thought that was enough, worked temporarily
- long enough for you to be able to fall asleep with a thin blanket
- woke up feeling ver cold !!
- then remembered zhongli was supposed to take you somewhere today. he didn't clarify where, said he wanted it to be a surprise because yeah. ver wholesome
- you would feel bad if you let this get in the way, so you ignored everything and began walking to where he lived
- nocc on door
- after a few seconds, he opens it and greets you like "ah, good morning (y/n). i presume you're ready?"
- you just smile and nod. he takes note of your silence,, even though youre generally quiet. yet around him, you'd at least manage another "hi" cause u two are close
- close what ? close friends ? close lovers ? who tf knows at this point, you both are too busy to put a label on your relationship
- more than friends for sure. because like the things yall have done together is wholesomely more than friends
- you know that logically, he likes you back, and vice versa. just wont mention it
- walking to bubu pharmacy because you asked if you could make a stop there to buy some herbs (dude said yes without hesitation)
- so when you got there, you were like "please wait outside for just a bit, this will only take a moment" but a bit more lethargic. he notices and gets slightly more concerned
- you ask qiqi whats the quickest way to cure a fever
- "qiqi... doesn't remember... but qiqi has it written in her notebook." she flips through the pages, searching for fever cures. then takes some mint from the counter behind her and hands it to you. its cold
- "special... mint. consume."
- you take it from her small hands and thank her with a smile, putting it into ur tiny backpack
- then you reach in to grab a bottle of coconut milk, giving it to her
- the way her eyes lit up was so cute im
- said ur goodbyes. "feel better."
- "thank you for waiting." you told zhongli, outside the entrance. "i found the herbs i needed."
- you're trying your best to seem fine and healthy but its starting to take a physical and mental toll on ur body
- so u just faint
- mans catches you in time. lowkey was expected and carries u back to his house where he knows he got some remedies
- sets you down on his couch where he knows ur most comfy and goes to make his slow cooked bamboo soup or something
- puts a heavy blanket over u
- you wake up all "what"
- makes you tea too
- said the surprise can wait tomorrow when ur feeling good
- will cuddle if you want
- OKAY I HAVE A VERY SPECIFIC IDEA FOR THAT
- actually i just lost it
- nevermind
- asks if you need anything from local shops
- if yes, dude will actually remember his mora
- if no, he'll buy you something anyway
- he can never understand the concept of being mortally sick,, so he'll try not to underestimate it as much as he can by spoiling u during this time
- ok i feel like he would get those
- those galaxy roses things
- wait lemme find one
- THESE ONES
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- yeah bro he got loans from tartar sauce
- okay one for you and one for him
- to let you know that you arent alone hdjkdlksf
- then he'll let you sleep as early as you want. just ver tired
- if you insist on staying up late,, he will talk you to sleep
- "i am aware of the effect i have on women" (gender neutral reader,, just a reference to something else i just thought of idsfjds)
- then he will carry you back home because the couch is an unpleasant place to sleep on because of limited space.
- so when you wake up, ur just confused
- a dream ? no, you still have the mint qiqi gave you
- oh you just ate it lmao i
- and now you kinda feel better.
- just wondering what the surprise still is...
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stop looking at me i dont even know what the surprise is. if theres even one at all
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tazanna-blythe · 3 years
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Done
Chapter 5
~Tom & Sabine Boulangerie Patisserie~
"Wellcome ladies so how's school?" Sabine said with a motherly smile smile then placing a freshly baked Croissants on the table.
"Where fine, just another day at the clown house, I swear that our classmates have no brain cells not one of them "Chloe said while spreading butter on her croissant then without any hesitation she ate it.
"I beg to differ dear but i think they still have one connecting brain cell,seeing as they are one and no one can break their bond"Mari and she also ate the croissant happily
"So Dumb,Dumber,Dumbest then? or all equally dumb?" Chloe mumble (she took another bite on her food)
"No it's like they all have an on and off button for their reasoning and common sense and Liela has the button" Mari
"And She uses her sausage her as an antenna the give them signals hahahahahahahhaha"Chloe
"Ladies that's not nice besides everyone has their own preference or style that they think is fashionable ... all though i wanna know who told her having a sausage as an inspiration for a hairstyle especially when she moves her head she looks like a paddle ball a had when i was a kid" Sabine
both Chloe and Marinette bust into laughter
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Collège Françoise Dupont Clinic
*Bell *
Adrien is still sleeping soundly and the kind nurse doesn't want to wake him up and clearly from how pale his face is and how dark his eye bags are and how bone to skin he is, she made a decision to call his guardians to pick him up and have him take a proper rest and some good soul food too judging by how boney he is. this child is a model she understands this but this is to much and it has a medical term called MALNUTRITION so she's not gonna stand by and do nothing.
So she quietly and gentle as she can took photos and notes on Adrien body. because he is wearing a plain white T-shirt and a loose pants all she has to do is hold some of the cloth of the T-shirt to make it tight to show how small and boney he is and she all so did the same thing to the pants. His wearing a T-shirt so his some of is upper arm is shone so the nurse took a measuring tape and measure his arms and leg. And lastly because of the akuma attacks the School funds for the clinic doubled and because of this most of their equipments are brand new and the latest model so the bed has a scale built in it so she took his weight and height. and all of this is recorded in the clinic's CCTV camera she made sure of it.
After all that is done she neatly filed this info on her computer and flash drive then she called his guardians. fortunately for him his father and his assistant is so busy that they cannot answer their phone so it was Gorilla who was called to pick him up.
When Gorilla arrived the nurse was so scared of him she almost scream in fear when he suddenly appeared in front of her luckily she didn't.
"Hello Sir. how can i help you" Nurse
"Hi my name is SImon and I'm here to pick up Adrien" Gorilla (HIS NAME IS SIMON OH MY GOSH I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY!!!)
"Hi my name is Katty and I'm the school nurse nice to meet you"
"Likewise"
"Im sorry but before I hand over Adrien to you i need to see your IDs please"
"Sure"
"Ok it seems that everything is in order then you may take him home, and also my advice is to keep him stress free, eat and sleep more cause we don't want him to suddenly collapse now do we"
"Yes ma'am"
Then Gorilla slowly and Gently picked up Adrien like a porcelain princess and took his backpack/sling bag and went home.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Collège Françoise Dupont Gym
"Ok class since Adrien is sick we need to still proceed to class. Now, I want all of you to make two lines.One for boys and one for the girls CHOP ChOP!!! " Gym teacher
“Um Sir. What about lila??” Rose
“What about her?“
“Lila Sprained her risk and ankle so she cant stand very long“ Alya
“Ok then Who’s Lila, Raise your good arm“
“Sir. I’m Lila Rossi“ Liela replied with a small smile and leaning into her left foot for effect
The Teacher saw her and slowly walk towards her while inspecting her body for injuries
“Which foot is sprained and which arm?“
“My right foot and arm sir “Liela said weakly.
“Can i check your arm and foot?“ The Teacher ask nicely
“Yes of course“ 
So someone brought a chair for her to sit while the Gym Teacher inspect her injuries
“Awww, Aw aw aw awaaa that hurts“ Liela cries dramatically like a spoiled dog. While the Teacher was just holding her arm not doing anything other than carrying it like a sausage
“Ok then Lila where's your medical note seeing as this is a “BIG INJURY” your parents shouldn't have let you go to school?“ The Teacher looking and talking to her like a person would to a two year old
“My Dad left us since i was young and my Mom is so busy that she’d forgotten about me“ Liela said sadly trying to make her tears drop not realizing that the teacher don't buy it
“Hush now don't cry dear I’m sure your mom is just tired now why don't you sit here and be quiet while all of us start the class,O.K“
“Yes sir“ with a final fake sob she smile at the Teacher.
“Ok,now two lines people, great now everybody just jog 20 laps then you are dismissed.But remember do not break your line and JOG NOT RUN OK ALIX AND KIM! if i see any of you break your line or run i’ll make everyone do 15 jumping jacks then additional 10 laps. Am I Clear! “
“Yes,Sir!!“ the Students then do as they were told while lila stayed seated smiling at her small victory and proceeds play on her phone and to search for more things to lie to make her even more popular.
While everybody was busy doing their task no one noticed the Gym Teacher also take’s his phone and contacted the School Nurse asking for Lila’s medical records and telling her what happen today.
Faking an injury to a teacher who was an athlete himself was a big No No but he cant just outed the child right then and there because she’ll get emotional and he doesn't want to cause another akuma.He’ll just do it the old fashion way... Making the parents discipline their own child. but first he needed her records. 
“Did you just see what i just witness?“ Chloe while looking at her exhausted classmates after they finished 20 laps.
“What?“ Mari while handling her a bottle of cold water
“You really didn’t see that?,Thanks“
“You mean Liela’s ridiculous lie then yeah and so?“
“So? So?, Mari she just gotten away with it and it wasn’t even a good lie and acting“
“No, I don’t think she did“
“Huh?! Would her majesty care to explain?“
“Our gym Teacher is an Athlete who won medals in his time. He out of everyone here would have known just by looking at someone if they have any physical injuries“
“So he just let her go?“
“No. I don't think he would so let's just watch and see what he'll do, besides if he really fell for it then his just another idiot who needs to be replaced” Marinette said as she and Chloe backed their bags and left.
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“Hey Nino do you have any info about Adrien??“ Alix
“Yeah Nino what happen to him?, you were the last person we saw with him?“ Alya
“Well he looked sick so i send him to the clinic, I didn't know that he was that sick“ Nino
“Well I Just hope he gets better“ Alix
“So has anyone gotten started researching yet??“Alya
“Nope we were just hoping that will do it together like in a slumber party?“ Rose
“Actually that’s not bad soo who's house are we going?“Juleka
“What are you guys talking about? and where are we going?“ Liela walked to them when she saw her minions talking without her and of course she was escorted by the ever loyal dog Kim
“I umm“ Juleka
“Yeah where are we going?“ Kim 
Everyone was looking at each other knowing that they can fool kim but not Lila.
“Well-“ Alya
“We were planning on a slumber party tonight but we haven't decided where will be staying?“Juleka
“Oh!! why don't we stay at my place my parents arent how so i have are house all to myself and you guys don't have to bring anything with you because and my parents just went to the supermarket yesterday“ Rose
“Really that's great so it's settled will head home pack then will go directly to Rose’s house“ Alya
“Great I can't wait to spend time with my very BEST FRIENDS! but aren't we gonna invite Marinette and Chloe?“ Liela 
“No need they’ll just destroy and ruined the party. So what are we waiting for let GOOOOOO!!!“ Alya
After that everyone started packing their bags and left to their respective homes with a smile on their faces.
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creacherkeeper · 3 years
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im getting a little too in my family feels today and so INSTEAD of feeling those im just going to ramble for a second about why i fucking love paladin!aelwyn because. im. just like this i guess im coping leave me alone
cw for discussions of child abuse, maladaptive coping, drugs and alcohol, self harm, destructive tendencies, basically everything we see in canon and the implications
aelwyn is ... SO interesting to me because for as much of her interiority as we see, as much of her as we think we understand, as much as i could ramble about her character for hours, we know ALMOST NOTHING about her in actuality?? (besides ... one key thing)
(this is like 2k and probably incoherent someone please stop me)
okay. listen. almost everything we see aelwyn do in s1 is maladaptive rebellion against her parents and home life. the drinking, the drugs, the partying, perhaps some of kalvaxus (though i dont think we fully understand how much of that was forced on her as well, kalina WAS watching her when she was talking to adaine about it). you can say like, oh aelwyn is a party animal, she's impulsive, she makes risky decisions, she's bitchy and rude, and its like. okay but IS SHE ACTUALLY. because under her parents thumb she had an EXTREMELY limited amount of freedom, and usually when people are suffering from very little control over their life, they WILL act destructively over the tiny bit they can, either harming themselves or their environment or people lower than them in the pecking order, because in a way, that feels like a reclamation of autonomy. saying "you have so much power over me but can you stop me from hurting myself and destroying what you havent managed to claim yet?". its just like, kind of what human brains do and frequently has little to do with a persons actual personality or impulses, its just. desperate brains trying to control SOMETHING because autonomy is a fundamental human need and when thats taken away we get. very bad off. (this is one big reason eating disorders are SO common with abused kids.) so i think a lot of the s1 aelwyn we see is like. this is a very desperate, abused teenager "acting out" in the only way it is possibly somewhat safe for her to do so because, on a psychological level, the self destruction is weirdly the only emotional tether and its either this or just dissociate all the time (something we do see she has problems with in canon)
and yes, she did treat adaine horribly in s1. she fully did. obviously what we get in canon is what happens but a moment thats interesting to me is in episode 1 where adaine has attacked aelwyn several times, who either does nothing or just bounces it back, when she says "i never cast spells at you" and siobhan immediately retcons it and says "yes you do, all the time" (i havent gone back and watched this bit so i might be wording this wrong). obviously its an improv show and the canon is built between performers as they go, but that was interesting to me. that brennan hadnt intended for her to have fought back in that way. she definitely feeds into the emotional abuse from their parents and participates in all the toxicity there, but we know in canon that she did that because of overwhelming fear and self preservation. and that her self hatred because of it just fed back into the cycle and made her feel like she wasnt good enough to even try to break free from it. this is very common in golden child/scapegoat sibling relationships where the golden child SEES what the parents are capable of and becomes a participant in the abuse out of fear for their own standing. in any way siding with the scapegoat child not only directs abuse at themselves as well, but frequently makes things WORSE for the scapegoat because the parents will take out the challenge to their power on them even more. so, if aelwyn DID ever try to defend or help adaine when they were small, she would have VERY QUICKLY learned that made things worse for everyone. and just. sectioned that part of her brain off, as she's done with so many other things. (and i dont think im reading too much into the forest scene with the abernants to say their parents were VERY QUICK to turn abuse towards aelwyn if she stepped out of line even a little. like, you dont flinch when a hand moves unless. you know. dont need to say it just something to think about. as far as we saw in canon, she had done everything they asked of her leading up to the forest, and we DONT KNOW what happened in it but we do know brennan specifically called out how in broken spirits she was when adaine was summoned, even though they did the ritual to avoid all of the nightmare bullshit)
(the house party is literally a whole separate post but i think its fair to point out that 1) she was super under the influence when that was happening which DEFINITELY is in no way an excuse for her behavior but worth remembering when trying to analyze that 2) her losing that fight did canonically have DRASTIC consequences for her and even if she didnt know exactly how that was going to turn out, i think she knew how bad it might be. and she did not know adaine or any of the bad kids were going to be there in the first place)
all that said, it feels in some ways counterproductive to say that aelwyn is an extremely devoted and protective person (yes we're getting to the paladin shit i know i've been rambling a while) but i think that thats strangely ALL WE ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT HER. because we've established that her self-destructive and abusive behavior in s1 is almost entirely psychologically scripted for her by her parents, we dont know how much of her villain shit in s1 was LITERALLY UNDER THREAT OF DEATH because we know at least killing the oracle was and we dont know how much of the rest of it was mandated by either her parents or kalina other than that she probably was under orders not to tell adaine the truth, and we know participating in all of this caused extreme self loathing in her that she refused to show to anybody and was too terrified to act on in any way
so, like. what does that actually leave us?
here's what we do know about aelwyn:
- of all the schools of magic, she went into abjuration
- the entire bbeg plan from season 1 hinged on aelwyn's complete faith that her level 1 sister was the most prodigious diviner in the world
- right after (?) the house party, she locked her memories where only adaine could find it with a note basically saying "theres so much bad blood between us but i know only you could find this"
- she desperately wanted to protect adaine and the fact that she was too afraid to do so made her hate herself (and her knowing that adaine now knows this is the turning point in their relationship)
- despite everything, even in the nmk forest, she still loved her parents
- the SECOND she is shown genuine love and affection and care from adaine, and adaine says whatever you do, i am here with you, all her actions from there forward are just about protecting adaine from their father, very nearly at the cost of her own life
- with what she probably thought were her last words (and would have been if adaine hadnt given her the tincture), all she wanted to communicate was how to help adaine and the bad kids, and how despite everything she had always believed in her
- at five levels of exhaustion, unconscious, she used her first spell slot after nine months of torture to build a shield around adaine
NOW we get to paladin!aelwyn. because, once everything is stripped away, the abuse and the control and the maladaption and the threats and the torture, EVERYTHING we ACTUALLY can glean about aelwyn's personality and inner core is that she's protective and devoted. and of course classes arent locked by personality, but that just screams paladin to me. its her WHOLE THING. adaine even says "wizards dont have heals, we dont care about other people" and of COURSE that isnt true for either of them, but? mechanically? aelwyn chose the wizard school that DID let her protect, and DID let her help, but i dont think, at this point, going forward, thats really going to be enough for her (and we could also talk about the parallels between them, how often adaine uses her portents to help other people)
i think a lot of the different reads on aelwyn come from this fundamental disconnect between her actions and displayed personality vs who she actually is and what she actually wants. and i think there are very different interpretations of what thats going to look like for her going forward. but i think, for a girl who's most hated characteristic about herself was her self preservation at the detriment of others, her perceived selfishness, and her fear ... isn't choosing to be braver and more selfless and more protective and shedding that self-preserving instinct for the betterment of others ... and MECHANICALLY being able to act on all those things ... the logical next step? i think its going to be a LONG TIME before aelwyn can love herself, but what other way is there to try? if adaine loves her, and adaine believes she can be better, isnt being better because she trusts adaine kind of a form of self love? saying, i dont believe in myself, but i believe in the person who believes in me, and maybe, in a roundabout way, thats the same thing. she was never able to TRY to be better before, because trying to improve even a little, even when people arent watching, when a harmful force has so much power over you and your actions ... like, the mental dissonance is honestly TOO much to even try, thats WAY more terrifying than letting yourself be bad, to the point where thats psychologically impossible for a lot of people. but now she actually has space and freedom and CHOICE and she CAN embrace the instincts she always had to shove down, she CAN be the person she knows her sister needed her to be
i dont know, i think theres an inherent love letter to yourself in wanting to be better and wanting to improve, even if you justify it by saying its for someone else. and now aelwyn actually CAN improve, and thats probably going to be extremely awkward and scary and there will be set backs and backslides for sure. but. i dont know. i think she wants to make up for lost time. because she never wanted the time to be lost in the first place. and if a protector is who she always wanted to be, whats stopping her from being that now?
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simpsiren · 3 years
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lee taeyong x reader
“my baby dont like it when you come around”
description. a new guy in college asks you for help to get rid of his girlfriend and slowly falls for you instead through your heated times with him.
genre. ANGST, college au, cheating au, bold/ arrogant reader x shy taeyong
warnings. none? except for the fact that this basically about cheating and having strong emotional tensions with each other, slighty suggestive
a/n. hihii i always thought of doing a ff about their baby dont like it song because its been in my head for so long HAHA also the lyrics are just uHem but yeah so anyways buckle up because theres going to be a lot of angst and tensionn also i didnt notice that i wrote so much like damn aNywAys enjoyy!
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you walk into class lazily, expecting the same thing to happen again. as you step into the lecture hall, your eyes immediately went to your seat. you sigh and push you glasses up before walking over.
“i swear when will people stop doing this?” you mutter to yourself, shoving all the gifts off your table, making it all drop to the ground and producing a loud noise. everyone’s eyes are being drawn to your direction. you roll your eyes as mark takes his usual seat beside you.
“that’s the most you got this week.” mark laughs in disbelief, looking down onto the floor. you flash a fake smile at him, making him laugh even more. “its so annoying. none of them even look good.” your eyes scan through the gifts on the floor, seeing one that actually looks decent. you pick it up and examine it closely. mark gets near you and does the same.
“ill keep this one. looks expensive.” you shrug, shoving the expensive looking silver necklace into your bag. mark scoffs, letting his body sink into his seat. “i love the fact that you only care about the value of the gift.” 
you click your tongue and stand up, proceeding to pick up all the useless gifts you received from the random guys on campus and walking over to the trash can, throwing it all away. you hear gasps and mutters around the lecture hall. you clearly couldnt care less, walking back, taking your seat and bringing out your materials.
“it cant be helped that youre the most beautiful one around here.”
“you think i dont know that? people do know that they shouldnt mess with me right? yet i need to keep up with unknown admirers and random texts of confession.” you let out a long sigh, as you rest your chin on the palm of your head, leaning onto the table. 
“you admit youre beautiful. your confidence is truly amazing.” mark comments. you kept your eyes to the front as you watch your professor walk in, along with a new guy you’ve never seen before. your eyes remained on the guy, watching him climb up  the stairs and walking to the seat next to you. 
your attention changes to the professor as she starts talking. but your ears immediately diverted its attention to somewhere else, particularly to the guy next to you. 
“why did you seat next to her? do you know how dangerous that is?” you hear the girl sitting behind him whisper. its no doubt that she purposely whispered loud enough for you to hear, wanting to make your blood boil. you ket your cool and focused on the lecture, taking notes accordingly.
“how so?”
“she’s hard to talk to. she only had mark as her friend and she gets pissed easily. her temper is the worst around here and she’s the most feared. a lot of guys like her for some reason and-” 
“are you done, sweetie?” you lick your bottom lip as you turned around the face the girl. you hear mark hiding his laugh with a cough. “if you are, i really suggest you shut your mouth before i sew it shut for you.” your eyes glared at hers, staring at her intensively. you knew that it scared her when she immediately looks away. you chuckle in amusement before turning back to the front.
you look to the side, to see the guy’s eyes opened wide, with an eyebrow raised. you smile softly.
“lee taeyong.” you whisper, reading off the keychain attached to his pencil case, nodding your head before paying attention to the lecture again. the guy coughs softly and faced forward as well.
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the lecture was now over and you start to pack up. you take your time since you know that it would be hectic to get through the large crowd of students who are also exiting as well as being able to avoid bumping into any guys and have them confess their useless affection towards you.
you were however intrigued to find out what’s going on outside when you hear someone whispering about the fact that there’s an extremely pretty girl waiting outside the campus.
by then, only you and mark were in the lecture hall. you figured it would be a good time to step out and find out the reason behind all the talking outside.
as you and mark walk down the hallway to the entrance, you tilt your head as you see a crowd forming at the gate. you sigh, taking off your glasses and rubbing your temples. “how the fuck are we suppose to get out?” you turn to mark with your eyebrows furrowed.
“im sure they’ll move aside once you come in.” mark places his hand on your shoulder and taps it lightly before walking forward towards the huge crowd with full confidence. you swear you can burst any minute as the the mumbles of the people fill your ears even more as you walk closer.
the moment one person makes eye contact with you. their eyes widened and signal their friends to quiet down. eventually, the noise starts to lower down as you made you way through the crowd. eyes were glued on you as you follow behind mark. you swiftly clean your glasses with the cloth in your pocket and put them back on.
as your vision starts to become clear, you notice that the one standing beside the girl is the lee taeyong guy from ealier. you walk over to them immediately.
you turn your head slightly to the back, signalling everyone to get back to what they were doing, and as always, they obey and the crowd dispersed itself. you look back to the front to where the cause of the nuisance started.
you eyed the girl intensively, looking up and down, observing every inch of her. you had to admit, she is quite the beauty. perfect wavy brown hair, almond shaped eyes, nicely drawn eyebrowa and plump pink lips. her body in the black tight fitting dress is amazing. it curved her body in all the right places.
you look up to see taeyong and the girl looking back at you with a raised brow. you faked a wide smile. “i dont think its wise to meet your boyfriend right at the gates of school.. especially when you’re this pretty. id fuck you.” you lick your lips teasingly and chuckle soon after.
“bitch the fuck?” mark whispers. you let out a loud, cunning laugh. “or perhaps...”
your eyes immediately connected with taeyong’s. you saw the fear yet a tint of interest in his eyes. you liked it. as you walk past the couple, you run your hand down taeyong’s chest. taeyong freezes as the girl’s mouth gape open, pulling taeyong away instantly with her arm around his waist. “id fuck your boyfriend.”
your head jerks toward taeyong as you whisper into his ear, but loudly enough for the girl to hear. with that, you wink at the both of them and walk off. mark smiles kindly before following behind you.
“that was... wow.” mark says to you, taking out his phone from his back pocket. you sigh, pushing your glasses up the bridge of your nose.
“honestly who is dumb enough to meet their significant other just outside campus? they should be taught a lesson. and to think that taeyong guy is new.”
“his name is taeyong?”
you nod. mark nods back in reply as the two of you walk ahead to the small secluded cafe shop nearby where the two of you would usually hang out.
“i really hope i dont see him on friday. does he look like he’s the kind to skip lecture?” you ask, taking a sip of your tea while mark drinks his coffee.
mark shrugs, laying his back against the chair. “i dont think so? he has that ‘bad boy but obedient’ vibes.” you eyebrows furrow, but you slowly nod your head as you start to understand his view of taeyong.
“well i hope he wont let his girlfriend and him cause such commotion again. it took us so long to get out.” you whine, looking at the time on your phone. “we fucking got out like 30 minutes after! you know how much i hate getting off campus late.”
mark chuckles, running his hand through his hair. “we know, sweetie. we know.”
“dont call me that i swear-”
“suckass.”
“bitch.”
the two of you laugh happily and take a sip of your drinks at the same time before discussing about today’s lecture.
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friday comes and you see the gifts placed neatly on your table yet again. you roll your eyes and slouch into your seat. you are now too tired to even throw away the gifts and you give up doing so.
more people soon start to fill the seats of the lecture hall. when the professor walks in, you notice that the seat beside you is empty. you purse your lips into a thin line and shrug your shoulders, thinking that taeyong isnt going to come today.
“taeyong. its only your second day yet you’re already late.” your head lifts up from your table to see taeyong standing by the door. you rest your chin on the palm on your hand as you were intrigued by him again like the first time you saw him on wednesday. why? you dont even know yourself.
taeyong rushes in and sits down next to you. what surprised you is the fact that the same girl is standing outside. the murmurs and whispers come again. you swear you can get a headache from it.
you see her blowing a kiss to taeyong, making everyone shout and fangirl over her before she leaves and the hall is back to being silent. you turn your head to taeyong, who immediately look back at you.
“is she that crazy over you?” you ask, taking out your pen and beginning writing notes. “yeah. but i fucking hate it.” taeyong replies. you chuckle lowly as your eyes remain on the projector yet you could see taeyong blinking his eyes, as if you had an effect on him.
“she seems rich. you’re after her money, arent you?”
“it’s because i cant get away from her parents.”
“hm its also for the money. i can tell.” you look down at his outfit, a lot of it are designer and authentic clothing items. you laugh softly with amusement.
“why are people scared of you?” your eyes immediately darkens and you slowly turn your head to face taeyong, staring down at him. taeyong sucks air into his cheeks and glances somewhere else. laughing quietly at his reaction, you smile softly.
“let’s just say i have a bad reputation. yet im popular for some reason. its seriously annoying.”
taeyong looks down at the gifts that you have thrown off your table. “i can tell. you seem bold and intimidating.”
you take out your phone to scroll through your social medias in boredom. “bold and intimidating huh? you’re an interesting one. i like it.” you glance at the clock when you hear people starting to pack up. you too start to pack up as well.
taeyong is still seated on his seat, writing down the notes he missed from talking to you. you figured that he couldn’t multitask like you. before you stand up to get out of the hall you turn to taeyong. again it looked like his senses were all heightened and he’s being wary of you.
you got closer to him, faces inches apart. he didn’t move at all. his eyes still on you. you smirk softly, licking your bottom lip as you eyed him narrowly like looking at a delicious candy.
“looks like you arent intimidated by me. i like you.” you whispers softly, laughing loudly as you see mark waiting for you at the door. you quickly got up and went to mark. as the two of you exited the hall, you look back to taeyong. he’s still glued to his seat, not moving, his mouth gaping open slightly.
“oi let’s go.” you hear mark shout as you notice him already walking away. you smirk widely and follow behind mark.
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“im sorry what?”
“let me cheat on her with you.”
“no.”
you glare at taeyong as you take a bite from your meal. you and taeyong are having lunch on campus together and it never fails to have eyes glued onto you whenever you’re with taeyong. you’re only option is to hang out with tayeong since mark didnt come today. you have yet to ask him why.
“come on please! if she sees me with someone like you she’ll be too scared to get near me then i can finally break up with her.” taeyong whines, grabbing your cup of iced tea and taking a sip.
“protect your reputation, taeyong. look around. you being with me is already giving people a bad impression of you.” taeyong does what you say, looking around and realising that a lot of people were staring at you two. he turns back to find you picking on your food.
“you’re the only one i know around here. itll only be until me and her break.”
you eyes trailed up from your food to meet taeyong’s. you put your fork down and sat up straight, tilting your head slightly. “what’s in it for me?” people around you know very well that wouldnt do something without getting something back in return. it didnt take taeyong long to know that due to the constant whispers about you around campus.
“ill let you have the money she gives me?” taeyong says nervously. you click your tongue. you were definitely intrigued when taeyong says the word ‘money’. taeyong smiles sheepishly as he waits for your answer.
“ill do it.” taeyong’s face lits up in an instant. you however were smiling devilishly, looking down at your prey. “get ready though. im not an easy one.”
taeyong blinks his eyes rapidly. his eyes definitely says he’s intimidated. but his body says otherwise, looking calm and composed.
“i know. itll be fun.” your eyes widen slightly as you see taeyong smirking under his soft smile. you raise your eyebrows and chuckle in amusement.
“oh im sure it will, ty.”
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“you sure that’ll work?” you roll your eyes and rub your temples. you lost count of how many times you have tried to explain the plan to taeyong.
“you said she comes here to have coffee before she picks you up right? she doesnt know we ended early today so we’ll probably run into her. then i’ll just flirt with you or something. just follow my lead.” taeyong nods slowly. 
you shrug your shoulders and let your body sink into the comfortable seat. you and taeyong are at a pretty high class cafe and it felt good to drink some quality tea instead of the cheap ones you have to put up with living as a broke college student.
you drink your tea as you eyed taeyong. he looks anxious, constantly looking out the window and sucking his draw despite his cup already being empty. you groan to catch taeyong’s attention. “you need to chill. have you never flirt with anyone before?” taeyong shakes his head, biting his straw. you gape your mouth and clap your hands.
“no way! you’re good looking. you cant tell me that snobby girl is the only one you ever dated.” 
“she is.”
you choked on your drink, proceeding you laugh hysterically. taeyong furrows his eyebrow. “you better find a better girlfriend once you break up with her ty.” taeyong frowns, running his hand through his silk soft-looking hair. “im not interested in dating.” taeyong mumbles. you only hum in response. 
looking up from taeyong, you see the girl walking down the street, about to enter the cafe. you tapped taeyong’s hand quickly, making him flinch. 
“okay she’s coming, act natural. like how we are now.”
“wait what i-”
you immediately peck his lips to shut him up. taeyong widens his eyes in shock, his body completely frozen at your touch. you smirked widely as you see the girl standing outside, with her eyes filled with anger and her hand clenching into fists tightly. you chuckle in an evil manner. “her she comes.” you whisper in a sing-song tone.
taeyong looks straight at the door as she finally steps into the cafe and stomps over to your table. you smile widely, putting in your innocent act.
“who’s she, tae?” taeyong doesn’t reply, looking at you. you raise both your eyebrows and roll your eyes. slowly, your fingers crawl up to taeyong’s hand on the table, touching his fingers as you jerked your head to her.
“a friend.” taeyong replies simply.
she scoffs. you ran your hand through your hair. “and why are you guys here?”
you click your tongue and chuckle lowly. you look at her, noticing that she’s eyeing you like a prey. clearly she’s jealous right now. with her arms crossed and eyes. you knew.
“we finished quite early actually. you dont mind me hanging out with him, do you? im sure you know he’s new and im his only friend.” you say softly, turning to taeyong and biting your lip seductively. a smirk slowly creeped up taeyong’s mouth. you’re surprised that he suddenly looks confident rather than the first time you two met when he was looking all intimidated and nervous around you.
“yeah, its true.” taeyong winks playfully at you. you only hum in response before looking up to the girl. she furrows her eyebrows in anger.
“hm you wanna hang out with him, right? alright ill leave.” you stand up and shove your phone into your back pocket. as you walk past behind taeyong, you bend down beside him and got close to his ear, acting as if you were whispering something as you stared at the girl. oh the look on her face. you laugh inside your head. you stand up straight and ran your fingers seductively behind taeyong’s shoulders before exiting the cafe. you could have sworn that you heard her growling under her breathe.
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“you should have seen the look on her face!” you laugh crazily, slamming your hand against your thigh and taking another sip of mark’s drink. you were too lazy to buy your own.
“man why didn’t you tell me all this before?! i would have followed you guys and watch the shit go down.” mark whines. you grin widely and shake your head.
“im so sorryy.” you take in deep breathes to calm yourself down.
“taeyong must have been surprised when he sees you go into that mode. i remember the first time you helped me get my parents to not force me to be in relationships after they knew im “dating” someone like you.” mark chuckles.
“well he was shocked at first. but he surprisingly acted well.”
mark nods his head. you sigh as you look around the campus and you see taeyong walking with his headphones on. you smile softly.
“if you’ll excuse me, ill put on my ‘cheating’ role now and go to taeyong. text me alright!” you stand up from your seat and did you signature handshake with mark before speeding over to where taeyong was.
your hand loops around his arm as you pull him close. taeyonh flinches but relaxes when he notice it’s you. “so how did she react?” you ask, walking happily.
taeyong shrugs and takes off his earpiece, unplugging it from his phone and shoving it into his tote bag. “she was definitely jealous. she gave me a lecture on how i shouldnt be with you cuz you looked like a bitch.” you gasp sarcastically, placing your hand on your chest as you gaped your mouth widely. taeyong chuckles at your reaction.
“a bitch? what about her? tsk..” you roll your eyes.
“i can safely assure you that you’re way better than her.” you laugh in response.
“of course i am.” you wink at taeyong. “also what’s her name? you never told me.”
“soyoung. oh by the way.” taeyong stops in his tracks. you stop as well and let your arm off taeyong’s. taeyong digs into his tote bag. after awhile, he pulls out money. you smile almost immediately.
“she gave it to me. in a way to bribe me not to hang out with you.” you lean forward and snatch the money away and counted it. and boy was it a lot of money.
“she’d pay this much for you to stay away from me? she really is a bitch.” you slid the money into your wallet.
“too bad though. she’ll be seeing me with you more often.” you start to walk forward, but you stop and turn your head back. taeyong was standing still and staring at you. you see him snap out of hid thoughts and shake his head before walking towards you.
“sorry about that. let’s go.” you only shrug your shoulders as the two of you walk out of campus.
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“you’re meeting her this sunday?” taeyong nods. you look around taeyong’s apartment. it wasnt big, big enough for two people but he’s the only one lving here. the decor is simple and he place doesn’t look messy. you figured it suited him well.
“we’ll be together before you’re suppose to meet her and have her see us together.”
taeyong widens his eyes and tilts his head. “that’ll be intense.” you raise an eyebrow and chuckle.
“isnt that what cheating is all about, ty?” you shake your head, acting disappointed. you hear him let out a ‘tsk’. you laugh.
“all right. looks like you’re taking me out sunday night. ill dress up.”
“dont you always dress up? your outfits upstages everyone when i see you on campus.”
you peck taeyong’s cheek playfully. taeyong jumps back at your sudden move. you smiled widely.
“you know i always look good.”
you suddenly feel taeyong pulling you and placing you on his lap. you tilt your head in confusion. “what’s this?”
taeyong’s breathing slows down as his eyes glaze your face intensively, as if admiring every inch of it.
“sounds weird but i find you very fucking hot.. its irresistible.” taeyong whispers, raising his hand to twirl a section of your hair around his fingers.
“oh and please book me a grab home. im heading out now so text me aites.” you stand up from the couch and wave to taeyong before leaving his apartment and closing the door.
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as you were waiting for taeyong to pick you up on his motorbike, you look down at your outfit. you’re wearing a really short grey pleated skirt with a white lace bralette and a oversized checkered blazer as an outerwear. you don’t usually wear skirts often, but you did need to play the part of being revealing so as to “attract” taeyong’s attention. you put the quotations on attract but you dont even know if taeyong would be attracted or not. you slightly hoped that he would for some reason.
you see a motorbike coming to a halt. you walk towards it as taeyong gets off. he takes off his helmet, ruffling his hair as he went to the trunk. you blink your eyes rapidly as you’ve never seen taeyong look this good. you snap out of your thoughts when taeyong passed you your helmet. the both of you wear the helmets at the same time as you give way for taeyong to get on the bike. after adjusting a little, taeyong jerks his head to gesture you to get on.
“sit properly if you dont want guys staring at your exposed thighs.” taeyong says, his voice being muffled by the shield of helmet. you pull your down your skirt slightly and rest your hand on your thighs, waiting for him to take off, but he doesn’t.
“put your hands somewhere else. it’s dangerous.”
“ouh right right..” you look at your sides to find any handles to hold onto but there weren’t any. you stare down at his back. shurgging, you wrap your arms around his waist and interlock your fingers togther. taeyong turns his head to you and looks forward before starting the mottorbike and driving. you dont even know where you’re headed but oh well.
after a drive of about 20 minutes, you finally feel the motorbike stop. you look beside you and notice there was a restaurant. a very high class one. you gap your mouth open in disbelief as you get off the bike and take off your helmet.
“you have dates to these places often?” you turn around to face taeyong who sighs and gets close to you to take your helmet, nodding slowly.
you scoff, your eyes scanning the entrance of the place up and down. you feel taeyong’s hand snake around your waist. “let’s not go inside yet.” you raise an eyebrow.
“then where are we going?”
taeyong leads you to the entrance of the restaurant, where there are benches aligned. you nod your head once taeyong take a seat on the bench and sit doen beside him.
“the place is secluded so id normally see people making out around here.” taeyong comments, glancing at his phone to check the time.
“well there’s a bar a few blocks down so i guess that’s why.” you only nod in response, looking in front as you watch the cars drive by. it made you think of one thing. “wait what does her car look like-“
taeyong swiftly wraps his arm around your waist and pull you on his lap. you blink at him as he jerks his head to the back of you. you assume that she arrived. you arch your back and let your hair flow down on one shoulder before wrapping your hands around his neck and pulling him into a deep kiss. taeyong’s grip on your waist tightens as you ran you hand through his hair and tilt your head to deepen the kiss even more. you felt taeyong’s hand roaming from your waist to your thigh, going up and down slowly.
for some reason, you were enjoying it. his lips on yours. you felt his hunger, neediness for you as he held you close as if to claim you’re his. you felt the same nonetheless. you liked it a lot. the two of you knew very well that this isnt acting anymore. it was real. the heat and needy tension. you didnt feel such a thing in a long time.
you suddenly flinch when you felt a hand on your shoulder, pushing you off taeyong’s lap. you turn around. “oh look who’s here! its soyoung.”
“the fuck did i just saw you doing with taeyong?” soyoung pushes you back further.
“i was about to have dinner with taeyong here.. but id figure it would be better to get free appetisers instead of having to pay for one.” you say confidently, brushing your thumb over you bottom lip as your eyes stared into hers.
soyoung scoffs and folds her arms. she looks down at your outfit. “you’ve been trying to seduce taeyong from the very start.” soyoung mutters under her breathe. you tilt your head as you grin widely.
“of course that’s what i’ve been doing idiot. taeyong really enjoys being with me though.” you turn your head to taeyong who was smirking widely and eyeing your outfit hungrily.
soyoung rubs her temples. with no words coming out her mouth, she turn away and walks to her car, getting into the driver’s seat and driving off. you slowly turn your head to taeyong who’s mouth is wide open. you laugh hysterically.
“oh my fucking god that was awesome!” you shout, clapping as you sit back down beside taeyong. taeyong smiles widely. “you really do have it in you.” taeyong compliments. you nudge his arm. “if you say you underestimated me i will beat you up.”
“please do. ruin me. every single moment i spend with you makes me fall and want you more. i love the dangerous side of you,”
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honeypirate · 3 years
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What’s a Carnival w/o a Kiss?
Nishinoya, Tendou, Kuroo, and Bokuto visit you at your kissing booth.
Fem reader
Choose your character ending!!
Your best friends name is Mina bc I’m watching MHA and needed a name.
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When they approved your VBC kissing booth you were shocked. You thought for sure it would be denied but apparently they thought it would be fun. “What’s the harm in a kiss?” The principle had said while following it up by stating if anyone was truly uncomfortable they didn't have to participate, it was the person’s choice to participate in the kissing booth.
You spent the day preparing the booth and painting it for the carnival tomorrow. You were nervous about it even though the kissing booth was your idea. You only suggested it becasue you thought it would be a great way to raise money since everyone on the girls and boys teams were well know. Plus you thought you could get out of it. nope, if your best friend Mina was participating there was no way she would let you out of it since she knew if you were really uncomfortable with it you wouldnt have thought of the idea yourself. “Too bad so sad” she said while you poured. The girls team would be the ones in the booth Saturday morning and the boys in the booth in the afternoon. Your time was scheduled for noon and youd be in there for fifteen minutes.
You werent just nervous because you had to kiss people, but what if no one wanted to kiss you? What if the entire fifteen minutes you had no one would show up? Just lines and lines for Mina who was right after you. You would feel so embarrassed and it might wreck your self esteem. You sigh and wipe off a bit of paint where you spilled and fixed your other mistakes.
“This looks amazing y/n!” (Noya/tendou/kuroo/Bo) said as he came over to you and you laughed softly “really? Thanks. It isnt hard though it’s just two colors” he laughs and picks up the paint brush with red on the end and placed a bit on your nose and you gasp, your cheeks flushing “doesnt mean you arent good at it!” he says and you smile softly. Somehow just his presence seemed to calm you down “thank you” you said softly and he nods with a grin. you take the white and paint a stripe down his cheek and then giggle as he gasps in shock.
Somehow in the paint fight ended up with him holding your hands above your head and painting doodles on your face while you chuckled and stared up at him. He was so pretty, you didnt get much time to appreciate his looks but you thanked whatever gods were above for this chance
“Hey! Save it for the booth!” His Coach calls out and you feel your face flush as he just laughs above you and rolls off you “sorry coach!” he replies and you avoid eye contact, too embarrassed for being caught goofing off.
“The booth is going to be amazing tomorrow” he says and helps you wash your brushes. “I hope so” you whisper softly, your anxieties coming back. When you’re done you walk him to the gym door so he can head to practice “Hey” he says softly and you look up at him “i’ll see you at the booth tomorrow, okay?” he says with a grin and it makes your stomach flop and your heart race. Your cheeks feel warm as you smile back at him “i’ll-” you clear your throat so you can sound more confident and then grin “i’ll be looking forward to it”
You couldnt sleep, nervous for the kissing booth but now you were nervous because you knew at least ONE person would be there in your line. You didnt even care if you had no other people who wanted to kiss you because you knew your crush was going to be there. At least you hoped that was what he meant.
That morning you made sure you wore your favorite outfit and put on a little perfume, you did your hair your favorite way so you could have more confidence in yourself and at the end of getting ready you felt actually really good about yourself. You looked in the mirror and smiled, maybe today would be the day you would kiss your crush.
Mina shaked your shoulders and squealed “are you ready?!” she said and pushed you towards the booth you had been abiding all day a long “nooooo” is his you respond and she just laughs. “Time to switch!” she sings and your Captain laughs at the boos that Mina get and she waves “sorry boys” she says and pats your shoulder as she exits the booth “good luck” she says and you smile and swallow hard. “Now it’s time for y/n!” Mina sings and you walk through the booth, pausing for a moment when you hear whistles and cheers which was the opposite of what you were expecting. You take a seat on the stool and feel your cheeks flush as the first boy steps up and hands you a red ticket and then presses his lips to yours for a second.
After five minutes kissing didnt even feel like kissing anymore. You lost count of the people who wanted to kiss you but after a few more minutes the line ends and you get a break. You look at your phone to check how much time you have left. 4 minutes to go. You felt your heart begin to shrink when you thought he wouldn’t come. You were distracted by a text from Mina you didnt notice someone approaching until he spoke.
Nishinoya
“Is this booth open?” he asks with a chuckle and your eyes snap up as a smile spreads across your lips “i thought you werent gonna make it” you say with a lilt in your voice and he laughs “how could i miss this? I get to kiss the most beautiful girl not to mention my long time crush” you feel your cheeks flush “i've been waiting for you all day, not to mention i won you this!” he pulls up a small teddy bear and your eyes widen with a chuckle “really! That’s so sweet Noya!” he gets a little nervous now, he confessed his feelings and you didn't say anything about it yet. He feels his face flush as he fumbles with his ticket in his hands. “So.. uh.. Yeah” he says and rocks on his toes as he looks at his ticket. You laugh and hold out your left hand for the ticket with a small smile. He grins as his cheeks dust darker pink as he places the piece of paper gently in your palm. You hop off the stool and lean across the booth to cup his cheek “i’ve been waiting all day for you” you whisper and then you press your lips to his.
Your lips softly rest against his for a moment before you’re pulling back “no, wait” he says softly and cups your cheeks, pulling them back to his own. His tongue touches your bottom lip and you meet it with your own, deepening the kiss and humming in happiness as your lips move together
“Hello?!” the boy behind him asks annoyed and you pull apart with blushing cheeks “sorry guys y/n’s time is over!” Mina says from behind you. You dont know when she appeared but you felt embarrassed anyway. You wave to the long line of guys that had appeared and they all looked mad as Nishinoy just looked like he was in heaven as he walked around the side of the booth to meet you at the back. “Hi” you say shyly and he smiles “hi beautiful” he says you blush “I really like you, Yuu” you whisper with a shy laugh and he takes your hand, lacing your fingers together. “I would hope so! You kissed me like it!” you laugh and rock your shoulder into his playfully “wanna go get some cotton candy?” he asks and you laugh “yes! That sounds amazing. Then maybe we could ride the ferris wheel”
Tendou
“Helloooo” he says happily while waving his ticket slowly in front of your phone “aren’t phones against the rules?” you laugh and roll your eyes “you’re here” you say softly and he smiles and runs a hand through his hair “here i am!” he says with a laugh that shows his anxiety. You take his ticket and then reach up and run your hands through his hair “can i tell you something?” you ask, grateful there isn’t anyone behind him right now. He nods, his ruby eyes shining as they stare into yours “I’ve been waiting for you Satori” you say and laugh shyly and he cups your cheeks, pressing his lips against yours softly. Its soft and sweet and when you pull back he’s pulling your lips back to his again and again, quickly peppering kisses against your lips as you chuckle. “Tendou?” he kisses you and hums in response “maybe” kiss kiss “we should” more kisses “tendou!” mina shouts and he pulls back to look behind you as he still holds your face “take her away, her time is over” tendou shouts for joy and hops through the booth window, taking your hand and leading you away as you chuckle “lets get some lunch and talk about how much you love me” he says and you laugh “sounds good to me” you respond and squeeze his hand. He looks to you with a gasp before his face turns into a grin “and obviously i’ll talk about how much i love you back. It wont just be about me” you laugh “i know, i could tell how much you liked me from those kisses”
Kuroo
“Hey there cutie” he says and you laugh as you shove your phone in your pocket. He always had a way of taking away all your anxiety. You smile up at him as he hands you a red ticket. “Glad you could finally make it Tetsu” you joke as you take his ticket, placing it in the basket with all the others. “I told you id be here” he said with a smile as he leaned his elbows on the booth and smiled at you now he was your height. “And here i thought you were just waiting to kiss all the girls” he hums and reaches out to tuck your hair behind your ear “nah, i only wanna kiss you. I mean, why would i want to kiss anyone else when i have you?” you hop off the stool and lean closer “and how are you sure you even have me?” you whisper and he cups your cheek softly “you have no idea how bad I am hoping” he says, his eyes showing how much vulnerability he is hiding with his teasing “same here” you whisper as he cups your cheeks and presses his lips to yours. The kiss ends sooner than you hoped but the way he is smiling melts your heart “are you done here yet?” he asks with a chuckle and mina behind you yells out “yes! She is! Go on!” she ushers you out of the booth. He holds his hand out to you and you take it with a smile, lacing your fingers together “I guess you were right” you say and he laughs “about what?’ he asks and you squeeze his hand as a blush dusts your cheeks “you have me”
Bokuto
“Hey!” he shouts and you look up at him “no hey hey hey?” you ask as you stand from the stool and smile. He laughs and scratches behind his head “i’m just a little nervous” he says with a shy laugh “hey” you say softly and he meets your eye with his cheeks blushing “I was really hoping you’d come” you say softly, your heart racing. “Really?” he asks and leans forward, placing his ticket on the booth edge and you laugh with a nod. You raise your hand and use your finger to tell him to come closer which he does with a smile and you cup his cheek with one hand while leaning into his opposite ear “i really, really like you Kou” you whisper and he hums in excitement “i like you too!” he says and you laugh “maybe i should kiss you now” he says and you nod as you feel yourself get twice as nervous. He cups your cheeks “so beautiful” he whispers before he presses his lips to yours. You hum at the same time and then chuckle as you kiss him deeper. He pulls back and you chuckle as you wipe his bottom lip with your thumb. Mina taps your shoulder “you’re done hun, now go get your man” she says and you laugh as you make your way around to Bo who excitedly takes your hand “do you wanna maybe turn this into a date?” he asks and you smile with a nod “I’d love that Kou”
~ending~
You spend the whole day with him and watch the sunset form the Ferris wheel, stopping right at the top for you guys. “Wait” you say and turn to him “weren’t you supposed to be in the kissing booth too?” You ask and he chuckles softly “yeah I ditched. I don’t want to kiss anyone else but you” you smile, your cheeks flushing and heart dancing at his words “well if I knew that in the beginning” you say with a laugh and he cups your cheek “you only wanna kiss me too?” He asks softly, his eyes drifting to your lips as you nod. “Then maybe you should be my girl” he says and you laugh “yeah maybe I should” you say just before his lips press against yours for the umpteenth time already today, sending warm fuzzies to your heart and spawned more butterflies you were sure to fly out and into his mouth.
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Just found your blog 🌹Can I request a Soulmate AU for Sirius Black pls? Where he does his best to ignore it but then just totally can’t? I’ll leave it up to you what the actual soulmate mark/recognition thing is! TY 🖤
@fific7
Ofcourse! I love the idea, I’m not super confident in this, the beginning is not great, BUT it gets better I promise, I’ve been revising it for a while now, hopefully I did it justice, I hope you enjoy x 
A week with your Soulmate 
Sirius Black x Reader
Soulmate AU
Warnings; none that I can pinpoint
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“Th' two soulmates write th' same, as they feel an' see.  One wilt not lie to their significant when they meet as 'tis wrong, an' only to know'st; when thou say their name that their love shall alway be thine.  We see dreams, dreams o what they experience an' thats how we shall know'st who our one true love is.
An' when they finally meet. They shall both dream o seeing eachother wast they shall know'st how to love one another”
A Stag, a rat, dog, and a wolf was all she knew
Every once in a while she would have this dream of her soulmate. Sometimes different “adventures” as she liked to call them, but they always involved those four animals
Was her soulmate an animagi? Maybe it was an animal? Y/n didn’t know
But as always, when she woke up she took out her notebook and wrote what she remembered. As her dreams were things that her soulmate had or will live through soon.
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On the other side of the tower she awoke in was her soulmate. Waking up as usual, pretending the dreams he had weren’t important.
“Morning” Sirius yawned to his roommates as they muttered heys and hellos back
“Any dreams?” Remus asked
Brown, green, and a library
“None at all” he lied right through his teeth, why did he lie? He couldn’t be able to tell himself, He didn’t believe that he deserved any soulmate, why would a guy like him have someone to call his “Forever love” as James liked to put it 
But that didn’t mean his mind didn’t wander. 
He saw the green, maybe she was a Slytherin? Then a library, maybe she liked reading, but the brown was something he never paid attention too. Half of the people at hogwarts had brown hair so there was no point in dwelling on that
“Maybe you don’t have a soulmate” James laughed
“The most probable” Sirius shrugged as if it were nothing. Getting ready for his day, big day, not that he knew yet though
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The day went by as normal to the two oblivious soon-to-be lovers, breakfast then their classes and now it was finally time for the day to end. Just potions left
“Ah mister black so nice for you to grace us” slughorn smiled at the ebony-haired boy who walked in 3 minutes late
“Sit next to miss y/l/n” Sirius nodded and complied
His breath hitched a bit walking towards your seat, he’d seen you around school, sometimes in the common room as you did your homework and laughed with your friends or talked with Lily, but he’d never spoken to you. 
“Do you have parchment?” He asked you sitting down, “yea” you smiled kindly and passed him a page
Usually you’d lie if you did have parchment, since you never had much to just spare, but to Sirius you didn’t. You didn’t feel a need to
Class went on like a blur, slughorns babbling went on and on, all you thought about was going to your dorm and sleeping; maybe even finding your soulmate
“Okay you will be doing a 5 page essay on Felix felices with your partners” slughorn stated “By Tuesday next week I’ll be expecting it”
“We can meet up in the library at six tonight and start on it” you looked at Sirius who nodded as the two of you walked out and went your separate ways to the gryffindor tower
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Six o’clock came around and you made your way to the library
6:05
Sirius was still not here, so you took the liberty to get the books you two needed
6:10
Still not here, enough to be running late, but not standing you up
6:13
The tall black-haired boy finally made his way in, seeming out of breath
“Where were you?” You asked
“I wasn’t busy” he shrugged “I forgot”
His eyes went wide as he realized that he didn’t lie? His mind told him I’d be better to tell her the truth and that’s what he did, even thought it was harsh and he felt kind of bad for it
“Oh” “well we can start now” you smiled at him
You asked him to look through the books and write down any facts or things that’d be useful to write, while you started on the introduction with the information you already knew 
Peering at him, you saw a very neatly written parchment of notes
“I like your writing” you stated looking at his writing that seemed awfully familiar
“Thanks” he smiled “I don’t know where I got it from my family writes awfully”
Looking back at your parchment you saw that the two of you shared a unique font
“Look” you grabbed his paper “twins”
He chuckled at your fascination to his writing, his body feeling warm and safe with you around didnt feel a need to be witty or corny. Just to be himself, feeling relaxed
The rest of your night with Sirius went by nicely, the both of you got two full pages down and agreed to meet up again the next day.
“I’ll walk you to the common room” he smiled down at you as you picked up the remaining books “thanks” you blushed a bit at his kindness
The walk back was in silent. Comfortable silence. Both of you felt no need to have to speak to one another.
As you find your way into the common room you found Three boys, who call themselves the marauders, sitting on the couch seemingly waiting for Sirius to arrive
“Thanks for tonight” you smiled up at him, “my pleasure” he winked at you
You made your way in to your room, getting ready for bed, ready to find out what your dream will be tonight
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“I promise I’ll take care of you” you heard a male voice say, you were sat under a tree in front of a lake that you recognized as the black lake, books in front of you, but you couldn’t recognize the voice or the male who was speaking it.
“I will too Sirius” he heard a female declare to him. He saw himself under what he concluded to be a tree, a lake in front of him and a woman next to him though he couldn’t see the woman’s face.
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You woke up with a gasp and quickly took out your notebook, that meant something right? You’d never had a dream like that before, it was always the same one with the dog, wolf, a rat, and a stag.
He woke up with a bit of a smile on his face, ignoring the small feeling in the stomach that made him think that the dream was important. Maybe it had something to do with his so-called soulmate, but why now?
“Any dreams?” James asked
“nope” he lied once again.
The day went by quickly, as you anticipated your study “date” with Sirius, he seemed like a nice guy, the two of you had never actually talked before though, and from what Lily said as she began hanging out with the marauders after she figured out James was her soulmate, he was one.
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“Hi” you smiled up at the raven haired haired boy as he walked up to you, on time today. “Hello” he smiled
“We can start on how to brew it now and it’s effects” you stated, he nodded in agreement and began working
You turned to him “do you know anything about the soulmates” he shrugged, “nothing at all”
“Do you have any dreams?” you asked, “yeah” he replied
His brain was surprised that he let himself not lie to you, he felt vulnerable with you, in a good way
“Well I was reading that your dreams have something to do with your soulmate” you stated, “what do you see in yours?”
“Nothing much, some colors, brown hair” he shrugged, that wasn’t a complete lie, just not the full truth.
“Well I think you should maybe write it down, it could help you find them”
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As the night progressed, you and Sirius finished the third page of your essay. “Can you wait for me?” You asked,
“yeah” he smiled watching you to descend into one of the halls filled with books
“Okay we can go now” you giggled, putting a copy of soulmates into your book bag
Same as the night before, the two of you walked in a comfortable silence, as you got into the common room you said your goodbyes and you ascended upstairs, hearing some voices of the boys Sirius hung out with
“How was your date” Remus smirked, “S’not a date” Sirius shrugged
“Maybe shes your soulmate” Lily joined into the conversation
“I’d doubt it” he denied “Shes too good”
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Back in your dorm, you were opening the pages to the index of your book
“What they are... how to be happy...” you whispered to yourself reading the chapters, “how to find them” a- ha, exactly what you needed. You flipped the pages quickly and began reading
“An' when they finally meet. They shall both dream o seeing eachother wast they shall know'st how to love one another”
You kept rereading the sentence
What did it mean?
From what you understood it meant that when you met your soulmate you had a dream about when you learned to love each other
You took out your notebook, to find any notes about any new dreams you had, but the only one was the one you had last night. The one you had the night you met Sirius
A small smile kept onto your lips, thinking that maybe, the raven haired boy was your soulmate
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The next day you didn’t have any school, all of your friends were out at hogsmead, and surprisingly, so we’re his friends
He saw you come down the stairs with a book in your hand, “Why arent you at hogsmead?” He asked
“I can ask you the same thing” you replied with a bit of a smile, sitting next to him.
“Have you had any different dreams?” You asked, “yea” he shrugged, eyeing the book you had in hand
“Do you want to do our potions essay?”
“Sure” he gave you a smile
The two of you worked silently, but fluently until you finished one more page
“it seems were done” you stated “seems we are” he replied,
“What time is it?” You asked
“Four”
“Oh still early” you shrugged “well I’ll be upstairs if you want to see me” Giggling, you walked up the stairs
As you went upstairs to your dorm, he saw that you left your quill and ink on the couch along with the book. He grabbed the three objects and put them in his bag, but kept the book with the intention of giving it to you later
He read through some endless chapters, until he came across some sentences that sparked his interest
“An' when they finally meet. They shall both dream o seeing eachother wast they shall know'st how to love one another”
Putting two and two together, his heartbeat sped up, but he chose to ignore it. Maybe you were his soulmate? You couldn’t be. He was too... Sirius and you were... well you were y/n half of the boys in your grade wanted you to themselves and you were perfect
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You were laying in bed, looking for your quill because you wanted to write in your notes
You heard a small knock at your door, “Lily find your key!” You yelled
“It’s not lily” you heard a male voice chuckle
As you open the door, a small blush crept onto your cheeks. “Oh sorry” you giggled
“you forgot these” he shrugged extending his arm to reveal your quill and ink
“Oh thank you” you smiled
“Do you want to go to hogsmead?” he shrugged
“Sure” you kindly smiled at him, “but” your face dropped “how are we going to get there?”
His face lit up immediately and he held his hand out for you “Follow me m’lady”
You took his hand with a smile, and followed him “Where are going Sirius” you giggled
“Secret” he whispered, opening a door that you’d never seen before “come on in im right behind you”
You crawled in and followed the path “if you’re going to kill me please don’t”
He chuckled “I won’t kill you just because you said”
As you made it to the end you saw a trap door up top “Push it” he ordered “No you push it” you moved to the side
As he did, he got up and stuck his hand out. Getting out of the tunnel you saw honey dukes
“Oh” you smiled “Pretty”
“Very” Sirius looked at you, “Butterbeer?” You looked at him and he nodded
The two of you walked into the three broomsticks, that was empty by now
“Two butter beers please” Sirius asked the lady as she went to get them
“So why have we never talked?” You inquired
“Erm I don’t know actually” Sirius took the two butter beers and handed one to you
Your time with Sirius was spent with getting to know each other he asked about some books you liked to read;
“You read right?” He asked and you nodded “what’s your favorite quote”
A huge smile painted itself on your face, no one had ever asked you that before
“I think it’s ‘What we love, we mention’” you smiled
“Why?” He asked
“Erm I don’t know I just find it nice” you giggled
He also told you things he’d never told anyone, like about his family and you didn’t judge him which felt nice
It felt nice to be with you, not keeping up a facade of being very confident
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Walking back you saw that Sirius was clearly cold, “here” you took your scarf off and turned to him
“No its fine-“ you cut him off “I insist, you’re gonna get a cold and I do not want to finish that essay alone”
He chuckled and let you put it on him “handsome” you smiled
His cheeks painted a vermilion color, he never had a girl complement him, he always complemented them “oh” he nervously laughed “thanks”
“Don’t get nervous on me black I thought you were a ladies man” you teased
“Me nervous?” He sniggered “never”
“Come on” you walked a bit infront of him, holding out your hand looking at the castle
He took it as the two of you walked into the castle
As always, the walk was quiet until he offered to walk you into your dorm 
You agreed, maybe he’d read the book you “aciddentaly” left yesterday, and realized you might be his soulmate 
The two made your way and as you opened the door he took a good look in the room, your green sheets green, vines of plants around the four poster bed green, and books on the floors library
“I have to go” he stated and walked back down quickly, he had put two and two together and realized the posibility of you being his “Forever” was awfully high
A small frown appeared on your face, maybe he didn’t want you to be his soulmate 
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The next day, you two, as usual met in the library, but earlier 
“Why’d you leave so..” you trailed off “out of nowhere”
“oh” he faked a chuckle “My friends got to the common room”, that wasn’t a complete lie. Though he didn’t know before, his friends were in the common room, and ready to investigate;
“Why were you in the girls dormitories?” Lily asked, “Oh nothing I was just returning a quill to someone i knew” He shrugged it off, walking up to his dorm. Nerves filling his body as he realized you could be his soulmate, Insecurities filling his body as he knew you were too good for him, you were nice and beautiful, Perfect. He was nothing of that sort
“Oh okay, maybe someday you can actually stay more than one minute” You giggled, as he nodded and chuckled in agreement 
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“Oh thats good” you smiled finishing the last sentence “were finally done”
You took one breath, you might regret this, but it was worth a try “So did you read the book I left” you asked 
“yea” he smiled, “Did you see anyhting interesting?” You inquired
“Nothing at all” Sirius shrugged, “I don’t think I have a soulmate” He lied “Or atleast I don’t think I’ve met them yet” He lied again for the first time since you’d met 
Before you could express any feelings, James interrupted “Hey meet us in five it’s important” 
He nodded and looked at you “See you” 
You nodded and let him go, maybe he wasn’t your soulmate after all 
This time your walk back to the common room was silent, and lonely. Though you and sirius never talked while walking, the comforting silence was all you needed to feel safe, and you never realized how lonely it felt without it 
While you walked back, the four marauders were discussing in the Room of Requirements 
“Alright I have to confess” Sirius stated “I’ve been having those dreams and I think I know who my soulmate is” 
“Okay well spill it” James sat down, Remus and Peter listening in 
“I think its y/n” “But I doubt it she’s much too good”
“Ah don’t say that” Remus joined “She’s nice and she helped us prank Sniv once” 
“Oh yea” james chuckled “she’s cool” 
“whatever” He moved on “What about you rem what’re your dreams”
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You and Sirius agreed to meet up once again to revise and check the essay
Your day at the library was different, felt a bit lonely, Sirius was distant and your heart sunk a bit. You thought you’d gotten pretty close to the Raven-haired prince throughout your week with him, but supposedly not 
“Are you alright?” You asked him, “fine” he didn’t even look at you
“Are you sur-“ he cut you off “I said I’m fine” “are we done?”
“I guess” you whispered, and without another word he left
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The next days were spent without Sirius, he moved seats in potions and barely met your gaze
It was finally dinner and you couldn’t wait to go to your dorm and sleep in the whole weekend
Ignoring your friends calls while they talked, you focused on looking at the table and how interesting it suddenly became 
“Sirius” Lily nudged him “What the fuck is wrong with you” 
“What” he snapped out of his daydream 
“You wanker” she angrily spoke “What did you say to y/n shes been off all week” 
“Nothing” he shrugged looking at you, the guilt he’d burried deep and pretended he didn’t have all resurfaced seeing you without your signature smile 
“You wouldn’t shut up about her for a week and now you guys aren’t talking?” Remus asked 
“I don’t want to talk about it” He rolled his eyes and went back to eating 
You were dismissed by dumbledore and you stood up without waiting for anyone 
“Y/n” lily caught up with you “Fuck you walk fast” 
You let out a small fake smile “yes lily” 
“Are you going to hogsmead tomorrow?” she asked, “Mm probably not but thanks” You kept on your walk back to your room, physically and mentally exhausted from your week 
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The next morning you’d waken up later than everyone, 1pm 
Everyone had definetely already left for hogsmead so you decided to take yourself on a date
You got ready, putting on a basic outfit, emptying your book bag and filling it with some snacks, a blanket, and your journal you made your way out, no specific place to go, just wherever your feet took you
You found your way to the black lake, it seemed to be a good place to be
You laid your blanket down and set the snacks down aswell, starting to read a poetry book you found 
“Y/l/n!” You heard a male voice yell from afar “Sirius?” you whispered 
“y/n” he sat “Let me speak okay” you nodded 
“erm okay fuck okay” he tried to find the words “I think you’re my soulmate and I see why, but you’re really perfect and I’m not- im far from that.” He chuckled “but really do like you and I had never felt nervous around a girl so it freaked me out and I’m sorry because it sucked not talking to you and I- again- really do like you. And you know how you said ‘the things we love we mention’ well yea I think I must really love you because I mention you all the time-” You cut him off with a kiss
“I promise i’ll take care of you” he whispered
“I will too Sirius” you kissed him again
 “Just please don’t push me away like that again it really sucked” you chuckled 
“I won’t I promise” he smiled, holding your waist as you two laid in eachother’s embrace until noon when you decided to go back to the castle 
The walk back was, as usual, quiet. Until you got back to the common room and said your goodbyes, but with a kiss 
And for once you didn’t care to where your mind was going to take you as you slept, because now your reality was much better than dream you’ve ever had
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