#tw: narcissistic mom

[internum--urbes]

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[nothing0fnothing]

My mom always used to tell me that I was so much more mature than the boys my age because "girls mature faster" and always told me to date older when I started dating.

The men in my family would tell me that the best way for me to succeed was to 1) get really thin 2) get really hot 3) marry an elderly man months from death 4) inherit his money after he died.

Constant discussions about how I shouldn't be dating teenage boys because teenage boys "only want one thing" and I should be waiting to date till my mid 20s when they've "calmed down".

But yeah it was totally my fault when a man in a position of power over me in his late 20s started dming me when I was 13 and I thought it was normal.

#narcissistic abuse #raised by narcissists #vent post #toxic parents #complex trauma #parental abuse #childhood trauma #dysfunctional family #dysfunctional household #grooming victim #grooming survivor #tw grooming #trigger warning: grooming #adult survivor of csa #tw csa vent #csa survivor #tw csa mention #tw csa #toxic mom #toxic family #child abuse survivor

[nsk96]

Short rant:

I fucking hate living in this house. Every fucking weekend my dad gotta make some kind of fight about something. He sabotaged the freezer a couple weeks ago and now we gotta toss a whole bunch of shit out and my mom can stop ranting at me.

Mom, get a fucking therapist or a journal please, I’m trying to study.

I have an exam on Monday which I’m sure I’m gonna fail now because it’s already 6:40pm and I only covered 10 practice questions.

My door is closed and locked and I can hear their whole fucking argument and him slamming doors. I’m tired of this shit.

I don’t even have privacy in the bathroom. I went to use the main bathroom and then my dad went to use my mom’s bathroom. My mom barged in on me and said “I told you to use mine when he’s home, I don’t want him to use it.”

Well I don’t fucking care anymore, Mom. This is how we live, we all gotta make sacrifices and live with the paranoia of living with this narc man because you decided to stay with him and you made me stay as well.

I may not even survive to see graduation because he has his plans whatever they are and he found his hand gun that we had hidden. You think I care about him using your bathroom? Fuck off

#personal rant #pharmacy school adventures #tw narcissistic parent #tw dad mention #tw mom mention #tw profanity

[stonepullsoutheart]

yell at me all you want, i'll still want to kill myself.

#self mutalition #vent #vent post #hitting styro #styroblr #trauma #i feel so miserable #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #self h@rm #sh twt #sh tumblr #sh blr #s3lfharmm #tw s3lf harm #tw #narcissistic mom #mentally ill #mental health #mental illness #tw depression

[italic-doing-random-shit]

I’ve been here for three minutes and I’m already mad at my dad

#Tw vent #<- not really #but just incase #GGAH neither my dad or step mom understand children not our struggles #It’s always about their struggles #Narcissistic assholes #Wow I’m angrier then I thought I was #Whatever it’s just two nights

[fandomtrashbag]

I think as a society we've really doubled the fuck down on an "all or nothing" mentality.

Like my mom is genuinely batshit insane. I know this. It's terrible and I've really suffered as a result of this. She's treated me horribly. My friends will say she's a horrible human being and is for the streets. But also that's my mom. She's a victim of circumstance too. Through glimpses of lucidity I'll see love and be like, damn she's trapped in her own head because no parent that has love wants to outright harm their kids? I can't discount the sacrifices she made for me.

At the same time this same woman has tried but that does not expunge the sins on her hands as our extended family constantly asks me to do. I still had to raise myself. I was never a child I was parentified at a very young age for survival of first myself and then slowly others. I was in a lot of mental distress and still am. I've got CPTSD. There are skeletons in my family's closet and denying them is a bad idea.

We're constantly picking and choosing sides but it's still possible to stand on both grounds sometimes. My mother loved me but she also ruined my life. I don't hate her but I also don't want to be her best friend.

#trashbag #tw abuse #tw narcissistic parent #tw schizophrenia #i have so many mixed conflicting feelings about my mom #and i wish it was simpler #but sometimes im exhausted #and i am still rallying for her in her time of need #it is dirty work but i must

[lesless]

I find a lot of things extremely annoying but I’m trying to be positive about it all bc what else can you do, ya know?

#me #I’m annoyed my mom hates her mom for being a narcissist then spent #the vast majority of her time with me & my bf of 5 years #who she hasn’t even spent 5 hours with cumulatively #talking about her trauma & how my dad age raped her like Jesus fucking CHRIST #tw #like that’s just 1 thing out of a lot of things & I have a headache & I AM stoked about the vast majority of thing #but rn I still can’t get over people’s behavior like #I had no chance of being normal whatsoever

[ribbitflings]

devastated to rediscover that i cannot feel love at all, and even though, upon research, this is common among those that were emotionally neglected, i still discovered that i have that particular subject locked in a box so tightly that i can and will dissociate immediately if i even try to open it, worse than the one particular type of abuse i refuse to address over all the other types ive dealt with

#childhood ptsd #tw ptsd #ptsd flashbacks #complex ptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd tag #tw cptsd #cptsd problems #cptsd recovery #cptsd #emotional abuse #mental health #emotional neglect #narcissistic abuse #parental abuse #narc mom #narcissistic mother #absent father #abandoment issues #dissociation

[invalid-request]

I remember when I was a kid looking at my mom thinking that if I just did the right thing, I would get attention and love, and she'd finally see me. I kind of miss having that hope. Over the years she has hurt me in countless ways. I kept giving her a chance because... she's my mom. Eventually I learned that in order for my pain to heal, I needed my mom to take accountability for her behavior and understand my emotional experience. She can't do that. So I set a boundary in order to not get hurt anymore.

To all the people that made the excruciating but healthy choice to set a boundary with your mom, I'm with you on this Mother's Day, and I hate that you didn't get the relationship you deserved.

(source: @therapyjeff on tiktok)

#no contact #toxic mom #toxic mother #mother's day #trauma #trauma tw #actually traumatized #trauma healing #toxic parents #narcissistic parents #narc parents #narcissistic mother #cptsd #mentalhealth #tw mental health #mental health #mental health tw

[theartftoxic]

Quietly Loud

I've never spoke out. I never talk about what bothers me. I never tell how I feel, how things affects me, how your actions hurted me.

Now I'm speaking up. No more abusing little old me, no more not considering my feelings, no more abuses.

Getting killed little by little by your family, mentally, it's exhausting, frustrating and hurtful. They're supposed to be your number one supporters, through thick and thin right? I was the maid. I was the least favourite child. I was the oldest. How could I have problems and act up if I had a "great life"? Being told you're not doing enough when you're killing yourself everyday just so your mom can tell you "You did great today" " You did something at least today".

That is exhausting and NO children should live any of this.

#very relatable #toxic mom #toxic sister #narcissistic abuse #verbal abuse #i hate everything #mentalheathawareness #mental help #tw depressing thoughts

[nothing0fnothing]

Hey remember when that grown man molested and groomed me into thinking it was okay for like, almost 3 years and when everyone found out I got treated like I, the 13 year old child, was the bad one who broke the rules? And then I spiralled down into a pit of rage issues and bad mental health because nobody thought it might be necessary to get me help after such an ordeal so I just had to tough it out and work it out alone? and not just regular alone, like truly alone, because I was pulled out of every social extracurricular I was in and had all my hobbies taken off me as punishment so all I could really do was sit alone in my room thinking about everything I'd just gone through and how bad it was? and it was especially bad because it was summer and my parents were so angry at me they didn't talk to me basically at all so it just became normal that I went days to a week at a time without speaking to a human being the whole time, essentially leaving me alone in a time I should have been having conversations about what happened to me and how I can heal? And nobody talked about it at all for like 5 years and pretended it didn't happen to me and I had no reason to be sad and depressed and mentally ill because I had a perfect life? And literally the only evidence I had that what happened to me wasnt just forgotten was brought up was as a joke at my expense when I was 20 and moved out? And when I, a then 20 year old who still wasn't healed from that experience because why the fuck wouldn't I be? Said that the joke wasn't funny and acknowledged for the first time that it wasn't my fault I got met with some weird remark about how it was actually another 15 year olds fault because she also got groomed?

Yeah me neither idk why I brought it up.

#narcissistic abuse #raised by narcissists #vent post #toxic parents #toxic mom #parental abuse #complex trauma #dysfunctional family #childhood trauma #dysfunctional household #grooming victim #grooming survivor #tw grooming #trigger warning: grooming #grooming #tw csa vent #tw csa mention #tw csa #csa survivor

[nsk96]

I recently bought a small desk online so that I can study comfortably with a desk with a good height instead of the one I’ve been using which is too short.

I have difficulty focusing on studying and the discomfort makes it 10x worse because of the shoulder pain, back pain, and neck pain from hunching over that small table to take notes. It’s one of the main reasons I prefer studying at the school library because the table is the perfect height from the chair.

Fast forward, the table arrives today and I am excited to assemble it tonight. I get out of the shower to find that my dad is assembling it…

My mom literally let my dad start assembling it…the man who breaks things out of spite? The man who kept purposefully damaging the exercise bikes she bought online? Damaged them while assembling them??? And she was the one who had to keep calling the company to send a replacement only for him to assemble them too?The man we have to hide things from because they’ll either get broken or go missing? That man????

I said “oh I wanted to assemble it”. My mom goes, “go focus on your studies, he’ll do it.”

I’m so done. I just know now that’s gonna be $70 down the drain. If anything goes wrong with the assembly of that table, I will never forgive her for that. I’m done.

#personal #tw narcissistic parent #tw dad mention #tw mom mention

[mycptsdstory]

After having the worst week of my life, finding out why everyone left me, I'm not getting any auditions. All because my fucking cunt of a mother, told everyone that I'm a fucking peadophile...

I'm watching RuPauls drag race on the World of Wonder app, and yes I'm streaming it. It honestly makes me feel so much better.

It's so nice to watch a TV show that I was NEVER allowed to watch, when I was living with my mother. Omg, she's against anything that's queer because iTs AgAinSt tHe BibLe 🙄

I hope people believe me. I legit put the sex offenders register on my socials and fucking pinned it. On my Facebook, I made it public. Since that link is public domain and I'm allowed too, especially when I'm not on the fucking thing.

Not gonna lie, I feel let down by the legal system. My mother saying a peadophile is the last straw. I'm done, I'm so fucking done.

I haven't had any messages from anyone, especially to the people who believed this shit. The only people who have been there is my bf and my close friends. I cried a lot last night, because this shit hurts. It fucking hurts.

I hope this will clear up soon because I'm still terrified to leave the flat. I just want to sleep all day and ignore the whole world.

And yes, what my mother has done, is VERY illegal. Since there's zero evidence to back it up.

I'm so tired and I'm so done with this shit. I just want to be left alone. But that ain't happening. My mother won't stop stalking me, harassing me, till someone stops her or she's dead.

I'm so tired and I'm so done.

#cptsd #narcissistic mom #narcissistic mother #narcissistic mum #cptsdhealing #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #cptsd thoughts #cptsd vent #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #tw cptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd tag

[skarlettriott]

i fucking can’t with her any more.

FUCKS SAKE

#musings #tw toxic mom #surviving narcissism #narcissistic mother #fml #what the fuck ever #it was a misunderstanding but still

[ur-not-reddie]

soooo i’m moving out in a week or less and my parents have absolutely no clue..

#idek how to tell them #i know my mom is gonna be absolutely pissed and i’m not ready for that #tw: mentions of abuse #escaping a household where i was abused my whole life and now i’m leaving my abuser #who happens to be my mother #so i’m trying to be as prepared as i can when she lashes out on me #it’s very scary leaving an abuser especially a narcissistic one #but i’m strong enough to make it through and live a much happier and healthier and SAFER life

[bpdstevenuniverse]

it's rlly infuriating that my mom would rather believe shitty tiktoks spreading misinformation than her own daughter who tries to tell her that being a narcissist does not mean you're an abuser who purposefully wants you to be miserable

#literally fucking wild #we have the same argument every 2 weeks at best #and it's like my mom's stupid brain resets #like come the fuck on #i feel like my mom probably doesn't listen to me bc she sees my dad when i 'won't let her have fun' #y'know. #actuallybpd #ableism tw #npd stigma #venting #personal #my journal #she keeps calling my dad a narcissist. like. she doesn't even fucking know what a narcissist is