#'it/its pronouns are difficult for me to use but i try anyway' what you want a medal about it??

[pristine-starlight]

People who cry about how difficult it is to adjust to using it/its for a person bc they aren't used to it are fuckin Weak, way before i picked up it/its myself i had a friend swap to using them and it was the first time i had someone in my circle use those pronouns so i went "oh. New grammar structure. Doesn't compute properly yet, gotta make it settle in" and proceeded to play minecraft for three hours while rambling to myself about my friend in my head using it/its

And that's all it took

#like it aint hard bro you just gotta make an effort and act normal about it when you mess up #'it/its pronouns are difficult for me to use but i try anyway' what you want a medal about it?? #its difficult for me to deal with ppl denying me my identity for the sake of their own fragile lil feelies but i do it anyway. so what #chatter tag #rute is back in hibernation but. mwah. love you buddy i hope youre cosy #fond memories of running around atop a dark oak forest thinking about how cool you are

[miniaturecollectiveendermen]

Lyney.

Relationship headcanons.

Fluff.

Cuddles.

Smt.

He>

HELLO BELOVED IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG IM DOING ALL THE REQUESTS YOU SENT ME NOW

i have a week off cuz elections so im gonna try to do all these quickly

!! WARNINGS: !! gn!reader (only you/your pronouns used), nothing else just pure fluff

I am so normal about him 

HIS VOICE LINES????? I am on the floor 

Lyney is a very affectionate boyfriend 

He absolutely adores PDA - you're his and he wants everyone to know that! 

Whether its holding your hand or grabbing your face out of nowhere and kissing you 

He also has a habit of being a bit handsy 

He tells you it's just a habit but you know he loves teasing you 

He thinks it’s cute when your flustered 

From lingering touches on your waist and thighs to biting your neck 

Prior to your relationship he would flirt with you and ask you out every time he saw you 

Initially he wasn't serious, he flirts with practically everyone

He thought you were quite attractive but he doesn't fall for people often - especially considering that he's part of the fatui 

Trusting people doesn't come easy to him 

Despite his natural charm once he realizes his feelings for you, flirting gets a tad bit more.. difficult 

“Traveler-! W-what a surprise seeing you here!” (he invited you to his show) 

“Aren't you looking dazzling tonight! Did you do something with your hair?” “No..? it's the same as always..-” “Oh-” 

He gets his confidence back eventually (once you two are officially dating)

He will sometimes say things to people that come off as flirting but it really isn't 

That's just how he is 

But don't get the wrong idea - he is very loyal

If someone tries flirting with him he immediately shuts them down 

Something like “wanna see a magic trick?” and he just fuckin disappears 

I love him 

Anyways! 

But if someone flirts with you he’ll make them disappear instead 

That's just a joke of course! He wont do anything to upset you :) (that person won't be able to look you in the eye ever again)

He is the most romantic person ever (if i haven't already made that obvious enough)

Pet names galore - “my love”, “pretty”, “cherie”, “mi amour”, “darling” 

He talks about you a lot which is adorable but very unfortunate for the person listening 

That person usually ends up being lynette, much to her dismay 

Overall he's a very loving boyfriend 

10/10 would recommend 

#genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #genshin impact #genshin headcanons #genshin fluff #toasts requests #genshin scenarios #gender neutral reader #lyney x reader #genshin lyney #genshin impact lyney #lyney x gender neutral reader #lyney x you #genshin impact scenarios #genshin hcs #genshin impact fluff #genshin x gn reader

[sayitaliano]

Ciao, I have a few questions:

what is the difference between lesbica and lesbiche?

Also, if I wanted to list my pronouns (he/she/xe) in Italian, what would I say?

Which kinda a follow up- are there neopronouns in Italian?

grazie, buono giornata!

Ciao!

lesbica = lesbian, singular; lesbiche = lesbians, plural I'm leaving you a few links about the lgbtq+ vocabulary, just in case you need: Lgbtqa Vocabulary | Lgbt+ | non binary (writing)

for pronouns I suggest you to read here (and other posts in the grammar masterpost in the pronomi section, right after pronomi diretti/indiretti). Btw personal pronouns are: I = io, You = tu, He/She = egli/lui, ella/lei (there's no specific agender pronoun as far as I know but check point n.3) We = noi You = voi They = essi/loro, esse/loro The pronouns I "deleted" are the ones taught in school for declaring verbs conjugations while studying, but not much used in common language. The fact that English provides the 2 forms pronouns (eg. they/them), doesn't need to be applied in Italian too: you can simply write he=lui / she=lei / they=loro as necessary.

Italian is a pretty gendered language, every noun has its gender to which you need to conjugate articles, adjectives and sometimes other parts of speech. Eg. you wrote "buono giornata": that's grammatically wrong cause "giornata" is a feminine word, so the adjective "buono" -masculine- is not correct; you should use "buona" -feminine- -> "buona giornata". We're still kinda behind with neopronouns, so when talking it gets a bit difficult. You can call a person by their name or be formal before asking how they rather be called (formal speech needs you to use a general "Lei", which has nothing to do with the person's gender despite seeming feminine -we recognize you're being formal cause you need to use verbs at the 3rd singular person too); or you can use the noun "persona" = person. Persona is a feminine noun, but you can use it no matter the gender of the person you're talking with cause it's just the noun itself being feminine. When writing you can add an */u/ə/ä at the end of the noun, instead of the "gendering" vowel when it comes to other nouns/adjectives and so on: eg. sono alt* = I'm tall (no gender specified). You can try using "u" when talking too (eg. sono altu), I heard it once so... yeah, you can try. It really reminds me of Sardinia tbh (Regional stereotypes, sorry) but if it works... I'm no one to tell y'all otherwise. Not saying we're not working on finding a solution, but it's a tough research and translating from English, a language that has a different grammar from ours, is pretty impossible. I've been researching a bit online and I noticed that English neologisms are probably to be used in Italian as well so: “ze/hir”, “xe/xem”, “ey/em”, “ve/ver”... just go with what makes you feel better anyway. You can still explain what you mean if someone doesn't get it (it doesn't have to be a bad/rude person, it's just that is something new for many of us, especially the elders, that are not so much online or informed about this kind of pronouns/changes). BTW you can try watching tonight's show about the Diversity Media Awards, maybe you'll get some more recent news on that matter too (IDK).

Hope this helps somehow, please feel free to ask for further infos if you need!

#it #italian #langblr #italiano #italian language #italian langblr #language #languages #parole words #traduzioni #lgbtq+ #vocabs #vocabulary #italian vocabs #italian vocabulary

[ferinehuntressmoved]

𝘒𝘕𝘖𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙  𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘕𝘌𝘙  𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓  𝘊𝘈𝘕  𝘗𝘖𝘛𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠  𝘔𝘈𝘒𝘌  𝘞𝘙𝘐𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘛𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙  𝘈  𝘓𝘖𝘛  𝘌𝘈𝘚𝘐𝘌𝘙.

NAME :　Panda

PRONOUNS :　She / Her

PREFERENCE  OF  COMMUNICATION :　Discord. While I can use tumblr dms, I most likely might miss them. Discord is the best form of communication for me.

NAME  OF  MUSE(S) :　Primary muses are Caitlyn Kiramman & Ahri. Secondary are Mel Medarda & Aloy. Tertiary are Elora & Vi. By Request is Nidalee & Janna

EXPERIENCE  /  HOW  LONG  (  MONTHS  /  YEARS? ) :　Holy shit, you want me to count that far back. You want me to tell you how old I really am!?! So, I started to roleplay when computers were pretty new to houses. YES! I was one of those kids that was graced by the first computers in houses! I think my first computer was a IMB one or something, but I started playing on a computer with internet back in 2000. My parents didn't have a lot of money so we couldn't get an earlier computer; this was a gift from a friend at church for me. It had Windows 98 I think or something. I don't know.

Anyway, got distracted, but when that  came around, one of the first forums every I think that had roleplaying on the web was called Avidgamers. I played Pokemon as a self insert character. One liner diaster writer I was. So yeah, I've been roleplaying for about 23 years now, but in terms of writing, I have been writing stories since I was 9 years old, so that is about 26 years (I use to also write self insert stories in Sailor Moon or Pokemon or things like that XD). Anywho, I went on a tangent, anyone who reads this your amazing.

BEST  EXPERIENCE :　Oh man, I'm not sure. There are so many things that could be my best. I use to own forums before, I had some amazing partners. I miss them dearly and I hope they are doing amazing things now. Honestly, I think its just the level of growth I've had over the years. From going to being a self-insert writer who could only write a line or two, to now trying to expand my writing and doing more. To be more quality then quantity, but also meeting partners who absolutely challenge me to write better and be better. I want to be good for people, but there are those partners that absolutely push me to try even harder and be even better.

RP  PET  PEEVES  /  DEALBREAKERS :　I'm not saying this is a pet peeve? but I typically stray away from one liners or massive purple prose writing that I don't understand what I'm reading. While I never deny anyone's choice of writing, these are the things I tend to stay away from because I personally cannot write them. I  can't really say what my pet peeves are? I probably have some but I don't know of the top of my mind.

MUSE  PREFERENCES  FLUFF,   ANGST  OR  SMUT :　I am, hands down, an absolute fiend for angst. I know it might be overwhelming for some people but I really find it carthatic for myself? and have a double enjoyment of angst that turns to fluff. I like to call it Angsty Fluff, or Fluffy Angst. The bonding of two people in difficult moments whether that is fighting to survive death or helping someone through a rough period. Two people, bonding and encouraging each other is something I really enjoy to write. I also don't mind writing smut, I actually enjoy it but I do tend to write smut with people who I heavily plot with often.

PLOTS  OR  MEMES :　Plots. While I post memes a lot, I do try to create a plot line to those memes too. I need some kidn of foundation. I am not looking for a written out script we have to follow to a T, that's not what I mean. What I am looking for is just like this idea to build around, maybe even talking about our muses connections and waht they are dealing with at the time. That kind of foundation and design really helps me feel more connected to our msues and the writing. I love memes, but I tend to only continue memes with people I plot with a lot.

LONG  OR  SHORT  REPLIES :　I love long threads. like you don't have to apologize for anything because I thrive on really long replies. I have had replies go up to 1.5k words, which absolutely thrills me. The shortest replies I can do is maybe 2 paragraphs. Any shorter then that, and I tend to loose interest and have to drop it.

BEST TIME TO WRITE :　Honestly, no idea. I am far more productive at night my time (CST). I tend to stay up til 2 or 3am.

ARE  YOU  LIKE  YOUR  MUSE(S) :　Caitlyn is very much my muse, so much so we relate on many different levels. I understand her deeply and I'm very connected to her. As for my other muses, yes and now. But caitlyn, hands down, is almost like a part of me that I get to write fully.

➤ 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 [ : ] @knifvd - Thank you dear ♡ ➤ 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 [ : ] @shimmerbeasts, @hexcoremagician, @goldenfists, @futureforged, @goldusk, @gauntlets-shot, @blackrosesmatron, @angelicxlly, @dynaisms, @decidentia, @demacianhcart, @jynxd, @piltover-sharpshooter, @powdied, @ofspvrta, @undercity-prodigy, @torntruth, @tricoloredillusion, @realmyths, @weavertali, and anyone else who wants to.

#[ panda speaks ] — personal games.

[thatstonedwriter]

Good Little Girl~

Blitz x Reader

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Content; romantic/platonic, gender neutral, no pronouns, mentions of substance use and mental illness

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

~Good little girl, always picking a fight with me~

Its so easy to bicker and tease. Blitz knows how to start shit, and sometimes its so fucking annoying

~You know that I'm bad.. But you're spending the night with me, what do you want from my world? You're a good little girl~

And yet, you can't help but notice how cute his laugh is, how protective and thoughtful he can be. Why does it have to be so difficult? Why does he always pull away?

~Bad little boy.. that's what you're acting like, I really don't buy that you're that kind of guy~

He puts up this front of not caring, thinking love is stupid. And yet he stalks Moxxie and Millie. He adores Loona. He still clearly cares for Fizz.

~And if you are.. why do you want to hang out with me?~

But how does he feel about you? It can be so difficult because one day, you're taking care of him after he drinks too much, cleaning up and making sure he's comfortable. But the next, he's yelling about how easily he could do everything on his own, that he doesn't need anyone.

~You're not so bad you know.. Not so bad? I'm a demon, its not something I have to try at. You on the other hand..~

Yeah, yeah, he's an assassin. And he's way too good at "Action Hero Bullshit," but underneath, its so obvious how sensitive he is. No matter how many times you actually try to get though to him, it doesn't matter. Every compliment, every reassurance, he never accepts it.

~I'm not trying to be bad. I'm hanging out with you because you're my friend~

At a certain point, is it your job to keep trying this? To constantly attempt to reassure and comfort him when he clearly won't accept it? ... Maybe not, but you'll try anyways, because, as much as you don't want to admit it, you love him

#tbh idk what this is #rough idea I had #blitz x reader #romantic #platonic #song fic #drabble #helluva boss headcanon #helluva boss x reader #may end up doing another version of this idk #self indulgent #Spotify #writings.onthe.wall

[onebizarrekai]

Hello, you used to do these things for ds characters a long time ago, like:

B A S I C S

full name:

gender:

sexuality:

pronouns:

And other-

Could you do this for Error or Cross(or both) please? I need it for my friend and his project-

sorry it's been like 100 years since I got this but anyway I feel like those characters have become so inconsistent it's tricky to narrow them down. if you ask modern me their names are ellie [last name missing] and victoria crow respectively, both are she/her, and none of the characters have articulated sexualities anymore besides Not Straight for imaginative ease. or if you're asked me from 4 years ago they're just error and cross and they probably are still trapped in the undertale dark ages of men who wish they were fashion disaster enough to fit in jojo's bizarre adventure.

do you mean like you want the WHOLE thing? like the whole whole thing? I just searched back and found the text base. dreamswap has plot holes and changed so much around its later era in it that it's difficult to articulate the details, but I can TRY.

ds ellie (to differentiate from the fatal flaws universe) was raised in an ambiguous institution (in other words, an orphanage) and has no mentioned relationship to her parents nor where she lives, barring the implication that she lives in an underground city. ds vick was born… somewhere in the spectrum of the multiverse, in a chunk of real estate owned by the ds version of big bad xgaster and it wasn't established who her familial relations were in this version. half the characters in ds are also conveniently unemployed and this includes the entire meme squad. ellie and vick's phobias have yet to be articulated because it was never that important to the plot. in other, less jokey words, I would say phobias are much more severe and neurological than bad memories or unpleasant situations. I don't really wanna say that ellie has a phobia of human connection or that vick is has a phobia of defeat or something. they have bad things that remind them of bad things and may even be debilitating, but I haven't had a chance to articulate them in writing or even figure out entirely how to do that or how they might relate to any given story. I never decided whether they had any irrational fears either. same thing for the next inquiry; what their guilty pleasures might be. all I can come up with is that vick likes fighting, and it's not always the wholesome kind.

morality alignment. uhhhh. it's complicated. people are complicated. the whole next list of character traits that split everyone into one half of the chart or the other feel like they're not accounting for any hypothetical specifics. like, I could say ellie is agreeable, but she's capable of doing things that make her disagreeable to many others. vick could be disagreeable to the people she picks fights with but she's capable of being agreeable to others. either one of them could be more optimistic depending on the circumstances. vick's carefree attitude could be read as optimism or nihilism. some of them are more cut and dry (for example, I'm sure both of them are anxious messes, which is common for their age), but I feel like saying it doesn't really say as much as just reading the material that exists of the characters… and said material is already only semi-reliable at best.

basically, I have this image in my head of the complex potential of each ds character, but none of them have really grown into it. you get what I mean? there's a lot of character details that aren't very clear simply because the characters were created, but not wholly written. not wholly developed. I'm not saying I have contempt for them or something, or wish I had done more. they just have something they COULD be one day. more complete versions of themselves. versions of them that I started out imagining back in 2018, but the directions I was going in with what I was making resulted in those versions of them not being fully realized. a character can only go so far with bouts of lore and minimal continuity.

I dunno if any of that even matters. it's probably more useful for me to just give yes or no answers, but I just kinda felt like talking about ds and its characters and how they've aged. maybe they'll end up in some medium one day that focuses more on who they could be rather than just their backstories and they'll be more fleshed out then.

#dsasks #I think every ds character could go for some more meaningful past relationships #most of them have no ties or an evil family member #or they should be affected in some way by their past #a lot of them have been seriously traumatized and isolated ahaha #not that making every character emo is the answer #but they should interact in ways that passively align with their beliefs and worldviews #ellie and vick were decent examples of this not really happening #I wanted to fix a lot of this in fatal flaws

[bruhhhh-huhhhhh]

Hello friend! Heres my info for the matchup exchange :D! I’d prefer a male killer from DBD, but honestly, if a survivor matches more with me thats cool too! (I’m a massive wesker simp but disregard this if he doesn’t match well with me, I promise I’m fine with it :D!!)

I use any pronouns :) I'm 5’6, I have very fair skin (i can't wear most concealer because im too pale :,) I have beauty marks that can be seen on my entire body, I have a slightly curly, blonde wolfcut, and light blue eyes. I have an hourglass shape, I am a little chubby though and have thicker thighs and uh... chest. I'm normally pretty careful.. but I do have a few scars on my knees from times I've tripped :,)) I'm proud of it all though!

Personality wise, l'm pretty dependent on other people's moods, if they're calm, I am too. Sad? Same here.. Besides that l'm usually very quiet and observant, preferring to watch the conversation rather than join in, ya know? l’ll only step in if someone asks my opinion or its something i'm super interested in/have lots of knowledge about. Seriously, I'll rant for hours to my s/o about my interests. I tend to be hyperactive and affectionate around people I care about though (especially my s/o), I absolutely will cuddle up next to them at any given moment, no questions asked. (I also will endlessly flirt with my partner if im feeling like an absolute gremlin-) I also love to playfully tease my partner, I will actually tackle them istg- l'm super caring and loyal too, so l'll make sure they know how appreciative I am of them with compliments and little gifts (random things I found that I thought they’d like- I’m like a crow-)!

I have bad anxiety which constantly makes me overthink things and fear that my partner is only with me out of pity.. Which only leads me to being jealous of others around my s/o. Haha clingy much ? :,))

Anyways, my hobbies include photography, knitting/sewing, playing video games, writing, listening to music, and fashion design!

Love language: Physical touch, gift giving, quality time.

Thank you so much and please take your time on this! Happy holidays :DD !

omg yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes

Anyways, I match you with...

Albert Wesker!

Please you two are a match made in... the entity's realm. I guess

Don't worry about the concealer, he'll have the entity make some especially for you. He doesn't care what it takes. All 4 kills every trail for the next ten trials? They're dead. A blood sacrifice? Already done. Albert doesn't really care if you wear it or not. You're still as beautiful to him either way, but if it makes you happy, he'll do anything to get it for you

This man will hug, squeeze, kiss, or even bite your curves every chance he can get. You can't blame him though! You're just so...squishy, and he loves it.

He's almost always calm, so you will be too. Seriously, this man needs to learn to express his feelings more often.

Pretty much the only time Wesker isn't calm is after an especially difficult trail. You get one of two versions of him. He's either very VERY angry, to the point where he'll excuse himself to go let put some of said anger, or he gets really affectionate. You won't be getting up for a while.

Please rant to him about anything you want. He loves it so much, even if it looks like he doesn't. It makes Wesker content to see you so excited.

He's never content

Flirt with him, I dare you. He'll flirt back so hard. It'd be funny to watch you guys go back and forth, trying to fluster the other

Albert almost always wins

He will keep each and every gift that you give him in his drawer at RPD. The entity makes it to where the drawer that he keeps them in is much bigger than it looks.

Don't worry about being jealous, Albert literally never interacts with others. He only does if either you or the entity makes him.

Please make him socialize, he needs it sometimes

Make him a new outfit and he'll love it. He may not wear it in trials, but he'll wear it when no one other than you can see it. He has an image to uphold, just not around you

If you're a survivor, Wesker will still chase you around in the trails. He won't hurt you, heavens no! He'll just get your adrenaline going

He'll also make it VERY clear to all the other survivors and killers that you aren't to be touched.

One time, Ace scoffed at you and said some...unsavory things. When you finally told Wesker about it, he made sure that Ace had a very interesting trail. He did some things that even the entity couldn't stop.

His head was delivered to the campfire on a stick :)

Anytime any of the killers even look at you for too long, let alone sacrifice you, they get an earful from Albert. And maybe a sock to the jaw if they argue back-

If you're a fellow killer, he'll sit there and let you vent about survivors being dicks and anything else you want to vent about

All in all, he enjoys your presence very much and will let you do anything you want

Treat him well :D

#matchups! #albert wesker #albert wesker dbd #albert wesker x you #albert wesker x reader #albert wesker resident evil #project W dbd #resident evil #resident evil 1 #resident evil 0

[erwin0859]

Hello there, and welcome! 😊

Link to masterlist

I'm a male alien INFJ who descended in this mortal realm in the year of 1998. I have a little bit of writing experience, though I wouldn't call it a proper hobby...

After the idea floated around my mind for a while now, I decided to give a try to writing headcanons/short fics, specifically for Genshin Impact (eventually Honkai Star Rail later), with a focus on comfort/fluff.

I got inspired to do this after seeing how often I would turn to comfort or fluff content on tumblr, as a way to cope with the void of loneliness (sometimes overthinking too). As such, why not add my own contribution... as long as it can, hopefully, provide some relief to one person out there.

Asks are open (anon allowed) for requests and chatting (and DMs for chatting if you feel like it) 👀

Please read all the rules first though!

Universes I can write for

Genshin Impact

Honkai Star Rail (eventually)

Characters I feel rather confident to write for

Kamisato Ayaka

Yae Miko

Fischl

Furina

Lumine

Here below, characters I may possibly write for

I'm not as confident regarding them, so "ask at your own risks", I guess... For those I didn't mention, I'm not against writing for them (maybe I can actually write them well and I just don't know it yet)

Zhongli

Neuvillette

Sangonomiya Kokomi

Nahida

Chiori

Navia

Albedo

Nilou

Charlotte

Yanfei

Amber

Wanderer

What I can write

reader X character (with reader by default as gender neutral for wider audience's sake, unless a request demands a different one)

mainly fluff and comfort (reader comforting, or being comforted by character)

I don't exclude mentions of hurt or angst as context for the above (unless a request specifically demands it), some conditions related to mental health (loneliness, overthinking and its consequences) aren't excluded either

platonic (not entirely confident with romance, see Miscellaneous below), eventually light romance, but nothing intense

headcanons, eventually fics (fics may be included in headcanons if I'm feeling inspired; no guarantees though)

What I would rather not write

Unless you're lucky and your request is within my abilities, just be aware though that these are not my preferences (= you would be wise to ask someone who actually writes for those, instead of me)

smut/+18/NSFW/NSFL (not out of dislike/disgust/discomfort, but due to no experience in writing this kind of sensitive stuff)

intense romance & flirting (not really into romance, so, better to be safe than sorry...)

yandere (no experience in this)

genderswap (not really interested...)

character x character (check above, "intense romance & flirting")

Miscellaneous:

By default, the reader will be gender neutral and referred to as S/O (please specify in the request, if you wish for specific nicknames or other pronouns to be used!), I want my blog to be open to everyone 😊

Multiple requests are allowed

I aim to write characters in a realistic manner, meaning I will base myself upon canon actions & voice lines from them

I'm not familiar with everything regarding LGBT+ and the autism spectrum (I'm not against writing about them though, it's just that it will be a bit more difficult, and will require some research on my side)

I may not accept every request I receive (I'm no professional writer; plus everything is done for free, during my free time)

I plan to add a link to ambient music to listen to, for immersion's sake (it may be emotional on purpose, at times)

Please don't interact if you don't have a civilized behavior; that is to say, be respectful, no hate, etc...

Headcanons are called headcanons for a reason; it's fine if you don't agree with mine, but that doesn't allow you to consider yours as superior/the only one 😉

If you own a blog which has "men dni" (or "mutuals only" and we aren't)... then what are you still doing here? *vine boom sound effect* Just kidding, I don't mind you interacting (I'm not like other men, and it's not like I could choose my gender at birth anyway; arbitrary discrimination be damned), though be aware this would technically be hypocrisy... so you ought to use anon, for your own public image's sake 🤨

Take care and have a nice day/night 😊

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin #impact #kamisato ayaka #yae miko #fischl #furina #focalors #lumine #zhongli #neuvillette #sangonomiya kokomi #nahida #chiori #navia #albedo #nilou #charlotte #yanfei #amber #wanderer #scaramouche #male reader #gender neutral reader #fluff #comfort #platonic #loneliness #headcanon

[obscurecharactershowdown]

Group E Round 2

[image ID: the first image is of No Significant Harassment, a shadowy figure standing behind a sleeping pink-red, fox-like creature. their green hands seem to be holding up the floating creature. the second image is of Libby Day, a white woman with short blond hair, wearing a green cap and a gray leather jacket. end ID]

No Significant Harassment

They're just a silly little guy. A jokester. Significant harassment if you will. Anyway, a more in depth run down: They're a city sized supercomputer built by a Buddhist adjacent society to figure out how to transcend the 'Great Cycle' (semi-metaphorical cycle of death and rebirth) in a safer way than the previous method (submerging oneself in the 'void sea' which is a mysterious golden liquid that dissolves whatever it touches). Despite being built for this express purpose NSH never really shows a pressing interest in ascension, even cracking jokes about those who are still looking for a solution. Whether this is due to indifference, dislike of, or humor to cope with being unable to ascend is not clear and really up to interpretation. Example: NSH: I wish them super good luck in that endeavor. How is it going to happen? Have the overseers gnaw through bedrock until their entire can crashes down in the void sea? BSM: Please be respectful when speaking of the Void Sea. Grey Wind, where did you hear this? CW: I really shouldn't say. He's going to attempt some sort of breeding program. Thought you might want to know. NSH: Haha with the slimers, lizards and etceteras? Surely the answer was in a lizard skull all along! He's very flippant, but does care very intensely for those close to him. NSH: Moon? It's me again. NSH: I do not know if you are receiving these. Please signal in any way you can. NSH: I need to talk to you. I need to know you're okay. NSH: … NSH: Its difficult for us to assist you over this distance. NSH: Even more difficult for us to do anything in the midst of these tantrums. NSH: Were going to try everything that we can. NSH: Just hold on a little longer. (Context for previous convo: They genetically engineered a super organism of a slugcat (the species you play as in Rain World) to help reset his coworker/sibling after her collapse and restart her systems. He was so desperate to fix her that he accidentally messed up the slugcat's (Hunter) genetic code and as a result it became riddle with the Rot (relatively similar to aggressive cancer) :( which parallels his other coworker/siblings condition who also has the rot. ) He canonically uses he/they pronouns too! Nonbinary swag! NSH has major internet troll vibes. He has sent a data pearl of "something distasteful" to his neighbors on several(?) occasions and causes chaos. If he had access to the wider internet he'd probably be an influencer So…yeah! Vote NSH this website likes the allure of heavy machinery and stuff like that so… there you go. Kind of a blorbo. End post.

Libby Day

She's the sole survivor of a mass murder for which her brother was blamed, and she uses her fame to get money to put meals on the table, until one such money-seeking job gets her to start thinking about the truth of what really happened all those years ago. Literally the bitterest bitch, she's so mean and spiteful, I love her so much <3. I feel like Libby's the least known of the Gillian Flynn main character girlies because the movie adaptation was neither popular nor all that good (compared to Sharp Objects and Gone Girl), so I'm really hopeful that one day people will appreciate her :) [additional propaganda 1]

#obscurecharactershowdown #group e round 2 #obscure poll #no significant harassment #rain world #libby day #dark places #gillian flynn

[merlieve]

Hello my dear!

Could i put in a request for a Jerry Baynard x non binary reader (biological female body) who’s plus sized? and like, really insecure and Jerrys just like, making them feel amazing, soon leading him to ask them out. maybe him kissing their stomach (bc their insecure there) then hands then their lips finishing with ’i love you, my love’ BUT IN FRENCH OML IM DYING

If not its ok :)

froot :: jerry baynard x reader

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: 𝐚𝐟𝐚𝐛 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, 𝐧𝐨𝐧-𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, 𝐩𝐥𝐮𝐬-𝐬𝐢𝐳𝐞𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 & 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲/𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

𝐅𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟 & 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 | 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠/𝐬: 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫, & 𝐀 𝐁𝐢𝐭 𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 (𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞)

𝐈 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐩𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐞, 𝐬𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭!

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

[ Note: UHM, OF COURSE, I’M DOING THIS ASK, I literally swooned this was so creative, bff, AND please tell me ASAP if I had used she/her pronouns referring to the reader, I got used to writing that, and I hope it changes soon to avoid any mishaps, but I proofread it, and so far I don’t see any, but it is also 1 in the morning, so I can’t be so sure 😭 The title is inspired by MARINA’s song called Froot as I was listening to it while reading this. Anyway, I hope you liked this! ]

[Name] was criticized because of their form not reaching the beauty standards, and ever since [Name] found out that they were non-binary, it made them feel more insecure. What happens when someone from the town finds out and tells everyone? Would their parents kick them out? It was a roller coaster, and they had to be careful.

There is someone [Name] could trust, and it was Jerry. Jerry had been supportive of [Name] and expressed his love and care for them wholeheartedly, it was one of the things they loved about Jerry. He made them feel comfortable around him.

And, that's why they were able to tell Jerry what they felt when they went to his workplace. Jerry found [Name] crying when he climbed on top of the barn, seeing them curled up. “Hello?” Asked Jerry, slowly walking towards [Name]. “Oh, Jerry! Thank God, you're here...” Muttered [Name] whipping off their tears.

“What's the matter?” Questioned Jerry, sitting down next to [Name], looking at them with worried eyes. “I'm sorry, life's been difficult these past few days, I got a lot of stares from people while walking here, and I want to be with you, right now,” Whispered [Name], as they look at Jerry.

Jerry couldn’t imagine what [Name] was feeling, but he felt bad for them, giving them his full support. “Come here,” Nudged Jerry, pulling [Name] in for a hug. They stayed there for a few seconds, arms around each other.

“In times like those, I'd feel like there's no one out there for me,” Mumbled [Name], causing Jerry to look at them with a puzzled look. “What do you mean?” Asked Jerry, giving them his full attention.

“You know, how Anne goes on about love and romance, and I feel like that's not for me. If I'm going to be getting unfamiliar looks from strangers, I might as well not try and find a suitor!” Explained [Name], sighing after. “I feel like no one really loves me,”

“W-Well, I do,” Whispered Jerry, his body tensing up to what [Name] might say, looking away from them. “What?” Inquired [Name], moving away from him to get a better look. “I like you,” Repeated Jerry, feeling confident this time, “I really like you,”

This sudden confession overwhelmed [Name] with happiness and bliss. “I really like you, too, Jerry!” Replied [Name], giving Jerry a charming smile. After a moment of silence, Jerry looked at [Name], only to find them looking at him back.

“What are we now?” Asked [Name], moving their body towards Jerry to get a better look at him. “It depends, if you would like me to court you,” [Name] swore they almost swooned, they never thought about courting, since they thought no one would ever think about courting them, this was a first for them. “Jerry, I would be the happiest person in the world to court you,” Smiled [Name], holding Jerry’s hand.

Jerry couldn’t believe his ears. He hesitated his feelings for [Name], until recently, and he was glad. When he was with Diana he never felt at his place with her, but now he was with [Name], and they made them feel comfortable with a glance.

After their moment, Jerry looked around the barn to see if anyone was near them, “Would you like me to kiss you?” Whispered Jerry, making [Name] blush. Flabbergasted by the sudden question, [Name] still nodded, giving Jerry a smile.

To their surprise, Jerry unexpectedly kissed their belly, making [Name] jump at the sudden contact. The gesture made [Name] feel warmth across their heart, causing them to grim from ear to ear. He didn’t stop there, Jerry kissed [Name]’s hand, a normal peck but made [Name] feel overwhelmed. “Jerry-“ Began [Name], only to be cut off by Jerry’s chapped lip onto theirs.

Jerry pulled away, looking at [Name] with love evident in his eyes, “J’aime, mon amour,” Muttered Jerry, causing [Name] to giggle with delight, Jerry then decided that their laugh was the sweetest thing he had heard. “I love you, too, Jerry,” Smiled [Name].

Embarrassed that his once dirty cheeks were highlighted by pink, as blush ran up to his face, Jerry looked away. It was clear that his confidence faded after a while. [Name] could only laugh at his antics.

They wished this moment could last forever, but unfortunately, Jerry still had to work. After he had said his bye’s to [Name], his lover, [Name] spent the day thinking about their future with Jerry, and we could say the same with Jerry, too.

#merlieve’s fics ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ #jerry baynard #jerry baynard x reader #jerry baynard x nonbinary!reader #anne with an e #jerry baynard x plus sized! reader #anne with an e fanfic

[hebimoonlightwrites]

I'm doing good, it was rainy today! The sun is always melting me so it was a relief (＃°Д°) And whoa, a necklace with a guaraná charm? That looks cool! Oh, there's a soda with guaraná here, it's my favorite, you should try someday(Dunno if u did before X'D) I remember when I was taking an English course and my teacher made us do a little play about the legend of guaraná, it was part of our cultural fair... And one of my friends was a tree 🤡

May I request the Seven Minutes in Heaven prompt? I think its... Interesting, hehe!(Never played anything like that before though, but like it anyway) With some Hypmic characters, Jyushi, Ichiro and Kuko and a fem! MC who has a huge crush on them?Oh! A necklace!? That's cool! You should try the Guaraná soda(Dunno if u tried it before X'D) called Guaraná Antártica, it's my favorite! I remember when I was taking an English course and the teacher made us do a little play about the legend of Guaraná, one of my friends was a tree 🤡

Also... About the requests ≧ ﹏ ≦

May I request the Seven Minutes in Heaven prompt? I think its... Interesting, hehe!(Never played anything like that before though, but like it anyway) with Kuko Harai and a fem!mc who has a huge crush on him?(maybe he already knew it?) aaaand... If you want, u can do a little NSFW with it? Dunno, I don't mind ≧ ﹏ ≦

Writer's corner: Yes, dear!! I bought a necklace with Guaranà charms!! It looks so cute, I think I'm going to show you!!♥ Also, of course you may, dear! And thank you for requesting something about Kuko- (I'm a simp for this stinky monk qwq-) and of course I can do it a little NSFW! XD♥ I can't wait----- *cough cough* By the way, dear, feel free to tell me if there's anything you want me to change or fix for you!♥ Enjoy and have a fantastic summer~!

mc's pronouns: SHE/HER

Words: 1185

Warnings: Slightly NSFW

☀️𝐃𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐳𝐲☀️

🤭: 7 minutes in heaven (Slightly NSFW)

It was very unusual to see Kuko Harai, the heir of the Buddhist Temple of Nagoya in a crowded party, especially surrounded by Visual Kei musicians and singers, just like Jyushi! I mean.. The "crybaby" was already Kuko's friend, but it had been a surprise even for Jyushi himself as he opened the door of his house and saw Kuko standing there, his usual yellow piercing eyes looking straight and his hands into the pockets of his bomber jacket.

It had been a surprise even to mc, who didn't really expect Kuko to actually join the party, since she knew that the monk didn't really like crowded places. The red-haired monk smiled smugly, showing his teeth and then entered the house, looking around as if he was looking for someone in the crowd. Of course mc, who had realized she had a crush on that unusual monk, couldn't help but kept her sparkling eyes pointed on his figure, as Kuko took some confident steps, entering the living room. The place was filled with Jyushi's bandmates and some other friends of his. Everyone looked kind of unique, with dyed long hair or black make-up on their eyelids and lips. It was evident they all had some interests in common with Jyushi, in short. Everyone looked the same... except for mc. In fact it wasn't difficult for Kuko to notice her among all those people. His smile seemed to become wider as his yellow eyes met hers. She gasped- a gasp which ended up being not heard due to the loud music. Her small and soft hand was holding a glass of soda and Kuko couldn't help but chuckle softly and silently. That was something he loved about mc: the fact that she preferred to drink soda to alcohol. His heart melted each time he met her innocent and big eyes, but he didn't let her notice what he was feeling inside in reality. 

"Oi, mc!!.. I didn't know I would find you here! Hehe!", he got closer just to take a glass of coca-cola and smirked as he noticed her cheeks getting redder at the sight of him being that close. Mc breathed and tried not to show him that she was embarrassed and that her heart was slowly starting to beat faster. She chuckled and smiled, keeping the eye-contact and answering: "yeah, I wasn't expecting you to come either!.. Weren't you the one who hated crowded spaces?", mc teased him chuckling before drinking some more soda. Kuko let out an amused and scratchy chuckle, holding a glass of coca-cola, before letting his piercing and yellow eyes going up and down on mc's figure: she looked gorgeous and he couldn't really deny it at all. After a few seconds- that seemed to be an eternity- Kuko decided to tease mc back: 

"Yeah, that's me. I hate crowded places.. but not when you're around, y'know?..", he let out another scratchy chuckle before winking and coming back to drink some coca-cola. Mc opened her eyes surprised and her cheeks got all red. She didn't manage to speak back that suddenly one of Jyushi's bandmate talked: "Guys!! Why don't we try one of those party games Americans usually do?". Someone suggested a game you had already heard about. It was called "7 Minutes in Heaven" and it consisted in spending 7 minutes in a closet (or into a room) alone with another person. You heard some of the other people at the party starting to suggest: "We should close Kuko with someone...". Someone started laughing and the red-haired monk couldn't help but look at the others with a piercing but confused expression. It was evident he didn't know the rules of the game at all. Although he didn't know, Kuko joined the game anyway. Everyone started deciding about the couple to send into the next-door room. Soon mc and Kuko got closed into that room all alone. Jyushi had suggested to close him with mc because she was the only girl he knew at the party. The V-kei singer was sure it would have been less embarrassing; too bad mc was already starting to feel weak and flustered at the fact of being alone with the monk. Kuko kept cussing towards Jyushi from the other side of the door, until he sighed and turned around to face mc. 

"Well... What do we have to do for 7 minutes in here?..", he asked softly. Mc stuttered: "W-We can.. we can do whatever w-we want..", after that she explained him the rules nobody had explained him yet and he nodded, sighing: "Damn.. this game sucks!" At those words he chuckled and smirked at mc. They both were sitting on a bed, mc kept her eyes down until Kuko let out another scratched chuckle and lifted her face with a finger under her chin: "Oi.. Look at me..", his voice became lower somehow and it made mc shiver slightly; his scratched voice had always made her feel something strange, but lowered-down it sounded even more charming. Mc looked up at him and saw an unusual light into his eyes. In a blink of an eye his lips were pressed on hers and his hand was holding the back of her head, pulling her closer. Mc gasped in the kiss. It was certaintly something she was expecting to happen. And time seemed to go so fast as mc realized that he was lying on the top of her body, his lips still pressing with more passion against hers and his hands pressing her against the mattress. Mc's eyes opened wide as Kuko pulled away only to look at her eyes. He let out a schatched but low chuckle at the sight of her surprised red cheeks. He caressed her face and whispered:

"You're so cute.... I know you like me, mc...", he whispered and she could only open her eyes even wider, feeling her heart skipping a beat at the realization. "Y-you... you knew...?", she whispered softly, his lips still close, barely touching hers. He chuckled and  brought his lips on her neck, gently but confidently biting it. Mc gasped softly in response, her heart beating like crazy and her mind panicking. What if the others saw them? Was it wrong that she felt like wanting more? Why did it feel so wrong but right at the same time? Just... Why? Her neck started sweetly burning due to all those marks Kuko was playfully leaving on her. But she didn't stop him at all. Each time he pulled away slightly only to look at her sparkling eyes.. each time he met her innocent eyes, he couldn't help but felt his heart melting in all that warmth he was able to feel only with her. He kept leaving small and sweet bites on her neck, drawing a path down to her collarbone. That's when one of his hand started sliding under mc's skirt, massaging her thigh: 

"..Damn.. your warm and soft skin is able to drive crazy even an humble monk like me... Hehe! You should get aware of your beauty.. You're... simply perfect..."

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[purpurrock]

(I've decided to do an introduction post because why not.)

There's a read more cuz I'm sick of scrolling and scrolling

✨About Us✨

We're a quoigenic median system (six known alters including myself)! The person typing this is the host, Rocket. My system is weird so alters might accidentally post here but I'll try to keep it just me. However the whole system's on @annoying-xthing

I'm a genderqueer lesbobattery, and I use all pronouns except it/its and nounself pronouns unless specified. list of pronouns here:

I'm also AuDHD (self-diagnosed) and a minor.

I was well-known on this one site before I got banned, please don't bring that drama here❤ I think I've changed a lot since then and I'm trying to be a better person anyway.

✨this is a safe space for:✨

Queers, xenogenders, all systems, neopronouns, mspec lesbians/gays, anti-contact paraphiles, disabled folk, pretty much anyone who has an identity that isn't harming anyone

✨DNI✨

Racists, queerphobic, pro-contact paras, lolicons, anti-endo, people against "contradictory" labels, gacha heat mfs, ai """artists""", anti-mask, anti furries, anti therians, anti otherkin, radqueers, transID (outside of transgender and transspecies, so sorry y'all get grouped with those mfs) basic dni criteria. Proships and shipcoursers in general- I dont use a label cuz i don't really get it but keep proshipping away from me and my OCs as it makes me uncomfortable

Oh!!!! Also I'm a cringey freak (/nx) so if you don't like that go away

Anyway now that you have the information needed to know if you want to block me or not here's actual stuff about me

✨Actual stuff about me✨

I have a YouTube channel where I sometimes post art and gacha! I also like kandi and books!! I'm also alternative !

I have trouble understanding things sometimes so please use tone tags!! If you have a typing quirk where you typ3 1!k3 d!$ !^$t3@4 0f ^0/m@11y (type like this instead of normally) that's cool but provide a translation like I did since they can be hard to understand + difficult to read!

Idk what I'll blog about, probably system stuff, queer stuff, vents and occasionally infodumps about hyperfixations or my OCs

Anyways if you're reading this I hope you have the day/night you deserve <3 stay safe!

(Alt acc if ur interested: @thekandipopkid @rockpop-stories @palestine-reblogs )

#lgbtqia #actually plural #mspec lesbian #audhd #autistic #actually autistic #actually adhd #pro-endogenic #queer #quoigenic #lesbian #aroace #aroacespec #anti-transdisabled #non-DID/OSDD system #median system #pronouns #artist #gacha #anti-endos dni #trans #genderqueer #transgender #pro-furry #pro-therian #pro-otherkin #pro-alterhuman #does this even have a character limit #i swear i could go on forever and nothing would happen #found it- the limit is 30 tags. no idea if theres a character limit

[phoneybeatlemania]

Here’s the ten times harder quote for your last anon. The source is the 1995 Club Sandwich Anthology interview (https://www.the-paulmccartney-project.com/interview/its-exciting-its-shocking-its-frightening-its-sad-its-happy-and-its-the-beatles/):

“As you say, I know what the last phone calls were about, and that is one of the saving graces, to this day, for me, that we had healed our wounds before he died. I really don’t know how we’d be dealing with it now if we hadn’t. I think it would be ten times more difficult.”

Fascinating that Paul slips into “we” as the pronoun here when there’s literally no one he could possibly be talking about but himself.

Hiya @thestarsarecool! Appreciate you sending this my way, and apologies for the late response (was busy irl!).

And as ever, the use of "we" in place of "I" is of intrigue—I suspect that what Paul was perhaps getting at here is that the anthology project would have had a weirdness about it if him and John had ended on an especially sour note? As in, there would have been even more back and forth with the "is this what John would want?" question, for all of them.

Anyway, just my thoughts Im throwing in!

Here's another interesting tid-bit from the interview:

Interviewer: And make Free As A Bird

Paul: And then for the three of us to make ‘Free As A Bird’, yes. There was some comment I read in the press recently where someone wrote “In the mood Lennon was in when he wrote this he certainly wouldn’t have wanted McCartney to get his mitts all over it”, you know, the old chestnut. In actual fact, the journalist has got his history wrong. What he means is, “In the mood John was in a couple of years before he wrote it, he might not have wanted McCartney to get his hands on it…”. Which brings me to something I remembered when reading that: John phoned me once to try and get the Beatles back together again, after we’d broken up. And I wasn’t for it, because I thought that we’d come too far and I was too deeply hurt by it all. I thought, “Nah, what’ll happen is that we’ll get together for another three days and all hell will break loose again. Maybe we just should leave it alone.”

Interviewer: But the press, the media, outsiders, are always at least one step behind. We know what you’ve said in your last interview and so might think that you’re all getting on great, but last night you might have had an incredibly awkward phone call. Or, we might think you’re not talking to each other but last night you might have had a wonderfully happy phone call. We just don’t know how it really is between you guys. And the journalist you’re talking about certainly couldn’t have known what John was thinking.

Paul: That’s right. That’s the point. In which case, why did he write it? He could have written, “I speculate, that possibly, from what we heard about John, around about that time he might not have wanted Paul to get his mitts on it…” In actual fact, I think John would have been very happy, but that’s a guess. And it’s my guess. And I think it’s an educated guess, and I’m pretty confident about that. As you say, I know what the last phone calls were about, and that is one of the saving graces, to this day, for me, that we had healed our wounds before he died. I really don’t know how we’d be dealing with it now if we hadn’t. I think it would be ten times more difficult.

#asks #@thestarsarecool #pauls psyche #pauls grief #paul mccartney

[anchoeritic]

opinions on the fact that theres this guy who i like and hes rly cute (cutsie if u will) and hes constantly doing things for me and hes always trying to give me hugs and hell put his arm around me or come hug me from behind n stuff like- he acts all coupley.

so i confessed my feelings to him and he said he only likes me as a FRIEND????

like uhm sir that is not i-

i cant explain like bc you dont know him but he REALLY acts like he likes me as more than a friend but when the topic comes up he says no.

but even AFTER i told him i liked him he STILL is doing the same things as before- im also autistic so jokingly flirting and those kinds of friendships can be really difficult for me because i get confused of whats ACTUAL flirting and whats joking, but thats how almost all my relationships are, like maybe hes just joking??? im genuinely so confused.

maybe he does like me and just wont admit it? maybe part of it could be that hes like- straight and im like- idk really how i define myself quite yet but im female bodied but i use he/they pronouns but i dress very "femininely" most of the time, but anyways maybe he likes me but just doesnt want people to think hes gay????

idk but how hes being n stuff is rly confusing and i like him a lot im so lost help

-𝕃𝕚𝕒𝕞🐸

i feel like… i honestly have no real idea of how your dynamic works out with him or how the two of you really are so my opinion isn’t errrr valid in this case but

he might be scared or just flat out thinks it’s a friendly thing, nonetheless, it’s a little odd that he’s acting that way with you if he only sees you as a friend and nothing more. an orange flag at its finest.

#liam 🐸 #જ⁀➴ mail: received

[elliotgraysstuff]

I've decided to start blogging on here for a hobby and also to help my thought process and documenting my ongoing journey to self love and compassion.

Well facts about me;

Name; elliot - they/ them pronouns pls.

I'm 26 years old and I have had quite a difficult life but I'm quite content with how my life is now. Anyways

Im a parent and they are my whole world my life changed for the better 😌

I'm a late diagnosed autistic and adhd still finding ways to help myself without risking burn out and finding the aids to help me.

I adore music especially kappa boy and anything instrumental, it calms me down and makes me feel good.

I love anything spooky and cute - like cute teddies that are spooky, spooky socks, cute/ spooky blankets, coffee cups etc.

I consider myself alternative I have 6 facial piercings and dyed black hair which currently is a mullet. I also change my hair CONSTANTLY. Also have old traditional tattoos on my legs and arm.

I'm very attached to my plushies and I have a special one I've had since birth. His name is Godfrey and he's a little giraffe. He is my biggest comfort at times.

I adore my cat loki, he's a grey short hair breed with brown Button eyes. He's such a comfort to me and the most cuddly cat ever. Whenever I'm going to have a panic attack he'll lick my hand to bring me back to the moment. I'm actually getting a tattoo of him on my hand.

I'm non binary and go by strictly they/ them pronouns.

I find art very interesting and I love Francis bacon and other artists. I wish I could draw but I'm terrible, I'm a somewhat good at photography. I absolutely love little comics and vines made by independent artists especially anything cottage core or spooky and cute.

Nature is one of my biggest stress elevators, I could go on a long walk in the forest and just feel so at peace. My favourite trees are willow trees or oaks.

Autumn is my favourite season, the sunlight is just magnificent. The golden leafs, the sunlight beaming low in the sky ahhh.

Also pumpkin spice lattes and cosy blankets. Don't forget the autumn candle smells!!

I love playing animal crossing on my switch. I love cosy hobbies and I'm currently learning how to crochet.

Coffee is my favourite drink EVER. especially with cream and sugar 😋

I find social situations extremely hard especially as I'm constantly looking at people and masking. I feel extremely drained after so I tend to just isolate, as I don't have to mask at home. Don't really have alot of friends but the ones I do have a love them so much.

I've been through addiction, homelessness,foster care, mental health hospitals etc so I guess you can say I've got alot of life experiences. I've been sober since 2020 ❤️ got my own place, stable and healthy now.

My favourite food and what I consider my safe food is noodles 🍜 I forget to eat sometimes and I find it hard to make a meal for myself so noodles are quick and tasty.

I'm diagnosed bipolar and EUPD and ocd. It's been an ongoing battle to stay stable but I have and will continue to try and be the best version of myself.

I love the colour pink and black, they are my two favourite colours.

I'm quite spiritual and ive always believed there's something other than us out there. Maybe not a god per say but a higher power, Energies etc. I believe in self love, self compassion and holding yourself accountable for space for growth.

I find it very difficult to assert myself and my boundaries. I'm often told I'm a people's pleaser because I don't want an argument or conflict. However I'm working through that especially now I'm diagnosed with autism and adhd and I'm learning to not put myself in situations that will drain me.

I'm very much a gentle parent to my child. I grew up in a hostile, abusive household and DO NOT want to continue the generational trauma. I've read alot of books to do with child psychology and development and its SO important!!

My favourite films are my neighbour totoro and anything to do with that genre. Spirited away etc.

Anyways I'll stop rambling for now. This was fun to do and I'll be blogging every so often to get my emotions out and work through things as I struggle sometimes.

My blog will always be a safe space for people that are learning to love themselves, self compassion, ND people are safe here, anyone who is also part of the LGBTQA+ community is always welcome you are safe. Also anyone who is struggling mentally too.

Have a blessed day and be kind to yourself. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

#mentalhealth #self development #self empowerment #self love journey

[lorisystem]

Sorry about to be negative but need vent

So i had a rlly difficult day and tbh this probably doesnt help but these thoughts i have them all the time its a constant opinion and not just a negative spiral. Although right now feeling this a lot and affecting me more than usual

Anyway like i got back from paid leave last week and my job is like rlly demanding. Im gonna say for me because my threshold for difficult is really low. But yea its just the workload is fairly heavy, theres a lot of pressure, and theres a lot of drama etc. To be fair my neurotypical coworkers are also struggling etc.

But anyway one of the things about paid leave is that when you are able to be off for enough days in a row (like 3 weeks in my case) it really feels like. I was fine during paid leave enjoying my little life doing whatever i wanted being paid etc. You go back to work and its like. Why am i subjecting myself to this. Why. Whats the point. It doesnt even matter. Do i have to even? Why did we all decide to just be doing this. So whatever but thats one thing going on etc

Idkkkk if its like. Haha seasonal or what but im having slightly more suicidal ideation than usual. Like this is not worrying at all like im not in danger or anything. Disclaimer i wont do anything etc. And im saying this completely deadpan non emotionally- Buttt like to give an idea even at my happiest / euphoric i always think of dying as a good thing. I rlly have a hard time finding anything worth it. Literally best i can do is "yeah for this reason i can endure until i die of natural/accidental causes but rlly glad that it does end at some point". So thats my baseline i live like this and most of the time im fine cause like, my number one priority in life is to avoid whatever causes me suffering and stress and like the thing about suicide is that non violent methods are inaccessible to me which i think is unethical but thats my own issue lol. So basically as long as my life is less painful than suicide im at no risk of dying and i do my best to minimize suffering, doing fine on that, so everything is fine. Alright

But like anyway i was thinking that my number one problem in life currently and idk how to solve it its impossible right?

Is like. I want to live a life where i can be myself/not mask. That is to say be authentically who i am speak like i think act like i think dress how i want use the pronouns i use etc (im talking about displaying asd traits, dressing weird, being trans, ace, polyam queer etc) like just harmless things that are my core personality and defining traits right. AND be respected as a human being.

That is to say like id like to go outside and participate in society sometimes without having to pretend to be "normal" and also at the same time to not get weird looks, not get nasty looks, not get catcalled, not get harassed, not get commented upon, not get someone coming up to me to comment on my outfit or be mean to me, not get someone feeling entitled to treat me as subhuman, not stalked, not at fear of being assaulted, not get rumors spread about me, not followed around, not preyed upon etc etc just for existing <3 bc i dare to look abnormal and vulnerable ppl notice and think im not human.

Ive had all those happen to me and thankfully nothing too bad either like it happens to some ppl so i will display a certain amount of disgusting gratefulness bc of course i have some privilege so there is obviously way worse than me. Somehow still enough to make me traumatized and agoraphobic!

I just want to exist and that its ok and that ppl dont wonder if thats ok if they should take advantage of me or try to help and correct whatever is wrong with me.

And that is too much to ask! Its literally too much to ask.

We live in a world where we cant expect especially marginalized ppl, to be respected. To exist outside or in public etc and just not get someone to make us understand thats somth is wrong with us.

I have to pretend to be normal, all this effort so at the end of the day not only am i dead inside but also i still know ppl think theres still somth off about me.

So anyway this is my pipe dream and the reason ill never think anything is good or worth it. Is there in the world a happy place like this? I think about it all the time, where is the land i can be happy and ppl act normal to me.

Anyway a dream ive had is to save up and buy a house on a mortgage and like. I have a good salary at the moment for a single person, its pretty good. But my spouse is struggling to find a job and anything resembling takes a lot of energy from them so idk if its viable long term even and on my salary alone thats impossible. So idk. And like thats fine but its sad cause my spouse is rlly depressed about it etc.... capitalism does this to us.. yk how it is..

Im thinking maybe i should just attempt to start a thing to get disability aid or somth which is. The amount is basically only the minimum to live for one person if you leave in a shoebox and have no expense. So like the quality of life for myself and my spouse would seriously decrease in terms of living space and other nice things so like meh. But most importantly id have to get reevaluated every few years etc at risk of losing it if i stop qualifying it. Which can reasonably happen even if the doctor i have changes and they decide no longer disabled or someth even. That is if i even get it cause like i am actually capable at least for now to work full time in the way i do. Sucks the whole time, but capable. So idk what to do. Maybe i reduce my time of work. Idk. The fear of losing the disability is rlly too much for me too like. I have no financial support if that happens i cant count on my family at all for anything. Im too scared/traumatized by poverty to not have stability.

Honestly i think its just this forever then? Ig i should make another therapy appointment but last time my therapist said something that set me off and now i dont wanna go again its so dumb cause i rlly like her and been w her for like. Idk almost 2 years now. And she just said one thing which i think even she meant nothing by it and now im just like. I rlly hate that its happening i just feel the ick.

I was telling this to my spouse too like when you repress your emotions so much all the time you stop feeling sadness or anger etc you just feel the ick. Like profoundly uncomfortable with no words to put on it rlly

So thats going on for me ♡ sorry for being negative though just going through my mind but ill be ok etc

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