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k-wavehours · 1 year

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I'm on my knees I need nsfw Alva hcs please (yes I'm also very normal about that old man)

/cracks knuckles/ here we go this is what I've been waiting for

Alva fucker nation rise up

Going to TOWN on this please DNI if you are not 18+ Khai is going insane on this

Lets get a scenario cooked up first kind of based on my last Alva ask I answered.

You find him reading something in the library after a very late match. What happened that match? Well I'll spell it out for you. You were being a little prick. You took advantage of Alva's poor weak heart and his outpouring love for you by being the only one to rescue your teammates (some of which you didn't even really like). You weren't even a big rescuer! You knew you could still win the match by taking advantage of his desire not to down you in a match. How cruel. You approach him as usual from behind his seat to see what he's so focused on. He knows you're there but he doesn't turn to greet you like he normally would.

Petty.

You aren't having any of that so you come around and crawl into his lap and ask if he's mad at you for figuring out his weakness in matches. He says nothing, but his eyes haven't moved at all to indicate he was still reading what was in his hand. You lean in to kiss him when he grabs your face to hold you away. You know he's mad at you but he can't possibly stay mad forever (and he won't). You apologize for taking advantage of him that match despite knowing it'll probably happen again. He accepts your "apology" and lets go of you, so you then go back to doing what you were going to do initially. His electrical scars are his weakest points on his body and you know that.

To wrap this up quick kissing up his scarred neck and face eventually leads him to taking you right there in the library. Thank the gods no one else is up at this ungodly hour.

Hold on I am not done it's actual headcanon time!

He's more than likely had some experience so he knows what he's doing. He's a scholarly man and learns quickly, so he'll find your weak spots faster than you find all of his.

He doesn't have a very high libido but he can go from 0 to 100 real quick if you push the right buttons.

As we know, he is very tall. He knows his size too. He prefers taking you in ways he can stand up. This can include bending you over a raised surface, sitting you up on that raised surface so you can get your legs around his hips, or he'll straight up say "fuck it" and pick you up. He's not opposed to letting you ride him either he LOVES it. He'll go in for the sidebite too (he usually likes to be the big spoon). He'll also use his lil electricity conjuring ability to shock you too if you're into that.

The way he behaves during these times all depends on you. You like being submissive and can't dom at all? Fine by him! He's a switch but you won't know unless you ask to do something to him. (side rant please look at his S tier do you SEE that mask? Muzzle? I don't care that could be a surprise tool to help you later if you want to take the role of dominant).

Now one of my favorite parts. His voice. You heard it in his intro trailer and in the season 22 essence 3 trailer. His little purrs of praise towards you is enough to get you off (or is that just me? Probably not). When he's close to his release you will know. He stops running his mouth and his breathing becomes tapered and he lets out the sexiest whimpers known to man I stg.

After the fun activities of the evening or whenever sexy time occurs he does his best to help clean up, after setting his joints of course. Sorry but it has to be done you had him on his back for a while it got stiff.

Aside from that silliness because tbh I'd laugh at him a little he'll get you anything you need if you ask or accept any offers from him.

I want to fuck this guy so bad can't you tell by this whole essay? Thanks for reading <3

#idv hermit #idv x reader #idv headcanons #identity v headcanons #identity v x reader #alva lorenz

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rhube · 1 month

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Existentialism and anti-fascism

I don't have the spoons to make this the essay it should be, but a passing quote from Sartre on Mastodon brought something into focus for me that should have been blindingly obvious. The quote is this:

Never believe that anti-Semites are completely unaware of the absurdity of their replies. They know that their remarks are frivolous, open to challenge. But they are amusing themselves, for it is their adversary who is obliged to use words responsibly, since he believes in words. The anti-Semites have the right to play. They even like to play with discourse for, by giving ridiculous reasons, they discredit the seriousness of their interlocutors. They delight in acting in bad faith, since they seek not to persuade by sound argument but to intimidate and disconcert. If you press them too closely, they will abruptly fall silent, loftily indicating by some phrase that the time for argument is past. - Jean Paul Sartre (1945), Anti-Semite and Jew, pp. 13-14

(It should be acknowledged that he's specifically addressing anti-Semitism, but apart from the fact that fascism and anti-Semitism tend to go hand in hand, I don't think it's controversial to say that they operate using the same playbook.)

What jumped out at me is the bit about acting in bad faith.

You see, the importance of acting in good faith is a central aspect of existentialist ethics. In brief, the thought is that, for conscious beings (humans) existence precedes essence - we are fundamentally free and self-determining; each person decides their own purposes (their 'essence'). When you blame your actions on external forces (genetics, societal pressures, God etc) you are acting in bad faith and seeking to evade responsibility by denying that, whatever circumstances you found yourself in, you still had some form of choice for which you are responsible.

When you act in good faith you not only acknowledge the responsibility for your choice and its consequences, but also recommend that action to others. By acting, you attach value to the kind of action you performed (it is worthy of being done), and it is in this that moral value is created.

In this way, integrity is central to existentialist ethics.

As we have all seen in recent years, fascists have absolutely no integrity. They cannot be shamed. Few have denied that characters like Donald Trump, Boris Johnson, and Silvio Berlusconi are ridiculous figures. Frequently those inside and outside the countries in which they reside look on in horror and ask themselves 'How is this possible? Why do people keep voting for them? Can't you see these men are a joke? A dangerous joke?'

Yeah, but they don't care. They live in bad faith. They have no integrity, because they know integrity is draining, and taking responsibility for what they do and say is something they have no intention of ever doing. They don't deign to give reasons because they want to convince you that the reasons (or at least ones that make sense) don't matter. They will dizzy you by jumping from argument to contradictory argument without hesitation, because any person who lives in good faith feels bound to unpick the mess they leave behind to justify their own decisions.

But it's a trick. You should be prepared to justify yourself to interlocutors acting in good faith, in as much as you should take responsibility for your actions, but the person acting in bad faith has no argument. Their actions are not at all bound by anything they say. You are arguing without an interlocutor, and the fascist has succeeded in wasting time and energy you could have put to meaningful resistance.

I've always been partial to existentialist philosophy: there is no fate but what we make for ourselves, no meaning to life but what we put into it. I don't think it's the whole picture. Long-time readers will know I favour a refined form of rule utilitarianism, but a part of that is that I believe you cannot have a happy society without integrity.

Just as with Davidson's Principle of Charity - we cannot even begin to have meaningful communication unless we assume that those with whom we communicate are speaking the truth and are largely correct in their beliefs.

Fascists trample all over that. They do not care about the truth and they have no problem lying to you. They require no correspondence between their words and either the world or their actions.

And yet it's still true that they rely on a background of truth and sincerity in order to be understood. They need to at least appear to be speaking the same language as we do. They may more frequently stumble into obvious gaffs where communication collapses - Johnson's vague blustering noises, Trump's 'covfefe' - but they have to string enough words together to at least *sound* like what they are saying means something.

Anyway, the point is: I always admired this philosophy, and I knew that it came out of the post-war sense of abandonment - that there is no force for good that prevents death and torture on a massive scale, only human endeavour. What humans choose to say and do.

As someone who has often been troubled by the quietism of despair, I immediately found this deeply comforting and empowering, even in as a teenager in the boom years of the turn of the millennium.

What I hadn't put together was that talk of good faith and bad faith is not only a deep philosophical truth about ethics, it is a straightforward practical critique of fascist rhetoric.

This way of arguing to score points - usually in support of right-wing positions - was something I found intensely frustrating as a young adult. I can remember specific individuals who behaved that way and the destruction the wreaked in my life. As a philosopher - someone who is good at arguing - it felt sort of shameful to me that I wasn't quick-witted enough to marshal my thoughts in the moment and unpick why what they were saying was nonsense.

But I can now see that that wasn't my fault. What I eventually did - which was to remove myself entirely from their presence - was the only rational call. It's just soul-destroying that for me that meant leaving behind the vast majority of my friends, who couldn't see what the problem was with that person, and were thus left to be poisoned against me by what they said.

I'm digressing into an old pain. The point is that at that time, people behaving like this were isolated individuals. Now they are dominating our politics, traditional media, and social media. Because fascism is rising again.

Of course Sartre was talking about how people who act in bad faith are dickheads that poison our communities - he lived through the rise of fascism!

He was making the incredibly important point that it's not just that a failure to take responsibility for one's actions brings negative value into the world, but that the Worst Wankers You Know literally argue in bad faith as a way to tie careful thinkers in knots and whip up the emotions of less careful thinkers.

A middle-class white 16-year old, living in boom years, just couldn't connect the dots - even though I was still at the intersection of multiple oppressions. I had been raised to fully believe that good debate was possible and should be the goal. I was doing a Media Studies A-Level, so I knew dishonesty happened in news and media, but... how to explain?

Elder Millennials were sold a dream of reality and progress that genuinely seemed to be going on in our teenage years and early 20s. There were still problems to solve, obviously, but many of us - especially where we had some kind of privilege - believed that racism was declining; the gender pay-gap was closing; homophobia was decreasing; and anyone could achieve anything they put their mind to, no matter their disadvantages, if they just tried hard enough. Nevermind that in my country if you were LGBTQ+, but not L or G, you probably didn't realise it, because you weren't allowed to learn about people like you in schools.

It's why so many of us are burnt out. Because it wasn't true. And we tried to be all we could be anyway.

But when you're 16, you're not burnt out yet. You believe that 'Never Again' means it can't possibly happen again. You learned about the Holocaust in school and are horrified, but it's at a complete disconnect from your reality. You have never knowingly heard anyone say anything anti-Semitic (of course, you probably heard things said in code that you didn't understand). It's a feature of The Past. You don't understand how it could have come to be, because no one actually taught you how it came to be.

I read Existentialism is a Humanism, but I didn't read Anti-Semite and Jew. And when they taught Existentialism is a Humanism we discussed Sartre's example of the student who's unsure if he should join the resistance, but no one explained that 'bad faith' wasn't just a technical term that has a specific meaning for Sartre's ethical analysis, it's also literally about how some people make bad-faith arguments as part of fascist and anti-Semitic rhetoric.

So I never thought, 'Oh, this person is arguing in bad faith on purpose to waist my energy,' - like, I sort of knew they were doing it to wind me up and because they were an arsehole, but I didn't get that it was a political strategy for stifling progress.

And all this distillation of political statements into 'sound bites' is fundamentally to the fascist's advantage. Because they explicitly don't care about reasons, and normal humans DO. So when all you heard are sound bites you can fill in reasons not given, and it doesn't matter what you imagine for the fascist, but if a progressive doesn't get to explain their point fully, it's very easy to make them into a strawperson they will spend the next few news cycles failing to unpick.

ARGH.

I'm not sure I'm any nearer to knowing how we defeat fascism. To an extent, it's comforting to know that we came out of it and had these discussions before. But it's endlessly frustrating to know how much was LOST from the public consciousness - even from people who DO know something about what was said - despite the best efforts of philosophers and writers and film directors and everyone who kept trying to communicate it to us.

#existentialism #fascism #anti-semitism #genocide #holocaust #sartre #bad faith #good faith #philosophy #ethics #rhetoric

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khaotunq · 11 months

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Do you have aye akk headcannons that you haven't shared with the group yet? Also who do you think would propose just because I dreamed about that and you talked about marriage in your tags. So I am completely innocent

I HAVE NEVER BEEN ASKED ABOUT HEADCANONS I'M GOING TO THROW MYSELF INTO A VOLCANO

honestly, i don't know that i've got anything special up in the old bargain bucket. i was writing something silly the other day for my own entertainment with eclipse on for background noise and it did sort of slip in that -- and this is as close to controversial as it gets, i know; hold onto yer butts -- i don't think akk's neat? as in tidy. he's organised, sure, but i think his tendency to be a messy bitch extends beyond his personality.

this is a very, very tiny thing okay but go with me on this.

Edit, four hours later: ...apparently it's not a tiny thing. I have had to put a read more because now I've added pictures. Apparently I really do have thoughts.

I think I think of this as a headcanon because a lot of fandom portrayal has Akk as this ruthlessly neat Type A and Ayan as cheerfully messy... but I'm about to insist that this is not, in fact, headcanon: it's canon. I brought receipts.

(I'm kidding but pls nobody bother telling me I'm wrong <3 respectfully, i won't believe u <3)

So over the course of the show we see both Akk and Ayan's bedrooms, right? Prior to the show even beginning, these are rooms they've presumably inhabited for quite some time. There is a whole thing we could get into about their respective economical backgrounds and what the set dressing decor says in regards to that, but I'm not gonna. Not today, at least.

Aside from that and the fact that I have a running joke in my head that Ayan lives in a hotel room in his own home (there's another tangent here about the parallel of ayan not having "roots"/a true home/a "space" but I am trying not to write a dissertation here) - they're teenage boys, right?

However,

FIGS 1.1-1.4: Ayan's bedroom.

Ayan's bedroom has nothing in it. Other than his dead uncle, some Alien urn lamps and a whole lotta beige (potential tangent number 590384: characters and their typical/home surrounding's colouring -- Ayan in golds and brown tones; Kan and Thua surrounded in white; Akk and a whole bunch of blues until he goes home and we see his blues meet Ayan's golds, etc etc -- which i'm sure someone's already done).

Now, it's possible that this is because he and Patcharaporn have someone who comes in to do housework, but even if that were the case, you'd still expect some sort of reflection of it being a teenage boy who inhabits that room... but there's nothing. Yes, I'm aware that this is The Thai BL House, but set dressing isn't something that would be outside the realm of possibility entirely. The most you ever see of Ayan in his room is when he's getting all Conspiracy Cork Board and there are just piles of dictionaries on his desk, or when he's sitting around reading dystopic speculative fiction. A single dystopic speculative fiction book. There are no others.

Come on, Aye.

I could write essays about Ayan Sukkhaphisit and loneliness. Essays.

But this is not that day.

FIGS 2.1-2.4: Akk's dorm room.

Ignoring the fact that there are obvious differences due to Akk's being a dorm and Ayan's being a single room in a house, Akk's room is by contrast overflowing with Akk. Akk has crafted his dorm to reflect himself.

Or rather, to reflect the image he wants to portray, but there are little pieces of him everywhere.

(I'm sure there's meaning in the spoon print, I just don't know what it is yet. The spoon canvas, truly more than anything in Akk's room, Sends. Me.)

There are books everywhere - light sources (tangent 4012432: all of Akk's light sources are caged in some way), knick-knacks that speak to a character with far more to him than he presents to the world, a calendar that never changes from September 3rd.

I think Akk is neat out of necessity, out of maintaining his image; I think Ayan is neat out of never having anywhere to really have stuff. I think, if canon were to progress, we'd see Akk relax even further into his space because it's the only place he can be careless and Ayan begin to be unafraid to actually take up some space.

(Tangent 6535423420: all of Ayan's personality is on him, at all times - the necklace, the hoody: his home is himself. In many ways, while Ayan is a cocky little shit, he's potentially the more deeply insecure.)

(Tangent and class discussion topic 22871342: is Ayan's room being borderline sterile a way of showing that Ayan himself is exactly how he appears to everyone - in that, he has nothing to hide? Compare with Akk's ruthless self control and dogmatic need to be perceived as perfect contrasting with how unsterile his home is.)

(Tangent 900122156: The first time we see Ayan begin to truly inhabit a space is when he and Akk are placing photos of him and his mother in Akk's room)

I'm not getting started on Akk's bedroom at his parents' house because 1. it's a boat cabin, and 2. I have to go eat something, lmao. But, for posterity, I guess:

FIGS 3.1-3.3: Akk's bedroom.

I leave it to you guys to note the multiple and varied light sources (there's still a caged light!), light streaming in from several billion windows, the storage/units brimming with things on or in them, the same dang blue mug from his dorm, the bathroom door wide open to show the mirror and thus adding more light.

(Tangent 123019242222...: Akk standing at the stern/wheel in his bedroom as the above interaction begins and what it means about his need for control while Ayan's mere presence lures him away)

(Additional thought added an hour after I posted this because it was in my head when I started answering this and then it disappeared and then I was brushing my teeth and it's back for some reason so: I think there's part of Akk that actively revels in mess/chaos. Something about him being so externally orderly, something about Ayan throwing his world into chaos and that being what draws him to Ayan, something something something, going to finish brushing my teeth.)

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ddejavvu · 1 year

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ohh i have SUCH a controversial jennifer jareau opinion. and this is probably gonna be more like an essay. i wish i could say i was sorry.

everyone always says theyre anti jj slander, which is fine ofc, but just weird bc i NEVER see anyone slandering her. in my 3 years in the fandom, ive seen it happen maybe 5 times total, which sucks because she deserves so. much. more. hate.

(spoilers for *that* jeid plotline, as well as some other things)

in season 7, spencer tells her that she has mean girl vibes and she replies "i was a nice girl, especially to guys like you" which ALWAYS pissed me off because she literally just confirmed what he said? and everyone acts like it was a funny joke. she said that shit with her whole chest and meant it, and it wouldnt be *that* big of a deal if it was the only time. but shes consistently mean to him throughout the show, ignoring him, walking away, etc. spencer isnt even the only one shes like this to. and she just has a sense of superiority, idk how to describe it. just by the way she talks and interacts with those around her, you can tell. (while we're on that note, she also ignores her privileged a LOT. maybe not all the time, but theres been multiple times where she acts like she went through hell to get where she is. other than her sister passing, she had it completely easy. in terms of resources, opportunities, etc., she was basically born with a golden spoon in her mouth.)

in s14 when she confesses to spencer that shes always been in love with him, it just makes my blood boil. obviously he had been over her a long time (imo), but that was something she should've kept to herself bc it just brought alllll those feelings back to the surface. not to mention that hes the godfather of her children, and shes married, and will probably (definitely) doesnt know how she feels. thats literally emotional cheating on her part, even though reid didnt reciprocate it, it was still wrong of her to be that close to him without will knowing how she really felt.

there are other things i dont like abt her too, but those are the main things and im trying to keep this as short as possible. but i literally cant stand her, shes by far my least favorite character, and everyone acts like shes an angel sent from heaven, when really shes just a privileged bitch.

i like JJ a lot (i want her to be my mom </3) but i do agree with several of your points - she's definitely not the worst character, each and every character has a list of flaws that we could make, so this by no means makes her the worst, but it does make me angry <3

i just rewatched that 'mean girl' episode!! she doesn't even hesitate before saying 'guys like you', which, you're totally right, means he was right, and she was definitely a mean girl in high school. or even if she didn't say any of it out loud, she was still silently judging 'guys like him' and in high school you can always tells who's silently judging you. they're teenagers. they're not silent about it. the nasty looks they give you?? oh man. but i do think that the blame for ignoring spencer needs to be placed on all of the team members, because they do it all the time too, it's not just her. she has some pretty bad moments with him, but it's definitely something they all do and she shouldn't take the full blame

lmao don't talk about jeid. the writers actually deserve the death penalty for that, god it was so nasty and weird. i know that it was something she confessed in the heat of the moment, like she wasn't sure she was gonna make it out alive and didn't wanna die without saying it but ??? WHY WOULD YOU PUT IT ON HIM TO DIE THREE SECONDS AFTER FINDING OUT ??? like great it's off your chest but now he's gonna spend the (very short) rest of his life thinking about it?? AND THEN THEY DIDN'T EVEN DIE LMFAO SO HE WAS JUST STUCK WITH THAT !! and yeah!! will!! what about will!! or her kids!! it was so... writers i'm watching you...

one scene of hers that really pissed me off was in reid's kidnapping two-parter in s2 (the hankel incident) where she was almost attacked by those rabid (?) dogs and she shot them and she's obviously shaken up and she tries finding reid and realizes what happened and she feels so much guilt for splitting up with him - which was not her fault, she didn't know and should not be held responsible for what happened to him - that she started trying to make other people mad at her?? she cornered derek who was grieving and stressed at the loss of his best friend and they're both sleep deprived and she says something like 'admit it, you hate me, you think it's my fault' AND I???? GIRL. he is being so nice to you?? he was literally like oh honey if you need time off i know you're really shaken up and we can take care of this and and and AND SHE WAS LIKE oH yeah suRe just admit it i'm the worSt everybody hATEs mE- I WAS... this is not about you. go get therapy for the dog attack that you just almost suffered?? do not stand around a crime scene and pester the victim's best friend and delay the investigation because you're feeling guilty. go talk to someone about it. take a few days off. again, i totally get that she was shaken up and hopped up on adrenaline, but everyone told her to go get some rest and she was like no i think i will make myself the problem instead <3

all of that being said i still love her </3 i was not kidding when i say that i wish she was my mom holy shit i would have loved to grow up as her kid but she definitely has her flaws just like the rest of the BAU, and logical, critical breakdowns of a characters flaws aren't slandering, they're analysis, so i think everybody needs to stop shitting on people who criticize or analyze their faves lmao

send me your unpopular fandom opinions

#mei's mail #ask game

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capcavan · 6 months

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Dear Cap-senpai, how does one come up with a cool, original and cohesive AU idea for AFTG? I want to write for these characters, but I have no idea where to even start. - Sincerely, a struggling writer

I am really honoured that you ask, because I see myself as mess I am just very devoted mess Making any sort of story is always the same no matter if you do fully original work or something based on pre existing IP You need to pick topic you enjoy this way you will have fun developing it it will make it feel like fun activity not work or effort. Ok lets take the Rikoi au as example bc my brain is right here right now general idea is ,, Riko as mermaid" now the question is how do i make the concept of mermaid tie into his family history i tie it into his design, i try to consider his background and possibly how his culture could tie into it - rikos family backstory - Japanese koi - i could read up some Japanese stories about koi to get even deeper - swamping number from arabic 1 to japanese to fit the theme bit more - moving moriyamas all the way back to Japan to have more traditional looking garden/pond environment for him so this is Riko but every universe and story need supporting cast [your cast can be 1-2 character it can be 5-20 or more how much you can handle but having more character makes your world and story feel more alive ] so now we have renee who because of her canon background witch charity becomes part of meer rescues team foxes who are half way house become meer sanctuary aaron and andrew who are the most different twins ever become 2 different species neils father who is piece of shit is still a piece of shit! <3 ilu nathan it's all about finding loose parallels! you don't have to tie things that way but finding things that tie your new AU yo canon even slightly will help other people understand the new dynamics and find something to relate to taking into account their love for original work when designing a story even for 1 character try to spend at least a bit to think of the world around them - aftg is actually great example of this - our main narration is made by neil who spoon feeds us very limited amount of information but in EC nora explained in much more detail how the whole world around him functions and motivations of other characters- we wouldn't knew those informations but nora wrote those books taking them into account this is why the relationships character formed have so much depth I also watch a lot of youtube videos about story analysis for video games and enjoy listening to essays about characters motivations !

#aftg #all for the game #riko moriyama #neil josten #rikoiau #rikoi

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sgcairo · 2 years

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There’s no canon dottolone content can I bear you with the responsibility of writing their law?

I think I'm underqualified for this, but I will take this responsibility-

The sad truth of the matter is that there will likely be very little canon content, seeing the path Genshin is on. I could write a whole essay on why it's highly improbable that we'll ever get the content we desire, but I'll try my hand at writing the law.

From here's three fundamental laws to writing these two:

1. They hate each other's guts. If Dottore had to choose between scooping out his own organs with a spoon and being stuck in a room with Pantalone for more than five minutes, the spoon is about to get some serious use. They would rather bite out each other's tongues than mash face, the thought alone is mortifying.

2. Banter. They annoy the living shit out of each other, and it can be equated to two kindergartners fighting over one of them calling the other names. They have to literally be pulled apart before one of them ends up strangling the other in meetings. It might be a clone, but Dottore is still Dottore, and Pantalone has a vague murderous urge whenever he's in the vicinity.

3. They're absolutely obsessed with each other. Not necessarily in the romantic or even friendly way, in the I want you to choke and die and think about it every day way. It develops in other ways in the future, but these two hate each other's guts, and will go to a near extreme degree to irritate each other. They will not stop ranting about how much the other annoys them, and the other Harbingers are convinced that they're married at this point.

This might be a toxic relationship, but it's a sick bastard falling for another sick bastard. There are no expectations here.

As for other mini-laws I've given myself:

-Pantalone is absolutely crazy for Dottore's eyes. They might be red and considered absolutely terrifying for those that behold them, but Pantalone loses his mind over them. So cruel, but so beautiful. He kisses Dottore's eyelids even, to show how much he adores them.

-Dottore claims hates Pantalone's voice, but actually somewhat likes it. Sure, it sounds pretentious as hell, but when Pantalone gets into his droning, it's actually somewhat pleasant. Though he'll never admit that, he's too proud.

-Any physical encounters between these two always end with their faces inches away from mashing. I don't make the rules. Makes the tension go 📈📈📈📈📈.

-Pantalone has to either criticize or attempt to fix Dottore's horrendous fashion. He can't be seen with such an unruly mess of straps and buckles, now can he? So they must go-

-Violence is always the answer with these two. That's the only thing they'll ever agree on.

Honestly, these two are menaces to society and mashing them together is the worst possible thing you can do. And that's why I do it. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

#il dottore #dottore #pantalone #fatui harbingers #fatui headcanons #genshin impact #genshin impact headcanons #dottolone #pantorre #just two evil men #doing evil men things #violence is always the answer #but dottore always suggests it first #pantalone just jumps on the train #the recruits are terrified of these two for a reason okay

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emile-hides · 1 year

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2 things, where is my lauxus essay and ur the most correct I've seen about mira and Elfman ever but listen its not lisannas fault she's written as an after thought I live her with my whole chest😤

I feel you I feel you trust me trust me I love Lisanna so much I just wish wish WISH she'd gotten to be a character!!! I want to see her with my eyeballs when everyone's just hanging out at the guild and she's just!!! Never there!!!

But shh shh it's okay I got it I can fix it listen listen.

What if after Edolas and the 7 year gap and such we got a Lisanna centered episode. My beloved Catholic Arc would have to take a hit for this but listen it's worth it okay hear me out.

Everyone's treating Lisanna like glass now that she's back. She can do basically nothing for herself. Mira's all over cooking and working around the guild and serving drinks so don't worry about it Lisanna just have a seat and hang out and if you need anything be sure to ask Macao or Wakaba they're not doing anything important anyway so whatever you need

She does one little stumble and now Elfman just HAS to carry her everywhere because what if she was to fall??? Get hurt??? He's also got a pillow for her to sit on because this new guild's seats just aren't comfortable and Warren better give up his seat for Lisanna or we're gonna have a bit of a problem.

The only one's I could see treating her like normal is Natsu, because he's just Like That to everyone, Lucy, and Wendy, who didn't know Lisanna before she "died"

Eventually I imagine she gets tired of all this babying; being chaperoned everywhere she goes, having every door and jar opened for her, having all her food temperature tested to make sure it's not too hot or too cold, being told to "Stay back it's not safe" when she tags on jobs with Elfman, hearing "Knock it off you could have hurt Lisanna!" when her guild mates get into fights. She's exhausted, she's irritated, she just needs some space.

So she grabs a job on the board, probably grabs Lucy and Wendy just to vent to some one, and sets off to finally do something for herself for once sense getting back home.

I can hear the exhausted complaints as they walk to her job, how sweet they're all trying to be but they're treating her like a BABY! Yeah she's the "little" sister but that doesn't mean she can't DRESS HERSELF, MIRA!! Lucy and Wendy in the background giving that look of God Damn yeah that sucks girl.

Cut back to the guild Elfman and Mira are freaking out, in their own separate ways, because where a monster hunting job use to be on the board is now a note from Lisanna telling them not to worry and that she's on it all her own!

They, and Natsu who's just upset Lucy would take a job without him, set off to follow the Girls and get them back before they can get hurt.

Only you know. They handled it just fine. They get there just as the girls are packing up to head back, reward in tow, monster's defeated. Lucy and Wendy even admit to not having to do too much, Lisanna's amazing! Natsu complains about traveling all this way and not getting to punch a single monster, then smiles and high fives Lisanna because he was "pretty much expecting that"

Elfman and Mira get a bit of a wake up; Lisanna's not helpless, she never was, she's a wizard same as them and deserves to be treated as such.

We get a family hug, happy ending, credits roll.

And then after the credits we see Mira still trying to spoon feed Lisanna and Elfman still bullying Warren out of his seat for her because some things never change they're still over protective of course.

#Fairy Tail #Lisanna Strauss #I'll only tag her because this is mainly about her #Look man she doesn't need to be super involved in every plotline I'm just SAYING #She showed up and NEVER HAD ANYTHING ELSE HAPPEN #ONE EPISODE WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE #This would have made the Catholic season of Fairy Tail that much better actually we deserve this #My obsession with the Catholic Arc of Fairy Tail aside #I like Lisanna as bare minimum character as she is #She's cute and ya know. There.#She bullies Elfman that's fun #I just. I hate how she's handled in combat #but all the girls are like that so I can't be TOO upset #I just want her to wreck house just once #I also want Elfman and Mira to just be Too Much over her it'd be a funny running gag #Fairy Tail is a Gag Manga I stand by this and I will continue to treat it as such #I'm sorry to my Blorbo Warren for making him the mark of Elfman he's on the mind he doesn't deserve this #I'd add my Laxus essay as well but this ask got long and I wanted to focus on Lisanna sense I've been on Laxus all day #I will write that essay tho mark my words

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homo-rashi · 7 months

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Kinktober 2023 | Public Embarassment

Original Male Character x Original Male Character

Yuu was completely enthralled with Akihiko. Hearing his stories of his past, eating the delicious food he recommended, getting completely lost is the dark, ashe like color of his eyes as he speaks so fondly about the owner of this little cafe, of this formerly bustling onsen town…If only his body hasn't jolted him out of his completely concentration on Akihiko.

He went to take another sip of the warm rice based drink, after losing count of how many free refills he has been provided, he finally feels warm from the inside out and is dying to pee. Yuu honestly, had to go before Akihiko and him even go onto the train. Having waited at the station for almost an hour beforehand, drinking a hot coffee from a nearby vending machine to stay warm, He figured they would be at their destinations soon and he could relieve himself there, except, they were on the train for two hours…

Now, he doesn't want to get up, break the flow-oh god don't think about things flowing-of their conversation to excuse himself to the restroom, a restroom he hasn't seen. He has been looking. Whenever Akihiko breaks the conversion to take a bite, chew and swallow it, he has let his eyes wander around the small cafe, finding only a door back to the kitchen and nothing more.

“Aki-chan, would you two like desert? Its on the house!” Mimino-san comes back over to clear their plates,

“Are you going to let me pay for anything? Come on, I gotta show Yuu-san that I'm treating him on our first date, like a gentleman.” Akihiko jokes with the older woman. It makes Yuu’s heart swell, imagining this is how Akihiko might interact with his own grandmother.

“Yuu-kun! You mustn't let our princess pay!” Mimiko jokes, hustling back to the kitchen, presumably not taking no on the deserts.

“Akihiko…How does Mimiko know about Aki-chan?” Yuu asks, genuinely curious. He was under the impression that Akihiko’s crossdressing was a very, very big secret from the hushed tone he recalled his past in, but clearly, Mimiko san thinks of Akihiko as a girl, or rather a princess.

“Ah, well, I left that part out for a reason, it's rather embarrassing.” Yuu swears he can see a faint blush creep up on his cheeks, and now he had to know,

“Come on, you read my horribly embarrassing english essays, I think I deserve some blackmail material on you.” Yuu teases, He wiggles slightly in his seat, pushing his cup of amazake away so he doesn't take another sip. He just has to get through the desert and then he can slip away to the restroom at the train station.

“I thought I was so smart, you know, coming here where nobody would know me. I was pretending to be so confident…but I actually thought I still looked like a guy.” Yuu can't believe that,

“But, you. Um, sorry if this isn't a compliment anymore, but you look very feminine…I actually thought you were a woman the first time I saw you.” Yuu is only slightly embarrassed at the admission hen Akihiko's face lights up,

“I thought so, most people do when they see me from behind, but you still found me attractive when you found out I was a man…?” Akihiko teased further,

“Even more so…actually.” Yuu blushes extremely hard at admitting that out loud, but pushes past it, urging Akihiko to continue with his story. Mimiko quietly drops off two bowls of Zenzai, a sweet red bean soup with mochi.

“Well, Even so. I didnt think my whole plan through and one week while I was here, I ended up drinking a little too much at juice bar, free samples and such. I didnt have alot of money cause I was paying for my own university but…” Akihiko pauses, taking a big spoonful of his desert. Yuu does the same but cringes as he feels more liquid being added to his body. Of all the traditional desserts, mimiko-san had to choose the only liquid one he could think of.

“I wasn't nearly ready to go home but I really had to um, relieve myself…” Yuu’s eyes go wide. Of course, when he is in this predicament, this would be the story Akihiko is telling. He tenses his legs under the table, uncrossing and recrossing them.

“Oh-” Yuu doesn't know how to respond, he just wants to sound natural, not like he has to ‘relieve himself’ extremely badly right now.

“Yeah and I was dressed like a woman, but I didn't think I really looked like one, and I was well am, a man. Going into the women's restroom like that was, well, not an option and the mens also could have been dangerous…” Yuu feels bad for Akihiko’s past self. He can definitely relate to the feeling of needing to go and nothing having a place to.

“So, I went on with my day, just hoping it would go away…but that's not how it works. I ended up wobbling into Mimiko-san’s shop, like, hands between my legs.”

“Oh my god.” Yuu laughs slightly at the mental image, he gently rests his free hand in his lap, realizing he can hold himself under the table without Akihiko seeing. He instantly feels relief.

“Yeah, it wasn't my finest moment. I found Mimiko-san, she was younger and bussing tables, I frantically ran up to her, asking if he has a restroom…completely forgetting to change my voice at all-”

“So you sounded like you do now?” Yuu asked, he was picturing Aki-chan with a very high pitched, normal female japanese voice this whole time, but he guesses, Akihiko couldn't really change his voice that much.

“A little higher, but basically yes…Mimiko-san did clock me immediately but she told me there were public restrooms at the station and they only had a private restroom for staff in the back and I didnt know what to do, so I…Lifted up my wig, showing her my short hair, and I just said ‘I either use your restroom or your floor, miss’ and she took me back, and then helped me fix my hair and did my makeup and yelled at me for how dangerous what I was doing was and then, she let me always get changed here for a year, until I went to the states.”

‘Wow. Mimiko-san was just…okay with it?” Yuu asked, normally, older japanese women were very set in their ways about lgbt stuff, if they even know what it is.

“Yuu, Mimiko is a trans woman…Why do you think she and her husband are still running this shop, she never could have any kids and in japan…she cant adopt.” Yuu’s eyes widen,

“I-I had no idea!” He looks over at Mimiko-san shocked, but happy, happy she was able to help Akihiko in his time of need, now thought, he knows there is a bathroom but- is his circumstance really bad enough to ask to use the private restroom…

Yuu decides not to ask when Mimiko-san comes over and tries to refuse Akihiko’s payment and tip, Arguing that they don't do tips in Japan and Akihikp arguing back that he lived in San Francisco, and to not disrespect his American culture. Mimiko ends up taking the money and hugging Akihiko and himself goodbye, the tight squeeze of her arms around his body makes his shift in place, reeling how badly he has to go now that he is standing up.

Leaving the cafe, Yuu expects Akihiko to turn to the train station, but he doesn't, instead, Yuu’s hand is taken once more and they head in the opposite direction. Five minutes later Yuu finds himself casually strolling through a park with Akihiko, hand in hand, it would be romantic. If Yuu didn't have his other free hand, in his pocket squeezing his cock for dear life, squeezing everything for dear life at this point.

“If it's too busy, we can…not- '' Akihiko goes to pull his hand away, but Yuu is also squeezing it. He didn't even realize he was doing it. Yuu lets him go but without Akihiko pulling him along, he cant find the will to move, to part his legs. He really, really should have spoken up at the restaurant, but it's too late. They left, they have walks farther from the station, too far, too-

“You feeling alright? Let’s sit down, okay?” Yuu can't even process Akihiko moving him over to a nearby bench, assisting him in sitting down. He feels wetness drip onto his upper lips, he is sweating, yet he can see his breath. “Do you feel like you're going to be sick?” Akihiko asks, and Yuu can hear the worry and sincerity in his voice, Yuu doesn't say anything, not trusting his voice, he just shakes his head, he wishes he was sick, but no, he is about to wet himself because he cant speak up for himself.

“Can you walk? Maybe you need some water-” Akihiko goes to stand, but Yuu cant. He is leaking, he feels it. His boxers soak it all up, but if he stands, it will be all over, He won't be able to hold it.

“Hide me.” Yuu reaches up and grabs Akihiko's hand. He is going to wet himself, for the first time in years, on his first date with a guy, with Akihiko.

“What? I don't understand, Yuu, What's wrong?” Akihiko is bending down in front of him, looking him in the eyes. Yuu can't, He cant hold it, He can't be looking at Akihiko when it happens, so he leans his head forward, slumping his weight into Akihiko’s suit jacket shoulder, Whats starts as a small drip, erupts into a waterfall falling through the wooden slats of the bench, onto the concrete park walkway below them.

“Oh-” Yuu can't take the acknowledgment of Akihiko knowing what has just hapepned.He feels him, Akihiko pulling away, Yuu covers his face with his hands, not longer being shielded by Akihiko's warm body. He feels so utterly alone and humiliated.

“Mommy- is that man okay?” He hears the child's voice, followed by rushed shushes from a few women, He is crying, shaking, when he feels the warm, soft fabric off something falling over his lap.

“Sorry, there, nobody can see now. You're okay. If you didn't feel well, you should have said something.” Yuu finds the familiar warmth of Akihiko inffront of him, un-shielding his eyes, he sees Akihiko's suit jacket covering his lower half, that is now wet and cold, His accident having long finished during his breakdown.

“I-I’m sorry.” He sobs, He isn't sick, He is just an idiot, an idiot with a small bladder, and an idiot who is beyond embarrassed.

“It's okay, seriously. Let's get you home. You need to rest and get cleaned up.” Akihiko stands, but Yuu doesn't. He knows what he looks like, it's so obvious he wet himself,

“Here, Tie this around your waist, nobody will see.” Yuu stands, letting Akihiko take his own suit jacket from his lap and tie it around him. It's still obvious from the front what happened, but at least some people will be oblivious to his shame. “Come on, if you need to stop for anything, let me know, okay?” Yuu nods, still not wanting to speak and follows Akihiko to the train station.

#omorashi #kinktober #fictomo #fanfic #piss fic #omo #male omorashi #fanfiction #ao3 fanfic #ao3 writer #fanfic writing #a03 #ao3fic

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Girrrrl (sorry I'm new here, idk your pronouns, but I mean it in a gender neutral way) *that was a bit george of me writing a whole ass apology* moving on

Your last ask about george? Yes

Absolutely

Respectfully to his gf but... I'm 5'2 and hello size kink?!?!? I mean im into that but do you think he would?

Secondly everyone is talking about professor!Daniel but no cuz no one would do professor! Like George, ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? And probably English subject too. I mean right? That kind of prof that literally goes the whole class talking intensely looking at you with those piercing eyes, then asking like "Ms Y/N, may you stay back? I'd like to have a word" AAAGHHHH

Okay I'm done

Hey anon,

you can call me whatever you like <3

I think George would absolutely be into a size kink, but tbh I don't think he's had the chance to explore it too much, you know? His relationships on track have been with Alex, Charles, sometimes Lando (which may be a great starting point for the repressed size kink). I think he'd love how he towers over you, but you can make him do anything you want. He'll call you filthy names when you're naked on his bed but he knows you hold all the power. He's into girlbosses like that. Like just imagine post-sex cuddles, you could melt into him. Man is meant to be the big spoon. He's very protective, but very gentle too.

Professor George..... Bestie I am shivering.... First off we know he likes a good powerpoint, so he would absolutely 100 percent nail down that role, like remember the Kingsman + Williams thing?

He'd definitely be one of those posh + slightly-pretentious English professors, that everyone just looooovvvveeessss...

So when one day, he asks you to stay after class, you're kind of worried, because you are one of his best students, but you're excited, because hey, private lessons? Sign me up.

Everyone looks at you like 'ooooh, you messed up,' and swallowing, you make your way to the front while everyone else leaves.

"Yes professor?" you walk to him, crossing your hands. Your foot taps the floor involuntarily.

He looks up at you, his piercing blue eyes meeting yours. Then he breaks into a smile.

"i just wanted to say, you did a smashing job on the Hamlet essay. I think it's one of your best works yet," he compliments you, patting your hand.

You blush. "Thank you professor, I hope to be one of your best works one day."

He cocks an eyebrow. "My best work?" His slender fingers inch closer to yours, a clear invitation. "Darling, you have no idea what kind of wok goes into that."

You look down, at his impeccably polished shoes. "I'm willing to put in the effort if you want to teach me, sir." You look at him through the top of your glasses.

He stands up, moving closer to you.

"I love a challenge," he whispers, and slides something into the pocket of your jacket, before leaving you with nothing but the lingering smell of pine and citrus.

#f1tasy #drabble #anon #asks #gr #professor george au

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howlinchickhowl · 2 years

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Hey Howl! As someone who knows things about coffee, do you think you could make me like it? Because I now dream of going to cute little coffee shops but cups of hot water and prepackaged tea bags aren't worth it😭

Also I love seeing you round here and look forward to more of your writing💖

Arrow! Thank you for dropping by, I am so happy any time I get to be around for a little bit! I was just saying to Jessie today, I love that the world is opening back up and we are getting to go out and do our fun things and see our friends and stuff again, but I do resent that doing those things eats into my hanging out on tumblr time! I love being here and seeing all the pals and it's my favourite thing to just be here and do interactions with everyone. Thank you for facilitating me in that regard on this fine evening! Now, as for coffee. Under a cut because I wrote you a whole damn essay and I don't even know if that was a real question, so, feel free to not read any of the rest of this 😆

An interesting prospect, can I make you like coffee? Well, I don't know what you dislike about coffee so I'm not sure I'll hit a winner on the first go, but I can tell you how I came to like coffee, and the reasons I like it now. Because growing up I did not care for it.

My dad drank coffee fairly exclusively and the smell of it around the house, in the dishwasher and on our spoons and on his clothes and in the car on long trips where we'd have a flask of coffee and a flask of tea, I could not abide. And sometimes when I smell instant coffee in particular situations, my reaction to the sense memory of it is not positive.

But when I had my first boyfriend and we were doing cute things like going out to restaurants as grown ups, I started getting a double espresso with my dessert, because I thought that was a cool and sophisticated thing to do. And you know, the difference between a cup of hastily made instant Nescafe Gold Blend, and a double espresso with a half teaspoon of brown sugar stirred in enjoyed with ice cream or a brownie or a crème brulée, is so astronomical you wouldn't believe. I loved it. So for a few years I only drank coffee in restaurants, after dinner, with dessert.

And then I went to Italy on vacation with my best friend's family, and the villa we stayed in had a stovetop mokkapot, a Bialetti type thing, and I fell in love with the process of making the coffee. And that really became the thing that drew me down the coffee loving path. I'm a tea drinker, generally, 98% of the time I'm having a hot drink it is tea, tea is my fuel, my fire, my comfort. Coffee (made at home, at least) is much more of a meditative practice, I love the way it is made. I enjoy filling my little steamer and clicking the stove on and listening to it bubble through, heating milk in this little copper gravy jug I took from my uncle's house before we sold it. I love setting up the french press and then pushing the plunger and feeling the resistance and pouring from a height. I love my small ceramic coffee mugs that I would never drink tea out of (not enough tea) but that are perfect for coffee. It is soothing to me. And of course I do enjoy to buy a coffee from a place and walk around like a cool girl with my coffee cup in my hand looking busy and under caffeinated like any self-respecting lorelai gilmore fan would, but that stuff varies from place to place, and nothing compares to coffee made at home. So if you want to like coffee, I suggest first of all, don't try to like instant. I don't even know if you guys really have instant coffee? But it's not the one. Second I would suggest, if you're going to the cute little coffee shop, try it with a flavour you know you like. A Mocha? Or Hazelnut latte? Something to temper the strength of the flavour while you acquire it. And then third, if you're planning on staying at the coffee shop a while to write and do cute things, maybe don't have more than one espresso drink, as a few of those can really give you the jitters, and a small batch drip coffee if you can get it, or even a pourover is much more of a sustainable choice ✌️.

#arrow I adore you!#I hope to be sharing more writing some time soon!#and I also hope to be reading more of your writing which i love and am in awe of #howlin atcha #🏹#ask meme

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no need to apologize for forgetting i just wanted to make sure it had gone thru/resend it if necessary. i hadn't heard brand new before but i really like their sound, thanks.

today's song recommendations: lemon to a knife fight by the wombats for billy, sto vo kor by warp 11 (my favorite star trek rock band) for eddie, touch starved by bb bean for steve, and silver spoons by kid pixie for your jonathan (fun fact this is my most played song on spotify)

Immediately consuming all of kid pixie's discography thank u so much the vibes of their music is IMMACULATE omg,, -Jonathan

Our recs!!:

Anti You/Burning Bridges - Blue Stahli

Aaaalrighty immediately cheating I suppose cuz these are two songs but they're just. The exact same beat with different lyrics so we're counting em as one! (/lighthearted) Both are super angry sounding but personally we prefer Anti You just a liiittle more tbh. I mostly chose this one but Billy vibes with em both too so these r also her suggestions! —Groves, one of Billy's headmates 👋

Static - Jukebox the Ghost

I think my favourite genre of music is Songs That Sound Paranoid And Angsty good lord lmao,, The piano & guitar in this one's catchy as hell though and has been stuck in my head for a couple days -Jonathan

West Texas - PWR BTTM

OK WE CAN'T BE THE ONLY ONES WHO REMEMBER WHEN PWR BTTM WAS THEE BIGGEST BAND ON HERE FOR LIKE A MONTH BC THEY WERE OPENLY QUEER AND MADE QUEER MUSIC BUT THEN ONE OF THE MEMBERS GOT OUTED FOR FUCKING, I DON'T KNOW WE DON'T REMEMBER, AND THEN THEY JUST. FELL OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH????? WE DIDN'T MAKE THAT UP RIGHT?? /LIGHTHEARTED

ANYWAYS!! controversy or not we still listen to them every now and then! This song's one of my favourites of theirs <3 -Eddie

The Chattering Lack of Common Sense - Ghost and Pals

ah yes. We've gone from human singers to vocaloid. >:) /lighthearted

I dunno how to explain the Why I'm recommending this to you but I like it a lot so I guess that's reason enough, yeah? I Mean I Could write like a whole essay about what this song means to me but we do Not have the spoons for that HFJDJDJFJFJ

Eddie and I were collabing on a set of gifs based on this song but that's being put on hold until we can get a better cpu. And by that point we might just make it into an AMV anyways tbh -Steve

#anon friend #music recs anon #we have one of the gifs fully finished and one half of another finished #i think the fully finished one is on our account Somewhere but idk #also sidenote we have Never been a fan of star trek (we think it's Neat but we don't have the attention span to Get Into It Properly) but #warp 11 is so funny and catchy eddie loves it HFJDJFKF -Steve

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mysticdragon3md3 · 9 months

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What Our Utensil Designs Say About Our Culture by Design Theory

When I was little, I got sick of my dad subtly making fun of us every time we went to a Chinese restaurant. He'd ask for chopsticks for himself, then always make sure to chat up with the waiter about how the rest of us didn't know how to use chopsticks or were just not very good at it. -.-;;;;; So after we hosted a big anniversary party for my grandparents, we had an entire freezer full of orange chicken, and I swore I'd use chopsticks everyday, until it ran out. But by then, I had gotten used to using the chopsticks, that I started using them every day, at every meal, every snack, for everything. I told myself I wouldn't stop until I got good at it. That was YEARS ago.

By now, a year or so ago, I finally realized that I don't need to practice anymore. I'm pretty competent at chopsticks, so I should just use whatever utensils I like the best. And I determined that I prefer using a spoon and fork together, in the Filipino style. You know how Westerners chase food around a plate with a fork OR a spoon? Filipinos use the fork to push the food into the spoon. Filipino food has a lot of sauce/broth, and I love getting some sauce/broth with every bite. But also, I eat so much food that isn't always cut into small pieces. And when whole pieces of meats or fish have been in the frig for a day or 2, they don't exactly come out of the microwave, soft enough to separate with chopsticks. With those foods, trying to separate it into smaller chunks with chopsticks, is just asking to fling food around the room, with the forces applied. Sometimes, it's just safer to cut everything up with a spoon and fork, Filipino style, then I bring back out my chopsticks. lol So despite how much I love using chopsticks, I decided, I prefer best, spoon in conjunction with fork, Filipino style.

Otherwise, I still use chopsticks. I love using chopsticks for snacks and finger food. I've used chopsticks for everything from potato chips and popcorn, to yogurt and ice cream. But that was more about my dedication to practicing with chopsticks until I got good. I'd prefer to eat cream desserts with spoons. But unless my hands are slippery from lotion (Curse this pandemic causing me skin problems!), I still find myself eating cakes, pastries, and ANYTHING else with chopsticks. It's just so much more convenient for people like me, who are particular about tempering the flavors of EACH bite of food. I love customizing each bite, very consciously. And if I'm too lazy to use both hands for even the Filipino style of using a spoon and fork, chopsticks are still better.

The video mentioned eating with hands. And I know that Filipinos traditionally eat with hands too---I remember my grandmother eating that way. But I don't think I could eat with my hands. I'm too germaphobic. I'm too uncomfortable with sticky fingers. Oil or cheese dust under my fingernails? Going to drive me up the wall. lol Maybe I'm too hypersensitive, but feeling all that food residue on my fingers, my skin, my fingernails...? Ugh, I don't think I could do it. And I don't think I could ever FEEL my hands would be clean enough. I'd have to wash my hands between each touch of a glass or condiment bottle, before I returned to eating with my hands again. And even then, the stickiness would just feel too gross to me. That's why I use chopsticks for snacks. When people start talking about the joy of licking cheese dust or sauces off their fingers, I just can't relate. lol I don't care if it's called "finger food", I want my chopsticks! ^o^

Kind of surprised this video essay didn't mention forks and spoons replacing personal knives. I can't remember where I heard it, but I remember something about how Medieval(?) people used to always have personal daggers on them, for self defense and whatever utilitarian tasks needed cutting, and those daggers were also used for eating. But people realized that hosting a dinner party was equivalent to inviting a bunch of armed people to your house. So they thought it safer to start having eating utensils. That's why table knives are also blunt. Maybe it was a history video? I remember it mentioning a Byzantine princess marrying into a more westward country and she was kind of looked down on for bringing a set of eating utensils with her, instead of eating with her hands, like everyone else. What was that video...?

#Youtube #eating utensils #food #cultures #asian american #design #comparisons #contrasts #reminicing #filipino #nostalgia #video essays #history #personal preferences

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acsaville · 1 year

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2022 Roundup

As of yesterday I sent in my last submission of the year! It feels a little eleventh hour because the deadline is today for the call, but it's done and I'm giving myself a little break before launching into the new year. Looking back at what I accomplished, I'm pretty proud of myself!

In 2022 I...

--Did 29 submissions. There was a long period in the middle of the year where I didn't complete much, most of which I think was related to work (including a big chunk of the year where my lab was in the process of moving to a new building and all that took a lot of my brainpower). --Got 3 pieces published. Two flash and one longer piece! --Completed 7 pieces, which honestly feels like a LOT. On the other hand, four were flash pieces, so that balances things out a little. --Completed 1 nonfiction essay. My first!

There's a lot more in there, like number of times I revised something (a lot) or trashed a whole section of a story (whee!) or completely rethought the concept for a story (ahahahaha), but I don't really have a good way to quantify those.

Overall I feel pretty proud of myself for the year. I would love to have written more, but I also try to give myself a little bit of leniency, between the aforementioned lab move and work and life in general. I have to work with what's in my spoon drawer.

Having said that, I'm going to try something new in the new year. Some folks in Cat Rambo's community are organizing a group story-a-week challenge, and I'm going to try participating in it!

I admit this feels REALLY daunting (points to number of completed pieces above). I'm trying to give myself a lot of leeway with it, though - only a first draft needs to be completed, the draft can be completed over multiple weeks (so I could bang out a flash and then work on a longer piece the rest of the week, which would be the official story for a week later in the year), and length is not a concern. One thing I've learned about myself over the past year is I'm actually usually pretty good at first drafts. I can get into a sort of free flowing state where I'm just picking things out of the ether and working them into something vaguely resembling a story. It's REVISING that I struggle mightily with. Maybe that will be 2024's challenge. In either case, it will be nice to be part of a group doing this. I'm hoping it will help me to be better motivated.

Happy 2023! May it be better than 2022.

#2022 retrospective #writings

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slytherinspired · 3 years

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Better Days - A Sirius Black Imagine

Hi! :) There you go! I am sorry about the end, I really couldn't help it, I hope you'll forgive me!

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'Stella!' you mumble under your breath.

You know very well that begging the child to stop running around is futile, but you can't help but scold her. She is no longer a fragile little being that you were once afraid to break with your simple touch. Now this same little person babbles, knows how to walk, and takes great pleasure in knocking all the objects that are in her path, as if every time she'd expect something else than those objects falling to the ground in a disturbing crash. You close the book you are trying to study and take a good look at her. It takes your breath away every time. The little dark curls around her head and her piercing grey eyes, the smirk on her face when she's goofing around. Her warm laugh... It takes all the negative away.

But your tone was too harsh when you said her name out loud and now the child's lips are starting to quiver. You shake your head, preparing to face the tears as as the shrill cry of your daughter leaves its way to your ears. You feel like you're about to cry as well when the front door of your little flat opens. Through the doorway you see Sirius, putting his helmet on the floor, and an innocent smile spreads across his lips. He whispers something, but you can't hear him through the incessant crying of Stella. He tiptoes to you both and takes the child away from you. Taken aback, her crying suddenly stops and a big smile takes shape on her little red face.

'What happened there, bunny?' he asks with a soft voice as he wipes the tears away from her delicate face.

You shrug and sigh.

'I wouldn't let her play with the fish food.'

Sirius snorts.

'Oh,' he laughs while looking at his daughter. 'I didn't know Stella was a fish, are you a fishy, Stella?' He starts to tickle her. 'Are you a fish?'

The child laughs warmly. He scoops over and presses his lips on yours. You feel relieved. You don't even have to ask him; he's already putting the child in her high chair while he goes in the kitchen to prepare her tea.

'What's on the menu, bunny?' he shouts while he rumbles in the little fridge. 'Carrots?' He shakes his head. 'Nah.'

Stella looks at him, completely fascinated.

'Oh! Chicken and peas!' he exclaims, holding a little pot of a questionable colour. He stares at the pot for a coupe of seconds.

'Definitely not,' he says.

'No,' you repeat, laughing.

'HA!' Sirius shows another little pot in his hand. 'I feel like it is a sweet potato kind of night, wouldn't you say bunny?' He flicks his wand and the little pot flies to Stella while a floating spoon flies from the jar quietly towards the child.

'How was your day?' he asks as he walks to her.

'I never thought that studying to be a healer would be easy,' you reply, looking at the many books resting on the side table, 'but with this little monster, it's impossible to retain any information.'

Sirius replaces a strand of your hair behind your ear.

'I know, love. I'm sorry it has to be like that.'

You lean your head on his chest as he plays in your hair a little bit.

'Is it good, my love?' he asks Stella as she's having a fight with the floating spoon. She looks at you both and smiles proudly. Sirius snorts.

'Even with puree all over her face she's the cutest.'

'Isn't she?' you reply. 'That's what makes it hard. I can't be angry at her for too long.'

'I'm probably biased,' he says, 'but I really do think she's the prettiest baby in the whole world.'

'Totally not biased,' you reply, closing your eyes.

You feel yourself drifting from reality. You're so tired you could just sleep there and forget about the whole world. Sirius' presence is enough to reassure you that everything is going to be okay. Your eyelids are heavy now.

'Mama,' says a voice afar.

But you're too tired to get up. Sirius is going to take care of her, that was the deal. He said that you would have your nights to recharge a little bit. But he doesn't get up.

'Mama!'

Now the child is crying again. You feel gradually woken up from your sleep, reality is slowly catching up with you. Something tells you you don't want to wake up, you want to stay like this forever, in Sirius' embrace. Stella is screaming at the top of her lungs and you wake up suddenly.

'Sirius, why are you not -' you stop mid-sentence.

You're alone with Stella. For a moment, you're looking for him, where has he gone? But it slowly comes back to you. Every time you wake up, you have to cope again.

Sirius isn't here. He doesn't know he has a daughter.

Sirius is in Azkaban.

Sirius is a killer.

And Stella only knows to call your name.

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An ATLA Rant: Imperialism & Nuance

Just to start off, this is coming from a girl who’s grandmother was Filipino. No, I have not personally experienced imperialism in my lifetime, but it is a subject that I think is very serious and important to me because of my heritage.

That said, I have absolutely zero idea how you could watch avatar: the part airbender and come out of it saying that it is pro imperialist. Absolutely zero.

I agree because this is a pan Asian inspired show that was written was created by two white men (with the help and advisement of several poc as well but that is a topic for another time), people, especially people of color, have every right to be critical of it. But this argument that the show is somehow pro imperialist just doesn’t make sense to me.

The fire nation is in the wrong. The show makes that VERY clear. Their actions towards other nations is called out by several characters (Zuko, Roku, etc). Their destruction of other cultures (southern water tribe, air nomads, attempted earth kingdom) are seen as diporable and downright inhuman. Not only that, but we see the devastation this cultural genocide brings upon main characters like Katara and especially Aang and how they must heal from it.

Moving on, the show absolutely was not teaching people to stand docile and peaceful against their oppressors. Katara and Aang literally destroy a whole fire nation factory!! When the fire nation was attacking the northern air temple, they were kicking their asses off the cliff!! They planned a whole invasion to attack the fire nation capital to end the war!! (Let’s not forget Katara incititing a riot against the fire nation in the imprisonment episode with the earth benders). I could on and on about all the times the gaang meets the fire nation with violence and encourages others to fight back against them, but that would be going wayyy too in depth.

I think where people get far too simplistic here is that they think that atla is telling people to not use violence against their oppressors because the show is critical of people like Jet and Hama. First of all, the characters are given a lot of nuance in the show. Both are introduced with tragic backstories of the horrors that the fire nation inflicted upon them (I still get chills with the scene when Hama explains her story).

Despite this, both characters have every chance to use their abilities to fight back against the fire nation in a way that helps. You know, like fighting against the army and not innocent people who have no idea that the fire nation is actually in the wrong. The narrative is not that violence is bad! Peace is the only way! I think it’s that you can’t let your veagance lead you away from fighting the right people. That’s the issue: neither Jet and Hama were fighting the right people.

And we first see both characters fighting soldiers in their first scenes. Hama in the flashback when she’s defending her home (and rightfully uses violence to do so) and Jet when he helps the gaang take down some fire nation soldiers in the forest. This is just violence directed at the right people. But instead, both attempt to murder and in Hama’s case, torture people who take no part in the atrocities the fire nation has committed. Are they ignorant? Well of course they are because as we very obviously see, they’ve been fed propaganda their entire life while also living under an authoritarian regime, something that’ll give you no will to think other than the things that are spoon fed to you.

So let me ask you this, was it right for Jet to try and murder an entire village of innocent people, literal children included? Was it right for Hama to imprison and torture lord knows how many innocent citizens just because they belong to an nation that they have no actual knowledge of its evil? I’m hoping your answer is no, and the show would also say no as well.

When both Katara and Aaag choose not to kill, the narrative is not saying that they shouldn’t kill these men. The narrative allows both characters to make their own choice in what ways they wish to do, and it has nothing to do with what is actually right or wrong, because ultimately it is up to what each character wishes to do. Katara sees Yon Ra as the pathetic old man that he is, so she sees no purpose or healing for herself in taking his life. This is a personal choice made for herself, and that is all that matters.

The same goes for Aang. This poor boy is desperate to uphold the beliefs of his people, so he finds another way. A way that still upholds his beliefs while still ending the tyranny of Firelord Ozai. It is ridiculous to say that this is a passive take to imperialism, because yes he doesn’t literally murder someone but he still takes the dude out. And honestly, Ozai’s fate is worse then death (especially considering who Ozai is). Once again, the narrative is not saying be passive to your oppressors and don’t use violence. Its saying that because Aang is living in a world where his beliefs have been forcefully removed and disrespected, he has every right to continue to defend them in the ways he sees fit.

While some may see the narrative as more sympathetic to Iroh and Zuko, I think it’s just because they ARE some of the main characters of the show, as compared to those like Jet and Hama. We see much more of their story just as we see much more of the gaang’s story. Not only that, but their narrative purpose is far different from these two other characters. Iroh and Zuko are meant to show that despite them being from the fire nation, they are not inherently evil people. Jet and Hama are meant to show that even while they are against the antagonistic force of the show, they still can commit evil. Not only are Iroh and Zuko’s actions never justified, but they both must go on a journey to unlearn the hateful propaganda instilled into them, and remedy their ignorance. The narrative never says that neither Jet and Hama cannot also redeem themselves, but Hama feels no remorse for her actions, and Jet does attempt to redeem himself, but ultimately falls back into old habits (I believe he could’ve redeemed himself, but I’ll agree the writers were a bit sloppy in his end, like I’m not sure why they had to kill him other than to make him a tragic character but whatever).

To finally wrap up this essay, ATLA is not a black and white show. The show is not pro imperialist for condemning the violent actions of two characters who happen to be victims of imperialism. The show is not pro imperialist for allowing two children to decide for themselves whether or not they want to end the lives of someone. The show is not pro imperialist for not making the antagonist of the show a one note and one dimensional bad guy.

I’ll end this with the speech that Zuko makes to Ozai when he prepares to leave on Day of Black Sun:

No, I've learned everything! And I've had to learn it on my own! Growing up, we were taught that the Fire Nation was the greatest civilization in history. And somehow, the War was our way of sharing our greatness with the rest of the world. What an amazing lie that was. The people of the world are terrified by the Fire Nation. They don't see our greatness. They hate us! And we deserve it! We've created an era of fear in the world. And if we don't want the world to destroy itself, we need to replace it with an era of peace and kindness.

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