*adhd vampire, wearing a makeshift aluminum foil bodysuit & standing on their tippy toes using an extra-long broom handle to try to shove together the dusty old blackout curtains they once again forgot to close before dawnlight crept in* fuckety-fuckety-fuckety-shit-mcfuck-fucketyfucketyfuckety
i would wake up so early; i would drink water and meditate without my phone and journal. i was even reading through self-improvement books while listening to frequencies.
and then....well, it slowly slid away. it got harder to wake up in the mornings. it got harder to take care of myself, period. taking the meds was hard. drinking water was hard. i was waking up tired and trying to do an enormous list tired and then finally doing nothing at all.
because I thought i needed to have the perfect tiktok morning routine...or nothing.
see, we think we need to make things hard for ourselves on purpose. we feel ashamed of breaking steps down into smaller, more achievable chunks; it needs to feel like a mountain worth climbing or is it even a mountain at all? but it doesn't need to be a mountain. this is your life, and it's meant to care for and serve you. you can pre-measure your morning meds the night before. you can set a glass out. you can understand the obstacles and try to give yourself footholds. sometimes to accept grace feels like weakness, because we consider weakness as a lack of 'strength.' but what if it was the strongest, bravest thing to acknowledge your self care won't look like many others, and that's okay? it is strength. it's bravery. and I'm proud of you <3
headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again
Let us remember that life's most precious moments are often hidden in plain sight. They are found in the laughter shared with friends, in the wisdom passed down, and in the gentle whispers of nature. They are found in the embrace of a loved one, in the taste of a delicious meal, and in the pages of a good book.