#and i STILL can't make art

[e-i-l-f]

i wish i could do music stuff w you. it's been so hard for me to accept that i've never been musical and i don't think i can learn to be. i don't even know if i can accept it actually. i still hope all the time that someday i'll be able to really do stuff w you and write something and play something and feel like a part of this realm i've always wanted to be a part of. i know i don't put the time in, but trying my hand at music or lyric writing makes me so upset i just give up immediately. idk how to get past that. it always feels like any investment in the parts of music i think i'd actually be good at would be a waste of time and money. what if i'm not actually good at them at all, and even if i am it's just become an expensive hobby i now have. sometimes i think i can sing and other times i feel really stupid for ever having thought that. other people seem to have so much fun doing music, but when i'm included i'm a) so happy but b) so worried that no one wants me there, since it really doesn't make sense and i know that. i feel like i slow everyone down but i want to be included so badly i can't make myself turn down the opportunity. i have songs in my head all the time, but when i try to create them in the physical plane, it sounds so bad to me or i just can't. like when u can envision exactly what u want to draw but u can't draw it. rly sorry for this, u do not have to read it all. idk if maybe i should have just put this in a note to no one instead, i just... idk how i can be this emotional constantly, and still unable to express any of it artistically. it makes me feel trapped.

i guess i decided to put it in a note to no one after all.

#you ever just think how tf is it possible for me to have so much pent up inside and still have no ability for expression #i just want to make music that sounds good or draw stuff that i like #and i know the only way is practice but i get so upset w how stupid my lyrics sound or whatever #and i'm surrounded by musical people and i feel so alienated #so talentless and useless to them #i want to play too #i've always wanted to #but then i decided to try to get a degree in a stem field #and then i got depressed and dropped out #and then i didn't do anything but make bad decisions and try to survive for like 6 or 7 years #working service and hating myself for having no prospects #and still not being able to create art #and now i'm better and going to school for smth else and working a better job and making good grades #and i'm happy #and i STILL can't make art #why in my free time do i want to do nothing at all #i make healthy choice after healthy choice every day and nothing comes to me #if i can't make art at my lowest and i can't make art at my happiest am i just not artistic #idk if i can live like this. idk if i can accept it. #all i want is to make art

[nipuni]

the snake of eden 🥰

#good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #crowley #anthony j crowley #my art #I love him!!! #something quick because I'm very busy im sorry 😭 #I have a ton of gomens sketches I want to work on when I'm done with my current deadlines I can't wait #I'm also making new outfits inspired by them!! #and I have a couple of poto paintings to finish!! and more poto content to share very soon eughuehg #also tempted to make doctor who fan art because I love tenth is there even still an audience for it? lmao #the audience is me 😌 #I'm always the most inspired when I'm busy as hell 🥲 #aaaaaa

[jitterbugbear]

malanya the horse god - mixed media

#MY FAVEEEE #this gif got really cronched and you can't really make out the eyes #but honestly i just want to get this off my hands at this point #so uhhhhhh i spent weeks on this how are yall doing #i handpainted everything (except link and the particle effect) and then scanned and animated in after effects #you can't really tell it's painted because its so crunchy so lollllll #it was still good to try some new things #animation #gif #zelda #totk #botw #horse god #artists on tumblr #art #jitterbugbear art #mixed media

[gravitysoda]

refusing an impossible wish and settling for one last game of chess.

#p5 #persona 5 #shuake #akeshu #p5r #persona 5 royal #goro akechi #akechi goro #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #joker #joker persona 5 #soda art #the artbook gave me brainrot and the strength to make a COMIC. extreme rarity for me #akechi in 3rd sem having a wish to play chess with joker in a world where theyre both happy and are able to lead normal lives is just...aug #but the fact of the matter is that he can't have that without sacrificing his free will and everything he stands for #so in this scenario i thought he could ask for a small microcosm of that wish #at least he gets another game with joker - even if he wants to play many more he'll settle for just one #they still can't play together without the baggage and without akechi feeling that he's burdening ren #but at least it's something. at least akechi gets to spend a little more time with him #and akechi makes a concerted effort to push ren away in the 3rd sem to avoid attachment #so this would be a “selfish”/vulnerable request on his part since it's something he wants but is sentimental #and will only make it harder for ren to lose him in the end #ANYWAY !!! they make me crazy <3

[caught-a-dragonfly]

Oh, good, you’re home! Listen. You gotta help me bury a body.

#rufus turner #steven williams #supernatural #spn art #spn fanart #rufus spn #had this my drafts for so long i forgot about it lol #still making art btw! #but i'm working on some things that i can't post for a while yet #so another portrait be upon thee until i finish those >:3

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #Yungmang Jiang Training Arc AU #lan wangji #wei wuxian #digital art #Trying out some digital techniques to see if I can get closer to feel/style of my traditional comics. #So far the biggest difference is *colouring* Digital colouring feels...not good. I have complained about this before and I'll complain agai #Before we get into the sad stuff with Yungmeng Jiang in the PD-MDZS comics lets have some lighthearted fun! #Remember that if anything bad happens to these Jiang disciples in the canon comic - they are happy in this AU B'*) #I think one of the funniest things about the teenxian dynamic is how WWX accidently finds things that get LWJ to feel flustered. #My guy wwx goes 'I'm going to lightly bully/tease this nerd 'cause his reactions are funny.' and LWJ goes “My god. He's everything to me.” #Part two of the fun part of this dynamic is that LWJ is ever so lightly self aware enough to LOATHE THIS CRUSH. #Hence why I have been marinating on this 'Accidental Lan headband miscommunication' concept. #This is how LWJ assumes that WWX knows what the band means in this AU. This will be relevant later. #And YES! I am still going to be making comics for this AU. I have so many ideas I simply can't hold onto forever.

[anne-is-confused]

Captain Francis Crozier, at Furthest North.

#the terror amc #francis crozier #my art #can't believe it took me 2 rewatches AND getting refs for this to realize it's the hungarian state opera house. girl i was there last month #anyway yeah i was looking at gifsets of the last shot of the show and feeling nauseous with emptiness etc etc when #the thought struck me that it looks an awful lot like the tableau vivants from the ep1 flashbacks in its stillness #i have no idea whether that was an intentional reference (a sort of twisted mockery of how that scrubbed and polished portrayal of history #contrasted with the deeply sad and inglorious reality #or some sort of meta about storytelling itself. i'm not really smart enough to say lol) but i made this anyways. enjoy #pattern recognition go brrrrrrrrrrrrrr #i bent over backwards trying to make this symmetric and harmonious. it isn't but if i don't post it now i never will

[marionette-j2x]

TOH SPOILERS???? I THINK??? SORTA??? THE LINK BELOW THAT IS...

A re-draw of a crew art that made me absolutely feral- 😭😭😭❤️❤️

#javdfjjdhdjd i still can't beieve we have canon/non-canon huntlow kiss from toh crew and it's making me want to bite and rattle my cage- #toh #the owl house #toh s3 #toh season 3 #the owl house s3 #the owl house season3 #toh for the future #toh spoilers #toh huntlow #huntlow #winter toh #wintery junk #deth re-draw #toh hunter noceda #toh willow park #hunter noceda #willow park #hunter x willow #my art #digi art #digital art #mj2x #marionettej2x #toh hunter #toh willow #and don't get me started on Mike's huntlow drawings i'm hhHhhhhhhHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! *rattles my cage* #for the future

[unpersoniverse]

I saw a tweet that said Korra's only a softie around Asami and one thing led to another...

#totally inspired by taylor swift's song gorgeous #you know that line #you make me so happy it turns back to sad ?? #these two before they got together #then they been dating so long and still look at each other and go😡 can't 😡 believe 😡 you're😡mine😡i 😡love😡you😡 #god bless korrasami #yeah #korrasami #korra #asami sato #my art #fanart #tlok #avatar the legend of korra #atla #wlw #valentines day #these two being soft for and only each other are my weakness bye #they're in love your honor

[egophiliac]

Hi!!! I just wanted to say that I really love the way you draw/write Vil in your little comics! I think you do a great job at capturing the more fun side of him in addition to the “pretentious, wine mom” look that’s often portrayed. It just makes the character feel more real.

Also, I was wondering if there was any way you could post that other version of Vil’s unique magic poster to the drive? The one with the full body shot? That’s one of my favorite pieces! (If not it’s totally chill - just figured I’d ask)

Thanks and have a great day!!!

thank you! 💜 and yeah, sure! I popped it in there as "Fairest One of All (Alternate)", and I apologize in advance for your black ink. (secretly though I also love how that one came out, so thank you for the validation. :') sometimes I do good!)

confession: when Twst was still in pre-release, I was not expecting to like any of the pom trio (the website descriptions are kinda terrible for everyone, and especially them). fortunately I was immediately proven wrong when it turned out that they're less ~mysterious aloof beauties~, and more the very weirdly specific dynamic of "Team Rocket except James got all the camp (and also Meowth is their weird little feral child they're trying to pull a pygmalion on against his will)".

(it's a good dynamic)

#art #twisted wonderland #i am aware that this is still oversimplifying them but this is also mostly a Joke so #i was surprised by how much i ended up liking vil! i don't talk about him that much i guess but he is one of my favorites #just harder to make jokes about i guess #not that i don't try! #everyone in twst is ridiculous and even vil can't escape

[lazylittledragon]

thinking about modern vampires who aren't suspicious bc they're just the local goth couple

#art #doodle #comic #the damsons #they're both queer obvs #they can't sit right #also i believe that if you're going to make a m/f goth couple #he should be wearing JUST AS MUCH MAKEUP AS HER #if not more #it's only fair #also hi i'm still alive i just went to a festival and my brain has been reset

[astrolavas]

my art style is too simple for this but just know that when i draw post-ttt hunter, in my mind he has central pink-brown heterochromia. like this, kinda:

#just..... so neat to me #i love the brown but sometimes i miss the pink + it being a visible grimwalker feature so THIS is how i cope #also To Me his eyes also absolutely reflect pink in the dark still #the owl house #hunter toh #toh hunter #my art #? #my sketches #my doodles #hunter #my toh talk #headcanon #nicole talks #there's also the quite popular complete heterochromia headcanons where his right eye is brown and left magenta #but i can't FULLY commit to those cuz ig the logistics of it depends on what fully happened and WHY hunter's eye color changed. magic-wise #and we don't knowwww! and i'm not sure what to go with and it's gonna bother me if my headcanon is not Air-Tight XNSKSJK #and even if it's “he gets flapjack's eyes thus only the right one” it also won't let me sleep at night cuz #there's the fact that we've SEEN flapjack's left eye open! which might've been an animation error but AUYGHGHHH..... #also . 2 different eye colors make color palettes harder LMAO i make them slightly different when i draw him with brown eyes vs pink. so! #but central heterochromia....... oh my mind is SET on this. like it's canon To Me

[electrozeistyking]

Tiny Disassembler Tries To Put Himself in Second Food Coma; Girlfriend Won't Let Him

(you better believe that first time was an accident)

#love this lil guy #uzi's like ''YOU CAN'T DO THAT'' and he's just ''AHHHH!'' #he can't talk but he can still scream #the struggle of uzi doorman trying to keep her boyfriend from knocking himself out #meanwhile v is laughing her head off... what can i say uzi ''arguing'' with a tiny drone is hilarious #murder drones #murder drones uzi #murder drones n #murder drones v #serial designation n #serial designation v #uzi doorman #tiny n au #nuzi #listen i just make a lot of art and they're all sitting in my files #this was all done with my finger because my old apple pencil gave out btw #TINY N'S HUNGRY LEAVE HIM ALONE #zeisty’s goofs

[lulu-draws-stuff]

Don't fraggle me I'm rock. er.. fraggle scared. umm....

#art #illustration #fanart #dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared #fraggle rock #dhmis yellow guy #dhmis red guy #dhmis duck guy #yellow guy #red guy #duck guy #I've made them fraggles :] #this was fun to do #I have more ideas for what it'd be like if they were fraggles. but I can't seem to draw them out properly #so you'll have to wait until later when I can #if I remember that is #also I know fraggles don't usually have patterns but I wanted to make it sorta look like Yellow guy still had his nose #and Duck guy still had his beak and legs

[attleboy]

Okay I see your dog bone post and raise you. Pomni had stim toys as a kid, and that’s why she tends to bite things often.

i thiiiink i get what you're trying to say?? to which i'm going to say that the pomni bone chewing post is very much inspired by own experience chew stimming... so in my mind pomni probably would've had a stim toy at some point or at least would benefit from one. andddd a doodle.. :) gave the girl something to bite on she [hopefully] won't destroy in 2 seconds

#i've actually never used sensory things specifically for chewing?? so i can't personally vouch for chewelry but i've heard good things #i just chew on my fingers or random things that i'm pretty sure won't poison me which. DISCLAIMER. you probably SHOULDN'T do that haha #also researching chewelry made me realize they make chewable pencil toppers??? i wish i had those when i still used wooden pencils #the amazing digital circus #my art #ask response #chompni #pomni

[whatudottu]

Don't question what logical loops I had to leap through to make this happen, Shockwave's already doing that for y'all :)

do you think in universes where empurata exists that shockwave can remember the feeling of having a face? of remembering seeing from two eyes instead of one? does his head burn in pain as a twitch of non-existant lips spark incomplete pathways through his brain, does he miss the sensation of teeth and tongue beneath those twitching lips, heavy against the bottom of the mouth he no longer has?

:) Big Boobie Decepticons :)

#shockwave #tfp shockwave #breakdown #tfp breakdown #transformers #tfp #maccadam #fanart #making a joke post only to caption it with heavy shit? hip hip hooray! #another edition of 'putting shockwave into situations that utterly confound him' #this being 'breakdown lives' edition or at least 'breakdown lives long enough to see shockwave' #this is a high effort shitpost i used to cope with the fact i have no puter only laptop so i do art instead #which is an oldie from when i still had school so it's ONLY purpose is to art #because it can't do anything else atm #the text in shockwave's colour is a modified 'why are we here' copypasta #having to deal with the chicanery of breakdown's bodacious chassis chat #i'd say that the confusion alone if not the irritation would be logical enough reason for the processor to run wild #even if he calls it illogical in the process #i don't know the size difference between shockwave and breakdown #i just know that starscream is about the same heightish as shockwave give or take a stiletto #and breakdown's taller than screamer so... head taller (if measuring from head because wow shoulders) breakdown #which is funny to me because breakdown's an apc and shockwave's a tank damn these proportions are wacky 😫