So like I have two characters, Rust (they/them) and Pierce (he/him). I basically projected most of myself onto Pierce because I wanna be him SOOOO BAD. I am making them gay for each other (platonic) and I realized that I may or may not have accidentally written Rust based on an old crush I had. It's one of those crushes that turned into a FP and lasted for YEARS but was unrequited because he never liked me. He ended up being a piece of shit but looking back, I obviously won't diagnose bc that's weird but I realized he just like me fr. We have so many similar symptoms that for me present as NPD and I wouldn't be surprised yk? Like he could make the choice to redeem himself and be aware of his actions. Okay ramble OVER.
I want Rust to be everything I wish he was but also take examples of his bad actions and flaws to make Rust more human. I want them to be a realistic portrayal of an Asian character as well because representation is so important to me, even tho it's so obviously the bare minimum to accurately represent a character and their culture. I think taking inspiration from my old friend will really help because they both have a lot of the same issues, and how their ego presents comes from similar generational traumas. I've also been getting a lot of info from one of my RAAAD mutuals and each day I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to forming Rust.
They're so fuckin cool and buff and gay and I LOVE THEM!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!
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"how can so much beauty hide such a bruised and steely heart, and why must I love him, why must i lean in my weariness upon his irresistible yet indomitable strength? is he not the wizend funeral spirit of a dead man in a child's clothes?"
part two of #darkgiftober : children of darkness - the vampire armand
he's my favourite :-)
thanks to @thedagleisnerart (on instagram) for the prompt list!
Really liked this squid doodle and made a couple of the upcoming dishes in this week’s Etsy update with it, so there will be two different choices for squid dishes!
I came up with this on a whim and now I'm so excited to finish my idea with guitars and drums n shit. I'm thinking of it starting off minor key balladey (think hadestown) to translate the "woe is me" attitude a lot of us narcs have as a coping mechanism deflecting from the fact we caused problems, then it turns to guitars and emo melodies to represent narc rage, which fluctuates until a huge change at the end representing a crash