#how r u? hope everything is going amazing for you boo

[ditttiii]

I hope you're not running yourself too ragged with college, jagiya.

*blinks* i- *squints* the familiarity with which you write has me wondering if we have talked before nonnie

#ditttiii asks #sweet asks #awww! #this is really sweet tho <3 thankyou for thinking about me #i am being killed by my college yes but hopefully that wont be the same for long #how r u? hope everything is going amazing for you boo #sending all my love xoxoxoxo

[bluesora]

ya’ll really going to be out there making me cry is that it ??? i took one small break and suddenly everyone’s making my heart brust with uwuwuwu and love and istg cheese cult is out there trying to kill me with their love 🥺💕

let me be sappy while my i ride out my writer’s block right now! (there’s no order to this ok)

@akaashichigo

jem bby (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀) thank you for creating a goddamn cult lmao,, the amount of positivity and love from it is so wholesome. i’m so happy i took the courage to talk to you and joined your tumblr gc. it all started from there, and now it blossomed into something so amazing. ilysm!!!!!

@drainedjaz

jaz bby (*´ω`*) thank you for being so friendly and breaking the ice for everyone !! it made the whole conversation carry forward a lot easier and i’m so amazed at your free and beautiful soul, i love you so much !!!!! pls give me a fridge!

@cali-writes-sometimes

maddie bby (о´∀`о) thank you for rounding up our cheese cult bbys and making a list almost everything !! your cheese edits, omg do i even need to say much?? how are u so talented aiwnzjjwks i love my organized bby 👀!!!! hehe

@annalyn-annalyn

anna bby ٩( 'ω' )و thank you for your cheese crack fics you have no idea how amazing it was to be able to write that oanwisjwksk the amount of talent??? ur brimming with it and i love you so much my dear please know that !!!!!

@estherwritess

aster bby (*⁰▿⁰*) even though i know you’re busy with your finals and being in nursing isn’t easy but i want to say i’m so glad to be able to meet you and i’m proud of you and to hear u say you’re close to me? my heart bursted. ilysm!

@ushiwakaa

wifey (〃ω〃) thank you for being such a lovely and supportive wife !! you have no idea how much my heart just go uwuwuwu for you and even though you’re the sun to my moon, i will always love you so much my dear ♡

@pineapplekween

vic bby (๑>◡<๑) thank you for being such a sweet and kind soul my heart just melts whenever i see you online. your voice is so pretty and adorable when you speak in english, also that ushi smut? im proud! kocham Cię !!!!!

@kxgeyamasmilk

risse bby (*´꒳`*) thank you for being such a sweetie and lmao singlish? chinese? yes. your bod control? yes. just have a whole harem for yourself my love lmao. i love our late night wholesome conversations so much ilysm !!!!!!

@from-left-to-write

lee bby ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) you kinky lil shit i love you. your singing? floored. your laughter? floored. your big brain imagination? yes. i’m so proud of you bby for writing that sakusa fic, i can’t wait to see more of your beautiful talent bby girl! ilysm!

@milkandc00kiez

ellie bby (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵) my cutiepie !!! you’re so adorable dear thank you so much for being such a sweet lil honey tea i can list so many pet names for you i—i love you so much dear, ok? ok! the wholesome conversations we have? i love it !!!!!

@raevaioli

raenah bby ( ✌︎'ω')✌︎ my fellow local, you have no idea how much i love your writing aisnxiwnkaj upgrading from a fan to friend? you can just have my heart dear omg. and you’re such a sweet soul too raeji is my ult ship now. ilysm !!!!

@mlkytobio

chloe bby =(^.^)= my other fellow local, you cutiepie i love you so much !! why are you so cute? that yamz req?? you nailed it!! i’m so happy to have met you bby, please continue and let’s meet up ok? lets upgrade this r/s !!!!!

@akaashit-baeji

chloe bby (*^^*) even though you rare pop in now as compayti before, it doesn’t mean my love for you is any less ok? i love you so much and i love your cute writings too !!! i hope sakusa and akaashi will continue to run u over!!!

@kawanisshi

ash bby (ㆀ˘･з･˘) you exposed me >( but i still love you hehe !! i can’t wait to read that story you’re brewing dear !! my fingers are tingling knowing it’ll be so amazing so don’t hold back and go all out okay love?? i love you so much !!!!

@shishinoya

audrey bby Σ੧(❛□❛✿) you are so funny?? your humor is top notch and your voice? hngh. i love you so much bby, why are you so pretty my heart can’t take it!! just run me over with your beauty alr oof :’)) can’t wait 4 smth special 👀!!

@bubbleteaa

ana bby (*´∀`)♪ you lil akwnsiwjsk thanks for wreacking me yesterday huh. my heart? what that? gone for good lmao. i love you so much dear, pls collect ur harem. u r amazing at it. and you’re beautiful bby, i love your selfies so much!

@ouikarwa

riss bby (*･ω･)ﾉ thank you for so many things omg i dont even know where to start uwu your smut fics? ur edit? ur amazing writing? your swet messages? you telling me to sleep? lmao there’s so many and i just love you so much!!!!!!!

@agaassi

ae ra bby (^з^)-☆ you, my dear, stop attacking my heart with your beauty and cuteness lmao. innocence? wht that when you are overflowing with so much charisma!!! i love how opinionated and strong you are dear !! aetsumu ?? I SHIP IT!!

@haikkeiji

ana bby (*^▽^*) my most precious lil bby bub omg you have no idea how soft i am for you dear !!! i wanna kidnap you in my lil pocket and just shower you with so much love !!! you’re so adorable and mature!! i appreciate you so much

@airybby

airy bby (//∇//) morning before work thirst? end of work thirst? lmao bby you’re making me die from all those photos you sent on a daily aiwnsijwkaj i will invite to my funeral istg !! but i still love you so much so i guess we are even 👀

@simping4ratsumu

mya bby ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ i love you my bby boo! thank you for being so supportive and i’m so proud of you for taking time out to heal. know that i’ll always be here for you, so come to me if you need anything all right dear?? i love you bb !!!!

—

i’m running out of words and emoticon to express my constant love for y’all so please forgive me. thus, my writer’s block. just know that my love isn’t any less for those i didn’t write for ok? yall are still my bbys and i will fite anyone who hurt your delicate heart!! my dms, pms, asks, anyway to contact me will always be open for anyone who wants my 2cents of advise/deep conversations about life or controversial topics. life is shit, but we have each other <3 

@miyuswriting @thiccbokuto @sosugasweet @hanibuni @wakaitoshi @shinsukestan @heccingdead @kawaiikraykray @skiyoosmi @briswriting @fern-writes-ig @daiseukis and all 100+(?) members??? omg idk my brain is fried im sorry for those i did not tag uwuwuwu

#taeiliee rambles #cheese cult #i think i died writing this #i ran out of love from spilling too much oof

[lizardl0ver43]

okay okay okay. with all the flood of inital backlash against wayward son, i didnt see anyone say “ur stupid if u like the book.” it was just everyone’s honest thoughts, and some people were upset.

and yet... people in the wayward sun tag now are so fucking condescending, saying “lol yall r stupid the book was amazing u cant expect it 2 b all fluff”... and the thing is no one was expecting that! lol. a lot of us were expecting the book to actually confront and work through shared trauma. we knew going in that simon was going to b depressed! and as someone who knows what thats like, i was hoping for a narrative that deals with all the bad parts while still offering some semblance of hope! thats not naive or stupid to desire, especially when SO MANY queer stories are angst ridden and tragic and hopeless. part of why i loved how carry on ended was because it recognized the fact that everything wouldnt be suddenly okay for them, but encouraged simon to “carry on” and offered hope that they’d be able to come out on the other side someday! you can understand why wayward son undermines that interpretation. and im sorry but no one wants a story where characters are put through endless trauma and arent allowed any space to heal, even if just in baby steps. instead we got a kind of oscillation between conflict and happy moments with no actual progress. and i think it was 100% right for people to criticize that. especially since, going in those first few hours, we didn’t realize there’s probably a third book in store! now its common knowledge in the tag, but reading wayward son without realizing it’s setting up a sequel till the very end? heartwrenching. really upsetting!! people are allowed to criticize media lmao it isn’t “negativity” or “hate”..... like i see bs about the tag being more “positive” now and im like... it’s because the people who were let down kind of left after sharing our thoughts?? some of us have loved and, lets be real, projected onto these characters for years since the first book came out. and i think it’s highly personal how reading wayward son will effect you. some people loved it, okay! but as someone with severe depression, who was going in ready to relate 2 simon and excited to see an emotional, healing arc for him... when i realized it wasn’t going to be like that i was devastated. it’s shitty to say that people who didnt like the book as much for these reasons are somehow the stupid ones who dont understand rainbow’s master plan and just need to trust her... like GOD can you stop talking over people who are making very fair points! especially when a lot of criticism also points to other aspects, mainly the weak plot and all the remaining loose ends. (which uhhh frustration at a dissatisfying ending isnt the same as being like “boo hoo cliffhanger”) it pisses me off insanely when people are in the tag like “u guys are wrong wayward son is good did u expect butterflies and rainbows?” like stfu just say you liked the book without the insinuation that people who disagree with u dont make fair points

#wayward son #wayward son spoilers #snowbaz #rant alert! #u can tell who is upset because they are used to pain and suffering for lgbt characters #and who is happy because they somehow think thats subversive lol

[zishuwu]

hey! i dont know if you celebrate thanksgiving, but in the spirit! tag some of your closest friends on here to show you're grateful if you want to!

hi!! i don’t usually but 4 u i will!!! these r just a couple!! ok ok 

@love4marklee ally is probably one of my really close friends on here bc ,,, wow,,, what DONT i tell ally abt ngl.... its INSANE. like smth happens n im like. ally. ull NEVER believe what just happened. n allys like aw shit here we go again,,, angel can u NEVER sit still. n here we r. ally literally means the most to me n i love her with all my heart soul body astral projection,,,, ive known her for,,, too long now n oh shit? i genuinely love her thank u for everything ally :) u make me sosoosososo happy n ways u dont understand and thats OK !!! i just love the dumb tiktoks u send n have a scary ability of messaging exactly when i open the app or when ive just left the house to go out. its wild . i appreciate all of ur messages tho dont get it twisted i love u sosososo much :)

@1beloved N^2 WILL NEVER DIE. if nao n i ever meet,,,, the absolute CHAOS. that would happen,,,, oh, my, gods, y’all r lucky we live in diff places,,,, but one day y’all will COWER in our strength bc i too love nao with my everything !!! naos so cool n cute n chaotic,,,, what DOESNT nao have??? they remind me of like cooler nights in the city just chilling with friends n like. raving in the middle of target or smth nao is SO COOL n im eternally grateful to have met her and to be her friend,,,, wow,,,, N UR BASS VIDEOS,,,, I HOPE ITS OK,,,, but like i love it !! u playh for me n show me ur progress n im!! always so excted!!! aaaHh!!!

@doublelutz  hi!!!! asma,,,, wow,,,,, WOW,,,,, there r so many things to say i could not even begin nor end its INSANE but i adore u all the same !!! asmas so cool and funny and absolutely adorable! her antics and storytelling ability never fails to make me laugh :”) she talks rlly fast on the phone n like i just brain slow mode n im like. hello. n then she GIGGLES n its like. whooooosh !! uk!!!! im just really really grateful for asma :) she’s amazing n wonderful n caring n kind n considerate n i rlly cld go on forever like wow heart emoji personified for asma n asma ONLY. boom boom POW i love u !!!

@xiaocity hello siya :( listen. siya just. SIYA. uk ?? n ive uve ever talked to siya i can guarantee that u were endeared in all ways possible shes so DYNAMIC n like whoosh boom boom pow crush!!!!! she kills everything she does. shes like a+ here a+ there oh look? im the best person alive? yeah . yeah she IS . like thats my BABY

@perks-of-being-a-violinist hannah!!!! hi i feel like i met hannah two months ago but suddenly i tell hannah abt everything like im like a five yr old talking to hannah im so unsure as to why she still talks to me im like that kid who draws this absolute terrible drawing n is like LOOK BE PROUD OF ME n hannah is the one who sighs n tapes it on the fridge. yeah. but i loev hannah for everything n anything like hannah will breathe n ill be liketake notes angel. thats how u be amazing. like hannah is just all around a great person?? shes kind and wonderful and cool n im so sos o so so grateful im friends w her. she makes me rlly happy n im like wow! shes so positive n like look on the bright side!!!! n im like boo emo n she like ok. but positivity n uk what. i respect that. im grateful for her. 

@leoomoon SAMAAAAAAAAA hello!!!! i love  u!!!! me n samaa talk once a century or week or two n im like. adoration face? on. i just. love samaa w every inch of my body n soul like i cant help that!!! u message back n my braincells flip theyre like its samaaa its SAMAA pick up ur phone fuck biology pick up the PHONEEEEEE its odd but. thats how that works !! u also make me really reallylyyy happy !! samaa,,, best person alive? yes. theyre like hi im here for u n the times u fuck up n im like !! same for u !! but this time i did smth REALLY dumb ,,, n theyre like sigh,,,, why r u always doing such last minute crap,,,, n iim like. ik i do this to myself but. pls. KNJDFKJNSDJKNFJKDKJF idk samaa is just so cool n nice n SUPER UBER cool n understanding n compassionate i cld go on for centuries rlly but ill stop here w a im grateful for u :)

@limitlessjohnny aaaaAAAAh last but def CERTAINLY not least. hayden is like,,, whoooooo!!! if i dont talk to hayden at least once im like. is smth wrong.... maybe i shld send an ily. thats it there we go. n thats that !!! id k i just like get worried rlly fast ! if im on insta,,, im probably talking to hayden ! i love them sm sm sm !! they dont mind when im dumb or when i respond late when im sleeping !! n they always tell me to get rest n somehow know when im awake??? FREAKY. but appreciated habit. they also tell me cool stories !!! like they tell me things they do n places they go n things to keep in mind abt college n life advice hello older sibling i wish i had :( i love love love hayden sm !! aaaaAAAAAh !!!! i rlly cld go on n on w hayden n how cool they are!! but i shldnt forget to mention im grateful for how sympathetic n open they are !! i rlly value tht n like aim to be so open?? wow??? omg

#mail #anon #thank u for sending this!!! #tho i am nervous #im grateful for so many more ppl but like. off the top of my head. yes. #my closest fridns !!! i have more !! but just. yeah. #thank u thank u <3

[pinkykitten]

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before Headcanons

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before 

Warning: did not re-read srry 

Requested: By @mega-trash-cringe To all the boys I’ve loved before head cannons?

Authors Note: i was gonna add lara jean but i didnt so if u would like her (i only do her with male) headcanon or anything fic related pls request i will write it! did u guys see the news for tatbilb 2? they r gonna add jordan fisher which i love he was in like the other casting of hamilton but he sings so good and i just love him. then they r also adding ROSS BUTLER OHMYGODIMSCREAMINGIMSOEXCITED!!!!! like if yall know he is one of my bbys i love 13 reasons why and i love everyone from there and he is just such a sweetheart <3<3<3 this is a bit long especially peter’s part so enjoy! 

Peter Kavinsky 

first off your guys relationship is real

you met when you um...fell face first in front of everyone on the track court (lol i hope thats what its called cuz like girl my school was CHEAP we didnt have anything like that)

he was like your knight in shining armor

“whoa whoa whoa (gotta add those whoas) you okay there y/n”

now since that day you two are inseparable 

legit are COUPLES GOALS

piggyback rides™

like whenever you feel way too tired to walk or anything (cuz ur lazy like moi) he literally will pick you up like you dont way a thing and put you on his back

you also trying to get him on your back but you fail miserably and you two end up laughing so hard

you two sharing a shake or something at the cafe

 if there is a song he likes or you like he will be the one to say “lets dance”

you of course refuse cause you’re shy and there are legit people trying to eat

“c’mon girl you gotta dance with me”

almost like begging

finally give in and you two will start dancing in front of everyone

standing on his toes while you two dance

nicknames

will pick you up from school or literally anywhere

COUPLES BRACELETS

that boi never takes it offfff, like never

tells you everyday how beautiful you are 

even without makeup and you are full of acne and look like you just got ran over he will kiss all your pimples all over your face and tell you how cute you are and how much he loves you both ways

he legit is a sweetheart icanttakeit

taking long trips into town or across town to your favorite stores

already knows what songs you like and puts them on the radio just to hear you sing

oh boi oh boi when he hears you sing its like he’s fallen in love again

“god babe, you sound amazing. i wish i sang like you”

two would dance like crazy teenagers in his car

him trying to sing to you

holding your hand while driving which you slap him for that, “all hands on the wheel kavinsky”

likes it when you boss him around

when you go onto bus rides with him or in his car across town he will buy all your favorite snacks

ALL. OF. THEM.

loves buying you gifts

almost everyday he is buying you something

THIS BOI IS SO EXTRA I SWEAR!!! 

going to a field trip you will probably (lol i used to but i fell asleep against the cold window and like i had no one who sat by me...*all by myself by celine dion starts playing in the background*...im fine) fall asleep and if your neck is turned into an uncomfortable position peter will straighten it out for you and place your head gently on his shoulder

giving you kisses all over while you’re sleeping

also many many many many many many pictures of you sleeping, awake, eating you name it that boi’s camera roll is all full of you

changes his background to his phone like everyday!

SUPER PROTECTIVE OF YOU

especially at parties

he will have his hand resting on your hip or just resting on you so people know not to mess with you

if someone starts to bully you or hurt you in any way peter will threaten them and make them super scared

no one messes with his baby

have any fights he does ignore you but he cant ignore you for long cause he loves you and you are just so cute and sweet and you always make it up to him

have any issues with your fam or friends and you need to sleep over his house for some time just to find yourself he lets you and you sleep either on his bed or if you’re not comfortable he makes a bed on his floor that he sleeps on and you sleep in his bed

comforting you all the time when he sees your sad

cuddles

ever have your period he will get all your snacks and get anything you need

pads? hes got it. tampons? “girl i got that already covered.” chocolate? please he on that too. 

holy smokes you both have a couples handshake that lasts longer than professor x and magneto’s beef with each other

both text each other memes and vines

oh god vine references 4 DAYS SON

he is so understanding of you

yours guy thing i know is so weird but is watching like all the housewives shows

peter has his favorite and you two watch it in his bed cuddled up

he trash talks the tv and like starts with his, “nuh uh girl whatcha think you doing?”

aint ashamed or embarrassed to watch it

like during school hours he will go up to you while you’re in a conversation and its like “remember baby housewives day!”

when you guys go to a library you read for like a what 3 seconds and then you two make out in the corner and the librarian has to interrupt you two stating that its too noisy

all in all peter is your baby and you would protect him with your life, he’s your soul your everything and he feels the same way about you two your relationship is so vanilla and adorable it makes grown men cry

Josh Sanderson

you started a relationship with josh after he and margot split

it felt wrong to you at first and you tried to push the feelings away

josh is such a cinnamon roll

he is always so kind to you

he makes sure you’re okay and happy

you couldn't push him away any longer and decided to accept him as your boyfriend

at first pda was strange because of his relationship with margot but soon you showed it in baby steps at school around town

now holding his hand seems normal to you

hes the first one to text you

his texts are beautiful and so heart felt

like poetry

he is such a gentleman

listen to you with all his heart

sleepovers always on sundays

as you lean on his shoulder he reads to you and you fall asleep

go to school together, he downloads all your favorite music or favorite audibles and puts the other ear plug in your ear so you two share

or watch hilarious videos of like fails or gordan ramsay (*sigh* the perfect relationship)

sometimes you two act out his things on the cooking show tv

yeah with the accent

people look at you two like what have yall been smoking

already talking about when you two have kids and like what house and the name of those kids

“okay but we should also have a dog in the mix and name him something like cactus”

god hes just so adorable sometimes you wanna cry

during break in school you two go to the bleaching boards or whatever you call those seats and you sit on his lap

best moments to kiss 

you also share snacks

play all the time heads up

come over to his house to study

but we all know its just to make out

having moments when you feel self conscious or insecure he sits you down on his lap or across from him and looks you straight in the eyes making you do the same and tells you how amazing you are and important to him and how much he loves you

since you sleepover his house so much you two have matching pjs

PILLOW FIGHTS ALL THE TIME

he rants to you and discusses with you about comics

wants to name his kid tony for tony stark

“c’mon babe tony sanderson sounds pretty cool you have to admit”

fishing trips all the time

YOU CANT FISH AT ALL

you endure for his sake

teaches you about all the fishes

you buy him a fish blanket

now you two cuddle with it all the time

masks

you bring over your clay mask or those really really slimy ones and make josh wear one

“oh my god how do you even wear these things?”

the black mask one that hurts as well

he almost cries

you kiss his boo boos

take pics like that with the mask on

take cute and weird pics for instagram

NECK KISSES

wearing matching outfits 

compliments you so genuinely and lovingly all the time

if you ever hurt yourself or like cut your finger he will get so worried and kiss it lightly

“there all better baby”

OF COURSE ITS BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!

you love sitting on his lap

he nuzzles into your neck almost like a cat

making him things legit makes the boi wanna cry

lovez baking together

is such a help in the kitchen he wants to make sure he’s involved

pinky promises with the little kiss at the end

“till the end princess”

you just practically wanna marry this man

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#to all the boys ive loved before #tatbilb #peter kavinsky #josh sanderson #noah centineo #israel broussard #fanfic #headcanons #imagine #x reader #to all the boys i've loved before imagine #to all the boys i've loved before headcanons #peter kavinsky x reader #peter kavinsky imagine #peter kavinsky headcanons #josh sanderson x reader #josh sanderson imagine #josh sanderson headcanons #race neutral reader #requested #can i yes pls have a peter kavinsky or a noah like i dont mind tbh #i made myself like wanna marry them...cool

[alchemist-shizun]

As expected, Dealing with intrusive thoughts is now one of my favorites

Here I come with almost all of my reactions on the episode, even though I tagged the spoiler warnings I put everything under the cut just in case. Enjoy the emotional rollercoaster while I'll probably go and rewatch it again.

Okay kinda expected one or two of the warnings but all of them together what is gonna happen???? (Though they make sense after reading the title)

HELLO FRESH BACK AGAIN

"I'm awesome and I can do this" there goes my boy. *said boy falls flat on the floor* ...come on

I felt that yawn bc I stayed up all night waiting for the video but it dropped at 8 am, I'm an idiot who should've gotten more sleep

"help me" why is he such a mood "everything is going wrong in my life" same but YOU SHOULDN'T SAY THAT LET ME HUG YOU

They're all sinking up so fast god I missed my bois. Also the general awkwardness of Virge and Pat, greeeeat something will go wrong

Virgil just ignoring everything and touching the railing, a mood

ALSO PLEASE LET ROMAN IN THE SITUATION

SECRET SECRETS ARE NO FUN TELL ME NOW OR ELSE WE'RE DONE

wait why does Ro want to be deeply troubled- man are you okay-

LOGAN'S HERE

"your most extreme reaction is an eyebrow raise" "FALSEHOOD" "I stand corrected" omfg

"what are you ta- what are you talking- what are you talking about?" I loved that whole take it made me feel complete

"Look I barely got any sleep" this can apply to a lot of us and I love just how we're all always like "TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF" but in the end this is where we all end up anyway

Okay I'm very curious about these troubling thoughts though

"so sushi" FUCCC I DIED RIGHT THERE

"Don't act like that was an accident" "everybody, Virgil. Let's give it up for the Purp Man" these speak for themselves. Also the purp man is my new fav nickname and I'm gonna use it.

4:17 Patton is adorable bye

"if you continue to push this we're going to end up in really dangerous territory" AND THAT'S WHERE THE TENSION STARTED TO BUILD UP

great flick

"am I delirious or is this the funniest video I've ever made" I felt that

YOU HIGH-JOCKED

okay but when Thomas starts disassociating I also feel really weird like as if there was something blocking my own hearing for real?? And not just the audio edited like that?? Maybe I'm just too tired

WHAT WHO WHHH first intrusive thought making its way what is gonna happen

OH MY GOD ROMAN WATCH OUT ALSO THAT'S DEFINITELY A NEW DARK SIDE OR SMTH LIKE THAT

W HO THE FUCKLKDSL IS THAT A MOUSTACHE IS THAT GLITTER WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HE WEARING WHAT IS HE DOING THERE PLEASE- okay but he looks crazy af I like that

"-evIL" "-SHOW UP"

First time I watched the scene where Ro gets knocked out I literally just screamed "ROMAN" in a high pitched sound I was shook wtf my bOY

Patton and Thomas's yells in unison plus "YOU KILLED HIM" I just I JUST

"Ah, he's the Duke" "....... boo" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay but his voice is so on point with his character portrayal he's so weird it's awesome?

SONG SONG SONG and oh goodness the visuals I can't fathom how much editing work must have gone through this, they're all so talented.

"aunt patty naked" A G AI N??

"IM GONNA WHIP YOUR BUTT"

a snaKE IT'S DECEIT oh my these silouhettes are so great this is my favorite scene

this is gonna be stuck in my head all day

THE COOL MIRROR EDIT.

god i hate him so much already but i'm super intrigued he's so chaotic the whole team made a wonderful job i'll never stop saying this

"i'm really stupid right now" just how much out of context relatable content are we going to get on this fine day?

omg the dark version of creativity, which can be associated with intrusive thoughts, that's very clever

THE JUICY STUFF DANCE

"Repression can be very bad indeed" I mean he's right tbh it leads to never solving the problem at all

GO LOGAN GO HAVE YOUR TIME TO SHINE FINALLY i missed him

"i can't hear youuuuuu" much like "I don't understand what you're saying I don't know anything about words" THE DARK SIDES ARE ALL SASSY LITTLE BITCHES

pattonnnn did a real good job

THE BRAVE HANDSOME UNBEATABLE ROMAN and mashed potatoes

"scary" and Virgil just gives Thomas a look idk I live on the little details (Im ten minutes into the vid and look how long this post already is)

GEE Remus (already using his name bc it's shorter) looking so offended at the label and then pointing out it should be a Virgil problem whAT DOES THIS MEAN IM SHAKING

WHY WOULD HE BE DECEIT AGAIN IM DYING. "Idk if you guys can tell but I'm a little silly"

"then why are you lying" no everybody I don't need angst

THE BLACK AND THE WHITE THEORY I SAW GOING AROUND good job to whoever thought of that

JOAN

the forbidden dance

INTO A BUTTHOLE WHAT IS IT WITH HIM AND BUTTHOLES

there u go thomas said it too

haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate FHDSLAKLFD

irresponsible parenting, Logan completing the parental unit of the sides

"maybe there's hope for you after all!" me looking at all my wips

REMUS' LAUGH IS PERFECT. also "BITCH WHAT IS *YOUR* DEAL"

"you've never been one to soften the truth" OH BOI HERE WE GO

"do we have some case of brain swap???" I legitly said "maybe" in unison with Patton the first time

Vee pls stop putting Thommy boy down he's having a bad time

Logan trying to put some sense into the situation is my only spark of hope for this to turn back good

REMUS IS SO DRAMATIC

That lick was ....... let's pretend it never happened

"you know who can help us with that???" DECEIT'S SONG COMING UP that was great, imagine the chaos that the duo would create

"THATS WHAT REPRESSION IS?"

gasp Remus trying to make Virgil angry at Logan shall not stand DON'T PUT THEM AGAINST ONE ANOTHER HE'S JUST TRYING TO HELP

"you all are not listening to Thomas" this is the development I needed

"you're just para-" and he cuts himself. You all know what I'm talking about. Foreshadowing probably? This happened too back then when Roman was almost calling him the same. And then Virge looks so hurt I- "thank you for being on guard" that made me want to cry idk

the whole speech Logan gave? Pure gold. That was perfect.

HE SAID FIGURATIVELY *CLAP CLAP CLAP*

"UH RECORD SCRATCH?"

"does this make me cool?" djslagrkglhf also the teeth thing right after what the

... the deodorant eating ...

DUKEY

The first time I watched I thought his name was spelled Remis that's how dumb my Italian ass is

Still I love his name bc I'm a nerd for ancient culture, ESPECIALLY Roman (and ancient Greek but it isn't mentioned here) and I love the little thing they did with both Creativity names, super clever and very much liked on my part.

"I would never hide anything from you" and he looks at Virgil JUST ALL THIS FORESHADOWING

LOGAN SHOWING HIS TEETH BACK UP

"how about you shut up" Roman what the hecc man

THAT THING INTO LOGANS HEAD UNSETTLED ME A BIT

what are they doing to him today let him rest

double blow

"can we logic our way out of that?" everybody nodding was so pure

"shit"

THAT FUCKING JUMPSCARE I'M SORRY WHAT THE FU

"not all thoughts are meaningful"

He's go- no he's back again

THE CALLBACK MENTION AND PATTONS REACTION... probable foreshadowing to what Joan said about there being a part two of SvS?

"When are you actually gonna jump out of a moving car I've been bringing it up for years" so it's not just me..?

"it is okay if the thought happens to cross your mind"

"everything is okay" I'm going to cry I needed that

I love how Logan touches the topic that there is no problem in seeking help from therapists. There's a lot to say on this, but I was really glad that was pointed out since the are a lot of stereotypes on the matter

why did Virgil look like he was about to cry

Patton I love you

Thomas going to rest is what everyone wanted to see

Virgil confronting Remus I'm living you're doing amazing sweetie

"you tickle me emo"

"it was just like old times" then Pat and Lo's looks in this essay I will

ROMAAAAN

VIRGILS SMILE

"YOU'RE ALIVE"

"I LOVE YOU" ME TOO!! ME TOO ME TOO

"are you good?" "are you hurt at all?" I love when the sides look out for each other

"I'm sorry Logan" right through the heart. Another development.

I need y'all to look at Virgil in this exact second because. he.

that's my point.

All those smiles while Logan's talking are making me alive

"No seriously, you're ... really ... cool" I started tearing up right here. Twice. And then Logan sinks down cause he's not at all used to this and he's feeling t h i n g s please keep on being appreciated you deserve it

Also Patton always learning from his mistakes and understanding them when he does something wrong or he thinks in the wrong direction, that's something I think a lot of people need to learn, including myself. Like, it's okay to be wrong and make mistakes, just do your best to make sure you're improving yourself afterwards, instead of dwelling on it too much

"I don't like him" makes two of us

"Soooo you have a brother?" oh boy

The m i r r o r it's making me cry

"He's gone now and he's never coming back!" "I don't think that's-" "BYEE" what was all that talk about repression for if you contiNUE TO DO THIS ROMAN please I beg of you let us hELP YOU he's making me die inside

Oh boi the big moment. I already expected a bomb to drop since Virgil was the last one remaining.

"You okay buddy?" "Huh?" op somehow was already found crying

"I'm a little disappointed in myself" istg all that foreshadowing mixed with me wanting to hug him

The music picking up tension, this is poetic cinema let me tell you

I noticed how he calls them "the others", all these tiny details is what I'm living for

"I should know better" I couldn't beLIEVE IT, also how he seemed to be so frustrated made something inside me break

the pause and then "Because I was one of them", the music stops for a second, a little second in which you can hear my distant screaming "GOSH HE SAID IT IT WAS TRUE"

Thomas is speechless and just stares at him while the music picks up again and then Virgil's sigh and expression sinking down like "there you have it. that's the truth. and you can't do anything about it" he looks so defeated I'm breaking down.

Did I already mention poetic cinema? I just love angst and this scene was perfect

First time watching I, too, barely understood anything I was listening to in the last parte because all of that was really a lot to take in.

"Those thoughts that you may have thought do not define you"

"[the thought] may simply be that we are really okay"

"Go to bed!" me

no im not in the mood for food because for some unfathomable reason I had anxiety before the video dropped yay me

WHY ARE U DRINKING RED WINE WITH THAT DISH

GAVIN BEST BOY EVER

and last but not least: are you fucking serious Remus

THERE'S A SNAKE IN MY BUTT FANDFKJL

I didn't expect this topic at all and I am so glad it was talked about, thankfully my intrusive thoughts do not bother me as much as I realized other people's do. And I never saw anyone talking about this before, which is why it makes this video so important. I saw a tweet recently about someone saying that it is okay if you think about weird things, the important is that you never act on them, that's what makes you a good person. But I think this video really explains it far better and I never realized how common something like this was? So yeah another time in which I've been educated and couldn't be happier about it. These people really are bringing light to the world gah I LOVE THEM.

oKAY guess I'm done this was a wild ride and yeah I tend to point out EVERYTHING, so here you have it, as I already mentioned if you feel the need to geek out too, I'm here for ANYBODY! (pls I have no friends)

#ts spoiler #thomas sanders #sanders sides #sanders sides spoilers #roman sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #deceit sanders #ts roman #ts logan #ts remus #ts virgil #ts patton #ts deceit #deceit mention #swearing #tw swearing #dealing with intrusive thoughts #spoilers

[geminimoonbeamx]

Ok listen I came here to rave about Of All The Things Unsaid because it broke my heart and also took me deep into my own feelings and was just overall so well written and it was so interesting to see you change things up with your style a bit UGH!! But then I saw that a-z ask and I NEED to know the full a-z from you on Bucky Barnes 👻💕 PS ...... can I be added to your tag list ?? I’m on here at super freak times and I feel like I always miss out on your posts! Keep being amazing ilu 💕

Thank you so much boo💖 I’m so happy you liked my depression manifested in OATLU😂! And okay so why was Bucky A-Z so hard? His sensuality was difficult to peg but I hope I did it justice!

Bucky Barnes sexy A-Z

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Bucky Barnes is one needy man after sex- especially after the rough passionate fucking you usaully receive from him after long missions or emotionally grueling days. He’s grabby and literally octopuses his large body around yours

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Bucky’s favorite body part of his is his flesh and blood arm- he knows its a shitty internalized hatred thing but he still wishes he was on that little farm in Wakanda, he'd gotten pretty good at doing everything one handed.

Bucky loves your middle, loves your soft plush tummy and your waist. Would have his arms wrapped around your middle for the rest of hs life if he could

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Bucky loves coming on your ass when he fucks you doggy, he loves how it rolls and drips off of your round cheeks.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Bucky loves toys. He loves to put you in vibrating panties and take ou to important dinners.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Bucky has been around the block- lets be real. Back in the 40’s he had a new dame every weekend(sometimes more then one). He even got ass during the war. But since he got out of Cyro you're the first person he’s even kissed

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Doggy. 100%- he loves your plump ass. But he also likes holding you and fucking you againts walls, just because of your reaction to it, you never thought a man would be able too pick you up.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Bucky’s actually a funny fuck and genuinely gets joy from intimacy with you. He’s made you laugh while making you cum and that's one hell of an experience.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

He went AU natural for a long time and that man had a BUSH. He trims for you, keeps it nice and tidy. Its still dark and prominent though. You love it.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

He was really awkward about it, it felt weird to let himself get to that place. Now he loves it, the two of you love reading together. Bathing together.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

You love watching him work himself over, he gets so pretty when his fist is wrapped around his cock. Love waiting him writhe and come all over his knuckles.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Bucky loves to be rimmed- it just feels so good when you're blowing him- he totally jumped and almost kneed you in the face the first time you tried it though lol

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Honestly he’ll fuck you anywhere, but he prefers somewhere cozy and safe-where he’s checked all the exits and windows because it gets him in the right mindset.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

He’s not gonna lie- when you get all dolled up and wear that red lipstick he loves he cant help but grab handfuls of you.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He refuses any kind of blindfold play- Bucky doesn't like his senses being taken away. He likes(needs) to be in control.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Bucks a giver- he remembers being tongue deep under the skirts of pretty girls in the back of dance halls. He’s good with his mouth- and you get to be on the receiving end to that.

P = Pace (Are they fats and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Depends and varies. He loves fucking you slow though, loves watching your body take him, all of him.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

He’s not a fan of quickies- they remind him of the war and the USO sow girls and gunpowder and his first tastes of death/ He especially doesn't like them with you, he wants to take his time with you. Wants to savor it.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Not really, I mean you guys did fuck in a coat closet at the White House but you almost got caught by the CIA and that's always a mood killer right?

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Three words: Super Soldier Serum. That man has WRECKED you before. Literally 5 rounds back to back. Your thighs shook for days.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

He enjoys toys- he’s always been a techie nerd. He loves when you press a vibrator to your clit as he takes you, loves the way you screech.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

You are the tease in the relationship, and he only does it to get you back. He sucks at it even though he has crazy self control. He doesn't want to be disciplined when it comes to you.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He’s not the most vocal, but fuck, are his grunts and groans so guttural and perfect.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Cockwarming is a favorite of both of yours.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

MOTHERFUCKER IS PACKING. 10 inches, minimum. That serum amped up everything. He was devastated when he hurt you the first time, but like how could he not? You def weren't used to anything like that.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Um? He didn't get laid for the better part of a century. He’d be buried inside you every second of the fucking day if he could.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

He’s on sleeping and anxiety and a whole slew of other mess to get him to sleep- but that pussy of yours? How hard you make him cum? Better them any pharmaceuticals. He likes falling asleep on top of you, your bosom a pillow and your thighs still cradaling his hips. He’s warm. He’s home

#gemini answers

[dcarhcarts]

This.....is the 1000th post on this blog, and I definitely waited until that could be true to post it, and that’s honestly? Very fitting. Seriously, you guys are a m a z i n g and I have literally never done a milestone before so I can’t tell you what it’s supposed to look like?? But we’ve somehow Miraculously (tm) managed to reach 100 followers and - anyway, this is going to be me very unprofessionally gushing about everyone because....I love you all and you’re all amazing aaaaaa. I’m??? Literally so blessed to have made friends and write with all of you. Y’all with multiple blogs, I’m only tagging once so I don’t spam your feed ok? And - as usual, this is going to get Long, because everything I do gets Long apparently. I tried to do it chronologically but IDK how well it worked oops.

THE LOVES OF MY LIFE, THE SUN IN MY EYES, MY MOON AND STARS

@ccrrupticn  / D!!!! you are?? literally the reason I made this blog?? Without you, this thing would n o t mcfreaking exist omg!! You’re such an amazing writer (seriously, you manage so many muses and you give them all such distinct voices??? witchcraft???) and also so ???ridiculously kind! I love gushing to you about our Kids and you’re honestly A Saint (tm) for dealing with all of my blog construction/life related breakdowns, my crazy crossover headcanons and crashing into your inbox rambling about musicals <3 I miss talking to you so hmu whenever you come back if you want!!

@personnages /  Lynna!! You’re like an Actual Angel. I think you were the first person!! who talked to me??  And You were So Nice and Welcoming that you literally soothed half of my fears coming into rpc like immediately?? You basically helped me figure out how diminutives work and you’re responsible for me adding at least 3 of my muses and I cannot tell you how much I love you and every time you pop onto my dash/feed/discord/etc, it just makes me happy inside <3 Definitely 100000% will follow you to every blog (if you’ll have me lmao) regardless of fandom!! i’m super excited about all of our ship/friendship roulettes and you’re just an absolute joy to talk to.

@nikolacvnas / LYDIA goodness you are a W O N D E R. Probably the best? Historically based blog I’ve ever encountered, and definitely one of my favorite parts of the Anastasia rpc!! The care and research and attention to detail that goes into your portrayals are a s t o n i s h i n g? Your Tatya is divine, your Maria is So Lovely and I Cry For Joy that you write Dima honestly. I’d been eyeing your blog for a little bit before I made my own - and I was honestly a little scared of you when we started cause you are a GODDESS and I am a potato, but then we talked??? and you’re hilarious and a ridiculously kind person and I love you? And of course, I love your dog (the cutest in the universe).

@mythostold / LESLIE~  Different blog, same story~ Man, I’ve been following you since maybe day two of this blog being active? No matter which fandom you end up in and which muse you write, you have such!! good!!! takes!!! For one, I love reading your meta posts??? Like you’re just so incredibly passionate about your muses?? And your writing style is so good aaaaaaa it’s so atmospheric. And on top of all of that - you’re??? such a sweet and incredible??? person??? And I love talking to you boo <3 

@lifeawoke  /  NAT BBYSWEET <3 <3 <3  I have told the story of how I did a victory dance when you followed me to d e a t h probably but it’s t r u e your writing is amazing and your blog is amazing and y o u are amazing! You are the Natasha to my Sonya, and literally every time you send me a musing I’m like immediate-goofy-grin-heart-eyes???? It’s honestly a crime we don’t have more threads but like you’re an absolute joy to talk to and meme with and I adore you/your portrayal of beautiful bratty Natasha even if she drives my Sonya up the wall <3 You are Definitely the Funny Mutual lololol I crack up so much talking to you <3

@valianceearned / CARP you’re an amazing person/writer and holy h e c k am I impressed by your OCs!! They’re all so well thought out and developed? Your bios are so detailed and so much love and care is put into all of your characters. And your writing is so Lovely and it’s also very aesthetically lovely like holy heck the amount of work you put into both the content and the formatting? I am agog, I am aghast!! 

@gearsandlevers / Callie!!!!! YOU ROUND ALL THE CORNERS I STRAIGHTEN THE CURVES!! love your kids so much. Your Violet is a delightfully clever and likeable kid, your Evan might have literally walked off the stage two seconds ago, and you’ve put so much thought into your cinnabon stoner Henry. Your dialogue is amazing and I love our headcanon sessions lobbing ideas back and forth with you!! 

@spareisms / HEY MAGGIE GUESS WHAT YOU’RE WORTH MELTING FOR!!  You’re like the sweetest person alive??? How are you an Actual Real Life Disney Princess?? Your Anna is so well characterized and multi layered and I love how she an be so flawed but so brave and just how human she is. I’m very excited for your Anne Shirley too!! You’re a great writer (and a super sweet person aaaa) and I love you!! 

@gcneralvaganov /  Deanna, I have just one question: How? Have we only known each other for like 2 months???? It feels like my dash would literally be incomplete without you??  You play such deeply complex and incredibly flawed muses with such a great depth of respect and humanity. I love all of our AUs (we.....probably have a dozen by now), our long fix-canon tangents, and....look the inevitable conclusion to this whole thing is that we should....basically just write Anastasia tbh???  You’re incredibly funny and kind and talented and I’m so glad I yeeted myself into your IMs that first time 2 months ago! I love you, I love your muses, (Dima and Anya love their Dumb Boyfriend), and I love writing with you! 

@ncvaflows / ALEXA YOU ABSOLUTE LEGEND YOU. You??? Unlocked Ultimate AU Mode Ro and it’s like I c a n ‘ t stop?? First off, I cannot believe we literally own the same books and like the same barbie movies. How are we not literally the same person??  (Maybe w e ’ r e Anneliese and Erika lmao). Honestly from day 1 you’ve been so welcoming and lovely and I’m so glad we crashed into each other’s IMs yelling at top volume about random ya lit/movies/aus!! I adore literally all of your OCs (is everyone a b s o l u t e l y sure they’re not canon??? hmmmmm a Mystery)???? In the words of Li Shang, “You WRITE GOOD????” Anyway you’re amazing and I love you <3

WHILE IT’S DEFINITELY MY FAULT FOR BEING AN ANXIOUS BEAN WE REALLY NEED TO TALK MORE OFTEN CAUSE I LOVE YOU

@curtainrisen / Rebekah, dude, you’re a wonder. Your muses??? So diverse, and your voices for them? Super on the nose and amazing. I love your Helene and how human she is, and I really gotta toss more of my kids at you (Super excited for Duke!!). You’re real chill to meme with and I love talking/writing with you!!

@heartlosttravelers / Tor!! I love that you stan Raoul de Chagny So Hard ( the pure cinnamon roll boy deserves it honestly) and you’re super cool and great to talk to! All your muses are a m a z i n g and I always love the read when you pop up on my dash! 

@damerusse / Marie!! You’re hella chill. Your memes???? 10000000% actually legendary. Meming with you cracks me The Heck Up. Lily is forever the puppy dealer, that is all, thank you, gnight. Ok for real though - your Lily is pretty Legendary too and you really got all that Spark and Fire right down. You’re amazing, and I love stalking your threads on my dash!  

@lionhvrted / Fortune, my buddy my pal, we really be Out Here making Jane Austen plots even m o r e rom-com. Like. How did we manage that??? We might be literally magical lmao. We don’t have a ton of stuff going on at the moment but I love our dumb pining kids and I love the justice and humanity you give to your Caroline, and Fitzy loves his (future) wife.

@guvernantka / P R U E I already love our Exasperated Big Sis / Annoying Lil Sis / LITERALLY WHO EVEN ARE YOU YOU SMELLY DUMBASS LIL BRO IN LAW dynamic. You have the Best Sense of Humor (tm) and I’m always catching you when it’s like 12 in the morning here so I’m always cracking up silently in bed trying not to wake my roommies up. 

@anastcsie / I LOVE OUR ANGRY SMOL AND DIRTY TOL YOUNG-BUT-OLD MARRIED COUPLE AND THEIR OLDEST DAUGHTER NAMED MARIA ALREADY.  I love your Anya and how feisty and fiery she is (Dima, needless to say, loves his wife) and I love how chill (and hilarious!!) you are as a person. We do have a tendency to turn into angst monsters 24/7 but honestly that’s half the fun!! 

@asundrop / Polly!!!! ok so I know we haven’t really done anything w/ Raps (yet muahaha) BUT b o y was I hella excited when I found someone willing to yell about CDrama with me??? Thank you for being the Eternally Stoic/Always Annoyed Ancient God to my Tiny Dumb Fox Princess?? I love them and I love you (you’re hella cool) so there! 

@moretreasurewithin / KAAAATE goodness it’s only been a couple of days but I’m So Comfortable talking to you already? You’re just honestly really amazingly kind and I love screaming about Anastasia with you. We gotta get more going but I love your Dima and Maria Already (tm) and I love your sense of humor (here’s to torturing Dima with ties!!) and I can’t wait to get to know you better!

@annastrxng / AAAA somehow I managed to chat with you and then?? We never got anything going and it’s definitely mostly my fault cause of that High Anxiety (and also the fact that I got Immediately Busy) but you are literally So Nice and The Most Understanding and super great to talk to!! I hope we get something going in the future!! 

@soulcrossed / ROSE we have the same name I keep forgetting this lmao BUT ANYWAY. All your muses?? Amazing. You gotta throw more of them at me. Your Sophie?? Are you Actually Diana Wynn Jones in disguise?? I love our crazy au/headcanon sessions and I love/hate that you’re The Worst Enabler and I’m inevitably going to end up with the other two Hatter sisters on this blog lmao. 

I HAVEN’T TALKED TO YOU TON YET BUT HI!!! YOU SEEM CHILL!!

@alonecour / @steeledstark / @professor-of-predators / @sclskinn / @dulcettc / @volaticoux / @frxncaise / @argelfrasterr / @i-wrote-myway / @zharptiitsa / @villainsfall / @anyaromanovarp / @agoodandloyalrussian / @aliquisinter 

AND EVERY ONE OF Y’ALL AMAZING PEOPLE OUT THERE I’M ADMIRING SILENTLY FROM AFAR EVEN NOW BECAUSE I CHICKENED OUT OF TAGGING YOU LAST MINUTE CAUSE WHAT IF YOU’RE LIKE “LMAO WHO IS THIS WEIRDO TAGGING ME??” (p.s. this is 100000% permission to slide into my IMs/like a plotting call/etc. I honestly think y’all are hella cool and probably love you already)

#follow forever #( milestone ) #( ooc ) ✵ ~ CHANDELIERS AND CAVIAR ~ / #((................you know i made more friends than i thought i would coming into rpc as an anxious smol)) #((I LOVE YOU ALL YOU'RE ALL AMAZING)) #((thanks for putting up w/ me & my Super Anxious Self)) #((ok i'm just gonna post this before i forget and reblog something and miss the 1000th post))

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: oi walsh Ali: wanna go to a party where the guestlist is undesirable Ali: not in the cool way Ali: but the drinks will be aplenty Carly: u had me @ party but keep talking Ali: obviously you love when I chat you up Ali: family function but they ain't gonna force smalltalk on you w the booze, like so no fear Carly: love wen ur offering 2 take me away Carly: compliments are a beautiful bonus Carly: ur hot bro gonna b there?? Ali: easy Ali: take you somewhere better than wherever he is after if you play your cards right Ali: and someone isn't too OD'd on beer and BBQ by tonight to organise a decent shindig Carly: yea lads r sooo easy Carly: its boring Carly: showing my cards we should get some 💊 & fly through it Ali: 👌 Ali: sadly my mother refuses to address her issues so no stocked medicine cabinet here to raid Ali: I'll ask about Carly: ha Carly: mine don't Carly: I've got this Carly: show your love later Ali: 🙌 Ali: gimme her number Ali: put in the groundwork now like the overachiever I am Carly: [does give her number out] Carly: k but you love me more Ali: obviously Ali: love of my life Ali: gotta rep my manners with your ma though Carly: said as ur slipping ur 💍 off & giving some other bitch the 👀 Carly: how my da works Ali: hmm Ali: better leave her alone then Ali: don't need to repeat her mistakes Carly: if 1 person did the cabinet wouldn't be full for us Carly: let's keep one 'rent 💔 at a time Ali: smart Ali: that's why you're my bae Carly: its cos I kno how to juggle 💘 Carly: & other body parts ofc Ali: 😂 Ali: and a decent trip, hopefully 🤞 Ali: your mum's got a mixture, yeah or do I need to bring tissues Ali: or 🥊 Ali: what's the #mood Carly: whatever you want it to be baby Carly: shes got docs wrapped around her finger Carly: hers anyway Carly: mine's a woman & she refuses to flirt w her own gender Ali: k am a bit in love with her now Ali: soz Ali: clearly send her in, she'll change her tune and your prescription Carly: other than my da who isnt Carly: taught me everything I kno Carly: leave her a message she'll hit you back if you pretend to be hot lad Ali: 💔 that Carly: same I could have two mas Carly: more clothes & drugs to steal Ali: idk, my missus might reckon your da's a style icon Carly: ha Carly: she coming? Ali: nah Ali: you wanna see actual flirting w a middle-aged woman, like, she's your woman Ali: I can't Carly: on her bday she'll propose a 3way w ur ma Carly: been there Ali: 🤢 Ali: that's vile Ali: her diehard need to be more chivalrous than any man should work in my favour for once, like Carly: k Carly: tell me I'm wrong wen she's 1 year older & you ain't had to nah that Ali: bold of you to assume we won't be happily married by then, babe Ali: it ain't til feb Ali: hint hint buy me something Carly: ur married to me Carly: so you gotta say no Carly: & i kno ur a typical aquarius Carly: but I said hers you weren't listening such a hubby mood Ali: wish I could be the man you want and say I don't remember when it is Ali: but I think I do so Ali: 💔 fucking estrogen and empathy strikes again Ali: ultimate cockblock Carly: im not wrapping myself in a ribbon for her so idc when it is Ali: gutted for her Ali: when's yours then Carly: I'm a gemini girl Carly: guess Ali: ah fuck Ali: gonna have to kick it belated Ali: just means I have to go harder so enjoy Ali: hmm Ali: gonna go for 21st Carly: 😢 Carly: nope Ali: damn Ali: just wishful thinking I'd only just missed it, tbh Ali: it's June though, not May Ali: I'm positive Carly: yea Ali: I'll ask our mans Ali: shake him down for all that knowledge I'm sure he's hiding Carly: try it Carly: be funny Carly: how wrong he is Ali: counting on it Ali: how else am I stealing his girl Carly: im not his Carly: already yours Ali: 'course Ali: you seen him much since partygate Carly: just waved him out before you hit me w your invite Carly: y i said yea so fast Ali: I get it Ali: making him leave was always harder than it had any right being Ali: least he didn't invite himself Carly: he makes himself comfortable if I am or not Carly: revolving door on this caravan too so Ali: having 'nam flashbacks Ali: yikes Ali: let's not waste any more time talking 'bout exes tonight Ali: or currents Carly: did your ma let him in on her way out too or does she only like the girls ur w? Carly: aw you don't wanna talk Carly: let me apply gloss hold on Ali: safe to assume he's not coming 'cos of multiple people Ali: not just Lene Ali: 🍓 if you got it, babe Carly: & she's not coming cos of multiple ppl not just ur ma Carly: you not a 🍒 girl hm Carly: interesting Ali: she's not coming 'cos I ain't asked her Ali: awkward if my mother has taken the initiative but help the party go with a swing, I guess Ali: nah, you're a 🍓 girl Ali: too sweet for 🍒 Carly: cos you asked me i kno 😍 so cute Carly: aw you want me to taste how i naturally do Carly: even cuter Ali: be more fun Ali: invite her to my next protest or something more fitting Ali: nothing personal Carly: hey i can be loud Carly: do it all the time Ali: aw you want all her invites now? 😏 Carly: yea Carly: you want me you got me 💍 Ali: alright Ali: you're on Carly: k Ali: get ready for so many adventures Carly: 😊 Carly: wot am i wearing to this 1? Carly: gotta dress for hot bros & disapproving mas Ali: 🙄 Ali: if that's the mood you wanna go for Ali: though idk why you'd choose that over turning my head but go off, honey Carly: i can do that in what Im wearing rn Carly: gimme a challenge Ali: love the confidence Ali: my ma ain't but you will need it with my brother Carly: they all play hard to get until i get there Carly: being easy keeps it easy for them Carly: not my first bbq Ali: nah babe Ali: remember, we're ditching before it gets to that part of the evening Ali: soz to 💔 but I'll be nicer about it than he would so also welcome Carly: throw the keys in the salad bowl as soon as i get there idc Carly: no foreplay needed Ali: gotta get you outta the caravan park more, babe7 Carly: yea Carly: im walking now before he can follow me Ali: meet you halfway? Ali: will bring a crowbar if he's being that clingy Carly: ha Carly: im in the stash don't be sad Carly: ill leave you lots Ali: 👍 leave me chance to catch up too and no worries Carly: ofc Carly: 💙 Ali: you're a doll Carly: yea thats y everyone wants to fuck me Ali: nah Ali: plenty of other reasons for that though Carly: its k you dont need to list off ur compliments 1 per 💊 Carly: i feel the love Ali: you ain't saving me that many, I know 💚 Carly: aw Carly: ur so sweet Ali: nicer to my wives than my girlfriends, obvs Ali: pecking order Carly: 😊 Carly: she's still lucky to have you cos ur an angel to me Ali: you Ali: trust, no angel Ali: and that ain't some juvenile attempt at a brag there Carly: it's a flirt 😈😉 ha Carly: you wanna misbehave w me in front of your whole fam im there Ali: assuming my brother ain't up for it, obvs Carly: cant i have both Carly: what kind of bi r u Ali: one that don't like her brother's handmedowns Ali: lived that life long enough Ali: he ain't a style icon either Carly: ur first Carly: hes maybe Ali: was hoping if we skipped ronan and lene off the guestlist we could avoid the punch-up, tbh babe Carly: aw you dont wanna fight for me Carly: 💔😢 Ali: I mean my brother's girlfriend will have you Ali: only tryna protect, not kill your vibe Carly: scarier than your gf? Ali: deffo Ali: she wishes, the real threesome request that'll spell the end of it all 🙄 Carly: hes forgotten then Carly: be more fun just me & you Ali: obviously Ali: been tryna tell you but easier to prove it Carly: k Carly: ready when you are Ali: soz, forgot shoes Ali: gimme 5 Carly: ha Carly: im not wearing any & im fine Carly: you just wanna do a last mirror check for me 💙 so cute Ali: 😂 Ali: such a pisstake, you walsh Carly: part time flower child you Carly: but its k i still love you Ali: just defending why I'm being so slow Ali: obvs my 😍 weighing me down but lemme have some pride, woman Carly: ha Carly: you're my cute 🐌 Ali: now you're gonna be adorable, fucking hell Ali: you're dangerous Carly: if you cant handle me now wait til I come up Carly: 💊s are the real danger baby Ali: I'll be caught up by then Ali: might have to double-down but I can handle that, no worries Carly: they r being so slow 😢😢😢 Ali: ride it out, baby Carly: you sounded like him then Carly: except hes never called me baby ever Ali: oh dear Ali: I've gone full dickhead Ali: 😬 Ali: I'll take it down a notch Carly: no youre being sweet Carly: theres just lots of ways to trigger a fuck flashback when youre me Carly: dont change Ali: dunno if I could but glad you still wanna keep me around Carly: ofc Carly: i love you Ali: you're so pure Carly: not for years soz boo Carly: & this stash aint either Carly: such a let down 💔😢 Ali: shh Ali: we can make it work Ali: there's enough here to get crossfaded Carly: just dont hate me k Ali: why and how could I ever Ali: silly wabbit Carly: easily Carly: my phones full of Ali: you gonna fuck my girlfriend? Ali: or me and leg it Ali: neither's likely so we're all good, baby girl Carly: she scares me still even if she would have an amazing collection of giant strap ons Ali: 😂 Ali: well I can neither confirm nor deny Carly: no need its every lesbian of her kind Carly: labelled herself Ali: just don't bring up penis envy Ali: she'll lose it Ali: #freudstarteditbabe Carly: can i ask her what she'd do first if she woke up w one? Carly: fave ice breaker Ali: it is gold Ali: but save it 'cos it's just me and you remember Carly: do you wanna know my answer Ali: of course Carly: guess Carly: you owe me a right answer for my wrong bday Ali: Hmm okay Ali: would you Ali: bang as many people as humanly possible Carly: i do that anyway Ali: well you get banged, if we wanna be misogynistic about it Ali: I know what I'd do Carly: more fun with more holes tho so I'm not mad Carly: first thing I'd do is measure to see if I need to brag or exaggerate Ali: pragmatic of you Ali: hadn't even considered that Carly: wanna know if mine's bigger than the lads I've been w ofc Carly: size matters idc what small dicked lads are trying to say Ali: yeah but they're always thinking length when really Ali: girth is where it's at Carly: yea Carly: shouldve taught that in school Ali: how to measure circumference Ali: they defs did Carly: yea?? Carly: idk Ali: I'll show you Ali: on a beer can Ali: unrealistic expectation but you get the idea Carly: all my expectations r unrealistic Carly: make me cum is a stretch for most lads on site Ali: babe Ali: gonna make me 😥 Carly: youre the pure 1 aint you Carly: aw Ali: hardly Ali: saying at least I get that, like Ali: minimum Carly: your gf has some uses that arent being your ma's BFF Ali: precisely Ali: I would've been a bit kinder with it but in a nutshell Ali: what about ronan at least Carly: have you forgotten him now youve upgraded Carly: shouldnt need my review Ali: shh, he'll cry Carly: he was when i wouldnt let him stay for dinner idc Ali: poor boy 😏 Carly: one of his other girls can cook for him Carly: my ma aint there & i aint doing it Ali: he needs to just give in and marry one of his own Ali: it's what he wants, no matter what he reckons Carly: he told me he is Carly: but hes said worse for a fuck so idk Ali: rude Ali: where's my invite to mourn my loss, boy Carly: ill tell him to text you Carly: wont have lost your number Ali: got the drunk texts to prove it Ali: bless Carly: ha Carly: only answer mine tho Carly: 💍 perks Ali: only if I ain't also there with ya Carly: yea Carly: youre gonna b w me forever so Ali: I'll just tell you in person then Ali: if you tell me Ali: deal? Carly: k Carly: i feel happy Carly: 😊😊😊😊😊 Ali: you're on your way Ali: where are you, btw Carly: the longest road ever Ali: hm, tell me about it Ali: I'll run Ali: in dramatic, sexy slo-mo Carly: me too Carly: only way i run Carly: see you when we collide Ali: wifey goals Ali: won't even try and make it our lips that collide Ali: scout's honour Carly: anticipations more fun Carly: plenty of other places I can touch you first Ali: we'll pretend you meant my 💘 Carly: i did that first night @ first 👀 Ali: no lie, we'll have to think of somewhere else innocent-sounding then Ali: do some experimenting, straight girl Carly: i have Carly: i told you ready when you are Ali: I told you, dangerous Carly: only if you get caught Carly: i won't tell if you don't Carly: so good at keeping secrets Ali: I'll sort it Ali: I made vows Ali: she'll understand Carly: were just taking them seriously Carly: nobody can be mad about that Ali: deadly, like Ali: also forgot a bra, naturally and this run is killing me Carly: somewhere innocent I can touch you then Carly: god works in obvious ways Carly: like you Ali: please Ali: if I was doing it for your benefit sure I'd put one on Ali: show 'em off Carly: you kno you dont need to Carly: not your first bbq either Ali: 😏 Ali: maybe Carly: no maybe u kno Carly: & you can feel my 😍 Carly: travelling faster than my slo mo run Ali: love being your wcw, babe 😉 Carly: idk what that is Carly: but if the first letters arent wild child I'm sad Ali: that's far less straight girl so we'll go with it Ali: hope for you yet, like Carly: youre not gonna tell me what it means Ali: woman crush wednesday Ali: used exclusively by girls like Leesha and that Carly: omg i think my ma said that @ the telly the other night Carly: it wasnt wednesday Ali: feeling like hyping up Chezza whatever the night Ali: I 👀 you Carly: but youre wrong Carly: i dont have a crush on you i love you Ali: so if I need a kidney you're down Ali: but no gay shit Ali: 👌 Carly: yea cos whats mine is yours Carly: all of me Carly: so you can have anything you want Ali: good to know Ali: make a killing on the black market Carly: just tell me if youre draining me in the tub so i can have a good last nite before Carly: & stop making me beg for gay shit that's not a mood Carly: i dont do the begging its the other way round Carly: ask anyone Ali: of course Ali: I ain't an animal Ali: you don't have to beg Carly: what do you want me to say then Ali: what you want Ali: obviously Carly: find me Carly: you can do that yea Ali: easy Ali: [does 'cos how long can one road be] Carly: [most excited hug that turns into the longest hug & moment because well we know] Ali: [turns it into linking arms and walking 'fore shit gets too real here] Carly: [is just happy & loling & chatting shit which is endless compliments basically like her eyes being tiny skies & sunshine hair etc you get the idea because high af] Ali: [is listening and not dismissing it 'cos not that bitch but also knows she's high so not being like ooh lol, 'you're so pure'] Carly: [dramatically stops cos remembers suddenly that she needs to give Ali her share so does, sad & mad at herself like she's so upset she nearly forgot bless] Ali: [cups her chin like hey and tells her it's okay whilst looking in her eyes as she takes her share] Carly: [back to being smiley just like that because reassurance bitch & takes her hand & leads her along cos handholding ftw] Ali: [is happy she's happy again] Carly: [her phone is going off cos Ronan but she's ignoring cos only got eyes for Alison rn] Ali: ['you put love eggs in or?'] Carly: [talks in depth about how she's drawing the line at borrowing that kinda shit from her ma cos oversharer even when she ain't high & also throws her phone to Ali playfully like no look so we can imagine how lovely those messages are even just from the first line preview thing] Ali: [takes Carly's thumb so she can open it and reply 'cos that bitch] Carly: [is just loling even though this is such a bad idea] Ali: [schools him in a way that probably sounds familiar lbr] Carly: [then a selfie sesh cos those bitches they love themselves] Ali: [takes her sunnies off her head and puts 'em on Carly 'cos her eyes are massive/pinholed depending which way we're rocking this lol] Ali: [does a 'shh' like no one's gonna know] Carly: [you know she's keeping them sunnies forever now soz] Ali: [just swinging their arms having a gay old time] Carly: [just singing something as they going cos no stage fright when high af & her voice is nice so its a moment] Ali: [😍] Carly: [more compliments when she notices Ali is looking at her cos she's pretty af lbr] Ali: ['how many other hidden talents you got, like?'] Carly: [thinks about it way harder than the question warrants like its a hard question cos lowkey is when you don't reckon you got any skills. Says 11 cos bday clue & lucky number with a mysterious expression like but then laughs cos if she has to ever back that up awks] Ali: [lols back but squeezes her hand like don't doubt it] Carly: [looks down at her feet because actually is shoeless here 'how far?'] Ali: [gestures like 'piggyback?' but ain't that far in my mind] Carly: [accepts because always, good thing Ali is strong & Carly is skinny cos they literally the same height] Ali: [galloping about and into your function like idiots 'cos she's coming up now too] Carly: [miracle that Carly don't fall cos not holding on properly cos wants to stretch her arms out so its like a bike with no handlebars situation lol] Ali: [imagine everyone's faces lmao] Carly: [Tess scowl be like seen from space] Ali: [gets situated on the grass and is just helping herself to drinks Carly: [is just having a little dance by herself cos feeling great not soz everyone especially not soz Ro cos you wish you could babe] Ali: [at least little rock can join in] Carly: [aw the two of them dancing together like cute nerds & she's spinning him round & everything] Ali: [just ignoring all her fam's questions and being chatty af like nothing's weird 'cos high, then joining in 'cos duh more fun[ Carly: [all you can hear is Carly's laugh which is the best so deal with it fam thank you, let my sweet baby angel be happy] Ali: [when you being blatant af] Carly: [when you don't need to be touching a girl who has a girlfriend this much when you dancing in a non sexy way but you is] Ali: [defs need a sprinkler they can all be running through] Carly: [wet t-shirts ftw I see you] Ali: [is motioning like come to my room but not like that lads, just get some weed like you need it] Carly: [takes some drinks with her but the only mental image I have is when Lily in Skins with armfuls when she says keep your vagina on & I'm loling] Ali: [hey ro hey] Carly: [okay but Carly trying to talk to her & being so nice cos she's so pure & Ro being so rude] Ali: [even in her state given her all the disappointed looks like ??] Carly: [this sweet child laughing it off cos how she do but how dare you Ro, I'm mad] Ali: [going to the kitchen for food, accidental ultimate ro shade] Carly: [just following Ali cos she's never been here & don't know where she's going but quieter cos you can tell she's thinking what did I do wrong cos how her brain works] Ali: [being reassuring af] Carly: [sitting on the kitchen counter swinging her legs looking so cute with her dirty feet & drinks from the tap cos she do what she want] Ali: ['you look beautiful'] Carly: [smiles & laughs like its chill but is seriously 😳 cos who says nice things to her like this ever] Ali: [gets them and rocky ice lollies bye everyone else] Carly: [when you eating it seductively without being aware or trying to be that cos its your life] Ali: [is giggling 'cos high] Carly: [more compliments because how cute] Ali: [lays her head in her lap to 'cloudgaze' aka sneak peeks] Carly: [playing with her hair & freckles sporadically because she's soft & intimate like that, be more blatant girl, love it] Ali: [doing daisychain around her wrist 'cos bringing it back] Carly: [finally remembers there are drinks so is on that but v distracted looking at & touching Ali, oh girl same we all would] Ali: [tryna be chill but obvs into it regardless of how 'straight she is] Carly: [lies in the grass & does snow angel moves like she can flatten the grass & make one, god bless you babe, brings Ali with her so they just snuggling cos we can be this blatant] Ali: [just stroking her hair nbd] Carly: [loves it & is making it known by talking about how good it feels & throwing out compliments like its her job sorry for how gay this is everyone but she thinks Ali is the best so] Ali: [backatcha telling her how pure and sweet she is and they're just blabbing at each other] Carly: [soz k stew but this is cute] Ali: [when you wanna kiss her so bad 'cos you're high and happy and this is a mood] Carly: [I'll either save or condemn us cos she's gonna go take some more pills so they don't wear off so they could be alone if Ali goes with & she'd be dragging her along so v dangerous] Ali: [looking at themselves in the mirror and making funny faces] Carly: [& Carly just peeing cos no shame, same tbh] Ali: [but doing like war/festival style paint on each other's face with like, whatever lipstick has been left in that bathroom] Carly: [but think how close Ali would have to be to her face to do that like how has she not kissed her, applause needed honestly] Ali: [draws a lil heart on Carly's nose] Carly: [can't stop looking at herself cos loves it] Ali: [takes loads of pictures, improtu bathroom photoshoot sesh] Carly: [likewise taking loads of pics of Ali but like weird close ups cos she gaaaaaaaay & focused on the details] Ali: [posing 'cos we know she's about it lmao] Carly: [more touching of freckles like she's gonna draw something connect the dots style but just using her fingers cos they are perfect as they are & she'd say so] Ali: [not much would phase her but she would be blushing rn] Carly: [just gushing about how adorable she is endlessly like it'd be too much from anyone else] Ali: [keeps saying ILY 'cos being off your face ftw] Carly: [saying it back of course & all the terms of endearment like baby, angel etc cos that's just how she is anyway] Ali: [someone, probably Tess, banging on the door like they're desperate, we see you ma] Carly: [jumps out of her skin, again same] Ali: [hugs her protectively] Carly: [smelling her hair like a peak gay during the hug because lbr it'd smell nice, no shade or shame here, more compliments for that obvs] Ali: [going back downstairs before there's a brawl but when you ain't even phased 'cos something happening here deal fam Carly: [when you lowkey dancing your way back out cos you happy af & you find the dog on the way so you're carrying him with you & kissing & loving him & its adorable sorry bye] Ali: [and spuds such a funny looking boy lmao] Carly: [lying on the grass again spooning the dog & singing to him probably a song from when she was little & her mum cared like he a baby] Ali: [just watching and melting 'cos actually so cute, don't cry bitch lmao] Carly: [sees her & crawls over like hey, curling up with her again because the lap is a mood forever & we need to claim it from your future child for the gays] Ali: [doing teeny tiny plaits in her hair and humming the song she was just singing to the dog] Carly: [just chatting shit the whole time soz everyone else but they loving life let them be] Ali: [just getting to know each other hardcore 'cos neither of them has much time for small talk or bullshit anyway so on drugs it'd be like 1000 percent more intense, also shamelessly ignore a call and multiple texts from your actual girlfriend] Carly: [but then after all that because I'm evil & she's 'straight' let's say she makes eye contact with Fraze somehow so off she goes to flirt with him as if that's even a possibility when you know it'd just be annoying like her taking his 🚬 to try & be so cool & seductive, babe no. He's just like Ali control your girls] Ali: [is annoyed but not gonna do anything unless it got more dramatic like you deal, casually going through her phone to find a party or something] Carly: [Fraze just being such a dickhead soz Carly also knowing that's Bea's lipstick because of course he does so loling about her & Ali's impending doom] Carly: [also Ro coming out cos someone made her to 'eat' so just being super judgey such joy] Ali: [fully like fuck this like don't kill my vibe fam so walking like she just gonna go in the house but really she peacing] Ali: if ur done come back out Carly: where d u go? Ali: found us a party Carly: k Carly: [catches up to her like oh hey] Ali: [tells her it ain't far to go and starts walking] Carly: [looks down at her feet like she only just remembered she's not wearing shoes but doesn't miss a beat in keeping in step with her because being gay is more important] Carly: dont b mad @ me Ali: [looks down too and is like, we can go get shoes first if you want lol] Ali: I ain't Carly: the colours around you have changed Carly: i kno u r Ali: nah it's like Ali: hmm Ali: I'm not sure what it's like Carly: like me again Carly: [is saying sorry because always quick to that one] Ali: ['I do, you don't need to say that'] Carly: [trying to give Ali her drink as a peace offering like hmm I've done something wrong must make amends somehow] Carly: [& then more pills when she remembers she has them still] Ali: [shrugs like why not and accepts, cue Leesha and probably her 'best' friend tottering out of her house looking the most overdressed] Carly: [Carly loling because she has the whole day but these bitches taking it as a slight against their everything] Ali: [Leesha started shouting the odds 'cos mother's daughter and obvs already white girl wasted, Ali like let's just go 'cos over it] Carly: [Carly offering her pills cos change your mood babe & being looked at like she's offering poison, you've been there before Leesha I get it] Ali: [tryna lowkey drag her away before this becomes the Thing tm they want it to be for the #drama] Carly: [Carly just chatting about Ali's heroics & how sweet she is cos knight in shining armor for her forever lbr just like 😍] Ali: [loling] Carly: [Carly just out the blue like 'you should kiss her, then she'd be happier' like no babe Leesha ain't you but I love the softness of your world view] Ali: ['fully converted, are you?'] Carly: [lols but is also like 'you haven't kissed me yet' with a cute little pouty face as she walks on slightly ahead looking at the sky] Ali: ['Night still young, baby'] Carly: [clearly is buzzing about this & not hiding that 'I love you more than her' how unspecific she could mean Leesha or K stew or both, god bless] Ali: [is all 'I know' but not 'cos she's a cocky bitch lmao 'cos you're pure'] Carly: [puts her arms up like a child who wants to be picked up cos she wants Ali to carry her into the party] Ali: [does 'cos duh even if she's joking about how high maintenance she is] Carly: [snuggling into her the whole time cos she's soft] Ali: [let's hope it's not too far, probably some 20-something hippie waster's chill thing] Carly: [when you humming but using Ali's heartbeat as your basis for a tune cos gaaaaaaaaaaay] Ali: [when you're harmonizing] Carly: [#goals for real] Carly: [but then she gotta stop so she can compliment Ali again cos we know her voice is fire but Carly didn't necessarily know this] Ali: ['we should jam for real some time'] Carly: [cue her rambling stage fright reveal because like we said no time for bullshit so its just being put out there & she's like 'you'll have to sing to me'] Ali: [is like okay but silently thinking of all the ways she could help her confidence 'cos that bitch but not gonna be pushy and patronizing about it 'cos not THAT bitch] Carly: [just staring at her adorably all like 'what are you thinking about?'] Ali: ['you'] Carly: [such a big smile but also blushing 'good things?'] Ali: [just gives her a look that's like what do you think and obviously, yes] Carly: [a big hug moment and kisses her on her forehead cos where the thoughts come from] Ali: [the mess of lipstick their faces are] Carly: [they must look crazy, living for it] Ali: [good thing no one at this party will care, turn up and chatting to people and the usual] Carly: [there should be someone there for Carly to hook up with to hurt Ali's heart & reaffirm the 'straightness'] Ali: [when you can't 'cos you got a gf, gutted] Carly: [who is probably still trying to contact you cos highkey] Ali: [text her back girl, come on] Carly: [do it while your real gf is getting you a drink lol] Ali: [let's text]

[imaginethemkmusic]

Soulmate!AU Joshua

Summary: In which you switch bodies with your soulmate for one day randomly

Okay so

you moved to LA a while ago and you were L O V I N G it omg

you had the nicest neighbors,,, the Hongs :D

but sadly you never got to meet the oh so famous Joshua more than once and vvv briefly :(

both of you guys were just,,,, busy

I mean hello?

Joshua Hong. The amazing perfect student never had time and when he did it just never matched up with yours

you met him when you first moved but other than that :\ tough luck man tough luck

and then of course

he went to freaking Korea

so it was even HARDER to meet him so you just kind of gave up even though he was stupidly handsome >_>

I’m Josh biased sue me

Don’t tho lmao I have no money

ANYWAY

you never got to meet Joshua and boo hoo it was kind of sad but his family is really nice so,,,

they make up for it :)))

sadly for you, you never met your soulmate either just like Joshua

,,,,poor you

no regular signs at all >_>

you hoped you weren’t a glitch in the system because the universe had to have something right?

but while you’re single might as well relish it because what if your soulmate was like a jerk,,,

but no negative thoughts!

you had to stay P O S I T I V E

so you just did the best in life that you could and try to study well and get into a nice college

and hopefully meet your soulmate

but if not that was okay because many people decided not to stay with their soulmate :/

but you were H O P I N G

that you would have one of the rarest soulmate sign/markings which was switching bodies because,,,

then you could see what you’re soulmate looked like and figure out where they were

while you were hoping and staying positive in LA

Joshua in Korea,,,

was a bit pesstimistic

because it was so hard to even debut >_> much less finding a soulmate with no obvious mark like Jun or Seungkwan

cough cough check out master list for seventeen cough cough

life was tough :’) it didn’t help that the vocal team forgot him multiple times and he was one of the least popular members

and he had like no. freaking. lines

GIVE MY BOY JOSH LINES!!!!

so he was a sad Josh :( 

and he missed his parents because he barely ever got to see them.

life was tough :/

but it’s okay!!

because holidays were coming up!

and that meant hopefully (?) a break

probably not but he could still hope so he could go back to his house in LA

he loved his members >_> but nothing beats family guys

unless your family is an ass

but his was nice

I mean you fell in love with his family how could you not?

such a nice couple and such amazing food ^-^ it was like your second home and whenever your parents were out and you didn’t feel like being alone

the Hong residence was always there for you!

#neighborgoals

today was one of those days where you didn’t feel like being alone

so you went to the Hong residence and Mrs. Hong was making such delicious food

and Mr. Hong was talking about his son

and they were both talking about how proud they were and how amazing he was

you want to meet him T_T

sounds like an angel

but noooo

he was an idol

all the way in Korea ffs >_> where would u get the money to travel and meet him

and why would you meet him?

you were a stranger :|

dinner went by and it was good and you decided to sleep over that night because it was the weekend

so you go into Josh’s room that was pretty much a guest room whenever he wasn’t their

and you snuggle in

it was quite early tho and you were just feeling kind sluggish

it must have been all the good food you stuffed yourself with :D

so you just let yourself sleep

it seems like such little time before you’re waken up

and someone’s shaking you and you’re like

WHOMST TF IS WAKING ME UP

totally forgetting that you’re staying at the HONG residence

so you slap the hand away and curse and

oMG

you hear someone gasp

“HYUNG CURSED!!!!”

at least you thought they said that

from the very little Korean that the Hongs have been trying to teach you lmao

so you rub your eyes and go

“who tf is hyung”

of course the only thing they understand is the curse so more gasps

and of course confusion because why is Josh speaking in English all of a sudden?

“he must be this homesick” someone says but you don’t understand

so you open your eyes and who?

what?

when?

where?

who are these beautiful men?

“omg omg omg where am I. WHy is my voice so deep and wHO are you!??”

you look down and WHOA

THIS IS NOT YOUR BODY

“WHAT THE HECK!???? who’s body? am I dead? was I actually a guy? what’s going on!?!?!?!?,,,?”

you’re rambling and causing a commotion

causing the male who woke you up to just stare at your strangely before calling Vernon

“HANSOL-YA JOSHUA HYUNG IS SPEAKING ENGLISH!”

the only thing you catch it Joshua

and you know they’re speaking Korean so...

“Joshua Hong?”

another head pops in the room

beautiful jfc

Vernon is my bias wrecker FIGHT ME

“lmao dude you don’t know you’re own name?”

“omg finally English who are you?”

“dude... it’s me... Vernon... you’re group member?”

so you’re all of a sudden super woken up and you realize

holy shit you’re in your soulmate’s body

so you do the reasonable thing and

S C R E A M

and there’s a hand on your mouth

and ‘Vernon’ is like

“dude... what’s wrong with you?”

so you calm down and you’re like

“uhhh I’m not Joshua-”

“where did you get drugs from dude? We’re in Korea and you’re an idol-”

you stare blankly at him and he realizes

oh shit

you’re not joking

“Uh,,, I think I’m Joshua Hong’s soulmate... this is Joshua Hong right?”

Vernon’s staring at you strange again like

“omg are you a crazy fan-”

and you’re like

“Nah man I’m neighbors with his parents!”

pretty much you and Vernon hit it off because he knows English but like the guy who woke you up?

Seungkwan?

He was hilarious lmao

you loved his English 

10/10

10 hour 10 minute

the situation gets settled down with the guys so yea and it’s holiday so you at least get this 1 day off

holy shit

Joshua Hong

Hong Kong

Rap God

you’re his soulmate

ewrghewrighewirygeoqrinvpoeirutvnportwybgiwuetbpqeriyv gpOA

you never even met him before!

but hey you’re technically neighbors

and you did sleep in his room so he must have been so confused

and you were right lmao

he was really confused

and thought he was hallucinating or dreaming

but like make the most of it right?

so he’s going down stairs and everything when he realizes

THIS IS REAL

and he’s so happy to see his parents!

but so confused because why was his soulmate in his room?

he learns all about you and he’s like

aweeee

Y/N sounds really amazing and cute and just wow

my soulmate!!!

things are really looking up for him!

now he has an excuse for a break because Pledis gave them soulmate breaks >_>

so he could go home to LA and meet his soulmate!

:)

he went into your house to learn about you and ended up just watching TV lmao

but he got bored so he went back to his house and played his guitar

to which his parents were like

“we missed you but can you nOT play it so much”

pretty much the day went by pretty well and you got to learn a lot about each other and get to know the members

through very broken Korean and English

lmao it was entertaining to say the least

but soon it was time for you to switch back :( no more seeing that incredibly handsome god sculpted face,,,,

so you switch back

and Josh’s parents are so! happy!

because they love you like you’re their child

and hopefully you will be soon >_>

and Josh flies over to LA and you FINALLY get to meet the infamous Jisoo that also happens to be your soulmate

both of you guys are just so amazed by each other

and at first ya’ll are like super shy

but then you guys warm up and it’s vv cute

fluffy

vanilla

Joshua likes to sing to you on his guitar :’) what a dream come true

and both of you guys make random silly raps and laugh together

going around visiting all the places Josh missed

but it’s special now because he has his soulmate!

and he can’t believe he didn’t believe that he didn’t have a soulmate because wow

how could he not believe you were real?

you were just so amazing and perfect for him!

and honestly,,,

you felt the same way towards him :)

and you had to wait a while feeling sad with no obvious sign but

this was one of the most fun ways to meet in your opinion and now that you did meet

you couldn’t wait to meet him again and again

making sure to clear as much time as possible when he visited

because there was no way you were missing him again

and basically

you guys are a very sweet and cute couple and protect Joshua okay? Okay :)

Soulmate Joshua everyone

#joshua #hong #jisoo #christ #seventeen #svt #soulmate!au #au #soulmate #imagines #bullet #bulleted #imagine #scenario #imaginethemkmusic #fluff #comedy #vocal unit #voc unit #la #kpop #pledis #asia #music #series

[felicityb-reviews]

Uhm Jung Hwa “Ending Credit” MV Review

I AM NOT WORTHY!!!!

MY NAME IS JACE (aka Felicity B) AND

I

AM

NOT

W O R T H Y!!!!

~The Song~

Ending Credit is a bop, sis. A lowkey, melancholy bop.

But a bop, nonetheless.

Ms Junghwa might have played racketball with my wig with Ending Credit.

She might have run up on my ass with a razor and faded me with Ending Credit.

I might need surgery cause I'm missing the first layer of my skull cause of Ending Credit.

But, you know… A bitch isn't mad!!!

Uhm Junghwa has a voice that you don't really hear a lot of in K-Pop. Her tone is very airy, but she lacks any of the brightness that the typical vocalist has in spades. She has a thinner tone than makes her voice easy to layer and stack, but you know it's her singing. Overall, she has a very distinct voice and after 25 years in the game, she's definitely learned how to harness it to great effect.

Ending Credit, like I mentioned above, has a very sad, melancholic vibe to it. It's a rather upbeat song, but it's more "dancing with tears in my eyes" than PSY's New Face. This is partly due to the New Wave/NuDisco style production, courtesy of Primary and SURAN (who are the absolute last people on Earth I would have expected to be Behind The Music™) and the chord progressions that make up the song.

New Wave is a very bittersweet sounding genre of music. No matter how many major chords you use to write a New Wave song, that shit comes out with a sad, almost nostalgic undertone to it.

But that's okay, because that's clearly the vibe they were going for in Ending Credit. The chord progressions used here are usually used when they're either discussing change that's happened in the past, or a change that's about to happen. There's a "life will go on" feel to Ending Credit, and it makes me wonder if Mrs Junghwa is retiring soon. I mean, she did debut in 1993, so I couldn't be surprised.

Let me say that again - Uhm Jung Hwa debuted in 1993.

Ma'am is touching 50 years of age, and she still makes your faves look redundant.

I have to say that my absolute favorite part of Ending Credit is the bridge - when everything but the synth pad and Junghwa's voice drops out. I freaking tear up every time I listen to that part. It's just so powerful!!

A different kind of vocalist would have gone HAM with the high notes n ad libs on the final chorus, but Miss Junghwa decided to keep it cute n classy, which I appreciate. I do think she could have done a little bit more, but at the same time, it's always from one extreme to the next with these divas.

~The Video~

Ending Credit the video sees Uhm Junghwa at the premiere for what I assume is her final role. The video flits between Junghwa watching herself on screen, and Junghwa dancing about various locations of the theater, looking every bit the powerful diva she is. Ending Credit was shot, on location, at the Universal Arts Center in Seoul, which is super cool because they could have easily replicated all the various locations Junghwa filmed in at a studio. It just adds to the whole concept of the video, sis.

Junghwa's makeup in this video is very heavy (I'm pretty sure it breaks every ~rule~ for a Korean style beat), but it suits the video. It emphasizes her age, but not in a bad way (even though there's nothing wrong with looking your age); she looks like the distinguished actress that everyone aspires to be. Her styling, in general, in this video looks very '80s/'90s which only adds to the finality of the video.

Ending Credit the video is a really cool experience, because it shows off just how amazing of a performer Junghwa is. Most of the shots in this video are solo solo, and she keeps you enraptured. If there's one thing I know about this woman, it's that she O O Z E S stage presence. And even when she has dancers supporting her, your eyes stay glued to her (even though her dancers are all fine as F U C K).

Which, I mean, she's been K-Pop's Dancing Diva™ for 25 years now. You kinda have to know a thing or two about charisma, uniqueness, nerve, and talent to survive that long.

~The Choreography~

Lia Kim (Ending Credit's choreographer) is a fucking genius.

Uhm Junghwa is a competent dancer. She's not BoA level, but she can hold her own, okay?!?!?! And Ending Credit's routine is not overly hard or complex. The moves are somewhat physically demanding (ma'am is up, down, and all around in the first minute of the song; that shit was exhausting to watch live), but I wouldn't say this is the hardest routine I've seen in my six years of K-Pop standom.

Lia Kim is a genius, because Ending Credit's routine is straight up performance art. Ending Credit's routine emphasizes Junghwa's performance ability (like I said above, this woman oozes stage presence), and shows us exactly how she stayed on top of her peers during her peak. Junghwa looks like she's dancing for her life, but also like she's having the time of her life. If this is her "last" role, then she's gonna give it her all and more.

Ending Credit is Junghwa's second video in the Cloud Dreamer of the Nine series that uses all male backup dancers (the first being Dreamer), and idk if that's a Thing™ for her (it's hard to find older K-Pop videos), but it speaks volumes to me?!?!?! I'm so tired of this division in K-Pop where it's like, "boys dance this way, girls dance that way"; and if girls wanna be taken seriously as a dance group, they have to do more masculine styles of dance. Getting beyond the misogyny in that (which you know my nonbinary ass has a lot to speak on), it's just boring as fuck. So it's nice to see Junghwa telling the rules of K-Pop to fuck off.

~Overall and Final Thoughts~

Ending Credit scalped me bald.

Junghwa gives us a whole lot with Ending Credit, sis - the song is so so S O addicting (Primary is more powerful than we ever knew), the video is awe inspiring (and tugs on the heart strings a lil), and the routine is up there with one of the best of the year. Everything was on point. I'm really at a loss for words here, guys; if I was rating this the same way I songs in my Review Roundups, Ending.

Uhm Jung Hwa is fucking badass. She really didn't have to come back to music after she dropped her 2008 mini album D.I.S.C.O. I mean, that era was way before my time, but it's literally one of my favorite minis to just play when I want something fun. She didn't have to start doing music again, because her acting career is probably making her far more money than releasing music ever did. But she really just does not give a fuck about that shit, boo. You can tell this woman loves performing with her whole heart, and she has a team that loves pushing the boundaries of what acts like her ~should~ be doing at her age.

Junghwa is really That Bitch™, and you cannot tell me anything else. She's not overly well known in international K-Pop circles (but then again, not a lot of actual K-Pop legends are), but I highly recommend checking up on her stuff. She was playing hopscotch with her contemporaries' wigs back in the day day the way she's playing with your faves' hairlines now.

Author's Note - this is a review that I left half finished when I halted reviews last month, so I figured I'd go ahead and release it now. I had a much different review planned for today, but I think it'd do far more harm than good if I posted it now. That, and I can't really bring myself to look at it right now. I hope you enjoyed!!

#Uhm Jung Hwa #Ending Credit #Review #Felicity B

[kathleensmithmusic]

(pic by Melodee Solomon.)

A SMATTERING / AND ALSO A BIT ON PERMISSION

I have been taking a little brain break from this space, AND, I was just watching a video by the brilliant the super magical Angel Phoenix, and it juiced me up so much, I had to pop on here to say a few things.

This is basically just a smorgasbord of some of the things currently between my ears:

1. WHATEVER FEELS RIGHT TO YOU, LEAN INTO THAT. There are people, ideas, stories & paradigms that have coding that resonates with the home vibration of your soul. You’ll know it by the way engaging with them makes you feel more relaxed (that deep parasympathetic sigh of the nervous system dropping, for example), more spacious, possibly more turned on but from a spacious & delighted & inspired space, and more excited about YOU and YOUR LIFE and whatever YOUR MEDICINE is for this life. GO THERE. Fuck everything else. I truly mean it. FUCK IT ALL except that which is in tune & resonance with your heart & soul. Follow what feels right. Your body knows. Listen & allow!!!! Doesn’t have to resonate for ANYONE ELSE but if it does for you, THAT IS MEDICINE TO TRUST!!!!!!

2. In service to that very thing—i.e. TEND TO YOUR OWN SOUL, HEART & NERVOUS SYSTEM & MAGICAL BODY--these are some things I’ve been up to and not up to lately:

        1. Staying (mostly) off social media: I deleted IG from my phone ten days ago. I realized it has an addictive hold on me, and I don’t feel good when I engage with it for more than about 5 minutes per day. It took less than 48 hours for me to start to feel inner peace and joy again. (I only popped back in here because this transmission feels exciting & important, and I’m going to re-delete when I’m finished posting!). Some people can engage with social & be fine, just like some people can engage with alcohol and be fine. Others of us cannot. It’s all good. The point is to know our own energy and honor & tend to it in ways that deeply nourish us individually. There is no ONE way—only the way that feels right deep in our bones.

        2. Sleeping a lot. I was already a 9-10h/night lady, and these days I take lots of naps, too.

        3. Working out EVERY SINGLE DAY, first thing in the morning. You’ve probably noticed me talking about my workouts. They are my favorite thing aside from music & my husband & planet Earth, and they keep me sane and grounded and joyful. I just show up and do what my trainer (on the screen) tells me, and I get stronger & fitter every fucking day. OMG I could talk about this whole thing for hours.  Nothing juices me the way working out does, and can I just say—BEING & FEELING STRONG AF has changed EVERYTHING about my life over the past ten months. I am fucking HERE these days. Like—hello, planet Earth, I am HERE and I am not trying to be anywhere else, and I FUCKING LOVE IT HERE.

        4. Limiting consumption of covid info, politics, news, etc. – I mean, I already didn’t read the news, but when this whole thing hit, I was gobbling it up for hours a day and F R E A K I N G out a LOT. I realized that doesn’t work for me, because honestly, a freaked out, paralyzed, terror-ridden Kathleen is no good to anyone. New rule: no consuming for Kathleen. Shawn gives any updates. This rule has really been working for me. I slacked for a couple of weeks and then realized I was starting to feel unwell, and that’s when I deleted IG from my phone ten days ago, and VOILA: FEELING A BAZILLION TIMES BETTER.

        5. MASSIVE PERMISSION: I have a vision in my heart about who I know I could be and how massively I feel I can and want to serve people & the world, and for the first few weeks of this whole quarantine/COVID situation, I was ON FUCKING FIRE with it in a new way.

Excited. Scared. Married to the vision of what feels important to me. Making stuff. Sharing a little more, etc.

And then, suddenly, after about three weeks of that, I just felt EXHAUSTED BEYOND BELIEF.

Suddenly, all I wanted was to not care one whit about the world, or my mission, or anything beyond my tiny, cozy life, and just read books and paint my nails.

You know—immediate vicinity shit.  Back into the CAVE.

So, boom—PERMISSION TO FEEL THAT WAY & PERMISSION TO CAVE IN & PERMISSION TO COZIFY & LIVE MY TINY LITTLE LIFE. I let go of caring about my mission, fell off the face of social and went inward.

I read Mists of Avalon (OMFG WHAT A MAGICAL FUCKING BOOK).

I started cooking again.

I just fucking was quiet and cozy and stopped giving a flying fuck about anything other than enjoying the simple life right in front of my eyes.

I’m still in that space, and can I just tell you—WHAT A FUCKING RELIEF.

I can’t even tell you the agida (is that how you spell it?!) and angst and despair and G R A S P I N G that I have experienced for my entire life around MY MISSION and MY VISION and MY MUSIC and MY DESIRE TO SERVE ON A MASSSSSSSIVE LEVEL and MY COMPULSION TO BE SEEN (coupled with somatic terror for my literal safety, which led to a MASSIVE stalemate inside of me because the brain says ���I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY & I MUST BE SEEN!!!” and the subconscious says “I MUST NOT EVER BEEN SEEN TOO WIDELY BECAUSE THAT WILL GET ME KILLED & EXILED, AND I MUST REMAIN SAFE AT ANY AND ALL COSTS.”)

What a tangled, dramatic mess it has always been, and just fucking STRESSFUL as all get out.

And now, there is a new peace.

I don’t know whether it’s quarantine, or the prayer practice I’m in right now, or getting older, or the masks that are dropping like flies for all of humanity right now, or what, but suddenly, it feels like layers of my personality that have been all tied up in my mission & my purpose & my grand and grandiose desires to serve on a global and cosmic level (& all of the agitation that comes with it because of the equally loud & powerful parts inside of me who must stay safe at all costs) have just been dropping away.

Like the way a cicada suddenly drops its exoskeleton and emerges brand new.

Like the way a seed planted in the dark, moist Earth splits open, and a new form emerges.

LIKE: NEW ME—WHO DIS?

But not NEW ME as much as just…Kathleen, deconditioned to a deeper degree than ever.

Kathleen who suddenly realized that she doesn’t actually have to DO anything AT ALL to be enough—I already AM enough, and actually, enoughness is not even on the table. 

Here I am, a human on the Earth, having an experience, and haha—joke’s on me, because THAT HAS BEEN THE WHOLE POINT, THE WHOLE TIME!!!!!

That’s it: EXPERIENCE.

The whole situation, the entire enchilada, the big fucking secret hiding out in plain sight.

LIFE LIVING LIFE.

Consciousness & the Universe experiencing Itself through the body/personality/soul matrix of the one we call Kathleen, who has never existed in this particularity before and never will, and

EVERY

SINGLE THING

She experiences

Is

Just

E X P E R I E N C E,

Is just

The mirror consciousness uses to say

“Oh hey, here I am again, in THIS form, in THIS form, in THIS form!” HOW GLORIOUS!!!!!!

 The Universe narrowed herself from her infinitude IN ORDER TO EXPERIENCE Herself as ME, and THAT IS ALL!

 Life living life.

 The Great Whatever experiencing this whole thing & play of life as a human on Earth.

 WHAT?!?!?!?!

 AND ALSO: WHAT A REVELATION AND A RELIEF!!!!!

 I don’t have to free anyone, or serve anyone, or fucking achieve some grand mission, or be productive to earn love (or safety or security) because it’s what I’ve been conditioned to believe.

 I live on a fucking planet that has fish & plants that glow, light shows that happen in the sky (Northern lights), unicorns who swim in the fucking ocean (hello narwhales), trees that give me oxygen and dirt that gives me food.

 I can just L I V E, however feels right or not right to me, and it’s all good.

 ARE YOU FOLLOWING?!? I mean, what a revelation.

 Nothing to do, no one to be, nowhere to go.

 Have I ever lived that way? Definitely fucking no.

 Does it feel amazing to do so now? Definitely fucking yes.

 Okay, I hope that made some sense to you.

 These things—these deep Mysteries—always are like trying to carry the actual SUN in the bed of a Ford F350.

 IMPOSSIBLE.

 And yet, the words & the transmission can hopefully be felt.

 NOTHING TO DO.

NOWHERE TO BE.

NO ONE TO BE.

 And then what? Then the rest is

FUCKING

BONUS.

(pic by Melodee Solomon.)

Okay, I LOVE YOU.

 I’m going back into my cave.

(I made gluten-free sourdough starter this past ten days, so I’m making bread tonight!!!)

(amazing photo by me. HA!)

I may or may not emerge at some point, but regardless, please remember: I LOVE YOU. LIFE LOVES YOU. YOU ARE DOING THIS PERFECTLY. HEED YOUR INNER URGINGS. FOLLOW WHAT FEELS RIGHT. PRAY TO SOMETHING (I pray to the Divine Mother) IF THAT FEELS GOOD. AND: NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE WORLD, YOU CAN BE SOVEREIGN IN YOUR OWN HEART & MIND, and THAT is something that never needs to change.

 AND—FUCKING REACH OUT!

If you’re having a TIME or need a pep talk or WHATEVER, REACH THE FUCK OUT TO ME. If you do it here, not sure when I’ll see it, so better to text or email me, but I AM HERE 4 U, and we all belong to each other, so let’s fucking keep loving & living & daydreaming together.

I GOT U BOO.

I LOVE U.

If we could see each other in person, I’d give you some sourdough bread or some of the apple muffins I made this morning or some of the sourdough starter I made (I HAVE EXTRA, ACTUALLY, SO IF YOU ARE IN SANTA FE AND WANT SOME, TRULY, PLEASE, HMU.)

Okay okay, volcano transmission over for now.

LOVE UUUUUUUUUUU

4EVAAAAAA

(pic by Seth Jacob.)

#music singersongwriter magic love

[etherealassassin]

❥ ❥ ❥ ❥ ❥

Send me a ❥ and I will say something positive about someone random.OKAY HERE WE GO, I’M GOING WAY OVER LIMIT WITH THESE BECAUSE I WANNA SHOW THAT HATER HOW AMAZING THIS FANDOM TRULY IS. 

@nisenokumo is a goddamn sweetheart who deserves the w o r l d YOU HEAR ME? the world. They are really nice and kind and caring and gentle and i wish them everything good in life. @deathlyacupuncture is someone I hold in very high regard because CORN FUCKING RULES ALRIGHT? There’s no one I want more as my ally and I hope we remain friends for a long time cuz I really love ya boo. @riverbedchild Nothing I say at this point could explain my love for this person whom I’ve already planned my future together with wgnworgnro. @ragedriiven mom’s lil babbu i love her so much my sunshine child. Just thinking about her brings a smile to my face goooosh don’t ever leave me.

@kusariyarou ROOOOSE you hear this a lot but you’re an angel among men, lemme tell you that. Always remain you and keep portraying your absolutely fantastic Kurapika.

@wild-cxrd I’ve only known them for a short while but I already treasure them so much. I’m happy to have gotten to know you and I hope you’ll remain my friend even tho Im trash

@wildchildfreecs Gaaabe my maaaaan, already see you as a close friend. You’re great in every way and so funny ily very much. Looking forward to getting to know u even better and to have many threads with you! 

@wildmountainkid You’re a great roleplayer and you really shouldn't listen to all of the critique you’ve received today. I admire you and I wish to interact with you greatly! @illuminxto You’re cool and sweet and i already love ya edgy. Please be my friendo. @mirajane-midorinome sunshiiiine you are my sunshiine. MIRA U ARE A GODDESS BOTH IN LOOKS AND PERSONALITY

@fideluxx  my amazing lovely child, whom i want to know for the rest of my life. I’m so proud of you. Keep being you, keep working hard and I know all of your dreams will come true. 

@vipereign Hay ray is precious and strong and i love you for who you are. Keep doing what you love and keep being you

@kijutsushx You are such a sweet person and is doing so much for this fandom and community. Keep being such a bright and amazing person and I hope to see you in the chat more

@arihiime IVE MSSED YOU SWEETIE and aaah you’re already as wonderful as I remember you

#//this is not under a readmore cuz this needs to be seen #Anonymous

[k-p-o-p-writings]

Seventeen Reactions: Duet with you for a grade

Request: Can you do svt reacting to them having to do a duet with their crush for a test grade?? :) thank you

S.Coups: 

He would most definitely be the most chill about it, but he’d still be super hyped to be partnered with you. He would plan out a step-by-step program on how to get closer to you every day in class, and knowing him, it would totally work. BOOM Y’ALL ARE DATING because hello it’s Choi Smooth-cheol we’re talking about here

Jeonghan:

Jeonghan would be very calm about it, but then would get progressively more controlling day by day and it would begin to frustrate you. Eventually you would call him out on it only to have him confess to you, saying that he just wanted everything to go right so you would be impressed by him (AWWW).

Joshua:

Lord Jisoo would turn absolutely paper white in the face when he heard your name called out with his to be partnered for the duet. He would be super awkward and stiff the first few times you practiced, but after you told him how much you admired his singing he would lighten up and your duet would end up perfect (as per usual).

Jun:

(lil frickin greaseball smh) ANYWAYS Junhui would be all like “HECK yeah she’s gonna fall for me so hard” but then,,, you started singing the beginning of the song and all of a sudden everything is in slow motion and cherry blossoms are falling from the sky and all he can see is you until WHOOPS IT’S HIS PART. You’d have to wake him up from his daydreams about you literally every day but you’d find it so cute that you can’t get mad at him for it. You’d totally bomb the duet, but it was worth it bc you got a cute bf out of it.

Hoshi:

HA this guy.... ok so Soonyoung would be so worried about you the whole time. Like he would bring you daily gifts at practice and insist on driving you there and back every day because “you might get mugged!!1!1!!!” even though you live like 3 minutes away from school. He ends up overworking himself just so you would get a good grade on his behalf so he has no voice when your evaluation day comes and he keeps apologizing (and probably cries) but you’re like “um!!! it’s ok this is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me lol” and you give him a lil peck as thanks and then he promptly passes out lmao WEAK

Wonwoo:

He would remain completely stoic the entire time your names were called and stay that way during your rehearsals until one day, you would be going over your part and you turn around to find him literally crying and he’s all like “UM NO i wasn’t crying it’s just...... you sound like a literal angel hahahaha WOW that was cheesy i’m sorry i-” but you’re just like “omg shut up you cute tree branch i like you too”

Woozi:

He would immediately get controlling like Jeonghan, but eventually you’d be like “that’s it just let mE SHOW YOU MY IDEA CHRIST” and you would run through the song just how you planned and after you finished he would just be sitting at the piano bench completely floored. Then he would just be like “ok um that was BRILLIANT WHY DIDN’T YOU SAY SOMETHING I LOVE YOU I COULD KISS YOU RIGHT NOW” and you’d just be like “1. I tried to tell you and 2. I think you do owe me something so yeah I’ll take that kiss now” and he would turn into a big blushy mess before planting a smooch on your cheek and the rest is history

DK:

Seokmin would be so HECKIN excited he probably wouldn’t be able to speak in front of you in fear of literally screaming instead. At first you’d be like “this is a disaster” but then he actually opens his mouth to sing and you’re like “.....o shit we got this in the bag”. You would compliment him every day even though he’s still not able to speak to you so you make it through evaluation day without a word from him but then he hands you a paper afterwards that just says “I meant every word that I sang to you.” and you’re like “UM OK HI DATE ME?????”

Mingyu:

HAHAHAHA (I’m sorry I just don’t even know where to start with this one) ok so the whole time he’d try to act all high and mighty like “lol peasant” to cover up the fact that he literally screams for 5 minutes straight in his car after every practice but then one day you walk past his car and you’re just like “um?????? what r u doin m8″ and long story short he has to confess bc like, how are you going to cover that up ANYWAYS  that’s like the cutest thing ever to you so you ask him out bc why the heck not

The8:

Minghao my baby!!! ok Minghao would be so sweet and considerate the whole time, letting you take the best singing parts and watching you like a proud boyfriend (even tho he isn’t (YET)). You just kinda end up slowly falling for him because he’s perfect boyfriend material and he’s so nice to you and doesn’t expect literally anything in return so (here comes the twist :0) YOU end up confessing to HIM first and he’s just like “no way i’ve been in love with you for like three years this is the best day of my life” and it just breaks your heart even more if that’s possible

Seungkwan:

SQUISHIE SASS BOY so Seungkwan would be super excited to work with you bc, you’re, like, the love of his life so when you ask him to help you with all your parts so you can get up to his level, he’s so proud and he’s like “of course!! you’re voice is already as pretty as your face, but i can try!!” and that makes you blush so much bc vocal god Boo Seungkwan just complimented YOU of all people and one thing leads to the next and you’re now the vocal power couple of the entire school no biggie

Vernon:

Hansol was actually hoping he didn’t get paired with you bc he just wanted to fail this assignment in peace without letting you know how terrible he was at singing so when he heard your name, he literally said “shit” in the middle of class. You overheard so you were like “I’m sorry if you don’t want to work with me we can try and switch partners maybe...” and he’s all like “NO NO NO it’s not you it’s just, well uh I’m terrible at singing and I don’t want you to hear me singing because you’re so talented and pretty and amazing and I’ll just hold you back. I’m sorry” but you’re just like “I honestly could care less about the grade but that’s really cute. Wanna get ice cream instead of practice??” and he’s just like “omg i am in love”

Dino:

aw lil Chan would be so embarrassed to be working with you bc you’re his idol for real and the whole time he would just put himself down bc he thinks he deserves it and it breaks your heart so you make it your daily mission to improve his confidence by complimenting him and helping him with his vocals and whatnot and you kinda just fall for him bc it’s lowkey so sweet to you that he looks up to you so much and you just want to tell him how great of a person he is every day so the practices slowly turn into dates bc you just end up talking to each other about literally everything under the sun and the rest is history

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🌟Describe them in 3 words


💞intelligent, crazy, amazing


🌟Their favourite style of clothing


💞like not quite indie not quite grunge not quite hipster but a definite mix of all 3 lol


🌟What mannerisms do they have?


💞*googles mannerisms* says ‘like’ twice as much as the average scouser, eats with a knife and fork the wrong way round, has a very specific foot look (you know what i mean), sleeps with an arm under the pillow


🌟Do they play an instrument?


💞notta one


🌟How did you meet/become introduced to them?


💞my bestie moved to her table in geography/history/art so i tagged along and iv never been so intimidated by someone in my whole entire life i swear to god

🌟Favourite thing they’ve ever said/texted/messaged?


💞something she said to me in year 10 has alwayssss stuck with me but im not writing it here lol


🌟What do you like doing with them?


💞well theres a few things i enjoy doing with u but im again im not posting it here lol bc i know u wont want me to (im not on about sex lol) i like lying on my bed with u and i like walking round the albert dock with u when its empty and late thats definitely a fave and i like mini golf with u thats always fun and r odeon dates obvs with our nacho cheese with extra cheese

🌟Their favourite colour


💞burgundyyyy


🌟Do they keep up to date on pop culture?


💞well shes always a good 17 days late on her memes and NEVER knows what vine im quoting which can be very awkward at times and shes so bad with her celeb gossip omg but im kinda glad bc all 3 of them things is what i specialise in


🌟Sweetest thing they’ve done for you?


💞she stays up until all hours making sure im okay and she used to bring me maccies when im sad but shes not done that for a while 😔 shes very good when it comes to my sadness and anxiety she always orders for me without having to ask me if i want her to, alwayssss offers to pay for my food, always brings up our next date even if we’re still on the current one haaha


🌟Have you dreamed about them?


💞yes i always do but i dont like it because dream sophie has always been a little horror to me


🌟Have they dreamed about you? (if you know)


💞the girl doesnt dream😂


🌟Can they dance?


💞hahaha no


🌟What does hugging them feel like?


💞home


🌟Your favourite thing about them?


💞jesus christ ermmmm if i had to pick one thing id sayyyyyy her ability to be so funny like oh my god shes so fucking funny its untrue i cant choose one physical trait theres just too many specific ones

🌟Their favourite thing about you?


💞i think i know her fave physical thing but idk about personality wise


🌟Best memory of you together?


💞oh god i have a memory that i love of our first night together and that time i had my first dominos idk i have so many


🌟What are they like when they’re tired?

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💞either so fucking horrible and nasty and an absolute CUNT or really gentle and lovely and soft and amazing legit no inbetween


🌟Could you imagine growing old together with them?


💞erm yes i feel like i already have


🌟 Could they imagine growing old together with you?


💞I DAMN HOPE SO BISH


🌟) What would an ideal date with them be?


💞odeon deffo 😂😂😂

🌟Are they competitive?


💞only when it comes to proving me wrong shes not bothered about beating me or anything just more putting me in the wrong (omg sounds like a pure mental abusive relationship i mean in a funny way’


🌟What do you do together?


💞wtf kinda question is this how vague


🌟Which smells remind you of them?


💞THAT DAMN JIMMY CHOO PERFUME YOU BATHE IN!


🌟Do they remind you of any music?


💞197555555


🌟Could you tell them your biggest secret?


💞dur wtf


🌟Could they tell you their biggest secret?


💞boo i already know her secret before its even her secret to have


🌟How do you greet each other?


💞'oooo is that a new spot’ or something nasty lol


🌟What makes you blush that they do?


💞call me soft names like baby


🌟What makes them blush that you do?


💞????


🌟Would you say you love them?


💞WITH ALL MY MOTHERFUCKING HEART BITCH i cry thinking about her shes my everything my rock my sun my stars my babybell my absolute dream just want to protect her from the cruel world we live in hope she never feels sadness in her life i could hold her hand until the day i die i get sad when one of us has to go home sometimes ill even feel sad when she goes to sleep because ill miss texting her


🌟Would they say they love you?


💞yea she loves me i can tell by the way she looks at me when im talking and how she’d do absolutely anything for me so that i dont feel anxious or nervous and how she holds me if im crying and how she has to call me a cute pet name in every text she sends me

#someone reblogged this so thought id just answer them #sorry about the emojis it wouldnt let me do separate lines #personal

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Happy 17th Monthsary Cream!

Happy 17th Monthsary Baby!

*Me transferring pictures of us to post on this website* (Suddenly, you texted me) You: Hey, r u watching? Me: no You: Watchu doin den Me: something You: Awwww oki pls dont do anything for me , i dont deserve it Me: im not You: Oki Me: You deserve a lot (we talked about when da pink panther da movie is gona end) You: Jus remember, I dont deserve anything, dont do anything pls Me: what, do you know what im doing? You: Nope, just assuming Me: Alrightyyy By the time you are reading this post, you probably don’t remember dis conversation LMAO. Well, surprise boo, I am doing something for ya ;-) I’m sorry I lied. But anyway, I know we’re not supposed to celebrate this since we only bestfriends for now. And I know I aint supposed to do anything for ya, but wat can i say except I love you and I am obsessed with you and i love you and i want you and i need you. OK I SHALL STOP, da introduction of this post is getting pretty crappy and cheesy; I’m sorry i’m just spilling out my love and typing what’s on my mind and heart. I don’t wanna edit it or revise and do all da typa shat. I’m jus let this be pure raw , ya kno? IDGAF IF U JUDGE ME BC OF MY FOBNESS, actually I do , only a likkle bit. but watever. 

I just wanna tell ya that today is not a happy day for us. I started it. I looked for a way to be petty and it just got worst. I forced you to tell me if she was pretty or not and our mood just went downhill. We haven’t fixed our problem and I feel like you are gonna leave me soon. Oh well, it’s gonna fucking hurt me so much if you do, but fuck i’m so toxic to you. I’m sorry I haven’t changed. Anyway, we were also supposed to watch Transformers 2 today :’-) Christopher, I promise I fucking want to watch Transformers 2 with you. I really admire how much you like Transfomers and how you are passionate about it. I also wanna remind you that you was at your cabin for a week so we wasn’t able to skype :-( I really fucking miss you baby. I fucking miss you so much. I’m not able to skype with you and what’s worse... it’s summer and i can’t see you in real life for 2 faking months. Just imagine how much it would hurt when we in university :’) i can’t imagine it.. We won’t have that much of time for each other. But even if it hurts, ima endure it until i’m able to see you again. Of course, we will still have our skype dates during uni days.. because that’s really the only time we are able to communicate and spend time. I love you so much. I fucking love you so much. Oh my fak (Sorry for my profanity). i cri. You are so precious baby. I don’t wanna lose you.. 

I also wanna tell ya how much I LOVE the fact that we find ways to make things happen and work out. LIKE EVEN THO U IN YO CABIN, WE FOUND A WAY TO WATCH 3 MOVIES TOGETHER!!! Here’s a picture of us tryna get onto the same minute and second:

We watched: End of Tomorrow, 22 Jump Street and Transformers.

I hope we are able to watch Transformers 2!!! Because I’m really looking forward to it. 

Christopher, you are really really gwapo. You may not believe it. And even if I tell you that you are fucking gwapo a million times n you still don’t believe me, i will still think and look at you like you are the most fucking handsomest DUDE IN THE WHOOOOLE WIDE WORLD!! You are an amazing human being and I’m happy that you are alive and you exist in my life. I’m fucking thankful that I exist right at this momemnt. IM SORRY IMF UCKING CRYING SINCE IM LISTENING TO PERFECT BY ED SHEERAN AND THIS SONG MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL AND IT ALWAYS REMINDS ME OF US AND UGH I JUST FUCKING SENT YOU A PICTURE OF ME CRYING IM SORRY U HAD TO SEE MY SENSITIVE CRYING SIOPAO SHITTY FACE UGH. I really don’t fucking deserve everything you do. Especially your love. I don’t deserve you at all. You are a faking angel and please don’t spread your wings and go away from me. ACTUALLY GO SPREAD YO WINGS just please wait for me to spread my wings as well so we can fly together and sooooarrr really high :’) 

Christopher, please don’t be sorry that you are sensitive. I just want to tell you that fucking embrace your sensitivity. Please embrace your uniqueness. I used to hate myself so much because of my sensitivity and my classmates bullied me. BUT CHRISTOPHER, I REALLY LOVE HOW YOU FEEL ERYTHANGGG. I’d rather want you to be sensitive and have a big ass golden heart than to be faking heartless asf. I want you for who you are and I love you for who you are. God created you so uniquely and “being sensitive” is a gift ya kno; You are able to sympathize and show compassion to people. Not everyone can do that. I love you for who you are baby. I promise I will always love you. I am really really really lucky to have you Christopher... Please stay <3 

Love,

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