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masonmiamor · 5 months

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think about it - - mason mount x reader.

summary: what happens when bsf! mason wants more, but you’re not willing too in order to protect your friends heart and yours.

wc: 1.3k

Hi everyone... It's been months... so forgive me... it's a Christmas miracle! 😭😭I hope everyone is doing okay and safe! I'd love to hear all about it if you'd like to speak about it! Feel like this is so bad and I lost my spark but I hope you can still enjoy :( 💕 don't forget to reblog, as us writers love to hear back from you!

“Stop! Don’t say another word,” you reluctantly stood being faced with Mason who stood confused. “You can’t say that Mason. You’re going out with her! One of my friends? How can you say that?” you defend your friend, even if she wasn’t there.

Being best friends with Mason wasn’t always easy. He forgot he was a normal person sometimes, and would let the fame get to his head, which is what he’s doing right now. Your parents and his were grateful more than ever to have you keep him in check because lord knew it would be a mess.

Mason had been flirting and going out with your friend Stella. From the stories she told, it sounded serious, and wanted more. You didn’t play Cupid, and part of you was slightly upset when you found out from Declan they were going out. Behind your back, not even a single word from Mason.

Stella was a beautiful blond, working at a law firm, and definitely super confident. You were the opposite, still at uni and trying to find a program that could promote your art. Art was your life, no matter what went on, it was a way for you to release all your energy into a blank canvas.

“All I’m saying is that I don’t like her like that anymore. She’s to stuck up and self-centered, I’m not ready for that commitment,” Mason reasoned but you shook your head with a no. This was him. Becoming a womanizer. Forgetting the good and little things that occurred in his life.

“You’re gonna break her heart? Before Christmas? Really?” you say with a pure questioning voice, your eyes squinting. Mason shrugged and nodded nonchalantly, “I don’t see why not. I realized I didn't want her. She’s not the one I want,” he said.

“So why play her? Drag it out this long. That’s not fair to her,” you say disgusted not being able to look at him. Mason always was a person you admired and looked up to, but deep down you fell for the freckled brown-eyed man. It was hard to resist and you refused to accept it, but when seeing them together, you couldnt help think it should be you aside him. “You don’t think it’s fair for me? I never wanted her, she threw herself at me.”

“Which is why I’m saying why play her when you should’ve made it clear from the start? You made her attached to you and let her believe your lies and promises. Mason what the actual fuck?” you spit out with pure rage. The room becomes hot as you begin to look around for the exit.

“She also played with me! I’m sure she didn’t tell you that because you’re blind to her. You’re so quick to defend her but what about me? Your best friend? Stella messed around with other men, while I stayed loyal to her. She’s a liar and a manipulator. So what if I end it before Christmas? I can finally have the person I want instead of being focused on someone who can’t even make time for me.”

This was certainly news to you, as you started to feel regretful for the way you screamed at him. To call him a womanizer and letting the fame get to him. You didn’t know Stella did this, it was news to you. As all she could brag about nowadays was about Mason this Mason that. She never mentioned talking with other people. He was right. You did let her get to your head.

“It’s okay I know you didn’t mean it, to scream at me,” Mason noticed your quiet tone, heart-wrenching as he tried to swallow the words that wanted to come out, before he knew it, he started speaking again. “I know you want what’s best for everyone, but when will you think of yourself? You also deserved to be treated right and loved by someone,” you eyed him weirdly and burst out laughing.

“Me being in in love? Or someone loving me? That’s impossible. I haven’t had a boyfriend in years, let alone go on dates. I’m starting to accept the fact I won’t find anyone, I mean look at me!” you said seriously, continuing to laugh. Mason frowned, shaking his head at the way you were talking to yourself.

“I am looking at you… and all I see is someone who’s scared of revealing who they truly are. The commitment maybe or afraid of being rejected. A beautiful, smart, independent woman,” Mason said carefully as he took steps closer to you. “Someone who deserves the world after putting everyone first before her. Why can't you see that? Why do you distance yourself from me?” he asked with urgency.

You would be lying if you said you slowly detached yourself from him. Avoiding plans or meetings because it hurt to see him. The idea of him not telling you he was going out with Stella, seeing them together when all your friends went out, your friend who still was with Mason, and being in love with your best friend but still trying to refuse it.

It drove you wild and often made you cry because everyone around you began to settle down, and you were left wondering why you couldn’t keep one good person in your life. You hated the fact of never being enough, for yourself or anyone around you. Maybe you weren't enough and that is what pushed people away.

“Mason…”

“Why can't you let me love you like you deserve? Let me take your worries and pains away? Let me be the man you need and love you unconditionally? What are you so afraid of? What else do I have to do to get your attention?” Mason confessed. The Christmas tree lighting made him look intimidating as he held your face in his large hands.

It was fucked up. He knew it was fucked up to mess with your friend to get you to see how madly he fell in love with you. It was an even bigger mistake to have dragged it out this long, knowing how distant and muted you were from him. He just wanted you to finally see that it was him all along.

You swallowed the lump in your throat, unable to look him in the eyes, because if you did, you would give it away how you felt about him. The eyes never lied. Your eyes never lied to him. “Say something please…” Mason pleaded, afraid he might've overstepped, or read the cards wrong.

“I'm not the right person for you Mase… I can’t give you what you want…” you painfully smiled, as both of your hearts sunk deeper. “I can't lose you like I’ve lost everyone else. We wouldn't work, I’m just way too different from the girls you've been with,” you say pulling away from his grasp and walking to the opposite end of the room.

“They're not you though. You will always come first. They didn't mean anything because it wasn't them I wanted, it's all along been you. I’ve spent way too much time thinking, losing you, suffering because you weren't with me. I'm tired of that, I just want you baby. Don't compare yourself to anyone in the world, because at the end of the day, you will be the first one I look for… I love you.” Your eyes widened, not realizing he stood in front of you again.

Your head felt heavy, filled with thoughts as they raced through your head. Your chest tightened at his words. After waiting so long to hear them, why did all of a sudden feel different? Like you didn't believe them. Believe him. Was it the fact she was still present, or were you afraid of finally having something real and you being the reason to lose it all? Mason leaned down kissed the inner corner of your mouth, and pulled away. Joining your families who were celebrating Christmas Eve.

“Think about it. Okay?”

#mason mount #mason mount x reader #mason mount imagine #mason mount one shot #mason mount blurb

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lovelettersforthedamned · 3 months

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hi hi hi hi i saw this post and i wanna see your take on it (with peter ofc like hurt/comfort) (https://www.tumblr.com/moonstruckme/730170525023862784/okay-hey-me-again-was-hoping-to-send-a-request?source=share) something similar happened to me a couple of weeks ago too.

So a couple of weeks ago i was planning like this whole big get together and was texting everyone and planning food, decorations and everything and the day of most people either canceled or just literally didnt show up and i didnt even get a text or anything, and i literally spent hours planning, like i went to TJMaxx, Marshalls and stuff like that to find cute decorations and everything, like i spent all of my own money on this. Since no one came i literally sat in my house all dolled up eating everything and watch tv cuz i was upset. THEN around like 11 at night i was on instagram (and im guessing one of them forgot to take me off their close friends) and i saw a story of basically everyone i invited to my party go to another persons party or something i wasnt invited to ig and none of them told me. Like if im being honest, if they couldnt come cuz of some other event i would have moved the date even tho i picked it first. but like, its so shitty cuz they are like my main friend group and its hard for me to mingle with people in general. I have been texting like dry responses and the group chat has been empty since and i have no idea what to do. - 🎀

That’s What Peter’s For

✮ tasm!peter parker x f!reader

✮ word count: 0.8k

✮ warnings: one forehead kiss, hurt/comfort, mentions of food, angst.

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✮ gif by @spidey-stark

The TV in front of you flickered from frame to frame, each pixel reflecting a bright and blinding light into your dark living room. It’s late as you sit alone on the couch, eating the food you prepared for your friends going to waste due to your overplanning. Or maybe because they didn’t bother to show up.

As you mindlessly shovel food into your mouth, you think back on your trips to pick out decorations for this night. You went with Peter, and you spent too much, but you didn’t care. You wanted your friends to gawk at the effort you put in, you just wanted them to care.

When you were picking out an outfit for tonight, you tried on each variation, but to no avail, you weren’t satisfied. The bedroom looked like a warzone. Shirts and pants scattered along the floor, leaving little to no walking room. You couldn’t help but look forward to seeing everyone, the thought making you anxious for everyone to arrive.

Peter was out for the night doing his nightly activities, when the clock struck eight, signaling that your friends should be here at any moment. You were still perfecting some of the drinks when you checked the clock again, eight forty-five. Your eyes furrowed in confusion as you walked over to your phone to double-check the time and also look for any ‘running late, sorry’ messages. And to your surprise, the time was correct, and no one had texted you.

Taking a seat on the couch, you looked for the digital invite you’d sent everyone to double-check check you got the date right. Maybe I’m the wrong one? Once you found it, you took a deep breath. The date is right.

You tried to find answers as you scrolled through social media. One of the people invited to your party posted a video of themselves dancing in a dimly lit club, the camera panned over to the rest of the group. You can feel your heart sink into your stomach as you realize that everyone you’ve invited was in that video posted five minutes ago.

Now it’s almost midnight, and you haven’t moved besides turning on the TV and reaching for the snacks on your coffee table. Thick tears roll down your face, taking your makeup with you. You texted one of them a few hours ago, simply asking when they would arrive at your place. And of course, you didn’t receive a response.

Too in your mind, you don’t even hear the front door open, revealing Peter quickly shoving his suit in his backpack. He was assuming that there would be other people filling in his apartment, causing him to change in the alley and rush up to meet you. A smile is on his face until he’s met with the sound of silence along with the muffled noise from whatever you are watching.

Then his eyes land on you. Walking over he can’t see your tear-stained cheeks yet as he asks, “Where is everyone, bug?” You sniffle, before turning your head to look at him, instantly breaking down in tears. “Woah,” he instantly sits next to you on the couch, pulling you in for a hug, “tell me what happened.” His tone suddenly turns stern, as he worries.

You look up at him, your skin smudged with a thick smear of black from the mascara you delicately applied just hours before. “Th–They…never showed up,” you take a shaky breath, “everyone ditched me for something else, Pete. And n–no one told me.”

Peter’s worry turned into anger. He was there for you through all of the planning, all of the grocery trips, and all of the outfit changes, and none of them cared to show. He knew that you needed him in this moment. You needed a warm embrace to pour your heart out. And that you did.

You sat and cried with Peter until you fell asleep, exhaustion taking over your body. When Peter felt your breathing even out beside him, he turned off the TV and carried you to your shared bedroom. Placing you down on the mattress, he walked back into the kitchen, quietly packing everything up, and cleaning the space. The last thing you needed to see tomorrow morning was the events of tonight.

You didn’t stir until you felt a cold cloth on your face, softly wiping at your skin. “Hey, it’s okay. I’m just taking your makeup off,” he hushes, placing a delicate kiss on your forehead. You relax under him. The feeling of someone looking after you makes you melt further into the mattress.

With Peter everything was alright, and you knew that he would be right at your side through all of it. That includes texting your friends a lengthy paragraph about the value of friendship.

✮ author's note: oh 🎀 anon, im so sorry you had to deal with this. i've been through something like this a few years back, and it is such a shitty feeling. you don't deserve friends that will push you aside for something they think is better. friendships do not work like that. they should have communicated with you about not making it, but the fact that they just ghosted you completely and tried to cover it up??? shady as hell. i'm always here to listen!!

don't forget to like, comment, and reblog to support this if you liked it!! my asks/inbox is open, so send in requests if you'd like. ok, ily bye<333

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 4 months

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Am I the asshole for breaking up with my boyfriend?

I (32F) broke up with my boyfriend Jack (30M) a few months ago over a couple Issues I've been dealing with: I found out I have a degenerative issue with my eyes and will be going blind, and his dad hates me for being as he quotes "fat, uneducated, and bad with jobs". Note: I am infact obese, I do not have a college degree, and had lost my job 3 times in a row in 6mos before I hit the stable job I'm at now, due to mental breakdowns at work.

Jack has lived with his parents his whole life, and revers them greatly. However I can tell he's going through the same thing I did with my parents- Where they prioritized him getting good grades over his mental health, he constantly apologizes and thinks I will hate and abandon him over very simple things, he rather delve in games than face his problems, because he thinks he is comfortable when it's very much making him feel worse.

I cut contact with my parents 3 years ago for these exact same reasons- They were overbearing, abusive, and without another way to say it: extremely catholic. Because I was financially dependent on them and didn't know any better, I thought I could live with them as an adult because of how expensive housing is where we live.

Eventually I had to start getting therapy because I would have meltdowns so often in school, and found out it was the way that my parents treated me when I was younger, and that I have AuDHD- something my parents denied as me being too stupid and lazy to do anything after high school.I got on medication and though my ADHD improved, i had to continue therapy due to my Autism now having more time to focus and overwhelm me and having to learn to unmask. I've been told my personality did a 180 over this from peers that hadn't seen me pre-pandemic, but I'm happier now, and eventually found a way to move away from my parents and living with my Uncle instead, who instead of belittling me is encouraging my therapy.

I am explaining this, because Jack does the same things I do- he's almost the exact same as I was with my parentls. He has constant meltdowns and spirals, he thinks he's worthless because of the way his Mom and Dad treats him, yet he keeps putting his parents on a pedestal. It's because we seemed to grow up in the same kinds of environment that we bonded and eventually started dating last year.

Us openly dating did not last long, though, because when he introduced me to his parents they immedietely did not like me. They did not like that I wanted to help with dinner, or refuse eating chicken, because Jack is severely allergic to it. They also did not like that I wanted to clean the table and kept sidelooking at me whever we talked.

Because of this simple lunch, for months, they pressured him to break up with me but he wouldn't. He said he loves me as I am, and his parents are just stupid. We even had to start keeping the relationship secret, because his parents would harass him for coming to just pick me up, or meet me at a tennis court so we would play a game or two. His parents can track him through his car, so they always knew where he was.

I told him what I had to do to leave my parents house, but he said it's too hard to do that. My Uncle was sympathetic about this and even discussed with him to move into our house, but he refused that too.

Last month, I went to a vision doctor due to headaches and blurrier than usual vision, and found out that I would be losing my eyesight due to something going on within my eyes. Its extremely stressful for me, and dealing with that, and the constant harassment from Jacks parents, I got very tired. it was getting to the point where he couldnt go out without his parents yelling at him about me for something, we only hung out for once day per month. I didn't want to give them something else to yell about me at him, and I felt it would ease his stress because they would stop bothering him. And, though it seems weird, I hoped it make him uncomfortable enough to do something for himself. So I ended up breaking up with him.

It has really hurt to do this to him- He's someone I love dearly, and he's taken it way harder than I thought. He won't listen to me, But. He does listen to his friends- it's how he asked me out, and at least try out therapy, his friends hyped him up about it so he did it. I feel if his friends help him realize what he needs to do, he'll be more inclined to help himself than me just telling him. And if not, his friends are still there to back him up than me staying near him and having his parents harass him about it.

His friends are mad at me though, and told me I should have just put up with his parents, because in the end I am in love with him and that I actually made the whole situation worse, because he has loss motivation. Even though I am still talking to him and still there for him alongside his friends- I just make myself scarce so his parents don't know we talk. Am I the asshole?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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mcu-coworkers · 2 years

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Mistakes

Summary: Anakin makes a mistake that almost costs him you.

Pairings: Anakin Skywalker x Y/n reader

Wordcount: 6,257

A/n: Hello everyone I ‘ve been gone for a while working on this for you guys its all in one whole part this time lol thank you guys for reading and I hope you guys like it!xx

Master list

You’d been gone from home for a couple days working on Kamino and the trip was initially supposed to last a week.

Shaak Ti was generous enough to let you leave a couple days earlier than expected due to how advanced your work had become so quickly.

You thought about calling your husband and telling him the good news but you thought it would be even better to surprise him with his favorite dinner and his wife back home.

Smiling you got on the ship and started your journey back hoping you could get there sooner.

Thanking the clones that helped you carry your luggage into your living room you sighed in relief when you were finally left alone.

Or so you’d thought.

Hearing a thump coming from your bedroom you got curious and decided to see what it was.

Getting closer that thumping became more rhythmic and you stopped in your tracks.

“Anakin.” you heard a moan.

Covering your mouth with your hand you held your breath in fear of what you were about to see.

Speeding up your walk you took the last ounce of courage and opened the door full force.

Just as your gut suspected it was your husband, with some random chick wrapped in your bed sheets.

Startled by your sudden entrance Anakin looked over his shoulder and immediately jumped off the bed after he realized it was you.

“Shit Y/n.” he said as he started putting his clothes on while the girl wrapped herself in your bed sheets.

“No, get the hell out of my house, now.” you said pointing a finger at the girl in your bed.

The idiot just looked at Anakin stupidly and you couldnt believe any of it.

Scoffing you realized you’d had enough.

“Leave.” Anakin said to the girl as he pushed her out of the bed, “Baby, I'm so sorry I can explain, let me just-” he didn't get to finish because you were already out the door.

“Y/n! Wait where are you going?” he said as he followed behind you trying to pull his shirt on.

“Far the fuck away from you.” you sneered not taking a second to look at him.

“Please wait, she'll leave and we can talk.” he pleaded as he followed you closely.

Suddenly you turned around and threw something at him and kept walking towards his fighter, the clones had left so this was your only way out.

Looking down at the ground his stomach dropped when he realized what you’d thrown at him.

Your wedding ring.

He held in it a shaky hand as his eyes began to pool with tears, “Y/n, baby will you just listen please, just for a-” he stopped when he heard his fighter take off.

“Y/n!” He yelled running out to the landing bay.

By now the girl was long gone, too ashamed to have gotten caught and scared for her life as Anakin warned her what would happen to her life should you find out.

Anakin put on his shoes and ran down to Obi-wan's apartment hoping his ship was home.

Meanwhile you were flying practically blind with tears blurring your vision.

Trying to focus on the view ahead of you, you looked at how much gas you had left when suddenly you were met with a polaroid picture of you and Anakin.

He was kissing your head as you showed off your ring the day you got engaged.

Picking up the photo you looked at his smile and how happy you both were.

Were. Passed tense, because now, you didn't even know what you were.

Feeling your emotions take care of you, your eyes began to pour once more when suddenly you heard a loud sound, a bright light, and everything went black.

Anakin knocked viciously on Obi-wan's door and Satin opened with a confused smile which quickly dropped when she saw Anakin's state.

“Obi-wan is he here?” he said urgently.

“Yes, come in, what do you need?” She said opening the door.

“Its Y/n-” he began walking towards the landing bay when he was cut off by his friend.

“Anakin, what are you doing here and why aren't you answering your phone?” he said, rushing to grab his things.

“ I need your ship.” he said, running to the landing bay.

“Yes I know we need to get to the hospital.” Obi-wan said the following behind him.

“Wait what? No, I need to go get Y/n.” He was confused by his friend's words.

Equally as confused, Obi-wan stopped in his tracks. “Anakin, where do you think she is?” he said, watching his friend slowly.

Suddenly realization dawned upon Anakin and he leaned on the wall for support, “No, no, no what did I do?” he asked himself as he began letting the tears fall from his face.

“We’ll have enough time to talk about this later, but we need to go Anakin.” Obi-wan said as he took his friend to his ship and got to the hospital as quickly as they could.

The ride was quiet, the only sound heard were Anakins sniffles as his tears came and went every time he thought about it all.

Obi-wan didn't know much about what happened but by the way Anakin held the ring that surely should have been on your finger he knew something wasn't right between you two.

Arriving at the hospital Anakin wasted no time in running in and straight to the receptionist.

“My wife, she was brought here her name is Y/n Skywalker.” he said frantically as the woman typed in her name.

She froze as she looked at the screen and back at him, “ I ‘ll have a doctor come speak with you very shortly.” she said as she picked up a phone and began dialing a number.

“That's it? Where is she? I need to see my wife.” he said, getting angrier by the second.

“Anakin, that's not going to help, just come over here and let's wait for the doctor.” Obi-wan said, pulling his friend away before he got them kicked out of the hospital.

“ I don't want to wait, I need to see her now Obi-wan, I need her.” Anakin said as he pulled at the roots of his hair.

It felt as if time was moving immensely slow and it was driving him insane.

“Anakin, why are you holding her ring?” Obi-wan said, finally breaking the question.

Looking down at your ring tears began to fall down his face, how could he be so stupid and give in to damned temptation.

“Because I‘m an idiot, but I ‘m an idiot who needs his wife, I can't lose her.'' He said Obi-wan did what he could and hugged his friend as he let out his sobbs into his shoulder.

“She’s strong Anakin, she’ll make it out of this one.” he said as he patted his back.

“Family of Y/n Skywalker.” they heard a voice yell.

Quickly they turned around, “Us, I'm her husband, how is she?” Anakin asked, walking up to the man.

Sighing, the doctor sat on the arm rest of the couch, “Take seat sir,” he said motioning towards the couch.

Slowly Anakin sat down along with Obi-wan, both hearts racing.

“She has major blunt force trauma to the left side of her body, it's causing some major internal bleeds that she's going to need surgery for immediately, a concussion might be on the table but until we control the bleeding we won't be sure.” he said watching his clock.

“When will she go into surgery?” Anakin asked, but before the doctor could answer you were being wheeled by a crew with someone performing CPR on top of you trying to get your heart to pump blood.

“Were losing her get the Oxygen tank stat we got a code blue!” she yelled, as they pushed you through some doors.

Quickly Anakin stood rushing over to the doors they took you through.

“Where are they taking her? Excuse me?” he said as the doctor ran past him.

“We’re taking her into surgery now there's no time.” he said as he ran through the doors following you.

“Code blue? What the hell is a code blue?” he said looking at Obi-wan.

Obi-wan looked at his friend sympathetically as he looked down at his phone, “Code blue is called when the patient must be resuscitated.” he whispered as his eyes began to tear up.

You two had become very dear friends, you were the sister he never got to have.

“No, she can't, she can't leave me like this.” Anakin said as he pulled his ends sitting back down on the couch.

The minutes felt like hours before someone came out.

“Skywalker?” A nurse said, looking around.

“Yes?” Anakin said standing quickly.

“Please follow me. I ‘ll take you both to her designated room.” she said as she opened the door wider for both him and Obi-wan.

Quickly they followed her to the empty room, all of Anakin's hopes to see you there gone.

“The doctors were able to stabilize her and stop the bleeding, she should be out of surgery within the next hour if there are any changes you will be told.” she said as she set up machines in your room.

“When the surgery is over the doctor will come in and explain more of what I just said but go into further detail for you, here's a bag with all of her belongings that were on the site.” she said, handing Anakin a bag full of your clothes.

Looking at them both she nodded before she walked out of the room.

“What's that?” Obi-wan said, pointing at the polaroid photo.

Taking it out of the bag Anakin looked at the photo and couldn't help but smile, a single tear fell down his face.

“It was the day we got engaged. I kept on my dashboard board ever since.” he whispered, “ I can't lose her Obi-wan, I'm a mess without her.” he said as he held the picture tightly.

“She’ll be alright, we just have to be patient for her. She'll be here soon.” he said, rubbing Anakin's shoulder.

Still the thought lingered, what did Anakin do for you to leave your ring and end up like this with that photo in your hand?

Eventually you were brought into the room and Anakin set his chair next to you.

Bruises skimmed your cheek and your chin, he could see a bruise going down your neck and it probably went down further if it wasn't for the hospital gown covering them.

The doctor walked in shortly and began checking your eyes for the concussion he had discussed earlier.

“How is she?” Anakin said not taking his eyes off you.

“Well the broken ribs punctured her lungs, the internal bleeding was able to be stopped, her lungs were patched and the CT scans all came back clear.” he said but he didn't sound like he was done.

“But.” Anakin said.

“ I have yet to see any interaction from her brain, as of right now she is in an intense level coma, we are not able to determine when she’ll wake up or if she even will.” the doctor said checking your board.

“So it could be days?” Obi-wan asked.

“It could be days, months, even years, her body will heal with time. It's just up to her to decide if she wants to stay and fight.” the doctor said to them.

“If anything changes in her charts we will let you both know.” he said giving them one last glance before he left.

Standing up Obi-wan decided it was time he left Anakin alone with you.

“ I ‘m gonna go, come back with something for you to eat.” he said, giving him a good look.

Anakin nodded but still never stopped looking at you, once he heard the door close he took your hand and gently held it in his.

“ I ‘ll wait, right here just give me a sign baby.” he said as he looked at your face hoping you’d move a finger, anything.

Suddenly the monitor jumped not just once but multiple times.

The doctor came in soon after and began reading the brain scans and smiling to himself.

“She's here, this activity it's amazing.” he said looking at you.

“That's good right she’ll be up soon?” Anakin asked, squeezing your hand.

“We can definitely take years off the board but anything shorter is undetermined but this is good Mr.Skywalker.” he said as he saved the scans and walked out once more.

Kissing your hand he smiled.

That was five months ago.

Anakin had seen so many cat scans, brain scans, hand movements and he could go on and on.

But still you haven't woken up, the bruising was gone, the neck brace was also gone.

Your body was mostly healed but yet you haven't woken up.

Anakin was going insane listening to that stupid monitor and staring at the white walls.

Of course Obi-wan came and updated him on work, sports, brought him food and stayed with you after he had to force him to go home and get changed.

His excuse was that you’d be pissed if you woke up and saw Anakin looking a mess, the last thing you needed was to wake up next to a smelly husband.

Anakin was trying to keep the room filled with beautiful colors for you when you woke, flowers, cards, gifts.

But it was no use, being left all alone he was brought back to his thoughts.

Yes he was waiting for the moment you woke up but he was dreading the moment you remembered it all.

He needed you, having you so close yet so far away was torture, it’d be hell if you woke up and decided you wanted him out of your life.

On time Obi-wan walked in with a fresh set of flowers.

“Alright Anakin go home and a shower the sooner you go the sooner you're back.” he said not wanting to go back and forth.

“Alright, I‘m going.” he sighed standing up.

“Satine will bring us lunch when you get back, we have to talk about the council.” he said fixing the vase.

“ I will be back in fifteen minutes or sooner.” Anakin said, kissing your forehead before leaving quickly.

Obi-wan sat down, sighing as he began talking, the doctor said talking to you was good.

“Satine and I decided we want to have an off-planet wedding, going against tradition we were thinking of a beach wedding,” he said.

“Anakin hates sand.” you said before your throat dried up.

Obi-wan turned to you almost getting whiplash by how fast he did.

“Holy shit.” he said standing up.

“W-water.” you choked out.

Quickly he grabbed the cup with water and brought it up to your lips.

Signaling with your eyes when you were done you laid your head back down and tried catching your breath.

“ I ‘ll go get the doctor,” he said, running out.

Once the doctor was done checking you and realized everything was fine.

“Everything looks great but we will be keeping you here for physical therapy for the next couple of months. It's been a while since you moved so we just have to get you back on track.” he said smiling.

You just simply nodded and smiled at him.

“Has Mr.Skywalker been informed I don't see him here?” the doctor asked.

“Oh I ‘m terribly sorry I‘ll call him right away.” Obi-wan said.

“No wait. I don't want him here.” you said, grabbing his hand to stop him, “Doctor, I don't want any other visitors other than Obi-wan and Satine. No one else please.” you said.

“Are you sure? He is your husband, he's been here every single day.” Obi-wan asked.

“Yes, please.” you pleaded you were stuck reliving that moment you got home endlessly for five months.

You couldn't face him after all of it.

“Alright we will set security locks around the unit, Only Mr.Kenobi and his fiance will be allowed to enter.” the doctor said leaving shortly after.

“Y/n what's going on? Why don't you want Anakin here?” Obi-wan asked Anakin never truly told him what happened that day.

“He cheated Obi, I found him with some random girl in our home, in our bed.” you said, you could have cried had you not been so dehydrated and tired.

“ I am so sorry Y/n, he's an idiot. But he’s been here everyday. The only time he leaves is when I make him go shower.” he said, chuckling to himself.

“ I just can't face him, the images of him on top of her scarred my mind. It hurts too much.” you said fidgeting with your hands.

“It's alright, you won't see anyone you don't want to see, I‘ll make sure of it.” he said, smiling softly.

“Thank you Obi.” you whispered.

Just then Anakin was walking back into the floor your room was in when suddenly the doors to the hall were locked.

“Excuse me? The doors locked?” he said walking up to the nurses counter.

“Yes, one of the patients asked for controlled visitations so we have to check the list before anyone enters. Who are you here to see?” she said, beginning to type on her screen.

“Y/n Skywalker she's my wife.” he said, tapping his finger on the counter he was beginning to get anxious he had already spent too much time away.

“I'm sorry sir, it seems you're not on her list.” she said, frowning Anakin was starting to get annoyed.

“The hell? I ‘m her husband. I need to go in there. Why am I not on the list?” he exclaimed.

“She chose the list herself, sir I have no control over that.” the nurse tried to explain.

“Wait what- she what? Is she awake?” Anakin said, suddenly freezing where he stood.

“Anakin.” he heard behind him when he turned he found Obi-wan coming out of the hallway he couldn't get into.

“Obi-wan, is it true? Is she awake?” He said he needed answers but more importantly he needed to get in there.

“Come outside we need to talk.” was all Obi-wan said before he began walking to the elevator.

“No, I need to get in there and see her. What does no one get about that?” he said not moving.

“Outside. Now Anakin.” Obi-wan said sternly, this time Anakin followed.

Once outside Anakin began pacing, “What is it Obi-wan, is she alright?” he said, looking at him.

“She doesn't want to see you, and given the situation I think she's right.” Obi-wan said.

“Obi-wan please it was a mistake I never meant to hurt her.” He pleaded as his heart began to race.

“But you did it nonetheless and she can't see you for it. Not yet at least, and you better hope for your sake that one day she changes her mind. But I won't force her to.” Obi wan said, looking down.

He hated seeing someone he viewed as a brother suffer so much, but he brought it upon himself.

“Can I atleast know what the doctor said?” He whispered as he tried to hold in the tears.

“She's great, she’ll be staying two months, maybe less for physical therapy then she’ll be able to go home,” he said.

“Two months. I have to wait another two months?” he said, sitting down on the curb.

“ Maybe she’ll change her mind. We don't know that yet, but I ‘ll be there everyday.” Obi-wan said as he started to walk back in.

“Yeah so will I , I‘ll wait outside that hall until my name is on that list or until she's out of there.” Anakin said, wiping the tears away.

“Anakin,” he began, “No, she can keep me out of there but I can still wait outside.” Anakin said.

Sighing Obi-wan walked back in and up the elevator.

A month later it was the same routine, Anakin showed up, sat in the waiting area while Obi-wan accompanied you in your physical therapy with occasional visits from Satine.

Hell, even Ashoka made it on the list before Anakin.

Between her and Obi-wan he pretty much knew every single detail except for how you were doing.

Everytime it came to that they suddenly had somewhere to be.

Today was like no other. He walked in ready to take his usual seat.

“Ms.Neil, how are you today?” he asked the nurse at the counter, he’d become quite familiar with everyone after a while.

“Good Mr.Skywalker but you can't sit there anymore.” she said smiling and he heard the locks click and the doors begin to open.

“I'm on the list?” he whispered looking at the open doors.

“Yup, she just updated it this morning, She's in physical therapy right now room 4 honey, good luck.” she said as he started walking towards the doors.

Taking a deep breath Anakin began walking down the hall looking through the windows when he finally made it to room 4.

There you were, walking while holding onto bars. A nurse by your side making sure you stayed up.

“Are you coming in sir?” A nurse asked slightly, startling him.

“Yes, sorry thank you.” he said as he walked in.

“Ms.Skywalker, your first visitor is here.” she said, making you turn your head to the door.

Anakin didn't know what to do, wave, smile, he felt like an idiot under your stare.

“Leave us, I‘ll take a short break.” you said smiling to the nurses.

Continuing to walk they helped you to a nearby couch.

“Come, sit.” you said looking over your shoulder.

Quickly Anakin takes a seat next to you, keeping his hands beside him still not knowing what to do.

He’d gone to the hospital everyday with the intention to see you, he never actually had a plan when the day finally came.

“Thank you for letting me see you.” he said as he took in your features.

Your cheeks finally had their rosy pink color back, your lips were back to that kissable pink he loved so much.

“Dont, it was necessary to do this eventually, We might as well talk.” you said, sighing finally looking up at him.

He looked tired.

Bags under his eyes, slightly messy hair and stubble on his chin that he never let stay before.

“You're right, I‘m sorry.” he said, he didn't know where to start but he could only hope that you could trust him once more.

“ I think,” you said, bracing yourself. “ I think we should get a divorce.” you said turning away.

Suddenly all of Anakin's hopes of repairing anything went out the window along with his sanity.

“W-what? Divorce? I - no please we can work through this, y/n don't do this.” he said as he took your hands in his begging your eyes to meet his.

“Anakin I can’t walk into that house everyday for the rest of my life worried that I ‘ll find you with another woman again. I won't do it.” you said, pulling your hands away even his touch hurt too much.

“It won't happen again, it was a mistake she meant nothing to me.” he exclaimed as tears began to pool in his eyes.

Anakin couldn't live with the thought of you not being by his side.

“Then why did you do it? If I was so important, why was it so easy for you to betray my trust?” you asked, a tear finally escaping your eye.

“It was a moment of weakness, I was alone and she was there. It will never justify what I did but I want to move on from this, together.” he cried out finally you looked into his eyes.

“You, a trained Jedi, gave up what we built together, because you had a moment of weakness and instead of calling me you went to her.” you said more to yourself, everything just hurt.

Suddenly you zoned out, you thought you could do this.

You thought you could ask for the divorce and he’d agree but now you’d never felt more confused.

He sleeps with someone, ruins your marriage but doesn't want a divorce?

“We can go to cou-” he was rambling when you finally came back to the real world.

“You fucking asshole.” you said, turning to him.

“What?” he whispered, confused by your outburst.

“ I have been whatever you asked me to be , when you were gone on missions I waited for you, late night meetings at the temple, dinners with the council, visits to naboo, whatever the case I waited like a love sick puppy right at the door until you came home.” you said.

“ I went years, years Anakin like this because I loved you.” you said, wiping the tears away.

“Don't say it like that, don't say ‘loved’. You still love me, I know it. I can feel it.” he said as tears fell harder.

“ I finally got my dream job and it required me to be away for a couple of days and god knows how long it took you to break.” you said, chuckling at the thought.

“ Love isn't enough Anakin, not when you were okay with hurting me this easily.” you said miserably as you covered your mouth trying to hold back the tears.

You were a second away from accepting your weakness and jumping into his arms.

But you knew you’d live on eggshells for the rest of your life and you couldn't do it.

Holding his head in his hands Anakin cried as he felt hopeless, all he wanted was to have you back in his arms yet you wanted him to leave.

He couldn't do it. Call him selfish but he couldn't live a life without you in it.

“Y/n-” Obi-wan paused before he took in the scene before him.

He knew what you’d plan to say but it was just his luck he walked in right when it was happening.

“No, It's okay, we're done here. Can you go get the nurse? I need to get back to my room and pack my things.” you said as you cleared your throat and wiped your tears away.

“You're leaving?” Anakin asked as he looked up at you.

“ It's my last day, I want to leave this place and start fresh.” you said as you tried to look anywhere but at him.

“Are you coming back to the house? It's still your home.” he said with the lightest glimpse of hope in his eyes.

Shaking your head you bit your lip as you looked at him, “That’s not my home anymore Anakin, I can't.” you whispered, looking away.

“Okay.”he whispered. “But I want you to know, I fought to make you mine once, I ‘ll do it again I promise you that.” he said as he took your face in his hand.

“Anakin.” you whispered as the tears began to fall.

“It’s okay, I know I hurt you and I pay for it everyday. I can't be with you. I love you Y/n Skywalker and I won't stop until I have you back.” he said as he kissed the top of your head and stood up passing by Obi-wan quietly.

Obi-wan quickly walked to you and sat where Anakin was just a couple seconds ago.

“Sweetheart,-” he began but you stopped him when you hugged him and cried into his shoulder, he was surprised you held up that long in front of Anakin, you had not been able to before just at the mention of his name.

“Why do I still love him, Obi?” you asked as you sobbed holding on tighter.

“Some things can't be changed Y/n, are you sure you can do this?” He asked partially because he knew how happy you two made each other and the other part because he hated seeing the two of you fall apart everyday.

“ I can’t.” you said as you tried getting yourself together.

“So? Why ask for the divorce then?” he asked, making you look at his face.

“ I thought it's what he would want, if he wasn't happy with me anymore then maybe-” you began.

“That's where near the truth Y/n its Anakin were talking about, he chased you for 4 years before you finally gave in.” he said smiling softly.

“Everytime we were out on a mission he was moody and in a rush until he was standing at your door.” he added, making you smile.

“He may have been the biggest idiot on the planet and made a mistake but I think he sounded pretty sincere when he said he’d fight everyday until he had you back.” he said smiling at your puffy face.

“You think?” you smiled sniffling. “ I just don't know if I could live a life with the thought that I'm going to walk in on him with someone else again. It hurts Obi so much.” you said looking down

“ I know little one, but I also know that pushing him away hurts you too, tell me which one hurts more?” he asked, he already knew the answer he just wanted you to admit it to yourself.

Sighing you looked out the window, he was right and you hated him a little for it.

“ I told him my lawyer would be speaking to him from now on.” you whispered.

“Ouch.” he said, making you chuckle.

“Help me get up, you never called the nurse and I need to get out of here before I go insane.” you said, you promised yourself a new beginning and you would get it, with the man you loved.

While you settled into Obi-wan's guest room Anakin was stuck in a building with a room full of men in suits.

“My client has no specific request, she just asks that we make this transition smooth.” your lawyer said to him as they slid a stack of papers over to Anakin's side.

“Anything you’d like to add to this Mr.Skywalker?” his lawyer said as he looked over to Anakin.

Anakin looked down at the papers and frowned when he saw your signature already there.

“She signed this already?” he said looking at your lawyers.

“Yes, we met about a week ago. She said she wanted to give you no hardships and to agree to whatever you asked.” he said, reading off a note that he’d taken down.

Even now you still made sure he was being taken care of, he did not deserve you in the slightest.

“God this is fucking insane.” he said as he rubbed his face with his hands.

“Mr. Skywalker.” his lawyer said.

Putting a hand up to stop him Anakin looked at your lawyer, “Can I take these home and bring them back to you?” he asked, dropping the pen.

“Sure, take all the time you need, we will be in touch.” Your lawyer said standing up and walking out the door.

Looking at your signature he clenched his jaw as a single tear fell down his face.

“ I ‘m gonna need a couple days. I ‘ll get these back to you when they are signed.” he said, nodding towards his lawyer as he stood up getting ready to leave.

“If it's of any help, her lawyer told me she ripped up the first two copies before she signed the third. But it took hours.” he said as he organized his things.

Anakin caught a small glimpse of hope when he heard that, but a part of him was still scared.

“Thanks.” Was all he said before walking out and heading home.

When he finally got home he looked around and realized he’d made a mess of the place, all the nice decorations and furniture you’d decorated with gone.

Destroyed in his moments of anger for hurting you.

You were right, this was no longer your home and it was his fault.

His impulsive weakness ruined it all the way down to the decor.

Picking up the mess he made piece by piece eventually he was left with an empty room , the only thing left standing was the liquor cabinet.

Convenient.

Picking up a bottle of whiskey he decided he was gonna need a bit of liquid courage if he was going to sign these for you.

One thing led to another and he found himself on Obi-wan's front step.

He could already sense your angelic aura.

Smiling to himself he just sat there he hadn't knocked yet, he just wanted to feel your warm aura surrounding him again.

He wasn't wasted.

Just tipsy and in need of his girl.

Sitting down on the steps he looked down at the packet of papers in his hand again when the door suddenly opened.

“Anakin?” you breathed out as you watched the back of his head.

“ I ‘m sorry, I know I shouldn't be here but I can't do it.” he chuckled.

Slowly you walked over to him and sat next to him wincing at the soreness.

“ I thought it would make you happy to be free to be with whoever you wanted again.” you said as you watched kids run by.

“ I ‘ve never been more miserable in my life.” he chuckled, he looked and immediately regretted his joke when he saw your tears.

“ I ‘m such an idiot I‘m sorry Y/n you don’t deserve any of this.” he said panicking.

Suddenly you gave your body one last push into his arms and held on to him tightly.

Anakin didn't know if this was real or he’d accidentally drank more than he initially thought, but he held you tightly nonetheless overjoyed to have you back in his arms.

“ I love you Ani, I never wanted this stupid divorce I just wanted you to be happy.” you said as you sobbed into his shoulder.

“Baby, my sweet girl, how could I ever want to live in a life without you, it would destroy me.” he whispered as he repeatedly kissed your head.

It all began to feel more and more real by the second.

By now the divorce papers had been long forgotten and in Satines flower fertilizer.

“Y/n, If you’ll have me I‘d like to spend the rest of my life making it up to you as your husband. One day at a time, what do you say?” he asked as he pulled out your engagement ring and your wedding band.

Smiling down at them you smiled, “Yes, there's nothing I‘d want more than you.” you whispered as you grabbed his chin and pulled him in for a kiss.

Sighing he finally felt complete again.

Before he could deepen the kiss you pulled away and looked at him.

“But I won't go back to that house, I can't.” you said but he smiled and took your hands in his.

“Doll we could move planets if you’d like, I‘d follow you anywhere as long as I‘m by your side.” he said, leading his head on your shoulder and taking in that mesmerizing scent you have.

“ I think another house will do for now, Ani.” you said giggling at him.

You were both so in the moment of reconciliation you didn't realize Obi-wan had walked out.

“Well if you two are situated you can come back inside and start the house hunt. But first call the lawyers and tell them you made it up.” he said as he walked back in and sipped his tea.

Anakin pulled you up smiling as he leaned down to kiss you once more.

“Stuck,” kiss “With,” kiss “Me,” kiss “Forever.” he said as he began leaving kisses all over your face as you giggled at the butterflies building up in your stomach.

“Come on Ani, I think I saw a house somewhere nearby. If we're lucky we can be Obi’s next door neighbor.” you said pulling him in the house.

“ I don't think he’ll be fond of our late night talks when I have to see him at work the next day.” he whispered into your ear as he nibbled on it.

“Well I'm not the one that is gonna have to hear it.” you said as you kissed his cheek before walking off to call your lawyer.

“Can I say ‘told you so’ or is it too early?” Satine said from the doorway.

Turning to look at her, Anakin smiled, “ I‘d say you're too late.” he said smiling silently thanking her for helping him keep it together while the two of you were apart.

“Oh, and I already put in an offer for you guys next door, hope you don't mind Obi-wan and I soon to be newlyweds and all.” she said laughing as she walked away from Anakin's stunned face.

“What was that about?” you asked, walking back in.

“Nothing, come on, let's look at the place next door.” he said as he took your hand in his.

“ I was thinking we call it a day and stay in?” you whispered as you walked towards the guest room.

“Oh Obi-wan is gonna love that.” he said smiling as he followed you.

“Love what?” Obi-wan said from the living room.

“Nothing! I'm tired. Anakin is helping me to my room.” you said as he picked you up and went up the stairs.

Giggling to each other you felt like it was your wedding night all over again as he carried you away to a new beginning.

#Anakin Skywalker #clone wars anakin #obi wan and anakin #anakinedit #anakin skywalker x reader #anakin x y/n #Revenge of the Sith #anakin needs a hug

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kai-and-their-mess · 8 months

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Please Don't Go ('I Would Never' Ending)

kai again!!!! this picks up exactly where the main story left off so if you havent read that yet please do!!! same warnings apply.

Mizuki never was one to just… blindly obey. It had gotten her in trouble countless times. she would much rather get in trouble again. She was supposed to be an angel, how could she turn a blind eye to someone's suffering? someone's untimely demise? So once Yuki had closed his eyes, she wrapped him up in her wings. She abandoned the lyrics to the song she was singing in favor of pleas.

If she could just influence one thing, just- just this. Maybe she'll feel less like a failure, or a bystander. He was so young, it was unfair. She holds him close to her, fervent in her wishes. "...Please… it's not his time. He can't go like this. I refuse to let him just become…. space debris..." she sniffles, tears falling over Yuki's form. Its hopeless. There's no way she could change his story, not on her own, and no one else was willing to help her either.

As Yuki's time draws to a close, Mizuki starts to feel different. She opens her eyes; her wings were changing color. Mizuki feels her heart break at first, but she understands. She squeezes Mafuyu's hand in hers. "Hey…you really are going to make it. Help is on the way." She's not sure if he can hear her, but she knows his heart is still beating.

She plucks one of her still white wings before it can change color with the rest, pressing it into his hands. "I will stay with you, until I am no more" she smiles. This was her price to pay; the only choice she had left. She watches their surroundings, silently listing off facts about space to pass the time. By time the spaceship comes into view, there's not much time left. Not for her or for Yuki.

She places a hand on his chest. "I'm going to give you the last of my life force… so that I won't break my promises." she hesitates for a moment. She's never really given her life to someone before. She didn't know what to expect. oh well. She focuses on her life force and Yuki's heartbeat, trying her best to imagine and merge them into one.

When Yuki wakes up, he's in a hospital, an oxygen mask attached firmly to his face. Where was he...? He slowly turns to look around. Seems like he might be in a space station? He can see Shiho in a different bed, though he seems to be asleep. Fuyu feels…. exhausted. He just wants to find out where he is. As he starts to see if there's a nurse nearby, he notices a white feather in his hand. He's not fully sure why but the sight of it makes him cry; his heart overflowing with joy.

'Thank you, for staying with me.' he thinks, hoping that somehow, Mizuki will hear it. if she's real, that is. Though Yuki has a feeling that the angel he met will always be a part of him.

(thank you for reading until the end! i take constructive criticism even if it takes me forever to read it. this was hard to write, emotionally, but i really enjoyed it. please like if you enjoyed. in this ending its implied that the ship was able to find yuki and then they went to a space hospital where they all got patched up! called this ending 'i would never' cuz a part of mizuki now permanently lives on inside of mafuyu, kinda like they got soul merged or smth idk i also physically couldnt finish it until i thought up a happier ending)

#project sekai #project sekai colorful stage #akiyama mizuki #mizuki akiyama #asahina mafuyu #mafuyu asahina #mafumizu #mizumafu #transfem mizuki #transmasc mafuyu #brief shiho hinomori #brief transmasc shiho #angst #heavy angst #fan fiction #fanfic #implied character death

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wangxianficfinder · 2 years

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Fic Finder

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1. Hi guys! Im trying to find a fic (completed i think) where wwx was a war hero(or something) then became a concubine. Cant remember much but just that he went with wrh but killed wrh with a power that the jiangs were concerned would kill wwx as well. There was a conspiracy to poison the lans and allies. Sorrry i know its not much. Couldnt find it anymore in ao3.

FOUND? I Started From the Bottom/And Now I’m Rich by x_los (E, 57k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time travel, Fix-It, Arranged marriage, WQ Lives, Sugar Daddy, Black Widow, Crack treated seriously, YL WWX)

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2. hello mods and others! i have a request for the fic finder. its a modern au wangxian fic where lwj starts getting letters (and eventually gifts) from someone (i forgot if there was an alias but it was wwx writing them) in his locker. they basically become penpals and wwx 'challenges' (?) lwj to try to find/catch him. i remember something about wwx leaving the school for unknown reasons, and i no longer remember how exactly it ends. i remember wwx was friends with mianmian and the first time lwj almost caught him, he was in conversation with her while placing a letter. the fic is somewhat clear in my head but i just cannot find it! thank you for this blog mods as well!! what you guys do is very nice, so thank you :D

FOUND? unrequited letters by Anonymous (T, 5k, WangXian, Modern AU, High School Pining, Crushes, Unrequited Crush, Fluff, Light Angst, Humor, First Kiss, Secret Crush, Love Letters, Secret Admirer)

FOUND? [Yakult] How It Began by Lanforyourlife (G, 14k, wangxian, modern, high school au, falling in love, letters, butter knife angst)

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3. Hey I'm looking for a fic. Thank you for helping me search for it. This is the plot: Wwx gets caught by jgy for spying at the koi tower. Then, jgy brings the whole of the koi tower to wwx's and lwj's room. Wwx comes up with the brilliant idea for him and lwj to make out as an alibi. The whole koi tower gang storms into wangxian's room while they are kissing. Then, the whole gang awkwardly leaves... but lwj and wwx decide to make out some more. 🤣

FOUND? Shifting Suspicion by scifigeek14 (T, 3k, wangxian, canon divergence, making out, blushing, first kiss, getting together, mildy dubious consent)

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4. Apologies in advance for the lack of details but I'm trying to find a fic I read where wwx asks lwj to fake date but lwj actually agrees to date for real? I *think* the agreeing to date for real is a trick of phrasing that only is revealed at the end of the fic but I'm not sure, it could be immediate. Also probably a modern au? Thanks @inemmasmoonlight

FOUND? Out of the Bin and Into Your Heart by Alaceron (T, 27k, WangXian, Modern AU Fake/Pretend Relationship, Oblivious WWX)

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5. Hi! I was wondering if you could help me find a fic? I only remember one scene where LWJ said something (or assumed something) that led to a misunderstanding between him and WWX. When it cleared up, LWJ said "What have I done to you?" and WWX answered "I think you broke my heart a little". I'm sorry if it's super vague, but I can't remember anything else, except for the fact that it was almost certainly a complete fic with only one chapter. @blueghost13

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6. Fic finder, where lwj has prosopagnosia. Wwx was talking about jc looking at him as if he was a different person then asked lwj why he doesnt have the same problem as jc. He later admitted to not remembering wwx face coz he was face blind. It was oneshot, probably.

FOUND? Faces by osiesaur (G, 1k, wangxian, faceblind LWJ, LWJ pov, WWX in MXY’s body, married)

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7. Hello mods! Thx for all ur hard work I hope yall aren't working yourselves too hard! There's this fic I have been trying to find where WWX saves a disciple from a monster but when he somehow fails, the disciple runs away and he's attacked but luckily LWJ is there to save him BUT the monster's poison gets in his eyes and he becomes blind? And it was actually LWJ orchestrating it all because he wants WWX to depend on him? And WWX moves into the Jingshi and LWJ kinda takes advantage of him?? @sentientcongee

FOUND? Blinded by Love by Blueflower740 (E, 3k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Rape/Non-Con, Dark LWJ, Blind character, Getting together, Dependency, Manipulation, Oblivious WWX, Explicit Sex, Possessive LWJ, Good sibling JC)

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8. Hi 👋 for the next fic finder, can you please help me find a wangxian au that i read awhile back. I think its a time travel fix it where both or just wwx travels to the past. I remember wangxian finding a xuanwu egg in the cave and it hatches in their presence because theyre soulmates or something along those lines. They end up with 5 eggs that hatch (all mythical beasts).

FOUND? ❤️ Fallen by Jaywalker_Holmes (M, 151k, wangxian, Mojo’s post)

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9. Hello! I was hoping you could help me find a fic. I'm pretty sure it was complete. The only things I remember is that WWX was brought back and found out (Emperor?)LWJ had sculptors make statues of a naked WWX to worship. I appreciate any help!

FOUND? Blessed Wi-Fi is Back by Anonymous (T, 4k, WangXian, Ancient Rome, Crack, Emperor Hadrian and Antinous Au, Cultivators in ancient rome, Anachronism, not a historical fictioni don't have a degree in greek or roman history) "Or in which, Emperor Lan Zhan, distraught after the death of his beloved, orders a cult to worship Wei Ying and naked statues of Wei Ying are erected everywhere as a result."

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10. Hello! Thanks for all your work. I hope you guys can help me :’). I lost a fanfic where skin Ling received a letter saying that WWX was annoying people in a little town, but he was actually dying. Long story short: WWX ended helping JL in Koi Tower and then he decided to bully JWY and LWJ because WHY would they leave WWX alone when he likes responsibilities? I hope someone remembers the name because I really want to reread it, if I remember correctly, this fanfic is complete. Thanks for helping!

FOUND? Rotten Work by ShanaStoryteller (Not Rated, 63k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Protective WWX, Protective JL, POV JL, jC & WWX Reconciliation, eventually, Reluctant Matchmaker JL, this kid is doing his best)

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11. Hi!! For the next fic finder can you help me find a fic where WWX is a little, and the Jiangs refuse to let him become little. In the story there were 3 types of people: Carers, Littles, and I think like someone who isn’t either. So when they go to CR, LWJ finds out, and he tries to help WWX get away from the Jiangs. It’s been awhile since I’ve read it, and I can’t find in my history. I would really appreciate the help!

Hey!! I’m the anon who asked for #11 on the recent fic find. It wasn’t Being Vulnerable is the Only Way to Allow Your Heart to Feel True Pleasure. I definitely remember that both JC and JYL went to CR with WWX, and they were both making sure that WWX didn’t regress into a little. Another scene that I kind of remember was that LWJ discovered that WWX was a little while he was writing the rules in the library. And another scene is that WWX basically has a breakdown when he witnesses MianMian being able to regress into a little

Not FOUND Being Vulnerable is the Only Way to Allow Your Heart to Feel True Pleasure by Anon (T, 1k, wangxian, JYL/JZX, YZY/JFM, little space, headspace, age regression, little WWX, caregiver LWJ, fluff & angst, abuse, self-hatred, WIP) series MDZS little space adventures

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12. anyone know a fic where lwj is injured and stuck in animal form and wwx cares for him? i remember he was stuck in a tank with wwx other pet lizard and at one point he grows big and the tank breaks. the lans are looking for lwj - lxc has a crush on either nhs or jc in this. pretty sure its a modern au - it is not fell by you or love always wakes the dragon

Hello i sent in a request to help find a fic but i found it myself lol - the one where lwj is injured and wwx take cares of him and there is another pet of wwx (thought it was a lizard but it was suibian as a gecko) and the lans are looking for him. i said lxc had a crush on either nhs or jc but i was wrong and it was nmj! (Love at first bite by luckymoonly if you were curious)

FOUND! Love at first bite by luckymoonly (M, 14k, WangXian, NieLan, Modern AU, Fluff, Humor, Dragon Lans, Smut, Mpreg)

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13. Hello! I would appreciate any help finding these two fits! A) one is where wei wuxian makes up a story about knowing little lan wangji to try and explain why he wouldn't let go of him. I'm pretty sure wei wuxian time traveled but not lan wangji. B) fem!wei wuxian is engaged to jiang wanyin but both don't feel romantically attracted. Jang wanting like wen Qing and wei wuxian lan wangji. Thank you!

13A)

FOUND? Come Back to Me by s6115 (M, 9k, wangxian, time travel fix-it, cloud recesses study arc, soulmates)

13B)

FOUND? This Tumblr Fic by @shanastoryteller [the 3rd part is linked bc it has the links to part 1 & 2, but the post refers more to the first part. also, i tried to look and im not sure how to tell if there are more than the three parts i found sorry] Link to part 5 that has previous parts linked ^^

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14. Heyhey, thank you for doing gods work! I'm looking for a modern day fic in which little A-Yuan got lost in de mall (i think he ran outside to watch some sort of festival?) And dad!lwj is freaking out and wwx finds little A-Yuan and takes hil vack to his appartment and feeds him pancakes. There is a policestation, they know wwx and wen qing is an officer there. Pls help me find this fic and thank you! @follyfallenflapdragon

FOUND? I know what my heart wants by yakuso5u (Not rated, 28k, wangxian, modern, single parent LWJ, fluff, pining, getting together, accidental child acquisation, domestic, slice of life)

The ask from @follyfallenflapdragon I don't remember the name but I recognize the fic! Wwx found yuan out by the highway while walking home from work and it was like night and winter and ly wasn't dressed for it so wwx was like omg small child about to freeze to death so his first thought was GET HIM WARM so he took him home which was nearby & didn't get around to calling cops before they already found him. Lz wants to kill him thinking he kidnapper until wens vouche for him & realize he savior

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15. Hello!! Please help me find this fic i read a while back.WWX was in a gang and LWJ was a detective or something. They got married to save WWX. There was also some thing related to WWX 's parent's death.His parents were scientists. Something happened to LWJ and he lost his sense to feel any touch. I don't really remember much. It was quite a long fic. Please someone help me🙏🙏.

FOUND? #15 is a fic by Shinnochi and she deleted all her fics on AO3 cause she was bullying some writers online and one of her victims collected all the proof. So she had to delete her account.

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16. hi ❤️ for fic finder, id reaaally appreciate your help! the only thing i remember is that jc finds out that wwx doesn't have a core but wwx tells him some lie about the reason (wzl?), but later they're at LP i think? and wwx confesses the truth to jyl but jc was standing at the doorframe, hears everything, yells a lot, and then ??? yunmeng sibs feels ig? its not Tether or The most dangerous thing is to love (both wonderful).. i feel like i went thru every single core reveal fic ctrl+f-ing the word door 😂

hi, i asked for 16, and sadly its not the fic suggested (even though its a great angsty fic 😭), i remember reading it in like 2020, and i think the reveal happens in the great hall or throne room or whatever its called. thank you!

NOT FOUND! Silence Like A Cancer Grows by julomaiboulomai (M, 12k, JC & WWX & JYL, LXC & WWX, canon divergence, truth curse, suicidal thoughts, hurt/comfort, dissociation, golden core reveal, hopeful ending) Theres a scene like that in it, but Jiang Cheng is around a screen rather than a door.

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17. Hey! First time asking for help finding a fic! Hope you can help me, all I remember is that they’re in a village investigating the murder of several ladies by the hand of the ghost of a young master (his parents were looking for a bride for him and he killed all the prospects) that was actually in love with a servant in his manor, hope that’s enough to find it!

FOUND? let me sing to you by greybird_crookedbranch (T, 61k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Angst with a happy ending, BAMF WWX, Case fic)

FOUND? that’s Prayer for the Dead by Shinocchi it’s gone from AO3 but retrievable on the Wayback Machine (be aware that Shinocchi has become persona non grata in the fandom for reasons you can look up on Fanlore.)

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18. Have you ever read this modern wangxian ao3 fic, i can't remember if its a FWB fic or Sugar Daddy fic, where Lan Qiren wants LZ to stay away from WY because "he was a bad influence" and so LZ promises himself it would be the last time he will meet WY. He always prepare him breakfast tho because WY always seems to be starving. Until one day, because LQR found out, he decided to finally "break up" with WY, and he regrets it because he made WY cry and didn't even get to touch the food. Thank you!

FOUND? Honesty is the Best Policy (Except if You’re an Asshole) by piecrust (E, 22k, wangxian, college/university au, porn w/ feelings)

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19. Heyo Mods! Im looking for a fic where LWJ’s co workers forced him to drink in secret and dumped him in a bar. WWX works there and he took him to a cafe i think. LWJ stole WWX’s drink I remember. WWX called LXC and he came to get him. It was very cute. I kinda remember WWX drawing something and LWJ keeping it. The next day when he’s sober he came again! That’s all i remember. Help me please🥺

FOUND! i know who i want to take me home by ScarlettStorm (E, 16k, wangxian, modern, bartender WWX, drunk LWJ, caretaking, meet-cute, fluff, comedy, smut, minor angst)

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20. Hi! I'm looking for a fanfic where wwx and lwj were making out in the woods and Lan qiren caught them and then suddenly wwx caught a panic attack because he was scare he would be kicked out?

FOUND? 🧡Stunted, Starving Juvenility by TomatenMark (E, 348k, WangXian, WIP, Fix-it of sorts, Talisman master WWX, Not JFM Friendly, Study Arc, Getting together, Fluff and Angst, Engagement) (There's a scene like that in ch.8 ~ Mod C)

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#wangxian #mdzs #wangxian fic finder #wangxian fic search #the untamed #wangxianficfinder #long post

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emotionally-anxious-spybots · 8 months

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[arthur found itself dreading sleep mode. but it was told that it had to do this for its mental and physical health, so it braced itself for another nightmare and went into sleep mode.]

[spybot found itself kneeling in front of grey mann, fingers laced as though it was praying to a god]

[it hated this. it hated this with every fiber of its being.]

[grey mann held a remote control. it would only be able to move when he said so, only be able to do what he wanted]

"go on then," he spoke, his smug victoriousness practically tangible "go kill everyone you ever cared about, and then come back to me. i have something special planned for you."

[and so, spybot got up, and it did as it was told, despite everything in it screaming not to, to deck the old man in the jaw and run away.]

[the first place it was forced to go was soldiers room. it found itself cloaked and crawling in through an open window]

[it hoped grey was going for a simple backstab, but no. spybot drove the knife into soldiers arm, forcing it to decloak]

[soldier turned around as spybot pulled the knife out. betrayal flashed across his face, before quickly turning into anger]

"you traitor!"

[all spybot wanted was to say it didnt want to do this, to tell him to kill it because it was being forced to buckle under greys will. but it stayed silent.]

[soldier, unarmed, threw a punch, which spybot dodged with suprising grace given that it was being puppeted by someone who had presumably never done this before]

"i knew you would do this, you commiebot freak!"

[soldier kicked spybot in the groin to little effect. spybot punched his kneecap, shattering it and leaving soldier limping]

[but this did not discourage soldier. spybot wished it would, wished he would just lay down and die quickly so this was as painless as possible.]

[soldier retrived his shovel and swung it at spybot, who dodged.]

[a second swing. spybot grabbed the shovel and snapped it in half, using its half to swiftly lift soldiers helmet and drive the splintered end into his eye, half-blinding him even as it fell to the floor uselessly]

[soldier was stunned for a second, clawing at his eye. spybot took advantage, driving its knife into the shoulder of his shovel arm and slicing through the muscles that allowed him to control that arm, leaving a bleeding stab wound.]

[soldier was half blind, limping, and effectively down an arm, but he did not give up, lunging at spybot and screaming]

[spybot dodged, allowing soldier to ram into the opposing wall]

[quickly, it kicked soldiers good leg as hard as it could, forcing him to buckle and fall to the ground as the bone shattered.]

[spybot flipped soldier over and recived a punch to the face. it did nothing, but still hurt.]

[so spybot broke the rest of his limbs.]

"you motherfucker."

[soldier said the swear with as much hatred as he could possibly muster, and spybot couldnt blame him. as much as it wished it wasnt doing this, it was killing him, and it was doing it painfully]

[even though his limbs were broken and useless, soldier still struggled. spybot could admire that, in a way.

[spybot used its knife to carve soldiers skin, a thousand bleeding cuts soon dancing across his flesh]

"HEEEEEL-"

[soldier called out for help, a last resort. spybot cut him off, driving its blade into his throat and leaving him to bleed]

[spybot walked until it found a corner where two worlds intersect, the dark sticky feel of janes reality eminating from it]

[it entered, hoping to find itself far, far away from jane, hoping grey would give up on finding him, leaving somebody alive.]

[but no such luck. spybot found itself standing in an open bedroom closet.]

[looking around, jane was clearly visible in the other room through an open door, his back turned to spybot.]

[it didnt want to do this, but it especially didnt want to do this painfully. jane had been through enough.]

[spybot walked into the room with jane, suprising him.]

[jane quickly turned his chair around, pointing a shotgun at the intruder. he lowered the gun when he realized it was just spybot.]

"spybot? how did you get in here?"

[spybot offered no awnser, simply swinging its knife at him]

[the first thing jane did was dodge, rolling backwards]

"you dont have to do this."

[he was trying to reason with spybot. of course he was trying to reason with it]

[it wanted to scream, cry, do anything that would alert jane that it wasnt doing this of its own free will, but its body remained silent]

[the two repeated this process for a while, jane moving around his dodges and trying to reason with spybot.]

[until, eventually, jane raised his shotgun and fired it]

[the shot missed spybot, and it had the feeling that was on purpose. it wished the shot had hit, put an end to this]

"i..i dont want to have to do this."

"you dont have to do this. things will be ok."

[spybot cloaked. it seemed grey was tired of this game]

[jane spun slowly, trying to keep his back away from the spybot]

[he went limp as the knife was driven into his back, just like anyone else]

[spybot guessed that, if he couldnt cause physical pain like the others, the emotional pain was enough for grey.]

[mechanic was next. its body was already stained with blood from its previous two kills.]

[mechanic was sitting in a swivel chair. at the sound of spybots footsteps, he swiveled around, and the first thing spybot saw was the pure fear in his eyes. it wanted to say sorry, give any indication that it didnt want to do this, but nothing came.]

[mechanic was frozen in terror as it grabbed onto his arm and snapped the bone in two, remaining still even as it repeated the process with his other arm and remaining leg.]

[tears began to stream down his cheeks, and spybot stabbed both of his eyes in response. this death would not be painless, either. none of them would be]

[spybot dug its knife into his stomach, not enough to damage anything, but enough to cut the skin open]

[spybot pulled the wound open and began tearing out mechanics organs, mostly haphazardly but making sure to leave the heart and lungs for last. it wanted to throw up.]

[to finish him off, make sure mechanic was completely and utterly dead, it pulled him off the swivel chair, cracked his skull open on the floor, and punched his brain into an unrecognizable pulp]

[spybot wanted to scream. it wanted to cry, and it wanted to throw up. but more than anything, it wanted this to end.]

[but no, there was still one left. otto, its brother. it prayed to whatever god was listening that grey would let this be quick, painless.]

[but of course he didnt.]

[spybot tried to tackle otto, but he dodged out of the way]

"AAH! SPOOKED!"

[spybot wanted to tell him that he should be terrified, should roll for his life. but of course, it remained silent as it swung its blade at otto]

"... WHAT ARE YOU DOING? FRIGHTENED!"

[spybot danced around otto's dodging, slowly but surely leading him to corner himself]

[it was only then otto realized what was going on.]

[he became visibly distraught as spybot kicked his leg out from under him and stomped on it with all his strength, ]

"..... I TRUSTED YOU."

[spybot couldnt bear to see its brother like this, but it had no choice but to continue watching itself kill him.]

[the first thing spybot did was drive its knife into ottos shoulder and pry a panel off, all while otto struggled.]

"I DONT WANT TO DIE!"

[spybot severed the wires connecting its arm to its main body, essentially parylizing it before repeating the process with its other arm]

[otto still writhed, desperately trying to get spybot off of him as it slowly peeled off every plate of his hull, leaving only the faceplate intact]

"PLEASE!"

[his brother was begging for his life, and there was nothing spybot could do as it slowly removed every wire and electronic component from otto's body, leaving only the bare endoskeleton.]

[it tore his still intact head off and began to crush it between its hands] "I STILL L-LOVE YOU..."

[those were the last words out of ottos mouth before he was crushed between spybots hands]

[will broken, spybot returned to grey mann. it hoped it would be dismantled]

[but no, it wasnt so lucky. grey had spybot stand by his side, his personal guard]

[arthur awoke with a start.]

[it lacked the physical equipment to cry, but the wailing and sobbing that came from its mouth sounded for all the world like it]

#emotionally xyz mercs #physically xyz mercs #mentally xyz mercs #spybots nightmares #ooc: btw anyone can reply to these if they want #also spybot won all of these fights not because it thinks it could actually do that but because thats the worse end to the nightmare #also also: goddamn! this is a full sized gorefic!#gore #emotionally anxious spybots

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Until I Fall - Part Four

Levi Ackerman x Fem Reader.

Eventual romance but this is a slow burn, definitely angsty and darker. It will also focus a lot on Hange, Erwin and the original scouts. Eren and the 104th training corps will be around but I’m focusing on the older characters in here. Your self insert name is ‘Azeria Becker’ pronouns She/Her/Hers. Using a name because don’t like using ‘y/n’.

Cannon universe. I wrote this for myself but I hope that you enjoy it, too lol <3

As you stood in front of Levi on that final day, you couldnt help but remember every last moment of your time in the scouts. How had you gone from that scrawny young rookie trying to fight titans to Erwin’s right-hand soldier who overthrew the government and was about to charge to your death? It was never fair, you’d never get enough time together. Standing before him, his eyes full of the sadness of the truth, it hurt too much to say Goodbye, don’t forget me. I’ll love you forever, so instead you said the only word that you could manage to speak; Survive.

cw: imagine literally every awful/gory thing that happens in SNK. Death, violence and gore. Drinking, sex.

You can find all chapters here.

The next morning you woke up before dawn so that you could train before breakfast. The sky was still indigo. You couldn’t stop yawning, your eyes were puffy and still watery from the loss of your slumber, your long hair was tied up in a half hazard manner. You were certain that you’d make it to the clearing before him, but sure enough he was already there, hood on and wiping his blades of the moisture that had been caught from the sky. The mist hung low in the tree line and all you could hear was the wind. It was too early.

“Hey, look who finally turned up,” He remarked, hardly looking at you, but seemed fine as always. You couldn’t help but let out another yawn, stretching your arms as far as they could go.

“Good lord do you sleep? How are you so alert?” You muttered, your voice still raspy with exhaustion. He completely ignored you. “Alright. Since you’re a worthless brat and have begged for my help-“

“Okay first of all I am not a worthless brat and I did not beg!-“

Levi circled you.

“-I will help you find a way to be less useless on the battle field-“

“Okay you must be blind I was not useless-“

“-Today we will work on your speed.” He landed square in front of you, arms crossed, same pissed off glare he always gave you. The forest fell silent again. He tilted his chin down and smiled.

“Run.”

Before you knew it he had pulled out his blades and was swinging them at you. “What the hell!-“ you screamed, jumping to the side, barely escaping.

“You wanted me to make you better. I’m the fastest soldier on the scouts, if you can get away from me you’re bound to kill more titans.” He lunged at you again. You finally got a hold of your ODM gear and threw yourself into the trees, but it was no use, he was right behind you grasping at your feet. He finally grabbed your leg and you went plummeting to the floor. Using your other hand you managed to maneuver yourself over a few feet and roll back into standing. Still, he was right behind you, furiously coming at you with blades.

“You cant be serious. I am hardly using energy right now. This is the fastest you can move? Useless,” He hissed. It only made you more angry. You were good at maneuvering around small spaces so you launched yourself into the trees, twisting through branches, he was fast, but the branches slowed him down. Finally you faked him out by throwing small branches down at him to distract him and leapt out of the evergreen onto an opposing tree.

“HA!” You shouted back at him. He seemed more animated now, “Good. Things are finally getting interesting.”

You maneuvered through the trees. Soon, you began to notice that Levi’s spins were opportunities to change directions, you could save yourself seconds from his grip. You noticed you were fastest at changing directions rather than in long distance straight lines. You could be spared from his swords, his hands and his psychopathic unwavering chasing if you trusted your instinct. It was working, you had never been this fast. It hadn’t occurred to you that after years of training to fly the same as everyone else, you just needed to find your own rhythm. It was working, you were going to beat him. The sun was rising, letting golden rays peek through the forest. You kept your eyes forward. It seemed like you had finally lost him in the thick of the branches.

“-Nice try, brat,” He said, appearing out of thin air in front of you. “Oh no!” You screamed, your face landing in his chest. Shit. You were falling down to the ground fast, it was going to hurt. At the last second, Levi grabbed you, pulling you into a roll and pinning you down beneath him.

You had lost. You laid there, unable to move, panting from exhaustion. There was no fighting left, you were at your limit. You looked up at him, he was staring down at you, a little tired but seemed completely fine. His heavy lidded grey eyes pierced into yours, his hands holding your forearms.

“You did alright,” He finally said, “I almost had to put in some effort.”

“You’re such a jerk,” you huffed out. He smiled a little, “But you got faster, didn’t you.”

He finally hopped off of you and reached out a hand to pull you up. “You didn’t have to try and slice my head off.”

He pulled out his handkerchief and wiped down his blades and his uniform. “Only real danger will push you to your limits. You need to find a way to channel that adrenaline without my help eventually, but we’ll get there. The mind is a fickle thing, but all we can do is trust our instincts. When you start to weigh the options in your head, you’ll only slow yourself down. Move fast. Trust yourself.”

You were bent over in exhaustion, still panting from being chased. He stood quietly for a long while, cleaning his gear, “You trusted yourself out there, that was good. Now trust your squad in the same way and you will be successful.”

You wiped off your blades with your hands, “But what if my squad gets killed?” He stopped and turned to you, this time looking you in your eyes, “No one knows what the outcome will be, follow orders and retreat if necessary.” He ran his fingers through his hair. “Come on brat, let’s go eat.”

chapter five

#levi ackerman #aot fandom #levi attack on titan #levi x reader #levi aot #snk #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #aot #levi fanfiction #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction

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beefthroat · 1 year

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my family and i had to put my dog down a couple weeks ago. i thought of him like my son and i loved him very much and i have been very very sad about it. i drew this to memorialize him. i gotta tell ya ed was the best friend you could ask for and a wonderful companion but he was a shitty dog, haha. he had a lot of behavioral issues and my family did our best for him but he didnt really get better until he went blind and his arthritis got too bad and then he couldnt see other dogs to lunge at them on walks. theres a lot of things i would do differently now, i would have raised him in a much different way because he was not a beginner-level dog. he was very reactive. he also vomited when he was nervous and he was ALWAYS nervous. we put him on prozac later in life and that helped tho. he was only 7 when he died, because he came from a nasty backyard breeder. i am never going to get a puppy from a backyard breeder/puppymill situation ever again, its not worth the heartbreak of them being born with bone spurs and shitty hips and not being well socialized as a young puppy and coming to us with worms and all that stuff. despite all that, he was SUCH a ray of sunshine to the people he loved. he adored me and would follow me everywhere. i have been very sad and struggling with the idea that i might never see him again but i have to have hope that i'll see him in heaven. i want to see him in heaven when i die so bad. i drew him here finally able to jump up onto our couch again, no longer having painful arthritic hips as he's passing over the rainbow bridge. He is happy and he is free. i know for sure that wherever he is now, he is finally free.

#artbyweirdbeef #animal death ----#german shepherd dog

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fanficobsessedchick · 2 months

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ROOMATES PART TWO

James Marriott x Willne

Jamess head felt like it was being pounded by a thousand tiny hammers and his neck felt like it was weighed down boulders.He tossed and turned yet the sunlight that was barely peeking through his curtains was blinding him.Fuck it,he had to get up anyways;maybe he could make himself a cup of tea to ease his hangover.If he considered any of his previous hangovers bad ,this hangover had to be the final boss of them all.James dragged himself out of bed ocassionally holding on the walls or stumbling to his bedroom door.

He was not so far away from the kitchen-hoping somebody had already started making the tea l for their own hangover.

He just barelly glossed over the fact that Wills door open.James paused.Wills door was never open,Will was a secretive person-keeping what he did in his spare time to himself.

I mean,the only times Will would leave his door open is to air out the reeking scent of weed out of his room,and even then the door was only slightly ajar.

James couldnt dare to peek,but he did sideeye in that very dirrection to just get the idea of what was exactly the special occasion to make Will open his damn door.

Will was comfortably sanwiched in between a tall woman -who James remembered was named Nadya because she was in his literature class;and on Will right right side layed a shorter yet large and buff man who James didnt recognize.Just as James was about to continue to stand there and just stare-Will got up to get his own hangover medicine on the side of his nightable.

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James drank his tea in silence.His brain ran reruns of old thoughts and he knew what game Will was playing,how could Will be begging him to have sex one night and then the next day Will didnt even

acknowledge him.

Will whispered something to his newfound sexual partners and they both quickly got dressed and were about to leave.

Will knew that this was the right moment to lead James on ,to make James show his true face.

Nadya was leaving out the door when he slapped her ass and she giggled at him suggestivly-you could almost tell exactly what went down last night just by her facial expression.Will moved on to the man and grabed the nape of his neck passionately kissing him goodbye.Will didnt give a shit about the pair -he lips turned from apathetic to a smirk when he noticed that James was now directing his full attention to him.

Will used people.He used men,women,just to fill a void in his head.He used anything and everything to get him out of his head.Cocaine,weed,sex and cheap vodka helped him just enough to forget.To forget everything and everyone who harmed him in the past.

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Will sat down right next to James staring blanky at his cup of tea.

"They re a nice pair arent they?Fucing great in bed too."Will commented non chalantly.

James just stared at him,he felt rage,pain and betrayal with every atom of his being.He knew Will was a person of questionable morals-but leading him on last night just to bring two cheap whores around was enough.

He slapped Will.

Wills hand flew to his now bruised and red cheek,somehow if it was any other person he would kill them.But it was James-and through the pain and blood rushing to his cheeks -the blood ran straight to his cock too.James fell for his tricks.But James was smarter than Will could imagine,James saw through Wills games and he was already one step ahead.After all they werent so much diffrent so much from eachother.

Will almost sobbed.Tears welled up in his eyes in the most delicious way.

"Get up Will."James demanded.

Will obeyed-all of his self respect flying out of the window.This was all he ever wanted-finally for someone to take control of him,to put him down to their feet.To make up for all the years of torment Will went through.

"Do you think you can bring some cheap whores around and just get away with it?"

"N-no i-im so sorry James i didnt mean t-"

James slapped him again,they could feel the tension -you could almost feel every atom in the air.Will even tried to rub his erection around Jamess leg like a bitch in heat and he could barely string his words together.

"J-james please-"

James smirked -knowing he finally broke Will in,just like he planned all along.

#james marriott #fluff #smut #angst #will lenney #angst with a happy ending #commentarycrew #eboys x reader #willne

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neo-shitty · 11 months

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hope you dont mind me popping in to your inbox to scream abt whc1 bc you are truly the only person out of my friend circle that has watched it 😭😭 first of all

facts. he can do no wrong.

second of all its been days and i am still processing like this has never happened to me before ?? usually i am a lil :// until the rest of the day when i finish a sad drama but with this im just so heartbroken still. yesterday during a big mental breakdown (unrelated to the drama i am not THAT crazy ok) i realised why it hit me so hard and i think its bc i somehow relate to sieun (anger issues and all /j) and so i somehow projected into his character and so when it all went down with suho i just couldnt deal w it ?? I LEGIT HAD A MINI PANIC ATTACK it felt like it was happening to me 😭😭😭 like he was such comfort for me. he broke the cycle of loneliness and stereotype for sieun and i just really adored each interaction they had. the fact that they would both kill and die for each other makes me bawl my eyes out.

but when it all comes down to it, i understand beomseok, i really do, but i also dont. i dont think ill ever forgive that character, i just cant. i cant imagine how it must have felt for him and i couldnt be able to deal w life either if i was in his shoes, but my brain just cant grasp the lengths he went to hurt people that did nothing but care for him and tried to help him with everything. he's a complex character for sure, one you have to analyze to get, but i dont have it in me to have a single ounce of sympathy after the ending of the drama.

but to think that the parents and the adults were truly at fault here ?? beomseok being abused, sieun abandoned and neglected, suho not really having parents around either (i read somewhere that they are canonically abroad or something?? not too sure), the policemen not taking sieun seriously at first, the teachers seeing the shit happening and not doing anything to stop the bullying... where were everyones parents when all those kids got caught up w the gang? its truly sickening and heartbreaking to think that this truly could be happening anywhere and to anyone.

and it broke me so much bc i could accept beomseok drifting away from them and stuff, but to gang up on suho on his fucking birthday? sieun cooking and decorating with young yi and taking pics for her insta (i strongly believe her and sieuns friendship is SO underrated they were so cute together) and both of them just hid it from everyone to protect suho,, their sunshine ??? the poor boy must have been so confused and lonely on his bday and it makes me :( and then when he saw sieuns cast and went to avenge him ?? I read something about how suho always fought only in self defence but when he saw sieun hurt he crossed the line and fought with the purpose of hurting somebody only bc his best friend was put in danger and that- that broke me.

also i find it funny how i found the drama through a clip on tiktok where jihoon cried at watching the last scene where sieun breaks the window and i was like oh this should be just the right amount of sad for me rn and then i got emotionally damaged. :,)

yeah anyways my fav trope is found family and FUCK all of those who hurt my sunshine bc now im forever heartbroken.

sorry for the rant toffee but it did felt cathartic to write this all out

bar, please don't worry about it. feel free to come back any time you have to yell about it and i'll try to get back to you as soon as i can.

sooho was just too easy to love. we headed into that show blind HAHA we should've known it was too good to be true! i never saw it coming actually.

same !! took me days to get over this too. *hugs* i'm sorry about the mental breakdown, i hope you're feeling a bit better now !! oh the projection must've made the whole thing twice as hard. again, sooho was such a comfort character :( his happy go lucky nature was such a breath of fresh air esp when the themes occasionally got dark. i want that dynamic for me actually (to kill and die for each other, yes). i usually find it corny but it was so well executed here.

oh bumseok :( i think it's valid to simultaneously understand him but at the same time, find what he did unforgivable. i get where he was coming from and how he was just looking for a place to fit in—where he wasn't looked down on. idk how to describe it but when he started misreading the situation (like that whole bit abt sooho not following him on ig but following young yi), i think something in him snapped. he was so fed up with being helpless at home and at his previous school that when it happened a third time, he did everything to get back and lashed out.

I 100% BELIEVE THE ADULTS WERE ABSOLUTE SHITTIEST NEGLIGENT FUCKERS AROUND. like???? leaving a scamming syndicate to be dealt with by high schoolers?????? bumseok's fake ass politician dad??????? sure, sieun's parents were 'present' but emotionally distant, like check on your kids bitches or not have them at all god dAMN. i thought some of the aspects of the bullying were exaggerated bc from where i'm from it never gets that bad but hearing that to an extent, it was truthful about it just left me dumbfounded. how could parents allow things like this to happen under the radar? it's unbelievable and heartbreaking to me.

yeah, i thought bumseok would just join his cool boy squad but he really had to do whatever the fuck he did :D my girl, i know you read my tags and i was vile as fuck towards him but at the time i was just so angry too. also yes! youngyi and sieun's friendship <3 i wish they had more time </3 and honestly, if bumseok didn't do a whole 180, i think the four of them would make such a cute squad. like the way they would protect each other??? hmp :/

'i read something about how suho always fought only in self defence but when he saw sieun hurt he crossed the line and fought with the purpose of hurting somebody only bc his best friend was put in danger and that- that broke me.' i saw that the other day and that broke me to fucking hell i could sell anyone's soul to see them together again (SPECIFICALLY, with the other one being fine and out of comatose yes i would love that for me.

ohhh, i've been meaning to watch that vid of them reacting to whc1 but at the time it didn't have subs. jihoon's acting was so fucking effective like??? the sadness the eyes of that man has can sway me to do anything !! so sorry that you got so much more than just a little sad bout. heading into this drama blind was like bringing a knife to a whole war.

this show made me realize that tragedy could strike any pairing on any show and i wouldn't bat an eye but have the same happen to a found family and then i'm instantly destroyed. THE SHOW ACTUALLY REMINDED ME OF YOUR CHENJI FIC????? FUCK. please do let me know if you ever get around to writing something related to them haha i'm ready to be destroyed.

please do not ever apologize for ranting especially about this show !! i went through this whole phase ALONE last year (watching it after christmas was the biggest mistake, i ended my year DEPRESSED as FUCK) so i'm offering as much help as i can.

#ah joy finally someone to talk to about whc1 #<3 #toff.asks #mosviqu

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zombiesama · 5 years

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My little sister is just. Crying in the bathroom bc shes so sniffly like. Mood. I get it. But pls I just need to brush my teeth, not listen to the story I lived for 14+ years.

#rice rambles #its WILD like. i know i get it and you feel like i could give you tips for how to fall asleep when its that bad but like #you took a boiling hot bath with the door closed and hoped the steam would clear your sinuses and that didnt help #you supposedly took allergy meds and nasal spray #(which you hadnt taken until today so like. that wont help too much tbh)#and the only other advice i have is 1) spend the next 3 hours in the steamy bathroom or 2) take 4 benadryl and hope you pass the fuck out #but she doesnt want to do either so like #die i guess #like MAN my allergies were so bad that up until last year i couldnt be outside for more than 5 minutes #like i could not breath if i went outside #i only enjoyed the outdoors when it was raining and im still in the habit of running outside whenever it rains bc of that!#like that was the only time i could step foot outside without suffering for it!#i get it but crying literally only makes it worse!!!!#even if i felt like crying when it got like that id do everything i could to suck it up bc it would only suck more if i did cry #and like. my allergies wrre so bad i was once blind for a week bc i got something in my eyes and they swelled shut #like i understand man but theres no advice i can give to help you #you just die #and live ur life inside #im lucky my grandparents were sick of seeing me suffer and stuck in doors for 14+ years that they paid for cold acupuncture #which is just shining a blinky light at your back 3 times a week #but it worked.#it worked so well i go on like. nightly walks.#its so nice but it costs way way more than we could ever afford on our own #:/

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tendouluvr · 3 years

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not telling them you’re pregnant - f!reader

- fluff, sliiiight angst maybe

- characters: suna, sakusa, semi

- warnings: pregnancy (i don’t go into detail of giving birth or anything), cravings, morning sickness aka throwing up, two mention of the act of sex in semi’s, some cursing

- wc: 1.4k, 888, 946

a/n: it’s f!reader cuz pregnancy but there’s no specific pronouns/gendered terms used

also idk how suna got so long, he was the last one i wrote for bc i couldnt think of anything lmao

[2. iwaizumi, atsumu, kageyama]

SUNA

#! suna has been practicing late into the night the past few weeks

#! there’s a big game coming up and the entire team is feeling the pressure and adrenaline from the crunch time

#! you haven’t been feeling too good lately, a lot heavier and more tired than usual

#! thinking it was just stress from work and the missing presence of your boyfriend, you pushed through it and thought it would go away in the next few days

#! unfortunately, luck wasn’t on your side and you started to get sudden needs to throw up

#! it didn’t take you long to realize why your physical and mental drive have been down lately

#! you’re pregnant

#! or you believe you are

#! you bought a few tests, some of different brands so you can have a variety, and headed home to confirm your suspicion

#! a few minutes later, staring back at you was multiple positive symbols and the bolded ‘PREGNANT’s

#! taking a few deep breaths, you decided to tell suna tonight once he comes home

#! you thought it was better to let him know as soon as possible

#! it wouldn’t hurt anyone plus the faster you rip the bandaid off, the easier it’ll be to deal with it

#! so you waited

#! and waited

#! until 11pm that night, when suna finally came through the front door

#! “tarō! how was practice? can we talk?” you hurriedly greeted him

#! he was taken aback, not expecting you to be right beside him and in his ear as soon as he came in

#! of course you weren’t, you made sure to put some space in between you and him

#! but suna was stressed and tired, so everything is intensified to him at the moment

#! “can you back up?” he mumbled, pushing his way from in front of you to walk to the kitchen

#! “oh, sorry. can we talk?” you sheepishly smiled, hoping he would say yes

#! you’re not blind, you can tell that suna was tired but you really didn’t wanna put this off

#! you were just gonna tell him, he gets surprised, you both talk it out, and then go to bed and continue figuring things out tomorrow morning

#! but before any of that can happen, suna bluntly told you, “no. i’m tired. i’m sure whatever it is isn’t a big deal. can it be tomorrow? i wanna sleep.”

#! you didn’t get to answer before he was already walking away to the bedroom

#! understanding where he was coming from, you mentally agreed to talk to him tomorrow. one day wouldn’t change anything and you’ve seen plenty of people not tell their partners until a few weeks in

#! he was right, it wasn’t a big deal (yet)

#! so you waited until tomorrow

#! and waited

#! and once again, he came home late

#! “hey! can we quickly talk, babe?”

#! “i’m tired. tomorrow, okay?”

#! “oh, okay. night, rin!”

#! “g’night.”

#! night came and there was still no talk

#! this continued on for about 2 weeks, you finally choosing to not care anymore and just let him find out whenever he finds out

#! technically, you could’ve just blurted out a simple, “i’m pregnant.” any point during your nightly five seconds conversations

#! but seeing that he really was tired, springing it onto him would either put him in a full body shock for three days or he just doesn’t fully process your words until three days after

#! a month has passed, your stomach was still barely showing like most women at their one month mark

#! you decided to book an appointment for a checkup, it’ll be while suna’s at practice

#! and that doctor appointment was the exact reason suna found out

#! he was at practice when komori entered the gym

#! he had a doctor’s appointment for his annual checkup, and that’s where he saw you

#! you didn’t see komori, busy reading the directory to find your way to the right office

#! but he saw you on the way out. seeing that you looked a bit busy, he chose not to greet you and just quickly walk to his car lmao why is this funny to me

#! entering the gym, he greeted everyone and apologized for his tardiness even though it was excused

#! walking up to suna, he tapped him on the shoulder and quietly told him, “i saw yn at the hospital earlier. it’s been awhile since we all got together huh, they looked a bit different.”

#! ok so komori, being the smart person he is, deducted that you were pregnant when he saw your finger pointing at the ob/gyn office

#! and he genuinely thought suna knew so his comment was suppose to be a small joke that was meant to tease suna and his sex life

#! suna, however, was confused

#! look different? did you get surgery?

#! “what do you mean?”

#! komori rolled his eyes and gave a sweet smile at suna, “congrats you two! when were you gonna tell the rest of us?”

#! suna: 👨‍🦲 huh

#! “are you guys not pregnant?” he blinked at suna’s frozen reaction

#! suna became unresponsive so komori just walked away mumbling to himself about being sure he read the sign right

#! a loud whistle blew and it shook suna out of his daze, everyone got ready to play a practice game of 3 vs 3 while suna ran over to the coach

#! “hey coach, um i think there’s an emergency at home. can i go? ok thanks.”

#! his coach just stares after him as he sprints off, you think? is there an emergency or not?

#! suna quickly drove home, he may or may not have speed a little, and entered the apartment

#! “yn? baby?” he called out only to be greeted back with silence

#! probably still at the hospital....what were you doing there? he thought to himself while rummaging around the house to find anything that could give him somewhat of an idea

#! he was digging around in the bedroom when you came home, his head so frenzied he didn’t hear the front door open

#! but you heard the ruckus from the bedroom and immediately went into fight or flight

#! panicking, you took out your phone to call suna while quietly opening the front door to make your way back out before the intruder catches you

#! the phone rang and rang until it was picked up. “suna?” you whisper-yelled into the speaker. you had a habit of calling him by his last name when you were freaking out. he noticed and was equally alarmed

#! “what’s wrong?” he whispered back just as panicked

#! “there’s someone in our apartment. can you come home?”

#! “huh? oh, are you home?” he cackles into the phone speaker making you move the phone away from your ear, “it’s me, sweets, c’mere.”

#! you warily walked on your tiptoes over to your bedroom, peeking your head in and what a surprise, it is suna

#! “jackass! why are you home?!”

#! “why didn’t you tell me?” he cut straight to the point

#! “huh?”

#! “you’re pregnant. when were you gonna tell me?” his voice sounding stern, but the quiet smile dancing on his face tells a different story

#! “i tried.”

#! “huh? what do you mean?”

#! “all those times i asked if we could talk. i was trying to tell you.”

#! his heart dropped, eyebrows furrowing, while he stared you down

#! suna became unresponsive once again, standing there trying to think back to the first time you asked him

#! two weeks ago

#! “i’m sorry,” he quietly whispers

#! “hm? i..it’s fine....i was a bit sad, but i’m over it. at least you know now,” you casually shrugged it off like it wasn’t a big deal

#! “no. i shouldn’t have pushed you aside like that. even if you weren’t pregnant, even if you had just wanted to tell me about some stupid video you saw that day, i shouldn’t have told you off. i’m sorry, i love you a lot and you deserve so much better.”

#! “tarō, shut up. i accept your apology and i forgive you, now make it up to me by giving me a back massage while i show you the ultrasound pictures!”

#! he kisses you before lifting you up bridal style making his way to the bed

SAKUSA

#! contrary to popular beliefs, sakusa is not an obsessive germaphobe who finds everything disgusting but you

#! he wouldn’t be playing volleyball if he was that afraid of germs,,,,,

#! yes, he cringes if random little kids grab onto him after games because 1) he’s drenched in sweat and that feeling is not fun

#! 2) he doesn’t even know themmm

#! and 3) he wanna go home

#! but sakusa loves you and if you happened to get pregnant, he would love your kid(s) just the same

#! however, he never told you this. he never really had a reason to voice this out loud

#! so when you actually did get pregnant, you were confused

#! the only interactions between sakusa and kids you’ve seen multiple times were the moments between him and his fans

#! you guys have been to family parties and his nieces, nephews, and cousins looooves him

#! maybe it’s the fact that he’s a tall looming giant and they just want to climb

#! but besides those moments, you don’t recall him ever telling you upfront that he wants children of his own

#! and the constant stress and pressure he always seem to be working around also doesn’t help reassure you in any way

#! being an athlete for a living means always watching your body, health, and looks for the cameras (but omi could care less about the last thing)

#! he also has to make sure whether or not he’s working well with his teammates, practice and improve on anything he’s having problems with, and deal with atsumu’s dramatic ass

#! you’re an overthinker and because of that, all of these reasons were just reasons for you to postpone the pregnancy news to your long term boyfriend

#! it wasn’t too hard anyway, considering practice runs late sometimes and he’s busy majority of the time doing other stuff

#! when you guys do have alone time together, you both are so focused on one another that you actually forget that you’re pregnant and you never told him

#! you’re about to hit the three months mark now — time goes by fast — and sakusa has noticed you and your body changing

#! at first he just thought you were going through a phase of cravings and a bit of bloating, so he didn’t mention it and just let you be

#! he never got to witness you getting morning sickness because he goes on early runs or he was just out doing morning errands so he wouldn’t have to deal with it later that day

#! so when he caught you in the kitchen cutting up a lemon, the last thing he was expecting you to do was bring the lemon directly up to your mouth

#! “uh, what are you doing?” his deep voice caught you off guard, effectively stopping the hand that was holding the lemon

#! you just stare at him, not wide-eyed, not surprised, just stare

#! “eating a lemon.”

#! “i can see that.... why exactly?”

#! “dunno, the baby i guess.” you casually shrugged it off before popping the lemon slice into your mouth

#! “ah-,” he opened his mouth to stop you from eating the lemon, your words not fully processing in his mind, but cut off midway and froze when he finally realized

#! hearing him pause like that made you suddenly remembered that you never told him you were pregnant

#! you slowly turned back to look at him, mouth still slowly chewing the lemon slices

#! a moment of silence later, he unfreezes and just starts stiffly walking towards you

#! he grabbed you by the shoulders, made you look him in the eyes, before whispering, “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “y-yes..”

#! his eyes were wide, black pupils expanding as he stared you down, his lips slowly curving into a small smile

#! “you’re pregnant....,” he whispers, mainly to himself, hugging your head into his chest

#! “mhm, get off me i’m trying to eat,” you gently pushed him off but he wouldn’t budge

#! “omiiii please, if you get off i’ll give you a slice,” you tried bribing him. he couldn’t tell if you were being serious or just teasing

#! “no.”

#! “um ok, two slices?”

#! “no.”

#! “omi!”

#! he giggles before opening his arms to let you go

#! “why didn’t you tell me?”

#! you didn’t reply right away, making him start to overthink

#! did you not want the baby? or did you not want a kid with him? did you not want to be with him anymore? or was it not his?!

#! he childishly shakes his head side to side at the last question. he knew you wouldn’t do that

#! but you were still silent, making him nervously glance at you from the side

#! “sorry, piece of lemon stuck in my teeth. i just forgot to tell you,” the words easily flowing out of your mouth nonchalantly

#! sakusa’s fingers were literally about to start twitching from anxiousness beside you

#! a sigh of relief was heard from him and you turned to look at him

#! “you okay?”

#! he doesn’t answer, just gives you a smile and goes back to hugging you from behind

SEMI

#! you were currently sitting on the couch in your shared apartment waiting for semi to come home

#! he’s been on tour for a few months now, you both kept in touch by facetiming, texting, calling, and any other methods of virtual communication

#! you would tune into the live recording of all of his performances when you had time so you could watch him

#! a few weeks into tour, you suddenly felt different than usual but shook it off as nothing and probably just you missing your boyfriend

#! you believed that until one morning you were woken up by the sudden urge to throw up, dashing to the restroom as fast as your drowsy body can go

#! it was then that you realized you might be pregnant

#! the night before semi left, you both had sex to enjoy your last few hours together before he had to leave for a few months

#! with the new realization, you quickly dressed yourself to make a short trip to the store to pick up some tests

#! after half an hour of looking at yourself in the mirror, trying to wrap your head around this, you finally opened the first box

#! a few minutes later, all 5 tests were lined up on the bathroom counter showing positive

#! you stared at the tests, trying to make sure you weren’t reading it wrong

#! once you began to understand the responsibility of being pregnant a few hours later, you made a mental note to go out and buy some food for yourself the next day

#! you decided to sleep off the rest of that day

#! through all of the facetime calls with semi, you never once told him you were pregnant

#! you knew that if you told him he would freak out and either demand to go back home, or stay but all of his attention would be on you being pregnant alone at home for the rest of the tour

#! so here you are now, sitting with a 4 1/2 months baby bump waiting for your beloved to come home

#! it was around 6pm when the front door opened, sounds of shuffling bags and heavy steps could be heard from the musician

#! he cursed under his breath when he almost tripped over a duffle bag with some of his loungewear, calling out for you as he walks further into the apartment, “baby? i’m home!”

#! he was about to speak up again when he saw you asleep on the couch

#! bouncing his way over, he got onto his knees at the edge of the couch to observe your face. god i miss you, he thought to himself

#! he gently shakes you awake, you jolted in surprise not knowing you fell asleep in the first place

#! “hmm- what?,” soft murmurs falling from your lips as you adjusted your eyes at your surrounding

#! “eita!” he grinned at you, both of you pulling each other into a hug

#! “fuck, i miss you so much.” he whispered into your ears before placing his face into your neck

#! “i miss you more.” you tightened your grip around him making him move up on the couch to get more comfortable

#! you both moved around until he had you cradled in between him, your back against his chest

#! his hands going under your his shirt to caress you there when his movements stopped right on top of your stomach

#! it was silent as his warm hands rubbed your stomach in circles, the gears turning in his head

#! “are you- you feel- why’s your tum so round and hard?” he quizzically asked, still rubbing your stomach

#! “pregnant.” your voice a low whisper, he almost didn’t catch it

#! “what?”

#! “pregnant.” you repeated, a bit louder this time

#! “huh?”

#! “pregnant!” you sighed, moving his hand so you can get off of him

#! he grabs your wrist to stop you from walking away and turns you to look at him

#! “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “i just said that. yes.”

#! you knew you sounded blunt and a bit mean, it wasn’t his fault he doesn’t know at all, but your hormones have been making you crankier and it’s out of your control

#! “sorry. yes, i’m pregnant.”

#! his eyes continuously darts up and down from your eyes to your bump

#! “how long?”

#! “since you left.”

#! “was it the night before?” he was referring to your act of intimacy the night before he left

#! “yea.”

#! “wow. why didn’t you tell me?”

#! “because.”

#! “‘cuz what?”

#! “because i know you. you would either stop touring and come home, or stay but lose focus. i was just trying to not distract you because i know how important your career is to you. and because i thought that you’ll be having a six months break after this tour before your next comeback, i would tell you when you came home. i’m sorry if you’re ma-,”

#! “i’m not mad. oh don’t cry, babe, look at me.”he carefully cups your face, “it’s okay, it’s okay. i get why you kept it from me. and now that i have no schedule for the next six months, i can be there for you until the end of your pregnancy and the beginning of our baby’s life alright?”

#! you weakly nodded against his palms, and he brings you back down to lay your head on his chest as you both softly talk about the past months without each other

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d0llpie · 3 years

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HOOOOLY HECK HI YOUR REQUESTS ARE OPEN YES uh okay s o. if I remember correctly I saw a work by you about chubby! reader which is what I've been looking for!!! I was wondering if you could do 46, 42, 39, and 41-based hc's for seijoh 4 by any chance? or Matsukawa (i haven't seen any x chubby!reader works for matsuwukawa and it drives me insa n e) and/or any of the seijoh 4 you prefer to write for most? thank you so much!!!!! <3

Seijoh Four, chubby reader scenarios

Oikawa x reader, Iwaizumi x reader, Matsukawa x reader, Hanamaki x reader

content warnings: suggestive nsfw for iwaizumi, food mentions + feeling guilty, very very slight assault, swearing

Prompt: “You don’t think i can pick you up?” “I don’t think i could love you any more than i already do” “I hate seeing you cry” “Don’t fucking touch them”

a/n: Hii love ! Thank you for the request ! i did one prompt for each boy so they have very different scenarios, hope you enjoy <333

wc: 2.7k

Oikawa “I don’t think i could love you anymore than i already do”

- Dating Oikawa required you to be pretty secure and confident

- He was the great king, known for his looks and admired by many fans, many of who you thought were prettier than you

- You never brought this up with him, he was always so strong, a confident leader, it’s why you loved him

- You also knew he overworked himself and that you and Iwaizumi were the only ones able to make him take a break

- You didnt need to stress him over silly things like your inferiority

- He loved you and you never doubted that, still, you couldn’t help but grow quiet as you were pushed away from the team by a swarm of pretty, thin, perfect fangirls who came to congratulate your boyfriend

- “Oi Shittykawa we have to pack up” Iwa noticed you seemingly growing smaller, fiddling with your hands as you stared at the girls surrounding him

- “Iwa-chan you’re so impatient, where’s y/n?” you looked up and tapped his shoulder from behind him, earning many glares from his fangirls

- “Ah there she is!” he cradled your face and gave you a peck on the lips before taking your hand in his, his fangirls scoffed but if he noticed he didn’t react

- You on the other hand just wanted to go home, usually you were good enough at fighting off these thoughts but today you just couldn’t shake them

- “Tooru, can we go?” you tugged on his sleeve and he turned to you before wincing slightly “Tooru where are your knee pads!” you scolded him

- “Ahaha sorry girls, i have to go know, thank you for your support, i appreciate it very much!” the group whined and shot you glares, blaming you for his early leave

- “Iwa, his knee is busted can you help” you slipped his arm around your shoulder and waiting for Iwa to take the other side

- “y/n-chan please, i don’t need help” you glared at him and he shut up, Iwa took his other side and you started to walk

- You were so caught up in your thoughts of insecurity and worry for Oikawa that you didn’t hear him ask you a question

- “y/n-channn why are you ignoring me, i’m sorry, i swear i’ll rest all day tomorrow” you looked over to him “i’m sorry baby what did you say?” he frowned before making you stop walking

- “i asked what was wrong, you’re really quiet” you smiled up at him “oh it’s nothing baby, how is your knee?” he huffed out in frustration, he hated when you did this, knowing you hated when he did it too

- “y/n. don’t do that, talk to me” you sighed “it’s dumb” you fiddled with the ends of your hoodie, pulling it out to make it appear looser

- “If you’re insecure right now i’m gonna kick ur ass with my broken knee :(“ you giggled at him lightly before smacking him “i know i told you it was dumb..”

- He frowned again “baby, you always make me talk about what’s really going on, i need you to do the same so i can help you..” he was right.. “It’s just, i don’t know, your fangirls today were staring at me a lot and they’re all so skinny and pretty and i just-it went to my head”

- He pouted before cupping both your cheeks “i don’t think i could ever love you more than i already do.. You have no idea how often i think i’m not enough for you baby, but you’re so much more than enough for me j couldn’t possibly be with anyone else, no one could treat me the way you do, you’re perfect in my eyes”

- A stray tear fell down onto his thumb as he swiped it away “Kawa of course you’re enough! You’re so talented and perfect, you always communicate with me and put effort into everything you do i’m so proud of you, please don’t doubt yourself!” he laughed at your scolding “how can you be so blind”

- You smiled at him as he pressed his lips against yours, pulling you against his body as he deepened the kiss “oi shitheads! hurry up!” You broke apart to see Iwaizumi ahead of you both waiting impatiently

- You laughed before taking his hand and continuing to walk, squeezing his hand lightly

Iwaizumi “i hate seeing you cry”

- You felt so guilty, you had just eaten what you thought was way too much cake and were now crying in front of the mirror

- You couldnt seem to find anything about yourself attractive, everytime you saw your reflection your eyes zeroed in on your flaws

- You grabbed at your stomach, your sides, everywhere you could while looking into the mirror with red puffy eyes

- Iwaizumis footsteps could be heard approaching your room, you quickly turned around and threw on one of his hoodies, trying to find some pants

- He opened the door to see you in his hoodie and some panties and immediately smirked “hi baby, what’re trying to do?” you shot up and slowly turned to face him, tugging the hoodie down as far as you could

- His smile dropped when he saw your tear stained cheeks and red eyes “y/n? what happened baby cmere” he pulled you into his chest, rubbing up and down your back before bringing you to the bed to sit on him

- You tried to speak but your eyes welled up with tears again “Haji, i need to get some pants..” you whispered, afraid your voice would crack if you spoke any louder and he felt his heart sink

- “Hey hey, tell me what happened” he smoothed your hair down before kissing your forehead, resting his hands on your hips

- he squeezed your hips reassuringly, a habit of his, but you tensed up. He put two and two together and sighed “i hate seeing you cry”

- “i just- don’t you want me to lose weight?” you looked up at him, wiping your tears on the ends of his hoodie while he gripped your hips harder

- “what the fuck are you talking about” he grunted before moving his hands to your ass “i love your body, i love all of you and i intend to spend the rest of my life reminding you how much i love you.” you smiled tearily at him and he kissed you firmly

- he began smoothing his hands over your ass and you chuckled at him “what’re you doing Haji?” “oh c’mon, you look so beautiful in my hoodie what do you expect, you’re always so beautiful..” he kissed you again, rougher this time before leaning back to throw his shirt off

- “I’m going to prove to you just how attractive i find you okay?” you nodded, he gripped the ends of his hoodie, trying to pull it off you but you held it down “wait-“ you looked into your lap, he sighed softly lifting your chin with his thumb and forefinger “if you don’t want to that’s okay baby, but if you don’t want me to see you because you’re insecure i’m going to have to beat you up for thinking badly about the love of my life.”

- You chuckled before kissing him again, letting him take off the hoodie “i love you haji..” “i love you too baby”

Matsukawa “don’t fucking touch them”

- You were out at a bar with Issei and Hanamaki, it had been a while since you’d hung out with your boyfriends best friend and you were all free after work and decided to grab drinks

- Since you’d been there, Issei had had a strong grip around your waist, making you sit on top of him and gripping your thighs every chance he got

- He only got like this when he was jealous but you don’t know why he’s been acting this way in front of Hanamaki

- You were talking to Hanamaki about an angry customer at work when Isseis hold around your middle tightened “baby i’m going to the bathroom you’re trying to squeeze the alcohol out of me” you chuckled getting off his lap and giving him a kiss on the cheek

- “be safe” you nodded before heading to the bathroom, wondering why he was acting so strange, you couldn’t tell but someone across the bar had been eyeing you up since you came in

- You were walking back out when someone stopped you in the hallway “hi pretty/handsome” the man reeked of strong liquor and you tried to push past them but he caged you against the wall

- “it’s rude to ignore people, didnt nobody ever teach you any manners?” he started to slur, dropping his hand down to your body “Isse-“ you were cut off by his other hand covering your mouth

- You shoved him off of you, he looked angry, he was about to storm back towards you when a fist connected with his face, knocking him back into the wall behind him “don’t fucking touch them.”

- Issei spat at the man before grabbing you and pushing your head into his chest “i wasn’t, i don’t wanna touch a fatass like them anyway” this time it was hanamaki to punch him, knocking him to the ground

- He shook his fist “ah fuck, y/n, you okay?” you nodded, smiling at your friend before looking up at Matsukawa who was looking down at you concerned

- “i’m okay baby, really, thank you” he hummed “i’m never letting you out of my sight again, i knew he was looking at you...you know you’re perfect right? don’t listen to him.” you nodded again, burying your face into his chest

- “i know, let’s just go home mkay? you both need to get some ice on your hands” Issei smiled, kissing the top of your head before taking his jacket off and putting it on you

- After you’d iced hanamakis hand and said your goodbyes you were on the couch with Matsukawa “Issei what’s up baby?” he was scowling at the wall so you sat down beside him

- “i just don’t understand how he had the nerve, i mean what a fucking ass.” you hummed, tracing your fingers over the tattoo on his arm, knowing it calmed him down

- He pulled you into his lap so you were straddling him “you’re okay though right?” you pushed your thing in between his brows to make him stop frowning, “yes baby i’m fine! please stop stressing” you kissed his forehead and he sighed, burying his face in your chest

- “i love you, and your body” he squeezed you tighter into his embrace, mumbling into your chest and you stroked his hair “i love you too Issei, honestly you’re more worked up about this than me, let’s go to bed okay?” he hummed, standing up with your legs wrapped around his waist before carrying your to bed

- He collapsed onto the mattress, on top of you, cuddling back into your chest with your legs tangled as you fell asleep in each others arms.

Hanamaki “you don’t think i can lift you?”

- Hanamaki was on his way home from work, he had texted you many times but you didn’t answer, you were fast asleep on the couch with one of your favourite shows playing in the background

- He tried to call you to see if you wanted him to bring anything home but you still didn’t answer, he was slightly worried so he tried to get home faster

- When he entered the house he called out “y/n? i’m home” he moved further into the house, seeing you fast asleep in the couch and he smiled

- He brushed the hair out of your face before flicking your forehead “dumbass you shouldn’t fall asleep on the couch” you stirred in your sleep but didn’t fully wake up

- He lifted you up, carrying you to the bedroom before putting you under the covers. He went to take a shower hoping you’d wake up by the time he got out

- You woke up in your bed confused, you could’ve sworn you were on the couch, you figured you’d woken up and came to the bed to sleep

- The sound of the shower turning off alerted you to Hanamakis presence and you jumped out of bed “maki? hi love!” you kissed his cheek as he finished drying off his hair “hi, how was ur nap?” you smiled “good, didnt mean to sleep for so long, i haven’t made anything to eat”

- “it’s okay, your food sucks anyway” you stuck out your tongue as he pressed a kiss to your forehead, moving back into the bedroom “you look tired, c’mon i’ll carry you back to the couch while i check the fridge”

- you looked over at him confused before scoffing “yeah right” he looked over at you “what?” you raised your brow at him, gesturing your hands down your body before laughing softly

- He was quite offended to be honest “you don’t think i can lift you?” you looked over at him as if it was obvious before trying to exit the room.

- He ran over and pulled you into a hug from behind “excuse me, who do you think carries your sleepy ass from the couch to bed everytime you fall asleep watching your stupid shows?” you turned around in his hold “i walk?” he scoffed, you were serious?

- without warning he hoisted you up in his hold, smirking proudly at your flustered reaction “what were you saying about my big beefy muscles?” you rolled your eyes, tapping him to let you down, instead he began walked to the kitchen

- “maki put me down!” you tried to get out of his hold which earned you a slap on the ass “shhh, gosh i can’t even be a nice boyfriend!” he whined before putting you down on the couch

- “you’re welcome your highness” he bowed and you giggled “okay okay you can lift me” “hell yeah i can babe, these guns aren’t for show, plus, you’re a lot lighter than you think you are”

- you blushed at his words and he leaned in to kiss you sweetly “alright i’m checking the fridge, you can watch your show again but when i come back we’re watching something else okay?” you nodded before smiling, pulling Makis hoodie up to your nose and inhaling deeply

- You both settled into the couch and ate leftovers for dinner, talking about your days. After you finished you cleaned up before making your way back to the couch to settle in between Hanamakis legs

- You felt your eyelids growing heavy and you snuggled further into his chest before falling asleep. Maki felt your breathing slow and even out, he looked down and smiled at your sleeping face

- “i guess you’re making me do this again?” he sighed before pressing a kiss to your forehead, turning off the tv and slipping an arm under your legs and shoulders

- Once he carried you to bed for the second time that day he slipped under the covers with you, pulling you back into his chest and sighing “goodnight babe”

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