Does anyone else fill up with dread when you realise your guy friend has a crush on you, because youâre now going to be socially obligated to provide him with additional emotional labour if you donât want to suffer social sanctions for not fulfilling your genderâs role of managing menâs feelings?
Men who are attracted to women routinely make their crushes a problem for the women theyâre aimed at. If they possess the basic understanding that theyâre not entitled to a womanâs interest - which honestly canât be assumed - they still generally feel entitled to her time and emotional labour.
They expect explanations, a chance to ask questions about her lack of interest, and perhaps even a chance to convince her to âgive him a chanceâ. They expect to be let down in the gentlest, most complimentary way possible, to have their feelings managed every step of the way by a woman who did not ask for this interest or the job of handling it.
This is one form of male entitlement, a near-ubiquitous form of misogyny thatâs so embedded it often goes unnoticed. Men, think critically about the expectations you have of a woman youâre interested in. Are you making your feelings her problem, or are you managing them on your own like a respectful adult?
No one likes to be rejected. But itâs not the job of the person rejecting you to comfort you about it or listen to heartfelt confessions they donât want to hear. Your interest doesnât mean they owe you. Find someone who consents to giving you that emotional labour; donât demand it from someone youâve trapped in an awkward situation. Let ânoâ be enough.
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It Was Easier to Give in Than Keep Running
By Anonymous
In first grade, a boy named Johnâ a notorious troublemakerâsystematically chased every girl in our class during recess trying to kiss her on the lips. Most gave in eventually. It was easier to give in than keep running. When it was my turn, I turned and faced him, grabbed his glasses off his weasel face, and stomped on them on the hard blacktop. He ran to the principalâs office and cried.
In fifth grade, I was asked to be a boyâs girlfriend over email. It was the first email I ever received. He actually told me he wanted to send me an email, so I went home and made an AOL account. We went to a carnival and he won me a Garfield stuffed animal, and then he gave me a 3 Doors Down CD. A few days later, he broke up with me, and asked for Garfield and the CD back. I said no.
In sixth grade, a girl in my year gave head to an eighth grader in the back of the school bus while playing Truth or Dare.
In the summer after sixth grade, I kissed a boy for the first time at sleep away camp. He was my summer love. During the end-of-the-summer dining hall announcements, where kids usually announced lost sweatshirts and Walkmen, an older girl stepped up to the microphone, tossed her hair behind her shoulders, and proudly stated, âI lost something very precious to me last night. My virginity. If anyone finds it, please let me know.â The dining hall erupted into laughter and cheers. She was barred from ever coming back to the camp again, and wasnât allowed to say goodbye to anyone.
In seventh grade, I told my brother I decided when I was older wanted a Hummer. What I really meant was I wanted a Jeep, but I didnât know a lot about cars. My mother overheard and screamed at me for âwanting a Hummer.â
In the summer after freshman year of high school, I went to sleepaway field hockey camp with many of my close friends. One of them, named Megan, I had been friends with since kindergarten. One night when I was showering, she ripped open the curtain and snapped a photo of me on her disposable camera. I screamed. She laughed. We both laughed when I got out of the shower a few minutes later. After camp was over, her father took the camera to the convenience store to get it developed. When he gave the finished photos back to her, he said, âYour friend [Anonymous] has grown up.â
Sophomore year of high school, one of my best friends Hilary had a party in her basement while her mom was away. We invited some of the guys in our grade and someoneâs older brother bought us a handle of vodka. One of the boys who came sat next to me in Spanish class. His name was Thomas. I remember playing a simple game, where we passed the bottle of vodka around in a circle and drank. I remember being happily tipsy and having fun, to suddenly being very drunk. Thomas and I started chanting numbers in Spanish, and he leaned towards me and kissed me. We kissed in the middle of the party, with all of our friends cheering. Then we went into Hilaryâs bedroom.
Hilaryâs bedroom was in the basement, on the ground floor, with a large window next to her bed. When someone went outside to smoke a cigarette, they realized it was a front row seat to what was happening in the bedroom. It was dark outside, and the light on was in the bedroom. They called everyone outside to watch. I donât remember getting undressed, but apparently we were both completely naked in Hilaryâs bed. A friend of mine told me later she tried to open the door and stop what was happening, but Thomas must have locked it. They said they pounded on the door. I donât remember hearing them pounding. I donât remember seeing everyoneâs faces outside the window. Â I remember Thomas holding my head down, and shoving his penis into my mouth. I remember trying to resist, pulling back, but he held his hands firmly on my head, pushing my face up and down. Thatâs all that I remember.
The next day, my friends and I went out to dinner at one of our favorite local restaurants. I couldnât eat anything, and it wasnât because I was hung over. Every time I tried to put food in my mouth, I felt like I was choking. Anytime a flash of the night before appeared in my mind, I felt like vomiting. My friends sat with me in silence. Then they told me a girl named Lindsey, who had briefly dated Thomas freshman year, had stood outside and watched the entire time. Even after everyone else stopped watching. My friends said they didnât watch.
On Monday, Thomas and I sat next to each other in Spanish. We didnât speak. We didnât make eye contact. I went to the girls bathroom and threw up. I hear Lindsey and Thomas live together, now, ten years later.
Junior year of high school, my teacher for Honors Spanish was named Señor Gonzales. Señor Gonzales had all of the girls sit in the front row. Señor Gonzales called on any girl who was wearing a skirt to write on the chalkboard. Señor Gonzales asked a friend of mine, who had broken her finger playing an after school sport, if she broke her finger because âshe liked it rough.â Señor Gonzales was a tenured teacher.
Senior year of high school, I got my first real boyfriend. His name was Colin. He was on the lacrosse team with Thomas. He told me that sophomore year, Thomas told everyone on the team what happened that night at Hilaryâs. Everyone cheered. Colin said that, even then, he had a crush on me. Even then, he wanted to punch Thomas.
Colin and I lost our virginities to each other. Colin said if I got pregnant, he would make me have the baby. He didnât believe in abortion. Colin said if I got pregnant, he would make me have a C-section. Colin said that if I didnât have a C-section, my vagina would be too loose for him to ever enjoy having sex with me again. Colin said that he wouldnât let our child breastfeed. He said his mother gave him formula, and that he turned out just fine. I didnât get pregnant.
Junior year of college, I lived in Denmark for the spring semester and studied at the University of Copenhagen. Copenhagen is one of the safest cities in the world. Guns are illegal there. Pepper spray is illegal there. One night, my friends and I went to a concert at a crowded club in a part of the city I didnât know very well. I brought a tiny purse with money, my apartment key, and my international cell phone. For some reason it made sense at the time to put my purse inside my friendâs purse. Maybe I didnât feel like carrying it. We were both drinking. My friend left the concert to go home with her boyfriend. One by one, everyone I was there with left the concert, until I was suddenly alone and I realized I didnât have my purse, or any money for a cab ride home.
I started walking in the direction that felt right. I walked for a long time. I had no idea where I was, and didnât recognize the area. It was almost 4 am. I was on a residential street when a cab pulled up next to me. I asked the driver if he could drive me to an intersection down the street from my apartment.
I donât have any money, I said.
I really need your help, I said.
I will do it for free, he said.
Sit in the front, he said.
I sat in the front. We drove in silence for some time, until he pulled over on the side of a dark street.
I donât want to do it for free anymore, he said.
He locked the car doors and reached across the center console and slipped his hand up my skirt. He grabbed my vagina. Hard. I pushed his hand away and unlocked the door. I ran down the street and realized he had taken me a block away from the intersection I wanted. I walked to my apartment and threw rocks at my roommateâs window until she let me inside. She yelled at me for waking her up. I escaped. Nothing happened. I was fine.
The summer after I graduated college I helped Hilary find an internship. She was an art major and wanted something for her resume besides waitressing. We found a posting on Craigslist to be a studio assistant for a painter in the Bronx. It was listed as an unpaid internship. The toll for the George Washington Bridge was twelve dollars, plus gas, but she got the internship anyway. She wanted the experience.
The artist was a 38-year-old Canadian painter named Bradley. Hilary was 22.There was another intern there, an art student from Manhattan named Stella. Â Bradley needed assistants to help him make bubble wrap paintings. Stella and Hilary would take a syringe and fill the tiny bubbles with different color paints until it formed a mosaic. Bradley always had Hilary stay after Stella left to clean the paintbrushes and syringes. He told Hilary she was beautiful. More beautiful than his wife, who he only married for citizenship. He told Hilary they had a loveless marriage. He told Hilary he wanted to have her beautiful children. They began an affair. He told Hilary has wife knew and didnât care. He told Hilary he was going to leave his wife soon.
Everyday Hilary drove to the Bronx, cleaned Bradleyâs paintbrushes, and had sex on the studio floor. Everyday she went home with no money, and everyday she paid the toll at the George Washington Bridge. She needed the internship for her resume, she said. It was too late to find a new job, she said.
I could go on. I could tell you a lot more. About the whistles on the sidewalk, the kids who sat at the bottom of the stairs in high school to look up our skirts, my friend who was a prostitute in South Carolina, the men whoâve cornered me in parking lots and bars calling me a tease, the unwanted grabbing on the subway, the many times my father has called me fat, the time I traveled to the Philippines and discovered Western men pay preteen locals to spend the week in their hotel, the messages on OKCupid asking to âfart in my mouth.â About how I wasnât sure if I had been raped because I was drunk and kissed Thomas back. How he raped my mouth and not my vagina, so that must not be rape. How easy it was for me to escape the dark street in Copenhagen, and how that made it not matter since âit couldâve been worse.â
Men have no idea what it takes to be a woman. To grin and bear it and persevere. The constant state of war, navigating the relentless obstacle course of testosterone and misogyny, where they think we are property to be owned and plowed. But weâre not. We are people, just like them. Equals, in fact, or at least thatâs the core of what feminism is still trying to achieve. The job is not over. Weâve made great progress. There are female CEOs, though not very many. There are females writing for the New York Times and winning Pulitzer prizes, though not very many. Â There are female politicians, though not very many. But these advances are only on paper. The job wonât be over until equality permeates the air we breathe, the streets we walk and the homes we live in.
I think back to how easy it was for me, in first grade, to feel fearless and strong in my conviction to stomp on Johnâs glasses. I felt right in reacting how I did, because Johnâs behavior was wrong. But his was an elementary learning of the wide boundaries his gender would go on to afford him. For me, it would never again be so easy.
- Anonymous, age 25
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Great post
How are you guys handling all of this with Liam and Harry and Zayn? I'm 27 and this fandom has more drama than any of the boy band fandoms of old lol. It's stressing me out man! I just want to see cute boys sing love songs and make silly jokes but there's always so much drama over every little thing. Sigh. I miss N'Sync lol
Oh people, do I ever have thoughts on the Liam drama from today.Â
First things firstâŠ. Iâm really sorry to anyone who was at that show or listened to the clip/read what he said and felt hurt in any way. That song is a delight and I bet my bottom dollar a woman/girls listened to that song and it reminded them of their lady love/crush/significant other and Iâm sure they felt like something was taken away in the meaning of that song because of what Liam said. Iâm straight myself, and I live in the privilege of our cultureâs hetero-normitive narrative. I rarely feel left out when I listen to songs/watch tv/movies/read books ECT and I canât even wrap my mind around how hard it must be for members of the LQBT community to constantly be left out of âthe mainstreamâ.Â
That being saidâŠ. the fact that people were telling him to kill himself and talking shit about Liam all day long because he made a mistake makes me sick to my stomach. Liam has proven time and time again to be a kind hearted person. Yes, he sticks his foot in his mouth constantly, but his earnest and sincere effort to always send us fans love both online and at the shows shouldnât be forgotten because he made a mistake.Â
His apology tweets were defensive, yes, but no one has ever told me to kill myself on the internet or to my face and I imagine I would get defensive as well.Â
He didnât say what he said to be malicious or spread hate. He made a mistake. Heâs a person. People make mistakes.Â
Letâs foster open dialogue when people do things like this. Iâm sure Iâve said really problematic things in my life and would hope someone would kindly and gently correct me. Iâm sure I said problematic things in this post alone. Come talk to me, educate me, spread love and light and understanding.Â
Sorry this is so long but Iâm really passionate about this, and hope people give each other the benefit of the doubt when shit gets real, especially when people make honest mistakes.Â
Liam I love you.Â
xoxo Candice
P.S. I will never not miss NâSync. Donât tell CassieâŠ..
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Democracy, Nah.
Itâs straight up taboo to suggest that democracy is not the best way to govern a country. It evokes a child like, knee-jerk reaction where people stomp their feet, plug their ears and shout COMMUNIST, FREEDOM HATER, NAZI!!! Obviously there are some pretty big flaws to Canadaâs current political system. Our first-past-the-post policy, our low voter turnout and a lack of diversity in our political representatives all work to make our democratic system fairly undemocratic. But the point of this post isnât to say that we need to improve our democracy, Im suggesting that maybe democracy in itself, even in its most true form, is not the holy gail of social organization.
Firstly, democracy can definitely be described as TYRANNY BY THE MAJORITY. What the majority wants, the majority gets. It doesnât matter how negative the outcome is for minorities and often the majority can and does benefit directly at the expense of minorities. âDemocracy is two wolves and a rabbit voting on what to eat for dinnerâ. If we held a democratic referendum to find out whether or not people wanted to reinstate chattel slavery and everyone voted yes except one person, should we reinstate it? NO! Duh. But how does democracy protect us when the majority gets it wrong which, lets face it is pretty often?
Iâve heard Obamacare being described as Obama picking America up and dragging it, kicking and screaming, into the future. Did the American majority want Obamacare? With current voter turnout rates and the nature of ârepresentationâ its actually hard to tell. But one thing is for sure. A LOT of Americans were very strongly opposed to it. Does that mean it was wrong? Does that mean it was a bad idea? No. No it doesnât.
And lets not forget the Iron Law of Oligarchy. The power, much like the money, gets concentrated people!! It just does.
Now first question people manage to form after I explode their minds with my suggestion that democracy may not be the best policy is usually âwell what is the better alternativeâ? Totally logical question. I donât have an answer for that. I have some broad ideas, like the idea that certain rights and policies need to be protected even if 99% of the population opposes them, but I donât have a plan for how exactly a society that was structured for that would function. But you donât always need to know what the right answer is in order to know that something is wrong. I donât know the cure for epilepsy but I know it isnât bloodletting. I donât know the best alternative to democracy but I know that refusing to engage in conversation that doesnât glorify democracy is only going to keep us from achieving social justice.
Noam Chomsky (fuck, heâs so smart!) said -âThe smart way to keep people passive and obedient is to strictly limit the spectrum of acceptable opinion, but allow very lively debate within that spectrum.â We need to expand our thinking.
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