#I'm really tired so this is probably rambly and doesn't make sense but.

[apollo-cackling]

🔥 GR Reviews (no idea what those are, but now I'm curious)

oh I was referring to Goodreads reviews lol which is why I was holding myself back from complaining. that dead horse is pretty thoroughly beaten to disintegration fjajdj

but hm... okay like, yeah the top reviews of any book on GR are all unreliable and bad taken on face value but they're so consistently unreliable in specific ways that it kinda loops back to being reliable? the site is like. fine if you can find folks with similar tastes to yours and whose judgment you trust. ends up kinda being like how tumblr works except searching any topic always returns the most mundanely bad takes you've ever seen.

(so basically it sucks at a pre big proportion of what it's supposed to do but it's. decent. at the rest which.... yeah)

also aside from all the other problems w/ the posts lamenting the state of GR, I feel like a lot of them are missing that a pretty big reason why (the most visible) reviews on GR are bad is just bc in the ranking of things a review needs to reach the top, being. good. is near the bottom. so in my experience the distribution of bad opinions are like most other sites, it's just that it's always the bad ones that are the most visible. like goodreads reviews are also an endless source of frustration to me and I will absolutely complain about them in private, but I don't see the point in (publically) complaining about them?

(I could elaborate on how I've seen GR select for bad reviews but if you've seen any of the talk about youtube's algorithm and how it selects for mid stuff it's nothing all that new lol)

that's probably not all that much of an unpopular opinion uhh. I respect what Storygraph is trying to do, but it's fighting a losing battle I think. as much as GR being owned by amazon makes it suck (gods the website/app is godawful), that also gives GR several advantages that other sites are hard-pressed to contest (the kindle's goodreads integration is a pretty major reason why I'm still using both goodreads and kindle for example).

#thanks for the ask! #shrug I don't much have much new to say about goodreads lol sorry #+ apologies if this doesn't make sense I'm pretty tired rn dsajkgh #if you want something to *really* complain about I can dm you this review of baru1 that's my mortal enemy #I usually just ignore the guy bc his tastes are really different from mine but like this is. really bad even for him #unfortunately he's like one of the top reviewers for epic fantasy if you read epic fantasy at all he's pretty inescapable #my rambles #ask #ask game #goodreads to me is how folks describe tumblr lol yk #place suuucks on so many different levels but I'm so used to it that I just stick with it #GR integration is annoyingly useful for me lol if I'm using say an excel spreadsheet I'd probably keep forgetting to put books on there #main reason I don't see myself switching to storygraph yk #idk how kobo ereaders work maybe it'd be possible to jailbreak it and install some plugin that gives it storygraph integration #but on the kindle front I'm pretty sure there's still no way to jailbreak the current firmware #+ keeping a kindle jailbroken requires keeping it offline so yk #'GR to me is how folks describe tumblr' or maybe not bc GR to me is 'I don't hate it enough to try the alternatives' #and I'm pretty sure the general attitude to tumblr is a lot more positive than that lol #I have spent. way too much time on GR

[rottingparts]

Cool okay! May I request some general romantic head cannons for Bay! Optimus, Ironhide and Ratchet ? Thank you so much ! :)

(SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG! My internet is fucked, but only on my computer, so i'm struggling atm.)

OF COURSE!! My favorites.... I mean I totally love them all equally :) I wrote them with a Human!Reader (that's all i write but i just wanted to calrify)!

Optimus Prime:

My love... probably the most normal of them honestly

Isn't like super duper outwardly romantic when others are around. He isn't too fond of PDA. BUT he still shows affection in lowkey ways.

Like, he will gently nudge you if you seem anxious or off in general, to get your attention and when you let him know you're ok he gives you a slight nod and continues on with his conversation.

It's really no secret, because him crouching down and his giant hand descending from his side and nudging you is not very subtle.

He is way more protective over you than any other human. Will not let anything harm you. And if something does, nothing will get in his way to help/save you.

LOVES (when it's just the two of you) for you to gently hold his face in your tiny (compared to him) hands! Double points if you gently bonk your forehead against his.

If you are not feeling it, having a bad day, what have you, he will take you for a ride to calm down. his voice is so soothing! Sometimes he'll even talk to you until you fall asleep if that is what you need.

You two became an 'item' mostly because you had made offhanded comment to Cade about Optimus being attractive in a way and Cade shut that shit down immediately but Optimus heard. It was too late, Cade has to deal with this now...

Literally so sweet! Will kill for you!

Ironhide:

Oh my... definitely the least normal (in an endearing way).

Doesn't mind/completely understand PDA honestly. Like, you wanna grab him and nuzzle his face? Please do. He will be forever grateful.

He definitely wants to show you off, he is so proud of you!! He also needs everyone to know you are taken :)

Like he will do little things to make sure the others know he is with you, like bringing you towards him when someone gets a little too close.

Wants you close to him at all times, so he knows you're safe.

If anyone threatens you in any capacity (even if its sarcasm from a close friend) his arm is around you, guarding you, while he points a gun at the one threatening you. It takes a minute to calm him down.

If you are like visibly upset/anxious/not having it, he is very vocal about pulling you out of the situation. Has zero problems taking you away in the middle of a conversation.

Will literally go into alt mode and just... drive away with you. Your friends don't like that too much.

Ironhide definitely was weird about his feelings at first. Him liking a human? No thank you. Definitely tried to push the feelings away, until getting tired and telling you how he felt.

When you lit up and said you felt the same? Oh he was over the moon!

Very protective and secretly very sweet! Will also kill for you!

Ratchet:

My sweet cinnamon bun....

Will literally die for your hugs!! Please just wrap your arms around his neck when he bends down and hug him so tight!

Doesn't mind PDA (in a sense of like hugging and being sweet) but does get very flustered!!

Call him any pet name (honey, dear, etc.) and he will combust. If he could blush, he definitely would. Really wanna make him weak in the knees? Call him 'My love.'

Ratchet would worry about you constantly honestly. Waaay more than anyone else.

I mean, you're just a human! You're squishy and small. There is a lot to worry about!

He realized he liked you because he was so worried for you, then he grew even more worried!

He accidently confessed his feelings for you when rambling about how worried he had been for you, and when you go wide eyed he is retracting everything and ready to run away.

When you reassure him and tell him you like him too? He is even more likely to combust.

Is always wanting to check in on you, and learns very quickly what upsets you and what soothes you. he is very attentive.

So fucking sweet and will die for you!!

#transformers bayverse #bayverse transformers #ironhide #optimus prime #transformers #ratchet #transformers headcanon #optimus prime x reader #ironhide x reader #ratchet x reader

[argreion]

Leon Kennedy sleepy + general HCs with your local ranter.

So sorry for clogging the Leon Kennedy x reader tag y'all. I seriously just fuckin' love TALKING! He's been my hyperfixation for months alongside RE Lore. :( I hope I can help you guys create your own little HCs like I took from some fics and the help of my friend! <3 ALSO I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR Y'ALLS HEADCANONS IF YOU HAVE THEM!!! I LOVE RAMBLES/RANTS! 🩵 No warnings, btw! Just silly stupid ass comfy headcanons I have :)

RE2 being all sweet and cuddly. Honestly, I feel like he might fall asleep to Disney movies. Just like some of the Leons to me. Always so strict on a nightly routine, too. Wash your face, brush your teeth, comb your hair etc. Then fallling asleep with a Disney movie on in the background? Heavenly. Perfection. The fact he might wear goofy ass pajamas too? He just SCREAMS trying to live his childhood while he still can young.

RE4 just washes his face and cleans his eyelashes. He feels more practical, yet still tries to take care of himself. Makes sure to take medication, but prefers if you tell him. It makes him feel special. I mean, Leon IS special. He likes comfort and trusting people. Sometimes waking up crying and burrowing into the bed beside you. RC and Spain wasn't fun at all! Your chest, neck, stomach, he loves it ALL. Adores a stomach cuddle, even if you got no stomach! Thighs, too, taking a nap while you watch a show.

ID Leon low-key feels like the small drop-off era. Still washing his face and eyelashes. Medication, if needed, still. You can notice slight changes, and him kinda hating the government in small ways now. The submarine, Jason and Shen Mei, and then getting judged for being pretty. Our pretty little blond, blue-eyed boy! Feel like he might be sick of it. Might be a little peeved at general compliments, but still tries to keep them in good faith. Grows his hair out, and gets a little messy. Just like in the comic, he looks like a soggy wet cat, y'all! Keeps his stubble pretty trimmed too.

Damnation Leon feels like the MAJOR drop. ID was the calm before the storm. Drinking problems start, and man starts getting less sleep. Probably five to four hours MAX. Still loves to cuddle like all the other Leons. You can kind of sense something is off. Washes his face, and that's it. Goes to sleep in his boxers, and kicks you in your sleep. C'mon, old man, stop kicking me in the ass! So rude! (I still love you, you little fucker.) Possible cartoon lover, I feel like once he gets older, he just kinda tries to relax. Man is tired constantly, and the alcohol makes it WORSE. Stubble is more grown out in my head.

RE6 Leon… Honestly 2nd fav. I'm an old man fucker, sorry y'all. Feel like the drinking is kinda toned down compared to Damnation, but spiked really fuckin' high in Vendetta. Silly cartoon watcher, I stand by that shit. I like making Leon be a stupid crusty, soggy cat. Probably really likes the cartoons from the 90s. His 'childhood' moment. Nicer than Damnation, but just more seasoned compared to RE4R and ID. Dad jokes and one-liners coming out at least three times a day. Sleeps about 6–7 hours on normal-ish nights. Tries to at least get 7. Please get on him about his meds or getting his eyes checked. He's crusty, and he needs a back brace possibly, too. Needs you to massage his back after a mission and just be there. Disney movie night with him when? He'll debate about the best Disney movie. His fav movie is up to you.

Vendetta… Oh, fuck. Man dropped off the wagon in multiple ways. He doesn't wash his face, and he probably does have a few tooth problems. Got a tooth gap for getting his ass beat, and is kinda self-conscious about it. Stubble is unshaven, and hair needs to be cut. He doesn't give a crap anymore, but the nightmares he has certainly give a crap about him. Making him think about quitting, if he could. We all know the poor man is gonna be strangled to death because of the government. Eye bags, pains in his body, and waking up with a horrible hangover. He doesn't really have a nightly routine, except pass out from drinking OR try to fall asleep normally. With a lover, I feel like he still wouldn't care. Movie buff AND nerd for mechanical shit. Rants about it, listen if he does it. It makes him fall in love with you slightly faster if you want to go that route. Also, TUMMMMMYYYY!!

DI LEONNNN! MY FAV! My little old ass kitten! Moves back to an ID state in a way. Instead, kinda hates the government still for his circumstances. Back to the cartoon AND falling asleep to Disney movies. Tries to remember his stuff more often now. He's still a little iffy, but he's got the spirit! Honestly, he might get LASIK. More of just wearing sweatpants and boxers kind of guy to bed. Got a little patch of chest hair too. Cuddly tummy and thighs. Likes hugging you from behind AND getting hugged from behind. Sleepy cuddles make his day better, and possibly more. Lastly, man sleeps like a rock now. If he's on top of you? Crushed. Your dead. Donezo.

#leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy

[star-writr]

Fever Dreams

Hello!! Just a short drabble while i work on my requests. enjoy!!

Homunyxch wasn't an interesting planet. On any normal occasion, the Doctor would've just set his course for somewhere else without even stepping off the TARDIS. That time, however, had been the first time he had ended up there since beginning his travels with you, and you had insisted. Against all expectations, trouble had followed you and the Doctor on the rocky shores of Homunyxch, giving you another day of adventures. Once back on the spaceship, though, you'd started to feel quite sick.

Stranded on the seat next to the console, your hands gripping the leather in an attempt to focus only on tightening their grip rather than the headache which was slowly making the veins on your forehead bigger and your blood circulation faster, you could faintly hear the Doctor express his satisfaction with the most recent events. You would've loved to listen to him ramble, but you were covered in sweat and your legs were killing you.

"Doctor," you called, your voice a whisper, staring at the floor. It only took a few moments for the Time Lord to make his way over to the seat, kneeling down in front of you and cupping your cheeks. He was calling your name, you realized, but not in time for you to answer; your eyelids fluttered shut, and you lost your senses, precipitating into the Doctor's arms.

You woke up in what seemed like an ocean of blankets and pillows. Even under all that you felt like you were freezing. Your palms and forehead were sweaty, and yet you couldn't help but shiver.

"Doctor?" you called faintly from under the blankets. Soon enough, rapid footsteps approached the bed, and the Doctor's messy hair and worried look suddenly came into sight.

"I'm right here", he whispered, sitting next to you. His hand rested on your forehead for a couple of seconds, and the Time Lord furrowed his brow. He was clearly worried.

You were still very confused. "What's happening?" you asked.

The Doctor forced a light smile on his face to reassure you. "It's all right, sweetheart, it's only fever. You're going to be fine."

"Alien fever?"

"I'm afraid so," he muttered, "but nothing you can't handle. Do you feel like sitting up for me?"

Your body ached and you couldn't feel your fingers, but nonetheless you managed to get up. Now your back was resting against the pillows and you were holding onto the Doctor's sleeve. "You're doing very good", he remarked. "It probably feels exhausting, doesn't it?"

You nodded. Just sitting upright felt way more tiring than usual. The Doctor gently stroked your cheek. "I made you some broth. It should help warm you up." You noticed the fuming bowl on the nightstand.

"What kind of broth?" you questioned him, suspicious. The Doctor had the tendency to give you stuff to eat without explaining it was alien.

"Chicken. From Earth. I didn't even make it, I bought it. Right now we're parked in Rome, next to a pharmacy and across from a convenience store."

You smiled. "We're in Italy? Really?"

"When you get better we can have a look around," he replied, "but it's best if you recover first. Come on, eat up."

The Doctor handed you the bowl and in a few minutes you managed to gulp down every last drop of the broth. It was hot and warmed you up, just like the Doctor had said it would.

"There we go. Good, isn't it?" the Time Lord spoke, putting the bowl back on the nightstand. You nodded. The Doctor planted a kiss on your forehead. "Get back under the covers, you need to rest." You did as he told you, grateful for his company. He stroked your hair, gently and consistently, and you closed your eyes. Everything ached, but at least the Doctor was by your side.

The day went by in a haze. Once a while you could feel the Doctor putting a wet towel over your eyes, and fragments of his stories whispered from time to time. He also laid next to you throughout the night, and you tugged on his sleeve every time you came back to your senses for a few seconds, just to see if he was still there. He never left your side. If he had to, he would press his lips on your forehead and tell you he was going to "be back in a mo", but you didn't even notice his absence since he wouldn't spend more than a minute outside your room, doing whatever it was he needed to do.

Some time passed, and luckily your temperature got lower and lower. Slowly but surely, you even managed to get up from the bed and take a long, warm shower. The Doctor was so worried that he even suggested he went in with you, and even if you told him to piss off, you found it very sweet of him. "If you feel dizzy, scream really loud. Try not to slip, sweetheart. Also, I'll wash your clothes when you're done. Are you sure you don't want to eat first?" he rambled, but you told him off and had the most ordinary shower of your life. He almost hugged you when you got out, but your bare shoulders and death stare made him settle for a relieved smile in your direction.

You got your PJs back on and, soon enough, fell asleep once again. Even if you were recovering, that shower had exhausted you. The Doctor, having come inside the room to check in on you, smiled at your sleepy face and laid down next to you. Still asleep, your arms found their way over to his figure, your fingers clinging on to his clothes, and remained motionless. The only movement was your chests rising and falling, and the Time Lord's lips bending into a content grin.

When you woke up, an hour and a half later, the Doctor's hand was striking your head. Lazily, your eyelids lifted enough to let you see the Time Lord smiling at you.

"You alright?" he asked, in a murmur.

You nodded, then yawned, making him chuckle. "I wanna go to Rome," you pouted.

"You're not ready yet." The Doctor hugged you. "We don't want to make it worse, now, do we?"

"No..." you grumbled. The Doctor kissed your head. "Good", he said. "Are you hungry?"

"Not really."

"Okay. But I'm still going to make you something in a while. You can't recover on an empty stomach." His voice was low and made you want to spend forever with him, right there, laying together on a million pillows.

"Doctor?"

"Yes?"

You pecked him on the lips, grabbing him by the collar. He didn't protest.

"Thank you," you whispered, breathlessly, still very close to his face. "For everything you do for me."

He grinned. "Anytime, sweetheart." You chuckled at his words, hiding your face in the crook of his neck.

This was his paradise, he thought.

#doctor who #10th doctor #10th doctor x reader #10th doctor imagine #david tennant #doctor who x reader #gn reader #x reader #drabble

[to-thelakes]

I'm watching Moon Knight (again) to help me go to sleep and I've rewatched episode 1 so so many times on nights like tonight but I still absolutely adore all the little details.

Like, okay so when Steven wakes up in the Alps (I think that's where it is), Khonshu says "go to sleep, worm" and okay, first watch and without knowing the context of Jake existing, that makes sense. Khonshu doesn't like Steven which we learn more and more as the series goes on but then he says a few lines later "the idiot's in control" in that same scene in the Alps.

There is such a clear shift in attitude between 'go to sleep, worm' and 'The idiot's in control' and it's so obvious on a rewatch that Khonshu is talking to two different people with each line.

He's referring to Jake as 'worm' and he thinks that telling him to simply 'go back to sleep' would work because Jake is aware of the alters and their situation. Although from the brief glimpses we get of Jake, we know that he is an... interesting guy yet we can gather that he at least has some sort of alliance/respect/something going on with Khonshu. However, when he realises it's Steven, it's not hostility in the same way. It's more exasperated frustration. He's mad at Marc for letting Steven suddenly appear rather than being annoyed at Jake for making a random appearance. The way that the dialogue is written just exposes so much on a rewatch.

But going back to Jake/Khonshu even if they do have some respect, it's also pretty obvious that Khonshu does not want Jake around. I'd speculate that that's probably because if Marc loses time when he knows that he's not in London as Steven, that would create suspicion. Suspicion that Khonshu wouldn't want because that would put their avatar/God relationship at risk.

Though, I also suspect that Khonshu and Jake probably were working together but Marc never became aware because Jake worked at nights (maybe why Steven is so goddamn tired) or simply took over while Marc thought that Steven was in control.

I know that the Moon Knight portrayal is not the most accurate DiD portrayal but from my research, there's this whole idea of like different levels of awareness. Like the blackouts for Steven are because he initially has no awareness of the other alters. Then when Steven and Marc black-out, it's because neither of them are aware that there is a third alter aka Jake. Which means that Jake can do things for Khonshu while Marc believes that he is in London and neither Marc nor Steven would be aware.

I'm kind of just rambling about the show at this point but also, what I find really interesting every time I rewatch is the date thing. So, right, if Marc was the one that set-up the date why would he let Steven stand her up without saying anything to her? Marc isn't exactly the best guy when it comes to romance but he is incredibly protective over Steven because he wants to protect him from Khonshu. So, why in the world would he let the whole date rejection thing happen?

Because it wasn't Marc. It was Jake. Jake asked out Steven's colleague and that also makes sense why they went to a steak place. Jake doesn't give a f*ck about Steven's veganism while Marc absolutely would. Marc wants to protect Steven so he wouldn't make such a silly mistake.

But Jake would. Honestly, at this point, convinced that Jake just wanted to fuck with the Moonboys and Khonshu just played along.

I don't know.

I always find the dynamics of the Moonboys so interesting and I love how even when you rewatch it, there are new little discoveries that you can make. Like there was so much love, thought and attention put into this show?? It makes me SO SO happy.

This show honestly means the world to me and excuse the ramble/rant but I just love talking about my Moonboys and I never really get to speculate or discuss the show. I talk about it with my dad but being at uni means that I do not get to ramble at him as often. So, tumblr gets it instead.

But yeah, they're my (not very) astute observations about my beloved Moon Knight

#moon knight #marc spector #moonknight #moon boys #steven grant #jake lockley #ruby rambles #moon knight system #ramble post #moonknight is my comfort show <3 #i miss my moon boys #sleepless night with ruby <3

[spiderfunkz]

✦ LAST NIGHT, I DREAMT.

— summary : you couldn't let go of what you had, and so couldn't your dreams.

— word count : 0,6k

— warnings : angst!! no happy ending, major character death, sleeping as a way to escape, mentions of medication & hallucinating, grief, natasha was reader's gf, andd lmk if i missed any.

a/n : inspired by warsh_tippy and zelda by whatever, dad. also this is so rushed sorry.

grieving isn't easy.

especially when you're all alone.

you listened to the whispers of the wind, head resting near the window of your bed, staring into the endless-foggy view of the forest outside.

you yawn. it's only 5 pm.

but every hour feels the same. no hour is special anymore. no more waiting at 9 pm, no more bell ringing at 10 pm, no more movie nights at 12 am, no more falling asleep together at 2 am, and no more love letters left at 6 am.

you blink, trying to stay awake, but the thought of sleeping through the day never felt greater.

but that's all you've been doing. sleeping. waking up still tired. existing for a few hours. then sleeping again.

it's starting to become a loop everyday.

your thoughts ramble on and on in a circle continuously before falling asleep.

the silence was deafening.

you woke up with a slight headache. you just fell asleep. why are you up again?

you look around for your watch, it was on the windowsill, you left it there before falling asleep.

you shrug it off.

maybe you were hallucinating.

you walk to your cold kitchen, passing the laundry room and pantry. but maybe it was the hallucinating part that made you hear a thud coming from that direction.

you pause. noises were coming from either one of the rooms. maybe it's mice in the pantry. but that's very unlikely.

tip-toeing your way to the pantry, you open it. getting a clear view of the empty shelves and open box of cereal.

huh.

maybe you were hallucinating.

you sigh, slamming the pantry door in frustration. you should probably take the medication you were recommended.

"y/n, detka? is that you?"

your heart dropped.

you froze. blood running cold. hands clammy.

it was her voice.

you approached the door slowly, the door was slightly open. you could see a figure folding clothes. and then a glimpse of red hair.

you gasp, jump a little even.

you opened the door. mouth open, shocked.

she was alive. she looked alive. she's moving. she's smiling. she's folding clothes. she's no longer the dead body you mourned over.

"nat?" your voice was shaky.

she looked up, your eyes met hers.

you couldn't believe it. you had so many questions. she was right in front of you.

you shook your head. closing your eyes. tears were overflowing.

"hey, hey, you okay?" natasha cups your face. your eyes flutter, she's touching you.

"nat?" you sob.

"yes? why are you crying?" she asks. your mind went blank, you felt like you couldn't speak or breathe. "don't cry, hey don't cry. i'm right here."

those three words made you cry even more.

you hug her close, you hugged her so tightly. you were sobbing into her shoulder, tears were running down your eyes like waterfalls.

"nat. why." were the only words you said. you could feel her hug you tightly. "i'm here." she replies.

everything doesn't make sense anymore. but you don't care. natasha is back. she's hugging you, kissing your forehead. you're crying, sobbing, everywhere.

"don't cry, baby. i'm here." she wipes your tears.

"are you really?" your vision was getting blurry. not from tears. "nat?" you call out, your vision is getting worse. you couldn't make out natasha's face.

"nat!"

you jolt awake. hair all sweaty. dry tears were covering your cheeks.

you look around.

it's silent. and it was deafening.

"nat!" you jump from your bed. running out of your room to the laundry room. "nat?"

it was empty.

it wasn't real.

she wasn't there.

what did you ever do to deserve that? for your brain to come up with the most painful dream? the most painful, realistic dream?

it felt real.

you thought it was real.

but it never happened.

#natasha romanoff x reader #natasha romanoff fanfic #natasha x reader #natasha romanov #natasha romanoff #natasha romanoff x reader angst #natasha x you #natasha romanoff imagine #natasha romanoff imagines #natasha romanoff x you #natasha romanoff angst #natasha romonova #natasha romanoff blurbs #natasha romanoff blurb #natasha x y/n #natasha romanoff marvel #natalia romanova #marvel imagine #marvel angst #marvel imagines #marvel #black widow #black widow angst #black widow x reader #black widow x y/n #black widow x you

[candyskiez]

man what gets me about pearl is how much harder so much of her dialogue hits in retrospect.

I touched on pearl and secrets a bit the last time I rambled about her. I can't remember the exact line but her literally saying "that's what makes such a good leader", talking about rose keeping secrets. just, in retrospect...how much of her idolizing the concept of secrets was her need for this all to be good? yes, she's hiding this massive period of her life, but it's okay. it's good, even. it's great. rose wouldn't tell her to do something that was a bad idea. it's fine not to tell someone something to protect them, and it'd just make things worse for everyone if they found out. so she doesn't say anything. she needs rose to be this perfect figure who has never done anything wrong, because if she isn't then what does that make the person who adored them so long after they're gone?

and also the fact she was panicking over rose having A Lion. a *pet.* that sent her spiralling. that's how badly she needed rose to trust her. because she'd upended her entire life to follow her, to be near her, shed told her everything and done everything for her and the thought that it might not be mutual? that fucked her up so bad.

the slightest idea that maybe rose didn't trust her as much as she trusted her sent her completely spiralling.

it's not just about the lion it's about the fact someone else knew rose as well as she did, maybe even more. it's about the dawning idea that she had no clue when this lion came in. it's about the fact she had no clue about rose inviting anyone else to these spaces. it's about the fact that she had no idea of any of this, and she told rose everything. it's about the fact there might be things about rose greg knows more than her, garnet knows more than her, amethyst, the other diamonds-

she was willing to keep her entire past a secret for rose's sake, because they had each other. they had each other and they could tell each other anything. until they didn't. until rose chose someone else. until she was alone. no, not physically. but she had so many secrets she kept because rose asked her to and rose knew best, and now she had no way of saying it at all. she was isolated, no quiet knowingness, no sharing the burden. rose was there and then she wasn't.

steven says rose was probably just trying to protect her, and that sends her spiralling. because she was the one gem rose knew she didn't have to protect. the one she could trust with anything.

until she wasn't.

fuck. SO much about pearl makes so much more sense in retrospect.

it was never about the lion.

(this was really badly worded sorry I'm very tired and have a headache)

#steven universe spoilers #su spoilers #steven universe #pearl steven universe #pearl su #su

[osbrnisms]

parksborn rambling <3

(this was so rushed so if theres inconsistencies or things don't make sense, thats why)

nobody in harry's life had ever given him proof that they loved him. his father always showed him the exact opposite of love, preferring to spend his time berating harry for every little thing, never failing to remind him how much of a disappointment he is, how unworthy he is of being part of the osborn legacy. his mother did love him, but she was gone before harry could even understand what the word meant.

the countless flings he had, the partners who claimed they didn't want him for his money, just him (but who would ever really want harry for anything but his money and status?), had cried and moaned out 'i love you' as they kissed their way down his body, only to leave before harry woke the next morning. and harry was fine with that. he was happy, as long as he got to be held and cared for and worshiped even if it was just a moment of fleeting desire and desperation, even if it was just pretend.

after getting out of the hell that was boarding school, he was quick to start gallivanting all over the world, never staying in one place for long, before moving onto the next. he met more people, had more hookups that left him battered and bruised the next day (which, again, was fine, because he was realizing that maybe he didn't deserve to be treated gently), and drank more than he ever had in the past. and his life was Okay.

and then norman osborn was dying, and asking his one and only son to come back home to see him. harry didn't want to go (he did want to go, more than anything, to see if maybe he would finally get an apology or at least any positive acknowledgment from his dear old dad), but he begrudgingly said yes, that he'll be there in the next 48 hours.

the reunion, obviously, did not go as he had hoped. while he had prayed that maybe he would get a sign that norman did actually care about him, all he got was the usual disappointment spiel, and the news that he too had the same disease norman was on his deathbed for. harry wanted to cry, but he wouldn't. he's not sure he could, especially in front of norman.

norman dies shortly after harry leaves, and he's immediately thrust into meeting after meeting since he is the new ceo of oscorp, and this whole mess of a company is his to figure out now. and he's tired, just wants to relax, maybe chug a few bottles of whiskey and─

peter parker wants to see him.

he's skeptical at first, of course he is, his thoughts immediately going to 'maybe he just wants money, he probably doesn't even wanna see me, just wants to see how much i'll give him'.

and he's wrong. he is so wrong.

because this beautiful, beautiful boy (harry's not ashamed to admit that yes, he's only aware of his attraction to men because of peter) in front of him is asking how he is, if he's okay, that he's here for him, and harry wants to turn him away. because he knows peter will stop being worried and stop caring once he realizes how rotten and broken harry is. but he doesn't.

harry gets his best friend back, at least for a little, before 'the osborn curse' is the only thing going through his mind.

they fight, harry begging peter to get spider-man's blood because 'that's the only thing that can save me pete please', peter refusing because 'what if it doesn't? we don't know that it will, and i'm not taking that chance. not with you'.

they kiss. they don't talk about it.

the situation just gets more and more messed up, spider-man visits him, refuses to give harry his blood, harry has a breakdown, discovers that the people at oscorp are fucking insane, using his name for experiments he supposedly approved of, then they want him out, planning to overthrow him as ceo of his own goddamn company.

he loses his mind again, turns into this monster in an attempt to save himself (he's pretty sure he killed someone in the process), and peter's spider-man, and peter's ex-girlfriend is here, and he almost kills her, and then everything just stops.

it's apparently a week later when he comes to again. he's in a room that's too fucking bright, a hospital room he assumes, and he's hooked up to a variety of machines. and peter's asleep in the chair next to the bed harry's in, their hands intertwined.

it takes harry a minute to find his voice, a whole minute just to pathetically croak out, 'peter?'

peter wakes, makes eye contact with harry for the first time in what feels like forever, and just breaks.

'fuck, you're awake. oh my god, har, they didn't know if you'd wake up, and i was so scared, because i really can't lose you, man. not again, 'cause i just got you back, and i missed you more than anything, and i'm sorry for everything that happened, but you're cured now, which is good, and you're gonna be okay and─"

peter eventually runs out of breath from rambling, and harry lets out a wheezy laugh.

'missed you too, pete.'

peter smiles at him, harry smiles back.

they kiss. and they kiss again. and again. and again. and again. and again. and again until they are just laughing against eachother's lips, harry pulling away to look at peter.

peter stares right back at him, cupping his cheek, his smile never leaving his face.

'i love you. so much. so fucking much, har. don't want you to leave ever again.'

and harry tenses. because people have said it before, and have never meant it. but something about peter makes him want to believe what he's saying.

'are you sure? 'cause dude, i'm a fucking mess, and─'

peter kisses him again, shutting harry up. it's a longer kiss than just their pecks from before, a kiss that if it could be translated into words would say,

'i'm sure. i'm here. i love you.'

peter pulls away this time, resting his forehead against harry's.

'i'm 100% sure, i swear, i've never been more sure of anything ever. and i'm gonna spend the rest of my life proving that to you, okay?'

it's not much of a question, more of a promise, one that peter's forever going to keep.

'okay.'

it doesn't matter to peter that it takes years for harry to fully believe it, that it takes him two to say it back, that it takes him ten to say yes to peter's marriage proposals, that it takes him fifteen to be ready to start a family. the only thing that matters is harry osborn is loved, and he knows it.

#harry osborn #parksborn #peter parker #spiderman #tasm #tasm 2 #tasm harry osborn #tasm parksborn #tasm peter parker #the amazing spider man

[mayhempersonified]

MY TAKE ON WHY SAND HASN'T BEEN VOCAL WITH HIS FEELINGS UP UNTIL THIS POINT:

So I've seen a few comments talking about Sand's lack of communication and how he should have outrightly confessed his feelings for Ray sooner, before he started dating Mew. Let me just start by saying, these are my own thoughts and probably not concrete facts and it's just a deep dive into what I think Sand's mindset has been like from the beginning. Also feel free to share your thoughts and let me know what you think. I also rarely write long takes like this so hopefully my words make sense

So I will say that, to me at least, Sand's feelings are a moot point in the dynamic they have going on. What do I mean by this? Well, Sand from the get go has called Ray a burden, Ray did not give him the best first impression and he was also aware of his alcoholism. And once they start getting to know and spend time with each other after episode 2, we sort of see Sand reiterating how they should not date. An example of this is the car scene, how he states that he would never take Ray as a boyfriend. How at the end he tried to set the boundary of maybe it would be best if they didn't sleep with each other again. I think just because he has these feelings for Ray, he knows it doesn't automatically mean that they should be together. Because in his mind, it's a disaster waiting to happen.

Around episode 4 & 5, through their dates, I think for a moment he forgets why 'they shouldn't happen' and let's his guard down a bit. Which inevitably goes back up when the fight with Boston happens and he again kind of reminds himself that "I'm not important" to keep him on track when it comes to his initial thoughts on the matter. And again, after the accident, I personally think that Sand maybe thought that it would help push Ray to get better but we see that all disintegrate by the end of the episode. And to me, when Sand was watching Ray and Mew he had this look of tired resignation. He didn't look surprised at all.

To add on to this already long rambling😅, I think it's crucial to notice that Sand has never once seeked out Ray on his own volition. Sand has only done this that one time when he was trying to get back at Top. But unless I'm wrong, I can't think of any other time he contacted Ray first. He avoids his messages, he tries to move on every chance he gets but Ray always seeks him out. And yes, I know he's never able to resist Ray and that's where his issue lies. But to me, this just confirms that yes, he has feelings for Ray but I don't think he was ever planning to act on them. His hesitation probably stems from his past relationship and the fact that Ray is not the best option, in his mind. I know as an addict and someone struggling with mental health he deserves love but when you look at it from the lens of a person dealing with that. From experience, it's not a fun position to be in and I can understand the hesitation.

I also want to point out the scene outside of the bar and how he tells Ray that he can be done with the secret crush, that it was a waste of time. Again, almost like he's reminding himself that "see this was never going to go anywhere". The only time we really see him give us a glimpse into how he feels about Ray is when he tries to stop him from drunk driving. When he sees the potential danger ahead and he uses this as a last ditch effort. Which was understandable because he was scared and desperate at that time.

So yeah, I'll just finish off by saying maybe Sand should have said something earlier but I don't think Sand ever wanted to express that in the first place because of the reasons I, hopefully explained above. And that's why we also see him make an active effort to move on at the party before Ray interrupts. I'm not sure what will push Sand to confess his feelings in the next episode, I'm curious to see that. But this is just a summary of why I think he didn't tell him his feelings up to this point.

Again let me know what you think😅 this was hardly coherent but I kept adding stuff afterwards

#only friends the series #only friends #ofts #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #sand x ray #sandray

[jakkon-and-rose-topic]

EVERYONE PLEASE HELP WITH MY PROJECT, EVEN IF I DIDN'T TAG YOU

I call upon all writers, please

I will accept any type of assistance

Any type at all

@vyuntspakhkite-l-darling @agirlandherquill @ajgrey9647 @mk-writes-stuff @illarian-rambling @supersoakerfullofblood @smudged-red-ink

I know this is probably not a good thing to ask some pretty busy people, But I'm trying to Brainstorm an argument between J&R that drives a rift between them for a bit

Feel free to pass this right up, but I'd love if you were to give me a few suggestions, lines, or even help me build the dialogue.

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If you want to help here's the overview:

(Rose calls Jak Horns and Jak calls her Petals until shit gets serious - Like someone's going to die or unless they're really angry.)

Rose and Jak get into a heated argument over... something? (Idk what... but it's probably Jak's mental issues)

Rose ends up hurting Jak by saying he's worthless, (She very much doesn't mean it but she's got some anger-management issues)

Jak ends up hurting her by Saying he doesn't care about her and/or he doesn't care about her efforts to help her and just wants to be alone (He also very much does not mean that, but he also has issues with anger)

Neither of them can really communicate properly, and I have Rose's End Line that hurts Jak, but I don't have his that hurts her.

So far I've just got this outline:

Start it off with R confronting J about [issue]

J shoots back with a very tired, and frustrated snide comment, because he knows about [issue] but he doesn't know how to fix it and it's making him angry with himself

R says something sarcastic back because she's getting annoyed

They go back and forth for a bit

It escalates with J saying something about how not everyone can be so perfectly level-headed all of the time

R shouts at him for that

More back and forth

It escalates again with R saying he's too sentimental

They take jabs at one another's insecurities for a bit (For Rose: Her hiding her feelings, the fact that she's very passionate and loud most of the time, and for Jak his drinking and his inability to cope with himself and his memories)

Then R Says something about how she cares about him

J shoots back with his Hurt Line

And She immediately shoots back with hers and storms out, (Probably crying)

At this point J is probably also crying

{I'm planning on letting the Argument run when I write but I need a framework so it doesn't go completely off the rails,}

Anyway, Rose's main goal here is to kick some sense into Jak

And Jak's main goal is to get Rose away from him so he can't hurt her anymore. He wants to use this argument as a way to hurt her badly enough so she'll leave and not be truly hurt when he eventually dies, or hurt herself by trying to help him

He wants to keep her safe, and in his eyes the only way to do that is to hurt her enough so that she stays out of harm's way.

So, I only have these so far:

"You can be suck a fucking Prick sometimes, Horns!" - R

“Why should you? Why do you? I don’t want you to! Why can’t you just leave it alone? Why can't you just leave me alone?" - J

And Rose's hurt line which I will keep to myself for now.

I will take anything, Lines, series of lines, descriptions, tips, brainstorming sessions, reconstructing of the outline, Literally Anything

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[emojifarm]

while i don't think you should feel obligated to share or reblog any emojis you don't want to, i think rethinking how you feel about MCYTbrs is important, since there's so many people on minecraft youtube.

minecraft is an endlessly popular game, and there's thousands or maybe even near millions of minecraft youtubers out there.

it's not MCYT in itself that's a problem, its the popular ones that get called out that are, but since minecraft (and minecraft youtube) is so popular, it seems like everyone in minecraft youtube is bad.

but i think you shouldn't say you "do not support those people in any sense.", since that continues the stigma against liking MCYT in general.

minecraft youtubers are just popular because minecraft is popular, there are so many minecraft youtubers that do so much good (ex, technoblade, who's helped raise so much money for sarcoma, even after his passing, and who's inspired and motivated many)

then again, people use MCYT to mean "the dream team and the abusive people they enable" instead of encompassing the many others who aren't even related to the dream team / dream SMP.

this is quite a rambly ask, but as someone who loves certain MCYTbrs, it's tiring to see people say they don't support any mcytbrs, when like... there's such a diverse population. there's some people who might count as minecraft youtubers who are minorities and who try to fight against bigotry and stuff and who don't do weird shit and to say MCYT in general includes them, even if you don't mean to.

although, again, you don't have to reblog any emojis you don't want to, especially since MCYT is a very large label and that CAN include people who are bad, and it's hard to know who's good and who's not, especially with youtubers in general since we only know the persona they put on, and how many there are that you probably know nothing about, let alone if they're an abuser or w/e, but... yeah.

i guess to me it's important since its like saying all actors are bad, when there's many actors who aren't bad people but there's a popular amount that are bad, n such. also mcyt just stands for minecraft youtube, or minecraft youtuber(s), so its like saying roblox youtubers or reaction youtubers, they're a category that has so, so many people that count under that. you can't say you don't support any of them.

unless you literally just dont like minecraft and dont support the game as a whole, or youtube itself as a whole, in which case i'd have more questions but it'd be more correct lmao. also sorry for the ramble i have opinions u dont have to answer this

I knew I'd get someone like this in my ask box when I put my opinion out there 🤦

1. There are literally clips out there of Technoblade saying slurs (including the N word) and him encouraging Dream to do things that have ultimately made others on the team uncomfortable and upset. You definitely need a better example than that. Someone being dead and/or giving to charity does not automatically make them a good person. I'm sure Shane Dawson also gives to charities. We all know JK Rowling does too. Doesn't make them good people.

2. I don't have the time, care, or interest to do research on every single MCYT and it's really only the popular ones that do get emojis of them (with some exceptions, obviously). I only know what I do about the Dream Team and those adjacent because of things I've seen on Tumblr, via friends talking on discord, and some of the YouTubers I watch breaking down the situations. (Also, this low-key comes off the same as "not all men". Like. Yeah, that's true, but that's not who I was referring to. Some of the MCYT I'm referring to aren't a part of the Dream Team either, so I feel comfortable using the broad term)

3. Also, the mansplaining wasn't necessary. I'm not an idiot that lives under a rock. I know what MCYT stands for. As I previously said, I'm not making a broad assumption. I'm just using that term to refer to the people that people think of with that term. To me that's a specific subset of Minecraft creators. I don't consider people that just so happen to do Minecraft videos or streams to fall under that. To me MCYT is just the big ones. It's a title. That's typically what people are referring to when they use that title

4. Also, I've literally played Minecraft and watched others play it on YouTube since it came out when I was like 10 years old. Again. I don't live under a rock. I've just put some distance between me and the creators because I keep hearing bad things. It's not that deep.

[obey-me-headquarters]

let’s see if i’m doing this right.

i came into your inbox because i have thoughts. specifically, i was thinking about a sub taking care of their dom. not nessicarly in a sexual way, i was really thinking about both in and outside of the bedroom.

lucifer as a sub already gives you a lot, his trust is hard earned but a great prize. but i was thinking about after so many scenes, he probably would do a lot of things for you, like bring you your choice of beverage in the morning, or give you a massage when you ask, or run you a bath because he knows you have cramps. and these are some of my favorite things to think about, like, obviously the majority of the time we’re still in control and that’s how he likes it. but he also likes you enough to want to do stuff for you; not because you asked, but because it’s a way to show he cares.

this also applies to inside his bedroom, i believe he gives more than he recieves; that’s just how it worked with the 2 of you. but sometimes when your head is aching or your knees hurt (someone help me my knee is dying), he’s willing to just give you so many rounds of oral.

feel free to ignore this ask, i know it’s not really a question it had just been stirring in my brain for a bit. i also had another thought right before i went to write this ask but i. can’t remember it. so i’ll probably come into your inbox again when i do. i love your writing so much!!

Ohhhh, I like this concept!! Full disclosure, I'm more of a fan of the dom (aka, us or reader) taking care of the sub than the sub taking care of us. But I'm not against the concept!

To go a little more hardcore than your idea, I really like it when a sub is like, completely and utterly devoted to their master. The complete opposite of a brat in the sense that they use wanna be Good and Obedient. And that can definitely manifest in them taking care of their dom. Making them meals, rubbing their feet, running them a bath, etc.

Although, I do admit that this has to he worded in a Very Specific Way for me to find it appealing, but that's more of a ME thing than anything. Idk, there's just something about someone being like "I get pleasure off of serving my dom, I would actually prefer to not get any physical pleasure at all" that just, don't compute in my brain. Maybe it's because I'm just not a sub at all, or maybe it's because I'm too much of a pleasure dom. No shame to any subs like that! It's just one of those things that my brain can't wrap around as being pleasurable (for me at least)

Anyway, I'm rambling!!! Back to the topic at hand!!

I definitely think this is a sweet idea!! And I understand how it's appealing, after a bad or tiring day I kinda just want to lay back and have someone else look after me. I also like the framing of us still being a dom during this, as I don't like the stereotype that doms are always self sufficient and doesn't show "weakness" by being tired and needing someone else to do something for them. Everyone gets tired sometimes!

I really like the idea of Lucifer doing tiny things for you to show that he's your submissive to be really adorable! Like him wearing your collar under his clothes, or him paying for your meals. He wants to be of use to you because he loves the idea of he being someone you use.

In the bedroom I prefer to write scenes more focusing on the sub (if that wasn't like, obvious by everything I've written lol), and giving them pleasure and wracking them. But I like the idea of Lucifer giving you oral!

Thank you so much for the ask! And thank you for liking my writing!

#ask #obey me #obey me smut #obey me lucifer

[glitchadeli]

Alright... this is the one part of my AU I always get anxious talking about.. I've said it before that Gum was young when he became a dad but I still always worry people are going to take it the wrong way..? Idk. So.. I'm gonna ramble, please read ALL of it before you judge or something??? I also tend to repeat myself so.. sorry if it sounds repetitive. 

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***TW:*** Depression / Underage Drinking / Teen Pregnancy 

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In my AU; Gum and Penny broke up when they were still 12 (timeline wise it's shortly after the ending of the show / Rob disappears. I'll go into Rob's timeline eventually but anyway!) - They remain friends over the years, Penny being there for Gum through his bad times (this has to do with Rob, again I'll explain eventually. To put it simply, Gum goes through a rough time with Rob being missing.) When he was 16, Gum goes to a party to distract himself from his sadness (Darwin kinda forced em' to go, it was some high school party, lots of the kids from school were there.) - but when he got there he didn't really talk much. He mostly just sat on the couch alone while everyone else was having a good time. 

Penny approaches, seeing him alone on the couch that’s off to the corner so she sits with him. Asking him what’s wrong and he starts crying. She gives a gentle, friendly kiss to his temple, and then someone trips, spilling their drink all over Gumball. Penny takes him upstairs to the bathroom to get him cleaned up since she quickly realized he, at some point, drank the spiked punch (which he didn't know was spiked to be fair) and that he’s pretty tipsy.

She remembers she has an extra shirt in her bag and gives it to him. He says thanks and then wanders off to a nearby bedroom. She asks what he’s doing and he says he just wants to lay down, and doesn't feel like socializing. She feels bad leaving him alone in such a state so she asks if he wants her to stay and he says yes. She sits down but he asks “Is.. it weird to ask to cuddle?” and she says no, laying down so she can hold him. 

They talk for a little while, about all kinds of things, and it eventually leads to them looking at each other. Penny wanting to be ‘wanted’ and Gumball wanting some kind of comfort / a distraction from how much he misses Rob, they both lean in for a kiss. They kiss for like.. 2 minutes, but Penny begins to feel a weird feeling in her stomach, yet Gumball was the one to pull away. Admitting he’s just really tired and wants to sleep. (She figures maybe he felt a weird feeling too.) so he nuzzles up to her and falls asleep. 

Waking up about an hour or so later to roll over and proceed to throw up on the floor (and himself.) - the 'drunkenness' still taking effect, he undressed til it was just his underwear and went out onto the roof to sleep. Penny questions him but she doesn't really get far, seeing as he passed out immediately after saying to leave him there. She cleans the mess and decides to ask Masami (whose house it was btw) to stay the night. Masami says sure but “Please make sure he doesn’t fall off the roof. I don’t want to be liable.” The next morning Gumball sobers up and Penny takes him home. 

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Shortly after this, Penny figures out she's pregnant. Now.. I know that makes no sense. All they did was kiss for 2 minutes and cuddle fully clothed. Yeah, this is where my headcanon for Penny's species (shapeshifting fairies) comes in.

See, Penny's species can reproduce when a few factors come into play; her species is… well, they're not around as much. They're not liked when out of their shells so their probability of reproducing lessened as the years went on. In fact, they could only reproduce with themselves many millennia ago but as new generations happened, they could reproduce with something that their DNA, their instincts, feels is a good match. (This is tawog, there doesn't have to be a real deep reason why someone like Gum is chosen but some other people aren't. And look, if Gum and Dar can make an actual baby out of a jar of gross things in a microwave then, stuff like this can happen. It's a fictional world, it doesn't need tons of realism. I mean literally in my AU later on, Gum and Rob have bio kids despite both being biological males. So like, screw realism!) 

Anyway, as for the "why" it happened? To put it simply; “They both wanted something” when they kissed. See, when she broke up with Gumball (because yes, SHE broke it off when they were younger - because she realized Gum had feelings for Rob before he even did. She wanted him to come to terms with it and tell Rob if / when he found him.) It was hard for her to feel.. wanted. Clearly if he likes someone else so much like.. what's "wrong" with her? (Nothing, but she's gonna feel insecure and wonder what was wrong with her for him to move on.) Gum thinking about Rob and wanting to see him again, he wanted a distraction and to not feel so lonely for a second. While Penny's desire was to be wanted. Penny’s body basically misconstrued the equally intense desires (Penny’s longing to be wanted and Gumball’s want for something to distract him from Rob) as an agreement and the prolonged kiss-contact was enough for it to happen. Also since Gumball was unrelated and of a similar age range it mattered not that there were no ... specific activities .. involved. Her body just said “oo connection and correct circumstances? Okay!” - essentially. 

I hope this all makes sense and I want to make something incredibly, crystal clear. I do NOT condone minors drinking / doing unsafe activities / getting pregnant. I also want to say that while Gumball was tipsy when they kissed; he was NOT taken ‘advantage’ of. I would NEVER condone that nor write it in a story. Let me be perfectly clear on that. "Well then why is it in your story?" - because while my AU isn't focused on the "realism" aspect, it doesn't mean 'real situations' can't happen. Teen pregnancies happen, and unfortunately it's often. It’s not something I condone nor do I think it should happen, but it can happen. Another thing to note; it was more-so just Penny's species traits of this almost.. I guess you could say "asexual reproduction" that caused it. I also should mention; she had NO idea that could happen. Her parents never told her about it. They never warned her that their species could do this. (I'm not blaming them btw, I'm just adding in that Penny didn't know this could happen.) So yeah, that’s kinda the long winded explanation of all this. Penny and Gum are about 16/17 (17 by the time Cas is born because their birthdays are in June and Cas was born in November.) If you have questions or concerns, you can ask! (DM me though) but yeah I just.. I’ve been super nervous talking about this specific part of my AU because I don’t want anyone to think I’d condone bad things, of course I don’t. Hence why I made this long post thoroughly explaining everything because I don’t want anything misconstrued. Hope this all makes sense!! ;v;’’ ~

#the amazing world of gumball #tawog #gumball watterson #penny fitzgerald #tawog gumball #tawog penny #tawog fanart #glitch's next gen tawog #my tawog art #Glitch's tawog AU #I'm not tagging this with their ship name because it's not.. really ship art nor are they in a relationship #they're friends #read everything pls i beg of you before you judge #please dm me with questions if you have any or need me to clarify anything I really don't want anything to be misinterpreted

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

this was supposed to be longer but i got tired (and realized maybe this wasn't such a good idea) so i kinda bs'd this to just finish it up. sorry it doesn't look all that good lol

transcript of my shitty handwriting + more rambling under cut

panel 1:

len: rin, just leave him—

rin: NO! i'm not going to give up now—

len: i know you're upset, but all you're doing is—

rin: HE'S NOT GONE YET!

panel 2:

rin: i know he still remembers, he has to...

panel 3:

rin: kaito-san, it's me; rin. you tried singing one of len and i's songs the other day. you got the melody right, remember? meiko-san's birthday is soon. remember her? a few weeks ago you said you needed to buy her a present. what were you going to get her? do you remember? tell me.

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aight yea so this is what yall get for picking that ❄️📺❔🕚💾🪦 option on the poll (which btw was related to this drawing)

i'll just keep it simple: basically kaito gets dementia (or i guess the robot equivalent of it??). yeah.

not sure if this takes place on the cusp of v3 happening and just this specific kaito v1 module was unable to be updated for some reason? or if they're all still stuck in v2 and v3 hasn't happened yet/will not happen for a while... but i do know its def before v4 happened, so people like fukase and una don't exist yet

anyways though as you might expect, it pretty much sucks all around for everyone involved. not just the other 5 cryptonloids watching their close friend so previously full of life deteriorate into a husk of his former self, but for kaito himself too. he suddenly can't remember things like where he is or who the people around him are, and its incredibly frustrating b/c he knows he did have the memories at some point, its just as if they got misplaced... there's random bits of recollections that do come sometimes but as much as he tries to hold onto them they flicker and fade away just as quick as they appeared. left sinking back into a feeling of hopelessness that then becomes pure emptiness, as you can feel how you're losing yourself but there's quite literally nothing you can do

visually the static is used to represent a lot of that "foggy" feeling as things become more and more unclear, and given the robot/android nature it makes sense i guess? it's not really seen here but just as an actual machine might be when breaking down, his visual + audio processors begin to malfunction, causing a literal static overlay on his vision with faces/objects he can't recognize occasionally glitching out as well as constant white noise in his hearing and the sound of people talking to him becoming garbled and unintelligible. as time goes on he also loses his own ability to synthesize speech so aside from becoming withdrawn and quiet out of fear he'll say something that makes no sense, he then literally just becomes incapable of responding at all

again (as you might expect), the other cryptons aren't doing very well as this is happening. rin and len see kaito almost like a father, so watching one of your parental figures slowly march towards death is... not great. rin (as seen here) is still trying to hold on, because she swears kaito has had a few good days where he does recall more, where he seems much more like his old self, and maybe, just maybe if they wait a bit more he'll get better [tbh she's speedrunning the 7 stages of grief but goes between being stuck in some of the earlier stages its... not good]. len's grief on the other hand is manifesting itself in a way more similar to meiko's: he's not as distant as her, but he has already recognized that there's pretty much nothing that can be done and just wants to minimize kaito's suffering. len's just as shattered as rin though, but he's not showing it openly, figuring he has to accept it, as fighting against the grief like his sister won't help anything.

i just mentioned meiko so speaking of her: this is also probably extremely difficult on her, as, yknow, the counterpart v1 to kaito. she's withdrawn herself away from kaito, as she doesn't want to cause him pain in case he happens to recognize her, remember something about their relationship, but not comprehend what it means and just become confused/distressed. at least, that's what she says; it's more or so she can't bear to see him in this state, as he slowly loses more parts of himself, so she isolates herself in hopes the pain will be somewhat less when its all over, for having seen him less and not having false hopes of his recovery. that being said though she has definitely still been around him and tried to keep her composure... from kaito's pov, in moments of recollection, its disheartening seeing your wife close friend suddenly ignoring you, almost like she's mad or sad about something, but you can't remember why. did you forget to do the laundry? is it something unrelated? you want to ask her but she won't tell you; why? did she already and you just forgot? why...

miku's usual cheeriness has also crumbled, as even with rin's attempts, she can't find anything to be optimistic about in this scenario. she just feels this immense guilt, that she should've done something about this; she has influence as the most popular of the entire group, surely she could do something to make it all better. but aside from the arguments and indecisiveness regarding ethics and not wanting to do something without everyone's collective decision, she does know deep down its not her fault. maybe someone like one of the technicians or programmers would be more at fault, but she doesn't want to blindly throw accusations either, because surely they hadn't foreseen this happening either; nobody would intentionally throw in such a cruel fate for someone, it was an unfortunate system glitch that they were working to fix, but even if they did come up with a patch for it, it would be far too late for kaito at that point. she doesn't want to dwell too much on the logistics of it, miku just wants to be there for everyone else, because she knows how deep in despair the others are—she is too—and doesn't want their whole group to fall apart after such a devastating event.

as for luka: i would assume we're kind of actually seeing everything from her perspective, so as an audience lens she'd be more objective about presenting everything as it is without putting too much of her own bias/thoughts into it. but she's not completely unfeeling either. she tries interacting with kaito quite often, despite some of the others warning her about doing that too much. she tries talking to him about random things, not necessarily aiming to get him to remember anything in specific, though if any of his memories do surface in conversation she'll def address them and ask if he recalls anything more (and if not that's alright too). on some occasions she's been accused of being insensitive, but she doesn't want his death to be this huge tragedy, she would want him to be somewhat happy in his last moments. after everything that's happened, he deserves to leave in peace, in her opinion.

i've mentioned death a few times and there's a literal gravestone in the original emoji combo so safe to say, yeah, he dies. unfortunately the damage to his hardware is beyond repair from the critical/fatal errors and glitches, and it's decided that it'd be best to ultimately just deactivate him and delete all his files to not prolong any pain he might've been in for any longer. not exactly sure what would happen afterwards (aside from an obvious aftermath of the grief): if this is before/on the verge of v3 happening, there's the situation i thought about of them receiving a new replacement v3 kaito module, which has its own angst w/ it: its almost like seeing a fucking ghost, but it's not the same one they all remember, nor does it have all those memories. and this v3 kaito himself experiencing conflicted feelings as someone who was brought in to try and give back happiness to this group, only to seem to cause more despair for being so similar to someone long gone that he'll never truly replace. again though i'm not sure if i'd actually have that happen for the sake of everyone involved's sanity but it is something interesting to think about

i've been typing this for like 3 fcking hours now and i have no idea if this makes any goddamn sense lolol uhhh. like all my things it sounds way better in my head than when i actually put it on paper 😭 but congrats if you actually went thru the effort of reading all this. i might do more explanations like this of my things if anyone's interested, like of the other poll options, but we'll see

#my art lol #vocaloid #kaito vocaloid #rin and len kagamine #yeah im just gonna leave it there b/c i dont really think this deserves to go in the main tags #i dont????????? know man. :') maybe in a few years ill look back and be like 'hmmmmmm wtf was i thinking' #i might delete this later actually i dont know... there is some sort of very cruel irony there if i think about it but im not going to #tho its kinda funny that while i was drawing this is was exclusively alternating between listening to old songs from when i was younger #and listening to love love nightmare. lmaoo. the latter song has absolutely nothing to do w/ this thing but its an interesting composition #unintentionally that last panel kaito came out SO fucking scary to me. wasn't the intent but idk does that mean anything

[chuuwtoy]

i remember discussing with my friend if rebecca was really the blushing virgin that everyone in the fandom makes her out to be. at the time i just shrugged it off and said yes, because i didn't know much about her character (not that there is much anyway.) but after thinking about it, my opinion's changed a bit. so here's my random opinions about rebecca.

incoming airstrike: incoherent rambling.

initially i felt like rebecca was only really put into the first game to be jill's opposite, and also i guess to make it even and put a girl on the other team.

i haven't played RE 0 (and with the complaints i probably won't..) but she isn't exactly squealing and blushing whenever billy looks her way - if anything, billy is more of a flirt. maybe him giving her all these cute nicknames is just in his nature? or perhaps he just really likes her. who knows!

you could argue that everyone on her team died and she's going through this hellish nightmare on her first mission - so why on earth would she have goo-goo eyes over some inmate who supposedly slaughtered 23 people?! haha, i love analyzing these guys.

rebecca isn't afraid to put anyone in their place, she demands respect, "but that's officer chambers to you", "and dont call me little girl!" one thing i love about these lines is how it's delivered, she isn't stomping her feet and throwing a tantrum. she keeps her soft tone and says it sharply! i wish people saw her as spunkier and dominant, rather than an innocent, helpless baby.

suprisingly, she doesn't fall for chris either. i mean can you blame me for expecting her to? he's protecting her throughout the game and vice versa. she's tired and scared but atleast she has chris to lean onto. that's the perfect set up for a predictable (one-sided) romance. the same arguement could be made - she's tired, and got thrusted into another nightmare, she doesn't have time to be flustered over chris..

something that's a little odd but rebecca has respect for chris in the sense that she refers to him as "sir", when she doesn't even do that for enrico. though, im sure its because she's familiar with enrico, but not chris.

she's oddly professional for her age, but no one in the fandom gives her credit for it— and yes i know it's probably because she's a child prodigy, so perhaps she had to grow up quicker? i assume she was around adults much older than herself. ( ≧ᗜ≦) !!!

i know it's common for people to call her a tomboy because "girl + short hair = tomboy" (sarcasm). though, if i'm being honest, i never saw her as one. rebecca (and jill) are just girls, they can't really be placed into boxes - they're not clichés. you see the duality with rebecca loving basketball but also being a chemist? i LOVE that so much. she's in this male-dominated field with an age that still end in -teen.

rebecca is described as "androgynous" in her uniform and while i agree to some extent i don't really like that word too much, because it implies that jill's uniform isnt androgynous when i think that it is.. so what because jill's chest is prominent she can't be androgynous too? hmph, it always left a bitter taste in my mouth.

also i really love that she's wearing makeup in 0, it's her first mission and she's all dolled up 笑笑笑笑笑 but they stopped using ayumi's model and i guess wanted to rework her face.

this isn't meant to disprove or bash that very popular ship "rebilly" by the way! do i ship it? not quite, sorry but i dont ship anything besides myself and a certain bioterrorist えへへへへへへへへ

the novel, caliban cove, portrays her as your typical teenage girl. she gets embarrassed a lot, blushes at the slightest contact, etc etc. it's not canon though, so i didnt bother to mention it.

i haven't discussed this either but i'd like to see discussions about her sexuality, nothing is confirmed but options are always open (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

#resident evil #rebecca chambers #jill valentine #billy coen #chris redfield

[ao3cassandraic]

Firstly, can I say thank you for all your GO meta. I've spent much of my insomnia soaked night reading through your musings and the replies, and almost all of what I've read makes so much sense to me.

There is a question, honestly, but first..

I read GO when it first came out, and have probably been an avid Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman fan for longer than many fans have been alive. Loved the book, adored the first series, found myself completely floored by S2. The last 15 is probably. - no that's wrong, Definitely - the most beautiful, tragic, heart wrenching scene I've ever encountered. Realising what just broke you was played out by two middle aged, straight actors but all you've seen are two beings whose universe is each other and who are being ripped apart by what they are feeling. I don't have the words, I really don't. Sublime acting & writing.

My response surprised me, I couldn't let it go and I worried at it like a (small, red eyed) dog with a bone. Then I found Tumblr and realised I was far from alone. I've read all the theories and a fair bit of fan fiction (re Michael Sheen, "I love that the fans write their own stories, even if most of them involve David & I having sex"). Some of the POV resonate some don't. Yours do much more than most.

After all that, mine isn't a huge question, it's just a niggle I have. Maggie. Something doesn't feel right there and I wondered if she had set anything off on your radar? Given that NOTHING is accidental in a Gaiman story..

Maggie can't spell and it was highlighted. UGRENCY. (T.O.S.T.E, and Angle anyone) Maggie doesn't eat, though she loves a skinny latte, and doesn't drink alcohol. Claims the record shop is failing, but sends a pub in Edinburgh music for their jukebox? She was never a teenager, and whilst claiming to be tired of being scared is completely fearless. Won't leave Az on his own, is unfazed by demons and doesn't question what Cr & Az are, unlike Nina.

I'm not sure where I'm going with it, but something is off and I wondered if you had any thoughts?

Ok, enough, I'll stop rambling and step out of your questions now. Thank you for bearing with me if you made it this far.

First I just want to acknowledge and validate your adoration for Good Omens! This fandom exists For Reasons! Cheers, and thank you for your ask.

I've seen other folks wondering what you're wondering about Maggie; you're definitely not alone. For the little it's worth, I don't actually think she's ethereal or occult. I think she's a human being with some quirks. (I also can't agree with "doesn't eat" -- we don't see her eat, and she doesn't accept Aziraphale's offer of an Eccles cake, but the former is likely happenstance and the latter, well, I wouldn't accept an Eccles cake either if I had just taken such a giant monetary gift from someone. It's just too much; I'd feel that I was taking advantage and not being properly grateful.)

I actually don't drink alcohol, and I assure you I'm fully 100% no-question-about-it human. (Though there are those who would say I'm more than slightly demonic.) I had an alcoholic parent, which shaped my young life in some not-amazing ways, and I never understood how they got to be that way, so I decided to stay safe and just... not try drinking.

When I got older and more confident in my ability to steer clear of alcoholism, I tried a bit of wine and a bit of brandy and a bit of other thises and thats and discovered that I plain old didn't like them! So I drink non-alcoholic cocktails (I love this fashion! N/A cocktails can be creative and tasty!) and locally-made sodas and if that makes me weird, okay, I'm weird. It doesn't make me an angel. Doesn't even make me a "better" (whatever that is) person -- it's morally neutral. It just is.

(I'm not a skinny-latte person, though, in case you were wondering whether I'm Maggie. Chai is my coffeeshop preference.)

A thematic reason I think Maggie is human has to do with an extension of the Good Omens axiom that Heaven and Hell are just names for sides. Demons, angels, a vulnerability or a trick more or less and other than that they're basically the same. I want to believe that in the GOverse, that's true of humans too -- we have more in common with angels and demons than anyone cares to admit, despite the difference in lifespan and our superior inventiveness. Possibly including quirkiness!

I want this to be true because it means Crowley and Aziraphale needn't be lonely together on Earth even if Heaven and Hell do finally chuck them out for good. I want this to be true because it adds some intriguing resonance to a Second Coming of Jesus story. I want it to be true because I want Good Omens to keep saying go-be-properly-good to humanity.

I could be wrong, of course. I've had several of my headcanons contradicted by Word of Gaiman already, barely a month after s2 came out. I'm sure more will go the way of the dodo, and there are a few things I've said that I don't actually believe any more myself.

But I want Maggie to be human because I like her. I like her shy awkward approach to Nina. I like her willingness to explain How To Human When You're Crying to Aziraphale without shaming him for not knowing. I like her loyalty to her benefactor, which she doesn't trumpet but which is brave as all get-out when the demons show up. I like her flipping the bird at the demons, creatively defending the bookshop, standing up to Shax, giving Nina space to work things out.

Sometimes we humans are okay, you know?

#good omens #good omens meta #maggie