kristen and cassandra: prophet, apostate, saint, god
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it's scary when things change, its scary when things stay the same.
pinterest / john steinbeck, journal of a novel: the east of eden letters / holly warburton / pinterest / john elizabeth stintzi, "saluta-tions from the storm” / henri barbusse, the inferno (boni and liveright, 1918) / jeanie tomanek / @swarnpert on tumblr / junot díaz, the brief wondrous life of oscar wao / sylvia plath, the unabridged journals of sylvia plath / amy casey / pinterest / hilma af klint / mary oliver, upstream / anaïs nin, the diary of anaïs nin, vol. 6: 1955-1966 / @thepersonalquotes on tumblr
(There are many causes of death,
among them the ache of life.)
mahmoud darwish, almond blossoms and beyond; “i do not know the stranger”
Suddenly you’re ripped into being alive. And life is pain, and life is suffering, and life is horror, but my god you’re alive and it’s spectacular.
joseph campbell
john steinbeck, journal of a novel: the east of eden letters
Years will pass, and you will have visitings of despair, and yet be tortured by hope.
mary shelley, frankenstein
catherine gildiner, good morning, monster: five heroic journeys to emotional recovery
I’m chasing myself (I have been for years).
susan sontag, as consciousness is harnessed to flesh
I’m homesick for myself
In a place of home is a face I no longer recognize
lillium, in the place of the mirror is a portrait of you
miriam adeney
“I want you always to remember me. Will you
remember that I existed, and that I stood next
to you here like this?”
haruki murakami, norwegian wood
“If I change my mind, can I come back here?”
And then he answered his own question. “If I come back, it will be a place, but it won’t be home any longer.”
neil gaiman, the graveyard book
I: Why not take the shorter way home.
HT: There was no shorter way home.
anne carson, men in the off hours
We can never go back. I know that now. We can go forward. We can find the love our hearts long for, but not until we let go grief about the love we lost long ago, when we were little and had no voice to speak the heart’s longing.
bell hooks, all about love
ryebreadgf, ordinary things
You listen and you know
you could live a better life than you do, be
softer, kinder.
And maybe this year you will
be able to do it.
mary oliver, north country
stendhal, the red and the black
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VICE VERSA (2022) ⪢ Underlying Themes/Experiences in Universal Travel
— Part 2 of 2: Reconstruction of Self, Homesickness, Acceptance, & Hope
tattoo plan. go to the university of texas harry ransom center's john steinbeck collection. find the original handwritten letters later published in journal of a novel. scan "although east of eden is not eden it is not insuperably far away." get it tattooed in steinbecks handwriting going around my arm. now i just have to find some reason to go to austin.
• I do feel strange -- almost unearthy. I'll never get quite used to being alive. It's a mystery. Always startled to find I have survived. —John Steinbeck
Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters
Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters (at Internet Archive)