#and i think a lot of people get their preconceived notions or headcanons of you stuck in their head to the point that it is Reality

[uncanny-tranny]

Hi! would you by any chance have tips on how to get a binder when your parents refuse to buy you one? ☹️

That's definitely a sensitive and complex answer, and while I might not know of the best option for your unique situation, there are some ways you can go about this.

If it's a foregone conclusion that you cannot convince them of this, what I used to do is DIY my binder. The ways I primarily did this were:

Option One: Wearing a camisole that was one size smaller than I actually was (so, wearing a small instead of a medium, for instance), then folding it up over my chest. As a disclaimer, this may only work well if you are smaller in the chest

Option Two: Layering two sports bras in my size over each other. Some of the DIY tips I found before I got a traditional binder advised to wear one sports bra in your size, then wear another sports bra backwards in a size smaller. I would advise against this for potential safety reasons, but also because (at least personally), it can be ineffective and a waste of resources.

Some people have also had friends or other family members order their binder for them, but this can be risky, depending on your situation. While I don't know the ins and outs of your specific circumstances, risk management is important to me, so I would recommend this if it is a risk that is acceptable to make.

I understand what it's like to not have access to this resource, so what I will do is advise you against:

Binding with ace bandages (I did this before (multiple times, in fact, because of dysphoria), and believe me, not only did it hurt like hell, but it constricted my body so heavily that I may have done long-term harm)

Wearing a DIY binder (or any kind, for that matter) for longer than your body can handle

Doing DIY in such a way that even mimics binding with ace bandages. This means that your binder shouldn't constrict your ribs, breathing, or range of movement

Here are some general good practices that you should use to guide you for any type of binding, whether traditional or DIY:

When you start binding, only do so in very short sessions to begin with. While binding shouldn't outright hurt, it can be a weird transition while your body is getting used to that new sensation

Minimize heavy lifting or exercise while binding. If it is unavoidable, drink plenty of water and take plenty of breaks

Stretch after binding

Don't bind while sick or have inflammation in your lungs or chest

If you DIY, treat your binder like it is a traditional binder. Don't make the mistake of assuming you don't need to listen to your body because you aren't using a "traditional" binding method

Ultimately, listen to your body. If it is telling you that it needs a break, honour that. Your body isn't punishing you, it is trying to keep you (and it) safe, even if it doesn't feel like it

In the end, this isn't perfect. Sometimes, parents do come around, even in their own ways, even if little by little, they come around. When I first came out officially around 2016, I was convinced that my transition would be completely forbade by my family; I concealed a lot of it in the worst instances of this. However, now, I think most of my family has come through their own journey with the understanding of the reality of what and who I am. I tell you this, anon, because I want you to know that this, too , shall pass. You can make it. I know this might be devastating to you, and believe me, I know what that's like. But it won't be forever. These bridges aren't burnt forever, and I hope you can find your happiness and contentment wherever it may be.

#ask #anon #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #long post #if anybody has other tips or ideas then feel free to speak up #this is what i did before officially binding and what i have seen other trans people do in lieu of getting a 'real' binder #it did suck when i was coming out because i don't think my family had any idea how *their* hang-ups with... me as a person... affected me #and i think a lot of people get their preconceived notions or headcanons of you stuck in their head to the point that it is Reality #i think part of why my dad started actually *trying* to accept me was him realizing that i was actively hiding things from him... #...like he loves me and our relationship is fine now but i'm not going to pretend like he didn't massively blunder after i came out #and if it turns out that your parents don't ever come around (gd forbid) then you aren't obligated to keep them #you don't choose your parents but you can choose your family i think #i always always hope that parents come around to their child/ren and the reality of who they are but i recognize how messy it all is #anon i wouldn't blame you one bit if you feel many complex or 'negative' emotions toward them #i have many complex feelings about this and that's my own baggage. i hope i haven't put words into your mouth or assumed anything too much #i am sending you best wishes and care. this too shall pass💛

[saltpepperbeard]

It's the entitlement that really frustrates me. David didn't create this show to fix all problems with representation, he didn't even know what queerbaiting was, bless his heart.

People keep saying "we were promised xyz, we were baited, he betrayed us" ( I wish I was joking about the last once.

He literally promised none of that. And he ows us nothing. Whether people want want to admit it or not, OFMD is his story. This happens a lot nowadays, someone makes something, the response is "well its not what I want ,therefore it's trash".

I dunno, I'm just angry at this point

HONESTLY. And I feel like that's becoming such a large issue that spans across numerous forms of media too. Like, from tv shows to youtube to fanfiction, the audience thinks they're "owed" something. "Owed" something simply for being there and consuming the thing. And it's like??? No??? You are just there on your own volition to consume the thing that's being provided to you???

*hands you a cupcake* "i don't like this cupcake >:(" THEN DON'T EAT IT???

And yeah, as you said, this is very much David's story. This has always been his story. He was passionate to tell it even before it got such a large following. He was surprised it got such a large following!

It seems like he's had a lot of things in mind since the very beginning, and a rather clear direction in which he's wanted to steer the story. And, based on his recent interviews and also very interesting meta pieces I've seen, the whole [redacted] was probably a long time coming too.

That's just the thing. I also feel like everyone just gets so caught up in their own interpretations and their own headcanons and their own versions of the story that it leads to almost inevitable disappointment and/or upset. Hell, even I'm a bit guilty of that; I looked too hard into that one article that described Stede's beach reunion dream, and thought we were going to get a makeout in the waves. And then when we didn't, I was like "oh lol 😀." Same with the little brief snippet of Stede pushing Ed against the wall that we got before episodes 6 and 7 dropped; I went in with preconceived notions which didn't end up getting met.

BUT LIKE, THE THING IS, THAT WAS ENTIRELY ON ME LMAO??? NOT THE FAULT OF ANYONE INVOLVED IN THE SHOW???? And it seems like people are disregarding that very fact! Like, oh I'm upset with how this went, so it's YOUR fault. I'm not responsible for how I'm reacting to this; it's YOU. YOU were supposed to bend exactly to MY wants.

And that's just,,,not! the case!

I'm over here piloting my safe spaceship, but what I've been seeing in my peripherals is making me sad too. Like, just the blatant disregard for everything else this show has given us, and the vitriol being slung towards the cast and crew, and all the negativity around what was supposed to be a hopeful sendoff...

People can be upset. People are absolutely allowed to be disappointed, or sad, or even angry. People can definitely dislike a narrative or character choice. Hell, I'd definitely feel some kind of way if Ed or Stede died, and I've gotten angry over narrative directions in other fandoms before. But just...the lines that have been crossed are just so so disheartening to see. You can be angry without being ugly about it, without pulling so many people down with you.

If people are that upset, I really encourage them to just step back, take a breath, and focus on other outlets. Because the entitlement and accusatory bits are certainly not it.

#Answered #Anons #OFMD S2 Spoilers #only tagging the necessary ones PFFFF #because yeah it's just... #whew #AND #I definitely extend open arms to you anon #Because this little circle is definitely trying to turn poison into positivity

[ruinaimagines]

what do you think it would take for Heathcliff to warm up to somebody? because right now I feel like he'd scare a lot of people off with how brash and violent he is, but it'd be interesting if someone managed to befriend him.

I love him. And yes, I am alive! I am still crawling on. somehow.

Heathcliff Warming up to Someone Headcanons:

It is true that his outwardly brash nature is what a lot of people are initially met with, especially if they happen to be of some authoritative stance, but that’s mainly because of his own preconceived judgements. He’s a rather reasonable and good man otherwise.. Just a bit quick to jump to opinions.

If he doesn’t feel as though you are demanding respect from anyone then you have quite a decent chance of getting along. Talk to him as though he’s an actual person and you’ll find he’s pretty cooperative unless what you’re telling him to do is something he deems as outrageous.

Even though I lovingly call him an idiot, he’s quite the opposite. Heathcliff is a very apt man. We’ve seen this during Canto II with how he diverts the attention of the casino guards. He’s just a bit impulsive in some cases in the same sense that Don is. If he sees something he considers to be wrong, insulting, or similar he is quick to action if no one else is. He’s very good with short-term solutions but doesn’t immediately consider the implications for the long term. That’s Faust’s job. He’s clever and witty.

His recklessness also stems from the fact that death isn’t actually a problem for him (poor Dante), so not much is stopping him from speaking his mind. Unless the situation is really dire he has no desire to shut his mouth. Will still mutter under his breath.

He would immediately get along a lot better with you if you share any kind of similar passions in disrupting the system, calling people out, and overall being very blunt on the blatant ignorance and audacity some people have. While not to say the other sinners don’t agree, they just typically don’t really comment on it either. To have someone else that he can rant with and be brutally honest with? Ohhh that is just going to fuel the flames.

Would find you funny as hell if you insult the smug, sleazy workers of the city you happen to run into. Even better if it’s directly in their faces. Will back you up even if you don’t know each other much at this point because it’s entertaining. 

I believe that you have a pretty solid chance of getting along even if you don’t immediately call out someone to their face so long as he overhears you complaining about it later. Not all people have the confidence he does, and sometimes it’s easier for you to let it be in the moment as long as it’s not too treacherous or there’s quips here and there.

The most crucial part in befriending him is first and foremost about establishing a sense of likemindedness. If he doesn’t see you as an agreeable person, then chances are he won’t think well of you either. You don’t have to be as loud about it as he is but even stating something along the lines of ‘That is wrong and it needs to be acknowledged and not smoothed over’ after the fact works for him.

I think that it would be a lot more difficult for him to see eye to eye with someone who so compliantly follows along with orders and seems indifferent to the cruelty and justice around them. There needs to be some kind- any kind of proof that you have humanity and aren’t willing to stay complicit with continuing what is seen as morally wrong by him.

He’s a very passionate guy which can be a little difficult to navigate because he can very easily get lost to more aggressive feuds or grudges, in these situations he’s a bit unreachable in that he is very unlikely to hear others out. When it calms down though his opinion may alter slightly especially the longer he knows a person. Still sticks very close to his own truth nonetheless.

With this it becomes easier to talk to him because there’s no longer that  preconceived notion he holds over you, whatever it may be. You might find him even gravitating more near you or valuing your opinions a little higher than the others. When Faust is droning on he tends to tune her out, but whatever you’re saying he’s more encouraged to listen in on. There isn’t much of a difference in the moment, but you’ll notice that he’s completely forgotten what Faust has advised whereas he brings up a note that you mentioned instead.

Don’t expect the bickering to go anywhere. Friend or not, there will still be snide remarks here and there, though if you’re on good terms with him they’re meant in a more playful snarky way as opposed to a genuine complaint. Best be quick witted yourself.

You’re one of the few who can get away with insulting him without paying the typical price of being smacked over the head unconscious with his bat! Something that has happened an unnecessary amount of times with the other sinners much to the displeasure of Dante. Don’t expect to be completely devoid of being pushed around though. I imagine him to be the type of person to slam his hands around your shoulder with such force that it will completely knock the wind out of you for a joke.

Heathcliff is sort of hard to reach emotionally, even if you two get along very well. It can be kind of difficult to delve deeper into his own problems no matter how good on terms you are with him. He’s approachable in the way that his inferiority complex makes it extremely unlikely for him to ever mention his own shortcomings or communicate his distress in a way other than anger. Heathcliff does not want to have someone pity him, and above all he doesn’t want to be seen as weak.

It’s very hard to navigate, there’s hardly a right answer of how to go about it because it’s something that’s so emotionally fuelled that your best case scenario is just trying to listen and be more casual about it if something ever did get brought up. It’s a sore spot, don’t be surprised or feel bad if he snaps at you because he feels like you’re trying to be his therapist, it’s a spur of the moment thing and he’d feel bad afterwards. He just wants to be seen as a person.

Try to pry very little, what small trace amounts you get from him of his own personal experiences is something you’ll just have to take. Heathcliff might seem to be in particularly pissy and broody moods from time to time, whether from a bad interaction or something deeper, you can ask him what happens but if he says to drop it then it's recommended you do.

I feel like he isn’t ready to unpack everything, he finds it unneeded and a hindrance to get all sappy and focus on how he feels. That said I don’t know if there ever would be a proper time… aside from his canto.

You become his complaining buddy. He will trash talk either the others or some unpleasant person you’ve met while at work. It’s honestly fascinating some of the most obscure and abhorrent insults he can construct, beat only by Ryoshu of course. Her’s is just vulgar.

He is so biased it’s not even subtle. Heathcliff might seem a bit unapproachable at first but you’ll quickly come to realize that if you offer a sort of loyalty then he will return it. Might make fun of you for getting into a tricky situation, but he will do everything he can to pull you out of it and I think that’s what makes him such a good companion.

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[yang-png]

thank you for the butch yang art 🥺 so many people hate on this hc so much and act like there is no canon basis for it even though there is, so it's nice to find people who enjoy it too

thank YOU for enjoying my art!!! i love butch yang so much... i never get the hate around it because like. its a headcanon. chill out. and i feel like a Lot of people in the fndm have this preconceived notion that yang is the definition of a blonde party girl so she has to fit that description with the way she acts and the way she dresses. even tho from day one we're told that there's so much more to her than whats on the surface. and we're told that again. and again. and again. at some point you gotta question if we're watching the same show lmao. i also think its the lesbophobia in the fandom too tbh. lesbians i will defend you with my life you dont deserve any of this

anyway im also a huge fan of transmasc yang.... maybe its me projecting but listen. i NEED to draw yang w top surgery scars one of these days. its so special to me

#this got long lmao sorry i am very passionate about yang xiao long #asks #anonymous #yang.txt

[jyndor]

My guess is that “this is a first for me” now refers to the fact that Cassian’s never been in prison while awaiting execution. He’s been sent to prison for crimes not punishable by death (not that prison wasn’t its own death sentence, at least on Narkina 5) but he’s never been locked in a cell knowing he could get a blaster bolt between the eyes within hours of being locked up. The Partisans were almost certainly planning to execute him, Chirrut and Baze; they just had to clear it with Saw first. As a secondary qualifier, it could also refer to the type of prison; it’s probably the smallest cell he’s ever been in, and it’s in a cave instead of an incarceration facility.

lol okay so i really went in on this as is my mo, not because anything you said is wrong or whatever lol it's your opinion. but it's sparked Discourse in my head rip

i feel like since the show aired i just haven't been explaining myself clearly with this but i'll try: i don't care what headcanon someone uses to handwave a thing that doesn't track 100%. i do it when something just doesn't track to ME or when i feel like telling canon to fuck off lol askdhasjdh but people will use their headcanon explanations to tell folks canon is still consistent. it's NOT lol it's a retconnnnnn

this is why i don't like retcons generally speaking. it just isn't that hard to stick to what canon already says, and while this one isn't really important at all (like it's a comment cassian makes offhandedly and can easily be handwaved like this) i think writers should try to avoid retcons (not always, sometimes things should be retconned because they're trash? but usually yeah retcons are meh). and then when you've got like a relatively small fandom like rogue one's that has been going along with what we all thought was canon until the show aired, it's extremely aggravating to be told that oh actually what we thought was true (even though until a few months ago it was) is not true anymore and aren't we crazy for not seeing that??? not that you have said any of that btw im not talking about you lol.

like i shouldn't have to qualify things to make them make sense with the main piece of media - which rogue one is. andor is a prequel to rogue one. rogue one is not a sequel to andor. andor has the responsibility to track with rogue one because it's supplementary material for rogue one. plus rogue one came out first. i shouldn't have to do mental gymnastics to make little moments in rogue one still make sense. and luckily i can divorce andor from rogue one pretty well and handwave shit and come up with my interpretations like yours and other fans' but we shouldn't HAVE to. it isn't a high bar to meet to be consistent.

when i analyze media, i always start with an out-of-universe (doylist) approach. i look for preconceived notions that might have influenced the writing, i look for motivations and at the history of the writers, etc. and then i can more easily take an in-universe (watsonian) approach. it's just hard for me to ignore inconsistencies, writer biases, real world context etc. probably because i have ocd and i am very literal. that's a personal problem lmfao.

so i can't even get there with things like this because it's obvious to me that tony gilroy, who did not write the film, wanted to tell a great story. he wanted to write what he wanted to write and wasn't super concerned with it lining up 100% with the film in a literal way. and he did. i mean all gripes aside andor is a fabulous show. easily the best thing i've seen all year. but i've still got my gripes lmfao.

in this case i think it's understandable that he'd do that because it actually doesn't make a whole lot of sense that cassian wouldn't have gotten caught by someone at some point. it is more reasonable that he would have. and for someone like the cassian in the show who is certainly anti-imperial, has politics despite what other people in the show say, but is not necessarily radicalized, yeah it makes sense that being sent to prison based on some bullshit xenophobic profiling would radicalize him. that is me doing some in-universe analysis btw.

but let's not kid ourselves. it doesn't fit with that line. before the show aired, not a single viewer thought he was lying or on some obi-wan bullshit with the "certain point of view" thing at that moment. yes, he's a liar. yes, he's a spy.

chirrut, who knows cassian is a captain not because cassian tells him he is but because of the force lol (this is why cassian gives him a weird look like 'how the fuck do you know that???'), takes him at his word and then says 'there is more than one sort of prison' meaning that just because cassian hasn't been literally locked up, it doesn't mean he doesn't have things that hold him back or imprison him metaphorically. that's the whole point of that moment - and lol it's actually kind of a more insulting retcon than I initially thought because chirrut reads cassian extremely well throughout the film with the force. but apparently he doesn't because he takes cassian at his word on jedha.

when cassian is about to go assassinate galen and he's avoiding jyn's eyes and being all shady lol, the camera keeps panning to chirrut looking away from the rest of the group but with a very disgusted expression on his face. he tells jyn that 'the force moves darkly around a creature that is about to kill' when she is like ??? the fuck do you mean by does cassian look like a killer?????

my point is that chirrut has a very good understanding of cassian's vibes in the force. chirrut takes him at his word on jedha but he is visibly disgusted by cassian on eadu. cassian actually being in prison before jedha changes chirrut's connection to the force for me. hmm now i'm mad LOL.

we were not intended to think cassian was lying on jedha. we were however intended to catch how shifty cassian was being on eadu - not making eye contact with jyn in a very overt way, not making a whole lot of sense to anyone, chirrut's callout, baze's deliberate use of "he has the face of a friend" but not that he IS a friend (although he is <333) because again. spy. mask. lying. that's what baze and chirrut call out on eadu, and what makes jyn realize that she fell for cassian's deception. it's really important that chirrut's connection to the force is credible because otherwise lol okay he's just some guy who fights well. he's not that - he's a guardian of the whills and his connection to the force is undeniable if not defined.

cassian's lying on eadu until he has his moment of truth. it's a different feel than his interactions with everyone else on jedha (although when he's talking to jyn about meeting tivik's sister he deliberately doesn't make eye contact).

cassian makes eye contact when he's being honest - the hangar scene, the eadu fight with jyn (which... lol im not even going there right now), definitely on scarif a number of times and most notably in the elevator. when he's lying, he gets avoidant.

that's a deliberate choice by the writers, director and diego ofc. in 2015/2016.

cut to 2020/2021 or whatever and tony gilroy, who did an immense amount of work on rogue one with the reshoots (allegedly mostly in the 3rd act of the film although that first scene with cassian is all him lol - also side note why couldn't he have cut the bor gullet smdh) to the point that he got a screenwriter's credit because of SWG(? the union idk) rules (totally fair of course, but i think a lot of people don't know that he didn't literally write the film or create cassian lol), is writing the best story he can and isn't really worrying about how much it tracks with minutiae from the film or like idk what pablo hidalgo wrote in guidebooks lol (pretty sure that's where the fest thing came from as well as him being 26 and jyn being 22? but also i mean im not sure if that hadn't been decided by the writers of the film).

i mean you'd have to ask him but im sure he'd say as much - that he wanted to tell a great story and as long as it was mostly consistent or could be considered consistent with who cassian will be in rogue one, it's easily handwaved or explained. and yeah that's true for most people but unfortunately for me i'm neurodivergent as hell with a hyperfixation on this dumb film and plus i have severe ocd so i notice discrepancies. and they annoy me.

i wanna be clear: i don't think this is the most egregious retcon of the show. not at all. but i'd like people to acknowledge that it is a retcon and that no, gareth edwards and chris weitz and gary whitta did not intend for cassian to be like "well actually what i meant is that technically, i have been imprisoned but i wasn't sentenced to death" or whatever reason we may now individually use to make it make sense. and i don't see a problem with doing that - i literally make headcanon all the time because canon ends in a way im sad about LOL. but this is headcanon. because canon doesn't track with itself.

also just a note: personally i think it's pretty clear cassian knows that narkina COULD be a death sentence. cassian understands narkina is dangerous as hell from the moment he steps his bare foot onto that metal floor. they fry people. he's smart, to me he knows it's a potential death sentence. but that's just my interpretation of the show.

i think the best way to handwave this retcon is to say cassian hasn't been imprisoned by rebels before or by alleged allies. or maybe in service of the rebellion.

*and cassian recognizes chirrut's force-ishness immediately, which is why he asks if he's a jedi. (it's why im like lol everyone just shut up about cassian not knowing what jedi are, i don't need an explanation for how he learns about them. i don't need them to make a big thing of whether or not cassian knows what jedi are because of course he does, jedi are in fact extremely well known in the galaxy and this is an area where im like tony gilroy stay on your lane XD)

#meta #asks #answered #jedi-valjean #star wars andor #andor critical #fandom critical

[slytherweasley]

hello, I hope you're having a good day!

I saw that your requests were open and I was wondering If you could maybe do a one shot / headcanon (whatever you prefer) of Harry falling in love with Hermione's sister who's a lot more edgier than her (maybe in slytherin?) but she's always flirting with other guys and it really bothers him so he works up the courage and confesses?

with happy ending pls?

thanks!!

Yours (Harry Potter x reader)

Warnings: none

The only thing you have in common with Hermione is your last name. You don’t look much like your older sister so when people find out you’re sisters it comes as a shock to some people. You’re in Slytherin and Hermione is in Gryffindor, you were almost glad when you were sorted into Slytherin even though Hermione told you all about how bad Slytherin is. You didn’t want to be associated with Hermione and live in her shadow.

You made lots of friends in Slytherin but also enemies, people would judge you based on their preconceived notion. People just thought you were an object of desire, boys chased you but would never fully have you.

Harry watches you from the Gryffindor table at breakfast as Draco Malfoy gets a bit too close to you. “What does Malfoy want with your sister?” Harry asks jealousy filled in his voice. “Probably doesn’t know she’s my sister yet or he doesn’t care” Hermione says staring at you and Malfoy.

After breakfast, Hermione finds you in the hallway talking to Cormac McLaggen. “A word please” Hermione says, you see Harry standing behind her and try not to blush. You’d had a crush on Harry since you met him, it’s just one of those crushes that never goes away.

You and Harry used to be best friends, Hermione first introduced you in her first year. You and Harry were not as close when you got to Hogwarts but you were still good friends, until his third year. He wouldn’t stop talking about other girls and it made you jealous, that’s when you stopped talking for a while and things between you changed.

“What do you want?” You ask your sister “To talk alone” “She’s fine” Cormac says “Let’s go” Hermione takes your hand “And she is too young for you McLaggen” Hermione says dragging you away.

“We weren’t doing anything, he’s a friend” “They always are.” “What do you want?” You question “Stay away from Malfoy, he has prejudice against muggleborns and if he finds out he isn’t going to be nice about it” “He already knows. He knows you’re my sister too and he doesn’t care.”

“We only want the best for you, It would be better if you stayed away from him, he’s not right for you” Harry speaks up “yeah he’s a git” Ron adds “He called me a mudblood” Hermione says “If it’s that much of a problem I’ll stop.”

You couldn’t stop thinking about Harry, you hoped his disapproval of Draco meant he was jealous. All these years he’d only seen you as a kid and you didn’t want to be a kid in his eyes.

Harry couldn’t stop thinking about you, he knows Hermione would be okay with it if he asked you out, she says it all the time. But the problem is, you might not want a relationship.

The next day Harry noticed you were walking down the hallway with your Slytherin friends. As you approach Harry your friends make some sly comments about him. “Hi Potter” you say with a wave “Hi y/n” he says quickly before you walk past him.

“Why do you like Potter?” Pansy asks “he is Hermione’s friend and he’s quite nice.” None of your friends would ever approve of Harry, just one of the many things keeping you from making a move on him.

Later that day you decided to be alone and go for a walk, you end up sitting outside in the sun to be alone with your thoughts. You were never really alone to think about things properly and all you could think about was Harry.

“Mind if I sit?” You turn to see Harry standing in front of you, the one person you were hoping to see “go ahead.” “What are you doing out here all alone?” He asks “I came here to think, I could ask you the same question” “I was hoping I’d bump into you.”

Somehow you couldn’t believe that “you were looking for me?” “Why do you sound so doubtful?” “Because you and I don’t talk anymore” “Hey, I tried talking to you, you decided you were too cool for me.” “That’s not true, you changed” “So did you” he says.

You stay silent “I’m sorry, I didn’t come here to argue about the past” he says “why did you come here then?” “This is so selfish but I don’t care anymore. I wanted to tell you that I don’t like the guys you are hanging around with, it makes me jealous and I hate being jealous. I know you don’t owe me anything but I still fancy you, would you mind just keeping it low key when I’m around?” It took a lot for Harry to say and you could tell how sincere he is.

You lift his chin up to face you and you press your lips to his he pulls you in closer to him and kisses you back. His arms securely wrap around your body as the kiss deepens. You slowly pull away from him “Only if you promise that I’m all yours” you mumble your faces still close together “I promise.”

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[the-real-amazing-karnak]

what do you think the choirs’ parents/families/etc reactions would be if the choir open up about what happened to them in purgatory/whatever happened to them after they die, specifically about karnak since he’s like. human now

great ask!! heres what i think, character by character

Noel: his mom, i headcanon, is really sweet and is lowkey a defacto mom for his friend group since they dont all have great parents. she would be the most understanding and would actually believe him, maybe not right away but noel isnt a liar. hes very honest, and she knows that. she sees how upset he is and does her best to reassure him when she can. shes been anxious around karnak before this but isnt one to judge ppl based on preconceived notions. when noel tells her abt what karnak used to be, shes not surprised, instead is like "that explains so much." she and karnak become good friends over time bc of their shared parental instincts regarding the choir

Ocean: her parents literally do not care when she opens up to them. they either think she had a bad trip (something theyre not mad about given their backgrounds) or made the story up to try to get their attention. they play it off like a joke which obviously greatly upsets ocean bc it makes her wonder if they'd even mourn her if she died. they know of karnak bc hes usually picking ocean up for "playdates" with savannah, but they dont really like him, and vice versa. he treats oceans parents coldly, as he should. they suck.

Mischa: he would not willingly go up to his adopted parents and tell them what happened. i could see him coming home drunk one night, them confronting him, and him going on a tangent about how they wouldnt miss him when hes dead. they tell him thats ridiculous, so he spills about the cyclone accident. like, spills everything. theyre too shocked to respond, so he just goes to bed and forgets everything by morning. they arent sure if they believe him or not, but the whole idea of it terrifies them. and the way karnak catches them side glancing him in a way they hadnt before on the rare occasion where they interact, he wonders what mischa has said to them about him

Ricky: he was probably the first to tell his parents as they are the only people who actually listens to him. they think its another one of his creative stories, but hes extra adamant about this. hes never told such a sad story before, so theyre half inclined to believe him but wonder if he had a bad nightmare or something. they feel its better not to broach the subject unless he brings it up first, and they comfort him whenever he seems extra down or anxious. and no, they dont believe karnak was a robot. they assume the man is just autistic, something they know a lot about

Constance: it takes her a long time to open up about it, but she eventually does spill everything to her parents. not just about dying but also about how crappy shes been feeling. they encourage her to seek therapy, which really helps. they become closer after. they think what she said about dying was more metaphorical, even though its oddly specific. theyre the only parents besides maybe noels mom who approaches karnak about all of this, and he admits to pieces of it. he tells them whether they accept it as real or not, constance needs them to support her in the belief of its realness, so they do.

#child neglect #shitty parents #ride the cyclone #rtc #the amazing karnak #human karnak #ocean rtc #noel rtc #constance rtc #mischa rtc #ricky potts

[veryspecialfungus]

How much of a drama queen is each Aquato?

Oh, they all have a touch of the dramas, though I think they'd deny it in inverse order of how dramatic they are.

I actually think Dion and Raz are tied for being the most dramatic, but it comes out differently. Raz is constantly trying to be dramatic in the same way an action hero is dramatic, but it comes out way less cool all the time. I'm slightly delirious right now, so the only one that's jumping out at me right now is the completely unnecessarily sad and defeated way he says "I don't have a key" when he can't open those little caches around the Motherlobe, but I'm sure you know he does it all the time.

Dion's drama comes out in blow ups and snaps. "We'll be better off when you're out!" anyone? But I also think he probably cries a lot. Like he has to go off by himself very loudly and obviously when he's about to start the waterworks because deep down, he wants someone to follow him and ask what's wrong. You know the type.

I can't tell if Queepie and Frazie is the more dramatic of the two right now, but Queepie is really aiming for a "NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME" phase when he hits puberty. He's gonna say "IT'S NOT A PHASE, IT'S WHO I AM" to his mother with no irony, I will hear nothing to the contrary. (Actually I think he's at the perfect age and time period to really dive into the grunge scene when he gets older, and I would really be down to hear people's headcanons about that. Like, really down. He's gonna take Psychonauts!Nirvana REALLY hard, and so is Morris.)

Frazie's drama is pretty...childish? I don't mean her being mad that she's been outed to her family, that's completely reasonable, but she expresses that anger by throwing things and taunting people with insults. I feel like that's something she'll grow out of fairly quickly and once she does it'll leave a lot of room for healthy productive expressions of anger. For now though? She's a total brat.

We already know that Nona has a giant chasm of drama that all came out at once, but I do wonder how much of that filtered out to young Augustus? Because he seems pretty chill, all told. I know Raz thinks he doesn't communicate super well, but um, actually he super does? He strikes me as a very well adjusted man who's been through the wringer and came out a much wiser person. Which makes me think that Raz built up a lot in his head and maybe Augustus was talking to him in a way that was exacerbating Raz's preconceived notions of his father. I'd be very interested to hear their relationship pre-Psychonauts.

That leaves Donatella, who's basically a giant hardass and like most giant hardasses, is an extremely sensitive person. A lot of that comes from the stress of parenting a large family in poverty conditions, running a business, teaching her kids how to do circus stuff, the natural difficulties of those kids growing up and finding themselves outside of the family unit...I don't blame her for her control freak tendencies. But she is a complete control freak.

#asks #psychonauts 2 #Alright I guess considering there are 90s style boy bands in the 80s in this universe it's not a 1-to-1 thing #But I need to believe there will be psychic grunge bands in the 90s #Don't take that from me

[timesoup69]

For the ask game... Give me Mack & Jack Kelly (Newsies), & then maybe miss Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg?

OKAY I'm gonna do it under the cut bc uhm. this might get long

Mack:

-first time I saw the show I didn't really get much of an impression of her bc I didn't know anything about her, so I was primarily going "omg there's girl newsies" :0

-current impression is that I love her and she's my newsies character I like to project onto bc name buddies :)

-fave moment was the 2nd time I went to see it she was the last one on stage, saluted the audience and then twirled off stage, it was a really cute ending to the show

-i would like to write a story about mack moving to New York and getting adjusted. I don't write loads so I don't think I'll ever get round to it though

-unpopular opinion ?? I don't really know what ppls opinions on her are so I have no clue. she's cool!!

-im not a big shipper so I don't have a fave relationship for her

-i headcanon that mack is obsessed with cats and always stops to play w them on the street

Jack:

-first first impression was "wow this song is boring" SORRY I'll get into that later. after that though I thought he was very cool

-impression now is that he holds up very well as a main character!! I like him a lot. I can't think of anything else to say there LOL

-fave moment was this one line, I don't remember what it was, where jack is flirting with Katherine and he says it in a really weird voice where he is obvs trying to sound cool, and then instantly regrets it and pulls a face of disgust at himself

-story wise I don't know!! I haven't thought much about stories surrounding jack but I really liked your genderswap jack, so maybe something down those lines

-unpopular opinion I don't like Santa Fe. sorry. I'm gonna get attacked for this aren't I?

-fave relationship is w Katherine, love their relationship so much

-headcanon? idk

Ocean:

-first impression? oh no they've turned me into a musical character

current impression? oh no they've turned me into a musical character

-fave moment is "you challenged my preconceived notion that gay people are fun to be around"

- I would love to write a story surrounding ocean's religions. primary reason I think she's so similar to me is because I have lived a fairly similar life and have had the same kind of religious situation as her? so getting into that a bit could be cool I think

-unpopular opinion: again I don't know what the popular opinions on her are but I do think in general she is quite misunderstood. to me wtwn is clearly not what she actually thinks and is just an exaggeration, but I know some people do interpret that differently

-i don't really ship ocean with anyone

-fave headcannon is that ummmmm she's a lesbian. totally not for projection reasons

thank you for the ask!!

#ask game #izrambles

[duskcowboy]

My issue with fanon Gwyn and the “Quirky Girl” archetype:

[This is a label I am not applying to her myself; it is what I believe the Gw*riel fandom has dreamed up Gwyn to be themselves. Buckle in for a long post and let me know if you agree!]

I came to this realization after coming across a few “false acotar quotes” and headcanon-type scenarios on here, and I couldn’t put a finger on why they bothered me so much until I realized that it was because the posts were projecting Gwyn as the “Quirky Girl” archetype who’s “adorably awkward,” “eccentric,” and “imperfectly refreshing”.

This article by The Afictionado, called Perils of the “Quirky Girl”, thoroughly explains this issue.

Here are a few highlights from the article:

“A problem with the Quirky Girl archetype is that she is often written as a way of making a character approachable and likeable to the female audience, reassuring them that it’s okay to like non-mainstream things and be a bit eccentric and dress the way you want, and to ~be yourself~. In fact, doing all the things that would usually make you deemed weird will make you seem cute, and some boy out there is just dying for you to come along and liven up his life with your adorable weirdness!”

(Can we just take a minute and see how on-spot that last point is? How it sounds familiar?)

“Not only does the creation of these Quirky Girls create a new stereotype that is irritating and a bit offensive in its own right, but it somewhat spoils the “be weird, be yourself” message by only showing a certain set of standards as being acceptable and labelling them as “quirky” to get away with it. Plus, it creates problems for people at the other end of the scale by pushing the notion that people who do fit society’s ideal are all evil monstrous monstrosities.”

(Is the author of this article an Elriel stan? Because they’re literally pointing out exactly why fanon Gwyn rubs me the wrong way. That last line literally encompasses the misogynistic hate towards Elain for being a societal standard “feminine,” “soft” girl.)

Of the three types of “Quirky Girl” types the author lists, I believe fanon Gwyn falls under “Hollywood Standard Flawed”:

“So they make her socially awkward, a bookish loner, a klutz, bubble-brained and/or fond of spouting ridiculous things that make no sense. This makes her awkward and thus relatable to awkward girls… but only in ways that will call on the laugh track.”

(Cue the #false acotar quotes that have Gwyn asking if people “eat the shell of the banana” or if they think she’ll “fit inside a washing machine”)

To conclude:

“The trouble with going out of your way to create a character that is “quirky” is that in the effort to make the character bizarre they create a whole new stereotype that has enormous negative connotations of its own.”

(The article focuses more on Hollywood movies and television who utilize this archetype, but the same notion can be applied here)

Don’t get me wrong, like any other entertainment stereotype, archetype, or trope— there are fans of them, and there are those who cannot stand them. When it comes to the “Quirky Girl”, I definitely fall amongst the latter. That is why I have grown to dislike a lot of the online content pertaining to Gwyn.

Canon Gwen is intelligent, resilient, strong; she’s a trustworthy and dependable, loyal friend. She’s not someone who would call Az “her little meow meow” (I honestly don’t understand how others don’t find this cringe-y)

This fandom is truly doing her a disservice when they project this disingenuous character trait on her. I think she’d actually be offended if she were real. Not only is the “Quirky Girl” trope unenjoyable to me, it is also extremely reductive.

“When someone is painted with the quirky brush, it imbues their work with a set of preconceived notions — it is odd, zany, cutesy, weird, personal and light. It is not intellectual, meaningful or serious.” - The Problem With Quirky by Madelin Newman

It reminds me a lot of the “I’m not like other girls” phenomenon—

“The ‘I’m not like other girls’ cultural phenomenon is a reaction against typically feminine stereotypes — that is, makeup, fashion, fitness, and the like. Some girls who don’t fit said archetype attempt to separate themselves from the female population, hence the phrase ‘I’m not like other girls.’” - I’m not like other girls by Lauren Luna

“Modern feminism acknowledges that the ‘I’m not like other girls’ movement carries hints of internalized misogyny, when girls proudly claim that they ‘are not like other girls’, it suggests that this ‘other’ breed of girls is generally shallow and vapid with no other interests besides fashion, fitness, or beauty. - I’m not like other girls by Lauren Luna (link above)

In this case, it feels like Gw*nriel stans make an effort to distance Gwyn’s personality from Elain’s soft-spoken, reserved personality. Instead of it being mainstream interests like fashion & makeup, it’s Elain’s classic femininity—her hobbies like gardening and baking. They label Elain as “shallow”, “useless”, and “boring” for these traits. The sad thing is that I think Gwyn and Elain would really like each other. These misogynistic viewpoints to pit these two women apart or label one “better” or “more deserving” than the other really disgusts me. I hope when the next book is out, we can finally do away with this conversation.

Thank you so much for reading this far! I felt like I was writing a thesis by how passionate I am about this issue. We don’t need to pit women against each other based on personalities and interests. Women are valid no matter their hobbies, interests, or personality.

#quirky girl archetype #gwyn berdara #i’m not like other girls #please stop #pro canon gwyn but anti fanon gwyn #pro elain #elain archeron #anti gw*nriel #pro elriel

[thiswaycomessomethingwicked]

character ask game, if he was not yet asked: Boromir! :D if he was, Eowyn? Or a character you really, really wanna talk about 😀

No one has asked me Boromir yet! So I shall do him :D

one aspect about them i love: god what don't I love about Boromir? I love everything about him. But I think it's his lack of perfection - a prevailing theme in the characters I'm drawn to. He is proud, perhaps a little vainglorious, a bit arrogant, certain of his place in the world, strong minded and stiff necked, has his prejudices, has preconceived notions about people that aren't great, wants attention and praise - perhaps to a fault (this we're told, we never really see it. One of Tolkien's faults as a writer is doing a lot of telling but like...not really showing or what is shown is out of sync with what was told and I don't think it's on purpose).

But for all of that he is honourable (to a fault), grounded, sensible, a good leader who knows when to step aside and let others lead, loves his people and would do anything for them, truly just wants to do good, is afraid of the end of the world that he can't see a way out of but by the gods he is going to keep fighting because someone has to, takes people as he finds them and is able to change those prejudices he has (see: Lothlorien - in the books).

He's so utterly, perfectly human in a way that I really like and do find, on a personal level, relatable. Especially the complicated family stuff - being the sibling who doesn't receive the shit shoveling the other one does. Who hates that it's happening but who still loves their parent. That's a bag of worms that has my name all over it.

one aspect i wish more people understood about them: I think most people understand the multi-faceted nature of Boromir. That's pretty well discussed and explored, from what I've seen. I think most get that he's not evil, he's not a bad person, he's just someone who is trying their best in phenomenally difficult times. I think that's something we can all relate to - especially in the last two years. I suppose, it's more about family dynamics, but I do wish people would complicate his relationship with Faramir more. Like, I think Boromir is more the one who is like "this is my brother, he can do no wrong" and Faramir has the tempered, more brittle/complicated view of Boromir (see the entire conversation with Frodo in TTT's book). And that nuance doesn't detract from either of them, as characters, in fact it makes them far more human and relatable than a perfect relationship. Like I don't doubt Faramir loves his brother, I just don't think it's straight forward and easy how fandom often portrays it.

(ditto, actually, for Eowyn and Eomer. I don't think they're super close. Nothing in the books indicates that they actually talk to each other in a meaningful capacity/know each other well. In fact, what is shown is the opposite. So yeah, I see no reason to assume that they're each other's best friend, and would argue that that read on them is purely fandom made-up with no basis in books [or the films, for that matter].)

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have about this character: Boromir loves stupid, dirty soldier songs. He collects them how Aragorn collects overwrought elvish lays. The more the song is about how fucking annoying the general is, and how much the soldier just wants to go home and screw the pretty lass down the lane who has big tits, the more Boromir finds it utterly delightful.

I also headcanon that Boromir doesn't really laugh (I know I have him laughing in my fic, but I've changed my view on it the longer I spend with him). He smiles, he finds things funny, has a sense of humour - it's all very tapped down as he's a Grim Man From Gondor(tm) - but it's still there. Yet for all that, he doesn't laugh. Not even Merry and Pippin have gotten him to laugh. They've gotten him as close to it as anyone has ever managed, but still not cracked him yet. (They're determined to. It's their Mission Impossible and they've accepted it.)

as well as

one character i love seeing them interact with: Merry and Pippin! They bring out the boy-ishness in Boromir that's been shoved down into a pit because of Duty and Honour and It's End Times etc. but it's still there and they've a skill at bringing it out. Also, Boromir clearly adopts everyone and their grandmother as younger siblings, and Merry and Pippin fall into that and I think it's charming.

one character i wish they would interact with/interact with more: Aragorn! We get bits and pieces in the book (and film) but I wish we had more. And I wish we had more light hearted scenes with them. Anytime they talk it's like Grave Serious The World is Ending shit. And sure, they'd absolutely talk about that, but also I'm sure they'd shoot the shit about things. Aragorn's been to Gondor, he knows the dive bars. Boromir also knows the dive bars. And the floors and loos of the dive bars. (His late teens and first year or two of his 20s were an Adventure filled with Decisions He Made Oh Boy.)

I also wish we saw Boromir and Frodo interact more. If only to really build up the emotional impact of the Amon Hen scene. It's an emotional scene as it is, to be sure, but the pay off would have been that much higher if Boromir had been a sort of second-Aragorn to Frodo. Like OOOF. And for Boromir, who honours and values friendship, it would have been horrific to be in his head. And, it would have made Frodo’s line later of “I was his friend, for my part” that much more heart breaking. In the books, too, where Frodo is going into all the good Boromir did for the Fellowship, and the strengths he brought etc. like, if Boromir had been a sort of second-Aragorn-mentor/friend figure that would have been even more PAINFUL.

In addition, Frodo and Boromir being closer would have made Frodo’s desire to save Gollum from himself/the ring more layered beyond just goodness of Frodo’s heart and the pity he felt for poor Gollum. Because Frodo would be like “I’ve already lost one person, who I esteemed and loved as a friend, to the ring. I’m not losing another person - even if it’s Gollum - to this damn thing.”  

one (or more) headcanon(s) i have that involve them and one other character: I've already gone on about my views on his relationship with Faramir. I HEADCANON THAT HE LIVES. DON'T KNOW WHAT MOVIE OR BOOK YOU'RE ENGAGING WITH, BUT THE ONES I AM HAVE HIM LIVING. THANK YOU.

Fucking Ian Malcolm style rolls into Rohan "reports of my death were vastly exaggerated." Aragorn is like "I HELD YOU WHILE YOU DIED" and Boromir is like "I know and I have feelings about that too." Gimli's like "I am SO GLAD you're back but also you and Aragorn NEED to get a room."

Actually though, my main headcanon - that the movie supports - is that Boromir and Gimli are bros. I rewatched it recently and paid special attention to Boromir and Gimli and it's never spoken, but there are a lot of interactions between them in the background that indicate them being close. So yeah, I headcanon that Gimli is like "this is my human brother, Boromir. We can give him a Khuzdul name." and Legolas is all "I am YOUR BOYFRIEND and I don't have one yet!!" Boromir is supremely chuffed about this.

I am very sorry for the very long lecture you got. I just have a lot of Boromir feelings and haven't talked about them nearly as much as I have talked about my Grima feelings. SO there's a lot there. More could have been added but I decided to restrain myself.

<3 <3 thank you!! <3 <3

#Boromir #lotr #lord of the rings #aragorn #ask #reply #anon #ask meme #boromir defense squad #gimli

[arvandus]

So hopefully I got in on time! Btw, I’ve been absolutely loving your HC’s, the stutter one was friggin adorable! I love soft Dabi, there’s not much of him out there in stories 😢

Anyway! I was wondering if you could do HC’s with Dabi for someone who may be deaf or just hard of hearing? Ifff your comfortable, I would love to see what he would do for a male s/o (or platonic friend/league member, etc, whichever you choose!) If you don’t want to do this it’s completely fine and you can switch it to ambiguous/female (I don’t know if you have ever done men before haha!)

Hello! I’m so flattered for this ask because you’re trusting me to portray something that’s personal to you and outside of my own experience. I can absolutely do this with a Male Reader (my first one!).

I’m not sure what type or level of hearing loss you had in mind, so I did my best with this and went with an acquired hearing loss that’s moderate-to-severe. Also, I wrote Reader as someone who wears hearing aids. I hope that’s all right, since that’s typically the case for those with more severe hearing loss (otherwise communication is really difficult to do, since I don’t suspect Dabi would know sign language). Also, I got a couple of cute ideas that I really wanted to fit into this that follow more of a friends-to-lovers sort of vibe rather than established relationship. Anyway, I hope you enjoy!


Headcanons for Dabi x M!Reader who’s Deaf/Hard of Hearing (HOH)

Warnings: None.

Word Count: 1240

💙 When you first join the LOV, Dabi will be skeptical at first, as he is with all things. How could someone with a hearing loss really be of any value to the league? He can’t help but wonder what skills you’re bringing to the table to that convinced Shigaraki to allow you to join.

💙 Dabi doesn’t interact with you right away... he prefers to observe. Part of it is that he doesn’t care for attachments, even amongst his comrades. Another is that he doesn’t expect you to last very long in the League. If he does interact, it’ll be through snarky quips and insults. After all, he loves getting under other people’s skin... it makes him feel like has an advantage.

💙 So, it goes without saying that Dabi will be a hard nut to crack at first. He’ll definitely have some crappy preconceived notions about people with hearing loss that he’ll get to face as he’s forced to get to know you.

💙 For example, he learns super fast that your hearing has little to do with your intelligence. You’re fucking smart and more than capable of handling yourself, much to his surprise. You quickly become an important member of the team, and even Dabi can’t really argue your value. It only makes his interest in you grow, his skepticism giving way to curiosity.

💙 Another thing he learns about you... you value your independence and hate when others coddle or dote on you due to your hearing loss. The first time Toga had tried to treat you as something fragile (granted she was trying to be nice), you’d quickly put her in her place. Dabi couldn’t help but grin at that exchange...

💙 The great thing about Dabi sitting back and observing everyone else most of the time is that he gets to learn by proxy how to interact with you.

💙 Don’t mumble or talk too fast. Don’t look away when talking to you. Talk more clearly, and slower, but for God’s sake, don’t treat you like you’re dumb. You’re hard of hearing, not stupid.

💙 Even with all of that taken into consideration though, he’ll notice that while you seem to do fine in one-on-one exchanges in quiet environment, you’ll withdraw more in group gatherings. Is the chattering of multiple voices too much? Is the noise overwhelming? Even he can’t always tolerate the prattling of the social butterflies of the group, so he wouldn’t blame you if it got under your skin too.

💙 His interest will finally be piqued when he watches you retreat during a rather boisterously loud game night amongst the League. He’ll follow quietly behind you, watching as you pass your own room in favor of the stairwell leading up to the rooftop.

💙 You don’t notice he’s followed you until he sits next to you. Your eyes betray your surprised at his presence.

💙 “What are you doing here?” you demand.

💙 He’ll give you a grin and a cock of his head. “You didn’t seem like you were havin’ much fun back there. Got anything to do with these?” he’ll tap your hearing aid playfully.

💙 You huff at him. “If you want me to hear you better, you’ll need to sit on my other side. My hearing aid battery died.”

💙 “You don’t have a backup?” he asks as he adjusts his position.

💙 You shake your head.

💙 “Doesn’t sound too bad.” He’ll tease. “I wish I could turn off my ears, especially when Toga laughs.”

💙 You give him a glare at his insensitive comment. “You don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.”

💙 He raises an eyebrow at you and think for a moment, before looking back out over the cityscape. “Why don’tcha tell me about it then.”

💙 You give him a skeptical look but he waits silently for you to continue. His smirk is gone as his sharp eyes glance back at you. He's serious.

💙 You’ll finally open up to him, explaining how hard it can be sometimes. How noisy environments can make your hearing aids nearly useless when the noise is too much, when everyone is talking at once. How frustrating it is to not be able to follow a conversation let alone participate, and how it can sometimes make people assume things about you. At best, they’ll assume you can hear fine with your hearing aids and therefore assume you’re being aloof or don’t want to interact. At worst, they’ll think your slow or stupid, and look at you with pity.

💙 Dabi will listen, but he won’t offer much up except sarcastic remarks about the others in an attempt to make you feel better. After all, sympathy isn’t his strong suit. But you’ll find yourself feeling better by the end, just grateful to be able to vent to someone.

💙 When you smile at him and tell him thanks for listening, it’ll take him by surprise. Not because of your reaction – he expected that, at least. What’ll surprise him is his reaction to it – a strange sense of satisfaction will wash over him, filling him with an unfamiliar warmth. He realizes - a moment too late, before he can bring down his barriers - that he likes seeing you smile, especially when it’s at him.

💙 You’ll feel slightly closer after that, finding more opportunities to hang out on the quiet rooftop and chat.

💙 He’ll surprise you on your next visit with a brand-new pack of hearing aid batteries. You’ll give him a suspicious look, asking where he got them and how he knew what kind to get you, but he’ll give you a wicked grin and brush off your question with an evasive comment.

💙 It won’t take long for you to start developing a crush on him, and against your better judgment, you find yourself staring at him a lot more and finding ways to be around him more. Hanging out at the bar, going on missions together, sitting next to him during the LOV discussions… you try to brush it off as ‘becoming friends,’ but deep down you know better.

💙 It doesn’t take long for Dabi to take notice and begin to suspect that maybe… just maybe… all of your secret glances and increased attention aren’t strictly platonic.

💙 What a wonderful turn of events. He wasn’t sure if you were interested in men, but now he’s 99% sure you are... or at the very least, interested in him.

💙 It leaves his skin feeling hotter than usual, his heart pounding in his chest with excitement. He wonders if you know... or even suspect... that he watches you too in mutual attraction.

💙 He’ll start testing the waters, just to make sure, of course. Hit you with a few flirty nicknames to see how you react. As soon as he sees you fluster and flounder in obvious embarrassment, he’ll know he’s got you, and it makes your exchanges only that much more entertaining.

💙 The more he learns about you, the more interested he becomes. He’ll start to do research on ways to support you with your hearing loss. It’ll be purely out of curiosity, of course... it’s not like he’s gonna go out of his way or anything. But he ends up finding himself down the rabbit hole of hearing aid supports, and learns about Bluetooth capabilities, FM systems, infrared systems... ways to send targeted noise – like speech for instance – straight to your hearing aids, bypassing any pesky background noise.

💙 It won’t take long for him to get an idea – two birds with one stone, so to speak...

💙 You’ll be on the rooftop together, when he says, “I gotta surprise for ya.”

💙 He pulls out a box that’s labelled ‘Dynamic FM System.’

💙 If you try to reach for it though, he’ll hold it out of your reach. “ah ah ah... we gotta find the right place to try it out.”

💙 He’ll lead you downstairs and you’ll think he’s heading to the common space where the others are, but instead he takes you outside of the hideout, leading you down the street.

💙 “Where are we going?”

💙 “You’ll see.”

💙 The two of you will end up outside of a bar. Not just any bar, though… the line of patrons is already a huge hint of what you’ll find inside.

💙 “Wait isn’t this….?” You’ll start.

💙 Dabi will only smirk at you though, before he grabs your hand and leads you in.

💙 Inside will be loud. So loud you have to turn down the volume on your hearing aids, and too loud for you to hear anything of value. But as you look around, your suspicions are confirmed - instead of the usual opposite sexes pairing up like you find at most bars, this one is different. Men are pairing up with men, women are pairing up with women. Your heart is beating like a drum in your chest, your pulse racing with excitement. Of all the places for Dabi to bring you…

💙 You keep close to Dabi, holding onto his arm. He loves that, loves that you’re looking to him for protection. And protect you he does, his eyes threatening violence to anyone who stares too long at you.

💙 He’ll sit you down at the bar with him in the center of the noise while drunken gay couples flirt over their drinks and a group of girls laugh in the corner. He’ll say something to the bartender, and a minute later, two fresh drinks are place before the two of you.

💙 He won’t try to talk to you yet as he opens the box and begins taking out all of the pieces. He’ll plug in the small, cylinder-like component into your hearing aid - the receiver. He’ll be completely up in your space when he does it too, grinning at you with his ocean blue eyes. In his hand he holds the transmitter that contains a button with a microphone on it.

💙 Once everything is hooked up properly, he’ll speak into the mic, his finger on the button.

💙 “Hey there.” He says. His voice comes through crystal clear.

💙 “Hey.” You smile.

💙 Once Dabi knows you can hear him, his devilish grin will widen and he’ll lean casually against the bar counter as he stares at you, his eyes drinking you in. “Have I ever told you how hot you are?”

💙 That’s when it finally clicks… Dabi is actually interested in you. And he’s taken you out on a date.

💙 BONUS: If the bar scene ends up being too much for you, he’ll be more than happy to spend the rest of your date on your favorite rooftop spot with some take-out. 10/10 will kiss you by the end of the date.

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[followtheowls]

Lothal culture & Ezra headcanons!

These are just things my imagination has come up with when considering Lothal and Ezra, some of these (probably a lot) have been done before, some of these are kind of sad because I'm looking at it through the lens of Imperial oppression, just to be warned, so they do involve elements of racism/discrimination

Much about Lothal’s native culture is not common knowledge to foreigners and even to tourists

Lothal was settled/colonized during the age of the Republic, that's why there is a lot of off-world influence, and Basic is more commonly spoken than most native languages

This was exacerbated by the Empire’s presence, and Mira and Ephraim made sure that their son’s first language would be a Lothalian one, not Basic, and made sure he was in local daycares/preschools that were conducted in Lothali 

After the Empire occupied Lothal, and many core world foreigners looking to do some of the Empire’s bidding began to settle on Lothal, there began a wave of discrimination toward native Lothal culture

By the time his parents were arrested, Ezra was still very well versed in Basic, but had a Lothali accent, which he ended up working diligently to get rid of while on the streets because some smugglers/people he worked with in the black market would have preconceived notions/prejudices against someone (especially a kid) with an accent

His accent rarely surfaces, but when it does, it’s usually when he’s really angry, out of it (like sick or under the influence), or around a lot of other Lothali speakers

The first time his accent surfaces while on the Ghost they think he’s faking it, and when they realize he’s not they’re profusely apologetic

Lothal has a really old religion that is commonly practiced by residents who usually have an extended heritage on Lothal for generations, AKA usually not practiced by descendants of colonizers

It has strong links to the ancestors of Lothal from centuries before, and the paintings seen some of the caves are reminiscent of the sacred religious paintings that are intimately linked to the religion

Part of practicing the religion involves small totems/sculptures that practicants hold to pray and connect to their religion

These are one of the only things Ezra was able to take with him after his parents were arrested

Mira and Ephraim Bridger were both practicants of this religion, and raised Ezra to practice to have the same faith

While struggling to survive on the streets, Ezra found himself losing faith in his religion, it wasn’t until long after joining the Ghost and meeting a Lothalian refugee on a rescue who was also a practicant, he began to reconnect with his religion

Kanan was super supportive and spent a lot of time listening to Ezra teach him about the culture

Traditional Lothalian cuisine is super spicy, but most Lothalians are used to a high level of spice they enjoy it, but they know foreigners usually can’t handle it. Even toned down, less authentic Lothalian cuisine that’s geared towards foreigners has a pretty big kick to it

Ezra is a spice fanatic, and usually thinks that things are under seasoned (though he never voices these opinions on the Ghost, because bland food, or any food at all, is better than no food at all, something he learned from his time on the streets)

Flash forward to one day the crew of the Ghost is eating at this small, hole-in-the-wall, really authentic Lothalian restaurant, owned by this really kind Lothalian woman who knows Ezra from around the city. 

She gives Ezra a different version of the same dish served to the rest of the crew, and of course Zeb’s like ???

Ezra’s like this Lothalian Lothalian food, foreigners usually can’t take it, so of course both Sabine and Zeb, who come from cultures that have their fair share of spicy food, are like “ha! try me”

Zeb ends up guzzling water, and the owner already has a glass of blue milk ready, and Sabine suffers in silence except for a few coughs initially, but puts her helmet on so they can’t see how red her face was and how much she was sweating

Ezra just giggles into his very spicy noodles and is like I told you!!

 Feel free to reblog and add your own headcanons! Honestly I love some of these headcanons so much I’m probably gonna turn some of them into stories in the near future!!

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[getofy]

as you are loved by another

genre: angst; tsukishima x gn!reader | wc: 1.2k

—a/n: hello! this is long overdue but tysm for 100 followers aaa. it means a lot that people enjoy my stupid headcanons/word-vomits. as a gift i offer you: this angsty kei fic that i wrote in the wee hours of the morning. is it good? questionable. am i happy with it? not necessarily. however, posting this seemed better than scrapping so here we are </3. enjoy!

cw: brief mentions of death/funerals; self pity/deprecation; no spoilers; one-sided pining; hurt/no comfort

—synopsis: in which tsukishima’s not sure who he hates more: your new boyfriend or himself.

edit: i made it so when tsukki refers to ur boyfriend, it’s in italics. im so sorry i forgot to do that before.

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—Tsukishima had never considered himself to be a hateful person, and yet, here he was: laying in bed on a Friday night, thinking about you with him, and allowing levels of unprecedented envy to bubble up in his chest.

This was not how he had expected his night to turn out.

One moment, he had been doing homework at his desk, and the next, his mind was wandering to today at lunch when you giggled after receiving a text message from your insufferable boyfriend. The memory lasted for only a short moment, but it was all it took to make his head spiral. He had tried to control it, but once his brain got going, it was hard to get it to stop; eventually, he had to retire from being productive to rotting on his mattress.

Generally, Tsukishima was good at keeping sentiments such as these at bay. But it’s been getting harder to do that now, especially since you and him have been so affectionate together recently.

The cruelty of it all leaves him feeling burned by the fire of his jealousy, and a natural disaster of his own making plays out in the depths of his heart as he studies the intricacies of his bare, white ceiling. A song by some band he couldn’t bother to remember the name of emits itself loudly from his phone speakers while the middle blocker desperately tries to stop his train of toxic thinking. He rolls from his back to his side and lowers the annoying music’s volume; not even the most incredible lyrical masterpiece could pull him from the devastation the conflagration of his emotions had been causing him as of late.

And, besides, the sound was giving him a headache. He preferred to brood in silence.

The intensity of his feelings irritates him. Despite his outwardly antagonistic exterior, Tsukishima had always believed his tendency for total apathy would take precedent over any other negative emotion—including jealously.

Tonight, however, was proving this preconceived notion of his character completely wrong.

This wasn’t the first time he’d wasted his night thinking about you and him. Ever since the day you had giddily announced your new relationship, Tsukishima had been allowing himself to become more acquainted with the green-eyed monster, and this evening, he relishes in its company more than usual.

Pity parties like this—which was shaping up to be the worst one to date—had been happening to him more frequently. Feelings of contempt had become his newfound obsession in the sense that they consumed his very being. Hating him was easier than hating himself, and he enjoyed it. The only downside towards living so sullenly was that it made him realize that, more often than not, guilt was a close companion of unwarranted negativity.

Tsukishima knew better than anyone else how outrageous his feelings were. And feeling this way did trouble him, but then again, how could he not be envious?

Seeing the way his hand wrapped around your waist. Recalling the way his fingers traced little shapes into your hands. Remembering the way his eyes followed you as you walked out of the room—as if Kei’s hadn’t been the ones that did that first. It was all just too much for him to bear. Knowing that he made you happy in a way that he could not.

The overwhelming knowledge of his inadequacy makes the middle blocker want to double over in anguish, but he won’t, not yet. He is much too proud to allow himself to display such sorrow, so he’ll settle for feeling hatred tonight instead.

Of course, he knows that he’s in no position to be feeling this way. You were never his, and he had never shown interest in changing that. It was only a matter of time before someone swept you off your feet and gave you the affection he had neglected to provide you with. This whole situation was very obviously his fault. If he had been brave enough to confess before he had, maybe he’d be the one you loved instead. Or maybe not. Your new boyfriend was absolutely perfect for you, and Kei was anything but.

This was so tirelessly aggravating. Why did you have to be stupid and date somebody he could never compete with?

White-hot resentment flows through his veins, and he’s not sure if it’s directed at you, himself, or the man you love. Regardless, one more second of this suffocation, and he thinks it’s likely he’ll die by the morning time. The thought of it makes him laugh, and it temporarily lifts the burden on his heart.

Maybe his funeral would be green-themed. That wouldn’t be so bad—he quite likes the color. Or maybe his tombstone would say something like: ‘Tsukishima Kei: A son, a friend, and someone left gasping for air after being smothered to death by the tight grip of unjustifiable envy.’

Wouldn’t that be something?

Tsukishimas mind betrays the light-heartedness of the moment ruined when, bitterly, it wonders how much you’d care if his death—albeit a metaphorical one—actually did happen.

You probably wouldn’t be too concerned, especially now that you’ve got...someone who isn’t himself who would happily help to console you as you grieve. You were always gushing about how your new boyfriend was such a good listener. One kiss from that guy would probably make any pain you felt about his own fictional death go away in an instant.

Not that he would blame you. Tsukishima thought himself to be pretty forgettable. And he was anything but.

Why reminisce on the underwhelming memory of his own life when you had someone who shone so much brighter than he ever could to focus on instead?

He hates this—the way he let it get this bad. What was wrong with him? He was acting like an entitled child watching other kids play with a toy he wanted to play with. And he hated himself for it. You were a person, not a possession. And even if you were, you were still not his to have.

No, you belonged to someone infinitely better.

Someone who made you smile bigger than he ever could. Someone who made you laugh harder than he ever would. Someone who he despised—second only to himself—more than anyone else in the world.

As he rests in the still of his room, evaluating how intelligent he could possibly be after doing something as stupid as falling for one of his best friends, Tsukishima Kei decides that while he may hate your lover, he hates himself more.

A strange melancholy replaces his previous feelings of jealousy, and his typical level of self-loathing cranks it’s way up to 100. There’s a growing ache in place of where his heart should be, and Kei shakily brings his hand to clench at it. When the pain does not subside, he deduces that his current level of grief was inconsolable. Wearily, the middle blocker shuts his eyes close and allows himself to escape to the bliss of sleep.

Maybe, he’d be able to outrun the misery of loving you as you are loved by someone else in the world of dreams.

He hopes he can.

*do not repost my work without proper credit and my explicit permission.

a/n: again, i apologize for not being super active (mental illness goes hard), but i’ve been feeling better so hopefully that changes! likes + reblogs are always appreciated and feel free to give me constructive criticism (i know i need it lol). i hope you enjoyed.

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[arthur-j-raffles]

Hey, why do you think people get upset (especially purists) with the concept of Johnlock when it's been here for ages? I love the thrilling impulsive disordered way Sherlock thinks and acts (like my ADHD, OCD, and other mental disorders which I headcanon Sherlock to have.) alongside his nurturing and supportive Boswell (like my fiancé). They're flirty, fun, and affectionate with their jokes and laughs with each other throughout their mysteries, and that comforts me. Canon is damned and I don't care what Conan's opinions are if it makes me happy. Why are people so sour, salty, and act like the idea of me writing fanfiction and buying fanart of my first ship at 12 (when I first read Sherlock from the public library with my nana a decade ago) is the worst thing in all of existence and ruins Sherlock Holmes? Am I the crazy one or is everyone else who's crazy? (Btw it's nice to see someone on Tumblr who loves the OG turn of the last century version Sherlock than the terrible show alongside Lupin and Raffles.)

Hi anon! I know you probably just asked this question to get me to respond about how it’s ridiculous that anyone would get that upset about a fictional ship, but this question got me thinking for a bit. I’m one of the most biased sources here (i’ve made posts about how i don’t tag John/Sherlock because it should be a given, etc.), but I’ll try to respond to this question with an honest and fair answer because there are a lot of factors as to why people get upset at John/Sherlock.

Below the cut I’ll talk about:

1. Cultural Osmosis

2. 19th Century Friendship

3. Distaste for Shipping

4. Homophobia

1. Cultural Osmosis

One of the reasons I think is most prevalent is that people who have never read or watched any Sherlock Holmes content assume because it’s so old and so popular that they’ve somehow absorbed enough of it through pop culture and references that they know what Sherlock is like via cultural osmosis. They know he’s deductive and doesn’t like people, so they assume he’s cold, always calculated, and the pinnacle of detective perfection. They know John is the narrator and Sherlock’s friend, so they just assume John is basic, boring, and so uninteresting that he’s barely in Sherlock’s social circle, but merely tags along with him. This vision of both of the characters is skewed so far from the canon that people either can’t fathom how you ship these two characters who in their minds are very incompatible, or the more common thing, people have a preconceived notion that you’re looking too much into it because nothing old and published can be gay.

(This kind of thing isn’t just exclusive to Sherlock, either. People will also gawk at the idea of Spock/Kirk from Star Trek TOS because they assume they know what TOS is without even watching it because they’ve seen the cultural impact of “beam me up, Scotty” and “live long and prosper.” They create a mental image of TOS that’s mostly full of their own assumptions, and gay subtext isn’t one of their expectations.)

2. 19th Century Friendship

Another reason is that historical male friendships are different than what the typical male friendship is now. In the 19th century, men were more open to showing affection for each other in strong ways. Photos from the century show male friend groups openly holding hands, arm in arm, and helping light each other’s cigarettes. Obviously a lot of men are shaking off ideas of “manliness” that limit the way they can express their platonic love to their friends, but there’s still a lot of men that won’t hold their best friend’s hands because “that’s just weird/that’s gay.” This is all a long-winded way of saying that, to some people, Sherlock and John are the pinnacle of close male friendship in the 19th century. They are the perfect show of platonic affection between men, something that some people look up to and aspire towards. To people who think of Sherlock and John as exclusively best friends, they may feel offended or baffled that anyone would try to “ruin” that friendship by making the two lovers. That’s why some people who are legitimate fans of Sherlock Holmes may take offense to the ship: they think it ruins the friendship between the characters.

3. Distaste for Shipping

It isn’t uncommon for fans of a series to have a distaste for shipping elements, especially for a series whose sole focus isn’t romance. Sherlock Holmes is in no way a romance, and some people feel that shipping shouldn’t be the focus of fandom content because the source material isn’t romantic. People who want to focus on mystery and suspense elements may believe that shipping ruins what fans should be focusing on and appreciating in the franchise. And they have some merit in thinking that shipping can ruin the focus of a franchise, because there are definitely some fandom subcultures out there that ignore important themes and messages in shows to instead focus on their ship. But, this is an over-generalization of any fandom, clearly.

The above reasons for someone disliking Sherlock/John are not malicious. They assume the person is well-intentioned but misguided. In the cultural osmosis example, the person just doesn’t understand the source material and thus doesn’t understand the ship. In the friendship example, the person just wants to see a male friendship that isn’t toxic, and mistakes the act of shipping for throwing away that interpretation entirely. In the distaste for shipping example, the person just wants to focus on the themes of Holmes and not the romantic subtext. However, saying that everyone who gets upset at shipping John/Sherlock is well-intentioned would be a lie.

4. Homophobia

There’s an obvious reason of—whether implicit or explicit—homophobia when some people get downright disgusted or outraged that someone would ship John/Sherlock. I don’t think it needs explanation as to what homophobia is, but Sherlock/John especially outrages people more than other gay ships because the characters are classic. Sherlock is known throughout the world, everyone knows his name even if they’ve never read any of the stories, and his iconography—smoking pipe, hat, and jacket—have become well-recognized. It makes ignorant people boil over when you say that this iconic character who has remarkable impact on the world may be gay, asexual, or transgender. They think that lgbtq identities are something taboo or something to be ignored. To them, lgbtq characters should be background noise at most. And vocalizing that you see John/Sherlock subtext in their interactions destroys that.

TL;DR: Some people may be upset by John/Sherlock because they don’t understand the source material, they think shipping destroys a friendship dynamic they liked, or they feel that shipping takes away from the story. Some people may be upset by John/Sherlock because of ignorance and homophobia.

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[the1918]

I love all your evanstan headcanons so much, they’re so perfect for them. Do you think Chris bottoms ever?

(I was so excited when I got this over a month ago and then for some reason waited this long to answer it, sorry!)

Short answer: Yes

Long answer: First off, a fic rec: I really like this one Evanstan fic and I think about it a lot (“a smorgasbord of ass play”, as the tags say, topped off—heh— by an absolutely gorgeous flip-fuck scene). It’s called “coloring by numbers” by claudia_flies and I highly recommend it. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t develop a few of my own personal Evanstan head canons concerning Chris and his relationship with his own ass from that fic.

In the specific fantasy Evanstan world I’ve built in my head, I think that once Seb introduces Chris to ass play (which for some reason I don’t envision happening at first, not when they’re just fooling around, it takes until they’re in a relationship) and it turns out Chris really likes it, when he’s in the right mood? It sort of evolves from there.

I imagine that... it starts with an exploring finger during a blowjob in the shower.

It starts with Seb’s knees planted happily on that wet tile floor, looking up at Chris questioningly through the water droplets hanging from his pretty eyelashes. Chris’s own eyes go wide but he nods— more eagerly than he intends to but he doesn’t care, everything that he and Sebastian do together always feels safe. Seb slips one wet finger inside and Chris comes in Seb’s mouth on the spot.

After that it’s not necessarily a regular thing, but it’s also not entirely infrequent. I’ve written before about Chris’s first rimjob and I do imagine that something like that is what “happens next” (and sweet Jesus does Chris love it when Seb licks at him down there). I bet Chris— with flawed preconceived notions about what two men do together during sex, notions that are slowly being chipped away at through his relationship with Seb—  is surprised to find how well that ass play fits into their dynamic in the bedroom. He shocks even himself the first time he finds himself demanding it out loud while he’s fucking sweet Seb’s throat, when he asks, “You gonna be good and make your man come hard tonight, baby boy? Yeah? C’mon— yeah, that’s it, find that sweet spot, be a good boy and give it to me right. Fuck, gimme ‘nother finger babe. Be sweet, get me open like I got your throat open.”

But still, taking a dick up his own ass, that… that feels different to Chris. It is different to Chris. It’s already done wonders for his own internalized toxic masculinity to get to experience being Seb’s top and dominant, to see first-hand how being a man and getting fucked is, in fact, not an inherently degrading act (it’s an act of worship, of love and devotion when Chris fucks Seb), so I don’t think that would be the source of his hesitation. 

Instead, I think it’s the emotional rawness associated with really letting another person in you, with allowing someone to penetrate you. It’s scary. It’s real. It’s incredibly difficult to feel like you belong only to yourself when you’ve got someone else taking up a physical space inside of your body, but then again, Chris hasn’t belonged only to himself since Sebastian came into his life.

Chris tops. Sebastian bottoms. That’s just how it is between them, how they both like it to be, and that’s how it stays until one particular day less than a year into their relationship when Chris is having an especially bad run with his anxiety.

It’s been simmering for almost a month, well into month two now of Chris not having a chance to see Seb, thanks to the complications of their still-secret relationship and filming schedules. Chris has wrapped up his job but Sebastian’s is still going for another several weeks and Chris has also been fighting with his agent about a few things and he’s got a press tour coming up that he’s not looking forward to and he’s starting to feel like an exposed nerve, cracked open and raw and hurting, and he… he needs to see Seb. He needs to touch him and hold him and he needs to be held himself. He makes the decision to do it and then he’s on a plane out of Boston Logan International Airport within the next four hours. He texts Seb only once he’s landed.

I’m here. Sorry. Which hotel do they have you in.

He’s had the entire flight to think about it and Chris thinks he knows what he wants. He’s got a plan. He’s going to wrap Seb up in his arms and kiss him breathless and then he’s going to start to feel in control of his life and his emotions again once he gets to see the way that Seb melts beneath him… But then he’s actually there, and he’s knocking on Seb’s hotel room door and Seb is opening it with an alarmed, concerned expression. There are tears of frustration finally falling from Chris’s eyes.

Chris’s whole plan goes out the window.

His kisses are desperate; raw. Chris is pouring emotion out from between his lips and Seb is catching it, trying to be the calm in the middle of a troubled storm. He’d known before Chris even got there that something about the night is going to be wildly different, but he still doesn’t expect it when Chris rolls them over so that he’s on his back with Seb on top of him and croaking out—

“Want you inside of me, Seb, baby. Please.”

Seb opens him up with the lube Chris had been carrying in his back pocket, even if it isn’t being used for the reason Chris thought it would be when he’d stuck it there. He goes slow because his fingers being inside of Chris aren’t new but the expression on Chris’s face is. He feels a little sting of hesitation when Chris lets out a husky whine of, “Seb… Seb honey I’m ready, just fuck me,” but he’s gone this long already without ever once ignoring a command that Chris gives him in bed and he’s not about to start now.

Chris is not prepared for how different Seb’s cock feels compared to just his fingers. He feels like he’s being split open when Seb pushes in, is about to ask Seb if this is how he feels every time when Seb beats him to it, swallows his noises and shushes him, “it’s okay, it’s okay, you’re okay Chris, it gets better.”

(Chris can hardly believe that part. He is vulnerable beneath the man he loves and he is bursting at the seams with Sebastian; he doesn’t know how it could get better.)

It does change, just like Seb promises. By the time Seb is moving inside him the feeling goes from too-full too-much, a blissful stinging stretch that crushes on his lungs from down beneath his chest, to an almost overwhelming kind of pleasure that burns him from the inside out. Chris had gone soft against his own stomach at the initial penetration, but it’s the new drag against his insides that makes him fatten up again and start to leak. He learns he can clench down and make Sebastian gasp like that.

The night isn’t technically flawless, but it is exactly perfect. Seb hasn’t fucked anyone in a long time so he has to stop a few times and squeeze at the base of his own cock to keep from coming too early. They share whispers of “I love you” between “harder” and “so good” and “please”. After a while they figure out the angle that lets Seb’s cock head rub over Chris’s prostate on every thrust. Neither of them last very long after that.

It’s not what Chris expected it to be like when Seb spills up inside him, bare like they’ve done it for months now. He thought it would feel hot but it doesn’t, just... wet. It leaves him feeling open and sloppy in a way that reminds him thoroughly that Seb just used his insides to make himself come and it’s that thought— that feeling in his chest, that relieved smile melting across his own face— that makes Chris feel like he might understand now why so many people prefer to be loved from the bottom.

(They shower and cuddle afterwards, of course. Chris tells Seb everything he’s already told him over the phone but with a different kind of context now. Every stress in his life. Every night he couldn’t sleep because he missed Sebastian too much to even understand it himself.)

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