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#but i kinda said like 'im pretty sure i went a month in first year a couple times without visiting?' AND I MEANT IT CASUAL
hella1975 · 11 months
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#be deadly fucking serious rn PLEASE whatttt. that post that's like 'parents will say something that shapes you as a person#but for them it was just another tuesday' like WHAT JUST HAPPENED#basically if you've been following me since i went to uni then you know first year was an... interesting time for me and my mum#we rowed all the time and it's the most unsettled our relationship has ever been and i do truly believe it was just some unfortunate#external factors like me leaving home would rock the boat enough it was always gonna rejig our dynamic#but on top of that i was her LAST child to fly the nest which she hated AND my sister was in germany being insanely dependent on my mum#so i got sidelined a lot which was shitty at the time but i get it now like im still a bit bitter bc being the eldest everything my sister#does is an exciting first and our age gap means typically our academic big moments tend to cross over#so my a-levels happened during her first year of uni so for me a-levels were the biggest thing ever but ofc her thing was bigger#but when she did HER a-levels it was the biggest thing ever and i was /just/ doing gcses etc and germany was the same#like it was JUST my first year of uni bc meanwhile my sister was living alone in a foreign country. so that sucks and my mum was#defo focused on my sister and i wasn't in a position to be like 'hey i know it doesn't seem like it now you've got one kid through it#but going to university and settling in for the first year is still an insanely stressful and lonely time so please pay attention to me'#and all in all me and my mum just STRUGGLED we fought A LOT and not petty rows either they were really emotionally heavy all the time#and basically what's caused this post is that she said about america 'it'll be the longest ive been away from you'#and i know what she meant like a month out of england is the biggest thing ive ever done and im not even in EUROPE so this is huge#but i kinda said like 'im pretty sure i went a month in first year a couple times without visiting?' AND I MEANT IT CASUAL#BC I AM PRETTY SURE IT'S TRUE LIKE I WASNT EAGER TO GO HOME I WENT SOME WEEKS NOT EVEN RINGING#which REALLY shows how strained it must have been at the time. and she responds with confusion so i pointed out that first year#wasn't a great time for us and again still being casual bc it's such a fundamental truth for me that first year was Bad for me and mum#and she just blinks at me like 'what are you talking about' what. WHAT. like i knew she wasn't paying much attention to me then#but it made me MISERABLE for an entire YEAR like boom can testify bc they had to deal with my bs over the phone the entire time#and my mum just. didn't even notice that we weren't doing well. what. what the fuck even..... baffled by this actually#like i am REELING from this i feel like she just tipped the fundamentals of my world with that#hella goes home
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ahiijny · 1 year
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#anyway we used to talk a lot but even tho we went to the same uni we didnt have any classes in common and we kinda drifted apart#i really hope this wasnt my fault lol#bc one time during orientation week i was watching the charity hair shave thign and then i saw oomf walking along#but i wasnt REALLY sure if it was them since i was kinda far away and i didnt want it to be awkward in case i got the wrong person#so i just kinda... said nothing and hoped they would say something first?#and we kinda made eye contact and none of us said anything so i was thinking 'maybe it's the wrong person after all' but maybe it was??#it was really awkward aaaaaa#and then we kinda just stopped talking the entire time i was in uni#a while after i made an insta account last year we became moots on there and sometimes reply to each other's stories but#this is like once every 2 months and im so bad at making the conversations last any longer than a couple of responses#sadge#there was one other oomf i was kinda close with in uni#but mainly it's bc we shared a lot of classes#when two introverts -> ZERO talking (lol ^_^;;)#(unless theres like assignments or study materials to discuss)#and they definitely had a closer knit friend group i was kind of an outsider to#there was one other person they were pretty close to in high school (before i really got to know them) and they went to prom together#funnily enough im pretty sure (not completely sure tho bc i never asked lol) theyre both aro/ace so it makes a lot of sense#anyway ill probably delete these late night ramblings later o7
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Hi, I love your Husk work as an overlord. Could I please request a husker x reader when he lost the game to Alastor. Short time after Reader becomes the Cashio Overlord that runs on the cashios that once owned by Husker. One day, the reader came by to see Husk at the hotel. Please and thank you
A/N: im not sure if i understood this well but i hope i wrote it well enough for you to enjoy! also sorry it took so long for me to write i was a bit busy but here it is<33 (and also reader doesn’t know about Husk at first :3 )
warnings: swearing,alcohol,bad grammar,mentions of death and bl00d
genre: angst??? and some fluff
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——————————Flashback ——————————
You walk to your local bar, you and some guy you met online through a dating app were supposed to meet up there and get to know each other more. You liked the guy, he was nice and showed genuine interest in you, something guys didn’t really do that often. You put effort in dressing up today, wearing your best pair of clothes you had and fixing up your hair and just make yourself over all look presentable. “This guy better not ditch me.” You tell yourself as you look at the time; 7:02pm. You were supposed to meet up at 7 and he was late. “Not the best first impression.” You sigh when you suddenly hear someone yelling your name.
“Y/N! Hey it’s me the guy you have been talking to for the past few months? I’m so sorry I was stuck in traffic and I would’ve called but I just didn’t really think about it in that moment.” He says rubbing his neck nervously and smiles awkwardly. You smile at him and chuckle; “Don’t worry about it! Now let’s go have some fun!” You say excitedly and pull him to the bar.
The bar was fairly crowded, something you were expecting since it’s a pretty popular one at that. You order some drinks and take a seat in the corner of a bar. It was loud but you still managed to talk and drink the night away! You drank a bit too much that night and your head started to pound and the last thing you remembered was getting pulled into an alley by the guy and a sharp pain in your chest and blood on your hands.
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After you fell down to hell you quickly realized your situation and tried your best to not get in anyones way. You kept a low profile and kept your guard up just in case. You come across a casino, an abandoned one at that. You go inside and look at yourself in one of the broken mirrors on the floor. You had poker card symbols under your eyes and on your fingers. Your eyes widen at the sight, you were still wearing the same thing from last night it’s just that you have a big X on your chest. “That motherfucker killed me.” You say in disbelief, anger slowly bubbling up in you.
That day you went on a rampage. Finding an abandoned angelic spear somewhere in the bar and went fucking nuts. You swore you killed at least a good 250 demons and you kinda discovered some powers. “Cool.” You said and smirked. People had been recording you and posting about you online, calling you the “Soul gambler”, whatever that means. You slowly learned you killed 2 overlords during your little rampage and they weren’t even some random overlords, they were “heavy hitters” as people liked to call them. People started to fear you, making out the events that happened into something 10x worse. People didn’t bother looking your way anymore, wanting to light themselves on fire rather than to look at you.
You renewed the casinos around hell and gained massive amount of territory. People would visit the casinos frequently, it sort of reminded you of the casino from back when you were alive. Many people applied for the job since almost all of the jobs were taken because of hells overpopulation problem. Some old workers that worked at the casino before you renewed them and claimed them as your own started coming in, you hiring them of course since they had experience. You quickly learned there was an Overlord similar to you a few years ago. Unfortunately he lost his power and you learned from a commercial that he is now working at a hotel, Hazbin Hotel to be exact.
You decided to go and visit the hotel one day, wanting to have a chat with the old Overlord. You make yourself look presentable, wanting to look your best since you have a reputation to uphold. You walk to the hotel, people walking by screaming or just run into near by building, “Charming.” You think sarcastically and keep walking to the hotel.
You get to the hotel and look up at it, taking in its looks. It didn’t look half bad but it could use some renovation. You walk up the hill and brush yourself off one last time and knock on the big doors. There was silence for a few minutes then you heard commotion and a quiet “coming” from behind the closed doors. You wait patiently and hear the door open, seeing the one and only princess of hell. You go to speak but the door shuts right in your face; “Well that was.. something?” You think to yourself raising a brow in the process. The door opens once again, but this time by the radio demon himself, a fellow Overlord you quite liked. He didn’t try bothering you at all since you arrived in hell a few years ago and you appreciated that. “Salutations dear! It’s a pleasure finally meeting you! Quite a pleasure! Come on now, don’t just stand there. Come in!” He says stepping aside to let you in. You smile softly at him and thank him, walking into the lobby of the hotel when you suddenly stop dead in your tracks because a spear is suddenly pointed in your face. You smile, summoning your own spear and point it to the girls neck; “I wouldn’t try that if I were you. I’m not an Overlord for nothing.” The girl mumbles something in spanish and walks away, putting her spear away. You sigh and look at the princess of hell. “Well if you guys finished trying to assassinate me, let me introduce myself.” You say and look at everyone’s expressions. You smirk and continue; “My name is Y/N, maybe you know me by “Soul gambler” ,I mean uh whatever that means.” You shrug and hear a slight chuckle from Alastor and a pink spider demon, you believe his name was Angel Dust, a porn star from Valentinos studio. Poor guy was probably tricked into signing a contract with him.
“Well, I came here to ask about an Overlord that was similair to me. He owned the casinos I now own and I heard he was residing here now?” You say calmly, hoping you can to the right place. You hear slight radio static increase but choose to ignore it. Charlie shrugs, saying she doesn’t know of any Overlord being here other than Alastor, but that she hopes you will stay for a bit to see what the hotel is like. You nod in agreement and walk to the spider fellow since he was the only one that looked approachable. You talk for a bit when he suddenly says; “So um I kinda know something about the Overlord you’re looking for.” He says grabbing your full attention.
“The Overlord you’re talking about, it’s that bartender over there. You can try talking to him but I won’t guarantee that he won’t push you away.” He says lowering his tone and grabs you back the shoulder to bring you closer. You nod looking over to the bar where a grumpy cat demon sat, drinking some cheap booze. Angel pushes you towards him, giving you a thumbs up before walking away. You glare slightly but take a deep breath and walk towards the bar. His ears perk up at the sudden footsteps and looks your way, sending you slight glare; “If you’re here to make deals with me you can turn right back around and leave me the hell alone.” He says in an annoyed tone and turns around, his back facing you. You look at him and glare slightly; “What is it with you people and interrupting me all of the time? Like jeez let me fucking speak!” You say rolling your eyes and continue; “I don’t know what shit you hears about me but I can assure you that I didn’t come here to make a deal with you. I just want to talk.” You say sighing, hoping for an answer from the cat demon.
“Whatever let’s just get this over with, what is it?” He says rolling his eyes. You look around and say in a hushed tone; “Do you happen to know anything about the old Overlord that used to own the casinos I own now?” You say and hope you get the truth out of the grumpy ass cat. He looks back at you and curses Angel under his breath, an angered look on his face; “Cut the shit I know you know it was me. What do you want?” He says going closer to the counter where you were sitting opposite to him. You sigh; “I don’t want to cause any harm, really just a friendly chat. Share experiences you know? Since we’re both kind of similar..?” He looks back at you in disbelief and contemplates what to say. He sighs and pulls out two shot glasses, pouring you one and nods for you to continue. “Sooo..” “Husk. The name is Husk.” You smile, asking away and share your experience as on overlord with him. He asks some questions himself, wondering how the casino is doing or if anyone decided to come back there to work. You chat for the rest of the day, others looking at you in awe as they’ve never seen Husk open up to anyone.
After a while you get a bit drunk, talking the poor cat’s ear off. He smiles, listening to your stories, commenting on them here and there. After a bit you decide you had enough for the day and that you should get home. Charlie quickly offered you a room for the night, free of charge so you gladly accepted. “Husk go ahead and show them to their room please? I have something important to do!” Charlie yells before running off to who knows where.
Husk sighs but links your arms and walks you to your room. “Don’t forget to drink some water.. You know so you don’t throw up in the morning.” He says and walks off to his own room. You look at his figure disappearing in the dark of the hallway and enter your room. It was spacious and really nice for a hotel in hell.
You lay down in the bed, kicking your shoes off and hum in satisfaction, falling asleep just after a few seconds of resting on the comfortable bed. The next day you wake up, a slight headache but nothing pain killers couldn’t fix. You stretch and go to the bathroom, taking off your clothes and take a quick shower. You saw a new pair of clothes in the bathroom and a little note left by Charlie. You smile and take the clothes, putting them on. It wasn’t anything fancy but you liked it. You put on your shoes and fold your dirty clothes neatly on the bed and decide to head down to the lobby. It was around 9:30 ish when you went out so you hoped someone was awake. You head down and to your surprise see that everyone is awake. “Good morning sleepy head! You sure slept for quite some time!” Alastor chirped and grins at you, waving for you to come over.
You sit down next to Alastor, Charlie and Vaggie making breakfast. “So I saw you talking to Husk last night~” He smirks slightly. You roll your eyes knowing Alastor and Rosie like to gossip, usually during the meeting Carmilla holds once in a while. “Yeah? It was just a friendly chat. Sinner to sinner.” You shrug and sip on the coffe Charlie brought with the breakfast. Alastor raises a brow but shrugs and walks off.
You see the car demon from afar. Already sitting at the counter and drinking booze. You smirk and walk over with your coffee in hand and sit down at the bar; “Ain’t it a bit too soon for you to be drinking?” You tease and eye him and the booze in his hand. He chuckles lowly and smirks; “Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic darling, it’s just the way it is.” He says and shrugs his shoulders, taking another swing of his booze. “Sleep well? You seemed pretty drunk last night.” He says and eyes your figure. You smile and say; “I’m fine, I handle my alcohol pretty well just a slight headache.” You take the last sip of your coffee and place the mug down.
You look at Husk who seems to be thinking about something before he suddenly speak up; “Maybe we could repeat last night another time? Maybe you could show me what you did with my poor casino?” He teases and smirks. You fake gasp and hold your chest where your sadly dead heart is. “Oh I would bet my soul that my version of the casino is so much better than yours was.”
“We’ll see about that Doll~”
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thatoneapollokidevan · 11 months
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Slushies (Hobie brown x reader)
warnings! None just making out
No pronouns used
please mind English isn’t my first language and the making out will be pretty awkward since im not the biggest fan of the idea of it lol
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• You and your boyfriend where heading home after one of his shows
• It wasn’t anything unusual considering you’ve been dating for months now
• It was getting dark which was a little unusual since it was summer
• You where just driving in his car barely awake but the he stopped
“hey luv’ wanna get somthin’ to eat” he said pointing to a gas station
“yeah” you said rubbing your eye trying to stay awake
• You both went inside of the gas station
• Tbh the constant sound of the air conditioning and the yellow tint was both annoying but really nostalgic
“I haven’t been in one of these since i was a kid” you said trying to break the silence
•You both went through and looked at food that had gone bad months ago hnit you come to the only thing without cobwebs on
•the slushie machines
“ey luv’ what do ya say?” He said pointing at the slushie machines
“yeah it’s probably the only thing that isn’t over 5 years old in here”
• You both walk towards it then pouring slushie in your cups
• You go over to the counter to pay only to be met by a sleeping middle aged man
• you slap a £2’er on the counter
“Are you sure that that was the actual price” you ask him
“eh cheaper is cheaper am i right?”
“That kinda illegal but okay”
• you sit down in his car and try not to thjnk about that
• After you’ve drunken almost half of your slushies you notice Hobie isn’t drinking just staring at you
“whats the matter got a staring problem?” You say jokingly
“Nothin’ you just look awfully lovely right now”
• He was always trying to tease you and make you flustered so it didn’t really affect you until you saw him unbuckle your seatbelts
“what are you-“ you tried to ask him but them immediately got put on his lap
“Oh gees you really want to do this now?” You say annoyed but still laughing at the end
“I dont see you complainin’”
• He grabbed your chin pressing his lips on to yours • You moved your hand up to his face and he moved his down to your waist
• The soft kiss slowly turned more heated and next thing you know you felt his tongue asking for permission
• You opened your mouth for him and the moment you did that he switched you around so he could use the seat as support
• He pressed you against the seat tongue exploring your mouth like there was no tomorrow
• You pulled away for air
• You look over at him smirking
“ya’know i would continue but i think we should drive away to somewhere more private” he said
• You would respond but you could barely form a sentence bc of how flustered you were even though it wasn’t anything unusual to make out with your boyfriend
“so watcha saying?”
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clock-onyx · 2 months
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A yearly trip
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"...Jomei? You called me here?"
"Odin! Come in come in!"
"What did.. what did you want to discuss with me?"
"Oh it's nothin' s-serious! Y'know, it's been a while since you've come to live with us. Around erhhh... a year, y-yeah?"
"A year, yes."
"Right! Jiro has taken quite a liking to you and we've been t-thinkinnnn' that maybe you'd like to join us for our yearly visit to L-Lourielle? It's in a month, and we've rescheduled your work so someone will take over your duties on the days we're away."
"What? Wait wait wait- Are... Are you serious?"
"Of course I-I am! Whattt, you think I'd be l-lying to you?"
"N-No I just- Wow."
"Take time to process it, Odin! M-Maybe we'll even get to finally find that Chester of yours, hmm?"
"Yeah.. yeah! I'm- I'm sure we will. Thank you I'm just.. so surprised! Me? Out of EVERYONE here?"
"Mmmmhm! As I said, Jiro has t-taken quite a liking to you!"
"Right... thank you again, Jomei. Thank so so much-"
"Ah no need to thank me! ..Now now, you can go ask Jiro more questions about this, they're the first in charge with the trip, afterall! I got to g-get ready to see someone so you're free to do anything you'd like for this evening."
"Alright, alright. Good evening to you then!"
"You too, Odin!"
RAGHHH RAHHH I WORKED 12 HOURS ON THIS??? HELPPP LMFAOOOO
This is definetly one of my proudest works, i wanted to be extra detailed with this so i kinda went silly with this, wonder if anyone will catch some of the details as theyre important for the lore of the world and the characters themselves! I know this may not be to everyones tastes but im happy with it <|:3
And as I PROMISED! Jomei in lore art will be wearing those outfit suggestions you guys gave me, so I added one here!!!
I know the dialouges kinda clanky and weirdly worded but as long as it can clearly tell something about what theyre doing im happy with it! Oh and as a note, yes Jomei stutters from time to time, I imagine its pretty difficult to speak when you got a marionette mouth for well... a mouth LMFAO
This is much more in the future than the other drawings i did before, Odin's apperances tends to change a lot through the story as you can see, idk feels more natrual than him having the same iconic outfit forever, as the outfits important aswell! If someone catched who it originally belonged to of course winks
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I heart lore art you guys sm YAYY JUMPS WITH JOY
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OH MY GOSH can I maybe possibly request Steve x Eddie’s sister/sibling!reader I’m so excited you wrote for him like- love u byeeee
YES. YES. YES YES YES FINALLY LORD YES IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS OH LORD YES ILY ILY ILY YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW WIDE MY SMILE IS RN ILYSM IM SO HAPPY RN
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*One of the gayest photos ive seen but we'll talk abt that another time*
*Nother lil side note: I went to get water and when I came back this gif was on my screen AND I SQUEALED AND GIGGLED. THATS WHAT KINDA HOLD THIS MAN HAS OVER ME. ok imma stfu and let you get to reading* *LAST ONE I SWEAR: Listened to this while writing:) .... and this :)))*
~OKAY SO YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW GIDDY I AM RN CAUSE STEVE HARRINGTON CAN SMASH MY FACE IN WITH HIS BAT anyways :)
~Yall actually met before the Vecna stuff
~You're in your senior year for the FIRST time unlike your idiot brother Eddie
~You're not in hellfire but you do spend A LOT of time with them
~Literally the mom of the group
~You have other friends that you'd gladly hang out with but you stay with them because the minute you leave one of them is gonna end up somehow missing a finger
~They need adult supervision at all times and youre the best they got even though Eddie is literally a year older than you
~You were the one who convinced Eddie to invite Mike, Dustin, and Lucas to Hellfire (He didn't wanna at first cause they were "shrimpy freshmen" his words not mine)
~Dustin excitedly ranting to Steve about the group when he first joined
~"He's so cool! He gets on the table n shit and doesnt give a shit about what people say"
~"Dude I don't wanna hear about Eddie 'The Freak' Munson"
~"He has a sister y'know... she's 18. She's pretty awesome too. And single"
~"Well that's great for her" (mf started zoning dustin out at this point poor dustybun)
~Dustin thinks you'd be so fucking perfect for Steve so whenever he sees him he always always always finds some way to work your name into the conversation
~He starts doing the same to you poor boy is set on this ship and will not give up till it sails
~Eddie gets so pissed whenever Dustin brings up Steve. His mood noticeably changes but Dustin, being Dustin, can't take the hint
~You cant be mean to Dustin cause you find him so sweet and adorable so you just endure it even though you have really no intention of talking to Steve 'The Hair' Harrington
~Literally 3-4 months had passed and Dustin was still talking you up to Steve and vice versa even though the two of you still hadn't met
~The Hellfire club was hanging out at the trailer park and when everyone was leaving you heard Dustin say he was gonna go to the video store so you decided to drive him cause you borrowed Robin's history notes cause you ditched class
~You took Eddies keys while he was using the restroom and made sure to leave before he could yell at you for stealing his car again
~You went inside with Dustin and he introduced you and Steve
~"Steve! This is Y/n"
~He gave you a small nod, unaware of what to do. You tried to match his awkward energy so you just gave him a small wave
`"I'm Steve"
~"I know. Little Dustin over here doesn't shut up about you"
~Dustin has the widest smile on his face seeing the two of you meet for the first time but it immediately drops when he hears you call him "little"
~"Hey what the hell"
~"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it 'Dustybun'" you said as you messed with his hair
~"I've told you already! Only Suzie calls me that!"
~You start laughing at Dustins face cause he looks so pissed and oml when Steve hears you laugh his heart MELTS
~He loves the way you treat Dustin
~Its hasn't even been a minute but mans is already down bad for you
~"Anyways, is Robin here? I borrowed her history notes and I'm just here to drop off little dustybun and give her her notes back"
~"Stop calling me Dustybun!"
~"Uh she's not here yet but she should be in about 15 minutes"
~"Oh alright. Can you give these to her when she gets here then?"
~"I mean or you could stay? Y'know, make sure she gets the notes safely. Plus it'd give me a chance to get to know you better..."
~THE WAYS DUSTINS FACE LIGHTS UP I SWEAR
~You stand there for a second contemplating it. You were curious to get to know more about Steve Harrington, especially since Dustin was constantly talking about him. Eddie will kill you if you have his car for too long without asking though, which was even more of a reason to stay. God you love pissing your brother off.
~"Well what do you wanna know Harrington?"
~The two hit it off surprisingly well
~So well in fact that even after you give Robin her notes, you stay longer
~The moment you leave Steve's decided that he's in love. Like thats that. His search for the right woman is over. He's found you and he's gonna try his damnedest to win your heart
~When you got back to your trailer Eddie was fuming
~He was sitting on the couch with his arms crossed and his leg bouncing up and down while staring at the door
~"My my, what ever is wrong dear brother?"
~"What have I told you about taking my car without permission?!?"
~"Relax I was only gone for 30 minutes"
~"YOU WERE GONE FOR 2 HOURS! What were you even doing?! I thought you were just dropping off Henderson!"
~"I stayed a bit longer to talk to Steve"
"Harrington?!"
~"No Eddie, fucking Steven Spielberg"
~Steve constantly bugging Dustin about you and asking him random ass questions about you
~Dustin deciding to be his wing-man for once, he's always asking you to drive him to the video store
~Constantly stealing Eddies car to take Dustin
~Every time you drop him off, you always stay for an extra hour just talking with Steve
~He tries to flirt with you but he gets so nervous when you're around he becomes Scoops Ahoy Steve again
~Dustin and Robin literally face palming whenever he says something stupid but you finding his failed flirting attempts absolutely adorable
~Eddie constantly asking you what's up with you and Harrington
~Telling him you're just friends but him continuing to nag you
~Eventually having enough with your brother bs so you throw a pillow in his face
~Him throwing one back
~Munson sibling pillow fights>>>>>>
~3 months of you and Steve talking at the video store and he still hasn't asked you out
~Robin and Dustin taking bets on when he'll finally confess
~You constantly go to the video store to talk with Steve, with or without Dustin
~One day you were sitting on the counter reading your book while Steve worked and all of a sudden he just kinda blurted the words "movie theater"
~You looked up from your book to see him looking at you
~"Huh?"
~"I, uh, I was wondering if you wanted to go to the movies with me"
~"Only on one condition"
~Yeah..?"
~"You let me pick the movie"
~Steve regained his confidence and the two of you started going back and forth as you always did, laughing and talking
~The two of you decided that Steve would pick you up at 7 and you would surprise him with the movie
~"Wait so let me get this straight. Steve 'The Hair' Harrington... asked you out on a date?"
~"Jeez don't sound so surprised. Your little sister is a very desirable woman"
~"Yeah, sure" Eddie said as he scoffed and rolled his eyes
~"Anyways, it's not a date. At least I don't think it is"
~"You've been hanging out with Steve Harrington every day for the past 3 months. It's a date."
~"Go away and let me finish getting ready please"
~"Sure. Meanwhile I can dust off my 'Protective Older Brother' speech"
~"I will hurt you. Get out. Now."
~"What exactly are your intentions with my little sister, Harrington?" Eddie said, mockingly
~"Out!" You said as you threw a pillow with him and he ran out cackling
~At almost 7 exactly, you saw Steve's car pull up to the trailer and you checked yourself really quickly in the mirror before going to meet him at the door, but much to your dismay, Eddie opened the door before you could get there
~"Hey, uh, is Y/n ready?"
~You could HEAR the nervousness in his voice
~"Depends, who's asking?"
~"Eddie, don't be an ass"
~"Sorry Y/n/n, it's habit by now" (God I can just picture his cocky ass smile)
~You roll your eyes before greeting Steve
~"Hey Harrington"
~"H-hey. You ready, gorgeous?"
~Meanwhile Eddie is gagging his soul out behind you after hearing that
~Idk bout yall but I would just combust right then and there... anyways :)
~Steve holds out his hand to help you down the steps and you gladly take it
~As the two of you walk towards his car you turn around to see Eddie still standing in the doorway and you silently jump up and down to show him your excitement
~Has the cutest big brother smile on his face after seeing how excited you are
~Steve opens the door for you and Eddie shouts to the two of you
~"Hey! You better keep your hands to yourself Harrington!"
~You flip him off through the open car window
~No cause why can I picture Steve almost FALLING when trying to walk around the front of the car to get to the drivers seat. You can't tell me you don't see it. Argue with the wall. I do every day... lets not get into my psychological issues and get back to the story :D
~As the two of you are driving there you sing along to the songs on the radio together
~"So what movie are we watching?"
~"You'll see when we get there"
~You guys finally get there and walk up to the ticket booth
~"Two tickets for Clue please"
~"Really?! Clue?! Haven't you seen that movie 4 times already?"
~"5 times actually. Plus you've never seen it! You cant go through your life never having watched Clue!"
~You reach into your pocket to pull out your wallet and Steve sees
~"Put that away. I'm paying"
~"No you're not. I chose the movie, I pay"
"You may have chosen the movie, but I'm the one who asked you out"
~"You barely asked me! All you said was 'movie theaters'"
"I'm paying!"
~"No you're not!"
~As you tried to pull your money out, Steve snatched your wallet out of you hand and you stared at him in disbelief
~"Uh! Gimme my wallet back Harrington!"
~"No! You'll get it back after our date."
~"Oh so this is a date?" you asked teasingly
"Oh, uh, I mean if you want it to be"
~The way his vibe quickly deteriorated after realizing what he said
~"Okay fine. I'll get my wallet back after our date"
~Ion wanna be cheesy, but imma be cheesy cause its Steve motherfucking Harrington
~The classic both hands in the popcorn bucket thing happened (if you dont know what that is, its this thing in movies and shows when the love interests go to the movies and reach for popcorn and there hands touch and they get all awkward and flustered)
~Steve did the stupid thing where he slowly inched his hand closer to yours so he could eventually hold it but you could clearly see what he was trying to do, so you moved his drink onto the ground, lifted the arm rest, and lifted his arm around your shoulder and laid against his chest
~He was flustered as hell. He was not expecting you to do that
~After the movie he drove you home and you could tell he was nervous the entire way
~He walked you to the door but you dragged him to the back of the trailer where there was no window cause you knew Eddie would watch if you guys said goodbye in front of the door
~Before he could comprehend what you were doing, you put your hands around his neck and pulled him down and kissed him
~He was shocked at first but eventually gave into the kiss and wrapped his hands around your waist as he pulled you a lot closer to him (rail me rn like pretty please)
~Once you guys broke apart for air, he rested his forehead against yours
~"I've wanted to do that since the moment I laid eyes on you"
~The two of you stayed there like that for about a minute or two
~You kissed him one more time, this time reaching into his pocket and taking your wallet back
~You gave him one last peck on the lips before running inside
~When he got to his car he was fist-bumping the air and freaking out stop he was so excited
~You walked into the trailer and it was pitch black
~When you turned the lights on you saw Eddie and your uncle sitting on the couch with their arms crossed as they stared at you, which obviously made you jump
~"What the hell are you guys doing?! Why are you sitting there like a couple of weirdos?! God!"
~"We're the ones asking the questions here missy!" Eddie yelled
~Clearly they were both fucking with you since they loved to poke fun at you all the time
"Did he try anything?" Your uncle asked looking more serious that Eddie did
~You sighed and rolled your eyes
~"No he didn't try anything Uncle Wayne"
~"Woooow! So what, does he think you're not good enough?!" Eddie yelled once again
~"What?! No! I mean we kissed a few time but-"
~"You what?! You shouldn't be kissing anyone till your at least 30!" Eddie screamed as he stood up
~"I'm going to sleep. You two make me wanna off myself"
~Your uncle laughed and Eddie walked over to you before you could walk away and he pulled you into a hug
~"You seem happier since he came around. I'm happy for you"
~You wrapped your arms around him, smiling at your older brothers kind words when all of a sudden his grip tightened
~"Let him know that I said if he ever hurts you there is not a place on earth he can hide. I will hunt him down for the rest of my life if I have to and I will make sure he suffers."
~"Alright get off me" you said as you shoved him away in disgust and your uncle laughed in the background
~"Night baby sis!"
~You didn't say anything and just flipped him off as you walked to go to bed
~The next day you walked into the video store and the minute Steve saw you he ran towards you and pulled you into a kiss
~Robin and Dustin hadn't known about your guys date so they were very surprised
~"Fork it over Robin" Dustin said as he stuck his hand out
~"You guys couldn't wait one more month?!" Robin said as she gave Dustin 10 bucks
~Steve driving you to and from school
~You and Robin bullying him in the car
~Friday night date nights
~Lots and lots of cuddles
~PDA PDA PDA
~Trying so hard to get Eddie and Steve to get along but they just won't budge
~Steve meeting your uncle and winning him over
~Steves parents absolutely adoring you
~Steves mom thinks you're "a nice break from all those trashy girls he used to date"
~PDA
~Going on late night drives cause why not
~Hellfire going crazy when Dustin brags about the fact that you and Steve are dating
~"You're actually dating Steve Harrington?!"
~Eddie yelling shut up the way he did in episode 1 when everyone gets rowdy
~He hates hearing about your relationship mainly because your his baby sister, but the fact that he doesn't like Steve is a factor
~P D A he is all about PDA
~You guys never actually had the whole Bf/gf talk
~It just kinda slipped out on accident and he didn't even notice
~Your first "I love you" was when he got attacked in the upside down and you jumped in after him
~Nancy getting a bit weird with you because youre dating her ex, but she sees how good you are for him and the two of you actually hit it off
~Dance parties with him are a must
~He takes you to skull rock but its all cute n stuff he like laid blankets down and had snacks and you guys just laid there cuddling while staring at the stars and talking
~Thats actually when he let "girlfriend" slip out
~"You're the best girlfriend anyone could every ask for, y'know that right?"
~Ended up accidentally falling asleep there and Eddie freaking out when you got home cause he was worried
~I cannot stress this enough but I'll try. Public Display of Affection !!!!
~On your guys night drives you sit on his lap in the backseat and you guys have fallen asleep there multiple times
~One time you guys even fell asleep after you were parked in front of the trailer and you didnt feel like going in yet
~Basically hes just one of the best boyfriends you could ever have and now i wanna cry cause I know I'll never have this
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butterpony100 · 10 months
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Ok I have just reached the episode “queen banana” and I’m here to rant about the atrocities that are Chloe Bourgeois “character arcs” cause she deserves better, and how my personal take would go (this is just mostly me ranting and rewriting this dumpster fire to sooth my anger at the writers cause chloe deserved better
The first few seasons has many episodes showing that Chloe was a bully, but also someone with layers. Someone who was raised with no expectations about how she needed to act or who she needed to be with others. As the episodes went on, we were showed how she came to realize that not everything could be handed to her, no matter her schemes to get what she wanted. She was learning that sometimes she needed to give in order to get.
And then- she just regressed to who she was before?? No- she was actually made worse than she was previously.
Now I will not be blaming characters like Zoe for this change, despite her rushed introduction, she has no part in this. The only ones we can hold responsible are the writers who, despite months and even years of planning, apparently had this atrocious character assassination planned from even as far back as “queen wasp”.
So instead I’m changing that cause that’s bs
In season three, Chloe is forced to accept that she messed up her chance to be queen bee, but it’s still a hard pill to swallow. Instead of obsessing over getting it back like in the show, she puts in renewed effort to her personality change (with mixed results). We’d have Zoe introduced in the season 3 finale of miracle queen instead. Chloe would see her half sister, effortlessly kind and considerate, and able to make friends with ease, become frustrated. In those around her and herself. The catalyst to her becoming queen bee would be that she wanted to prove she was “worthy”. Worthy of what? Not eve she is really knows. All she knows is that she’s of no use to any one around her. The rest of the finale kinda goes the same but with a different version of Chloe when deakumatized. She would be drained and upset, mostly at herself, and instead choose to silently go home after returning the bee miraculous when the dust settles. When she gets home, she and Zoe talk. About how Chloe isn’t used to meeting expectations and how Zoe herself has always been forced to meet them. Both begin to teach eachother the benefits of both reaching expectations and letting go of others opinions. We cut Sole Crusher from season 4 completely and have a desperate plot of Zoe getting akumatized to be given a charm by lady bug. Banana queen would change that Chloe, rather than wanting to kick Zoe out of the movie, just wants to be in the movie. The movie has been in production by the class for months and Chloe’s initial reaction left most of them iffy about her joining (she said the same thing that they recounted in the episode) and she would say “well yeah I said that but I didn’t mean it.” And the whole class would be like “ehhhh…” Zoe and Adrien would eventually convince the class to give Chloe a chance. Of course, once the production is underway, Chloe’s old personality slowly resurfaced and similar events from the og episode occur. In the end they go through with their original script like in the episode, and Chloe gets pretty mad, mostly hurt and upset. Later, adrien mentions the promise they made and how he wasn’t sure they could be friend anymore. Chloe would be more visibly upset by his words and, while still dismissing him, would be mush more distraught by the time shadow moth contacts her. Zoe still becomes the new holder of the bee miraculous, but I imagine at some point in the future of this au, Chloe will be able to wear a new miraculous and be given a second chance, just as soon as she finishes her own journey of learning who she is.
Im thinking of calling this au “Sour to Sweet”, and basically reworking Chloe from the ground up with the crumbs of character development the show actually gave us. I’ve also fallen in love with Zoe despite only having her for two episodes, so she’ll probably play a big part as well.
If you have any ideas, feel free to share!
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HII !!! LOVED YOUR ART ♡
do your csm ocs have lore? i'd love to read it ! (not me trying to make fanart no how would you think that nooooo of course nooooott)
HAADJKFMKLGD THANK YOUUU SO MUCH 😭😭 i dont know if i really have any good lore yet... im pretty bad at making that typa stuff i kinda just draw things lol
Orion!!
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(i draw him a little differently each time dw abt it)
his pants are like- loose at the bottom so not tight fit :)) and he has like black combat boots i guess he's a whole sucker for black and white clothing hehe..
has a tongue piercing and a piercing on his right ear
he has a contract with the fox devil
likes the color white
does mma, anything to do with shooting things, and fishing
barem's right hand man (just a person to do his dirty work lol)
he's wasian, white mom (died during his birth), japanese dad (hates him for his mom's death and makes him try twice as hard because of it)
from a rich family who owns a [blank] company (i haven't decided what yet, i feel like a gun company would work but that's kinda ironic cuz yk)
he was a good child! always trying to meet his father's standards so he could do well, he wanted to be the best because he wanted his father's "love" (it wasn't really love. his father was emotionally manipulative and abusive and only gave him "love" whenever he did something in his favor or good. when he didn't he would tell him how much of a disgrace he is. only to treat him nicely again when he did something good.)
a social bird, made friend easily all throughout his school years, a popular and friendly person. he started to realize he could do whatever during his highschool years, because of his status as the sole heir to his father's company so he started to become more rebellious, going out more, skipping classes, getting drunk, but he always brought back straight A's. he became a rowdy asshole genius typa guy
closeted homo up to college years, he started really embracing his gay then. during highschool and middle school he would date women but he didn't really feel anything for them and would usually break up with them after a few months. he would make up the sweetest and most heartbreaking reasons why and they would forgive him, when in reality he really didn't care about them
his dad was suffering from heart issues as he got older, and as orion got older he grew to hate his dad, he slowly poisoned him with arsenic which led to him having a heart attack and dying!! one day he accidentally put too much arsenic into his food but he was like yknow what it's okay and then made sure to keep the maids away from his slowly decaying father, put him to bed early and tada he had a heart attack
he got away with it cause a) he’s the sole heir to the company and b) if he went to court? 💰💥💰💥💰💥
he met barem at the chainsaw church!! he was curious about it, flyers and all over town so he went to check it out. he got a tour from one of the church members before bumping into him. it was kind of a physical attraction at first, he just wanted to get into his pants. so he got a tour from barem, saying he didn't remember any of it (playing dumb blond stereotype lol). but after talking to him he was like hey wait this guy is also kind of cool and an eye opener (idk what he would've said i'll figure something out) and then he started to reeeeally take a liking to barem. he started to appear more around the chainsaw church, mostly around barem and talk to him a lot but he wouldn't join it. he didn't want to marry a woman. barem asked why he would come to the csm church if he didn't want to join it. orion was blunt and was like to see you ofc. barem was like ???.
sooner or later orion became his right hand man (i'll explain more on how later), or more of a person to just do a lot of his dirty work because he was so willing to do it. he's also willing to pay for all of barem's expenses. lol sugar daddy
ok i think im done for now but ill make like- a better doc for him i think he's like the first kind of fleshed out oc i've made in a while haha!
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nickelstudy · 4 months
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JLPT N1 Experience
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So first of all, Happy New Year. It has been a while since I've updated this blog. I've been feeling depressed in the past few weeks, I think it's because of drawing? I feel like I haven't been performing well in art, and that it's hard to accept painful truth that I cannot please everyone- not that it matters on this blog, but it's WHY I decide to take some time to write an update here.
I was supposed to talk about my first experience with N1 but I got busy after. I caught up in many stuff, I guess, plus I was busy with my birthday and helping my family's work throughout the month. But now that it's over, let's talk shall we?
Before That
I haven't talked about my last week strategy, here's what I did.
Stopped learning Kanji and do the drills instead
Finished Shinkanzen Grammar in the first section. I had some days left, so I skimmed through the second section without doing the exercise (I did for A - D i think but- I definitely shouldn't)
Borrowed these two books (pic below). For reading, I did every bit of every question style (there were like 6 of them right? Short passage, Long, etc.)
And for listening, I tried to rush through it but I kinda gave up with the chapter III or IV I'm not sure.
I switched between two of them on the last day
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FYI the blue book is actually fantastic! I think I've said it before but it has explanation for each answers. I think it's super cool.
Now For N1
Chapter 1: Before exam
For context, I travelled to the exam location alone, so I wasn't bounded by anyone and I could roam anywhere. I got out early, and arrived there pretty early. But walking from the entrance to the exam spot took a while, to the point where I doubted to myself if I was going in the right direction. There were many people there already. I think the morning peeps had already entered the room when I arrived.
I had lunch and... wander around (Typical Pikmin Bloom player). There wasn't much to do anyway. I decided to take a quick review of some onomatopoeia and other vocabs. I think at that point, nothing is more important than vocabs. It was a while before they allowed us to go up the building. Anyway, I SAW A KID in a highschooler outfit in front of the same room as mine! IM- I DON'T KNOW?? HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO BE THIS GOOD AT THAT AGE?? And of course we entered the room. I sat not so far from the entrance.
One thing that bothers me is the fact that they never announced to bring a mask but they asked everyone to wear it in the room?? Luckily, I had it on already.
Chapter 2: The Exam
Sorry for the long introduction haha. SO, starting off with vocabs, grammars, and reading. I skipped to grammar secion first because it's not too hard or too easy. It's all fuzzy now but I did okay(?)
There was あっての that's pretty easy. But there was one of them that bugged me and I was wrong on that one too. It's といたしまして... so weird, I didn't expect it to answer that. ALSO, HONORIFIC VERB CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD but i think i answered it right.
Then onto reading section because I was really scared if I couldn't finished it. It- took me a while to finish each of them but in a fair amount of time. It's like 10 minutes left that I switched to doing vocabs with a lightning speed because I FORGOT there was a fill in the blanks and not just guessing kanji's reading.
I almost got 誇張 (こちょう) wrong as こうちょう
There were 奇跡、偏り、矛盾、賄う、軽率 in which i had no problems
Filling the words is where I had problem due to hurriness. I missed the 快挙 cause I don't know the word.
見返り too, because there was a word that I thought it meant (repay) and not the first
I GOT ONOMATOPOEIA WRONG ANYwAY HECC YEA i didn't know what つくづく means so i went with きっかり or きっぱり im not sure
Also there was a sentence that was supposed to mean "His body condition was..." I thought it was "worsen" so I went with 崩れる except no it's the opposite "ほぐれる". I didn't know that word but i've seen it before it's the goodamn spirit's name from the game.
I didn't know what 尺度 means or how it is read but I got the meaning substitution right (yay) (it's standard)
Here's the fun one. デマ... THIS WORD THAT I NEED TO GUESS HOW IT IS USED WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING ITS MEANING. I tried to came up with the word this word could come from. Dermatologist? Demand? Theme??? (that's テーマ) I had no idea and got it wrong eventually. Can you guess?
It's "Demagogie", a German word meaning false rumor... WHO WOULD'VE GUESSED. I asked one of my Japanese if she knew. Of course she did. She even gave me an alternative for it too... but I forgot. I only know that's it in katakana (im sorry)
Last minute i left one Mondai randomly answered!
For Choukai, it was so goddamn fast. I am certain that if it wasn't fast, it would be manageable for me. I honestly don't know if I scored it well or not, the last listening part were as hard as ever. ONE THING ABT IT THOUGH, there was a part where they were talking in a cafe about how the shop owner use a coffee beans? I think?
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ANd FOR GOD'S SAKE WHAT'S WITH THE BACKGROUND MUSIC??? My concentration was popped away, I kept glancing around wondering if what I was hearing was someone's phone or the tape's music. I don't even know what the question really was to be honest.
What's Next?
I- I don't know. I just need to wait for the result. But I'll try to slowly get back to learning a bit Korean and Japanese every day again. Probably need to brush up Memrise and Anki. At least 5 mins a day haha. Thanks for reading til here. Keep on learning! I'll make sure to do my best for learning languages this year too!
I don't have new year's resolution but I guess.. continue ASL? I got busy that I have no time to do it anymore. I doubt if I can do it, considering I'll be busy with internship next academic year.
Anyway, have a great year everyone. Hope you have a good luck and success with studying and anything you are willing to pursue this year.
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lil-snake-crowley · 4 months
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alright so idk i just wanted to share an anecdote and my journey as an aroace person.
So this story starts the beginning of my freshman year. my second day really because it was just us on the first. now this needs prefaced by saying, i don’t have a lot of friends. it’s not some sad horrific thing - i mean id like a couple more friends but i’m not keen on a giant group. so at this point i have one solid friend, and i make it through the day like scouting out who’s nice and who i could get along with. my last class of the day is acting and i’ve already seen these people once or twice helping out with drama and i quickly get the understanding that they’re chill and id get along with them. the acting class is in the auditorium and we’re told to sit stage right in like two sections. i just pick a seat way off to the (stage) right, around people but not directly next to anyone. over the next week or so i start settling in and end up joining the big group twords the middle. i sit next to these two friends who i think are pretty cool and they seem to like me.
and the year progresses. i don’t become besties with one or the other but i make friends in general. i’m not sure if i could like become best friends with one of them because they had a really tight bond. like hallmark movie best friends. like the small part that isn’t ineffable about this relationship will be explained later on. but i am making other friends (i’m just gonna go with initials bc these ppl follow me on tumblr) and i become really good friends with w. we have some common interests but generally we just vibe yk.
now i’m gonna skip ahead a couple months to the school class play. all of us are involved in this - the previously mentioned acting friends (m and p) are both actors along with me and w is on stage crew. so one day w and i are mopping the stage or something just talking. i can’t remember exactly how it went but w has a boyfriend and he talks about him sometimes. but w really only refers to them as “my boyfriend” so i’m just going with it and pretending i know who it is. anyway at some point while we’re talking i must’ve said something like “who is your boyfriend btw” and they’re like ohhh l. and i just feel so dumb. they’re always together and interacting and i’m just like how did i not realize. i think about it for like a full day realizing how many things have gone over my head and how oblivious i am. fast forward a week or two to opening night. i’m kinda nervous because this is my first play-and also my first performance but i only had one line and i knew i could nail my characters. i have one bit in scene 3 then i change and im not needed til scene 7 so i mostly sit around and if it wasn’t crowded i sat in the fem dressing room. it’s about intermission time and we’re kinda sitting in a semi circle doing makeup as a bunch of queer (not girl) afabs. we’re talking about past relationships and stuff and coming out when p is talking and they say something along the lines of ‘and my dad was like you seem to be besttt frienddsss with m’. everyone understands and acknowledges it. then i realize. i’m like wtf. and i go ‘you’re with m??’ just lost and they confirm. this was like 10x more obvious than w and l. i have no clue how i didn’t see it. but 3 months in i realized that there relationship was romantic.
i don’t know why i care but i do. i wanted that friendship. i wanted a relationship like that. i thought i could have that if i found the right person. and in a single phrase i realized that i can’t. i know i can’t be in love. i accepted that long ago. but i struggle to accept this. maybe i didn’t believe in true love or whatever before i met them. but the way that they look at each others like they’re all they need. like it’ll be okay as long as they’re together. like i can see the hearts in their eyes. the way that they talk. the way they’re always laughing with each other. they way that they just effortlessly get each other. i don’t want to date them. i mean i’m aroace and lesbian at that. but i am so incredibly jealous. it’s like i see them together and it feels like a dagger in my chest. then i want a dagger in my chest. the jealousy consumes me.
at the beginning of that year i thought i had come to terms with myself. i’m not sure if i have. but i haven’t seen anyone talk about feeling this way, and if you’re like this, you’re not alone. we’re gonna make it through. it doesn’t matter how many friends you have or how relatable they are right now. you’re gonna find your person. and i hope someday i can find a plutonic m to my p
i really struggle with friends. i currently have 2 solid friends that i talk to most days. i know that i’m not either of their number ones. i’m aware that i put in eighty percent of the effort into our relationships. at least with one of them. but i know that people do care for me. and that i may never be able to fall in love, but i still get to be loved. and i still get to love. i just have so many more people to share my love with. i love you.
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I’ve never really recognized it as “religious trauma”, but I’m nodding along to ur list. It’s just kinda stuff that happened. Except for the few things that grown me was kinda at like ‘that seems a little bad actually-‘
I remember being 7 and first thinking what if God isn’t real as I was trying to sleep. So it’s like midnight and I’ve just had this world breaking thought that immediately had me spiraling down two trains of thought: Im going to hell for thinking that, and, what if he isn’t what the fuck. So of course I’m freaked out and I’m pretty sure child me needed a fucking hug or some assurance or something, so I went to my parents room, which woke up my mom. At which point I realize, I can’t tell them my actual problem because it was a thought I was ashamed of having, and I didn’t want to run the risk of getting in trouble for some nebulous comfort that was frankly unfathomable cus my parents suck. So I just said felt sick, and took “sorry” my mam gave me as comfort enough (which in hindsight is not a great response to that), and just had to go back to bed with all that. That shit stuck with me. I remember at Sunday school, maybe months or a year later, when one of the teachers said doubt was put in our minds by the devil, I was so fucking relieved.
And there’s the fact that I didn’t know other religions were a thing. I didn’t know there were other blends of Christianity. I lived in a small town and I just had never been touched by that concept until I moved at 11, and one of our religious education modules was on Judaism. Everyone else was just learning customs and calendar stuff, and I was having a whole epiphany. I was so confused until halfway into the lesson, and I realized they were talking about not being catholic. I literally searched the library for a book that would explain this arcane concept. And it was just such a mind blowing experience. I was couldn’t comprehend why no one had ever mentioned other religions if there were so many. And how did it make any sense that there were so many. The differences aren’t subtle. Point is, it was a whole thing.
If I hadn’t moved I would have been made to do my confirmation that school year. And that’s not okay! The whole point of that sacrament is that you’re choosing Christianity, like your old enough and conscious enough to make that choice. Adult in the eyes of the church and all that. Baptism but leveled up. But they make children do it. Unrelated, but when I first learnt about it I was 8, and there was a girl in my class that never had to religion with us. Which was the weirdest thing to me at the time, because sure there were people that didn’t have to do Irish or English, because they had different first languages. But religion? I always found that so weird. But she literally just. Wasn’t catholic. And I just couldn’t conceptualize that. It didn’t occur to me that could be an option.
Jesus, raising kids with a religion is brainwashing of the highest order and no one can change my mind on that. Sorry for rambling at u, that post just made me think.
If I hadn’t moved I would have been made to do my confirmation that school year. And that’s not okay! The whole point of that sacrament is that you’re choosing Christianity, like your old enough and conscious enough to make that choice. Adult in the eyes of the church and all that.
my girlfriend said this exact same thing when i was forced to be confirmed. said it didnt count but tbh that feels like a cop out. like its something ive been forced to do, like a spiritual violation or something, it still happened. but, eh, whatever
Jesus, raising kids with a religion is brainwashing of the highest order and no one can change my mind on that.
not sure i agree with you here, but i can agree that a lot of the ways kids are raised within Christianity is cult-ish and brainwash-y and bad.
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okamiwind · 6 months
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writing meme
stolen from my best buddy @lilcrickee
Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason.
First ever published: you're the prize (i wish i'd won) EXO, kyungsoo/jongin lord almighty, it's almost been six years! how surreal is that. yeah, i had this idea for an enemies to lovers fic while watching parks and recreation. i dont know. it was one of those things that just absolutely compelled me. it's kaisoo bc i was reading a lot of kaisoo before jumping into the fandom. i look back on this one fondly, but i dont think i'm confident enough to reread it. might hurt my feelings lmao
Last fic published: i aim to be your eyes EXO, sehun/junmyeon my fuckin baby!!! still ongoing. probably will finish sometime in 2024. well. Crossing my fingers anyway. it's long and silly, but i love writing it. once i start reading over some part of it, i immediately feel like i need to add more to it. i love writing all the little characters and reading how people think things will end up. i still have yet to decide on the ending, but who knows, maybe i'll sopranos it.
Fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once: the million roads that lead to you MDZS, lan zhan/wei ying wrote this before even watching the live action. definitely not sure how it holds up. will almost certainly never write another fic for this fandom, but it was fun to write regardless!
Favorite fic you wrote in a fandom/ship that has the most works: in the blood haikyuu, keishin/ittetsu had no idea that haikyuu had more fics than any of my other fandoms. so it goes. it was interesting to see that nct has surpassed exo too. cwazy daisies. anyway, i love this fic, i think its kinda my masterpiece for haikyuu. i sometimes want to return to this pairing, but the lack of engagement sours my mood abt it a bit. i love writing it, but i feel like the more i shove it in people's faces, the less likely they are to read lol
Fic you wish more people read: lawyers, guns, and money EXO, sehun/baekhyun i thought this was a great little fic (she says, looking at the novel length word count) and i was really shocked that it didnt get more love. i mean, its fun, it's spacey, it's found family. i still really like a lot of the passages, i think they're very pretty. maybe i'll reread it myself since NO ONE ELSE WILL!
Fic you agonized over the most: chronos-826 EXO, sehun/junmyeon i can hardly remember the way this fest was run, but lord, i remember being irked. like there was noooo communication if you weren't on the discord, and i was like jeez, i know it said you could join but i didnt know it would be MANDATORY if you wanted information about the event lol. but yeah. despite all that, i really enjoyed writing this. and by enjoyed, i mean went insane. literally i felt like i was going crazy throughout the majority of it, and while the finished product is a lot different from what i had envisioned (something more along the lines of House of Leaves with that element of interactivity.... sigh) im still proud of what i managed to produce
Fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort: pilgrimage EXO, sehun/baekhyun yeah this fic was just so weird and like. Fantastical. it felt like it was dropped from god's hands into my brain. like i sat there and wrote the first 10k almost in a Flow state, didn't touch it for months, and then just banged out the rest like it was nothing. i doubt anything will ever come so easily to me ever again, but yeah. what a time to be alive!
Work you are proud of—for whatever reason: i write to you from the road and the red king's consort BOTW/TOTK, sidon/link i just think these are some really nice examples of my writing. idk. like i think they accomplish what they seek to accomplish, i think they're stylish and pretty, i think they have a lot of earned emotional weight to them. Just some nice fics by me imo. anyway. that's it.
anyone who follows me is free to follow in my meme-ing footsteps but i would like to tag @fff777 and @deepbutdazzlingdarkness to see their answers as well :3
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Being Franks Daughter in Hawkins pt 15
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Gif Caption: Top Gif: Steve Harrington from Netflix's Stranger Things Bottom Gif: Deadpool from Marvel
Reader: female reader | 18-19
A/n: sorry guys I've been goin down hill, but I think im back
Warnings: Mentions of nudity but nothing explicitly
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With the kids day running out, you took them back to the bus, watching them get on.
Waving to them all one last time, you went to find your bike.
"Hey! Hey!"
Y/n paused as she watched Steve in his little salior outfit run her way.
"Hey." He spoke, calming down from the run.
"Hey." She smiled.
"...hi..."
Y/n chuckled, "come on my rides this way. We can walk and talk."
The two started walking, Steve clearly at a loss for words.
"So icecream scooper?" Y/n asked.
"Huh? Yeah." He murmured, then chuckled, "Not exactly the dream job."
"What happened to college?" Y/n asked.
"Minds change all the time." He answered shrugging the idea of college off.
Y/n smiled, "yeah. They do."
He smiled back, swinging his arm loosely back and forth as they walked.
"How long have you been in town?" Steve questioned.
"a full day maybe." Y/n answered, "Making rounds. Stopping inbetween....ya know."
Steve nodded, wanting to ask about who she was hanging out with at in the book store across from Scoops Ahoy. It surely wasnt his busniess, but he wished to know how that relationship was going. After all the man next to her seemed close.
"So." He started, "how'd you like the mall?"
"Yeah it was cool." Y/n responded, "movie was kinda a bore. But I ran in with Eddie, told me about this music store he was goin too."
"Eddie Munson?"
"Yeah." Y/n spoke, "Seems me and him will be doin another year together."
"You didnt graduate in New York?" Steve asked, Y/n shaking her head no.
"Nah, lets just say I was bust getting my ass beat by vampires." She chuckled.
"Some how I know your not lying."
"I wish I was."
It was quick laugh between the two, Y/n stopping when they reached her bike.
"Wow." He aspirated watching her pull out her sunglasses.
"What?"
"Your...diffrent now." he told.
Y/n chuckled leaning on the seat of her bike, "Thought thats what made you kiss me the first time."
"It's not bad! Not at all!" He quickly answered, Y/n smiling at him and his quick words.
"You. Look diffrent. But your still the same."
Y/n chuckled at his words, "and whats so diffrent looking?"
"You're hair...chlothes..." he responded looking over her, "ride...your taste in...guys?"
He was worried when he said his last bit, Y/n nodding her head up and down, "Guess my style did change a bit...It seems I still like dirty blondes though. Maybe light browns."
"I think I fit that category pretty well."
Y/n nodded, "yeah. You do."
The tensions thicker than molasses as Steve rubbed the back of his neck.
Your guys break up, wasnt. Exactly a break up.
Not like most couples. You had a right to have such a fear, and worry. Though the giant gap between the two of you was months apart.
He had ignored you, avoided you
And he didnt chase you, despite his need to and you didnt chase him due to your own expirence, chasing never worked out in the end, no matter the realtion
"Look." He started, "I. I just wanna...squash anything between us."
Y/n nodded in understanding, "Yeah. If thats what you want."
He sighed in relief, "Great because I thought you'd be mad at me. And you have every right too dont get me wrong. After everything- and the argument-"
"Argument?"
"Yeah..." Steve started, "ya know...at the byers house. About the break up, I didnt exactly try and understand-"
"You're...apologizing to me....for what I did." Y/n corrected softly, an outloud realization, "I should be the one apologizing. I. I hid so much from you, when others knew...I've hid alot from you, And I never ment it out of mal-intent."
"I think we've both done that." Steve spoke, watching Y/n pulled out of pack of cigrattes, "hey."
She handed over the box, figuring he may want one, he took the box gently.
"Don't." He spoke, "Don't keep up with this."
He pulled the unlit cigratte from her lips, she sighing, "don't worry Im a big girl. I can handle it."
She pulled the cigratte from his hand, "there herbal, don't worry. Trust me. I got everyone addicted to smoking Mullin instead of tobacco."
He chuckled, "I guess you are already living in the woods. Should I get my witches hat?"
Y/n shook her head chuckling with an unlit cigratte between her teeth, she shuffling around for a lighter in her pocket.
"Fancy." He spoke.
Y/n lit her cigratte, handing it to Steve, "Russian. Stole it from Hydra."
She took a deep inhale and pulled the cigratte away breathing out the smoke, the smell, enjoyable, unlike cigrattes, "you didn't hear that from me though."
"Who doesnt want a herbal cigratte, lit from a hot girl on her bike, with a Secret Russian lighter." Steve spoke pulling one out, handing her the pack, she lighting the lighter and bringing it closer to him.
"Is that how Im viewed now?" Y/n asked.
"And she kicks some serious ass." Steve told, letting the edge of the cigratte set itself into the flame.
Y/n hummed, pulling the lighter back once Steve's cigratte was lit, she putting it back in her pocket, and attending to her own cigratte.
"Im goin to Macau. In an hour." Y/n started, "it'll be one am over there."
"Where's Macau?"
"China." Y/n told.
"How are you getting to China?" Steve chuckled, "Riding all the way there?"
Y/n shurgged, "yeah, but just trying to decide if Im gonna take you or the bike."
He coughed suddenly, shocked by her answer which caused her the laugh, "yeah. Don't worry Harrington, just teasin. Anyhow I have my ways of getting around the world now."
"Right...right..." he spoke, watching her get back on her bike, "I'll see you then?"
"Yeah." Y/n smiled, "oh. And you can invite a friend."
"Thought it be just me and you." Steve suggested.
Y/n chuckled, "god if thats how you ask girls out now. You must be glad you have those eyes."
"Your saying you like my eyes?" Steve asked.
Y/n shrugged, "I'd be lying if I said I wouldnt miss them."
He chuckled nervously, "How about. Tonight. Maybe six, seven? I'll take you anywhere you wanna eat. Or. You'll take me anywhere on your bike and get you dinner?"
"There it is." She responded.
He shrugging rubbing the back of his head, "can't help myself."
Y/n smiled, "yeah. That'd be nice."
"Cool..." he spoke, "see you later?"
"Yeah."
Fuck fuck fuck fuck
You drove home way quicker than you probably should of, rushing in the house, calling.
Well you paced around the house, staring at the phone.
Did you actually ever have a first actual date with Steve?
Alone?
No. Not really.
They always were with someone, except that one time on Halloween.
But things were. Childish then, bonding over candy more than less.
Dating without even going on a date together.
Thats pretty impressive when you really think about it
But meanwhile your tearing your room apart
Kate had stuffed a hand made dress in your bag, knowing you wouldnt wear it, but it was mostly for the art of the craft.
But it was wearable, so You were looking for it.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" Y/n shouted pulling through the few chlothes she had, she must've left the dress behind.
"Woah. Woah. Woah." Frank spoke, he must've just gotten back with Joyce, "Lets calm down on the fucks would we? What's the problem?"
"I lost a dress." Y/n spoke looking through her bag again.
"A dress?" Frank asked confused, why was she looking for a dress?
"Uh" y/n spoke, "yeah. Kate made it for me...its more of an art piece I was...gonna pin on the wall?"
He raised a brow at her, as she smiled nervously.
"So You can lie to me again and be oh so brutally grounded or-"
"Okay. I was gonna wear it!" Y/n told, "to..a. dinner"
"Dinner?" He asked crossings his arms, leaning on the door frame, "What dinner."
"Tonights dinner." Y/n spoke, "in...Im not sure where we're going yet."
"We?" Frank asked. "Who's we?"
Y/n was silent, "Steve?"
"Steve?" Frank probed, "you seem to know alot of Steve's."
"You know..." Y/n shrugged, "Hair King Steve."
"That dosen't narrow it down." Frank told.
"Harrington." Y/n informed nervously.
"Harrington?" Frank asked, "as in. Ex. Harrington-"
"In my defense." Y/n argued, "We didn't exactly break up due to horrible reasons."
"And you think this is a good idea?"
Y/n shrugged, "I. I really don't know..."
"How about weslow down and look through everyhting?" Frank offered.
You found the dress.
But the dress was too small.
It was ment to be just art.
Oh your so doomed.
But hey, Kates Embroidery work? Top tier.
"I've never been on a date!"
"He never took you on a date?" Frank argued.
"It was a complicated time." Y/n defended.
"Complicated my ass." Frank told.
Joyce thinks its really cute Frank helps you get ready for your first date.
Even though it shouldn't of taken this long to actually go on one. Especially with your Ex out of all things
You ended up scrapping the dress idea, you dressed in your nicest button up, which you tried to keep buttons open but was denied quickly by Frank
Fair enough
You were in debate of bringing the brown leather jacket.
So you hung it up and left it
Just to back track and grab it. Its a good luck charm plus you bled in the thing its yours now more than anyones.
So. Dressed, and read, with those nice shoes from that dinner oh so long ago, you're ready.
You say goodbye and start to leave but he stops you,
"Don't be afraid to beat his ass."
She chuckles, "I won't."
"Love you."
"Love you too."
So you drive yourself to Steve's house, it dark as you make your way.
You're at his house fairly quickly, checking yourself in a pocket mirror given to you by Pepper
You go and knock on the door. Yet no one answers.
You wait a few before knocking again
"The doors open!" Steve calls as loud as he can from his room, he rushing to get ready.
Y/n opens the door, "Hello?"
"Up here!"
Y/n walks in carefully, closing the door behind her. As she looks around.
"Steve!?"
"In my room!"
Y/n follows the instructions, making her way up the steps to find Steve's room, the music playing drawing her closer.
She made it to the open door, she standing in the doorway while he fixed his hair.
"Hey." She spoke up.
"Hey." He smiled looking back at her, "wow...you. look great."
"Thanks." Y/n smiled, "You dont look to bad yourself..."
It was silent as they stared at each other.
"Oh uh- Yeah! Thanks." Steve spoke up, "thanks...I just have to put my shoes on...went a little longer at work than I should have."
Y/n watched as Steve sat on his bed, he pulling on his shoes with ease, and lacing them up.
"Where did you wanna go?" Steve asked, "I know some places around Hawkins. That are good."
He grabbdd his coat on the end of the bed, the two walking out the room.
"Mhm...Im up for some Cuban food."
"Cuban?" He asked.
"Yeah.' Y/n asked, "Or Vegas Food. Maybe something in Louisiana? New Orelans? French food perhaps? Or...I have the best idea."
He really thought you were joking till you pulled out the sling ring, and opened a portal
"Woah-"
"I know right. Come on." Y/n spoke, on the other side of the portal, he still shocked, "To get here you have to come through the portal."
"Oh. Right."
He walked through the portal.
"Welcome! To Egypt!" Y/n cheered the two in an alley way where no one was.
"Fuck you!"
Y/n sighed.
"YOU'RE DATE LOOKS WEAK! LIKE A BUG NEED THAT NEEDS TO BE SQUASHED!"
"I regret making a pack with him ya know..." Y/n mummbled.
"A pack with who?" Steve asked they walking through the alley way.
"Khonshu." Y/n asked, "God of the moon. Hero stuff."
He "ah'd" as they walked from Alley way to the busy street, it dark out, the day just beginning.
"Woah....' Steve aspirated.
Y/n smiled, "Pretty sweet huh? I know it's early here. But they've got some killer food. No matter the time. Come on."
He looked over at her, she walking away casually. Steve quickly catching up, "Hey what happened to not being a hero."
He got you there,
The two of you walked for a bit, you stopping to get two coffees at a small stand, and carried on your way.
"Like it?"
"Mhm." Steve hummed drinking his cup both wanting to savorit yet down it all in one go.
"Good." Y/n smiled, walking into a small corner Restraunt.
"Y/n! My dear! My dear!" The man cheered, "You bring me another superhero to feed! Sit sit! Please!"
The two take there sears, Y/n smiling, "How are you Mr.Saleh?"
"Great! Wonderful!" He cheered, "You and Marc. Taught me English. Now Tourist want to come and eat! Here!"
Y/n smiled, food being brought over before Y/n even ordered it.
"The best! For the best!" He cheered, "Fresh! Just made!"
"Thank you very much Mr.Saleh." Y/n thanked, "It looks great."
"Go on! Eat! Eat!"
With another thank you, Y/n started eating.
"Come on eat." Y/n told.
"What is it?"
"Food." Y/n explained, ripping up her flat bread, "Jusf try it here."
Handing him the ripped up peice of bread he watched her with her own bowl, she using the bread as a spoon.
He soon copied her, despite his fear on not knowing what he was eating. Y/n watched as Steve tested out the food.
"Mhm.." he hummed in thought, yet it soon turned happy as Y/n chuckled.
"Good?"
"Mhm. Amazing." He cheered, "What is this?!"
"Fava beans, and Olive Oil. Mr.Saleh wont tell me the spices he usues." Y/n smiled, "secret recipe just like the bread."
"Its amazing."
It was always entertaining to watch people be so shocked by different food.
And it always made for good conversation, especially so early in the moring over breakfast and coffee.
You both had finished your coffee from the small cart and Mr.Saleh brought over fresh coffee for the both of you
He was glad another American Hero was enjoying his food.
But you tried to tell him, but he was too worried about you being hungry, telling you both to eat.
You and Steve had a good time, just talking back and forth about small things, catching up on what was happening during the eight month break
He told you about college, cutting the idea and what he was making at scoops ahoy
He was more excited to hear about you, and superheros
You felt so lonely even if you were surronded by teammates and heros, parties by Stark
It just wasnt the same as Hawkins, and you told him that.
"Also. I havent been the most open...in the past." Y/n responded.
"You had good reason." He spoke grabbing her hand that sat on the table, "I just think alot was goin on. When we started dating."
Y/n chuckled looking down at the there hands, "Yeah. There was."
She rubbed over his hand with her thumb.
"Maybe. We could. Start over?" Steve suggested, "If you wanted. Dont feel pressured-I totally understand if you got with someone in New York, Or...in space....Even here- well. Over in Hawkins- Munson seems to like you-"
He sighed, "My point is."
Y/n raised a brow, "Point is?"
"I." He started, "Never stopped..ya know...looking at you like you were..."
Y/n listened, unsure if she should push him to finish his words.
"Like...Like Im seeing you plow over boys in basketball for the first time..." he explained.
Y/n chuckled shortly, looking down at her plate.
"Like the first time I fell in love with you."
You were quiet, and even nervously chuckled
You had explained to him in the past, it was hard to say those words, despite how much you really wanted too.
"Yeah Im. Im sorry-"
"No. No!" Y/n stopped him, "I. Rather you tell me your feelings than keep me wondering."
He smiled nervously, both plates empty, "are you gonna keep me guessin or?"
Y/n chuckled, the two catching each others eye. Y/n breaking the gaze to look at her fingers.
"Steve...I..." Y/n started, "I'm..."
She sighed, "Im still worried."
"For what?" He asked concerned.
"That Im gonna get you hurt." Y/n responded, "Then again its hard to stay away from you."
That made his face warm, and his ears flush, "Guess your my heel." She explained.
"Heel gaurds do exist." He mentioned causing her to laugh.
"They do. Dont they?" Y/n smiled a hand coming up to her face, where it curled and covered her mouth, her thumb rubbing just under her bottom lip.
"Whattya say?'" Steve asked, "to..starting over-"
Y/n leaned over the table, lifting from her chair kissing Steve softly. Her lips pushed against his softly, calmness in her still self. He closed his in response, how he longed to feel her lips against his own after all that time.
She pulled away, sitting back down in her seat.
"Wow..." Steve whispered, "You taste just like breakfast."
Y/n laughed in response, "Thats a good thing! Trust me!"
She could only contuine to laugh as he smiled.
That was the best god damn breakfast dinner you had and will ever have you think
You paid Mr.Saleh with a profound thank you and that you two would definitely come back sometime soon.
You and Steve took a walk through the streets, people finishing up setting up there booths for the day as the sun rised.
You two laughing and joking, holding hands tightly as you wandered through the open stands.
You tried new things- well. Steve did. You had spent a time here forced by *cough* steven *cough* once upon a time, all in good...learning fun...yay....learning whike you get your ass kicked.
But in that response you had tried many foods and learned new cultural things
So you were happy to share such a thing with Steve
And he was happy to learn, especially from you
Watching your smile grow as you pointed out new fruits to him, explain how simple day to day culture was
You two spent a few hours in the markets, he realized you had connections just about everywhere.
You even took him to the Egyptian pyrimds, which he enjoyed
Not that he knew there were most likely litteral gods in there.
But soon enough you two made your way back through the portal, you both back in his room.
You gotta admit its pretty funny watching him dump his shoes of sand into the trash.
"Well...Im gonna head out now." Y/n spoke quietly, "It was nice...ya know...catchin up."
He chuckled lightly, "Yeah. Yeah it was."
Y/n smiled small, "So. I'll see you-"
"Why don't you stay the night." He cut in, "if you want! You don't have too..."
"I don't wanna get you in any trouble."
"Dads on another bussniess trip." Steve commented, "mom doesnt trust him ya know..."
Y/n chuckled, "Heaven forbid."
Steve smiled, looking down at his hands, "We could...do whatever..."
"Yeah. I'd love to stay." Y/n smiled, "I. Don't have any chlothes though-"
"Don't worry about it. I got it." Steve told her, "repayment for dinner."
Y/n nodded
It was an akward few mintues until you both settled down.
Simple talking back and forth before you both asked each other the "Will you date me" question
It was comidic actually, you talking over one another just to end up asking the same question.
It also settled things down, akward tension, diminished.
And the eye catching starts...
Shortly catching each other's gaze as you sat next to one another on the bed.
Then its moring all the sudden.
And neither of you want to get up.
That was until the one and only came through a portal waking you up.
"Y/n. We have a-"
Y/n looked to the side, still have asleep, but fully awake once she realized who was standing there.
"Woah! Woah! Get out!" Y/n defended, waking Steve up.
"Seriously?" Stephen asked.
"Yes!"
"Dude. Why are you in my house?" Steve asked, still half sleep.
"Why are you naked with my niece in your bed?"
"Stephen!" Y/n argued.
"Honest question." Stephen asked, "It's natural. Phermons and-"
"Stop." Y/n told, "what do you want man?"
"Matt Murdock went Missing." Stephen added.
"What?" Y/n asked sitting up, holding the cover to her chest, "when?"
"Last night." He told, "he's not the only one. The Midnight Sons have gone missing. Including you're father."
"What? No." Y/n told, "I seen him yesterday. Who's stupid enough to kidnap Frank fucking Castle anyways."
"I talked to Mrs.Castle-"
"Turn around." Y/n told Stephen he doing so with a sigh as Y/n got up to dress, Steve following her in dressing, "and if you're talking about Joyce. It's Byers."
"Any how." Stephen told, "There's a list of superhero's. Roggers, Romonaff, Stark. The list goes on."
"In the middle of the night then?" Y/n responded buttoning her jeans, "Why not you? Mr.Sorceer Supreme."
"It's unknown."
"Alright then who's not gone missing?" Y/n responded.
"That I know of?. Well-"
"Ah! Y/n!" Loki cheered walking through the portal, "you're dressed poorly. That shirt is hideous."
"It's...Steve's. Steve."
"Hi, I'm Steve. Steve Harrington." Steve introduced he walking around to shake Loki's hand.
"Hm. Makes sense." Loki stated.
"O. M. G did you two fuck!"
"And...him..." Stephen sighed.
"Like little jack rabbits. I bet you tried to kill him first. Le Gasp! Enemies to lovers! I did not see that coming!" Deadpool laughed then leaned towards Stephen, "Can I stab him first-"
"Shut up-" Stephen argued smacking Wade on the back of the head.
"Ow! Hey you know that hurt!" Wade argued, "You and your little shit stain slap hard."
Y/n raised her brow.
"Getting back on topic-" Stephen defended, "we need you to stay in contact. Here is a list. I've looked it over, seems everyone your close to is on that list."
Y/n was handed a rolled paper Stephen had pulled from his sleeve, opening it. He was right.
"Peters not on here. Neither is Kate Bishop." Y/n responded.
"I was luckily enough to get to them before whatever took our friends took them." Stephen added.
It was devisitating: Bruce? Missing. Wanda? Missing Thor? Missing? Missing missing missing.
"Russo..." Y/n mummbled.
"Do you have anyone. Enemies? Rivals?" Stephen asked.
"No. Russo maybe. But he couldn't take everyone on." Y/n responded, "I mean he can go toe to toe with Frank maybe...but alot of the Avenger's? No. No too many at one, too different in fighting styles.."
Stephen ended pulling you away to New York
And Leaving Steve alone.
"Y/n!"
"I'll come back I promise-"
"In ya go lover girl." Deadpool shouted picking up Y/n.
"Hey! Wait! Dude!"
"No time for face fuckin!"
"Wade! Wade put me down!" Y/n argued.
"Lets fuck up the universe first Mrs.Harrington!"
"No! No! No! Im not married! Im not a Harrington-"
But the portal closed leaving Steve there alone.
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agressivelyaro · 3 months
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hi!! so ive been identifying as aro for about three years now, and im a freshman in college in need of advice.
i met this girl 2 or 3 weeks ago and weve been meeting up a bunch (6 times now). she more than likely has a crush on me (weve been doing very romantic-coded things like a sunset picnic/stargazing, coffeeshop, dinner, etc) and shes said a lot of things that are prob flirting (calling the view pretty while looking at me, making me a hozier playlist, taking me to a coffeeshop that reminds her of me and saying that it could be “our place,” texting winky faces, joking about how im the crowley to her aziraphale and the reputation to her lover, you get the idea)
the problem is: now i’m questioning whether or not im actually aro. im at the very least arospec, theres no way im not, i just cant figure out if i like her or not. i got really flustered and kinda excited when i first realized she might like me like that, but i also just went through a really traumatic friend breakup and im not sure if me being excited about it is just me searching for validation after what happened or is me actually reciprocating. also since ive only been in college for a few months, i dont know if this is just me wanting to try new things or me actually liking her like that.
i want to figure out how i feel soon before she actually starts explicitly calling us hanging out dates so im not leading her on. i dont want to tell her just yet bc i dont want her to immediately take it as a rejection, but im terrified of leading her on or making her feel like im using her as an experiment. any advice on how to figure out if im feeling romantic attraction or really strong platonic attraction?
sorry this was so long im so confused 😭
hello I'm so sorry if this has been sat in my inbox for ages, I didn't notice I got it!!
I think that fundamentally I can't tell you how you feel, but I can suggest things to consider what it might be
first off, I'm not sure if this is a term, but it could be something similar to comphet? someone likes you romantically, so you could be forcing yourself to feel like you reciprocate out of guilt or just inbuilt expectations. you could be having butterflies, but in reality if you actually ended up in a relationship with this person you could feel uncomfortable.
You could also be enjoying the time spent together as friends. although they're not as common nowadays, in the past I've heard terms like "squish" for friendship crushes or stronger platonic feelings than is typical for people
it could be purely physical attraction, it could be like you said. It also could be genuine, romantic attraction
It's good that you're reaching out to me, but this is an issue you need to sit with and figure out yourself. I'm sorry I can't help more but I hope you get everything figured out. good luck <2
if anyone else has any thoughts feel free to add on + I'll rb so hopefully they see it. I'm a little out of my depth here haha
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yazpadfoot · 1 year
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Hey so not entirely sure I'm doing this right but I'm going to try! Heheheh :)
Ok so could you do the 'bright as sun' on your headcannon post and use either the romantic or platonic relationship, whichever works better, maybe even both?
Idk where to start cuz it's hard to sum people up in a few words (especially myself hehe) and that's cuz humans are really complex and awesome :D
I really love plants and nature, I would spend all of my time outdoors building tree forts and observing moss (as long as it's warm enough outside) and I just generally enjoy plants and mushrooms and really anything green/nature-y.
I'm very sensitive to emotions so I feel them extra strong and have really high empathy (which has it's positives and negatives). I try my best to be the kindest version of myself cuz there is so much horrible shit in this world. This kinda leads to me staying strong and acting positive to support the people in my life who need it even when i'm struggling (a lot rn actually 😭). The world can be such an amazing and magical place, and god I do my best to see the beauty in it and give out beauty back.
I have a weird relationship with food but I absolutely love breakfast. I have a fucking huge earring collection (like 100 pairs and they are all like dangling goofy lil things). I have two ways to dress and it's either a casual outfit that's sweatpants and a sweatshirt or I'm wearing a flowy dress. Also my room have like every piece of wall covered with something either stickers, quotes, poster, picture, drawings, lights, and I love it cuz visual clutter is really cool. Also my favorite feeling is being wrapped up in blankets on my bed (possibly cuddling someone) scrolling through tumblr with nothing else I need to be doing.
Umh the character I relate to the most is James (I actually kinda look like him cuz of my hair and glasses) and my favorite ship rn is jegulus & marylily cuz of all those rich dynamics :D
Anyway! Thank you for taking your time to read this! You seem pretty cool so im following you now heheheh. I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day/night :))
Hey :)
After reading your ask, I decided to do both platonic and romantic relation ship.
Platonic relationship - I think you would be bestie with Remus and Lily. Of course, you would be friends with other marauders, but these two would be your closest friends. You first time became really close, when you joined them in study group, 'cause you had some problems with writing homework (or you just wanted to study with them). Your friendship is based on doing little things for each other. Lily would come with you outdoor to just spend time with you. I really like that part when you wrote you love breakfast - I think this is thing you and Remus have in common. Like you chat together about food and all this stuff. I think you would have really beautiful relationship with them.
Romantic relationship - for some reason I see you with Pandora. She always had the ability to find person who is special. You weren't really friends before, like you talked once or you said hi to each other, but first time you really started talking was when she saw you in corridor helping some first year student. She always knew you are kind, but when she saw you there, she felt something telling her that you are really good person. She walked to you and started talking to you and offered to walk you to your class. Later she started talking to you everyday and always walked you to your class. After month spending time together, she asked you on date. You went to Hogsmeade. You had really good time and you started dating. I think your relationship is based on spending time together and doing things together. Like she always watch you building tree forts or she helps you with it. Also, you two spend time with your friends and everybody thinks you are such a cute couple!
I really hope you like this! <3
Have a nice day xxx
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sonicenvy · 1 year
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so i decided to learn to crochet and my mom and i had an argument about it, which in retrospect was 50% funny and 50% depressing.
i was like just vibing crocheting a shitty scarf as my first project (as one does) and my mom was all like "you're wasting your time doing this and procrastinating on things that you need to do" (sidenote it is like 8:00 PM during this conversation lmao).
im all like "oh? why?" and she goes "well you can just buy a scarf from the store for like $10."
personally i think that this crocheting for me is a lot like pottery in that it is more about the practice of making than about the object itself. i am "getting my hands dirty" with a real, tangible and useful object. this is like the opposite of wasting my time playing video games or dicking around on tumblr dot com or something. i find making stuff and things, especially practical simple items kinda spiritual actually and i feel this sense of connection with the past and with our ancestors when i make stuff. plus when i use a thing that i made in my day to day life, like having a bowl of soup i made from scratch in a simple green bowl that i made with toast i made from bread i made from scratch on simple plate i made i feel things. there's something magical and wonderful about simple useful things and making idk.
that said, like no matter what i said she just ... didn't get it and insisted that doing this is a waste of my time. #momfinallyundestandhobbies2023
we circled around to the "you have nothing to show for yourself despite being out of college for almost 4 years" argument which was fun and the "you did nothing this week".
which. like. i painted 3 doors on monday. i had CANCER removal surgery on tuesday. i went to work for 7 hours on wednesday and taught a group of children how to make paper snowflakes. today i finished some overdue online work training modules, went to the doctor and had blood drawn and then went to the craft store to buy replacement buttons for a dress im rehabing and then went to the grocery. i also worked on figuring out what was wrong with a broken family heirloom camera that i inherited. and i did crochet. so. like. i didn't do nothing this week. sure i slept the back half of the day on tuesday and overslept (in til 9AM) today, but like. i am in a lot of pain (between 5/10 and 6.5/10) from a burned hole in my head with stitches. so uh. yeah.
idk i think that the fact that im not dead (and still employed, if part time) despite months of extreme fatigue and crippling depressive episodes, lots of shitty death and family drama, and oh. yeah. fucking CANCER. TWICE, is actually pretty good. idk. maybe thats just me.
anyways 2021-2022 have been big ass FML years and i just want it to stop. god if you're real you're a bitch.
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