#i cried while making this nbd

[7ndipity]

Them With An Autistic S/o

Ot7 x Reader

Summary: How the members would handle/react to their S/o being on the spectrum.

Warnings: Mentions of sensory issues, feeling over/under stimulated, depression, meltdowns, stimming.

A/N: Thanks to the lovely anon who requested this! This is a list I’ve actually wanted to write for a while, but I’d been slightly nervous/unsure about it. But as someone who’s also on the spectrum, I know how much comfort similar posts from other blogs have brought me! I also tried to keep this one a bit lighter, since someone asked for a separate list about meltdowns/shutdowns, but if there’s any specific reactions/hcs like this that you guys want, let me know! (Please note that these are based off my own knowledge/experience, so I’m sorry if they don’t fit for everyone)

Masterlist

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Jin:

I feel like he’d be slightly confused and worried at first because he’s not sure what to do/how to help you, but once you explain a bit more, he gets a lot more comfortable, and really is such a good caregiver when he needs to be.

Catches onto your different stims pretty quickly and what each one means.

Like, y’all have whole conversations solely through funny little hums and stim noises.

Really good at reading and matching your mood/energy. You wanna talk about the Mayans nonstop for two hours? Cool! You want to just sit silently and do nothing? Also cool!

He’s really good at normalizing your symptoms and making them seem like nbd(because to him, they aren’t) Food sensitivities? He’s got them too! You hate loud noises and crowds? Same Honey, let’s get the fuck outta here! He knows they’re not quite the same thing, of course, but if it makes you feel more comfortable and safe being your true, unmasked self with him, then that’s all that matters to him.

Really good at calming you down when you feel overwhelmed or on the verge of meltdown.

Does his absolute best to bring your mood up whenever you’re struggling or feeling really down, pulling out his best dad jokes(even if they don’t make sense to you), bringing your favorite snacks, etc.

Yoongi:

I think he would handle it really well. Does his research after you tell him, and asks you about it casually during dates/hangouts.

So fucking respectful of your boundries. If you prefer to have your own space, he’s totally fine letting you do your own thing. If you need more closeness and cuddles, he’s all over that too, letting you sit right next to him while he works.

Not only lets you rant about your special interests, but makes the effort to take interest in them and asks questions. Randomly buys you little things related to them.

He’s so calming and soothing when you’re feeling stressed or overstimulated, understanding whenever you randomly need rest or quiet time(stress nap buddies)

Keeps things like extra sunglasses and headphones in his bag for you, just in case you forget yours.

Would have a lot of fun if you have audio stims, letting you listen to his new songs because your reactions and enthusiasm are so cute to him. Makes you panning audios as gifts.

Always there to look out for you whenever executive dysfunction decides to kick your ass. Washes the dishes, doing the laundry, restocking your safe foods, etc. He would also be really good at body doubling.

Hobi:

I honestly think he would be really good with an S/O on the spectrum. Like, he literally designed Mang, who is soo ND coded like omg😭, so I think he would be able to understand you really well.

(if you haven’t seen the videos of him talking about Mang’s personality and character traits during the re-design process last year, pls go watch them, I almost cried)

Loves buying you new fidgets and stim toys whenever he finds new ones to try(he even has a collection of chewlery that he wears bc he thinks they’re neat).

Is really good reading you and distracting you when you start to get overstimulated or anxious, sometimes noticing before you do.

Lowkey protective over you in spaces and situations he knows are stressful for you, positioning himself next to you whenever he spots things he knows bother you.

You know how Yoongi described him as a vitamin? That’s how it is for you now too.💛

He’s so stimmy himself, so he would find a lot of your stims really relatable and endearing. Like, if you start happy stimming, he can’t help but join right in, bouncing or squealing with you. It makes him so happy that you feel comfortable enough with him to share those parts of yourself with him.

Namjoon:

Instantly super supportive when you told him, making an effort to research on his own, as well as listening to your personal experiences to understand as much as possible.

Happily sits and lets you info-dump about your special interests. He honestly loves seeing you so passionate and animated about whatever you’re talking about and loves getting a glimpse into how your mind works(it was probably during one of these moments that he realized he was in love with you)

Surprisingly good pebbler, he’s always finding cool rocks or shells for your collections.

Doesn’t mind speaking for you on days when you’re nonverbal.

The sweetest when you’re feeling overstimulated. He closes all the curtains to make it dark and cozy and sits with you, talking as softly as needed or not talking at all, tapping your hand gently now and then to let you know he’s still there.

Soo protective over you, almost to a fault at times. Like, you might have to scold him once or twice about babying you, but he really doesn’t mean to, he just wants to make sure you’re safe and happy.

The world feels a lot less scary tho with him next you. You know if you need anything, he’s got your back.

Jimin:

The softest boi🥺 He was honestly a little scared when you first told him, because he didn’t want to do anything wrong and was worried he wouldn’t be ‘good’ at looking after you, but he quickly relaxed and grew more confident as he learned more from you.

The best comforter when you’re feeling overwhelmed or depressed, full of quiet reassurances and long hugs(if you’re okay with those). He’ll gladly cuddle with you under your weighted blanket for however long you need to feel better.

Literally set up a little “nest” for you at his place with a like beanbag chair and your favorite types of blankets/pillows, so you have your own place to just ‘be’ and recoup when you need it.

Carries fidget toys and sensory aids like sunglasses and headphones with him at all times, just in case you need them.

Really good at communicating with you on days when you’re nonverbal, whether through texts or little notes(which he always adds little doodles on to make your smile😊)

Makes sure you never feel guilty or like a burden to him for letting him in on those tougher days. If anything, they make him love you even more because of the trust you have in him.

It really makes him feel so proud and happy inside that you find so much comfort in his presence and that he gets to take care of you.💜

Taehyung:

Another that I think would be particularly good with a neurodivergent S/O. Like, everyone jokes about how he’s weird, so I think he’d love that you’re both your kind of own unique kinds of ‘weird’.

Happily rewatches your favorite comfort shows/films with you, and speaks in fluent film quotes with you.

Loves when you fidget and stim with his hands or fingers.

If you like pressure stims, he’s a dream come true. Like, the man’s a living weighted blanket, so when you basically give him a doctor's note for cuddles? He’s never gonna let you go.

As relaxed as he might come across sometimes tho, he’s super observant of your stims and triggers and takes it so seriously whenever you start feeling overwhelmed or stressed.

It doesn’t matter where you are or what you’re doing, if you need a break, he’s getting you to a quiet place where you can sit and just recalibrate.

Rivals Jin and Yoongi for top spot in the acts of service department on your bad days, making sure you eat properly, doing any household chores that need done. He even learned how to wash your weighted blanket so you don’t have to.

Jungkook:

Was definitely a little lost and overwhelmed when you first explained everything to him, but he really takes it in stride and tries to learn as much as possible to help make things easier for you where he can.

The King of comfort squeezes. Like you’ve seen his arms, he gives the best hugs, I just know it(especially on those “the weighted blanket isn't enough, I need a hydraulic press” days)

Loves learning about your special interests. Like, It’s no longer just your special interest, it’s our special interest. He’s even studying and finding things for it on his own to surprise you with.

Honestly plays with some of your fidget toys more than you do, lol! You might even end up giving him a few of his favorites😊

Gets super happy and smiley whenever you get echolalia of his songs.

Another member of the protective squad, ain’t no bad stimuli getting to his baby if he can help it!

The gentlest with you when you're overstimulated or having a tough day. Anything you need, he’ll do without question. All he cares about is making sure that you feel safe and comfortable🥺

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[uwupissarozzieuwu]

Random (long lol) idea: After Fizz and Ozzie start more officially dating but kinda earlier on still of it being a solid thing Fizz ends up unexpectedly having a kind of worse than normal accident either at night right before they're about to go to bed or at some wacky wee (haha) hours of the morning and yeah Ozzie's seen it before, he's honestly seen him worse, but it's the first bad time since they were dating. And honestly it's nbd to Ozzie, he feels kinda bad for Fizz but like y'know things be like that but for Fizz, once he gets over the initial burst of anxiety when he can't make it and Ozzie sees him, it soon ends up being an oddly reassuring experience because of just how mundane it is with Ozzie starting a load of laundry while Fizz washes up a bit and he gives him a hoodie that shrunk down in the wash (that's still way large on Fizz) and that's really kinda it.

Ozzie's probably the first non fully casual relationship Fizz has let himself have since Blitz, who, while he is genuinely trying to improve now, I personally picture as having (unintentionally) been a really bad partner to Fizz even aside from causing the accident and Fizz having a lot of unrealized baggage about some things from it that Blitz would point out or complain about while they were together (like the effects of his intersex condition, the chronic pain from his hypermobility, his panic attacks, and at the end stages of their relationship the way his body was changed by the accident) and to contrast those unwarranted reactions of disgust and belittlement with Ozzie's supportive neutrality in the face of yet another inconvenient accident - idk I just think it could have a sort of quiet beauty about it lol

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I love this so much!!!!!

poor Fizz… he had gotten really defensive after his accident, kind of snapping at Ozzie, because he was so sad and embarrassed. But he stops when Ozzie’s… really nice. And not like, overbearingly nice. Just casual and calm and caring. This is the first time Fizz has ever gotten that kind of reaction to a bad accident, and really, the kindest anyone’s been to him.

he comes out of the shower, and when Ozzie hands him the too-big sweater, Fizz just cries and hugs him so tight. He feels so loved right now ;-;

#helluva boss #fizzarolli #intersex fizz #fizzarozzie #asmodeus #fizzmodeus #asmodeus x fizzarolli #ozzie #helluva boss asmodeus #helluva boss ozzie #the pissarolli blog

[affableanthropologist]

Hart siblings. <3

Vale Hart (left) was my character in our Spelljammer campaign. He was created from scavenged pieces of different creatures- an elven washerwoman, a dragonborn knight, a human, a deer, a dryad- by a person he knew only as Flower. She left very soon after his creation.

Months later, he and his party found Flower (aka Dr Viella) out in Doomspace. By then, he knew that she had personally killed the people whose body parts he inherited. He refused to talk to her (especially when she only called him 'Subject 12' and talked about him as a curiosity more than a person), until he learned that he had a sister- Viella's most recent experiment, Subject 36.

As a player, I hadn't known about Subject 36, and was so excited to meet her! Much like Vale she was a patchwork of different beings. She was a great artist, and dreamed of going out into the universe and finding more beautiful things to draw. However, Viella would never let this happen. Vale could see that his sister was only an experiment to their creator, but the plan to kill Viella was complicated by needing to get Subject 36 out of the way. She didn't know the truth and, since Vale discovering his origin had destroyed his sense of identity and plunged him into a depression, he thought it would be better for Subject 36 to never find out what a despicable person Viella was.

Vale and Subject 36 quickly bonded, in spite of Viella constantly chiding Vale for 'interfering with the experiment.' Eventually, after Viella's destruction, Subject 36 chose a name for herself: Robin Hart, now sharing her brother's surname.

At the end of the adventure, Vale gave up his life to save the others (and multiple planets....nbd!), and his last thoughts were of Robin. My DM narrated a little epilogue, where the party carried out Vale's promise to find new homes for some displaced species, and Robin lived on Toril for a while. Eventually though she felt the call of the stars, and joined the crew in their space adventures!

While I was sad to lose Vale (READ: I cried for half an hour after the session), I love Robin a lot. She was an important NPC to me and my character, and that last note about her joining the crew felt too perfect. My DM agreed to let me play her as my PC when we resume gaming in that world later this year.

I'm excited to be able to continue with the Hart siblings. I had originally planned to make Robin a bard, but since it's a one-on-one campaign playing a support character could feel a bit meh. So now I'm thinking she'll be a wizard, using her paintbrush as her spellcasting focus and painting her spells.

#vale hart #robin hart

[dailytedbecca]

ted & rebecca + saving each other 

#tedlassoedit #tedlassogif #bbelcher #userstream #chewieblog #cinemapix #tvandfilm #ted lasso #rebecca welton #tedbecca #ted x rebecca #* #listen this could literally be a set of 400 gifs they save each other constantly #but these are like the big 5 to me #i cried while making this nbd

[niuxita21]

The NERVE of Leonardo to imply that Marcela looked anything but absolutely fine as hell during that “family lunch” like, “What did they feed you, garbage?” Nah, bro, she drank the tears of her enemies for breakfast, that’s why her skin and her hair are flawless, next question.

#3% #marcela álvares #I guess this is a weekly thing now? #since I don't binge watch things I gotta make my own content as I go #anyway new favourite episode alert! #dat marcela backstory INJECT IT INTO MY SOUL #any episode that has me getting teary over a scene between marcela and her former supreme shitlord son is doing something right #the way she points the gun at him and begs 'come with me' barely above a whisper a thousand papercuts in my eyeballs would be less painful #and how soft she was with her father even though you know he probably made her feel like she wasn't good enough on the daily #and as if all that weren't enough that final shot of nair sitting alone in the dark while everyone else evacuates to the continent #NBD I'M FINE #the finale is gonna absolutely DESTROY ME isn't it? #I don't know if I'll ever be ready for that *cries* #shitty screencap posts (TM)

[ultracaramela]

What are your top five favourite Xie Lian moments?

Oh noooo, did you ask me this fully prepared for the novella I’m gonna write about dianxia? 😭

I’ll try my hardest to keep it short and sweet because you’re a little too mean for making me pick only 5???? I cannot even recall a moment with Xie Lian that didn’t take my heart away, like... HAVE U SEEN HIS HIGHNESS???

Anyway let’s not prolong my rambling and here we go (not in order because I just cant im so sorry!!!)

Book 4 XL’s “fuck you!” to Bai Wuxiang

This was just an epic turning point for him, I can’t explain well but this is how we as readers, were made aware that Xie Lian is different and how fucking amazing he is as a person. This is where the meaning of “body in abyss, heart in paradise” is fully manifested. We see here that no matter the trauma XL underwent, his heart remains good and for me, it felt amazingly good reading this and I felt like I was able to say a big “Fuck you!” to Bai Wuxiang as well!!

There are too many moments but every time heavenly officials refer to Hua Cheng as “your Crimson Rain Sought Flower/ Hua Chengzu” when speaking to XL.

NBD but it’s just adorable how XL doesn’t even correct them when they do this. He be like “yeah i know he’s mine, and what about it???”

I don’t think I’ll ever forget this line by dianxia. I would probably forget the exact quotes from the book, but not this one

Xie Lian’s deep understanding of human nature is very much exemplified here. His 800 years of roaming in the mortal realm isnt just for show, he learned a lot about how people are to be able to know how we change, how we rise and how we fall, but it is still “us” in the end. Reading this line was just sooo comforting to me

His Highness’ humor is just as sexy as the person himself. There’s plenty of examples like when he was being a tease with San Lang and went “who’s the most handsome god or ghost? Who’s the most powerful etc” but I always laugh at this part, it’s just ✨COMEDIC GOLD✨

Lastly, this part:

TEARS. Every fucking time. JUST TEARS.

“Won’t you stay?”—imma try explaining this without bawling but yeah. I love this bittersweet moment because I feel like for the first time in a while, Xie Lian wanted something. For so long, he never wanted anything, nor desired something to be his. He was okay with people coming and going, riches, comfort, pain, it all comes and goes for him and in 800 years, he’s learned to accept that. And then, San Lang came. It warmed my heart incredibly knowing that our highness has found happiness (though he had to leave a while) but the realization hit my heart so so much. It healed and broke my heart at the same time.

Honorable Mention: because y’all know this has to be one of the top moments EVER

Thank you for this ask @professionaltrashsstuff !!! I cried a little bit because I feel like I missed a lot of moments but also I kinda miss them (like the feeling of wanting to forget the book so that I could feel everything like it’s new???) but I enjoyed this ask soooo much!! T_T ❤️

#tgcf #xie lian #hua cheng #tian guan ci fu #hualian #heaven official's blessing #tgcf spoilers #tgcf meta #asks

[mettywiththenotes]

320 bits I wanna talk about

Iieda looks like he’s doing the *inhale* before the BOI IF YOU DON’T- meme. Something along the lines of “BOI IF YOU DON’T GET YOUR ASS BACK TO UA-” kind of thing lol.

He holding something in definitely. Maybe charging up for an attack? Idk but he sure seems concentrated

Actually, Iieda seems kinda considering. Maybe he’s weighing up if he should join in the fight, as if he’s asking “Will I have to fight Midoriya, if it comes down to it? Or can the others handle this?” Something tells me he doesn’t want to have to weigh in on the fight. Maybe tear into Izuku verbally, but fight? No I don’t think he wants to do that

But also, I find it interesting that that black panel of text is under him and then it cuts to Bakugou yelling at Izuku. I mean, it could very well be Bakugou thinking that, but if that’s so, then why is Iieda the first person we see?

So, I think it’s Iieda thinking that. Tensions are rising, it seems. I’m expecting his turn to be full of a lot of emotion, or at least trying to get across to Izuku that he feels betrayed but mostly just wants Izuku to come back home.

I don’t really know what’ll happen with Iieda exactly, but I’m totally interested to see what happens

I know Bakugou has problems with his emotions and words and stuff, but I also think here he’s trying to anger Izuku in order to get him to fight back, maybe so he’s more angry than flexible in a fight, so the end result would be Izuku getting too angry to predict anything and eventually tripping up, and that’s when 1A could capture him.

The one thing to remember about Izuku is that allowing him to think is going to be the opponent’s downfall. We saw in the Kacchan VS Deku 2 fight that Bakugou knew this and so kept attacking as much as possible so Izuku wouldn’t have time to think. Which worked, because Izuku is great at analysis, so making his “Win” attitude [getting competitive therefore putting more energy into attacking than strategy] come out over his “Save” attitude [you’re my friend and I want to help you] is kind of a weakness of his. That’s kind of one of the reasons he lost that fight.

Then again, maybe Izuku has improved since then? I don’t really know but I think enough time has passed for him to have maybe improved more on that so idk we’ll see

I really love Bakugou’s expression in that bottom screencap lol

His wound!! All bandaged up!! I wonder if there’s a scar there or smthg :O

LET’S GET READY TO RUMBLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I know Enji or Bakugou probably gave them details about the multiple quirks but I still find it wild that everyone just knows now

KOUDA! MY SWEETHEART! I’m glad he’s getting a part in this too, along with Sero. Two of them who didn’t really hang around Izuku but still want him to come back :’)

Sero and Black Whip! Finally! I mean it’s not much but it’s still better than nothing

Also, seems like Sero is trying to taunt Izuku to get him to attack him maybe [same as Bakugou feeding into Izuku’s competitive side] soooo idk Sero following Bakugou’s lead? Maybe :)

Look at how,,,, innocent Izuku looks,,,,, *head in hands* AND SERO TEACHING HIM!!

I knew this lil moment would come bite me in the ass at some point, I knew and yet I’m still tearing up goddamn

That “I thought she was going to tell me its a useless hobby” bit really drives home how Izuku’s friends are 1A, that he loves them and they were the only friends he’s ever had [except Bakugou but he was a bully at the time so I’m not really gonna count him for back then]. HOW many people before UA had gone around and told Izuku his taking notes hobby was useless? SHOW me the people!

I, mettywiththenotes, will NOT allow anybody to slander one of my own!

I know it’s like the only moment Izuku and Ojiro shared, with the sports festival thing, but it’s still really sweet that Ojiro sees that Izuku stood up for him

*head in hands*

Shouldn’t this kid be more worried that he’s likely going to get kidnapped?

“Yeah this super evil villain guy has decided he wants to kidnap me and take me away, but like nbd guys really, that’s why I left in the first place! So I wouldn’t be a burden!” Somebody get this kid a fucking therapist or some shit

This is kind of a chilling and pretty scene though. The rain falling above Izuku and him looking down with these piercing green eyes likely being the only light between them. Good stuff.

Satou! Aha I like how he’s pulling all the stops, such as “I WON’T LET YOU BORROW MY INGREDIENTS FOR ERI!”

Also let’s appreciate that Satou caught Ojiro and Jirou and managed to land on a freaking traffic light. The balance on this kid! Very well done

Kaminari putting Izuku in a headlock! How cute :)

Be cuter if they weren’t trying to subdue a martyr-complex cryptid from killing himself, but still

Does Shouji have some kind of support-item?? Or could he always do the stretchy thing?? Or I guess maybe he’s just stretching his arms out like branches [like he usually does] and using them as more like a capture weapon rather than his usual stuff. I don’t think we’ve ever seen him use his heteromorph body and quirk for anything other than the 5 senses, though I could be wrong

Also Shouji remembering what Izuku said at the training camp, I’m so glad! Shouji always seems like the kind to be so protective over his friends, so I’m glad he remembered that. Then again, Izuku did compare them to freaking ALL MIGHT, but if the nice analytical kid in your class who knows your limits and strengths says you could basically beat A GOD, then that’s definitely one for the memory scrapbook lmao

“It’s nice and dark here, Dark Shadow.” Who said that?? Kami or Izuku?? I just have this mental image of Izuku being shrouded in darkness and trying to keep his eyes open from falling asleep haha

Tokoyami remembering that from all the way back then!! It makes me think that not only have Bakugou and Izuku been watching each other, but that Izuku has always had everybody’s eyes on him! Which is true, he’s inspired everyone! It goes both ways; Izuku loving his friends, and them loving him back :’)

Kami telling him to take a bath lmao I love it. Finally somebody said it

*ugly sobbing noises*

This kind of segment, with a mask falling, a space in-between and a reveal, reminds me of Compress’ reveal :) In that, the person is hiding their identity and then when the mask comes off, they reveal who they truly are underneath

While Izuku is of course determined to go after AFO and is quite the fearsome powerhouse, I really think when he takes off that mask, he’s showing who he really is underneath - a scared little boy who just wants everyone to be happy

JESUS, SHOUTO REALLY IMPROVED HIS QUIRK HUH!! LOOK AT IT, IT’S EVEN HIGHER THAN THE SKYSCRAPERS!!

“The burden placed on you... it doesn’t allow for tears, right?” He sounds so sassy here.

Kind of like saying “Oh you look upset. But that’s weird, I thought Heroes weren’t supposed to cry.” Lol it really shows here how pissed Shouto is at Izuku

But then he relents from that snark and is like “Hey, come on, we’ll share this burden. I’m not letting you go it alone, remember that we’re all here.” :’)

I love when Shouto is sassy and passive aggressive but I also love it when he shows that soft side of him

Okay, this is something I really love.

Tsuyu didn’t join the Bakugou Rescue Squad because “they would be just like Villains breaking the rules”

But here she is, learning from that regret of hers and coming right back to make sure Izuku isn’t the one struggling. She wants to be a part of this rescue squad and pick up where she left off :)

Tsuyu has always struggled with her regrets. It was shown after Kamino when she cried, but for me, I only realised this fully during the Joint Arc when she had her regrets about not making better decisions and not being quick enough [I think that was it].

“I won’t cry in such a flurry” reminds me of “I want to live a life without regret” and so that’s what she’s saying here. This won’t be another regret of hers. She wants to do her best to save her friend

“When scared, you’re allowed to tremble when it’s tough, you’re allowed to shed tears. That’s how you become a Hero like in the comics.”

I feel like that quote piggybacks off of Shouto’s “Heroes cry too”, in that, this is now 1A comforting Izuku. This is them fully coming up to him and telling him that they can help, and that he’s allowed to feel sad about his situation. Shouto’s quote was the teaser, while this entire chapter [and the rest that come to follow] is the main course.

And this is exactly who Tsuyu is. Reassuring, comforting, someone dependable. It says a lot that she’s come from not going to help in Kamino, confessing her feelings and crying about it, then coming back in a similar situation and offering her help - that she’s not willing to just let an opportunity go to better herself. I think I remember reading a few posts on her crying after Kamino and saying it was “performative” or that she just “wanted attention” or smthg like that, but I think she’s really just quite an honest person, and here she is making a great show of how she won’t let something like her guilt slow her down from being the hero she wants to be.

[A part of me feels like this is also a little more evidence with the whole People Not Caring About Bakugou’s Feelings Of Helplessness but like. I digress. It kinda counts but at the same time, it’s not what is going on at the moment.]

Seeing everyone try to reassure Izuku was lovely, and I can’t wait for the rest. I’ve seen a lot of people waiting more for Bakugou’s portion of the battle [AND YEAH DUDE ME TOO] but I really feel like Bakugou’s won’t come until like 2 chapters later or something.

Cause, if this chapter is anything to go by, we’ll probably get through Mina, Mineta, Kirishima, Hagakure and Aoyama next chapter, and then we’ll move onto the “more important” conflicts which will be Iieda and Uraraka, and if their segments are chocked with tension drama and tears, then Bakugou will have a whole chapter to himself hopefully.

Which means we’ll probably have to wait 2 more chapters until we get that sweet, sweet Bakugou chapter :( I hope I’m wrong and it comes sooner than predicted but whatever

I know for some people, that’s all they want, but personally I love these little bits that reflect on the background characters. As someone who isn’t really obsessed with the background characters but also likes them enough to appreciate their development/the little moments they have, I gotta say I really liked this :)

#bnha #bnha 320 #bnha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #class 1a

[imaginethathaikyuu]

How did I find your blog? I was looking for soft Kuroo content on google. And your soft birthday hc’s for him came up. And that’s also how I found tumblr

What was the first story of yours that I read? That Kuroo piece ^

Roughly, how long have I been following this blog? Well I found that piece shortly after it was posted so…. Around the beginning of December 2019 I think. Got a tumblr a few months later and you were the first person I followed (had you in my bookmarks bar before that! (still have you in my bookmarks bar and when I share my screen in classes there are occasionally questions. I ignore them))

What’s something I’ve noticed about you personality wise? You’re really clever and funny. But you’re also sweet. But because you’re clever you have no hesitation in setting up and enforcing your boundaries, and I really admire that strength and confidence.

Have we ever interacted, either by PM, ask, or in the comments? What was my perception of you? YES!!! PM, SOOOOO many asks, comments, and you sent me an ask. And reblogged it. And I cried. A lot. My perception: you’re lovely and I want to h*ld your h*nd ….please.

What’s my favorite story of yours? Oh how to choose. Firstly, I’m a nb, biracial, bisexual. Honey, I’ve never made a choice in my life. But let’s try here. Anything you’ve written for Tsukki. Literally all of it is gold. Fight me. I was going to write “especially [piece title]” but I LITERALLY CANNOT CHOOSE ONE. Your Bokuto nightmare piece. Your Kuroo angsty fight. Your Tendou dealing with S/O with parents who yell piece. Your Kinktobers. Your Futakuchi and Mattsun pieces. And your Terushima pieces. Ugh. I CANNOT CHOOSE. OH AND YOUR STREAMER KENMA!!!!!! OKay just… all of it. I can’t choose. I tried, and I failed, and I’m willing to admit failure.

What’s a story I’d love to see you write? I don’t want to say this… because it hurts me… but I just KNOW you’d write brilliant angst. Some of my fav pieces of yours are pained beginnings with happy endings. That fight with Tsukki after a bad day at work. The pieces I mentioned above (nightmare pieces and fighting pieces and angsty home life ha.. ha.ha.ha.). That Oikawa one where the reader wakes up in bed without him and thinks he left. You write these gorgeous atmospheres and descriptive, visceral feelings, and if you chose to use it for evil…. You could get evil shit done. You’re SO powerful. So I want to read it… but also…. I don’t. I’d love to see you write ABO like you mentioned a while back or just see you explore a cutesy soulmate AU or something. I think you’d be really good at writing an AU where you hear what the other person’s listening too. I feel like you’d be so good at making me feel something for someone who was in another city. (think this would be cute with Tsukki cos he’s headphones boy, OR terushima because I like the dynamic of someone flirty, who clearly cares about looks, falling for someone he can’t see) ANYWAY….

Favorite pairing you write for?/fav reader insert? Tsukishima x reader. It’s my fav self-ship. (but also Mattsun, Bokuto, Oikawa, Tanaka, and Akaashi because you write them SO WELL!!!!)

Have any of your stories helped me through a hard time? Of course. Your self-harm piece came at a time I needed it. Iwaizumi’s in particular saved my life. But also your Tendou dealing with S/O parents who fight… came right when I needed it. Also starting college… was hard.. And reading and rereading your fluff really pulled me through it.

Have any of your stories hit closer to home? YES (see above).

Do I genuinely like your blog, it’s aesthetic or posts? It’s overall feel? It’s content? Yes. The aesthetic is, ngl, a wee bit basic. But I kinda love that. And the feel? It feels like home. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Your blog is my safe space. So, yes, I love. It’s content? YES. OF COURSE. Your personality probably could have kept me here even if your content was kinda shit, but I follow you RELIGIOUSLY because of your content. So yes. I adore.

Is English my first language? Kinda??? I grew up in a trilingual household so I kinda learned three languages at the same time while growing up. But no, I don’t need to translate it in my head. Because English was one of the three.

Anything I want to share? Yes. Please keep being kind to yourself, caring for your mental health, enforcing your boundaries, loving Akaashi, and just generally being you. You’re so lovely as you are, and I hope you continue grow, but never change. Also I’m sorry about all your work stuff…. It literally makes me feel sick. And I hope you find a job where that’s not tolerated, or that your work finds a better way of protecting it’s employees. I know you know this, but none of it is your fault. I just hope things improve. AND I love you… a lot. And I’m so proud of you hitting 9K and you deserve so many more followers because your pieces are just... GORGEOUS. I can’t wait until I’m at Barnes and Noble in a few years and I can pick up a hardback copy of your debut novel. I’m so excited to say “I knew Em Akaashi (which is your legal name as far as I’m concerned) before she was so popular among the masses.”

so ive been trying to figure out the correct and worthy way to reply to this ask since the moment i got it......because its so fucking sweet and kind and amazing and pure and perfect and i just dont know how to use WORDS to explain the way it makes me feel so.......i will just reply in bullet points in regards to every question u answered to make it a lil easier :D

- the fact that u found my blog on google ....... like this may be odd and a very specific thing but before i made this blog i always hoped that 1 day my fanfic would pop up in google searches bc thats ALWAYS how i found fics when i was reading them religiously and i felt so much ENVY!!!!! LIKE I WANTED TO BE THERE I WANTED MY FICS TO B POPULAR ENOUGH TO POP UP ON GOOGLE.....that may sound very selfish but its true......so thats just very cool to me... :]

- u’ve been here for so long omg 🥺🥺🥺🥺 if anyone in ur classes ever asks jus promo my blog like its nbd 

- thats so sweet what 🥺🥺🥺 i try my best to advocate for myself and be confident for myself.....ive spent far too much of my time being silently uncomfortable because i was afraid of pushing someone’s buttons seeming rude.....but NO MORE!!!! i know what upsets me, i know my triggers, i know what i dislike experiencing, and im never gonna let myself be anxious or uncomfortable for someone else’s sake, esp if theyre being rude 2 me. i would say its less strength and confidence and moreso me attempting to take control of my anxiety in the places i can (aka on the Internet) bc i am SICK OF ANXIETY ATTACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

- BBY no dont CRY!!!! im racking my brain trying to think of who u are i wanna know so bad so i can thank u personally for being the kindest person in the world n so i can send u more asks >:(........MY HAND IS URS TO HOLD!!!!! dont tell akaashi tho 

- OMG my TSUKKI pieces.....hes so hard to write why ;-; thank u so much im so glad u enjoy my works<3333

- NOT ANGST NOT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! pained beginnings to happy endings are my specialty.....IMAGINE me writing a sad ending like i CANT!!!!!!!!! ive only done it a few times and it is so Difficult.....YALL ARE SO LUCKY IM NOT EVIL!!!!!! ive had this idea for an angsty akaashi fic that i think about and write in my head every night before falling asleep and it Hurts and i wanna write it but i also can’t make myself :D ABO would be very fun but i genuinely do not know how to explore the concept while making it feel like it’s Written By Me.....u know what i mean? same with soulmate aus, i really dislike writing them because theyre just boring to me like they all feel the same everything’s been done for them.....which is FINE!!! but i write enough cliche stuff as it is HAHA, a long distance type soulmate au could be fun and interesting but ldr’s trigger me bc of a past relationship so </3 but hey maybe someone else could use the idea!!!!!

- gotta love tsukishima <3

- im rlly glad my writing could be there for you friend, one of the biggest reasons i write fanfic (and write the kind of fics i write) is bc i know firsthand how much reading sweet stories abt ur comfort characters can help u through the shittiest times - i just wanna offer ppl some support and happy feelings and love cuz sometimes fanfic is the only time we can find those things (and theres nothing shameful abt that either if anyone bullies u for reading fanfic i will fight them)

- I KNOW MY LAYOUT IS LAZY AND BASIC AS FUCK AND THAT IS BECAUSE I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT LMAOOOO so im glad u think its ok...... like i dont have the patience to create a fancy ass layout that actually works are u KIDDING ME??????? I COULD LITERALLY NEVER plus i kinda like that its just the basic kinda ugly boring default layout like it makes it simple and easy and i feel like it brings focus to the only thing on this blog that i care about which is my writing, i rlly only care about the content here and not aesthetics jdbljdabsdk that blue background will be there til i Die......i adore u more btw 

- WHOA trilingual what the hell ur so cool tell me more 

- you have my word, friend, that i will continue to do all of that so long as you do the same. take care of yourself, be kind to yourself - i know u can do it, ur so kind to others and u deserve to be kind to urself, too so this is the part that genuinely brought me to tears because *sappy dumb shit ahead* ok look ever since i can remember the one and only thing ive wanted to do with my life is become an author ...... dreams of book covers with my name written on them and words in pages written by me and fanart of my characters and going into my local bookstore n seeing my book there....these thoughts all haunt my fucking brain because i want it SO BAD!!!!!!!! so bad that it makes me CRY!!!!!!!! ive never wanted something more and just!!!!!!!!!!!! idk how much u meant that part but holy fuck!!!!!! i hope so bad that one day i can send u a free copy of my book as a thank u for being the person u are. u have all my love friend, every last bit of it <333333333

#ily<3 #long post

[tenseifucker]

Yan!Izuku x Idol!Reader Pt 3

I just saw a spider and now I can't sleep

So Izuku's been following you part way for a while now

Somehow something always comes up and he's never made it all the way to your apartment

Which ngl he can't tell if he's happy or mad about

Like yeah ur safe but also where do you live??? :(

That's a problem for another day tho bc he finally has a quirk and he's one step closer to you!

Of course he's still going to events and trying to follow you home

But you and your group have been getting a bit more popular lately

More events, more tv appearances, but less time for him to see and do it all

Which, on that note, like yeah ur really pretty and stuff but the part where you really shine as an idol isn't in the magazines, or while you sing/dance

Your biggest strength is your talking and comedy skills

You're also considered a reaction queen

Variety and talk shows love having you on bc once people tune in they rarely tune out

The other guests hate it bc they actually have to fight for screen time but oh well lmao

Basically my point is thank god for technology so he can at least record your constant tv appearances and watch them later

Besides, he still has to try and get in to UA, so he hasn't been around as much

But it's all good after he gets in because he once again comes bounding right up to you at the next event

Deku, being the considerate creep he is, brings you a gift!

It's All Might's autograph! Made out specifically to you!!!

Holy shit how did he get this??

When you ask, he just tells you it's nbd

He really does NOT want to tell you how hard he cried to get it lmao

Anyway, eventually he remembers to tell you something important!

He got in to UA!!

You proceed to lose your shit with excitement

Like screw the guy before him that told you he wants to name his daughter after you! You're talking with a future hero!!!

What a nerd lmao

You spend all your time together that day just talking about heroes tbh

Unfortunately not a whole lot changes until the sports festival like ngl

During the filming of one talk show, they decide to show your hero loving, overreacting ass some highlights from the sports festival

The second you see Izuku in them, you scream like lbr

You ain't about to sell him out as some over dedicated fanboy tho so you just say that you watched it already

Which isn't a lie

But let's just say that with some of the faces you made during that episode, you end up as a popular reaction gif for a bit

And once the hosts have had their fun, they ask the inevitable

"Y/n-chan, to close out the show, please give a word of encouragement to your favorite upcoming hero!"

To which you'll happily agree and face the camera

"Deku-san, please do your best to become number one! I'll be cheering you on, so don't give up!"

Y'all

When he comes home from school and watches it he's gonna cry

Like more than normal

He'll have to explain to his mother

She'll already know bc she has definitely cleaned his room

He spends the rest of the year doing everything he can to be on the same show as you

The constant villain attacks on his school/class don't really make things any easier tho

Especially with all the bad press that comes with it

But he won't let something like that kill his determination!

Just give it some time and he's sure you'll share the screen soon!

((I think I killed the spider but I haven't found the corpse yet so I'm very scared please send help))

#my hero academia #bnha #mha #izuku x you #izuku x reader #izuku midoriya #yandere

[thotantics]

⚤   pairing — reader + Jeon Jungkook

✎ word count — 4,191

✦ genre — smut, pwp

✗ warnings  — graphic description of sex, dom/sub roles, dom!reader, sub!jungkook, noona kink, overstimulation, edging, orgasm control, begging, cum eating, temperature play (just a lil ice nbd), gag (kinda? it’s cloth sldjf), wrist binding, ass eating (male receiving), leg humping, degradation

[requested] @over-kooked hhhhnnnnnnyello i am here. to request some Filth from the one person i know is gonna do it right, highkey because it would be right no matter how you did it just cuz it's u doin it. and by doing it i mean doing jungkook. and by doing jungkook i mean edging him until he cries goodnight i love you so much

[A/N] ngl i’ve been thinking a lot ab this lately. jungkook with shaggy hair has me all kinds of fucked up and i really just want to punish him ://// but uhhhh this got Out Of Hand Fast im so fucking sorrysdlkfj

Jungkook didn’t have to beg for you to take him this way. If he wanted this, however, he was going to go the full nine yards to make it happen, and he was going to adapt to this new role long before you ever agreed to it.

He dropped down to his knees while you sat at the foot of the bed, unsuspecting as he crawled closer, eyes big and a smile ghosting on his lips as he asked in the cutest voice he could muster, “Noona? Will you...will you fuck me?”

You laughed, amused as you reach out, cupping his cheeks, “Do you even have to ask at this point? You know I will.” You press a kiss to his lips, which were extra plump from your hands squeezing at his cheeks.

Jungkook leans into your kiss, wanting more, but you pull back, leaving one hand softly on his cheek. He nuzzles into your touch, eyes shutting, head tilting to the side. “Will be good for me?” You ask.

He perks up, straightening his upper body and nodding enthusiastically, “Yes, noona.”

“Will you let me do whatever I want with you?” You tease, but he nods even more excitedly, cock stirring to life in his gym shorts in your peripheral.

“Yes, noona, god... please, anything you want, I’m yours.”

You instructed him to strip and lay naked on your bed and wait for you to come back, and to obey one simple rule. You left the room in confidence, sure that it would be easy for him to follow this one rule at least to start. But when you returned, hands full of things you thought would be needed to aid in your fun tonight, you were greeted with the sight of him immediately breaking the first rule.

Jungkook is fully nude, as instructed and on his back, legs out stretched, toes curled, one hand massaging his balls and the other furiously pumping over the length of his dick. You freeze in the doorway, staring across the room at him incredulously because he doesn’t even have the good sense to stop. He locks eyes with you and keeps going, faster, harder, hips jerking up into his hand as he moans, calling out your name with a whimper.

“What do you think you’re doing?” You ask him. Depositing the things you’d gathered, you look him over and he stops, cock throbbing when he releases it to lay flat up his toned lower belly. His fists ball on either side, gripping at the sheets, but he doesn’t break eye contact with you.

“You’re such a needy little slut.” You reach out and plant a palm on his chest when he moves to sit up, pushing him back to the mattress.

“Yes, noona, I’m sorry. I just wanted to show you.”

“Show me what, baby?”

“How badly I want you.” He says.

With a smile curving your lips sinfully, you smooth your hand down his torso, raking your nails across the curves of his abdominal muscles until you get to his cock. He’s already impossibly hard and jerks at your touch, hips flexing up into your grip. You squeeze him warmly in the palm of your hand, watching as precum spills over the head and you tell him, “I know how badly you want this, my sweet little slut. But you said you’d be good for me. Now I have to punish you.” You click your tongue almost regretfully, but you don’t miss the excitement that flashes across his face before he bites his lip, reigning in his expression. As if you didn’t know how much he loved when you punished him.

It starts with a jerk of your wrist, and your opposite hand reaching down to copy the movements you had walked in on earlier. Massaging his balls and stroking his cock fast, squeezing him tight in your fist. It doesn’t take long, he’s vocally responsive immediately, chanting “Yes, yes, noona, yes!” but your movements are relentless and before long, he’s responding with less enthusiasm. What had been cries of pleasure soon turn to whimpers, but you keep it up and then he’s begging you to stop.

“Ah, please! No, n-noona, stop I’m-I’m gonna..”

He knows the safe word, so you don’t bother stopping until you feel his cock pulse, his balls tighten, and you draw your hand away from his shaft, squeezing gently at his balls while he bucks up into nothing, cock falling with a wet slap onto his lower belly.

“Good boy,” You coo, and then, just to make sure, “What’s the safe word, baby?”

“Macchiato.”

“I think you want to show noona how strong and resilient you are tonight, don’t you?” You tease, smiling as you grip the waistband of your shorts, pulling them down and stepping out of them.

Jungkook watches you undress with his lip between his teeth, almost painful as he grips it until the skin goes white and when you’re fully naked and he releases it, his lip is swollen and reddened but he doesn’t take his eyes away from you, scanning your body repeatedly, fists bunched yet again in the sheets, dying to touch you.

“Lay still and be good for me, Kook.” You murmur, climbing over his lap and situating yourself over his rigid cock. He automatically moves to grasp your hips, but you stop, pushing his hands back to the mattress firmly. “I said lay still.”

“Yes, noona.” He sighs quietly, “ ‘m sorry.”

Hands gripping each of his wrists, just to make sure he stays put, you shift your hips until you’re right over his cock, your lips parting when you shuffle down lower, enveloping him with the wetness of your sex. You don’t let him come inside just yet, instead using him to stimulate your clit. It’s a selfish position, taunting him with the warmth and wetness of your pussy without giving him the satisfaction of sliding inside, but the friction between you is delicious when you hump against the underside of his swollen cock.

Jungkook likes this for the first few minutes as you steadily grow wetter and begin to make a mess all over his groin. Hands planted on his firm chest, you work yourself over him harder and faster, and that’s when he finally starts to lose it.

“N-noona..” He gasps.

“What, baby?”

“I’m going to cum!”

“Me, too.” You pant, smiling down at him. His eyes flash, wild for a moment, and then he grabs onto your hips, attempting to stop you from continuing to thrust against him. You remove his hands, pinning them to the mattress up by his head, admiring the way his biceps flex in this position, and continue your onslaught, the slick glide of your cunt working over the underside of his cock making you feel dizzy with power as Jungkook begins to whine and protest.

“Wanna cum in you,” He grunts, “Please! N-no, I don’t want to finish, don’t cum yet, I want..!”

You’re too greedy to stop, chasing your high and ignoring his protests, rolling your hips in just the right spot, grinding your clit hard down against the head of his cock. You feel him cumming first, hot and wet, his dick pulsing as he groans and practically sobs from frustration, and you cum right after, glancing between you at the mess he’d made of himself and you.

The sticky mess on his groin was dizzying, a mixture of your bodily fluids that lay across his still twitching dick and streak up to just below his belly button. He’s got his eyes shut, chest heaving as he fights to take steadying breaths. Scooting a little lower on his legs, pinning his thighs together with your own, you reach down with one finger and gather some of the mess from his balls, swirling your finger into his cum and yours.

“Don’t act so disappointed, baby,” You tell him, “You know noona always takes care of you when you’re good.” He opens his eyes just in time to see you bringing two fingers, coated in cum, to his lips. “But you disobeyed me so I had to punish you a little bit. Now, are you going to be good?” He nods, and you tell him, eyes glazed with lust, “Suck.”

A quick and messy clitoral orgasm only fueled your desire to completely wreck him, and watching him suck the mess you both made off your fingers made your pussy clench around nothing. You dipped a free hand between your legs, groaning at the mess of cum coating your lips, dragging the split slicked fingers from Jungkook’s mouth and down his neck as you moved your other hand to press into his mouth, too. He’s just as greedy for the taste as you are to feed it to him, sucking noisily and shutting his eyes, lashes resting beautifully on the tops of his cheeks.

“Do you know how beautiful you are?” You ask him, hands smoothing down his chest, fingernails grazing across his sensitive nipples and making him jerk just a little under your touch. His eyes flutter open to stare up at you, but you’re too focused on the way his abs tense under your fingers. One hand continues south, smoothing over the still hard length of his erection, touching him delicately with the tips of your fingers traveling down to cup his balls. He opens his mouth to reply, but all that comes out is a breathless whine, drawing your attention back to his face.

Your free hand pushes the strands of his hair away from his forehead, stroking his face tenderly as you continue, “You’re so beautiful, baby. So strong and sexy, too.” You hum, watching adoringly as his eyes shut to your touch, your hand moving back to grip his cock, stroking him slow.

The added lubricant from your and Jungkook’s cum makes a sinful sound as you build up the pace, stroking him fast enough that you can feel his legs writhing under you, his hips twisting to get away from your hand. His beautiful features contort into almost pain, and it takes just a matter of seconds before he’s begging you again.

“Noona, please, please, I’ll be good, I promise, I - ahh!” He chokes on his words, sputtering when you rub the palm of your hand in fast circles around the very tip of his dick, whimpering when you pull back but the moment he’s able to speak again, he does, pleas falling from his pretty lips, desperate and loud.

You stop all at once, leaning over him to reach the bedside table where you had dropped a few choice items, grabbing a long strip of black fabric that had originally been intended to tuck your curtains up in the livingroom, but had been taking up space in a drawer and you’d never used. Jungkook, eyes still as he tried to steady his breathing and calm the throbbing ache in his dick, was surprised to feel you cram the fabric into his mouth. Eyes flying open, he watches as you secure it between his teeth and then shove the rest under his head, tying a quick knot at the back of his head to keep it into place.

“There,” You smile down at him, “That oughta shut you up at least a little.”

He tries to protest, but his words come out muffled, unintelligible through the cotton strip between his teeth, just tight enough that his lips can’t work around it. He grunts, teeth bared like a caged animal, watching as you reach across to the bedside to grab two more strips of the same kind of fabric. You didn’t own handcuffs and gags, at least not yet, so this would have to do for now.

“Aw, look at my pretty little slut now.” You giggled when you finished, his wrists bound above his head, tied up to the headboard. “You don’t get to tell me what to do when I’m in charge, baby.” You tell him, climbing off of his thighs and stretching briefly, standing up on your tip toes and groaning softly. “You were supposed to be good for me, and now look what noona had to resort to.” You tsk, shaking your head as you move back to the bedside table. The cup you brought still has some of the ice left in, though most of it had melted by now.

Jungkook watches, head craned to lift and see you over his arm but when he watches you pop a small piece of ice into your mouth, he swallows dryly.

“Since I can’t hear you, I guess our safe word isn’t going to work out very well right now.” You taunt, moving to sit again on his legs, straddling one of his calves and pressing your heat right up against him to keep him still. “Do you trust me, baby?”

He nods his head without a moment of hesitation.

“Noona will take care of you.” You remind him, smoothing a piece of ice down from his chest to follow the lines of his abs. He hisses through his nose, muscles tensing, but he doesn’t make a sound otherwise as you move the ice lower, over his hip bone. Watching goosebumps spread along his skin, traveling the path of the ice as you make little circles of wetness appear across his thighs is hypnotizing.

He’s doing his best to keep quiet, biting down on the fabric between his teeth and breathing harsh and even through his nose. The ice you’d been sucking on has all but melted and it’s left your tongue and the insides of your cheeks and lips cool when you lean down and kiss along his opposite thigh. The ice in your hand has melted under the heat of his skin, so you busy yourself sucking the excess water that drips down his inner thigh and pools in his hip bone.

He’s still throughout this process, and grateful for the fact that your lips and tongue have warmed up against his skin, especially when your mouth moves higher up his inner thigh, tongue sweeping across his puckered hole.

His body jolts with surprise, legs tensing for a moment before you pet him, coaxing his thighs to spread and lift, his feet planting on the mattress, breathing sharp and heavy through the material stuffed into his mouth. His eyes are blazing when you look up to meet them, and you can’t help but to smile as you continue.

Spreading him open with your hands, you lick with the flat of your tongue over his ass, and he jerks his hips, bucking against your face, a moan coming out strangled and muffled. You stroke his cock to loosen some of the tension in his lower body, nice and slow, being sure to stimulate the tip of him as little as possible. You know by this point he’s bound to be getting frustrated but you hum, sending little shocks of vibrations from your mouth to his body, nuzzling your face farther into him, flicking at his clenched hole with the tip of your tongue.

Jungkook is bucking against your face, thrusting his cock up into your hand faster, wanting more and moaning like a whore for you the longer you eat his ass and stroke his painfully hard dick. He starts to mumble behind the fabric crammed between his teeth, but you ignore it at first. Then he’s shouting, twisting under you, pulling away from your mouth and trying to get away from your hand, but you have a good grip on his cock.

“Noona!” The word is muffled and awkward coming from his clenched teeth, but you heard it, loud and clear.

“Do you have something to say, baby boy?” You wipe your mouth on the back of your hand and crawl up his body, kissing him along the way before you sit on his lower belly, cock just out of reach of your pussy, and pull the fabric out of his mouth so he wears it like a necklace instead.

“You’re g-going to make me cum again,” He warns, “Noona, please-”

“You don’t get to tell noona what to do.” You remind him. “Do you want me to punish you anymore?”

“No!” He gasps, squeezing his eyes shut, “Please, I-I just..”

“I was going to stop before you came again.” You tell him, “And I was going to untie you...” You tilt your head, regarding him carefully, “Should I?”

“Yes!” He cries, “I’ll do anything, anything you want.”

“Hm,” You consider it for a moment, but an image flashes in your mind of something that involves keeping him tied up, but in another position, so you lean forward, untying his bindings from the headboard but keeping the fabric around his wrists. You hold the fabric in one hand, keeping him on a leash of sorts as you climb off of him and off of the bed, “Stand up.” You tell him, and he follows your lead, all while you keep hold of his wrists. “Turn around.”

With his back to you, you let one of his hands go and reposition so you can bind his wrists together at his lower back. He doesn’t complain, so you turn him back around with a smile and reward him with a kiss. It’s the first time through all of this that you’ve let him kiss you, and you realize by the desperate way he clings to your mouth, face pressed tightly against yours, his tongue wildly tasting every inch that he can reach in the time that you allow him to do so. But you have other plans for that tongue of his, so you cut the kiss short and shove on his shoulders, pushing him down to his knees.

Jungkook started this whole thing by begging for it on his knees and you needed him like this, even if just for a little while. He knew right away what you wanted, eyes big and round as he looks up at your face, leaning in to the apex of your thighs. You spread your legs, widening your stance, looking down at him as his mouth finds your sex.

He parts your folds with nothing but his tongue, moving back and forth to spread your sex and lick you deep. He keeps his eyes on you, and from your view point, his hands tied behind his back is just as intoxicating as you had envisioned, if not more so. You shift down a few inches, settling some onto his face as he sucks dutifully at your clit. Hips rolling to match the rhythm of his tongue, you fist a handful of his hair, tugging his head back so you can see more of what he’s doing to you.

“Tongue out.” You gasp, pulling him back an inch or two further so you can watch his tongue lap at you. He moans against your sex while you fuck yourself against his extended tongue, movements jerky as you’re already near your high but you hold back, yanking him away from your by his hair a bit more roughly than you intended.

“Not yet,” You tell him, “I want you to make me cum on your cock when I’m ready.” He nods best as he can with your hand tightly wound in his shaggy black hair, and you lean down, roughly kissing the taste of your sex from his lips, swallowing the desperate moans he lets out.

“Stay on your knees,” You tell him, moving to sit on the edge of the bed. “I want to watch you beg for my pussy like a good boy and maybe I’ll let you have it.”

He shuffles on his knees closer to you, and you press your foot between his legs, so his stiff cock brushes across the front of your calf. “Please, noona,” He groans, “I-I’ve been really good, and I really want your pussy...n-now.”

“That doesn’t sound like begging to me.” You tsk, shoving your leg harder against his still wet cock. “Why don’t you ask nicely instead of telling me how good you think you’ve been.”

“M-may I please have your pussy, noona?” He tries again, fidgeting slightly with his hands behind his back while his hips instinctively press forward, rubbing his cock along the firm smoothness of your calf.

“That’s not good enough.” You snap, “Are you humping my leg like a horny dog? You’re such a nasty little slut.” You extend your leg more, encouraging his hesitant movements as he grinds into you a little more, “Rubbing your dirty little cock on me? Beg for my pussy, slut.”

His mouth falls open in surprise, eyes wide and innocent but the way he deliberately continues to rub his leaking, throbbing cock against your leg is anything but innocent. Nor is the way he pants and groans before he opens his mouth to speak again, “Please, noona, can I fuck your pussy? Can I feel your pussy cum all over my cock, please? I’ll do anything you want.”

“Anything?” You smile at him.

“I would!” He insists desperately, “I’d do anything to fuck your pretty pussy. I know it needs to be filled, I know you need to cum, please let me fuck you.”

“Tell me what a slut you are.” You tease him, dragging your leg up his cock until your foot presses into the inside of his thigh, and he stumbles back off of his knees, falling to the floor flat on his ass.

“I-I’m a dirty slut,” Jungkook rasps, and he falls back even further in defeat, laying on his side, his hands still bound behind his back.

“Do you hump anybody’s leg, then?” You ask, standing over him now.

“No!” He groans, “I’m yours, I’m your slut, only yours.”

“I should make you lay there and watch me fuck myself with the dildo you got for me, shouldn’t I? I shouldn’t reward such a filthy slut for behaving like this.”

“No!” He cries out again, but this time his voice cracks as he forces himself up into a sitting position, and you lower yourself onto your knees when you see the tears swimming in his eyes, “Please! Let me fuck you, noona, just let me fuck you..”

You smile at him, reaching out and cupping his face when he tries to hide the fact that tears are streaming down his face, wiping them away with your thumbs. “There’s my good boy,” You coo, “That’s very nice begging, baby. Do you want me to stop teasing you?”

“Please..” He whimpers, begging you with his eyes, his lip quivering as he looks at you.

Right there on the bedroom floor, you straddle his lap, his legs extended out in front of him, and you reach behind his back to undo the binds tying his wrists together. Jungkook sighs in relief the moment his hands are free, using them first to wipe the remnants of tears from his eyes before he gingerly wraps them around you, as if he’s unsure if you’ll allow him to touch you, but you settle down further onto his lap, rocking your hips to get his cock at your entrance, running your hands adoringly through his hair.

“Can I fuck you?” He whispers, “Can I now?”

“Yes, baby.” You smile, reaching between you to help guide him inside. He turns you quicker than you can blink, laying you on your back and lifting your legs high, hooking one of your knees over his shoulder while he presses the back of your opposite thigh, keeping you spread wide so he can bottom out balls deep into you.

His eyes practically roll back in his head when he starts thrusting into you, a slow drag on the withdraw that makes your toes curl before he slams back into you, the skin of his hips painfully connecting with the back of your thighs.

“Make me cum,” You tell him, nails scoring down his forearms as he holds you in a position that he can reach as deep as possible with each thrust. He sets a brutal pace, fucking you like a man possessed and driven mad with desire. “Fuck, Jungkook, you’re such a good boy.” You moan for him, traveling your hands up his chest and pinching at his nipples just to make him wince.

He hammers into you at your praise, grunting low and staring down at you, hair falling in his face. You grip two handfuls of his black, shaggy locks, tugging him down until he’s kissing you again as he fucks you with sloppy thrusts. When he cums, he begs you to cum with him, and you do, biting down onto his shoulder to the sound of his pleas for your orgasm.

You lay there together for a couple of minutes, tangled up in each other and sweating. Jungkook is the first to move, flipping over from his back to his side and staring down at you adoringly.

“You know I’m gonna get you back for that, right?”

You smile, shutting your eyes in post coital bliss. “Mm, I know.”

#jungkook smut #bts smut #sub!jungkook #this is so nasty im literally so sory sdlkfou #also it's unedited besides me re-reading as i'm going and fixing a few things #i'll edit this later im just Lazy and Desperate to post some content after so long so sue me #mine #also @ang this took me like two full months to do????? i'm literally The Worst im so sorry #i hope this mess is...........ok #very much got out of hand i cant believe i wrote this garbage #im really and truly back on my bullshit

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BNHA AU Ideas: Don’t Praise the Almighty (Part 2)

Also on AO3!

TW: Child Abuse (all kinds implied, explicit verbal and physical abuse), implied CSA

TL;DR:

Things you must sacrifice to make a hero: Humanity, Empathy.

Things you must sacrifice to be a hero: Everything.

But with the end of a symbol come the end of the hurt. 

Starting with I-Island Expo

mellissa calls them over like canon, shouto basically demands he gets endeavours spot. aizawa and yamada go too, mostly because yamada was going there for his show and they heard whispers of all might, and were worried about a possible izuku attending so aizawa went as a plus one

the other kids are there for the same reason, but other than scissors paper rock for the tickets it was a tournament brawl because ochako demanded combat.

she won, of course

anyway, they meet up w david and melissa, and izuku and her go explore the expo when melissa tells izuku shes quirkless he just give her the strangest look, and she's a little confused

i-island was a very chill attitude towards quirks. if you have one, cool, but they aren't useful to the inventors so its nbd if you don’t. and she says ab how she's a researcher and all the and he just looks at her like shes speaking gibberish

"they,,, they let you?"

and melissa looks dumbfounded "obviously? i mean, my grades are good enough?"

and izuku just start to cry. melissa is panicking bc she's already adopted this little hero as her little cousin because he's basically uncle might's kid. she like, hides him away in a corner and tries to understand what's wrong

and all she can get out of this crying kid is

"i used to be quirkless" and "don't tell all might"

she gives him a big hug and he talks ab how he was treated in middle school, and about how he hasn't told anyone in ua. she asks why he said don't tell all might and he murmurs that allmight doesn't think is very befitting of a hero to cry

deep down that doesn't sound right to her. but she only nods, hands him a tissue and they giggle about it behind a fancy model car

back in the office david and all might are talking

all might tells david that he knows his quirk is fading but it's ok, because he's training a successor and izuku is going to be perfect. that sounds ok to david. he's warmed by the total faith all might seems to have in his student, and the close relationship they must have to call him by his first name

all might confesses he’s looking forward to retiring and nurturing his student and david calls off the whole heist (well. he tries to. not that they listen.)

so Yamada and Aizawa are walking around the showroom floor and they see a "i was just crying but im trying to hide it and going an ok job" izuku with some random fucking blonde girl and they s w o o p in bc these are some worried dads

basically Yamada keeps her busy while aizawa says "oh i have to talk to you ab something" izuku goes over to aizawa and hes freaking the fuck out quietly. aizawa just leans down to look him in the eye

"you ok, kid?"

and izuku is confused

"what do you mean?"

"you looked a little upset back there, do you know that girl? is she,,, doing anything? to you?"

and izuku feels all warm and fuzzy inside and smiles at his teacher bc aizawa cares!! ab him!!

"no sensei, shes all mights kind-of-niece, she was just showing me around the expo"

and aizawa winces a little at the all might comment but what can he do

"well, don't forget you can talk to me, ok? i know i gave you my number on an emergency basis but i also want you to know your definition of an emergency is terrible. just call whenever you want"

melissa, bc she understands social cues unlike izuku, and also bc shes fucking 18 looks at yamada and says "what's wrong?" and yamada feels all the force of an 18-year-old girls glare of "ive adopted this kid and ill kick you for him"

"just worried about the little listener is all, he looked a little down"

melissa just sighs and nods

"yeah."

yamada expects her to continue but she doesn't. they both just kinda fiddle around with some random buttons until aizawa brings izuku back, who looks significantly cheerier now. melissa declares lunch is on her and that the teachers are coming too

aizawa and yamada try to wiggle their way out of it, until izuku also tries to so they all double down on going to lunch and izuku gets dragged along

when they get there he's fretting ab what won't ruin his diet plan, and aizawa and yamada feel bad. melissa just tells him to get what he wants

"but i dont want to upset-. i should be sticking to my diet plan though."

aizawa loudly declares hes getting a chocolate sundae and pork cutlet sandwiches. melissa, equally loudly, decides on carbonara. yamada fumbles for a bit looking for something unhealthy because hes a mess, finally finds a chicken karrage bowl and points at it like hes very proud of himself

melissa loses her shit laughing, izuku just giggles softly and aizawa fuckn snorts at the crestfallen look on yamada

izuku quietly asks if getting katsudon would be ok and melissa just looks into his eyes

"izuku i would kill a man for you of course pork katudon is ok"

anyway, the other students turn up, and momo shouts them all food, ochako proudly declares herself the winner of a fighting tournament and aizawa just slumps in his chair

"if i didnt hear that, you dont get detention for using your quirks without supervision"

and ochako just smiles with a scary amount of teeth

"who said we used quirks, sensei?"

and ochako proudly shows off the bruise on her upper arm where jirou punched her and jirou is whining bc she has a foot shaped imprint in her stomach s t i l l from the last round

everyone is talking n shooting the shit. it strikes the kids (and the teachers) a little weird that izuku is in his hero costume (the only other person there in costume is yamada, who is representing his agency. aizawa is in free dress but also his scarf bc he wanted to ask how the fuck it was made) but they just kinda, don't mention it

anyway, the bit w the quirk display

they hound aizawa into doing it, and he makes time pretty similar to bakugo and everyone is cheering for him and he's trying very hard to maintain his "im a professional hero not a dad getting cheered on by his stupid kids"

yamada wants to do it, but aizawa won't let him bc people need their ears

all the hero kids give it a go, including ochako, jirou, momo, etc. izuku (who at this point is like at 10%ish full cowl) makes time tied w Todoroki and izuku is talking ab how amazing todoroki is, and tenya chimes in with "you are quite amazing as well!" and midoriya blushes so hard he looks like a strawberry. he is very very flustered and keeps trying to deny it

eventually, everyone piles on the compliments (even katsuki bc this is the most fun hes had in ages) until izuku gets so flustered he hides behind aizawa like "you won't do this to me right?"

aizawa fuckn ruffles his hair and says "you're a good kid"

izuku just cries but he's smiling so wide everyone knows he's happy

so its the night of the party

izuku is dressed to the nines and he's sad ab it bc he wanted to wear something cheery and bright but instead he was dressed in a charcoal black suit, vest and a dark red tie. black shoes too

the one bit of cheer he shoved in were some red laces bc all might didn't mind them bc he was so "good" ab the suit fitting and the poking and prodding so he wears the bright red laces and he's very happy ab them

all might is in his hero costume, and he's very proud of the fact he and izuku match like a pair with the same shade of red bc that's his successor! his boy! all might tells izuku he can wait outside for the rest of the kids to show up and izuku is so happy! so he thanks allmight a lot more than he needs to and waits outside the door (all might was early to the event bc he needed to schmooze)

aizawa and yamada come later to a surprisingly well dressed izuku waiting patiently off to the side

they ask him why he's out there and he happily chirps that he's waiting for the other students that attended, they smile at him and walk in . all might sends them a glare from across the floor that aizawa returns just as spitefully

anyway, iida texts that he's stuck out the front bc the door won't open so he scrambles over to let iida and, apparently ochako as well, in (for the purposes of this au, todoroki, iida, ochako, izuku and melissa are the only ones of the kids at the beginning, todoroki's melodramatic entrance is stolen by jirou and momo. no mineta or kami bc they just,,, arent there lmao)

so the doors slam shut and melissa is like "wtf wtf" and the announcement sounds. they pile up the stair to look down to the dining room, teachers and other heroes tied up

the kids know a bit of sign from various hero class training bits by aizawa and "fun facts" by mic

so they brokenly sign to allmight and aizawa (the only teachers that can see them) that they are going to fix this

all might nods

aizawa looks panicked. these are kids. his kids. they shouldn't have to fight people with fucking guns

izuku says "ill keep them safe" and aizawa wants to cry because he believes him, but who'll keep izuku safe

so iida starts on his whole "we cant use quirks" speech before melissa can even remind them ab i islands quirk laws, izuku just murmurs

"all might gave me permission to fight. it'll be ok."

melissa freezes bc,,, she knows adults shouldn't be letting these kids fight, even if that's exactly what she's going to help them do. she mentions the quirk law anyway

now todoroki is pissed at all might but the bitch was gonna fight anyway. ochako is 100% roaring for a showdown

now they are,, a little more cautious. bc they are a smaller group here but izuku is like double the power so its not realllllyy an issue. the middle fight happens, they gain the wlw and mlm solidarity pairs (Jirou + Momo, Kirishima + Bakugo)

then pretty quickly lose bakugo and momo for a hot minute as they stay to finish up the fight while sending the others on

oh izuku totally has the punchy punchy thing from melissa i just forgot to mention it

so, bc melissa's dad didnt actually,, want in on it this time he's fighting back. he's stalling, pleading, backchatting; everything he can do to give someone a chance to fix his fuck up before it kills someone

so melissa and izuku make it to the top of the tower

izuku has been at shot more times than he's really happy about, just he has nothing more than a few grazes. melissa has a nasty bruise on her face and a cut on her arm from where she redirected a blow that would have stabbed izuku

the villain is talking ab how this was David's idea, and he's trying to explain to the kids that he's sorry, this was a mistake. he tried to call it off but they wouldn't stop. at this point he is totally away these people are real criminals and has been since the heist began

he's trying to convince them to run because as proud as all might is of izuku, and as proud of melissa he is, they are to young. they don't deserve this

izuku takes out the goons but the villain has already escaped with david and the quirk enhancer

izuku promises melissa he'll keep her dad safe and shes left in the control room crying alone because who'll protect the kid that's been nothing but kind and gentle yet has the weight of the world on his shoulders

also just an fyi bc you needed to know- melissa is down her heels and she lost her hairpin when she stabbed someone with it, she threw her heels at a villain too bc she was running out of ideas. melissa literally tied her hair in a big knot so she could fucking see

izuku is down a jacket - threw it over someone's head then punched them and his waistcoat is unbuttoned bc he need to punch. his hair is going fucking hog wild, even in the tighter clip yagi likes it kept in

anyway, when the alarms go off, all might fucking rockets to the roof and aizawa is fuming bc those are his fucking kids too

he and yamada have to take the goddamn elevator to the roof. its certainly not a slow elevator but aizawa is so fucking tense. yamada isn't much better

all might won't let them fight. he hands david and melissa off to them and tells them he and izuku will handle wolfram and aizawa is so pissed bc izuku is on his last fucking legs here

aizawas quirk doesn't work w the enhancer so he admits there isn't much he can do, but yamada is perfect here. but all might won't move out of the way long enough for mic to let his quirk go. honestly, hed be tempted to do it anyway if not for izuku also being there

anyway, all might and izuku do their lil double detroit smash and its all very sweet

kind of

bc,,, aizawa can see how izuku is shaken up, and close to passing out. visibly in a lot of pain but he's swallowing it all down and acting as if everything is fine and aizawa sees izuku with small might again and wonders why, why do they know each other?

yamada and aizawa feel vaguely ill when izuku and all might return to their shared hotel room after all might grabs a few bandages and alcohol wipes from a first aid kit. bc,,, aizawa can see how izuku is shaken up, and close to passing out. visibly in a lot of pain but he's swallowing it all down and acting as if everything is fine

aizawa and yamada stay with the kids, trying to cheer them up and bandaging wounds that don't need urgent medical care. melissa is just blankly watching out the door izuku left through

"why didn't they stay?"

aizawa just aggressively tightens the bandage around his sliced up arm. todoroki looks pissed. iida just kind of looks down

"im not sure, melissa. im... im not sure"

the next morning, as aizawa and yamada stumble downstairs to eat shitty hotel breakfast food, yamada glances out the window and looks like he's about to cry bc izuku, still battered and bruised, is stepping out of the gym over the road. its only 7am

they basically pounce on the kid and drag him to breakfast, where they find out he has been training since 5 and hasn't eaten yet and he's fucking, sheepish about it

"i got up a little late, so i just to my light routine for the morning, ill have to make up the time a little later"

aizawa just shoves pastries at his kid. izuku tries to stammer out that they arent part of his diet but,,, they look really nice and he's really hungry and stressed,,, and he caves pretty quick

so aizawa yamada and izuku are sitting around a table, both of his teachers arent totally human until they've had a coffee so izuku is happily babbling about some new hero teach he saw as aizawa grunts in affirmation

allmight shows up and izuku blanches. aizawa and yamada are a little too tired to realise until yagi is already over by the table. izuku quietly puts down the pastry and just cringes into himself

"im,,, im really sorry. i - i just"

"i got it for him" aizawa says totally deadpan as he slams back a whole ass cup of coffee

deep down inside he did it to flex on mister "i have no stomach so im not allowed caffeine"

all might sighs and gently chides izuku for not sticking to his diet plan. izuku nods miserably and excuses himself back to the room to 'get changed out of his sweaty clothes'

yagi sits and eats breakfast with aizawa and yamada as they try to understand what,,, what exactly happened there. it hurts both of them because they aren't sure what all mights doing

mic has seen one instance of something nasty going on, but other than that its just been a collection of terrible vibes

Training Camp Time Baby.

after that total clusterfuck of an event training camps still on

all might wants to go but nezu no sells him bc "you literally attract villains, all might" and like bitch is smart, he knows something is up. he's not sure what yet, but he's working on it

all might gives aizawa a personalised training schedule for izuku that he takes one look at and throws it out the fucking window

basically all might goes as "all might's secretary" to monoma

"very worried about my boy, and i think aizawa is training him too hard, could you please give me a run down on what happens each day?"

monoma, starry-eyed: of course all might

and there is this little,,, list of things he doesn't want izuku doing and he phrases them in ways that make it seem like he's being perfectly reasonable. like allergies or bad habits izuku is trying to break or whatever. izuku has to tell all might what happens at the end of every day anyway

all might,,, wants hourly updates,,,, but he realises that's not going to happen w aizawa's deep hatred of students on cellphones lmao

he hears izuku mentioning to todoroki that "yagi" wants to know what's happening at the camp and that he's excited to talk to his mentor about all the training they do. and aizawa is caught between wanting to find some bullshit reason to take izukus phone, or just pretending he didn't hear that bc who knows how much trouble not answering yagi could get him in

he makes an announcement that cellphones are to be on mute for the duration of the camp anyway.

yagi wanted to go on the camp, aizawa wouldn't let him, monoma is yagis mole etc we have covered this

in this au the league never latched on to bakugo, it's izuku that shigiraki wants, but to backtrack

getting off the bus its funny in a sad way bc izuku was so prepared to get hit by one of the teachers "training" them at any time he dodges the landslide

they all just kinda sit there for a second, stunned. izuku sighs quietly and jumps after his classmates

anyway so, they get to the camp a lil faster bc izuku is More Powerful, izuku (bc hes faster than iida on uneven ground) runs shinsou to the campground, they mind control pixiebob to stop the earthbeasts then run back to show the rest of 1A the way out

they get there in 2 hours

aizawa is very proud of his boy for thinking of that! and he ruffles izukus hair and its cute

in this au izuku isn't confident enough to say hi to kouta, but he waves. kouta just glares at him and he hides behind iida

they do a little extra training because 1A finished the earth beast thing so fast, half of the training is all of 1A trying to stop Izuku from going overboard. they get a little,,, disturbed when they realise just how long izuku can train without visibly breaking a sweat

they go to chill in the baths and iida sees izuku walking out of the changing rooms and freezes

because he's c o v e r e d in hand-shaped bruises

he tries not to react bc he doesn't want izuku to be uncomfortable and change his mind ab hanging in the bath w all of them

kaminari goes to say something and kirishima just fucking pulls him under the water before he can say anything, mineta is socially aware enough to not open his fucking mouth

they chat n izuku can kinda,,, tell,,, something is wrong but most of the bruises are places he can't see/doesn't look, like his shoulders, hips, back, back of his legs

and the ones on his wrist he just kinda brushes off bc he's still convinced this is normal. the thing w mineta happens, izuku helps kouta, iida comes with him to give him to the wild wild pussycats

and pixiebob looks like she wants to say something bc who is hurting this kid? and iida just catches her eyes and he looks so worried. she keeps her mouth shut, but makes sure to mention it to aizawa. she feels terrible when aizawa just curses and pulls his hair in frustration

anyway, 1B shows up and its hilarious bc 1A is going hog fucking wild other than izuku, aizawa is forcing izuku to learn to cook

so bakugo is screaming and blowing shit up, todoroki is in a fucking barrel, iida is running like afo is chasing him and aizawa is patiently showing izuku how to scramble eegs

monoma is losing his fucking mind

but yeah aizawa and izuku are sitting in front of a little stove w their legs crossed, izuku is trying to cut tomatoes and aizawa is supervising. they are making breakfast for 1A. slowly. all of 1A is being very careful to not disturb them, so there is this little bubble of calm around the egg station

"why,,, why arent i training?"

and aizawa fucking pauses

"this is training, keep up problem child."

and izuku looks so fucking lost but the eggs smell good and he gets to cook the bacon next. each part of the fucking breakfast is cold by the time 1A gets to eat it bc izuku was cooking it 1 by 1, little portions at a time

everyone just tells him its fucking wonderful

he joins in training after breakfast, ragdoll is placed on "izuku watching duty" which izuku has 0 clue about. if he gets hurt/sore/too tired someone gets sent over to get him to do something else

when she looks at him the first time she wants to cry bc,,, he's not tired, he's more rested than he's been in ages. but the places that hurt, before hes even been training, are sending blaring alarm bells in her brain

anyway, its amusing bc everyone is 'going beyond' and they are just trying to get izuku back so they can know what is 'going beyond' and what is 'going so far beyond how are you still moving'

everyone is fucking wiped and izuku is like 'this is the easiest training ive had in months what' and aizawas want to yell bc while hes being soft on izuku, they arent taking his training lightly, and this is easy?

he gives the curry to kouta like the show, they all go to sleep

izuku has a nightmare and shouto - the only person not asleep - tries not to hear the things he's saying. he can't hear much, but he wishes he hadn't heard anything. anyway at least they all wake up well-rested

unfortunately in this au the villains actually have a half-decent plan, and fucking, communicators -which isn't great for the kids

so muscular sees izuku and is like "oi compress move your arse over here" while he tries to kill kouta. so we get the joy of izuku saving kouta, getting him to aizawa and just as he hands over the kid, compress takes izuku and kouta just starts to cry

"izuku is kidnapped" time is a ride

the only thing they give him is a set of quirk suppressors and dont give him a key to get out of the bar. they are about as nice to him as they are to each other, a little softer on him bc he's young and they pretty much know what's happening to him

like, he gets out of compresses marble and he's panicking and crying, dabi just crouches down next to him and rubs his back, asks him if he's gonna be ok

shigiraki is trying to convince izuku to join then and his face just kinda falls when he sees izuku looking resistant

"you,,, you don't know that what he’s doing to you is wrong, do you."

and izuku looks like a deer in the headlights

"what do you mean? no ones- nothings- nothings wrong."

dabi just sits on a chair bc he knows where this is going and he doesn't like it. shigiraki looks at izuku

"if its not wrong, then tell me about it"

and izuku clams right up

ok but afo wants to talk to izuku. in this au he has literally 0 beef with the kid

he has only so much beef with the ofa users in general and he's typically pretty soft on them for being part of his brothers legacy, as soft as he can make killing them if they won't stop getting in his way, but still

but he hates allmight so fucking much and he's never been totally sure why

anyway, he asks to talk w izuku and this kid is shaking like a leaf and afo tells him

"you are a child. i have no intention of hurting you, i just want to know what all might has done to you."

"hes not done anything bad, i swear!"

"then why don't you tell me about it?"

izuku sits there quietly and afo feels just generally disgusted with humanity tbh

"how did you two meet?" izuku slowly opens up about the day they first met, and afo feels a stab of empathy for izuku, because being quirkless now is pretty comparable to being quirked before, afo doesnt interject beyond nods and encouraging him to keep going

but eventually, izuku totally clams up, starts crying and can't say anything else. afo wishes he didnt look as scary as he did because he wants to give the kid a hug. he calls tomura to take him back to the bar and get him something to eat

it gets to the point that all of the villains are super fucking soft for izuku. he's very nice, treats them well, and has seen some horrific shit

so when all might shows up to "rescue" him, they close ranks. they don't even pressure him to become a villain, because each of them has felt society push them into boxes they didn't want, and they don't want to do that to izuku

anyway, they get to kamino bc the usual fuckery, and izuku is just stranded behind villains crying and looking ill

the rescue squad : bakugo, todoroki, ochako, kirishima, iida, and one stubborn shinso that befriended the hero departments resident nervous wreck

they look across the field and they feel ill because izuku looks sick. but they feel a little better when twice gives him a bit of a hug.

confilcted, but better

they see afo talking to him gently but quickly, gesturing both to the villains and to the section of wall the rescue squad is hidden behind. izuku tearfully points to the wall, afo nods, ruffles his hair, and goes to send him off when all might rockets in

basically afo has looked at izuku and thought "wow he's me but a good person" and thinks he's what his little brother would want a hero to be, so, while he's very much going to continue his villainous thing, he's going to go out of his way to avoid hurting izuku bc this kid is what his little brother wanted OFA to be

and allmight is exactly what he would have hated

so, all might takes a step forward to drag izuku, the villains push him behind them

dabi is basically saying something along the lines of

"so does being in the top ten require you to be a total dick, or is it just a running theme?"

"give him back"

"why all might, izuku is his own person."

"izuku, get over here, now."

izuku lets out a sob and vaults over the villains, hiding behind allmight and all might looks horrifically smug. izuku whispers something to all might, but all might shakes his head (he was asking if he could run away)

the fight begins

a few reasons he won't let him leave:

its punishment for being 'weak' enough to get kidnapped

its backup if afo gets the better of his because hes made sure izuku is more than a force to be reckoned with

he wants to know what dabi ment and hes very read to ask izuku ab it

izuku is honestly shaking like a leaf, quirk going bonkers and he can't turn it off. the rescue squad does its thing, and their hearts break when they see izuku look at them tearfully and shake his head

they all hide in the crowd and cry as they watch the fight go on, izuku shakily pulling people from the rubble in the background. when hes gotten all of the people free he can, izuku kind of runs out of reasons he isnt actively helping allmight. he grits his teeth and dives into the fight with the other villains

hes trying to keep them away from all might and they all look heartbroken ab having to fight him dabi is saying something along the lines of "we know he hurt you, but how? why?" and izuku is just crying

all might can hear this too

izuku actually misses a few kicks and punches bc his eyes are too filled with tears, but the villains are careful not to hurt him too much. they just want to get him down and out of the fight, but as uninjured as possible

but that's a little fucking difficult when compress and kurogiri are down for the count and everyone else has nasty death quirks

eventually, it gets to the point that trying not to hurt the other villains is only hindering afo, and all might is pulling exactly 0 punches with izuku present, so afo teleports the villains away, they feel bad ab leaving izuku behind but there is no way this little hero would go with them. they know that now

afo goes to deal the final blow to all might, izuku just moves

cant stop himself from planting himself between them and trying desperately to catch the punch. hes hurt, badly. but he's not as dead as all might would have been

there is a vicious edge to all might’s smile as izuku is blown across the battlefield, and lays there w/o moving

afo feels sick, all might just looks pleased

"ive done pretty well wouldn't you say?"

afo just stares at him

"ive created the perfect hero. selfless down to the last breath, filled with overwhelming power and determination."

"he's flawless. isn't he."

afo wants to gag

"so, in creating your 'perfect hero', you find it acceptable to sacrifice your own humanity?"

"absolutely"

(all mights been small might for this conversation i just forgot to mention it l m a o )

they exchange their final blows

izuku shakily gets up from where he lays crumpled on the ground and staggers over to all might, where he stands victorious over afo

iida, todoroki, shinsou, Bakugo, the people who have seen what yagi has done to izuku and how he has treated him are now slapped with the realisation that the number one hero and the person hurting their best friend are one and the same

shinsou punches a wall, bakugo looks like he's about to be sick. iida and todoroki look shell shocked. ochako is just lost and confused

all might wraps izuku is a hug, where izuku hides his sobbing face. all might whispers something in izukus ear, not that the cameras can pick it up

"come on now, heroes don't cry."

izuku takes a breath, wipes away his tears and steps back. All might rests a hand on his shoulder and looks into his eyes, and loud enough for the cameras to pick up and announces

"you're next."

izuku nods solemnly

in the back of a conference room, vlad watches as aizawa goes deathly pale in realisation. at ua, nezu watches on with a degree on concern. at the hospital, the clueless members of 1A cheer. those who know more feel nervous, those who know the most feel sick.

the internet goes fucking bonkers. all might transformed, defeated a crazy villain, and literally declared his successor live on television

izuku and all might end up in the same hospital room, and all might,,, allmight.. ye.

anyway, the kids from the rescue attempt call aizawa over and over and over. every teacher, student, pro

any hero of ua staff they have anyway of contacting, begging to find out where izuku is right now. aizawa would tell them if he wasn't going exactly the same thing himself

eventually recovery girl calls him and he hightails his way over. fyi inko isn't there bc shes passed out drunk at home uwu

he bursts into the hospital room with as much dignity as he could possibly have and it's not really very much. doctors are hovering around, stitching wounds, taking blood, and watching an ecg pretty closely (they felt the room for a minute and izukus started going crazy, so they thought something may have happened to his heart)

the amount izuku perks up when he sees aizawa is heartbreaking he rushes over and immediately starts looking him over, apologising and telling him he's brave and that he's sorry he couldn't be there to help and izuku tears up. all might is glaring a hole in his back but aizawa doesnt give a shit right now, his kid basically go taken by the boogeyman and his unstable son, then has a target painted on his back on live tv. aizawa gives 0 shits ab all might right now

izuku just looks stunned, and then he lets out a watery giggle

"you shaved, sensei."

and aizawa is caught between crying and laughing. gently asks izuku if he can give him a hug, and izuku looks so shocked he was asked aizawa heart breaks again. izuku nods shyly and gets a Good Dad Hug

aizawa stays until izuku falls asleep, then he rounds on all might

“I don’t know what you’ve done to him, but he looked more afraid to be stood next to you than a man who has killed countless. Whatever you did, you won’t be doing it again.”

All might goes to say something, anything, but aizawa grabs him by the front of his hero costume

Aizawa tells him in no uncertain terms that he’ll never be alone in a room with izuku again for as long as he lives.

And with that, he storms out, leaving all might to stew.

#bnha au #bnha #dont praise the all mighty #aizawa shouta #midoriya izuku #all might #eraserhead #izuku #shinso hitoshi #bakugou katsuki #AFO #David Shield #melissa shield #todoroki shouto #uraraka ochako #Iida Tenya #midoriya #villain all might #tw child abuse

[enniewritesathing]

Stuff where I talk about things

or the spoiler post, or some clarifications because there’s no dialogue/text with this with a dash of behind the scenes

under a cut because... well, I like to talk

Were!John leaping into the air like that?? funniest thing I’ve done, hands down. I was struggling thinking ‘okay, so how is this guy gonna die’ and the gremlin was like ‘well... maybe off the top rope shit?’

that’s what i named that whole sequence

I didn’t show that guy’s head being caved in or even the aftermath of it. I did pose it but it looked... weird. Granted, his head got smashed in but stll.

There was a good second of silence after the guy handling the anesthesia asked a series of questions.

“Hey, if a werewolf dies, it’s said they turn back human. So, why hasn’t [John] turned back yet?” [Famous last words]

You may ask how come no one figured that out? Would have the monitor picked up on any heartbeat? Or the screen at the head of the surgical table for any motion? The lead was too far away from the screen and also the bracelets that were on John’s wrists were taken off. 

that and were!John did play dead. Like his cover should have been blown when his eyes were closed.

I had to go find and get screens from various ECG readings and I gotta tell ya, I have learned a lot! I wanted to find some that had more readings (BP/Respiratory Rate/etc) but nothing I could use, low quality... and I couldn’t make them myself. Oh well. That would’ve been neat, I think.

That was the first ‘meeting’ between John and were!John. 

Also, I have to say, I didn’t think the difference between them would be that stark? John looks really young when he doesn’t have any body hair on him??

The shot of were!John daring the cop to shoot him is another good shot that I love. You know he called this man a “p*ssy”.

Were!John knew that the gun wasn’t going to shoot on the basis that he counted the bullets that were fired. It sounded different when lead researcher shot and killed the cop.

I really did feel bad when some parts called for John to be crying. No less than, what 4 times? I’m terrible! My boy D:

Posing 5 rigs and then setting them up? What a fucking nightmare. 0/10 what was I THINKING

The sequence that ended with were!John holding the heart of a seriously dead man... the beginning of it, he tried shifting the blame to the lead researcher, but were!John smelled the medicine used on him. That he was told to. Sure, but the counterpoint is that he could have refused to. The fact that he did it twice and then have the audacity to get all high and mighty about it when it was thought that were!John died. Just as complicit as everyone else in the room.

I’m glad this heart cc was made because the other one would have looked goofy looking. 

I had the idea of him taking a bite of it and looking very deranged and, y’know be Like That... but then I thought, he wouldn’t waste food much less a heart as they are extremely tasty when fresh. 

The pic of him in the dark? Probably the scariest shot of anything.

Would have he tried and killed the remaining person? Nah. For one, they weren’t a threat (despite the fact that Actual Security was with them, pointing shotguns in his face no less). Two, were!John was asked if he was done. And he was. He was exhausted. All of his anger was gone. And three, he sensed that he didn’t want to bring any more harm to were!John, treating him with actual kindness.

“You’ve made quite the mess. You must be tired, Johnathan. Let’s get you cleaned up.”

okay, back to the first ‘meeting’. were!John is mostly “hey, what the fuck is going on, why are we dying here??” and John... explains the situation and were!John is upset because he knows what’s up. 

They argue in how to stop the situation, or rather John is arguing with were!John to not kill whoever’s behind them dying. 

“If I don’t put a stop to this, then you will die. We will die.” The point is driven by the fact that John dies about twice during their meeting, and the last part of it he’s really weakened. This is when he cries because of the sheer pain that he’s going through. He doesn’t want to kill, but if it makes the pain stop, then...

This is the part that were!John tells John: “It won’t be you doing it.” It’s a very important distinction. “This isn’t your burden to carry.”

I would also say that this story tells it from were!John’s perspective and give his side of it. He is far more complex than what was said about him in the first place. He is... what’s the word I’m looking for, gentle? towards his human side. 

The plan was essentially, “the next time you die, let me jump in and handle business, but whatever you do, just stay put, don’t listen to any voices, don’t follow no one, etc.”

When were!John took over, the room turned black. When he gave John back control, the half he stood on was black, and John’s side was white. When were!John left, the room was back to white. I thought it would be a cool idea for ~subtle symbolism~.

Meanwhile, back at the surgery, it’s obvious that when John wasn’t turning back (forcibly), there were some arguments.

Basically, “eh, if he dies, we can bring him back and try again nbd, we’ve got ALL night and he’s been shown to be alright after. We’re going to reverse this.”

Funny how that worked out.

for real though, posing 5 rigs? setting them up? keeping track of who’s who?? 0/10.

And on another note, this story would not have been possible without all of the CC involved. It is a grocery list of things that I’ve been waiting on for a while, no matter how niche it was, but I’m glad someone made it and decided to share it. 

The time for were!John to do his business? ‘bout 10 minutes.

Oh!! I forgot about!! Using TOOL!! It’s a pain in the ass! I don’t know my angles! And I didn’t know what axis was what! That probably took me longer than I needed to! But stuff got flipped like I wanted it to or else the environment would’ve looked real goofy.

I think that’s it... for now... 

My favorite shots?! 

the mentioned were!John jumping off the top rope

The smile

The look of pure terror when the guy with the undercut realized that John wasn’t dead after all

Actually just all the looks of terror. I put extra thought into that.

that single shot of were!John crying before vindication. 

John on the floor looking shocked at seeing were!John.

were!John holding John as he (essentially) died and the taking over!!

how exhausted and done were!John looked as he stood up

what’s ya’lls favorite shot/sequence? :>

I’m not gonna lie, when I made the pose of John arching his back and popped in-game, I thought... okay that’s a little extra, but we’ll keep it.

when I was making poses for that part, I had an outfit that had tears (apartment!John is the other John and... what I’m saying is, it’s hard to keep track of two in one spot) and I left it in as a goof but then I was like “YO THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING”

i mentioned in a earlier post that John is an angry crier. and guess what??

he cries because he is angry. he is wrathful. 

And also the person who survived here was Brian’s contact in the story. Brian threatened to kill him/finish what were!John started if he came near John in any capacity. I mean... look at him. Dude’s a shrimp.

TIL there’s a photo upload limit and I busted it twice so, I guess if I have something as big as this, I better update as I go along.

This story and making it is probably the most ambitious thing I’ve done so far on this blog and I am glad I am done.

I may be missing something here but that’s what I’ve got on my mind.

EDIT: Okay, few more things.

Were!John knowing that John will most not likely remember any of this because of some amnesia side effects from the medicines and all of that.

But not really. John gets nightmares/night terrors from all of this. He tells what he remembers to Brian in the main story. It’s incomplete but he still knows. Hearing this prompts Brian to tell John to talk to his were self. They gloss over it in the story, but I would say that were!John tells him what exactly at some point.

And another thing, in the majority of this story, were!John’s sclera is black. What does this mean?

I didn’t know this CC existed but had I known about it, it would’ve been in the main story where were!John charges towards the bear that was gonna kill/eat Brian.

On that note, his sclera was white when he chased and cornered Brian before he figured out whoops, that’s his mate.

And I probably made that part a plot hole because given how were!John behaves in this story and then go buck wild when he first gets out in this story... I mean, it had been two years. maybe he was that excited and temporarily lost his goddamn mind?? Would he have done something to Brian if he wasn’t his mate? I don’t think so. If Brian wasn’t so scared, he’d do something as drastic and slap him hard enough to knock him out of it.

I guess?? well, plot hole I guess! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#a text post #non sims #spoilers #a LONG post #and there's probably something that I'm missing

[franeridart]

Ahhh i love akane uwu

THANK YOU I love her too so knowing you do as well makes me very happy !!!!

Anon said:Hello my name is Eijirou. I am the android sent by cyberlife.

You know, that’s one fandom I never got around to checking out before it died out

Anon said:hi i love ur art, especially your future bakushima! have u read this one ao3 bakushima fic called you can get what you want or you can just get old? i read it recently and it reminded me of your art style a lot... if not, nbd, ur work is so cool! ♡

Anon said:OHHHH MY GOD IM SO SO SO SO SO SORRY FOR SPAMMING YOU WITH LIKES AND REBLOGS THE PAST TWO HOURS AIDFKNDSSNEINDD I JSUT KEPT SCROLLING THROUGH YOUR KIRIBAKU TAG AND LOST TRACK OF TIME AND OH MY GOD I HOPE IT WASN'T TOO ANNOYING

IT’S OKAY DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT if you’re worried about blowing up my phone I have my notifs turned off on it ;;;; thank you so much for liking my krbks that much tho!!!!

Anon said:Every time I seen your art I'm like damn... Who is this person this is great I have to follow and then I look and I'm already following you nice job

Oh dang that’s such a nice compliment!! thank you so much!!!!

Anon said:Wow I finally found the original artist, theres so many reposts of ur art on Twitter that people don't credit and it made me sad cause I really wanted to see all ur work. Thank goodness I stumbled upon this blog!!

Aw dang, really? I even have a twitter, what need to people have of reposting over there :((( orz thank you for liking my things, tho!

Anon said:hello! i really love your kiribaku kids au, i was wondering when we’re going to see them again~ ( ◠‿◠ ) keep up with the good work and content!! have a nice day^^

Anon said:Ahhhh I love??? Your art??? So much??? Like seriously I've been looking at the art on your account so often whenever I type in an F in the search bar it immediately suggests your account. I was just wondering if you're going to do more of the krbk kids because I love them s o m u c h?? I hope you're having a great day! Plus Ultra!

Thank you both so much!!! And that’s a good question... Akane came up so I might indulge with her for a while now, but I love Tai and Mako very dearly too so I’ll probably get back to them sooner or later! They’re a happy family after all, it’s always nice to indulge~

Anon said:If BoKroo were in the MHA universe, what quirks do you think they'd have? Like, it'd be hella dope if you can doodle it.

Aw man sorry but I’m not really much into drawing hq right now :(

Anon said:Your blog should be reffered to as "a remedy for bad days" because honestly, your amazing art always makes my day. ALWAYS. Thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful day!!!

That’s!!!!!! So sweet!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much I hope you have the best day ever!!!

Anon said:Pls explain last post me curios potato •.•

I wanna get back to it actually so I’d prefer not to talk about it before I have something more down!! :0 but I’ve seen people in the tags call them androids and that’s not exactly it! What Kiri has on himself is just tech, he’s 100% completely human! Baku might be considered a cyborg I guess, but the only part of him that’s mechanic are his hands 👀 so still mostly human too~

Anon said:How tf are your lines so smooth?!?!

A lot of ctrl+z and allowing them to sorta do whatever they wanna do instead of obsessing over having them be exactly the same as the sketch!

Anon said:Are you alright with rp blogs using your art as icons if they credit you?

Sure, go nuts! Just make sure the credits are visible both from mobile and desktop!

Anon said:I don't know if you're still doing bnha fusions, but what a shinkami (shinsou x kaminari) fusion or a miritama (mirio x tamaki) fusion?

I’m not doing them anymore :((( sorry!

Anon said:I GOT ONE OF YOUR STICKERS FOR CHRISTMAS AND I CRIED A LITTLE BIT BLESS U

NUH ANON BLESS YOU FOR BUYING FROM ME THANK YOU SM!!!!!

Anon said:1. I love the kiribaku dog and cat drawings. They are AMAZINGLY ADORBS 2. Has somebody written an AU for it cause if so I need to read

Thank you!!!!!! And not that I know, sadly :( lots of arts for it around, but no fics that have both of them as kemonomimis at the same time (though there’s a bunch of cat!Baku or wolf!Baku around, they’re n i c e)

#fran answers #since i got no time to draw #im in high spirits lately !!!!!! #let's hope it lasts !!!!! #anonymous

[starklovebot]

bucky and nat boo?

GENERAL:

Rate the Ship -  Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - a very long time i would say but they break up quite a few times because bucky = insecure and thinks he’s making stuff bad for her

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - it takes a while but they talked about their experiences and bonded over that but they were scared of a relationship

How was their first kiss? - it was really quick and awkward bc bucky didn’t want to overstep his boundaries but then nat was like it’s ok!! and they had a longer better kiss

WEDDING:

who proposed - bucky

who was the best man/men- steve

who are the bridesmaids- maria hill, pepper, tony, and wanda

who did the most planning- they split the planning and did it together

who stressed the most- bucky

how fancy was the ceremony- back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | normal church wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big tony wanted a huge wedding and offered to pay for everything but neither of them actually have family and all of their friends are in the avengers anyways so it was a pretty simple wedding in the compound

who was specifically not invited to the wedding - sam but he came anyways

CHILDREN

how many children will they have naturally- none bc nat is sterile oop

how many children will they adopt- bucky doesn’t really trust himself around kids so they get a dog first and then they adopt twins who are a little older like 6 or 7

who gets stuck with the most diapers- they don’t have babies that age but it would def be bucky

who is the stricter parent- they both pretend to be strict in front of the other but they are very soft

who stops the kids from doing dangerous stunts at school- steve

who remembers to pack the lunches- bucky bc he used to take care of ps steve and his kids remind him of him

who is the more loved parent- trick question it’s tony bc he buys them a million presents for christmas and lets them use his tech they love bucky and nat equally

who is more likely to attend pta meetings- nat bc bucky isn’t super comfortable going to school stuff with his arm and everything

who cried most at graduation- bucky

who is more lucky to bail them out of trouble with the law- nat

COOKING

who does the most cooking- nat

who is more picky in their food choice- anything is better than what they had to eat in the red room :)

who does the most grocery shopping- nat bc bucky+people=not comfy for the babey

how often do they bake desserts- no

who is more likely to surprise the other with an anniversary dinner- they cannot surprise eachother bc they both are superspys so they both try and they both get figured out before it happens

are they more of a meat eater or a salad eater- anything is better than what they had to eat in the red room :)

who is more likely to suggest going out- nat

who is more likely to burn down the house while cooking- bucky

CHORES

who cleans the room- nat did but then bucky made a joke about her being a 20s housewife and she threw a duster at him so now bucky does the cleaning

who is really against chores- bucky

who cleans up after the pets- whoever lost the nightly game of arm wrestling (with right arms dw)

who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug- bucky

who stresses the most when guests are coming over- they both stress but the only people who come over are steve tony pepper and wanda so it’s nbd

who found a dollar bill between the couch cushions while cleaning- bucky

MISCELLANEOUS

who takes longer showers/baths- bucky

who takes the dog out for a walk-whoever lost the nightly game of arm wrestling

how often do they decorate for the holidays- asap as they can the house is ALL OUT pretty much a l l the time

what are their goals for the relationship- to help eachother grow and heal from the years of torture and abuse from the russians

who is most likely to sleep till noon- bucky

who plays the most pranks- they are actually in a prank war, bucky losing 5 to 23

@faeloki tagged u as promised xoxo

#buckynat #bella answers🌻 #tina babey #ship game

[pacifistofpatience]

Jfc today was actually really freaking shitty

I opened in work today, and two of my favorite Sous chefs opened too So I was happy with everything, even though someone fucked up the scheduling and we didnt have anyone working in my department all day yesterday- leading to me having to do double the work to catch up. I was ok, I can handle shit like that.

But then the closing Sous chef came in and sure he’s nice, and likes me and treats me kindly but He has a fucking terrifying temper. He’s the kind of guy that’s overly cheery right up until he’s not and he just fucking flips. And you never know when/why he’s going to flip, it could be because someone was actually being a shitty person or it could be because you made a mistake and misheard him and no matter what it’s always the same level of terrifying rage and it scares the shit out of me. Because Of that we joke and talk and make jabs at each other but there’s always this underlying tension where I’m too scared to really joke with him- it’s a walking on eggshells situation where I dont know which one will make him just... crack.

And today I had made a mistake. Lunch was busy and I was keeping up and sure it was overwhelming but that’s nothing, then he pulls me over and apparently I cooked something wrong. NBD I’ll remake it. Easy fix. but Not really, because I cook it again and there’s still something wrong, and he dosnt say anything; just shoves the shit in my face and tells me to eat it. When I taste it and Don’t know whats wrong I’m pretty sure he would have torn into me if it wasn't for the fact that he was busy so all he said was “It’s burnt” and left me to it.

The issue is that, sure, I fucked up the first batch, but the second batch was perfectly fucking fine. I know because not only did the other Sous tell me it was fine, but the others in the kitchen were eating it. And while I get this guy is a serious perfectionist he’s still holding me up to these high fucking standards that are almost impossible to reach.

and I got pissed off - on top of all the shit I had to do today this bastard is giving me shit for some “fucked up” food- but because I can’t just up and yell at my boss (And because I’m terrified of him) I walk away fucking seething. The issue is that when I’m mad and can’t express it I start to get... A little teary eyed. It’s crying out of frustration and I hate it because I look like such a kid and I’m trying to be seen as an adult in this fucking job that won't even give me the promotion I deserve. And just the thought of that made me even more teary eyed because I was just so pissed that they're holding me up to these standards when I’m not even allowed to try for the position and I was so fucking tired of dealing with these fuckers 

And since A lot of my emotions are shown right on my face most of them must have thought i was getting overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to do, so people start helping me out even though I didn’t need help, I needed to fucking scream. Preferably at that bastard. 

But I didnt. I bit my tongue and I worked through it and didn't say a single word to anyone because I was fucking seething at this point and either I was gonna snap or cry at the next person that spoke to me and I Didn’t want either of those. And As I work through my shift all I can think about is how no matter what I fucking do it’s never good enough. I could be going beyond expectations and still never reach the fucking bar they're setting for me 

And I’m sure, because I’m see as a women in my job, because now I’ve been a little bit emotional, any respect they had for me vanished in an instant. Because this is how shit always happens. Because I act overly happy and kind and that just translates into “childishness” in their minds, and now that I got a little teary-eyed I can bet you this is gonna be the final nail on the coffin. 

My shift ends. I tell the sous chefs I’m going home and he’s there with them. He starts trying to explain the whole “burnt” food thing and I just shut down, instead of acknowledging what he’s saying I just nod my head and start saying in a fucking exhausted voice “I’m going home” over and over again until he quiets down and then I leave. I Don’t know if he  figured out how mad I was but I hope he fucking knew. I’m scary when I’m angry, and I hope he knows he’s not the only one with a scary temper now.

and then I cried on my drive home.

#my posts #text #What really sucks is that Crush saw this and I just... #UGH #On top of the fact he's been catching me being less then happy #he probably thinks theres something wrong outside of work #or he thinks I'm a fucking baby #either way I hate it

[everydayhybridity]

Adults with Sticker Collections

For two years, starting in 1996, I embraced a nationalist notion of skateboarding. I ardently only consumed UK skateboard media and magazines. I meticulously read Sidewalk Surfer and only bought shop boards from my local store, and Blueprint merchandise. My thinking was very much focussed on how remote skateboarding was becoming to me. It was changing and so was I. Seeing British streets and cracked pavements resonated with me and it made the images I consumed palpable. I was exercising control over something meaningful.

For the last few weeks I have been watching Blips ‘Cover Version’ on repeat. I am once again living in Europe and the skateboarding in this video feels like the zeitgeist. Reading about the approach to the video Dan Magee and Kevin Parrott were focal on getting a video that communicated a vibe about skateboarding, not a tick list of NBDs at notable spots. Instead they sought out new locations in London and the novelty of exploring them. The random encounters that litter the video feel qualitatively different to the voyeurism of Bill Strobeck. Many of the folk we encounter are celebrating the festivity of skateboarding. An old lady in a shop-mobility chair high fives Korahn Gayle with smiles all around. In short it can be summarised as ‘That’s mad. That’s mad skateboarding there man. Shhh!’ Cover Version is a video that makes me feel skateboarding. I watch it and want to run out the door.

All this of course is of much more consequence. As an academic who writes about skateboarding I walk an uneasy line. I have had colleagues say to me that what I am doing is inconsequential and that I am essentially playing. Being charged with not being serious while being an academic is a hefty challenge. From the other side of the fence striving to talk seriously about skateboarding is profoundly difficult, especially if you hope to engage those people who it matters most too. 

In all the time I researched issues pertaining to youth, ethnicity, and religion I seldom encountered emotionally intense situations. Rarely have people got angry, and very seldom have I ever encountered anyone who cried. Yet in my recent research with skateboarders I have had multiple instances of both men and women share their stories and be in tears. Often what they are emotional about is the joy of skateboarding. They are at a loss to express the depth of meaning they have derived from the wooden toy that is the skateboard. Trying to express this, one skateboarder in his fifties told me...

‘There are so many adult skateboarders I know who have sticker collections. That have collected stickers over the years and have got all these stickers in a little shoe box somewhere that they have kept since they were 12 years old’

What compels grown men to keep a box of stickers? In all our musings about skateboarding I think it is this very personal sense of meaning and connection that endures. 

Listening to the Vent City podcast this week underlined some of these things again. Ted Barrow’s candour about what skateboarding has meant to him connects the dots. Skateboarding continues to be compelling even while it gets co-opted or seduced by the promises of its new normalisation. I realise more and more that the reason skateboarding holds promise as a point of academic study is because it is plural. It is hybrid. It is not static and as a result we have a real relationship with it. We care when it changes, we argue, protest, and in the end we grow. Or in my case circa 1998 I ended my own personal Brexit and bought Jump off a Building.

This plurality is all the more important right now as we are in the midst of an era of popularism and polarisation. The end of nuance, debate, and too often tolerance. This is where skateboarding holds promise and continues to deliver.

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