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multifanlol · 1 year

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Hello! Love the recent Marcy xShy reader post you did think you do a part 2 of what happens when all 4 meet up again maybe have Sasha and the reader get into a argument and Marcy goes to comfort them afterwards

Sure! And thankkss I honestly hoped someone would request for a part two sooo-

Sasha may be seen OOC but i need to remind y’all this is her BEFORE her development Sasha b4 that was a bit much 😭 (still love her tho 🫶)

Marcy Wu x Fem! Shy! Reader (pt 2)

Ever since that “incident” you honestly thought things were gonna be awkward

I mean okay, sure they were a little awkward but that was because it was an awkward nerd and another nerd who can’t keep a full conversation going

Other then that things were pretty chill although you couldn’t lie you still felt extremely guilty

I mean, sure you and Marcy didn’t kiss or anything like that but you still knew Sasha ever since you were kids even if she DID turn into maybe a psycho trying to kill one of Anne’s frog friends(?) (readers pov) you still cared about her in some way-

Recently you’ve gotten the other stones to open the calamity box and now you just had to do the last one

Which happened to be Sasha

And “Grime” or whatever according to Anne tried to kill “Hop Pop” (y/n doesn’t know the names okay 😭)

To say the least tension was in the air

With the planters and Grime and you Anne, Marcy and Sasha

It’s not like you hated her you were tense over having to end things with her, Marcy was tense due to guilt, Anne was tense due to well everything that happened

Now you took a breath in while walking out of the cave and walked over to Sasha

“That was surprisingly brave of you” you thought to yourself

“Hey Sasha…”

The blonde turned around to the h/c girl while she was talking to Grime

Grime seemed to get the message then clears his throat awkwardly

“I am not being involved in this, you can go and chat I’ll just be…..over there”

We watched him awkwardly walk away

“Sooo, Grime seems……interesting”

“Yea, Grimesy isn’t so bad once you get to know him…”

There was the awkwardnesss

You clear your throat again

“So, Sasha ever since we’ve been apart I’ve had time to…”

You notice Sasha yawning then she notices you staring

“Oh, I’m listening relax! It’s not like what your saying is gonna be a big deal anyway”

You take a short breath and stare at her

“it’s now or never” you thought

“Listen Sasha I’ve been thinking a lot and i believe that we should-“

“Hey, when you look at this cave when you look on the side, it kinda looks like a face”

“Sasha, i mean-“

“Our English class teacher back in 2nd grade!”

She laughs at it then notices you looking annoyed

“Why are you so upset-oh! don’t tell me Anne told you about it i mean, of course she did, listen n/n what happened was a misunderstanding and me and Anne made up so if your so mad about it-“

“It’s not about that Sasha-I’m sorry I-look, me and you are over-“

“What?!”

“I’m sorry, i hope you won’t hate me for it forever but i just can’t deal with this anymore-“

“Your…..your breaking up with me?! Why?!”

“It’s not you-i mean maybe it is you-or us both! I just-“

“After all the times i stuck up for you whenever they’d question why i went out with you, all those stuff I’d let you get, YOUR dumping me?!”

You honestly felt terrible but getting it over with now seems best….maybe

“Listen Sasha, you weren’t a horrible girlfriend i just don’t have strong feelings for you-“

“Don’t have strong feelings for me?! Why didn’t you tell me this before we landed in Amphibia?!”

“I wasn’t sure of it then! Maybe i didn’t tell you this often but i kinda thought you were a control freak!”

“I let you buy whatever you wanted!”

“YOU bought them for me, and when I’d try to ask something you’d completely dismiss my opinion!!”

You noticed Sasha seemed somewhat stunned by your courage but that quickly covered with rage

“Well what about the times we went to the movies i payed for everything!”

“YOU payed for the tickets i had to pay for the snacks and seats!!!”

The argument only just got longer you honestly didn’t wanna do this but honestly…..you had a lot of rage trapped inside you for years

“Okay maybe after all of that stuff, WHY did you actually dump me?”

“What…?”

“I’m not stupid y/n, there’s something your not telling me”

Ugh you knew Sasha could tell through lies as well as seeing through a telescope (bad comparison but honestly idc)

“Well, maybe it’s because i just don’t have feelings for you, ever thought of that?”

“I know that’s not it!”

“…”

“….Fine your not gonna tell me then, cool, maybe you were cheating on me and want an excuse while making it not be cheating? You were using me?! You-“

“I like someone else!”

“…”

“Well i…liked you at some point but i became more aware of these feelings later on…..and i wanna end things with you to attempt to not hurt you but, i guess i already did”

“….”

“I knew it….”

“I guess you wanna dump me for someone who might not even like you? Cool, maybe I’ll let you with open arms if you don’t come back too pathetic when they reject you”

And just like that she walked off

Ouch, it did sting though, it honestly hurt but you can’t expect much good from Sasha Waybright

It did hurt a lot though thinking about all of it, I’m not crying…..why are there tears rolling down my eyes

You noticed Sasha back talking to Grime and she looked at you for maybe a mil second then completely turned her head

It’s like she’s refused to even look at you

You were too caught up in your sadness to realise a certain bluettte noticed your sad frown

“Soo, do you wanna talk about it-“

You jump due to being caught up in your head you didn’t notice Marcy approaching you which resulted in her lightly giggling

“Oh! Sorry that was mean! Sorry for scaring you….heh”

“It’s….fine”

“Soo….do you wanna…..or-it’s okay really!-“

You turn your head around to see if it’s close to anyone hearing

“I’ll….tell you back here…”

You walk a bit behind the others so it’s not close to anyone except you and Marcy hearing and tell her everything

“And so then…..”

“And then?”

“I revealed i liked someone and well, I’m a horrible person….i think i hurt her…..”

“Ouch that sounds awful! For you-or her! Or well both?”

You knew Marcy had trouble deciding which “side” she should “be on” you honestly felt bad and felt she didn’t need to choose

“Um well i don’t think Sasha thinks your a horrible person maybe she was just a little mad-“

“No, i know what i did to her was wrong, i hurt her and she has every right to be upset with me but, the other stuff i just don’t want to make things awkward for you, and Anne, and stuck in Amphibia for crying out loud!”

You stop when Marcy hugs you

“You looked like you needed it-“

“No! It’s fine….i like it…”

“….”

This time it was……peaceful silence

“Sooo, when we head back wanna go eat that cake i was telling you about?”

“For the last time, I’m not eating something that may or may not have flies in them”

“Oh come onnnn!”

It was peaceful

I’m bad with names 😭

Andddd now that’s done with i hope you liked it-i didn’t really have much ideas for it so day by day I’ve just been doing little bits it is low-key short tho-overall i hope you liked ittt! Have a good day/night bye y’all!

#character x reader #amphibia #amphibia x reader #marcy wu #marcy wu x reader #sasha waybright #sasha waybright x reader

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xshimaeraxx · 2 months

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being cupioromantic sucks dick, and here’s why (says i, a cupioromantic)

Before ya’ll shout at me in the tags n shit: i am, myself, cupioromantic. I am saying this bc this is how i, personally feel abt being cupioromantic, and why its so goddamned depressing (at least for me).

Being cupioromantic, for me, is like a constant battle of wills, almost. It contradicts itself, over and over and over, even though i know- logically, that being cupioromantic isnt a contradiction. It just sucks ass.

for anyone who doesnt know: cupioromantic is (quoting google here btw) “describ[ing] a person who wants a romantic relationship, but does not feel romantic attraction”. Which, um, FUCKING SUCKS.

bc i aint never gonna have a partner. The fact im aegosexual (or js ace or acespec in more simple terms) js makes that harder, bc i aint never gonna have sex, least not voluntarily. So i cant feel for my partner romantically, which is what like 80% of the world is looking for in a partner, and i cant have sex either, bc i js dont feel that way for ppl. And i never will. (Refering to both sexual attraction & romantic attraction here btw).

so that takes out all my options. Bc i can love people, yes, but not in the way that (most, nearly all) ppl want. But i dont wanna be alone til the end of my days, so where does that leave me?

bc, sure, ill have friends & family & hopefully a cat or two bc, yes, i am a crazy cat person. I actually currently have a cat rn, actually. (His names Bear, hes a black cat & i love him w/ all my heart, but still, my point stands). But i want a partner.

i want someone to kiss, and cuddle, and hug, and love. But bc of what i am, a afab human-person thing whos only social life & interaction other then my parents is via online spaces bc due to my lifestyle i js dont have any other options, an aroace who cant like-like some1 like that and who doesnt want to have sex and doesnt feel sexually for irl people and who never will

i js. I cant have it. Unless i luck out & meet a fellow aro, or ace, or aroace out in the wild, which is- extremely unlikely, tbqh, i wont ever have it. And thats not even the worst part, bc being cupioromantic is, believe it or not, a double-fucking-edged sword.

The few times ive tried to explain to my online friends what i want in a partner, ive constantly felt like im invalidating myself, and it fucking sucks. Bc what aro wants to kiss, and hug, and cuddle and what proper aro wants a romantic relationship??

i dont know how to explain it in words, tbqh, so ill do it via example.

so, fun fact! I only recently found out that im cupioromantic. Oh, i knew i was aro, certainly, but not cupioromantic bc i didnt know it was a thing. That like. Actually existed. (And by recently i mean last-fucking-night)

previously i hadnt thought abt it much tbqh. Then, my friend brought up the subject of love. I said, “i mean realistically no one will ever love me”. My friend responded w/ a gif that flashed the word “lie!” (LMFAO).

to summarise, what happened was i tried (and failed) to properly explain what i wanted in a partner w/o invalidating myself (and failed, im pretty sure). Then, my friend said “so cupioromantic?”

I looked it up, andddd went “oh. Oh fuck dear lord this is me. Well, im fucked.” Now i didnt say that, of course, but, yea, u get the gist of it lmao.

basically, the whole point of this example is that being cupioromantic and not invalidating urself bc u js dont think ur vaild is. Hard. Very very hard.

Now, i am in no way saying cupioromantic is not a vaild identity/romantic orientation, bc it completely is. This whole post is js me trying to deal w/ the fact i dont think im vaild when i know, logically that i am. My brain is js- having a hard time accepting that, ig.

ANYGAYS imma end this whole rant thingy now b4 this ends up being 2x longer then it already is. Gn ya’ll! (Yes i do know it is 7:35 am as i am writing this shut-)

#cupioromantic #aromantism #screaming incoherently into the void of tumblr #bc where else am i suppose to scream my woes at?#that sentence’s grammar hurts my brain btw #it is 7:06 am as i am writing this tag #god help me #WIAT HELP THATS AN ACTUAL TAG OML #internalised aphobia?? maybe?#it kinda seems that way to me but my brains only directing it on myself so uh idk tbh #CUPIOROMANTICS R VAILD ASF #my brain js think i specifically am not for some reason-

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noah-inthemood · 4 months

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I ask myself why i always have to be like this. I mean, i always stay negative lol. I always expect bad outcomes b4 things even get started, and most of the cases, they do escalate real badly.

The thing is, i also hate hearing toxicated things spread around among ppl, so i avoid that.

To be specific, this 12/24, we were anticipating a Xmas fair where i can finally meet Mamamoo+. But the council did so bad and i believe at this point it is set that the show will be cancelled. It was tragic to everyone, i know, but it was better for me to go over it, for some reasons.

At first i didn't really want to go, as the ticket fee was too costy and the council's perfomance got me thinking twice :))) But then I had a friend who got me (and another friend of mine) a cheaper deal so I agreed one time. Of course I gave my money, I gave my trust and this outcome is not any longer my friend or my fault, just that I felt bad. I had doubts from the beginning, but the high hopes won.

To the point of this post, after the show is informed to be cancelled, there is supposed to be a meeting held by one of the victims aka a fan, and it sounds good it sounds fun. But it wont be, i assume. Bc in that meeting, i bet everybody will find every word to show disgust on the council. I hate it. Yea we all know how asshole they are, how damaged we are emotionally and financially, but what's the point of chewing it up? It only engraves the pain on you and you are drown in toxicated things. Obsession is a useless thing, finding ways to minimize your damage is the only solution.

All in all, I am a solution-oriented person.

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zarovich · 2 years

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hate when strangers waddle up to chronically mentally ill n mentally disabled ppl and preach their "it will get better" shit. like. sometimes it doesn't. for some of us, this is how it is. and u know what? that's okay. meetin myself in the middle and takin one step at a time to just exist in the now does far more than hopin for a better future, one that may never come. like. its okay to constantly struggle. the important thing is yer still makin thru each second. that's what counts. I always felt worse everytime someone tried to come up to me and doin the same thing of "ohhh it'll get better, dont you worry, just hope, do your best, and miracles will happen" like that's not realistic for me and many others, so idk if you'd feel the same way. it's agonizin to constantly fantasize about a much better situation when it's miles away, if there at all, than it is to just accept this is how yer world is now.

skrunkly skroonkly tumblr blogger on my dash I have spoken to a couple times b4, I do at least care abt u in a "hey I like seein you post and followin whatever yer doin on gettin into these days or even just readin updates, knowin im not alone in this world strugglin" if that counts for anythin. I kno Im not close to you, not the same as a friend, and Im not gonna parasocial my way into talkin abt that shit. but yea, if my little one follow counts to u, there's that at least. if not, thats alright too. hope tomorrow is a little less painful or u can get smth that at least minorly brings u joy in this sea of pain

yeah i understand that it typically comes with good intentions, but ive never been a big fan of when others tell me it gets better. it makes me feel like im a broken machine and i feel angry. and it isn't just mental for me, alot of us also have physical disabilities too. striving to get better in the sense of being rid of my illnesses is very improbable for me, for many... something others don't seem to understand my viewpoint. i want to have better coping skills, have accommodations and support from those around me. id rather accept that maybe i wont get better than constantly stressing myself out over a goal that isnt even guaranteed. why give myself false hope over something that i know will crush me if it doesn't happen?? but at least its good to know that one person doesn't assume im giving up on myself if im not trying to constantly "fix" my chronic illnesses yknow

#asks #not last anon obv but others have said i gave up on life if wasnt constantly trying to 'fix' myself 😐😐 so i associate with that

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classicjdiesandgoestohell · 2 years

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something that has been bothering me sooo much lately is how dysphoric i feel around nick literally terrible i haven't felt this dysphoric in yeaaaarrrrrssssss. theres some post on my instagram from december about having fucking dysphoria dreams do u realize how ridiculous that is???? Literally have dreams for weeks on end about dysphoria??????? crazy, especially bc dreams are always super relevant for me. they are not abstract at all, they are straight up what is happening and what ive been feeling lately.

june does not make this feel any better at all way worse i feel so bad. my girlfriend bought me a binder for christmas but i mostly just wore it at the house (idk why, its not like i Don't want to be flat when i leave the house, i just always seemed to forget when i needed to leave) to feel better at myself. (actually as i type this i realize it's because s lot of my dysphoria is more, self inflicted than other ppl percieving me. I have the worst dissociation ever I don't process that when I leave the house, there is a physical body that people are perceiving so i don't particularly care what i look like). ANYWAYS long story short i started wearing my binder to school bc i want to make sure that i can handle wearing it for the full 8-10 hours, instead of taking it off after a few. I have also been observing which shirts i look the flattest in so that i can wear those ones to see him. yea. obviously they're all sweaters/heavier clothes which won't work well with the heat but never! In my life! Have I let heat stopped me from wearing clothes!

i also wanted to try a new hair dye colour bc ive had blonde & pink for over a year now )i still love it, don't get me wrong i am just curious what other colours id like) but like i am scared it'll suck and i won't be able to get my hair back to something good by the time i see him. if i dyed it within the next week it'd Maybe be faded enough to redye it b4 the trip??? But I don't know how fast green fades compared to the pink i always do. Way slower im pretty sure.

i also really want to Cut my hair and get a shorter haircut but again i am so scared it'll look bad. ivr had the same length for also over a year and i like it, it's safe. but this post is DYSPHORIA THEMED i think it's too ambiguous. i think my face is too feminine for it to ever look male on me, even if it could for other people. i want to go shorter but if it grows out badly im ending it!!!!!!! it'd be better to do it now (i was planning to cut my hair Tonight) but if i cut it badly, ill have 1-2 more weeks left of school w a terrible haircut.....but if i cut it after that, it might not be able to grow out enough to look ok b4 nick? UGH I don't know bro idk what my final decision will be. i need to make it fucking fast though. maybe ill have my sister help me make the decision & cut it so that it'll be better. the issue is I have very very straight hair so i hate shorter hair styles bc if i don't brush it or if i go more than 3 days w/o showering, it gets so flat i look so fucking bad

Ohghhhhhhh this reminds me i have terrible eating disorder related hair loss. I started recovery mid-march, and my friend said it took him about 3 months for his hair to start being healthy & grow back again and that's around the time i see nick. but it could take longer for me. that's another reason i don't want to cut my hair, because j did used to have shorter hair and it looked fine. It was never flat or anything even w/o brushing, but now i have much less hair on my head. and it is not the healthiest hair.. so im scared how it'd look shorter

I'm talking a lot about cutting & dyeing it when most likely I'd just end up keeping the same haircut anyways!

yea just o haven't had a cis person in my life in YEARS all my friends either came out ss trans or they got cut off for other reasons so there is just none except like...my dad but he does not count. Honorary lgbt. especially a cis person i am dating....? It feels so bad literally so much anxiety all the time i already hate talking caus my voice so in person i wonder how often i will want to just opt out of the situation and not exist. god i hate it bc i am soo excited for everything else i want to be there so badly but i just hate that i must have a physical form and he has to see it. i haven't really been dysphoric for a long time (bc, no cis people in my life, got more comfortable in myself, came out irl) but it just. ugh. Yeah. i feel so guilty for kind of dreading that part of seeing him because i feel like i Should be totally excited but i am also so anxious. And also that's the whole point? is to see him and for him to see me. and know that i have a body i am real i have a face and i amna whole person and he is also. So it's like oh you're planning this whole elaborate thing only to dread likr...the main part of it. It'll probably be fine tho, i find i am much less aware of things in the moment and i won't even notice especially if i am having a good time. maybe the worry will be there when im trying to sleep, or in awkward spaces where i am suddenly aware of myself and my body and where i am. i love him and trust him tho so it'll be ok.

That is my post thank you for posting!

#lucky strike #whew!#purgatory

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clownkiwi · 3 years

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wow, i really got 2-3 hours of sleep huh e_e

#ruby says clown shit #i felt like i posted this b4 but. yea #i think i finally slept around 8 n woke up around 11??? so like 3 hours of sleep lol #yea yea i. i dont think i'll stream today #i was since my dad wasnt home n i wouldnt have to feel pressured about cleaning my room but now he is. also #idk if 3 hours sleep ruby can do a stream. just not in the energy for it #theres a new playstation state of play this thursday tho so. mayhaps i'll stream on that day #if thats the day dad decides to go to yayas since he usually goes to yayas on that day

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granadilla · 3 years

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ive actually nvr been called aza irl kfjndgkjnn ppl just call me azaria

#z speaks #tbh used nicknames cuz i felt like azaria was hard to remember/a lot to type out idk #but fr my mom calls me zari sometimes and my sis will say azaria w a latin accent so it's asaria but that's it............. i feel like i've #posted abt this b4 but yea... so weird to be called aza but that's my Online persona ~#need to do stats gym and english hw tonight O_O yes i said gym

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madmaddyenby · 3 years

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/rp /dsmp

ok so- c!tommy. we are all aware he’s traumatized, and experiences ptsd from being in traumatic experiences, this is basically fact. while i’d like to talk how c!tommy experiences ptsd, i’d like to bring up a thing i haven’t seen mentioned a lot when it comes to c!tommy and his trauma- c-ptsd. also known as complex-ptsd. it occurs when someone experiences something traumatizing for a period of time.

[image description: A screenshot of text with the words “CPTSD stands for Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. It is a mental health condition in which a person might experience intense PTSD symptoms that coincide with other mental issues. CPTSD occurs in people who have been subjected to on going traumatizing experiences”. end description]

which, as we know, the exile arc fits the description of “ongoing traumatizing experiences” pretty fucking well. the exile was basically just two weeks of trauma. for a lot of reasons too, there was dream abusing tommy, tommy being isolated, tommys own depression/suicidal thoughts/bad mindset in general. this would all be considered a ongoing traumatizing experience(s).

ptsd is very similar to c-ptsd in how it develops, but ptsd occurs after one singular traumatizing event . (by the way, the event doesnt have to be life or death, it could be something like witnessing or hearing about a shocking event!!!)

symptoms of c-ptsd overlap with ptsd a good lot of the time, due to them both being trauma disorders. however, there are a few differences. here r some symptoms of c-ptsd, alot of which are ptsd symptoms that alot ofpeople with c-ptsd experience as well

reliving the traumatic experience

avoiding certain situations

changes in beliefs and feelings about yourself and others

hyperarousal (jitteriness, being on alert, etc)

somatic symptoms (physical symptoms with no underlying cause)

lack of emotional regulation

change in consciousness

negative self-perception

difficulty with relationships

distorted reception of abuser

loss of system of meanings

now, i’ll go over which of these fit our boy c!tommy, and how they fit for some of them atleast. i will only be talking about the things that are a result from c-ptsd, but also c-ptsd works where it coincides with other mental illnesses a person has so. its also important to note that within a person these symptoms might not stay the same over time, and not everyone who has c-ptsd or ptsd is going to experience it the same. (so not talking abt how pain affects him after dying in the prison, though that is a clear sign of ptsd)

reliving the traumatic experience

tommy’s done this with exile a few times, when revisiting logstedshire, when he saw the craters in logstedshire, when visiting dream in prison, when during the disc finale dream dug the hole and told him to put his armour in, etc etc, he’s even described himself as being trembly in the fingers near plain biomes, while visting logsted he mentioned how shaky it made him to be there, and when he visited logsted one time he had an immediate reaction to seeing a hole in the ground that came off as him reliving it. flashbacks come in from sensations during a traumatic event, like sight, feeling, emotion, etc, etc. it seems like with these he’s experiencing more of a reliving the emotions kind of thing.

avoiding certain situations

i was originally not gonna include this one, but thinking about it, he kind of does in a way. this symptom also includes keeping yourself preoccupied to avoid thinking about it, which is something c!tommy seems to do alot. with focusing on building the hotel, and doing tasks, or grinding for supplies instead of actually thinking about it.

changes in beliefs and feelings about yourself and others

c!tommy uh. does this a lot. a lot of it stems from how during exile tommy was isolated and made to believe no one cared for him, and even if that wasn’t true c!tommy never really got much closure on that. hes not really trusting ppl that b4 were really close to him, tubbo n ranboo for example

lack of emotional regulation

this can also be described as uncontrollable feelings. this is the one i’ve wanted to talk about the most i think- because this is really fits c!tommy. he tends to lash out alot, for example burning the flower c!ranboo gave him, there are a bunch more examples of this that include him yelling at others, that one time when he spleefed c!jack

negative self-perception

yeah. theres a few examples of this one, the one that first comes to mind is that time during the green festival where he was talking about how he was worse than everyone he didn’t wanna be (including his abuser, c!dream...) . theres now when he was building his tower by the prison when he was saying he couldn’t use the cobble because it was too him, and people didnt like the cobble. alot of this i think comes from c!dream making him feel basically worthless in exile :(

difficulty with relationships

Yeah. um. Alot for this one!!! The first to come to mind is c!tubbo. c!tommy and c!tubbos relationship is very very wonky, especially considering recent events with tommy feeling like he is being replaced with c!ranboo. (which he isnt by the way! he just feels as though, which is a valid feeling for him to have :]) . another person that comes to mind is c!ranboo. he’s even mentioned how his and ranboos relationship goes back and forth quite alot. its not very surprising to see that he has difficulty with relationships especially considering a lot of the reason that the exile affected him so badly was because he felt so alone and was so isolated from his friends. another thing that comes to mind, is when he made c!sam sign that contract promising hat he’d be his best friend and protect him. theres most likely way more that can be said here, but this is the first stuff that comes to mind.

distorted reception of abuser

um... yeah. this one. this can also be described as , “ becoming preoccupied with the relationship between you and your abuser. It can also include preoccupation with revenge or giving your abuser complete power over your life. “ which is um. yeah. c!tommy. he’s mentioned how whenever he’s around c!dream he feels like hes conditioned to be his friend (which. yea . he was .). right after he left logstedshire this was very very prominent, he was the biggest c!dream apologist around (/j), saying things like “dream didnt do anything wrong” and even explaining how he wasnt sure about things when it comes to c!dream, that his mind became flip floppy whenever he thought about him. right now, hes focused on getting back at c!dream, not fully for revenge, mainly for his friends and how he doesnt want c!dream to go around killing and reviving everyone, but the point still stands. (this all makes me extra sad because he had gone to the prison the second time in the first place to get closure :(( )

loss of system of meanings

Systems of meaning refer to your religion or beliefs about the world. This can also refer to getting a strong sense of hopelessness or despair about the world, which as of late mainly c!tommy seems to have. mainly referencing in his stream where he visited dreams bunker, he was asking what the point was of finding things that made him happy if dream was just going to get out the prison and destroy it. theres also a few things that also go with this, in one stream while he burnt down ponks lemon tree for sam nook he said "thats still decaying, but yknow, arent we all." and that one time when he gave that hotel invitation to c!techno he was like “ahahha we could die tomorrow anyway”

its also important to note that, “Any type of long-term trauma, over several months or years, can lead to CPTSD. However, it seems to appear frequently in people who’ve been abused by someone who was supposed to be their caregiver or protector. “ Which is.. fairly accurate in c!tommy’s situation. c!dream might’ve not been a caregiver or protector necessarily but he was still someone that was looking after him yknow?

there are most likely more things than what i layed out that show that c!tommy most likely also has cptsd, however this is just the stuff that i thought up :] add to the post if you’d like to!

(also this isn’t saying that c!tommy doesnt have ptsd, he had both ptsd and c-ptsd. also i am not an expert about ptsd, cptsd, or mental health in general, if i got any information wrong let me know)

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bokunosoul · 3 years

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Class 1 - a reacts to reader that is like Palm siberia from Hunter x hunter

HOW like HOW the fck did you even get into UA let alone get into the behold ✨class 1 - a✨.

The person that looks like an homeless person other than Aizawa 😶.

BAKUGOU hates the fact that your whiny.

Ya'll mineta is obsessed with most of the girls but with you a̶b̶i̶g̶f̶a̶t̶N̶O̶.

First of all your creepy and you look like an mummified corpse that rised from the dead.

The girls appreciates the fact that your protecting them over mineta but you did'nt even noticed😭🖐️.

They feel bad for you honestly you looked like an crazy psychopath that just got out of an ward😭🖐️ you were built like the girl from the ring🖐️.

You were also self consious of yourself and does'nt know what "self love/worth" is.

So when you first showed them your quirk you were not that particularly strong.Just a few punches and your ✨holy crystal ball🔮🔮🔮✨that can locate any target at anytime anywhere but requires bloodwork💀✨.

The whole class assumed that your quirk has to do something with witchcraft💀🔮✨lmao NO.They were worried about you to ofc.

The whole class felt bad for you for not noticing how the other students in the school talk bad behind your back.

Tries not to offend you because one time you snapped and ended up insulting and shouting the crap out of the people in the hallways.

You basically ended up going berserk and spitting murderous aura in the whole class for the entire day.

Everyone is just like : 😬😶💀👻😗 yea we better shut up b4 she blows up again.

The class mostly avoids you,even bakugo is creeped out.

Charactah development📈📈📈(just assume that you evolved like a pokemon💅).

You waked up have the sudden urge to 💅✨tWeRk😗 JK.

You waked up feeling diffirent and once you looked into the mirror.✨Holy sheet✨ who tf is this girl in the mirror.You were the exact opposite of your previous apperance.

You ended up covering your forehead with a big ass hat and thank god your uniform sleeves are long.

The whole entire 1st years are used to seeing you going crazy, insulting with bakugou and spitting out chaotic aura in the air in the hallways.

Now you were basically spitting out devastating aura.

Kaminari and mina used to greet you by the door you ended yp ignoring them.They were like did something happened🤨?.

Whole class : concerned😶.

Even though your attitude is not as its finest they were not used to this shit🖐️You used to greet them with those exausted face of yours and...

Whole class did not recognized you when you removed your hat.

Class 1 - a : 👀👀👀👀👀👀

You basically went from a homeless woman to HOOKER.

Questions came flooding in and almost everyone started crowding into your desk.

HOW HOW did you managed to glow up overnight?They were like tell your secrets to us👀👀👀

I mean you looked like the girl from ring and you suddenly turned into THIS ✨goddess✨

When everyone saw your quirk they were like 👀👀👀 you can turn your hair onto a weapon let alone you beat the shit out of your opponents and found where they are at all times.

And your past weak punches AKA your signature attack extremely leveled up onto strong attacks.

Everyone thinks your hero costume AKA your hair (cough cough***) is pretty awesome.Let alone the crystal ball that you always hold on your hand is now on your head🔮😃.

Anyways you became a BADDASS BITCH 💅👊🔮✨😤.

The fact that your quirk become intensely powerful that you can now catch up let alone your attitude also turned the tables down u̶n̶o̶r̶e̶v̶e̶r̶s̶e̶🃏.

You also get along with everyone too lmao.

Note : this gif is not mine s̶o̶i̶s̶t̶h̶a̶t̶m̶a̶n̶😤.

💌 : I just finished watching Hunter x hunter and i can't get over the fact that this anime is so well animated and amazing!u should watch it too✨i hope the author will make a new chapter soon✨✨✨.Oh and btw! i will post your requests soon💖.

#bnha x gn!reader #mha x reader #mha imagines #mha x y/n #class 1 a x reader #mha headcanons #hxh headcanons #palm siberia #hunter x hunter #hxh

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linorangge · 3 years

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Stray Kids Maid Outfit Scenarios!

(requested by anon !)

Chan:

- you were scrolling thru amazon, looking for dog costumes for barry

- and a maid costume showed up in the recommended

- you showed Chan

- u were like “haha imagine u wore this”

- nd he giggled nd stared at the costume for a hot minute

- three days later (bc y'all have amazon prime ofc)

- he made u sit on ur living room couch nd close ur eyes

- he walked out in the maid outfit nd told u to open ur eyes

- u slapped ur hand over ur mouth in disbelief

- the outfit fit him tight in some places

- specifically his arms nd the top part of his torso

- u just stared at him in silence

- “does it look ok?”

- he got rlly bushy when u nodded

- “u look so cute”

- nd then u had a lil photoshoot of him in the outfit LMAO

- nd he stole some of the photos nd showed the boys

- nd they were like “????? nice ?????”

- yea

Minho:

- u guys were out shopping

- he didn't rlly go to buy anything

- he went more for u

- while at a lil anime march store u pointed out sum fan art of an anime boy in a maid costume

- “look ! u should wear something like that”

- u said it as a joke

- but u he looked so disgusted with u LMAO

- “I would literally never wear that”

- “ur insane for thinking id ever wear something like that”

- “omg it was a joke ugh”

- nd he rolled his eyes at u

- nd then he felt bad so he bought u coffee

- a week later it was ur bday

- when everyone had left ur place lino made u stay in the bedroom while he changed in the bathroom

- nd he walked into ur room with the outfit

- he had a feather duster nd everything

- you laughed so hard

- he sauntered yes sauntered up to u

- “I think knee highs work for me”

- he didn't have shoes on

- but u best believe that mf wore the knee high socks anyway

- his thighs looked great

- “u look better in it than me”

- “I've never seen u in a maid costume”

- u were both like 👁👁

- nd he started flinging the layers off nd forced u to wear it too

Changbin:

- u made the suggestion nd got it for him as a joke

- it was sitting in the back of his closet for the longest time

- he rlly didn't want to

- but he did it for u

- bc ur his favorite person ever

- u came home to see him in the outfit, sitting on the couch

- he was watching tv

- he was like “omg hey”

- nd u were like “??????? hi ?”

- u literally stared at him

- nd then u made him stand up nd u fluffed up the skirt for him nd adjusted it

- “u look rlly pretty”

- he got kinda shy “u think so?”

- he was rlly blushy

- he liked seeing the happy little smile on ur face

- after awhile he got comfy nd he was ok wearing it

- nd then he walked around ur house like that for awhile b4 changing

Hyunjin:

- HATED the idea

- literally stared @ u like -____-

- you’d mention the idea a lot just to piss him off

- you’d bring it up randomly

- “UGH whatever that’s why u won't wear the maid costume”

- “omfg SHUT UP”

- nd one day he brought it up to the members

- nd they were like 😏

- “do it”

- “wtf no”

- nd they went to the store with him to force him to buy it

- he bought the outfit with extreme hesitation

- nd then he pulled up to ur house with the maid oufit

- he showed u the outfit

- nd u were like :0

- nd he was like

- “I'll let u help me put it on”

- nd u did

- and he hated it

- but he did it anyway

- and then he saw how happy it made you

- and he regretted wearing it way less

- and then he made u take pics of him to prove to the members he wore it

Jisung:

- he was so down

- like he was READY

- he made u drive him to some store and buy it as soon as possible

- there wasn’t much convincing for you to do

- u asked him as a joke

- nd he was like

- “FUCK THAT IS SO CUTE”

- so he picked out the maid costume

- along with cat ears

- and then u guys got home

- nd u helped him button the backside

- nd then he made u fix his hair nd put the ears on him

- he was so excited PLS

- you gave him endless compliments to boost his already enormous ego

- nd then he took pics

- he made u take pics with him

- nd then he posted them LMAO

- everyone went mf crazy

Felix:

- lix saw the outfit in a catalogue u had

- nd he showed u how pretty it was

- u jokingly said you’d get it for him

- nd he was like

- “ :D rlly?”

- nd u ended up getting it for him

- for his bday actually

- he was so happy

- way happier than you’d expected

- the next day he put it on nd showed u

- “I should work at one of those maid cafes”

- he asked u to fluff it for him

- pls this baby

- he literally loves it

- him and Jisung had similar reactions

- he took pics too

- he didn't upload them tho

- he kept them more for u and him

- in conclusion

- Jisung cat boy

Seungmin:

- he was not into the idea at all

- you suggested he’d look cute

- nd he was like

- “why tf would I ever wear that”

- nd then you got the outfit nd made him wear it

- like forced him

- u forced the clothes on him

- he fought through every second of it

- nd when u finally situated the skirt and buttons

- he realized it wasn't that bad

- u squealed nd complimented him all the way through it

- he got so shy despite being kinda mad

- “do u rlly think I look cute?”

- “omfg yes min ur adorable”

- he let u snap a few pics

- he made u promise to never show them to a soul

Jeongin:

- hated hated hated HATED it

- he’s the one who would not like it at all

- no matter what

- u got it as a joke

- he was not amused

- he laughed it off

- but u both knew he was never going to wear it

- and then one day

- during the summer specifically

- he got bored

- and then he walked out of the bathroom wearing it

- u were so happy and excited

- but u cackled SO hard

- nd he got embarrassed nd he was going to get back in the bathroom nd take it off

- but u stopped him

- “let me look at u for a second”

- “no”

- “jeongin”

- “y/n”

- nd u looked at him a bit more

- u pulled out ur phone to take a picture

- he closed that bathroom door so quick

- u whined for him to come out

- no way in hell was he letting anyone but u see him in that outfit

- u opened the door nd he was just standing there, his arms crossed

- toasted bread

- but with baby bread energy

- if that makes sense

- in conclusion

- he hated wearing it especially bc he found it itchy

- but he liked the reaction u gave him

- kinda

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lovestrucklosers-archive · 4 years

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wow, birthday time

summary; all of twst seems to be participating in celebrating rose’s birthday..

words; 1,675..... TOO MANY. HELP

a/n; IVE BEEN WRITING THIS SINCE WEDNESDAY. ITS GOTTEN SO LONG ALREADY. HELP...... ANYWAYS. IM POSTING THIS RIGHT B4 MIDNIGHT SO... HAPPY EARLY BDAY 2 ME DJKFGHKDJFG

the first thing i’m greeted to when waking up is the purring grim against my chest, and the soft covers of my bed, as well as the bright late morning sunshine. i blearily opened my eyes, making a noise of discomfort as i adjusted myself. i mumbled his name, slowly heaving myself up and rubbing the tiredness out of my eyes. i slipped my glasses onto my face and stretched, hearing my back pop. i popped my back more, sighing and yawning.

grim grumbled and stretched out as well, watching as i got out of bed and continued to stretch. i scratched my stomach, pulling an oversized cream sweater over my head. i lifted it up to my nose, basking in the scent of ruggie.

grim snapped me out of it quickly, grumbling as he lifted himself to his paws. i snickered at him, pulling up my socks to pass my knees in an attempt to warm myself up. i picked him up, and he snuggled against me, continuing to grumble about how it was too early.

“yea, yea, i know, you lazy cat,” i mumbled, heading downstairs. i settled down on the couch close to the stairs for only a moment before i noticed something on the coffee table. i placed grim on the couch, and he made a noise of confusion. i knelt down to see a shoddily wrapped box, strangely, with no note.

“mmph? what’s that?” grim notices this as well; he quickly makes his way over to me and jumps up onto the table, pawing at the box. “oh! this is my gift!”

he grins at me, “i did this all by myself!”

“you wrapped this by yourself?”

“of course!” he beamed, and i stared at him. he crumbled under my gaze,“well, fine. i had some help wrapping it, but this was all my idea! go ahead, open it!” i rolled my eyes, carefully tearing the wrapping paper from the box and opening it. i peeked inside, tilting my head at the sight inside.

it was a multitude of different snacks, including some pocky, mochi, chocolates, hi-chews, kit-kats, and more. i hadn’t realized my mouth had opened until grim laughed at me, making me close it. “where did you get all of these?!” i demanded, my eyes wide.

“that’s for only me to know,” he teased, flicking his tail into my face. i pouted at him, sticking my tongue out at him. i closed the box, patting the top of it with a grin on my face.

“as much as i want to eat these right now, these’ll be saved for tonight,” i got to my feet and stretched my legs, “and don’t worry, i’ll share. it’s only fair that i share since you got all of these, afterall.”

he made a happy noise, leaping onto my shoulder as i made my way upstairs with both him and the box, settling it on the bedside table. i exhaled, and he jumped back onto the bed and sat down. while he sat there, looking bored, i quickly changed into something more.. presentable; my usual set of tights and shorts, as well as slipping my necklace over my head and tucking it into my shirt.

i scooped grim back up onto my shoulder, ignoring his ‘fgnaa!’ of surprise. i exited the room, closing the door behind me, and i made my way to the foyer.

“where are we going now?” he questioned me as i sliding my boots onto my feet. i steadied him as i stood up, playing with the necklace string.

“we’re going t - well, i’m going to walk around today,” i proclaimed, pushing my hair behind my ears. “i don’t wanna sit in here all day, so i’m gonna take a walk around the campus.” he grumbled, but didn’t bother to move from his place on my shoulder. i opened the door, being greeted by the noise of singing birds and the sun directly above my head.

― ― ♡ ― ―

“oi! rose! grim!” i turned to see the double trouble duo rushing towards us, most likely having come from the hall of mirrors we were nearing. we stood at the beginning of the bridge, having just crossed it, but now that these two were here, i wondered what plans they would rope us into.

both of them stopped in front of us, panting. they had some kind of excited air to them, however, and immediately, ace had stood straight up with sparkles in his eyes.

he then engulfed me in a hug, lifting me up and twirling me around. grim, seeing this coming, had jumped from my shoulder and landed on the sidewalk, narrowly avoiding being trampled by the excited ace.

“happy birthday!” ace yelled.

“fuck! holy shit!” i yelped, holding onto him for dear life. i gripped his shoulders, my face getting hotter the longer i remained up in the air. deuce was cautioning ace before we both tipped over. i made a noise of surprise and braced myself to hit the ground, but a pair of arms quickly caught me before i could.

i opened my eyes, looking at an exasperated deuce, who was carrying me bridal-style now. i giggled, seeing ace now on the ground with grim prodding at him.

“i can’t believe that you thought that you wouldn’t both fall over,” deuce sighed, setting me down on the ground. we locked eyes, and laughed, and ace grumbled at us, getting to his feet. grim jumped onto deuce’s shoulder, not even phasing him.

ace then, again, engulfed me in a hug, but didn’t lift me this time, and i embraced him back. deuce joined in shortly after, and i wrapped my arms around both of them. grim took this time to transfer to my shoulder. “happy birthday, rose,” deuce spoke.

they pulled back, and i smiled at them. “thanks, you two,” i turned my attention to ace, “just don’t scare the shit out of me next time.”

“oh, whatever,” he scoffed playfully, “you enjoyed it! i saw the blush on your face!”

“just because my face was red does not mean that i enjoyed you scaring me!” i retorted, feeling my face heat up again.

he waved it off, rolling his eyes. deuce cleared his throat and took my hand, leading me and grim back to the hall of mirrors. ace trailed behind, grinning. “where are we going now?” grim whined, pawing at my face.

“to our dorm!” ace chimed in, taking my other hand, and walking beside me. he swung our interlocked hands as i continued.

“your dorm - ?” an idea popped into my head, “what’re you guys planning? don’t tell me you’re gonna shove a cake in my face..” i narrowed my eyes, and deuce sputtered.

“no!” he glared at ace as if he was planning something, but continued, “i promise it’s nothing bad.”

“if anything happens, blame ace.” grim chimed in.

“hey!” he barked, turning to pout at me. “can you believe what they’re saying, dear? aren’t they being so mean to me?”

i stared blankly at him, before continuing to walk past him with deuce and grim. we shared a collective giggle as he caught up and linked my hand with his again, and i faintly felt him press a kiss to it. my face heated up ever-so-slightly, and i refused to give him the satisfaction of seeing my face, as deuce continued to talk.

we arrived at the heartslabyul dorm not too far afterwards, and they quickly led both me and grim to the tea garden. the closer we came, the more streamers i saw strewn about. my eyebrows raised, and i glance back and forth between ace and deuce, then met eyes with grim, who seemed to be as equally as confused as i was. wasn’t this the place they did unbirthday tea parties? isn’t my birthday today? why are they hosting an unbirthday party?

i resisted the urge to slap myself as i realized; birthday. today. yours. they’re hosting a birthday party! for you! you dumb fuck! my face grew hot, and i held in my giggles at how forgetful i could be sometimes. oops..

one of the two randomly covered my glasses, making my vision go dark before i could soak in the sight more. i squawked, feeling grim jump as i did so. i almost stumbled over my own feet, but felt ace (on my right) wrap an arm around my waist and tighten it. i leaned into him.

we suddenly stopped, and i definitely would’ve fallen if not for ace and deuce. grim made a noise of surprise and gripped my shoulder tightly; i felt his claws sink into the fabric of ruggie’s sweater, and made a mental note to scold him for that later.

as soon as the hands over my glasses were relinquished, a loud chorus of ‘surprise’ rang through my ears. i blinked once. twice. taking in the sight in front of me.

there stood all of the boys i’d made friends within my time here at night raven college (even the tall malleus draconia), surrounding the tables that had been pushed closer together, and set up with dishes and silverware. there were decorations (such as balloons and streamers) appropriately littered about, and.. was that a cake?

before i’d realized it, my glasses were fogging up and i felt something wet roll down my cheeks. grim made a panicked noise, and ace and deuce froze up. it went quiet as i reached up and rubbed my eyes. i sniffed, looking back up and smiling as wide as i could. “i -” i struggled to find the right words, sniffling, “thank you guys… so much.. you have no idea how much this means to me.” i let out a breathy laugh, and the tense air dissipated.

“jeez, don’t scare us like that next time!” ace grumbled, ruffling my hair. i laughed louder this time.

“well, c’mon! we’ve all been waiting for you!” he dragged me, grim and deuce over to the crowd of our friends. “let the party commence!”

#LOVE LETTERS #assorted words #[ship tag: hearts on our sleeves]#HMMMM this is kinda like an au where its a poly ship between all my rom twst f/os :)#HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i think ill just write some one-offs 4 now...............#like.... each of them separetly celebrating my bday bc i DESERVE IT #OK I HAVENT BEEN SHUTTING UP ABT MY BDAY ON MY MAIN ACC SO I WILL GIVE U A BREAK DJHGKDFG

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kkaerst · 4 years

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Quarantine Last Thoughts

So, quarantine is almost over around here! (not over, over, but i will b able to go out more)

Being honest, even though I didn´t planned this in my study abroad experience i think it made my experience different from what I expected.

Unfortunately for most of those who were expecting everyone in quarantine to develop calculus 2.0, i was not able to do so, but hey, i made a lot of progress on knowing who i am and what i like. From my constant mental breakdowns, my craving of somedays of overdosing myself with anxiety pills, and wanting to just run to the beach, it went pretty well.

I discovered some funny stuff about me and how i have some habits that i tend to do more when I’m alone than when am with people, but yea, I’m loving it, I wasn’t alone during quarantine but I’ll explain that in a lil while.

So even tough i was expecting quarantine to be the most boring period in my life, things changed pretty lovely and drastically that i would say i had the time to discover myself in a pretty amazing way and define myself to know what i love and what is that future that I’m expecting to have, specially, since my head had been a mess for the last year or so, many overwhelming things happened that made me crazy, that’s why I literally decided to go abroad even though I was saving the opportunity for another time, I felt like destiny said, bitch, it is your time, leggo. And it was more than worth it.

Apart from my sentimentalist last paragraph I want to talk about some things that happen during this period that made me think like, hey, you made it through a lot of shit.

First thing first, family, like omg, I never have been a pretty emotional person, I was more the independent one, but being apart from my family and seeing every each of them calling me and checking on me was like, oh my, i def couldn’t wish for a better fam, it make me felt kinda bad cuz I’ve never say i love you to them or smth like that when they call, cuz I felt like it is not the way to express it since i see them every day and those actions are way significant than telling I love you to them. But yea, i happen to discover how awesome is to see all my family reunited even though we are km away, at least for me, but yup, not to brag, but I never felt more companied by them.

Second, i happen to have one of the best companies for quarantine that I didn’t expect to; so, most of my friends went back to their home countries, and just a few of us are left. One guy that was part of my same group of friends, stayed, we never talked that much, and we happen to end up talking cuz we kissed the night b4 quarantine started. He is a pretty nice guy, and i cannot deny it, since we meet i though he was kinda handsome so my head kinda blow up when we kissed, but aaaanyways, that are just some details. After the first two or three weeks of quarantine their two roomies when back to their home countries, and he reached to me *to meeeeee* to ask if i wanted to spend quarantine with him, and ofc, my qtie girly side said yaaas, so uhm we almost lived together by a month by know.

So at the beginning we almost never talked, he is kinda quiet tho, and also cultural differences, sometimes strikes hard, but i would say by know I made a new friend, *even though my horny ass wanted like sex 24/7, still, we had sex* we cooked together, watch movies at night, drink and talk till late night. Absolutely loved it. Sad part, am not that talkative either and also well, i think if i had the opportunity I could have made this month like ultra-romantic if i had the initiative, it is said that things happen in a way or another because of something and by now i wouldn’t change anything from this month.

So yep, even though you * D. * would never see these, thanks for being the best quarantine mate and allowing me to get to know you, and ofc, thanks for taking the time to know me.

Third and last, to my dear me that prob read this in one year or maybe more, you fuckin made it, like dude, look where you at by know, I hope that by the time you read this you have a lot of memories of this quarantine and also your abroad period, do you still in touch with your friends? how was seeing your friends graduating from college? how is all of your loving yourself thing going? did we made any progress? pretty sure we did.

To sum up, quarantine was that period of calm and to relax my mind from the daily life stress, to know what i can make and also know my capabilities, I’m pretty sure by know I could say I’m going to make a lot of positive changes in my life *that includes making my journal by hand* and keep discovering myself. Making progress doesn’t mean exactly converting multitask machine but making changes that make you healthy and happy it is just something awesome.

I would mark April 30 to make another long ass post like this and to know how I’ve been doing. (specially I wanna see progress in me making this post in another language, even though my native language is not English lmao, also see how my dieting and exercise is going, and specially where tf am I going to be in a year exactly, and ofc if I achieved that small goals that i tried to progress from a year or so) .

I absolutely wanna make changes in my life, and if this was the reason to start them i absolutely welcome them in my life.

Disclaimer: I’ve suffered from depression (dysthymia to be more exact) and anxiety during the last years * 5 or 6 by now * and I would say I’m finally seeing the light, and it is more than beautiful.

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zepdeans · 5 years

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there’s not a lot I can say about s3 that hasn’t already been said (and articulated 200x better) but! here are some of my (albeit dumb) thoughts :~)

ep1 -isak leaning against the bathroom wall gets me EVERY time its such a powerful scene esp introducing you to s3 and tarjei..... spare some talent for the rest of us please -LiTeN gUtTeN fRa StRaNgEr tHiNgS -isak rly ties his pants w a shoelace...... -isak noticing even for the first time bc of his laugh.. whew.... also. i love this intro SOOO much bc its so non-monumental? theres no dramatic music or whatever but its not subtle.... like you know right away o shit love interest!! hello sir!! bc isak’s expression watching him :’) i could go on -isak is a bad liar HOWEVER this only applies to stupid nontrivial things e.g. the black sweatshirt. but when you look at him lying about like, his sexuality, he hides that shit well -”c00l” isak. i hate u so much -honestly all u have to do is look at even for .2 seconds and u can tell this boy has had a crush for a solid month bc he just looks awestruck (HOWEVER henrik’s acting is *chef’s kiss* bc its subtle enough to go undetected b4 you actually know eVEN SAW HIM ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL) -even isak and emma all sitting on the bench together is funny enough on its on but then a song called threeway comes on and like. julie sdshjsfdjfkjskd ep2 -there’s something so endearing about even’s handwriting idek what -i LOVE even’s video w mikael it reveals so much about him to us- how weird (ok we saw how weird he was w the paper towel thing but) and dorky he is? and his love of film! his view on love stories and how he sees the world :( but it also shows a lot abt isak because he saw even making stupid jokes about vladimir putin and was like yeah we about to fall in LOVE love -isak not using headphones to watch even’s video or r+j?? bde or general incompetence what’s the verdict guys -the isak watching r+j scene hits so hard like yall ever think about isak lying in bed at 3am staring at the ceiling probably thinking about how he’s never gonna get a beautiful world-shattering romance like that like ..... also him changing positions skam get out of my life go away ur too realistic -not to make this even more self-projection-y but isak simultaneously being the least emotionally vulnerable person ever but crying during r+j > -i made a post abt this already but even’s INTENSE staring vs isak’s “i have never looked anyone in the eye in my life” gets me it says so much about their characters -even said i see your bde move (asking me to buy you beer) and i raise u with my own (inviting you to my house after faking not having my id) -”if you listen to music” even is such a dick fsdjhsdff -when the message comes on...... i rlly do owe julie my life huh -”have you heard about my rapping?” “I have actually” have we talked about this enough????? 1. isak finally feels comfortable enough w even to flirt and his first move is to RAP for him jesus christ. keep in mind this is the same man who pulled that smooth af ibuprofen line w emma like...... 2. even has heard about isak’s rapping. either this means im-not-on-social-media even went out of his way to go thru homeboy’s instagram OR isak’s rapping is actually talked about. i- -the group chat messages. cant believe i forgot about the 2016 clown epidemic

ep3 -mahdi is a good friend and i love him. thank u -even wearing isak’s cap until he chucks it at him sjksfjsdjsd -how much yall wanna bet isak’s been listening to illmatic on repeat since last friday thinking abt even (even tho meeting sonja shattered his heart a lil) [also kinda an aside but i think a lot about how isak n even bonded over rap and how some homophobic lyrics in 90s etc rap might have impacted them? or how that little detail ties into julie’s story? e.g. halftime by nas, which is on illmatic] -whats worse. even staring into isaks soul wearing a size xs see-through white t shirt or isak staring at even for five (5) seconds before chugging his beer and immediately making out w emma. OR even crashing that party before it can start “i think you guys are bonding too much” cheesy ass shjhfsdhskdf -yall act like evak didnt invent hands. did even shaking isak’s shoulder telling him his apartment is nice mean nothing to u -im convinced robyn wrote call your girlfriend for this scene specifically bc how could anything fit so perfectly by coincidence -is anything better than egging isak on- even bech naesheim (2016) -idk if yall have read the scripts but i love the sock thing so much bc its soo true to how isak thinks and it makes everything so much more interesting and !!!

ep4 -i will never get over even sending isak bad seinfeld memes -even smacking open isak’s locker. first of all whew second of all u think as soon as he got into the stairwell he lowkey cried bc ow -parallel of isak saying “it’s 2016, why are you religious?” to sana vs. emma’s “it’s 2016, get out of the closet” to isak anyone :( -”takk sanasol!!!!” thank u isak for my life -I wanted to be with you aloneeeee -even’s face when he sees the pool like we get it youre a director -how many times do i need to say even is such a dick sjkfsd “does it look like i care about my hair?” “usually but not right now” like this would only work on isak i love soulmates!! -even just.. fully choking isak out ssdhgfd got em -when the first notes of im kissing you start ooh boy -even going in for the kill kiss and isak going from huh to oooo shit and pushing his lips out at the last minute. phenomenal

ep5 -ngl as soon as im not in love comes on my heart goes uwu bc like!!!! that song the meaNING.... them......... i jus love this scene sm like theyre in their own little bubble and they both feel so comfortable and at peace :(( -even leaving isak comics about an inside joke of theirs like yall mind if i scream -isak feeling left out from the conversation and his friends whew i felt that... and having them talk about how gross it is to makeout with a girl w facial hair?? blease :( -taking stock of isak’s nicknames: issy k, isabell, izzy, baby jesus, -im not even gonna bother trying to articulate thoughts on Pause bc it’s a literal masterpiece. thank u tarjei henrik and julie for inventing television with this one -MAGNUS SDFKJSDFJKDSHK "oooh my name is Jonas and I love idealism and reading klassekampen and I don’t like plastic and I skate on a skateboard made of sustainable wood and wear old clothes because new clothes are bad for the environment and I only drink recycled water” screAMMM -what i said abt pause also applies to pride ugh its such a powerful scene and!! the beginning of kicks to isaks stomach. honestly what i fucking love about this episode is how it goes from hell yea best day w even ever to crying in the street within one week (s3 had the best balance of angst and payoff thanks) -even’s Soft Party Flannel... forever tainted by this scene rip -not knowing why even kissed sonja keeps me up at night -speaking of. how used and stupid isak must’ve felt when he saw even completely unbothered, hooking up w his ex at this party?? whew :( -bros is one of my all time favourite clips solely bc of the music?? lift me up gives me chills and when hold my liquor starts i LOSE it -ep5 and 6 remind me of that quote “to see what your characters are really made of you have to break them” because julie rlly goes all in and god it hurts so good

ep6 -never have i ever seen insomnia portrayed as accurately as tarjei did here and i remember when i first watched the cantina scene i was like. winded bc its SO true to sleep deprivation whew -i really like that isak wasnt together with even when he reached out for help and came out to jonas. bc it was him, on his own, being strong enough to talk to his friends and then eventually he was confident and secure enough in himself to be in a good place when even started reaching back out!! -i have no idea what its like to come out to someone, to be afraid of your friends rejecting you, everything isak went through. but tarjei’s acting of when, like, you have something you KNOW you have to tell someone, and youve put yourself in the position where youre going to have to tell them, but youre terrified and eventually just force yourself SAY the words?? -and isak’s smile when he realizes jonas is gonna be his bro no matter what :’)))

ep7 -weirdly one of my favourite isak looks (black t-shirt grey snapback c-c-c-combo) -”what’s your name again?” have i mentioned i love sana and isak bc i love sana and isak -jonas truly is the best friend oh man. perceptive, thoughtful, loving, laidback, a friggen BRO. tbh i was wary of him in s1 and thought he didn’t treat eva well (tho I recognized he loved her a lot, he was just bad at being a boyfriend) but jonas in s3?? just goes to show how powerful your perspective of someone can change viewing them in a different role!! because while jonas was a crappy bf, he literally is SUCH an incredible friend and his actions and words and just! him! in s3 completely redeemed any illwill I had towards him :’) -maybe im a little gay (up there with other s3 comedy classics such as “thats a boys name”) -mahdi season WHEN ugh a legend -’when someone asks isak if hes going to a family party’ literally what other reason for living do i have if not to read the boy squad text convos -isaks locker finally opening and his smile at evens drawing whewwwwwww!! also even rlly is that guy who wont text you back but will leave hand written love letters in ur locker -also. another stellar look from valtersen -slutt a meld meg is a whole masterpiece like what other piece of media has the RANGE -eskild: play hard to get. jonas: no smiley!!! isak: nah fam im good B)

ep8 -this episode is BEAUTIFUL bc you feel practically euphoric?? like hell yeah theyre finally together!! isak is out and accepted and even is done with sonja! but theres also this unsettling undercurrent of worry bc you know deep down something isnt right? why is sonja calling isak? why is even acting kinda strange? whats going on? yknow?? -literally never going to get over 5 fine frokner :~) even is such a goddamn nerd and he’s the man of isak’s dreams can u believe!! -sana’s little speech is SO important in so many ways ooo i love her so much -also have we discussed eskild making evak do a photoshoot for him. highkey those are my favourite pictures of ALL time u can tell even was like hm strange but im down while isak was more omg guys stop🙄 omg haha eskild i cant believe youre making me cuddle with even for a photo🙄 i cant believe ur making me snuggle this dude for a pic!!!! definitely would not have done this otherwise!!! -magnus only realizing it’s THAT even after seeing how isak looks at him. whew -isak is so brave i rlly love that kid! his text to his mamma <3 -no r*make will EVER nail text conversations like mari/julie did w evak’s this week thanks for coming to my ted talk. i'd quote the best ones but it would literally double the length of this post (ok ill cave. “hahaha shut up❤️” GETS me) -you dont know whats in store but you know what youre here for. hallo -isak running around oslo with even’s clothes looking for him :( his heart is so big he cares about even so so much -when Part II (on the run) comes on in the credits its like a kick in the teeth honestly

ep9 -ive already screamed enough about cherry wine but god it fucks me up -cannot put into words how much I love eskild and how good of a person he is, he just has so much love in his heart -”wait they have waffles here? see ya” -this convo is why i love skam so much!!!! magnus giving insight and good thoughtful advice to isak was such a brilliant move by julie (also truLy heartwarming) bc like. magnus is a flawed layered character! he’s dumb and ignorant and not very careful with his words BUT hes also such a sweet guy. i genuinely dont think he would hurt a fly and him talking about vilde (in ep10) is ;-; bc he really likes her and respects her and wants to be a gentleman! hes so loving and just. yeah. also i wonder if isak and magnus (and vilde) ever talked about having mentally ill parents and lent on each other for support bc like....<3 [sidenote- this is why i HATE b***** like they absolutely massacred magnus’s character and magnus did not deserve that!] -det er bare slutt........ very cool of tarjei to invent acting here. also the character development makes me WEEP like at first isak lied and told his pappa it was over bc its easier to brush stuff off and say you were joking than be vulnerable especially about 1. having a boyfriend and 2. saying youve already broken up?? but then isak was like hey im done with lying about who i am bc i want my life to be REAL and he told his dad the truth even if it was hard and even if he was trying rlly hard not to cry -isak reaching out to even<3 standing up for even<3 -o helga natt. another scene i genuinely cannot comment on bc u cant really put into any written language how magical and breathtaking and heartbreaking and powerful and brilliant this scene is. so. -jk. obvs i cant say anything intelligent enough to give this scene justice but probably the most stunning piece of television i have ever had the privilege of watching. even’s text breaks my heart every gd time (esp since we never really see this side of him before finding out he’s bipolar? his guilt, insecurity, feeling like a burden, being scared of losing everyone in his life because he thinks he’ll hurt them). the music is SO beautiful i cry real tears as soon as the strings start. also the brilliance of JUST o helga natt playing and no dialogue except for isaks one line? isak’s realization when he sees the cross. him RUNNING across oslo to go to even. the FLASHBACKS all going backwards in chronological order until them smoking on the bench. isak looking at the bench and not seeing even and u can feel his heart breaking and urs breaks too! but then he remembers the bathroom and he turns and theres even and whewwww. du er ikke alene<3

ep10 -minutt for minutt is THE most healing clip im telling u. and like.. seeing even depressed really is hard and as someone who was very very depressed for 4-ish yrs of their life it rlly hits me? like when youre in an especially bad funk and you cant get out of bed and youre just numb and exhausted and feel so shitty and u want to be alone but you really dont???? could go on but literally i owe henrik holm my life for his portrayal of even -not to be a soft bitch on main but when isak tucks the blanket over even and it keeps getting pulled off his back so isak just. covers that spot with himself? -i do love that call between sonja and isak bc once again! a flawed (realistic) human being -and isak thinking its his fault even is depressed? it means a lot that sonja told him its no ones fault, even is just bipolar. and i wonder if isak felt that way about his mamma as well, guilty for her being ill, and if what sonja said made him feel better about that situation too :( -lowkey random but when isak is rambling really fast and he goes “maybe we’ll get bombed tomorrow and talking about all this is a waste of time” it continually punches me in the throat bc that is /exactly/ how i ramble and think like tarjei........ pls -like eskild said. there really is so much love in isak’s little grumpy teenage body<3 -isak no longer just passively accepting life as its given to him, now he fights for him and even!!!!! -isak is such a forgiving person and seeing him able to just accept things and move on? incredible -i remember when i first watched ep1 i was like oooo even and isak are gonna be kosegruppa partners and thats when theyll first get together, cooking food or smth!! but lmfao after episode 3? kosegruppa whomst???? also hilarious vilde thought isak of all people would willingly sign up for kosegruppa just to go to revue parties -even and linn friendship!!!! -cannot articulate how mf heartwarming it is to see even smiling and being more himself after being depressed (also thank u julie for having ups and downs coming out of his depression- its so true to life having one day when youre feeling awesome and then the next you feel awful again for no reason and its SO frustrating) -I had to stop watching passe pa meg cause it made me toooooo crazy! it would just be like: “I like seeing you laugh” and I was like: *SCREAMS* -im the fucking master of lying 😤 -literally don’t know why isak and even ragging on kosegruppa is so funny but “did you think I joined to have fun” gets me every time -I SAW YOU THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL -also even literally radiating love @ isak watching get snarky w vilde on the phone bc it reminded him of the first time he saw him! even rly is that boyfriend who thinks isak being pissy is the Best Thing he has Ever seen -halla boiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz -literally the glo up of isak telling his friends the order in which he’d bang them -No filter! wow I love symbolism -so nice to see the girls together for a lil bit :) -the boys hyping up mags while also telling him to be respectful awwwwww -take desperate to a whole new level- Confucius -who’s going to show isak how to properly hold a beer can -literally evak banter gets me thru the day. thank u tarjei and henrik for having phenomenal chemistry + improvisation skills + making isak and even the dumbest nerdiest boys i have ever seen -biology partner. and friend. ;-; -even literally is the biggest stoner blease -isak’s talk with eva is just sooooo<3 and not to be emo on main but every single word of the last few sentences he says hit me so gd hard because i feel the exact same way in my BONES -livet er nå 💛

final thoughts :( <3 -this season is so special. it feels like one really long oscar-worthy movie or smth?? i cant even exblain, its just magical. ALSO very dear to my heart. -julie really said you guys have seen isak sad and alone and repressed for the past two seasons so heres him falling in love with the best person in the world and coming to terms with who he is and being brave and opening up and finally being happy and living a real life -this season definitely feels different from s1/2/4 to me editing or production or music smth wise? as in, its got a lot fewer aesthetic shots and the cinematography seems a bit different if that makes any sense???? I also think this is the season most focused just on the main (i.e. not many- if any? sideplots going on) -literally will never get over the thought, love, and detail put into this season. when i say there is literally nothing i would change about it, i mean it and coming from my nitpicky ass??? means a lot lmfao. the acting, directing, music choices, symbolism...... sublime -s3′s cold rainy autumn aesthetic makes me ACHE for fall and also nostalgic for a highschool experience I never had lmao?? also. all the nighttime clips >>> -don’t know what else to say except thank u skam for my life

#take a shot every time i say whew #fully put more effort and time into this than most of my uni projects xx #its super rambly but thats bc its mostly just my direct stream of thought #also super long! and probably still missing things i wanted to say #AND like 3 weeks late fshfjjkdjkfsd #skam #clownfest 2019 #blabbey

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nothingsolutions · 3 years

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kev /. /

playboi carti blaring

did u ever own a tech deck: yes I have unfortunately only cause I never knew how 2 use it

We taking a road trip 2 Area 51

ur panicking but can only send an emoji: eggplant

thoughts on Target produce: she’s interesting. has a life of her own. all the colors n textures shapes. (wut would her name b) Something kewl idk let me think. a creature.

solar power? Ufos (y) cause cause u need power 4 the ppl ur gonna abduct

if u had a spaceship wut color: burnt orange or hot pink. juss 2 let em kno i’m here.

Ima Leo I like attention

Wut do u think I am? ughhhhh (im a gemini) oh god

a muse: anything that doesn’t look real. biggest inspo is Petra Colins.

Puts up the standard of things not looking normal. She does whatever she wants and thats the best. Thats what I try 2 do

something u aspire to be that inanimate: well everything is alive spiritually. maybe grass cause of how grounded it is. its v vibrant. I love color.

u can tell cause the reflection of my Mac (green)

is it narcissistic to make urself ur background: absolutely. If no1 ones gonna luv u who is?

what water brand: a liter of voss or smart water

Water is always with me

I always drink 3 bottles b4 bed.

gas station order: lollypop and water

dentist or doctor? doctor they scare me. which is good

fav piece of clothing under $5: well i cant find my fav piece under $5, how about fav piece (ok) my archive gold golf shirt from 2017

what do u shoot wit mainly: fujifilm s700. luv recommending cause so cheap

what kinda cheez it: regular they nostalgic

where u would live: los angeles 1000% (y) I consider myself an la whore I could roam 24/7 but when I get a convertible its game over. im never coming home

Wut kinda convertible? 2007 bmw series 6. first car. dont wanna crash it

from the perspective of a plant who are you: hold on... a succulent but the cool ones that r orange

you like jazz? Yea but wait hold on yea just yea

yellow: yes (y) reminds me of childhood best friend

la metro: ummm hello I luv it cause it reminds me of Anthony and I taking it all the time. Anthony is amazing

fav controversial celeb: Kim k she juss does so much 4 ppl. she amazing & helps ppl

what were u doing 2 years ago today: sophomore year holy shit being insecure. a people pleaser. really sad deep down. rotten inside.

Fav color car: black I have2 choose black it looks lux glossy wait r u still typing?? (Yea im gud)

Would u delete instagram: no

Did u ever do a tbh: oh god of course it was culture

What’s ur first post: maybe anime or a picture of lps doll

Phone % 18%

How many unread emails: 3,311

Do u have blue light glasses: wut tf is a blue light glass

My experience with the casting director

it all felt like a movie

Hearing receca blacks date in the back seat

and the casting director next to me telling me to be a model

It felt like a dream

I woke up 3 times last night

quote 4 2day: The fear of looking stupid is holding u back

#conversationsaboutnothing

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lowkey part-timer!Jisung

Pairing: Yoon Jisung x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Christmas-themed, bullet-point scenario

Summary: A Christmas romance sparks between you and the cute, bubbly part-timer in your local grocery store.

Warnings: None

A/N: First story in the Christmas-themed scenarios I’m doing! I’m hoping I’ll be able to finish all of the rest 17 scenarios by Christmas!

Jisung was the cute part-timer at your local grocery store

He’s been working as the cashier in aisle 8 after he’s graduated from uni after he couldn’t find a job that pays decently

He decided to stay in his hometown, after suffering in a totally new city, and got a part-time job as a cashier that paid pretty well

You on the other hand, bought your own studio after moving out of your hometown

Your job as a photographer caused you move out and go to other places rather than your small town that always made you feel caged

You were putting together all your pictures you had taken the past week since you had to put out a new project soon

You decided to take a break and have a quick lunch then walk around to the parts of the city that you hadn’t been able to see yet

When you come out of your studio with all your necessities, you realize that a bunch of people were putting up Christmas decor and trees around their shops

It was Christmas? Already?

You celebrated Christmas, for you were a religious person, but you never got the whole holiday spirit type of thing

You didn’t really enjoy Christmas songs or the cold really

when you came out of your house you had only slipped on a thin cardigan with your camera and everything in your purse

You hated the cold

You had once been locked out of your house one winter and had to wait outside until your parents got back home from work

You were practically frozen when your dad discovered you covering your body with the welcome mat

So yah you had a trauma of the cold

You quickly take some pictures of the snow and all the people getting on ladders to decorate the light posts and rooftops

You smile at your work and skip down the sidewalk to the farther parts of town

You find yourself in front of a market which you had never seen before even when you were driving around when you first came

Maybe it was new?

You went in since you were hungry anyway and they most likely had samples

Meanwhile, Jisung was helping some of the other workers take out boxes and such, since no one was really in the lines

You were eating some of the sample dumplings when you see a chip bag fall

You’re about to pick it up when you feel more chip bags falling on you

You lift up your arms to shield yourself and let out a small shriek

You lose your balance when a heavy box falls on you

“OMG I’M SO SORRY! ARE YOU OKAY!?!? OMG OMG!”

You’re ready to give the guy a piece of your mind

But then all your thoughts are lost bc

Wow

This guy was cute

He was almost pouting while putting the bags back in the box

He noticed that you were standing back up so he quickly got up and bowed to you

“I’m so sorry….I-I didn’t see you there!”

You’re about to tell him it’s okay, but then suddenly a man who seemed like the manager came storming over

“YOON JISUNG!? WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? JUST BC IT’S ALMOST CHRISTMAS TIME IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU SHOULD LOSE YOUR WORKING MENTALITY! YO-”

“It’s fine! It was my fault! I suddenly stepped in front of him while he was passing.”

You defend jisung and he’s actually really surprised!?!?

Bc a normal person would be complaining w/the manager

And it would end up w/jisung mopping the floors or something

Yea this wasn’t the first time jisung caused trouble lol

But here you were LYING so he wouldn’t get in trouble

The manager is left speechless bc he kinda looks down on Jisung

So he storms away annoyed

Jisung glances at his furious manager then thanks you

“This isn’t the first time this happened & i prob would’ve gotten fired. thank you so much”

You grin bc omg he was so cute?

His santa hat was about to fall off so you reach over and straighten it up

Making jisungs cheeks turn soo red you thought he was gonna burst

You leave after that whole incident and you come back a week later

You just couldn’t get jisung out of your mind

You were sorta hoping to see him somewhere around the area where you live but no luck:P

So you just decided to go to his workplace yourself

When you entered, you were really shocked bc it was reallyyyyy busy

There were so many more ppl than last time

It was prob bc Christmas was now a week away

And ppl just buy presents last minute ya know

They were also preparing more food for family&friends so yah

You grab a pack of gum and head to the shortest line which was aisle 8

You were looking at your pics that you took earlier and that’s when you hear a familiar voice greet the elderly woman in front of you

You look up w/hope that it was Jisung and boi oh boi yes it was

This time he was wearing a headband w/reindeer ears that were somehow slightly slanted

After he greets the woman in front of you goodbye he turns to you with a smile then it falters when he notices

Wow it’s that really cute girl that defended me from my devil-ish manager

You just politely smile, not knowing if he remembered you since you were irrelevant ya know

But then he totally remembers you bc

“OMG IM SO GLAD TO SEE YOU AGAIN! DO YOU REMEMBER ME? AH~ AGAIN, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SAVING ME FROM GETTING FIRED!”

“......uh...no problem?”

He grins and tries to make small talk w/you which is cute aha

Even tho you’re only buying one pack of gum

He somehow takes ten minutes to scan the barcode and charge you ???

I can’t with jisung he’s such a cute, underappreciated bean

You were in the middle of a very intense convo about beavers so you decide to meet him at a nearby coffee shop on Christmas Eve (may or may not be where barista!daniel works but you should go check it out :P shameless self-promo)

Both of you forget to give ea. other your numbers

But hopefully both of you will remember about that date meeting

AND YOU DO

fate really is on your side

You enter the coffee shop at like 6pm bc you weren’t sure if you guys decided the exact time to meet

You guys didn’t lol

But ya know

Fate will bring the two of you together right?

You wait for thirty minutes, but still no Jisung

You’re starting to think that he forgot, but then remembered he had a shift that ends at 9pm

Idk how you knew that but...it works

so you decide to just sit there and sip on some drinks

you take pictures and all

You’re so immersed into taking pictures of everything around the whole shop, that you don’t notice the timid and nervous looking man entering the now, almost empty cafe

You’re frowning at the picture you just took when you feel a tap on your shoulder

You turn around to see Jisung with a sorry, but excited grin on his face

You greet him with a wide smile as he apologizes how he didn’t know what time he had to come

He starts to ramble and you shush him

Like why does this guy say ‘sorry’ so many times?

“It’s fine. We both forgot to say a time to meet up. Besides, I wasn’t here that long”

He seems a tiny bit less sorry so the two of you start the convo about the beavers again

The talk about beavers went to zoos then went to how your lives went then led to your jobs, your interests, your hobbies, what that girl was wearing, blah blah blah

You felt like you really had a connection w/jisung

The two of you, as cliche as it may sound, clicked immediately

It only felt like five minutes passed, but the coffee shop owner had to kick you guys out since it was thirty minutes past closing time

You swap numbers this time and plan to meet each other at the same place tmrw @ 7pm for the annual Christmas tree lighting at downtown

Both of you lived alone and you suggested “why not have the loners meet up on Christmas Day?”

Jisung didn’t have work and you didn’t want to stress about your projects, so the two of you had agreed

As you walk back home you cant help but feel so giddy

How was a man having this much of an effect on you?

BECAUSE YOU HAVE A THING FOR HIMMMM

You smile at all the snow piling up and gape at how beautiful everything seemed

You have never felt so excited for Christmas

The next day comes by SO SLOWLYYYY

You weren’t able to sleep from the anxiousness and expectation you had for the next day so you were sorta tired

But you got dressed in simple clothing and went out for a walk and to buy Jisung a Christmas present

You didn’t know what he liked since you literally starte talking to him a wk ago

So you settle for some Christmas-themed socks, beanie, a pair of house slippers, and a gift card to the coffee shop you had been at yesterday

As you walk in and out of stores, you couldnt help but sing along to the Christmas carols that were playing

which you had never done b4

you did a double take and stopped singing, but you found urself humming along to “It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas”

And you also couldn’t help but oogle at all the stuffed animals that filled the walls

They were SO CUTEEE AND FLUFFYYYY

One of the stuffed ducks reminded you a lot of Jisung so you decided to buy it

You bought a lot of things, but they were all for a decent price so :))

It gets really dark really soon and it’s 6pm

ONE MORE HOUR TILL YOU MET JISUNG

You hurry back home and quickly dress in layers since it was going to be collldddd

The weather forecast said there was a 99.99999999% it was going to snow, so you couldn’t risk it

Even tho the weather forecast is always wrong

You pack your camera again bc you were planning to create a Christmas themed project nxt

As you run out the door you send Jisung a txt saying that you’ll be right there since it was five minutes till seven

When you arrive in the warm shop, your glasses immediately fog up causing you to groan

You try to fan the fog away but to no avail:)

Then you hear a big laugh and you turn to sorta make out a figure that looks like Jisung

He takes the end of his sleeve and cleans your glasses and you’re met with the brightest smile you have ever seen in your whole entire life

Maybe that’s when you fell for him

Tho it was a person you had known for a little over a week

You felt like you knew Jisung since you were a kid

He hands you a cup of peppermint hot chocolate and pulls you along to get a good view of the Christmas tree b4 too much ppl come along

You get there just in time and wait a few moments until the announcer comes out onto the podium

You and Jisung both cheer as the five minute countdown starts

The minutes go by so quickly and you jump up and down to keep yourself warm

Then you see a few snowflakes falling on Jisung

You both look up to see that ITS SNOWINGGGGGGG

The whole crowd of people ooh and ahh

And some kids squeal in glee

You softly smile and get out your camera to take a few shots of the falling snow

When you’re done there’s a minute left on the clock

You suddenly remember your present for Jisung and quickly get it out and hand it to him

“Merry Christmas!”

Jisung gasps and says ‘thank you’ in such a genuine way that it fills your heart w/pure happiness

He then shuffles around his backpack and takes out a large box that’s prob filled w/similar things as you gave him

You start to hear the announcer countdown from 10

ten

And that’s when Jisung starts to speak

“H-Hey, Y/N?”

Nine

“Hmm?”

Eight

“I know it’s been only like two weeks since we met”

Seven

But I can tell you’re such a nice person, ever since the day I first saw you”

Six

“You’re such a great person…and….uh”

You furrow your brows

What was he trying to say?

Five

“We have so many things in common than I thought we would”

Four

“I really thought i would get fired that day i dropped the chip bags on you”

You smile at the memories as the crowd gets louder and louder as the time to light the tree get closer

Three

“A-And ever since I saw you....Y/N...I uh”

You roll your eyes at his weird stalling

Two

“JISUNG! SPIT IT OUT!”

He looks at you w/wide eyes

One

“I-I LIKE YOU!”

The crowd erupts in cheers and claps w/kids screaming and laughing at the lights that shown brightly

The announcer shouts “now go home!” with a hearty laugh

Jisung stands in front of you with his hand clamped over his mouth

You stay silent and stare at him in shock

What were you supposed to say?

Sure you liked him, but you weren’t sure if you wanted to date someone you had known for a week

“T-THAT CAME OUT WRONG!”

you tilt your head in confusion

“What?”

“I don’t like you! NO NO I DO LIKE YOU! B-BUT-”

You burst out laughing at his panic

“I like you too, Jisung! But how bout having our first official date after getting to know each other a bit longer than a week?”

And the two of you stand in front of each other w/goofy smiles on your faces, in front of the glimmering, 30ft tall Christmas tree, underneath the moonlight in the gently falling snow

dang this was pretty bad lol

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