#im supposed to be taking a test rn lmao

[bittervalentine]

god looking at her creations

#homestuck #jade harley #kanaya maryam #rose lalonde #rosekan #rosemary #believe it or not this was just supposed to be a test run for the final piece lmao #i got kinda carried away coloring i have fancy markers rn and everything #if you look closely there r like. obvious fuckups in there tho bc i wasnt taking it too seriously at first #ive had this idea for like a year lmao but at the time i didnt feel confident enough to tackle it #im hoping now that i have some coolass art supplies i can use some of them on the final version of this #like oil paints and pastels and watercolors n shit

[pessimist-sky]

I want an update on your life but not the commitment of sending you a message so here I am begging for scraps at the anonymous trough

lmaoo there’s exactly like one person who this could be but i respect the game so i’ll overshare via replies 😎

i have been,,,, okay. i’m studying graphic design except not right now because i’m taking time off to figure out my brain and bones and body which is,,, going lmao. i am on a deadline for getting back to school this fall or else my mom will cut me off which i respect but also i’m falling apart at the seams susan 💀 a bit melodramatic on my part but still. in my journey of figuring out Things™️ i have learned that i have autism which is p swag i guess, a nice contextualization for why i’ve been like this my whole life but also an overwhelming thing to absorb in my little pea brain but i’m getting there. my bones are meh but weed helps and i’m Going To Get My Medical Card So I Don’t Have To Keep Driving Out Of State but i do like road trips lmao i just have to again guilt susan into not disowning me for medical weed because she has weird hangups about it. i’m getting a genetic test and likely a full clinical exam for EDS because apparently i have tons of the main symptoms of that and maybe a doctor should have looked into that five years ago or smthn but whatever cause we’re doing it now and it probs will take a couple months before we know for totally sure whether it is or isn’t that but the odds are in my favor this time that i’ll actually get some form of a diagnosis? and my stomach sucks ass i had to get a colonoscopy and i can’t eat gluten anymore which is like all of my favorite things but as a result i’m a pretty dope cook now and i can make a mean smoothie bowl so i’ve got that going for me haha. but in general i like myself as a person more than i have at any other stage of my life, and i’m getting more enjoyment out of my day to day than i have previously which is growth? i have two jobs which is astounding, i work tech crew AND nanny my nephew boy which is fun because he’s cute and we have many of the same interests which is dope considering he’s not even three, boy has taste. i’m getting along with my sister more than i ever have, and i only have breakdowns about my relationship with my father once every few weeks (though it’s been a lot more often than that due to the fact that rn the theater is doing “Daddy Issues The Musical!” (Big Fish) and so every night im forced to re-examine if one day my dad will die and i’ll have to do all the work of mending our relationship and forgiving him for his failings before he does because in the end he won’t do a single thing to meet me halfway and for some reason we’re supposed to be on the dads side anyway?? but it’s okay i’m talking about that with my good buddy Arlene who is also my therapist. we get on well, arlene and i. but i get to see 5sos on sunday and stray kids in july and mychem in september and i saw bts twice before they split for the next few years and for a person who doesn’t like loud noises or crowds or flashing lights i sure do go to a lot of concerts but they’re fun so long as i get ample recovery time after the fact. my dog is old but he is heathy and kind. so there’s many bads but also some pretty big goods so i’d say i’m in general doing okay. i’m broken a bit but the pieces are getting put back into place in an alright fashion 🤙🏻 i hope a lore dump is what you wanted haha im good at just rambling about my life at 4am but not necessarily at being coherent!

[lgbtvegas]

ignore this pls. just need a place to get my feelings out.

mental health tw, suicide tw, suicidal thoughts tw, self harm thoughts and tendencies tw

its sad that i dont even know what to type. im just going fucking insane. i haven't felt this crazy since I tried to kill myself when I was fucking 15. like i feel like a fucking nutjob right now and it won't stop. i have no one to talk to, even if my "friends" say they are there for me, I know they tired of my bs. the last time I tried talking to my friend she fucking left me on read cause shes so tired of my bullshit. i'm so fucking tired of my bullshit. i can never get out of my goddamn head. and everyone thinks im fucking okay cause I act like the fucking class clown at work and make everyone laugh. when I want to just kill myself atp. i havent self harmed myself since I was 15 either but some people disagree on this fact. I have a problem with digging holes in my skin and my therapist definitely thinks its that or an anxiety tick. I only get one day off of work a week and my therapist was all booked up for that day two weeks ago so I havent seen her. cause its like my responsibility to actually make an appointment but like me trying to help myself??? lmao. nice one. basically all this shit was triggered by my fucking hypochondriac tendencies. i had a uti like 2 weeks ago and I don't think the antibiotics they put me on got rid of it completely so I went back and got another urine test done which of course, like I expected came up positive but it also said I had ketones in my urine which of course, having access to a cellphone with a data plan, i immediately googled what that meant. now im like 1000000% positive I have diabetes, even though the doctor said its unlikely. I made an appointment to get my blood drawn to find out for sure but as I previously said, I only get one fucking day off and now I have to sit and wait till next fucking Thursday to find out if I have it or not. I don't know how I'm gonna make it that long. Im already going so fucking crazy I don't know what to do. the doctors office said they won't take blood without an office visit first (money hungry much??) so I can't just go in and ask to get my blood done. And I can't go to the hospital because I don't even know what I'd say to go there and have my blood drawn. nothing really makes me smile anymore. what am I gonna do if i do have it??? what am i gonna do if i don't???? i need answers to my fucking questions and no one will give me any. im fucking nauseous, im shaking, i just wanna sleep 24/7 so i don't have to fucking deal with this anymore. Since i was off today, I slept the whole day. I would wake up for a couple minutes, realize that I did not fucking want to be awake and I went back to sleep. Eventually I was waking up every like 30 minutes cause I wasn't tired but idc, i wanted to be asleep. and now I have to go to work at 4AM and be the happy cheerful person I'm supposed to be so that everyone has a good day. Since I'm the boss, I can't be fucking sad or depressed. I'm so sick and tired of being crazy. Like im fucking exhausted from all this shit. Everything, everyday is becoming so much and I don't know how to handle it anymore. I'm on the highest dose of my antidepressants and an extra anxiety med, and Im like still like this???? why is my brain a piece of shit????? why am I a piece of shit??? like i derive all my happiness from other things and those things end and idk what to do. like BTS going on hiatus???? lol kms. Stray Kids are in America rn and I can't afford to go cause life??? I'm teaching myself a bunch of different languages and It's literally so pointless cause I have no friends and no one to talk to so like who am I speaking to in Korean??? myself. One part of my brain speaks Korean or whatever language and I respond in English. Our conversations are truly riveting. I would put the eyeroll emoji here but its only in my recently used on my phone and I'm posting this on my laptop and I'm too fucking lazy to go and find it. KinnPorsche ends in like a week and a day???? fuck bro. The only thing I have is Doctor Who. That show is my rock. Anyway this is just dumb.

#ignore this #i needed to rant somewhere #just let it out #ramble and cry #i needed to let my brain rest #and typing it helped like a teeny tiny bit #ill probably delete when my brain gets its shit together #how does someone give so much of a fuck about everything and yet so little at the same time #oof #self harm / #suicide / #mental health / #suicide mention / #self harm mention /

[iameatingrawcorn]

1/6/2022

Wambus,,,,,love the guy,,,,,might draw his wife soon

#wambus troubleham #bugsnax wambus #my art #bugsnax #i love this guy so muxh you dont even know #like #im weak for old people #him his wife and cromdo are mh favorites so much i love them #im supposed to be taking a test rn lmao

[colorbby]

✧ how does your future s/o view romantic relationships? ✧

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✧ PILE 1 ✧

hello pile 1!! hope you guys are holding up alright! also happy black history month!! <3

okay so right off the bat.. this person is extremely extremely passionate.. and they view relationships as something that should be covered in and full of that. (they might be a fire sign or have a fire moon specifically.. aka aries/leo/sagittarius).. thus this individual also views romantic relationships as something that naturally brings a lot of high intensity/ perhaps even drama or conflict. it’s like they expect some type of sacrifice to be made for it to be something worthwile. now im not trying to pass judgement but this might be something you two will have conversations about. they might also play little games or try and test you subconsciously to see what you’re made off and if you are a viable fit. im not gonna call this person toxic because i don’t think their energy carries any malice. just felt like something i had to add. furthermore this person is willing to make those sacrifices as they place a lot of value on romantic relationships. this isn’t someone who dates around much (although the high intensity/drama part make allude so.) they have experienced a lot of disappointments and loss so i don’t necessarily blame them. they view relationships as something that requires constant work and adjustments to make sure that both parties are truly satisfied. as immature as the beginning of this reading sounded, this is actually someone quite mature and realistic. it’s just that their perception of romantic relationships may just be a little skewed/ negative at this point in time. they place communication as the number one importance in a functioning partnership and you will get just that from them. with the ace of swords here, they may be blunt as f*ck lmao. “words as sharp as a knife”. they will put in the work, best believe. im hearing they may come off as a little slow/apprehensive.. and ngl it’s because they are lmao. but they’re looking out for themselves as well as you. giving me very much “no need to waste either of our time” energy. additionally to the fire placements, BIG earth sign vibes here!! specifically capricorn in the big 6. overall this person knows that the type of relationship they aspire to have will 1) not be picture perfect everyday 2) will take some work and compromise but 3) is very much something they can attain as long as they find someone who’s cooperative.

additional messages: strong back (?), “i don’t know if this is the right fit”, “you’re shy and cute”, “leave the rest to me”, “i don’t want this”, “im trying to make this work”, “what don’t you love about me?” “you’re worth my time” the number 6, “i know i am a pessimist”, grey v neck

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✧ PILE 2 ✧

hello pile 2!!! hope you guys are doing alright! real quick, i’d like to wish my black readers a happy black history month!! <33 okay lets get into the reading (:

so this person has a completely different energy to pile 1 which is quite funny. if pile 1 is the realist maybe even pessimist, then this is the optimist!! this person gives me huge sagittarius vibes, meaning: “the things that are supposed to find me will find me”.. they might be quite in touch with their spirituality as well, but they’re definitely the type of person who will simply “go with the flow” and see what happens. i don’t think they like to take the fun out of things and prefer just getting to know someone without looking too far ahead and being all too serious.. which might be to their detriment at times. i see that as of rn, relationships are not something they are putting actual effort into.. you know seeking out the apps or asking their friends for potential blind dates etc. they believe that “heaven” or “the universe” will simply align them with the right person right time. which is probably the case however i do see some instances, where this person may have “missed out” on the potential of love due to being too big of an idealist.. borderline delusional at times. like lets be honest we all want love but there is some type of effort that needs to be put in. not everyone can bump into their soulmate at the mall or whatever lmao… and that starts with being emotionally available, which i don’t believe this person to be at this time. the deeper you look into this person you actually see someone who’s quite intimidated by the idea of true vulnerability and thus projects this “happy go lucky” attitude but in reality is fearful they will never find “the one”. in fact they may have turned away from dating (for now) due to these type of thoughts scaring tf out of them. i think this person may have some more maturing to do in terms of managing their expectations. regardless of that though, they are a true romantic and believe in that “old school” type of love. the proper dates, the courting.. all of it. truly beautiful energy. like i don’t know but i’d love to be this person’s friend.. cute pile, pile 2!!!

additional messages: “i wanted this for so long”, “wait can i tie your hair back/wait can you tie my hair back?”, “i love you & i will say it again”, “come closer to me”, medicine (?), going to the movies in a car (like the activity sorry idk what thats called- car cinema?)

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✧ PILE 3 ✧

hello pile 3 hope you’re holding up!! also HAPPY BLACK HISTORY MONTH BTW <333 okay lets get into your reading…not gonna lie to you.. as a black woman living in 2022 idk if i like this person lmao

this person they might be someone whom would be considered “very privileged” in today’s society. (we all have privilege but some is more prevalent than others.) thus they might feel entitled to people or romantic relationships. it’s not necessarily something they believe requires a lot of effort on their end and their demeanor will say just that. this person also seems to have quite traditional (to some regressive) views on romantic relationships. im getting the image of a person (possibly male identifying) who comes home from work and gets frustrated when their food isn’t on the table or their s/o isn’t at the door to greet them & give them a kiss. this person may have a lot to offer in terms of stability, e.g financially. and could potentially even hold it over their future s/o’s head. “don’t forget who the head of this house is” vibes.. now idk.. if that’s something you as the reader are into? be my guest. they similarly to all the piles, have a certain image of what romantic relationships should look like.. and most likely, it should conform to them and what they desire. it’s like they are the king looking over their kingdom. they may even seek out people whom they can take advantage of in that regard, as they are aware of the potential power dynamics. (im so sorry that this is the pile you chose.. i don’t particularly enjoy channeling this either but who knows maybe this would be a warning to some.) im also getting that they have specific rules that should be adhered to on BOTH ends of the relationship. it’s as though they have a certain list of rules for you, and thus expect you to make one for them. like how some couples decide not to go clubbing anymore or do certain activities because their parter would be unhappy, stuff like that. now idk about yall but it’s giving possessive and controlling… anyway only take what resonates! and leave (pls do) what doesn’t!

additional messages: “you’re mine”, “i have wanted you since i first saw you”, “be mine”, ego ego ego, might be wealthy, horse riding, longer hair, pride, sense of humor.

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✧ PILE 4 ✧

hello pile 4!! this reading has very cute energy lets get into it! also happy black history month yall!! 🤍

so this individual may be a natural nurturer and a natural intuitive. they have a lot of inner wisdom and its almost like they perceive romantic relationships as something that should have an element of healing. healing and growth, together. they may have had a lot of partners in the past whom came from “broken” homes or unstable backgrounds, that they ended up feeling very protective over. they are the type to take great pride in being a good partner. there could be a slight “saviour complex” thing going on here but it’s nothing major and they mean really well. nonetheless don’t forget that you can always call this person out on their bs! this person sees relationships and their place in them as a top priority. they wanna be the number 1 number on the call sheet and they wanna help with anything if needed. they really value intimacy on all levels and won’t mind being in charge of that/initiating it. this person is seriously highly intuitive and emotionally intelligent (we stan) however they will require the same openness from their partners. they actually see relationships as what it is, a partnership… and want to be their partners team mate. i can tell though that they will not tolerate any kind of lying or cheating. so let’s say you cheated? they’d talk with you about it to get their answers then they’d probably bounce and leave.. like for good. they seem to have been blessed enough before, to have met one of their soulmates or someone whom meant a lot to them, early in life. someone that helped transform their life or perception of life, at one point, for the better. so they truly believe in love & have seen what good it can do to people. they might also expect to build a family together (in their next relationship) or shall i say it’s something they really want to do. but they view romantic relationships as a blessing. something that you only truly get to enjoy the fruits of, if you open yourself up and strip yourself completely bare (figuratively). they wanna provide for their partner and just be their best friend. (JACKPOT!!! pls i love them omg)

additional messages: “sometimes i wonder if you were made for me”, barefoot (?), “come lay on your back baby” OOP 👁… i didn’t get a lot of additonal messages here tbh.. but at least yall’s person is cute 🫂

✰ let me know if any of this resonates with some feedback through my submission box! ✰

✰ j ✰

#tarot #daily tarot #tarot reading #tarotblr #tarot blog #pick a card #pick a pile #pick a picture #pick a pile reading #colorbby pac

[sukunasweetheart]

supposed to be doing an online test or smth rn but fuck that shit im thinkin abt squid game au for jjk instead hahaha warning; minor squid game spoilers and a bit of extra spice too

sukuna’s voice actor (suwabe junichi) did the japanese dubbing for gong yoo in the show and i screamed bc 😩 they did him so well by making this choice

anyway thats one possibility - sukuna as the sexy man with the suit and the suitcase goin around and slapping people (can i get slapped? sir?)

BUT my thoughts also went to the FRONTMAN in the show omggg bro that scene during red light green light where he started playing ‘fly me to the moon’ and sat on his sofa in front of the giant screen??? and then proceeded to pour himself that glass of whiskey or some shit whilst he leaned back and enjoyed watching all those people suffer- idk abt u but that screams sukuna vibes to me oop. AND it was sexy as hell ngl

another alternative; the VIPs in squid game were all so immature and crusty 🤢 but we all know sukuna as a VIP would be sexy as hell. him with a golden tiger mask!!! filthy rich too lmao (ik im completely going off of what morals/ideas the show is supposed to represent but sdGKSDN FUCK)

POV youre working as one of the staff during squid game - VIP!sukuna eventually gets bored of whatevers playing out in front of him and instead, takes an interest in u + just to clarify, he is not wearing a robe 👎 he be wearing a snazzy suit 

maybe you got nervous while serving the drinks or whatever and he thought u were cute when u fumbled around LMAO idk

anyway yea he takes u to the back and ur all 👉 👈 this man POWERFUL, makin u feel 😳 even without showin u his face,, his voice sexy,,

someee nasty up ahead 🤪 contains; slight(?)dubcon, rough throat fucking, dacryphilia, sukuna calls you pet, gender neutral reader

“Come on, pet. You know that mask will only get in the way.”

Your hands have a slight tremble to them as you remove it, revealing your face to the man who had brought you here on one of his own whims. You witness his mouth curve up into a smirk upon seeing you.

He maintains that languid smile of his as you work your way around the tip of his length, tongue darting over it with hesitation. The man’s hand comes down to the back of your head and pushes your face forward.

“Beautiful.You know what you need to do, don’t you?”

Nodding fervently, you unbuckle his belt to reveal his erection that was strained tightly against his boxers. The swell of his cock, encouraged by the sight of you.

“That’s cute, but you can do better than that.”

When you slide his cock down your throat the best you can, he lets out a guttural moan that makes you ache with lust. He takes over for a moment, driving it in and out of you at an excruciatingly slow pace, making your eyes water as you try to hold back your gags. The man passes the control back over to you soon however, and you pull back to take a breath before working to bob your head over his cock again.

He admires your obedience. He thinks there’s something about you that strangely entices him, and decides to take a bit of a gamble.

“If you can swallow it all, I’ll even take my mask off for you,” he tells you with a salacious tone of voice. It stirs something up within you, your lips pursing around his girth, and suddenly, you feel determined to see the face behind that golden disguise. Your grip on the fabric of his pants get tighter.

“I’ll take that as a yes to my suggestion.”

Without warning, his hands come up to both sides of your head and brings you all the way down, your nose hitting his lower abdomen. You’re unable to hold back your gagging now, and your palms hit his hips with panic. 

“Relax, pet. I’m nearly there-” he grunts, thrusting harder, hitting the back of your throat relentlessly. Despite the abrupt roughness, your own excitement was growing, more than you’d like to admit. The man curses under his breath and continues to fuck your mouth, the lewd sound of your slobbering echoing around the room.

Thick rope after rope rolls down your throat as a string of groans leave his lips, the feeling of you swallowing around him sending a shudder of pleasure down his spine. You can feel him twitching on your tongue.

“Are you ready for it?” he asks you.

But it seems that it was intended to be a rhetorical question, judging from the way he didn’t wait for an answer, instead shoving his cock all the way down and spilling his seed inside.

Tears are now spilling down your cheeks with your every blink as he slowly pulls out of your mouth with a grin.

“Good pet. You did well.” He praises. “Now for your reward,” he says to you, wiping your tears away with his thumb, making sure that you were seeing him properly. That teasing smirk remains on his face when he lifts his mask, a gleam going over its surface as he takes it off entirely. 

You’re left staring once you catch sight of his face properly - deep, crimson eyes and strange tattoos that suit him so well. A dangerous kind of charming.

“Your actions say everything and more,” he chuckles, tilting your head up by your chin. You hitch in a breath when his face gets closer to yours. His eyes wander about your appearance, deep in observation.

“Yeah. I’m definitely keeping you around.”

Masterlist

#sukuna #sukuna smut #ryomen sukuna #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu sukuna #jujutsu kaisen x reader #squid game x jjk #poe's spices

[fallindomino]

hsmtmts ep 8 THOUGHTS

omg so much to say sgrjfjfkkf

okay so ej and gina are legit carrying the show for me rn oh my god i love how when ej said “do u know what it feels like to have ur whole life planned out for u” gina was just like not rlly and then ej IMMEDIATELY asked her abt her experience and like it wasn’t like gina was being his therapist cause then they were just hyping each other up lmao now that i’m typing this out it sounds like basic friend things but the bar is in the floor considering some of the other relationships on this show *cough* rini *cough*

anyways ughhhh i love them sm and then when he put his duke sweater on top of him like a blanket 😭😭😭 god idec if they don’t date i just love their relationship sm

also another cool thing that maybe seemed kinda small but was huge to me, in like the end montage ej says to his dad “im not going to duke” not “i don’t want to go to duke” or “i don’t think i should go to duke” he just straight up said that he’s not going and honestly i found that language so great bc it leaves no room for a drawn out argument and its so loyal to his convo w gina abt how he felt he had no control over his life bc that was him taking control of his destiny and his future and when did ej become my fave character omllll

also kinda loved the big red and ashlyn conflict in this ep like ashlyn wasn’t hearing what big red really wanted bc she was so busy spouting motivational poster garbage and i think it really speaks to the societal expectation that you’re supposed to keep wanting to “climb the ladder” otherwise ur a failure but big red was clear to ashlyn in saying that wasn’t what he wanted and he showed how what she said made him feel insecure about how she saw him and then in the end she wears the salt lake pizzas shirt to show that she understands his dream

i really liked how at the end of the ep howie just walked away and didn’t try to kiss kourtney after his song bc that’s such a tired cliche and kourtney was rlly sticking to her guns about feeling betrayed even tho u could tell the song affected her and the advice kourtney’s mom gave her was rlly good so i hope kourtney and howie work out

im glad rini broke up cause now ricky can maybe go and be his own person cause for the entire series he’s been chasing nini and i’m glad he at least showed some self awareness when he said he didn’t like who he was becoming. honestly the tree house scene did a really good job of portraying how they are total opposites; nini likes taking risks and ricky likes feeling safe. and i think honestly despite how much of the fandom doesn’t like them tgt they could work out if ricky found his own dream or his own goals. cause the career test said he had no marketable skills or wtv bc the musical was seemingly the first thing he ever really felt passionate abt and he joined bc of nini so i think if he starts trying things out on his own then he can fully develop into his own person.

also in the teaser for ep 9 are we supposed to know who that dude talking to gina at the airport is? cause i have zero clue lmao

#gina porter #ej caswell #ashlyn caswell #big red #kourtney greene #nini salazar roberts #ricky bowen #portwell #i ship the portwell friendship so hard #honestly they could start dating #but they don’t even need to bc the show is developing their friendship so well with the hints that they could date on the side #i love how since they couldn’t practice this ep became a study in what a healthy relationship looks like #that’s what it seemed like to me anyways

[radbutsafe]

ALL FUCKIN 35 OF THEM SKLNWESDJFPXO

I SHOULDVE EXPECTED THIS FROM YOU

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

A three! I think I’m mid range cause I ain’t terrible but there is still shit I gotta improve and grow in my writing

2. Why do you write fanfiction?

to manifest what canon won’t give me and to write more! (though yes it is mainly about the smooching and the— I’ll stop there LOL)

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

Hm! My weird research details? I’m that “fun fact, did you know...” in my fics sometimes LOL! I plan on giving a penthouse for erina in a fic and I went through penthouse listings in Japan for floor layouts and locations💀 my research gives me inspo and depth to stuff I think I lack in comparison to others sometimes.

4. Are there any writers that inspire you?

In terms of fellow fic writers, one of them I can’t name here but she’s an inspiration with her exceptional gift for prose period and her lovely skill at comedy! I want to be as funny as her when I write, I love her ironic situational humor. Other fic writers are @takoyakitenchou, @royaldragonsevgisi15 who I always love sharing ideas with and motivate me to create more! For non-fic writers it would be V.E. Schwab, Leigh Bardugo, Oda, and Horikoshi! The last two may be mangaka, however they are writers as well to create their stories! The depth these creators have given their worlds and interesting characters theyve given life to are all what I aspire to be like!

5. What’s the fic you’re most proud of?

so far uh?? hm everything I’m currently writing are wips lol!! im proud of my wip that has been nicknamed ‘soma panics’ that is a multi-chapter fic that spans like probs 20 plus chapters maybe

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily?

dialogue! it’s so much fun! and character thoughts. I’ve said to people I may be better suited for script writing

7. What element of writing do you struggle with most?

I think it’s description, of like setting and showing action. also an expansion of my vocabulary LOL

8. Which character(s) do you find easiest to write?

erina! I think it’s because canon has shown us many of her different faces and range of emotion.

9. Which character(s) do you find most difficult to write?

SOMA!! chill ass mofo whos more carefree compared to the common shonen protagonist! for other shokugeki characters I’m not sure just yet because I haven’t flexed my fingers enough for the rest of them.

10. What’s your favorite genre to write for?

I guess I should say romance cause that’s what I mostly write LOL!

11. Who or what do you find yourself writing about most?

sorina and I try to get them to smooch eventually KEK and yeah it’s..usually romantic fluff lmao

12. Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.

HONESTLY ALL OF THEM but “soma panics” is my brain child

13. First fandom you ever wrote for?

pretty sure it’s digimon....

14. What’s your favorite fandom to write for?

currently shokugeki no soma!!!!

15. What’s the weirdest fandom you’ve ever written for?

uhhhh I guess SNS? LMAO fandoms...all have their quirks to them.

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

characters cuddling!!!! or getting the urge to smooch!!!!

17. A trope you’ll never, ever write for.

unrequited love GOOD FUCKIN BYEEEEEE

18. Wildest fic you’ve ever written?

I have plot ideas thst can be wild potentially but so far nothing fits this criteria so far that I actually have written.

19. Do you prefer canon-compliant, AUs, or something in-between?

depends on the fandom, but if written well, all of it!

20. Gen fic or shippy stuff?

shippy 100% like I said I like smoochin

21. Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)

romantic is...*drumroll* SORINA! platonic, soutaku and erina and alice!

22. Do you listen to anything while you write?

Sometimes! There are times songs will be on loop and times I just shuffle a playlist. and if I’m writing in random bursts it’ll be with no music but it really does depend lmao I think music is when I’m forcing myself to write?

23. Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas?

completely independent ideas, I’ve realized in the past prompts shoot me in the foot often unless I luckily figure something out. but I’m often driven by my own sporadic self interest with shitty ping ponging attention

24. One-shots or multi-chaptered works?

multi-chap I guess cause I can post without being finished LOLLL but tbh can I really answer? I haven’t finished anything.....

25. Have you ever daydreamed about side adventures/spin-offs from your fic? Tell us about them!

I can’t answer this question imo because I haven’t finished a fic yet so technically stuff could all fit in the one fic?

26. Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

MYSTERY AND CRIME! I love the genre and I have plot ideas once a blue moon but I can’t dive in because I want to make details that work and reduce plot holes where suspension of disbelief isn’t as needed. I need to study it more (I need to study all the details for any of my fics imo to be confident sometimes LOL)

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received?

I don’t think I can say one comment was the nicest because I’ve gotten comments that have given me quite the smiles to my face many times! I know this is a cop out but it’s true!

IS WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY UNTIL REINA SENT ME THE FOLLOWING ON DISCORD LIKE TWENTY MINS AGO:

and also rad. i am never this vocal about my emotions like EVER but this needs to be said your fics are obviously far from perfect, as are mine and everyone else's. but the thing about your works is that they're so well-sanded that it's impossible to find any rough edges or faults in them in terms of cohesion to a plot. your cast is never OOC and the amount of effort you devote to developing your takes on the characters as accurately as possible is unimaginably awe-inspiring.

BITCH I WANNA CRY 😭

28. How well do you handle criticism when it comes to your writing?

I’d like to believe I take it often well to try and improve because that’s always my goal. if someone is rude lol that’s not constructive snd is unhelpful. If I disagree with criticism I’ll explain why !

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

Not yet, but I have some plot ideas I think will let me test this.

30. Tooth-rotting fluff or merciless angst?

F L U F F.

31. Do you have any OCs? Tell us about them!

elliott fuji, a japanese-american award winning photographer who is erina’s boyfriend in ‘soma panics’ which..causes soma’s panic LOL he’s 30 with slightly wavy black hair. I still haven’t pinpointed his personality just yet...he kind of humble brags for sure an artsy fucker and flirts maybe I’ll make him a lil shy though. he teaches sometimes, and becomes an adjunct photography professor in Tokyo so he can be with erina.

32. Summarize a random fic of yours in 10 words or less.

a cook is unfashionably late in realizing his feelings.

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

I am a slow. so slow. motivation who is she? I also write out of order, unfortunately a bit too often.

34. Copy and paste an excerpt you’re particularly fond of.

this should be for the fic ‘soma panics’ it’s either megumi or satoshi talkin to him rn, I’m leaning towards satoshi

“You thought she would always wait for you, didn’t you Soma-kun? To always welcome you home.”

Soma drags his palms down his face and groans. He doesn’t like this at all. He doesn’t shy from confrontation but this is a whole different ballgame. Soma doesn’t play any ball.

“I guess..?” Is his reply, because he thinks he isn’t sure how to answer that.

“You guess?”

Just being questioned again is enough to crack Soma’s pathetic facade as if it was dropped chinaware and he lets out the longest sigh.

“No.”

Coming home means coming home to Nakiri Erina too.

Nakiri Erina is his forever.

this is @takoyakitenchou’s excerpt she’s most proud of that I’ve written, which is also from you guessed it, the long fic soma panics

SOMA: I am, I mean I will be, I swear I will always come home to you, not spend as much time abroad, once I’m done with work I’ll come right back. I’ll make sure to message you. Nakiri, I’m in love you with you. Maybe for a really long time. You know how I say I dedicate my food to you? My dad—my dad said that the key to become a good chef is to find someone to dedicate your cooking to. A special someone. For my dad it was my mom, you know? For me it’s...

(this is a good piece of dialogue tbh so I am also proud of this)

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

I’ve mentioned it throughout this but the WIP I’ve nicknamed ‘soma panics’ is something I’m super excited to write, but it’s going on slowly...and almost completely out of order. out of all of my writing it showed off that particular habit of mine, along with “what is this, a shoujo manga?!” though the latter is currently being written chronologically now that I’ve posted chapter one and is pretty solid in direction. it was originally supposed to be a one shot but I got impatient and wanted to post at least something for the sorina / soueri fandom.

however, because ‘soma panics’ (I won’t call it that LOL) is my baby I want to keep true to my rule of refusing to post it until I have a draft of the entire fic finished and I’m satisfied with the main points pretty much. due to my writing out of order, I’m worried I’ll change my mind about scenes or want to reflect things in earlier chapters for later ones etc etc

I joined the SnS fandom extremely late, as season five was airing. I was a fan of the manga five years ago and dropped it because I forgot to check for updates when I caught up 😔 I really want to bang out the different fics and aus for sorina that I have before the fandom fizzles out entirely but tbh I’m writing for myself, I’m manifesting what I want to see and I’ll just share it with all my friends to read if no one else will. cause I’m slow broski I dunno what writing fast even is like LMAO I do really want to write faster though, so I can contribute more and let the words free from the discord dms....

#ask meme #ask rad shit #writing #writing by rad #fanfic #reina girl u put me thru it I swear lol #thank u for sending!! #ur amazing!!!!

[hiddeningrid]

projecting big walking energy into the universe rn

i'd love to be able to wash my hands rn cos they were down my cat's throat but unfortunately moving is impossible, syke

i was pretty long without water or food today cos i was so sick after cleaning the place for my parents who came back from holiday. fully 100% expecting my foot to be so painful that i can't put any pressure on it tomorrow so that's yeah

also the hand situation and other leg situation is Dire. gotta take some muscle relaxants tonight so i can go to the bathroom and eat tomorrow, somehow. tho i plan to mostly stay in bed if possible, just gota eat and drink less so i survive

also my cat has been gettig sick again and i am currently waiting 1 hour before feeding her in lil bits and it is 12AM so i expect sleep around 2-3AM and i need to somehow take her to the vet thurs which will Wreck my wreck of a body. everything already hurts so bad so...looking forward to it (no)

mind-blowing how bad breaking one bone can get when you're already sick ehhh

genuinely do not know what imma do if it does not heal quick. it's 2½ weeks now of this hell. just envision myself as a house plant that needs very little watering??

funniest is that my parents haven't once asked me if they could help or how i'm doing lmao. it's so them tho, they never help when i'm more sick than usual and asking usually unfurls all the ableist shit. i was supposed to test my new apartment out rn but instead i am...here.

with them here im struggling more and not less since 1) my dad particularly does not clean up after himself and our cat goes to eat the shit that my dad leaves out and then she pukes and her IBD gets way worse and u know who limps along to somehow take care of her? yeah. 2) my mother's perfumes. tonight already i had to limp Extra to close my bedroom door cos i forgot the nonsense she puts on at night. it gets complicated in the morning with the cat wanting in my room and me having to at times get up at 6AM to close my door so i wont get a perfume migraine. that's with staying up to 2-3AM at times to feed the cat when she's been puking. 3) my system of having 3 office chairs that i could hop onto in the hallway and kitchen is broken now so i have one that i need to lift over the high thresholds between the rooms and it's Bad yo.

ugh i do not know how imma make it to the other side of this mess. writing this all was a bad idea lmao i should take those muscle relaxants

#the more u know #spoonies #ableism mention #everything is just so painful and so bad and that is all

[disaster-bay-leaf]

Ok so these were the cutest~ (ㆁωㆁ)

4, 6, 7, 9, 12, 19, 22, 23, 28, 33, 34, 46, 47, 52, 59, 60, 63, 66, 83, 87, 88, 93, 99

I kno I listed like....all of them lmao but feel free to answer whichever you want and ofc you can ask me in return Baybe ( ◜‿◝ )♡

uHUHUHUHU much content for me to answer, im happy bebe 💜💜💜✨

4 - how do you take your coffee/tea?

hm coffee either Very Black No Sugar (for the sleep deprived me) or iced latte three sugars and theres no in between

and as for tea its All Black Teas That Exist, cinnamon-flavoured especially (but basically all teas that come to mind when u think “autumn”), and rooibos!!! okay basically the only oke i dont like is any type of green tea (which is sad because they look cool but my tastebuds said ✨no✨)

6 - do you keep plants?

honestly id l o v e too because i love plants but,,, im kinda horrible at taking care of them though still way better than the majority of my family (research helps) so the only plant i own is kinda a small-palm-tree-looking thing in a bigass glass jar that i saved from my mother’s plant-destructing hands and its mostly doing well (the ends of its leaves are starting to be yellow tho and im worried:((( )

7 - do you name your plants?

yes!!! though the current one was named by my sister and its called “pickett” after fantastic beasts shsjjsj

9 - do you like singing/humming to yourself?

oh god oh dude you have n o idea

i have absolutely n o singing voice but its something i do constantly to give my brain the right amount of stimuli so basically i listen to music 24/7 and hum to myself 99% of that time

12 - whats your favourite planet?

oh i actually didnt think about this for so long but either pluto (hes a planet screw nasa) or saturn (RINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) or venus (girls,,,and libra,,,)

19 - do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw in it?

okay im gonna be completely honest with yall and say that my every single try at keeping a journal failed spectacularly and i lost motivation after like a few months so my only journals rn are my fancy fake-leather-bound calendar to note tests and assessments into, a kinda roughed up notebook that i uses for noting down poems or scribbling or passing notes in class, and a kinda fancy bullet journal notebook that i used as a book of shadows for a while but since my fountain pen died i didnt touch it

22 - are you a morning person?

n o

i am so not a morning person but i wish i could be because honestly dawns are beautiful

but as it is rn im either sleep deprived all the time and loathe every second of being in an awake state or (if i have a few days of schoolbreak) my biological clock moves forward a few hours and i sleep 2am-10am

23 - whats your favourite thing to do on lazy days with zero obligations?

except for the fact that i dont remember the last time it happened, i would probably spend it drawing outside, watching anime with my sister and riding a bike around the forest

28 - sunrise or sunset?

i love sunrises because its so peaceful and everyone is asleep but also i subconsciously immediately correlate them with waiting for a train to take me to school (because thats basically the only time i see them) so its a bittersweet love especially with my fucked up biological clock

but sunsets are really really pretty too and i see them more often so i cant choose

33 - whats your fave pastry?

and isnt that a millior-dollar question dhsjjsjsj

either cinnamon rolls (i absolutely adore them) or that one specific type of cupcake-shaped-thing made out of shortcrust/bread/whatever its called and filled with vanilla pudding

34 - tell us about a stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

awwww this is cute

okay so basically my two favourite stuffed animals (i still have them, they sit in my wardrobe) were two teddy bears (like maybe 20cm high each of them) and one was pure brown and the other was silver-brown and they had stereotypical polish male names “Waldek” (read. Valdek) and Stefan (i think tho im not sure if i remember correctly, my memory is a feeble thing sometimes

46 - tell us the worst pun you can think of

what dog would never bite you? a hot dog *badumtss*

47 - what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

huh a year ago id say pineapple pizza but i guess i dont hate pineapples that much anymore (tho putting them on pizza is still an abomination) but i think that if id ever want to get rid of anything it would be parsley, i hate that freakin herb (does it count as food tho)

52 - what are your favourite memes of the year so far?

the ever given for sure shsjshjsjsjsjjsj

but bullying tramp stamps is gold and pure tumblr energy too

as for fandom memes: im in love with all keeping-up-with-the-todorokis variations and the fact that the entire bsd fandom looked at fukuchi and said “biTCH” and thats one of the only things we’re unanimous about

59 - whats your favourite myth?

i always liked the kora/persephone myth (though demeter is an overbearing parent to the nth power), loki and thor crossdressing at a party to get mjolnir back, atalanta because shes a queen and id politely ask her to kick my ass, and cassandra because she deserved better, and theres a l o t more because alas i was a mythology nerd but this post is long enough for me not to make this section 20 times longer sjjsjsjsjsjks

but there are a lot of slavic myths that are very cool too, though we dont know that much about them as about the greeks for example

60 - do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

o o o o h yeah i do like poetry because to create such a beautifully sounding thing with only words someone has to be a genius

some of my favs are: some works of nakahara chuuya (thank u bsd for introducing me to this man’s beautiful imagery in his works i swear to god the descriptions do it for me) (also his poem about having hangovers is a mood like i feel you buddy), the raven by ea poe (i know everyone likes it but hOLY DAMN THE INTER/INTRAVERSE RHYMES ARE LIKE,,, BREATHTAKING) (and aso im a slut for gothic horror), and many more but also That One Poem From Welcome To Nightvale about reaching the island in the west,,, only perfect vibes from it

63 - are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organised or kinda leave them be?

okay heres the thing. for anyone else both my playlist library and my bookshelf would be considered pure chaos of a mad man b u t they actually have a highly focused system which means that i sort them based on their vibes, lovability and (in case of books) their age and whether or not theyre a part of a series so i would say my bookshelf is rather organised (when a quarter of it isnt occupying my desk that is) and my music is more organised than not but sometimes it gets out of control and i have to sort it entirely again

66 - what would your ideal flower crown look like?

either entirely constructed of simple white daisies, entirely constructed of only white roses, or something that probably would win a “how many different coloured flowers can one fit in a flower crown” competition

or something purple (maybe not belladonna)

83 - whats some of your favourite album art?

god i dont know if it counts but hozier’s wasteland baby is probably one of my absolute favourites and no one shall beat that

“thrifted youth” (dalynn) and “standard deviation” (danny schmidt) have very aesthetic covers too

also the iconic p!atd too weird to live, too rare to die! album cover,,, its just iconic what can i say

and last but not least matt meason’s pink-and-black album covers (though bank on the funeral is really pretty too but like,,, “who killed matt meason” d o e s it for me and so does the 2017 tribulation single)

87 - what are some movies that you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

this is such a hard question because im not a really cinematography-oriented gal but i suppose that (at the risk of not going deep enough into the cinema world):

- the princess bride

- inception

- night at the museum

- SPIRITED AWAY

- forrest gump

- truman show

- E.T. (i cried okay)

- the lord of the rings (because damn me if this isnt one impressive adaptation)

- parasite

and one more personal recommendation: “ready or not” with samara weaving because goddamn i dont usually watch this genre but holy s h i t is it good

93 - whats the hairstyle you wear the most?

honestly just plain hair down (because having curly hair is a menace), split in the middle when i have longer hair and split on one side when its short

also low ponytails or half-up-half-down when im exercising, or double french braids when my hair doesnt cooperate enough to look presentable in any other form

99 - list some songs that resonate with your soul whenever you hear them

this is difficult because my music taste is a goddamn rollercoaster on a good day, but heres some:

- me and the sky from “come from away” musical (this is sort of a test song for my mental stability, if i cry i aint stable)

- dancing after death by matt meason (okay most songs by matt meason except for like,,, hallucinogenics maybe)

- tears and rain by james blunt

- i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

- almost home by mxmtoon

- anything by hozier really but shrike especially

- payphone, the cover by alex g (i cried to this song so many times)

- burning pile by mother mother (can i roast all my problems please)

- long way from home and cleopatra by the lumineers

- autoclave by the mountain goats

oooh that was c o o o o o o o l as fuck thank you sm so much bebe (and sorry for the long post @everyone else)

#smadhuman being pure af #bay answers #long post #very long post #ask #asks

[tealvz]

ASK GAME THINGY I WAS TAGGED BY @spectralheartt THANKS FOR TAGGING ME! i love talking about myself as well <3 nickname: people call me kaz i guess if that counts LMAO also my sister calls me jie like mando for big sister but she’s too lazy to say it twice ❤️

zodiac: leo but spec brought up the chinese one so imma include that im a sheep/lamb/ram/goat too 😼

followers: 4019 WOWIE!!!! should i do something???? does anyone care???? face reveal?!?!? lmfao height: 5′1″  👁💧👄👁

hogwarts house: gryffindor last thing i googled: criminal minds worldwide (it’s supposed to be beyond borders im sorry matt simmons </3) i was so excited to watch it but apparently it’s xenophobic 😿💔

song suck in my head: it’s not a song but there’s this picture of lin manuel miranda biting his bottom lip that might as well be seared into the back of my eyelids at this point

amnt of sleep: go to bed at 3 wake up at noon i cant count

lucky number: 5 i like that there’s gonna be something in the middle and two things on the side it’s very nice to me

dream job: i don’t have any passions ❤️

wearing: ive been wearing pyjamamas (however tf you spell that) since march 13th

fave song: rn it’s breezeblocks by alt-j <3 the music video for songs very much add to how much i like them and i just really liked that one for some reason lol

fave instrument: idk trumpets?? they’re so loud i can always hear them in the song i love that for them

aesthetic: i cant give you anything other than i like the color yellow bye

favorite authors: i don’t read ❤️

fave animal noise: ben shapiro saying hypothetically

random: I PASSED ALL MY AP TESTS IM OVER THE MOON!!!!!!!! im so happy im not taking a science class next year you have no idea my brain is abt to be SMOOTH asf 💆‍♂️💆‍♂️💆‍♂️ i dont wanna tag anyone do this if you want! :)

#im putting this here bc i havent posted anything in like a month hey 🖐 #shut up kazu #why r all these answers so long ok extra bitch 😔

[acadieum]

AAAA U FINISHED KIPO?? ive been watching ur liveblog all day HAHA.... gimmie ur THOUGHTS !!! pls pls. whos ur fave 🥺 mines wolf 🐺

YESSSS last night i was powering thru all my notes bc i was so excited to be able to finish the series afterwards!! i stayed up to finish watching and it was totally worth it!!!!! AAAAH that finale!!!! and omg im glad at least someone has been enjoying my kipo yelling lmaO- 

OH I LOVE WOLF TOO,,, her development and backstory is among my fave!! actually idk if i have a FAVE fave bc all of the characters and their relationships are SO GOOD but of the squad, i do love wolf immensely !!

i also love jamack,, fancy frog wants to be part of the hero squad so badddd /hj but i love his banters!! and i have many emotions about song oak... i also just rlly like the designs of that human burrow squad (troy, asher, and dahlia)!!

all in all......... kipo good... i could yell more but im supposed to take a test rn so shgjkf

#adrien replies #Anonymous

[maddiesup]

Tag game!

I was tagged by @ohbabycupcakes thank u💖

RULES: Name 10 favorite characters from 10 different things then tag 10 people + leave comments on all of them

This is gonna be hard, where do I even start?

1) Keith (Voltron: Legendary Defender)

Okay I'm- trying not to laugh too hard because oh boy, this show was a complete mess. BUT Keith still stays as one of my favorite characters ever just because no matter how badly I was hurt by vld he'll always be precious to me 💖 He's hotheaded, cool and a lone wolf, but needs affection more than anyone else on the team. He's easy for me to relate to as I am more likely to push someone away than to keep them close just to avoid being hurt as well. His development is amazing tho and I love love him so much 😭 also it might be just that I have a soft spot for emo characters lmao

2) Todoroki Shoto (Boku no Hero Academia)

This just reinforces my statement earlier since Todoroki is pretty emo too :') But in a different way than Keith. If you are a part of bnha fandom you know he's generally a little bit overrated, but I couldn't help falling in love with him at first sight anyway lol His backstory is tragic but he keeps pursuing his dream and damn is he good at it. Also the combo of fire and ice is aesthetic goals. However, what I admire the most about Shoto is probably his loyalty to his friends, his will to fight and sometimes his goofy attitude (even if he probably isn't aware that he's being goofy lol) In conclusion: I love him, let's move on.

3) Uenoyama Ritsuka (Given)

Can I just stop to say how much I love given for a moment? Like I've never seen a bl anime/manga that would portray gay characters so respectfully 😭❤️ Ue is basically me gay panicking, I feel the boy so much :') OH also what's up with gays & guitars bc first given, then why r u and now also 2gether :') (I might be falling in love with this trope help) okay so: Ue is panicking when he starts liking Mafuyu but he handles it so well in a way? He doesn't deny his crush even if he is slow to notice it lol He's straightforward and sometimes a little bit rough around the edges, but even if he's supposed to be "the cool guy" we see him in the most hilarious settings and that just makes me love him all the more 💖 he respects Mafuyu and his boundaries and I want more of that in bl anime please

4) Eiji & Ash (Banana Fish)

Uhhhh this anime,,, I CANNOT choose between Ash and Eiji, I'm gonna forever see them as a pair and that's simply it. Ash is another emo one I would like to say that but he's actually not. He's backstory is heartbreaking and the life he has to live is dangerous and scary. He gets used to this reality where he has no one to rely on and no one to trust but then Eiji appears tearing his walls down and making him finally be able to show his soft and sensitive side to someone. Eiji is like a salve for his wounds and yes, I'm still emotional about it bc their relationship is one of the best developped I've ever seen. Their bond is so strong it's beautiful, they would literally die for each other. It's so apparent that they love each other and care for each other so much (don't mind me crying in the corner)

5) Percy Jackson (Percy Jackson & the Olympians)

PJ technically got me into fantasy/sci-fi in elementary school and it stays at the top of my favorite book series list ever (big props to Uncle Rick 👏) The whole series is funny and I would say pretty light-hearted even tho you know,,, Percy saves the world several times, lol, usual demigod things™. He's lovable. Son of Poseidon so he has seaweeds instead of a brain (or so you thought, he is brilliant at strategic planning and has a charisma to be a great leader), has a very good sense of humor, is loyal and would risk everything for his friends. Also he loves his girlfriend very much and I was crying while reading the House of Hades but no one needed to know that oh well. I'm also gonna mention Nico de Angelo here, since he fell in love with Percy (didn't we all tho) and was the first gay character I saw portrayed in the book and oh do I love him 😭💖

6) 707 (Mystic Messenger)

Was I losing sleep over this game? I was. Do I regret anything? Absolutely not. I think my choices are pretty boring tho, since Seven is literally everyone's favorite but oh boy there's a reason for that. Apart from being a talented hacker who knows too much (and I think is cautious of us the most at the start) he has a lovely happy-go-lucky personality composed of all the lame jokes, questions "have you eaten already" and anxiety (another emo one). He's that type of a character who will always try to make you laugh but you never know what's going on inside his head. He's mysterious and we don't get to know him well till his route so pretty much till the end of the game lol. Also he loves his brother, phd pepper, honey buddha chips and Elizabeth 3rd the most in this entire world and I love him for that

7) Evan Hansen (Dear Evan Hansen)

ANOTHER EMO ONE okay but hear me out Evan has social anxiety and its portrayal is almost too real for me. He makes a big oopsie which at the start seems like a little innocent lie but then snowballs to enormous sizes. He gains everything in this bargain, a best (dead) friend, a caring mother, a father, a girlfriend even - and then everything falls apart since it all is built on one fat lie. He makes a lot of mistakes and then some more but you get it and you feel for him, and you cry with him and you're happy for him. And when all of this is over you're glad that he's still there trying his best, taking it one day at a time. And sidenote: Ben Platt's voice is angelic and I love him as Evan 💖💖💖

8) Isak (SKAM)

Another gay panicking one. I'm starting to realize there's a set of traits that I particularly like in fictional characters lol But ye, when I was watching skam ofc it was the third season which gripped me the most and kept me on the edge, bc yet again Isak taking an "are you gay" test was way too real for me. He makes a lot of mistakes along the way of figuring out his sexuality and sometimes stuff with Evan becomes really messy (for both of them) but he stays with him nevertheless ❤️ Skam is literally so good in its portrayal of the characters :') Anyways: alt er love 💖

9) Viktor & Yuuri (Yuri on Ice)

Em, another one that I absolutely can't break up to just one bc how could I? Yuri on ice got me into skating ❤️ I went to an ice rink for the first time bc of this anime and I almost died but now look at me actually finishing my first three months of ice skating training and watching real life figure skating competitions :') Little did I know then. But they're not only my favourites bc of that, I genuinely love the development of their relationship from fan - idol through skater - couch to lovers and history makers in the end. I love how Yuuri is a ball of insecurities and how Viktor manages to reassure him. I love how Viktor fell in love with drunk Yuuri clinging to him. I love how at first Yuuri wasn't able to get too close to Viktor without getting flustered and it changes so drastically to them basically always holding onto each other. I love how Viktor was stuck with no inspiration but then Yuuri came and turned his world upside down. I love how they support and respect each other. I could probably go on into eternity like that and Yuri on ice isn't even the best anime I've ever seen but it's certainly my favourite one ❤️

10) Tutor (WHY R U)

I can't believe I'm so obsessed with thai dramas rn and I'm only gonna include Tor on this list smh He's mental attitude inspires me. He's able to hold so much and appears totally unfazed even if he's barely holding on inside. He's hardworking and doesn't want others to pity him since he can manage it all just fine. He has a kind heart, he's a wonderful friend (especially to Hwa, he always listens to her, gives her pieces of advise, supports her and tries to cheer her up). He never forgets to say thank you when he genuinely feels grateful. But as we've seen he also is passionate and when he loves he LOVES. Also he's the biggest tease to Fighter and I love him for that :') I am so satisfied just by seeing him happy, please do not change that whyru gods 🙏

As it appears I'm done .-. I have no idea what have just happened and if my rambling even makes sense but not that I care at this point. If you read this far, please drink some water now, that was a lot of reading to go through ❤️

Tagging: @wir-ro, @saecookie and any other 8 people who might want to ksks (im too tired to tag lmao)

Don't be like me and go to bed at reasonable hours despite this whole quarantine thing .-. thank again Doreen for tagging since it was really fun 🥺❤️

#funnily enough I realized I didn't include any female characters #which is kinda sad tbh #I think Hermione would be the one to be the closest to the pedestal #but it's done already huh so #tagged! #thanks for tagging uwu #vld keith #voltron #voltron legendary disappointment #ye right #given #uenoyama ritsuka #banana fish #asheiji #ash lynx #eiji nakamura #dear evan hansen #percy jackson #isak #skam #viktuuri #yuri on ice #katsuki yuuri #viktor nikirofov #todoroki shouto #bnha #why r u tutor #why r u the series #707 #mystic messenger

[magical-xirl-4]

Okay let’s review Ladybug!

Aww, we see Adrien working on the lucky charm to give to Marinette (also confirming this is before Befana!)

Lmao Gabriel is finally here for once to eat a meal with this son. And Adrien really asks for his opinion on the gift ;-;

“She’s a really awesome girl, she loves helping others-“ AHH mah heart

Oh ok... so we’re getting flashbacks of previous episodes, which is leading up to the current time of this episode? And Lila saw Adrien giving Marinette the charm!

Noo, Lila’s pulling in Nathaniel now

UGH at least Alya is standing up for Marinette about the test answers

oh my god this feels cathartic. EVERYONE in the class is standing up for her, including Adrien.

Ms Bustier just sends them to the office alone... probably cause she doesn’t want to try and solve this problem and just leave it to them -_-

FUCKING BITCH LIES DOWN ON THE GROUND PRETENDING SHE GOT PUSHED OVER EJDUHSH 

they should just check that she isn’t injured!!! She probably doesn’t have a bruise or scratch on her >:(

UAHHH ADRIEN YOU SHOULD’VE SAID SOMETHING SOONER

also, expelled? Mr. Damocles that’s a bit extreme for a kid who supposedly cheated on a test, pushed another kid over, and stole said kid’s necklace. Other than that Marinette is a great student, ugh, idiot...

oh FUCK, Catalyst is back

BITCH WHAT THE FUUUCK. PRINCESS JUSTICE?? HOLY SHIT WE’RE ACTUALLY GETTING AKUMATIZED MARINETTE. SABINE IS FINALLY GETTING AKUMATIZED TOO

(ok Hawky’s facial animation is like so fluid)

oh you gotta be shitting me. At that exact moment Nathalie began to cough, and Mari nearly took off her earrings. Just took a sigh of relief... but that moment really relied on coincidence (and maybe fate?)

can’t help but notice how quick Gabriel was to get down to help Nathalie

(Okay fuck I went on a giant rant about Alya being an idiot for saying all the evidence points to Mari being the bad guy, but then she just said that she’ll try to prove her innocence. Read it if you want I spent time on it, so I can’t delete it 😂)

Are you serious Alya? Jee thanks for being a supportive friend (and not at all a total idiot). EVERYTHING SHE RECAPPED JUST POINTS THE STORY TOWARD LILA BEING THE LIAR. Earlier she tried to stand up for Marinette saying “she always scores high on her tests!”, and there IS NO SOLID EVIDENCE OF MARI PUSHING LILA, just Lila crying that’s what had happens. And if Alya just thought about it for one second she’d realise that two things just so happened to be in Marinette’s possession, the test answers and the necklace. Even if Marinette’s motive was to get Lila away from Adrien, THIS WAS A SHIT WAY TO GO ABOUT PULLING OFF THAT GOAL. What would stealing the answers and acing the test have to do with Lila being away from Adrien? Maybe pushing Lila down the stairs to send her to the hospital would do the trick, but does Alya honestly believe Marinette would willingly do that to someone?? And again, what does stealing the necklace have to do with getting Lila away from Adrien??? It’d be just so Lila could feel like shit I GUESS, but I thought you said she had a clear. MOTIVE.

Alya, this is why Marinette wants to accuse Lila. Because she and her were the only two people at the staircase, who else could’ve orchestrated Lila’s fall if only the two of them were there? They weren’t even supposed to be going to the staircase, and instead to the principal’s office! UGH JUST THINK ABOUT IT.

anywho, it’s time for Marinette 👏🏻 to 👏🏻 bake

Gabriel really is prioritizing Nathalie this time round. So... how will the sentimonster come to be?

ahh Gabriel just fell asleep on the chair. Like I don’t know whether to think that’s funny, or kind of soft because he thought Nathalie was resting

Duusuu crying about how romantic it all is, is definitely what I’ve been expecting in her character

OKAY BITCH WTF SHE CAN STRAIGHT UP CREATE A SENTIMONSTER WITH HER BAREHANDS (that is so cool and the way it was done was great)

Adrien plsss pllsss do something to defend Marinette

QUICK MARI PUT THAT DECOR ON THAT GINGERBREAD

“Cat Noir, I don’t feel so good” AKSDHKSHS

DUDE IM FEELING UNCOMFORTABLE AND WHERE THEY’RE PLACING THEIR HANDS

AHAHAA I LITERALLY BURST OUT LAUGHING WHEN THE REAL LADYBUG STEPPED IN. THE RING WAS ON HIS FINGERTIP AND IF SHE SHOVED THEM APART THEN THE RING SHOULD’VE COME OFF 😂 (I was also shouting, “just do it! Just take it off, do it bitch!)

“You know I’m already in love with someone else” ok so you heard that part, but it took you so long to step in?

YES LB, you smart!! (Also I need to mention how much I like the setting rn, the backdrop of Paris looks great)

You know what? LADYNOIR IS CUTE ASF. “I’m nowhere near as perfect as her - “I love you just the way you are m’lady” AAAH-

*Lucky Charm summons a fork* Cat: Ok, you’re definitely the real one. (I LOVED THAT)

Ahaha Nooroo “I couldn’t bring myself to wake you up, you were sleeping so peacefully”

AWW THATS SO SWEET HOW LADYBUG GAVE THE SENTIMONSTER A CHANCE 😭

OOHH SHIT. Cat: How could you?! (FUCK THAT REMINDS ME OF DESPERADA) THEN HAWKMOTH JUMPED IN AND I SCREAMED

aakaahaha, why is Hawkmoth’s voice so much deeper 😂 HE FULL ON GROWLED/ROARED TO WHAT IS THIS?

OH MY GOD THIS IS ACTUALLY SO TENSE. I LOVE THIS. THEY’RE FACING HAWKMOTH AND ITS NOT EVEN THE SEASON FINALE

WOOOAHH FUCKING FULL ON THOUGHT HM AND LB WERE GOING TO FACE OFF BY THEMSELVES. But they care about their partners so much 😭

HA CAT TRIED TO KISS HER AGAIN, bitch you thought

OH MAAN. Adrien better diss Lila right now!! He’s getting mad I can tell, this better be good

AND. I. AM. SATISFIED

I LET OUT THE UGLIEST LAUGH SEEING MARINETTE LIKE THIS

Conclusion: This was a pretty good episode! It was kinda intense and definitely furthered the plot

(btw sorry if some of this didn’t make sense, as soon as I woke up I began to watch the episode and thus started making this post)

#ladybug #miraculous ladybug #ml spoilers #marinette dupain-cheng #adrien agreste #lila rossi #chat noir #ladynoir #adrinette #marichat #ladrien #gabriel agreste #hawkmoth #mayura #cat noir #nathalie sanceour

[shrimpcolour]

Answer all 1-92!

yep yep THANK UUUUUUUUUU

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

absolutely not

 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 

absolutely not

3. Have you taken someones virginity? 

absolutely not

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

yes i think i keep things to myself

 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

no bc of the rona

 6. What are you excited for? 

quarantine to be over 

7. What happened tonight? 

i am going through it lmaoo

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

i really think this question is gross no i dont care 

 9. Is confidence cute? 

confidence is cute as fuck

10. What is the last beverage you had? 

water, shockingly 

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 

one? maybe?

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 

yes but i dont wear them unless nothing else is clean

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 

probably play craft and cry

14. What are you going to spend money on next? 

dunkin donuts baebyyyy

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? 

yessirrrr

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

yes i think that i will be happier 

 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 

my friend beenal i trust her with everything 

18. The last time you felt broken? 

right now as i type

19. Have you had sex today?

no 

 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 

that i cant handle being alone for a long time without starting to spiral

21. Are you in a good mood? 

im starting to get out of a shitty mood

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? 

i almost did one time when i was younger i was supposed to swim w super tiny sharks at disney but then i freaked tf out and bailed 

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 

no 

24. What do you want right this second? 

a hug from jillie

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

goodbye thanks for letting me know but bye

 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 

no it is darker rn

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

no that is boring thank jah jillie is funny 

 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

the fact that someone from vietnam with a windows 8 phone is trying to hack my email

 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 

yes jillie so much

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

yes second chances are good and important (obviously not for certain scenarios)

 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 

i dont hate him he just annoys me 

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 

i hope she does 

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 

no i only drink mcdonalds sprite and i hate coke and that stuff

34. Listening to? 

a criminal minds episode

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 

yes all the time

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

yes i do it was at jillies

 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

no i do not i think it is gradual 

38. Who did you last call? 

i joined a zoom call for like four seconds today but then i left bc i hate myself KJLSJHFJLKHF

39. Who was the last person you danced with? 

my team 

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

hopefully bc she loves me

 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? 

today!! my mom made them

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

no i havent done that since i was a baby

 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 

every day baebyyy

44. Do you tan in the nude? 

i dont even like showering naked or tanning at all

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 

yes but not because of who it was with but because it was awkkk

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 

no i fell asleep at around 11 am and i just kinda KOed

47. Who was the last person to call you? 

jillie a couple days ago

48. Do you sing in the shower? 

no i dance KASLHJLKA

49. Do you dance in the car?

you fucking know it

 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 

no but it seems so cool

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 

uhhh never???

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

no i think that they are happy

 53. Is Christmas stressful? 

extremely

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

i have but i am not a fun

 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

apple baby apple

 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

i wanted to be hannah montana so bad. not even a rockstar i deadass wanted to be H E R 

 57. Do you believe in ghosts?

i sure do 

 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

a lot of the time it makes me nervy

 59. Take a vitamin daily?

no only when i have some

 60. Wear slippers? 

no mostly just socks

61. Wear a bath robe?

no but they give off bad bitch vibes

 62. What do you wear to bed? 

sweatpants and a hoodie when cold short and a sports bra when hot

63. First concert? 

hannah montana/miley cyrus and she flew above the crowd on a motorcycle

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

wwwwalmart baeby

 65. Nike or Adidas?

nike

 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 

fritos but both are gross

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

sunflower seeds i hate everything peanut

 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? 

lover

69. Ever take dance lessons? 

im on a competitve team my guy

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

i have a “joke” that i am marrying an orthodontist so yes

 71. Can you curl your tongue? 

i can but i cant do the clover thing 

72. Ever won a spelling bee? 

no i suck at spelling LMAO i used to cheat on spelling tests in elementary school

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

i have i also cry when i get overly excited 

 74. What is your favorite book?

farenheit 451 

 75. Do you study better with or without music? 

i dont study

76. Regularly burn incense? 

no i dont

77. Ever been in love? 

yes

78. Who would you like to see in concert? 

HOZIER i would die

79. What was the last concert you saw? 

ed sheeran 

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

hot tea 

 81. Tea or coffee? 

coffee 

82. Favorite type of cookie?

oatmeal honestly it kinda slaps 

 83. Can you swim well?

no i really do be sucking at swimming my dad and a lifeguard had to get me out of the ocea once

 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 

yes? can people not>

85. Are you patient? 

i dont really know??

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 

dj type beat 

87. Ever won a contest? 

yes i won a constume contest at a dance party once

88. Ever have plastic surgery? 

nope

89. Which are better black or green olives? 

ummmmmmmm neither 

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

will be participating in it but fri dont give a care if u fuck before u get married

 91. Best room for a fireplace? 

living room 

92. Do you want to get married

the idea seems nice but i dont think anyone will want to marry me

#long post #mwah haha #Anonymous

[connors-quarter]

Water

Part 1

Pairing: Connor RK800 x Reader

Summary: Shower thoughts and existential crisis.

Word Count: 1653

A/N: im dodging responsibilities rn

You leaned into the bathtub, sleeves rolled up and safely tucked away from the spraying water. You aimed the nozzle against the wall, pressing fingers in front of the spray to test the temperature. You knew it wouldn't affect him, but you made sure it was comfortable anyways.

“Okay, I'm gonna wash your back first, is that alright with you?” You asked with a low voice. You didn't want to startle Connor, especially in the state he was in.

“That's okay.” He quietly replied. His LED still flashed yellow.

Connor was bare in your bathtub. His blue stained clothes were tossed on the linoleum, ripped and torn beyond repair. Hank had dropped him off at your house, asking to take care of him while he was at the station. He needed to file a report, there was a deviant android killed at their investigation. Something about Stratford Tower, the reason why channel 16 had such a chilling message on display earlier.

From what Hank told you, it was this same android that Connor was connected to at the time of death. He felt every emotion, before and after the deviant pulled the trigger. Connor hadn't spoken about it since, but Hank told you what little he knew.

So he left Connor with you, Hank's neighbor, to try and calm the android back down. He has been unresponsive and even at some points hostile with other officers. He couldn't go back to the station like this, so you were trying your best to help him out.

And to do that, you decided to rid him of the other androids blood, perhaps that would be a good start.

He was shot in the shoulder, so you took a washcloth to that wound first. Connor didn't flinch, didn't even acknowledge that you were wiping away the remnants of his wound. Maybe Cyberlife can repair the damage, you took mental note to take him to an engineer later.

You carefully wiped away at his freckled skin, minding the clean hole straight through his shoulder. With a gentle spray of water, you rinsed the soapy suds and watched as they trailed down his back. For the most part, the blue blood was easily rinsed off. But grime mixed with the substance created a more thick gunk of a liquid, sticking to his skin and hair. He was practically covered in it, needing a gentle scrub to remove it all.

“Can I wash your hair now?” You asked, pointing the detachable shower head away from him.

“Yes.”

His voice was still a low rumble, barely audible next to the sound of rushing water through rusty pipes.

With a gentle tug and reassuring words, you tilted his head back. His eyes were closed, face still stained with dirt and blood. You would get to that in a moment.

You rinsed his hair, combing gently with your fingers to remove what you can.

Connor's eyes were still closed, but with each passing of your hands through his hair made the harsh furrow in his brow slowly disappear. The worry lines in his face melted at your touch and his LED quickly flashed a welcoming blue before dropping back to yellow. He was starting to feel better.

You popped open the shampoo, giving a few quick smacks against your palm to try and squeeze out what ever was left of the emptying bottle. You soon had enough and began to work the cucumber scented soap into his synthetic hair.

You let Connor straighten out his poster while working the shampoo in. He soon began to roll his head, allowing you to reach better behind his ears or at the back of his head. You focused on the ways his muscles contracted and loosened. How each fiber worked to support his body much like any other human. It was interesting, amazing, even.

“Can you put your head back again? I'm gonna rinse of the soap.” You asked him, a little more confidence in your voice.

He did as you asked, awaiting the warm spray of water to his hair. And so you did, gently combing through his strands once more, watching the tinted water run down his back and into the drain.

You kept rinsing until the water ran clear. Luckily, it didn't take long. So you shifted on your knees, positioning yourself to better reach his front.

Connor opened his eyes, watching as you struggled outside the tub to find a comfortable position. Before he could say anything, you brought the nozzle forward, giving him a gentle smile.

“Can I wash your face?” You asked, warm eyes looking at him in a way he's never seen before. No one ever looked at him like this, no one even wanted to look at him. He was an android, and yet you looked at him like a human. Why?

“Yes.” He answered, voice wavering for just a moment. Your eyebrows twitched in worry, but he leaned in, helping you to better reach him.

You struggled to reach across him for another bottle, face wash. You used it to remove your makeup, but you assumed it would work well against the grime stuck to his face.

Squeezing a generous amount onto your hand, you lathered the product into his cheeks, taking note of the way his face feels. It stretches like human skin with each swipe of your hands, his freckled cheeks feel poreless, though. Not a single flaw or imperfection could be felt. It was strange, though, that they took the time to add moles and freckles to his skin. All the while keeping any other impurities away.

The dirt and blue blood gave way, floating above soap suds and removing their hold on Connor's skin.

“Okay, hold your breath and keep your eyes closed for me.” You asked of him.

“I can actively hold my breath for hours, should the need arise.” Connor commented. You let out a laugh.

“Well, we don't need that now. Just for a few seconds, okay?” You clarified.

“Okay.” He answered.

You aimed the nozzle at his hairline, letting the running water rise away the soap and debris.

You rubbed against his cheeks again, scrubbing away any stubborn pieces. It was a little difficult, however, because certain spots you were actually rubbing against his darker freckles.

But soon his face was free of blue blood and dirt, and so you aimed the water away again, letting him breathe and open his eyes.

“How's that feel?” You asked, watching him blink away the water.

“Clean.” He replied. A standard answer. But little did you know, he wasn't talking about his body.

His LED was a more steady blue, but every now and then would flash back to yellow.

“Can you tell me what happened?” You asked cautiously, worried that the question would throw him back into the quiet abyss of his mind.

You grabbed the wash cloth again, bringing it under his neck and down to his collar bones. Connor kept his eyes on your face, watching the gentle furrow between your brows as you wiped away the dirt.

“The deviant,” Connor started. “...He shot himself.”

You paused your work, looking up at him with a worried glance. He was staring forward this time, no longer focusing on you. You chose to continue wiping at his skin, allowing him the comfort to tell his story without your scrutinizing glare.

“I was—he had information. So I probed his memory.” Connor explained. You wiped away at more blue blood, this time on the front end of his wound. You could see right through him, and yet he seemed unbothered. “I was... I...”

He struggled to answer, you watched his LED go from blue back down to yellow, flashing quickly to red a few blinks. He was falling back into that place again.

“Hey, it's okay, you don't have to explain.” You whispered to him, brushing away wet locks from his forehead. The feathered touches made him lean in, trying to catch more pressure. He liked the feeling of your hands he realized, the way they dragged so gently over his freckles. Unusual, he thought, pleasure wasn't written in his original program. Must be an adaptation.

Connor looked up at you, his face trapped between your palms. “I think... I have to.”

You ran a thumb over his cheeks, giving a smile as a silent approval to continue.

“He died...while I was still connected.” He stared into your eyes as he spoke, gentle brown hues flaked with gold. He had wonderful eyes, you realized. “I felt it. It was like... I died.”

He grasped your hand, still over his cheek. You felt him press against you even further, desperately.

“I felt... fear.” He admitted. It was as if he was opening his heart to you, letting you in to view his deepest and darkest feelings. But that was the scariest part, he wasn't supposed to have feelings. “Am I deviant?”

You held his gaze. Absorbed the very way he desperately asked for an answer though his eyes, the tightening grip on your hand with fear. He was scared to even know what you'd say. That, in itself, should have answered his question.

“I don't know, Connor.” You tried to assure, leave this issue for another day. For now, you wanted him to be rid of these thoughts, rid of the evidence on his body. “I think... only you know the answer to that.”

You pulled your hand from his grasp, running your fingers through wet locks once more. His eyes slowly shut, allowing the gentle massage to calm him. The red turned back to yellow, eventually blinking into a steady blue.

You aimed the nozzle back to his chest, rinsing away the work you had left. If only his problems washed away as easily.

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