#it does vary by system though - I know (name)& is preferred by some systems or collective / host name only

[neon-angels-system]

kinda vagueposting someone here, but not in a mean way, just bcause I hate directly talking to people about things that aren’t a huge deal + this is something that I’ve had multiple people do while trying to be polite before,, (/nm)

Neon is our collective name. you use it when you’re referring to us as a collective, or if you don’t know who you’re talking to. if you know who’s fronting? use their name. if multiple people are fronting, then use the name of the alter(s) you are talking to. it’s not the end of the world if you’re overly cautious or if you mess it up, but it feels kind of weird to have someone use what’s essentially a placeholder name when they know your actual one. 

so like,, if we’re rapid switching? use Neon. if someone’s making funny posts, but you don’t know who because it’s not me (V), but they aren’t signing off? use Neon. if you’re talking to an alter, but there’s someone else cocon? use the name of whoever you’re talking to.

this is more of a pet peeve than anything though,, it’s like getting mad at someone’s grammar. I know what you’re trying to say, and I’d feel rude correcting you, but that comma is in the wrong place

#note: when referring to something that belongs to the body you still use the alter's name. same as if you're talking about a family or flat #like you wouldn't say 'Jeremy's family's house'. you'd just say 'Jeremy's house' #...that took me a while to adjust to after figuring out system stuff though so like. pot calling the kettle black lmao #anyway yeah this is more of an etiquette explanation post than a callout post dw!! I've had people only use V or only use Neon often lmao #it does vary by system though - I know (name)& is preferred by some systems or collective / host name only #but like. we introduce ourselves separately for a reason. if an alter doesn't want you to know who they are then they will say that #okay right I am rambling. time to hit post then overthink this again

[oseathepebble]

Marc Ambrose's Profile

"Watch your mouth, I can dig up any of your secrets."

"A student that never seems to see eye to eye with their housewarden. Meticulous and secretive, they always seem to know something about everybody from info gained through social media or other means."

Introducing my Twisted Wonderland OC, Marc Ambrose! He's my twstsona and also has some inspiration from AUTO from WALL-E and Lethe (the river of forgetfulness)

The sections on Marc's background and notable relationships have Ch. 6 spoilers!

Close Up + More Info Below

Technical Information

Name: Marc Ambrose

Japanese: マルク・アンブローズ

Other Names: Monsieur Petit (Rook) Anchovy (Floyd) Rabid Racoon (Leona) Pebble (Ignihyde Members)

Meaning: His first name, Marc means "brave" or "virile" His family name, Ambrose means "immortal"

Voice Claim: Ayumu Murase

Biographical Information

Gender: Bigender

Marc experiences exactly two gender identities, either simultaneously or varying between the two (Male and Female)

Pronouns: He/Him, They/Them, She/Her

Sexuality: Bisexual

He has no preference between men and women

Age: 18

Birthday: October 26

Starsign: Scorpio

Height: 148 cm (4'10)

Eye Color: Cocoa Brown

Hair Color: Wood Bark Brown

Homeland: Island of Woe

Family: Father, Mother

Professional Status

Dorm: Ignihyde Dorm

School Year: Third

Class: 3-B, Student No. 12

Occupation: Student

Club: Board Game Club

Though Idia is in the club, Marc still joined the club since no other club really interested them

Best Subject: Art

Due to one of Marc's hobbies being drawing, art became one of their best and favorite subjects

Fun Facts

Dominant Hand: Right

Favorite Food: Pork Adobo

Pork Adobo is one of the foods he grew up eating, the taste comforts him

Least Favorite Food: Dill Pickles

He finds the taste of dill pickles to disgusting, though he finds other pickled vegetables to be better tasting

Dislikes: Disorganization

Marc hates it when their things aren't organized. But that doesn't mean color-coded or sorted by name, they have a place for everything. To some, their idea of organization may be different, but to him, it makes sense

Hobby: Drawing

They have many sketchbooks filled with drawings they do, as they find drawing to be calming and a nice way to pass time. They also do digital art when they have the time

Talent: Hacking

Marc is able to hack into other databases, other people's devices, and security systems with ease. Due to years of doing it, they're able to leave little to no trace when hacking

Appearance

Marc is a short person with beige skin, brown eyes, and wavy, chin-length brown hair that he ties into a ponytail with 2 chunks of hair in the front. Their nails are painted black and they wear glasses. Above their left eyebrow is a beauty mark, usually covered by their hair. They also have 2 ear piercings, one on their lobe and one on their helix. They typically wear a small silver stud on their lobe and a small silver hoop on their helix

He wears his school uniform with the blazer unbuttoned. His tie is tied into a bow. He pairs his uniform with black platform loafers which makes him 5'0 when wearing them

Personality

To others that don't know Marc personally, he appears to be shy and reserved. But really, he is a loud and chaotic person. He can become very angry and abrasive if the right things set him off. It's not a rare sight to see him get emotional over certain things. His more chaotic nature only comes out when he's with people he's comfortable with, online, or alone. Otherwise, he does get shy in public

Marc isn't one to make empty threats. Though he doesn't look very threatening, many have found out they aren't one to be messed with as he does follow through with his words. He also keeps many secrets from others, such as how he obtains information of others and some of his abilities

Though he is chaotic, Marc is still very detail-oriented when it comes to his work. Whether that be his programs, machines, or school work he has to make sure everything is right and perfect. He prefers to know all the details of assignments before proceeding with doing them

He's often regarded as the "Loudest Member of Ignihyde" due to how it's not uncommon to hear them yelling at games or such in their room and how he tends to socialize more than most members of the dorm

Skills and Magic

Info Gathering: Marc is very good at gathering information about his fellow students. He does this through hacking, social media, or by observing them in person. If given a name, he can find public and private information about them

Programming: He is a very skilled programmer for their age

Machine Creation and Maintenance: He knows how to create various machinery and perform maintenance on them. He's done maintenance on several magic wheels

Explosive Making: Marc knows how to make various types of explosives and has extensive knowledge of them. This includes fireworks

Fire Magic: Marc is very adept at fire magic. Most of the spells he's mastered are fire spells

Unique Magic

Marc's Unique Magic is "Flames of Remembrance" With it, he can remove any memory from a person's head

After the memory is removed, it manifests as a small, blue flame. If the flame goes out, the memory ceases to exist. But if kept in a jar, it can be maintained, and if so desired, returned to the person it's from. The flame doesn't burn things or produce heat, it is simply just a manifestation of the memory. The only things that can make the flame go out are if Marc blows on it or if it's left outside for too long (hence why it's kept in a jar for preservation)

To give the person back their memory, they have to be the one to blow out the flame. It is possible for Marc to give someone another person's memory. But it is something they don't do unless it gives them an advantage since they can't give themself other people's memories

Background

Marc was born in the Shaftlands, but a few months after they were born, their parents were offered a job at S.T.Y.X. by Idia's parents, who they were friends with. And so Marc grew up on the Island of Woe with Idia and Ortho

At a young age, Marc's parents expressed their expectations for him. They wanted them to maintain a proper appearance, excel in school to keep up their family name, and later on become a person fit for a job at S.T.Y.X. Marc tried so hard to meet their expectations but this led to burnout

The only fun they had was when they got to hang out with Idia and Ortho and play video games. Being around them and S.T.Y.X Laboratory in general, they picked up many talents and skills

After Ortho's death and Idia shut himself away from others, Marc was alone. So their parents sent them away to go to a middle school in the Shaftlands. After they came back from their first year of middle school, they were up to date on current trends and had a new love of social media. Idia didn't like this new Marc, the new difference in their personalities cause them to start fighting. They came to despise each other even though they had been friends ever since they were babies

Upon coming to NRC, Marc hoped to not be put in the same dorm as Idia. Though it still ended up that way, much to their dismay. They continued to bicker and despise each other

As the years went on and Marc made new friends, the divide between the two became greater. Marc had wanted to be the dorm leader but when Idia became it, he was angry. And what made him even angrier was that Idia refused to make Marc his Vice Dorm Leader. The two had the biggest fight they had that day

Marc tries their hardest to separate themself from Idia and their past together, but no matter what, it seems like they always end up being stuck with him. Whether that be through the fact they're in the same dorm, class, and club, or the fact Marc is destined to just become another employee of S.T.Y.X. that works under the Shrouds

Notable Relationships

Idia Shroud: Idia and Marc are childhood friends. They used to be very close but as time passed and the two grew older, they drifted apart. Conflicts started arising between the two of them. Now they refuse to acknowledge the fact they were once friends and often argue with each other. But despite their dislike of each other, the two are frequently seen near each other, which has led some members of Ignihyde to believe the two secrety liked each other

It was Idia who gave Marc the nickname "Pebble" It used to be used in an affectionate manner when the two were kids, but now it carries a negative connotation. The two do have certain moments where they get along, but it doesn't take long for them to go back to hating each other

Ortho Shroud: Ortho and Marc were close as kids. Since Marc is an only child, they often treated Ortho like he was their little brother. When Ortho died, Marc was as sad and distraught as Idia was. Though he has mostly moved on, Marc is sometimes reminded of the incident when he looks at robot Ortho. Despite Marc's hatred for Idia, he still loves Ortho and treats him nicely. Ortho tries to get him to make up with Idia, but so far his efforts have been in vain

Azul Ashengrotto: Marc finds Azul to be very interesting. He adores him and finds his nature to be cool. He's the reason why Marc is still in the Board Game Club. Azul is the one who urged Marc to "know their worth" and gave them the idea to start charging others for his info-gathering services. The two are extremely close and Marc often visits Octavinelle and the Mostro Lounge just for Azul

Over time Marc developed a crush on him. He had accidentally confessed to Azul but immediately used his UM on him to make him forget. Ever since that day, Marc has been working up the courage to properly confess to him

Cater Diamond: Cater and Marc met through Magicam in middle school. The two became online friends and were very close. They were ecstatic to discover they were both going to NRC. They often talk about social media and current trends together. They confide in each other about personal matters. Though they may give each other horrible advice, they both have each other's back and will do anything for the other

They both got piercing together to solidify their relationship as best friends. When they go to cafes, Cater orders sweets just to post and lets Marc eat them after. Sometimes they have sleepovers where they paint each other's nails and Marc tells Cater all the new info he's learned

Riddle Rosehearts: Riddle and Marc have found out they have a few things in common. Mostly the fact that they both have parents that expect a lot out of them. Riddle appreciates having someone to talk to about his home life to that understands what he's going through. Marc listens to all his troubles and gives him comfort when he needs it. He attempts to get Riddle to do more chaotic and spontaneous things with him

Marc has offered to talk to Riddle's mom for him and tell her everything that's wrong with her parenting style, but Riddle refused

Trivia

They carry a taser around with them

They know secret passageways throughout NRC and often use them to move undetected

They are partially blind in their right eye

They have two Magicam accounts, a personal account, and a drawing account

He once accidentally caused a mini explosion in the rooms of Ignihyde. He was forced to pay for the damage

He has bitten someone's fingers before

If the opportunity presents itself, Marc steals people's shoelaces

#I WANTED TO HAVE THIS DONE ON HIS BIRTHDAY BUT I FAILED #CRYING #BUT AT LEAST NOW THEY'RE DONE #marc ambrose #twisted wonderland #twst #ツイステッドワンダーランド #ツイステ #twst oc #twstsona #ignihyde oc

[planetdream]

ran thru ur entire seungmin tag like a freight train and now i'm thinking abt him learning how to be a brat tamer? (ft. chan lol)

say, for example, you're wheeling (toronto slang for talking stage) with seungmin, right? this is a very quiet, observant guy who likes to gather and sort information to satisfy that chronic itch in the back of his brain. he notices things abt ppl he likes- therefore, he notices things about you. your tells; like the way you talk when you're agitated, how you reposition yourself anytime you're flustered or (his personal favourite) the acidic lilt in your voice that makes the hairs on the back of his neck stand up- seungmin takes mental note of all of these things and more while he gets to know you.

he concludes that you're a brat at some point once things between you start getting serious. he's read about the trope and watched enough BDSM videos to put two-and-two together. but obviously it's too soon into the relationship to do anything serious abt it. so he defaults to a quiet, stern stare when you get too giddy off teasing him- that seems to do the trick most of the time. he can tell that you like the sudden authoritative reaction. better yet, ~that look~ paired with a very harsh quip of your name and a flick to your thigh will garner the sweetest submissive response from you, and you settle right back down where he can engage with you normally.

seungmin isn't opposed to being a caretaker OR a tamer, he just doesn't really know HOW outside of the little things he does to keep you in line. so he turns to the best role model he knows and watches his hyung carefully- seungmin even falls back on occasion and allows you and his friend to interact with each-other on your own time just to observe and jot down what makes you tick and reel.

eye contact [direct, unwavering, dark]

physical touch [varies on your actions. preferably striking- or, firm and calculated]

name calling [degrading makes you a little sulky, stick to saccharine titles with a condescending tone]

patience + delayed reaction [chan has very little patience and is too eager, that makes you bored and will prolong the attitude]

discipline via punishment [withhold reactions and rewards, let them become incentives]

seungmin catches on quickly, and within a month he's got himself a self-written guidebook on how to make your eyes glaze over with yearning, no trouble. throughout the winding path of your budding relationship, you find yourself leaning into seungmin more based off the little things he does that makes your bratty brain buzz with excitement! for example: he swats your bum when you tease him now. it's fleeting but it makes you squeak and stutter in stride sometimes. you have no idea why it causes you to sink into his side the way you do, but HE knows. additionally, he'll tower over you, hold your gaze and say your name like he's disappointed in you, then lean in and nip at your neck.

gradually you build a dynamic, thanks to his silent testing and your visceral responses, it's an easy system to follow and god is it a pleasure to finally find someone who studies you down to the bone the way he does. coz that's essentially what you want, right? someone who takes the time to figure out how to handle you so the tables can finally flip and you can be the desperate, needy baby you are.

GOD BLESS U AND UR GORGEOUS MIND BBY WOW

idk what i did to deserve you sending me this masterpiece but oh my god—fighting for my life after reading this i want this so bad!!!

its all so so so fitting for seungmin. he’s more of a silent type and pretty analytical so ofc he’s gonna take his time learning about what makes you tick and also about what puts you in your place and has you back to being the sweetest sub he knows you can be. wholeheartedly think he loves it all though—especially the potential challenge of a bratty s/o. its all so new for him, but he tries his best and learns fairly quickly.

actually sobbing rn this is gonna be on my mind forever PLS

#seungmin brainrot hours? seungmin brainrot hours. #💌 — mail time #💌 — revv9ine #✰˚. !! dream.hardhours #☁️ — daydream.skz #seungmin smut #seungmin hard thoughts

[rin-and-jade]

hi! So I am trans and it causes me gender confusion but besides that… I go by multiple names my deadname, one name, and another name. However… these names I can attribute basically whole identities to. and I get confused on who I am, which one is real, if they’re all one person going by multiple names or separate identities. I have dissociation, early trauma, cptsd. I have those symptoms that make it even more confusing bc those symptoms align w system experiences. but I’m not sure if I rlly am a system or not. does it count as “fronting/taking control” when I go by one name instead of the other bc I feel more like that name (the name having its own kinda identity I guess). it doesn’t feel like I’m being taken control of exactly maybe though? Idk. and I feel scared to be a system or to be wrong about being a system. I rlly don’t get how to tell in the situation. I feel like idk if deadname transitioned into other name or if they’re separate. and if name is separate from other name or if they’re both just normal varying parts of myself.

If you think these signs aligned with system experiences, let me give you my view too on how i see your current situation.

People can have multiple names they go with, commonly used in online places and different friend groups (usually nicknames) and the clearest sign to see if it is you, or not, can be determined by: if you relate to every name that’s made/given, the you are not a system. As a system i 100% cannot relate to our deadname because it feels like it wasn’t me, so i go by Jade for years, the name just felt right and it sits perfectly. Neither the other names our part has too, it’s just,, it’s like a wrong key in the lock.

And to determine if you have signs of these names taking front is by paying attention if you feel something off, when i mean that, i meant the “wait im not supposed to act thay way right” kind of off. It must feel involuntary, not instantly recognized or realized (not for those who know they’re a system) and out of your control,, you might be having a hard time trying to detect some mild shifts in identity but by being aware of it, it makes it slightly more easy. If these names change alongside with other aspects like speech, body gestures, movement, preferences and morals,, then i’d say these are separate identities and not just names you go by once in a while.

Just letting you know, theres nothing bad or wrong about being a system or not, it doesn’t make it more scary or more dangerous for knowing or having it. Though there might be more problems to solve if you were to be one so please check more resources for a bit right now, if you think you need continued help for being a system i’ll gladly do it, just refer me to which anon you were, goodluck bud.

- j

#did #actually did #did community #did system #did osdd #dissociative identity disorder #plural #system stuff #sysblr #janswersask

[audio-luddite]

Tone Arms.

If you do Vinyl you need at least one. Depending on very many things you may have one that came with your brand name TT or you may have an aftermarket. To a great extent performance depends on compatibility with your phono cartridge / pickup rather than some absolute quality and expense.

So what do you get? It is simple if you buy a TT that has an arm.

All done time to spin it up!

It only gets complicated if there is an aftermarket or custom arm on your new toy.

SME Series III Very nice for a pivoting arm.

Back in the 70s and 80s lightweight arms were what you wanted for high compliance pickups. The most desirable aftermarket units were certain Grace or SME arms. There were many others. One common issue was dealing with warped LPs and lighter was better. But the paramount parameter was the mass as it related to your pickup. The best pickups of the day worked well with light arms.

The infamous Vestigal arm took vertical compliance to an extreme.

For high compliance pickups it worked pretty well. For a time the editor of TAS H.P. used this. Though if you understand resonances and such you may see several issues visible in the photo. I have one in a box with a broken pivot. They are cool in a way.

Over the years as high end audio preferred moving coil pickups heavy arms became desired and even required. The tracking force and compliance of that type need a certain mass to react against. As I do not care for moving coils I extend that to heavy arms. Enough said there.

I think that removable head shells are important.

It makes mounting and changing pickups much easier. If it is fixed in place you better have the steady hands of a Brain Surgeon. The type in the photo is a common and compatible style.

Inevitably I have to bring up pivoting versus tangential tracking. It is my thing. Why it is so is due to several technical issues which I will now describe.

Pivoting arms have two serious problems. Solutions to those range from poor to they can be lived with.

There is a lateral force on the pickup from the offset of the tangent friction vector to the pivot point that creates a moment about the pivot axis. This draws the pickup in towards the center of the LP. The magnitude of the force depends on geometry and the friction between the stylus and the LP. It can be compensated for by an "Anti-Skating" device which is set to approximate this lateral force. It is not a big force, but you have the pickup stylus leaning more on one side of the groove or the other. In pivoting arms it is never truly correct as the friction varies with the music intensity.

You can clearly hear this when it is not correct, as it often is with a pivoting arm.

To be frank many "experts" say the problem does not exist or is trivial. Hmmm cults are better than science.

This problem is non-existent in tangential arms as the offset in question is zero. This one thing justifies the tangential tracking method. But there is more.

The second problem is that the pickup is only at the correct angle with respect to the groove in at best two places in the arc for a perfectly adjusted pivoting arm. It is off everywhere else. The LP master is cut tangentially. It is better to follow the master don't you think?

I encountered a forum where an "expert" said "The number of problems inherent in any linear tracking table are too numerous to discuss here" and then slagged the concept. There are problems, but I am aware of several very effective methods to solve them.

There is at least one elegant and completely mechanical method to have an arm support accurately track tangentially. This was used in the HK Rabco TTs of the 70s and 80s. You can criticize the materials they used as some did not age well, but the tracking concept worked very well. I have one so I know this is true.

There are mechanical servo systems that move the arm based on a sensor. The drive can be a belt or a small cord, or in the case of my Phase Linear a linear magnetic motor drive. Bang & Olufsen used a drive belt. It works very well.

One method I do not care for, but it is in the marketplace are air bearing arms.

This is one of several where the arm rests on an air cushion and slides "frictionlessly" across the record. My problem is that it has to be perfectly level and the lateral driving force is from the pickup cantilever in the groove. Is not the whole point to get lateral force out of the equation?

There are also a few articulated arms that twist the head shell as it moves in the arc to maintain tangency. The old Garrards 100s for example and the newer Thales arms. Three issues there. One is there are extra pivots that reduce resistance to rattle. Two they are heavy and need the stylus to drive them. Three they still require anti-skating compensation. I call that a fail on all three counts.

For all this they all still work. Spin an LP and hear music.

It only gets tricky as you climb the way up that audiophile hill Mr Sisyphus.

#audiophile #high end audio #vinyl #phase linear 8000a #turntables #tone arm #SME arm #grace arm #tangential tracking turntable

[volatilehearted]

𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑶𝑼𝑻𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑬.

origins + family.

full name: mieczysław szczepan ‘stiles’ stilinski

date of birth:  april 8

age: 20-something (verse dependent) 

social class:  working.

parents: noah stilinski + claudia stilinski. ( ✝ )

siblings: verse dependent (most often, cosmo stilinski)

physical + appearance.

height:  5′11″ish

weight:  175lbsish

distinguishing features: moles, moleS, MOLES

hair color:  dark brown, almost black in most lights.

eye color: whiskey brown.

what do they consider their best feature?: he hasn’t really particularly picked a ‘best’ part of his body. he doesn’t really love OR hate it, it just is. maybe his nose, his lovers tend to mention how cute it is.

style of dress/typical outfit(s):  flannels, screen tees, occasional henleys he probably stole from scott, jeans or chinos, hoodies, skate shoes

jewelry? tattoos? piercings?: not in most verses. some verses he has a spinning fidget ring or a few tattoos or piercings. 

do they work out/exercise?:  not in most verses, at least not on purpose. there is a lot of running for his life, though, so ymmv.

belief +  intellect.

level of self esteem:  absolutely rock-bottom, he hates himself, my poor disaster child.

known languages: english. spotty spanish. varying levels of competency in polish, verse-dependant.

gifts/talents: extremely good at recognizing patterns and solving puzzles. absolutely thrives on untying metaphorical knots. also (apparently) some kind of sexual savant regardless of the verse. i can’t with this boy.

how do they deal with stress?  generally he bottles it up until he explodes and probably damages something he didn’t want to damage in the process.

what do they do when upset?  stiles hits things. usually inanimate objects. he does not do it in a healthy way. he has in fact broken bones doing this.

believe in happy endings: he wants to believe in them but he honestly does not. no one he knows has ever gotten a happy ending. death is brutal and messy and random and it cannot be escaped. there’s nothing happy about that.

how do they feel about asking for help?  hates it. absolutely hates it. he struggles even accepting help when it’s been offered without his asking. partly it’s because he doesn’t want to drag anyone down with him but partly it’s because he hates the idea that he isn’t Enough to do a thing on his own, somehow.

optimist or pessimist:  pessimist. he’d tell you he’s a realist but he is soooo pessimistic.

extrovert or introvert:  introvert. but, somehow, aggressively so.

leader or follower:  generally more of a natural leader just because he’s absolute dogshit at following unless you are one of a very small list of people.

makes decisions based mostly on emotions, or on logic?: more emotions than logic, although the logic does have its place. he PREFERS to be logical but the nature of his being and this ADHD make it hard for him to ignore his emotional responses. he also is a big believer in his ‘gut’ instincts, mostly because it usually means he’s noticed something amiss but hasn’t consciously figured out what he noticed yet.

spontaneous or planner: plans, plans, plans. all anxiety-based plans and contingencies and alternate routes and almost none of it is ever actually helpful or goes the way he wants it to go.

thinker or doer: doer. sometimes to the point that he doesn’t even realize he’s taking action until he’s half through it.

organized or messy: it’s organized but it only looks organized to him. other people struggle to understand the system.

worrier or carefree:  worrier. he is the human personification of anxiety.

artistic?: not really. maybe he would be in a different world, but in most of his actual verses he has too much shit on his plate to doodle.

mathematical?:  not really, that’s lydia’s purview. in his opinion, math is most useful for ‘figuring out how to tip at restaurants’.

sex + intimacy.

current marital/relationship/sexual status:  engaged (verse-dependant, answers hereforth are for origin of love, my main verse)

sexual orientation (is it something they question or a secret):  bisexual. he is extremely open about it. too open. intrusively open.

views on sex (one night stands, promiscuity, etc): stiles is extremely sex-positive. he has no opinion on other people having one night stands or being promiscuous as long as they’re taking care of themselves and their partners and staying safe. in general, however, he is not particularly good at either of those things. he catches feels real fast if he’s gonna catch them at all, and then he’s just following his chosen Person around like a lost (horny) puppy. he will not hide his attraction or affection and he will not make excuse for it, but for the most part he also does not try to make it the other person’s problem if they aren’t into it. he is generally very understanding of his partners being other humans with their own thoughts and opinions and also very understanding if they don’t like him any more than he likes himself.

ever been in love?:  yes. 

do they fall in love easily?:  not exactly, he is extremely slow to trust most of the time. however, every once in a while someone just comes along and stiles just kind of sees them and goes, ‘oh, oh yeah, that’s my person now, i would die and-or kill for them.’ and then it’s heart-eyes all the way down.

do they desire marriage and/or children in their future? stiles does not usually actually care about the institution of marriage much, but if his partner is into it or they’re in a life situation where it would make sense, he’s all about it. he IS about devotion, whether or not they make a spectacle of it in front of other people. children he’s less sure about. he likes kids, but he’s absolutely convinced he would just be a terrible dad and ruin any child placed near him, so the idea of them simultaneously thrills and terrifies him.

thoughts on public displays of affection?:  stiles has no shame. he will do any and everything in public and if other people are embarrassed that’s their problem.

how do they show affection/love to their partner?:  pretty much anything he can. stiles’ love language is basically devotion. he tries very hard to listen to his partner, to know details about them like what they like, what sizes they wear, etc, but also to do nice things and defend them when needed. plus he’s very tactile and just likes to be in constant contact.

relationships.

social habits (popular, loner, some close friends, makes friends and then quickly drops them):  stiles has a few extremely close friends and he tends to keep them for as long as humanely possible; he is incredibly afraid of losing those he’s close to, it’s happened too much already. he does not, however, make friends easily, mostly he comes as an add-on to the Being Scott McCall’s Friend package.

how do they treat others (politely, rudely, keep at distance, etc)?:  stiles can fake politeness or civility if he has to, usually around people older than he is that haven’t shown to him that they’re morons yet. if he thinks you’re an idiot, though, god help you. he is not afraid to speak his mind, and frequently his mind is extremely critical. he is sarcastic, he can be vicious, and he isn’t above physical violence if he gets pushed far enough.

argue or avoid conflict?:  stiles is downright aggressive. he argues all the time. with everyone. it’s practically a hobby.

secrets.

dreams: if you mean, like, what happens to him when he sleeps, he hates them. stiles was prone to nightmares even before the nogitsune, but these days if he dreams at all it’s invariably some kind of awful nightmare about the things he’s done or seen, or what the fox did with his body while he was helpless to stop it. stiles prefers not to sleep as a consequence, unless he’s so tired he’s just going to ‘turn off’ for a while and then wake up later with no memories of what he dreamed. if you mean his vision for his own future, he just wants to settle down with scott (in origin, natch) and wicket somewhere and become a BHSD deputy, to eventually take over as Sheriff from Noah when he retires.

greatest fears:  losing what little family he has left. losing someone in the pack. drowning (despite being an extremely strong swimmer). losing time or memories without any understanding of why. losing control of himself or his body again.

biggest regret:  the time he spent as void. the donovan (and subsequently, theo) situation. not being able to say he’s sorry as much as he wants to.

what he/she/they most wants to change about his/her current life?:  he would like substantiously less life-or-death situations.

likes + dislikes.

hobbies: chess, go, video games (especially World of Warcraft and Destiny II), tinkering with mechanical and electrical devices (his car, old radios, etc), researching the supernatural.

indoors or outdoors?: indoors.

favorite color: robin’s egg blue

favorite smell:  caramel

favorite and least favorite food: favorite food is caramel anything, especially dulce de leche specifcally. (cheesy chicken enchiladas and curly fries are close second-thirds). least favorite food is artichokes. 

coffee or tea?: coffee, if he’s drinking either.

favorite type of weather: clear and cool, sunny but not aggressively hot.

favorite form of entertainment: video games, movies.

how do they feel about traveling?: with the right travel partner he’d probably be into it, but mostly he likes to remain in his comfort circle.

what sort of gifts do they like? honestly just knowing anyone thought of him enough to get him a gift is a big deal. extra points if it’s something he already likes (like a video game he wanted, or caramel-flavored anything. scott got him heelies for his birthday once and he loves them unironically to this day.)

drugs + alcohol.

thoughts on drugs and alcohol:  does not do much of either of these things  because they interfere with his adderall and stiles absolutely HATES unmedicated stiles, more than he hates medicated stiles by a power of a thousand. in some verses/at a certain age he’ll indulge in some craft beers from time to time but that’s usually it.

do they smoke? If so, do they want to quit?  never smoked. can’t smoke near a best friend with severe asthma. by the time scott was asthma free stiles was old enough to know he didn’t want the lung cancer. (except punkverse, that’s the only one he smoked in but he’s quit now).

have they ever tried other drugs (which, what happened, consequences):  he’s done weed a couple of times. it mostly just made him sit around and eat an entire bag of the chewy werther’s originals.

do they have any addictions?: no.

other details.

most important/defining event in life to date: losing his mother at 10 years old after her dementia caused her to accuse him of trying to kill her and also to assault him physically. he was the only one with claudia when she passed and he has never been able to handle that trauma in the least.

daily routine:  get up, shower, jerk off in the shower, wash THAT off, drink some OJ and maybe grab a protein bar, go to school or work or whatever he’s got going on, inevitably get interrupted by some kind of supernatural evil shitlord, deal with THAT, almost die, drag himself home and pass out hopefully not to dream.

typical saturday night: either he’s dealing with things attacking the town AGAIN or he’s staying at home in his sweats and playing WoW.

what is home like (messy, neat, sparse):  the open spaces are neat. the edges of his space are cluttered, but like with most of his life, it’s organized to stiles even if no one else recognizes the system. he’s not a horder and doesn’t have trouble throwing out things that don’t serve him a purpose anymore.

pets?: if not, do they want any?:  in his main verse, he and scott have a wolf sable pomeranian named Wicket. he has pets in many of the other verses. stiles especially loves dogs but is generally kind to all animals. he used to have a boa constrictor when he was young.

can they hold their breath for a long time?:  no, not any longer than any other average but reasonably fit young man.

do they know how to swim?  yes. he’s actually an extremely strong swimmer, although he never joined the swim team. he once tread water while holding up derek hale’s dead weight in the deep end of the school pool for like two hours straight.

can they cook (if so, how well and do they enjoy it)?: yes, he’s generally pretty good at it. i don’t know that he actively enjoys the cooking itself, but he very much likes to cook healthy food for his family, making sure they’re eating right is intensely important to him and the easiest way to make that happen was to learn to cook the stuff himself.

#no more sarcasm #did you mean: stiles #khozmoh #made me do this #im doing them all slowly #but also my dog wont stop barking #hhhhhh

[chat-eaux]

Culture PA

          1.  Describe how greetings are done in your culture. What type of culture do you come from? What conventions do you have when it comes to meeting and greeting people? How would you describe how you would greet your siblings, your parents, your friends, your teachers, your colleagues, and your bosses at work? 

          I was born and raised in the American South, namely Arkansas and Mississippi, and greetings here are relatively informal with there being a few exceptions. When meeting and greeting people we tend to take a few different approaches depending on the situation. For example, if you are meeting someone for the first time, it is customary to shake their hands and ask how they are doing. Americans very rarely kiss each other in greeting, and hugging someone you just met is generally seen as inappropriate. Another example can include greetings in passing; when you are walking down the street and see someone you know (or sometimes do not know), it is customary to acknowledge them in some way, whether by saying “Hi, how are you?” or simply nodding. Generally speaking, a sense of familiarity permeates everything in American culture, especially when looking to the South.

           Of course, this varies based on the situation. When greeting family, we tend to adopt a very informal way of speaking, but this is entirely dependent on the household. Some families value respect and formality even in the home, and some families are so relaxed that you may observe a child referring to their parent by the parent’s first name (though this is relatively uncommon). Friends can be greeted similarly, though again this is dependent on the level of familiarity you have with them. Greetings to friends can range from handwaves to hugs or even kisses. Finally, in a more professional setting or one where you are unfamiliar with the people, you are expected to maintain a warm politeness. Teachers are referred to with respect and by their preferred titles, though this can change in a collegiate setting. Colleagues and bosses are given this same sort of respect, but it is common for you to adopt a first name basis with both very soon into meeting them.

          2. �� Are there formal and informal ways of greeting people in your culture? Explain.

          Absolutely! Some formal ways of greeting people in American culture include handshakes and verbal greetings including, “Hello, it’s nice to meet you, how are you?” It is also expected of you to smile at the person when you are being introduced to them! As stated before, it is generally considered impolite and inappropriate to engage in close contact with someone you have just met, which includes hugging, kissing, etc. These forms of greetings are usually reserved for couples, family, or best friends. Informal greetings can simply include a more casual verbal greeting such as “Hey!” or “What’s up?” or high-fives, hugs, etc.

          3.  Describe the educational system in your area: is it the same for everyone in your county, state, region, country, or other administrative categories?

           The educational system in America differs from state-to-state, but it can also vary between regions. The system in Arkansas does not differ massively from anywhere else in the United States, but there can be minor differences between counties in terms of bell scheduling, specific classes offered, etc. Public school districts across the country are expected to adhere to certain teaching and developmental standards as demonstrated by the Common Core curriculum. However, in terms of post-secondary education, there are many different systems and types of curriculum observed. It’s very difficult to pinpoint one clear example of the American educational system, as it is very decentralized and can vary depending on the location.

               a.  At what age do children start school?

               The estimated age range at which children start school is 4 to 6 years old, but the age specific to Arkansas is 5. Some children can start pre-school at an even earlier age.

               b.  How long do they spend in: preschool, kindergarten, elementary, middle, high, or college and university?

               Children attend preschool through the ages of 3 to 5, spend a year in kindergarten, and then progress a grade each year (e.g. they reach first grade by 7, second grade by 8, etc). Elementary school is generally completed by age 10. Middle school, grades 6-8, is usually completed by the age of 13. High school, grades 9-12, is usually completed by age 18, though there are some students who can graduate as soon as age 16.

               College and university are entirely dependent on the degree program. Associate’s degrees usually take about two years and bachelor’s take about four. Those who want to study law or medicine are usually required to take extra schooling and residencies.

               c.  Is there a centralized exam that everyone must take before transitioning from one level to another?

               Generally speaking, there are no centralized exams or tests that determine whether you can move from one level to the next. Most states in the United States also do not require exit exams in order to graduate. As long as you meet behavioral standards and do not fail your classes, you are permitted to move on to the next grade. 

               d.  Is there a standardized exam to take before going to college?

               In the United States, we have both the ACT and the SAT, two forms of standardized testing that are used for college admissions. Prior to the Covid-19 pandemic, completing one of the two was generally required in order to be considered for admission to a college, though this has changed significantly. Most colleges are waiving these requirements and making them optional, leaving the decision to take a standardized exam up to the student.

          4.  Do you think that your high school education prepared you well for university? Why and/or why not?

           I would say very strongly that, no, my high school education did not prepare me well for university. The American high school education system is lackluster in many areas and has led me to feel underprepared and overwhelmed for the rigors of collegiate level academics. For example, in most high school writing classes, we are given a broad range of assignments that can include poetry, creative, and expository writing. However, beginning college writing classes are almost entirely expository. I felt incredibly overwhelmed and underprepared for this significant change in teaching style. This can be especially true if you are enrolled in non-traditional college programs, such as the tutorial-style teaching that can be found in William Jewell College’s Oxbridge Honors program (of which I was very briefly a student). Finally, high school curriculum woefully underprepares students for the most important aspect of college education: being an adult. To this day, I still have no idea how to budget, file taxes, or fix my car!

          5.  Describe a typical classroom and what you can find in it. Provide photos (cite your sources).

          A typical American classroom includes five important elements: rows of tables or desks with (highly uncomfortable) chairs; a teacher’s desk; a whiteboard or blackboard; various posters, decorations, and graphics meant to complement the subject being taught; and cabinets or bookshelves. You will also commonly see an American flag in classrooms, as is required by most states or school boards. In these classrooms you will most commonly find an array of books/textbooks, pencils, markers, paper, calculators, etc. Most school districts across the country have also began integrating technology into the classroom in the form of chromebooks.

          There are some differences between classrooms that depend on the subject being taught. Science classrooms will often have labs and lab equipment, art classrooms will have art supplies and equipment such as kilns, and physical health classes will often take place in the gym (which is a sort of classroom in its own right).

          Below is an example of a typical American classroom!

Via medium.com.  “Seventh-grade social studies class at Dodd Middle School in Cheshire, Conn., Thursday, Sept. 24, 2020. (AP)”

#culture journal #french #blog

[jaeheewillalwaysbemyfav]

Could you please write the brothers with a genderfluid MC? You’re writing is so amazing! 😍😍

At what temperature does gender fluid become a solid? It varies, welcome to my bad jokes and fluffy headcanons

I use they/them pronouns for this MC throughout the headcanons for ease of reading, but naturally some genderfluid people use multiple sets of pronouns which may or may not include they/them. Know that the brothers would absolutely use whatever pronouns you tell them to!

Also uhhhhhhhhhh… this ended up including some of my HCs about the “brothers’” genders as well. Quick rundown of that, I see Luci, Mammon and Beel as trans guys, Levi as genderfluid but an egg (ie. closeted/still figuring himself out), Satan as demigender/Spite, Asmo as genderfluid/nonbinary, and Belphie as agender/*snoring cow noises*

No I don’t always use these headcanons when writing requests, and in this all the characters are still referred to with he/him pronouns, but if people do want to see more of my Obey Me gender HCs, feel free to ask!

Also thank you for the compliment uwu I definitely did not turn beet red and spin in my chair for several minutes after reading it

The Brothers With a Genderfluid MC feat. some Trans/NB Brothers HCs

Lucifer

When MC first showed up to the Devildom, their presentation didn’t match the gender Lucifer had on file

He didn’t think anything of it, just quietly made a note to correct the information later

But then a couple of weeks later MC starts presenting differently and he’s like, “??? Oh wait I get it”

Decides that the easiest thing to do is just approach MC directly and ask them what they’d like him to write on their file

If they ever got a hold of it, they would see a couple scribbles on it lol

Lots of things give Lucifer headaches

MC’s gender is never one of them

He takes any fluctuations in stride: change of name? Sure. Multiple names? No problem. Feeling more masc/fem but don’t want to go through the effort of necessarily presenting that way? Just let him know how to refer to you and he’ll follow your lead

It’s a complete non-issue for him basically, totally normal

Though because for him gender is a Private Matter, he won’t make a big deal of it unless he senses that they’re nervous about it and his reaction

In that case, he will assure them that he’s not acting the way he is to be cold, he just doesn’t want to make them feel othered or like a spectacle

Will Not talk about his own past though, unless you’re really really Really Super Mega Close

Perhaps post-pact he might be more forthcoming...

Mammon

Wait, so MC has to buy multiple wardrobes?? Isn’t that expensive?

Not necessarily how it works bud, but go off

His most common nickname for MC is “human”, so no need to worry about any accidental misgendering there

Should any gendered terms/pronouns come up though, Mammon might stumble a bit at first, before he knows MC’s rhythm and preferences

Not in a “ugh it’s too hard to keep track” way but in a “oh shit I don’t wanna get this wrong” way, you know?

This resulted in a lot of “MC’s so stubborn, h— sh— they— OY HUMAN! WHICH PRONOUNS IS IT TODAY?”

While in the Devildom changing names and pronouns aren’t really a big deal, if MC doesn’t like extra attention being drawn to themself this way, they’ll quickly figure out a system to let Mammon know how to refer to them

It makes his whole tsundere act infinitely funnier tbh

Hard to play the “I don’t care about you” card when you meticulously respect someone’s identity and always ensure they feel comfortable

Nooooo, he totally didn’t get MC that outfit they were wishing for because it’s easy to make more masc or fem!! That’s ridiculous!! NO DON’T LOOK AT HIS CREDIT CARD RECEIPT—!

Leviathan

*Leviathan has added Gender Envy to his list of envies*

Someone please crack this egg, he’s got a job in there it’s been so long

I hc that Levi is genderfluid, but because Insecurity and deeply internalized transphobia some Certain Corners of human world fandom, he’s never tried just casually presenting differently

When it’s a costume/cosplay people are generally receptive, but would they accept it if it was just him?

But seeing a genderfluid MC? Either just casually doing their thing, or quietly confiding in him about their identity? It gives him hope

His Henry understands!

If MC is still experimenting with presentation or names/pronouns, Levi is super supportive, even if his proposals are very… particular

And through helping them, he gets a bit more comfortable with himself as well

He’s still a bit nervous to officially come out, that lingering fear and doubt is hard to kick, but it’s nice to know he has someone who will stick by him no matter what

He’ll do little things with MC, if anyone asks he’ll say it’s in solidarity with them, but his brothers start to pick up that something Else is going on

Do Levi and MC get matching TSL pride pins at some point? :3c

It’s at this point that Asmo, known Gender Trapeze Artist, loses his shit and Demands that the others let him help Levi with his Gender Makeover, but they all furtively tell him to zip it. Levi will tell them when he’s ready, and IF he wants help with anything

Satan

Satan has more Spite than gender, but is very intrigued by the concept of gender fluidity

Asks a Ton of questions, not out of ignorance but curiosity over the particulars of MC’s specific experience

He’s internally comparing it to his own, as well as others he knows — it’s interesting to see the differences in how humans and demons understand gender!

If MC’s not down to talk about it or gets annoyed by the questions, he’ll of course back off and apologize

He knows there’s a lot of issues in the human world with people asking invasive questions and feeling entitled to trans people’s entire life stories

However if MC accepts and even reciprocates his curiosity?

*Accidentally acquires a degree in Devildom Gender Studies*

Is always ready to help MC stand up for themself and assert their identity

No one misgenders them on his watch

No One

Asmodeus

TWINS!!!!! :D

Asmo is very excited to find out the human exchange is just like him!!!

Okay, they might not necessarily be exactly like him in terms of presentation: maybe MC prefers a more consistently masc/fem style, or is more lowkey in general, or— oh no, they’re not too insecure to even try to present how they’d like to, right?!

If MC does find something about their presentation lacking or unsatisfactory, Asmo is 3000% willing and ready to help

But more importantly, if it’s MC’s confidence he cares about most

He’ll help an insecure MC find their inner strength and confidence, and be the Best Hype-Person for an MC who’s already confident

Asmo’s brand of genderfluidity is usually pretty loosey-goosey, his general sense of fashion leaning more towards the fem side but internal identity swinging about wildly, but should he and MC ever “synch up” at any point, he Will make a joke about it and how it must mean they’re meant to be! ;p

Also knows the best tips for coping with fluctuating dysphoria because although he publicly hides it, sometimes it does get him down

It tends to blend into his pre existing issues with public image and his body and even with shapeshifting sometimes things just Don’t Feel Right

So if MC’s ever having a rough time, they know who to turn to

Beelzebub

Like Lucifer, he’s very chill about it

It’s the content of MC’s character that matters, not their gender

And he thinks they’re a great person, so any way they want to be referred to, he will respect it without question

If MC is the type to change their presentation to suit their feelings, he’s lowkey in awe that they pull it off so well

Even before he transitioned, Beel was never very good with fashion beyond finding what makes him most comfortable and what’s most practical

But he respects the skill, and sometimes wonders if it would have made some of his pre-transition time easier to cope with

However unlike Lucifer, he’s fine confiding in MC about his experiences if he thinks it will make them feel better

Lots of Support Hugs

Sometimes it feels like he’s trying to hug the dysphoria out of them

Also re: the Lilith thing, if MC ever feels Extra awkward being compared to Lilith because she was a girl and MC Isn’t, Beel will take extra care to remind them that he and the rest of the House of Lamentation love MC for who they are, not because of their connection to Lilith

Belphegor

Ughhhhhh that sounds like so much effort

Uhhh, explain yourself cowboy, and talk fast

Belphie’s not really a boy, but whatever.

See? That’s so fast, “ehh I don’t really Do the gender thing, k byeeee” Done

Or at least it would be if people weren’t so stupid and kept pestering him about it

But MC… if their gender changes over time and people ask about it, that must take so much explaining

Doesn’t it get annoying?

Ohhhh… He’s trying to empathize!

Belphie has a weird way of showing support, but he means well

Like Satan, he doesn’t take any shit vis a vis misgendering, but instead of righteous fury, it’s more of an exasperation

“Just use the right pronouns! It’s not that hard! Mammon can do it, for fuck’s sake, are you saying you’re so dumb you can’t keep track of what even he can?!”

If MC’s having a mini Gender Crisis because sometimes gender is just weird, Belphie will absolutely say something stupid like “Nah, your gender is just taking a nap. You should too. C’mere *grabby hands*”

He’s insufferable, but also a stalwart supporter of MC

#obey me #obey me headcanons #obey me imagines #trans obey me #obey me trans mc #lucifer #mammon #leviathan #satan #asmodeus #beelzebub #belphegor #mine #my writing

[power-of-plot]

Iida, Mirio, and Aizawa dating hcs please

Of course! But holy cow apparently this seriously inspired me, i hope this is ok xd

I I D A

Oh yes robot boi. Iida is someone nerdy in every aspect, his language even with close friends like Midoriya is very formal and polite, the same rule would apply when it comes to his significant other. Unlike what some would think, this doesn’t give your conversations a cold touch, on the contrary, it’d make him look chivalrous.

He’s a classic gentleman, he’d be the kind who opens the door and waits for you to walk in first or gives you his jacket when it’s too cold and you don’t have anything to cover yourself with, the second one would happen often in the classroom if you’re sensitive to cold. We are talking about U.A have you seen the measures of the classrooms and the entire area? It’s impossible they don’t have those huge air conditioners.

He highly respects the rules wich means, no PDA, on a certain level, no kisses to be specific. That doesn’t mean he won’t give you any affection, though every gear of his robotic soul is having a bad time working properly inside, he’d hold your hand or put his over your shoulder pulling you close when you’re sitting together. 

He definitely would do that thing of caressing you with his thumb. As you expected it from Tenya, this is a sort of robotic motion, his finger would move like a metronome but that doesn’t make it any less nicer, he is slow and gentle.

Honestly, he’d be nervous most of the time. ALSO! Tenya is very thoughtful, he’d ask (often verbally) if you’re okay with whatever he’d do, as times goes by the questions turn non verbal, for example he’d hold his hand above yours waiting for you to give green light or grasp it. 

“..Can i hold your hand?” “Sure!” “*DEEP INHALE AND BLUSH*” He couldn’t help to blush the first times. Specially on the firsT kiss but how would it be? A clasic scenenario after classes! And after you both have grown comfortable enough to each other’s touch. Seriously, if you like to go slow he's got you.

You two would be walking around in the campus after classes and he feels the tension grow.. he is analyzing every detail, he wants to ask but what if things get extremely awkward, he’s very tall- he’d have to bend down slightly (unless you’re nearly as tall as him) to do it so what if you flinch because it was unexpected.. he stops walking, he simply manages to say your name. You stared into each other's eye and then it happened, a big smile unexplainably forms in his lips complemented by a scarlet color across his whole face, his haircut made his head look like a strawberry.

There are going to be days you don't see him as much as you'd like, Tenya is very comitted to his hero patrols, he certainly would do extra hours from time to time or if the situation called for it. Let him know you like his hero suit! He’s thankful it has a helmet otherwise his flustered face would be exposed. 

Whatever position you cuddle in Iida would wrap his arms around you, not only that, he’d interlock his fingers so he has a nice grip. His cuddles would be the classic spooning or having your head on his shoulder with your arm over his chest and in case you worry about his arm, this guy doesn’t know limb numbness- he literally tenses and holds his arms up every five minutes.

He sends good morning/good night texts often on the weekends since you're practically living together thanks to the dormitory system, they vary depending on the day, some are a reminder to get a proper amount of sleep or! To get done with homework so you can enjoy your free time and maybe ask if he can go over to study *cough spend time together*

He'd send the classic heart emoji, very detailed but easy to comprehend videos explaining any difficult lesson and history related stuff like paint restorations or facts about iconic sculptures. Please don’t send him those videos of people accidentally breaking things on museums, he’s gonna feel like something breaks inside.

M I R I O

This ray of sunshine fell for you? Your luck is so big you’d get jackpot on a slot machine on the first try-. You’re undeniably going to be good friends with Tamaki and Nejire, specially her, expect to get questions one after another without the chance to reply when she finds out you’re Mirio’s significant other, Tamaki would take it way better.

Mirio’s goofyness and confidence combined with his feelings give a unique result: he literally spoke to the boss of mafia himself twice like he was the manager in a store, but, the case is different when you’re around, he’s saying and actually good joke and suddenly.. it goes away, his mind goes blank. “So what happened after Mirio..?” “Ah.. i had practiced a lot, i don’t know what happened haha my bad!”

You’re going to get tons of his jokes and something more “intense” such as the classic “What’s in your shirt?” to make you look down so he can boop your nose with his finger, you should expect some gentle headpats as well. 

If you’re shy he’s cool about it, he knows what do and adaptates to your pace, you’d start off with hand holding or rather pinky holding, he’d interwine his pinky with yours and show a bright smile. His hugs are the warmest, he doesn’t do it half-assesly, when you hug, YOU HUG, he uses both arms and slightly lifts you up! Height or strength are not a problem he’s actually one cm taller than Iida i just found out

He seems like the kind who loses their pen or eraser despite seeing it on their desk just one minute ago, if you happen to be that kind as well you’re both going to lay down your faith on poor Tamaki’s hands, i’m sure he has all his material complete.

He hardly ever gets nervous or scared by anything, things like the first kiss would go pretty smooth, instead of blushing intensely he’d just chuckle with slight disbelief, his mind is racing like “I just did that? woah!”. The biggest trouble for him would be gifts, he wants it to be perfect but asking Nejire for advice is not a good idea, roses are too formal and they don’t last long, going to the movies seems a little cliche.. his first gift would end up being a plushie of your favorite animal and a bamboo.

He’d sneak a kiss or two, specially before the class is begginning a training session, he’d send you a text telling you to go outside the changing rooms and oop! He phases through the wall poking out his head to give you a kiss kiss. If you don’t mind a prank from time to time he’d give a little scare using his quirk.

This guy is the big spoon during cuddles, no arguing! He could switch but as time goes by he’d slowly shift into the big spoon, that’s just the way he is, the most usual position would be where you’re facing each other with your limbs wrapping around the other’s body. Waking up with him would be adorable and attractive, morning and night are the only times of the day when his hair isn’t gelled into his All Might-like hairstyle, those blonde locks would frame his face, a heavenly sight.

Would send you a pic of stray animals he rescued with a “:D!” and Sir. Nighteye 'torturing' Bubble girl (half of his head visibly on a corner of the image). If you longed for a pet badly he would bring a nice dog/cat he finds around! In his hero suit to make the moment more special. 

He uses the smiling emojis and emoticons! And shares videos of animals he finds adorable, if you sent him fails videos he'd laugh as long as the falls don't seem extreme or too severe, small trips on the beach or slips on the snow are fine. Mirio sends gifs i just know.

A I Z A W A

Have you taken a look at him? You must be a big The Walking Dead fan to like him lmao. Aizawa gives me an unexplainable gut feeling that he'd prefer a civilian (perhaps quirkless?) significant other over a hero, he wouldn't want his partner to go into the same dangerous situations he does.

His affection is tired, let me explain, he'd hug you and all that physical stuff but it'd kinda feel like his arms fall limply around you, still, even with his minuscule clingyness he loves you with all his might! He doesn't fall for anyone.

Not very fond of PDA, in public he'd preferr temple/forehead kisses and having your hand on the crook of his arm instead of hand holding (thinking about it Iida would do that too), seems more discret and! you don't let go when his hands are busy. He'd initiates it by gently resting your hand on his arm and sinking his hand into his pocket.

Surprise! He does smile, not that maniactic-looking grin he has sometimes during his shifts at U.A when a student impresses him, this one is less wide but somehow more tender and sweet, he tilts his head and for once his eyes seem relaxed, a relationship would make his cheeks hurt.. either for he's not used to smile so much or he smiles more than he thought he would.

If you give him a cat.. that's a strong blow straight to one of his weakest spots, he'd stare both at you and the kitten with a dumbfounded look before picking it up in his arm like a baby, his hand gravitates towards his it's head giving some nice pets before he shows a rare and somewhat bright smile "Thank you very much." Next time have a camera ready damnit! That smile rarely shows up.

He's practical, he wants his gifts to be nice but useful as well. He’d get you those mugs with candies inside, you get the candy and you can use the mug later for your coffee or tea; a power bank with a nice color or design and in case he choses something smaller: a bamboo, those one don’t wither away. Aizawa is fine with whatever you get for him, big or small he appreciates it. Sweaters, scarfs and blankets would be his favorite thing to get though, he likes to stay warm while working late at night

He’s sneaky, as an underground hero he’s used to work at times when the streets look disolated and the dark crime has more freedom to do as it pleases, he wouldn’t want to wake you up unless you asked him to. He’d leave a note on is pillow with the time he wrote it at and a short loving phrase like “i love you, i’ll be back soon, good morning”, before he leaves he’d always lift the sheet up to your neck or drag it away if you seem to be kicking it off you and give you a small kiss.

You’d find him passed out in his sleeping bag with his laptop besides him at random spots of his appartment, if it wasn’t because of the unatura position he adopts to fit in his sleeping bag he’d give you a death scare ‘cause let’s be honest he doesn’t look one hundred percent alive even when he’s awake. “Shota..? Shota can you hear me?!” “I’m not dead.”

Hibrid of big-small spoon. Most of the times you cuddle he’s asleep and you go snuggle him, his hair is a mess so better prepare to get tickled all night. He pull you close the best way he can when you’re behind him, not very comfortable for his arm but it’s worth it. He’d have you like a pillow over him, his chin over your head and both arms around you.

This man doesn’t bother typing when he can use his voice, the only situations he uses regular text messages are when he’s on shift or with you sleeping next to him. Send him gifs of kittens and a ‘i love you’ it instanstly gives him a good mood! He’d send pics of cats he sees around and gifts he bought you, doesn’t use emojis.

*COLLAPSES ON THE GROUND* Big oof- requests are open.

#mha headcanons #aizawa x reader #iida x reader #mirio x reader #fluff headcanons #requests open #mha fluff #fluff requests #my hero imagines #my hero academia #my brain is dying

[gringolet]

INTRO TO ARTHURIANA MASTERPOST

under the cut for absurd length

HOW TO GET STARTED WITH ARTHURIANA

The Arthuriana fandom is very broad and there's no one piece of media, which can be confusing for people just getting into it! There’s no right way to engage with arthuriana, and no minimum level of knowledge or reading you need to attain to qualify. 

The basis of the Arthurian Legend is a body of hundreds of texts written across the medieval and early Renaissance period in dozens of languages and cultural traditions. Which can seem pretty overwhelming, but there are a lot of modern vernacular translations-- you absolutely don’t have to learn old French or anything. I’ll go more in depth on where to get started with texts further down.

You also don’t have to read texts at all. As I said, there is no minimum basis-- if you prefer to engage with modern adaptations, or want to engage with medieval arthuriana outside of reading texts, that's also cool! 

In terms of modern adaptations there is a wealth of choices, which I am very much not an expert in lol, so I’m afraid I can’t give much in the way of reccs. Books I have heard good things about are, Exiled from Camelot, Idylls of the Queen, The Buried Giant, the Squire's Tale series, and Gawain by Gwen Rowley (warning that this one is apparently erotica? Good for him). I trust @princesslibs  for modern book reccomendations. and if you speak French Kaamelott is purportedly a very good tv show. Frankly no modern adaptation will ever be better than Spamalot to me, but that's just my personal take. 

If you are curious about engaging with texts but (understandably) don’t want to read a ton of dense medieval literature, one really cool resource is Norris J Lacy's New Arthurian Encyclopedia, which you can pick up at most used bookstores for under ten bucks. It’s a very thorough easy to look through reference of characters stories and texts. I know a lot of people like the Nightbringer wiki, though I personally am wary of it because it basically never cites sources. It’s a good quick reference though and a lot of people like it, I’d just take it with a grain of salt. Sparknotes also has a lot of summaries of the major texts like Le Morte D’Arthur and the romances of Chrétien De Troyes. You are not a fake fan for doing this I promise. And of course you’re always welcome to send me an ask <3 

Finally, getting started with texts. Quick glossary of terms:

--Verse Romance

    A verse (poem) story which can vary a great deal in length. These deal with the adventures of individual knights, usually Gawain, and tend to have a great deal of magical elements and the stereotypical monster slaying, questing, damosel rescuing knight adventures.

--Prose Novel or Romance

    A non poetic narrative, more like a modern novel, more likely to deal with the fall of Arthur, sword in the stone, Mordred, fall of Camelot sort of affair. They are usually quite long. Most famous of these are Le Morte D’Arthur and the French Vulgate, but there are a slew of late medieval Prose novels floating around. Eluding Rey.

--Pseudohistory

    I’m gonna b real these are boring I think. These are, as the name suggests, written as accurate depictions of history.  They very much are not, but they claim to be. Most famous of these is Jeffrey of Monmouth, Mr Jeff Mouth himself, and his History of the Kings of Britain, which I haven’t read because it bores me. You can if you want. It’s in Latin. Whatever. These tend to be some of the earliest texts, and include the “lives of saints” stories. Life of Gildas is the only funny one.

--Ballads

    These are only arguably texts, as most of them were written after the time of the “canon” being composed. But I like them. These are songs telling stories, recorded by people like Francis Child and Thomas Percy. They are very short and fun and include stories like The Boy and the Mantle, Kempion, and King Arthur and the King of Cornwall.

--Lai

    A specific type of French verse poem, usually quite short. The most famous collection of lais are those of Marie le France, including things like Bisclavret and Lanval. 

--Traditions

    Since Arthuriana was written all over, there are different literary traditions across time and space. The French tradition is one of the most famous, including works like the vulgate, Chretien and a lot of verse romances. The English tradition is one of the most influential on modern adaptations, including the Morte D’Arthur and Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. There are also Welsh, German, Dutch, Hebrew, Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, Tagalog, Greek, Belarussian, Scottish, Irish, Breton, and probably even more. There’s a lot. It’s very cool and sexy.

A note that there is also a big tradition of Victorian revival Arthuriana. I wrote a starter guide to that here, it’s all very fun and like, aesthetic. 

Alright, now, which texts do you start with?

If you’re a little intimidated by long texts or medieval lit, starting with short verse romances in modern translation is a great place to start. These include Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, which is very good and gay and well known, Lancelot and the Hart With The White Foot, which is very good and gay and underappreciated, or Lanval, which is homophobic but funny. 

If you want to start with what is considered the oldest King Arthur Story, Culwch and Olwen is short and fun!

If you want to read about the grail quest, you can start where it started with Story of the Grail or Percival, then the four continuations, Essenbachs Parzival, the vulgate version of the Grail quest which you can buy paperback for like 5 bucks (I can also scan my copy for you just shoot me an ask <3)

If you want to read about the fall of camelot, I have the Vulgate death of Arthur section scanned here. There’s also the Alliterative and Stanzaic mortes, which are in middle English. I have scanned Simon Armitage's Alliterative Morte translation here. I’m working on my own translation of the Stanzaic but it’s not done lol. If you want the first third or so DM me lol. King Artus is very short and readable and it’s a Jewish text which is really cool.

If you want to read about Lancelot, Chrétien de Troyes Lancelot is his first text. He also has a whole long vulgate section, the first part is scanned here by val <3, and there's Lanzelet,  Sebile is in it so it’s probably very good. He’s also basically the main character of Le Morte D’Arthur which I might as well talk about here uhm. It’s long and fun in places and boring in others but it does have like the version most modern adaptations take from and tells the whole story of Arthur and Camelot from beginning to end. The Keith Baines version scanned by val is the most readable but it is an abridgement I believe. people who like le morte usually read this version so its probably the best choice lol

If you want to read about Gawain, good news! He’s in basically everything. Even texts that aren’t supposed to be about Gawain are doomed to become The Gawain Show Featuring The Protagonist Of This Text As A Sidekick. Which is so funny of him. The Roman Van Walewein is very funny and long and Gawain™. I also recommend, L’atre Perilous, Diu Krone, Sir Gawain and the Turk, and I could go on but for brevity's sake let's start there. 

If you want to read about Tristan, go shoot an ask to Valentine @lanzelet on tumblr because Tristan scares me. 

Thank you to rey @gawain-in-green for helping me find links and put this together! They are also a super great resource for stuff and very cool and nice <3 They have a tag on their blog for full text resources so deffo look at that if you want more scans and links, and an info tag and tons of cool shit that is way better organized than my blog lol

Okay finishing this off, if you want content warnings for any texts, feel free to shoot an ask! I know medieval lit can be A Lot and there aren’t a lot of good warning systems, so if I’ve read it or know someone who has I can give you warnings if you want to read something but are understandably wary . <3

In terms of tagging, Arthuriana and Arthurian Legend are the main ones on tumblr. Arthurian Mythology is also used but tbh shouldn’t be. On Ao3, we’re trying to get our own Arthurian Literature tag but <3 its a whole thing. Anyway the tag is Arthurian Mythology, but I’ll b real, it’s kind of flooded with stuff that doesn’t really belong there, because even though it’s a fandom tag other people unknowingly tag stuff as Arthurian Mythology when it’s like, a knight au. Which is not their fault bc it’s confusing but, ah, alas. ANyhow, feel free to drop in my inbox anytime with questions, suggestions, reccs, etc!

Okay godspeed!! Have fun reading, watching, browsing, etc! 

#arthuriana #arthurian legend #arthurian literature #arthurian mythology #:/

[thealexchen]

i’ve actually read both of the articles that you mentioned earlier! I could see where both of them were coming from at varying points, though shannon liao’s struck me as a tad harsh, as someone who felt very seen by Alex, particularly with regard to her asian-american identity, and the cultural details and familial attitudes you see displayed throughout the game (especially in episode 5.) I could see why others would like them to be more overt, but they’re still present & relevant as is, imo.

I'm happy you read and enjoyed them! Well, since we’re on the subject, I might as well give my fuller thoughts about all this. This answer got horrendously long, so I'm putting it under a read more. I really wanted to talk about this more fully, so thank you for sending this ask!

I definitely see Robert's point in his article. Alex didn’t need to be Asian for the story of True Colors to be told, but it’s still meaningful that she is so that Asian fans and fans of color can look up to her and feel represented. The Chens buck a lot of stereotypes too: Mrs. Chen was not a “tiger mom” and her kids and husband remember her fondly. Mr. Chen doesn’t push Alex and Gabe to excel in school, and in fact neither Alex nor Gabe went to college, but they still had happy futures. Alex isn’t the best friend or the Asian schoolgirl or the dragon lady or the Asian nerd. But at the same time, when Robert says "Alex never really talks about her thoughts on Chinese culture,” that’s like— well, what’s wrong with talking about it? Why not talk about it more explicitly? The words “Asian” and “Chinese” and “Vietnamese” aren’t even used in the game when "gay" and "lesbian" were, and that's a little disappointing.

I figured people would figure out Alex was at least Chinese because of her last name, but I saw some streamers unsure of what Alex’s ethnicity even was (“Alex is… Chinese, right?”). That was disappointing because Asians tend to be treated as a monolith when we’re so internally diverse. Also, it’s completely possible to miss that Alex and Gabe are also half-Vietnamese. Their mother’s name is Giang “Wendy” Chen, a Vietnamese name, but that’s only in the credits. There’s far less Vietnamese (and Southeast Asian) rep than Chinese, so I wish that had been made more explicit.

In Life is Strange 2, Sean and Daniel’s struggles (personal and institutional) were centered around their identity as half-Mexican boys. True Colors almost seemed to be going in the opposite direction in that Alex’s Asian heritage never really becomes plot-relevant, but Alex and Gabe’s background comes into focus in the last chapter.

Part of Shannon’s critique was that because Alex’s parents aren’t in the picture, the game can’t explore Asian culture through a familial lens. There is some truth to that: for children of immigrants in particular, their parents are their strongest (and sometimes only) link to their race and culture. I thought a big missed opportunity was exploring Alex’s possible sense of isolation and struggle to reconnect with her Asian heritage after being separated from her family.

After growing up with two Asian parents, eating Asian food, celebrating Asian holidays, likely speaking Asian languages, etc. it would have likely been disorienting and lonely for Alex to suddenly be raised by non-Asian foster parents and lose all those traditions all at once. Possible comments like “I really miss Mom’s pho” or “Do you know how difficult it is to find hoisin sauce in the stores around here?” could have inferred more at that specific kind of loss and isolation in Haven Springs. The game touches upon this very briefly when you look at Gabe’s shrine, and Alex does comment “I don’t even know if I’m doing this right… but I felt like I had to do something.” In this way, I find it especially poignant that she still held onto cultural traditions after so long.

But I still thought Shannon’s critique was overly harsh. The little details really do add up, like in Alex’s childhood home, and meant a lot to me too. And most importantly, there was representation behind the scenes too: Alex was voiced by two(!) Asian American women and the lead writer, Felice Kuan, is Chinese. I think Alex naming her mouse Shu-shu was my favorite detail. Because it’s the one detail you can’t miss. Every streamer remembers Shu-Shu’s name and loves how cute she is and they can probably infer it’s a Chinese term. It just is so visible and empowering in that way and my heart felt warm every time I heard someone say “Aw! Shu-shu!"

But that doesn't mean Alex's Asian heritage didn't matter at all. I really appreciated that Alex's backstory still mattered because she came from a poor, working-class immigrant family. Her life circumstances were used for drama, but none of Alex's suffering was racially motivated and that felt tastefully done. I’m gonna paraphrase a comment I saw on alliebeemac’s playthrough of episode 5: "It's no coincidence that both Alex and Ryan lost their mothers at a young age, but because Ryan's father was a military veteran and had a high-paying job as a Typhon foreman, he got to keep his childhood whereas Alex's entire world was torn apart... And if you want to look at it even more metaphorically, the white patriarch Jed was able to preserve his own image as a hero and 'good old boy' of Haven by literally sacrificing an immigrant family to the mines with the expectation that nobody would come looking for them. Whether you're an immigrant or whether you're a foster child, the system is saying 'we don't care about you.'"

And at the end, Alex tells Jed, "You want to look away and pretend the men you hurt weren't people. But I won't let you.” It's a deliberate stand against Jed (a white man)’s dehumanization of poor laborers, including her Chinese immigrant father. Jed isn't explicitly portrayed as a racist, but his actions come from a privileged, and subsequently racist and classist place. For me, it worked better than LiS2's portrayal of racism because it was subtler and more personal. Alex stands up against Jed out of a personal sense of justice for her brother (and her father).

Do I wish we had more? Yeah, absolutely. I wish Alex got to actually speak Mandarin or Vietnamese in the game because that's so rare in games, even though I knew that would be unrealistic because Erika Mori is Japanese. I wish the character artists had at least made a version of Alex and Gabe’s models without shoes, because it just didn’t look right to see them wear shoes in the house (especially in bed??) and even LiS2 had Sean and Daniel in their socks in some scenes. I wish Alex and Gabe talked more about their family while Gabe was still alive and Alex could have had that comfort of someone who misses the food and customs they used to celebrate. But like I said, one piece of media isn’t gonna please everyone. And Asian representation in particular is so tricky because not only is there not enough of it, but Asian Americans are so diverse and come from so many different backgrounds. Children of immigrants are going to feel more connected to their Asian heritage than third or fourth gen kids or mixed race kids for example. Everyone is going to have a different definition of “Asian culture” and “accurate representation.”

But on a meta-level, it really means so much to simply have an Asian face on the box of a major Western game ❤️ Like even just seeing the way Alex's eyes crinkle when she smiles or how other characters find her attractive (like Steph’s note during the LARP preferring Alex’s natural black hair), it feels so affirming. It’s incredible to see an Asian girl be called the hero of her own story, to see her succeed and fail and cry and laugh and fall in love and kiss another woman and be comfortable in her bisexuality. It acknowledges that the queer community includes Asians, that Asian girls can also be curvy, that Asian girls can and do struggle with mental health. And like Erika Mori said, Alex is a fully-realized character and that’s what makes her so compelling, first and foremost. She also has a strong moral compass and dreams and fears and is such an incredible role model for people of all backgrounds, and that’s what makes her identity as a queer woman of color so much more meaningful.

#life is strange true colors #listc #asian representation #answered asks #anon #alex chen #gabe chen #chen sibs #life is strange #true colors #true colours #lis: tc #life is strange 3 #my post

[neon-angels-system]

you know what. fuck it. here's The System Talk as a tumblr post.

so. sometimes you feel like you're not in control of your body. maybe there's voices in your head. you're starting to think it's not normal. what now?

disclaimer: plurality is Fucking Weird & I am simply someone who has fuckers in my brain - I am not a mental health professional, everything is always being argued about, and this isn't going to cover everything about being a system.

What is a system anyway?

The term 'system' in this context refers to one body with multiple personalities, alters, or consciousnesses. This term is not used by all people who experience some form of plurality - 'plural' may be preferred.

...Okay, so what does that mean?

A personality, alter, or consciousness is a consistent [thing] that has its own thoughts and/or has some level of influence over your body. Normally, a person has one (1) personality/consciousness. Alter is the most rigid of these definitions, requiring for an alter to be part of a system and to be noticeably distinct from at least one other alter.

The fun part about this is that a singlet (someone who is not plural) may still experience thoughts that they feel are not their own - intrusive thoughts & trauma & simply brains being weird are all things that can have similar effects. Some people, for example, have full control over what their internal voice sounds like, while others do not.

Notably, alters/personalities/consciousness are not required to feel entirely separate from the "main" alter/personality/consciousness. They may refer to themselves as a part of a whole, or as an altered state of consciousness, or they may prefer to be treated as an entirely separate person/

So how do I tell the difference between normal brain voices and abnormal brain voices?

This is where the disordered and non-disordered views of plurality start to come into conflict.

The traditional view of disordered plurality refers to the theory of structural dissociation. The theory of structural dissociation states that alters are formed by trauma, and can be sorted into two categories - Apparently Normal Parts (ANPs) and Emotional Parts (EPs). EPs are present, but less distinct, in disorders such as BPD and PTSD. Alters are defined by the dissociation that accompanies them. Dissociation will be covered in more detail later, but in short, it refers to a feeling of light-headedness, depersonalisation (disconnect from the body) and/or derealisation (disconnect from reality), as well as emotional or "blackout" amnesia (emotional - 'that wasn't me that did that', blackout - 'I do not remember anything from that time period'). DID and OSDD-1 are defined by the distinct nature of EPs that significantly interfere with normal functioning - basically, the voices in your head are very much Not You, and they keep doing things which you wouldn't do, and when you finally get control back, it's really inconvenient.

The nondisordered view of plurality instead suggests an even more varying view - that most people have the potential to be plural, and that it is a natural phenomena. Therefore, personalities/alters/consciousnesses (sometimes referred to as 'headmates') are defined by their wish to be seen as, in some way, separate from each other. If there is a voice in your head saying it is not you, you should believe it. Or, alternatively, if you have repeated experiences of acting out of character - for example, identifying with a set of names and pronouns while having one set of interests some of the time, all of which are different from your usual self - then even if you do not have distinct voices in your head, you may still identify as plural. The nondisordered view of plurality is very varied, though - some believe you can create headmates through various methods, some believe you are born with your headmates, while others still believe that headmates are visitors from other dimensions who use your body for short periods of time. There is no one set of qualifiers for nondisordered plurality that all plurals agree with, but generally speaking, anyone who identifies as plural is accepted as such.

I'm still not sure if what I'm experiencing is normal or not...

That's okay! It can take a long time to figure out, and you shouldn't stress over it - being wrong is not a crime, and you're allowed to play around with labels or ignore them entirely until you find one that fits.

The goal of any label, including diagnostic ones, is to put a name to a set of experiences and give some advice on what to do next. Whatever is most useful for you at this moment in time will work fine.

So what next?

The first thing that you need to know, and that I will scream from the rooftops, is that it's okay to be wrong. People are wrong about things all of the time. You are not doing any damage by being just completely fucking way off. Don't stress about whether you are secretly faking or not - if you were actively, intentionally faking symptoms, you would know about it! If you're not, then the only danger of getting it wrong is mild embarrassment and wasting your time, while probably being representative of either a different issue (e.g. symptoms of one disorder mistake for another), or having an overactive imagination while being influenced by those around you (plurality isn't the only thing this happens with!).

The second thing you need to know is that despite everything I just said, you're still going to question everything every five minutes. Write down some form of log, journal, or anything else to keep a list of your symptoms / observations. This can be especially helpful if you are unable to hear or otherwise communicate with your [insert preferred term here] within the headspace ("inner word") or front (state of consciousness where you are aware of the outside world); you may be able to communicate via physical means instead, and having it written the hell down allows for your [preferred term here] to know what you are trying to achieve.

Third thing is to do some research as needed, both about plurality in general, and about your own system / you&. Read the diagnostic criteria of DID & OSDD-1. Watch some youtube videos of systems talking about their experiences. Learn the relevant terms, and either learn the names of your [preferred term here] or collaborate on creating new ones. Plurality is really fucking varied, and I cannot possibly cover everything there is to know here, nor would you need to know all of it.

Flash Round

Q: To be a system/plural, do I need to have (number) of alters/headmates? A: No. 2, 4, 25, 136, 859... There's no set number in any type of criteria for plurality.

Q: Do I need trauma to be a system? A: The diagnostic model for DID and OSDD-1 is based off the trauma-requiring theory of structural dissociation, but even then, they acknowledge that there may be forms of plurality that are nondisordered. If you experience dissociation, there is a high chance that your system may originate from trauma, but if you are following the nondisordered model, then it is definitely not a requirement. (note: most resources online are based on the disordered model, and for good reason - the diagnostic criteria is based on disruption of day-to-day life, meaning that DID & OSDD systems are often more noticeable, while nondisordered systems may function fine without ever figuring out their plurality)

Q: I have an unusual number of [alter/headmate role]. Is this evidence I'm faking? A: No.

Q: Can [preferred term here] have a different [sexuality/gender/worldview] than me? Is the fact that we all have the same [sexuality/gender/worldview] proof that I'm making everything up? A: The differences between (preferred term here) is referred to as 'elaboration'. High elaboration may result in every member/part of [a system / plural person] being very distinctly different in all aspects, while low elaboration may result in [preferred term here] all being the same base "person" in different states (this is part of the diagnostic criteria for OSDD-1a!)

Q: I have a stupid question not covered here... A: Ask away!! Better you get it sorted now then ruminate over it for way too long.

A quick, more detailed, overview of dissociation

Dissociation is a symptom of many disorders. Dissociative Identity Disorder is the obvious one, but things like depression, anxiety, ADHD, and any trauma or stress related disorder may also result in dissociation. The presence of dissociation is NOT a guarantee that you are a system.

Dissociation is normal to experience in light amounts infrequently (e.g. zoning out during a long car ride), but becomes disordered when it occurs frequently and impacts daily functioning. Dissociation is essentially a coping mechanism designed by the brain to separate itself from the trauma/stress that it experiences.

Dissociation is mainly defined by two factors: Amnesia & Derealisation/depersonalisation. As discussed earlier, amnesia may be emotional ("it wasn't me that did that - what was I thinking?") or true amnesia (colloquially referred to as 'blackout' amnesia; 'what happened? how did I get here?') Depersonalisation refers to a form of dissociation where you feel disconnected from your body. Classically, you may not recognize yourself in the mirror, or feel as if you are watching yourself in the third person. Less dramatic cases may be that you feel as if somebody else is controlling your movements, or that your body does not belong to you and you are just visiting / possessing it.

Derealisation refers to a form of dissociation where you feel disconnected from reality. Classically, you may feel as if you are watching through a pane of glass, or as if everything around you is not real, or that you yourself are not real. Derealisation is distinguished from hallucinations by the knowledge that what you are feeling is not true. You may also experience visual distortions, such as everything becoming grey, or everything becoming too bright. Less extreme cases may be a general feeling that you are separate from this reality, or that you cannot prove that everything around you is real.

Note that depersonalisation and derealisation are not exclusive; you can experience both at the same time.

More general symptoms include lightheadness, headaches, identity shifts (acting 'out of character'), identity confusion due to disconnect from self ('what do I actually like?'), as well as general memory issues.

Other stuff

Pluralkit, a Discord bot for allowing discord messages from one account appear as if they were from separate people (with BOT next to their name); referred to as a 'proxy bot'

Simply Plural, an app by a system for systems. Has a website version, but it's a little buggy. Features things such as profiles for each [preferred term here], a fronting tracker, polls for [preferred term here] to vote on, and various methods to leave notes!

Sources?

This is a tumblr post I wrote on the fly. Don't trust me for shit. I will link to some things, but none of them are reliable primary sources for hopefully obvious reasons.

#The System Talk #mostly for me to refer people to #I have a much better understanding of the traumagenic side of things than the nondisordered but like. I tried.

[caffeinated-cryptid]

making a high school au always looked fun, so i wanted to take a shot at it! even though i probably wont make this into a full thing, it was nice to think about something more wholesome for a while, so i’ve written some brief headcanons below ^^

Patton Mitral

they/them - aromantic enby

Does cheerleading!

Is also on the student council because of how approachable they are. 

Most of the student body loves them, or is at least acquainted with their peppy go-getter attitude.

Since they’re the only sport-oriented one in the Squad, they’re usually the one to convince the others to come out to games and after-parties. In return they go to support the academic/theatrical feats the others are apart of (they’re everyone’s personal cheerleader!).

B e e f y.

Like– they may have roundish features, but they’re built like a tree. Their legs and arms are like steel thanks to the gymnastics they’ve done throughout their life.

Hobbies include talking to old people and giving their friends piggybacks.

Roman Oberon

he/him - cis gay

Adhd king.

Typical theater kid.

Him and Remus are the middle children of a family of 6. Hence their desire to be the center of attention At All Costs.

Does a lot of extracurriculars - mainly revolving around music, theater and art.

Fairly popular and well-known, although opinions of him range from ‘he seems alright’ to ‘dear god someone PLEASE tell him to stop humming the falsettos soundtrack during class. I’m this close to tossing something heavy at the back of his head and really don’t need that on my record’.

Logan Carina

he/him - trans bi asexual

Dating Remus.

The one who’s on a first-name basis with all of the teachers, though is the closest with the science teacher because he tends to spend the most time in the science lab.

He has chronic insomnia, and despite often falling asleep in inappropriate places (in the library, the lunch hall, and one unfortunate time, the bathroom), his teachers know well enough by now to leave him be and offer a cup of coffee when he’s around.

Has won multiple spelling bees and science fairs in the past and is currently doing an internship at the town’s research center. Overachiever to the max.

The mom friend, despite not having applied to the position.

Virgil Tondra

any pronouns - genderfluid pansexual

Not very well-known by most of the student body, since they transferred to the school in the middle of the year.

In fact, there’s a fair amount of rumours about Virgil, hypothesizing about their origins and what brought them to their small town. Guesses have ranged from them being an undercover cop, a murderer who’s trying to escape their crimes, and even a fae who came from out of the woods to kidnap children.

Sometimes they like to casually wear vampire teeth and carry around packets of fake blood, so that doesn’t really help the speculation.

Lowkey they just really like costuming; in their mind it’s Halloween all year.

Sometimes they help with costumes for the theater club, though they prefer not to take too much credit for this work.

Remus Oberon

he/him - cis mystery box of preference (as in: his taste is objectively The Worst and varies wildly, so him ending up with logan was a genuine shock to everyone.)  

Also an adhd king, though is more of an impulsive-hyperactive type.

You’d assume he’d be the kind of person to be held behind a year or so due to never paying attention in class, but he actually gets pretty good grades. It helps to be dating one of the smartest people in the year, and the best friends with the other.

Does makeup for the theater club (alongside playing the most memorable side roles). He’s excellent at the more intense sfx makeup, even if he doesn’t get many opportunities to do it in their productions.

Wants to get into makeup/prosthetic in the future, though there are a ton of other crafts he enjoys, such as making bizarrely scented candles.

D.T - ? Truman

he/they - queer demi-boy

He may be one of the highest-graded students in the year, but that is mostly because he knows how exams work. Even if he doesn’t understand something, he’s excellent at exploiting the system and/or faking confidence.

Has been known to do homework and give out answer sheets in return for money/favors…allegedly. It’s not like he’s ever been caught or had anybody snitch on him.

Partially-sighted. He uses it to his advantage.

On the debate team.

Keeper of everyone’s secrets (probably why no one has tried to cross him).

#my art #sanders sides #janus sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders #patton sanders #intrulogical #im sorry this isn’t in rainbow order. i only realized after i started colouring rip #high school au

[mldrgrl]

Broken things 3/24

by: mldrgrl Rating: varies by chapter, rated R overall  See Chapter 1 for summary and notes

Melvin is out the door as soon as Mulder is in eyesight of the ranch house.  He can see the older man step out onto the porch and then stand a little taller and pull the tails of his vest taut.

“Am I wrong, or does my nose detect the makings of noon dinner on the stove?” Mulder calls.

“With the size of that nose, you’re probably smelling what’s cooking in Fort Worth,” Melvin answers back.

Mulder chuckles and brings Blondie to a stop in front of the house.  He motions for Katherine’s bag and then takes her hand while she gathers her skirts and brings her leg over the side of the horse.  He holds her about the waist to help her down and she pitches forward slightly and ends up pressed close to him.  He eases her to her feet and keeps his arm around her for maybe a bit too long, but it feels nice to him to have her there.

“Who’s this marvelous young lady you brung to us?” Melvin asks, and the moment is broken.

“She’s called Katherine,” Mulder answers.  “Send Trevor on out to put up Blondie, I’d like to bring our guest in and introduce her.  Set another plate for dinner.”

“Trevor,” Melvin calls over his shoulder.  He takes a small hop down from the porch and reaches for Katherine’s hand.  “Melvin Frohike at your service.  Welcome to Broke In, lovely lady.”

“The name of the ranch,” Mulder explains to Katherine.  “Alright, settle down, old man.  You act as though you haven’t seen a pretty woman before.”  He kicks Melvin lightly in the seat of his pants just as the young ranch hand that he had requested be sent out appears on the porch with a napkin tucked into his shirt.  “Trevor, excuse me for interrupting your dinner, could you please put Blondie up?”

“Yes, Sir.”  The boy takes the lead from Mulder and takes the horse away.

“Alright, come in, come in,” Mulder says.

Melvin scurries down the dogtrot ahead of Mulder and Katherine.  “You boys make yourselves presentable, we got a lady in the house,” he calls.

There’s a scraping of chairs and utensils.  Richard and Jimmy jump to their feet, wiping their mouths on their napkins.  Jesse stays sitting, slurping from his bowl until he looks up and then jumps up as well, spilling stew on the table and dribbling on his chin.  

Mulder removes his hat as they move down the broad hall and hangs it on a peg just outside the door of the dining area.  He hangs Katherine’s sack there beside his hat and guides her into the room ahead of him.

“Boys,” he says.  “This is Katherine.  She’ll be joining us for dinner and then accompanying me into town.  Katherine, that blonde beanpole over there to the left is Richard, and then we have Jimmy beside him and the creature without any table manners is his brother Jesse.”

“Ma’am,” they all murmur.

“It’s nice to meet you all,” Katherine answers.  

“Go ahead and sit yourself here,” Mulder says, pulling out the chair at the head of the table for her.  After she sits, the rest of the men do as well, glancing at her and each other as though they’re searching for the proper etiquette to resume their meal.  Melvin is already ladling out a bowl of stew for her and he passes it to her along with a spoon and a napkin.

“Some lemonade, Madam?” Melvin asks.  “We got cold tea or coffee too if’n you have druthers.”

“The lemonade would be fine, thank you.”

As Mulder dishes out his own dinner, he observes there’s a slight tremor in Katherine’s hand when she picks up her spoon.  He also notices that her breathing is slightly labored, coming short and fast from parted lips.  It hadn’t occurred to him before, but with nothing in that sod house, this might be her first meal in some time.

“Melvin, do you think we might still have a tin of soda crackers in one of those cupboards?” he asks.

“I reckon we sure might.”  The little man hops up from the table and begins to search the cabinets.  He returns triumphant with a tin which he hands off to Mulder.  Mulder opens it and then passes it across the table to Katherine.

“Stew might be a little heavy for this time of day unless you’ve been laboring,” Mulder says.  “The crackers will soak up the broth nicely though.”

“Thank you,” she answers, with a nod, taking the tin from him.

Normally, the boys rush through noon dinner, eager to get back to their chores and the horses, but they eat slowly.  Jesse even attempts to hold a spoon, which Mulder has never seen him do before.  Trevor returns and has to squeeze his way into a place at the bench seating beside Richard and Jimmy.  Melvin dominates the conversation with business chatter, giving Mulder a run down on what some of the horses have been up to all morning.  

One by one, Jesse, Richard, Jimmy, and then finally Trevor excuse themselves to continue their work.  Each man brings his bowl and cup to a wash basin near the stove and they nod politely to Katherine before they leave.  Mulder asks Trevor to please hitch up the Tilbury to go into town shortly.  Melvin gets up to start cleaning dishes and Katherine quickly rises as well.

“I can help,” she says.

“Oh, no, no, no,” Melvin answers, waving his napkin at her.  “You are our guest of honor, my dear, and you won’t lift a finger.”

“Don’t you worry about him,” Mulder says, wiping his mouth before he rises from his seat.  “Let me show you the place before we leave.”

She looks to Melvin.  “If you’re sure I can’t help.”

“You go on with Mulder.”

“Well, now, you’ve seen our kitchen and dining area, let’s come back through the dogtrot and I’ll show you the rooms.”

“The dogtrot?”

“That’s what we call this open hall here.  We keep the front door open most days and the back door as well.  It’s good for circulation.  In case you hadn’t noticed, it can reach the same temperature as hellfire out here on the coldest summer day.  This helps with the heat.”

“That’s quite clever.”

“I thought so as well.  Now this first door on the left is where I sleep.  And this one here to the right will be yours, if you decide to stay on.”

“Mine?”

“It’s a guest room right now.  Occasionally there’s a need for people that travel through for business dealings with me to have a place to stay.”

“I can’t take that, then.  I could easily just take a bit of space in the kitchen.  If I stay on, that is.”

“You will do no such thing.”  Mulder opens the door to the room.  “It’s not much but the necessities right now but you can make it up however you like.”

Sensing a protest coming, Mulder moves them on to the last room, across from the kitchen and dining area.  He has saved the best for last in the hopes of impressing her.  He pauses with his hand on the knob.

“This is the washroom,” he says.

↭

She’s feeling overwhelmed.  Mulder has just shown her a room, in the house, which holds a copper and wooden bathing tub and an indoor pump and stove for heating water.  He tries to explain a system of pipes and wells and how they work, but he gives up and tells her he actually doesn’t have a clue how it really operates, just that it does.  The boys, he says, don’t trust it, and prefer to go into town for a Saturday night bath and shave.  Not only that, in the back of the room there’s a closet which is really a privy.  She’s never seen anything like it.

After they leave the washroom, the tour of the ranch continues out of the back door.  A rather large water tower stands some yards away.  To the east of the main house is a bunkhouse the ranch hands share and to the west of the house is a barn, stables, and a corral.  She’s surprised to learn that there are more than just horses kept here.  In fact there are chickens, two cows, several hogs and a handful of suckling pigs, some sheep, two goats, and a black and white herding dog called Queenie.

“We call her that because she thinks she runs the place,” Mulder says.

“Mulder!” Richard calls from the barn door.  “Trevor says you want the carriage hitched up.  You want the hackney since Faithful Jenny needs to break in the new shoe?”

“That’s fine,” Mulder tells him.  Richard tips his hat in acknowledgment and disappears back into the barn.

“How many horses do you have here?” Katherine asks.

“Right now, fifteen.  Six of them should be leaving us by the month’s end and then I’ll be bringing back more to replace them.”

“What do you do with them?”

“Take care of the ones that need taking care of.  For the others, break them, train them up.  Sell them.  Board them at times.”

“I can see why you prefer the land I was on.  Why you’d want it.”

“You can?”

“It’s flatter.  More prairie grass.  And full access to the creek.”

“All true.”

Richard and Trevor interrupt the conversation by bringing the carriage out with a horse the color of mahogany and a black mane.  All four of the horse’s legs are snow white and it has a white diamond just above the nose.  She almost gasps it’s such a breathtaking creature.

“That’s the most beautiful horse I’ve ever seen,” she says.

“You like her?”

“She’s so...majestic.”

“That is precisely why she earned the name Lady.  Let’s go get your bag and then we’ll head on into town.”

He insists she borrow a leather valise to use instead of her burlap sack and she transfers her meager possessions into the case.  He carries the bag for her out to the carriage and ties it to a shelf just under the seat.  He helps her up and once she’s settled, he and Richard unfold an accordion top to shade them from the sun.

The carriage rides a little smoother than a wagon.  It bounces a bit and moves fast.  She’s only been to town one time and she’s unfamiliar with the road.  The land is so vast and it all looks the same.  She can’t believe she had been considering walking to Fort Worth.  She would never make it if she tried.

“You know all there is to know about me,” Mulder says.  “Why don’t you tell me about yourself?”

“I’m sure I don’t know all that there is.”

“Everything important, I would say.”

Her palms begin to sweat and she hides her hands in the folds of her skirt.  If she tells him everything about herself, he might change his mind about everything.  He might not be so kind to her.  She doesn’t feel right about deceiving such a nice man, but there are things she must withhold for now.  At least until she’s absolutely certain he would not look at her differently or think less of her.

“I’m not very interesting,” she says.

“You said you’re from Virginia.  Whereabouts?”

“Norfolk.”

“What’s your family name?”

She hesitates for a beat to decide if it’s too much.  “O’Brien,” she finally answers.  It’s a half-truth.  The O’Brien are her mother’s people.  

“Irish?  Did your people immigrate from the famine?”

“I don’t know.”

“Brothers or sisters?”

“I told you before, there’s no one.”

“Yes, you did tell me.”

He doesn’t ask her any more questions and she feels a bit ashamed of herself for rebuffing him.  She takes a few surreptitious glances at him to see if he might be affronted, but he appears to be passively concentrating on driving the carriage.

“Would you like to try?” he asks.

“Try what?”

“Driving the carriage.”

“This carriage?”

He laughs.  “I don’t see another out here.  You can’t do any damage, here, take the lines.”

“Oh, no, I…”

“Sure you can.”  He pulls the carriage to a stop and then passes the lines over to her.  “You’re driving from the right, so with your left hand, just lay the strap down over your index finger and hold it down with your thumb.”

“Alright.”  She does as he asks and then looks to him for further instruction.

“And now slide this strap between the third and fourth fingers of your right hand, like so.”

“Like this?”

“Perfect.  I’m going to slide the whip into the grip of your right hand here and you’ll keep it angled with the natural tilt of your wrist.  Now, you just tickle Lady’s back lightly and tell her to walk.”

“That’s it?”

“That’s it.  This road is pretty straight so there shouldn’t be any worries.  If she acts up, I’m right here.  And if your arms tire, let me know.”

“Alright.”  Her heart quickens a bit so she can feel it thump against her chest and she sits up straighter in the seat.

“Keep the lines slack as well, just like you’re doing now.”

“Okay.”  She turns her wrist a little so that the tassel that dangles from the end of the whip lightly touches the horse’s back.  “Lady, walk now, please.”

Mulder laughs and she smiles broadly when the horse starts to walk forward.  Her grip on the lines feels awkward and unnatural and it takes more effort than she thought it would to keep them slack and light.  Her back and shoulders are soon sore, but she does not want to give up the control that quickly.  Maybe ten minutes pass before she tires to the point that her arms grow heavy.

“I think I need to stop now,” she says.

“Put a bit of pressure on the lines, very slowly.”

“Whoa,” she says, but the horse does not stop.

“Whoa, Lady,” Mulder calls, and he covers Katherine’s hands with his own, adding the appropriate amount of pressure to bring her to a stop.  

His hands linger and her heart quickens again.  She wants more of something in that moment that she can’t understand or describe.  She imagines turning her palms up to him and letting her fingers slide into his.  She imagines pressing a little closer to him and resting her head on his shoulder.  She imagines him putting his arm around her.  She imagines a peace that she’s never even experienced before.

His hands move off of hers and she gives him control of the lines and sits back, rubbing her hands over each other to work out a little of the soreness in her wrists.  He starts the carriage forward again and announces that they should be in town shortly.

#i wrote this #broken things #chapter 3 #au #msr

[commentaryvorg]

Digimon Data Squad Dub Comparison Episode 8 - The Singer’s Secret

This is a companion to my commentary on the original Japanese Digimon Savers! Reading my commentary on the original version of this episode (which you can find here) is recommended before reading this dub comparison. 

Original name ~ Dubbed name

Masaru Daimon ~ Marcus Damon

Yoshino Fujieda ~ Yoshino “Yoshi” Fujieda

Tohma H. Norstein ~ Thomas H. Norstein

Chika Daimon ~ Kristy Damon

Captain Rentarou Satsuma ~ Commander Richard Sampson

Hitoshi “Neon” Hanamura ~ Neon

[Since several characters share the same name between the original and the dub, quotes from the dub will always be in italics, while quotes from the original will not, in order to distinguish them.]

Since the dub constantly varies which character reads out the title card for each episode, I have to side-eye the fact that it’s Marcus and not Yoshi reading out the title card for Yoshi’s episode.

Marcus: “And now it’s eatin’ time!”

I am amused by the variation on Marcus’s “it’s fightin’ time” catchphrase. Gotta find something to replace the very-Japanese itadakimasu, and this sounds less awkward than a lot of things would in a very dorkily Marcus way.

Reporter:  “We won’t name names, but only because we haven’t discovered who she is… *yet*.”

The dub appears to be leaning into the seediness of this whole gossip thing even more than the original, which I guess is fair, since it was already pretty seedy to begin with.

Megumi:  “What’s the meaning of this?”

Miki:  “How did you, the meekest of us all among DATS members…”

Megumi:  “…Manage to snag Hanamura Neon?”

~~~~~

Megumi: “You’re dating Neon?!”

Miki: “That ring a bell, Miss Keep-Secrets-From-Her-Friends?”

Megumi:  “We read all about it in the newspaper!”

I actually somewhat prefer Megumi and Miki’s angle in the dub. Instead of being jealous and putting her down as if she doesn’t deserve to date a celebrity because she’s too “meek” or whatever, they only appear to be upset that she didn’t tell them this because they consider themselves someone she’d share this sort of thing with. (Whether they actually are that is another matter; Yoshi never seems especially close with these two. But at least that is a less tiresomely misogynistic thing for them to be being unreasonable about.)

Megumi:  “We’ve been getting phone calls one after another since morning!”

Miki:  “We’re also getting loads of hate mail from Neon’s fans!”

Megumi:  “They’re demanding to know who Fujieda Yoshino thinks she is!”

~~~~~

Megumi: “We’ve been getting phone calls all morning long asking for Yoshi to give interviews!”

Miki:  “Not to mention the mail from Neon’s fans. My papercuts have papercuts!”

Megumi: “Everyone wants to know who ‘Yoshi’ is!”

Neon’s other fans are also apparently being a little more reasonable in the dub. Rather than being jealous and hateful (“who she thinks she is” very much carries connotations of them acting like she’s too ordinary to deserve to date a celebrity), they instead seem to be suddenly treating Yoshi like a celebrity as well. Even though jealousy and hate is definitely the way a fanbase would be likely to act to something like this in real life, I do not mind at all that the dub is toning this part down.

Yoshi: “…and I wore a hat. That’s a foolproof disguise!”

Apparently Yoshi subscribes to superhero universe logic if she believed that that was ever going to work. She had a hat and sunglasses; totally couldn’t have possibly been recognised.

Thomas then pulls up the photo that was taken of Yoshi after she took her hat and sunglasses off, amusingly implying that that’s the only reason she got busted and she totally would have been fine otherwise.

Thomas: “Your name, phone number, even your favourite music… Hmm, showtunes.”

Based on his tone, Thomas appears to be judging Yoshi for her taste in music, which doesn’t really seem like the kind of thing he would do. The dub just threw in that quick gag without thinking about if it fit the character.

Also, if, according to the dub, the information published about her included her phone number, why isn’t Yoshi herself the one getting all the phone calls and not her workplace? The dub does not mention her workplace being one of the details that was made public about her, so why Miki and Megumi have been swamped with letters and phone calls about this is a mystery.

Agumon:  “What’s an undercover investigation?”

~~~~~

Agumon: “Under what cover?”

Oh hey, dub, remember how Agumon shouldn’t know a whole bunch of human terms because he only recently came into the human world? And hey, look, you can make jokes with that, too, rather than making jokes with things that it doesn’t make any sense for Agumon to be saying!

Tohma:  “So if we carelessly break in, we’ll be kicked out before we know it.”

~~~~~

Thomas:  “So if we rush in, the Digimon will know that we’re after him.”

Gaomon: “And he’ll run.”

The dub actually gives a much better excuse for why the building’s hi-tech security system means they can’t just rush in: not because the security guards will kick them out, since they should be able to pull DATS authority on that, but rather because it’ll alert Keramon than they’re coming. Good job, dub, fixing a plot hole!

Unfortunately, despite the dub’s attempts to remove Miki and Megumi’s jealousy of Yoshi and turn it into them just having wanted the gossip, which I appreciated, the dub can’t really change the part where they jealously complain that they weren’t the ones to get to (fake) date Neon. Their animations for that are too extreme to really be interpreted as anything else.

Yoshino:  “Neon is my childhood friend.”

~~~~~

Yoshi:  “I knew Neon when we were children.”

Yoshi doesn’t mention the fact that he was specifically her friend. Their conversation later in the episode is still going to clearly establish that they were indeed on friendly terms back then, but I feel it’s a bit of a shame that their friendship isn’t something Yoshi outright mentions here. Her friendship with him is obviously quite important to her and to how she approaches investigating him; it makes sense that she’d want to bring it up.

Yoshino:  “He’s completely different than before. He was shorter than me, and he was fat. When he debuted, I didn’t recognise him at all.”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “He’s so different than he used to be. He was just a shy little boy back then. I would never have guessed that he’d become such a success story.”

I am very disappointed at the dub leaving out the part where he used to be fat, because that’s an important detail that makes it significantly easier to imagine that he was probably bullied back then. Yoshi doesn’t mention that she literally didn’t even recognise him as a singer, either. The dub’s take on this is focused more on his personality and less on his image.

Under normal circumstances, that shift in focus might be a good thing, but in this particular context, image is an even more relevant thing in the celebrity world than personality is. And image also tends to be more important in terms of how likely a kid is to be bullied. This is watering down the interesting parts of Neon’s character and it makes me sad.

Yoshino:  “Hitoshi!”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “Hi, Neon!”

Another very significant change: apparently, Neon just is his real name in the dub? Or, if it’s a stage name, Yoshi doesn’t care and is happy to call him by that rather than by whatever name she knew him by as a kid. Neon having an ordinary real name and Yoshino insisting on using it (and him not liking her doing so in public) was a neat aspect of the original that helped showcase the vast contrast between who he used to be and who he is today – again, kind of the whole point of Neon’s character – so I’m very sad that the dub loses this, too.

(The dub also hasn’t mentioned his surname and just calls him “Neon” at all times. Which really doesn’t actually matter at all, because the connotations of the surname Hanamura that I talked about in the original post would obviously be lost on a Western audience (unless they changed his surname to a Western one with similar connotations – now there’d be an actual reason to give a Japanese character a Western name, for once!). But I am disappointed about it for a very silly reason anyway, because Neon’s English voice actor happens to also voice one of those other Hanamuras that I mentioned in that post (who incidentally happens to be one of my favourite fictional characters, which is probably the only reason I care about this), and it would have been a hilarious coincidence for him to have voiced two Hanamuras. He still sort of did anyway, but only sort of.)

Neon:  “I told you not to call me by my real name.”

Yoshino:  “What does it matter?”

Neon:  “You haven’t changed at all.”

~~~~~

Neon: “Hey, wanna blow off work and come to the beach with me?”

Yoshi: “Sorry, I can’t. Too much to do.”

Neon:  “Oh well, I guess it’s your loss then.”

Because Neon doesn’t have an ordinary real name in the dub, we also lose the exchange that told us some interesting things about Yoshino and Neon’s characters and how they see each other and their relationship, replaced with completely meaningless fluff. (Inviting her to blow off work and come to the beach with him is a significantly more usually-romantically-coded thing than anything else they actually do in the episode.)

Masaru:  “Is this really a mission?”

~~~~~

Marcus: “You do know this guy’s a criminal.”

Miki & Megumi: “Alleged criminal!”

Marcus: “Gimme a break!”

Instead of being exasperated by relationship nonsense, Marcus is instead really sure already that Neon’s a criminal and writing him off as not worthy of respect as a result. Miki and Megumi are being totally reasonable to point out that it’s only allegedly for now.

Masaru:  “But Yoshino…”

~~~~~

Marcus: “Yoshi, he’s hiding a Digimon.”

Marcus is way more sure and making a much bigger point of this than Masaru.

(Masaru may have already basically decided as well that Neon’s probably the culprit, but even if he had, I don’t think he’d really have cared. He’s not here for the crime-solving and human-focused side of things – so long as he gets to fight that Digimon, that’s all that matters to him!)

Yoshi and Neon have basically the same conversation about carrots as in the original, but it doesn’t have quite the same meaning without the detail that Neon used to be fat, implying that Yoshino was probably encouraging him to eat them to try and help him lose weight.

Yoshino:  “I was exercising parental love because I wanted you to eat healthy and get bigger.”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “Hey, I was just making sure you grew up big and strong by eating your veggies!”

The one real difference here is the lack of her mentioning parental love, which is a shame because I liked it emphasising the idea of Yoshino the mom friend. Perhaps they removed that because they’re trying to make this relationship seem more actually romantic. I also liked the idea that it really wasn’t that romantic in the original, at least on Yoshino’s end.

Yoshino:  “I remember you were never able to do anything on your own…”

Neon:  “Thanks for the meal.”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “This has been so much fun. It’s really a shame that you have to work tonight.”

Neon: “Wish I didn’t.”

Another really meaningful and interesting line about Neon’s kid self (and his subtly telling reaction to it) gets removed and replaced with more fluff. This isn’t even the dub accidentally losing meaningful bits because they’re missing the point; this is clearly them removing these interesting parts on purpose. Why. Neon’s character was one of the most compelling things about the original episode. All they’re doing is deliberately making this episode significantly less good.

Chika:  “Neon is so cool!”

Masaru:  “What part of him?”

~~~~~

Kristy:  “Oh man, that Neon is so cool!”

Marcus: “Yeah, right.”

Marcus sounds so weirdly bitter here, like he really has firmly decided that Neon sucks and doesn’t deserve anyone’s admiration because he’s A Criminal. Why the hell does he care so much? Masaru was just bewildered as to what the big deal about him was in a way that had nothing to do with the suspected Digimon-harbouring.

Chika:  “Obviously, the part where he tries so hard to protect his girlfriend!”

~~~~~

Kristy:  “Do you think I’ll ever date someone who’s as cool and sweet as Neon?”

Kristy also does not specify that she admires Neon for trying to keep his girlfriend out of the limelight, which I appreciated Chika doing.

Kristy: “Just have him make it out to ‘Superfan Kristy the Most Beautiful Girl in the Whole World’.”

Geez. Kristy: still noticeably more of a brat than Chika.

Masaru:  “Look, Chika, you wouldn’t like it if other people were prying about who you like or date, right? It’s the same with Yoshino. That’s to say nothing of the fact that you’re demanding his autograph just because he’s a celebrity…”

~~~~~

Marcus: “Look, you wouldn’t like it if people kept prying into the private details of your life – I mean, if you had any. Well, Yoshi’s the same. Besides, Neon is probably sick of signing autographs for annoying fans.”

Marcus is technically giving the same sort of advice here, but my god, he is being way more of a dick about it than is necessary. The dub is ruining Masaru’s adorable fatherly-advice moment and turning it into a Marcus Is A Jerk™ moment instead and I don’t like it one bit.

Kristy: “You think I’m annoying, Marcus…?”

And so in this version, Kristy is actually pretty within reason to get upset, because her brother was being a dick. (Though she was also being slightly more annoying and bratty about the autograph thing than Chika was in the first place.)

Promotional video: “Hey everybody! Have you heard the new song by pop sensation Neon? Download it today, and tell all your friends, too!”

The dub version of the “promotional video” actually has a voiceover and therefore is vaguely more believable as an actual promotion than just a weird silent two second loop. Fixing another minor plot hole, dub, well done.

The dub completely cuts out the security guard who confronts Masaru at the door, probably because they didn’t want to include the part where Masaru assaults the guy. This is despite the fact that in the original episode, Masaru implicitly gets in trouble for this later when the guy wakes up, and otherwise generally comes across as having acted very rashly and unreasonably for this whole situation. But nah, apparently we can’t have our kids’ show protagonist do a bad thing, not even when the story presents it like it was kind of a bad thing to do.

Marcus: “Open the door, I’m here to protect you!”

Masaru never actually mentioned that he’s here to protect Yoshino, even though the possibility that she was in trouble is most of the reason why he came. Marcus making an explicit point of this is him making things a lot more about himself than Masaru did, like him coming here is mostly him wanting to seem like the Big Hero, rather than him genuinely just being worried about his friend.

Yoshino:  “Masaru! What are you…?”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “Marcus, what are you doing?! You’ll blow it; Neon’s here! Go away!”

Yoshi gets a longer line here – they’re probably filling in time lost from cutting the security guard – but in the process I can’t help but think that Neon should have heard the “you’ll blow it” part, since he shows up at the door just a second later. Which in fact would have been Yoshi blowing it and not Marcus.

Masaru:  “Don’t play dumb! This was all part of your scheme!”

Neon:  “Wh-What are you doing? Who are you?!”

Masaru:  “What are you plotting, using that Digimon?!”

~~~~~

Marcus: “Don’t play dumb; I know what you’re up to!”

Neon: “What do you mean? Who are you?!”

Marcus: “Just confess and tell me what you have planned in that mind of yours!”

So, despite Marcus having been significantly more convinced than Masaru ever was that Neon is definitely hiding a Digimon, he’s… not bringing up the Digimon for some reason now that he’s actually confronting Neon, even though Masaru did. What the hell.

The dub cuts the moment of Yoshino slapping Masaru, albeit not very convincingly, since there’s still a shot of him briefly looking like he’s just been slapped, and then a visible mark on his face a shot later.

Yoshino:  “How dare you suddenly intrude into other people’s houses! How about you consider *not* being a nuisance to others for a change!”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “Who do you think you are, barging into somebody’s house just for a measly autograph?! I don’t care how big a fan you are, you better learn some manners, kid!”

I do enjoy Yoshi putting on even more of an act here, trying to make it look like Marcus is some crazed fan desperate for an autograph. Though I’m not sure that angle entirely matches with Marcus’s behaviour of grabbing Neon and demanding that he confesses what he’s up to. Then again, Neon is going to figure out people are onto him from this either way, so I guess it doesn’t matter how convincing Yoshi is or isn’t.

Masaru:  “Hey, wait! I said wait! What was that for?”

Yoshino:  “You’re ruining my undercover investigation.”

~~~~~

Marcus: “What was all that for, Yoshi?”

Yoshi:  “To stop *you* from blowing my cover and all of my hard work.”

I enjoy Yoshi being more pointedly annoyed about this with her emphasis that he’s ruining her hard work. She has a right to be.

Masaru:  “What the hell, I was just worried about her.”

~~~~~

Marcus: “Well, I’m so sorry for trying to save you!”

Marcus! This is not about you! Masaru wasn’t trying to make this about himself; he was just worried about his friend – but Marcus is making this all about him Being The Hero and him being the one to save her.

It’s not that I don’t hypothetically enjoy characters who have issues along those lines, but that should not be the point with Marcus here. The dub isn’t going to go anywhere interesting with this because it wasn’t a thing in the original, so instead this just sticks out as another thing making Marcus more self-absorbed.

The security guard showing up here now is still there in the dub, even though they cut Masaru knocking him out earlier.

Sampson: “Keramon’s making it seem like Neon’s selling more songs than he is.”

[…]

Kudamon: “The more popular people think he is, the more albums they buy.”

They have an interesting point here not brought up in the original, that even if Keramon is only making Neon look more popular by messing with the figures, that’s going to result in actually making him more popular. In the original, it was unclear exactly what kind of manipulation Keramon had been doing (until the obvious stunt last night) and I sort of vaguely got the impression that it’d been actually making people download his songs even if they never wanted to. Then again, that might be obvious enough that people would have reported it, so perhaps things were always meant to be how the dub is explaining them to be here. Good job to the dub again for making that clearer. (…Or so I thought; hold this thought.)

Thomas: “Clearly, Neon’s making a fortune through fraud.”

I don’t especially like the dub adding this, though, because Neon should not be doing this for the money. He’s doing this for the popularity. Admittedly Thomas is only speculating and wouldn’t know better, but him stating it like this makes it seem like this is the correct conclusion to make about Neon’s motives.

Neon:  “To think that you were one of them…”

Yoshino:  “It’s prohibited to give a Digimon refuge!”

~~~~~

Neon:  “I just can’t believe you were a part of this. I trusted you!”

Yoshi: “Yeah, that’s why you told me all about your illegal Digimon!”

I enjoy Yoshi actually somewhat responding to the accusation of betrayal by pointing out that he was hiding something from her as well. Though I also do think Yoshino’s response of completely avoiding the topic says something interesting in and of itself.

Neon:  “Don’t order me around!”

~~~~~

Neon: “Don’t you judge me!”

While the “don’t order me around” perhaps touched on Neon’s past of not being able to do much on his own, “don’t judge me” would also potentially touch on his past of being bullied. However, I can’t help but think that’s more by luck than judgement on the dub’s part, since they went and deliberately removed so many of the other hints of Neon’s past even being like that in the first place.

Neon:  “He distributes my songs around the world and manipulates music charts…”

Wait, so Keramon actually does forcibly distribute the songs even to people who don’t want them, and not just fake the figures so that people will be more likely to check out what the fuss is about?

Yeah, actually, this line is basically exactly what Neon said here originally, so I guess that is what was meant to have been going on after all. Sampson and Kudamon must have missed that part when they were discussing things earlier.

Yoshino:  “Hitoshi, stop this!”

~~~~~

Yoshi: “You have to stop this. Fraud is a criminal offence!”

Though the lack of her being able to call him Hitoshi is a bad thing again, I do appreciate Yoshi pointing out that fraud is a crime. Even aside from DATS’s rules that nobody’s allowed to have a Digimon unless they’re a DATS member, Neon has still been breaking the regular law anyway, and the original didn’t really emphasise that very much.

They cut out the moment of Keramon grabbing Yoshi by the neck, but they do still show her being held like that in a shot a second later.

Neon:  “No way! Keramon is my partner!”

~~~~~

Neon: “Keramon is my partner just like your Digimon! I wouldn’t betray him any more than you’d betray them!”

Dub-Neon is very deliberately making the parallel to DATS’s Digimon rather than only accidentally invoking it by happening to use the same word – but it really isn’t a parallel he should be making deliberately. Keramon is not a person. It hasn’t spoken or expressed its own desires or sense of self at all; it’s just giggled creepily and done as he’s ordered it to. There is no actual meaningful bond of friendship here for Neon to care about not wanting to betray.

I think the dub added this in because the dubbers actually think that it’s basically the same deal going on with Neon and Keramon as with DATS and their partners. But it really, really isn’t.

Neon:  “Thanks to him, my songs are played throughout the world! He’s making me famous!”

~~~~~

Neon:  “He made me rich and famous!”

Famous, yes, but the money is not the point, dub. Neon in the original never mentioned money as being part of why he’s doing this.

Also, the past tense implies that it’s only because of Keramon that Neon became famous at all. Which I really doubt is supposed to be the case, because there’s no sense given at any point that Neon just burst into the public eye out of nowhere within the past month since he’s had Keramon. He must have been already doing reasonably well on his own merit before he started using fraud.

Masaru:  “What’s this crap about him making you famous?! It’s not through your own efforts! If you wanted to change yourself through your music, then do it using your own merit!”

~~~~~

Marcus: “Your whole career is a giant lie! You haven’t actually achieved anything! That Digimon of yours did everything for you; you’re nothing but a phony!”

…But it seems the dub really wants us to think that it’s only because of Keramon that Neon got anywhere at all and he was never genuinely good enough to deserve any amount of success whatsoever. I think the dubbers might have missed the point of this as well and believed that that was actually what was going on in the original episode.

And of course, because of this, we lose the interesting nuanced moment of Masaru being really good and pointing out that Neon should have kept working at this using his own merit. Instead we just get Marcus boringly shooting him down completely.

Yoshino:  “Stop!”

Lalamon:  “Stop!”

~~~~~

Yoshi:  “No pictures!”

Lalamon: “Give me that camera!”

Lalamon demanding the camera further emphasises the point of Yoshi choosing to do this instead of fight, and it gives more of a vague impression that maybe she really does take the camera and wipe the pictures offscreen, even though we won’t be seeing it. I approve.

Neon:  “Everyone needs to quit making fun of me!”

~~~~~

Neon:  “My career’s ruined now, and you’re gonna pay!”

Unsurprisingly, after everything the dub has already removed about Neon’s interesting aspects, they also remove probably the most interesting line – the one that very strongly hints he used to be bullied and that this has all been about him breaking away from that in a way that gradually became more and more desperate and obsessive to the point of illegality.

Instead, dub-Neon is somebody who wanted to be rich and famous just because, apparently had genuinely no actual talent or merit to base that on whatsoever, and just faked his entire success story (which the dub expects us to think he could have believably done within a month) using Digimon-driven fraud. That’s just… boring.

It also makes it significantly less interesting and meaningful why Keramon evolves in response to these words, though I suppose a burst of vengeful anger at them for ruining his fraudulent career is still reasonable enough to do it.

Masaru:  “Change places! Let’s go, Agumon!”

~~~~~

Marcus: “We’ll take ‘im! It’s fightin’ time!”

I am mildly sad at the loss of the sense that Masaru sees this as him tagging in for Tohma and being equal teammates with him, rather than trying to grab all the glory himself.

Neon:  “Even the memory of when we met again?”

~~~~~

Neon: “Even the stuff about you and me?”

In the dub, Neon makes this just about losing what their relationship is now and nothing else. I liked the sense that, after all the fraud had been uncovered and he’d basically given up, original-Neon was mostly sad to lose the memory of seeing her again, his childhood friend who was there for him during that tough time and could be proud of how far he’d come.

Overall differences

This episode has quite a few significant differences, with a lot of them being bad, but at least there’s a small handful of good ones too, for once.

Let’s start with the good ones. This episode’s dub actually has a couple of small fixes to some minor logic issues the original had. They explained that they can’t break into Neon’s building because the high security meant that Neon/Keramon would see them coming and run, which made a lot more sense. Then they gave the promo video a voiceover, making it a lot more believable as a promo video than some weird silent two-second loop.

Yoshi also has a few minor good bits: leaning more into the story that Marcus is a crazed fan when he shows up at the door, pointing out that fraud is a crime. I also appreciate that they attempted to tone down Miki and Megumi’s harshness towards her at least a little.

But onto the bad stuff: the really huge glaring problem with the dub of this episode is Neon. Neon’s character was the big saving grace of this otherwise not especially interesting episode to me in the original, and none of what makes him that way is present in the dub. All of the hints of him being weak and helpless and probably-bullied as a kid are watered down into him simply having been kind of shy, there’s no hints of him remaking his image (no mention that Neon is a stage name; for all we know in the dub, that’s somehow his real name), and way too much emphasis put on him doing this for money, not just fame. If Marcus is to be believed, he had absolutely zero talent and got where he was entirely through Keramon’s meddling, which is extremely unrealistic to have happened in a single month without anyone questioning it and is also way, way less interesting. Dub-Neon is just some boring flat villain greedy for fame and fortune, rather than an interestingly messed-up character.

And it’s really strange to me that this character assassination is so complete and consistent that it must have been deliberate? The dub writers consciously decided to remove everything that made this episode’s focus character interesting. Why in the world would they choose to do that.

Then there’s this episode’s treatment of Marcus, which is standard fare at this point but still frustrating enough that I am always going to talk about it when it happens in any significant amount.

He’s more insistent that Neon’s harbouring a Digimon from the start despite the lack of proof, but then, bizarrely, doesn’t bring up Digimon when he breaks in even though Masaru did. He makes the breaking-in part a lot more About Himself by making a point that he’s here to save Yoshi, which is a very different thing than Masaru coming there in case Yoshino needed saving but not actually caring whether she knows it or not. Marcus is also more of an unnecessary dick to his sister in the bit where she’s asking him for Neon’s autograph. And the interesting nuance that Masaru had in his speech to Neon, about putting in effort and changing yourself through your own merits, is lost in favour of this new boring narrative where Neon apparently had zero talent and deserved none of his fame in the first place.

Oh, and the bit where Masaru attacked the security guard was cut, because I guess your kids’ show protagonist isn’t allowed to attack a responsible adult, even when the narrative presents this as a bad thing that he shouldn’t have done and implicitly gets in trouble for.

#digimon #digimon savers #digimon data squad

[mshomestyle]

Tokoyami Fumikage x Reader: Applying crow-like instincts to Tokoyami [Head Canons].

This is from an ask I received, and I’m so happy to do this because I adore Tokoyami. He needs more love. Also, if anyone has any other asks for me feel free to send them!

What would these crow tendencies mean to Tokoyami Fumikage:

(Number 11 involves sex.)

1. “Crows have a varied and evolved language. They can mimic the sounds made by other animals, and they learn to associate noises with events, especially with the distribution of food.“ If you want to learn a new language, look no further than Tokoyami. It’s easy for him to learn a language. If you go to foreign countries that you’ve never been to before on vacation, all it takes is reading a language book on the plane and listening to the locals talk for Tokoyami to be able to parrot back the language rather well, especially when it comes to ordering at restaurants. It’s nice not to need a translator with him around.

2. “Crows are omnivorous, and they don’t seem to be picky eaters. Their diet includes fruits, mice, frogs and carrion.“

“What should we eat for dinner tonight?”

“Whatever you want.” And Tokoyami means it when he says it. He’s not the type to deny anything you chose, and you can sit there and name various places and different cuisine options, and he’ll say ‘yes’ to every one. Anything is fine to him. He only seems into it when apples are involved!

3. “Crows maintain only one mate for their entire life. They don’t reach sexual maturity until they reach the age of 2 but some often wait longer to get their soulmate. Once they find their soulmate, it is a lifetime’s bonding!“ Tokoyami and Hawks have definitely had this conversation before, and they see their love lives in the exact same light. “I’m only falling in love and getting married once,” Hawks says.

“I feel the exact same way.” And Tokoyami has expressed this to you as well. He also has no problem taking his relationship with you slow if that’s what you want. He’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, and he’ll always see you as his one and only.

4. “ Both parents take care of the babies and help them with feeding. That may not be weird but this is weird – some of the offspring will actually stay back to look after the next batch of babies.” Tokoyami is a very involved father. When your babies are newborns he has absolutely no problem waking up in the middle of the night when they’re hungry to feed them with a bottle. Half because he wants you to get your sleep, and the other half is because he likes the bonding time with his kids. And if you and Tokoyami end up with another baby later in life, when your other kids are older they will help with it as well, possibly even offering to move back temporarily.

5. “A crow is actually a songbird and it has a complex system of calls.“ If you are careful enough, you’ll be able to hear him singing in the shower, and when you do his voice absolutely melts your heart. Tokoyami is a really good singer, though waves that off if you mention it. He does, however, not mind playing his guitar around you.

6. “Crows have such high level of intelligence that it has been observed that if a crow is unable to crack a nut, then it puts it on a highway so that vehicle could pass over it to crack it open. It was also observed that they prefer to put the nut under smaller vehicles so that the kernel is not be reduced to pulp!“ Tokoyami is incredibly smart, and it’s easy for him to solve any problems that you might have. You could be stumped with something all day, but if you take it to Tokoyami he can solve it quickly without fail. And while you’re just looking at him in amazement, especially since he manged to come up with a way to solve it that you didn’t even consider, he just shrugs.

7. “Crows, being the smart birds that they are, investigate an area for possible threats after another crow dies there.“ Tokoyami is a bit more protective than he’d like to think. He doesn’t want you going into any areas that have a large crime rate. In fact, if you’re planning to go somewhere new, Tokoyami will check it out beforehand, whether it’s in person or via the internet.

“Hey, is that Tokoyami and the other guys over there?” Mina asked, drink in her hand. You just rubbed your eyes, knowing that this would happen the second you told Tokoyami that the bar you were going to had a fight happen in it last week.

8. “ Crows will adopt: Cornell researchers witnessed something both heartbreaking and heartwarming: after an adult crow known simply as RV died of West Nile virus, his children were orphaned. Amazingly, his neighbor and crow friend adopted and cared for the baby crows!” It’s no doubt that Tokoyami is a hero. Every time he has to handle a case where a little child is involved and unprotected, his heart breaks for them. You’ve gotten used to him coming home with children saying that you’ll both look after the child until a proper home for them can be found. You don’t mind this at all, and you find it very cute. After all, you knew that if it were realistic for Tokoyami to adopt every child that needed it, then he would.

9. “They can solve puzzles: For a study, researchers once assigned a crow a simple puzzle involving eight tasks—picking up objects, moving them, and other complex steps. The crow had never seen them in sequence before. Yet, the crow finished it easily—the first bird to ever accomplish anything like it.“ If you do not like to lose, then don’t play puzzle games with Tokoyami. It takes him no time at all to figure puzzles out, and he does so effortlessly. You could cheat the system, however, and employ his help when you play with people that aren’t him! Midoriya still can’t seem to figure out how you managed to beat his high score at online sudoku so quickly.

10. “Corvids are all about family: Mama crows don’t push their young from the nest as soon as they can fly.” Hawks and Tokoyami talk about family, too as well! Tokoyami dotes on his kids, spending lots of time with them. He doesn’t force them to make life decisions, but rather gently encourages them, letting them know that they will always have the help of their family. You don’t exactly mind that, in fact, you find it cute. You just wish he would stop spoiling them...Seriously, when you came to know him, you didn’t think the children you had together would have him wrapped around their tiny fingers.

11. “The mating habits of this bird take place on the ground. The male bird has a courtship display of facing the female and fluffing his body feathers. Then he partially spreads his wings and tail and proceeds to bow repeatedly while uttering a brief rattling song. Once a male and female have mated, they perch together and may touch bills and preen each other's feathers.” Before you have sex, Tokoyami likes to make sure he’s nice and presentable, usually. He doesn’t just go it, looking any kind of way. And he also makes sure to court you before having sex (at least for the first time or special occasions.) He takes you to dinner and makes sure to properly seduce you. Once you’re both done having sex, he does an amazing job with the aftercare, holding you close, kissing you, and stroking his fingers through your hair. He definitely wants you to feel loved.

#tokoyami fumikage x reader #tokoyami fumigake #tokoyami #mha tokoyami #tokoyami x reader #my hero x reader #My hero academia #boku no hero x reader #boku no hero academia #head canons #headcanon #crows #answered ask #asks