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CR musings - Orym, Vax, and where the Hells go next (SPOILERS AHOY)
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So after letting my brain mull over the most recent episode for a day or so, now I can finally write about it. This is, of course, just my OPINION on the subjects -- your mileage may vary.
ORYM
Yes, I legit cried for Orym at his new title, and his recognition by Keyleth for what he and the Hells have done. I was so happy for my favorite little cinnamon roll. I still think he's going to be struggling with his anger for a while because there's still SO much to be done, and he still feels so very small, but Keyleth's choice of title was an incredibly apt one.
Saviour Blade of the Tempest.
A marvelous callback to two episodes prior, where he begs her, "Allow me to be your blade, Tempest," in response to her intention to utterly destroy Ludinus and the Vanguard. But not just that - by calling him her Saviour Blade, she is reminding him that his job is to SAVE people, to PROTECT people, *NOT* just vengeance.
(I admit, I briefly wondered if she might name him the Shield of the Tempest, in memory of Derrig, but a shield is solely to protect. A sword can attack as well as defend - and that's what Keyleth needs right now.)
This coming on the heels of the 6-Sided Dive episode where Liam talks repeatedly about how Orym's 'bedrock' is crumbling, and how he feels so small and tries to shoulder so much of his burden by himself... to have the woman he refers to as "the boss lady," "our leader," "the Voice of the Tempest," and so on refer to HIM as HER FRIEND... oh, you could see it in the widening of Liam's eyes when Matt said that, he never expected to hear something like this.
(That WHOLE affirmation speech, Liam just sits there and you can see the hint of tears in his eyes. He NEVER looks away from Matt the entire time.)
So, yeah... when I mentioned in another post about wanting to see what he'll do to try and shore up that bedrock before it completely gives way, I think this is a solid step. But it's not over yet - not by a long shot.
VAX
The dark angel stuck in an orb... there's (apparently) been a lot of discussion/argument/whatever about what Vax is, and what it means about him being stuck in an orb, and what will happen if/when he's freed.
I look at Vax's role as something similar to Charon, Thanatos, or Hermes in Greek mythology - the psychopomps whose job it is to shepherd souls to the afterlife.
The MoR tells Vax (both in-stream and in LoVM) that her purpose (and now his) is to safeguard the moment where the soul transitions to whatever its new purpose may be - passage to the Astral Sea, to the realm of whatever deity has potential claim to that soul, or even to consecution, I would suppose. And the moment that Vax TRULY accepted that deal, he stopped being afraid - he was more at peace with himself, he saw his purpose and understood it. And even more than that, it made him so much more aware of the inherent need to live life and enjoy it while you have it.
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My theory is that Vax being trapped in the orb is why resurrection magic doesn't work. Don't get me wrong - souls can still transition WITHOUT him - the MoR had no champion (as far as we know, lore-wise) between Purvan Suul and Vax, and yet people still died, and people could still be brought back. But presumably their souls were more vulnerable to outside influence.
And right now, the MoR (in addition to mourning) is doing everything she can to protect the moment the souls pass… but only in ONE direction (life > death > beyond), and whatever safeguarding of the tapestry that she can muster. She has no energy to spare to protect or facilitate that moment in the OTHER direction.
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I also don't think that if/when Vax is freed, that's going to end his service to the Matron. That deal was PERMANENT - "you will return to me, my champion, evermore." I think MAYBE, *MAYBE* when Keyleth FINALLY dies and her soul passes on, the MoR might let Vax go so they can finally be together. But otherwise, nope - he is the Matron's.
NEXT STOP?
Part of this is me conspiracy-theorizing again, part of this is just my personal hopes. Again, your mileage may very.
I am HOPING that the Hells head straight to the Shattered Teeth, instead of faffing around trying to collect allies before they even know WTF is going on yet. They will have far more success trying to recruit people when they can provide concrete evidence of what they're doing, whom they're fighting, and SOMETHING REMOTELY APPROACHING a strategy on how to defeat him.
I'm not 100% saying I don't want them to go to the Menagerie Coast in search of Devexian because anything that helps FCG better understand his own capabilities could certainly help, but I DO NOT want them going to Nicodranas just so they can relieve C2's Greatest Hits. Send them to Port Zoon or something - where they will not run into Fjord, they will not run into Jester, they will not run into Yussa and Marion and the Brenattos... save all that for the live show.
Get them on a boat and heading toward the Shattered Teeth ASAP.
Also (here's the conspiracy-theorizing part) I think that Kathula is a possible language-shifted name for Cathmoira, the land-based half of Toramunda from ExU: CALAMITY. And the tree that Keyleth is talking about (Evontra'vir, the Great Tree of Atrophy) is almost certainly the tree that Laerryn Blight-ed. As far as the woman that Keyleth was talking about, I'm wondering if she's a member of the Ossended Host, one of the two prominent groups that inhabits/controls the islands of the Shattered Teeth.
(I also wonder if Keyleth is perhaps hoping that Jirana will help Orym deal with his grief over losing Will and Derrig the same way that Jirana helped her try to deal with losing Vax.)
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I can't wait to see the next episode - give me Orym visiting the graves of Will and Derrig, give me Ashton and Orym's new outfits, give me Alma's reactions to her boy getting a promotion, give me more of Ashton's conversation with Thollo about the Hishari... I WANT MORE.
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How the 3 idiots started dating: Azul, Idia, Yael (my self insert Yuu)
Read their lore below the cut
For Azul I have it Yael kept going back for stupid petty deals and Azul was too dense to pick up on. Yael just wanted an excuse to talk to the octopus man. Think “oh I’m some poor defenceless magicless little man :( just ignore my vampirism and the unique magic that comes with it I need my big strong merman to come help me with everything I’ll pay you so much Azul” and Azul just heard “pay” and doesn’t question it. It’s not that he doesn’t enjoy how domestic it feels or how strangely calming Yael’s singing voice is as they complete the small contract. But really these are basic chore level of petty for the contracts. Like this is all during book 3 btw the crush hit hard and fast and really pathetically. It was 100% one sided for so long btw and Yael knew this was a bad idea he was trying to kiss the literal enemy. Enemies to lovers (real, canon)
Yael: make a deal to help me…i don’t know clean despite being 324 years old…100% legit please believe me and don’t question that.
Azul: weird request but you’re paying and money is money :)
The tweels: oh he’s advanced stupid
Azul does confess after he noticed Yael didn’t come see him for a couple weeks at one point. After the book 3 events with Azul’s overblot Yael became scared of Azul same way he does for Riddle and Leona as well. Well not scared but he’s having nightmares about their blot forms and if he sees them for too long he panics. He’s better by now with Riddle tbh and Leona after sharing the dorm with him so long. But after Azul’s it’s too soon. Too much for him mentally. So he stopped showing up to the lounge on his regular schedule. Then a week passed. And then two weeks. And he won’t answer or even open texts. Won’t answer emails. Won’t sit near them during lunch in fact he just kinda stopped showing up to lunch all together. Which freaked out everyone. He was still in ramshackle at this point so no housewarden could forcibly check on him ask if he’s ok. And then suddenly a month passed. And Azul was a worried mess and was half way to breaking and entering into the falling apart dormatory which he knows would be a bad idea. But this lead to him doing some introspection on why the fuck do I even care actually?? Jade had to tell him because Azul is 100% too dense and has too low self esteem to assume it’s a crush on the little vampire. And by that I mean Jade literally hit him upside the head with a book and explained in detail everything Azul missed action and body language wise over the past months. He offers a one time cooking service for “being a persistent customer” over text to lure Yael out to the lounge after hours to make a big deal confessing over dinner in private right next to the jellyfish tank, Yael’s favorite spot in the lounge. So that way the little jellyfish swim near them both as Azul lays out his feelings a bit too close to how he also describes his contracts. But Yael doesn’t care it sounds transactional he just happily accepts the terms because he loves this silly merman.
The Idia one happens a few months after Azul and Yael start dating.probably closer to right before book 6 like half way though book 5-ish. The competition or festival still haven’t happened yet. But practice has already started for sure. Idia assumed he lost his chance with them both,because he was a sad little man with a crush on them both, and they catch wind of it via Ortho who seeked them both out to reveal his bothers crush and current depression episode that the festival planning has made worse. This transpired to them telling Ortho don’t worry we got this basically. They just needed to buy time really. Just a couple days to plan so they didn’t anger Vil with the practice schedule Yael was apart of. After a few days they both barge into his room and drag his anti social ass outside to a weeping willow tree they found in a remote part of campus and force him onto a date and he just accepts they basically adopted him as a boyfriend and he just has them. Like it was just grab, deliver to date spot, okay you’re dating both of us now kissy kissy time.
He goes online to play his games that night just sends this to his little gaming partner “i think im in an relationship. I didn’t choose to be. They just started dating me by force.”
Love those 2 fr thanks for reading my word dump on them 🖤
#twst#disney twst#twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#twst self insert#twst azul#twst idia#twst ships#twst oc#twst sona#twst mc
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I get if people are frustrated with the lack of Buddie goodness we are used to. However I just had 2 points.
One Carla and the dance. Would I have loved Buck there of course. But this isn't out of the realm of the dynamics of Carla's role in Christopher's life. She is the one that interviewed the school with him, has gone to the conferences, zoomed with him. In S4 and S5 she was the at home sound board when it came to Anna and Christopher's nightmares. She is however not his gaurdian, that's Buck!!!
Two I think the lack of Buddie interactions is the point. I mean we got their opening dinner. They were like here they are we didn't forget you. We just aren't there yet
What gets them there, clearly I have no clue. But I feel confident they will get there . It may not be till the end of 6 and I could be wrong. I never give up on ships though.
Anyways my main point was if you judge this episode don't judge it based on Carla being where you wished to see Buck because this isn't a change in the storytelling. She's always been right there. The strange thing is the lack of Buddie. That has to mean something.
Hi lovely Nonnie!
I get it if people are upset, ‘coz I miss having more Buddie intimate content as well. I do tend to agree with you though. Carla has been there for Eddie in this capacity before, this ep was not unusual. Neither is the distance between Buck and Eddie, we also saw it in 5a as a build up to them coming back together, stronger than ever, in 5b. I think maybe the difference is that after we went through this dynamic in s5, people wanted to get to enjoy Buddie togetherness more this season. It’s legit. But yeah, I am assuming that we are going through a similar season structure which is going to lead to us getting more Buddie in 6b, maybe even starting with the 6a finale.
But yes, without a doubt, Carla does not and cannot replace Buck in the lives of the Diaz boys. Like you said, she’s not the legal guardian in Eddie’s will, despite being in their lives already by 315. She’s also not the one who slept on Eddie’s couch in 414, even though it is literally her job to take care of Chris. She’s not the one who dropped Chris off at school in 514 to let Eddie sleep in. She’s not the one who knows how to take Eddie’s heart, figure out what it needs, and help heal it. On more than one occasion. More over, every bit of good that Carla does for Eddie, every single time she is there for him, you have to remember: Buck was the one who introduced Eddie to Carla in 204. None of that good would exist if it weren’t for Buck, so it is all a testament to the kind of guy Buck is and the force of his love for Eddie and Chris, which made him step into their mess with them as early as that.
As for never giving up on ships... I will never stop pointing out that I have shipped once for 8 seasons, including through one of them having a Very Significant Other (complete with wedding and a kid, ooof), and I was eventually rewarded for my faith. And every single second they had together was that much more meaningful precisely because I waited for it for so long.
Thank you for the ask, hope you have a great day! And as always, here’s my ask tag! xoxox
#buddie#911meta#buddie meta#911 meta#9-1-1#evan buckley#eddie diaz#edmundo diaz#evan buck buckley#carla price#christopher diaz#ask#anon ask#911onabc#911 on abc#911abc#911 abc
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Ron Kamonohashi: Deranged Detective Episode 6 Review - Do Psychic Powers Exist?
I want you to take a closer look at the opening, mainly at the parts after the two sisters from the piggy bank case. You see Kawasemi and Yamane walking past Toto while Toto walks past the husband and wife from the hot springs case? Yeah, they were blurry before; same goes for Michiyo who shows up after that shot as she walks past Ron. I like that little detail of the minor characters showing up as well as someone as important as Kawasemi. It shows that even if these characters are mainly episodic ones, they still play a lot of significance in Ron and Toto’s sleuthing adventures.
Back on to the review, today’s episode mainly introduces a new character. Dr. Mofu Usaki is a renowned neurosurgeon who’s very accident-prone and clumsy when she’s not doing surgery. I do like that while she is pretty much a dojikko (otaku lingo for ‘cute clumsy girl’), she’s actually pretty competent with what she does. She was on a supernatural program to disprove the existence of psychic powers; she made solid theories on Torage’s credibility and she even performed CPR on the victim and could tell what sort of poison was flowing through his body. I love how she was written not as a cute girl who needs help, but as a cute competent girl who helped out in solving the abrupt murder case. However, the biggest mystery about Dr. Mofu is how she’s still alive. I guess her clumsiness gives her good luck, which reminds me of Colette from Tales of Symphonia who also had similar clumsiness.
The case was a rather quirky one. It stems from whether or not psychic powers were the cause of it. I think the most interesting aspect of the case is that Ron and Toto have to prove that Torage isn’t a psychic and that he murdered the victim with his own hands. The fact that the duo have to prove that Torage is a quack is the key element to this case; the man already admitted he killed him, but the point is proving his method. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting part where the word DEATH upside down became SLEEP. It feels a bit contrived, but hey, as long as they solved it, I’m okay with it. The murder weapon is actually a needle that’s in a marker.
After two episodes, Ron’s weird culprit killing eyes activate again. This time, Toto legit risks his life to stop the situation and he succeeds. However, the fact that the marker he was holding was a normal marker made me sigh with relief. Seeing Ron so shaken up that he almost got Toto killed showed how much those eyes do bother him and why he took a five year break from sleuthing after his expulsion. Not much is known about Ron right now, but I’m sure that he just doesn’t want to be the cause of murders that he has no memories of once again; the fear of him regaining consciousness and seeing Toto dead is understandable. I’m glad that Ron is showing that he does care a lot for Toto. I seriously love that Toto’s kind and confident words were the reason Ron got out of his funk. Toto may be mistreated a lot, but you cannot deny he has a very good heart; that’s why Ron likes him so much.
Other than the case and the RonToto moments, I love the comedic aspects of the episode. From Ron finally getting a TV and spending his nights watching shows to the point that his eyes became red to Ron posing as a Torage fan was hilarious. I love how he does his signature hair flip, but the difference was that he did it and it revealed that his eyes are still red. I love that the signature scene does have its variations and today’s episode showed a hilarious aspect of it. Bless Dr. Mofu for handing him eye drops.
Since Dr. Mofu is a neurosurgeon, I do wonder if she will be a key factor to help Ron control the eyes and to give a solid diagnosis on what the heck is going on with him at those moments. I hope she appears more in the future; she does seem to be an important character with how she’s prominent in the ending. What are your thoughts to this case and episode?
#ron kamonohashi's forbidden deductions#ron kamonohashi deranged detective#kamonohashi ron no kindan suiri#ron kamonohashi#totomaru isshiki#mofu usaki#review#anime#anime review
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Ranking The S-boys To How Well I Would Survive Them
Alrighty, so I have been thinking of doing this for a bit now. This will be based on the first game, I'll be doing the M-boys and T-boys and add Kino on a later date(once I read their routes)
Also, I would like to thank the Youtuber who posted all of the routes. Please check her out! Without her I wouldn't be in this fandom
So I wanted to add TWs, HDB is as you would know, isn't the most cutesy of games and the things I will be talking about are going to be hard hitting.
TW: sexual assault, s!lf harm, r!pe, depression, mental health,
So its going to ranks from best route to worse, so lets get started
Shuu. Okie, for me, Shuu route is legit just looking after a child and is my comfort route. Shuu makes me laugh and to be fair, the worse thing he does(this sounds dumb but be with) is "jokey" almost killing you in a torture thingy. Anther than that, its just dealing with this dude who really doesn't want you around and looking after him when he falls asleep in the bath, which is good. Adding to this, him breaking down in front of you was such a one on one moment, him letting you see that part of him was so personal. And I could really relate to him.
Subaru. Now, this may be odd for why he isn't #1, but for me, I can not stand angry people. His Dark, really got to me and he triggered me in one of his episodes when he got mad in Maniac 4. But, besides this, I really do like Subaru and he would be #1 if I wasn't triggered by angry people, because when it comes to the most healthy relationship, it is with Subaru. Ok but the time him and Yui fucked for the first time, um cute asf.
Reiji. So, Reiji...I was a bit shocked getting into his route. I mean, getting whipped so early? Bruh. Adding to this, I am dyslexic and getting not top notch grades and asking questions, is just gonna happen. So I guess I would just be getting whipped A LOT. But to be honest, I would just like to annoy him and not let him get the upper hand over me, meaning to not think he is getting to me. I am normally not a pride person, but knowing someone is wanting to make me look small, really annoys me and I will challenge them. Reiji and I do have things in common though, so I do feel we can have some middle ground, but honestly, he would just find things that soo "deserves" a punishment. With this whole Cordelia thingy, I would be for real cheering her on. Come onnn this motherfucker finally gets a taste of his on shit, I would feel bad over time though.
Ayato. CHILL bro! This motherfucker be for real out here and getting jealous over stars? I would feel so drained all the time, the non-stop getting messed with is just fucking hell, can I get a break? Adding to this the episode where Kanato comes into Yuis room, yeah, the ending triggered me. Anything sexual I cannot deal with. As I am dimisexual(dimisexual is the gaining of attraction though gaining a deep bond with someone, this is the only way one will feel any sexual feelings towards someone) and has been though sexual assault, anything sexual is just a no go. And the non-stop punishment are, as stated, are just so tiring. I would be mentally drained.
Kanato. I have finished his route today, and was expenting worse? Now, it was bad, 100%. Yui forgetting everything, him killing his brothers, his out bursts of anger, his need to have full control over Yui, was so overbearing. But, with forgetting like everything? It's like a new start, and idk ruling the Demon World as a vampire is slay asf. If Yui did not forget her memories and became a doll or something, I feel it would've been #6. But sense she just becomes a vampire, physically and mentally and seems happy(not like mentally unwell happy like in Laitos and Ayato's route) at the end, I feel it isn't the worse. But 100%, is one of the worse.
Laito. This fucker. He, for me is the worse. I cannot do sexual shit, it just is no. He is just a fucking evil motherfucker in HDB. Like come on, he would fuck my mental health so badly, Maniac 7, is just I just cant. How the fuck did Yui do that? The next day just pushing though? I would be a mess. She is so fucking strong man. His route has triggered me the most out of all of them, like the bath episode, that was so hard to read. With dealing with those thoughts before, it was just so hard to watch. How Yui was, would be how I would be. But, at the start I would be hard to break. Humiliation does nothing to me, walking around with handcuffs? Easy, as stated before, if I feel someone is trying to make me look small, I will challenge them. I would act not bothered just to piss him off, that is what he wants, so why give it to him. But, lets be real, It would get lend to the worse stuff quicker. It would not be long to found what does get to me.
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Pity 60?! ALMOST THERE! You can do it! 🥳 2 ?! Goodness how even 😭😭 The lowest I got was 6... Not any better but 2 is so close to being flat broke...
Yeahhh her dad is such an ass Maxi is the sweetest! And she's got a super hot husband now so I guess she DID benefit from being married off 😚 Oh I've read that too! Edna is such a girlboss I love her! It's different from the normal damsel in distress kind of Female lead, and it's really refreshing. What else have you read?
I hope so! But I'm still 18 and I wanna enjoy being single hahaha! I've seen my friends cry and weep over guys and I feel like I want to stay unburdened by the weight of a relationship till I'm like 19-20-ish? Thanks Chu! haha it's getting super rainy where I'm from... It's so cold istg...
Ahaha! I'm not THAT young. But I do agree that my watchlist is soul-sucking dhdhdh. Though, there's something about sad animes, don't you think?
HAHAHA you're young too! And you finished Naruto during your summer break?! Omg just how much did you watch per day you're amazing.
Right?! We deserve to know, Gege! Have mercy please was killing off our 3 JJK daddies not enough-
Hmm I honestly preferred the old art, even if the animation wasn't on par with Mappa's. I did pick it up after awhile, but Instagram spoiled me so I lost motivation after 2-3 episodes of season 4... I should really delete all social media accounts before watching a new anime...
Oh no is he okay HAHAHA was the ending that sad I'm slightly tempted to binge the rest of AOT after my exams are over hmm... How could he?!?! Gojo dying is one of the few anime deaths that shook the world 😭😭Or is he just jealous 🤭
Omg a fellow monkey! Sugu's monkey cult is expanding- Ngl I would gladly be a monkey if it means I can get slightly closer to Suguru-
Also I've received your TOT req!! The bakerlon card is legit so cute ahhh 😫😫
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i… gave up🥲 seems like there’s no hope for me 😩 i’ll wait until next year then and save the s chips i get from the monthly pass for the upcoming events🤧
HAHAHAH the benefit is right there!!🤭 i love maxi’s progress though and YES I LOVE EDNA SO MUCH omg she’s so badass, takes care of her own shits and the plot twist is soooo omg i finished that manhwa on one night and was left sooo full😩 it was one of the best manhwas for me
hmm i think i’ve read quite many arranged marriage stories but suddenly i can’t think of any of them🥲 but another great manhwa i read is unholy blood! i love hayan sm she’s also badass and her romance with euntae drives me almost insane bcs of the slow burn🤧 but it’s so so great by the ending i was sad to let it go. have you read it?? and do you have any other recs?
so true! i honestly don’t think there’s any benefit for us to force ourselves to have a boyfriend/girlfriend that early (especially if they say it’s for the status—a classmate of mine once told me that she was dating this guy just to know how being in a relationship was like💀 she’s messed up) because in the end, we are looking for the real thing. the real thing doesn’t come easily, it takes time. fyi my current boyfriend is my first bf, we started dating just last year, which means i have my first bf at 23🥹 and i’m so glad i heed my mom then, that it’s no use to have boyfriends when you were still in high school or college as chances are they are still immature themselves.
but if you do find someone who is good in school, then it’s okay to try! just don’t be discouraged if you don’t because nah we need the true ones😉
(aw sorry to come off as lecturing i can’t stop myself but my mom’s advice is what saves me🥹 and i really do think it’s so good)
me too!! it’s rainy and cold nowadays *sigh* but at least it’s not as hot?🥹
THERES 🗣️ SOMETHING 🗣️ ABOUT 🗣️ ANGST 🗣️ that made me feel like i want to jump out of the window yet satisfied my inner soul at the same time🤧🤧🤧
HAHAHA i felt old bcs now i’m paying for my own bills and impulse buying😭 JSJSJS nono i watched naruto from eps 300 onwards actually🥹 still, that’s quite a lot 😭 but yeah, i could watch at least 5-10 eps per day back then 🥲
PFFT DADDIES so true 😔😔 *sigh* my life has never been the same ever since that gojo sukuna fight. i started looking for spoilers (i didn’t follow the manga before), installed twitter and reading theories. my heart used to be thumping so hard each time i went over the spoilers you know? like i know gojo was going to lose somehow but i hope so much he didn’t and then when chapter 235 dropped and gege took a break i was like “!!!!” only to 236 to reverse it in the most brutal way💀
ahh i see… i’m starting to think that aot is for boys😭 like most of my guy friends are like “this is the best anime of my life” while my girl friends are just bamboozled with everything🥹
he’s mourning and coping the way we do for our jjk daddies🤭🤭 save to say that karma gets him bcs he doesn’t follow the manga HAHAHA maybe both i don’t know but he gets 🙄🙄 when i swoon over gojo ahahhaha
oh? good luck on your exam disco anon!! i know you’ll do well!!🫶🏻
HAHAHAHAH OMG that’s the term he used too!!🤣 like he’s okay being suguru’s monkey just because🥹
waah! that’s good then!! the card is so CHIC but i haven’t gotten the chance to read it yet along with the side story card🥲🥲🥲 i will after this weekend i think bcs work has been so tiring *sigh*
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GAP The Series Episode 4 Thoughts
A part of me is a bit miffed that we're not starting this episode straight with Sam and Mon kissing, but you know what? Having my two sapphics awkward with each other, just before they slide into the same bed, and then we get some eye-fucking is a good way to start the episode as well.
I just made an inhuman sound at that twin "Good night". OMG!!! My neighbours must think I'm being strangled. There's no cause for concern darling neighbours. Just Sammon attempting to kill me with the CUTENESS!!!!!
3. I swear, every time Mon smiles that little smile after she figures out what Sam is saying or trying to hide... MY HEART! She's learning to speak Sam, and it's giving me so much joy!!!
4. Heheheheh. You know Sam is well on her way to true love when rather than wake up Mon to stop her from snoring, she just continues to let her sleep.
5. WAIT. WAIT A GODDAMN MINUTE!!! Did I miss an episode part? Like say a part 0.5. WHERE THE FUCK IS MY POOL KISS???? Did they legit just skip all of that??? THAT'S WHERE YOU ASSHOLES ENDED EPISODE 3! THE FUCK?!!! GIVE US OUR KISS!!!!!
6. Is that the Reaaaaaaal reason Khun Sam??? Are you really worried about her hygiene? Or do you just want to see Mon in your clothes??? You can't hide the truth from us! I see you!!!
7. Forget raiding her closet, I want to live IN her closet!!!!
8. I swear the way these two flirt, gets me in my FEELS!!!!!
9. Ha. You're bringing her to meet your friends. Wearing your clothes. After she spent the night in your house. Your Bed. Khun Sam. You really do move fast laying your claim all over the place huh? And the best part? Sam has NO IDEA SHE IS EVEN DOING THIS!!!! Rofl!
10. Tee being all "Hello gorgeous" IS GIVING ME LIFE!!!! Poor Sam. Your friends are about to spend your entire lunch hitting on the crush you don't yet know you have, and it's about to drive you out of your mind.
11. Sam, they want to grill your subordinate-soon-to-be-girlfriend-and-almost-love-of-your-life. Just head to the toilet already!!! Rofl.
12. Unfortunately Martha, they didn't do anything in that big bed. Or in the pool either. Which is a real SHAME if you ask me!
13. Girl!!! What do you mean by you're a woman and so couldn't have done "anything". You sweet, innocent child. No wonder we haven't gotten any kisses yet. Between you not knowing anything, and Sam being well... Sam, it looks like we're in for quite the dry spell. Fuck!
14. Protective Sam is adorable!!! Look at her asking her friends if they are teasing Mon. No my sweet love. They aren't teasing your soon-to-be girlfriend. They are merely setting the stage for events that will lead to you being together. You should start drafting out the thank you cards!!
15. I swear. Her casual manhandling of Mon makes weak in the knees!!!! That hand to her chin to turn her head, and the command to look into her eyes????
16. Well that was a quick revelation. I thought she was going to drag out how they first met, a little bit longer. But I guess finding out that everything she thought she knew about Sam was a lie, was the jolt Mon needed to come clean at her own end.
17. Hold up. HOLD UP!!!! The meanies who were teasing baby Mon, are Tee Kade and Martha???? OMG!!! They've been friends with Sam for that long???? I did NOT see that coming!
18. Girl... How can you do ALL of that, and think any of that, ANY of what you're saying, is straight behaviour??? Girl's been in love since the fourth grade, and had no idea.
19. The way Sam's friends are getting her to confess her feelings is EVERYTHING!!! Sam not realizing that her friends are her wing people and are working hard to get her the girl she likes is making me so giddy. Gah!
20. Girl... You can still make a move. Even though you're not a man. You want to make a move. She wants you to make a move. We want you to make a move. MAKE A GODDAM MOVE and let go of this heteronormative bullshit. URGH!!!
21. Sam's smile. My heart!! This girl's face was made for smiling. Seriously, fuck her grandmother for taking all that joy away from her life.
22. That string of pearls... Khun Sam really has her foot pressed down on our collective necks, giving us rich Mommy vibes. I LOVE IT!!!!!
23. Sam waiting for her crush to text her back is Me. I am Sam. Sam is Me! OMG they are tooo cute!!!!!
24. Mum dearest. We love you, and you're a remarkable teacher and all, but you're not the reason why Sam is taking your daughter out on a date, in an exclusive and expensive place. Hehehehehe.
25. Kirk, get the FUCK out of her way. Stop getting in the middle of our soon-to-be date. And don't think I've forgiven you for being the loose-tongue betrayer that sold Sam's secrets to the gorgeous villainess!
26. I can't believe for a brief moment, I actually liked Kirk. Urgh!!! Using her grandmother to get what you want is just despicable. TRASH!!!!
27. My darling baby girl Mon. I'm so sorry. You don't deserve this. Fucking Kirk!
28. Aaaaaaand of course he's trying to sneak in his convo with Nita and trying to get Sam to work with her. You trash, vile man. I hope Sam punches you in the throat. Urgh!!!!
29. Sam's friends are my special brand of EVIL. I LOVE THEM!!!!! Sam is about to get sooooo jealous.
30. Ha. Jealousy. You seem to be wearing Khun Sam's face. Hehehehehehe.
31. Girl! Why are you pushing Tee??? That's your friend you dumbass. If you just laid your claim and dated your girl, or even responded to her text, instead of listening to fucking Kirk yap all day, this wouldn't be happening. Urgh!!!
32. Aaaaaaand they are teasing us with yet another kiss in the preview. I swear this show should be listed under edging because what is this???? If they don't kiss next episode, I AM COMING FOR THE WRITERS!!!
Aaaaaaand those are my thoughts for episode 4 @ellaspore. Would love to hear yours :D.
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Mkay. #1
I feel like i’m deep into season one of my life right now, which is weird cause im 28. idk if it’s that it feels like season one or that I'm lying to myself so that way I can force some like dramatic finale and start off strong on season two. ANYWAY life has been giving like...filler episode lately and I hate that for me cause EW. that being said I honestly feel like I'm on the edge of some kind of like climax of something I can almost see something on the horizon. something that keeps me confused is wondering if I should start giving into my impassive choices ,quitting my job, starting a new one, going to New York for a bit, going to Sundance by myself. like the last time I made a huge jump in my life was moving to LA. even though I “planned” it out over a year it still was like a crack job of a plan ya know? and so I wonder what would happen if I just lived my life like that? I feel like all my LA friends kinda do that, and even though I'm not a follower! maybe I can be inspired to do the same...would it be more fun? would I be my true self? will I get discovered? but there is always the thought of where am I going to get the money for this? I’m like already broke....but...im sure I can be broke while in New York...or in a cabin in Salt Lake City . I feel like as I've gotten older I've either, gotten less bold or too responsible or both. I hate that. like I was suppose it to be in nyc tomorrow to see my friends band play a show there and I was going cause it was gonna be this whole like monumental thing for them and like legit almost everyone we know is gonna be there, but I was broke, and I wanted to go so bad that I sold my Starbuck stock. money that I've literally been sitting on for five years cause I couldn’t be bother to learn about stocks. I sold it. for a plane ticket. and not only did I get this money, but I also got paid after not working for a week thinking i’m gonna get like $50 bucks and get a check bigger than I expected which is great but....I like....dilly dally on finding a ticket...why? why? I've bought plane tickets for trips in like 2 mins before why was I putting this off? maaaaybe because for the last like 5-6 months I’ve had my account go into the negatives a least three times EVERY month? or possibly because I've been so broke I legit couldn't pay for the bus fee to get to work. idk but I think deep in the back of my mind I wanted the tickets to go up and up so I could say “oh they got too expensive” like I wish I was there but I'm not to like torn up about it. also it kinda gives me the opportunity to go on the solo trip I wanted. but what if I save it? like I legit have had money all this month so what would happen if I hold onto it? like im a fun, cool, creative bitch but im tired of being broke dude....like this shit stop being inspiring after my first year here. and all I can think about is all the stuff I need for my acting career. new headshots, my actors access membership(that I haven’t had since my birthday in April) like I need that stuff too. part of me is like YOLO BITCH SPEND THAT SHIT!! and another is like sis get your headshots so you can win an Oscar. annnnyway im doing well and I hope you guys are too. :)
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July 12th - Almost up to date. Gina's not going to be there next episode which will be sad but I think we get more if her today to make up for it.
Previous -- next
Season 1 Episode 7: "Thanksgiving" thoughts under the cut:
I feel like the writers tried a bit too hard to make Ashlyn the normal relatable one and I don't think it worked
Why is the dance going on so intricate, can't the focus be the singing lol
What's the deal with the faces they're making
The look Gina does when she's processing information she doesn't like in the background
The way Mr. Mazzara and Ashlyn did that exchange made it seem like it was planned beforehand to let all the drama kids know she's the robotics co captain
"So meek. So mild. Sword"
The caswells being horrible parents
Carlos inviting everyone to Ashlyns house
Then trying to make thanksgiving a happy story about immigrants coming to America is just 🤢. Like we all know what it's really about, I guess it was either try to turn it into something good or ignore the issue entirely
Ricky leaving his dad behind
Okay, they're talking about it
Okay, they stopped talking about it
Is she all alone in Chicago or is she with Todd
Why is this grown ass woman waiting for her teenage son to call her
What kind of teen is posting ti their Instagram like an influencer
Did they look at actual teenager's instas for this?
Confessing to a bunch of stuff on your Instagram while walking down the street? What is he doing?
Nice character development but it seems like a weird way to do it
Redlyn finally having a full conversation after all this build up in the background
The way Big Red so casually and genuinely compliments her
WHY WOULD TOOD ANSWER THE PHONE AND WHY LIKE THAT??? My poor baby
The look in his eyes!!!
The way Gina holds the hat kinda nervously before giving it to him
Also that is such an intricate hat
Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like these characters open up way too quickly
"They change again" the foreshadowing 😭
"Ignore it and push through" maybe let's not have teenagers giving eachother mental health advice
We finally get to see Mr.Mazzara outside of wearing a button down shirt
"Okie dokie" I'm sorry what tf did he just say?
Is Mr.Mazzara more of a electrical teacher or a comp sci teacher because that is going to deeply affect how I think of him
"You've been kind of a beacon" Literary how? What has she ever done? Ricky was the one who wanted to do something to save Miss Jenn and Carlos is the one who held down the fort while she was gone. All Nini did was bring a bunch if drama into the drama department
Is this how teenage girls are supposed to talk, is this how they genuinely talk, do they instinctively talk like this?
Yeah good advice Nini, maybe you should've realised that before you did it
"I thought it was Pizza, too much lactose" Red, your parents own a pizza place
Ashlyn currently reaching peak relatability
EJ is speed running atoning for his sins
EJ give her a moment to prepare before giving her the phone
Emily legit needs to stop being a doormat for everyone
"I'm just happy you're happy" No, be angry, they poisoned you, get EJ banned from that camp
More of Nini in pain but like also Nini knows Gina liked Ricky here and then she goes on to date him layer then complain that they aren't closer
Get over yourself, you aren't the only girl in his life
The sound of constant chatter
"Without laughing... or killing each other"
Caswen yessss!
Gini's synchronized "root beer"
So Gina's mom started working at FEMA 6 years ago when Gina was around 9
Gina opening up to Nini about her home life then Nini making it all about how she would feel in that situation
Why did Nini shut down the conversation about the incidents in the beginning so quickly, like Gina was going to apologize, but then I guess Nini would've also had to apologize for what she did and she doesn't seem fond of apologizing
Gina waiting like she isn't sure if she should be in the photo or not until Carlos calls her over
Her little happy dance
"You know what we should do?" "Break off eye contact some time soon?" Autistic mood
Wait EJ is the one to say that it was Allen who's tie Ms darbus compliments and now Matt's playing A-len in the new zombies movie
Coincidence, I think not
"Loved ones" you mean loved ONE Gina. I guess counting her brother but she said earlier in the episode it's just her and her mom
She's so happy showing her mom her friends
While that ruined the mood
Okay so 10 days until she leaves
"I love you " "yeah"
More Redlyn also Big Red and Gina friendship is under-rated they like never talk to each other but they'll tall about each other a lot
Big Red accidentally saying everything she wants to hear😍
Having a bug cast of characters then having the main character sing a song about how she wants to leave them all behind and how she's done with that place kinda makes her come across as a bit of an asshole
I can't be the only one who feels like this song makes her come across as only caring about fame
Like how this town isn't enough for her I get wanting to be a successful musician but she's like prioritizing it over you know being a high schooler and having friends and supporting those friends
She acts like East High is this terrible place to be at while all her friends are really happy being there and really happy with having each other and the musical
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Safe Haven: tfatws!Bucky Barnes x fem!reader - Chapter Ten
chapter nine - Chapter Ten: Heroes - chapter eleven
Series Masterlist
Plot: Y/n, Sam and Bucky make one final effort to stop the Flag Smashers.
Warnings: spoilers for episode.6, violence, character death (major), wounds, blood, ANGST ANGST ANGST, Bucky and Y/n are a badass couple, Sam and Y/n are a badass sibling duo, everybody’s a badass, inaccurate medical care (unless you consider google legit then it’s for real lol)
Word Count: 8.6k
A/N: GUYS. SECOND TO LAST CHAPTER. HOW DID WE GET HERE?!?! This one was challenging to write because I wanted to still make it mainly focus on Sam and not detract from his story while incorporating another one, hopefully I did it justice. Smaller amount of Bucky Y/n fluff purely because of plot. Imma shut up now and let you guys judge it for yourselves, hopefully you enjoy ☺️
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I’d always wanted to visit New York, I just never thought that the circumstances in which I’d come would be so dire.
Surprisingly, flying from Delacroix to the city hadn’t been as draining as I’d thought, the adrenaline rushing through me was enough to keep my stamina up. Once I got into the state I shot up higher, the only way to pinpoint the city’s location was by sight alone. The mass of flashing red, white and blue lights served as a literal guiding light and I followed it till my feet made contact with the ground. I landed in between two buildings, a safe distance away from the commotion but close enough that I could intervene if needed. Sam had told me to go ahead of him and meet up with Bucky, the two of us would be on the ground while Sam took care of business with the senators.
“Something’s different…” the voice I’d gone days without hearing announced from behind me, “New haircut?”
I smirked and turned to face Bucky, “Do you get bulletproof suits for all the girls that catch your eye?”
“Only the ones I really like,” he smiled, cradling my cheek in his hand and giving me an overdue kiss before pulling back to admire the suit, “Looks good on you.”
The suit that Bucky had the Wakandans design for me was made almost entirely of Vibranium. It was sapphire blue, the same color of my energy with accent lines of silver running through it to define the shape. It clung tight to my body without showing off too much, the v neckline ended just below my collarbone. Hidden behind Bucky’s note in the case had also been a note from Shuri, the princess of Wakanda, listing that the suit was bullet proof and should I choose to channel my energy through a specific part of my body, the Vibranium would absorb and redistribute it to amplify my strike. The whole ensemble made me feel an official member of whatever club I’d decided to join.
I opened my fingerless glove adorned palm out to Bucky, offering him one of the comms Sam had given me and placing the other in my ear. “Ready?” he asked.
For once, I could answer feeling fully confidant in my capabilities. I reached out and squeezed Bucky’s hand, giving a single nod, “Ready.”
The two of us made our way out from between the buildings and headed into the heart of the chaos. There were news crews, police officers, soldiers and SWAT teams while innocent bystanders quickly fled the scene.
“Sam, where you at?” I said into my comm.
“I’m almost there,” he replied.
“What’s the plan?” Bucky asked from beside me.
“Karli’s gotta be close, keep your eyes open.”
“Well, it could be anybody…” Bucky said quietly as we passed by a group of officers.
We headed for the building in which the senators were being held, the SWAT team immediately parting to allow Sergeant Barnes and myself to enter. Whether or not he was paying attention to anything other than finding Karli, I wasn’t sure, but I smiled internally at the fact that they’d recognized him for what he should have been recognized for all this time.
“Oh, we also called in some backup,” I relayed to Bucky.
“Excuse me, sir, ma’am,” we turned to see a man in a beanie following us, “Are you supposed to be here?”
Bucky looked stunned and slightly concerned while I stayed calm, recognizing the signal. Immediately, Sharon ripped off the technologically advanced mask that concealed her identity. “It’s me.”
“Sharon, what the hell are you doing here?” Bucky asked.
I gestured to the woman, “Backing us up…”
“Relax, no one’s looking for me here,” she said, pulling on Bucky’s arm in an effort to get us away from the crowd.
“Is that Sharon?” Sam asked over the comms.
“Unfortunately,” Bucky answered, earning a light, disapproving smack from me to his chest.
“Hey, Sam, I thought I’d get the band back together,” Sharon said into her earpiece.
“Thank you, you’re risking a lot coming here.”
I took a step forward towards the blonde, “If you want me to fly you out of here, now’s the time.”
She gave a little shrug, “I hear pardons aren’t all they’re cracked up to be anyway.”
“Depends on the therapist,” Bucky grumbled.
“They’re gonna move on the building soon. Be ready,” Sam’s voice flowed into my ear.
“Same goes for you,” I replied, trying to compartmentalize the constant anxiety that ran through me in regards to my brother’s safety. Though knowing he wore vibranium wings now did help ease my fears a little. I turned my attention back to Sharon and Bucky, “Let’s split up and do a perimeter check. Front’s clear so I’ll take the back, you two take the sides.”
“Wow,” Sharon smirked, “Give you a suit and suddenly you’re Miss Take Charge.”
I shot her smirk right back at her as she headed down her side of the building while Bucky and I went around the other way. “Somethin’ changed while I was gone,” he observed as we walked.
“You made amends,” I replied, flashing back to my visit to the graveyard, “I made peace.”
I expelled energy from my fingertips to float above him and fly to the back of the building, not a soul in sight.
“Y/n, Sharon, Bucky, what’s going on on your end?” Sam asked.
“Nothing, all quiet,” Bucky answered.
“Same here,” I said, taking another look around me to be sure,
“No one’s moving toward the building,” Sharon added.
“Karli’s not coming in. She’s trying to force everybody out,” Sam said, “It’s a misdirect, we gotta keep everybody inside.”
I levitated once again and headed to the front of the building, finding Bucky and Sharon waiting for me. Once I landed, we entered through the glass doors.
“You guys are gonna have to do something,” Sam panted through the comm, “Don’t let ‘em out of the building.”
We passed through the building’s metal detectors one by one with no issue, till the alarm sounded off on Sharon. “Oops,” she muttered unconvincingly.
“Here’s one of them,” Bucky said, gesturing towards a man in a security uniform, a Flag Smasher, “We’ll get the evac.”
Bucky and I winded around the halls but didn’t get far before a woman came walking towards us with a phone extended out in her palm, “Mr. Barnes, Miss. Y/l/n, it’s Karli.”
How she knew my name baffled me, Bucky reached for the phone regardless and took note of the orange handprint projected on the screen. He placed the call on speaker, “Karli?”
“Aren’t you two tired of fighting for the wrong side?” the young girl asked.
Bucky scoffed as we stepped down a staircase, “I’ve done this before, kid. I know how it ends.”
“It doesn’t matter if I don’t survive this,” she replied, “I’m fighting for something bigger than myself. With all the bodies you’ve collected, have you been able to say the same?”
“You don’t think I ever fought for something bigger than myself?” Bucky asked, “That’s all I ever tried to do. And I failed twice.”
I tugged Bucky’s arm so the phone was in front of me, “Karli, all I’ve ever wanted was to use my powers for good. I respect the fight you’re fighting but this isn’t the way to win it.”
“Believe me, I know all about your father’s crimes,” she spoke back, “I looked you up after meeting you in Riga, and trust me, the side you’re on is no better than the one your dad was one.”
My heart clenched at her words, I knew that she was a black and white person who only dealt in absolutes, but it didn’t mean hearing it didn’t hurt.
“If you wanted to do any real good, you’d have joined us,” Karli continued, “You’d have needed to get your hands dirty, but you’d have made an actual difference.”
“You think your cause justifies all this death,” Bucky stepped in and took the wheel, “But in the end, the nightmares won’t go away. You’re gonna remember all the ones you killed. Trust me. Don’t do this. Don’t go down this path.”
There was a hopeful pause over the line, followed by a disappointing response. “If that’s how the both of you feel, you should sit this one out.”
I glanced over at Bucky, sharing the same tired, yet determined look I was displaying. “That’s not gonna happen.”
“Well, thank you,” Karlie replied, “I’m glad you took my call, you’ve been a big help.”
She hung up then, the realization hitting me immediately as to why she’d called us. “The evac,” I breathed, “It was a deterrence.”
“Damn it,” Bucky growled with a clenched jaw, “Come on!”
We raced through across the floor of the building, making for the winding staircase lit up with flashing emergency lights that would lead us to the parking lot. Since we were the only two fleeing the building that particular way, it was a safe bet to make that the hostages had already been evacuated. Once we were in the parking lot, Bucky took the lead and led me to a parked row of motorcycles, quickly hot-wiring one.
“Seriously, guys, you had one job,” Sharon popped out from behind a pillar to critique us.
“You worry about your guy,” Bucky grumbled as he swung his leg over to straddle the vehicle, I promptly did the same, “Good?”
Locking my arms around his torso and scooching forward so my Vibranium chest was pressed against his back, I nodded. “Good.”
Bucky floored the gas pedal and we rode off with an echoing screech, finding our way through the garage’s exit. A blockade of soldiers yelled at us as we quickly approached them, shooting through the gap between barriers and whipping around the street corner. On any other occasion I’d have enjoyed clinging tight to Bucky’s body as we rode through the cool New York evening air. Sadly, there was no time to savor the moment.
“That’s one down,” Sharon’s voice came through my comm.
“How’d you manage that?” Sam joined in.
“Mercury vapor, amongst other things.”
Bucky made a sharp turn down one of the streets causing me to clutch his middle tighter, “Any idea where they’ll be headed?”
“I thought you were the one in charge,” Bucky retorted over the engine’s noise.
“You better speed things up, Sam,” Sharon said, “The chopper’s about to take off.”
“Bucky, Y/n,” Sam called, grunts following directly after.
Bucky halted at a light, determining the rest of our course. “I don’t fly, man, that’s your guys’ thing.” He revved the bike and turned down a different street.
I pressed a hand to my ear, “Meet you there.” Placing a reassuring hand on Bucky’s shoulder, I levitated off the motorcycle and watched him continue on his path while I turned in the opposite direction and headed back through the city. From across the way, I could see the silhouette of Sam’s wings as he jumped off of the building after the helicopter. The chopper had taken a nose dive and was headed for the street, pulling up just before it hit the overpass. I quickened the speed in which I was flying over the bay, catching up to Sam soon enough. He flew lower than me, his new wings dipping into the waters before he shot back up.
“Plan?” I called into the comms as I kept close to the rear of the chopper.
“We gotta take out the pilot,” Sam answered, “Take the left side.”
I flew to my designated spot and reached out a hand to grasp onto one of the bars of the plane. Reabsorbing my energy, I put full faith in my grip as I dangled off of the helicopter in mid flight. I poked my head out to the window on the pilot’s side only to be given a front row seat to his attempt to kill Sam, firing a machine gun till my brother was forced to pull back and off the chopper. The pilot whipped his head around to lay eyes on me, aiming his gun. Lightning fast, I let go of the bar and narrowly escaped the shots fired, throwing my hands out and expelling energy to resume my flight. Sam wasn’t far behind, we took off in tandem with one another with him sending Redwing ahead to see if any of the hostages had flight training. As the chopper plunged towards the water, we moved in synch with it, just a few hundred feet behind in a dance of sorts. In the distance, I could barely make out the shape of an almost identical vehicle headed towards the one we were tailing, this one bearing the logo of the NYPD. Our chopper rammed itself into the front of the police copter, sending it spinning in a spiral of smoke and fire. If we didn’t get there in time, it would crash into one of the skyscrapers or worse. Sam and I changed course and made a beeline for it.
“Get the co-pilot,” Sam yelled as he swerved to my left.
I flew up to the side window and shot an energy blast towards it, smashing the glass and startling the co-pilot. I then levitated him out of the chopper and flew the two of us down to the bridge below us, Sam was right behind me with the pilot. The plane was losing altitude fast and was headed straight for our rescue party. Before I could even think to build a force field, Sam shoved me and the pilots down and shielded us with his wings. I felt the Vibranium shake as the plane bounced off of us and over the edge of the bridge. Sam retracted his wings and the two of us rose to our full heights, him in all his red, white and blue glory.
“Go, I got this,” he instructed, taking off into the skies before I could put up a fight.
I levitated high above the bridge to get a birds eye view of the city, “Bucky, where are you?”
“42nd Street, heading west,” he answered
“I’m a tourist, those words mean nothing to me.”
“I’m passing a building with white and red lights,” he modified his answer.
My eyes searched for the building he was talking about, spotting it quickly and taking off toward it. I looked below me to see two humvees and multiple bodies running around them. “Found them, they’re trying to build a-“
“I see ‘em, coming in hot,” Bucky interrupted, I could see his motorcycle speeding down the street and toward the barricade the Flag Smashers had arranged. Taking a leap, or rather a fall of faith, I absorbed my energy and free fell, throwing my hands out and releasing it just before my feet hit the ground. Bucky wasn’t far behind, leaping off his motorcycle and diving forward to tackle one of the Flag Smashers. The man jumped to his feet and Bucky engaged him in combat, the two exchanging punches with Bucky having more favor. In a split second of separation between the two I shot a blast of energy at the man that sent him flying backwards into the side of a truck, creating a super soldier shaped dent in the car. A sudden explosion sounded off nearby, I turned to see that one of the humvees had been set ablaze. Bucky and I ran to the vehicle, I sent an energy blast towards the high tech lock that had been placed on the back doors. It did absolutely nothing.
“Hold on,” Bucky shouted to the screaming hostages as he used his Vibranium arm to pull on the door handle. Even he couldn’t get it open. “Help me!”
I focused all my energy on the lock, sending unsuccessful blast after unsuccessful blast. Letting out a frustrated cry, I backed away giving Bucky another chance to try. He began throwing a stream of relentless punches, his determination growing with each hit. Eventually he’d done enough damage that he switched to pulling at the door’s bar. The pain on his face as he pulled was heartbreaking, the tendons and muscles where his prosthetic met his flesh stretching to too great a length. Making one last ditch effort, I extended my energy towards the handle to help him in his efforts. Together, we strained and struggled until the lock finally broke and the doors opened. While Bucky kept his footing, I fell backwards doing a very ungraceful somersault and landed on my side. What I saw happening in front of me was almost too shocking to believe, and yet not at all.
John Walker was getting his ass kicked by the Flag Smashers.
With a replica of the iconic shield that was definitely not made of Vibranium and his suit, he was lying on the ground being pummeled by the super soldiers. With the vigor in which they were attacking him, I knew that the metal wouldn’t protect him forever. The man that I hated, who had tried to kill me, Sam and Bucky, who had shed innocent blood on Steve’s legacy…I could have let them kill him and I should have wanted to.
But even in my hatred, I couldn’t let a man die.
I rose to my feet and sent a stream of energy towards two of them, knocking them a few feet away from Walker. The third who I deduced to be Karli, came charging at me. I threw up a force field to act as a shield and met each one of her punches with the energy. She let out grunts of frustration, going for a roundhouse kick but giving me just enough time to drop the field and levitate her into the air. I held her there a second, watching her flail about trying to escape before tossing her several hundred feet away from us towards the end of the street. The two Flag Smashers that I’d knocked over came charging back toward me, it was time to test out just what the suit could do…
I focused my energy out through my elbow and hit one of them square in the jaw, the energy sending him rolling down the road far greater a distance that I’d have been able to cause without the Vibranium amplifying it. I turned around to the other one, dodging a quick punch before sending my energy down to my foot, landing a kick my attacker’s stomach that caused him to go airborne and land on top of one of the trucks. Unfortunately, the first guy didn’t stay down as long as I needed him to and came up from behind me and landed a kick to my back. I fell to the road with a groan, felt the burn of the asphalt as it shredded my cheek. I heard the man rip something metal followed by the sound of his thick boots coming my way, undoubtably he’d grabbed something to use as a weapon. As I rose to take another stand, I saw Bucky come running past me and turned to watch him knock the Flag Smasher over, the man dropping the toll meter he’d been holding as a bat over me. Bucky strode forward and they began fighting one another with punches and kicks while I looked around to see Karli welding the unattended meter. She swung it towards Bucky, his avoidance of the hit and my creation of a force field around him totally in synch. Karli took another swing at him and met resistance, unable to move the weapon as I froze it in place with my energy.
“You don’t have to do this,” I urged her.
With a yell she let go of the weapon and dove for me, being hit in the face with a chain that Bucky had picked up. Before I could stop it, the Flag Smasher who had originally intended to hit me with the toll meter landed a kick that sent Bucky flying backwards. His metal hand scraping the asphalt as he desperately tried to hold on before going over the edge of the nearby construction site.
“BUCKY!” I cried as he screamed into the night air just before Karli kicked me down herself, and landed a punch to my abdomen. The Vibranium, while giving me protection, still allowed some of the blow to reach me and I was in just enough pain that I couldn’t go after the Flag Smasher that leapt down into the construction hole Bucky had landed in. I sent a blast of energy at Karli, throwing her back and allowing me the time to stand up and regain my footing. At the same time I rose, so did Walker, the two of us sharing eye contact that was oceans away from the last time we’d met on the battlefield. Separating once again, he turned to lift one of the Flag Smashers up by her throat while I landed a punch on one that was coming for me. The second van of hostages was brimming with horrified screams, both my and Walker’s attention being redirected to them. Karli, who stood a few feet away from us, made a run for the humvee and Walker and I chased after her. Walker braced himself with the shield and the two of them came face to face with one another. Giving another insignificant try, I sent a stream of energy towards the lock in an attempt to break it but couldn’t without Bucky’s brute strength. Behind me, I could hear the grunts and groans of Walker and Karli moving around as they fought one another. When the noises got too distant to still be close by, I knew I needed to go back Walker up.
I looked through the everything-proof glass window to the terrified faces of the senators. “We’ll get you out, I promise,” I yelled, taking off towards the fight.
Karli came running out from where they’d disappeared behind, I sent another blast her way that she dodged. She leapt into the air with a cry and raised a fist, I threw up a force field that she bounced off of and rolled to the ground.
“This isn’t change, Karli,” I spoke up over the noise of the fire, “It’s murder.”
The only response I got was another yell, Karli came charging towards me forcing me to throw up another shield to deflect her punches and kicks. I didn’t want to hurt her, I didn’t even want to fight her. It was different than with Walker where there was a mutual disliking of one another since almost the very beginning, she was just a kid looking to fight anyone who got in her way. Her cause was even something I agreed with, but I couldn’t stand by her taking innocent lives in the process.
Karli caught my exposed neck, gripping my neck tightly and holding me in the air. The bruises from Walker’s assault hadn’t fully healed and Karli was squeezing far tighter than he had. Thinking quickly, I swung my legs around to the back of her knees and forced my energy out of my feet as I slammed into her legs. The two of us fell in a heap, Karli on top of me with her grip loose enough on my throat that I could get out of it and flip her over. I pinned her hands to the asphalt on either side of her head using my energy, “You can stop all of this right now,” I urged over her furious cries, “Karli, please.”
Karli snarled at me before moving her knees to hit me in my back, throwing me off balance and giving her the perfect opportunity to launch me down the same hole Bucky had fallen down. I caught myself mid air and looked down to see Bucky and one of the Flag Smashers fighting with a metal beam, Bucky gaining the upper hand. I dropped to the ground and ran to him as he landed a final strike against the man, knocking him to the ground. As my hand reached out for his arm, there was a violent crash above us. We looked up to see that the humvee filled with the hostages had been driven off the road and was balancing on top of the construction. It teetered on the edge, ready to slip at any moment and finish Karli’s plan. I extended my energy to steady the vehicle, I wasn’t sure what made me think I could keep a couple thousand pound vehicle suspended in midair but the fact that I’d never used my powers like this didn’t matter. I had to try. As it rocked back and forth against my energy, I took a stance and dug my heels in the ground, sending up the steady streams I’d recently discovered I could produce. They curved around the front of the vehicle, protecting it from falling any further. The screams of terror from the hostages were my motivation to keep going, to do everything in my power that I could do save who I could.
After a few seconds of bearing my teeth and groaning in struggle, the load lessened slightly. I opened one of my eyes that had been squeezed shut in concentration to see Walker’s homemade shield near my feet, the decommissioned captain above me pulling the truck from the back. For once, we were working as a cohesive unit. Who would have thought…
All was short lived though as the second we were making progress on getting the humvee away from the edge, Karli and two other Flag Smashers jumped Walker and attacked him. Unable to hold them off, they toppled over and fell into the pit alongside Bucky and I. I cried out as the full weight of the humvee became mine to bear once again, fighting harder than ever to keep it from falling. Every muscle in my body clenched as I kept the streams flowing while also slowly rising off the ground, wondering if it was possible for my body to run out of energy with how much I was throwing into my stand. I had to save them, so long as I was able to fight, I wouldn’t allow any more innocent bloodshed. My hands shook, causing my streams to shake and I groaned as my body sent every signal that it couldn’t continue on.
As I started to falter, I felt something come up beside me and some of the heaviness was taken away. Looking to my left, Sam was in the air bracing the weight of the truck alongside me. I felt renewed with his help to rise with him as we used our combined strength to steadily raise the humvee back onto the beams of the construction site. Once it was secured, Sam and I both landed on either side of the truck and faced the crowd. I made the easy decision to fly back down into the pit, the moment belonged to Sam and no one else. Bucky was at my side at once, his hands on my arms and a careful set of eyes watching to make sure I was okay. I rested my forehead on his shoulder for a too brief second and nodded through my heavy breathing.
From in front of us, Karli launched a spear towards Bucky’s head that he easily got throwing it to the side as he stared her down. Sam’s shield came flying out of nowhere, hitting Karli and rebounding off of the other Flag Smasher before landing back on Sam’s wrist. Karli shed her mask, looking at him with disgust and shock. “You of all people bought into that bullshit?” she asked, examining his patriotic suit from a distance.
“I’m trying something different,” Sam answered, his voice steely, “Maybe you should do the same.”
A sudden explosion was set off, a grenade landing at our feet setting off smoke that blinded us. I quickly covered Sam, Walker, Bucky and myself in a large force field, as my eyes tried to make out Karli’s figure. “This way,” Sam directed, using the tech in his goggles to spot them. I dropped the shield and followed him, the only person I could make out semi-clearly in the haze. We ran down and through a nearby tunnel, weaving down underground hallways in search of the remainders of the group.
“Hey Sharon,” Bucky said into his comm, “We’re underground. We entered the tunnel on William. Heading south.”
“Looks like they split up,” Sam announced, he pointed down a corridor, “Here.”
Walker took off without a second thought, while Bucky paused in front of Sam and I. “I got it,” he pointed to my brother, brushing his fingers against mine before heading down the hall. Sam and I both watched them leave, my anxiety rising with each step Bucky took away from me. Shaking myself out of the spiral I knew I’d go down if I gave it any more thought, I followed Sam’s lead as we continued on our way. The sound of the Flag Smasher’s signature whistle echoed off the walls causing Sam and I to freeze, he determined where it may have come from and motioned for me to come forward.
“If something happens, you get the hell out of here, got it?” Sam whispered.
“Nice try,” I replied, having flashbacks to the various times in the past week or so that we’d had conversations like this, “I’m not leaving you.”
Suddenly, two shots were fired nearby. Sam and I bolted in the general direction that the sound had come from, fear flooding my body at the thought of Bucky being on the receiving end of one of the bullets. The worry caused me to run faster. We made it into a wider room, Karli standing in the middle with a gun aimed at a helpless Sharon, laying on the ground with a hand over her abdomen. I spotted the blood staining her shirt and threw a force field around her as Sam clipped his shield to his back. “Sam, stay back,” Karli warned, her eyes flicking to him briefly before landing back on Sharon.
“So, what’s next, huh?” Sam asked, taking careful steps toward her, “You kill ten this time, then, what, a hundred? Where does it end? Please,” he lowered his tone, “Let me help you.”
“Don’t try and manipulate me,” Karli replied, looking between the blue barrier I shielded Sharon with and me. She twisted her body to aimed her gun at me, my resolve to protect Sharon stronger than protecting myself.
“Karli, don’t!” Sharon cried.
Sam dove forward and tackled the girl to the floor, somersaulting away from her as Karli raised a piece of cinderblock. She launched it at Sam who deflected the makeshift weapon with his shield. Karli swung at him and Sam jumped on top of a small staircase, his shield in front of him at all times.
“I’m not gonna fight you!” he yelled, leaping off the stairs.
Karli continued her attack, Sam dug the tips of his wings into the concrete and met her fist with the shield. “Karli…” he urged just before she ripped the shield away and walked him backwards, Sam completing a series of jumps and flips. Karli grabbed a metal pipe and swung it at Sam, knocking him to the ground.
“Stay down!” she growled.
Every instinct I had told me to go after the person who was endangering Sam’s life, anybody’s would be. But I knew that it was pointless to fight her, it was only giving her what she wanted. The serum enhanced people’s personalities, Karli had always been a fighter but now, she was looking to fight anything and anyone and would do it ruthlessly. I couldn’t buy into it.
I retracted the shield I’d built around Sharon and flew around Karli, placing myself between her and Sam. “Karli, the fight is over,” I breathed.
“No!” she shrieked, barely giving me enough time to throw up an energy shield before she threw a punch. Her fist bouncing off of it only angered her more and she began a relentless attack, banging her hands against the force field, taking swipes anywhere she could. I levitated over her head and landed a few feet away, luring her away from Sam. Karli was furious at the fact that she couldn’t touch me or get me to try and battle her. It didn’t take long for Sam to spring to his feet, throwing his shield out in between Karli and I. Karli focused her efforts on Sam then, punching the shield relentlessly as Sam walked her away from me.
“Fight back!” she screamed in my brother’s face.
I extended my energy and pulled her away from Sam, throwing her a few feet away from us. Karli let out a battle cry and leapt forward, Sam and I coming side by side and holding up our respective shields. Karli’s fist rebounded off of my energy and spun around to hit Sam’s shield, he then grabbed her by the waist and turned on his thrusters, flying them across to room to slam Karli into a beam. “Stop it,” he ordered, gripping her by the lapels of her jacket. Karli replied by throwing him above her head into the ceiling, I used my energy to yank her away from Sam and in front of me.
“Listen to me, Karli,” I urged, earning a super-soldier shiner to my cheek, “We’re not your enemies.”
Karli dropped me to the ground like I weighed nothing, the vibranium suit creating a dent in the flooring. I let out a groan at the shock and she ran off to deal with Sam.
“Fight me!” she screamed as she clawed at the shield, “Fight back!”
She flipped him over.
He fell.
The shield fell out of his reach.
Karli picked up the gun and aimed it at Sam.
He rose, accepting his fate.
Gathering the strength I had left, I got to my feet.
With trembling hands, knowing what I was about to do, I levitated and landed in front of Sam.
Karli’s face shifted, though I couldn’t read it as my emotions overwhelmed me.
A supercut ran through my mind.
Sam.
Sarah.
AJ and Cass.
Mel.
My mom.
My father.
A legacy rewritten.
Bucky.
Would he forgive me for what I was about to do?
I hoped so.
“Go ahead,” I whispered, staring Karli down and blinking away the tears before she could see them, “Do it.”
Karli’s face scrunched up as her finger prepared to pull the trigger when suddenly, three gunshots went off from nearby, hitting her. The gun fell to the ground and so did she. My eyes flew to where the bullets had come from, the sight of Sharon holding the smoking gun awaiting me. Sam dropped to his knees to cradle Karli’s head, the young girl staring up at him wide eyed and afraid. I knelt down on the other side of her, slipping her still warm hand into mine and giving it a gentle squeeze.
“I’m sorry,” she whimpered, staring up at Sam before looking to me. The only thought that ran through my mind was she’s just a girl, she’s just a girl…As I watched the tears well in her eyes before the life drained from them and they shut, the sudden innocence overwhelmed me. She was just a girl…
I didn’t let go of her hand even when it went limp, holding it to my heart as I wept over her. Sam cradled her cheek as we sat quietly, the only sounds were my soft sobs and Sharon’s labored breathing. I couldn’t face her right now, my feelings were too mixed about the way she had saved my life.
Eventually, once an undetermined amount of minutes had passed, Sam lifted Karli into his arms and the two of us rose to leave. When I turned to tell Sharon to come with us, she was already gone, probably having slipped out a back hallway. Sam carried Karli’s body the entire way out of the building, I hardly registered when we made it outside in the night air.
“I’ll clear the way for you,” I mumbled, extending my energy and shooting into the air, Sam not far behind me. The wind blowing against my dried my tears off of my cheeks as I flew toward the glow of ambulance lights outside the building we’d started the night at. There were crowds of news crews, there were the senators we’d saved and officers cleaning up the wreckage that had been left behind. They all noticed as I flew up, landing in the midst of it all and scanning the crowd for Bucky. Once I spotted him and Walker towards the very back near the ambulances, I ignored the reporters asking me questions as I weaved through the chaos. Bucky strode forward as I neared and wrapped me in his arms, I let go of the breath I’d been holding in my chest as soon as our bodies met. He was okay. My hands held the back of his neck as I dug my face into his shoulder. He tapped my waist and I turned to see Sam flying in, resembling the an angel with his outstretched wings as he landed. He carefully passed off Karli’s body to the paramedics who placed the girl on a stretcher, carrying her off to who knows where.
Sam walked towards the crowd, doing the same as me and ignoring the reporters flooding him with unimportant questions. He had flown in carrying the dead body of a kid and here they were, asking him if they should refer to him as Captain Falcon. He stopped in front of the senators who were busy thanking him for dealing with what I heard one refer to as ‘terrorists.’
“Are you still going forward with resetting the borders?” Sam asked.
They answered, and while I couldn’t hear their words, I could read Sam’s face well enough to know it wasn’t what he wanted to hear.
“You have to stop calling them terrorists…”
“What else would we call them?” one of the senators asked.
“Your peacekeeping troops carrying weapons are forcing millions of people into settlements around the word, right?” Sam continued, “What do you think those people are going to call you? These labels, terrorists, refugees, thug. They’re often used to get around the question ‘why.’
“Those settlements that happened five years ago, do you think it is fair for governments to have to support them?” another senator asked.
“Yes,” Sam said plainly.
“And the people who reappeared only to find someone else living in their family home, they just end up homeless?” the bearded senator pushed back, “Look, I get it. But you have no idea how complicated this situation is.”
Just as he prepared to walk away, Sam spoke up. “You know what, you’re right, and that’s a good thing. We finally have a common struggle now. Think about that. For once, all the people who’ve been begging and, I mean, literally begging for you to feel how hard any given day is, now you know. How did it feel to be helpless? Now if you can remember what it was like to be helpless and face a force so powerful, it could erase half the planet. You would know that you were about to have the exact same impact. This isn’t about easy decisions. Senator.”
“You just don’t understand,” the senator replied, probably the most ignorant response I’d ever heard.
Sam scoffed, “I’m a black man, carrying the stars and strips. What don’t I understand? Every time I pick this thing up, I know there are millions of people out there who are going to hate me for it. Even now, here. I feel it. The stares, the judgment, and there’s nothing I can do to change it. Yet I’m still here. No super serum. No blonde hair or blue eyes. The only power I have is that I believe we can do better.”
Holding onto Bucky a little tighter, the tears that I shed had morphed to those of joy. There my brother stood, in front of the government and the entire country saying what we all needed to hear. He spoke without reserve, unapologetic in his stance, and I had never been prouder of him.
“We can’t demand that people step up if we don’t meet them halfway,” Sam’s voice rose with passion, “Look, you control the banks. Shit, You can move borders. You can knock down a forest with an email. You can feed a million people with a phone call. But the question is, who’s in the room with you when you’re making those decisions? Hmm? Is it the people you’re gonna impact? Or is it just more people like you?” he paused, collecting himself before gesturing to where Karli’s body lay in the ambulance, “I mean, this girl died trying to stop you. And no one has stopped for one second to ask why. You’ve got to do better, Senator, you’ve got to step up because if you don’t, the next Karli will. And you don’t want to see 2.0. People believed in her cause so much that they helped her defy the strongest governments in the world. Why do you think that is? Look, you people have just as much power as an insane god,” Sam’s voice broke for only a second, “Or a misguided teenager. The question you have to ask yourself is how are you going to use it?”
With that, he walked away from the crowd that had been watching him so intently and made his way towards us. He stopped in front of Walker, the two of them sharing a look before nodding to one another, a non-verbal truce being declared. Walker also turned to me, in the end he had stepped up and done the right thing, but I knew that the two of us would never be on good terms. I’d never forget his tightening grip around my throat, nor would he forget that I wasn’t afraid of him and would tear him apart if he ever tried anything like he had in the warehouse again. But I had saved the guy’s life and because of that, his stare softened for only a second as he nodded his thanks to me. I watched as he disappeared into the crowd, off to whatever his next mission may be…
“Sorry, I was, uh, I was texting and so, all I heard was, um, “a black guy in stars and stripes,” Bucky broke the tension of the moment as Sam approached us.
The three of us shared a chuckle before Sam and I locked eyes, not having spoken a word yet about what had happened underground. I threw my arms around his neck as he wrapped his around my shoulders, sharing probably the best hug we’d ever had. Our shared goal of keeping one another alive had been achieved.
“Love you,” I whispered in his ear.
“Love you too,” he replied, a hint of emotion choking him up. He squeezed a little tighter before releasing me, the three of us walking off together.
“Nice job, Cap,” Bucky said, patting Sam’s back that displayed the shield before sliding his hand back around my waist. A few feet away, hidden behind one of the ambulances and leaned up against the car was a familiar blonde figure.
“Sharon?” Sam called.
“Blocking my light,” she retorted, holding a gauze pad to the gunshot wound on her abdomen.
“We need to get you to a hospital,” I strode forward, examining her injury as best I could.
“She’s not gonna listen,” Bucky grumbled as he looked over his shoulder to make sure nobody was following us.
Sharon panted as she shrugged, “Hey, it’s not the worst thing that’s happened to me all week.”
“Told you…” Bucky said at my side.
“Yeah, I don’t care,” I shook my head, “We’re take care of this.”
“Uh, Cap?” an interruption came, the senator that had been on the receiving end of most of Sam’s impassioned speech.
“I think he’s talking to you,” Sharon said before turning to both Sam and I, “Look, I’m sorry for how things ended down there. For what it’s worth,” she looked Sam up and down and genuinely smiled, “Suit looks good on you.”
Sam chuckled, “Thanks.”
Bucky nodded along, humoring the conversation for as long as he could. “All right, look, can we get out of here, please?” he asked, placing a hand on Sharon’s back to urge her forward. Giving up, she allowed him to lead her away.
“I didn’t forget my promise,” Sam called to Sharon, referring to the pardon I hoped he could secure for her.
I turned to my brother, “Meet you back home?”
He gave a long sigh, his eyes flitting between Bucky’s departing figure and me, “Why don’t you stay here a couple days?”
I knew what he was offering and how hard it was for him to say the words, he was trying to give me time with Bucky. I did my best to conceal my smile, “Are you sure?”
“You risked your life all week, you almost died trying to protect us,” he stated with a scoff, “I think you deserve a little time off. Now go,” he looked back to Bucky and scrunched his face up a little, “Before I change my mind.”
Unable to hide my grin any longer, I reached out and clasped hands with him, bringing each other in for another hug. “Go get ‘em, Cap.”
The two of us let each other go, off to tend to our business before eventually reuniting back in the house we’d grown up in. It was crazy to think that I owed almost every great thing in my life to the boy who’d sat next to the lonely girl in first grade. Now here we were, dressed in Vibranium off saving the world, or at least doing what we could to make it a better one.
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“Superhero, nurse…you’re full of surprises, Y/l/n,” Sharon commented before sucking in a sharp breath as I placed another suture.
I laughed softly, concentrating on my work, “I took a first aid class a couple years ago. When you’re living with two boys, trust me, it comes in handy a little too often. But I’ve never had to remove a bullet.”
We were seated on the floor of Bucky’s Brooklyn apartment with me tending to Sharon’s wound using his first aid kit. Bucky was waiting in his bedroom to give us privacy, Sharon had her shirt pulled up and her pants unbuttoned to give me full access to her stomach. I’d had to place sutures once when Sarah had accidentally sliced her finger open with a knife, pulling out a lodged bullet was entirely new to me.
“I saw you tonight, with the truck,” she said as she watched me work, “You did good.”
I supposed now that I had shown my powers to the world, I’d have to get used to people paying me compliments but for now, I still didn’t know how to take them. “So are you gonna stick with it? The hero thing?” Sharon asked.
I tied another suture, closing the sterilized hole in her abdomen. “I think so. Captain America needs a right hand man, why not have it be his sister?”
Sharon hummed in agreement, a beat of silence passing. “You don’t think you’ll strike out on your own? You seem a little too independent to follow orders.”
“Yeah, well,” I started working on the last stitch, “Sam and I work better together than I would with anyone else. Maybe one day I’ll do my own thing but for now, I’m fine where I’m at.”
“Well, I guess you’re finally in a position to do all that good you said you wanted to,” she sighed, “Just don’t forget to keep your eyes open, opportunity’s everywhere.”
“Alright, Miss Madripoor,” I chuckled, sterilizing the wound one more time with an alcohol wipe, “Your hustler side is showing.”
Sharon shrugged and gave a little smirk, “All I’m saying is there’s a lot of ways to effect change, but I’m sure you’ll find that out.”
Storing her advice away in my head for a later time, I placed a gauze pad on her abdomen and secured it. “Alright, you should be good. Just promise me that you’ll actually get checked by an actual doctor or whatever you have in High Town?”
“Sure thing, Doc,” she replied with a smile as she adjusted her clothes again and rose to her feet, “You’re good, Barnes!”
Bucky stepped back out into the room, peering around the corner carefully before entering fully. Despite the fact that he was in his own apartment, he still hadn’t changed out of what he’d worn to the fight. “What happens now?” I asked, looking to Sharon, “Hotel? Hidden apartment in some dodgy part of the city?”
Sharon chortled at my suggestions, “I’ve got a plane waiting to take me back to Madripoor. The longer I stay here, the more of a chance they’ll find me,” she gave a small smile, “It was good seeing you guys again.”
“It won’t be the last,” I confirmed, placing a hand on her shoulder, “Sam’ll get that pardon, you’ll be back before you know it.”
“That’d be nice,” she sighed longingly, clearly thinking about all the freedom that would come with coming back home. Coming back to the conversation, she patted my arm and regained her full voice, “But until then, keep them in check. God knows they need it.”
“The hell does that mean?” Bucky grumbled from his position outside his bedroom, leaving Sharon and I to share a laugh before she walked to the front door.
“I’ll do my best, and hey, thank you for what you did for me...” I called out just before she shot us one last knowing smile and left, the door shutting behind her. While I wanted to worry about her walking the streets of New York and possibly getting caught, I’d seen enough of her in action to know that she could handle whatever came her way.
Bucky slowly made his way to the door, locking it and turning around to face me. It was the first time of the night we’d been completely alone. Our eyes met, tired and traumatized but still alert and seeking one another out. Bucky crossed the room in a few long strides, taking his time in approaching me as if he was savoring the moment. I reached out once he was close enough and interlocked my hand with his, tugging him close to me. He dragged two featherlight fingers over the nasty bruise that Karli had given me, his brow furrowing as he examined the side of my face. I ran my thumb over the long red bruise across the side of his forehead, the pressure increasing when he leaned into my touch.
The night could have ended so differently. If Karli had pulled the trigger, if Bucky hadn’t fought on such high alert, we could have ended in tragedy. Such thoughts were better buried away and not thought of, but I couldn’t help it. Lucky, blessed, whatever word you wanted to use…we were it. With no battles on the horizon to fight, we could focus on figuring out just what spark there was between us.
No words needed to be spoken, not for now at least. Tonight, all I needed was to hold Bucky in my arms and remember that despite every odd and every trouble thrown our way, we were alive. And as he leaned down and pressed his lips to mine in a tender but still passionate kiss, I had never felt more alive.
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thoughts on sex education season 3
two episodes in
im so here for otis & ruby, the relationship makes both characters more interesting and less unbearable, plus they are so much better than maeve & otis, i can actually ship them.
i love cal. i want to see more of them. it was heartbreaking to see the bathrooms aka their safe space being demolished.
since season one adam has been my favorite character (after maeve), and i’m so happy to see his development. he makes me go 🥺 every time he’s on screen.
eric and adam are so cute. i really hope they work out.
i’m glad isaac told maeve the truth, and while i like isaac i don’t think maeve will be with him. i don’t think maeve needs a love interest this season tbh.
i hope we get an aimee centered episode.
episode 3
sorry viv and jackson, i used to really ship you last season but now i’m cal and jackson all the way
viv is kinda annoying this season so far. it’s in character but like she used to be one of my favorites
i want to fight hope
why do i love ruby now
episode 4
okay i do like otis and ruby but why did this turn into their show? i want to see other characters more!!!
i can’t wait to see hope’s downfall. istg if she’s not gone by the end of the season i will riot.
i’m really liking maeve with isaac. their scene was so sensual and beautiful.
i just really hope otis and maeve both move on separately like they’re doing rn, and never get together. i don’t think they’re right for each other, and they’re just boring together.
ready for paris adventures yessss
episode 5
jean is a queen
jackson on a trip is hilarious
flying feces whyyy
i love adam sm
oh no the girls are fighting
not ola and lilly having a fight over aliens
oh no don’t tell me maeve and otis are gonna find some motel and there will only be one bed
i’m living for adam and rahim becoming buddies
jackson and cal 💔
maeve’s not here? kevin’s not here. KEVIN!
you tell him, maeve. otis sucked last season.
nononono. NOOO. disgusting. don’t kiss. stupid paris.
poor ruby 😭
episode 6
lilly backstory yesssss
vagina cupcakes I WANT
why is aimee the sweetest human being
i wonder if the season will end with maeve going away to the us
i’m so glad we’re seeing more of eric’s family
hope can die in a ditch. she would be a terrible parent considering how she treats her students. *me imagining violently smashing hope’s car to cope* who made this bitch an educator? is this allowed? IS THAT ALLOWED?! poor kids, they’re legit traumatized now
i’m sorry but with this crisis going on, i can’t care about some silly maeve and otis drama
otis DOES make everything worse. fuck otis. i don’t want to see him anymore either.
hell yeah viv. fuck that millennial bitch up.
no, eric, don’t just go away with some stranger. i’m scared.
why is everyone fucking cheating?! is it so hard to keep your tongue in your mouth?
episode 7
ahhh i love everyone working together
omg this bitch is absolutely unhinged
“sex free campus? people fuck in the bushes” is my favorite quote, thank you eric
ruby matthews is officially THAT bitch, she did what i wanted to do the whole season
sucking on my titties is the best anthem. i love this show.
cal and jackson are definitely my favorite ship this season, i really hope they work everything out
the way connor swindells portrays adam is incredible
i need jean to be okay
they’re each other’s mums stop i’m crying
i wish mr groff cared more about his son than about getting back with his wife, like he hasn’t even talked to adam this whole time or made any sort of effort
lmao not A RAIN KISS i can’t believe a ship i don’t care about actually get a rain kiss
the finale episode 8 let’s gooooo
lmao what is this mean girls moment
adam and rahim being besties is hilarious
i’m sad cal and jackson didn’t work out but i get it, i’m glad they’ll still be friends
the maureen and aimee goat adventures
my baby adam i’m- i can’t, why is he getting hurt
why did adam and eric have to break up
not otis building up this absolute bitch that should be in jail
SHUT UP he’s not the father?!
seeing adam happy is everything
proud of maureen for ditching michael
eric third wheeling in the tree house lmao
i feel like this season left everything disheveled, and i’m left feeling empty. it felt more like a mid season finale than a season finale. i enjoyed season 3 but i think i prefer season 2.
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episode 13 of part 6 is just boyfriendism. it brought back my enthusiasm i love them so much
RIGHT?????? They are so absolutely married, I am legit losing my mind about it. Istg I've been internally screaming about the sausage octopi non-stop since the episode aired. Whether that was "Jigen being adorable and making an effort to make his partner's dinner extra cute" or "Jigen being a passive-agressive little shit towards his husband", either are absolutely amazing. THE FUCKING OCTOPI. GODDAMN. I LOVE IT SO MUCH.
I love how "Jigen cooking for the rest of the Gang" has been a thing since Part 1. There was almost no element of everyday life and friendship outside of adventures/chases in the first act, but if the new act is gonna be anything like episode 13, I am SO looking forward to it. I mean, not just the cooking thing, but... them just having a relationship/friendship/whatever it is outside of just the plot, them interacting and having some sort of banter that's not just work. The flowers were a really nice touch (I say, as if I didn't absolutely lose my entire mind about it. HE FUCKING BOUGHT JIGEN FLOWERS. THIS IS A THING THAT HAPPENED. I know it was technically a necessity for heist planning but HE BOUGHT MOTHERFUCKING FLOWER BOUQUETS AND SAID THEY WERE FOR JIGEN "FROM ME, WITH LOVE". AAAAAH). And Fujiko interrupting what I refuse to call anything else than a lovers' quarrel.
Also the whole "Jigen and Goemon covering Lupin" when he went after whoever-the-hell-these-women were. Idk, it doesn't stand out much but I noticed it, they understood how important this is to him without knowing what it's about, and they immediately covered his back to let him do whatever he needed, no questions asked. I think it means a lot.
This kind of got out of hand. Idk, man. I just love them so much. Honestly, this episode made my hopes for Part 6 shoot waaayyyyy up, I really think the new arc's gonna be good. Or at least it's gonna be Lupin again (because idk what the first arc was, but it wasn't it.) God bless Shigeru Murakishi, the guy did his homework. (btw there's an interview of him on Lupin Central if you're interested)
#sorry for all the yelling i am slightly tipsy right now and that tends to annihilate whatever filter i have left when talking about my otp#yeah so in summary they are married and i love them so fucking much#lupin iii part 6#daisuke jigen#lupin iii
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This post from @crookedcryptid suggesting Dean and Castiel were canonically together from Dean's prayer confession on put a big stupid grin on my face, and then I went off and analyzed every episode that came afterward. So here you go?
Castiel’s in about every other episode from that point. And they are actually separated in the majority of the majority of the episodes, but the way they interact is just loving.
Episode by episode analysis under the cut.
At The Trap, Dean confesses to Castiel in his prayer how he really feels (but not like that at least not in Chuck's censured version that we see) while Eileen and Sam split up bc of Chuck. It's late revealed that Chuck sent Sam Eileen and Sent Cas & Dean to Purgatory so they'd lose hope. (Cas must have defied Chuck's plan yet again by stopping Dean from voicing his feelings bc that's the only explanation I have to make this make any sense. (x) )
After Dean's confession, the next episode immediately separates Cas & Dean but Dean pines after the domestic life like Garth has with his family, an alternative lifestyle Dean once saw as unacceptably evil. (x)
But then next episode Castiel goes and finds Jack and brings him home. Brings him home to Dean who does this. (See gif above that lives rent free in my mind /\)
He holds Jack’s face just like he did Ben’s. He looks into Jack’s eyes, one then the other, as if to verify that it’s really him. Then he looks from Jack to Castiel.
This dad moment. This neck hold and look to Castiel that simultaneously says, “you brought my son home to me” but also screams in Jensen’s headcanon that Dean used to look at Jack and see Lucifer but now he looks at him and sees Cas.
(Tho that shouldn’t be hard since they clearly cast their combined biological child.)
I’m obsessed with it. It haunt my dreams and inhabits my waking brain.
The fact that this is not before ‘The Trap’ but after is so important. They didn’t set it right between them artificially, by Cas bringing Jack home. Instead, they set it right between them and then they got their son back. Otherwise, it is the last piece of the puzzle to patch their relationship. Dean was envious of Garth’s family, and suddenly Dean has his back.
In Galaxy Brain Chuck’s screen shows a view of Dean and Cas sitting super closely huddled together at the kitchen table. (x) Is actually from an earlier episode. There’s also the dadliest dadstiel moment ever, with Castiel letting his god killing, resurrected, super powered, three-year-old win at connect four, which was not in the script, but added by Misha and Sp8. (x) When Sam and Cas disagree on Jack, Cas backs up Jack and Dean supports Cas over Sam. The husbands share a whiskey while reveling in how they brought Jack up right, “I knew it, Dean. When I was with Jack’s mother, she… You know, Kelly just had faith that Jack would be good for the world, and I felt it, too. I knew it. And then, when everything went wrong, and God took him from us… I was lost in a way I’ve never been before. Because I knew the story wasn’t over. I knew Jack wasn’t done. And I was right.” (Even if Dean’s a little too excited about using Jack as a weapon.) (Maybe this line explains what's been up with the Hellers these past 6 months yall.)
This is huge, because Dean was destroyed at the end of last season, imo, bc his idea of Jack was destroyed and he felt the need to cut himself off from all thoughts that he could have that family. (x)
Cas also wordlessly goes into Dean’s backpack in a moment of routine casual intimacy.
Destiny’s Child & Dean calling Cas an idiot for risking his life yet again- not knowing that Cas felt secure in the knowledge that he wouldn't die bc of his deal. Dean was legit scared to lose him again. (oh no my heart). With that extra knowledge Cas had it's exactly the kind of thing Dean would do. Dean's done this exact thing before both when he was, and was not, suicidal. (S13, S6) They get Jack’s soul back, but first the classic “oh no my child has ingested something”.
Last Holiday- No Cas. 😒
Gimme Shelter - Our boys are separated yet again - Castiel talks to Paster Sexy (recast doctor sexy) who says it’s okay to be gay. We get a lot of charming Cas with Jack moments. Something happens in this episode, it happens off-screen and it's something we've basically have never seen in this series. Jack tells Castiel that he expects to die to defeat Chuck and rather than fall into the pattern we've seen every single season, Castiel immediately tells Dean what is going on, immediately tells Dean everything he needs to know to protect Jack.
Drag me Away From You (ugh oh no and they will) - No Cas
Unity - end of the warm wuvy dov.
Dean lets Jack think he isn’t family. Sam discovers that if they let Jack kill Chuck that Billie will kill Eileen, anyone from another dimension or resurrected and Dean. Looks. At. Cas. (x) The fear in his eyes.
By this point Dean is unhinged. He’s back to the beginning of the season when he was afraid that all of this was Chuck’s control rather than a real relationship between them. This should have been an ‘absolution’ moment for Jack, the one Castiel says here that Jack doesn’t need from anyone but himself. The closest we get to confirmation that Cas has learned that lesson himself. (x) Dean was so destroyed after his idea of Jack died that it split up his marriage … I mean…. Dean already chose Jack’s life once, even after Mary. Dean is choosing him over using him as a weapon to kill Chuck is huge considering how spun out Dean was by this point. I’m convinced that without Cas being there Dean would not have stopped, and might have let Jack sacrifice himself, might have shot Sam giving Chuck his ending.
I’m also convinced that Chuck designed The Trap to have Cas die 8 episodes ago. (x) That Dean was never supposed to have this post trap period with him. So that he would be hopeless just like he was in episode 19. That was in the version Chuck wrote back in episode 4. Without Cas, Chuck would have gotten his ending. (x) Woof there is a sentence that hurts in 15x20
18 - skipping this winchester main pain for the mo-
So this all got me thinking about Dean’s face after Cas says he loves him, the little choked up headshake, like maybe that’s just verbal confirmation of something he, on some level, already knew. (x)
I haven’t hit 15 in my rewatch yet and I’m sure I will find new a different things to piss me tf off when I do.
Morning erybody?
#deancas meta#destiel season 15#season 15 breakdown#dean was always bi#deancas#spn rewatch#destiel#dean winchester#dragging dean winchester out of the closet#spn#spn meta#original content#spn feels#15x09#15x11#15x12#15x13#15x15
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Never Have I ever S2
SPOILERS.....Turn back now I’m serious.
I’m waiting....
Okay cool your fault at this point
I was fairly critical of NHIE S1, I won’t lie. And I’ll be real I still stand by the fact that NHIE S1 was fairly meh overall.
But holy shit, they knocked this season outta the world man. The show really really found its proper footing this season. They were smart to keep the cheating for only two episodes and explore the repercussion for the other 8.
1.Devi Vishwakumar.
Let’s start with the main character. Devi still does immensely fucked up shit this season. Dating two boys and have them find out in the MOST humiliating way possible. Yikes. Being a really sucky friend to Aneesa and starting that rumour about her (inadvertently) and pretending to her. Stalking her mother and being possessive of her. The really awful apology that was pretty self centred, a bit not good.
But she really does do her best to improve and I am SO proud of that. She uses her father’s advice and apologizes better to Aneesa, she actually handled the Ben and Aneesa dating WAAAAY better than I’ve seen some people handle things like that. I might’ve blown a fuse if two of my friends had 4 tickle fights and had major PDA sessions when we were trying to do a group project. Like she handled that shit fairly well all things considered. Devi actually gets into the beginnings of delving into her trauma and her temporary paralysis and healing from it. I
really see how the label ‘crazy’ weighs on her and how she blew up with it and the message of destigmatizing mental illness. (Crazy Aneesa and Crazy Devi) Her properly bonding with her mother and watching videos of her father and remembering/honouring his memory hit REALLY HARD (since I lost many people in my family recently and that fear of forgetting them has been real). Devi is actually beginning to heal from the loss of her father by strengthening the relationship with her Amma. And the slap from Paati was so so needed, it really gave her a better respect of her mother and fixed the problem I had with Devi mouthing off so much to her Amma. I live to see good maamiyar marumagal relationships. Her relationship with Paxton is really good and it gets developed very logically and having her be scared of being pathetic but in the end she accepted her own self worth and stopped chasing after them which was good.
Overall Devi really blossomed into her own developing person and I actually like her so much more this season.
2. Paxton Hall Yoshida
I was honestly, like genuinely sad last season he was like 80% eye candy with not much else going for him. Paxton had so much faith as a character and Ms Kaling has really pulled him into such a better person this season.
Paxton got hit by a car before swim season, lost his ticket to college and wow, got two timed by a girl he liked all in two episodes. If he was salty about that for more than one season I would’ve completely accepted it. Cause that’s a bad public humiliation.
Paxton episode really really made me love him as a character (honestly more so than Ben) I think because I heard Paxton’s entire worry and irritation that he was being underestimated and no one really expected him to go to college from a friend of mine not more than a month ago. That shit is real, and it hurted my friends a lot that people were really underestimating them and just seeing them as a dumb athlete who has no hope of college. It’s really nice to see Paxton actually want to go to college and learn Japanese American side with his Oji-chan giving him advice and supporting him. And him bringing his grandfather to speak about the internment camps, that seriously do not get spoken about enough.
Also him putting effort and making a genuine effort to work hard and bring up his grades with Devi and therefore bonding with her was really nice to see. I wouldn’t mind them being endgame but Devi does really work a lot better as his pushy Indian mom/best friend/tutor. And Devi getting mad at him for him expecting him to hold his hand throughout really hit well. Was it deserved yeah. But Devi also did blow him off after promising him to study so his anger is justified there. I’m just kinda vibing with Paxton like coming up and taking a better interest in school and being a full 3D character. And that one scene where he gives the extra credit presentation and Trent high fives the man. Classic.
Can I also just say, it’s kinda valid that Paxton didn’t want to date her in public. Is it a dick move...yeah? But he’s within his rights to ask and she’s within her rights to deny. And he didn’t press her once she said no, he went along with it. And what Devi pulled on him is awful, and speaking as someone who’s seen popular kid cliques. Reputation really is important. Like what Devi did made Paxton lose face, if he gets back with Devi he ain’t gonna have any respect left in him. And Paxton was pretty right in deciding to not date her publicly, like even in the end he knows that his reputation is shot for what he did. Do we even know if Paxton has friends that aren’t fixated on his social status? Because becoming a social pariah without having any support of friends is gonna hurt like a bitch. Lord knows how Paxton gonna deal with it. I think Trent might be his only homie after the social downfall he will inevitably face.
I’m just gonna say, Paxton is my favourite now and I’m really rooting for him. Something I decidedly did not do last season. I’m happy Ms Kaling developed him so much and got me interested.
3. Ben Gross
Ah. Ben. Ben’s not my faaavouriteee.......like he’s fine. But I don’t love him. I can definitely see him and Devi becoming an almost endgame couple though. Especially with S2 ending.
Ben is fine and he’s pretty developed, especially with his episode in S1 and it was good he took a backseat this season and let everyone else star. I feel like he’ll come back strong next season though.
Personally do I ship him with Devi? No. I’ve been in a friendship with the similar competitive dynamic as Ben and Devi. And it was terrible. We loved to argue and we got each other’s super brainy side as Devi puts it. But we pushed each other faar too much and even the small things became arguments and each pthers achievements became jealousy. So yeah....I don’t have too much faith in the dynamic due to personal bias, but I’d love to see how it gets handled.
Also my brother Ben, PDA is a thing and it is common courtesy to refrain from it. Man’s really going at it with Aneesa half the time. But also the moment where Aneesa sort of choked on the presentation and Ben’s irritation at it gave me BAAAD vibes. It feels like while Devi can match him, they might push each other too far,
4. Kamala
I LOVE KAMALA. Girl is an ENTIRE vibe. My sweetheart, love of my life. I could go on. I really like her development as well and the banter between her and Nalini. The part where Nalini practically said she looked like a call girl and she was like ippadi potathaan velaila mariyaatha kidaikum. I legit had to pause, scream in laughter for a good few seconds.
They had such a good story with her and wanting to fight against the fact that they took her work and didn’t credit her and everyone was telling her to like take it bowing. Prasanth’s advice unfortunately checked out to me, because I’ve been told that all my life. My dad says it a lot and I know he doesn’t say it cause’ he doesn’t believe in me, but he loves me and wants my life to be easier and for me to succeed and his experience is that he’s had to deal with things like this and fighting won’t help. So yeah, what Prasanth said did not rub me the wrong way at all and I agreed with it and I’m fairly disappointed about that. I get that she got nervous and had cold feet about marriage but I do hope she and Prasanth can work this out through communication. Because I really don’t feel like Prasanth is the bad guy here. It’s just a miscommunication.
So yeah, a LOT of Kamala’s storyline continues to really hit me hard.
5. Nalini Vishwakumar
Nalini really had so much more screentime to blossom. I love that she has a good relationship with Mohan’s amma. It’s wonderful and I love it. Also I was shocked to see the house in Chennai. Like this house...in Chennai. The Chennai I’m used to and the Chennai they are used to are different Chennai’s. Basically wealth gap is crazy as hell and I was lowkey highkey confused if the actually shot this shit in Chennai. But props to the directors for putting some proper Tamil vibes in there. Like the scene where they kaala thottu kumbudurathu (touch the elder’s feet) before they leave for the US is so real and so vibes. I like that they decided to bring paati back. I was like hoping for it.
Also they really went at developing Nalini’s character as a workaholic mom who doesn’t get her daughter. That’s also a really common thing in Indian households with one working parent so I’m happy they portrayed that. I’m happy Nalini actually has a life outside her family portrayed and is still such a typical mother that it hits HARD. I love Nalini and she really developed as a character dealing with grief from Mohan’s death, the wish to move on with Dr.Jackson but knowing that she isn’t ready yet.
They gave her character a life and proper working outside Devi and it really has shown to develop her character and impact her relationship with Devi. The advice to “just say yes” works with cousins and younger siblings as well, I’ve heard it before and used it..and it saves so much time. Especially with small children.
(A memory I have is of my younger cousin going on and on about a princess and a castle and fighting a dragon and the witches and so much fantasy shit and ended with do you wanna come? I just clocked off my CCA’s and I had no energy left to question it so I just went yeah sure. Easiest decision, and 10/10 advice. )
6. Aneesa
I’m not gonna lie. I was skeptical of Aneesa and I didn’t like how Devi saw her in the trailer. But Aneesa reminds me so much of me....and its killing me.
Also the scene where she charms the hell out of Nalini and paati ma has literally happened to me before. Most of my Indian friends hate it..because I was raised with a lot more traditional manners with my grandparents so me and my siblings all are old fashioned which parents LOVE. And I really saw that Aneesa charming them and Devi also realizing, Damn none of my friends actually treat my family the way they should be treated, perks of having an Indian friend.
Also the scene where she gets Devi out of trouble is so so real. Because if you have one responsible friend that you parents trust, you could lie the hell to them, get you homie to back you up and it will work. Personal experience. So yeah, Aneesa character resonated with me a lot.
I also like that she wasn’t just a popular 1D Indian girl but she was genuinely cool and actually had proper issues and development where she gets more open to Sherman Oaks and actually kinda properly rebels against Noor, with having Ben as a boyfriend.
I feel like Aneesa has a lot more potential for growth, especially with the relationship with Ms Noor and Aneesa acting as a foil to Nalini and Devi’s. Also, I feel like Aneesa can grow within her social status at school as well and have Devi maturely handle it. Aneesa I feel will really really challenge Devi’s ability to be mature.
7. Eleanor and Fabiola’s plotlines
Okay like actually, major props to Ms Kaling man. This show touches so so many teen issues in one goddamn show. Emotionally manipulative relationships. So SO good. A lot of newer age relationships have a much more subtle and dangerous line of abuse that’s hard to find out. Like honestly it took me a while to see it as well and I realized oh fuck. oh fuck...I see it it’s bad. They really got the essence of Eleanor’s flamboyance matching with Malcom? (is it Malcolm..fuck it it’s Malcolm now) his “suaveness” and traditionally charming tendency. It made sense and it’s very realistic how Eleanor got played like a damn fiddle. I also again feel that the make up was faar to quick but I really appreciate that Eleanor got her own storyline with her step-mom and understanding of relationships instead of the show hyperfocusing on just Devi. I respect that a lot. Petition to get a Eleanor narration episode.
Fabiola’s storyline also was well taken. It’s an interesting added layer to the queer experience and how queerness can be expected to be performative and but really its all about being more of yourself. The idea that queer people don’t owe nobody anything or have to perform an ideal version of queerness and Fabiola struggling with that kinda hit. The part where they talked about her mother learning to support them and being Cricket? Queen/King. Like being trailblazers for the POC community and the LGBTQ+ community having overlapping struggles. Again, I liked that Fabiola was getting more personal screentime and less of her story revolving around Devi’s.
8. Everything else
I liked that there was more Tamil being casually thrown around. Like the Kamala vaadi to hold the suitcase down as they zipped it together was funny and relatable. The accents were really interesting because I promise you, I had no clue what they were saying sometimes. Nalini’s dialogues in Tamil were like immensely difficult to understand, and my Tamil is fluent. This isn’t a criticism... I’m fairly certain the difference is to do with the regional difference. American Tamil and Malaysian + rural Tamil slang are going to have huge accent differences so there’s no surprise that I found Nalini’s Tamil hard to understand.
I’m really really really meh about the Kamala and Manish/Mr Kulkarni thing. I still think she should sort it out with Prasanth maybe but I’m open to seeing where it goes. I might change my mind with it.
This show like any other show had its highs and lows. But I really really do feel that NHIE season 2 managed to truly figure out what the hell it wants to do and developed into a very strong and very entertaining show in terms of representation and diversity. I’m looking forward to season 3.
#nhie netflix#nhie season 2#nhie s2#nhie spoilers#nhie review#never have i ever#never have i ever season 2#never have i ever spoilers#i have a lot of thoughts#bear with me here
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I have a strange tendency to create alternate universes in which my favorite character has a dissociative identity disorder. In this case Hotch so imagine that due to the abuse at the hands of his father Hotch and Aaron are two different personalities hotch just stopped taking control once their father died and Aaron had control most of the time or at least That was until David Rossi told Hotch that he would be very useful in the FBI. the one who joined the FBI was Hotch not Aaron. Aaron is the loving husband and lawyer while Hotch is the serious and stoic FBI agent. I just have one question, how do you think the team would find out?
Anon, my sweet Anon— your brain is so amazing. Like, oh my goodness.
So I personally have not done any research whatsoever into DID, all I know is what I’ve seen in various media’s online (tiktok mostly- which I know isn’t a good place to get information but some people on there like to share their own DID experiences), and the couple of episodes of Criminal Minds where they explored it (however I have read that Tobias wasn’t a good example of it).
In a fictional sense, I could see this being executed really well on the show (or in a fic). Especially if nobody knows about the two different personalities (or even if only Rossi knows).
Hotch is this stoic, no nonsense unit chief. He’s a badass who takes care of his team, his family, and his “unit” (I’m not sure if everyone with DID calls their multiple personalities a unit but I have seen two different people call themselves that so… idk). He comes out when things get too overwhelming for Aaron to handle. When emotions and tensions are high, Hotch fronts to take care of things.
I can think of some perfect examples of this too! Like when Emily and Reid were trapped inside the church of that cult? And the governor showed up to try and regain control of the situation- Hotch just got in his face and told him off. “Those are my people,” type of attitude. The whole “sit down and shut up” scene in the Alaska episode too- ugh.
And then when the team needs a calm mind, a soft hand, a small smile to show that they’re doing the right thing- that they did okay- Aaron is there. He’s a father first, a friend second. He cares too much and his heart is too fragile.
I’d like to think there might be another personality in there, but with no name. The broken man who seeps through the cracks every once in a while, gripping that glass of whiskey as he sits alone in his apartment, staring at a photo on his desk of Haley. Someone who is there to deal with the emotions Aaron can’t handle. Someone to cry and scream and punch the wall so Aaron doesn’t have to feel the burden of Hotch’s failure as a husband and father.
Okay that got sad, whoops.
Gonna talk about the team finding out under the cut!
Also, I legit think is anyone found out it would be Reid first. Not because I’m a Hotchreid whore, I swear. I legit think that he would know what to look for after the Tobias incident, and it would kind of be an accident. He would be speaking with Hotch and notice the subtle shift in facial features, the faraway look in his eyes as Aaron fronts for a moment to check on his team. He’d take note of that, maybe store the info in the back of his mind. Then pay attention as it happens again. Eventually he’d find a safe place to speak with the man, alone, to ask about it as delicately as he can (once he has enough evidence on his side). Hotch would be reluctant to admit anything, but Aaron might feel a weird sort of relief that he has someone to share his secret with.
Over the years he might eventually feel safe enough to tell some people. Garcia first, because he knows she’d love and accept him no matter what. She promises not to tell his secret as she hugs him, burying her face into his shoulder and telling him how ungodly happy she is that he trusts her with something so big. (I can see her getting or making him some sort of gift, kinda like the reversible octopus toys? One side is for Hotch and the other is for Aaron. Aaron thinks it’s cute, Hotch feels weird about having a toy on his desk lol).
When he tells Emily she just smiles and places her hand on his. She doesn’t really say anything, but she kind of insinuates that she knew. Which, she might have. She’s been a spy, for crying out loud. That woman has seen shit, lol, and she’s observant. Unlike Reid, she just left Hotch alone about it. But she feels endlessly grateful that he feels safe enough to tell her (even if it’s 6-7 years after they met). Emily is the only one who can help him front who he needs (Hotch or Aaron) when in situations where it’s almost impossible (panic attacks for example). She learned trigger words on her own.
Hotch doesn’t tell Morgan, not with words. They’re at a bar after closing a case but before going home. It’s just the two of them, sitting at the high top and sipping from their beers, watching whatever sport is on the TV (not paying attention). Hotch let’s himself slip and Aaron fronts. Morgan watches the shift, the way his facial features relax a little, his eyes dazed for a moment before brightening up again. Aaron glances at him after that, and Morgan understands. He doesn’t say anything, just tips his beer and clinks it with Aaron’s. They don’t talk about it.
I honestly have no clue how JJ would find out, but I can imagine Garcia or Emily tells her. She’s kinda weirded out at first because she doesn’t understand (and her only experience with someone with DID almost killed her best friend). She’s wary around Hotch for a week or so, but eventually goes back to the way things were when she can see that he’s still the same person he’s always been.
And then Rossi just watches the team in the bullpen, laughing and goofing off, as he sips his coffee from his own office, and he smiles. Because Aaron is with them, leaning against Emily’s desk and pretending to be annoyed that they’re not doing their work. And Rossi is glad that Aaron has a family he can be himself around. That he can be both Hotch AND Aaron around.
#sarah replies#ask#anon#DID#Dissaociative identify disorder#multiple personalities#Aaron hotchner headcanon#Aaron hotchner#Hotch#Hotch vs Aaron#criminal minds#criminal minds fandom#this was cool to think about#thank you anon
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Crazy Love (2022) | 크레이지 러브
it's RANT TIME again
(Possible spoilers ahead if you haven't seen the episodes that are out, but I need to vent my frustration with the show & its writing)
The plot: Crazy Love tells the love story of Noh Go-jin (Kim Jae-wook), the CEO of GOTOP which is South Korea top math institute, pretending to have amnesia after receiving death threats, and Lee Shin-ah (Krystal Jung), Go-jin's introvert and quiet secretary, who doesn't have much time left. Shin-ah later pretends to be the fiancé of Go-jin knowing he has amnesia.
NOTE: These are my thoughts up to Episode 8, I might do a follow-up if things get better or (I hope not) worse.
I'm gonna start by saying, I actually like Lee Shin-ah as a character, the moment she told off Noh Go-jin at his house (onions and all) was epic (bonus points for the potatoes scene), I love all the scenes with her family and her best friend. I like her development as a whole, how she slowly accepted her "fate" and tried to make amends. The scenes with her father legit made me cry.
The fact the show went in the "wrong diagnosis" direction didn't shock me at all, though I still don't know how to feel about it (regarding her realizing stuff, the watcher being hit with the emotional aspect of it all and then Shin-ah being told: "oops, wrong patient, sorry, you're gonna live"). I generally avoid watching heartbreaking shows with sad endings, but I'm starting to think it might have worked for this one, instead of doing the obvious "ah, someone messed up", now you're in big trouble for thinking you're dy!ing.
What keeps truly bugging me is... Go-jin's character.
It's so infuriating how petty and annoying he acts like 98% of the time, 1% is flashbacks of his tragic past, the rest consist of poor attempts to show he "cares" and "feels a feeling". I'm so over tragic past being used as an excuse for douchey, abusive and unredeemable behaviour, especially when his "baggage" and current actions contradict themselves. So many characters have tragic backstories and they don't pull such childish moves.
Things that stuck out to me as contradictions or just being so frustrating:
Example 1: Go-jin tells the audience at a presentation that he has tragic past, how he almost died of hunger, how his grandma took care of him after he became an orphan ---> Go-jin proceeds to throw away food like it's a sport ---> us being shown how they had no food when he was young with g-ma ---> Go-jin throws away some more food (wanting to throw away potatoes because they'd make his ride to town uncomfy and "dirty" his car - pls, there was NO DIRT, you drama llama), then makes Shin-ah run around and cook for him multiple meals which he then gives up on without eating.
You'd think he would appreciate food more considering his childhood trauma, at least stop wasting perfectly fine food, ffs...
Example 2: Comparing global warming & Earth going to hell (animals dy!ng, people starving, temps raising with 1 degree) to HIS COFFEE being at the wrong temperature with 1 degree. Like please. There's narcissistic and then there is this...
Example 3: Go-jin seeming completely oblivious as to why people might want him dead, not realizing how he behaves takes a tow on all of his employees. At least have him be self-aware he's a douche.
Example 4: Go-jin sh!ts on Shin-ah efforts to become a teacher & humiliates her in front of an auditorium full of people when his ex literally met him when she was learning to become one too.
Example 5: Go-jin literally started as a cleaner, he worked hard to have a successful company, now that he's on top he doesn't greet the cleaning lady & doormen at his building and bullies Shin-ah for fun.
Example 6: Why he started to hate Shin-ah initially according to him (that was just wow...): she came to her first day of work and interrupted his READING. (like Lord, really dude, really?) He's so mad about it, he remembers the exact time down to the seconds. Psychotic much.
Example 7: Blackmailing Shin-ah into staying his secretary/being his housekeeper (*cough* slave) by threatening to make sure her hard-working father (a man that gave him his treasured potatoes and was nothing but nice to him) loses his farm, SAYING HOW HE'S OLD SO THAT STRESS MIGHT KILL HIM so she should warn him ahead of time. (but guys, he has tragic past...) Saying a father should pay for his daughter's faults. Telling her things would end bloody if she reveals he's faking everything while he plays detective.
Example 8: Dancing out of happiness he's bullying Shin-ah successfully (yeah, after #7 and 8, I don't care how much he's gonna end up "falling in love" with her, there should be a limit to the awfulness coming from a HERO).
Example 9: Go-jin realizing Shin-ah must have been scared after losing her mom when she was young. (shocker, dude, shocker) And how the parallels between his childhood and hers didn't make a difference in how he treats her so far.
Example 10: Blaming Shin-ah for him eating a ton of onions because he was too dedicated to playing detective and refused to break character.
I get they wanted to have a hero that's bossy, a perfectionist, yada yada. You can still write a character like that without making him as unlikable as possible and only throwing breadcrumbs of him "attempting" to not be a heartless weirdo.
*the amount of times I thought she should have given him more toilet water to drink. One glass doesn't seem enough of revenge after seeing the stuff he pulls later on.*
I had such high hopes for this drama, but I'm almost at my limit of seeing a hero use the heroine as his personal doormat 24/7.
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